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 MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 
 
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 LIFE AND JOURNAL 
 
 MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 
 
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 By Rev. E. DAVIES, Evangelist, 
 
 AUTHOR OF "THE GIFT OF THE HOLY GHOST," "THE BELIEVER'S 
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PREFACE. 
 
 In my early religious experience I was 
 greatly blest in reading the Memoirs and 
 Journal of Mrs. Hester Ann Rogers, and 
 have always cherished her memory as among 
 my chief est treasures. Of late I have read 
 them again, with much care and profit. And, 
 as there is much repetition in these books, 
 and much local matter that is not of interest 
 in our day, and which is not essential to a 
 graphic and thrilling account of this lady's 
 glorious life and death, and as it is difficult 
 and somewhat expensive to purchase and read 
 two books about one lady, I have . condensed 
 and combined the two books into one, and 
 have decided to publish it in a cheap form 
 for the present generation, so that all con- 
 cerned can get it and read it, with a saving 
 of both time and money. 
 
 As there is a wide-spread interest on this 
 subject of entire sanctification, and multitudes 
 are asking for light and experience, I hope to 
 supply a felt need, and to do my part in dif- 
 
Vlll PREFACE. 
 
 fusing light and knowledge on this glorious 
 theme of Bible holiness. In publishing this 
 book, I would add my influence in favor of 
 the standard doctrine and experience of holi- 
 ness, as taught in the days of Wesley and 
 Fletcher, when true Christians were as radi- 
 cally convicted of the need of entire sanctifi- 
 cation as they had been of their need of 
 pardon or regeneration, and when they were 
 as radically sanctified as they were converted. 
 This was the case with Mrs. Rogers. And 
 especially that the younger portion of the 
 Christian community may have a cheap and 
 yet comprehensive account of the life y journal 
 and death of one of the most devout women 
 of the eighteenth century. 
 
 Mrs. Rogers' connection with Mr. Wesley 
 and with the Methodism of those times will 
 make this book both interesting and profit- 
 able. I have endeavored to make it as brief 
 and yet as thrilling in interest as possible. If 
 the many readers are half as much blest in 
 perusing these pages as I have been in writ- 
 ing them, I shall be amply paid " in the 
 morning of the resurrection." 
 
 Reading, Mass., 1882. 
 
CONTENTS. 
 
 CHAPTER I. 
 
 Birth and early life. — Father's death. — Deep sorrow. — Is 
 
 allowed to dance. — Sin predominates Page n 
 
 CHAPTER II. 
 
 Peculiar dislike to the Methodists. — Convicted of sin — Re- 
 sists the Spirit. — Breaks solemn vows. — Conviction 
 deepens. — Destroys her fine clothes. — Mother thinks 
 she is losing her senses. — Converted at the Sacramental 
 Service. — Much opposition. — The Lord bears the bur- 
 den. — Becomes a servant in the family. — Is very sick. 
 — Life spared. — Letter to a lady of rank 21 
 
 CHAPTER III. 
 
 Conflict with inbred sin. — A mystery to herself. — Panting 
 
 after God and holiness. — Deep communion with God . 39 
 
 CHAPTER IV. 
 
 Seeking entire sanctification. — Strange hardness of heart. — 
 Looking to God for the baptism. — Is mightily sancti- 
 fied to God, and walks in unclouded light. — Joy un- 
 speakable and full of glory. — Outward trials. — Meets 
 Mr. Wesley 46 
 
 CHAPTER V. 
 
 Great bodily weakness. — Seraphic fervor of spirit. — Sleep- 
 less for joy. — Overwhelmed with the divine presence. — 
 Longing for immortality. — Body overpowered. — 
 Mother healed in answer to prayer 57 
 
X CONTENTS. 
 
 CHAPTER VI. 
 Her communion with God, Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. — 
 
 Most intimate fellowship maintained for twenty years . 66 
 
 CHAPTER VII. 
 Her connection with John Wesley. — He treated her with 
 fatherly care. — Mr. Wesley's sermons. — Thrilling in- 
 terview with John Fletcher. — Mr. Fletcher's experience 
 of deadness to sin. — Thrilling testimony. — How he 
 lost the blessing. — Mrs. Rogers a class teacher .... 76 
 
 CHAPTER VIII. 
 Some of her spiritual letters 92 
 
 CHAPTER IX. 
 Her acquaintance with Mr. Rogers' family. — Death of Mrs. 
 Rogers. — Is married to Mr. Rogers. — Labors in Dub- 
 lin. — Trials and triumphs. — Letters from Mr. Wesley. 
 
 — Appointed to London. — Five months with Mr. Wesley. 
 
 — His most glorious and triumphant death. — Mrs. Rogers 
 tried and purified in the fire. — Mrs. Rogers in heaviness. 
 
 — Full salvation saves. — Resting at Spitalfields . . . 117 
 
 CHAPTER X. 
 Little Mary healed in answer to prayer. — Dear to God. — 
 
 Terrible death of a young lady 127 
 
 CHAPTER XI. 
 
 Blissful experience. — Latter day glory. — Pathetic and vic- 
 torious death. — Maternal ties. — Dying testimony. — 
 The Lord prepared her for it. — Mr. Rogers' experience 
 under the trial 134 
 
 CHAPTER XII. 
 More of her spiritual letters 141 
 
LIFE AND JOURNAL 
 
 OF 
 
 MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 
 
 CHAPTER I. 
 
 BIRTH AND EARLY LIFE. 
 
 In the starry vault of heaven there are but 
 few stars of the first magnitude. So it is in 
 the starry vault of Christian experience, for as 
 one star differeth from another star in glory, 
 so among the saints of God there is a great 
 variety, and but few are found of the first mag- 
 nitude in glory. Among these precious few 
 we may name Mrs. Hester Ann Rogers, whose 
 memory is blessed, and whose name is as 
 fragrant as ointment poured forth. 
 
 Mrs. Hester Ann Rogers was born at Mac- 
 clesfield, England, Jan. 31, 1756. Her father, 
 Rev. Mr. Roe, was a clergyman of the church 
 of England. He gave this daughter an excel- 
 lent education, and instructed her in the prin- 
 ciples of piety. She was not allowed to name 
 
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 God but with the deepest reverence. Once, 
 for telling a lie, she was rebuked in a manner 
 that she never forgot. She says : — 
 
 I was early drawn out to secret prayer ; I 
 believed God was the author of all good, of all 
 happiness ; and sin the cause of all misery and 
 pain. If therefore I wished for anything I had 
 not, I asked God in secret to grant it to me. 
 And in any pain of body, or in any of my child- 
 ish grief, I fled to him for ease and comfort ; 
 and it would be incredible to some, how often 
 I have received manifest answers to prayer, 
 when not more than four years old ; and how 
 my tender mind has been comforted. I was 
 deeply affected, and had very serious thoughts 
 of death for some time, and after seeing the 
 corpse of a little brother of mine, who died of 
 the small pox when I was five years old, I 
 took great delight in the Bible, and could at 
 this time read any part either of the Old or 
 New Testament, always asking questions so as 
 to obtain understanding of what I read. My 
 parents required that I should give an account 
 every Sabbath evening of the sermons and les- 
 sons I heard at church, and say my catechism 
 to them, which they explained to my under- 
 standing. They also required that I should 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 3 
 
 learn the collect for the day, and repeat it with 
 my other prayers every night and morning. 
 These collects I also often repeated in secret, 
 and with great sincerity before the Lord. I do 
 not remember ever going to bed without having 
 said my prayers, except once : I was then 
 diverted by a girl who told me many childish 
 stories, and so took up my attention, that I 
 forgot to pray till I was in bed ; and then being 
 alone, I recollected what I had done, and con- 
 science greatly accused me ; so that I began 
 to tremble lest Satan should be permitted of 
 God to take me away body and soul, which I 
 felt I deserved ! I soon after thought I saw 
 him coming to the side of my bed ; when I 
 shrieked out in such a manner as brought my 
 parents up stairs to see what was the matter. 
 This made a lasting impression ; and I never 
 after dared to neglect commending myself to 
 the protection of God before I slept. I was at 
 this time about six years old. 
 
 When about eight years of age I heard my 
 father say he had a very remarkable dream 
 when recovering from a dangerous illness ; 
 that he stood before the throne of God, and 
 saw his glory, but not being able to gaze upon 
 it, fell on his face in raptures of joy. 
 
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 My mother asked if he could describe what 
 he saw, but he answered, No, it was impossible 
 to convey any idea of it, the sight seemed al- 
 most to deprive him of being. She asked if 
 anything was spoken to him, but he desired 
 her to ask no more respecting it : nor would he 
 ever tell her any more. I have often thought 
 he received some notice in that dream of his 
 approaching dissolution. A material change 
 was evident from that time in all his conduct 
 and tempers. Anger was ever before a beset- 
 ting sin, but I do not remember to have seen 
 him overcome by it after this. He was more 
 vigilant in public and private duties ; more 
 humble and patient under little difficulties and 
 trials, more watchful over the morals of all 
 around him, and took more pains than ever to 
 inform my infant mind in all things which led 
 to piety and virtue. He warned me against 
 reading novels and romances, would not suffer 
 me to learn to dance, nor to go on visits to play 
 with those of my own age. He said it was the 
 ruin of youth to suppose they were only to 
 spend their time in diversions. I believe I 
 shall have reason to bless God forever for 
 several lessons he then gave me, and to all of 
 which I listened with great delight. 
 
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 In February, 1765, when I was a little more 
 than nine years old, he took his last sickness ; 
 a malignant fever, in which he lay several 
 weeks, expressing through the whole of it an 
 entire submission to the will of God, and an 
 assurance of a happy eternity. He sung 
 psalms, repeated various scriptures and praised 
 God aloud ; and was continually commending 
 to his care his dear wife and children. A few 
 days before he died, he called aloud for me ; 
 and "when I came, he took my hand in his, very 
 affectionately, and said, " My dear Hetty, you 
 look dejected. You must not let your spirits 
 be cast down ; God hath ever cared for me, and 
 he will take care of mine. He will bless you, 
 my dear, when I am gone. I hope you will be 
 a good child, and then you will be happy/' 
 Then laying his hand on my head, he lifted his 
 eyes to heaven, and with a solemnity I shall 
 never forget, said, — " Unto God's gracious 
 mercy and protection I commit thee : the Lord 
 bless thee, and keep thee ; the Lord lift up the 
 light of his countenance upon thee, and give 
 thee peace, and make thee his child and faith- 
 ful servant to thy life's end ! " I cannot find 
 words to express what were the feelings of my 
 heart on this occasion. Love for my valuable 
 
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 and affectionate parent ; grief to reflect I was 
 now losing him, and gratitude that his dying 
 lips had pronounced such a blessing on my 
 head, quite overpowered me. I fell on my 
 knees, gave vent to my feelings in a flood of 
 tears, and continued to weep till my eyes were 
 almost swelled up. He died the ioth of April, 
 1765. 
 
 My grief for some time would not suffer me 
 to take recreations of any kind ; but I would sit 
 and read to my mother, or weep with her. But 
 after a season, I was invited to the houses of 
 relations and friends ; and as I soon became a 
 laughing-stock among them for my seriousness, 
 and dislike to their manners and their plays, I 
 began to be ashamed of being so particular. 
 My mother was also now prevailed on to let me 
 learn to dance, in order to raise my spirits and 
 improve my carriage, etc. This was a fatal 
 stab to my seriousness and divine impressions ; 
 it paved the way to lightness, trifling, love of 
 pleasure, and various evils. As I soon made 
 some proficiency, I delighted much in this en- 
 snaring folly. My pride was fed by being ad- 
 mired, and began to make itself manifest with 
 all its fruits. I now aimed to excel my com- 
 panions, not in piety, but in fashionable dress ; 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. \J 
 
 and could not rest long without being engaged 
 in parties of pleasure, and especially in this 
 (what the world calls) innocent amusement. I 
 also obtained all the novels and romances I 
 possibly could, and spent some time every day 
 in reading them ; though at first it was unknown 
 to my mother, who would not then suffer it. 
 After this I attended plays also. In short, I 
 fell into all the vain customs and pleasures of a 
 delusive world, as far as my situation in life 
 would admit, and even beyond the proper limits 
 of that station in which God had placed me. 
 Thus was my precious time misspent, and my 
 foolish heart wandered far from happiness and 
 God ; urging me on to endless ruin. Yet in all 
 this, I was not left without keen convictions, 
 gentle drawings, and many short-lived good 
 resolutions, especially till fifteen years of age. 
 God often wrought strongly upon my mind, and 
 that in various ways, of which I come now to 
 speak. But O ! how did I grieve and resist 
 the Holy Ghost ! How justly might he have 
 given me up ; yea, and sealed me over to eter- 
 nal destruction ! 
 
 At the age of thirteen she was confirmed 
 by the Bishop of Chester, and then felt a 
 greater responsibility to keep God's com- 
 
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 mandments. At the end of this year she 
 came near the gates of death by a malignant 
 fever. She was totally unprepared to meet 
 God. She vowed to God that if he would 
 spare her life she would lead a new life. God 
 spared the barren fig-tree, and she was re- 
 stored to health. 
 
 About this time she dreamed that she and 
 her three cousins were dead and summoned 
 to the bar of God. Her sins all appeared in 
 array before her, and she felt that she deserved 
 the sentence of God to endless misery. Then 
 a bright angel appeared, in white, and stood 
 before them. They expected he would sen- 
 tence them to hell, but instead of this he 
 smiled upon them and said, "The Lord Jesus 
 has forgiven your sins and washed you in his 
 own blood, and I am come to bid you enter 
 into the joy of your Lord, and conduct you 
 into his blissful presence. ,, At this, rapturous 
 joy filled her soul, and she sprung up and 
 clapped her hands, and leaped for joy, and 
 praised God in ecstasies of joy she had never 
 known before. 
 
 She never forgot this dream. For a while 
 she was quite serious, and read all the reli- 
 gious books she could get hold of. Finding 
 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. ig 
 
 that she was to be judged according to her 
 works, she bought a little book and kept a 
 record of all her good and all her bad actions, 
 and although she would sometimes fast all 
 day that she might swell up her good works, 
 still her evil works excelled the good. 
 
 She still visited the ball-room, and one 
 night she pulled out this little book with her 
 pocket handkerchief. Her companions picked 
 it up and found out what it was, and began 
 to ridicule her, and this was the end of that 
 effort to be good. 
 
 She had a great taste for reading, from her 
 youth ; till she was converted she would read 
 novels and romances. She would sometimes 
 read three or four hundred octavo pages in a 
 day. After she was converted, she took 
 great delight in studying her Bible, and also 
 Rollin's Ancient History. She had a critical 
 knowledge of the English language, and her 
 extensive reading made her capable of con- 
 versing upon almost any subject, whether of 
 an historical, philosophical or theological 
 nature. Writing seemed to be her peculiar 
 talent. She took great delight therein, from 
 her youth. She tried to conquer her sins 
 one at a time, but — 
 
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 " The more she strove against their power, 
 She felt their weight and guilt the more." 
 
 Still she fell into sin and condemnation. 
 She says : " It was some time, however, 
 before I had so resisted the convictions of the 
 Holy Spirit as to remain at ease : he strove 
 with me in various ways, till I was a little 
 more than fifteen. But I so repeatedly grieved 
 and quenched the motions of that Holy Spirit, 
 that I was then in some measure given up to 
 my own foolish rebellious heart. Dress, novels, 
 plays, cards, assemblies, and balls, took up the 
 most of my time, so that my mother began to 
 fear the consequences of my living so much 
 above my station in life. But I would not now 
 listen to her admonitions. I loved pleasures, 
 and after them I would go." 
 
 She says again : " I found that pride was 
 interwoven with every thought, and word, and 
 action." 
 
 Her godmother who stood sponsor for her 
 when she was baptized, was a wealthy lady, 
 and made her large presents, and treated her as 
 though she intended to bestow upon her a 
 handsome fortune. This tended to foster her 
 pride, and thus she spent the days of her 
 youth. 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 21 
 
 CHAPTER II. 
 
 HER CONVERSION TO GOD AND EARLY CHRIS- 
 TIAN EXPERIENCE. 
 
 She had a peculiar dislike to the Method- 
 ists. From all the reports she had heard of 
 them she was greatly prejudiced against 
 them, and thought their ministers were like 
 the Catholic priests. At length Rev. David 
 Simpson, a Methodist minister, began to labor 
 in her native town, and to preach against all 
 her favorite sins. She was fully determined 
 that she would not give up her sins and be 
 converted among the Methodists. Just about 
 this time one of her associates died suddenly 
 from a cold she took at an assembly. This 
 made a deep impression upon her. Yet, she 
 was determined she would not be converted 
 among the Methodists. The Holy Spirit 
 strove with her mightily, and asked her if she 
 would be willing to be struck dead upon the 
 ball-room floor. She stifled convictions with 
 
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 all her might, and ran more eagerly after 
 pleasure. 
 
 Still Mr. Simpson's (the Methodist minister) 
 sermons began to sink deeper into her heart. 
 Sometimes she came out of the church weep- 
 ing, and at times resolved to forsake her sins, 
 and many times she broke her promises. At 
 length she became satisfied that she must 
 be born of the Spirit or be forever lost. Yet 
 with a bleeding conscience she would still go 
 on in sin, till at length she found that she had 
 violated every command of the decalogue. 
 She had broken her baptismal vow and her 
 confirmation vow, and her sacramental vows, 
 and felt that she had no title to any mercy or 
 any hope. Deeply convicted she went home, 
 and ran up stairs, and fell upon her knees, 
 and made a solemn vow to renounce and for- 
 sake all sinful pleasures and trifling com- 
 panions. She arose the next morning, and, 
 without telling her mother, she took all her 
 finery and high-dressed caps, and ripped them 
 all up, so that she could wear them no more. 
 She cut her hair short and vowed she would 
 never dance again. She bewailed her own 
 sinfulness, and cried for mercy. She could 
 neither eat, or sleep, or take comfort. All 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 23 
 
 the curses of the Bible seemed to be pointing 
 at her, and she could not claim a single prom- 
 ise. Her whole life seemed nothing but sin 
 and rebellion against her Creator, Redeemer, 
 and Sanctifier. She feared that it was too 
 late to seek for mercy. 
 
 Her mother thought that she was losing 
 her senses. Her friends sought in vain to 
 comfort her. After a mighty struggle she 
 ventured to approach the table of the Lord, 
 encouraged by the words, " A broken and 
 a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise." 
 And as Mr. Simpson was reading that sen- 
 tence in the service, " If any man sin, we 
 have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus 
 Christ, the righteous : and he is the propitia- 
 tion for our sins," a ray of divine light and 
 comfort darted into her soul, and she cried, 
 " Lord Jesus ! let me feel thou art the pro- 
 pitiation for my sins." Then she believed 
 there was mercy for her. A love to God 
 sprang up in her heart, and she began to re- 
 joice in him, and the fear of death was taken 
 away. She confessed this to some of her 
 associates, and they made light of it, and she 
 became discouraged and lost her peace. 
 
 She went to hear Mr. Samuel Bardsley 
 
24 LIFE AND JOURNAL OF 
 
 preach from " Comfort ye, comfort ye, my 
 people." Every word went home to her heart 
 as if he had known all her secret thoughts. 
 She was greatly comforted, and her prejudices 
 against the Methodists melted away. But her 
 mother determined that if ever she found that 
 her daughter had gone to hear the Methodists 
 she would disown her. Every friend and re- 
 lation she had were of the same kind, and she 
 had no acquaintance, as yet, among the 
 Methodists. Her only refuge was in God. She 
 used much prayer and entreaty with God. 
 When he spoke to her as follows: "Did 
 ever any trust in the Lord and was con- 
 founded?" she answered, " No, Lord, and I 
 will trust in thee. If I perish, I will perish 
 at thy feet. Only show me thy will, and 
 here I am." 
 
 The Saviour spoke to her heart and said, 
 " If any man will come after me, let him deny 
 himself, and take up his cross and follow me." 
 She cried, " Lord, I will forsake all and follow 
 thee ; I will joyfully bear thy cross, only give 
 me thyself ? " 
 
 After this she faithfully attended Methodist 
 meetings, and multitudes of her former friends 
 called her to account for such strange con- 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 25 
 
 duct. But the Lord gave her a mouth and 
 wisdom to plead her own cause with Bible 
 arguments. She left her company many 
 times a day to retire to her closet to com- 
 mune with God. She refused to conform to 
 the world in dress or in spirit. Earthly re- 
 sources were cut off, but heavenly resources 
 afforded ample supplies of comfort. Her lan- 
 guage was, — 
 
 " None but Christ to me be given, 
 None but Christ in earth or heaven." 
 
 She frankly told her mother that she must 
 attend to the salvation of her soul, and begged 
 her not to confine her from Methodist meet- 
 ings any more, offering to be a servant in 
 her house, and do all the work, if she could 
 only be allowed to attend the Methodist meet- 
 ing. Her mother consented, expecting that 
 she would soon get weary and give it up. She 
 was greatly comforted in reading John Wes- 
 ley's sermon on justification by faith. She 
 read it many times with prayer. She walked 
 to and fro in her room, groaning after God, 
 when suddenly the Lord spoke these words 
 to her heart : " Believe on the Lord Jesus 
 Christ, and thou shalt be saved," She said, 
 
26 LIFE AND JOURNAL OF 
 
 " Lord, I know this is thy word, and I can de- 
 pend upon it." Then this promise came to her 
 relief : " Cast all thy burden upon him, for he 
 careth for you." She replied : " I cast my 
 soul upon thee for time and for eternity." 
 She says : " Then did he appear to my salva- 
 tion. In that moment my fetters were 
 broken, my soul was set at liberty. The love 
 of God was shed abroad in my heart, and I 
 rejoiced with joy unspeakable. I felt a thou- 
 sand promises all my own. I could now call 
 Jesus Lord by the Holy Ghost, and the Father 
 my Father. My sins were gone, my soul was 
 happy. I was a new creature, and seemed 
 to be in a new world. I cried out, * Thou art 
 my father. O God, thou art my God ! * while 
 tears of joy ran down my cheeks." 
 
 All this serves to show that she was truly 
 converted to God at this time, and this laid a 
 good foundation for the work of entire sancti- 
 fication which she afterwards experienced, 
 and so beautifully adorned and exemplified. 
 
 The Word of God was sweeter than honey 
 or the honeycomb. She generally read it on 
 her knees. Her pride was laid in the dust, 
 and her soul sank into humility. Her cousin, 
 Robert Roe, who was intended for a minister, 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 27 
 
 was so convicted by this wonderful experience 
 of hers, that he became alarmed for himself, 
 and began to inquire how she obtained it. 
 He said : " I know I am a great sinner, and 
 miserable beyond expression. I would give 
 all the world to obtain the favor of God you 
 speak of." 
 
 She wrote to him a letter full of instruc- 
 tion, advising him to go among the Method- 
 ists, and go to class meeting. . After a while 
 he too could rejoice in the God of his salva- 
 tion. 
 
 Six months after Miss Roe, afterwards Mrs. 
 Rogers, became a servant in the family, her 
 mother was sick with a fever and expected to 
 die. The daughter watched with her mother 
 till she was nearly sick herself. She was 
 fearfully broken down in body, and could 
 hardly hope to recover. She was far gone in 
 consumption. She refused to take medicine 
 or anything that she thought would restore 
 her to health. She was so fond of heaven 
 that she desired " to depart and be with Christ 
 which is far better." Her joy was inexpress- 
 ible. Infinite wisdom spared this useful life, 
 and her cousin convinced her that by not tak- 
 ing medicine and other things to recover her 
 
28 LIFE AND JOURNAL OF 
 
 health, she was manifesting self-will while she 
 professed to do the will of God. After he left 
 she fell upon her knees and cried, " Lord, per- 
 fectly subdue my will." God gave her this 
 promise, " Ask what ye will and it shall be 
 done unto thee. ,, She resigned herself to 
 the will of God to live, and labor, and suffer 
 for the master and his blessed cause. 
 
 See how she expressed herself on this sub- 
 ject: "I will henceforth entirely renounce 
 my own will respecting life or death ! I leave 
 it fully in thy hands and to thy pleasure, to 
 take me now or to spare me twenty, thirty, 
 yea, forty years ; or as long as thou seest my 
 life will bring glory to thee, and profit to im- 
 mortal souls ; relying on thy faithful promise 
 given me this day, that what ' I ask shall be 
 done ; ' and accounting it a solemn covenant 
 between me and thee : that whensoever thou 
 seest me about to be overcome by trials, by 
 temptations, or snares, so that I shall in heart 
 or life depart from thee, or wound thy cause, 
 that then thou wilt put in thy sickle, and 
 gather me home ; yea, if even at that time I 
 should be so foolish as to desire life ! — Amen 
 and amen. What I felt of heaven, of God, of 
 love, at that season, cannot be expressed. I 
 
LIFE AND JOURNAL OF 29 
 
 had communion with my Lord, as if face to 
 face ; and could henceforth choose nothing 
 but his will. 
 
 " From this day forth I speedily recovered 
 strength, and in a few weeks was enabled to 
 attend to my daily duties." 
 
 She began to work for Jesus as soon as she 
 was converted. She says : — 
 
 " I could neither eat, nor sleep much for 
 many days and nights. The love of God shed 
 abroad in my heart was now my meat and 
 drink : and the thoughts of the amazing depths 
 of grace which had plucked me as a brand 
 from the burning quite overcame me ! — me, 
 the most obstinate offender, who had so long 
 and so repeatedly resisted and grieved his Holy 
 Spirit ! This love of my God and Saviour, 
 so unmerited and free, overflowed my soul; 
 nor had I for eight months any interruption 
 to my bliss. 
 
 * Not a cloud did arise, to darken my skies. 
 Or hide for a moment my Lord from my eyes.' 
 
 " Yet I had daily crosses to take up and 
 endure, but I rejoiced in being accounted 
 worthy to bear the cross for Him who died to 
 purchase my peace." 
 
30 MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 
 
 " O how my soul is filled with love, and my 
 tongue with praise, while I reflect on the 
 mercies of the year past ! At the close 
 of the last year I was surrounded with many 
 and various trials ; but now out of all hath 
 the Lord delivered me. He hath kept me from 
 the fowler's snare, and hath reserved my heart 
 for himself to dwell in, my present, my eternal 
 portion. I have walked through the fire and 
 suffered no harm ; 
 
 ; And passing through the watery flood. 
 Have hung upon the arm of God." 
 
 "His arm hath wrought salvation from dan- 
 gers which I knew not, and no weapon formed 
 against me hath prospered. Every trial hath 
 terminated in great good. I have been shel- 
 tered from every storm, been fed with the 
 riches of his love, and comforted with the 
 consolations of his Spirit ; I have lived in his 
 smiles, and shall be preserved to his glorious 
 kingdom. 
 
 We still quote from her journal which is 
 full of revelations of her experiences. She 
 says, "What I felt of heaven, of God, of love 
 at that season cannot be expressed. I had 
 communion with my Lord as if face to face 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 3 1 
 
 and could henceforth choose nothing but 
 his will. From this day forth I soon re- 
 covered strength, and in a few weeks I could 
 attend some of the means of grace." Soon 
 after she was converted, in her nineteenth 
 year, she wrote the following letter to a lady 
 of rank and fortune who was offended because 
 she had become a Methodist. This letter 
 shows great insight into divine things for 
 one so recently converted. 
 
 ■ Macclesfield, Nov. 12, 1775. 
 
 Dear and honored Madam, — I beg leave 
 to return you my most sincere and humble 
 thanks for your kind letter and advice ; and as 
 you are so kind as to express a concern on my 
 account, I hope you will pardon the liberty, and 
 allow me to say what is my opinion and belief, 
 and on what alone I can build any hopes of 
 heaven and happiness. 
 
 Man, as he came out of the hands of the 
 Creator, was perfectly holy and happy. In him 
 shone all those amiable and lovely attributes 
 of the Deity — goodness, truth, justice, mercy 
 and love. But by disobeying the divine com- 
 mand, he entailed upon himself and his whole 
 posterity (for he acted as the parent or head 
 
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 of all mankind) the sure wages of sin, which is 
 death — death temporal, spiritual, and eternal. 
 The body of man became that day mortal ; his 
 soul spiritually dead, and he was every mo- 
 ment liable to death eternal. The guilt of 
 Adam, and the depravity of soul which he con- 
 tracted by the fall, immediately devolved upon 
 his unhappy offspring. And, we are told, 
 when he begat a son, it was in his own 
 likeness, after his image: so that now man 
 is born in sin, and under the wrath of God : 
 and if he die in that state, will stand exposed 
 to the sentence of eternal death, And what 
 can a lost man do in this case ? Atonement 
 for himself, or offering meet, he hath none to 
 bring ; and to pardon sinners without a satis- 
 faction would not be what is commonly 
 called mercy, but it would be giving up the 
 essential glories of the Godhead. What must 
 be done then ? Why, God of his free grace 
 and unlimited bounty, has provided a ransom, 
 an all-sufficient ransom, even his well-beloved 
 Son ! He who is the brightness of his 
 Father's glory, and the express image of his 
 person, became man to die, that man might 
 live. 
 
 All that was necessary to be done to com- 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 33 
 
 plete our salvation consisted chiefly in these 
 three things : First, a perfect obedience to 
 the divine law : Secondly, an infinitely meri- 
 torious satisfaction to the law and govern- 
 ment of God, for the dishonor brought upon 
 them by the sin of man : Thirdly, a restora- 
 tion of the moral image of God to the soul, 
 which image was lost by the fall of man. The 
 first of these was completed by the life of our 
 Redeemer ; the second by his death ; and the 
 third is effected by the Holy Ghost. This 
 provision (ample provision) is made for the 
 salvation of man, so that God can preserve 
 untainted his adorable perfections ; or, as St. 
 Paul declares, he can now be just and yet 
 justify and save penitent, believing man. 
 
 That Christ suffered in the place of sinners, 
 is expressed by St. Peter in these words: 
 " Who, his own self, bare our sins in his own 
 body on the tree." Also, Isaiah saith, " Surely 
 he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sor- 
 rows. He was wounded for our transgres- 
 sions, he was bruised foi; our iniquities. All 
 we like sheep have gone astray ; we have 
 turned every one to his own way, and the 
 Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all." 
 St. Paul saith, " He hath made him to be sin 
 
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 for us, who knew no sin, that we might fce 
 made the righteousness of God in him." 
 And again, in the third chapter of the 
 Romans, he saith, " there is none righteous, no, 
 not one ; there is none that understandeth ; 
 there is none that seeketh after God ; they 
 are all gone out of the way ; they are to- 
 gether become unprofitable ; there is none 
 that doeth good, no, not one." Therefore, he 
 adds, " By the deeds of the law there shall no 
 flesh be justified in his sight. But now the 
 righteousness which is without the law is 
 manifest, being witnessed by the law and the 
 prophets ; even the righteousness of God, 
 which is by faith in Jesus Christ unto all, and 
 upon all them that believe ; for there is no 
 difference, for all have sinned and come short 
 of the glory of God. Being justified freely 
 by his grace, through the redemption that is 
 in Christ Jesus : whom God hath set forth to 
 be a propitiation through faith in his blood, 
 to declare his righteousness for the remission 
 of sins that are past, through the forbearance 
 •of God: to declare, I say, at this time his 
 righteousness, that he might be just, and the 
 justifier of him that believeth in Jesus." 
 With St. Paul, then, I would go on and ask, 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 35 
 
 "Where is boasting then?" It is excluded. 
 By what law ? Of works ? Nay, but by the 
 law of faith. Therefore, we conclude, that a 
 man is justified by faith, without the. deeds 
 of the law. For, to him that worketh is the 
 reward not reckoned of grace, but of debt ; 
 but to him that worketh not, but believeth on 
 him that justifieth the ungodly, his faith is 
 counted for righteousness. Even as David 
 also describeth the blessedness of the man 
 unto whom God imputeth righteousness 
 without works, saying, " Blessed are they 
 whose iniquities are forgiven, and whose 
 sins are covered. Blessed is the man unto 
 whom the Lord will not impute sin. Abra- 
 ham believed God, and it was imputed 
 to him for righteousness. Now it was not 
 written for his sake alone that it was imputed 
 to him ; but for us also, to whom it shall be 
 imputed, if we believe on him that raised up 
 Jesus our Lord from the dead ; who was de- 
 livered for our offences, and was raised again 
 for our justification." Now, from all these, 
 and many more texts of Holy Scripture which 
 might be named, I believe, and am sure, that 
 works are not the meritorious cause of our 
 salvation, yet I believe they are absolutely 
 
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 necessary, and will follow as the sure and in- 
 separable fruits of a true faith. If you will 
 be kind enough to read the eleventh, twelfth, 
 and thirteenth articles of the Church of Eng- 
 land, they will further explain my meaning. 
 
 But there is a third thing also necessary to 
 our salvation ; which is, that the image of 
 God be restored to the soul. Now, this is 
 done in regeneration. Our Saviour assures us, 
 " Except a man be born again, he cannot see 
 the kingdom of God." And again, " Except 
 ye be converted, and become as little chil- 
 dren, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of 
 heaven." Nor indeed are we fit for it, till 
 renewed by the Spirit of God. For, were it 
 possible to be admitted there, we could not 
 enjoy the pure and spiritual delight of the 
 saints above. Their joy consists in an entire 
 freedom from all sin and corruption ; and in 
 serving, adoring, praising the Father of all 
 their mercies, the Son of his love, and Spirit 
 of holiness. And they are so far from being 
 weary of this, that they think eternity too 
 short to utter all his praise ! How irksome 
 would be an eternity spent in this manner, to 
 a person who never had his affections spirit- 
 ualized, and his will brought into a conformity 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 37 
 
 to the will of God ? This is a change which 
 must be wrought in this world : for there is 
 no repentance in the grave ; as death leaves 
 us, judgment will find us. Then, " He that 
 is unjust shall be unjust still ; he that is filthy 
 shall be filthy still ; he that is righteous shall 
 be righteous still ; and he that is holy shall 
 be holy still ! " The Holy Ghost is the au- 
 thor of this conversion or new birth ; for no 
 man hath quickened his own soul. It is 
 He that must begin, carry on, and com- 
 plete it. 
 
 " Now, if any man have not the spirit of 
 Christ, he is none of his. And the fruits of 
 this spirit are Move, joy, peace, long-suffering, 
 gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, tem- 
 perance ; against such there is no law. And 
 they that are Christ's, have crucified the flesh 
 with its affections and lusts. If any man be 
 in Christ he is a new creature : old things are 
 passed away ; behold, all things are become 
 new/ And Jesus Christ is made of God unto 
 us ' wisdom, righteousness, sanctification, and 
 redemption : that according as it is written, 
 he that glorieth, let him glory in the Lord. 
 God forbid that I should glory, save in the 
 cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom the 
 
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 world is crucified unto me, and I unto the 
 world.'" 
 
 This, dear madam, is what I believe, and 
 this, I think, is agreeable to the word of God, 
 and to the articles and homilies of the Church 
 of England ; and no schism of the Church of 
 Christ. Forfeiting your love and friendship 
 is a great trial ; but believe me, when I think 
 of seeking salvation in any other way, it seems 
 as a sword piercing my very heart ! And 
 seeing my dear mother so very unhappy on 
 my account, gives me more grief than I can 
 express ; and the thought of my being detri- 
 mental to her in worldly things, and that my 
 conduct should make you less her friend, 
 seems strange, and is to me very afflicting. 
 But I think these things ought not to be 
 urged too far, especially when the soul is 
 concerned. 
 
 I am afraid I have tired your patience, so 
 will hasten to subscribe myself, honored 
 madam, your most obliged and dutiful daugh- 
 ter, H. A. ROE. 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 39 
 
 CHAPTER III. 
 
 CONFLICTS WITH INBRED SIN, AND PANTING 
 AFTER HEART PURITY. 
 
 After all we have written of her convic- 
 tion of sin and her conversion to God, no 
 one can doubt but she was indeed a true 
 Christian. She had the witness of the Spirit 
 that she was a child of God, and an heir of 
 heaven. The fear of death was taken away, 
 and the peace of God possessed her soul, and 
 the love of God was shed abroad in her heart 
 by the Holy Ghost given unto her. 
 
 Yet after all this she was a mystery to her- 
 self because she found sin, inbred sin, still 
 lurking in her regenerated heart. Let us 
 hear her own testimony on this all important 
 point. After telling that she has had a joy that 
 was unspeakable, she says, I felt dissatisfied 
 with myself, and all around me, and knew not 
 why. It might in some measure be owing to 
 the indisposition of my body, but I fear it 
 
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 was more owing to the evil of my corrupt 
 heart. O when shall I be holy ? 
 
 I have been greatly tried inwardly and out- 
 wardly,though I have had some refreshing visits 
 of love ; but I feel many evil tempers, much 
 self-will that would not be contradicted, though 
 none saw it but the Lord ; peevishness, pride, 
 and unbelief greatly distressed me. My cry 
 was, this evening, " Create in me a clean heart 
 
 God, and renew a right spirit within me." 
 And in private prayer I was blessed in a wonder- 
 ful manner. I lay at the feet of my Lord, as 
 clay in the hands of the potter, only be- 
 seeching him to stamp me with his lovely 
 image. 
 
 The Lord shows me more than ever, I 
 must be made holy before death : and this 
 day I can say, " As the hart panteth after the 
 water brook," so thirst eth my soul for the 
 perfect love of God. O may I never rest till 
 
 1 have received this blessing! Lord, I have 
 in this respect been a trifler ; I have been too 
 easy, too lukewarm, while thy enemies have 
 had a lurking place in my heart ! O forgive 
 me and help me to be more in earnest ! Those 
 words were applied, while engaged in wres- 
 tling prayer, " All I have is thine !" And is 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 41 
 
 not this salvation from sin His gift ? It is, 
 and shall be mine. 
 
 " O joyful sound of gospel grace, 
 Christ shall in me appear ; 
 I, even I, shall see his face, 
 I shall be holy here." 
 
 Mr. Wesley's Plain Account of Christian 
 Perfection was this day a greater blessing 
 than before. O how very ignorant, how stupid 
 have I been, respecting this great salvation ; 
 and even yet I seem to know nothing". Lord, 
 teach me, and save me fully. I find while 
 pressing after entire purity, my communion 
 with God increases, and I have more power 
 to do his will. 
 
 I awoke several times in the night, praying 
 for sanctificatidn. O the depth of unbelief and 
 of pride ! And these seem only the roots of many 
 other evil branches. O my God, I feel my heart 
 as a den of thieves ! I loathe myself, but O ! 
 I fall — a leper at thy feet. I believe "the 
 blood of Jesus Christ cleanseth from all sin/' 
 But when I would come to the fountain I 
 seem all ignorance and helplessness. O 
 Lord, teach and strengthen me, for thy 
 mercies , sake ! 
 
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 I have had deep communion with my God, 
 and much power at a throne of grace. I 
 have a clear evidence of his pardoning love, 
 and want nothing but his whole image 
 stamped on my heart. 
 
 I was greatly comforted this morning ; in 
 spreading open the word of God on my 
 knees, and praying for a conformity to it, I 
 opened on i Thess. v. 16-ult. I see what is 
 there required, in the very salvation my soul 
 needs. O how is it summed up in that 
 prayer of the apostle : " Now the very God 
 of peace sanctify you wholly : and I pray 
 God your whole spirit, and soul, and body, be 
 preserved blameless unto the coming of our 
 Lord Jesus Christ." And would St. Paul 
 pray for what they could not obtain ? O no ! 
 he believed that they should be both sancti- 
 fied and preserved blameless ; for he says, 
 " Faithful is he who hath called you, and who 
 also will do it." Amen, Lord ! Let me, thy 
 worthless creature, prove the truth of this 
 word for Jesus' sake. 
 
 Outward opposition now began to abate ; 
 and many of my opposers were at peace with 
 me. And now also the Lord began to reveal 
 in my heart that sin was not all destroyed : 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 43 
 
 for though I had constant victory over it, yet 
 I felt the remains of anger, pride, self-will, 
 and unbelief often rising, which occasioned a 
 degree of heaviness and sorrow. At first I 
 was much amazed to feel such things, and 
 often tempted to think I had lost a measure 
 of grace : yet when I looked to my Lord, or 
 whenever I approached him in secret, he shed 
 his precious love abroad, and bore witness 
 also with my spirit, that I was still his child. 
 Yea, and at this time I received many re- 
 markable answers to prayer, many proofs of 
 his undoubted love and goodness to my soul ; 
 and I ever felt I would rather die than offend 
 him ; so that I was a mystery to myself ! I re- 
 solved, however, to use more self-denial of all 
 kinds, and, whatever it cost me with respect 
 to health or life, more fasting and prayer : for 
 I hoped by these means to mortify and starve 
 the evil tempers and propensities of my 
 nature, till they should exist no more ; and if 
 my body expired in the combat, I thought I 
 was certain of endless life. I met with some 
 also who told me, nothing but death would 
 end this strife ! that this is the Christian's 
 warfare, which cannot end but with the life 
 of the body. After some time I began to 
 
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 believe these miserable comforters, and of 
 consequence, longed for nothing so much as 
 to die ; yea, I was impatient to be gone, that 
 I might be freed from sin ; for I truly felt, 
 and more so every day, — 
 
 " 'Twas worse than death my God to love, 
 And not my God alone." 
 
 The Lord was pleased to make the preach- 
 ing of Dr. Wright a great blessing to me. 
 He clearly explained the nature of salvation 
 from inbred sin; showed it to be as freely 
 promised in Scripture, and as fully purchased 
 by the blood of Jesus, as pardon. Also, that 
 though sanctification in believers is a gradual 
 work, yet the death of sin is instantaneous, 
 and to be obtained by faith alone; just in like 
 manner as justification. He recommended 
 Mr. Wesley's Plain Account, and Farther 
 Thoughts on Christian Perfection, and Mr. 
 Fletcher's Polemical Essay, especially his ad- 
 dress in the end of it to imperfect believers. 
 These yet further opened my eyes respecting 
 that great salvation ; and for reading them I 
 shall praise God to all eternity. I now was 
 powerfully convinced, that, whenever sin is 
 totally destroyed, it is done in a moment. 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 45 
 
 From hence I could not rest, but cried to the 
 Lord night and day, to cast out the strong 
 man, and all his armor of unbelief and sin : 
 assured that the power of the living God, and 
 not death, must be the executioner ; the blood 
 of Jesus the procuring cause ; and faith the 
 only instrument. I had a deeper sense of 
 my impurity than ever; and though by grace 
 I was restrained from giving way outwardly, 
 yet I felt such inward impatience, pride, fret- 
 fulness, and, in short, every ill temper, that at 
 times I could truly say, I was weary and 
 heavy laden. 
 
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 CHAPTER IV. 
 
 ENTIRE SANCTIFICATION, AND ITS GLORIOUS 
 RESULTS. 
 
 This saintly lady was so blessedly converted 
 that her face shone with the glory of God, so 
 that her mother was astonished at the change 
 in her countenance, and in her whole deport- 
 ment. And yet we have seen what a mighty 
 conflict she had with inbred sin. It is now 
 our privilege to record how she found that the 
 blood of Jesus Christ cleansed her heart from 
 all sin. Let her tell this wondrous story in 
 her own language : — 
 
 On the morning of February 22, I awoke 
 poorly in body, and felt a strange hardness on 
 my heart, and a great backwardness to private 
 prayer. Satan told me if I prayed, it would 
 be only solemn mockery ; for my body would 
 so weigh down my soul, that while my words 
 flew up, my thoughts would remain below, 
 and I should obtain no blessing. But I cried, 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 47 
 
 ' Lord, help me,' and fell instantly on my 
 knees ; for a few moments my ideas were all 
 distraction ; but the mighty God spoke to 
 the troubled ocean, ' Peace, be still ! ' and 
 there followed a great calm throughout my 
 soul. My intercourse was now opened with 
 my beloved, and various promises presented 
 to my believing view. I thought, Shall I 
 now ask small blessings only of my God ? 
 Lord, cried I, make this the moment of my 
 full salvation ! Baptize me now with the 
 Holy Ghost, and the fire of pure love. Now 
 'make me a clean heart, and renew a right 
 spirit within me/ Now enter thy temple, 
 and cast out sin for ever. Now cleanse the 
 thoughts, desires, and propensities of my 
 heart, and let me perfectly love thee. But 
 here Satan raised all his force of temptations 
 to oppose me ; suggesting to me, I had 
 not been long enough justified ; I had 
 more to suffer first, etc. And my views 
 not being yet clear in the nature of this 
 blessing, gave the enemy an advantage. 
 For I thought when fully saved from sin, I 
 could suffer no more ; feel no more pain ; 
 make no more mistakes ; my judgment and 
 memory would be perfect, and I should feel 
 
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 temptation no more ! Therefore this sug- 
 gestion, that I had to suffer much first, had 
 the more plausibility. But in that moment I 
 received light from above, and cried, ' Lord, 
 till my heart is renewed, I cannot suffer as I 
 ought : give me perfect love, and I can then 
 bear all things ! ' ' But,' said Satan, ' if this 
 blessing were given, thou wouldst soon lose 
 it again, in such and such trials which lie 
 before thee : get past those trials first, and 
 then come for this blessing.' But I cried, 
 ' Lord, I cannot stand those trials without it. 
 O purify my heart, that I may be able to 
 stand in the trying hour ! If I face my subtle 
 enemies, while I have a traitor within, ever 
 ready to betray me into their hands, how 
 shall I be able to stand ? ' But if that ' strong 
 man armed, be cast out with all his armor,' 
 how much more able shall I be to contend 
 with my outward enemies ? Many other 
 temptations were presented : but I cried so 
 much the more, ' Lord, save me ! ' And the 
 Lord gave me that promise, 'I will circumcise 
 thy heart, and thou shalt love the Lord thy 
 God with all thy heart,' etc. I said, ' Lord, 
 thou art faithful, and this is thy word ; I cast 
 my whole soul upon thy promise : make 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 49 
 
 ki^own thy faithfulness, by performing it on 
 my heart. Circumcise it now, fill it now with 
 thy pure love ; sanctify every faculty of my 
 soul ; I offer all to thee, I give thee all my 
 powers, I take thee, Almighty Jesus, for my 
 wisdom, my righteousness, my sanctification.' 
 Now ' cleanse me from all my filthiness and 
 from all my idols ; take away the heart of 
 stone, and give me a heart of flesh/ I come 
 empty to be filled ; deny me not. It would 
 be for thy own glory to save me now ; for 
 how much better could I serve thee ! It is 
 true, I have no plea but thy mercy ! the 
 blood of Jesus, thy promise, and my own 
 great need. O save me fully, by an act of 
 free grace ! Thou hast said, ' He that be- 
 lieveth shall be saved : ' I now take thee at 
 thy word : I do by faith cast myself on thy 
 promise. I venture my soul on thy veracity ; 
 thou canst not deny ! Being purchased by 
 thy blood, thy justice is engaged : being 
 promised without money and without price, 
 thy truth is bound : thus every attribute of 
 my God secures it to me. 
 
 Ah ! why did I ever doubt his willingness, 
 when he gave Jesus ! Gave him to " destroy 
 the work of the devil ; — to make an end of 
 
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 sin ! " The hindrance was in me, not him. 
 He desired to make me holy, but unbelief hid 
 it from my eyes ; accursed sin ! But now, 
 Lord, I do believe ; this moment thou dost 
 save. Yea, Lord, my soul is delivered of her 
 burden. I am emptied of all ; I am at thy 
 feet, a helpless, worthless worm : but I take 
 hold of thee as my fulness ! Every thing that 
 I want, thou art. Thou art wisdom, strength, 
 love, holiness : yes, and thou art mine ! I am 
 conquered and subdued by love. Thy love 
 sinks me into nothing ; it overflows my soul. 
 O, my Jesus, thou art all in all ! In thee I 
 behold and feel all the fulness of the God- 
 head mine. I am now one with God ; the 
 intercourse is open ; sin, inbred sin, no longer 
 hinders the close communion, and God is all 
 my own ! 
 
 O the depth of solid peace my soul now felt ! 
 But not so much rapturous joy as at justifica- 
 tion. It was 
 
 " The sacred awe which dares not move ; 
 And all the silent heaven of love ! " 
 
 Yet when I rose from my knees, Satan once 
 more assaulted me with, " Thou art going to 
 face various trials, and a frowning world ; thou 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 5 1 
 
 wilt soon lose this blessing." But instantly 
 that scripture was given me, " He that keep- 
 eth Israel neither slumbereth nor sleepeth : 
 the Lord himself is thy keeper ! It is even 
 he that shall preserve thy soul : the Lord 
 shall preserve thy going out and thy coming 
 in, from this time forth and for evermore/ ' 
 " Lord," said I, " I feel my own insufficiency ; 
 I can do nothing ; I can resist nothing ; but I 
 commit the powers of my soul, the avenues of 
 my heart, to thy keeping." Again he gra- 
 ciously applied, " Blessed is she that believed; 
 for there shall be a performance of those 
 things which were told her from the Lord." 
 " My God," said I, " it is enough ! My soul 
 does trust thee, and I will praise thee." 
 
 I now walked in the unclouded light of his 
 countenance ; " rejoicing evermore, praying 
 without ceasing, and in every thing giving 
 thanks." I resolved, however, at first, I would 
 not openly declare what the Lord had wrought ; 
 but it was seen in my countenance ; and when 
 asked respecting it, I durst not deny the won- 
 ders of his love ! I soon found that repeating 
 his goodness, confirmed my own faith more 
 and more. And so did the Lord bless me in 
 declaring it (yea, and blessed others also), 
 
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 that I was constrained to witness to all who 
 feared him : — 
 
 " His blood can make the foulest clean : 
 His blood availed for me." 
 
 I dared not to live above a moment at a time ; 
 and that moment by faith in the Son of God. 
 I never felt till now the full meaning of those 
 words : " In him we live, and move, and have 
 our being." And again, "I will dwell in 
 them, and walk in them, and be their God : I 
 will put my laws into their minds, and write 
 them in their hearts." Glory be to my God, I 
 felt it written there : it was no longer I that 
 lived, but Christ that lived in me ! 
 
 " Yea, Christ was all in all to me ; 
 And all my heart was love." 
 
 What a wonderful work of grace was that ! 
 How she was transferred into the divine 
 image and filled with the divine fulness ! The 
 next entries in her journal are as follows : — 
 
 Glory, honor, and eternal praise be to the 
 God of love, for ever and ever ! His own arm 
 hath brought salvation to my feeble, helpless 
 soul. I am now wholly his ! I do love the 
 Lord my God with all my heart, and soul and 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 53 
 
 strength. I am nothing, and Jesus is my all. 
 The enemy often suggests, " Thou wilt soon 
 lose the blessing : thou canst not stand long." 
 But my heart answers, I will hang upon, and 
 trust my God, as long as I have any being ; 
 and I know he will supply a feeble worm with 
 power ! I have also opened on many sweet 
 promises to-day. I find momentarily power 
 now to pray and believe : yea, I live by faith ! 
 
 Saturday, 24. — Last night and this morn- 
 ing I had deep communion with my God. I 
 feel I am indeed one with Christ, and Christ 
 is one with me : I dwell in Christ, and Christ 
 in me. O blessed union with him my soul 
 loveth ! And the more I feel of his great 
 love, the more I sink at his feet in humbling 
 views of my own nothingness ; and here it is 
 I would ever lie ; this is my own place : Jdsus 
 alone is exalted ; and I, a poor sinner, saved 
 from sin ! 
 
 Sunday, 25. — Glory be to God for the best 
 Sabbath I ever knew ! My body was so very 
 weak and poorly, I could not go to preaching ; 
 but the Lord was with me, and gave me fresh 
 discoveries of my own emptiness and poverty, 
 and of his abundant fulness. Those words 
 were also powerfully applied, " Now ye are 
 
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 clean through the words which I have spoken 
 unto you : abide in me and I in you : as the 
 branch cannot bear fruit of itself except it 
 abide in the vine, no more can ye, except ye 
 abide in me." I also feel that gracious prom- 
 ise mine : " If ye abide in me, and my words 
 abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it 
 shall be done unto you. " O the condescension 
 of God to a poor worm. What a grant is this ! 
 My soul draws near and humbly asks : — 
 
 "Enlarge my faith's capacity, 
 Wider and yet wider still 
 Then with all that is in thee 
 My soul forever fill." 
 
 I was so happy that I could not sleep in the 
 night. O what deep communion did my soul 
 enjoy with God ! It was, indeed, a foretaste 
 of heaven itself. This morning I prayed for 
 a portion of Scripture to be impressed on my 
 heart, that should abide with, comfort and 
 direct me all the day, and I opened on, 
 " Know ye not that your bodies are the tem- 
 ples of the Holy Ghost, which is in you ? and 
 ye are not your own, for ye are bought with 
 a price ; therefore, glorify God with your 
 body, and with your spirit, which are God's." 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 55 
 
 Sweet portion ! O my blessed Lord, I rejoice 
 that I am thy purchased property, and not 
 my own ; and to thee I gladly yield body, soul 
 and spirit. 
 
 For some days it has been a season of out- 
 ward trials with me; but I have enjoyed fel- 
 lowship with God, and great inward comforts. 
 I have ever found, when he gives peculiar 
 grace, he permits it to be tried ; but I prove 
 "as my day is, so is my strength." Yes, 
 glory to his name alone, I am more than con- 
 queror ! and feel it the constant language of 
 my heart. 
 
 u No cross, no suffering I decline, 
 Only let all my heart be thine." 
 
 She gives the following account of the first 
 time she conversed with Mr. John Wesley, 
 who was afterward one of her special friends, 
 and after many years of heavenly communion 
 with this father in the gospel, it was her lot 
 to stand by his dying bed and comfort him 
 when the messenger came to call him to the 
 rest of heaven : — 
 
 On Monday, April ist, Mr. Wesley came 
 to Macclesfield, and I saw and conversed 
 with him for the first time. He behaved to 
 
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 me with parental tenderness, and greatly re- 
 joiced in the Lord's goodness to my soul ; 
 encouraged me to hold fast, and to declare 
 what the Lord had wrought. On Wednesday 
 morning he set off for Manchester. He thinks 
 me consumptive ; but welcome life, or wel- 
 come death, for Christ is mine. 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. S7 
 
 CHAPTER V. 
 
 BODILY WEAKNESS ASSOCIATED WITH A 
 SERAPHIC SPIRIT. 
 
 Mrs. Rogers from her youth suffered 
 with a weak body, which was no doubt weak- 
 ened by her eager attendance upon worldly 
 pleasure. Besides, after her conversion, she 
 consented to be a servant in her own family 
 for the privilege of attending Methodist 
 meetings. Then, such was the fire and fervor 
 of her soul, and such the intensity of her joy 
 in the Lord, and such the amount of her 
 earnest labor in the cause of God, that she 
 came near the point of death time after time. 
 
 She was so full of the joy of the Lord that 
 sleep departed from her eyes, and she lay in 
 the raptures of heaven, while the silent hours 
 of the night passed by. Hear her testimony 
 on this and other points : — 
 
 " I was so happy in the night, that I had 
 very little sleep, and I awoke with these 
 
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 words, ' The temple of an indwelling God ! ' 
 My soul sunk into the depth of nothingness, 
 and enjoys closer union with him this day 
 than ever before. Every moment I feel such 
 a weight of love, as almost overpowers the 
 faculties of nature ! I know I could bear no 
 more and live ; but I often feel ready to cry, 
 
 give me more and let me die ! — I long to 
 be freed from the earth ! But help me, Lord, 
 to wait resigned, willing to suffer, or do for 
 thee. I need not lay this body down to 
 feel thy presence ! Thou dwellest in my 
 heart, and shalt for ever dwell ! Thou 
 art my present heaven ; my soul's eternal 
 all. 
 
 M I went to bed last night so full of the 
 love of God, I could not sleep for several 
 hours ; but continued in secret intercourse 
 with my Saviour. At preaching this morning 
 
 1 was so overcome with the love and presence, 
 and exceeding glory of my triune God, that I 
 sunk down, unable to support it ! It was long 
 before I could stand or speak ! All this day 
 I have been lost in depths of love unutterable ! 
 At the love-feast I was again overwhelmed 
 with his immediate presence ! All around me 
 is God ! 
 
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 6 Within his circling arms I lie, 
 Beset on every side ! ' " 
 
 Some time after this, she writes : — 
 " As I came from meeting I was so over- 
 powered by the presence of God, that, had 
 not a friend supported me, I could not have 
 walked home. I was lost in the depths of 
 love, and admitted, as it were, into the im- 
 mediate presence of my Lord's glory ! Yet 
 I cannot explain it, for I saw no manner of 
 similitude ; and was humbled into the dust 
 before him ! It is often impressed on my 
 mind, the Lord is preparing me for some 
 severe trial. My whole soul cries out, Thy 
 will be done ! Only let thy grace be sufficient 
 for me. 
 
 4 Unsustain'd by thee, I fall ; 
 Send the help for which I call ; 
 Weaker than a bruised reed, 
 Help I every moment need ! ' 
 
 "Yes, — but, 
 
 * I all thy power shall prove ; — 
 Thy nature and thy name is love.* 
 
 " Blessed be God, I feel this day an increase 
 of holy nearness to him, and fellowship with 
 him. At the prayer meeting, my body was 
 
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 quite overcome for half an hour together ! so 
 did my Lord unfold his fulness of love to my 
 soul. I seemed as in the presence of his 
 glory, confounded and overwhelmed with a 
 sense of his purity, and his justice, his grace, 
 and love ! and was constrained to lie at his 
 feet in speechless adoration and humblest 
 praise ; while my body was covered with a 
 cold sweat, and all around thought I was 
 dying ! Well mightest thou say, O most 
 adorable Jehovah, ' No man can see my face 
 and live ! ' For, when thou displayest only 
 one faint ray, one glimpse of thy glorious 
 presence, this frail tabernacle is ready to 
 crumble into dust before thee ! — But, O ! I 
 shall one day be capable of beholding thee 
 face to face ! These eyes shall see thy glory ! 
 and gaze for ever in ecstatic bliss ! Now, 
 this corruptible clay cannot support itself 
 under the weight of thy love ; but then it 
 shall have put on incorruption, and be able 
 to enjoy the full and eternal fruition of thy 
 glory. " 
 
 Tuesday, June 4. — I find great weakness 
 of body, but much of the divine presence, 
 and resigned longings for immortality, I was 
 at five o'clock preaching this morning, and 
 
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 there the Lord shed his love abroad, and all 
 day I have had such a solemn nearness to 
 him as I cannot describe. I called on one 
 who, in the arms of death, is rejoicing in 
 redeeming love, — her will perfectly resigned, 
 and her evidence clear for a glorious eternity. 
 What a sight ! O Jesus, this is thy victory ! 
 O Satan, how art thou conquered ! 
 
 Tuesday, July 6. — My weakness of body 
 seems to increase ; and so does my union 
 with Him my soul loveth. I was so happy in 
 the night, that I had little sleep, and awoke 
 several times, with those words deeply im- 
 pressed, " The temple of an indwelling God." 
 His love humbles me in the dust ; it seems 
 as a mirror to discover my nothingness. 
 Sometimes my weakness of body seems quite 
 overpowered with the Lord's presence mani- 
 fested to my soul ; and I have thought I could 
 bear no more and live. But then I eagerly 
 cry, " O give me more and let me die ! I 
 long to be freed from earth ; but I am re- 
 signed to live and suffer here." I found the 
 following lines, which I received with some 
 others, very reviving : — 
 
 " My Dear Sister, — I fear I shall hardly 
 see you again till we meet in paradise. But 
 
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 if you should gradually decay, if you be 
 sensible of the hour approaching when your 
 spirit is to return to God, I should be glad to 
 have notice of it. It is a comfort ; to die is 
 not to be lost ! 
 
 * To earth-born pain superior you shall rise 
 Through the wide wave of unopposing skies : 
 When summoned hence, ascend heaven's high abode, 
 Converse with angels* and rejoice in God.' 
 
 Tell me, how far does the corruptible and de- 
 caying body press down the soul ! Your dis- 
 order naturally sinks the spirits, and occasions 
 heaviness and dejection. Can you, notwith- 
 standing this, rejoice evermore ? I shall be 
 glad to know if you experience something 
 similar to what Mr. De Renty expresses in 
 those strong words : ' I bear about with me 
 an experimental verity, and a plenitude of the 
 presence of the ever blessed Trinity ! ' Do 
 you commune with God in the night season ? 
 Does he bid you in sleep go on ? And 
 does he make even your very dreams devout ? 
 That he may fill you with all his fulness, is 
 the constant wish of," etc. 
 
 I praise my God, who enables me, in a de- 
 gree, to understand the above, and to answer 
 those deep questions in the affirmative. 
 
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 This day I have had much pain and weak- 
 ness of body, but my peace has been as a 
 river. O that my righteousness may be as 
 the waves of the sea ! My uncle hath dis- 
 owned my three cousins on account of hear- 
 ing the Methodists. My cousins R. and J. 
 are steadfast anJi more happy in God than 
 ever. Poor C. has given up Christ for the 
 world, and is therefore restored to the favor 
 of his earthly parent. But O ! how will he 
 appear when earth and heaven shall flee 
 away ! Lord, make it a warning to me, that 
 I may watch and pray and implore help every 
 moment. 
 
 Yesterday and to-day I have felt much in 
 body and mind. Attending my dear mother, 
 who is very ill, and sitting up with her till two 
 o'clock every morning for a week past, has 
 brought my body very low, together with my 
 grief on her soul's account. Yet I have a 
 secret confidence she will be spared till made 
 meet for glory. I have also wrestled much in 
 prayer respecting her. O my God, thou 
 knowest what I feel ! Hear me for that pre- 
 cious immortal soul, and make her thine ! 
 
 My mother was taken dangerously ill yes- 
 terday, and continues so. She takes little 
 
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 notice of anything ; but once to-day got hold 
 of my hand, and said, " Pray for me." I was 
 so much affected I could not answer her ; but 
 the Lord gave me a wrestling spirit in her 
 behalf, and keeps my mind stayed upon him. 
 
 On Wednesday, my mother's complaint set- 
 tled in one of her legs, and the doctor thinks 
 it will save her life. I believe it was in an- 
 swer to prayer. 
 
 Thursday I spoke very plainly to her of the 
 Lord's sparing mercy, and her need of a 
 divine work upon her soul, which she received 
 better than I expected, and told me she had 
 terrifying dreams last night. Yesterday, she 
 seemed quite of another spirit, and was severe 
 with me, but this morning there appeared 
 every mark of a rapid mortification in her leg, 
 and, calling hastily for me, she cried, " I am 
 gone ! I am gone ! Nothing can save my 
 life ! " The doctor was greatly alarmed ; and 
 I believed that unless God interfered by a 
 miracle of almighty power and saving mercy, 
 nothing could save her. She clasped me in 
 her arms, and, with streaming tears, cried, 
 " O my Hetty, forgive me all the uneasiness 
 I have given thee ; and O pray for thy poor 
 mother ! n My feelings were what cannot be 
 
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 expressed ; yet was I supported with a secret 
 hope in my God respecting her ; and, going 
 into a room alone, I was enabled to wrestle 
 with him in faith. I had such communion 
 with the Holy Trinity as words cannot de- 
 scribe ! I felt, I knew, my prayer was heard. 
 I returned to my mother, having been 
 absent for about half an hour. I desired I 
 might look again at her leg. But how it was 
 changed ! O my God ! let me never forget 
 thy mercy, thine indulgent, boundless love ! 
 The places where it was black as coal were 
 become a lively red, and the discharge of 
 water clear as crystal was quite stopped. The 
 doctor, coming in soon after, said with aston- 
 ishment : "She is now out of danger." I 
 could not forbear weeping aloud, and praising 
 the God of my life and the answerer of my 
 prayer. My poor mother also wept much : I 
 never saw her so deeply affected. O may 
 this be written on her heart never to be 
 effaced ! I kneeled down by her bed and re- 
 turned thanks to my God, and found more 
 than common liberty to pray for her salva- 
 tion. 
 
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 CHAPTER VI. 
 
 HER COMMUNION WITH THE FATHER, SON 
 AND HOLY GHOST. 
 
 There are many Christians of our day who 
 know something of God the Father, and have 
 a slight acquaintance with God the Son, but 
 they have never become acquainted with the 
 ever blessed Holy Ghost. But the Holy 
 Ghost is a person as much as the Father or 
 the Son, and we may become intimately ac- 
 quainted with each person of the Trinity. 
 
 None can read the memoirs or the journal 
 of Mrs. Rogers without being struck with the 
 remarkable and frequent mention of her in- 
 tercourse with each person of the Godhead. 
 It is very remarkable. I will give the reader 
 a few quotations. 
 
 Mrs. Rogers testifies "that she kept a diary 
 of her life from the time of her conversion to 
 God (in her seventeenth year) till within a 
 few days of her death, amounting, with her 
 
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 letters and other manuscript, to not less than 
 three thousand quarto pages, and every page 
 clearly discovers that for the space of more 
 than twenty years she enjoyed constant fel- 
 lowship and communion with the triune God, 
 and she never forsook her first love, nor lost 
 a sense of the divine favor. None but those 
 who live in the same spirit can properly con- 
 ceive the degree of intimacy which subsisted 
 between her and her God." She says, — 
 
 "On Trinity Sunday, June, 1776, I met in 
 the select society at six in the morning, and 
 it was a blessed season to my soul. 
 
 " Mr. Wright dwelt a little on the equal 
 love of each person in the adorable Trinity, 
 in a manner which I found truly profitable : 
 afterward he preached from Eph. ii, 18, 
 ' Through him we both have access by one 
 Spirit unto the Father/ He showed the dis- 
 tinct relative offices of Father, Son and Spirit, 
 in man's salvation, and that the love of the 
 Father was ever equal ; as also that of the 
 Son, and that of the Holy Ghost : that all the 
 designs of the Son were the designs of the 
 Father also, and of the Holy Ghost. He also 
 spoke much of the near union and commun- 
 ion with God, which believers might enjoy, 
 
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 especially those perfected in love. My soul 
 was led into depths unspeakable, and saw 
 such a fulness of God ready for me to plunge 
 . that what I now felt seemed only as a 
 crop compared with the ocean ! As I came 
 into the chapel yard I felt peculiar union with 
 the adorable Jesus, in all his offices of re- 
 deeming love ; and that verse of a hvmn was 
 so powerfully sweet as I had never felt it 
 before : — 
 
 ' The opening heavens around me shine, 
 
 With beams of sacred bliss : 
 While Jesus shows his mercy mine, 
 And whispers I am his.' 
 
 "I was deeply penetrated with his pres- 
 ence, and stood as if unable to move, and 
 was insensible to all around me. While thus 
 lost in communion with my Saviour, he spake 
 those words to my heart : l All that I have 
 is thine ! I am Jesus in whom dwells all the 
 fulness of the Godhead bodily — I am thine ! 
 My Spirit is thine ! My Father is thine ! 
 They love thee as I love thee — the whole 
 Deity is thine ! All God is, and all he has, is 
 thine ! He even now overshadows thee ! He 
 now covers thee with a cloud of his presence.' 
 
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 All this was so realized to my soul, in a man- 
 ner I cannot explain, that I sunk down mo- 
 tionless, being unable to sustain the weight 
 of his glorious presence and fulness of love. 
 At the altar this was renewed to me, but not 
 in so large a measure. I believe, indeed, if 
 this had continued as I felt it before, but for 
 one hour, mortality must have been dissolved 
 and the soul dislodged from its tenement of 
 clay." 
 
 " Friday, 21. — I prove through boundless 
 mercy and free grace, an increasing inter- 
 course and communion with my God every 
 day. I lived and moved in him alone ! Where- 
 ever I go, whatever I do, I feel the presence 
 of the great Three-One here. ' Yea, he dwell- 
 eth with me, and shall be in me/ This is his 
 promise to my soul. I feel I am under his 
 laving eye, and the continual guidance of his 
 Spirit. I do indeed dwell in God, and God 
 in me ! O love unsearchable to such a worm ! 
 
 * I loathe myself when God I see, 
 And into nothing fall ! ' 
 
 " Sunday, 23. — In meeting with the select 
 society again, I had unspeakable communion 
 with the blessed Trinity. I had the same at 
 
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 the preaching altar. Mr. Percival's text was, 
 1 O God, thou art my God.' A sense of the 
 divine presence almost overcame my body. 
 All the day I have been filled with a solemn 
 weight of love and swallowed up in God, 
 the eternal Father, Saviour, Comforter. At 
 church, while that anthem was sung, ' I know 
 that my Redeemer liveth, etc., I was so over- 
 whelmed with the power of God, and had 
 such a foretaste of his glory, I thought I 
 should have died ! O the depths of his indul- 
 gent, condescending love! He knows my 
 trials, and the need I have of such consola- 
 tions to strengthen and support my weak- 
 ness. 
 
 July 3. — In private prayer this morning 
 my soul was let into God in a peculiar man- 
 ner. My intercourse truly was with Father, 
 Son, and Spirit, each distinctly, yet undivid- 
 edly. I never felt more sweetness in offering 
 and delivering up my will, all my desires, yea, 
 every faculty of my soul, to the leadings and 
 guidings of the Holy Spirit ; and that prom- 
 ise is very precious : " He shall teach you all 
 things." 
 
 5th. Blessed be God, outward trials this 
 day could not interrupt my union with him. 
 
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 All compared with his love are mere straws, 
 too insignificant to dwell upon a moment ! 
 May I never look at anything but my heav- 
 enly Father, my loving Redeemer, my divine 
 Comforter ! 
 
 6th. My body is extremely weak, but my 
 soul filled with consolations from above. The 
 word of God is peculiarly precious, yea, as 
 David says, " sweeter than honey or the 
 honey-comb.'' Yes, with him I prove it "a 
 lantern to my feet and a light to my paths." 
 It is a cordial in trials, a sword that cuts down 
 my every foe, and a shield which, wielded by 
 faith, repels every dart. I would not ex- 
 change my title to one written promise for 
 ten thousand worlds ! And are all the prom- 
 ises mine ? O my soul, what a portion ! O 
 my God, thy love secures them all to me ! In 
 Christ Jesus, my covenant-surety, they are all 
 yea and amen to my soul. 
 
 I have had sweet union and communion 
 with the adorable Trinity, and his love pene- 
 trates my soul and humbles me in the dust. 
 I feel myself unworthy of the least of his mer- 
 cies, yet He, the source of bliss, unites him- 
 self to me, and calls himself my God ! Yea, 
 he owns me for his child ; he listens to my 
 
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 every cry, supplies my every want, reveals 
 himself my Friend, my Father, and my God ! 
 He teaches me in ignorance, strengthens 
 me in weakness, comforts me in trouble, 
 gives me power to do his will, and then re- 
 wards ! 
 
 March 7. — I awoke in a spirit of prayer 
 and of love, and in secret renewed my cov- 
 enant with God, even the Father, the Word 
 and the Holy Ghost, surrendering afresh my 
 body and soul, with all their powers, to be kept, 
 guided and governed by him in all things. 
 He owned me for his child, and sweetly as- 
 sured me, "I am thy God." I sunk into 
 nothingness before him, but felt him my all 
 in all. I was so filled with gratitude, after 
 breakfast, while singing, 
 
 " Through hidden dangers, toils and deaths, 
 He gently cleared my way ; 
 And through the pleasing snares of youth, 
 More to be feared than they." 
 
 that my eyes overflowed with tears. 
 
 I have been very ill the past week. It was 
 thought I had a malignant fever. On Tues- 
 day, my fever was high, and my head much 
 affected, but I found inexpressible sweetness 
 
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 in my God, hanging, as it were, between life 
 and death, wholly at his divine disposal who 
 gave me breath, and whose alone I am. 
 Thursday, and yesterday also, I continued 
 very ill, but last night the fever apparently 
 left me. 
 
 I dreamed in the night that I was convers- 
 ing with a friend, and that an effusion of 
 divine love overflowed my soul and overpow- 
 ered the faculties of nature ; and I was, as it 
 were, caught up to heaven, and unutterably 
 lost in God. I thought, however, my bodily 
 powers and faculties returned ; and when 
 come to myself my friend asked me what I 
 felt or saw when thus overpowered, and I 
 answered it was unspeakable ; I could not 
 explain it. He then inquired what ideas I 
 felt most impressed on my heart when I came 
 to myself, and I replied : " The unmerited 
 condescension of the adorable Trinity to the 
 most unworthy of worms, with sweet and 
 peculiar views of the Godhead manifested in 
 Jesus Christ, and the equal love of the Father 
 and the Holy Spirit." 
 
 In continued weakness of body, my God is 
 graciously near, and I have sweet intercourse 
 with the adorable Trinity ; and in prayer my 
 
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 God seems to say : " Ask what thou wilt, and 
 :ne unto thee." I have had pecu- 
 liar power to ask the salvation of S. EL, and 
 
 also this day wrote a faithful letter, which I 
 intend to get copied by a friend and put into 
 the Chester post. I believe my Lord will 
 hear me for that soul. 
 
 At night I found liberty to speak to my 
 mother of the happiness my soul feels in God. 
 How dadlv I could leave the bodv beinsr as- 
 sured of eternal glory, through Jesus' blood, 
 which has drawn the sting of death ! 
 
 4th. I bless thee, O my adorable Lord, for 
 great nearness to thyself this day. My soul 
 hath fed on angels' food, and lives on earth 
 the life of heaven ; for what is heaven but 
 love ? What is it but the full fruition of the 
 God of love ? But as none comprehends the 
 blessedness of loving thee, even on earth, 
 with all the soul, and mind, and strength ; of 
 dwelling in thee, and having constant com- 
 munion with the Father and the Son through 
 the Spirit who reveals the Triune God ; how 
 can our most enlarged capacity, then, con- 
 ceive of thy glory when thou unveilest the 
 brightness of thy face to disembodied spirits, 
 so that the wondering hosts above shall lie 
 
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 forever at thy feet, lost in an ecstasy of 
 praise ? 
 
 " What more than ecstasy, when all, 
 
 Struck to the golden pavement fall, 
 
 And silence speaks thy praise ! " 
 
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 CHAPTER VII. 
 
 HER COXXECTIOX WITH JOHN WESLEY AND 
 . JOHN FLETCHER. 
 
 John Fletcher stood in the same relation 
 to John Wesley as Melancthon did to Martin 
 Luther. The one was a Reformer, the other 
 was a Defender, and in each case God raised 
 them both up to mutually help each other, 
 and to push forward his cause and kingdom. 
 Miss Roe (who was afterwards Mrs. Rogers) 
 had a very close connection with John Wes- 
 ley and John Fletcher. They were socially, 
 intellectually, morally and spiritually on the 
 same plane. They were each " contending 
 for the faith once delivered to the saints/' 
 and for the highest experiences of our holy 
 religion. John Wesley acted the part of a 
 father to this fatherless minister's daughter. 
 He treated her as his daughter in the gospel, 
 for she was converted in connection with his 
 first visit to her native town. Some of her 
 choicest letters were written to him. 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. JJ 
 
 She says, in her journal : Yesterday, Mr. 
 Wesley arrived and seemed more filled with 
 the spirit of his Lord than I ever knew him 
 to be. I spent an hour with him soon after 
 he came, and it was a season of blessings. 
 The recollections of what the Lord had 
 wrought for me since I saw him last, both in 
 his dealings in providence and grace, con- 
 strained me to vent the emotions of my grate- 
 ful heart in tears, and the Lord's dear servant 
 rejoiced with me and over me with parental 
 affection. Well may I sing with joyful lips, 
 
 " O the infinite cares, and temptations, and snares, 
 Thy hand hath conducted me through ; 
 O the blessings bestowed of a bountiful God 
 And the mercies eternally new ! " 
 
 Dear Mr. Wesley preached at five this 
 morning, from " Jesus increased in wisdom 
 and stature, and in favor with God and man." 
 O my God, if he in whom there was never 
 spot of sin could grow in wisdom and thy 
 favor, well mayest thou exhort thy saints to 
 grow in grace. Lord, help me ! O may I 
 increase in every grace, 
 
 " And deeper sink and higher rise, 
 Till thou transplant me to the skies." 
 
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 The text yesterday evening was, " I am the 
 resurrection and the life : he that believeth in 
 me, though he were dead, yet shall he live ; 
 and whosoever liveth and believeth in me 
 shall never die." John xi, 25, 26. How sweetly 
 did Mr. Wesley prove from this the Godhead 
 of Christ, and then spiritualize the subject, 
 showing faith to be the one and only condi- 
 tion of salvation, and therefore offered, in the 
 name of Christ, life to all who would now be- 
 lieve ; enforcing the latter promise also, " He 
 that liveth and believeth in me shall never 
 die." 
 
 This morning at five he strongly enforced, 
 " The kingdom of heaven suffereth violence, 
 and the violent take it by force." After 
 breakfast we had a profitable season in visit- 
 ing the sick. Two precious souls proved 
 that the feet of our Master were behind us ; 
 for he spoke liberty and peace to. their 
 wounded spirits, and we left them rejoic- 
 ing in his love. Mr. Wesley, as he came out, 
 said, " Salvation has come to this house," 
 while the tears trickled down his cheeks. 
 
 O how present was the God of love while 
 his servant insisted on that text, " With men 
 this is impossible, but with God all things are 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 79 
 
 possible !" How sweetly and clearly did he 
 prove that the blood of Jesus cleanseth from 
 all sin ; inviting all to partake of this great 
 salvation, and to come now by faith ; enforc- 
 ing that " one day is with the Lord as a thou- 
 sand years ;" and observing, that every work 
 of God on the soul of man, is for Eternity. 
 
 Mr. Wesley preached at five this morning, 
 from "O Timothy, keep that which is com- 
 mitted to thy trust." He showed what were 
 the things committed to Timothy, and then 
 confined his discourse to the particular doc- 
 trines committed to the Methodists, and in- 
 sisted that the doctrine of Christian Perfection 
 was the one peculiar point they were called 
 to preach and practise, and that no other 
 people under heaven did clearly insist on this 
 as a present and an instantaneous salvation. 
 
 Again she writes : 
 
 Soon after Mr. Wesley arrived I drank 
 tea with him at Mr. Ryle's. I think he is 
 more alive and full of love to God than ever. 
 I spent some time with him in the evening, 
 and he behaved with fatherly affection. I 
 never had more solid comfort in his company ; 
 never found it more truly profitable. 
 
 Mr. Wesley preached in the morning at 
 
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 five from " Blessed are they that hunger and 
 thirst after righteousness ; for they shall be 
 filled.'' He addressed his discourse princi- 
 pally to believers, and offered a free and pres- 
 ent salvation from all sin in forcible terms. 
 Many were comforted and established in the 
 faith. 
 
 I breakfasted with him at nine o'clock, and 
 accompanied him in his chaise to Leek, where 
 at one o'clock he offered salvation to all from 
 " The kingdom of heaven is at hand." He 
 showed, first, when the Gospel of Christ is 
 preached, and received, in any nation, city, 
 town, neighborhood, or family, it may be said 
 the kingdom of God is set up there ; or if any 
 individual embraces Christ and the glad tid- 
 ings of salvation by faith, the kingdom of 
 God is set up in that heart and completed 
 when his kingly power is manifested, and all 
 his foes in that heart slain, so that he reigns 
 alone. Then, secondly, what it consists in : 
 righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy 
 Ghost; all these begun by justification ; but 
 when " Holiness to the Lord " is written upon 
 the living tablet of the heart, that whatever 
 would oppose itself to them is entirely rooted 
 out. He then enforced the text : this "king. 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 8 1 
 
 dom of heaven is at hand." He addressed 
 himself to people of all states and conditions, 
 young and old, to drunkards, swearers, Sab- 
 bath-breakers, thieves, liars, and lewd persons, 
 and told them : " You may now be delivered 
 from the power of your most besetting sins 
 even this day, this moment. The kingdom 
 of heaven is at hand. Serve the devil no 
 longer ; he is a bad master. Yield now to 
 him who loveth you, who died for you, who will 
 save you from your sins here and from hell 
 hereafter." 
 
 As we returned, Mr. Wesley said : " I never 
 saw a more lovely congregation ; they were 
 like melting wax, just fit for divine impres- 
 sions. But God was with us, there's the 
 secret ! " tears filling his eyes. 
 
 At six he preached in our chapel. His 
 text was " God resist eth the proud, and giv- 
 eth grace to the humble : humble yourselves 
 therefore under the mighty hand of God." 
 When I returned home in the evening I 
 found my dear mother quite kind and affec- 
 tionate, and Cousin Robert and I both prayed 
 with her. O my God, thou canst do all 
 things ! 
 
 Easter Day, March 31st. — Rev. Mr. Wes- 
 
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 ley preached at the new church this morning 
 from " Christ is risen indeed." He showed 
 that there is a rational and experimental evi- 
 dence of this, but that the latter is to be pre- 
 ferred ; that as Christ Jesus rose again for 
 our justification, so the moment any vile, pol- 
 luted sinner believes on Christ, and is justi- 
 fied, in that instant this experimental evidence 
 begins ; he receives the Spirit of adoption 
 whereby he can at that moment cry, " Abba, 
 Father, my Lord and my God ! " But this 
 experimental evidence is much stronger when 
 that promise is fulfilled, " I will send the 
 Comforter to abide with you forever." He 
 then observed that this indwelling of God as 
 our sanctifier is the privilege of all believers, 
 and is received by faith in like manner as jus- 
 tification. 
 
 We will now record some of her blessed 
 interviews with Rev. John Fletcher. Mark 
 the following account of their meeting : 
 
 I was kept all day in solemn expectation of 
 blessings in seeing and conversing with Mr. 
 Fletcher, till just before he arrived it was 
 suggested, " Thou wilt be disappointed ; thou 
 art expecting from man and not from God." 
 For a moment my faith seemed staggered ; but 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 83 
 
 I fell on my knees before the Lord, owning 
 him as the only source of all my hope and 
 happiness, and he so abundantly filled me 
 with his love that I was almost overpowered, 
 and felt as if I must have expired at his feet 
 had not tears relieved me. During these 
 moments of communion with my God, Mr. 
 Fletcher, Miss Bosanquet and Mrs. Crosby 
 arrived. When I entered the room the heav- 
 enly man was giving out the following hymn 
 with such animation that I seldom witnessed ; 
 
 " Near us, assisting, Jesus stand ; 
 
 Give us his opening heavens to see : 
 Thee to behold at God's right hand, 
 And yield our panting souls to thee." 
 
 After this he poured out his soul to God in 
 prayer. Indeed his every breath seemed to 
 be a continuance of prayer, or praise, or spiri- 
 tual instruction, and every word that fell from 
 his lips appeared to be accompanied by an 
 action from above. 
 
 Then Mr. Fletcher explained what he 
 meant by the expression that "all who enjoy 
 perfect love possess also the gift of prophecy/' 
 By this he did not mean the miraculous gift 
 of foretelling future events, but the magnify- 
 
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 ing God by speaking unto men with a new 
 heart of love and the new tongue of praise, as 
 on the day of Pentecost those who were filled 
 with the Holy Ghost glorified God by speak- 
 ing of his wonderful works as the Spirit gave 
 them utterance. This utterance he called the 
 gift of prophecy, and earnestly insisted that 
 we might all prove the same baptismal fire of 
 love that descended on that day on the prime- 
 val Church, seeing the promise was unto them 
 and to their children, and to all them that are 
 afar off, even as many as the Lord our God 
 shall call ; that we, as they, if we assert our 
 privilege, may, with great power, bear witness 
 of the grace of our Lord Jesus, and spread 
 the flame of love we feel by speaking unto 
 edification, and exhortation, and comfort 
 among all our acquaintance. One hundred 
 and twenty such souls, he believed, would set 
 the world on fire. 
 
 But, he observed, the reason why those per- 
 fected in love did not more fully spread the 
 savor of grace was, because they do not, in 
 general, plead for a more abundant outpour- 
 ing of the Holy Spirit, both in his gifts and 
 graces. He then earnestly exhorted all pres- 
 ent to seek this fulness of love and this gift 
 
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 of utterance, and taking my hand, proceeded, 
 " Will you, my sister, be one who shall spread 
 the sacred flame ? " 
 
 He also said, " Come, my friend, I will 
 covenant with you : we will join to magnify 
 the Lord, and bear our testimony before men 
 and angels. Will you ? " 
 
 In deep humility, but filled with the pres- 
 ence and power of God, I answered, with 
 flowing tears, " In the strength of God I 
 will." 
 
 " Glory be to God ! Glory be to God ! " said 
 he, many times over, and his holy soul was 
 filled with praise. Lord, strengthen my feeble 
 dust to keep this covenant even unto death. 
 
 Last Wednesday evening, she writes, Mr. 
 Fletcher instructed and commanded me by 
 his word, " Reckon yourselves, therefore, to 
 be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God, 
 through Jesus Christ." I obeyed the voice 
 of God, and now obey it, by declaring the 
 praise of his love. I am free from sin. Yea, 
 I now bear witness to the glory of his grace. 
 I am "dead indeed unto sin, and alive unto 
 God through Jesus Christ. ,, 
 
 Mr. Fletcher then related his experience, 
 as follows : 
 
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 " I have received this blessing four or five 
 times before, but I grieved the spirit of God 
 by not making confession, and as often I let 
 it go. I lost it by not observing and obeying 
 the order of God, who hath told us, 'With 
 the heart man believeth unto righteousness, 
 and with the mouth confession is made unto 
 salvation ; ' which latter I neglected. 
 
 "Once the tempter suggested, 'What you 
 feel cannot be the blessing : perfection is 
 something higher. You are not delivered 
 from mistakes, ignorances, real errors in judg- 
 ment, in memory, etc. ; therefore, though you 
 are delivered from sinful tempers, you ought 
 not to make a profession that you are holy/ 
 I listened to these things, and soon discov- 
 ered I had lost what God had bestowed. 
 
 " When I had reobtained the same glorious 
 deliverance, the bait was offered under an- 
 other form. The enemy now said, 'Wait a 
 few days, or weeks, and see if the fruits of 
 sanctification appear, before you profess so 
 great a salvation ! ' I had no sooner yielded 
 to wait for the fruits, but I began to doubt of 
 the witness which before I had felt in my 
 heart, and was in a little time sensible I had 
 lost both. 
 
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 " A third time, with shame I confess it, I 
 was kept from being a witness for my Lord 
 by the suggestion, ' Thou art a public charac- 
 ter, a city set upon a hill ; the world and pro- 
 fessors have all an eye upon thee ; and if 
 some future trial should overcome thee, or if, 
 as before, thou shouldest, by any means lose 
 the blessing, what a dishonor and reproach 
 will it be to the doctrine of heart-holiness !" 
 
 " A fourth time Satan prevailed over a worm 
 by, ' It is true thou art now freed from sin ; 
 thou knowest that Gospel perfection is per- 
 fect love ; that love is the fulfilling of the law, 
 not of Adam, but of Gospel grace ; and that 
 many ignorances, mistakes, etc., are consistent 
 with perfect love ; but how many thousands 
 will not believe this ! How many affirm that 
 every transgression of the Adamic law, the 
 law of perfect innocence suited to Adam's 
 sinless nature, his perfect body and soul, 
 every transgression of this law is sin! and 
 therefore if thou profess thyself freed from 
 sin, all these will give thy profession the lie. 
 Enjoy therefore what God hath wrought in 
 thy soul, and hold it fast, without declaring 
 publicly, " I am freed from sin ; I am holy ; I 
 am perfect in love." ' But again I found, ' he 
 
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 that hideth his Lord's talent, and improveth 
 it not, from that unprofitable servant shall be 
 taken away^even that he hath.' 
 
 " Now, my brethren, you see my folly. I 
 have confessed in your presence, and now 
 I resolve in your presence also, henceforth I 
 will confess my master to all the world. And 
 I declare unto you, in the presence of God, 
 the Holy Trinity, I am now * dead indeed 
 unto sin/ I do not say I am crucified with 
 Christ, because some would say by this you 
 can only mean a gradual dying unto sin, for a 
 man who is crucified is a long time in dying. 
 But I profess unto you I am dead unto sin, 
 and that as effectually as my original nature 
 was freed from righteousness. But then if 
 our good brethren (the Calvinists) will still 
 insist every ignorance, every involuntary mis- 
 take, is a sin, we will not quarrel. Then in 
 this sense I am not free from sin, for I 
 am not freed from these things. But if I 
 may venture to believe my Lord Jesus, 
 if love be the fulfilling of the law, then I 
 know that these things are consistent with 
 love, with a single eye and a pure heart ; and 
 I therefore dare to reckon thus in the pres- 
 ence of you all, and I mean to declare myself 
 
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 henceforth, before men and angels, ' dead in- 
 deed unto sin, and alive unto God, through 
 Jesus Christ/ 
 
 " Mind, it is through Jesus and in Jesus, 
 not independent of him, or separate from him. 
 I have taken him to be my prophet, priest, 
 and king, my indwelling holiness, my all in 
 all. He is all I want, and I wait for the more 
 full and entire fulfilment of that prayer of 
 Christ, Let them be one in us ; even that pen- 
 tecostal blessing, that baptism of the Spirit 
 poured out on the whole church, now upon 
 earth, that shall make -us all of one heart and 
 one mind. O for the feelings of the dispensa- 
 tion of the Holy Ghost ! O my brethren, O 
 sisters, pray for the effusion of the Spirit ! 
 Wrestle, agonize with God, till it be given. ,, 
 
 Then he called upon all present to confess 
 the Lord Jesus, and said, " If any have not 
 the gift of utterance, pray for it, and it shall 
 be given. You are commanded to love and 
 earnestly pray for gifts, not for your sake, 
 but for that of the church. A man without 
 gifts is like a thing in disguise, he appears as 
 a subject only. You are kings and priests 
 unto God, put on your robes and wear your 
 garter conspicuous to all, i Holiness to the 
 
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 Lord.' Reckon yourselves now dead indeed 
 unto sin." 
 
 After Mr. Fletcher ceased, about thirty 
 witnessed for Jesus that they, through grace, 
 were dead indeed unto sin, and alive unto 
 God, through Jesus Christ, our Lord. Num- 
 bers were so affected that they could not 
 speak. I sank into nothing. I was lost in 
 the fulness of the Triune God ! 
 
 When the meeting was concluded, Mr. F., 
 taking hold of my hand, said, " Glory be to 
 God, my dear sister, for the testimony you 
 have borne this night!" and, still holding my 
 hand between his, he repeated several times, 
 "Glory be to God ! " I was so afresh filled 
 with a weight of love, that I was constrained 
 to retire and vent my full soul in tears before 
 the Lord. 
 
 Then she was called to the important posi- 
 tion of leading a class, of which she writes as 
 follows : 
 
 Mr. Smith told me this morning that he 
 had promised I should lead his class. I felt 
 some exercises of mind respecting it, through 
 a deep sense of mine own insufficiency; yet, 
 w r hen he urged it, I dared not refuse, and I 
 found comfort in that word, " My strength is 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 9 1 
 
 made perfect in weakness;" and, as I went 
 to the class, that promise was given, " My 
 presence shall go with thee." I opened the 
 hymn book on that precious hymn : 
 
 " O for a heart to praise my God," etc.; 
 
 and in singing it was filled indeed with the 
 divine presence and love unspeakable. Prayer 
 was as the gate of heaven, and I sensibly felt 
 that the words given me to speak were not 
 my own. I think I never was so entirely led 
 out of myself, and influenced by a divine 
 power, while the people seemed like melting 
 wax before the fire. O my Lord, let me meet 
 them in thy kingdom ! 
 
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 CHAPTER VIII. 
 
 SOME OF HER SPIRITUAL LETTERS. 
 
 Letter to Mr, Robert Roe, when at college, about six 
 months after his conversion. 
 
 Macclesfield, Nov. 29, 1776. 
 
 Dear Cousin, — As I find, by your brother, 
 you have been reasoning with the enemy of 
 your soul, and thereby, in some measure, have 
 distressed your own mind ; and as you request 
 me to write, I dare not refuse, for I know 
 God can use the weakest instrument to com- 
 fort his children ; and often does, that we may 
 ascribe all glory to him alone. May he who 
 comforteth those who are cast down, be your 
 support. 
 
 As to your falling from God I do not fear 
 it ; and I am sure it is your happy privilege 
 constantly to rejoice in his love, — that love 
 which so clearly spoke your sins forgiven. 
 Oppose that adversary of your soul by faith ; 
 
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 this shield (saith the apostle) " shall quench 
 all the fiery darts of the wicked." Be reso- 
 lute, and determine to conquer. Jesus, in our 
 nature, hath bruised the serpent's head ; and 
 your union with your living Head will give 
 you power to conquer too. Fear not, saith 
 God, for I will help thee. By a simple living 
 faith cleave constantly to Jesus ; and though 
 earth and hell combine, they shall not be able 
 to overcome or hurt you. Believe even 
 against hope ! and when things seem impos- 
 sible to you, weak and helpless as you are, 
 remember they are possible with God. Lay 
 open to him your every care : 
 
 a His heart is made of tenderness : 
 His bowels melt with love." 
 
 He delighteth not to see his children 
 mourning, cast down and oppressed ; but 
 kindly saith, " I will not leave you comfort- 
 less, I will come unto you:" and again, "I 
 will send you the Spirit of truth, that he may 
 abide with you for ever." The privileges of 
 a justified soul are very great ; for, " if a child, 
 then an heir, an heir of God," — of all his 
 promises. Praise God that you feel the ne- 
 cessity of heart holiness, and press after it, 
 even after " all the mind which was in Christ 
 
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 Jesus." He is already your wisdom and 
 righteousness, and he will become your sanc- 
 tification. O look for it, seek it, expect it ; 
 expect it as you are, expect it now. Behold, 
 saith God, I stand at the door and knock : 
 open to your Beloved, and he will come in 
 and fill your happy soul. 
 
 Be diligent in your studies. It may be a 
 cross, but take it up for Christ's sake, and it 
 will not hurt your soul. Above all, continue 
 in prayer ; often read the word of God upon 
 your knees and his Spirit will explain it to 
 your heart. With respect to your situation, 
 or any temporal thing, be not careful ; live 
 the present moment, and lay no scheme for 
 to-morrow ; you may then be in eternity ! 
 " Instead of busying our minds," saith Wes- 
 ley, " with dwellings on the grievous part of 
 what is past or to come, we should remember 
 that the gospel does not permit us to dwell 
 on anything but the presence and love of God 
 who fills our souls." However you may be 
 tempted, resolve you will not reason, except 
 with the Lord at the throne of grace. Seek 
 more union and communion with your God : 
 you may attain much of this, even before you 
 are sanctified. But O ! never rest till all your 
 
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 evil nature be destroyed, and every root of 
 bitterness plucked up; till you have given 
 your God all your loving heart. And remem- 
 ber with him, " Now is the accepted time — 
 now is the day of salvation." He cannot be 
 more willing or more powerful than he is to- 
 day. 
 
 As to myself, I see no end to my Lord's 
 goodness. I find every day an increase of 
 love, joy, peace and union, close, intimate 
 union with the Great Three-One. 
 
 " All my treasure is above, 
 All my riches is his love." 
 
 I feel I am very unworthy, yet offering up 
 myself and my services on that altar which 
 sanctifieth the gift, my God accepts a worth- 
 less worm through his beloved Son. He who 
 is higher than- the highest, stoops to dwell in 
 my happy soul ; and I have communion with 
 him as a man and a friend. Sometimes in 
 the night he so fills my soul with his glorious 
 presence, that I think it will burst its prison 
 and wing away: and then, O then, where 
 should I be ? Surrounded with angels, and 
 convoyed by them to my God — my life, my 
 treasure, and my crown ! I can even now 
 
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 scarce support the blissful thought. O what 
 a present heaven of love I feel ! 
 
 ,; O what are all our sufferings here, 
 If, Lord, thou count us meet 
 With that enraptured host t' appear, 
 And worship at thy feet." 
 
 It cannot be long ere we lay these bodies 
 down : — 
 
 u Our conflicts here shall soon be past, 
 And you and I ascend at last, 
 Triumphant with our Head ! 
 
 Rejoice in glorious hope ; 
 
 Jesus the Judge shall come, 
 And take his servants up 
 To their eternal home : 
 We soon shall hear the archangel's voice, 
 The trump of God shall sound, ' Rejoice ! ' " 
 
 I remain your sincere friend in Jesus, 
 
 H. A. ROE. 
 
 Letter to the same. 
 
 Macclesfield, Dec. 10, 1776. 
 
 My Dear Cousin. — I am thankful if mv 
 letter was any comfort to your mind ; to God 
 be all the glory : I hope you are now enabled 
 to rejoice, and are filled with that peace which 
 from believing flows. I hope your heavenly 
 intercourse is open, and that day by day you 
 
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 open still wider the door of your heart, that 
 you may more and more be filled with God. 
 
 " Ready are you to receive, 
 Readier is your God to give." 
 
 I trust your studies are now made a bless- 
 ing, and that in them you enjoy the presence 
 of Jesus. Let not little difficulties discourage 
 us who serve so good a master: — us who have 
 in view a heaven of glory ! Jesus left that 
 heaven — to suffer, bleed, and die on our be- 
 half : O ! then, let us take up our every cross, 
 and despising the shame, manfully suffer 
 with him ! Love makes all things easy : 
 
 " 'Tis this that makes our cheerful feet 
 In swift obedience move ; 
 'Tis this shall tune our joyful song 
 In those sweet realms above." 
 
 I long to be all dissolved in love ; for " God 
 is love ; and he that dwelleth in love, dwelleth 
 in God, and God in him." 
 
 I have had many trials and some tempta- 
 tions of late ; but I am firmly persuaded that 
 while I cleave simply to Jesus, nothing shall 
 be able to separate me from his love : no, nor 
 to lessen the divine flame which I feel con- 
 tinually burning in my heart. Those pre- 
 
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 cious words, " My grace is sufficient for thee," 
 shall stand firm as the pillars of heaven : and 
 when the enemy would tell me — In such and 
 such a trial thou wilt be entangled and over- 
 come, I tell him, "My Lord hath prom- 
 ised strength equal to my day," and all his 
 darts are instantly repelled. Nor do I only 
 conquer : but after my enemy is put to flight, 
 I have more love, more peace, and nearer 
 union with my God. O the blessedness of 
 intimate fellowship with him ! — of possess- 
 ing that testimony that we please him : surely 
 it is a taste of heaven : and yet it is only a 
 drop out of the ocean : as a grain of sand 
 compared with the sands on the sea-shore ; 
 only the beginning of an eternity of glory. 
 O ! for an archangel's tongue to magnify our 
 adorable Redeemer's name ! We can but lisp 
 his praises here ; but we shall join in nobler 
 strains above, to praise for evermore the 
 Three in One : 
 
 §i The heavenly principle assures, 
 And swells my soul with strong desires 
 To grasp the starry crown." 
 
 The Lord is carrying on a glorious work 
 here. Our love feast last week was a blessed 
 season of the outpourings of his Spirit : every 
 
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 one had reason to say, " This is none other 
 than the house of God ; this is the gate of 
 heaven." Several, who came there burdened 
 and heavy-laden, went away rejoicing ; three 
 found a clear sense of pardon, and two others 
 were set at perfect liberty from the remains 
 of sin. The preachers all wept abundantly 
 tears of joy, so were they filled with God : 
 and indeed I believe there were very few dry 
 eyes. Mr. Percival says there is just such 
 another pouring out of the Spirit in Bolton : 
 above thirty joined the society there in ten 
 days. I know this will rejoice your heart. 
 O let us pray much for a guilty world ! I 
 believe this will be a glorious year of the 
 power of God. I do not cease to pray for 
 you ; and remain your affectionate cousin and 
 friend, h. a. roe. 
 
 Letter written at a time when she was supposed to be 
 near death, and addressed to a lady of her ac- 
 quaintance. 
 
 Macclesfield, Jan. 9, 1778. 
 
 Farewell, my friend ! To the care of 
 that God of truth and love, who hath been so 
 gracious unto me, I commend you. May you 
 prove all the riches of his grace in life, and 
 
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 lay down this earthly tabernacle with the 
 same joy and assurance of hope as I now 
 do. " I have fought the good fight, I have 
 finished my course, I have kept the faith ; 
 and henceforth there is laid up for me a crown 
 [a never-fading crown] of righteousness, which 
 the Lord, the righteous Judge, shall give me 
 at that day." I joyfully declare, it is by grace 
 alone I am saved : Jesus is all in all, and I am 
 nothing without him. 
 
 I believe you will bear with a friend if she 
 leave the following dying cautions : and O 
 may the spirit of holiness write them on your 
 heart : Deny yourself wholly, take up your 
 cross daily, and follow Christ fully. Watch, 
 fast, pray. Avoid all occasions of temptation 
 resolutely ; but if at any time you are over- 
 come, delay not to fall at the feet of Christ 
 that moment for pardon and strength. The 
 eyes of earth and heaven are upon you : many 
 wait for your halting, more, I trust, wish you 
 success in the name of the Lord : I am sure I 
 do, and therefore write without reserve. Take 
 care of your own understanding : do not suffer 
 yourself to think of it but with deep abase- 
 ment that you have made no better use of it. 
 Do not adorn your body now if you wish to 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. IOI 
 
 be found adorned with Christ in the day of 
 eternity. I sit under the shadow of my Be- 
 loved. ' While I write, I feel him sustaining 
 my soul. O Jesus, great is thy goodness, 
 great is thy mercy ! I feel my insufficiency 
 to speak of the goodness of my God : it is 
 more than I am able to express : I enjoy in 
 him all I want ; but am daily more sensible 
 how little I am. O how his grace is magni- 
 fied in a poor worm ! You also have tasted 
 of his love ; may you follow him fully and 
 steadfastly. While you do this, though 
 storms should arise, and winds blow, they 
 will only settle and fix you more fully on the 
 Rock which cannot be moved. Believe sim- 
 ply and constantly, so shall you love stead- 
 fastly and entirely : then shall the Lord guide 
 you continually, and satisfy your soul in 
 drought ; and your soul shall be as a 
 watered garden, and as springs of water that 
 fail hot. 
 
 Farewell, — I was going to say for ever ; 
 but ah ! no. I shall see you again : may it be 
 where we shall rejoice together in that joy 
 which cannot be taken away from us : then 
 shall we part no more, but live for ever in the 
 presence of our Jesus. h. a. roe. 
 
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 Letter to Mr. Robert Roe. 
 
 Macclesfield, Feb. 12, 1778. 
 
 Dear Cousin, • — Since I wrote you before, 
 I have been, to appearance, on the borders of 
 eternity. My body was indeed brought very 
 low ; but my soul was full of heavenly vigor, 
 and longing for immortality. O what heav- 
 enly transport filled my ravished breast, when 
 I thought I had done, for ever done, with all 
 below ; and, as I then thought, in a few days, 
 or weeks at most, I should leave my cum- 
 brous clay, to bask in the beams of uncreated 
 beauty, — should stand before the slaugh- 
 tered Lamb, and see the wonders reserved for 
 me : 
 
 " Should fall at his feet, 
 And the story repeat, 
 And the lover of sinners adore." 
 
 When I should be lost in Father, Son, and 
 Spirit, — overwhelmed and implunged in the 
 fathomless abyss of all eternity. What I felt 
 cannot be described : it was a real taste of 
 joys immortal; it was a drop of heaven let 
 down. But, behold ! I am yet spared ; infin- 
 ite Wisdom protracts my stay a little longer, 
 and I bow my soul in resignation at his feet. 
 I am not my own, but his ; and O ! may my 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. IO3 
 
 language ever be, " Not as I will, but as thou 
 wilt." I find I need not drop the body to 
 enjoy the presence of my God : he dwells in 
 my heart : in him I live, — he surrounds, sup- 
 ports, sustains me : wrapped in his being, I 
 resound his praise ! O the heartfelt com- 
 munion my soul enjoys with him — the inti- 
 mate converse, the sweet fellowship ! My 
 spirit is filled and yet enlarged. It often 
 seems as if mortality could bear no more ; 
 and yet my desires are insatiable. I long to 
 plunge deeper into God. 
 
 I rejoice to find, by your last letter, that 
 you are cleaving to your Lord, and happy in 
 his precious love. O that every day and hour 
 you breathe, you may sink deeper into him ! 
 All, all you want is there. Let not your 
 trials be any discouragement : nay, " Rejoice 
 and be exceeding glad, for great is your 
 reward in heaven." Remember every cross 
 is a pledge of your crown, and all your suffer- 
 ings will add to your eternal weight of glory. 
 I hope you are all in earnest for the precious 
 pearl of perfect love ; O look up to a present 
 and a faithful God ! Ask, and you shall re- 
 ceive ; all things in him are now ready : be 
 not faithless, but believing. Hath he said, 
 
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 " I will circumcise thy heart," and will he 
 not do it ? Sooner shall heaven and earth 
 pass away than his promise fail, if you only 
 embrace it by believing. O claim your privi- 
 lege — the inheritance of the land of promise, 
 the rest of holiness purchased for you by 
 blood ! Go up and possess it — fear not — 
 come now, just as you are — empty, to be 
 filled — filthy, to be cleansed. 
 
 " Sink into the purple flood, 
 Rise to all the life of God." 
 
 Be assured I ever remember you at the 
 throne of grace, and remain your friend and 
 sister in Jesus, h. a. roe. 
 
 Letter to Miss Bourn, of Newcastle, Staffordshire. 
 Macclesfield, Aug. 20, 1778. 
 
 My Dear Sister, — I was glad to receive 
 yours by Mr. Hall. It always gives me 
 pleasure to hear from you. In the bonds of 
 divine love, my soul is united to yours : and, 
 from the contents of your letter, as well as 
 the power I had in your behalf with God, I 
 am assured that before long you will be a 
 happy witness that Jesus can and will, and 
 does destroy the last remains of sin in his 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. IO5 
 
 children's hearts in this life : yea, in every 
 such heart as does truly hunger and thirst 
 after righteousness. You do hunger and 
 thirst. O that you could look to him this 
 moment as a precious Saviour ! Is he not so ? 
 Do you not feel his loving presence ? Are 
 you not his ; the purchase of his blood ; the 
 new-made creature of his love ; born of God, 
 and become his child ? Is not Jesus your 
 beloved and your friend ? Can he then deny 
 his own Spirit's cry in your heart : and that 
 too when all you ask is, that he will destroy 
 his own enemies in your soul, and enable you 
 to love him with all your heart ? But as to 
 that temptation, " If you receive it now you 
 will soon lose it ; " is he not able and willing, 
 and faithful to keep, as he is to save ? Yes, 
 glory to his holy name, I know he is. He is 
 the all-sufficient God, and, saith he, " My 
 strength is made perfect in weakness." Trust 
 him, then, poor, weak, and helpless soul. 
 " But it is not long enough since you were 
 justified." Does God tell you so? Has he 
 set any limited time ? None that I know of 
 except the present. He saith, Now, " to-day, 
 if you will hear my voice." And again, " Now 
 is the day of salvation." And again, " Come, 
 
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 for all things are now ready." He has com- 
 manded, " Thou shalt love the Lord thy God 
 with all thy heart, with all thy mind, with all 
 thy soul, and with all thy strength : " and he 
 hath promised, " I will circumcise thy heart," 
 that thou mayest do it. But does he ever 
 say, " Suffer so much, or stay so long, and I 
 will do it ? " Nay, but he saith, " If any 
 man thirst, let him come unto me and drink. 
 Ask, and ye shall receive, that your joy may 
 be full." 
 
 My dear Miss Bourn, there are some in 
 this town who have not been justified so long 
 as you ; who have received and do profess 
 this blessing, O then, come once more, even 
 as you came when first reconciled to God, 
 and cast your soul simply on Jesus ! Would 
 he bleed for us when rebels, and will he re- 
 fuse to avenge us of our inbred foe, when we 
 are his beloved children ? Surely no ; it can- 
 not be. I hope soon to see my dear friend, 
 and that she will be able to tell me she has 
 obtained this precious salvation. 
 
 Did you ever read Mr. Wesley's sermon on 
 the Scripture way of salvation ? You would 
 do well to consider the conclusion of it atten- 
 tively. " Hereby," says he, "you may surely 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. IO7 
 
 know whether you are seeking to be sanctified 
 by faith or by works. If by zvorks, you want 
 something to be done first before you are 
 sanctified. You think, 'I must first be, or do 
 thus or thus.' Then you are seeking it by 
 works unto this day. On the other hand, if 
 you seek it by faith, you may expect it as you 
 are; and if as you are, then expect it now. 
 Do you believe we are sanctified by faith ? 
 Be true then to your principle, and look for 
 this blessing just as you are, neither better 
 nor worse : as a poor sinner that has nothing 
 to pay, nothing to plead, but Christ died. 
 And if you look for it as you are, expect it 
 now ; stay for nothing : why should you ? 
 Christ is ready, and he is all you want." Let 
 your inmost soul cry out, 
 
 " Come in, come in, thou heavenly guest, 
 Nor ever hence remove ; 
 Settle and fix my wavering soul, 
 With all thy weight of love." 
 
 Glory be to God, he carries on a glorious 
 work among us here. Sinners are convinced, 
 many are justified ; and lately, several back- 
 sliders have been restored. One poor soul, 
 that had been long wandering from her God, 
 was restored last night, while a few of us 
 
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 were at prayer. I am, my dear friend, yours 
 in Jesus, h. a. roe. 
 
 Letter to a preacher of the gospel, in answer to some 
 inquiries relative to the state of her sotcl. 
 
 Macclesfield, Dec. 6, 1778. 
 
 Dear Sir, — To tell you one thousandth 
 part of the preciousness of Jesus, is a task 
 impossible to men or angels. To my soul, he 
 is truly and altogether lovely : the one object 
 in which all my desires, expectations, and 
 affections centre — the Alpha and the Omega. 
 To him my more than all I owe, being 
 snatched by his grace, a brand from everlast- 
 ing burnings. My surety he is ; my life, my 
 peace, my treasure, my husband, brother, 
 friend — my wisdom, my righteousness, my 
 sanctification ; my all in all, for time and for 
 eternity. Him and him alone, I desire : him, 
 and him alone, I love. 
 
 u I have no sharer of my heart, 
 To rob my Saviour of a part, 
 And desecrate the whole ; 
 His loveliness my soul has prepossess'd, 
 And left no room for any other guest." 
 
 Yet, O how is my heart expanded when I 
 see I have yet received but, as it were, a drop 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. IO9 
 
 out of the ocean ! but a glimpse of his pre- 
 cious fulness ; and an eternity of growing 
 bliss lies yet before me ! This glorious pros- 
 pect truly lays me where I would for ever 
 lie, at his dear feet, the monument of his 
 mercy. O that I could praise him as I 
 would ! but language fails and I long for that 
 day when I shall praise him in nobler strains 
 above. Were he to give the summons now, 
 and call me from earth away, O how gladly 
 could I wing my flight this hour ! Loose 
 from creature and created good, I only wait 
 the joyful word, Come up higher ! Then 
 would I exulting 
 
 " Clap the glad wing, and soar away, 
 And mingle with the blaze of day." 
 
 In that blessed kingdom, dear sir, I hope to 
 meet you, though perhaps on earth we may 
 meet no more. In the meantime may you be 
 filled with all the fulness of Father, Son, and 
 Spirit ; rejoicing herein with increasing joy, 
 and made very useful in your Lord's vine- 
 yard. So prays sincerely your real well 
 wisher for Christ's sake, h. a. roe. 
 
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 Letter to the Rev. J. Wesley. 
 
 January 6, 1782. 
 
 My very Dear and Honored Sir, — I 
 have still good news to tell you. Glory be 
 to God, he is working graciously among us. 
 Cousin Robert has been the instrument of 
 four persons believing, and receiving sanctifi- 
 cation since I wrote last. One of them is a 
 class-leader, and in all who now profess this 
 salvation, the change is very evident : they 
 walk and follow after God as dear children, 
 who truly love him with all their hearts. On 
 the watch-night, a young woman who experi- 
 enced this salvation some years ago, but had 
 lost it, received it again, as Mr. L. was say- 
 ing, " Come by faith alone, if you have no 
 worthiness, no fitness ; believe only, and love 
 shall make all things new. Delay not a mo- 
 ment : come now, and God will destroy your 
 inbred sin," etc. 
 
 Mr. L.'s word is made a blessing to very 
 many. Several backsliders are restored ; 
 many convinced of sin, some converted, and 
 a number longing to love God with an undi- 
 vided heart. O ! how I love thus to see the 
 prosperity of Zion ! I feel indeed a sweet 
 assurance, through grace, that if all around 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. Ill 
 
 me were careless and lukewarm, my soul 
 would cleave to its only centre, with all its 
 powers and affections : but how much more 
 does it animate and enliven my spirit ; how 
 increase my joy ; yea, how does it strengthen 
 my hands, to see my dear brethren rejoicing 
 and glorying in the same precious salvation, 
 and living as it becomes the redeemed of the 
 Lord ! There are persons, besides those I 
 have mentioned, who can say, they feel noth- 
 ing contrary to love, and are kept in perfect 
 peace ; but dare not yet profess that they are 
 cleansed from all sin. I now meet two bands, 
 and, blessed be God, we do not meet in vain. 
 My soul dwells truly in a present heaven : 
 the eternal Trinity is my God and my all. 
 Every power and faculty is swallowed up in 
 him. 
 
 " I nothing want beneath, above, 
 Happy in his perfect love." 
 
 I was surprised to hear that you had been 
 at Chester and Wrexham : but, I trust, if you 
 did not come to preach a funeral sermon for 
 a friend, you came to shake Satan's king- 
 dom. 
 
 We had a precious love-feast. Some peo- 
 ple tell me I always have precious times, and 
 
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 therefore judge others have so too ; but I be- 
 lieve most that were present are agreed in 
 this, that we have had no love-feast like the 
 last for many years. The select band is very 
 lively. I have just been there, since I beg:.:: 
 my letter, and find another soul has received 
 the witness of sanctihcation under Mr. L. this 
 morning. I know you will join me to 
 praise a God of love. Glory be to his holy 
 name. 
 
 "Our days of praise shall ne'er be past- 
 While life, and thought, an:! being last, 
 
 In a day or two after I wrote to you, the 
 pain in my face and head was suddenly re- 
 moved in answer to prayer, and I have hardly 
 felt it since. Till then I had no liberty to 
 pray for its removal, but. hearing that my 
 bands never met, during my sickness, and 
 that several neglected to meet in the select 
 band, whom I persuaded to go before, I said, 
 " Lord, if thy unworthiest servant can be a 
 blessing to their precious souls, remove this 
 affliction/' it is enough ; " and I will praise 
 thee." And the prayer was heard. In ten 
 :_d instances I thus prove him a God 
 that heareth and answereth prayer. I a::: 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. II3 
 
 filled with his goodness ; I know not where 
 to begin that praise that never shall end. I 
 remain, dear and ever honored sir, your un- 
 worthiest child in bonds of divine love, 
 
 H. A. ROE. 
 
 Letter to the same. 
 
 April 7, 1782. 
 
 Rev. and Dear Sir, — Glory be to him, 
 to whom all glory is ever due. He fills my 
 happy soul with humble joy unknown. I 
 dwell in his sacred presence ; he dwells in my 
 worthless heart, and all wrapped up in him 
 I am. 
 
 Your last sermon on the Monday morning 
 was made a peculiar blessing to very many 
 precious souls, who say, they are sure God 
 directed you to speak just as you did. Some 
 others indeed say, you preached a new doc- 
 trine, which they never heard before, except 
 from cousin Robert Roe, respecting a present 
 salvation ; for they cannot believe that per- 
 sons can be justified or sanctified unless they 
 have undergone a long preparation, etc. Nay, 
 they have even affirmed that he or my- 
 self desired you to preach that sermon, and 
 to mention the person who was convicted, 
 justified, and sanctified in twelve hours. 
 
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 Why should we wonder at these things? 
 The remains of the carnal mind at one time 
 in myself would have strongly opposed the 
 simplicity of faith. But O ! how precious do 
 I now prove the experience of these words, 
 " I am crucified with Christ ; nevertheless I 
 live ; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me ; and 
 the life that I now live in the flesh, I live by 
 faith in the Son of God, who hath loved me, 
 and given himself for me." How mistaken 
 are those who say, to speak much of living by 
 faith, or of coming to be justified or sanctified 
 by faith alone, is setting aside good works ? 
 For, can there be a gospel faith which does 
 not work by love ? And does not love work 
 all holy obedience ? Excuse me, dear sir, I 
 have been led to say more on this subject 
 than I intended ; my soul being peculiarly 
 blessed since I began to write. Indeed, I 
 often find it so when I write to you. He 
 makes you in various ways an instrument of 
 much good to my soul. How unworthy am I 
 of his innumerable mercies ! Praise the 
 Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me 
 praise his holy name. 
 
 A dear young woman, who received sancti- 
 fication about three months ago (who has 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I 1 5 
 
 been a follower of God for six years, and found 
 his pardoning love at the age of fourteen), is 
 now to all appearance on the borders of eter- 
 nity ; and no pen can describe the holy tri- 
 umph of her" soul. It is a blessing to be near 
 her. On Tuesday last, as I was repeating 
 and enforcing some of the passages in your 
 last sermon, and a few parallel promises, an- 
 other young woman, who had been seeking 
 the blessing two years by works, was by faith 
 brought into full liberty, and still retains the 
 clear witness that she is cleansed from all sin. 
 And while Mr. S offered a present salva- 
 tion, a young woman was justified. J 
 
 S writes word that he has reason to 
 
 praise God for his journey to Macclesfield, 
 and is determined to preach an instantaneous 
 present salvation from all sin. I trust your 
 going to Chester will strengthen his hands. 
 I cannot tell how much I am filled with a 
 spirit of prayer for you, and a sweet assurance 
 that God is about to use you as a more pecul- 
 iar instrument of good than he has ever 
 done. I look for an abundant outpouring of 
 the Spirit. Whenever I hear of souls being 
 blessed, those words are applied, " Ye shall 
 see greater things than these"/ ' May the ful- 
 
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 ness of the Triune God ever fill your happy 
 soul ! and may you still help me to love him 
 more, prays your most unworthy, but ever 
 affectionate, h. a. roe. 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 117 
 
 CHAPTER IX. 
 
 HER ACQUAINTANCE AND MARRIAGE WITH 
 REV, JAMES ROGERS. 
 
 Mr. Rogers was an able minister of the 
 New Testament, — not of the letter that kill- 
 eth, but of the spirit that giveth life. Mark 
 the following quotations from her journal : — 
 
 March 27, 1781. — This day at my uncle 
 Roe's, I saw Mr. Rogers for the first time. 
 He and Mr. Bardsley are come over from 
 Sheffield to see cousin Robert, who respects 
 Mr. Rogers much, having received good from 
 his preaching at Leeds. We had a blessed 
 season in prayer together ; and cousin Mar- 
 garet Roe, in particular, seemed stirred up 
 and comforted. Afterward we called on that 
 dying saint, David Pickford ; who witnessed 
 a good confession of the love of Jesus, which 
 he has felt experimentally for these thirty-six 
 years ; and proves him yet faithful. At night 
 Mr. Rogers preached from, " You that are 
 
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 troubled, rest with us." And at five o'clock 
 next morning, Mr. Bardsley enforced that 
 blessed portion, "Fear not, for I am with 
 thee ; be not dismayed, for I am thy God," 
 etc. I felt both peculiar seasons of divine 
 blessings : and though afterward tried at 
 home, it was a day of deep consolation. 
 
 Some time after this she lived in the family 
 of Mr. Rogers, and took care of his wife in 
 her last sickness. 
 
 After the death of one of her dearest friends 
 she writes : — 
 
 In the year following I had another trying 
 scene to pass through. Dear Mrs. Rogers, 
 after the birth of her little James, never re- 
 covered her health. Mr. Rogers, being a 
 great deal in the country parts of the circuit, 
 I was very much with her ; and our love for 
 each other daily increased. At different 
 times she opened her whole heart to me on 
 very tender points ; for we were as one soul. 
 For several weeks before her death, she en- 
 treated me not to leave her when I could pos- 
 sibly help it. But as her experience and 
 triumphant death are already published, I 
 forbear to enlarge respecting either. O, my 
 Lord, let my latter end be like hers ! 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. II9 
 
 After a wonderful chain of divine provi- 
 dences, on which we need not dwell, she was 
 married to Mr. Rogers, August 19, 1784, in 
 whom the Lord gave her a helpmeet indeed, 
 just such a partner as her weakness needed 
 to strengthen her. They were of one heart 
 and of one soul. 
 
 They spent a week or more after their mar- 
 riage with her mother, and then hastened to 
 Dublin, Ireland, where Mr. Rogers was ap- 
 pointed to labor. They were gladly received, 
 and the Lord gave them the hearts of the 
 people. Their hands being thus strengthened 
 of the Lord, they agreed solemnly to devote 
 themselves wholly to God and his work. God 
 gave them a blessed revival in three years. 
 The Society increased from about five hun- 
 dred and upward to eleven hundred and up- 
 ward. They had good cause to believe that 
 four hundred were converted to God. 
 
 In August, 1789, we came over from Dub- 
 lin to see my mother at Macclesfield. Mr. 
 Wesley, and several preachers with families, 
 also coming at the same time to England, we 
 took the whole ship. In this passage we 
 were in imminent danger, by dashing on a 
 rock called the West Mouse. But prayer was 
 
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 made, the Lord heard, and wonderfully deliv* 
 ered ! We landed at Park Gate, and travelled 
 with Mr. Wesley to Macclesfield, where my 
 mother received us with great affection. After 
 the Manchester conference, we returned to 
 Dublin, where we had left our little boy. 
 We spent about a week with our very affec- 
 tionate friends there, and then proceeded to 
 Cork. 
 
 Here also the Lord graciously revived his 
 work. His word prospered and prevailed; 
 and we had cause to rejoice, not only over a 
 few individuals, but several families, who were 
 added to the fold of God. We found three 
 hundred and ninety-seven members in so- 
 ciety ; and left six hundred and fifty. In the 
 last year we had some close trials through a 
 few individuals, but our spiritual mercies 
 overbalanced them all. I do not know that I 
 ever enjoyed more of the Lord's presence than 
 at Cork, except during the time of a severe 
 nervous fever, and then the cloud was only 
 for a few days ; and that I believe was merely 
 owing to the body, for though in a week after- 
 ward all the feelings of nature were touched, 
 I felt nothing contrary to resignation, pa- 
 tience or love. At the time of which I 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 121 
 
 now speak my own recovery was doubtful. 
 Mr. Rogers (oppressed with grief through my 
 illness, and by his attention to me night and 
 day) was very ill. James (the child) had a 
 fever ; the maid was confined with sickness, 
 and my little John, six weeks old, in convul- 
 sions for three days ! Surely, in this scene, 
 the Lord magnified his power in supporting 
 my weakness, and enabling me to say, " Good 
 is the will of the Lord." After this season 
 my consolations were abundant, and my faith, 
 love and communion with God much deep- 
 ened. I had some encouraging letters from 
 Mr. Wesley. In his last two he mentioned 
 his intention of removing us to London at 
 the ensuing conference. I trembled at the 
 thought of such an important charge, but 
 committed it to God in much prayer. And 
 notwithstanding our various exercises of body 
 and mind since we came to this city, I am 
 certain divine love has mixed every cup, and 
 ordained all things well. 
 
 They were appointed to labor in London, 
 and thus they were near the City Road Church 
 and parsonage where Mr. Wesley had his 
 headquarters, and where he died. They were 
 with him five months before he died, and wit- 
 
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 nessed his last and glorious triumph. Of this 
 she writes in her journal as follows : — 
 
 To be with that honored and much loved 
 servant of God, Mr. Wesley, for five months, 
 and then to be witness of his glorious exit, 
 was a favor indeed. But O ! how awful the 
 scene ! — how unspeakable the loss ! I pecul- 
 iarly felt it ; being then in a weak state, not 
 quite recovered from my late sickness. 
 
 The solemnity of the dying hour of that 
 great and good man I believe will be ever 
 written on my heart ! Well might Dr. Young 
 say, " The chamber where the good man 
 meets his fate, is privileged beyond the com- 
 mon walk of virtuous life, quite in the verge 
 of heaven ! " A cloud of the divine presence 
 rested on all ! and while he could hardly be 
 said to be an inhabitant of earth, being now 
 speechless, and his eyes fixed, victory and 
 glory were written on his countenance, and 
 quivering, as it were, on his dying lips ! O 
 could he then have spoken, methinks it would 
 have been nothing but victory! victory! — 
 grace ! grace ! glory ! glory ! No language 
 can paint what appeared in that face ! The 
 more we gazed upon it, the more we saw of 
 heaven unspeakable ! Not the least sign of 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 23 
 
 pain, but a weight of bliss. Thus he con- 
 tinued, only his breath growing weaker and 
 weaker, till, without a struggle or a groan, he 
 left the cumbrous clay behind, and fled to 
 eternal life in the bosom of his faithful Lord. 
 
 When I look back on the afflictive scenes 
 we have passed through since this trying 
 event, and consider we are yet monuments of 
 grace and saving power, I am lost in wonder 
 and in love. Mr. Rogers, in particular, has been 
 tried as in the fire, and exposed, through his 
 office, as a mark to shoot at ; yet, through in- 
 finite mercy, I believe he will come out of it 
 all more fully purified. I might here enlarge 
 on particulars, but shall leave the Lord's 
 faithful servants, as well as the instruments of 
 their sufferings, to Him who will plead the 
 cause of the innocent, and " make all things 
 work together for good to them that love 
 God ; " praying, with our suffering Lord, for 
 those who now persecute him in his mem- 
 bers, " Father, forgive them, for they know 
 not what they do." 
 
 I shall now only observe, as it relates to my 
 own experience, that these trying exercises of 
 my dear partner have been keenly felt by me. 
 And my nervous system, weakened by that 
 
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 dangerous fever at Cork, has also greatly suf- 
 fered by these things ; which, like " wave 
 upon wave, have followed each other ! " To 
 this I ascribe it chiefly, that a cloud of heavi- 
 ness has, at some seasons, hung upon my 
 mind; and that Satan has taken occasion to 
 suggest, in those times of depression, various 
 accusations of shortcomings in zeal, activity, 
 and spiritual joy. I do not mean that I was 
 ever left in darkness ; no : since I first con- 
 sciously received a sense of favor with God, I 
 never lost it ; but within two years last past, 
 I have not always had so clear a witness of 
 perfect love. At other times I have had that 
 witness full and clear ; and at all times could 
 
 say, 
 
 " None but Jesus will I know, 
 None but him do I desire. 
 
 Whom have I in heaven but thee ? 
 Thou art all in all to me." 
 
 But in nothing else than full salvation, and 
 the witness of it, could my soul ever rest. O 
 no ! What is past experience without present 
 enjoyment ? I must feel, or I cannot be happy. 
 
 Sunday, Nov. ii, 1792. — This day it is 
 eighteen years since I received the knowledge 
 of a reconciled God. O that I were in a 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 25 
 
 deeper sense a " mother in Israel ! " My Lord 
 has ever been faithful to me. In all my per- 
 secutions he comforted me. In the alluring 
 snares of youth, he saved, he kept me. It 
 was by his grace I forsook all ; denied myself 
 ease, pleasure, friends ; and after he had 
 proved me, he gave me easier circumstances, 
 and one of the best of earthly friends. He 
 has instructed my ignorance, and strength- 
 ened my weakness. Through various scenes, 
 and in outward perplexities, how often have I 
 received immediate teaching from God ! In 
 travelling from city to city, how have I been 
 protected by guardian love, and saved from 
 fear and danger on the watery deep ! May I 
 never forget the ten thousand proofs of his 
 love in Dublin, in Cork, in London ! He hath 
 given me favor in the eyes of his children in 
 every place, and helped me feebly to serve them. 
 He hath given me spiritual children also, some 
 of whom are lodged safely in his bosom, and 
 others in the way to glory. I have had five 
 lovely children in the flesh : and besides these, 
 my dear Joseph and Benjamin, left with me 
 in charge, and to whom I feel united in all 
 the tenderness of parental love ; nor have 
 they ever been wanting in a due return. One 
 
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 (a fine boy) my Lord has taken to the abodes 
 of bliss ; and for the rest he assures my heart, 
 
 " The children of thy faith and prayer, 
 Shall all to thee be given." 
 
 At present, I am sinking into the arms of 
 love, and I do feel that I am all the Lord's. 
 
 I feel grateful to my God that I am placed 
 here (at Spitalfields), though but for a season ; 
 where I can enjoy more retirement, and less 
 of busy life. My God is with me, and I trust 
 he will draw and unite more fully to himself 
 his helpless creature ! I have power with 
 him in prayer, and I know he will answer my 
 enlarged requests, for myself, my other self, 
 and our offspring. We shall be his : I will 
 be his alone. This day I consecrate to him 
 my soul and body's powers, my life, my all. 
 May his blessed spirit come and seal me his 
 abode ; ratify the covenant ; and with the 
 Father and the Son dwell for ever in my 
 heart. Amen. O my God, I sign myself 
 over to thee ! This solemn hour, 
 
 " My soul and body I resign, 
 With joy I render thee 
 My all, no longer mine, but thine 
 To all eternity." 
 
 HESTER ANN ROGERS. 
 
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 CHAPTER X. 
 
 REMARKABLE ANSWERS TO PRAYER AND 
 WONDERFUL DREAMS. 
 
 March 5, 1790. — In private, I had pecul- 
 iar liberty in praying for my dear husband, 
 that he might experience all the depth of 
 Jesus' love more abundantly than ever, and 
 be the happy means of leading me also into 
 further degrees of inward salvation ; that our 
 union might ever tend to a yet closer union 
 with our God, and all our outward mercies 
 lead to this. While I prayed, I felt assured 
 my Lord was well pleased, and would send an 
 answer to my largest desires. Next morning 
 Mr. Rogers awoke very happy, having had a 
 precious view of the deep things in God : 
 he dreamed that he felt the clear witness of 
 sanctification, and his soul seemed full of 
 gratitude and love. In taking a ride out to- 
 gether, and laying open our whole hearts to 
 each other, as we frequently did, I found my 
 
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 soul unspeakably happy ; while we resolved 
 to be more spiritual, more devoted to God, 
 and more zealous in saving souls than ever. 
 This was made a great blessing to me : and 
 doubly so, as I believe it an answer to my 
 prayer. 
 
 June io, 1794. — I had a peculiar season 
 in wrestling with God this night, on account 
 of my dear little Mary. The great weakness 
 of her limbs for three months past, and her 
 seeming total inability to walk, has caused 
 much pain to my dear husband, as well as to 
 myself. It appears to me I had used every 
 possible means in vain. But this night I had 
 power to cry unto my God, and tell him, 
 "Thou art the same yesterday, to-day, and 
 forever : thou art my God. Thou hast said, 
 ' Call upon me in the day of trouble, and I 
 will hear thee/ Thou hast healed cripples, 
 made the lame to walk, yea, raised even the 
 dead in answer to the prayer of faith ! Lord, 
 hear me now : stoop to my request, let the 
 child's feet and ankle bones receive strength, 
 give power to walk, and let me soon know 
 thou hast heard my prayer ; " and I had power 
 to believe it should be done : and my soul 
 was filled with the divine presence. Thurs- 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 29 
 
 day, the 12th. — I already see an answer to 
 my prayer in the child. She is greatly 
 strengthened in her limbs. How good, how 
 faithful, how condescending is the Lord. We 
 may — I may, like Abraham, like Moses, like 
 Elijah, ask and obtain. 
 
 God was pleased to manifest himself to 
 Mrs. R. in dreams and visions of the night to 
 strengthen her in times of trouble, and warn 
 her in times of danger. How blessed it is 
 that while we are awake we can be thinking 
 of God, and while we are asleep God can be 
 thinking of us, and manifesting himself to us. 
 Mark the following : — 
 
 Having been exercised with an uncommon 
 sense of various shortcomings and daily in- 
 firmities for some days past, I awoke this 
 morning, lost, overwhelmed and swallowed up 
 in love, joy, and praise, occasioned by the fol- 
 lowing dream. I thought I was in an elegant 
 house, and was desired by one to go into that 
 room (pointing the way), and I should see the 
 late Mrs. Rogers. I wondered, but obeyed : 
 I thought I entered the room, which was 
 hung all round with clean white linen ; and 
 upon a bed I saw the beautiful corpse of my 
 dear departed sister and friend ! I looked, 
 
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 and loved the precious remains ; when, to my 
 great astonishment, her eyes opened ! She 
 smiled on me, and raised herself up. I ex- 
 claimed, in a rapture of joyful surprise, "Is it 
 possible ! has the Lord permitted you to re- 
 vive, so as to speak to me ? " She replied, 
 with unutterable sweetness, " All things, my 
 dear, are possible with God. He has permit- 
 ted it for your comfort." "O!" said I, 
 " what would I have often given to converse 
 one hour with you, since you were taken?" 
 She said, " There was no need, my dear, God 
 has been with you." I answered, " Yes, he 
 has ; but O, tell me, have I acted my part 
 aright in your place ? Does God, in this, ap- 
 prove of me ? " She smiled again, and said, 
 " He does : and in all things he is well 
 pleased, and he will yet strengthen and bless 
 you to the end ! He loves you, and will save 
 you in every time of trouble. You have 
 nothing to fear : for you will be happy in life, 
 in death, and for ever. You are dear to God : 
 and it is to comfort you that he permits me 
 to appear to you and tell you this." 
 
 I thought in my dream she said much 
 more, but this is all that I can distinctly re- 
 collect. And it so overcame me with trans- 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I3I 
 
 port that I awoke. My body was bathed in 
 sweat, and my soul as in a dream, filled with 
 God, with heaven, and with unspeakable 
 bliss, so that I could not refrain from wak- 
 ing my dear husband to tell him, and could 
 sleep no more, but continued praising God 
 until the morning. The more I consider 
 his condescending goodness herein, the more 
 I am lost in love, self-abasement, and speech- 
 less gratitude. 
 
 This dream was made a great blessing to 
 us both, and it is attended with no small con- 
 solation to me, especially under my present 
 circumstances, to conceive that the inhabi- 
 tants of heaven know well the transactions of 
 earth. 
 
 Sunday, June 16, 1782. — Having been 
 very poorly, I discontinued my Journal to this 
 day. Glory be to God, it has been a solemn 
 day of peace and joy in the Holy Ghost ! 
 
 22d. — Cousin Robert Roe desired me to 
 meet a number of friends at his new house. 
 We had a solemn season in prayer, and S. N. 
 was enabled to believe for full salvation, and 
 to rejoice in a clear sense of it. Many others 
 were encouraged, and my cousin was truly 
 happy. 
 
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 Rev. Mr. E. sent her a letter with an ac- 
 count of the sudden and awful death of one 
 of his hearers. - He called upon her, and 
 found her looking very sad. When he inquired 
 for the reason, she answered, " Sir, I will 
 think no more of it, — it was only a dream, 
 and I will not be so childish as to be alarmed 
 at a dream. But, sir," said she, "I will tell 
 you my dream, and then I will think of it no 
 more." She then repeated as follows : " I 
 dreamed I was at the ball, where I intended 
 to go to-night. Soon after I was in the room 
 I was taken very ill, and they gave me a 
 smelling-bottle, and then I was brought home 
 into this room ; I was put into that elbow- 
 chair (pointing to it), and fainted and died ! 
 I then thought I was carried to a place where 
 there were angels and holy people in abun- 
 dance, singing hymns and praises to God : that 
 I found myself very unhappy there, and de- 
 sired to go from thence. My conductor said 
 if I did, I should never come there again. 
 He then violently whirled me, and I fell 
 down, down — through blackness, and flames, 
 and sulphur ; the dread of which awoke me ! " 
 
 The minister endeavored, by every possible 
 argument, to dissuade the young lady from 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 33 
 
 going to the ball that night, but in vain ; she 
 answered, " I will go. I will not be so fool- 
 ish as to mind a dream ! " She did go : and 
 soon after she came into the ball-room she 
 was taken ill : and, as she dreamed, a smell- 
 ing bottle was given to her. She was carried 
 home, into the room, and put into that very- 
 elbow-chair, represented in the dream ; — she 
 fainted, — and died ! 
 
134 LIFE AND JOURNAL OF 
 
 CHAPTER XL 
 
 CLOSING SCENES OF HER HOLY LIFE. 
 
 She says : I awoke very happy this morn- 
 ing, with these sweet words — 
 
 u God, the almighty God, is thine ; 
 
 See him to thy help come down, 
 
 The excellence divine." 
 
 And O, how was I blest while musing on 
 that precious scripture, " Now we see through 
 a glass darkly ! " It was indeed a blessed 
 season to my soul ; especially for a few min- 
 utes, when I felt what I cannot explain. Such 
 a manifestation of God as a spirit, uniting 
 himself to my spirit ; such a real enjoyment 
 of God as love, as holiness, as heaven, that 
 fulness which thought cannot fathom. And 
 all this for me ! My all and in all : united in- 
 explicably with my spirit : more than filling 
 all my powers with his effulgence, so that I 
 was wrapt in God. O my Lord, and shall I 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 35 
 
 prove for ever this vision, this fruition of thy 
 fulness ? / know I shall. Thou hast given 
 my soul a taste. Thou wilt give me the 
 abiding reality when time is no more. O 
 thou thrice holy God of love, my soul is lost ! 
 Wonder and love overpower me quite. I am 
 abased before thee, while I feel the sacred 
 blessing mine. 
 
 My mind has been led of late to meditate 
 on the latter-day glory : and the Lord's pres- 
 ence rested upon me in a peculiar manner, 
 while attending to those beautiful ideas of Mr. 
 Fletcher on the millennium ; especially where 
 he observes, " That as now the world is over- 
 spread with iniquity, so shall it then be with 
 holiness ; insomuch that a wicked man shall 
 then be as great a wonder upon earth as a 
 father in Christ is now ! That the curse shall 
 be taken away from universal creation, vege- 
 table, animal, and elementary : the bodies of 
 men no longer subject to pain and weakness. 
 The lion will then be as inoffensive as the 
 lamb ; and the leopard lie down with the kid : 
 'for they shall not hurt nor destroy in all my 
 holy mountain (saith our God), for the earth 
 shall be full of the knowledge of the glory of 
 the Lord, as the waters cover the sea.'" 
 
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 Mrs. Rogers was generally and well known 
 among all the Methodists of her day. She 
 was such a bright and shining light that 
 her influence was felt far and wide. From 
 the beginning she had struggled with a frail 
 body, and this was overtaxed when she was 
 compelled to do her mother's housework, 
 that she might have the privilege of attend- 
 ing the Methodist meetings. Besides, her 
 life of fasting and long seasons of prayer, and 
 her intensity and fervor of spirit, together 
 with her great zeal and activity in the cause 
 of God, all these seemed to point to an early 
 death. A number of times she went down to 
 the borders of death, and had a desire to de- 
 part. We must now record her early death. 
 She left this world, and all her many friends, 
 amid a scene of pathetic beauty, though at- 
 tended with the saddest anguish of her sex. 
 After giving birth to her fifth child, she lay 
 composed for more than an hour, with heaven 
 in her countenance, praising God for his 
 great mercy, and expressing her gratitude to 
 all around. She took her husband's hand, 
 and said, " My dear, the Lord has been very 
 kind to us : O he is good, he is good ! But 
 I'll tell you more by and by." In a few min- 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 37 
 
 utes her whole frame was thrown into a state 
 of agitation and agony. After a severe 
 struggle for fifteen minutes, bathed with a 
 clammy sweat, she laid her head on his 
 bosom, and said, " I am going.'' Subduing 
 his alarm, " Is Jesus precious ? " he asked. 
 " Yes : O yes ! " she replied. He added, " My 
 dearest love, I know Jesus Christ has long 
 been your all in all. Can you now tell us he 
 is so?" "I can — he is — yes — but I am 
 not able to speak ! " He again said, "O my 
 dearest, it is enough ! " She then attempted 
 to lift up her face to his, and kissed him with 
 her quivering lips and latest breath. She 
 died in 1794, aged thirty-nine years, during 
 twenty of which she had continually walked 
 with God in white. 
 
 Some time before this, she said to Mr. 
 Rogers, " I feel myself very poorly in body, 
 and several symptoms threaten my dissolution, 
 but my soul is kept in perfect peace. It 
 seems as though the Lord was preparing me 
 for himself, and yet when I think of leaving 
 the dearest of earthly comforts, it is like 
 rending of self from self, of nature from na- 
 ture, and of flesh from bone ! Neverthe- 
 less, when I reflect that the separation is 
 
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 only for a moment, compared with eter- 
 nity, and that death itself cannot disunite 
 our spirits, it greatly helps me to say, ' Lord, 
 not as I will, but as thou wilt/ " 
 
 Hear Mr. Rogers give his own experience 
 on this supremely trying occasion : — 
 
 I am conscious the tenderest of maternal 
 ties possessed the heart of my dear com- 
 panion ; yet these, when it came to the point, 
 were dissolved with comparative ease ! as 
 were, also, all her other friendly attachments 
 — with one only exception, of myself. 
 
 " Not even in death her friendship dies ! 
 With grateful pity and surprise 
 
 I ask, how can it be ? 
 Loosen'd from all she leaves behind, 
 
 Yet still — she cleaves to me. 
 "On me she rests her dying head, 
 And catching, grasps a broken reed, 
 
 But will not let me part : 
 Till Jesus visits her again, 
 By nobler love dissolves the chain, 
 
 And frees her struggling heart." 
 
 God alone can tell you what I felt in that 
 dread moment, when the Lord gave the sig- 
 nal for dismission, and I was called to return 
 the last parting kiss ! For some time I could 
 only breathe, as it were, in silent accents, 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 39 
 
 "O! my God, let my latter end be like hers ! 
 Come, O come quickly, and prepare me to 
 follow her." It is still the language of my 
 bleeding heart, — 
 
 " O let me on her image dwell, 
 The soul-transporting spectacle, 
 
 On whom even angels gaze ! 
 A pious saint matured for God, 
 And shaking off her earthly clod, 
 
 To see his open face. 
 
 " I see the generous friend sincere ! 
 Her voice still vibrates in my ear, 
 
 The voice of truth and love J 
 It calls me to put off my clay, 
 And bids me soar with her away 
 
 To fairer worlds above ! " 
 
 Well ! thank God, a moment cannot always 
 last ! And 
 
 " He who set my partner free, 
 Shall quickly send for you and me ! " 
 Birmingham, England, March 29, 1795. 
 
 This was a little more than four years after 
 Mr. Wesley passed into the skies. 
 
 " O may we triumph so, 
 
 When all our warfare's past, 
 And dying, find our latest foe 
 Under our feet at last." 
 
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 Reader, reflect on this precious life and 
 glorious religious experience and precious 
 death, and ask thyself if thou hast the same 
 spirit of entire consecration, the same hallowed 
 holy fire glowing in thy breast, the same 
 heavenly meetness for immortality. O con- 
 secrate thy living powers fully to the living 
 God, and 
 
 " Live the life of heaven above, 
 All the life of glorious love." 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I4I 
 
 CHAPTER XII. 
 
 MORE OF HER SPIRITUAL LETTERS. 
 
 The rich qualities of this devoted lady are 
 beautifully set forth in the many excellent 
 letters that she wrote to so many of her 
 friends on so many topics. They *are all 
 spiritual in their tone and tendency. 
 
 These letters will be of unspeakable profit 
 to the reader, as they are full of instruction 
 on many practical and experimental matters. 
 
 Letter to Mrs. Bourn. 
 
 Macclesfield, Nov. 15, 1778. 
 
 My Dear Sister, — Your letter caused 
 great thanksgiving to God on your account ; 
 all glory be to him who hath increased your 
 desires after holiness. Fear not, you will 
 surely attain if you follow on. That lovely 
 Lamb that bled on Calvary was slain " to re- 
 deem us from all iniquity." O look to him : 
 behold the glory of God ! See the God of 
 
142 LIFE AND JOURNAL OF 
 
 angels ; O look at his precious bleeding side ; 
 his hands, his head, his feet ! Behold him 
 gasping, groaning, dying, that you might be 
 made clean ! " Without holiness no man 
 shall see the Lord/' But, glory to his name, 
 whoever steps into that fountain, which is 
 expressly said to be for sin and for uncleanli- 
 ness, shall be made perfectly whole. O let 
 your faith venture in ! wash and be clean : — 
 
 " Sink into the purple flood, 
 Rise to all the life of God." 
 I 
 Open, my dear sister, open your willing, 
 longing heart, and the King of glory will 
 come in. And then be assured, " all evil be- 
 fore his presence shall fly." Sin cannot 
 remain where Jesus fully dwells : for he is 
 holiness, and where he fills the soul, he leaves 
 no room for any other guest. Whenever you 
 can say, Jesus, thou art my all, and I love my 
 God the present moment, with all my loving 
 heart, you that moment possess the blessing 
 of sanctification, and never need to lose it 
 more. It is retained, as well as received, by 
 simple faith. We can have no stock of grace 
 on hand, but live moment by moment ; hang- 
 ing and depending on the adorable Jesus. In 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I43 
 
 him there is a full supply of all we want, or 
 can want. 
 
 This, blessed be God, I prove, and that 
 continually. Every hour, every moment, 
 brings me fresh delight in God. He is an 
 inexhaustible fountain of love : — 
 
 " Insatiate to this spring I fly, 
 I drink, and yet am ever dry." 
 
 I cannot express the sweet union I feel 
 with my God at this moment. 
 
 " My Jesus to know, and feel his blood flow, 
 'Tis life everlasting, 'tis heaven below." 
 
 I am much blessed when I remember my 
 dear friend at the throne of grace ; and often 
 do I beseech my blessed Lord to 
 
 " Fill her with all the life of love, 
 In mystic union join 
 Her to thyself, and let her prove 
 The fellowship divine." 
 
 Jesus is unspeakably precious while I write : 
 may you catch the flame I feel : — 
 
 " And when your cup with love runs o'er, 
 O may sin never enter more." 
 
 So prays, my dear sister, yours in divine 
 bonds, H. A. ROE. 
 
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 Letter to Miss R. y before she received sanctification. 
 Macclesfield, Nov. 21, 1778. 
 
 Last Thursday evening, I was pleasingly 
 surprised by a letter from my dear Miss R., 
 who, I sometimes feared, had forgot all her 
 purposes and promises ; and also all the bless- 
 ings she so often received when we met in 
 our Lord's name. I was glad to find my fears 
 groundless ; but much more pleased and thank- 
 ful was I to find, by the contents of your last, 
 that your precious soul was still laboring up 
 the hill of holiness : go on and prosper. 
 Many are the trials we meet with in the way : 
 yea, our Lord hath foretold us, that in the 
 world we should have tribulation, but in him 
 peace. 
 
 I hope you enjoy a sense, yea, a clear sense, 
 of pardon at the worst of times. This is 
 your privilege, and I am thankful you discern 
 such beauty in holiness. O how sweet are 
 those words : " Without holiness no man 
 shall see the Lord. ,, You have cause to praise 
 God for the knowledge he has given you of 
 your nature's depravity. It is very good and 
 profitable to know our sinful tendencies. O ! 
 my dear, be very watchful against little things, 
 and " keep thy heart with all diligence ; for 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I45 
 
 out of it are the issues of life." Let God 
 have your first thoughts : let him be first in 
 your affections ; so shall your words and 
 works please him. 
 
 Daily entreat him to take away all opposi- 
 tion that remains in your will, to his provi- 
 dential order : so shall you find rest in those 
 circumstances, which otherwise would give 
 you much uneasiness. The meditations of 
 your heart leading to him ; the affections of 
 your soul cleaving to Jesus ; your will sinking 
 into his will : here is the rest of the saints ! 
 while all that is within you calls your Jesus 
 King. " Whatever ye ask in my name," 
 saith our adorable Redeemer, "you shall 
 receive." Ask, then, my dear friend, for a 
 greater power of faith ; for, as you believe, so 
 will you increase in every grace of his Spirit ; 
 and your soul will more and more centre in 
 God, till you become one spirit with him, who 
 is the life of all living ; yea, the very essence 
 of heaven itself ! 
 
 " To his meritorious passion 
 All our happiness we owe ; 
 Pardon, uttermost salvation, 
 
 Heaven above, and heaven below. 
 
 Grace and glory 
 From that open fountain flow." 
 
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 To the care and love of our almighty 
 Jesus I commend you : O may his face al- 
 ways shine upon you, and his blessed, loving 
 Spirit fill your soul ! Pray much, and you 
 shall attain all the salvation you desire. I 
 am yours in bonds of divine love, 
 
 H. A. ROE. 
 Letter to Mr. Robert Roe. 
 
 Nantwich, April 20, 1779. 
 
 Dear Cousin, — You are quite mistaken — 
 you do not try my patience at all ; but you 
 are made a means of humbling my soul be- 
 fore God, when you think me capable of 
 answering in a proper manner the questions 
 you ask : and yet, as far as the Lord has 
 taught me, I am willing to communicate. I 
 believe your eye is single ; you are a child of 
 God, and an heir of glory. For you the Father 
 gave his only Son : Jesus the Saviour bled 
 for you: and the blessed Spirit hath applied 
 the blood of sprinkling to the pardon of your 
 sins, and the comfort of your soul in all your 
 various trials. I account it no strange thing 
 that you should be assaulted like your heav- 
 enly Master ; yet surely you will not give 
 way to reasoning, because Satan accosts you 
 as he did the incarnate . God. No : rather 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I47 
 
 take comfort, for he that had no sin was 
 tempted in this very point, like as you are. 
 A hypocrite may boast he is never tempted ; 
 has no doubts or fears ; but a child of God 
 (some rare cases excepted) is seldom long 
 together unassaulted by our vigilant adver- 
 sary, who takes every possible method and 
 opportunity to attack our confidence in the 
 Lord, and to work upon all that remains of 
 the carnal mind, or of unbelief: but he can 
 only tempt ; he cannot force us to give way 
 either to sin or unbelief. Neither think it 
 strange that you are not inwardly as holy as 
 you ought to be : every child of God feels 
 the same, till fully renewed in love by the 
 power of the Holy Ghost. Till then he has 
 faith ; but it is often mixed with unbelief : 
 he has love ; but though he loves God above 
 all things, yet the love of self and of creature 
 comforts often steals in. He has a blessed 
 measure of true humility ; and yet he is con- 
 strained to acknowledge frequently with tears, 
 
 " Cursed pride, that busy sin, 
 Spoils all that I perform." 
 
 His patience and resignation are not perfect : 
 his will is not fully subdued to God at all 
 
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 times, nor his affections and desires wholly 
 spiritual. The Spirit of God does visit, but 
 does not dwell ; does, at times, almost fill the 
 soul with delight, thereby wooing it to cast 
 away unbelief, and open the door to receive 
 all the precious mind of Jesus — all the stamp 
 of love divine. Now when a soul is obedient 
 to the voice of God, when it does open the 
 door, and grasp the promises of holiness in 
 the hand of faith, he will come into that soul, 
 and plant his own nature there. Then, when 
 perfected in love, faith becomes constant, and 
 unmixed with unbelief. Love takes full 
 possession of the soul, and humility, un- 
 mixed with pride, lays him at the Saviour's 
 feet. His constant faith and perfect love 
 now bring forth perfect patience and resigna- 
 tion. His deep-rooted humility having laid 
 all self at the Saviour's feet, his will is now 
 quite subject, and all his language is, 
 
 " All's alike to me, so I 
 In my Lord may live and die." 
 
 But even this state is consistent with much 
 ignorance, many weaknesses and infirmities; 
 with many temptations, trials, crosses, and 
 bodily afflictions ; and, on account of these, 
 our joy may at times be small : yet our faith 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I49 
 
 may be perfect, and our peace undisturbed. 
 I believe our faith is often made manifest by 
 following God blindfold (if I may be allowed 
 the expression) ; I mean when our ignorance 
 and blindness cannot account for his provi- 
 dential dispensations ; when we are beset 
 with trials, and see no way to escape. In 
 this case, faith says, " It is the Lord, let him 
 do what seemeth to him good." Being con- 
 fident of this one thing, " What I know not 
 now, I shall know hereafter ; " I will trust in 
 my God, and not be afraid, for he is my all.. 
 I have not time, room, or expression to tell 
 a thousandth part of the goodness of my 
 God to my soul. He is ever with me, and 
 assures my heart, " All that I have is thine." 
 All my desires are satisfied in him : I live in 
 him, and walk in him, and he is my God. 
 He is with me in sickness and in health — at 
 home and abroad — in public and in private. 
 In reading or writing I feel his presence : and 
 O ! when I am bowed before his throne, he 
 lets down a heaven of bliss ! Language fails 
 when I speak of his love. O may my every 
 breath speak his praise ! I remain your 
 unworthy friend, but happy sister, 
 
 H. A. ROE. 
 
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 Letter to Miss Salmon, 
 
 M alp as, June 16, 1779. 
 
 My Dear Friend, — How shall I praise 
 my God for his goodness, his infinite, his 
 stupendous love ! O how he heaps his bene- 
 fits upon me, and makes every other blessing 
 sweet, by the gift of himself ! Would any- 
 thing the world calls great or good be any- 
 thing to me without my God ! Ah ! no, no : 
 everything most desirable is hateful to my 
 soul, wherein I cannot taste, or feel, or see 
 something of my blessed Lord : but, all glory 
 be to him, he is my all in all things. Help 
 me to love this only lovely, dearest object of 
 my wishes. Let him, my dear sister, be our 
 Lord and King for ever. Yes, Lord, take our 
 hearts : — 
 
 " Manage the wheels by thy command, 
 And govern every spring." 
 
 How sweet is the yoke of Jesus ! O how 
 gentle, how tender, how compassionate his 
 care ! How hath he borne you and I, as weak 
 and helpless lambs in his arms, carried us in 
 his bosom, and defended us from the power 
 of the enemy ! Eternal Lord God, thou in- 
 dwelling Trinity, whom truly our hearts do 
 love, accept the gratitude words cannot 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 5 I 
 
 speak : in silent adoration we adore thee, 
 overwhelmed at thy amazing grace ! I cannot 
 utter, my dear friend, the sweet feelings of 
 my heart, or tell you how divine a union my 
 spirit feels with yours. O may you now, and 
 henceforth, prove all that Jesus can bestow ! 
 How much is that ? Words cannot tell you ; 
 but yours it is, through the merit of his 
 blood! 
 
 I intended to begin my letter with thanks 
 for your love and kindness to me at Chester ; 
 but I was led to the precious fountain of all 
 comfort, and when I had once begun his 
 mercy's theme, I could not break off ! I bear, 
 however, a grateful sense of the affectionate 
 regard you manifested ; and though to tell 
 you so is all I can do, my Lord will surely 
 reward. My love to dear Miss Bennett, and 
 all that family ; and to all where you are. I 
 bear them all on my heart before God. I 
 love them all ; and if they knew how Jesus 
 loves them, they would not keep back their 
 hearts from him. I got safe to this place, 
 and am treated very kindly by this loving 
 family ; but O how I feel for those who love 
 not God ! My dear Miss B. is as open and 
 free as before. My soul cleaves to her, and I 
 
152 LIFE AXD JOURNAL OF 
 
 have great hopes. Pray for her, and for your 
 ever affectionate, h. a. roe. 
 
 Letter to Miss Loxdale. 
 
 Nantwich, June 30, 1779. 
 
 Dear Sister, — My dear friend's letter 
 was indeed a pleasure and a blessing to me ; 
 and my Lord's great goodness to you is a 
 fresh motive to love and praise him. But 
 fresh motives of this kind are no new things 
 to me ; I am ever discovering instances of 
 his goodness that fill me with wonder and 
 astonishment, and cause me to exclaim, with 
 holy David, " Lord, what is man, that thou 
 art mindful of him?" Great things, indeed, 
 my dear sister, hath the Lord done for you, 
 and for your unworthy friend : and yet, O 
 stupendous grace ! we have only received a 
 drop from the ocean of his love : an endless 
 prospect and a maze of bliss lie yet before 
 us ! opening beauties, and such lengths, and 
 breadths, and depths, and heights, as thought 
 cannot reach, or mind of man conceive ! It 
 is, my friend, the fulness of the triune God, in 
 which we may bathe, and plunge, and sink, till 
 lost and swallowed up in the ever-increasing, 
 overflowing ocean of delights. His fulness ; 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 53 
 
 (Xwhat is it ! Shall we ever fathom it ? ever 
 know a ten thousandth part of that efful- 
 gence we could not bear to know and live ! 
 Nay, and when disembodied through the re- 
 volving ages of eternity, I am persuaded we 
 shall only seem beginning to know his fulness 
 of love. What thoughts are these! when I 
 enter into them, as into a labyrinth, they al- 
 most overcome my natural powers. O how 
 very little of his revealed glory can this 
 earthen vessel contain ! but a time is hasten- 
 ing on (and I eagerly wait for its approach), 
 when, no longer imprisoned in clay, our eyes 
 shall be strengthened to see him as he is ; — 
 see him for ourselves, and bask forever in his 
 smiles. Yes, we shall be with Jesus, and be- 
 hold his glory. He will reveal to us, also, as 
 much as we bear, of the fulness of the 
 Father's glory : and we shall be with Father, 
 Son, and Spirit, filled to all eternity ! But I 
 have been led further than I intended : I 
 must return. 
 
 Permit me to ask, my dear friend, what are 
 your ideas, what is your opinion, or what 
 your experience of inward, instantaneous 
 sanctification ; whereby the root, the in-being 
 of sin is destroyed ? I do not mean to allude 
 
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 to a state of angelic or Adamic, but a Chris- 
 tian perfection ; a destruction of every tem- 
 per contrary to love ; a state consistent with 
 many temptations of the devil, if our hearts 
 repel those temptations, and our will do not 
 embrace or yield to them : for that cannot 
 be sin in which our will has no part. Thus 
 it was with Jesus : " In him was no sin, yet 
 he was tempted in all points as .we are:" 
 before his pure eyes did that enemy display 
 all the kingdoms of the world, and the glory 
 of them : to his spotless soul he suggested 
 disturbing doubts, and presumptuous expecta- 
 tions ; but in the Son of God they found no 
 place. Again ; what I mean is a state con- 
 sistent with a growth in grace ; for Jesus, 
 though always pure, " increased in wisdom 
 and stature, and in favor with God and man." 
 Is not such a state expressed and described 
 in the thirteenth of the first book of Corinth- 
 ians ? and is it not commanded in these 
 gracious words, " Rejoice evermore, pray 
 without ceasing, and in everything give 
 thanks ? " Does the apostle add, " This is 
 the will of God concerning you ? " And 
 after praying, " Now the God of peace sanc- 
 tify you wholly : " does he not pray that 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 55 
 
 " your whole spirit, soul, and body (after they 
 are so sanctified), may be preserved blameless 
 to the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ ? " 
 Then follows the glorious promise, " Faithful 
 is he that calleth you, who also will do it." 
 And is not the same thing promised in the 
 sweet passage you named : " I will sprinkle 
 clean water upon you, and you shall be clean : 
 from all your filthiness, and from all your 
 idols will I cleanse you ? " etc. And again, 
 did he not "swear to our father Abraham, 
 that he would grant unto us, that we, being de- 
 livered out of the hands of our enemies, might 
 serve him without fear, in holiness and right- 
 eousness before him all the days of our life ? " 
 By the state I weakly attempt to describe, I 
 mean that degree of humble love which ex- 
 cludes every temper contrary thereto ; and 
 faith that excludes the remains of unbelief, 
 and every tormenting fear; "for he that 
 feareth is not made perfect in love." It is 
 "fellowship with the Father, and with his 
 Son Jesus Christ," through the Spirit, by 
 whose abiding witness we can say, "Abba, 
 Father- — my Lord and my God," with an 
 unwavering tongue. 
 
 I know this precious gospel salvation is 
 
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 even derided by some, and exploded by many. 
 Perhaps you may have conversed with some 
 of these ; and not have met with many who 
 have dared to speak for God in this respect. 
 Some of my expressions may therefore ap- 
 pear odd or unusual ; but, compare them with 
 Scripture, and mention with freedom any of 
 them you wish me to explain. As I know 
 your situation, you will excuse the liberty I 
 take in advising you not to meddle with 
 opinions : this will insensibly eat out of the 
 soul the precious life of God. Dispute not 
 with any ; or, if they seek doubtful disputa- 
 tions, it is a good way to propose prayer. But 
 it may be well, as much as can be, to avoid 
 the company of those who love vain contro- 
 versy. Endeavor to possess a calm, recol- 
 lected spirit — a heartfelt union with a holy 
 God. Sweet truth — God is love and love is 
 the Christian's all. Love in us is his nature 
 imparted : it is the fulfilling of the law, the 
 perfect law of liberty. Whosoever " loveth 
 his brother,' ' hath fulfilled the law to his 
 neighbor : and he who " loveth the Lord his 
 God with all his heart, and soul, and mind, 
 and strength," hath fulfilled the law to him 
 also. To such " his commandments are not 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 57 
 
 grievous ; " not a task, a wearisome burden, 
 but a delight : " They are ways of pleasant- 
 ness — they are paths of peace." And as we 
 are under a law of love to God, so God, our 
 God in Christ, is under a covenant of love, in 
 which is made over to us all he is and all he has 
 to give ; his every attribute ; his wisdom to 
 guide and teach ; his power to protect and 
 help, and strengthen : his faithfulness, his 
 truth, his mercy, etc., all sealed over, and 
 secured by covenant promises and covenant 
 blood. 
 
 my dear sister, what a blessed portion is 
 ours ! Let us determine to prove it all. We 
 may, I trust we shall, and together praise in 
 endless day the great Three-One. I am ever 
 yours in him, h. a. roe. 
 
 Letter to the same. 
 
 Macclesfield, Aug. 4, 1775. 
 
 1 thank you, my dear sister, for your last, 
 and would have written sooner, but a violent 
 rheumatic pain in my head prevented me. I 
 clearly see in your experience a deepening of 
 the work of God. He is preparing your heart 
 for his perfect love : he is emptying you of 
 self that you may be swallowed up in him : he 
 
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 is crucifying you to the world, that you may 
 live to him, and for him alone : he discovers 
 to you the beauties of holiness, that your soul 
 and all its powers may be captivated thereby, 
 and enlarged to ask and receive all his good- 
 ness waits to give. It is no marvel that 
 Satan shoots his fiery darts, and employs his 
 strongest batteries to prevent this work of 
 grace : he ever did, and he ever will. This 
 precious salvation entirely overturns his king- 
 dom in the believer's heart ; he hath no more 
 peace, no more power ; he finds no inward 
 evil now (in those thus saved) to close in with 
 his temptations. His every dart is now re- 
 pelled ; quick-sighted love discovers all his 
 snares, and, anmed with the strength of Om- 
 nipotence, we more than conquer ! 
 
 The temptations you find are the same I 
 was followed with, when the fountains of the 
 great deep of inbred corruption were discov- 
 ered to my view : yes, I experienced them all, 
 and ten times more. 
 
 Mr. Fletcher's Polemical Essay, especially 
 in his address to imperfect believers, seeking 
 Christian perfection, was made a great bless- 
 ing to me. This, with Mr. Wesley's Plain 
 Account, answered every objection, every 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 59 
 
 doubt : and I earnestly recommend them to 
 your serious perusal. These will lead you to 
 see we are sanctified, as well as justified, by 
 
 faith alone, and not for our merits, fitness, or 
 deservings ; but faith lays hold of the blood of 
 Christ, as the procuring cause of our holiness, 
 and which alone cleanseth from all sin. This 
 blood is all-sufficient : — as prevailing now as 
 ever it will be. What then does the believer 
 (hungering and thirsting after righteousness, 
 or inward purity) wait for ? The promise is, 
 They shall be filled. Why delay ? We may 
 come just as we are ; and if so, we may come 
 this moment. It is said, Acts xxvi, 18, " We are 
 sanctified by faith in Jesus : " and the work in 
 that verse is plainly distinguished from justi- 
 fication, or the forgiveness of sins, both being 
 there clearly promised. If then it be by faith 
 alone, it must be also instantaneous, in the 
 same manner as our pardon was. Did we 
 not receive the one in a moment, by, and in 
 the act of believing? And why should we 
 stumble at coming the same way for the 
 other? " By grace are ye saved through 
 
 • faith," in all the different degrees of that sal- 
 vation which we can receive in the body. If 
 by grace, then it is no more of works, and if 
 
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 not by works, we need wait for none : — we 
 may come just as we are, yea, just now. 
 
 May the Lord, while you read these lines, 
 open the windows of heaven, and fill your 
 spirit with his pure love. Do you thirst ? 
 Behold rivers of living waters gushing out of 
 your Redeemer's wounds, — water that will 
 wash your inbred sin away. Is not the Holy 
 Ghost waiting to apply the efficacious blood, 
 and make you white as snow ? Hovers he 
 not over you ? Knocks he not even now at 
 the door of your heart ? O let your inmost 
 spirit cry, 
 
 " Come in, come in, thou heavenly guest, 
 Nor ever hence remove ; 
 But sup with me, and let the feast 
 Be everlasting love." 
 
 Amen, Lord Jesus, answer the prayer of 
 thy child. Be it unto her as her soul desir- 
 eth ; fill her heart, and fill it now. I feel for 
 the trials of your present situation, but the 
 sweet love of Jesus shall bear you above all. 
 Take no thought for the morrow, but mo- 
 mentarily live to God, and for God, and noth- 
 ing will be able to harm you. I am, my dear 
 friend, yours in the best of bonds, 
 
 H. A. ROE. 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. l6l 
 
 Letter to Mr. Robert Roe, tipon the nature of faith, 
 and in what sense it is the act of man. 
 
 Macclesfield, Aug. 12, 1779. 
 
 Dear Cousin, — I can still see all your 
 doubts and scruples in no other light than as 
 temptations and suggestions from an enemy, 
 who is, and ever will be, watching and en- 
 deavoring to break your peace. And though 
 I believe you will be brought through them 
 all to the haven of bliss, yet you permit him 
 to rob you of much comfort which you might 
 enjoy; and he would rather employ you in 
 answering his lying suggestions, than that 
 you should be momentarily looking up to and 
 depending on Jesus for all you want. For 
 my own part, if it were not to answer your 
 queries, I should never enter into the nice 
 distinctions you do. I have much more to 
 learn myself, and am convinced many would 
 solve your scruples much better than I can. 
 Indeed, to speak properly, no one can do it : 
 it is the work of God. Yet, I am ready 
 to impart what himself hath freely given. 
 But I beseech you to read my letters with 
 prayer, and beg of God that he will attend 
 every observation with the light and blessing 
 of his Spirit. 
 
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 You say, " The work of justification is 
 
 greatly obscured by many, and you do not 
 dude rue. — that I tell you, sometimes it is 
 by faith, sometimes by works." So do St. 
 Paul and St. Tames, yet they are strictly con- 
 sist r::t with themselves and each other. But 
 I sometimes think you understand by works 
 a meritorious condition ; I never mean any 
 such thing. When I speak of the works God 
 requires in a seeker or believer. I only mean 
 a co-operation with, or using the grace given 
 to us. I believe God the Father loved all 
 mankind in their sins, freely and uncondition- 
 ally, or he had never given his only begotten 
 Son. And it was an unconditional promise, 
 "The seed of the woman shall bruise the 
 serpent's head." God the Son also loved us 
 freely and unconditionally, when he left his 
 Father's glorv. and became man ; — lived, died, 
 and rose again/*?;- us. I believe, too, God the 
 Holv Ghost, unconditionally (with respect to 
 anything we can do), '''enlightens every man 
 that cometh into the world.'' But then, these 
 things being done for us, by and through the 
 free grace of the eternal Trinity, we are re- 
 red to use the light given. 
 If the Spirit of God convinceth of sin, 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 63 
 
 which is his work, we are required to forsake 
 it ; and there is always power to do it com- 
 municated. This forsaking of sin is an act 
 of man, and a condition ; for, " put away the 
 evil of your doings," saith God, "from among 
 you, and cease to do evil :" yet this is not a 
 meritorious work. Again : if the Spirit 
 point the guilty, heavy-laden sinner to the 
 Lamb of God, show the all-sufficiency of his 
 atonement, and that the promises are made 
 to such lost sinners as he is, who are weary 
 of the burden of sin; that he has a 
 right to come, because all are invited ; and 
 that "now is the accepted time" with God, 
 "and now is the day of salvation;" — that 
 no price, no worthiness, is required ; but he 
 may come without money, and be forgiven 
 freely ; — when these things are revealed by 
 God, which is his work, then it is that we are 
 commanded to act faith. We are to believe 
 the record true ; embrace it, rely upon it, and 
 venture our guilty souls on the promises 
 made through a bleeding Saviour. It is after 
 this act of faith, not before it, God gives the 
 witness of the Spirit. Do you understand 
 me ? The witness, or the seal of the Spirit, 
 is God's gift, not our act ; given to all who 
 
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 do act faith on Jesus, and the promise made 
 through him. But it is not given till faith be 
 acted. If we, as penitents, had no power 
 thus to act faith, how would God be just in 
 declaring, " He that believeth not shall be 
 damned " ? 
 
 With respect to works after justification, 
 can any one retain his confidence in God 
 without them ? Has he any foundation in 
 the Scripture to do so ? God absolutely re- 
 quires that we should do, do, do (as you say,), 
 and be, be, be : not in a meritorious sense, 
 but as fruits of the law of love, written in 
 our hearts, acceptable and well pleasing 
 through Jesus Christ, and with every injunc- 
 tion he gives power to perform it. The 
 power given is of grace, and the use of that 
 power is the act of man. Again : When the 
 Lord, by his Spirit, reveals our inbred sin, 
 and points us to the all-cleansing blood, and 
 to the promises to circumcise our heart, etc., 
 it is his work wrought in us freely. But, 
 when this light is given, we are to embrace 
 the promises, and act faith upon them. God 
 hath said, "I will do it.'' Let me ask, Do 
 you believe he will do it in you ? Hold fast 
 that faith, then, for the promise is sure, it 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 65 
 
 cannot fail : and God's time is now. Only 
 believe. God at this moment requires an act 
 of faith in you. He holds out the promise, 
 and bids you believe. But you will say, I do 
 not feel the blessing. Poor Thomas I Be- 
 cause thou hast not seen, thou wilt not be- 
 lieve. " Blessed are they who have not seen, 
 and yet have believed ! " But you ask, 
 "What must I believe?'' I answer, That 
 God is faithful — that he can and will, in a 
 moment, give you what now you do not feel : 
 nay, you will not feel it till after you have 
 believed. If I had given you an apple, it 
 would not be faith to believe I had given it : 
 but, if I had promised to give you one, and to 
 give it you instantly on your requesting it ; if 
 you then believed my promise, and took me 
 at my word, though you did not see or handle 
 the apple, this would be your act of faith in 
 me. But how much more immutable the 
 promise of a God ! You cannot believe him 
 in vain. Even suppose (which is seldom the 
 case) you thus act faith a day or two, or 
 longer, before you receive the witness, shall 
 you be the worse for it ? Nay, but far better 
 for having believed : this faith will bring 
 power into your soul, and you will sensibly 
 
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 feel what you never felt before ;' and soon 
 you will prove the Spirit's inward testimony, 
 that it is done unto you according to your 
 faith. But you will say, " How is the work 
 instantaneous, if I must wait a day or two ? " 
 I answer, The work is done the moment you 
 believe : though the witness of the spirit 
 (which is not your faith, but the gift of God) 
 be not fully given till afterward. " He that 
 believeth" (the promise saith) " shall be 
 saved' ' — from guilt, from inbred sin, and into 
 glory. 
 
 It appears to me you labor under another 
 mistake. You expect, in being saved from 
 sin, to be also delivered from temptation, 
 shortcomings, weaknesses, and infirmities ; 
 but these are inseparable from humanity. 
 We shall never have a perfect body till the 
 resurrection : of consequence, shall be liable 
 to a thousand infirmities. We shall never 
 have perfect knowledge in this life ; and shall 
 therefore ever be liable to errors in judgment", 
 etc. The perfect law of Adam would con- 
 demn these things : but we are under the 
 covenant of grace ; or, in other words, under 
 the law of love to Christ, whose blood every 
 moment pleads for these things. May the 
 
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 God of peace and love teach and guide you 
 into his perfect will, prays your affectionate 
 cousin, H. A. ROE. 
 
 Letter to the Rev. J. Wesley. 
 
 Macclesfield, Oct. 15, 1779. 
 
 Rev. Sir, — Since I received your last I 
 have had a return of the pain in my side, an 
 oppression of my lungs, and sometimes (which 
 I never had before) such a yellowness of skin 
 that I apprehended my disorder would turn to 
 the jaundice. After eating and drinking, I 
 was thrown into violent heats, and afterwards 
 into cold, fainting sweats. Then I was either 
 in great pain at my stomach, or else so 
 sleepy, that I could not keep my eyes open 
 for a considerable time. But, blessed be 
 God ! I found it a sweet affliction ; for never 
 did I find Christ so precious ; my evidence so 
 clear ; my will so unreservedly swallowed up 
 in his, nor the intercourse so truly opened 
 between him and my believing soul. Hence 
 I loved, and praised him for every pain ; and, 
 had it been his adorable will to have called 
 me hence, how gladly should I have obeyed 
 the joyful summons, and hasted to the pres- 
 ence of my beloved, my friend, my all ! But 
 
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 seeing he still spares me a little longer; { 
 embrace his will and bless the merciful hand 
 which brought me down, and hath raised me 
 up again. I see an open field, a boundless 
 prospect of new delights lies open before me. 
 I see and feel that God hath engaged all his 
 attributes in my behalf ; and in his strength I 
 fear no cross, no shame, no enemies ; for my 
 Leader, my Captain, my King, is the Lord of 
 hosts. His glory is my only aim, and my 
 only happiness. O precious thought ! O 
 bliss not imaginary, but real ; not fading, but 
 everlasting ; not decreasing, but ever grow- 
 ing ! O vast abyss of unfathomable love ! 
 And as this is my portion, so, dear sir, it is 
 yours also. We experience it now, and shall 
 for ever know it. On these accounts, how 
 easy is the sight of faith ! how delightful the 
 labors of love ! and how welcome the cross 
 we bear for Him, who is our life, our strength 
 and our salvation ! 
 
 Dear Mr. S. is still unable to go into his 
 circuit, and I fear he will never be much bet- 
 ter. Cold bathing seems to do him most 
 good ; but he is very ill, especially in the 
 mornings. His grief at not being able to 
 travel is, I believe, a great hindrance to his 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 169 
 
 recovery. My soul feels great nearness to 
 him ; for I believe he is, in a peculiar sense, 
 beloved of God, and a faithful steward of his 
 grace. 
 
 I hope, sir, you will remember him at the 
 throne of grace, and that God may either re- 
 store him to his former usefulness, or else 
 help him to be perfectly resigned to his ador- 
 able will ; for you know, dear sir, that to 
 have a soul, all on fire for doing good, kept 
 back and hindered by sickness, weakness, or 
 other bodily infirmity, must be a great temp- 
 tation to the contrarv. But as there are 
 none so weak as myself, and, of consequence, 
 who stand more in need of divine assistance, 
 I hope you will not cease to mention me in 
 your prayers. In so doing you will greatly 
 oblige, rev. sir, your very unworthy, but 
 most affectionate friend and servant, 
 
 H. A. ROE. 
 
 Letter to the same. 
 
 December ti, 1779. 
 
 Rev. and Dear Sir, — I should not have 
 been silent thus long, had not my dearest 
 Lord seen good to afflict my body. I am just 
 recovering from a sore throat. It was not 
 
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 ulcerated, but attended with a fever. Num- 
 bers in this town, or neighborhood, have been 
 ill, and several have died, four in one family 
 within a month. I applied hartshorn to my 
 throat, and found benefit from it. I am now, 
 I bless God, much better. I have reason to 
 praise him for every affliction ; for all he 
 permits does work together for my good. I 
 do love my Lord with all my heart. 
 
 " All my capacious powers can wish, 
 In him doth richly meet ; 
 Nor to my eyes is light so dear, 
 Or friendship half so sweet." 
 
 No, no, all that the creation can boast of 
 is poor and mean compared with him I love. 
 In him I feel a constant heaven, and my soul 
 truly sits loose to all besides. I have victory, 
 through his grace, over all things, inward 
 and outward, that are contrary to his will. I 
 have at times various temptations ; but they 
 find no place in me, nor at any time distress 
 or bring me into bondage. I have (glory be 
 to God) the inward testimony of his Spirit, 
 that I please him, and that he dwelleth in 
 me. My body and soul are both the Lord's ; 
 and I earnestly desire that his whole will may 
 be done in me and by me. I am a sacrifice 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I/I 
 
 offered up through Jesus, my adorable High 
 Priest ; and am determined, through grace 
 divine, ever to remain so. I am a pilgrim 
 in a strange country, and all my treasure is 
 above. 
 
 I am travelling as fast as the wings of time 
 will bear me forward to my celestial country ; 
 though thorns, and snares, and gins, some- 
 times beset my path ; yet my feet are shod, 
 my sandals on, and I trample on them. 
 Though the arrows of the archer are flying, I 
 have a shield that turns aside the fiery darts. 
 I have a shadow from the heat, and a refuge 
 from the storm. I live upon the food of 
 angels, and drink largely of the fountain of 
 the water of life. His ways are ways of pleas- 
 antness, and all his paths are perfect peace. 
 How great is the love wherewith he hath 
 loved me ! O how large his grace to the 
 most unworthy ! " Bless the Lord, O my 
 soul, and all that is within me bless his holy 
 
 name." I have heard from cousin J 
 
 R , and his soul prospers ; blessed be 
 
 God ! I hope, dear sir, you ever do, and ever 
 will remember, at the throne of grace, your 
 most unworthy, but truly affectionate child in 
 a precious Jesus, h. a. roe. 
 
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 To the Rev. Mr. Fletcher. 
 
 Dublin, Dec. 14, 1784. 
 
 Rev. and Dear Sir, — I believe it will not ' 
 be unacceptable to you to be informed how a 
 God of love is blessing his dear people in this 
 city. You have a peculiar right to expect 
 this, because you were made, through mercy, 
 the instrument of kindling a gracious flame 
 in many hearts ; and of preparing others to 
 receive the message of salvation ; a present sal- 
 vation ; even from all sin. Had not you and 
 your dear partner been here before us, it is 
 probable we should not have been received 
 as we now are. But the sound of your Mas- 
 ter's feet was behind you, and a gracious 
 savor was left upon the minds of the people 
 in general ; so that when we came, we found 
 them eager to embrace the whole gospel. I 
 had the clearest assurance, before we left 
 England, that our appointment for Dublin 
 was of the Lord, and every day brings me 
 fresh proofs of it. It was also a kind Provi- 
 dence which brought us here on the very day 
 that precious woman, Mrs. King (now Mrs. 
 Johnson) was married : and in consequence 
 of which went to reside at Lisburn. Had we 
 arrived before the society suffered so great a 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 73 
 
 loss, my poor services might not have been 
 so acceptable : and had it been later, the 
 minds of the people might have been grieved 
 to excess. But the novelty of strangers first 
 engaged their attention, and the word of the 
 Lord soon became a sin-killing and soul-sav- 
 ing word ; so that now every one's cares and 
 fears terminate in a determination to secure 
 his own salvation. 
 
 Another great blessing is Mr. Rogers and 
 Mr. Blair (his fellow-laborer) are united as the 
 heart of one man. Mrs. Blair, also, is a sis- 
 ter indeed to me in spirit and real affection. 
 So that we are a family of love : and one 
 small house serves us all.* And not the 
 preachers only, but the stewards, leaders 
 and people, all unite, and have only one strife 
 — how they ^ may best promote each other's 
 holiness and the cause of God. And glory, 
 glory, glory, be ever ascribed to Father, Son 
 and Holy Ghost, it is promoted. Sinners are 
 snatched, by grace, as brands from the burn- 
 ing, and the kingdom of God and his Christ 
 is set up in many believing hearts. 
 
 In six weeks from the time of our first 
 arrival, many were awakened, and nine re- 
 ceived a clear sense of pardon : these returned 
 
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 public thanks, which greatly encouraged the 
 seekers, and raised the expectation of all. As 
 it was manifestly a time of refreshing from 
 the presence of the Lord, it was thought ex- 
 pedient at our love-feast, October 10, to give 
 notes of admission, on that occasion, to many 
 who were not as yet members of society, but 
 appeared desirous of salvation ; so that near 
 seven hundred souls were present : and a 
 feast of love it was, such as I believe many 
 will praise God for to all eternity ! After 
 several, who spoke with great freedom and 
 simplicity, a poor penitent besought us with 
 tears to pray for her. The kindlings of love 
 which had been felt before, now became a 
 flame in every believing soul ; and when fallen 
 on our knees, the power of God descended of 
 a truth : every corner of the house was filled 
 with cries of " God be merciful to me a sin- 
 ner,'' or " Praise the Lord, O my soul, who 
 hath forgiven all my iniquities ! " Not one 
 remained unaffected ; and we have since found 
 that seven were justified at that time ; among 
 whom was one that received a note of admit- 
 tance in the morning, and several who came 
 only with a faint desire, were deeply con- 
 vinced of sin. The next night another was 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 75 
 
 justified under the word, and a second under 
 the prayer, and a backslider healed ; and soon 
 after, while Mr. R explained and en- 
 forced, " Blessed are the poor in spirit, for 
 theirs is the kingdom of heaven ;" dear sister 
 R , whom I am persuaded you well re- 
 member (for you took great pains to encour- 
 age and help her forward) ; even this poor 
 nervous, afflicted woman, who has been a 
 seeker twenty-one years, laid hold of the 
 promise by faith, and received the " knowl- 
 edge of salvation by the remission of sins;" 
 and notwithstanding she is often greatly op- 
 pressed by her bodily disorder, she is still en- 
 abled to claim her interest in redeeming blood. 
 A poor, vile young man, who had indulged 
 himself in all kinds of sin with greediness, 
 and, according to his own expression, " be- 
 lieved no God more supreme than himself,' ' 
 strayed into the chapel just as Mr. Rogers 
 gave out the text, " Believe on the Lord Jesus 
 Christ, and thou shalt be saved : " he was 
 that hour cut to the heart, and is now ear- 
 nestly seeking salvation, and has received 
 much comfort. Under the same sermon one 
 was justified, and another backslider healed. 
 Since this, a man and his wife came to 
 
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 preaching together, who had been seekers 
 seven years, and their states nearly alike : they 
 did not sit near each other ; but were both set 
 at liberty under the same sentence, and in the 
 same instant. They both ran to catch hold 
 
 of Mr. R as he came from the pulpit, 
 
 ' and there met each other, and rejoiced to- 
 gether with exceeding great joy. The man 
 said, he knew his wife was blest before they 
 thus met, as well as he knew that himself 
 was. Another person who had been a back- 
 slider ten years, first into Antinomian prin- 
 ciples, and then into gross open sin, fell lately 
 into deep despair, and many times attempted 
 to put an end to his life, but was often pre- 
 vented by an almost miraculous proivdence. 
 Friday, Nov. 1 2, was the last time, when he 
 had placed a loaded pistol to his breast, and 
 intended to discharge it the next moment : 
 but these words came with power, " Why will 
 ye die ? " He instantly fell on his knees, and 
 dropped the pistol. He came afterward to 
 the preachers, who endeavored to encourage 
 him ; and on the Tuesday following he was 
 at our prayer meeting, where an agonizing 
 spirit of prayer was given : he obtained then 
 a comfortable hope of mercy, and at night, 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 77 
 
 under Mr. Blair's preaching, was set at lib- 
 erty. This he told me the next morning, with 
 streaming eyes, and gratitude unspeakable. 
 
 Nov. 1 8. We had another love-feast at 
 Gravelwalk : it was a more wonderful season 
 than even the former. We know of nine that 
 we have reason to believe were justified ; 
 and many lukewarm professors were greatly 
 stirred up. Two of these found peace in the 
 blood of Jesus the week after ; another on 
 Sunday night last, who was a Papist ; and 
 another last night. A Jew is also convinced 
 and converted ; and from being, according to 
 his sect, a Pharisee, is now zealous in his 
 love to Jesus, though at the hazard of his life, 
 for his own mother and other relations have 
 attempted to murder him at different times. 
 
 One of sister Johnson's classes, and an- 
 other since formed, are committed to my 
 care. In the first of *these are now thirty- 
 eight members, in the latter thirty-six ; and 
 within the last quarter, ten of these have re- 
 ceived a sense of pardon, and four others are 
 enabled to love God with all their hearts. I 
 have likewise undertaken a class of young 
 girls, from about nine to fourteen years of 
 age. In a few weeks many of them began to 
 
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 feel awakenings, and a few were deeply con- 
 vinced of sin. A month ago, one of these, 
 ten years of age, received a clear sense of par- 
 don : she told her companion of the same 
 age, who prayed and wept, and would not be 
 comforted, till she obtained the same bless- 
 ing, which was in a few days. When the rest 
 heard this, they were greatly stirred up, and 
 the following Sabbath two more were as 
 clearly justified, one of eleven, the other thir- 
 teen years of age. There is a great and vis- 
 ible change in all these, and they speak 
 clearly and experimentally. Seven more are 
 under conviction, and I doubt not will soon 
 be brought into liberty. In all, we have cer- 
 tain accounts, since we came, of forty-six jus- 
 tified, eight sanctified, and one hundred added 
 to the society. 
 
 As to myself, I never was so truly happy 
 in every sense : happy in increasing union 
 and communion with the Father, Son and 
 Spirit, and sunk into depths of humble love. 
 I feel my unworthiness and nothingness in- 
 describable ; yet, stupendous grace ! all the 
 communicable fulness of a triune God is mine. 
 I feel the equal love of the undivided Deity. 
 As I worship the Father, so I worship the Son 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 79 
 
 and the Holy Ghost — my God — my all in all. 
 I am happy, too, in one who is truly a help to 
 me, both for soul and body, for time and eter- 
 nity, and who greatly encourages me in all 
 my labors : happy in my situation, among a 
 lively, affectionate people, who make it their 
 study how to manifest their love ; nor have 
 we one jarring string among us. O may we 
 ever be kept humble at the Saviour's feet, and 
 all our blessings (as through grace they do) 
 prove only a scale to heavenly love. Please 
 to remember us, in the most affectionate 
 manner, to dear Mrs. Fletcher. We entreat 
 an interest in both your prayers. When I 
 last asked this favor at Leeds, I believe you 
 granted it, and that your petitions were an- 
 swered. Once more, then, pray for us, and 
 believe me, dear sir, in gospel love, your will- 
 ing servant, h. a. Rogers. 
 
 To Mr. Matthias Joyce. 
 
 Dublin, May 1, 1785. 
 
 Dear Brother, — My soul greatly rejoices 
 in your joy. I do join with you in that song 
 which shall never end, " Unto him that hath 
 loved us, and washed us from our sins in his 
 own blood, be glory for ever and ever." O 
 
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 how precious is that life of simple faith you 
 describe and possess ! Go on, favored ser- 
 vant of the Lord, and he will show you 
 greater things than these. I do not mean 
 there is anything greater or higher than 
 love : but in this ocean, what heights, what 
 lengths, what depths ! what immeasurable 
 degrees, even in that communion with a 
 triune God, which it is our privilege to prove. 
 I know you feel something of what I mean, 
 even of equal love of Father, Son and Holy 
 Ghost. This we cannot properly feel till freed 
 from inbred sin. Where sin remains, there 
 cannot be that close union with the Father I 
 now speak of : but sin destroyed, and we 
 know the meaning of those words, " The 
 Father himself loveth you : " and again, " I 
 and my Father will come and make our abode 
 with you." Yea, the whole Deity flows in 
 upon us. Consider that blessed scripture, 
 " Know ye not that your bodies are the tem- 
 ples of the Holy Ghost, which is in you ; and 
 ye are not your own, for ye are bought with 
 a price?" By whom? By Jesus : therefore 
 glorify God the Father ; even the triune God, 
 — Father, Son, and Spirit, with your bodies 
 and your spirits, which are his. 
 
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 " Drawn, and redeem'd, and seal'd, 
 We'll praise the One and Three, 
 With Father, Son, and Spirit filPd 
 To all eternity." 
 
 I hope the Lord will carry on a gracious 
 work in Drogheda. I am glad to hear you see 
 so good a beginning. I never heard of so 
 universal a revival, as I am told by many is 
 now spreading through England, Ireland, and 
 America ; and yet I think it is but the begin- 
 ning of what the Lord will shortly do. Let 
 us not be weak in faith, and we shall see 
 showers of blessings. The promise shall 
 surely be accomplished ; and perhaps hast- 
 ened speedily by the universal cry of God's 
 dear children : " The earth shall be filled with 
 the knowledge of the glory of God, as the 
 waters cover the sea." 
 
 I doubt not but you have had a precious 
 season with Mr. Wesley. I think I never 
 saw him more truly filled with his blessed 
 Master's Spirit. We have heard of two souls 
 convinced of sin, and eight justified under 
 him, while in Dublin ; and, blessed be God, 
 two more, since he left us, can praise a recon- 
 ciled God, and one is set at perfect liberty ; 
 besides three more of the children, who have 
 
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 received remission of sins. I find, blessed be 
 God, my own soul is as a watered garden ; 
 and I have access to a spring, whose waters 
 fail not, from which I ever drink fresh sup- 
 plies. O what wells of salvation ! — what an 
 unfathomable ocean of love ! 
 
 A trifling affliction of body has, I think, 
 sunk me deeper into God. Such heartfelt, 
 solid peace, such inward nearness to, and fel- 
 lowship with him, I have proved the last fort- 
 night, as is better felt than described. It has 
 been much of 
 
 " That sacred awe which dares not move, 
 And all the silent heaven of love." 
 
 O for an enlarged heart ! O for ten thous- 
 and tongues to praise my God ! As it is said, 
 " In that day ye shall know that I am in the 
 Father, you in me, and I in you : " so it is 
 — the blessed day is come : I do know it : I 
 do feel it. I know what it is to dwell in the 
 Father, through the Son, and by the uniting 
 power of the Holy Ghost, and ever worship 
 an undivided Deity. These words have often 
 been spoken to my heart, and I feel them now 
 applied : " All that I have is thine : " yes, my 
 Lord, and I possess a drop out of the ocean. 
 
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 If I had much more at present, it would lay 
 me dead at thy feet : but all is mine in happy 
 reversion, and what my weakness can bear, 
 thou wilt impart. O make thyself room, and 
 more of heaven bestow! Thou wilt, thou 
 dost enlarge my heart. I grasp the God I 
 seek, the God I love, the God I shall enjoy to 
 all eternity ! O what a word is that ! A 
 triune God my own to eternity ! Yes, yes, 
 he is. Wonder, O heavens ! Be astonished, 
 O earth ! Be humble, O my soul ; and help 
 me to praise him, all ye hosts above ! O that 
 all the world knew the riches of divine love ! 
 O that all believers would give him all their 
 heart ! 
 
 My brother, let us covenant afresh with 
 God, to spread the savor of his grace with all 
 our most enlarged powers ; especially his full 
 salvation, that rest from all sin, that rest of 
 perfect love, received by simple faith, and by 
 faith alone. I think I never read any thing 
 wherein that blessing is more clearly described 
 than Mr. Wesley's sermon in the March and 
 April Magazines for this year, which I believe 
 will do much good : for how many have been 
 discouraged by not knowing and considering 
 that one point, " Sin is a wilful transgression 
 
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 of a known law." If this were the constant 
 rule by which we judged of what we feel, how 
 many vain reasonings would be answered ; 
 — how many subtle suggestions of the enemy ? 
 A mistake through ignorance, or through an 
 imperfect memory, together with various hate- 
 ful injections from an enemy : a dulness of 
 spirit, occasioned by the body ; or a flutter of 
 spirit occasioned by surprise, etc. ; none of 
 these, I say, or all of them put together, 
 would then appear a sufficient reason why a 
 soul should cast away its confidence respect- 
 ing what the Lord has wrought. Seeing these 
 are consistent with pure love, they are not 
 wilful transgressions of a known law. 
 
 May the Lord bless you in your soul and 
 labors still more abundantly, prays, dear 
 brother, your friend and sister in Jesus, 
 
 H. A. ROGERS. 
 
 Letter to the Rev. J. Wesley. 
 
 November 21, 1782. 
 
 My Dear and Honored Sir, — I have 
 been much indisposed since I wrote last, but 
 I think it is not wholly my old disorders. I 
 believe since my cousin's death my nerves 
 have been much affected, because any thing 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 85 
 
 sudden will occasion tremors, which I can no 
 otherwise account for, at the same time that 
 my soul is in perfect peace and solidly happy ; 
 as also many times there is a dulness and stu- 
 pidity, when at the same moment I feel a direct 
 witness that it proceeds not from any abate- 
 ment of the ardors of love divine. Glory be to 
 God, I feel this as a well of water ever spring- 
 ing up afresh, and I know the work of his 
 grace takes still deeper root than ever in my 
 worthless heart ; and though at times the 
 enemy suggests, if this nervous disorder takes 
 hold of me, as on my late dear cousin, I shall 
 not rejoice evermore, as I have done hitherto ; 
 yet I am enabled to answer him, in the power 
 of faith, " My strength shall be equal to my 
 day." If he afflicts, I have his word of prom- 
 ise, " My grace is sufficient for thee." Nor 
 can I have one painful fear : I know in whom 
 I trust. 
 
 I was yesterday employed in visiting mem- 
 bers of the classes with Mr. R. ; a business 
 which has been much neglected here of late, 
 and which, I trust, will be made a blessing to 
 many. I find it profitable. Mr. R. has suf- 
 fered much through the prejudices of some; 
 but he is as gold purified in the fire : it has 
 
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 been an unspeakable blessing. It has cut off 
 his intimacy with those who would perhaps 
 have proved snares and hindrances to his 
 soul and his labors ; and united him more 
 closely to the little flock, who are rich in 
 faith, and heirs of the kingdom. I believe 
 he has acted faithfully to God, to souls, and 
 to you. 
 
 The select band is now the most precious 
 meeting in which I ever assembled. There 
 are forty-eight members, all truly and happily 
 walking in the narrow path : thirty-five, I 
 have no doubt, enjoy perfect love. About six 
 have enjoyed it before, and are now seeking 
 it afresh, and the rest, who never enjoyed it, 
 are thirsting for it more than gold or silver. 
 We are all, too, united in one spirit. All in 
 this little company are helpers of each other's 
 joy. 
 
 I love Mrs. R. much : she is indeed one of 
 the excellent ones of the earth. I feel much 
 for you respecting the affair at Birstal : may 
 the Lord strengthen your hands, and in doing 
 so, defend his own cause. Your warfare shall 
 surely yet be glorious, though it be through 
 briars, or thorns, or scorpions. The Lord 
 still reigneth, and will defend his dear ser- 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. ■ 1 87 
 
 vants. Surely he is purging his Zion, and 
 will remove the chaff, and leave himself a pure 
 and a peaceable remnant, whose motto shall 
 be " Holiness to the Lord." 
 
 The openness of my disposition has some- 
 times brought me into inconveniences ; but 
 with you I believe it will not, and therefore I 
 speak freely. I am very unapt to suspect any 
 person of guile, but experience tells me all 
 are not to be trusted. I feel I need the con- 
 tinual unction of the Holy One to teach me. 
 O pray that this may be ever given to your 
 ever affectionate, unworthy child in a precious 
 
 JeSUS, H. A. ROGERS. 
 
 Letter to Rev, J. Wesley. 
 
 Cork, Jan. 24, 1788. 
 
 My Dear and Honored Sir, — Never had 
 one, so every way undeserving, so much rea- 
 son to praise a God of love. Day after day 
 — nay, every hour I breathe, he loadeth me 
 with his multiplied mercies ; yea, they are 
 more in number than the hairs of my head. 
 If I did not love him with all my consecrated 
 powers, and every moment offer up my little 
 all ; if I were not resolved to embrace every 
 opportunity to spend and be spent in service 
 
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 so divine, I should of all mortals be the most 
 inexcusable : for O ! his love to me is bound- 
 less ; — I prove it an ocean without a bottom 
 or a shore. The sweet communion I have 
 with Father, Son, and Spirit, is unspeakable ! 
 and whatsoever I ask of God in faith, it is 
 done. In God I live : in him I move : by him 
 I act and speak ; and it is in him alone I enjoy- 
 all my mercies. 
 
 Since I wrote last we have fresh cause for 
 praise. The Lord is doing wonders among 
 us here. It seems very likely, at present, we 
 shall see as great a work here as at Dublin. 
 At the visitation of the classes this Christ- 
 mas, we found the society increased from 
 three hundred and ninety-seven members (the 
 number it contained last conference) to five 
 hundred and four, and the number of classes 
 are increased from twenty-four to thirty ; and 
 fifty-six souls have found peace with God 
 since September last. The Christmas festi- 
 val was a most blessed season. On Christ- 
 mas morning at four o'clock, the preaching 
 house was well filled, and God was truly 
 present to bless ; — many were awakened and 
 four justified at the watch-night on New 
 Year's eve. Several also found pardon at 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. 1 89 
 
 the love-feast, and many witnessed a good 
 confession : but the time for renewing our 
 covenant exceeded all : fourteen souls were 
 that day born of God : some at their classes, 
 and the rest at that sweet solemn season of 
 the covenant. The house was truly shaken 
 (I mean every soul therein) by the power of 
 God. I believe none present, preachers or 
 people, will ever forget it. I trust I never shall. 
 It was none other than the antechamber of 
 glory to my soul — the house of God, the gate 
 of heaven. O how was I filled with his pres- 
 ence ! how did I bask in the beams of his 
 love ! how was I made to feel his immeasur- 
 able fulness all my own, through covenant 
 blood divine ! Several were perfected in love, 
 and several backsliders restored. Since this, 
 between thirty and forty have joined the 
 society; several of whom date their deep 
 awakenings from the covenant night. Mr. 
 Rogers saw it expedient, on that occasion, to 
 give notes of admittance to some who were 
 halting between two opinions ; and most of 
 them were then, and are now, determined to 
 be the Lord's. 
 
 My class being now divided, I meet twenty 
 on Tuesday, and eighteen on Friday. My 
 
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 heart is knit to these precious souls ; and, 
 blessed be God, we never meet in vain. The 
 Lord is pleased to bless me in all my weak 
 labors, and he knows I ascribe to him all the 
 good done, and all the glory. I do lie at his 
 feet, and am astonished at his condescending 
 love to such a worm. Last Sunday evening, 
 thanksgiving notes were sent by four, for a 
 sense of pardon received last week ; and we 
 hear of two more, who received the same 
 blessing that day. Several of our dear friends, 
 who know and love the Lord, have entered 
 into a solemn covenant with him, and with 
 each other, never to rest till they experience 
 perfect love. One of these has since received 
 the blessing, and seems in all things a new 
 creature indeed. 
 
 We have got another new place for preach- 
 ing, in a very convenient and populous part 
 of this city. Mr. R. preached there the first 
 time a fortnight ago, and told the congrega- 
 tion he would meet in a class as many as were 
 determined to forsake their sins, and seek the 
 kingdom of God with all their hearts. Four- 
 teen offered themselves, and were admitted 
 on trial ; and since then five more ; so that 
 there is a new class meets there, of nineteen 
 
MRS. HESTER ANN ROGERS. I9I 
 
 members. Great good is likely to be done, 
 as most of the hearers that attend are stran- 
 gers, who perhaps would never have heard 
 elsewhere. We have now five preaching 
 houses, at different parts and proper dis- 
 tances ; and I believe we shall see a glorious 
 harvest of precious souls. In all, since we 
 came, seventy-seven are enabled to rejoice in 
 a reconciled God, and many more seem just 
 ready to step into the liberty of God's chil- 
 dren. 
 
 We hear good news respecting the word of 
 God in Dublin, and in other parts of the 
 kingdom. O may the Lord ride on in the 
 glorious and triumphant chariot of gospel 
 grace and salvation, till all be subdued ! My 
 dear Mr. Rogers begs me to send his love to 
 you, and joins me in daily intercessions at a 
 throne of grace, that you may be filled with 
 the fulness of every new covenant blessing. 
 I am, my dear sir, your ever obliged and truly 
 affectionate, though unworthy friend and ser- 
 vant, H. A. ROGERS. 
 
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