t LI BRARY (!F ClMxI^E SS. i fUMTED STATICS OF AMERICA. f I X LIFE BELOW: IN SEVEN POEMS. LIFE BELOW: IN SEVEN POEMS. Jjy ^Ccrfc ^"a>v<2 M^ iLco^yrh/ffi^ii o NEW YORK: A PUBLISHED BY HURD AND HOUGHTON. CtamljriTiac' 3£libers(tjc ^ress. 1868. Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1868, by HuBD AND Houghton, in the Clerk's Office of the District Court for the Southern District of New York. To HIS PARENTS, WHOSE GENEROUS CONFIDENCE HAS ALLOWED THE AUTHOR MEANS TO CULTIVATE AND TIME TO RIPEN 2EJ)ese first fruits of ^rt, THEY ARE MOST AFFECTIONATELY DEDICATED. CONTENTS. PAGE The Scale : Do ........ i Choosing 5 Re 45 Daring 47 Mi 85 Doubting 87 Fa 121 Learning 123 Sol 161 Loving 163 La 199 Serving . 201 Si 247 Watching 249 Do .285 LIFE BELOW. THE SCALE; DO. » T PURPOSED to relate some tales of life X Which yet should be the tales of more than one, For they should be of soul-life, not of sense. Our deeds extern are transient. There is life, More than what smiles at home, and bends at church, And bows upon the street ; beneath things seen. Their unseen, constant, universal cause, The life, which good men hope shall be eternal. Express'd in act, forever flexible To circumstance, it still is lord of forms. As child, it starts to gain its choice: opposed, Retires ; then, planning wiser ways, anon It starts to do, anon shrinks back to think. Till alternating strife be call'd to rest With that Eternal Cause who thus allow'd Experience to apprehend and aid The onward course of universal gain. Of such life did I purpose to relate. Not all unmoved by consciousness of power, Relying still upon that Source which gave. And shall give greater, strength to all who strive With what they have." So spake the man of books. The village author, 'mid a little throng. At sunset gather'd, ere dispersing home, I ' 2 INTRODUCTION. To chat of news, around the blazing hearth That warm'd a small town's post-office and store. " Alas," he added then, " this ruthless war ! You know my scribe went last week, and that scribe Was versed in all notes of my earlier life From which I'd thought to frame these later tales. I could not keep him back, had gone myself But for this palsied hand ; and, yet, 'twas hard ! No healthy hand to loan in all the town — My work, you see, like yours, must wait for peace." " No ! " said the young store-clerk, *' there I protest : The business hours aside, this hand is yours." The words call'd forth his master : " Not too fast ! From dawn to dark 's enough for your slight frame ; That too with double work already, boy." — And thence a brisk discussion sprang apace. Till, in the end, each of the company Had vouch'd himself best fitted for a scribe. The old man smiled ; nor would accept, at first ; But last he said to waxing earnestness : *' This war, at least, shall yield to compromise ! My tales begin with youth, and end with age \ Haply, if my scribes fit these spheres of thought They'll aid the younger, and the older too. Let me select, according, then, to years ; And choose the boy first ! " So it was agreed : And furthermore ; that each, when he had written. Should read his part before a social club Form'd of those present and their families. Some time had pass'd ; and then the young store-clerk Seem'd taught in riddles, and in strange conceits ; And had grown well-nigh famous in the town. To those well versed his self-vague talk appear'd Like one's who'd rummaged not digesting parts Of rat-gnaw'd libraries. In after time. More wisely could the wise surmise its source. INTRO D UCTION. For he had raved of mystic numbers, thus : " Like to the seven days that mark the week, Of scales, men trace in music, stars and plants. And dream in heavens, hells, and worlds ; as tho' Nature herself had tallied what she'd made ; Seven stratas counting through the senseless rock, Seven forms in life, as many in each form. The last one man, in Nature's Sabbath-time, Living, perchance, seven spheres of history — All men, and each ! " — and one old carper 'd told : " As tho' a rock and spirit were alike ; " How " he'd said : ' man and nature had one life ! Augustine, Plato, and Pythagoras, Had they not deem'd the soul a number ? sphere ? — Tho' yet, who were full wise enough to read Down underneath rough angles and rude lines To methods mathematical, that speak. Like children's faces of the soul beneath, Deep traits of this divine philosophy ? ' " Thus did the youth pass for a clever lad. To make the girls laugh, and to bluff the boys, Long ere the evening came when his proud mother His neck-tie pinn'd, and kiss'd his cheek, and said : " Now dear, and don't forget — read loud enough ! " POEM FIRST. CHOOSING. LIFE hangs poised on slender moments ; all Eternity on Time ; And the still small voice betokens presence of a sway sublime. Tread, as light as dreams, may wake the soul's hush'd spontaneity. Rouse the source whence Thought and Action issue toward their destiny, — Toward the good, if moved by footsteps echoed from a path of weal ; Toward the ill, if slyly summon'd by the craft of baser zeal. It may be a sound, a fragrance, or a light, glides near the mind ; Something stirs a wish within us ; something gleams, we glance to find ; And we start ; and then press forward, past op- posing scenes of youth ; Past all life, perchance, till Old Age falls to spring the gates of Truth. 6 CHOOSING : II. Everything, in art or nature, robed in rich or rude attire, Gathers beauty by possessing power to prompt some pure desire. For the Will commands her own charms ; and, from wide-distracted throne. Waives all claim of rival suitors for a pure Desire alone. Thus, we find, a fairer fancy blooms in dear but distant views. Through which blind or banish'd poets search a dream of halo hues. Thus, we find, when Evening Shadows bend about the couch of Day, Life, array'd in fresh attraction, lies along the grow- ing gray. For the dim relief of objects woos our Wonder and Surmise, And the Sibyl Stars invite to solve the tale of silent Skies ; While the zest of Aspiration, as more sovereign plans evolve. Crowns the brow of meek Conjecture with the flush of bold resolve. III. Is it strange if, such an evening, through the smoul- dering lines of strife. Such an evening, far and hazy, loom the sweetest scene of life "i A POEM. 7 Is it strange if Memory, gazing through a wake of stormy . skies ; Or an older Mind recall it, clad in graver, wiser guise ? IV. Sunset waned ; and I sat watching, with sensations strange and wild. Till I grew a thing mysterious, and too grand to be a child. I was not of earth, or heaven, but was one with that mild light, Which had veil'd in awe the hills before the sacred steps of Night ; And, through all the clouds that floated, rose the forms of angels fair ; And I seem'd to feel their whisper in the warm breath of the air. Far adown the west I traced them, till their min- gling lines were brought Nigh a boundless mountain, gleaming o'er a peace- ful sea, I thought ; Where anon were purple islands, lax in languid Autumn-noon ; And, a-sail the azure distance, came in view the crescent moon. On her stilly course I linger'd, till, ^with joy and marvel great, I descried a wondrous city, glimmering past a golden gate ! 8 CHOOSING : V. Ah, it was a wondrous city, that bright city in the cloud ! How its towers and turrets glisten'd, with what wealth of light endow'd ! How the walls which coil'd around it glow'd adown their winding belt ! And how flash'd the dancing crystals, which about the bulwarks dwelt ! Underneath that sight, triumphant, stretch'd a tem- pest black along ; 'Twas a diapason, rolling, rich but rough, below a song ! For, above, in countless number, press'd the domes, and pierced the spires, — Domes, more pure than pearly altars, sanctified by Heaven-lit fires ! Domes, of form to rival dreaming ! domes, of every higher hue ! Join'd with spires from darkness pushing, till the peaks effulgence knew ! Spires, like prayers, from vapors struggling, gaining glory round the Bar ! Spires, like Hope, to falter never, till it touch the fated star ! Then, deep down — my gaze profaning — what retreats for bliss I found, 'Mid the weird-illumined mansions, and the peer- less streets around ! Streets, as shafts of light, far shooting, dying like the sun from view, A POEM. . J) Through a shade of forests, brilliant still by radiant fruit that grew ! Beauteous city ! how I loved it ! how forgot this present star ! There content, like him of Pisgah, with the prom- ise, tho' so far ! VI. When, at length, to self returning, my Desires grew mutinous ; And too rebel Meditation to their tocsin murmur'd thus : " Six years ; it is long to languish, with no teacher but my God, In these stolen hours of study, snatch'd from swine, and sweat, and sod. Wherefore was I left an orphan, and a ward, with- out a joy. To that sateless judge ? His Satan seem'd a better breed of boy ! I suppose — a frame so feeble — he had hopes that it would die ; And so bound me out as plowboy, to make friend- ship with the sky ! Bound to those with mood repulsive ; finding water for the fire ; Yes, a hiss for every spark that holds a glimmer- ing of desire ! Heaven above : one thing I pray for ; not release from toil and pain ; But the work that meets both cheerly, facing still a chance for gain. TO CHOOSING: Lead me toward those waiting regions, thick with thought, by man unknown, Fining space, from orb and orbit, through to glory round the Throne ; Lead me up, that I may find there, Hght which has not been possess'd ; Light, to guide Earth's wavering Faith ! a cynosure of certain rest ! VII. " Vain, oh, vain, this hope. Its cheer is hollow, as w^ere demon's mirth. This is weak — to sigh for Heaven when one 's made to scrape the Earth ! Better far to keep the level ; turn from hights suggesting lore ; — Wisdom makes the vulgar worthless ; — herd with brutes here, evermore ! Shall I ? Ears, no lie can lull you to that distant, holy strain ! Eyes, no lower gloss can dim you to the stars which o'er you reign ! Toil-worn Hands, right dainty fingers serve a soul less coarse than we ! Thorny Ways, the Palace carpet hugs no richer blood than ye ! Storms that rage, your rivals gather here beneath as restless brows ! And their thunders crave report from something else than grating plows ! A POEM. II VIII. " Oh, how oft, when I've been lying underneath the great oak-trees, Or mysterious stars of midnight, I have dream'd of endless ease ! And of that, divine, had visions, fill'd for compre- hension vast. So that mine, with utmost effort, caught but por- tions, as they pass'd ; Portions yet of charm so potent, that, renewing every main, Thought would still soar on to match them, and would soar, and soar in vain. Till, to its bewilder'd yearning, all things mixt, to merge in shade. Through which sank the train of grandeur, and the hope which found it fade. Woe of mortals ; to be grounded, 'mid the mists of one small sphere. While bright beacons, from high havens, throng the midnight, far and near ! Oh but soul ! in sight of Heaven, favoring winds cannot forsake ! Life — it moves, in tardy progress, tho' so slowly grow its wake. Onward ! Oft some keener thinker, pressing through a myth, long sought. There reveals the flags of wisdom far along the line, of thought ! " 12 CHOOSING: IX. With emotions, ne'er allaying, I remain'd ; and watch'd that cloud. Till those living forms seem'd buried in a gently gather'd shroud. Yet, my gaze still rested on it : naught ! oh ! naught of good can die ! But, for changeful resurrection, sinks to rise, and purify ! Blessings grieve us, when they leave us ; but they leave no sunless gloom : Springs a new life of reflection : and more beau- teous thought to bloom. While enwrapt in contemplation, lo ! came suddenly a change ! All the width of western heaven drew apart, with flashing strange ! Whence pure Clouds in speed assembled, as if, thus, to screen from me Tens of thousand flames, which lit a passage — through Infinity ! Rapture then my brain bewilder'd ! Every thought to passion flew ! " Surely ! surely ! Celebration Brightness crowns with halo new ! It may be an angel greeting to some saint ! " — Then, lost in flight, Flits this whim, where lights another ! for behold ! a stranger sight ! Swift, from flash to flash augmenting, as a torrent seeks the sea. A POEM. 13 Streams that fire from out the distance, surging, surging nearer me ! Now, 'twas my whole spirit flutter'd. " Here's the World's last ransom brought ! Crampt ! how crampt these fleshly fetters I Yes, they burst ! they burst ! I thought. Near such end, the wish grew gentler, satisfied to wait a time ; Satisfied ; for that, which lured it, sent before a soothing chime. Sweet it was, with deeper sweetness, than our mor- tal breathing brings ; Speaking peace, profound and lasting, as the love, from which peace springs ; Full subduing all the being, in a spell, resistless found xA.s the wreck'd and sinking sailor feeling silence steal around ; Nor can memory retain it; better bid yon meadow nook Hold the whole great rain, which blest it, on its journey down the brook. X. Ay ! when men, who speak, directing toward a spring of healing truth. Toward a stimulant of beauty, pure to stay an endless youth. While attempting, falter, blunder, and, with sense dividing wide, Void of close and clear expression, end where almost all deride. 14 CHOOSING : Blame them not ! the case is human ! words with ease bear thoughts below, But they fail beneath the press of higher themes, which overflow ! Many guiding views beyond us loom but dimly understood : Many schemes are hatch'd to famish where our im- perfections brood. Oh ! how oft, e'en stirr'd to rescue dearest friend from threaten'd woe. Or to point him toward successes, we have yearn'd that wish to show ; When the lack of tact or temper has equipt advice amiss. Frail as Truth that leans and whispers hob-and- nob with Prejudice. And how often, as the sunshine, or the lightning blazed within. We would save a gleam of duty for the virtue of our kin, When, if brighter could reflect it, we, at least, were dull as night. Striving ever, failing ever, half our view to mirror right ! Foremost of Endowments precious ! Faith fails not, that can but feel ! Yet for Faith, how blest the mission, that can, too, the near reveal ! Station'd where, 'mid doubt and darkness. Thought, which moves through mystery. Longs to point to things alluring, longs to spy, what others see, A POEM. 15 There, with gifts from Heaven enkindled, flashing Hght to Teaching's aid, And, for anxious Quest, disclosing Truth that Uves beyond the shade ! XL This for preface : That remember'd somehow thus, in measures, ran : Varied aye to changeful music, not restricted by the plan : But each single voice swell'd freest ; either past all discord sweet ; Or with depth, below disturbing, tuned to harmony complete. Thus the words : and seem'd to purport praise to One of Sovereign Might, Recognized by eager senses as the Royal Source of Light: XII. " Hail ! hail ! hail ! Eternal Glory, hail ! Ye powers of right, attend the Light, With praise for every ray ! All, all were blight, and no delight, Without that blissful sway ! Before 'd begun a star or sun. High Splendor fill'd the Throne, When, ere the birth of air or earth, Jehovah lived alone. Gleam ! gleam ! gleam ! And ever brighter beam ! Far, far away, through endless day. Invoke the growing theme ! 1 6 CHOOSING: j " Hail ! hail ! hail ! | Infinite Goodness, hail ! | From Heavenly hight, through day, through night, I Down, down to deepest Hell ; ; From central Throne to vacant zone, Thy radiant Mandates dwell. Move forth in might, where all is bright ! And cheer, where sometimes shade ! ] In weeping sphere, the rainbow rear ! \ Then, pierce to darker glade ! i Shine ! shine ! shine ! i The universe is thine ! ] Through blackest Hell, burst, full and fell, j Like lightning, flame divine ! \ I "Hail! hail! hail! I Almighty Power, hail ! i At thy command, 'mid blazing grand, | t The holy army hies ; j With flash of worth about the earth, ] Pursuing lust and lies. -i Through wind, and wave, and crystal cave, \ They charge, in far control ; And, marshall'd round, with thunder sound, The Tempest tongues enroll. i Wail ! wail ! wail ! Ye powers of darkness quail ! No respite till the Wrong is still. And Foulness found — to fail ! \ 1 "Hail! hail! hail! ; Unchanging Promise, hail ! \ O'er storms and jars, the flickering stars \ Burn on, our long fear through. \ Aurora lights her giddy hights. The comet cleaves the blue. On sand and sea the Shadows flee. Awaking winks the Dew. " A POEM. 17 The morn is nigh. The breeze is high. Far break the Fogs anew ! Speed ! speed ! speed ! And gild the gloomy mead ! Through every clime call up the prime Of holy Creed and Deed ! " XIII. Ere the Echoes, far excited, learn'd the tones of half the lay, I descried the choir that chanted, treading down their starry way : — Such a sight, as all have witness'd, roused by Morn's first Herald-Gleam, Floating up the edge of slumber, in a just awaking dream — Angel forms, no man could number, stretching on- ward through the light. Round a chariot, framed of splendor, drawn by steeds of wavering white. Soft of step, which skipt the vapors ; and with wings of texture rare. Whence there throbb'd a murmur'd music, as they lightly struck the air. In the chariot sat a Being, fair, beyond the reach of rhyme. Fledged for dauntless flight of fancy, to recall the mien sublime. XIV. While I kneel'd, entranced, she reach'd me, then, as angel bands disperse, 1 8 CHOOSING: With a low command, so love-full it could lull the universe, " Come," said she, " and sit beside me." And I rose, I wis not how. And within the place was seated. I had not known bliss till now ! 'Thwart the earth, and through the vapors, over land and lake it springs. With a swift but gentle motion, marshall'd on by beating wings ; Till, through long horizons pulsing, flash'd and pass'd us beacon gleams. And uncertain forms of twilight, floating storm- toss 'd lightning streams. XV. Then, full much, I long'd to ask her, where we were, how far my home ; But while yet I dared not, kindly, knowing whither thought did roam. She replied : " My child, that homestead, it is fixt within a star ! We have left the bounds of matter, here is burst each prison bar. Out from which, with straiten'd senses, and a sad- dening sway of strife. Souls, like convicts, through their grating, steal a luring glimpse of life. Here are regions, where the spirit, freed from fet- tering time and space, Wings her flight through scenes eternal ; reading thought as face reads face 5 A POEM^ 19 Gaining wisdom from the wise, who wonder with sincerity, Pure, beyond the darkening mien that decks an ill supremacy. In the world, brains mould to bodies, but across the border line. Royal minds must share their purple : slaves with kings become divine. XVI. " Oh ! if but one spirit vision flared to reach the groping man, In one glance were comprehended more than life- long search can scan ! — Soft, my steeds. — The stars are slumbering. There are dreams afloat to-night. Gaze, and gain, while passing through them, seg- ments of angelic sight ! Circle these with all bright fancies, forged in all these burning spheres. From Arcturus, past Orion, far as where the Cross uprears ; Conjure clear as minds that muse them, diverse as their interest ; Add completed recollection ; and all thoughts that each suggest ; Then, conceive a saint's possession thus matured from hight to hight. Naught too full for God to render from resources infinite ! " 2Q CHOOSING : XVII. As she spoke, along the gloaming, there appear'd what seem'd a grove. Shading maddest mixtures, thronging back through labyrinths unwove ! Fountains, arbors, caves and mountains, wolds and wildernesses grand. Hung to wild fantastic fortunes o'er a dizzy dearth of land ; Based on clouds, all diamond-dappled, emerald meads and mottled meres, Spann'd by bounding balustrades, which mesh'd the loops of spray-shot piers ; Trees, heaven-high, where swung blithe moonbeams rock'd as on Behemoth's bed ; Velvet fields, with tender grasses humbled 'neath a fairy's tread ; Flowers and fruit, which flush'd and nodded where alternate Autumn-sheen, Like a flood of amber, whelm'd thick twilight-tan- gled evergreen ; Houses, gardens, tombs and temples, flags and fleets, and, round them swept, Masses, mazes of inventions, every whim, e'er wrought or wept ; Birds and beasts, all shapes, all sizes, dancing, dozing, clamoring, shy, Strown, as if on waves of vapors, shored afar in searchless sky ! A POEM. 2f XVIII. Soon she named, about the forest, forms : — some boldly faced, some fled — Snow-white Nixies, with pink Pixies, pilfer 'd from lone baby bed : Jinn and Shedeem, mask'd and capering, wild as clowns in circus rings : Peris, giddy with full fragrance, flirting down on dove-like wings : Then, below them, Neck and Kelpie, match'd to deluge plump Storm-Karl : Drakes, a-see-saw rill-rockt lilies, dodging from the Merman's snarl : Drunk Leprechaun, dash'd for brogue, and tussling with each huger swell. As he split the laughing waters in a love-warpt fairy-bell : On the ledges Dwarfs a-droning, and, seduced from secret cave, Duergar, the little scamp, with mien as scrimpt as gold he gave ! Deevs, beneath thick horns and eyebrows, envying Korred's shaggy head : Ruths, and Throlls, and Trows, in gray green, tossing pigmy caps of red : Greeting shrunken sly Hobgoblins, hitch'd to half the cellar's ware : Danish Nis, and Gallic Latin, all of Bedlam crowd- ing there : Brownie, brave by plaid and thistle ! Cobalt, bloom- ing big with beer ! 22 CHOOSING: Braggart snobs, astride a lion — whelp, you'd know, of some new peer ! And the Elves, like wintry smoke, a-wheel to Hog- folk's low refrain ; Or, detected, swiftly skulking toward the bolstering leaves amain ! XIX. But I turn'd to stranger marvel: — just beyond my finger's end, Lilted near the weest wonder that could bid the eyelids bend ! One might deem it a stray snow-flake, sliding down the thin star-rays : Truth reveal'd a cunning chariot, fill'd with cheery little fays ; And up through the shifting atoms of the air that lay between Oozed a tiny ditty, tuning from within its sheeny screen. XX. " To-night, to-night, my fairies white, We'll rig a jolly spree ! But first a tune to tease the Moon — She's pointing there you see ! Ho ! ho ! who'd own that dewy throne, Or tent the spider weaves ? Ho ! ho ! who'd go where roses grow, Or romp the springy leaves ? Her tinsel Tags may flirt and play, Till all the calyx crush away ! Who cares ? — I dont ! — Do you ? A POEM. 23 " But there's a maid whom Love has laid — Ha ! ha ! a dainty bit ! — Aboard a dream, with brain a-scream ! Queen Mab 's a wicked wit ! Come ! come ! a jump ! and land a-thump ! To dance about her heart ! 'Twill beat and beat ; ha ! ha ! how sweet ! My soles are all a-smart ! We'll tickle her neck, and tickle her toes, And tickle her little lips under her nose ! — Who cares ? — I don't ! — Do you ? " That mourner grim, we'll bother him. He tugs too stiff a brow ! We'll whiz and whiz about his phiz, And twit the mouth, I vow : Then hide and seek in hair so sleek, And down the wrinkles spare ; And ply his eye, if dry, too dry. And slide the lashes there ; And when big drops begin to flow, How we will dodge the flood, oh ho ! Who cares ? — I don't ! — Do you ? " Hurrah ! for peep of Earth asleep ! We'll twist things, ere we're flown ! The sire shall be a baby wee : The lass a lad alone : The parson mad : the plagued a-glad : The beaus a balky team : And when they wake, oh ! how they'll shake To find it all a dream ! They'll think of wind, and fly, and flea ; But not of you ! and not of me ! Who cares ? — I don't ! — Do you ? " 24 CHOOSING: XXI. Charm'd to hear, i bent me nearer ; but, dismay ! off dodged the toy, Shaken, Hke a note of laughter, down the stiffening breath of joy. "Cruel thing!" cried I, provoked then: "Witchery of condensed delight ! Big Earth all too weak to find it, what an insult to the sight ! " XXII. Soon I mused : this whole odd \dsion might be an imagined one : Men had deem'd full half life's fabric, forms, by fever'd Fancy spun. " Are all vain," at length I question'd ; " do men dream thus, year on year, See and hear, yet no real footsteps, naught to rouse the eye or ear } " " Men who live by sight," she answer'd, " doubt it ; but no doubt can sear Back of proof a live conviction, that some Spirit- world is near : And men feel it, all alone, and when the midnight hour is pass'd. And they feel it when uprightness bends before too pressing blast : Conscience ! 'tis- the soul's sensorium ; God reveal'd to consciousness : And remorse ! the sinner cringing from the touch of Holiness. A POEM. 25 XXIII. " There is One, the heart knows truly, nor has heard of Him alone. But of ranks, which grade all Being, upward toward the silent Throne, Powers ! — But they usurp no worship ! Evil only would parade Aught between the world's Creator and the smallest creature made. And the evil ? Ah ! remember, when men overcome through prayer. Not with flesh and blood they wrestle, but with powers which rule the air ! Helpt, far more than ofttimes conscious, by that Life which, all unseen. Whirls the star, and waves the sea, and works the most self-govern'd mien ; And can send, for rare communion, clothed in rai- ment all too white For the ken of mortal vision, those who force the fiend to flight." XXIV. We had left that field of fancy, and had reach'd a star-lit lawn. And beyond its nether borders, Vapors, pallid from near dawn. Cling about a crystal temple, rising from an ocean black. Pure and restful pledge of promise, past the moody waves' attack. 26 CHOOSING: Now we sail the mist-flung waters, cheer'd to watch where Clouds release, Pedestal and pediment, and then entablature and frieze. Darting 'neath high pearly pendants, and the great towers' jasper quoin, We alight at lofty steps, and ranks of gold-mail'd wardens join ; Who, in stately silence parting, 'twixt the long lines pass us on Toward the shimmering shields and sabres of a phantom garrison ; And the towering portico, a cliff of shafts, which far upheaves. Till the very heavens seem suspended from its lordly eaves, Drooping with thin starry mantle, deep below all mezzanine, Whence aspiring Clouds, exhausted, seek, with zest> the fretful Brine. XXV. At its base a sire with thin locks gray through many a distant year. Gazing 'neath the columns calmly, questions, as we venture near : " Who is this you bring, my sister, who is this ? Ah, yes ! I trace Restless eyes and flushing cheeks here ; yes, ah yes, an earthly face ! " " One more youth, whose aspiration, as I rode full high at eve, A POEM. 27 Craved for light ; and, aided hither, would not now the portal leave." "Aspiration," quoth he, mildly; "many a bitter, bitter Woe Is begot by Aspiration. There are easier paths below. He's the happy man who carries head not higher than his home, 'Tis right hard to stoop forever ! But I keep you from the Dome." XXVI. At his bid, then, two, approaching, quick equipt me as a knight : And they whisper'd, as they left me — " Faith alone can win the Light ! " When, at once, wide gates before us open'd, with a blaze of day. And disclosed a hall resplendent, sweeping through long leagues away : All about hung heavy incense, floating back to dim saloons, Where half-hidden lamps swung star-like round the base of rare cassoons : And dumb, caryatic figures, and chill columns, nude of wall. Filed far off, like mighty sentries waiting for a funeral. Through the clouds, which parted often, gleam'd, anon, mysterious bands : And, from plinth to giant groin, resounded then, in low demands : 28 CHOOSING: XXVII. " Come to the Love, that is coming now, Come from the world away ; Come to the source of joy, and bow, Bow to the sweetest sway : Love ! for the wish that earth deceives ; Love ! for the deed that goads and grieves ; Love ! for the Heaven the soul receives ; Love ! and woe will away. " Come to the Truth, that is coming now. Come from the world away ; Come to the source of right, and bow, Bow to the wisest sway : Truth ! for the thought that fails and fears ; Truth ! for the deed that lives all years ; Truth ! for the Heaven that ever cheers ; Truth ! and doubt will away. " Come to Love and the Truth, attend. Come where Life 's begun ; Whatever the source, whatever the end, Joy and the right are one. Love ! and the Truth shall brighter grow. Truth! and Love shall warmer glow. Love with Truth ! and the soul shall know Christ ! and the holy way. " Come to Love and the Truth, attend. Come where Life 's begun ; Whatever the source, whatever the end, Life and living are one ! Love ! with a zeal that ne'er can rest. Truth of the path that brings the best ! Love with Truth the home of the blest ! God ! and an endless day ! " A POEM. 29 XXVIII. As the anthem ceast, — ah ! music of such import has no death ! Evermore the tones refresh us, Hke a draft of angel breath ! — As it ceast, I sigh'd instinctive — "Would that I such bliss could share ! " When, behold, high, high uplifted, I was borne along the air, On, and on, with slippery swiftness, sliding still to swifter flight ; Where the tall, white columns stalk past, like gigantic ghosts of night ! Where the arches fall and heave up, like the soul of some lost Sea ! Where the lamps streak by, a-quiver ! — lines of morning on the lea ! Till came dawns of growing splendor ! jambs, which burn'd all nearer air ! Quick degrees of soft arresting ! and a broad ro- tunda there ! XXIX. Broad it was, and high, and builded, lavish of the wealth of space, — As all else had been, — a marvel, even in that won- drous place ! Such a sight Creation's Dawning saw, when, out infinity. Morning mists exhaled to mingle with the azure, that should be : so CHOOSING: Each diverse abaculus, as bright of gleam, as Chaos- mere ! Every torus pure and perfect, grand as embryonic sphere ! Then, with lines of earthly beaut}^, but recall'd to canonize, Pillars, rivalling resurrection, soar'd to meet resent- less skies. Far above, the fickle flutings merged in spectral capitals : And, within the shadowy volute, hover'd hosts of terminals ; Things of life or carved, I knew not, but, to my confused suspense, They were holy from high distance : and I bovv'd in reverence. XXX. Underneath the great dome's centre rose a form, most like a throne. With bright outlines scarce distinguish'd, for a Cloud reign'd there alone. And about its base an altar stretch'd, environing ; a mound. White ; and reach'd by steps stupendous, grown like coral from the ground. Toward the sides, where bulky panels sank to grasp, 'mid shifting smoke. Figures ! — whence 1 — what life, when carved, had loom'd to guide their sculptor's stroke ? Whose ? — that course disclosed, as if quick sight itself did petrify A POEM. 31 Forms of bliss, which bend and point for one who hardly yet can spy; Lands which lure to peerless grandeur o'er an ocean rough and bare ; Harbors near, whence crowds entice, past rocks and wrecks just hidden there ; Ruder seas still wrestled bravely, worn to weary calm awhile ; And a clear'd expanse of beauty greeting him who scans to smile ; Then low storms on harsh horizon, brooding woe with darkening frown ; And beyond, large heavenly mountains, where the tempests cringe adown ; — XXXI. Whose ? — But cloud fell covering these scenes : it was offspring of the fire Living on the shrine, and lighting all the dome ; nor then to tire ; Still unspent, I saw it press beyond through aisles, as bright as noon. Startling thence, from far retirement, many a strange seductive boon. Shapes on walls by Fresco fabled, myths reveal'd to reverent eyes ; — What chill marble had congeal'd, clear rills of thought from Paradise. Endless seem'd these aisles ! and countless ! built to meet, around the dome, Radiated light, far-glancing, like the dawn from ocean foam ! 32 CHOOSING: XXXII. Then came statement, that "The aisles, I watch'd with wish so masterless. Held high limners' recollections of the hosts of holiness ; Who, on earth, pursued right purpose ; follow'd, constant to the tomb j Enter'd that ; and thence, emerging, rested past all realms of doom. Truth had no one mould for virtue ; if I wish'd, I might select Any course, and might explore it : and, when dis- tant, could detect What awaits the one who trusts such, when, of meaner means bereft. Life is summon'd to move forward, with the Spirit only left." So directed, I walk'd onward, reason lambent by the glare Of designs, so dense and diverse, some I marvell'd should be there, For they seem'd too fraught with pleasure ; and I pass'd, without debate ; Sweet to 'mort exhaustion only are the drafts, which recreate. XXXIII. But, erelong, I came to opening, where a toilful wealth of walls Told of memory of marts ; and far-exalting council halls ; A POEM. 2t3 Where low throngs of coaches, winding 'neath wide elms toward mansions bold, And bow'd, venerating faces symbolized the worth of gold. *' Truth," thought I, " needs place to prosper ; and all earth obeys the voice, That commands earth's richest treasure : I will make the gold my choice." Qiiick as thinking this, I enter'd, and, a moment more, did stray Through a scene of wild enchantment ! it was Blessing's holiday ! But, beyond that, twilights gather'd ; sallow waned the painted joys ; ^Mid the shades gloom'd vice and sickness, coffins, ghosts, and gambling boys ! Rose a roar of floods before me I sight and sound for horror vied ! And I turn'd, a-shudder! nowhere, nowhere, now, was light to guide ! Far seduced thus from the altar, long I sought it, faint with fear, Ere I spied, then, pondering, wonder'd how it was I lost me here.? What all meant — first woe ? then darkness .-* and, so thinking, it did seem Death was blackness and a night, where earthly glitter does not dream. ■ XXXIV. Free from this, an aisle allured, so bright I could but make it mine ! 3 34 CHOOSING: There were books whence youth collected clean-cut precepts, line on line ; And, with pensive power embodied, life breathed in by Godlier men, Matter, magnetized by touch of nervy chisel, brush and pen. To my joy, the whitest statues lined the hall \ o'er each was crown Set with gems ; and these held light which shined the whole far space adown. " Here," cried I, " is what is wanted ! Why was I so blind before ? Here's the distance all illumined ! " and I hasten'd to explore. Grandly, then, the glowing statues rose along the lengthening aisle \ And dreams, wing'd as by their spirits, bore me past my years the while. Dreams of self, as ne'er forgotten, but in younger memory still Throned a living Recollection, sceptred o'er some future Will ! Life ! life ! life ! — deny it not, — we're made for Immortality ! Claims, which in the heart swell largest, look to longest destiny ! While I moved, unseen, the jewels stole and spent each other's light, Introducing dusk to darkness, dodging doubt to crawling night. Then cold mists arose embracing, and again the waters black A POEM. 35 Hiss'd behind the tired amazement, slowly stumbling toward the track. " Ah ! " sigh'd I, " those crowns ! — that brilliance burns but by a borrow'd might : Stars themselves could guide us never were the light less Infinite. All that brightness lost in wandering ! — there's but one source, whence it came. Arts ingenious catch and glance it, but the dia- mond's not the Flame ! " XXXV. This time, when I reach'd the great dome, I re- main'd somewhile doubt-bound. Pledged to lengthy test, ere trusting any hall, what- ever found ; But near by was place where many linger'd work- ing, and I thought That less lonely ; and I spied, too, those, far off, with lights, who wrought. So I paused and watch'd one, sketching what snug, slumbering Water dreams Of the noiseless Clouds, attending slender wants of suckling Streams : Flowers dependent, wait beside it : then mild vales of misty green Reach to tops of Heaven-high mountains : — there are some white shrouds between : — And, one side, where summer meadows melt to yield the golden grain, From full school-house, lads and maidens throng to aid tired farmer swain : 36 CHOOSING: Nigh to them are chariots waiting, and a sire from work cloth rise, Greeting Princes from far city, with diploma for the wise. " General learning ! honor'd labor ! here," said I, " is equity : Here truth ripens into duty — in the land, like nature, free ! And, as long as good lives, must live that which every joy foreran, Love humane ! too Godly high for slight of him whom God made man 1 " Where so many work'd I enter'd : they did lessen one by one. And upon the walls ? — Zeal crowding, hinted hatred ! strife begun ! Wrong that raged ! and track'd a better ! revo- lution, past reform ! Bringing sword ! flame ! smoke ! destruction ! and again light died in storm ! Deeply sad was my despair now : I could try no other aisle : But I sat me down and wept, to think that Love, too, could beguile. xxxvi. Yet, at last, my heart, still anxious, moved me one more course to seek ; And I turn'd first toward the altar, there, when courage dared to speak, Faintly questioning, " Oh, tell me, is there not some way all bright ? " A POEM. 37 " Yes," said One, " and they who find it, find what cannot end in bhght." Then, I thought, if in all reason be but one supe- rior Choice, Surely it could tarry never, summon'd by so kind a voice ! And, I cried, " Oh ! Being Blessed, if an endless home this be. Only breathe one word to aid me ; I will ever serve but Thee ! " xxxvii. He replied, then, " Are you kneeling ? well for those who kneel in youth. Self-reliance falls in failure, but the humbled rise with truth. Yet dream not for gleams of wisdom, lightening everything before : For advance of one still finite, there must still be waiting more. Only signals can be given, these attended, by-and- by, Through the pure, white air of heaven, shall emerge much mystery." XXXVIII. With these words an altar Server, at the glance of His desire. Brought a ring, where, like a brilliant, burn'd light from the Holy Fire, And upon my finger placed it, saying, " Everything's your own ! " 38 CHOOSING : Choose the way that seems the brightest ! choose and act — as all — alone ! " Nearest was the aisle of riches ; and, when far within, behold That which shades had render'd woeful ! 'twas the very Heaven of gold ! And the floods that I had fear'd so ! — waters at the temple's side Weirdly bright I with still more beauteous, near shores luring o'er their tide ! And the other aisles ? — their story was the same ! Ah me ! 'tis strange How the lights we carry with us make the scenes about us change ! XXXIX. After Truth, thus far discover'd, as I sought the shrine once more, Forms of glory gather'd round me, thousands there not seen before ! Bright they were to indistinctness ! and bright rai- ment gave they me : And within the folds were jewels it had dazzled Noon to see ! And my whole soul felt the nearness of that Love which lives with rest, Free of faith, and full of welcome, from communion of the Blest. Then, anon, I found me joining in desire, aroused awhile By far stars, whence souls untiring seek the limits which exile. A POEM. 39 Last, at sight of one just dawning, breathed a i thought of harmony. Sweet with all Love's Spirit-substance, melting forth \ to melody ! \ XL. ; " See, along the azure creeping, j See the World ! its ransom reaping, ; Leaving sinning, glory winning, ] Through the ever brightening way. - Oh for Bliss, the deeds of duty : Rival boldest boast of beauty ! . Onward wend : with steadfast spinning, ^ Learn to turn a perfect day. ■; Work cannot be dark for aye. j Woes but roll to roll away. *. " World of Faith, the years are dying. Wherein clouds about thee lying ' ■ Robe a wondrous waste of sighing, ' Empty throes of vain unrest. j Be life right, whate'er now bearing, i Right endures, when wrong is wearing : Right remains, when shrouds are tearing : j Faith receives a full bequest ; j Wrestles through its prayer for rest ; i Dwells with Good, a constant guest ! ; j " World of Hope, all power provoking, \ Reign of Light, all life invoking, \ Cheers thee on. Tho' gloom thy cloaking, 1 Girt it is with rainbow belt. Days, when sun and soil are blending, j Golden threads from heaven wending, j Knit a wealth of thought extending -i Round about for promise dealt. Night! it blest the soul who felt, 1 'Twas a star in which he knelt ! \ 3 40 CHOOSING: " World of Love, Heaven bends above thee Fear not clouds ; it can but love thee. Cherish'd child, if care is galling, Transient care is endless gain. Oh there's growth of fadeless power, Nursed by Vapors hour on hour ! Soon the time shall come, recalling No experience sent in vain. Fruit ! 'tis that which fills the plain When the stormy seasons wane ! " Onward World, move onward ever ! Love can be the loser never : Truth and Error soon shall sever : Onward press thy mission through ! Holy Deeds thy dangers lighten ! Holy Words thy wisdom righten ! Holy Scenes, they come to brighten ! Angel wings thy way pursue ! Powers Divine direct anew ! Peace is dawnins: down the blue ! " XLI. Round and round me swell 'd the chorus, like a spring to cleanse all space : Widest waves, it seem'd to lift me, down ! down ! down ! I fell apace. Then, while suddenly the prospect broaden'd out, one blazing sea, Startling into vague awaking, lo ! those dear delu- sions flee ! Modest Sleep, that mused so sweetly, 'neath that star-gemm'd canopy, Had been borne far down the west ; and, pledgv^d to ceaseless constancy. A POEM. 41 Follow'd Day, in burnish'd armor, and with suite, all worn by fight, Still to search, and search for ever for the shrink- ing forms of Night. " Yes ! 'tis dawn ! it's killed my dreaming ! " sigh'd I, as in dew and rill, All the van of early Sunbeams shot reflections from the hill. " But a dream ! " I moan'd. Then, rousing. Thought essay'd, as if to find Whither turn'd those phantom feet, that left such sunny track behind. XLII. And ! — oh blest frank trust of boyhood ! When the soul's young spring wells high ; When, within its depth is mirror'd life reflected from the sky ; Blest the faith in that life mirror'd, tho' from hight, one cannot scan ; Blest the faith, that, with corruption, man alloy'd, remains a man ! Yes ! if always strive His Spirit, till all floods o'er- whelm the clod. Infidelity to self is infidelity to God ! Perfidy to deeper nature, where, amid abounding ill. Love, the magnet strong for loving, finds some truth incarnate still ; Truth, diffused through high and humble, finitely for finite par ; Yielding each a part alone, however bright, whoe'er they are ! 42 CHOOSING : XLIII. And the whole ? — it would grow plainer, could contentious Zeal advance, Where impartial Wisdom questions e'en the portion of Romance. It may be, more right is gather'd through the glance, too wild of scheme, Than where stupid, prim Compliance nods and naps, without a dream. It may be, more right's imparted through the love, too free of trust. Than where mad Intolerance gags a pleading Doubt, with naught discust. Men, who rouse to revolution, choosing stop and key to press, Sweep their chords to swell a passion, pent in every consciousness. Men, who range for reformation, fail of victory, till they see Both the Truth array'd against them, and the Lie ! for Charity, First in logic, as in worship, leads the mind's triumphant train ! Follow Christ ! ere Aristotle ! sway the power be- low the brain ! XLIV. Earth is man's ; but Eden God's, which schemes that lost cannot restore : Stretch'd for gods, men dwarf to devils ! Time to trust to nature more ! A POEM. 43 Seek from friend and from opponent, truth obtain'd with candid eye, Pure philosophy, supported by some part, which each supply, Pillars this side, pillars that side, all for temple reared to God, Let it rise, till light from Heaven cap acquirements of the sod ! There, the saint and sage together, at the shrine of faith shall bend j And the boons of better living round the dimless dome extend. XLV. Truth is broad but man is finite. Wide as wish, the worldly call \ Wide as worlds, the cry for helpers, but one can- not turn to all. Love, when souls are truthful only, trusts for ray of Higher Light, Friend for worth, and foe for weakness, and its self, to prompt aright ! With the least light, what remaineth 1 If a twinkle for an aim. What but work despite disaster ? work, to save the wish from blame .? Perfect methods, sure of wisdom, no experience can attain : Faith, the source and sum of struggle, bringing failure, brings to gain : He, alone, can hope to prosper, who, to reach per- ceptions rare, 44 CHOOSING: A POEM. . Bravely girds, and ventures on, to be ! to do ! at least to dare ! XLVI. What was my work ? Toward the heaven morning clouds rose brightening there ; Toward the heaven, thought rose brightening, first to faith, and then to prayer ! Ere it ceast, the farm call sounded ; and I sprung, as oft of yore ; But, along the well-plow'd hillocks, moved a Power, unfelt before ; And the wayward Whims of boyhood eagerly flock'd round to scan, Where the Child, who dream'd at evening, went, at morn, to be the Man. RE. NEXT young among the voluntary scribes — Were one to judge by tones of voice alone — Was a born prince of all authority. Had he no right to it ? Oft would friends say That " if the boy could wait, gain gentleness, He might grow a wise gentleman ; besides. Force, force was something, and he had force now ; So if" — of course no joke, but then it pleased — That if — like Wisdom's best joke, all the town; Threw up his mother's head, his sweetheart's down. And tipt his rivals, like the winning yacht Just rounding, with a last lurch, at the goal. Still, stormy, thunder-lightning-zeal had he. Bursting like bustling winds that blow in spring. To fright, with death-white frost, life-color'd flowers, And wreck each sail that dare presume for aid. 'Tvvas said one fairly gasp'd to hear him read — His way to triumph ! once sway'd by that speed, Still faster endward each did wish he'd speed. All gave the self-pleased boy what you have seen, Taxt like their mirrors still and still to heed, Nice men give — asking naught from — girls, young too. POEM SECOND. DARING. LO, long and lonely, stretch'd o'er hill and ! dale, j Wrapt in her misty robe, reclines the Night ; ] No cloud, no leaf a-stir ; moon small and pale ; \ And stars scarce twinkling through the frosty \ light. . I Earth sleeps ; save that about the sea shore white i Weak Waves are whispering of some distant Gales ; \ And timid insects, bold where none affright, I Whose hearts out-beat their fear, lisp loving tales, J Secrets they dare not breathe while Sunbeams scout < the vales. \ .{ II. But hark ! 'mid stillness now a nervous tread j Steals on the dews, a-shiver through the grass. j What form, pursued by what presaging dread, i Speeds to escape this innocent morass ? ] It is a youth whose eager mien, alas, ] Bespeaks desire too deep for doubtful years. : 48 DARING: Anon he pauses, and through tiny glass Far backward scans ; then, tho' no life appears, Anon, with haste renew'd, hies from renewing fears. III. He flies from home ; not first nor last, I ween, Forsaking friends for Midnight's chill embrace : Not first nor last whom dawning day has seen A wanderer, stay'd by no familiar face. Say Homes bereaved ! can long years e'er dis- place The melancholy vacancy of hours When memory strays aback, with painful pace. Whither life bloom'd to promise such sweet flowers, Ere one harsh storm snapt off" the buds that blest your bowers ? IV. Ah sad to find the germ of love and care Grow but to sting the hand that Avould caress ! Still sadder the lone dearth of that despair No more retaining life it would redress ! Yet, here, one hope remains, — that, when some stress Of needful years provoke to earnest plan, A headstrong will, in youth so masterless, May rouse, with sovereign power to sway his clan, From mood with spirit high, inspiring strength for man. A POEM. 49 V. Think not a paltry purpose stirr'd the soul Of him now hastening o'er this dusky plain. His was a youth whence fancy spied a goal For good alone, that gleam'd and gleam'd amain Where fact each morn beheld each effort vain. For this, all else his spirit had resign'd, Deep-sworn the one bright object to attain, Through deeds of present life to bless mankind, And for the future leave a standard pure behind. VI. His was a state where freedom's dawn did bring With widening views of beauty, those of blight. There manhood reign'd ; and each, enthroned a king. Made wrong more wrong through more of over- sight ; A nation his, where race a race could slight. With ill in self, and in the things it brought ; For man is man, whatever hue or hight ; And long as laws allow free, truthful thought, 'Tis but through general good, a nation's can be wrought. VII. In such a land, Emancipation's need Had made unconscious of one other due Full many a wiser soul that moved to deed. The Slavery there — the ward of patriots too — They felt a foe, that bode his time, and grew : They sought not Statesmanship, with mouth to frame 4 50 DARING: The mob's ambition ; but that manhood true Which makes all brighter to reflect its name, Save the historic page, wide-shrunk beside the flame. VIII. The youth, scarce heeding where he was or went, Moved wildly on as thoughts that work'd his will ; As if, tho' meager means might soon be spent. Proud Hope could feel unborn successes thrill ; Till resting on the brow of higher hill. His face betokens that vain fears dispel ; And, gazing back, he stands a moment still ; But soon emotions, from full fountains swell ; And utter thence a fond and passionate farewell : IX. "Ye mountains, vales, and bays, and woods, and streams, — Oh never, never seem'd ye half so rare ! How beauteous each shall wake when morning gleams ! Yet I who love you so shall not be there ! But ne'er shall I forget the guise ye wear. So long as thought shall roam, or love be free. — Why are not souls proportionately fair 1 Ah, then, how fill'd with joy might all things be ? And then there were no need that ye should banish me ! " And yon hot hut, beside those stunted oaks. Long smothering all the dear desires of youth, A POEM. 51 Dream not I shall regret your yards and yokes Who go to harvest broader fields of truth ] A fiercer curse than ever comes, forsooth, When morning light reveals my vacant cell — Will one be sad ? — Ah William, is it ruth To leave you thus ? forgive me, 't is the spell Of strange sensations here ! yes, yes I must, fare- well ! " XI. Ask you, why I who write look up and seek The face which from the mirror glances down ? — This is not he who, fed by fancies' freak, Grew out the limits of his native town. About those lips and eyes a fickle clown Of hope was sporting : here, tired memories rest. That form bent not before stern Fortune's frown : Nor round that head had throng'd each ghostly guest — God grant white harbingers of crown not manifest ! XII. A few short years, how will their sun and storm Trail marks of change across the face and frame ; And what one vaguely deems himself, transform To second self, both friend and foe disclaim ! And, in the heart, how unmark'd calls for fame, Where once the young blood sprung at each fresh drum ! Those shifting thrills of hope and fear, how tame ! — Familiar throbs of life's old pendulum. Wound up to vibrate on till hope and fear be dumb. 52 DARING: XIII. A few short years, ah, steady, steady grown, The fickle brook has reach'd the level mead Where now, no more to boist'rous torrents thrown, The deeper current moves, with noiseless speed. And haply thus, altho' one may not heed Full springs that start through tides far underneath, Yet wide to further still maturer deed, More strong, tho' naught disturb its bordering heath, Life works on worthily the surface calm beneath. XIV. The boy — for man to term the boy's life " I " Appear'd now false, and even half profane : For sacred is that past he walks, where lie Lands bright with joy, and where all distant pain Flits, slight as shade, or beautifies, if lain The boy pass'd on ; and just as dawn began To sketch far east a rare autumnal plain, Along the road in front his eyes could scan A house, and barn, and fence, on which there lean'd a man, XV. A farmer, o'er whose broad and sun-served brows Brown Health had laid her consecrating hands ; With stalworth shoulders bent by Toil that bows As mindful aye of boons from generous lands ; With soul, ne'er swerved by scheme the loon commands. Smiling from all the face a welcome true. A POEM. 53 Through eyes attention wistfully expands, Unwont to choose from books a mystic clew And search the maze of self for phantoms ever new. XVI. He saw the youth ; and, while a whistled song Flew off from opening lips, he thus began : " Bright morning neighbor, judge it's pretty long, Your walk : you're plodding like a puritan. There must be something stirring in the van That it can further such unusual zest ? Where do you go ? — Don't know ? — Without a plan As well await the sunset in the west ? — Well, well I never question ; but you '11 stop ? and rest ? — XVII. " Good farm you say ? quite wise to think it is ! No better land in all this hemisphere. Grain grows so fast, one well-nigh hears it whiz ! I've somewhat changed about the crops this year, But on my side-hill lot, just over here. Where now these buckwheat buds puff out like leaven. Last fall the corn — I swear I speak sincere — Stood fifteen feet, as tho' the Dung had striven. Pelagian-like, to build green Babels up to Heaven ! XVIII. " Some breakfast ? Yes, of course. — But spare your cents, 54 DARING: I have n't much ; to that I welcome you, — Just ready. Early breakfasts save expense : — One's sooner through for work ; and eats less too." While seated at the board, with quick review Of those brave resolutions he had made, The boy, to cause of reformation true, Vow'd to commence at once to wield his blade : But thus his host repell'd each venture he essay'd : — XIX. " Free slaves ? lift masses ? — nonsense ! — For the schools I'd pay my taxes, yes ; but not sure still That men train working, and not talking, tools, Who ease of muscle and strain up of will. Better strong meat, like this. Pass up ; I'll fill Your plate again. — Then take more hash ? — I'd vow, My boy, they'd wean'd you on a sugar-pill ! This creature was the most fat, soft, sweet sow Whose furs e'er snugg'd the baby-worms. There, try that now. XX. " All men should learn ? — not as you state it, boy ; All men should learn enough to make them work. A little less may now and then annoy ; A little more makes lazy as a Turk. — No, I do not like radicals ! No jerk Can out-root all of evil in a trice : Wherever grain can ripen, weeds must lurk ; And some grow till the harvest. Take advice : Impatience cannot force these fruits of Paradise. — A POEM. 55 XXT. " Not philanthropic ? — pugh ! I tell the world : — * If they '11 leave me alone, then I'll leave them.' Last year, some city swells came out, and whirl'd Our country up-side down, with stratagem To rip a rattling railway through the hem Of my farm here ; tried to inflate the thing With long blown lies of cash. I said to them ' Do you pretend your nuisance wouldn't bring All else your big town hatches with its dingy wing ? XXII. " ' Disinterested friends ; this is a place For country rest : nor now, nor in next year, Do we intend its quiet to efface By buzz and bustle of your boasted sphere. Besides — altho', perchance, a trifle queer — We scarce propose to triple our expense Even for double gains of which we hear. — When our good wives turn'd chrysalids of sense To burst, town butterflies ! we'd rue the conse- quence ! XXIII. " ' And as for letters, news and active life, We've work'd these heaving hills enough, to know On farm one finds sufficient storm and strife. And life full fast, tho' you imagine, slow. Content to watch the seasons come and go, With each new sport and task by each one given ; 56 DARING: With hunt for summer, and with sleigh for snow, Match'd against smoky streets, all stench and Steven, We know, if out the world, we live much nearer Heaven ! ' XXIV. " Here ! help me finish this raspberry pie ; Right full of seeds ! — but seeds, where sown, may grow ? — To church ? — Yes always, when the clouds are high: I think as much of home and Bible tho.' — Not public-spirited? — Well, may be, no. But mark me, boy, one way to influence Is to improve one's own ! My thrift to show, I don't blackguard my neighbor's, o'er the fence, But make my place attract j and shame his differ- ence ! XXV. " But half the truth ? — What, going ? — Better rest ? Brows always knit grow wrinkled in their prime. Must ? — Then good-bye ; perhaps it may be best : But pardon one more word, — tho', at your time, I too had whims that I too thought sublime, — Don't be so bent to drive the older folk. If youth must hurry toward its wiser clime. Let it goad on the young. It cann't provoke Old heads, too long ago grown steady to their yoke ! A POEM. 57 XXVI. " Farewell : " — Then hastening out, and through the path, The guest soon disappear'd far down the way, Where stormy feelings, more in woe than wrath, Dash'd to wet eyes, weak tributes of dismay : — " Alas, poor Tongue ! and shall you ne'er convey Conviction for the deeds you would install? Where'er I'd rouse a soul that good have sway, Whose fault, when lo ! in answer to each call. Jeers stalk, whence I had hoped that Love would marshal all ! XXVII. " So was it on the farm : so is it here. But, on the farm, those brutal ways withstood Because too unkind, kind deeds to revere. But this man seem'd so kind ! " — thus did he brood. And who would not ? — Where good men slight our good There comes the worst test Faith can e'er out-pace. Well for the boy, doubt donn'd a mootish mood : — If one who loved but self and not the race. With so small thing to love, could wear so pleased a face ? XXVIII. And where was youth, in whose uncertain breast. When good and ill were wildly balancing, 58 DARING: Brave hope for best did not outweigh the rest? And thus ere long, from grief recovering, He grew quite sure that years more skill would bring : And that with other men, he would agree : This isolated farmer — no strange thing — Had schemes for good, no doubt, the same as he, But did not understand him ; no, it could not be. XXIX. So he trod lightly on : and, when, at noon. The shades were folding in each sheltering wing, He found beneath broad oaks a grateful boon, Five women dining round a sparkling spring. They offer food ; then, after pain'd throats swing In stiff suspense their tongues to bid him cheer. Thrill back to nature's gossip-caroling — Their Joseph, fy ! how qualm'd, how scared to hear What horrid, scandalous pit he'd dared to venture near ! XXX. Escaped this peril soon, he reach'd a town, One whence a railway stretch'd far toward the sea. He enter'd a long train, and sat him down. First nervous, then right wild with ecstasy ! The clatter timed old tunes ! The trees, whirl'd by And wheel'd far off, danced to the music's might ! As towns and crowds sped past so rapidly. A POEM. 59 Charm 'd half to sleep, he dream'd all work'd for right : And that all earth had grown so beautiful ! so bright ! XXXI. He was awaken'd out of reverie By two loud voices from the seat behind. He turn'd and faced a man, whose glancing eye Now beam'd, as tho' with love for all mankind ; Then changed its look, as wandering to find Regard for self, or thought to be repeal'd ; — With knowledge of the world and doubt com- bined Which gives to manners art, not all conceal'd ; To words, sound school'd to stay what should not be reveal'd. XXXII. Beside him sat another, all his face Sway'd by a courage bold to conquer care. His glasses, shifted oft with easy grace. Great coat, large pockets, and abundant hair Mark'd him — " physician," one whose sovereign air Rebukes the rage of fevers into rest. Whose brow can bear unmoved the anxious stare. While children wilder o'er his crowded chest j And how a silent pulse can tell which cure is best? XXXIII. The first one, from his conversation, seem'd Thought from commercial spheres to intimate : — 6o DARING : " I much regret our old friend should have deem'd His special calling now, to advocate These strange reform bills ; if he could but wait, His talents might prove par for any place In all the land. Discounting at this rate. Trust me, they '11 reach, ere long, a day of grace With every note of fame protested by the race." XXXIV. The other said : — to skip words harsh for rhyme — " All very true : a ventricle should not Out-act an auricle : there was a time. Place, ad captandum vulgus : this was what, In actu, made men : he never forgot His diagnosis, Medicinae D., Not D. D. : some, for instance, told a sot. Most dead, the truth ; to wholly kill : not he ; Nor thought a devil's tool could — delve respectably." XXXV. He paused to gaze upon the open eyes And mouth of the awed boy who sat before ; Increasing much the listener's surprise By questioning : what thoughts he held in store ? — Who blush'd and turn'd, but summon'd, o'er and o'er, Answer'd, at first, with timid, modest tone : " Perhaps he did not understand their lore • But, if he did, at least he dared to own But little could it please them if those thoughts were known." A POEM. 6 1 XXXVI. ' Gainst this, they both made protests, moved by which The boy much love for truth and freedom spoke. As ways waxt bold, the doctor seem'd to hitch His questioning thought with words, no sense could yoke, Altho' his comrade found full many a joke. Anon appear'd the purpose of the twain, In interchange of glance. Then patience broke. ' Tis test of brightest zeal, if quib profane. Back, like a mirror's flash, the insult flies again. XXXVII. "Had I not seen enough," he said, "to show Your vile hypocrisy without this test "^ Must you add dung to dirt, and foully grow Rank insult from filth, else too manifest? Yes, yes I was a fool, I own, to rest A confidence in men, too mean to know With what sublimer views those souls are blest Who look away from self! If self below Seem bright ! so does the devil ! brilliant as his woe ! " XXXVIII. His quivering mouth could hold no further word : Nor was there need : the two soon left the train. " A strange and saucy stripling ! " this he heard, Then he was left alone, alone with pain. They did not know how oft and oft amain Hot tears came seething from his boiling breast ; 62 DARING: Nor think how wit, wing'd warbling from one brain, May build on tender souls a loathsome nest. Pluck slowly dying leaves, and brood, o'er long unrest. XXXIX. Then too the young are true philosophers. For aye retaining all impartially To graft in thought and grow in characters. When learning sates a spare necessity, A man may deem his small advance a plea For crampt contentment with too little lore, Or fatted pride, wind-blown ere victory : But very few are children ever more, To trace with simple faith the wonders still before. XL. And he thus left — no words, however sad, Could speak his grief, nor any fancy show. What fathoms that wild source that can make mad ? What is it swamps the reason, when below Dark depths of fancy well to overflow } What latent power of grief impels them on ? When, 'midst fierce storm-clouds, ghosts of buried woe And future ill conjure, with features wan. Sensations too acute for thought to poise upon ? XLI. " I wonder if it be that yon pale star Shines now on those I love .'' " so mused he here : — A POEM. 67, " Those dear old faces ! — strange how dim they are ! And can it be they nevermore shall cheer ? — A fool was I, to let, without a tear, Such fruitless hope outweigh a bliss possess'd ! — And are they joyous there, tho' I'm not near ? Or do they weep with kindred woes oppress 'd ? Or is naught kindred now for this^ lone, shivering breast ? XLII. " On either side, I hear, 'mid nod and smile, From festive hearts, this ringing laughter bound — I'd rather be the wretch who, down the aisle. From coffin seal'd, cries — * murder ! ' to the sound Of his own requiem ! 'twere sweet compound To mine ! — who'd mourn for me ? for me, a pest ? Why all things shun me : — e'en this senseless ground. — How far away the chill night sears the west ! How very, very far mild Nature's mocking rest ! XLIII. " A tale, I've read, of one spared spar that bore A shipwreck'd sailor far from friendly lea, Nor heeded beacon-fires upon the shore That flared and fell while swell'd and sank the sea. Ah ! there be things leave Earth more direfully : — These woes that float back deathward through the brain Where storms that will not let the dying be 64 DARING: Surge up as tho' with new impulse of pain, To crack each shatter'd nerve, and burst each straining vein. XLIV. " Yet far, cold world, I love ! could I not show Some soul, that out its usual quest would veer, That they yield most to friends whose love can flow But for the few ? — Alas ! shall such appear ? Is desolation dear to lure them near ? Is woe so worthful, it can woo Delight ? — Oh God ! spare one, one chording voice ! — I hear Heaven's full of chords to diapason might Of love, with common base deep in the Infinite ! " XLV. The train had stopt : and out the crowd there came A youth who after many a bow and smile. And parting and return, to make the same, With curious eye came sauntering down the aisle. Then sat beside our wanderer. " Not much style Aboard ! " said he. " Confound my ears ! — A bore, A blasted bore, this tunnel ! I could file Two beauties past blear-eyed coquets, three score. Without such clatter ! — Why, what's up ? You're looking sore ? XLVI. " A little blue ? — that's up enough ! sky-high ! Felt so myself! Seen stars sometimes ! Why hide The cause ? Take the hide off. By my best eye A POEM. 65 To flay a folly slays it. A rawhide Peels a fool's thought, moults foolish ! Come, confide ? Naught like an airing, would you oust a moan." Our youth look'd longing toward his proffer'd guide. For those strange words had yet a friendly tone ; And, as he watch'd that face, he seem'd no more alone : XLVII. Besides, he had no great trusts to confide. So soon imparted them to this new friend. On whom not some but all appear'd to glide : Would God our older cares found such an end ! " That all your cash ? and bound to try a bend To New York ? Quite a crazy crook ! for what ? To make a man ? A project to commend At your size ! Not a fascinating sot That held you bound ! But let unfruitful topics rot : XLVIII. " I have a guardian — honor to whom due ! He guards what shops are paid, I, what they sell. This governor rules a school : that should suit you, — And a gazette, that shouldn't ! — funereal ! — Taste, Truth, both sacrificed to th' riff-raffs' hell ! Could you spell out goose-tracks of genus coy ; Stop up each sense ; without cold, snivel well, 5 66 DARING: So that to him like tone like slang convoy, He's seen so much of me, he'd have another boy." XLIX. Then added he of life in Baltimore, " In that right merry State of Maryland : — No Yankee-made strait-jackets to restore The souls gone mad from endless reprimand ! — i: All the best fun on earth their town could stand, Tho' 'ad made — for hens, with half-hatch'd hopes waylay'd — Black abolition speeches contraband — Don't frown, a slave's not such an ugly jade. And boy, my boy, you'll find there many a bright eyed maid." L. The boy had frown 'd ; but 't was the frown of dreams. When blinded sight shies from too dazzling light. For here up-gleam'd the acme of his schemes : — To know the South, and learning, learn ^ to write. It distanced hope he had not dared excite. He e'en forgets his mission while he bends To catch the wild details, so swift of flight. About that new-found home, and coming friends. While Fancy each strange form, a stranger halo lends. LI. He hears about the school ; " the queerest set Earth e'er had jarr'd together ; down from Pool — The pest of tutors, but the student's pet, A POEM. 67 Who works all day but never with the school, Gains discipline through zest and not through rule — Way down to Sims, whose ample pocket-toys Outweigh the brain, a fop and fawning fool. Dons vice by nature, doffs but when decoys. The beau of all the girls, the butt of all the boys."' Lir. Then of a matron : — " snarling, sharp, and slim : A thing best made to punch with ! topt by hue Of blood too ! with a gait as stiff and prim As stilts could give ! who eats with chronic — ' pshew ! ' Lest bad breath taint her — mirror ! for the shrew Has no friends : like a caged beast's sentinel, Pokes ujD all day a snarling brat or two ; Or hints a deal of news she must not tell ; Or finds out all folk do, and not one doing well."" LIII. Then of a tutor : and that tutor's life, 'Spite all the funny traits young wit could show, Loom'd like a chieftain's form to famting strife — This seem'd the soul the boy had yearn 'd for so : — " A man who loved a * yes,' but dared say ' no ! ^ Strict, yet with smiles ; gay, yet a Christian too. 'Twas said he'd weather'd many a storm below, Still vigor stay'd ; and, when in spirits — whew ! You'd think he'd gulpt down each, to blow its sport for you ! " 68 DARING: LIV. Some men there are, whose generous zeal for truth Burns like that holy bush which Moses saw, To leave each leaf and limb still green with youth : Some souls there are, impell'd by love, not law. Dear thence the boon from living wells to draw The deep experience stored through strife unseen. Sweet are the words, pure past all fear of flaw, From melting hearts, with naught to intervene 'Twixt mind and mouth to mould them cold, tho' crystalline ! LV. Such was the soul, our youth, soon after, found Prepared to aid the groundwork of his thought : And oft, when delving down where doubts abound. The wisest way, by that wise friend was taught. He loved his work, aye feeling, while he wrought. That only from the deep foundations rise Grand structures, like the model that he sought : And tho' this oft was hid to drooping eyes. Anon he'd spring to see it flash from clearest skies ! LVI. Then would he live for months in that bright land Where boyhood dwells, to bless perpetual morn ; Where 'mid the fragrant air on either hand Throng birds and buds and sunbeams newly born ; Where care whiffs by like wind j and every thorn That paves the path o'er which the feet must stray Gleams 'neath the dewy crystals that adorn, A POEM. 69 With thousand charms to dazzle down the way, And rouse far drawn desires this earth can ne'er allay. LVII. He lived, with deepening eye, and merry voice. And winning ways that grew still more in grace, To laugh from chance but be demure from choice, While 'mid each form he sought to find some face. And through each sound some subtle thought to trace : For this, he oft would search, 'mid dust and noise, Strange buildings or the queerer populace ; And wend where on the green the crowd enjoys, And mourns and mocks by turns, young soldiers and old boys. LVIII. Or, sicken'^ by the crime and filth one meets. He'd wander nervously adown the hill, Along the shady side of grand old streets, To reach the sea, and gaze in waters still, Or skip smooth pebbles through each rising rill. Long charm 'd, he knows not wherefore, by the play ; Then seek his bed to rise, when white stars thrill With feelings wide and wild which melt away With bells whose echoes bound like breakers 'round the bay ! LIX. At times, grown sad for lost hours, nights would find 7© DARING : Him dashing through the course of some chance book The fickle passion of unbridled mind. Alas ! how many truths did he o'erlook ! How many rich-robed lies for guides he took ! How dizzy love grew, lured by glittering wing Through morbid fantasy ! How sweet Faith shook, Half kill'd by darts, well nigh too sharp to sting, Thrust through the back by those who spoke so mild a thing ! LX. But books brought good with bad. From doubting task That incantation came for each truth sought, Which may fail all, but least fails those that ask, So long as conscience grow with growing thought. Howbeit, when Pride would taunt crude ways untaught, Or Prejudice laugh down some odder scheme, He fear'd for self that argued now, now fought ; But soon forgot the thing, for higher theme. In doubt then if the woe had been in deed or dream. LXI. More oft, impell'd by wild unrest within. Half wrong, half right, he sought to sate its might Through trumpet-blasts of onset to all sin : Or real, or fancied, both invoked his spite. A POEM. 71 He storm'd the seen ! he stabb'd that out of sight ! A young Don Quixote, caring first to dare, He harm'd more good, perchance, through zeal for right, Than He or sham, his effort could lay bare : He stirr'd the most of dust just where most need of air. LXII. And this he found ; for one sweet day when all His soul had seem'd to bloom in dreams most bright, He waked, to note near shadows crawl the wall, And, turning quickly, met the welcome sight Of fondest friends, long wont to cheer when Right Urged knightly wish to tilt some erring soul. 'Spite strife to check them, lo ! 'mid laughter light. His own name toss'd ! Oh God ! with grace control Faith, finding first how near Life skirts a trustless shoal ! LXIII. What lover dreams that love which throbs and thrills Can, for one heedless hour, be laid aside ? The heart of that soul-life, whose beating fills Each individual ripple of the tide Of blood or breath, where has the soul-life died ? Ah, when, swift stirr'd, it dofis this fleshy vest, Love, like the lightning, flash'd from storms, shall glide 72 DARING: To join full light of heaven ! tho' all the rest Fall back, as clouds, that wept, sink, spent, on Ocean's breast. LXIV. " My Pythias ? " he heard : — " He's like a Muse, The more unseen the more inspiring, oh ! I deem some friends like onions ; — best to use AVhen one's alone ; — or else with geese ; — not so ? Come, here's a problem : — you are stumpt to show Just where the fellow's like a goose ? " — " Because He's good to pluck, with feathers white too ! " " No." " Well then, with chief defence — you see — his jaws, — Good weapons only for a bird of cloven claws." LXV. " He cackles ere he scratches ; — but go to ! I judge that one a goose, whenever wont To mix with men, who'll quack and hiss — you know — A-face the kitchen door, and not the front ! Like one of Scott's grand soldiers in the brunt. Who always saw the stranger wrong side first — With bad impression ! Pshaw ! to be so blunt For good, so sharp for sin is to be curst. They're bound to find but woe who feel but for the worst. A POEM. 73 LXVI. " 'Tis pity too. If he had aught below, Some wheeling years that pass might whet his wit : But he's top-heavy. Whims upset him so ; He's like a spinning top ; — well whipt for it, He'll whine with wind ; not whipt, have a moping fit ! " — This was too much : the boy could bide the rest. But when pretended friends could thus submit His young life's failure for his whole life's test, It was to doom for woe all hope that still seem'd blest. LXVII. He spoke : " It might be well for one who skims Only of surface thinking, not to mock What lies too deep for him. I seem all whims. Tell how a body differs from a block. Except through these same whims ? Be you the rock, That staid, world-worthy thing, doomsday shall find Mud-bound ! — I'd rather be the weather-cock, To whine ? — Yes whine ! — clean-splinter with the wind ! If so some sign from heaven were token'd to my kind ! — LXVIII. "Too late recalling words now! You were right — 'Twas kind to be just, e'en behind one's back ! — 74 DARING : The goose did hiss ! Is't strange thing in your sight, Life, true to nature ? — it hiss'd back a quack ! Oh, I have seen lips, Uvid from long lack Of what the heart held ; truth and tongue had cut Connection ; only aping left, my pack — The witty apes were first of brutes, but tut ! They thought to mock true men, and turn'd creation's butt ! — LXIX. " Spare me ! for flattery, that whited scum Of selfish souls, taste sickens in the end. 'Tis not forever sweet, the modicum ! Try a fresh tongue ! To serve it, you can wend, Not hoof d nor horn'd ; some smooth mask, I'd commend ; Yet ne'er let slip the cheat ; lest dupes begin To scorn ! God-knighted Conscience will not bend When one would praise himself; but stabs within. And what self yields not self, it yields to no one's — sin!" LXX. Much more he might have rail'd ; but, glancing up. Beheld his favorite teacher hear him chide ! Then soon the froth that foam'd above the cup, Dissolv'd in timid tears, stole down the side : — " Ah Sir, I could not help it. I could bide A boast of Insult, if victorious Mirth Snatch'd not a victim's crown. Not only pride. A POEM. 75 The good, one might do, bids defend self- worth. That lost, and all is lost, all influence but dearth." — LXXI. I've read that, in old times, men sought the list. Of whom one mark'd the groundlings nudge and prate, Because of humble guise — " lo Egotist ! " There's many a modest soul must bear that fate Whom unobtruding worth has doom'd to state Of low regard, which one faint sigh repels : Earth likes the swaggering, plumed, and spurr'd ingrate Well cheer'd alone ere trump to onset swells ; But not one half-way protest ! — get you cap and bells ! — LXXII. Self may live far from its ideal ends. As earth from heaven ; as dreams from love awake : Then judge we self by wish ; but nearest friends Judge but by works, and, judging thus, mistake. This boy deem'd his friend harsh, who strove to make Now pride, now anger proof of love amiss : Then, when the injured heart still more would ache, Gave it a book : — "A few hours spent with this May train calm thought," he said ; " and teach analysis." 76 DARING: LXXIII. And such, when well prepared, thus read the youth : " The kindliest aim might fail, pumpt up like spleen With gusty face and fist, e'en tho', forsooth, * Peace, peace on earth, good will toward men ' the theme. Would one deal truth for thought ? — or love for mien? — Truth is best dealt through proof, as thus : — twice three Are six ; we each have three, then six between : A powerless form, knew not both equally Twice three are six ; did not proof start where both agree. LXXIV. " And thus it is that widest powers belong To liberal minds. They yield much to the race, And gain much oneness thence to woo the throng. Real eccentricity moves off through space, Concentric ne'er ! Shut in to self, a grace, As brains entomb'd breed worms, breeds bigotry ; Whence love's live spirit flies toward Heaven apace. Where stars, tho' single, blend, a galaxy ; And wills blend, one through right divine of Charity. LXXV. " Treat not as fabrics of vain human wit The deepest moral truths. Believe the mind A POEM. 77 Is dower'd with such when form'd. To benefit, Rouse first each germ already in mankind, For good grown outward from true life behind. God's Spirit moves to love but one deep key- Whence all life-music sounds. So power to find 'Mid minds or natures deepest harmony — Genius grows chiefly such through geniality. LXXVI. " And if not truth, but love one deal ; how then, Imparting spirit such as now redeems Through kindlier weal the worth of modern men. Can strife attain one aim of loving themes ? Can bitter sources flow to flood sweet streams .-* If, stirr'd to grand endeavor, one would blend An anarchy of individual schemes In Heaven-like union for harmonious end ; If union come through love, let love its claims commend. LXXVII. " Pause, where Reform would form to one fond truth All else, lest it court self, ideal-bright. A new aim push'd despite old good forsooth, A finite aim adjusts not all things right. The gain complete is always Infinite ! The choice to serve but self made Adam fall. E'en wishing wisdom ; and to mould through might Others to self, cloaks with a tyrant's pall The freedman's leader ; and makes demons of us all. 78 DARING : LXXVIII. " Remember One divine, and yet a guide, Whose precious promises seem less command. Than paeans which proclaim that strife subside. Remember Moses when beneath the hand Of God within the rock. What seem'd too grand When with that Spirit's strength investitured ? — Like them, to-day, all through the world might stand Meek men, for whom had patient faith secured More power than princes wield, of countless hosts assured. LXXIX. " Seek faith, for through the clouds that cover all This looms the only archway toward the Throne. The skill that sows the seed can never call The grain to life ; where'er the germ be grown, 'Tis vivified by power, to man unknown. So till the earth ; and learn, as storms revive. Failure in toil were this, to toil alone. Then strange 'twill seem that men should wrongly strive When love, that prompts mild aims, alone can make aims thrive." LXXX. " Well done ! " the master said : " Wise then, would all Whom passion plunges into sudden ill. Quick to resent, be as quick to recall. A POEM. 79 Ere hating hours hatch habits, swift fulfill — So Love may still seem sovereign of the will — All friendliness to friends, Love yet may save. And one thing more : before, o'er Eastern hill. Comes broader light, think not Heaven to out- brave : Nor quite so wisely speak full freedom for the slave." LXXXI. Some more he spoke ; then left with mild adieu. — No human voice could now recall the dart Love's Thoughtlessness, but of an instant, threw : " False friends," the poor boy mused, " had heard his heart! His words were blamed, forsooth, for lack of art ! What then ? he could not, would not don disguise. Blame were more blest than praise, from truth apart ! " He sought his bed ; he dream'd, 'mid waking cries, Of contest flaming up to smoke that hid the skies ! — LXXXII. Oh world, world, world ! you play'd too well your part. When our ideal life first bade farewell To Hope, low-framing towers of perfect art ! When from the scaffolding, Faith, fainting, fell 'Mid rocks so chill, and yet so near to Hell ! Poor Babel-dreams, what were our brains about ? No fancied forms to full proportions swell ! 8o DARING : Comes reel ! comes rack ! then grim and ghastly doubt ! Why brood, black buzzard ? why not rip the doom'd heart out ? — LXXXIII. He seem'd to gaze aback the long, long years, Where chariot wheels that roll'd through ages past Creak'd as with groans which shook far yawning fears ! And all about were wars ! no peace to last ! Or tombs, with gilded praise to guilt most vast ! He sought the future ; but from unform'd life Congealing chaos chill'd the brooding blast ! He fear'd to know what wrong, what right was rife ! He dared not look beyond thick fumes of earthly strife ! LXXXIV. He woke : and mused of self. The wisest souls Muse first of self; mild, tho', so long denied, They see, still far beyond, their chosen goals. But he, he was not wise yet, to confide In distant good. He thought how he had tried : And self lost love : and others gain'd but pain : How he had spurn'd, — for wrongs he could not bide, — His benefactors. What course could remain ? — One : — he must leave their roof tho' all his hopes be slain ! A POEM. 81 LXXXV. He seized his clothes : and rush'd out through the night Where Darkness trembled 'neath the threatening tread Of an advancing Storm. Oh fearful sight — That black car of the Thunderer overhead ! Those fierce bolts flashing down their line of red ! And crashing on amid the scatter'd sleet ! Whence one broad elm, like Caesar stabb'd and dead, Flung up its robes, and tumbled at his feet, While hoarse winds howl'd about, a fiendish zerelete. LXXXVI. On, on and on, he sped, till suddenly. With deafening shock, the bay, a sea of flame, Flash'd full in view ! He turn'd in fright to flee. Wild as a murderer hearing his own name ! He thought of death, of hell, with quivering frame ! He thought his deeds had helpt inflame their ire. Till all the Thunders seem'd to bellow — " Shame ! " And Winds hiss'd, hooting on, and would not tire — " A curse to self and all ! and all the world on fire ! " LXXXVII. He ran, and ran, as tho' to outstrip thought! Yet only fann'd its fuel, red to white ! And made the dogs bark louder, tho' for naught. 6 82 DARING, He whirl'd aface a window where was light. Its beams suggested hope ! he curst the sight : And turning, plung'd far into kindred dark : But as he dash'd along, with frenzied might. Upon the pavement fell a trembling spark : He crush 'd it with his heel, and sought the broader park. LXXXVIII. Half way across, his passion's hot-tooth'd flames Freeze, icy blades ! A fearful shriek cuts through The fitful surges of the storm ! and shames The sever'd thunder ! Lanterns loom in view ! And sly police, assured, at last, of clew From quick steps where the poor boy hies from fear. Then oh, how swift through lawn and lane he flew. Till all was gloom again ! when, drench'd and drear. He hivd beneath a shed to wait till dawn draw near. LXXXIX. And last it does come ! From his crimson couch. The Sun draws back the curtains of the East ; While stealthy shades, through fen and forest crouch; Or, 'scaping westward, leave the world releast From dismal spells that still'd the man and beast. Winds, wide, aroused, shake up each rustling wood. As tho' they whisper'd — " Wake, your thralldom's ceast ! " And birds, that dream'd all night of morning mood, Chase the faint stars, or find them flown with glee renew'd. A POEM. S^ xc. Soon, o'er the high hills lifts the sovereign crown, When, gayly garb'd in homage of their king. The dew-bright Groves and Grasses bend low down, Then yield their midnight gains to vapory wing. Pleased with the stores of glittering wealth, they bring, Their prince speaks festive day! whence sounds of praise And fragrant incense float : and sweet bells ring Of hour, for men to muse, 'mid prayerful lays. Of that bright morn when comes the Prince of all the Days ! xci. Ay, ay He comes, after all storm and rain. When glory gilds above the last dim night. When peace fills back the last faint sigh of pain. He comes. He comes to usher endless light ! Wake up, oh Earth ! E'en now, half led by sight. Behold ! and track the tempest by the rose ! And through the wake of war, the way of right ! Behold ! while each fresh breath of morning blows, How sweet, how beauteous life beneath the darkness grows ! XCII. But he, whose night had pass'd so drearily. For whom the wise Winds whisper'd in their round. For whom the brisk birds chirpt so cheerily, 84 DARING: A POEM. j For whom the bright sun up the heavens wound, Till brave work bustled by, with praiseful sound, j Old men moved lightly, and glad children leapt, ' Amort to hope and happiness profound, i Lull'd to long weary dreams while tired storms ' wept, ; Stretch'd on the chill, damp ground all through the ; dawning slept. 1 ] XCIII. \ At length, a farmer, stranger to the throng, j Happening to spy the boy, through curious ken, I Approach'd : and rousing him, with accents strong, Cried: — "My young run-a-way, I've caught you then ? I Good care I'll take you do not run again ! — 1 Ho ! cartman ! go you toward the station now ? — ' I wish to move a sick boy, out this pen. — \ You've place enough for us. I'll show you how — | Put me here, on the seat, and him there, by the i plow ! " ! MI. SUMMER had come ; and with too heated Suns Whose lazy pace allow'd lax Nature's strength In whim to bud, ere wasting for the grain, Came long vacation for the college lad. How gladly shunn'd he, in the poet's room, Maternal art, with brisk anxiety. Fain forcing on the museful student-mood. On misanthropic seeming of soul-thought. Picnics, tea-parties, and too gushing girls ! And how inspiring there the old man's words ! There is a time when youth must pass those gates, The dismal passages 'neath castle walls. That lead up from the park where childhood sports To hall wherein the chieftain meets his clan. If long the way, if dark, then strongly rear'd Those fortress walls of his inheritance. Nigh such a change in life, rung out this voice. Like some wise counsellor's to the youthful knight ; ■ " Yield not thy soul to Earth ; nor body yet To Heaven ; become not libertine, nor monk ; Strip not, for naked shame, Heaven's virgin soul ; Nor shroud warm veins to mourn a lying death ; One thing thy birthright bids thee be, a man ! " POEM THIRD, DOUBTING. FATE gave me feelings all my own, \ And dreams that others had not known, And doom'd me thence to dwell alone. Who cares for me in all the street ? ] Away, away to drear retreat, ^ Along the gloom that throngs through all, | I feel the damp and mouldering wall, i And up the slimy stairway crawl. I reach my home, an attic high, j Wherein I weep, and watch the sky, i And in my melancholy ply ' Long day, long night, and try to earn ! The strength and sphere for which I yearn, j With mouth to fill, and mind to learn. j I'd till, to reap from sweating brain, j Much thought, but, slight with all my pain, '■ It needs calm nature's sun and rain. j Whate'er I gain I'd sow again. But who can tell me how or when One cultures self for grateful men. i DOUBTING II. I have a hope, of good to see Past towering gates of mystery, If men would trust the key to me. I have a hope, earth's poor might find, Behind those walls, a future kind Where none are weak, and none can bind : And yet, I fear, few let one be The full design of destiny. Unless install'd by royalty : The common eye adjusts its glass With larger lens to self, alas ! And small and far seem all who pass. There's something in ordaining grace. That priest and prince of every race Have sought through mystic lines to trace. Something behind the sword and gown. Power apostolic, handed down : There are no wise men to the clown : The royal mind, in tent or town. Owes generous genius for its crown. III. The whole I do, it is no use. The while this devil's cur, abuse, Is ever barking at one's heel. Provoking sighs, he should conceal. And tripping love until it reel. To-day I ought to have withstood : My aim, oh ! was it not for good 1 Why did I meet the man I hate "i A POEM. 89 Why did he stand there, in his state, Smirk at me, and commiserate ? — For anger ? — is that ever wise ? Let nature speak, spite all disguise. That still will blush to feel it rise. IV. The heart's a heavenly harp when strung For harmony of thought and tongue These froward lines of life among. What rallying charm where tune is one ! But how repelling, such undone ! Too oft, in sad comparison. Its tones relaxt chord not with others ; How can one hope to blend with brothers When every nerve, in wildest might, Is strain'd to equal passion's hight? Alas ! how jars the air we smite ! How gentle faces shrink away ! " Far better than the wild man's lay. Than discord rousing discord aye. His rival mild, tho' wrong ! " they say : And so they shun one, night and day. Oh God ! for skill that comes of prayer, To hear thy key-note everywhere. Of love, with melody so rare. It leaves no ear for harsh tone there. V. Perhaps, for more self-confidence. These men about me, judging thence, Might yield my thought more reverence. 90 DOUBTING: I think who do good work should feel There's naught enthroned to make right kneel. One may have swayful temperament, Or may look wisely, or be sent With deeper worth not lightly seen ; The beasts that kick at such a mien, They must be whipt from their disdain ; When broken once, they'll mind the rein. No power for Worth awaiting place Till deed outdo untried disgrace. Awake my Soul ! wake every power Of prose, or rhyme, and from this hour Let Rest grow zealous ! Sleep watch clad ! Peace turn a pest ! Contentment mad ! And slander'd Skill, with well dealt stroke, Conquer its hope — to conquer hope ! Come wounds ! Come jeers! where were they miss'd By one who sought the noblest list ? Zeal ne'er did sigh, but some drone hiss'd : " Be dunce with me or egotist ! " Wise World ! that better due you grudge us, Years hence, you'll better understand ! If we work out the good, so judge us ! If ill, time then to heat the brand ! VI. This home of mine, it is a place. More dainty doubts might deem disgrace. But not its hungry populace. For earth is small, and few can find The gold to gild the life assign'd ; And place is true, and few maintain A POEM. 91 More splendid state than they can gain. At first, I bore a wondering mien, And oft did mourn when I had seen How man could boast yet be obscene ; But oh! I feel, as days wear on. Vice grown familiar grows less wan : The sting of sin wears blunt anon : One learns to learn, with so small fear, That love and life do not appear Full-wedded, in this lower sphere. VII. At times the door Will shake with knock That numbs the air ! I breathe — a shock ! I dare not stay, nor dare I go To welcome in the drunken foe. Again, there sounds a shriller voice : I shudder, tho' secure by choice : Ideals all unseen by friends. The blaze that comes from holy ends, All lure of baser lust transcends. VIII. Sometimes, at midnight's moody hour, Mysterious movements overpower. I saunter out, explore the hall, Afraid of each, but daring all : 'Twere death to speak, yet would I call : I linger long, tho' throbbing heart Repeat, — " Depart ! depart ! depart ! " Well fearful lest, if fear shall fill, Insanity, the glee of ill, 92 DOUBTING: Unbend the bent of wiser will. When turn'd, at length, from all before, Swift from beneath me flies the floor ; And swift, behind is barr'd the door. As tho' pursuing monsters ran To scath the spirit, and the man. IX. Ah ! sad is life alone, alone, Too sad when Thoughts, once proud to roam, Chided and whipt, come mourning home With their young ardor overthrown ! There was a time when, brave and bare, The little hands, so soft and spare, Claspt all, and hoped that love was there ; Ungloved by fear, claspt everything, With every rose to grasp a sting. Then shrank to shelter suffering. And what are now desires about ? Oh ! they have turn'd from deed, to doubt : They work within, if not without : Oh ! they have turn'd, from world of pain, To that still world within the brain, Of fancy forming mead and main. Back driven from the sunlio:ht sought They search through self ! — ah ! thence have caught Some things, with prime perfection fraught, There mirror'd 'mid mild wells of thought. I sometimes think — it may not please — Restless of ill, it would appease. Imagination's a disease ; A POEM. 93 All deepest truths of thoughtful art, From quick throes of an injured heart, In fever to ply out a dart. They call me morbid, — if that be A hate of wrong in world and me, \ Love only for unseen ideal, j And sadness not to find it real, I Welcome the name, whoe'er has given : Earth's titles cannot bias Heaven. Her normal moods may sink and swell, At one with a tide that bears to Hell ; Maturity — no flush decoys, :] Shown spotless for too ardent boys — ' Be ashes where Heaven's fire is spent, ; Calm, cold, accursed, and content. ' : ^^' \ Accepting need, to dwell alone, j Has one robb'd right, who shields his own .? | I've, too, deem'd reticence a vice, I And to the thought been sacrifice. \ My life, I gave men, tho' each nerve j Strung for such blows, as mean men serve, \ Twangled, for strain that might deserve ^ To be the seventh Hell's harbinger ! ; My fate, well mark'd, thought I, '11 deter • Like vengeance on like sufferer. ! Starting to plan some doubtful scheme, i " Well frank," I cried, " with self the theme, Fools gibber, goblins of the dream. 94 DOUBTING: But wise men, for encouragement, May hear what shall make confident." 'Twas truth : alas a world-wide tale ! Not all can conquer without mail : What spurs the strong may stab the frail. XII. To restless limbs, calm sleep were sweet : Who cannot sleep may scan the street To search for watchmen in their beat — Slow dusky forms, with echoing feet — I stretch far out, I gaze far round : 'Tis strange to hear no human sound ! — And be so distant from the ground ! I fancy I am thrown adown, Think how the news will stir the town : — " A youth was found stone dead, they say ; " "Ah yes, I heard, good day: good day." — Ho ! ho ! what now ? why did I start, The window slam, with blinds apart ? This mirror mocks ! a queer grimace ! — Men differ slightly in the face ! — And how might this a madman grace ? — Oh God ! — but ah ! before I kneel'd I found, I felt that stronger shield, Where'er Woe bids the spirit yield. XIII. How near proud Reason's regency, That wild Char^^bdis-craving sea, That Malstrom of insanity! We wander o'er the misty strand : A POEM. 95 There swells the surf ; here stops the land : Smooth are the waters ; soft the sand : " Prude sister Sense," we cry, " away ! " We wade the surge ! we feel the spray ! We leap ! — and God prolongs our day ! Ah! Holy Wisdom, if Thou be The Logos from the Sacred Three Whom not to know is misery ; And if the wise in Heaven dwell. The unwise then — but who can tell ? May madness be the mood of Hell ? Where He who ruleth, ruleth well ? If fiends with their accursed breath Can make to tremble lungs of death. And into fever'd heat can fan A life, for every wish of man, A life, whose every wish is pain, No world to give, no limb to gain The worldly thing to satisfy, For which all wish is train'd to vie, And so, a worm that cannot die, A burning in a quenchless fire, An endless life naught save desire, — If then, the Passions pester'd sore By Passions' lust indulged no more, And wrong remember'd o'er and o'er, Upspring, and, rousing all reserve Oust Reason,- from command of nerve. What state can anarchy preserve ? What state ? — Oh Christ, I see it rife ! And why thy Power, from typic strife. Did cast out devils in this life ! 96 DOUBTING: XIV. Afaint and far, the midnii::ht bell. And watchman's cry! With every knell Does Conscience speak : " For Heaven or Hell, 0\\