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IN AUSTRIA — Continued 228 XVIL AT BIRMINGHAM 239 XVIII. THE PARTING OF THE WAYS ........ 247 XIX. MESMERIC EXPERIENCES 252 XX. IN THE NORTH OF ENGLAND 275 XXL JOURNEY IN BRITTANY 287 XXIL AT PENRITH. AT PARIS 298 XXIIL IN WESTERN PRANCE. AGAIN IN PARIS .... 320 XXIV. IN IRELAND. AT ILFRACOMBE. IN FLORENCE . . 327 XXV. IN FLORENCE 337 XXVL CHARLES DICKENS 351 VI CONTENTS. OHAPTEB PAGE XXVII. AT LUCCA BATHS 364 XXVIII. THE GARROWS. SCIENTIFIC CONGRESSES. MY FIRST MARRIAGE 376 XXIX. ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING 390 XXX. REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE 404 XXXI. REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE COYltinued . .415 XXXII. LETTERS FROM PEARD. GARIBALDI. LETTERS FROM PULSZKY 425 XXXIIL WALTER S. LANDOR. G. P. MARSH 438 XXXIV. MR. AND MRS. LEWES 451 XXXV. LETTERS FROM MR. AND MRS. LEWES .... 474 XXXVL MY MOTHER. LETTERS OF MARY MITFORD. LETTERS OF T. C. GRATTAN 488 XXXVII. THEODOSIA TROLLOPE 505 XXXVin. DEATH OF MR. GARROW. PROTESTANT CEMETERY. ANGEL IN THE HOUSE NO MORE . . . .517 XXXIX. CONCLUSION 521 INDEX 523 WHAT I REMEMBER. CHAPTER I. EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. I HAVE no intention of writing an autobiography. There has been nothing in my life which could justify such a pretension. But I have lived a long time. I re- member an aged porter at the monastery of the "Sagro Eremo," above Camaldoli, who had taken brevet rank as a saint solely on the score of his ninety years. His breth- ren called him and considered him as Saint Simon simply because he had been porter at that gate for more than sixty years. Now my credentials as a babbler of remi- niscences are of a similar nature to those of the old porter, I have been here so many, many years. And then those years have comprised the best part of the nineteenth cen- tury — a century during which change has been more rap- idly at work among all the surroundings of Englishmen than probably during any other century of which social history has to tell. Of course middle - aged men know, as well as we an- cients, the fact that social life in England — or, rather, let me say in Europe — is very different from what it was in the days of their fathers, and are perfectly well acquainted with the great and oftentimes celebrated causes which have differentiated the Victorian era from all others. But only the small records of an unimportant individual life, only the memories which happen to linger in an old man's brain, like bits of drift-weed floating round and round in the eddies of a back-water, can bring vividly before the young of the present generation those ways and manners 1 2 WHAT I REMEMBER. of acting and thinking and talking in the ordinary, everj-- day affairs of life which indicate the differences between themselves and their grandfathers. I was born in the year 1810 at No. 16 Keppel Street, Russell Square. The region was at that time inhabited by the professional classes, mainly lawyers. My father was a barrister of the Middle Temple to the best of my recollec- tion, but having chambers in the Old Square, Lincoln's Inn. A quarter of a century or so later all the district in question became rather deteriorated in social estimation, but has, I am told, recently recovered itself in this respect under the careful and judicious administration of the Duke of Bedford. The whole region appeared to me, when I was recently in London, about the least changed part of the London of my youthful days. As I walked up Store Street, which runs in a line from Keppel Street to Tottenham Court Road, I spied the name of " Pidding, Confectioner." I immediately entered the shop and made a purchase at the counter. " I did not in the least want this tart," said I to the girl who was serving in the shop. " Why did you take it, then ?" said she, with a little toss of her head. " Nobody asked you to buy it." " I bought it," rejoined I, "because I used to buy pastry of Mr. Pid- ding in this shop seventy years ago." "Lor', sir!" said the girl, " did you really ?" She probably considered me to be the Wandering Jew. I remember well that my father used to point out to me houses in Russell Square, Bedford Square, and Blooms- bury Square in which judges and other notable legal lu- minaries used to live. But even in those days the locali- ties in question, especially the last named of them, were beginning to be deserted by such personages, who were already moving farther westward. The occasion of these walks with my father through the squares I have named — to which Red Lion Square might have been added — was one the painful nature of which has fixed it in my mem- ory indelibly. " Infandiim memoria jubes renovare dolorem." For the object of these walks was the rendering an ac- count of the morning's studies. I was about six years old EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 3 when, under my father's auspices, I was first introduced to the "Eton Latin Grammar." He was a Wykehamist, had been a fellow of New College, and had held a Yine- rian fellowship. And his great ambition was that his eld- est son, myself, should tread in his steps and pursue the same career. Dis aliter visuin! as regards at least the latter stages of that career. For I did become, and am, a Wykehamist, as much as eight years at Coll. B. 31. Win- 1 071 2^"^' ope Winton can make me. Of which more anon. For the present I see myself alone in the back drawing- room of No. 16 Keppel Street, in which room the family breakfast took place — probably to avoid the necessity of lighting another tire in the dining-room below — at 7 a.m., on my knees before the sofa, with my head in my hands and my eyes fixed on the " Eton Latin Grammar " laid on the sofa-cushion before me. My parents had not yet come down to breakfast, nor had the tea-urn been brought up by the footman. N'ota bene. — My father was a poor man, and his establishment altogether on a modest footing. But it never would have occurred to him or to my mother that they could get on without a man-servant in livery. And though this liveried footman served a family in which two tallow candles, with their snuffer-dish, supplied the whole illumination of the evening, had the livery been an invented one instead of that proper to the family, the cir- cumstance would have been an absurdity exciting the ridicule of all the society in which my parents lived. Tempora ynutantur I Certainly, at the present day, an equally unpretending household would be burdened by no footman. But on the morning which memory is recalling to me the footman was coming up with the urn, and my parents were coming down to breakfast, probably simul- taneously; and the question of the hour was whether I could get the due relationship of relative and antecedent into my little head before the two events arrived. And that, as I remember it, was the almost unvaried routine for more than a year or two. I think, however, that the walks of which I was speaking when this retro- spect presented itself to me must have belonged to a time 4 WHAT I REMEMBER. a little, but not much, later; for I had then advanced to the making of Latin verses. We used to begin in those days by making "nonsense verses." And many of us ended in the same way ! The next step — Gradus ad Par- nassiim — consisted in turning into Latin verse certain English materials provided for the purpose, and so cun- ningly prepared as to fall easily and almost inevitably into the required form. And these were the studies which, as I specially remember, were the subject of rehearsal during those walks from Lincoln's Inn to Keppel Street. My father was in the habit of returning from his cham- bers to a five-o'clock dinner — rather a late hour, because he was an industrious and laborious man. W^ll ! we, that is, my next brother (not the one whose name became sub- sequently well known in the world, but my brother Henry, who died early) and myself, used to walk from Keppel Street to Lincoln's Inn, so as to arrive in time to walk back with my father. He was a fast walker; and as we trotted along, one on each side of him, the repetition of our morning's poetical achievements did not tend, as I well remember, to facilitate the difficulty of " keeping our wind." But what has probably fixed all this in my mind during nearly three quarters of a century was my father's pat ap- plication of one of our lines to the difficulties of those per- ipatetic poetizings. " Muse and sound of wheel do not well agree^'' read the cunningly prepared original, which the alumnus, with wonderful sagacity, was to turn into, " N'on bene conveniunt Musa rotmque so7ius.^^ " That," said my father, as he turned sharp round the corner into the comparative quiet of Featherstone Buildings, "is ex- actly why I turned out of Holborn!" I do not know whether children of eight years old, or thereabouts, would at the present day be allowed to range London so freely as we were. But our great amusement and delight was to take long exploring walks in as distant parts of the huge (though then comparatively small) city as could be compassed within the time at our disposition. One especially favorite excursion, I well remember, was to the White Horse Cellar in Piccadilly to see the coaches EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 5 start or arrive. I knew all their names, and their sup- posed comparative speed. By this means, indeed, came my first introduction to English geography. Formal les- sons on such a thoroughly " commercial academy" subject were not, of course, thought of for an aspiring Wykeham- ist. But for the due enjoyment of the White Horse Cel- lar spectacle it was necessary to know the whereabouts of the cities, their distance from London, and the routes by which they were reached. It thus came to pass that our geographical notions were of a curiously partial descrip- tion — tolerably copious and accurate as regards the south and west of England, far less so as regards the north; for the north-country coaches did not start from Piccadilly. On the opposite side of the way to the White Horse Cellar there was another coaching inn, the White Bear, on which I remembiCr we used to look with much contempt, from the belies, whether in any degree well founded I know not, that the. coaches which stopped there on their way out of town, or arrived there, were mainly slow coaches. One does not traverse well-nigh fourscore years with- out having experienced longings for the unattainable on several occasions. But I have no remembrance of any such eager, craving longing as the chronic longing of those days to make one of the great-coated companies who were departing to their various destinations by those "Tele- graphs," "High-Flyers," "Magnets," and "Independents." (The more suggestive names of the "Wonder," and its rival the " No Wonder !" once celebrated on the north- western road, belonged to a later day.) Had I been offered a seat on any of these vehicles my choice would have been dictated solely by considerations of distance — Falmouth for choice, as the westward Ultima Thule of coaching ex- perience. With what rapture should I have climbed, in my little round jacket as I was, and without a thought of any other protection, to the roof of the Falmouth mail — the mail for choice, the Devonport Quicksilver being then in the womb of the future — and started to fetch a forgotten letter (say) of the utmost importance, with strict injunctions to bring it back by the returning coach! I don't think my imagination had yet soared to the supreme 6 WHAT I REMEMBER. glories of the box-seat. That came later. To have been a booked passenger, that that horn should have sounded for me, that I should have been included in the guard's final and cheery assurance that at length all was " right " — would have been ample enough for an ecstacy of happi- ness. What an endless vista of ever-changing miles of country ! What an infinite succession of " teams " ! What a delicious sense of belonging to some select and specially important and adventurous section of humanity as we should clatter at midnight, or even at three or four o'clock in the morning, through the streets of quiet little country towns, ourselves the only souls awake in all the place ! What speculations as to the immediate bestowal and occu- pation of the coachman, when he " left you here, sir !" in the small hours ! What a delightful sense of the possible dangers of the undertaking as testified by many eagerly read narratives of the disasters of the road. Alas! I had no share in it all, save to stand on the curbstone amid the crowd of Jew boys selling oranges and cedar pencils six- pence a dozen, and hurrying passengers and guards and porters, and look on them all with envious longing. Nota bene. On such an occasion at the present day — if it be possible to conceive such an anachronism — the Jew boys above referred to would be probably Christian boys, and the object of their commerce the evening papers. But I have no recollection of any such element in the scene at the White Horse Cellar some sixty-eight years since. Occasionally when a holiday from lessons occurred — I am afraid most probably in consequence of my father being confined to his bed with headaches, which even at that early day, and increasingly, as years went on, afflicted him — we, my brother H^nry and I, obtained permission for a longer ramble. I have no recollection that on these occasions either the parks (unless, perhaps sometimes St. James's Park), or Kensington Gardens, or Hampstead, or Highgate, or any of the places that might be supposed to be attractive, had any attractions for us. Our faces were ever turned eastward. The city with its narrow, mysteri- ous lanes, and still more mysterious wharves, its quaint secluded churches, its Guildhall, and its Gog and Magog, EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 7 the queer localities of the halls of its companies, and spe- cially the abstruse mystery of that venerable Palladium,the London stone, excited in those days an irresistible influence on my imagination. But above all else the grand object of a much-planned eastern pilgrimage was the docks ! — with the outgoing ships bearing, tied to their shrouds, boards indicating their destinations. Here again was un- satisfied longing ! But it was a longing more tempered by awe and uncertainty. I am not sure that I would, if it had been offered to me, have stepped on board an East Indiaman bound for Bombay as eagerly as I would have climbed a coach starting for the Land's End. But it was a great triumph to have seen with our own eyes the Agy'a (or some other) Castle majestically passing through the dock gates, while passengers on deck, men and women, whose feet would absolutely touch land no more till they stopped at far Bombay on the other side of the world, spoke last farewells to friends standing on the dock walls or even on the gates themselves. But I can recall no less vividly certain expeditions of a kind which appeared to our imaginations to be — and which, perhaps, really were in some degree — fraught with a cer- tain amount of peril. Stories had reached us of sundry mysteriously wicked regions, where the bandit bands of the great city consorted and lived outlaw lives under cir- cumstances and conditions that powerfully excited our young imagination. Especially accounts of a certain lane had reached us, where it was said all the pocket-handker- chiefs stolen by all the pickpockets in London were to be seen exposed in a sort of unholy market. The name of this place was Saffron Hill. Whether any such place still exists, I know not. It has probably been swept away by the march of recent improvement. But it did in those days veritably exist. And to this extraordinary spot — as remote and strange to our fancy as the realms of Prester John — it was determined, after protracted consideration by my brother and myself, that our next long ramble should be devoted. We had ascertained that the dingy land of our researches lay somewhat to the westward of Smithfield — which had already been the object of a most 8 AVHAT I REMEMBER. successful, adventurous, and delightful expedition, not without pleasurable perils of its own from excited dro- vers and their dogs — and by dint of considerable persever- ance we reached it, and were richly rewarded for our toil and enterprise. Report had spoken truly. Saffron Hill was a world of pocket-handkerchiefs. From every win- dow, and on lines stretched across the narrow street, they fluttered in all the colors of the rainbow, and of all sizes and qualities. The whole lane was a long vista of pennon- like pocket-handkerchiefs! We should have much liked to attempt to deal in this strange market, not so much for the sake of possessing any of the articles, as with a view of obtaining experience, and informing ourselves respect- ing the manners and customs of the country. But we were protected from the possibly unpleasant results of any such tentative by the total absence from our pockets of any coin of the realm. We doubtless had pocket-hand- kerchiefs, and I have no recollection of their having been stolen. Probably it was ascertained by the inhabitants that they were not worth their notice. But the subject reminds me of an experience of the pocket-picking world which occurred to me some twenty years later. It was at Naples. People generally in those days carried silk pocket-handkerchiefs instead of the scraps of muslin which are affected nowadays. And five silk pocket-handkerchiefs were abstracted from my pockets during my walks abroad in as many days. I then took to wearing very common ones, and lost no more ! An American then at Naples, whose experiences of the pro- clivities of that population had been similar to mine, was not so fortunate in the result of the defensive measures he adopted. He sewed strongly into the interior of his pocket a large fish-hook. The result which he anticipated fol- lowed. The thief's hand was caught, and the American, turning sharply, seized him by the wrist and held him in a grasp like a vise till he could hand him over to a gen- darme. But within a fortnight that American was stabbed to the heart one night as he was going home from the theatre. The light-fingered fraternity, it would seem, con- sidered that such a practice was not within the laws of the EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 9 game ; whereas my more moderate ruse did not offend their sense of justice and fair-play. My brother and I reached home safely enough after our expedition to thief -land; and were inexhaustible in our accounts of the wonders we had witnessed. For it formed no part of our plan, and would not have been at all in ac- cordance with the general practice of our lives, to conceal the facts from our parents. Probably we had a sufficient suspicion of the questionable nature of the expedition we contemplated to prevent us from declaring it beforehand. But our education and habits would have forbidden any dream of concealing it. As far as my recollection serves me, our moral and re- ligious education led us to consider the whole duty of boy to be summed up in the two precepts "obey" and "tell no lies." I think there was a perfunctory saying of some portion of the catechism on a Sunday morning. But I am very sure that in our own minds, and apparently in those of all concerned, the vastly superior importance of the Virgil lesson admitted of no moment's doubt. But it must not be imagined from this that my parents were more ir- religious people than their neighbors ; still less that they were not most affectionately and, indeed, supremely solic- itous for the well-being and education of their children. My father was the son of a priest of the Church of Eng- land, and my mother the daughter of another, the Rev. William Milton, Vicar of Heckffeld, a New College living not far from Reading. Their associates were mainly bar- risters or clergy. My father was wholly and absolutely free from the prevailing vice of the time, and I never remember to have seen him in any slightest degree the worse for drink. And in the whole maiiihre cfetre of the house and home there was no note or symptom of any life save one of the most correct respectability and propriety, fully up to the average of the time. But my parents were by no means what was called in the language of the time " evangelicals." And in the social atmosphere of those days, any more decided and marked amount of religious instruction and teaching would have unmistakably indi- cated "evangelical tendencies." Moreover, though I can- 1* 10 WHAT 1 REMEMBER. not remember, and it is exceedingly improbable, that any ideas were directly instilled into our minds on the subject, it certainly is the fact that I grew into boyhood with the notion that " evangelicalism," or " low churchism," was a note of vulgarity — a sort of thing that might be expected to be met with in tradesmen's back parlors, and "acade- mies," where the youths who came from such places were instructed in English grammar and arithmetic, but was not to be met with, and was utterly out of place, among gentlemen and in gentlemanlike places of education, where nothing of the kind was taught. All this to mark the change of tempora and mores, in these as in so many other respects, since George the Third was king. Among the few surviving remembrances of those child- hood's years in Keppel Street, I can still recall to the mind's eye the face and features of "Farmer," the highly trustworthy and responsible middle-aged woman who ruled the nursery there, into which a rapid succession of broth- ers and sisters was being introduced in those years. Farm- er, as I remember her, inspired more awe than affection. She was an austere and somewhat grim sort of body. And somehow or other the obscurely terrible fact that she was an Anabaptist (!) had reached the world of the nursery. I need hardly say that the accusation carried with it no sort of idea whatever to our minds. I don't think we had any knowledge that the mystic term in question had refer- ence to any forms or modifications of religious belief. But we were well assured that it implied something mysterious and terrible. And I am afraid that we gracelessly availed ourselves of what we should have considered a misfortune, if we had at all known what it meant, to express, on occa- sions of revolt against discipline, our scorn for an indi- vidual so disgraced by nature. I have still in my ear the lilt of a wicked chorus the burden of which ran: " Old Farmer is an Anabap^^s^ / When she is gone, she will not be missed ! " I remember, in connection with poor Farmer and her heresies, an incident which must have been ridiculous enough to the adult actors in it. Dr. Nott, one of the EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 11 prebendaries of Winchester, was an old and intimate friend of my mother's — had been such, I believe, before her mar- riage. The mention of this gentleman recalls to my mind — but this recollection dates from a later day — that it used to be said satirically, with what truth I will not attempt to guess, that there was a large Chapter at Winchester and Nott^ one of them, a clergyman: the intention being to insinuate that he was the only properly clerical charac- ter among them. At all events, Dr. Nott was an exem- plary dignitary of the Church, not only in character, tastes, and pursuits, but in outward presentment also. I remem- ber well his spare figure, his pale and delicately cut feat- ures, his black gaiters to the knee, and his elaborate white neckcloth. He was a competent, and what would have been called in that day an " elegant," Italian scholar. It was wholly under his supervision that, a few years subse- quently, the extensive restoration and repair of Winchester Cathedral was executed; a supervision which cost him, in consequence of a fall from a ladder in the nave, a broken leg and subsequent lameness for life. He had, if I mis- take not, been one of the tutors of the Princess Charlotte. Well, upon one occasion of a visit of Dr. Nott's in Kep- pel Street, we children were summoned to the drawing- room for his inspection ; and in reply to a variety of ques- tions as to progress, and goodness in the nursery, etc., I, as the eldest, took courage to reply that if we were not always as good and obedient in the nursery a^ might be desired, the circumstance was to be attributed to the pain- ful fact that our nurse was an Anabaptist ! AVhether Dr. Nott was selected as the recipient of this confidential communication because I had any vague idea that this disgraceful circumstance had any special connection with his department of human afi*airs, I cannot say. We were, however, told that the fact was no wise incompatible with Farmer's character as an excellent nurse and good servant, and least of all could be considered as absolving us from the duty of obedience. I remembered that I wondered then — and I wonder still — what passed upon the subject between my mother and the doctor after our dismissal to the nursery. 12 WHAT I REMEMBER. Another intimate friend of my mother's and frequent visitor in Keppel Street was Lady Dyer, the wife, and subsequently widow, of General Sir Thomas Dyer. Sir Thomas resided on his estate of Ovington, near Winches- ter ; and I take it that my mother's intimacy with Lady Dyer had been brought about by the friendship existing between both ladies and Miss Gabell, the eldest daughter of Dr. Gabell, the head-master of Winchester College. Lady Dyer, after several years of widowhood, married the Baron de Zandt; and I remember, very many years subse- quently to the time that I am here writing of, visiting her with my mother at her schloss, near Bamberg, where she lived in the huge house alone after losing her second hus- band. I fancy it was mainly due to her intimacy with my mother during those years in Keppel Street that the house was frequented by several Italians ; exiles from their own country under stress of political troubles. Es- pecially I remember among these General Guglielmo Pepe, subsequently the hero of the hopeless defence of Venice against the Austrians. Of course I was too young to know or see much of him in the Keppel Street days; but many years afterwards I had abundant opportunities of know- ing Pepe's genuine nobility of character, high honor, and ardent patriotism. He was a remarkably handsome man, but not a brilliant or amusing companion. I remember that his sobriquet among the three ladies mentioned to- gether above was Gateau de JPlomb / But none the less was he highly and genuinely respected by them. He had a kind of simple, dignified, placid manner of enunciating the most astounding platitudes, and replying to the laugh- ter they sometimes produced by a calm, gentle smile, which showed how impossible it was for his simple soul to im- agine that his hearers were otherwise than delighted with his wit and wisdom. How well I can remember the pleas- ure his visits were wont to afford in the nursery by reason of the dried Neapolitan figs and Mandarin oranges, which he used to receive from his brother. General Fiorestano Pepe, and never failed to distribute among his English friends. His brother, when Guglielmo threw in his lot EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 13 with the " patriots," never forfeited his allegiance or quar- relled with the King of Naples. Yet the two brothers continued on affectionately fraternal terms to the last. The quiet course of those Keppel Street years was, as I remember, once or twice broken by the great event of a visit to Heckfield to my maternal grandfather, the Rev. William Milton, a ci-devant fellow of New College. He had at that time married a second wife, a Miss Partington, his first wife, a Derbyshire Gresley, my maternal grand- mother, whom I had never seen, having died young. As my grandfather Milton was the son of a Bristol saddler (who lived to the age of ninety-nine), I suppose his mar- riage with a Gresley must have been deemed a mesalliance for the lady. But her death having occurred before my time, I never heard anything of this. The Vicar of Heckfield held the adjoining chapelry of Mattingly, at which place the morning service was per- formed on alternate Sundays. He was an excellent parish priest after the fashion of his day; that is to say, he was kindly to all, liberal to the poor to the utmost extent of his means, and well beloved by his neighbors, high and low. He was a charming old man, markedly gentleman- like and suave in his manner; very nice in his person; clever unquestionably in a queer, crotchety sort of way; and thoroughly minded to do his duty according to his lights in that state of life to which it had pleased God to call him. But he would have had no more idea of attempt- ing anything of the nature of active parochial work or re- form, as understood at the present day, than he would have had of scheming to pay the national debt. Indeed, the latter would have been the more likely to occupy his mind of the two, for he was crotchety and full of schemes. Especially he was fond of mechanics, and spent much money and much labor during many years on a favorite scheme for obviating the danger arising from the liability of a stage-coach to be upset. He published more than one pamphlet on the subject, illustrated — I can see the pages before me now — by designs of various queer-looking mod- els. There was a large coach-house attached to the vicar- age, and it was always full of the strangest collection of 14 WHAT I REMEMBER. models of coaches. I remember well that they all ap- peared to me hideous, and as aesthetically inferior to my admired Telegraphs and High-Flyers as a modern iron- clad seems to the three-decker of his youth in the eyes of an old sailor. But, as may be imagined, I never vent- ured to broach any such heresy in my grandfather's hear- ing ! I should unquestionably have done so had it been my father. But lesser acquaintanceship and the venerable age of my grandfather checked my presumption. There was — and doubtless is — a very pretty evergreen- embowered lawn at the vicarage, and on this also there always used to be some model or other intended to illus- trate the principles of traction. One I especially remem- ber which was called (not, it may seem, very grammati- cally) rotis volve?itibus. This machine consisted of two huge wheels, some ten feet high, joined together by a number of cross-bars at a distance of a foot or so from each other. It will be understood what a delightful amusement it must have been to creep into the interior of this structure, and cause it to roll over the smoothly- shaven turf by stepping treadmill fashion on the cross- bars one after the other. But unfortunately in one part of the lawn there was a steep declivity, and one day, when the idea of making rotis volventihiis descend this slope be- came irresistible, there was a tremendous smashing of the evergreen hedge, and a black-and-blue little body, whose escape without broken bones was deemed truly prodig- ious. "Never, Tom," said my grandfather, "put in motion forces which you are unable to control !" The words remained implanted in my memory. But I do not suppose they carried much instruction with them to my mind at the time. I believe my grandfather spent more money on his me- chanical fads than was quite prudent, and took out patents which were about as remunerative and useful as that which Charles the Second is said to have granted to a sailor who stood on his head on the top of Salisbury steeple, securing to him the monopoly of that practice ! I remember .another eccentricity in which the vicar EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 15 indulged. He said the contact of a knife's edge with earthenware, or porcelain, was extremely disagreeable. He caused, therefore, a number of dinner plates to be made with a little circular depression some two inches in diameter and about as deep as a crown piece in the cen- tre, and had some round pieces of silver to fit into these receptacles, on which he cut his meat. He was withal a very popular man, a good scholar, with decidedly scholarly tastes, much of a mathematician, a genuine humorist, with a sort of Horatian easy-going geniality about him which was very charming even to us boys. My brother Henry was one year my junior; my brother Anthony, with whom the world subsequently became ac- quainted, was five years younger than I. Henry, there- fore, was the companion of all the London rambles which have been mentioned. I think we were tolerably good boys, truthful and obedient to legitimate authority. I was, however, if nursery traditions of a somewhat later day may be accepted as embodying real facts, rather too much given to yielding obedience only on reason shown; to "argify," as certain authoritarians are wont to call it; and to make plenary submission only when consciously defeated in argument. We had little or nothing of the " amusements " nowa- days so liberally supplied to children. There was the pantomime at Christmas, intensely enjoyed. And I re- member well pondering on the insoluble question lohy my parents, who evidently, I thought, could, if they chose it, go to the theatre every night of their lives, should abstain from doing so. I do not remember any discontented longings for more or other amusements than we had. I was a thoroughly well constituted and healthy child, but without the small- est pretension to good looks, either in esse or in posse ; sturdily built, with flaxen head, rosy cheeks, and blue eyes; broad of hand and foot; strong as a little pony — a veritable Saxon in type. I seem to my recollections to have been somewhat bravely ready to accept a life in which the kiaks might be more superabundant than the 16 WHAT I REMEMBER. half -pence not without complacent mental reference to the moral and physical breadth of shoulders, ready for whatever fate might lay on them. The nature of my childish mind, as I remember, was to place its ideas of heroism in capacity for uncomplaining endurance, rather than in capability for mastering others. All the usual childish complaints and maladies touched me very lightly. I was as indifferent to weather, wet or dry, wind or shine, as a Shetland pony. Feet wet through had to remain m statu quo till they were dry again. As- siduously taught by my mother, I read at a very early age. Her plan for teaching the letters was as follows. She had a great number of bone counters with the alpha- bet in capitals and small letters on either side printed on them; then having invited a charming little girl, the daughter of a neighbor (Katie Gibbon, laid to rest this many a year under the yew-tree in the churchyard of the village of Stanton, near Monmouth), who was just my own age, she tossed the counters broadcast over the floor, instituting prizes for him, or her, who should, in crawling races over the floor, soonest bring the letter demanded. Reading thus began to be an amusement to me at an un- usually early age. I believe I gave early indications of possessing a certain quantum of brain power; but had no reputation for cleverness. Indeed, had my parents ever formed the opinion that any one of their children was in any way markedly clever, they would have carefully con- cealed It from the subject of it. I take it, I was far from being what is called a prepossessing child. I had, I well remember, a reputation for an uncompromising expres- sion of opinion which was not altogether admirable. My mother used to tell in after-years how, when once I had been, at about four years old, attentively watching her dressing for dinner, while standing on a cbair by the side of her dressing-table, I broke silence when the work was completed to say very judicially, "Now you have made yourself as fine as poso " (possible), *' and you look worse than you did when you began !" I am tempted to insert here a letter to my father from Pr. Williams, my old Winchester master, which (amus- EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 17 iiigly to me) illustrates what I have here written of my nursery tendencies. It belongs to a later date, when I was within half a year of leaving Winchester. I had not found it among my papers when I wrote the passage to which it is now appended. But I place it here in homage to the dictum that the child is father to the man. " I have the pleasure," Dr. Williams writes, " to express my approbation of your son's conduct during the last half- year. His firmness in maintaining what was right and putting down what was wrong was very conspicuous in the early part of that time; not that I imagine it was less afterwards, but occasion did not call it forth so much." What the occasion was I entirely forget; evidently he refers to some exercise of my power as a prefect. "I have remarked to you before that he \& fond offiavi- ing a reason assigned for everything; but he must take care that this do not degenerate into captiousness. His temper is generally good, but a little too sensitive when he fancies a smile is raised at his expense." I feel no confidence that years have rendered me safe from the first fault which my excellent master thus warned me against; but I am sure they have cured me of the second. I remember, too, in connection with those Keppel Street days, to have heard my mother speak of an incident which somewhat curiously illustrates the ways and habits of a time already so far left behind us by a whole world of social changes. It was nothing more than a simple visit to the theatre to hear Mrs. Siddons in Lady Macbeth. But this exploit involved circumstances that rendered it memorable for other reasons besides the intense gratifica- tion derived from the performance. In the first place "the pit" was the destination to which my father and mother were bound; not altogether, I take it, so much for the sake of the lower price of admission (though my fa- ther was a sufficiently poor and a sufficiently careful man to render this a consideration), as from the idea that the pit offered the best vantage-ground for a thoroughly ap- preciative and critical judgment of the performance. For when we children were taken to see a pantomime we went, 18 WHAT 1 REMEMBER. as I remember, to the boxes. But this visit to the pit in- volved the necessity of being at the theatre at two in the afternoon, and then standing in the crowd till, if I rightly remember, six in the evening ! Of course food had to be carried. And each man there did his best to support and assist the lady under his charge. But the ordeal must have been something tremendous, and the amount of en- thusiasm needed to induce a lady to face it something scarcely to be understood at the present day. My mother used to relate that sundry women were carried out from the crowd at the theatre door fainting. Before closing this Keppel Street chapter of my exist- ence I may mention one or two circumstances of the fam- ily life there which illustrate the social habits of those days. The family dinner-hour was five. There were no dinner-napkins to be seen ; they were perhaps less needed by clean-shaven chins and lips. Two tallow-candles, re- quiring to be snuffed by snuffers lying in a little plated tray ad hoc every now and then, partially illumined the table, but scarcely at all the more distant corners of the room. Nor were any more or better lights used during the evening in the drawing-room. The only alternative would have been wax-lights at half a crown a pound — an extravagance not to be thought of. Port and sherry were always placed on the shining mahogany table when the cloth was withdrawn, and no other wine. Only on the occasion of having friends to dinner the port became a " magnum " of a vintage for which my father's cellar was famous, and possibly Madeira might be added. Perhaps it may be worth noting here, as an incident illustrating change of manners, that I vividly remember my mother often singing to us children in Keppel Street an old song about an " unfortunate Miss Bayly," who had been seduced by a " Captain bold of Halifax, who dwelt in country quarters." Now a purer or more innocent-mind- ed woman than my mother did not live, nor one less likely to have suffered aught that she imagined to be unfitted mrginihus puerisqiie to reach the ears of her children. Nor do I suppose that we had the faintest notion of the nature of the evil inflicted on the unfortunate Miss Bayly EARLY DAYS IN LOXDOX. 19 by the captain bold, nor that we were in any degree scan- dalized by the subsequent incident of the parish priest being bribed by " a one-pound note " to accord Christian burial to the corpse of a suicide, which he had previously refused to bury. It may be feared that quite as many " unfortunates " share the fate of Miss Bayly, either in town or country quarters, at the present day as in the early days of the century. But I take it that the old- world ditty in question would not be selected for nursery use at the present day. I could chatter on about those childish days in Keppel Street, and have been, I am afraid, too garrulous already. What I have said, however, is all illustrative of the social changes seventy years have wrought, and may at the same time serve to show that I started on my octogenarian ca- reer a sturdy, hardy little mortal, non sine Dis animosus vifans. CHAPTER II. EAELY DAYS IN LONDON — {continUCd). These fragmentary recollections of our childish days may have served to suggest some hints of the changes which have made the London of the present day almost — perhaps quite — as different from the London of the second decade of this century as the latter was from " the town " in the days of George the First. But it is difficult for middle-aged people of the present day to form any vivid and sufficient conception of the greatness of them. Of course the mere material ameliorations and extensions have so metamorphosed the localities that I, on returning after long years to the London I once knew, topographically at least, so well, find myself in a new town, of which the ge- ography is in some parts strange to me, with just so much of the old landmarks remaining as serves to suggest false clews to the labyrinth, and render the matter more puzzling. But the changes in ways and habits and modes of living and feeling and thinking are still greater and of much more profound significance. To say that there were in those days no omnibuses and no cabs, and of course no railways, either under ground or over it, is a simple matter, and very easily stated. But it is not easy to picture to one's self the whole meaning and consequences of their non-existence. Let any Londoner, with the exception of the comparatively small number of those who use carriages of their own, think what his life would be, and the transaction of his day's work or of his day's pleasure, without any means of locomotion save his own legs or a hackney-coach, which, at a cost of about five times the cab-hire of the present day, used to shut him up in an atmosphere like that of a very dirty stable, and jolt him over the uneven pavement at a pace of about four miles an hour. Dickens has given, in his own graphic EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 21 way, more than one sketch of the old hackney-coach. I do not think that I ever saw a hackney-coach that had been built for the work it was engaged in as such. They were heavy, old-fashioned, rickety vehicles, which had be- come too heavy, too old-fashioned, too rickety to be re- tained in the service of the families to which they had once belonged. They were built, for the most part, with hammer-cloths, and many of them exhibited huge and gorgeously-painted armorial bearings on the panels. (By- the-bye, why did not the officials of the inland revenue come down on the proprietors of these venerable vehicles for the use of armorial bearings ? I take it that the march of modern intelligence, acuens mortalia corda, would im- pel their successors of the present day to do so.) The drivers of those carriages were " in a concatenation accord- ingly" — shabby, slow, stupid, dirty, and often muddled with drink. We hear occasionally nowadays of a cabman " driving furiously " when drunk. The wording of the charge smacks of another era. Not all the gin in London could have stimulated the old " Jarvey " to drive his skel- etons of horses furiously. He was not often incapacitated by drink, but very frequently muddled. If it was neces- sary for him to descend from his hammer-cloth for the purpose of opening the door of his carriage, which the presence of the "waterman" of the stand for the most part rendered unnecessary, he was a long time about it, and a longer in clambering back to his seat, loaded as he generally was in all weathers with an immense greatcoat of many capes, weatherbeaten out of all resemblance to its original color. The " watermen," so called, as we know from high authority, "because they opens the coach-doors," were nevertheless surrounded by their half a dozen or so of little shallow pails of water, as they stood by the side of the curbstone near a coach-stand. They were to the hackney-coachman what the bricklayer's laborer is to the bricklayer. And a more sorry sight can hardly be con- ceived than the "stand" with its broken-down carriages, more broken-down drivers, and, worst of all, broken-down horses, which supplied us in the days when we "called a coach, and let a coach be called, and he that calls it, let 22 WHAT I REMEMBER. him be the caller," as it stands written in a page almost as much (but far less deservedly) forgotten as the hackney- coach. Already in my boyhood " Oxford Road " was beginning to be called " Oxford Street." But my father and his con- temporaries always used the former phrase. At the end of Oxford Street was Tyburn turnpike ; not a mere name, but a veritable barrier, closing not only the continuation of the Oxford Road, but also the Edgware Road, turning at right angles to the north of it. And there stood one turnpike-man to receive the toll and give tickets in return for the whole of Oxford Street traffic ! I can see him now, with his low-crowned hat, a straw in his mouth, his vigilant eye, and the preternatural quickness and coolness, as it seemed to me, with which, standing in the centre be- tween his two gates, he took the half-pence and delivered the tickets. He had always an irreproachably clean white apron, wdth pockets in front of it, one for half-pence and one for tickets. I have spoken of my delight in the spectacle of the coaches starting from and arriving at the White Horse Cel- lar in Piccadilly. But there were many other aspects of London life in the days before railroads in which the coach- es made a leading feature. One of the sights of London for country cousins was to see the mails starting at eight P.M. from the post-office. To view it under the most fa- vorable circumstances, one went there on the anniversary of the king's birthday, when all the guards had their scar- let coats new, and the horses' heads were all decked with flowers. And truly the yard around the post-office offered on such an occasion a prettier sight than all the travelling arrangements of the present day could supply. Of course I am speaking of a time a little subsequent to my earliest recollections. For I can remember when the huge edifice in Saint Martin's le Grand was built; and remember well, too, the ridicule and the outcry that was raised at the size of the building, so enormously larger, it was supposed, than could possibly be needed! But it has now long since been found altogether insufficient for the needs of the ser- vice. EARLY DAYS L\ LONDON. 23 A journey on the box of the mail was a great delight to me in those days — days somewhere in the third decade of the century ; and, faith ! I believe would be still, if there were any mails available for the purpose. One jour- ney frequently performed by me with infinite delight was to Exeter. My business was to visit two old ladies liv- ing there, Miss Mary and Miss Fanny Bent. The Rev. John Bent, rector of Crediton, had married the sister of my grandmother, the Rev. William Milton's wife. Miss Mary Bent was his daughter by a second wife ; but her half-sister, Fanny Bent, as we and everybody else called her, was thus my mother's first cousin, and the tie be- tween Fanny Milton and Fanny Bent had always, from their earliest years, been a very close one. And that is how I came, on several occasions, to find myself on the box of the Exeter mail. A new and accel- erated mail service had been recently established under the title of the Devonport Mail. It was at that time the fastest, I believe, in England. Its performances caused somewhat of a sensation in the coaching world, and it was known in those circles as the Quicksilver Mail. Its early days had chanced, unfortunately, to be marked by two or three accidents, which naturally gave it an increased celebrity. And, truly, if it is considered what those men and horses were required to perform, the wonder was, not that the Quicksilver should have come to grief two or three times, but rather that it ever made its journey with- out doing so. What does the railway traveller of the pres- ent day, who sees a travelling post-office, and its huge tend- er crammed with postal matter, think of the idea of carry- ing all that mass on one, or perhaps two, coaches ? The guard, occupying his solitary post behind the coach, on the top of the receptacle called, with reference to the construc- tions of still earlier days, the hinder hoot, sat on a little seat made for one, with his pistols and blunderbuss in a box in front of him. And the original notion of those who first planned the modern mail-coach was, that the bags containing the letters should be carried in that " hinder boot." The "fore boot," beneath the driver's box, was considered to be appropriated to the baggage of the three 24 WHAT I REMEMBER. outside and four inside passengers, which was the mail's entire complement. One of the former shared the box with the driver, and two occupied the seat on the roof be- hind him. The accommodation provided for these two was not of a very comfortable description. They were not, indeed, crowded as the four who occupied a similar position on another coach often were ; but they had a mere board to sit on, whereas the seats on the roof of an ordinary stage-coach were provided with cushions. The fares by the mail were always somewhat higher than those by even equally fast, or in some cases faster, coaches ; and it seems unreasonable, therefore, that the accommodation should be inferior. I can only suppose that the patrons of " the mail " were understood to be compensated for its ma- terial imperfections by the superior dignity of their posi- tion. The box-seat, however, was well cushioned. But if the despatches, which it was the mail's business to carry, could once upon a time be contained in that hinder boot, such had ceased to be the case before my day. The bulk of postal matter which had to be carried was continually and rapidly increasing, and I have often seen as many as nine enormous sacks heaped on the coach roof. The length of these sacks was just sufficient to reach from one side of the coach to the other, and the huge heap of them, three or even four tiers high, was piled to a height which was sufficient to prevent the guard, even when standing, from seeing or communicating wHth the coach- man. If to the consideration of all this the reader will add (if he can) a remembrance of the Somersetshire and Devonshire roads, over which this top-heavy load had to be carried at about twelve miles an hour, it will not seem strange to him that accidents should have occurred. Not that the roads were bad; they were, thanks to Macadam, good, hard, and smooth, but the hills are numerous, and in many cases very steep. But the journey, especially on the box-seat, was a very pleasant thing. The whole of the service was so well done, and in every detail so admirable. It need hardly be said that the men selected for the drivers of such a coach were masters of their profession. The work was hard, but EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 25 the remuneration was very good. There were fewer pas- sengers by the mail to " remember the coachman," but it was more uniformly full, and somewhat more was expect- ed from a traveller by the mail. It was a beautiful thing to see a splendid team going over their short stage at twelve miles an hour! Of course none but good cattle in first-rate condition could do the work. A mot of old Mrs. Mountain, for many years the well-known proprietress of one of the large coaching inns in London, used to be quoted as having been addressed by her to one of her drivers: "You find whipcord, John, and I'll find oats!" And, as it used to be said, the measure of the corn sup- plied to a coach-horse was his stomach. It was a pretty thing to see the changing of the horses. There stood the fresh team, two on the off side, two on the near side, and the coach was drawn up with the ut- most exactitude between them. Four hostlers jump to the splinter-bars and loose the traces; the reins have al- ready been thrown down. The driver retains his seat, and within the minute (more than once within fifty sec- onds by the watch in my hand) the coach is again on its onward journey. Then how welcome was breakfast at an excellent old- world country inn — twenty minutes allowed. The hot tea, after your night's drive, the fresh cream, butter, eggs, hot toast, and cold beef, and then, with cigar alight, back to the box and off again! I once witnessed on that road — not quite that road, for the Quicksilver took a somewhat different line — the stage of four miles between Ilchester and Ilminster done in twenty minutes, and a trace broken and mended on the road! The mending was effected by the guard almost before the coach stopped. It is a level bit of road, four miles only for the entire stage, and was performed at a full gallop. That was done by a coach called the Tele- graph, which was started some years after the Quicksilver, to do the distance from Exeter to London in the day. We left Exeter at 5 a.m. and reached London between nine and ten, with time for both breakfast and dinner on the road. I think the performance of the Exeter Tele- 26 WHAT I REMEMBER. graph was about the ne plus ultra of coach travelling. One man drove fifty miles, and then, meeting the other coach on the road, changed from one box to the other and then drove back again. It was tremendously hard work! I once remarked to him as I sat beside him that there was not much work for his whip-arm. " Not much, sir," he replied; "but just put your hand on my left arm!" I did, and felt the muscle swollen to its utmost, and hard as iron. "Many people think," he said, "that it is easier work to drive such a coach and. such a team as this than to -have to flog a dull team up to eight miles an hour. Nobody would think so that had ever tried, both!" I once persuaded my mother, who was returning with me from Exeter to London, to make the journey on the box of the Telegraph while I sat behind her. She had. been a good deal afraid of the experiment, but admitted that she had never enjoyed a journey more. But, having been led by my coaching reminiscences to speak of my visits to Exeter and to Fanny Bent, I must not turn that page of the past without dedicating a few lines to one to whom I had great cause to be gratefully attached, and whose character, both in its high worth and its originality and singularity, was a product of that day hardly likely to be reproduced in this. Very plain in feature, and dressed with Quaker-like simplicity and utter disregard for appearance, her figure was as well known in Exeter as the cathedral towers. She held a position and enjoyed an amount of respect which Avas really singular in the case of a very homely-featured old maid of very small fortune. She affected, like some other persons I have known both in the far west and the far north of England, to speak the dialect of her country. Though without any pretension to literary tastes or pur- suits, she was a fairly well-read woman, and was perfectly able to speak better English than many a Londoner. But she chose, icJien in Devonshire, to speak as Devonshire folks spoke. She was a thoroughgoing Churchwoman and Conservative, though too universally popular with all classes to confine her sympathies within any party bounds. She had a strong native sense of humor, and, despite the EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 27 traditions and principles which taught her to consider " Peter Pindar " as a reprobate, she could not resist the enjoyment of his description of the king's visit to Exeter. It was a treat to hear her read the verses in her own Dev- on vernacular. And I shall never forget her whispering to me as we walked up the nave of the cathedral, ^^ N'ate, nate ! Clarie, clane ! Do ye mop it, mop it, Mr. DaneV^ And how Dane Buller replied, ''In all our Ex'ter shops we do not meet with such long mops. Our mops don't reach so high!" I quote possibly incorrectly from the recollections of some sixty years ago; and I have never studied Mr. Woolcott's works since. But the very tones of the dear old lady's voice, as she whispered the words, bursting tlie while with suppressed laughter, remain in my ears. A pious Churchwoman of these improved days would not, I take it, select such a place and such a time for such whisperings. But I am sure it would be difficult to find a better or more sincere Christian than dear old Fanny Bent. And the anecdote may be accepted as one more illustration of change in manners, feeling, and decencies. Then there were strawberry-and-cream parties at a place called, if I remember right, Iloopern Bowers, always with a bevy of pretty girls, for attracting whom my plain old spinster cousin seemed to possess a special secret; and ex- cursions to Marypole Head, and drives over Ilaldon Down. When I revisited Exeter some months ago Iloopern Bow- ers seemed to have passed from the memory of man! And whether any one of the laughing girls I had known there was still extant as a gray-headed crone I could not learn! Marypole Head, too, has been nearly swallowed up by the advancing tide of " villas " surging up the hill, though the look-down on the other side over Upton Pynes and the valley of the Exe is lovely as ever. And Haldon Down, at all events, is as breezy as of yore! Dr. Bowring — subsequently Sir John — was at that time resident in Exeter with his two daughters. The doctor was hardly likely to be intimate with Fanny Bent's Con- servative and mainly clerical friends, but, knowing every- body, she knew him too, and rather specially liked his 28 WHAT I REMEMBER. girls, wlio used to be of our Hoopern Bower parties. Lucy Bowring was some years my senior, but I remember think- ing her very charming; she was a tall, handsome, dark- eyed girl, decidedly clever, and a little more inclined to be emancipee in matters ecclesiastical than were the others of the little world around her. Then there was gentle Rachel Hutchinson! How strangely names that have not been in my mind for half a century or more come back to me! Rachel was the daughter of a retired physician, a widower, whom I recognized as a man of elegant and re- fined culture, somewhat superior to the majority of the local clergy among whom he lived. I can see him now, a slender, somewhat daintily dressed figure, punctiliously courteous, with a pleasant, old - world flavor in his man- ner; with carefully arranged gray hair, double gold eye- glass, a blue swallow-tailed coat, nankeen trousers, and polished shoes. But he did not come to Hoopern Bowers. His daughter Rachel did; and was curiously contrasted with Lucy Bowring in every respect. She was a small, sylph-like little figure, with blue eyes, blond hair, very pretty and very like an angel. She was also very, very religious after the evangelical fashion of that day, and gave me a volume of Low-Church literature, which I pre- served many years with much sentiment, but, I fear, no further profit. T think that the talks which Lucy and Rachel and I had together over our strawberries and cream must have had some flavor of originality about them. I do not imagine that Lucy thought or cared much about my soul, but I fancy that Rachel felt herself to be contending for it. And now, all gone! Probably not one of all those who made those little festivities so pleasant to me remains on the face of the earth! At all events every one of them has many, many j^ears ago passed out of the circle of light projected by my magic lantern! And how many others have passed like phantasmagoric shadows across that little circle of light! It is one of the results of such a rolling-stone life as mine has been that the number of persons I have known, and even made friends of for the time, has been immense; but they all EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 29 pass like a phantom procession! How many! How many! They have trooped on into the outer darkness and been lost! I suppose that during the half-century, or nearly that time — from 1840 to 1886 — that I knew little or nothing of England, the change that has come upon all English life has been nearly as great in one part of the country as an- other. But on visiting Exeter a few months ago I was much struck at its altered aspect, because I had known it well in my youth. It was not so much that the new rows of houses and detached villas seemed to have nearly doubled the extent of the city, and obliterated many of the old features of it, as that the character of the popula- tion seemed changed. It was less provincial — a term which cockneys naturally use in a disparaging sense, but which in truth implies quite as much that is pleasant as the re- verse. It seemed to have been infected by much of the ways and spirit of London, without, of course, having any- thing of the special advantages of London to offer. Peo- ple no longer walked down the High Street along a pave- ment abundantly ample for the traffic, nodding right and left to acquaintances. Everybody knew everybody no longer. The leisurely gossiping ways of the shopkeej^ers had been exchanged for the short and sharp promptitude of London habits. I recognized, indeed, the well-remem- bered tone of the cathedral bells. But the cathedral and its associations and influences did not seem to hold the same place in the city life as it did in the olden time of my young days. There was an impalpable and very in- describable, but yet unmistakably sensible something which seemed to shut off the ecclesiastical life on one side of the close precincts from the tOAvn life on the other, in a man- ner which was new to me. I have little doubt that if I had casually asked in any large — say — grocer's shop in the High Street, who was the canon in residence, I should have received a reply indicating that the person inquired of had not an idea of what I was talking about; and am very sure that half a century ago the reply to the same question would have been everywhere a prompt one. The lovely garden close under the city wall on the 30 WHAT I REMEMBER. northern side — perhaps the prettiest city garden in Eng- land — with its remarkably beautiful view of the cathedral (which used to belong to old Edmund Granger, an especial crony of Fanny Bent's), exists still, somewhat more closely shut in by buildings. We were indeed permitted to Avalk there the other day by the kindness of the present pro- prietor, merely as members of *' the public," which would not have been dreamed of in those old days when "the public" was less thought of than at present. But I could not help thinking that " the public," and I, as a portion and representative of it, must be a terrible nuisance to the owner of that beautiful and tranquil spot, so great as seri- ously to diminish the value of it. Another small difference occurs to me as illustrative of the changes that time and the rail have brought about. I heard very little of the once familiar Devonshire dialect. Something of intonation there may yet linger, but of the old idioms and phraseology little or nothing. But I have been beguiled into all these reminiscences of the fair capital of the west and my early days there by the Quicksilver Mail, itself a most compendious and al- most complete illustration of the nature of the differences between its own day and that of its successor, the rail ! To the rail is due principally much of the changed ap- pearance of London. Certainly the domestic architecture of the Georgian period has little enough of beauty to rec- ommend it. It is insignificant, mean, and prosaic to an ex- traordinary degree, as we all know. But it is not marked by the audacious, ostentatious, nightmare-hideousness of the railway arches and viaducts and stations of modern London. It is difficult to say whether the greatest change in the daily life and habits of a Londoner has been pro- duced by gas, by Peel's police, electric telegraphy, mod- ern postal arrangements, or the underground railway. Can the present generation picture to itself what London was and looked like when lighted only by the few twinkling oil lamps which seemed to serve no other purpose save to make darkness visible ? Can it conceive a London police- less by day, and protected at night only by a few heavily great-coated watchmen, very generally asleep in their EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 31 "boxes," and equipped with a huge rattle in one hand and a large stable lantern in the other ? The two-penny post was considered an immense boon to Londoners and their needs of quick communication between the different districts of their even then overgrown town. But what would they have thought of an almost hourly postal de- livery, and of the insufficient quickness of that being sup- plemented by telegraphic messages, to be outstripped in their turn by telephony ? And what would the modern Londoner think of doing without all these things ? But perhaps the underground railways have most of all revolutionized the London habits of the present day. Why, even to me, who knew cabless London, they seem to have become indispensable. I loathe them ! The hurry- scurry ! The necessity of "looking sharp!" The diffi- culty of ascertaining which carriage you are to take, and of knowing when you have arrived at your journey's end ! The horrible atmosphere ! All strong against the deed ! And yet the necessities of time and place in the huge, over- grown monster of a town seem to compel me to pass a large portion of my hours among the sewers, when I find myself a dazed and puzzled stranger in the town I once knew so well. Another very striking change in the appearance of Lon- don in the jubilee year of Queen Victoria as contrasted with the London of George the Third and the Regency, is caused by the preposterous excess of the system of adver- tising. Of course the practice is deeply rooted in causes which profoundly affect all the developments of social life and modes of thought, as Carlyle well understood. But I am now speaking merely of the exterior and surface effect of the ubiquitous sheets of paper of all colors of the rain- bow, with their monstrous pictorial illustrations. I know that to say that it vulgarizes the town to a quite infinite degree may be thought to be mere meaningless cant, or illiberal affectation, itself truly vulgar. Yet surely the accusation must be allowed to be a just one. If brazen- faced self-assertion, frantically eager competition in the struggle for profit, and the persuasion that this can best be attained by the sort of assertions and inducements with 32 WHAT I KEMEMBER. which the walls are covered, be not vulgar, what is ? And what of the public which is attracted by the devices which the experience of those who cater for it teach them to employ ? I miss in the London of the present day a kind of shop which was not uncommon in the days when I first knew the town — shops at which one description of article only was sold, and where that one was to be had notori- ously of the best j^ossible quality; shops that appeared to despise all the finery of glass and brass and mahogany; where prices were not cut down to the lowest possible figure by the competitive necessity of underselling, but where every article could be trusted to be what it pre- tended to be. Shops of this kind never advertised at all, but were content to trust for business to the reputation they had made for themselves. I am told that everything is a great deal cheaper than it used to be, and truly find that such is the case. But I am not at all persuaded that I get better value for my money. To tell the truth, it seems to my old-fashioned notions and habits that in com- mercial matters we have arrived at the cheap and nasty stage of development. I am a poor man — far too poor a man to drink Lafitte Bordeaux. But that need not compel me to drink cheap claret or any abomination of the kind ! Good ale is far better than bad wine, and good water better than bad beer ! At least that is what the experience of well-nigh fourscore years has taught me ! One of my earliest strolls in London revisited lately was to the old haunts I had once known so well at Lin- coln's Inn. I had walked along the new embankment lost in wonder and admiration. The most incorrigible lauda- tor temporis acti cannot but admit that nineteenth-century London has there done something and possesses something which any city on this earth may well be proud of ! And so I came to the Temple, and, rambling through its reno- vated gardens and courts, thought how infinitely more in- viting they looked than anything in Belgrave Square or May fair ! Templa quam dilecta! Why, if only a wall could be built around the precincts high enough and strong enough to shut out London sounds and London smells and EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 33 London atmosphere, one might be almost as well there as in Magdalen at Oxford ! And Alsatia too, its next-door neighbor to the eastward, all ravaged and routed out, its mysterious courts and light- abhorring alleys exposed to the flouting glare of a sun- shine baking a barren extent, devoted apparently to dead cats and potsherds ! That Whitefriars district used to be •a favorite exploring-ground of mine after the publication of " The Fortunes of Nigel." How the copper captains, if condemned to walk their former haunts, would slink away in search of the cover of darksome nooks no longer to be found ! What would Miss Trapbois's ghost, wandering in the unsheltered publicity of the new embankment, think of the cataclysm which has overwhelmed the world she knew ! Then, marvelling at the ubiquitous railway bridges and arches, which seem to return again and again like the re- curring horrors of a nightmare dream, I passed westward, where the Fleet Prison is not, and where even Temple Bar is no more, till I came to Chancery Lane, which seemed to retain much of its old dinginess, and passed thence under the unchanged old gateway into Lincoln's Inn Old Square, where my father's chambers were, and where I used to go to him with my nonsense verses. Old Square looks much as it used to look, I think. And the recollection darted across my mind — who shall say why? — of a queer-looking shambling figure, whom my father pointed out to me one day from the window of his chambers. " That," said he, "is Jockey Bell, perhaps the first conveyancer in England. He probably knows more of the law of real property than any man breathing." He was a rather short, squab-looking, and very shabby figure, w^ho walked, I think, a little lame. He came, I was told, from the north country, and spoke with a strong Northum- brian accent. " It is a dreadful thing to have to decipher an opinion of his," said my father; "he is said to have three handwritings — one when he is sober, which he can read himself; one when he is drunk, which his clerk can read; and one next morning after being drunk, which no human being can read !" 34 WHAT I REMEMBER. And I looked for the little shabby, stuffy court in which I had so often watched Eldon's lowering brow, as he doubted over some knotty point. My father had the highest opinion of his intellectual power and legal knowl- edge. But he did not like him. He used to say that his mind was an instrument of admirable precision, but his soul the soul of a pedler. I take it Eldon's quintessential Toryism was obnoxious to my father's Liberalism. lie used to repeat the following "report" of a casein the Court of Chancery: "Mr. Leech* made a speech; 'Twas learned, terse, and strong. Mr. Hart, on the other part, Was neat and glib, but wrong. Mr. Parker made it darker ; 'Twas dark enough without ! Mr. Cook cited a book ; And the Chancellor said, I doubt." Una om nes prcm it n ox ! Of course among the other changes of sixty years lan- guage had changed. There had been a change, especially in pronunciation, a little before my time. Only very old and old-fashioned people continued in my earliest years to say JRoom for Rome; gould for gold; ohleege for oblige; Jecrmes for James (one of our chaplains at Winchester, I remember, always used to speak of St. Jeames); a beef- steelc foi' a beef-steak; or to pronounce the "a" in danger, stranger, and the like, as it is in " man." But it is a sin- gular fact, that despite the spread, and supposed improve- ment of education, the literary — or perhaps it would be better to say the printed — language of the earlier decades of the nineteentb century was much more correct than that of the latter part of it. I constantly find passages in books and newspapers written with the sublimest indif- ference to all grammatical rules, and all proprieties of construction. A popular writer of fiction says that her hero " rose his head !" And another tells her readers that something happened when "the brunt of the edge had * Subsequently Master of the Rolls. EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 35 worn off !" There are certain words, such as " idiosyn- crasy," " type," " momentary," and many others which I cannot while writing recollect, which are constantly used, not by one writer only, but by many, to express meanings wholly different from those which they really bear. There is another word which is worth mentioning, because the misuse of it is rapidly becoming endemic. I mean the verb "trouble;" which it seems to me all the world before the birth of the present generation very well knew to be an active, not a neuter verb. Now scarcely a day passes without my meeting with such phrases as "he did not trouble," meaning, trouble himself; "I hope you won't trouble," instead of trouble yourself. To old-fashioned ears it seems a detestable vulgarism. But as far as I can gather from observing books that have a greater, and books that have a lesser, degree of success, and from the remarks of the critical journals, a book is in these latter days deemed none the worse, nor is at all less likely to find favor with the public, because it is full of grammati- cal or linguistic solecisms. Now certainly this is an in- stance and indication of changed ideas; for it assuredly was not the case when George the Third was king. Another difference between that day and this of very considerable social significance may be observed in the character and development of the slang in use. There was at the former jDcriod very little slang of the kind that may be considered universal. Different classes had differ- ent phrases and locutions that were peculiar to them, and served more or less as a bond of union and exclusiveness as regarded outsiders. The criminal classes had their slang. The universities had theirs. There was coster- mongers' slang. And there was a slang peculiar to the inner circles of the fashionable world, together with many other special dialects that might be named. But the spe- cialties of these various idioms were not interchangeable, nor for the most part intelligible outside the world to which they belonged. Nor — and this difference is a very notable one — did slang phrases grow intg acceptance with the rapidity or universality which now characterizes their advent — a notable difference, because it, of course, arises 36 WHAT I REMEMBER. «l from the increased rapidity of communication, and from the much greater degree in which all classes and all pro- vincial and town populations are mixed together and rubbed against each other. It used to be said, and is still said by some old-world folks, that the use of slang is vul- gar. And the younger generation, which uses it univer- sally, ridicules much the old fogey narrowness which so considers it. But the truth is, that there was in the older time nothing really vulgar in the use of the slang which then prevailed. Why should not every class and every profession have its own shibboleths and its own phrases? And is there not real vulgarity in the mind which considers a man vulgar for using the language of the class to which he really belongs ? But the modern use of slang is truly vulgar for a very different reason. It is vulgar because it arises from one of the most intrinsi- cally vulgar of all the vulgar tendencies of a vulgar mind — imitation. There are slang phrases Avhich, because they vividly or graphically express a conception, or clothe it with humor, are admirable. But they are admirable only in the mouths of their inventors. Of course it is an abuse of language to say that the beauty of a pretty girl strikes you with awe. But he who first said of some girl that she was " awfully " pretty was abundantly justified by the half - humorous, half -serious consideration of all the effects such loveliness may pro- duce. But then, because this was felt to be the case, and the 7not was accepted, all the tens of thousands of idiotic cretins who have been rubbed down into exact similarity to each other by excessive locomotion and the " spread " of education — spread indeed after the fashion in which a gold-beater spreads his metal — imitate each other in the senseless use of it. They are just like the man in the "Joe Miller" story, who, because a laugh followed when a host, whose servant let fall a dish with a boiled tongue on it, said it was only a lapsus lingiice, ordered his own servant to throw down a leg of mutton, and then made the same remark.! There was an old gentleman who had a very tolerable notion of what is vulgar and what is not, and who char- EARLY DAYS IN LOIiDON. 37 acterized "imitators" as a "servile herd." And surely, if, as we are often told, this is a vulgar age, the fact is due to the prevalence of this very tap-root of vulgarity, imitation. Of course I am not speaking of imitation in any of the various cases in which there is an end in view outside the fact of the imitation. The child in order to speak must imitate those whom it hears speaking. If you would make a pudding, you must imitate the cook ; if a coat, the tailor. But the imitation Avhich is essentially vulgar, the very tap-root, as I have said, of vulgarity, is imitation for imitation's sake. And that is why I think modern slang is essentially vulgar. If it is your real opinion — right or wrong matters not — that any slang j^hrase expresses any idea with peculiar accuracy, vivid- ness, or humor, use it by all means; and he is a narrow blockhead who sees any vulgarity in your doing so. But for Heaven's sake, my dear Dick, don't use it merely be- cause you heard Bob use it ! Yet there is something pathetically humble too about a man so conscious of his own worthlessness as to be ever anxious to look like somebody else. And surely a man must have a painful consciousness of his inability to utter any word of his own with either wit or wisdom or sense in it who habitually strives to borrow the wit of the last re- tailer of the current slang whom he has heard. In some respects, however, this is, I think, a less vulgar age than that of my youth. Vulgar exclusiveness on grounds essentially illiberal was far more common. It will, per- haps, seem hardly credible at the present day that middle- class professional society, such as that of barristers, phy- sicians, rectors, and vicars, should sixty years ago have deemed attorneys and general medical practitioners (or apothecaries, as the usual and somewhat dej^reciatory term was) inadmissible to social equality. But such was the case. My reminiscences of half a century or more ago seem to indicate also that professional etiquette has been relaxed in various other particulars. I hear of j^hysicians being in partnership with others of the same profession — an arrangement which has a commercial savor in it that would have been thought quite infra dig. in my younger 38 WHAT I REMEMBER. day. I hear also of their accepting, if not perhaps exact- ing, payments of a smaller amount than the traditional guinea. This was unheard of in the old days. An Eng- lish physician is a member of the most generously liberal profession that exists or ever existed on earth. And it was an every-day occurrence for a phj^sician to think more of the purse of his patient than of the value of his own services. But he did this either by refusing to accept any fee whatever, or by declining it on the occasion of subse- quent visits: never by diminishing the amount of it. In some other cases professional dignity had to be maintained under circumstances that entailed considerable sacrifices on those who were called upon to maintain it. It was not etiquette, for instance, for a barrister going on circuit to travel otherwise than by a private conveyance. He might hire a post-chaise, or he might ride his own horse, or even a hired one, but he must not travel by a stage-coach or put up at a hotel. I have heard it said that this rule originated in the notion that a barrister travelling to an assize town by the public coach might fall in with some attorney bound on a similar errand, and might so be led, if not into the sin, at least into temptation to the sin, of "buggery." I dare say many a young barrister of the present day does not know what buggery means or meant ! Among the sights and sounds which were familiar to the eye and ear in the London of my youth, and which are so no longer, may be mentioned the two-penny post- man. Not many probably of the rising generation are aware that in their fathers' days the London postal ser- vice was dual. The " two-penny postman," who delivered letters sent from one part of London to another, was a dif- ferent person from the "general postman," Avho delivered those which came from the country. The latter wore a scarlet, the former a blue livery. And the two adminis- trations were entirely distinct. In those days, when a letter from York to London cost a shilling, or not much less, the weight of a single letter was limited solely by the condition that it must be written on one sheet or piece of paper only. Two pieces of paper, however small, or how- ever light, incurred a double postage. I have sent for a EARLY DAYS IN LONDON. 39 single postage an enormous sheet of double folio outweigh- ing some ten sheets of ordinary post paper. Of course envelopes were unknown. Every sheet had to be folded so that it could be sealed and the address written on the back of it. Another notable London change which occurs to me is that which has come to the Haymarket. In my day it was really such. The whole right-hand side of the street goin^ downwards, from the Piccadilly end to the Opera House, used to be lined with loads of hay. The carts were ar- ranged in close order side by side wdth their back parts towards the foot pavement, which was crowded by the salesmen and their customers. I might say a good deal too about the changes in the theatrical London world and habits, but the subject is a large one, and has been abundantly illustrated. It is more- over one which in its details is not of an edifying nature. And it must suffice, therefore, to bear my testimony to the greatness of the purifying change which has been brought about in all the habits of play-goers and play- houses mainly and firstly by the exertions of my mother's old and valued friend, Mr. Macready. CHAPTER III. AT HARROW. I WAS, I think, about eight years old when my parents removed from Keppel Street to Harrow-on-the-Hill. My father's practice, I take it, was becoming less and less sat- isfactory, and his health equally so. And the move to Harrow was intended as a remedy or palliation for both these evils. My father was a very especially industrious and laborious man. And I have the authority of more than one very competent judge among his professional contemporaries for believing that he was as learned a chancery lawyer as was to be found among them. How, then, was his want of success to be accounted for? One of the competent authorities above alluded to accounted for it thus: "Your father," he said to me many years af- terwards, when his troubles and failures had at last ceased to afflict him, " never came into contact with a blockhead without insisting on irrefutably demonstrating to him that he was such. And the blockhead did not like it! He was a disputatious man ; and he was almost invariably — at least on a point of law — right. But the world differed from him in the opinion that being so gave him the right of rolling his antagonist in tlie dust and executing an in- tellectual dance of triumph on his prostrate form." He was very fond of whist, and was, I believe, a good player. But people did not like to play with hira. " Many men," said an old friend once, " will scold their partners occa- sionally. But Trollope invariably scolds us all round wdth the utmost impartiality; and that every deal !" He was, in a word, a highly respected, but not a popu- lar or well-beloved man. Worst of all, alas ! he w^as not popular in his own home. No one of all the family circle was happy in his presence. Assuredly he was as affec- tionate and anxiously solicitous a father as any children AT HARROW. 41 ever had. I never remember his caning, whipping, beat- ing, or striking any one of us. But he used, during the detested Latin lessons, to sit with his arm over the back of the pupil's chair, so that his hand might be ready to inflict an instantaneous pull of the hair as the poena (by no means joecZe dcmdo) for every blundered concord or false quantity ; the result being to the scholar a nervous state of expectancy, not judiciously calculated to increase intel- lectual receptivity. There was also a strange sort of as- cetism about him, which seemed to make enjoyment, or any employment of the hours save work, distasteful and offensive to him. Lessons for us boys were never over and done with. It was sufticient for my father to see any one of us "idling," i.e., not occupied with book-work, to set us to work quite irrespectively of the previously as- signed task of the day having been accomplished. And this we considered to be unjust and unfair. I have said that the move to Harrow was in some de- gree caused by a hope that the change might be beneficial to my father's health. He had suffered very distressingly for many years from bilious headache, which gradually increased upon him during the whole of his life. I may say parenthetically that, from about fifteen to forty, I suffered occasionally, about once a fortnight perhaps, from the same malady, though in a much less intense form. But at about forty years old I seemed to have grown out of it, and since that time have never been troubled by it. But in m.j father's day the common practice was to treat such complaints with calomel. He was constantly having recourse to that drug. And I believe that it had the effect of shattering his nervous system in a deplorable manner. He became increasingly irritable; never with the effect of causing him to raise a hand against any one of us, but with the effect of making intercourse with him so sure to issue in something unpleasant that, unconsciously, we sought to avoid his presence, and to consider as hours of enjoyment only those that could be passed away from it. My mother's disposition, on the other hand, was of the most genial, cheerful, happy, enjoue nature imaginable. All our happiest hours were spent w4th her; and to any 42 WHAT I REMEMBER. A one of us a ttte-d-tete with her was preferable to any other disposal of a holiday hour. But even this, under all the circumstances, did not tend to the general harmony and hap- piness of the family circle. For, of course, the facts and the results of them must have been visible to my father; and though wholly inoperative to produce the smallest change in his ways, must, I cannot doubt, have been pain- ful to him. It was all very sad. My father was, essen- tially, a good man. But he was, I fear, a very unhappy one. He was extremely fond of reading aloud to the assem- bled family in the evening; and there was not one indi- vidual of those who heard him who would not have es- caped from doing so at almost any cost. Of course it was our duty to conceal this extreme reluctance to endure what was to him a pleasure — a duty which I much fear was very imperfectly performed. I remember — oh, how well ! — the nightly readings during one winter of " Sir Charles Gran- dison," and the loathing disgust for that production which they occasioned. But I do not think that I and my brothers were bad boys. We were, I take it, always obedient. And one in- cident remains in my mind from a day now nearly seventy years ago, which seems to prove that the practice of that virtue was habitual to me. An old friend of my mother's, Mrs. Gibbon, with her daughter Kate, mentioned on a for- mer page as the companion of my lessons in the alphabet, were staying with us at Harrow. Mrs. Gibbon and Kate and my mother and I were returning from a long country ramble across the fields in a part of the country my mother * was not acquainted with. There was a steep, grassy de- clivity down which I and the little girl, my contemporary, hand-in-hand, were running headlong in front of our re- spective parents, when my mother suddenly called out, "Stop, Tom!" I stopped forthwith, and came to heel as obediently as a well-trained pointer. And about five min- ] utes later my mother and Mrs. Gibbon, following exactly in the line in which we had been running, discovered a ' long disused but perfectly open and unfenced well! If I had not obeyed so promptly as I did I should not AT HARROW. 43 now be writing reminiscences, and poor " Katy 'Bon," as I used to call her, would have gone to her rest some ten years earlier than she found it. My mother always said that she could in no wise account for the impulse which prompted her to call me to stop! The move to Harrow was as infelicitous a step in the economic point of viev^^ as it was inefficacious as a measure of health. My father took a farm of some three or four hundred acres, to the best of my recollection, from Lord Northwick. It was a wholly disastrous speculation. It certainly was the case that he paid a rent for it far in ex- cess of its fair value; and he always maintained that he had been led to undertake to do so by inaccurate and false representations. I have no knowledge of these rep- resentations, but I am absolutely certain that my father was entirely convinced that they were such as he charac- terized them. But he was educated to be a lawyer, and was a good one. He had never been educated to be a farmer; and was, I take it, despite unwearied activity, and rising up early and late taking rest, a bad one. To make matters worse, moreover, he built on that land, of which he held only a long lease, a large and very good house. The position was excellently chosen, the house was well conceived and well built, and the extensive gar- dens and grounds were well designed and laid out; but the unwisdom of doing all that on land the property of another is but too obvious. The excuse that my father might have alleged was that he was by no means wholly dependent either on his pro- fession or on his farm, or on the not inconsiderable prop- erty which he had inherited from his father or enjoyed in right of his wife. He had an old maternal uncle, Adol- phus Meetkerke, who lived on his estate near Royston, in Hertfordshire, called Julians. Mr. Meetkerke — the de- scendant of a Dutchman who had come to this country some time in the eighteenth century as diplomatic repre- sentative of his country, and had settled here — lived at Julians with an old childless wife, the daughter, I be- lieve, of a General Chapman — and my father was his de- clared heir. He had another nephew, Mr. John Young, 44 WHAT I REMEMBER. as flourishing and prosperous an attorney as my father was an unsuccessful and unprosperous barrister. John Young, too, was as worthy and as highly respected a man as any in the profession. But my father, as settled long years before, was to be the heir; and I was in due time shown to the tenantry as their future landlord, and all that sort of thing. I suppose my grandfather, the Rev. Anthony Trollope, of Cottenham in Hertfordshire, mar- ried an elder sister of old Adolphus Meetkerke, while the father of John Young married a younger one. And so, come what might of the Harrow farm and the new house, I was to be the future owner of Julians, and live on my own acres. Again, Dis aliter visum! I well remember more than one visit to Julians with my parents about this time — visits singularly contrasted with those to my Grandfather Milton, the Vicar of Heckfield. The house and establishment at Julians were on a far more pretentious scale than the home of the vicar, and the mode of life in the squire's establishment larger and freer. But I liked Heckfield better than Julians; partly, I think, even at that early age, because the former is situated in an ex- tremely pretty country, whereas the neighborhood of the other is by no means such. But I please myself with think- ing, and do really believe, that the main reason for the preference was that the old Bristol saddler's son was a far more highly-cultured man than the Hertfordshire squire. He was a good man, too, was old Adolphus Meetkerke; a good landlord, a kindly-natured man, a good sportsman, an active magistrate, and a good husband to his old wife. But there was a sort of flavor of roughness about the old squire and his surroundings which impressed itself on my observation even in those days, and would, I take it, now- adays be deemed almost clownish rusticity. Right well do I remember the look and figure of my Aunt Meetkerke, properly great-aunt-in-law. She was an admirable specimen of a squiress, as people and things were in that day. I suppose that there was not a poor man or woman in the parish with whose affairs of all sorts she was not intimately acquainted, and to whom she did AT HARROW. 45 not play the part of an ever-active providence. She alwaj'-s came down to breakfast clad in a green riding-habit, and passed most of her life on horseback. After dinner, in the long, low drawing-room, with its faded stone-colored cur- tains and bookless desert spaces, she always slept as peace- fully as she does now in Julians phurchyard. She never meddled at all with the housekeeping of her establishment. That w^as in the hands of " Mrs. Anne," an old maiden sis- ter of Mr. Meetkerke. She w^as a prim-looking, rosy-ap- ple-faced, most good-natured little w^oman. She always carried a little basket in her hand, in which were the keys and a never-changed volume of Miss Austen's "Pride and Prejudice," which she alwaj^s recommenced as soon as she had worked her way to the end of it. Though a very pre- cise sort of person, she would frequently come down to breakfast a few minutes late, to find her brother standing on the hearth-rug with his prayer-book open in his hand, waiting for her arrival to begin prayers to the assembled household. He had a wonderfully strong, rasping voice, the tones of w^hicli were rarely modulated under any cir- cumstances. I can hear now his reverberating " Five min- utes too late again, Mrs. Anne; ' Dearly beloved brethren,'" — etc., tlie change of person addressed and of subject hav- ing been marked by no pause or break whatever save the sudden kneeling at the head of the breakfast-table; while at the conclusion of the short, but never-missed prayers, the transition from " Amen " to " William, bring round the brown mare after breakfast " was equally unmarked by pause or change of voice or manner. The parish in w^hich Julians is situated is a small vicar- age, the incumbent of which was at that time a bachelor, Mr. Skinner. The church Avas a very small one, and my great-uncle and his family the only persons in the congre- gation above the rank of the two or three small farmers and the agricultural laborers who mainly composed it. Whethei-' there was any clerk or not I do not remember. But if any such official existed, the performance of his office in church was altogether not only overlaid but extin- guished by the great rough " view-halloo " sort of voice of my uncle. He never missed going to church, and never 46 WHAT I REMEMBER. missed a word of the responses, which were given in far louder tones than those of the vicar. Something of a hjT-mn was always attempted, I rerncmber, by the rustic con- gregation; with what sort of musical eifect may be imag- ined! I don't think my Uncle Meetkerke could have dis- tinficuished much between their efforts and the music of the spheres. But the singers were so well pleased with the exercise that they were apt to prolong it, as my uncle thought, somewhat unduly. And on such occasions he would cut the performance short with a rasping "That's enough!" which effectually brought it to an abrupt con- clusion. The very short sermon — probably a better one for the purpose in hand than South or Andrews would have preached — having been brought to an end, my uncle Avould sing out to the vicar, as he w^as descending the pulpit stairs, " Come up to dinner, Skinner!" And then we all marched out, while the rustics, still retaining their places till we were fairly out of the door, made their obeisances as we passed. All which phenomena, strongly contrasted as they were with the decorous if somewhat sleepy per- formance in my grandfather's church at Ileckfield, greatly excited my interest. I remember that I had no dislike to attending service either at Ileckfield or Julians, while I intensely disliked making one of a London congregation. If I remember right there were two or three Dissenters and their families at Ileckfield, generally considered by their neighbors much as so many Chinese settled among them might nave been — as unaccountably strange and as objectionable. But nothing of the sort existed at Julians; and I take it, as far as may be judged from my uncle's gen- eral tone and manner in managing his parish, that any in- dividual guilty of such monstrous and unnatural depravity would at once have been consigned to the parish stocks. Mr. Meetkerke was, as I have said, an active magistrate. But only one instance of his activity in this respect dwells in my recollection. I remember to have seen, iit the non- descript little room that he called his study, a collection of some ten or a dozen very nasty -looking pots, with some white, pasty looking substance in each of them, and to have wondered greatly Avhat mystery could have been attached AT HARROW. 47 to them. I learned from the butler's curt word of infor- mation that they were connected with my uncle's magis- terial duties, and my mind immediately began to con- struct all kinds of imaginings about wholesale poisonings. I had heard the story of the "Untori" at Milan, and had little doubt that we were in the midst of some such horri- ble conspiracy. A few days later I learned that the nasty- looking pots were the result of a magisterial raid among the bakers, and contained nothing worse than alum. These reminiscences of Julians and its little world re- curred to me when speaking of my father's financial posi- tion at the time he took a farm at Harrow and built a handsome house on another man's land. He was at that time Mr. Meetkerke's declared heir, and would doubtless have inherited his property in due time had childless old Mrs. Meetkerke lived. But one day she unexpectedly took off her green habit for the last time, and in a day or two was laid under yet more perennial green in the little church- yard ! Mr. Meetkerke was at that time over sixty. But he was as fine an old man physically as anybody could wish to see. Before long he married a young wife, and became the father of six children! It was of course a tremendous blow to my father, and never, as I can say from much sub- sequent information, was such a blow better or more brave- ly borne. As for myself, I cannot remember that the cir- cumstance impressed me as having any bearing whatso- ever on my personal fate and fortunes. In after-years I heard it asserted in more than one quarter that my father had in a great measure himself to thank for his disap- pointment. He was a Liberal in politics after the fashion of those days (which would make excellent Conservatism in these), while Mr. Meetkerke was a Tory of the very oldest school. The Tory uncle was very far indeed from being an intellectual match for his Liberal nephew, and no doubt used to talk in his fine old hunting-field voice a great deal of nonsense which no consideration of either affection, respect, or prudence could induce my father to spare. I fear he used to jump on the hearty old squire very persistently, with the result d la longue of ceasing to be a persooid gratd to the old man. It may be that 48 WHAT I REMEMBER. had it been otherwise he might have sought affection and companionship elsewhere than from a young wife. But . . . ! My father, as I have said, struggled bravely with fort- une, but, as far as I have ever been able to learn, with ever- increasing insuccess. His practice as a barrister dwin- dled away gradually till it became not worth while to keep chambers; and his farming accounts showed very frequently — every year, I suspect — a deficit. One of the reasons for selecting Harrow as his scene of rustication had been the existence of the school there. I and my brothers were all of us destined from our cradles to become Wykehamists, and it was never my father's inten- tion that Harrow, instead of Winchester, should be our definitive place of education. But the idea was that we might, before going to Winchester, avail ourselves of the right to attend his parish school, which John Lyon be- queathed to the parishioners of Harrow. I went to Winchester at ten years old. The time for me to do so did not wholly depend on the will of my par- ents, for the admission in those days, as in all former days up to quite recent times, was by nomination in this wise. There were six electors: 1, the Warden of New College (otherwise, more accurately in accordance with the terms of Wykeham's foundation, the College of St. Mary Win- ton pro^yeWmion); 2, the Warden of Winchester Col- lege; 3, the Sub-warden of Winchester; 4, the "Informa- tor" or head -master of Winchester; and 5 and 6, two "Posers," sent yearly by New College, according to a cycle framed ad hoc, to the Winchester election. It was at the election which took place in July that all vacancies among the seventy scholars, who, together w4th the war- den, fellows, two masters, chaplains, and choristers, con- stituted the members of Wykeham's foundation, were filled. The vacancies were caused either by the election of scholars to be fellows of New College, or by their su- perannuation at eighteen years of age, or by their with- drawal from the school. The number of vacancies in any year was, therefore, altogether uncertain. The first two vacancies were filled by boys who came in as "College AT HARROW. 49 Founders," i. e., as of kin to the founder. Of course the bishop's kin could be only collateral; and I remember that " the best blood " was considered to be that of the Twistletons. Originally there had been an absolute pref- erence for those who could show such relationship. But, as time went on, it became apparent that the entire col- lege would thus be filled with founder's kin; and it was determined that two such only should be admitted to Winchester every year, and two only sent out to fellow- ships at New College. Even so the proportion of fellow- ships at the Oxford college awarded to founder's kin was large, for it was reckoned in those days that the average vacancies at New College, which were caused only by death, marriage, or the acceptance of a college living, amounted to seven in two years, of which the founder's kin took four. And this rule operated with certain regu- larity. For the superannuation at eighteen did not apply to founder's kin, who remained in the school, be their age what it might, till they went to New College. These two boys of founder's kin were admitted by the votes of the six electors. After them came the boy nom- inated by the Warden of New College; then the nominee of the Warden of Winchester; and so on till the eighth vacancy was filled by the nominee of the junior ** Poser." Then a ninth vacancy was taken by the Warden of New College's second nomination, and so on. Of course the vacancies for Winchester were much more numerous than those for the Oxford college; and it often happened that the "Poser's" second, or sometimes even third, nomina- tion had a very good chance of getting in in the course of the year. The cycle for "Posers," which I have men- tioned, allowed it to be known who would be " Poser " for a given year many years in advance; and the senior " Pos- er's" first nomination for 1820 had been promised to me before I was out of my cradle. He was the Rev. Mr. Lipscomb, who subsequently became Bishop of Jamaica. It was written, therefore, in the book of fate that I was to go to Winchester in the year 1820, when I should be ten years old. That time, however, was not yet; but was looked for- 3 50 WHAT I REMEMBER. ^J ward to by me with a somewhat weighty sense of the in- evitability of destiny. And I can well remember medi- tating on the three fateful epochs which awaited me — to wit, having certain teeth taken out in the immediate fut- ure; going to Winchester in the paulo post futiirum ; and being married in the ultimate consummation of things. All three seemed to me to need being faced with a certain dogged fortitude of endurance. But I think that the ter- rors of the first loomed the largest in my imagination, doubtless by virtue of its greater proximity. I remember, too, at a very early age maintaining in my own mind, if not in argument with others, that to be brave one must be very much afraid and act in despite of fear, and uninfluenced by it, and that not to fear at all, as I heard predicated of themselves by sundry contemporaries, indicated simply stupidity. And when the day for the dentist came my heart was in my boots, but they carried me unfalteringly to St. Martin's Lane all the same. At present, however, we are at Harrow, getting into my father's new house, and establishing ourselves in our new home. It was soon arranged that I was to attend the school, scarcely, as I remember, as a regular inscribed scholar attending the lessons in the schoolroom, but as a private pupil of the Rev. Mark Drury. I was about eight years old at the time, and I suppose should hardly have been accepted as an admitted member of the school. At that time Dr. Butler, afterwards Bishop of Peter- borough, was the head-master. He was not the right man in the right place. He was, I take it, far more adapted for a bishop than a school-master. Moreover, there were certain difliculties in his position not necessarily connected with the calling of a head-master. He had succeeded Dr. Drury in the head -mastership, and he found the school full of Drury 8. Mark, the brother of Dr. Drury, was the second master; a Mr. Evans, a respectable, quiet nonenti- ty, was the third; Harry Drury, a son of the old doctor was the fourth, and was the most energetic and influential man in the place; William Drury, the son of Mark, was the fifth; and two young men of the names of Mills and Batten were the sixth and seventh masters. They were AT HARROW. 51 all in priests' orders, and all received as many boarders as they could get. For the objectionable system, which made the fortunes of the masters far more dependent on their trade as victuallers than on their profession as teach- ers, had been copied from Eton, with the further evil con- sequence of swamping John Lyon's parochial school by the creation of a huge boarding-school. This, however eminently successful, has no proper claim to be called a "public school," save by a modern laxity of language, which has lost sight of the fact that the only meaning or possible definition of a " public school " is one. the founda- tion of which was intended, not for a parish or other dis- trict, but for all England. If merely success, and conse- quent size, be held to confer a claim to the title, it is clear that there is no " private " school which would not become a " public school " to-mdrrow if the master and proprietor of it could command a sufficient amount of success. And even then the question would remain. What amount of success must that be ? The world in general, however, dislikes accuracy of speaking. And Harrow was then, and has been since, abundantly large enough and successful enough to be called and considered a " public school " by the generality, who never take the trouble to ask themselves, What makes it such ? Dr. Butler was eminently a gentleman, extremely suave in manner, gentle in dealing with those under his author- ity, mild and moderate in his ideas of discipline, a genu- inely scholarly man in tastes and pursuits, though prob- ably not what experts in such a matter would have called a profound scholar. But he had not the energetic hand needed for ruling a large school; and his rule was not a success. Mark Drury, though from the old Drury con- nection his house was always full of pupils, cannot be said to have exercised any influence at all on the general con- dition and management of the school by reason of the extraordinary and abnormal corpulence which kept him pretty well a prisoner to the arm-chair in his study. He had long since, at the time when I first knew him, aban- doned the practice of "going ujj," as it was technically 52 WHAT I REMEMBER. 1 called, i. e., of climbing the last portion of Harrow Hill through the viUage street. On this topmost part of the hill are situated the church, the churchyard, and the school-house, rebuilt, enlarged, beautified, since my day; and this " going up " had to be performed by all the mas- ters and all the boys every time school was attended. But of this climb Mark Drury had been incapable for many years, solely by reason of his immense corpulence. Natu- rally a small, delicately-made man, with small hands and feet, he had become in old age the fattest man I think I ever saw. ,He used to sit in his study, and there conduct the business of tuition, leaving to others the work of hear- ing lessons in school. His house had the reputation of being the most com- fortable of all the boarding-houses — a fact due to the un- stinting liberality, careful supervision, and motherly kind- ness of " Mother Mark," an excellent and admirable old lady, than whom it would be impossible to conceive any one more fitted for the position she occupied. The un- stinting liberality, it is fair to say, characterized all the Drury houses; and probably the others also. But for truly motherly care there was but one " Mother Mark." " Old Mark" was exceedingly popular, as, indeed, he deserved to be, for a more kindly-natured man never existed. He had an old-fashioned belief in the virtues of the rod; and though his bodily infirmity combined with his good-nat- ure to make him sparing in the application of it, a flog- ging was at his hands sufiiciently disagreeable to make one desirous of avoiding it. " Your clock," he would say, "requires to be wound up every Monday morning," mean- ing that a Monday-morning flogging was a good beginning of the week. But the rods were kept in a cupboard in the study — how well I remember the Bluebeard-closet sort of reputation which surrounded it! — and the cupboard was always kept locked. And very often it happened that, somehow or other, the key was in the keeping of Mrs. Drury. Then a message would be sent to Mrs. Drury for the key, and very probably the proposed patient was the messenger, in which case — and it is strange that the re- currence of the fact did not suggest suspicion t6 old Mark AT HARROW. 53 — it almost invariably happened that Mi's. Drury was very sorry, but she could not find the key anywhere! There never surely was a key so frequently mislaid as the key of that terrible cupboard! Well, it was arranged that I was to go every day to Mark Drury's study, not, as I have said, as a regular mem- ber of the school, but to get such tuition as might be picked up from the genius loci, and from such personal teaching as the old man could bestow on me at moments unoccupied by his own pupils. And this arrangement, it must be understood, was entirely a matter of friendship — one incident of the many years' friendship between my parents and all the Drurys. There was no question of any honorarium in the matter. My father's appetite for teaching was such that he would, I am very sure, have much preferred keeping my brother and myself under his sole tuition. But he used to drive up to London in his gig daily to his chambers in Lincoln's Inn, for he still struggled to hope on at his pro- fession. (I remember that these drives down in the dark winter evenings became a source of some anxiety when a messenger ti-avelling with despatches for the French min- ister, who at that time rented Lord Northwick's house at Harrow, was mysteriously murdered and his despatches stolen.) And it thus became necessary that some means should be found for preventing us boys from making ecoh huissonnitre in the fields and under the hedgerows. I do not think I profited much by my attendance at old Mark's pupil-room. The boys whose lessons he was hear- ing stood in a row in front of his arm-chair, and I sat be- hind him, supposed to be intently occupied in conning the task he had set me, in preparation for the moment when, the class before him having been dismissed, he would have little me, all alone, in front of him for a few minutes, while another class was mustering. How I hated it all I How very much more bitterly I hated it than I ever hated any subsequent school troubles I "What a pariah I was among those denizens of Mark's and other pupil-rooms! For I was a "town boy," "village bov " would have been a more correct desisrnation ; one of 64 WHAT I REMEMBER. the very few who by the terms of the founder's will had any right to be there at all ; and was in consequence an object of scorn and contumely on the part of all thejo«y- ing pupils. I was a charity boy. But at Winchester sub- sequently I was far more of a charity boy, for William of Wykeham's foundation provided me with food and lodg- ing as well as tuition ; whereas I claimed and received nothing save a modicum of the latter at the hands of those who enjoyed and administered John Lyon's bounty. Yet, though at Winchester there were only seventy scholars and a hundred and thirty private pupils of the head-mas- ter, or *' commoners," there was no trace whatsoever of any analogous feeling, no slightest arrogation of any su- periority, social or other, on the part of the commoner over the collegian. In fact the matter was rather the other way; any difference between the son of the presum- ably richer man and the presumably poorer having been merged and lost sight of entirely in the higher scholastic dignity of the college boy. I remember also, more vividly than I could wish, the bullying to which I and others were subjected at Harrow. There was much of a very brutal description. And in this respect also the difference at Winchester was very marked. The theory of the two places on the subject was entirely different, with the result I have stated. At Har- row, in those days — how it may be now I know not — no " fagging " was authorized or permitted by the masters. No boy had any legitimate authority over any other boy. And inasmuch as it was, is, and ever will be in every large school impossible to achieve such a Saturnian state of things, the result was that the bigger and stronger assumed an authority supported by sheer violence over the smaller and weaker. At Winchester, on the other hand, the sub- jection of those below them in college to the " prefects," or upper class, was not only recognized, but enforced, by the authorities. It thus came to pass that many a big, hulking fellow was subjected to the authority of a "prefect" whom he could have tossed over his head. It was an authority nobody dreamed of resisting; a matter of courser not a rule of the stronger supported by violence. AT HARROW. 55 And the result — contributed to, also, by other arrange- ments, of which I shall speak hereafter — was that any- thing of the nature of " bullying " was infinitely rarer at Winchester than at Harrow. Despite old Mark's invariable good-nature and kindness, my hours in his study were very unhappy ones; and I was hardly disposed to consider as a misfortune a severe illness which attacked me and my brother Henry, and for the nonce put an end to them. Very shortly it became clear that we were both suffering from a bad form of typhus. How was such an attack to be accounted for? My father's new house was visited, and examined, and found to be above suspicion. But further inquiry elicited the fact that we boys had passed a half-hour before breakfast in watch- ing the proceedings of some men engaged in cleaning and restoring an old drain connected with a neighboring farm- house. The case was clear! It would seem, however, that the proper mode of treatment was not so clear to the Harrow general practitioner — a village apothecary of the old school, who, strange as it may seem, was the only available medico at Harrow in those far-off days. He treated us with calomel, and very, very nearly let me slip through his hands. It would have been quite, but for a fortunate chance. Among our Harrow friends was a Mrs. Edwards, the widow of a once very well-known bookseller — not a publisher, but a scholarly, and indeed learned, seller of old books — who had, I believe, left her a consider- able fortune. She was a highly cultured and very clever woman, and a special friend of my mother's. Now it so happened that a Dr. Butt, a physician, her brother, or brother-in-law, I forget which, paid her a visit just at the time we boys were at the worst. Mrs. Edwards brought him to our bedsides. I was altogether unconscious, and had been raving about masters coming in at the window to drag me off to the pupil-room. My knowledge of what followed, therefore, is derived wholly from my mother's subsequent telling. Dr. Butt, having learned the treat- ment to which we had been subjected, said only, " No more calomel, I think. Let me have a glass of port wine im- mediately." And with his finger on my wrist, he pro- 56 WHAT I REMEMBER. ceeded to administer a teaspoonf ul at a time of the cordial A few more visits from Dr. Butt set us fairly on the way to recovery; and from that day, some sixty-eight years ago, to the present, I have never passed one day in bed from illness. "^ CHAPTER IV. AT HARROW — {continued). Another incident of these boyish years of a very dif- ferent complexion has made a far deeper impression on my memory. It must have been, to the best of my re- membrance, about the same time, probably some six months later in the same year, that it was decided that I was to accompany my father and mother in a " long vaca- tion " ramble which had long been projected. My father's method of travel on this excursion, which was to include parts of Sussex, Hampshire, Wilts, Devon, Somerset, and Monmouth, was to drive my mother and myself in his gig, accompanied by a servant riding another horse, who was provided with a pair of traces to hook on as tandem whenever the nature of the road required such assistance. I think that this tour afforded me some of the happiest days and hours I have ever known. I can never forget the ecstacy of delight with which I looked forward to it, and the preparations I made — suggested probably, some of them, by the experiences of Robinson Crusoe. The dis- tance and differentiation between me and other boys of my acquaintance, which was caused by my destination to this great adventure, I felt to be such as that which may be supposed to exist between Livingstone and the stay-at- home mortals who read his books. We started after breakfast one fine morning, " George," the footman, turned into groom and courier, riding after the gig. I considered this a disappointingly tame proceed- ing. I had been up myself considerably before daylight, and considered that, looking to the arduous nature of the journey before us (we were to sleep at Dorking that night), we ought at least to have been on the road while the less adventurous part of the world were still asleep. We had not proceeded many miles before an amari 3* 68 WHAT I REMEMBER. aliquid disclosed itself of a very distressing kind. I was seated on a little box placed on the floor of the gig be- tween the knees of my father and mother, and was " as happy as a prince," or probably much happier than any contemporaneous prince then in Christendom, when my father produced from out of the driving-seat beneath him a Delphin " Virgil," and intimated to me that our journey must by no means entail an entire interruption of my edu- cation ; that our travelling was not at all incompatible with a little study; and that he was ready to hear me con- strue. It may be readily imagined how much such " study " was likely to profit nae. Every incident of the road, every wagon, every stage-coach we met, every village church seen across the fields, every milestone even, was a matter of intense interest to me. Had I been Argus-eyed every eye would have been busy. I remember that my mother remonstrated, but in vain. And an hour or two of other- wise intense delight was turned into something which it is scarcely an exaggeration to call torture. I think, how- ever, that my mother must have subsequently renewed her pleadings, for on the second day's journey the "Virgil" was not brought out. It was reserved for the days when we were stationary, but no longer poisoned our absolute travel. If I never became a distinguished scholar it was assur- edly from no want of urgency in season and out of season on the part of my poor father. But not even Virgil him- self, backed by an " Eton Latin Grammar " and a small travelling-dictionary, could altogether destroy the manifold delights of that journey. I must not inflict on my reader all, or a tithe, of my topographical reminiscences; but I will relate one little adventure which went near to saving me, not only from this volume, but from all that half a century, and more, of subsequent pen-work may have in- flicted on me. It was at Gloucester. My parents and I had gone to the cathedral about a quarter of an hour be- fore the time for service on a Sunday morning. The great bell was being rung — an operation which was at that time performed by seven bell-ringers down in the body of the church. One large rope, descending from an aperture in AT HARROW. 59 the vault, was, at some dozen or so of feet from the pave- ment, divided into seven — one for each of the bell-ringers. Now it so happened that on that day one of the men was absent from his post, and one rope hung loose and unoc- cupied. No sooner had I espied this state of things than I rushed forward and seized the vacant rope, intending to add my efforts to those of the six men at work. But it so happened that at the moment when I thus clutched the rope the men had raised the bell, and of course at the end of their pull allowed the ropes to fly upwards through their hands. But I, knowing nothing of bell - ringing, clung tightly to my rope, and was of course swung up from the pavement with terrific speed. Fortunately the height of the vault was so great as to allow the full swing of the bell to complete itself without bringing me into contact with the roof. The men cried out to me to hold on tight. I did so, and descended safely — so unharmed that I was very desirous of repeating the experiment, which, as may be supposed, was not allowed. I can pull a bell more knowingly now. The charming old church at Gloucester was not kept and cared for in those days as it is now — a remark which is applicable, as recent visits have shown me, to nearly all the cathedral churches in England. I may observe also, since one object of these pages is to mark the social changes in English life since my young days, that the improvement in the tone and manner of performing the choral service in our cathedrals is as striking as the in- creased care for the fabrics. It used for the most part to be a careless, perfunctory, and not very reverent or decorous performance when George the Third was King. Those were the days when one minor canon could be backed to give another to " Pontius Pilate " in the Creed, and beat him! Other times, other manners! I think that the points in that still well-remembered tour that most of all delighted me were, first of all, Lynton and Lynmouth, on the north coast of Devon; then the banks of the Wye from Chepstow to Ross; and thirdly, Raglan Castle. I had already read the "Mysteries of Udolpho," with more enjoyment probably than any other reading has 60 WHAT I REMEMBER. ever afforded me. It was an ecstasy of delight, tempered only by the impossibility of gratifying my intense longing to start forthwith to see the places and countries described. And when I did in long-after years see them ! Oh, Mrs. Ratcliffe, how could you tell such tales! What! this the lovely Provence of my dreams ? But I was fresh from " The Mysteries," and full of faith when I went to Raglan, and strove to apply, at least as a matter of possibility, the in- cidents of the romance to the localities of the delightful ruin. Nor was Raglan in those days cared for with the loving care now bestowed on it by the Duke of Somerset. I have heard people complain of the restrictions, and of the small entrance fee now demanded for admittance to the ruins, and regret the days when the traveller could, as in my time, wander over every part of it at will. All that was very charming, but the place was not as beautiful as it is now. The necessary expense for the due conservation of the ruins must be very considerable. And when one hears, as I did recently at Raglan, that steam and bank-holidays have brought as many as fifteen hundred (!) visitors to the spot in one day, it may be easily imagined what the con- dition of the place would shortly become if careful restric- tions were not enforced. Of lovely — ever lovely — Tintern the same remarks may be made. Certainly there was a charm in wandering there, as I did when a boy, almost justified by the solitude in feeling myself to be the dis- coverer of the spot. Now there is a fine hotel, with waiters in black-tailed coats, and dinners a la carte! And huge vans pouring in " tourists " by the thousand. Between four and five thousand persons, I was told, visited Tintern in one August day ! Scott tells those who would " view fair Melrose aright " to " visit it by the pale moonlight." But I fear me that no such precaution could secure solitude, though it might beauty, at Tintern in August. But the care bestowed upon it makes the place more beautiful than ever. The guardians, by dint of locked gates, prevent the lovely sward from being defiled by sandwich papers and empty bottles, as the neighboring woods are. But he who would view fair Tintern aright had better not visit it on a bank-holiday. AT HARROW. 61 A similarly striking chaDge between the England of sixty- years since and the England of to-day may be observed at beautiful Lynmouth and Lynton. The place was a solitude when my parents and I visited it in, I think, 1818. We had a narrow escape in driving down from Lynton to the mouth of the little stream. A low wall of unmortared stones alone protected the road from the edge of a very formidable precipice ; and just at the worst point the horse my father was driving took fright at something, and, becoming unmanageable, dashed at the low wall, and absolutely got his fore-feet over it ! " George," riding the other horse behind, was at a hundred yards or so distance. But my father, with one bound to the horse's head, caught him by the bridle, and, by the sheer strength of his re- markably powerful frame, forced him back into the road. It was not a mauvais quart d'heiire, but a very mauvais quart de minute — for it was, I take it, all over in that time. Now the road is excellent, and traversed daily in the summer season by some half-dozen huge vans carrying " tourists" from Ilfracombe to Lynton. At the latter place, too, there is a large and extremely prettily situated hotel, where, on the occasion of my first visit, I remember that we obtained a modicum of bread- and-cheese at a lone cottage. Even the Valley of Rocks is not altogether what it was, for the celebrated "Castle Rock " has now well-contrived paths to the top of it. I wrote a few months ago in the book kept at the hotel, ad hoc that I had climbed the Castle Rock more than sixty years ago, and had now repeated the feat. But, in truth, the "climb" was in those days a different affair. I re- member my mother had a story of some old friend of hers having been accompanied by her maid during a ramble through the Valley of Rocks, and having been told, when she asked the maid what she thought of it, that she con- sidered it was kept very untidy ! And truly the criticism might be repeated at the present day not altogether un- reasonably, for the whole place is defiled by the traces of feeding. Truly England, whether for better or worse, " 7i07i ^piu come era prima .-'" 62 WHAT I REMEMBER. That was my first journey ! Has any one of the very many others which I have undertaken since equalled it in enjoyment ? Ah ! how sad was the return to Harrow and lessons and pupil-room ! And how I wished that the old gig, with me on the little box between my parents' knees, could have been bound on an expedition round the world! A leading feature, perhaps I should say the leading feat- ure, of the social life of Harrow in those days consisted in a certain antagonism between the vicar, the Rev. Mr. Cun- ningham, and the clerical element of the school world, or perhaps it would be more correct to say the Drury ele- ment. Mr. Cunningham was in those days rather a man of mark among the Low-Church party. He w^as an ally of the Venns, of Daniel Wilson, and that school, and was well known in his day as "Velvet-Cushion Cunningham," from a little book with that title which he had published. He was, of course, an "evangelical" of the evangelicals; and among the seven masters of the school there was not the slightest — I must not say taint, but — savor of anything of the kind. Dr. Butler probably would have found no difficulty in living in perfect harmony with the vicar ; but the latter — he and his ways and his doctrines — were espe- cially abhorrent to the Drurys. Of course they were not High-Churchmen in the sense which the term has acquired in these latter days, for nothing of the kind was then known. They were of the old-fashioned sort, which had come to be somewhat depreciatingly spoken of as "high and dry !" — though in truth it is difficult to see with what justice the latter epithet could be applied to many of them. Harry Drury, who was perhaps foremost in his feeling of antagonism to the vicar, was a man of decidedly literary tastes, though they shared his devotion with those of a hon vivant. He was a ripe scholar, and undoubtedly the vicar's superior in talent and intellect. But he was essentially a coarse man, coarse in manner and coarse in feeling. Cun- ningham was the re/erse of all this. He was, I believe, the son of a London hatter^ but in external manner and appearance he was a more gentlemanlike man than any of the Harrow masters of that day, save Dr. Butler. He had the iidvantage, too, of a handsome person and good pres- AT HARROW. 63 enoe. But there was a something too suave and too soft, carrying with it a certain suspicion of insincerity which prevented him from presenting a genuine specimen of the real article. I believe his father purchased the living for him under circumstances w^hich were not altogether free from suspicion of simony. I know nothing, however, of these circumstances, and my impressions on the subject are doubtless derived from the flouts and skits of his avowed enemies the Drurys. There was, I remember, a story of his having, soon after coming to Harrow^, in conversation with some of his new parishioners, attributed w4th much self-complacency his presentation to the living to his hav- ing upon some occasion preached before Lord Northwick! — a result which no Harrow inhabitant, clerk or layman, would have believed in the case of his lordship, then often a resident on his property there, if the preacher had been St. Paul. But again, Audi alteram partem ! which I had no chance of doing, for we, though living on terms of neighborly intercourse with the vicar, were of the Drury faction. I remember well an incident which may serve to illus- trate the condition of " tension " which prevailed during those years in the little Harrow world. Mark Drury had two remarkably pretty daughters. They were in all re- spects as thoroughly good and charming girls as they were pretty, and were universal favorites in society. Now Mark Drury's pew in the parish church, where, of course, he never appeared himself, for the reason assigned on a former page, was situated immediately below the pulpit. And on one occasion the vicar saw, or thought he saw, the two young ladies in question laughing during his sermon, and so far forgot himself, and was sufficiently ill-judged, indiscreet, wrong-headed, and wrong-hearted to stop in his discourse, and, leaning over the pulpit cushion, to say aloud that he would resume it when his hearers could listen to it with decency! The amount of ill-feeling and heart-burn- ing which the incident gave rise to may be imagined. Harry Drury, the cousin of the young ladies, and, as I have said, Cunningham's principal antagonist, never for a long time afterwards came within speaking distance of the 64 WHAT I REMEMBER. vicar without growling " Brawler !" in a perfectly audible voice. I well remember, though I suppose it must be mainly from subsequent hearing of it, the storm that was raised in the tea-cup of the Harrow world by the incident of Byron's natural daughter, Allegra, having been sent home to be buried in Harrow Church. A solemn meeting was held in the vestry, at which the vicar, all the masters (ex- cept poor old Mark), and sundry of the leading parishion- ers were present, and at which it was decided that no stone should be placed to commemorate the poor infant's name, or mark the spot where her remains rested, the principal reason assigned being that such a memorial might be in- jurious to the morals of the Harrow schoolboys! Amid all this Cunningham's innate and invincible flunkeyism asserted itself, to the immense amusement of the non-evan- gelical part of the society of the place, by his attempt to send a message to Lord Byron through Harry Drury, Byron's old tutor and continued friend, to the effect that he, Cunningham, had, on reading (7«m, which was then scandalizing the world, "felt a profound admiration for the genius of the author!" " Did you, indeed," said Harry Drury; " I think it the most blasphemous publication that ever came from the pen." The whole circumstances, object, and upshot of this sin- gular vestry meeting were too tempting a subject to escape my mother's satirical vein. She described the whole affair in some five hundred verses, now before me, in which the curiously contrasted characteristics of the debaters at the meeting were very cleverly hit off. This was afterwards shown to Harry Drury, who, though he himself was not altogether spared, was so delighted with it that he re- warded it by the present of a very remarkable autograph of Lord Byron, now in my possession. It consists of a quarto page, on which is copied the little poem, " Weep, daughters of a royal line," beginning with a stanza which was suppressed in the publication. And all round the edges of the MS. is an inscription stating that the verses were " copied for my friend, the Rev. Harry Drury." Of course, all this did not tend much to harmonize the AT HARROW. 65 conflicting partisans of High and Low Church in the Har- row world of that day. I may add here another " reminiscence " of those days, which is not without significance as an illustration of manners. Among the neighbors at Harrow was a Mr. (well, I won't print the name, though all the parties in question must long since, I suppose, have joined the majority), who had a family of daughters, the second of whom was ex- ceedingly pretty. One day this girl, of some eighteen years or so, came to my mother, who was always a special friend of all the young girls, with a long, eulogistic defence of the vicar. She was describing at much length the de- light of the assurances of grace which he had given her, when my mother, suddenly looking her straight in the eyes, said, " Did he kiss you, Carrie ?" " Yes, Mrs. Trollope. He did give me the kiss of peace. I am sure there was no harm in that !" " None at all, Carrie ! For I am sure you meant none !" returned my mother. " Honi soit qui mal y pense! But remember, Carrie, that the kiss of peace is apt to change its quality if repeated !" '"■J. i CHAPTER V. AT WINCHESTER. Meanwhile the fateful year 1820, when I was to be translated from the world of Harrow, and know nothing more of its friendships, quarrels, and politics, was at hand. At the election of July in that year was to begin my Winchester life. I certainly looked forward to it with a feeling of awe approaching terror, yet not untempered by a sense of increased dignity and the somewhat self-com- placent feeling of one destined by fate to meet great and perilous adventures, and acquire large stores of experi- ence. The sadness of departure was tempered also, as I re- member, by the immediate delight of a journey to be performed. Certainly it was not the unmixed delight with which Rousseau contemplated his voyage d /aire et Paris au bout. Something very different lay at the end of my voyage. Nevertheless, so intense was my delight in " the road " at that time (and to a great degree ever since), that the sixty miles' journey to be performed was a great alleviation. The expedition was to be made with my father in his gig. A horse was to be sent on to Guildford, and by dint of starting at a very early hour, and there changing horses, the distance was to be performed in one day. We were to travel, not by the more generally used coach road by Hounslow and Bagshot, but over the district called the Hog's Back from Guildford to Farnham— chiefly, as I re- member, for the sake of showing me that beautiful bit of country. For to my father beautiful scenery was as great a delight as it has always been to myself. At Farnham there was time, while the horse was being baited at The Bush, for us, after snatching a morsel of cold meat, to visit hurriedly the park and residence of the AT WINCHESTER. g^ Bishop of Winchester. I, very contentedly trotting by the side of my father's long strides, was much impressed by the beauty of the park. But, as I remember, my mind was very much exercised by the fact, then first learned, that the bishop's diocese extended all the way to London. And I think that it seemed somehow to my child's mind that the dignity of my position as one of William of Wykeham's scholars was enhanced by the enormous ex- tent of the diocese of his successor. We reached Winchester late in the evening of the day before the election, putting up, not at The George, or at The White Hart, as most people would have done, but at the Fleur de Lys, pronounced " Flower de Luce," a very ancient, but then third-rate hostelry, which my father pre- ferred, partly probably because he thought the charges might be less there, but mainly because it is situated in the vicinity of the college, and he had known and used it of old. We spent the evening at the house of Dr. Ga- bell, the head-master, an old friend of my father's, where his eldest daughter, an intimate friend of my mother's, who had often been a visitor in Keppel Street, made much of me. And the next day I became a Wykehamist ! And the manner of so becoming was in this wise. The real serious business of the six electors — three sent from New College, and three belonging to Winchester, as has been set forth on a previous page — consisted in the examination of those scholars, who, standing at the top of the school, were in that year candidates for New College. All the eighteen " prefects," who formed the highest class in the school, were examined ; but the most serious part of the business was the examination of the first half-dozen or so, who were probably superannuated at the age of eighteen that year, and who might have a fair chance of finding a va- cancy at New College (if there were not one at that present moment) in the course of the ensuing twelve months. And this was a very fateful and serious examination, for the examiners in "the election chamber" would, if the ex- amination disclosed due cause, change the order of the roll as it came up to them, placing a boy who had distin- 68 WHAT I REMEMBER, guished himself, before another, who had not done so. And as the roll thus settled was the order in which vacan- cies at New College were taken, the work in " the cham- ber " was of lifelong importance to the subjects of it. Very different was the "election" of the children, who were to go into WinchesU^r. Duly instructed as to the part we were to play, we went marvelling up the ancient stone corkscrew stair to the mysterious chamber situated over the "middle gate," i.e., the gateway between the outer court and the second quadrangle where the chapel, the hall, and the chambers are. The " election chamber " always maintained a certain character of mystery to us, because it was never opened or used save on the great oc- casion of the annual election. In that chamber we found the six solemn electors in their gowns waiting for us; especially the Bishop of Hereford, who was then Warden of Winchester College, an aged man who, with his peculiar wig and gown, was an object of awe. No bishop had in those days dreamed as yet of discarding the episcopal wig. And then the examination began as follows: "Well, boy, can you sing?" "Yes, sir." "Let us hear you." "*A11 people that on earth do dwell,' " responded the neophyte — duly instructed previously in his part of the proceeding — without attempting in the smallest degree to modify in any way his ordinary speech. "Very well, boy. That will do!" returned the examiner. The exam- ination was over, and you were a member of William of Wykeham's college, Sancta 3Iarice de Winton prope Winton. " Prope Winton," observed, for the college is situated outside the ancient city walls. The explanation of tbis survival of the simulacrum of an examination is that the ancient statutes require that candidates for admission as scholars must be competently instructed in piano cantu — in plain chant; the intention of the founder being that all his scholars should take part in the choral service of the chapel. I and my fellow-novices thus admitted as scholars in that July of 1820 were not about to join the school im- mediately. We had the six weeks holidays before us, the AT WINCHESTER. 69 election taking place at the end of the summer half-year. Election week was the grand festival of the Wykeham- ical year. For three days high feast was held in the noble old hall. The "high table " was spread on the dais, and all old Wykehamists were welcome at it. The boys in the lower part of the hall were regaled with mutton- pies, and "stuckling." That was their appointed fare; but in point of fact they feasted on dishes or portions of dishes sent down from the abundantly-spread high table, and the pies were carried away for the next morning's breakfast. I do not think anybody ate much " stuckling " beyond a mouthinl pro jfor77id. It was a sort of flat pastry made of chopped apples and currants. And the specialty of it was that the apples must be that year's apples. They used to be sent up from Devonshire or Cornwall, and sometimes were with difficulty obtained. Then there was the singing of the Latin grace, with its beautiful re- sponses, performed by the chapel choir and as many oth- ers as were capable of taking part in it. The grace with its music has been published, and I need not occupy these pages with a reprint of it. And then in the afternoon came the singing of "Domum" on the five courts behind the school, by the whole strength of the company. Nine such election weeks did I see, counting from that which made me a Wykehamist in 1820 to that which saw me out a superannuate in 1828. I did not get a fellow- ship at New College, having narrowly missed it for want of a vacancy by one. I was much mortified at the time, but have seen long since that probably all was for the best for me. It was a mere chance, as has been shown at a former page, whether a boy at the head or nearly at the head of the school went to New College or not. The interesting event of a vacancy having occurred at New College, whether by death, marriage, or the acceptance of a living, was announced by the arrival of "speedyman" at Winchester College. " Speedyman," in conformity with immemorial usage, used to bring the news on foot from Oxford to Winchester. How well I remember the look of the man, as he used to arrive with all the appearance of having made a breathless journey, a spare, active-look- 70 WHAT I REMEMBER. ing fellow, in brown cloth breeches and gaiters covered with dust. Of course letters telling the facts had long outstripped " speedyman." But with the charming and reverent spirit of conservatism, which in those days ruled all things at Winchester, " speedyman " made his jour- ney on foot all the same! Of course one of the first matters in hand when this fateful messenger arrived was to regale him with college beer, and right good beer it was in those days. In con- nection with it may be mentioned the rather singular fact that, whereas all other supplies from the college buttery to the boys — the bread, the cheese, the butter, the meat — were accurately measured, the beer was given absolutely ad libitum. In fact, it was not given out at all, but taken. Thrice a day the way to the cellar was open, a back stair leading from the hall to the superb old vaulted cel- lar, with its central pillar and arches springing from it in every direction. All around were the hogsheads, and the proper tools for tapping one as soon as another should be out. And to this cellar the boys — or rather the junior boys at each mess — went freely to draw as much as they chose. And the beer thus freely supplied was our only beverage, for not only was tea or coffee not furnished, it was not permitted. Some of the prefects (the eighteen first boys in college) would have "tea-messes," provided out of their own pocket-money, and served by their "fags." But if, as would sometimes happen, either of the masters chanced to appear on the scene before the tea-things could be got out of the way, he used to smash them all, using his large pass-key for the purpose, and saying, " What are all these things, sir ? William of Wykeham knew nothing, I think, of tea !" We used to breakfast at ten, after morning school, on bread-and-butter and beer, having got up at half-past five, gone to chapel at half-past six, and into school at half- past seven. At a quarter to one we again went up into hall. It was a specialty of college phraseology to sup- press the definite article. We always said " to hall," " to meads" (the playground), "to school," "to chambers," and AT WINCHESTER. 7I the like. The visit to hall at that time was properly for dinner, though it had long ceased to be such. The middle- of-the-day "hall" served in my day only for the purpose of luncheon (though no such modern word was ever used), and only those "juniors" attended whose office it was to bring away the portions of bread-and-cheese^ and " bobs " (^. e., huge jugs) of beer for consumption in the afternoon. Sunday formed an exception to this practice. We all went up into "hall" in the middle of the day on Sunday, and dined on roast beef, the noontide dinner consisting of roast beef on that day, boiled beef on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, and baked plum-pudding on Friday and Saturday. But the boiled beef, with the ex- ception of certain portions reserved for the next morning's breakfast of the seniors of the messes, or companies into which the "inferiors" {i.e., non-prefects) were divided, was not eaten, but given away. During the war Win- chester had been one of the depots of French prisoners, and the beef in question was then given to them. When there were no more Frenchmen it was given to twenty- four old women who were appointed to do the weeding of the college quadrangles. It must be understood that this arrangement was entirely spontaneous on the part of the boys, though it would have been quite out of the question for any individual to say that he, for his part, would eat his own beef. How all this may be now I know not. Probably the college, under the enlightened guid- ance of her majesty's commissioners, have seen the pro- priety of provoking the youthful Wykehamists with ta- ble napkins and caper sauce, while the old women go without their dole of beef. On the Friday and Saturday the pudding was carried down out of hall by the juniors for consumption during the afternoon. At about a quarter-past six, at the conclusion of after- noon school, we went up into hall for dinner — originally, of course, supper. This consisted of mutton, roast or boiled, every evening of the year, with potatoes and beer. But it was such mutton as is not to be found in English butchers' shops nowadays, scientific breeding having im- proved it from off the face of the land. It was small 72 WHAT I REMEMBER. Southdown mutton, uncrossed by any of the coarser, rapidly -growing, and fat-niaking breeds. And that it should be such was insured by the curious rule that, though only a given number of pounds of mutton were required and paid for to the contractor, the daily supply was always to be one sheep and a half. So that if large mutton*was sent it was to the loss of the contractor. Furthermore it was the duty of the "prefect of tub" to see that the mutton was in all ways satisfactory. The " prefect of tub " was one of the five boys at the head of the school; another was the "prefect of hall;" a third "prefect of school," and the fourth and fifth "prefects of chapel." These offices were all positions of emolument. That of the " prefect of tub " was far the most so, and was usually held by the senior college " founder," or boy of " founder's kin," during his last year before going to New College. The titles of the other ofiices explain themselves, but that of " prefect of tub " requires some elucidation. In the hall, placed just inside the screen which divided the buttery hatches from the body of the hall, there was an ancient covered " tub." In the course of my eight years' stay at Winchester this venerable tub — damnosa quid non diminuit dies? — had to be renewed. It was re- placed by a much handsomer one; but, as I remember, the change had rather the effect on the popular mind in college of diminishing our confidence in the permanency of human institutions generally. The original purpose of this tub was to receive fragments and remains of food, together with such portions — " dispers " we called them — of the evening mutton supper as were not duly claimed by the destined recipient of them at his place at the table, that they might be given to the poor; and the "prefect of tub " was so called because it was part of his office to see that this was duly done. It was also his duty to pre- side over the distribution of the aforesaid " dispers " — not quasi dispai's, as might be supposed by those who can ap- preciate the difference between a prime cut out of a leg of mutton and a bit of the breast of a sheep, but " dlsjoers " from dispertio. Now the distribution in question was effected in this wise. The joints were cut up in the AT WINCHESTER. 73 kitchen always accuratelj^ in the same manner. The leg made eight " clispers," the shoulder seven, and so on. The "dispers" thus prepared were put into four immense pewter dishes, and these were carried up into hall by four choristers under the superintendence of the "prefect of tub" and distributed among the fifty-two "inferiors"— i, 6., non-prefects. The eighteen prefects dined at two tables by themselves. Their joints were not cut into " dispers," but were dressed by the cook according to their own orders, paid for by themselves according to an established tariff drawn with reference to the extra ex- pense of the mode of preparation ordered. The long, nar- row tables were six in number, ranged on either side of the noble hall, exactly as in a monastic refectory. The dais was left unoccupied, save at election time, when the "hi^h table" was spread there. At the first two tables on the left-hand side as one entered the hall, the eighteen prefects dined. This bloated aristocracy was supplied with plates to eat their dinner from. The populace — mere mutton con- sumere nati—thQ fifty-two inferiors, had only " trenchers," flat pieces of wood about nine inches square. These fifty- two " inferiors " were divided into eight companies, and oc- cupied the remaining four tables. But this division was so arranged that one of the eight seniors of the " inferiors " was at the head of each company, and one of the eight juniors at the bottom of each, the whole body being sim- ilarly distributed. And each of these companies occupied a different table every day, the party who sat at the low- est table on Monday occupying the highest on Tuesday, and so on. So that when the " prefect of tub " entered the hall at the head of the procession of four choristers, carrying the four " gomers " (such was the phrase) of dis- pers, he proceeded first to the table on the opposite side of the hall to that of the prefects, and saw that the senior of the mess occupying that table selected as many of the most eligible dispers as there were persons present. If any junior were absent by authority of, or on the business of, any prefect, his disper was allowed to be taken for him. This senior of the mess, it may be mentioned oUter, 4 74 WHAT I REMEMBER. was called, for some reason hidden in the obscurity of time, the " candlekeeper." Assuredly neither he nor his office had any known connection with the keeping of candles. Any dispers remaining unclaimed at the end of his tour of the hall belonged to " the tub." In return for the performance of this important office, the ^' prefect of tub " was entitled to the heads, feet, and all such portions of the sheep as were not comprised in legs, shoulders, necks, loins, and breasts, as well as to the dispers of any individuals who might from any cause be absent from college. Of course he did not meddle per- sonally with any of these perquisites, but had a contract with the college manciple, the value of which was, I be- lieve, about £80 a year. Such was the " prefect of tub." Orderly conduct in hall generally, which did not imply any degree of violence, was maintained by the " prefect of hall," the dignity of whose office, though it was by no means so profitable as that of the " prefect of tub," ranked above that of all the other "officers." No master was ever present in hall. But the most onerous and important duty of the pre- fect of hall consisted in superintending the excursion to " hills," — i. e., to St. Catherine's Hill, which took place twice on every holiday, once on every half -holiday dur- ing the year, and every evening during the summer months. On these occasions the " prefect of hall " had under his guidance and authority not only William of Wykeham's seventy scholars, but the whole of the hun- dred and thirty pupils of the head-master, who were called commoners. The scholars marched first, two and two (with the exception of the prefects, who walked as they pleased), and then followed the commoners. And it was the duty of the prefect of hall to keep the column in good and compact order until the top of the hill was reached. Then all dispersed to amuse themselves as they pleased. But the prefect of hall still remained responsible for his flock keeping within bounds. St. Catherine's Hill is a notably isolated down in the immediate neighborhood of Winchester, and just above the charming little village of St. Cross. There is a clump AT WINCHESTER. 75 of firs on the top, and the imusiially well-marked circum- vallation of a Roman (or British ?) camp around the circle of the hill. The ditch of this circumvallation formed our " bounds." The straying beyond them, however, in the direction of the open downs away from the city, and from St. Cross, was deemed a very venial oifence by either the prefect of hall or the masters. But not so in the direction of the town. It was the duty of the three " juniors " in college — one of whom I was during my first half-year — to "call domum.'''' When the time came for returning to college, one of those three walked over the top of the hill from one side to the other, while the other two went round the circumvallation — each one half of it — calling perpetually ^' Domum . . . domum'''' as loudly as they could. All the year round we went to "morning hills " before breakfast, and to afternoon hills about three. In the summer we went, as I have said, every evening after "hall," but not to the top of the hill, only to the water-meads at the foot of it, the object being to bathe in the Itchen. Many of the Winchester recollections most indelibly, fixed in my memory are connected with " hills." It seems impossible that sixty years can have passed since I stood on the bank of the circumvallation facing towards Win- chester, and gazed down on the white morning mist that entirely concealed the city and valley. How many morn- ings in the late autumn have I stood and watched the moving, but scarcely moving, masses of billowy white cloud! And what strange similitudes and contrasts sug- gested themselves to my mind as I recently looked down from the heights of Monte Gennaro on the Roman Cam- pagna similarly cloud hidden! The phenomenon exhibited itself on an inifinitely larger scale in the latter case, but it did not suggest to me such thick-coming fancies and fan- tastic imaginings as the water-mead-born mists of the Itchen! There were two special amusements connected with our excursions to St. Catherine's Hill — badger-baiting and " mouse-digging," the former patronized mainly by the bigger fellows, the latter by their juniors. There was a 76 WHAT I REMEMBER. man in the town, a not very reputable fellow I fancy, who had constituted himself "badger -keeper" to the college. It was his business to provide a badger and dogs, and to bring them to certain appointed trysting- places at " hill times " for the sport. The i^laces in ques- tion were not within our "bounds," but at no great dis- tance in some combe or chalk-pit of the neighboring downs. Of course it was not permitted by the authorities; but I think it might easily have been prevented had any attempt to do so been made in earnest. It seems strange, considering my eight years' residence in college, that I never once was present at a badger-baiting. I am afraid that my absence was not caused by distinct disapproval of the cruelty of the sport, but simply by the fact that my favorite " hill-times " occupations took me in other direc- tions. Nor, probably for the same reason, vv^as I a great mouse- digger. Very many of us never went to "hills" unarmed with a "mouse-digger." This was a sort of miniature pickaxe, which was used to dig the field-mice out of their holes. The skill and the amusement consisted in follow- ing the labyrinthine windings of these, which are exceed- ingly numerous on the chalk downs, in such sort as to cap- ture the inmate and her brood without injuring her, and carry her home in triumph to be kept in cages provided ad hoc. There was — and doubtless is — a clump of firs on the very centre and summit of St. Catherine's Hill. They are very tall and spindly trees, with not a branch until the tuft at the top is reached. And my great delight when I was in my first or second year was to climb these. Of course I was fond of doing what few, if any, of my compeers could do as well. And this was the case as regarded " swarm- ing up" thos(# tall and slippery stems. I could reach the topmost top, and gloried much in doing so. But during my later years the occupation of a hill morn- ing which most commended itself to me was ranging as widely as possible over the neighboring hills. Like the fox in the old song, I was " off to the downs O !" As I have said, the straying beyond bounds in this direction, AT WINCHESTER. /^7 away from the town, was considered a very light offence; but I was apt to make it a somewhat more serious one by not getting back from my rambling, despite good running, till it was too late to return duly with the main body to college. It was very probable that this might pass with- out detection, if there were no roll-call on the way back. But it frequently happened that " Gaffer " (such was Dr. Williams's sobriquet among us) on his white horse met us on our homeward march, and stopped the column, while the prefect of hall called names. As these escapades in my case occurred mainly during my last three years, I, be- ing a prefect myself, owed no allegiance to the authority of the prefect of hall; but the roll-call revealing my ab- sence would probably issue in my having to learn by heart one of the epistles of Horace. Prefects learned their " im- positions" by heart, "inferiors" wrote them. Every here and there the sides of these downs are scored by large chalk-pits. There is a very large one on St. Catherine's Hill on the side looking towards St. Cross; and this was a favorite scene of exploits in which I may boast myself ('tis sixty years since !) to have been un- rivalled. There was a very steep and rugged path by which it was possible to descend from the upper edge of this chalk-pit to the bottom of it. And it was a feat, in w^hich I confess I took some pride, to take a fellow on my shoulders (not on my back), while he had a smaller boy on his shoulders, and thus with two living stories on my shoulders to descend the difficult path in question. And the boy in the middle — the first story — could not be a very small one, for it was requisite that he also should hold and balance his burden thoroughly well. I think I could carry one very little boy down now ! It was the " prefect of hall " who managed the whole business of our holidays — as they would be called else- where — which we called " remedies." A " holiday " meant at Winchester a red-letter day; and was duly kept as such. But if no such day occurred in the week, the " prefect of hall" went on the Tuesday morning to the head-master (Wiccamice ^^ informator^^) and asked for a "remedy," which, unless there were any reason, such as very bad 78 WHAT I REMEMBER. weather, or a holiday coming later in the Aveek, was granted by handing to the prefect a ring, which remained in his keeping till the following morning. This symbol was in- scribed " Commendat rarior usus." But in addition to these imjDortant duties the " prefect of hall" discharged another, of which J. must say a few words, with reference to the considerable amount of in- terest which the outside world was good enough to take in the subject a few years ago, with all that accurate knowledge of facts, and that discrimination which people usually display when talking of what they know nothing about. It was the " prefect of hall " who ordered the infliction of a " public tunding." The strange phrase, dropped by some unlucky chance into ears to which it conveyed no definite meaning, seems to have inspired vague terrors of the most terrific kind. Very much nonsense was talked and printed at the time I refer to. But the following sim- ple and truthful statement of what a public tunding was, may enable those who take an interest in the matter to form some reasonable opinion whether the infliction of such punishment were a good or a bad thing. At the conclusion of the evening dinner or supper, whichever it may be called, the "prefect of hall" sum- moned the boys to the dais for the singing of grace. Some dozen or so of boys, who had the best capacities for the performance, were appointed by him for the purpose, and the whole assembly stood around the dais, while the hymn " 2''e de Profundis " was sung. When all were thus assembled, and before the singers commenced, the culprit who had been sentenced to a tunding stepped out, pulled off his gown, and received from the hands of one deputed by the "prefect of hall," and armed with a tough, pliant ground-ash stick, a severe beating. I never had a tund- ing; but I have no doubt that the punishment was severe, though I never heard of any boy disabled by it from pur- suing his usual work or his usual amusements. It was judiciously ordered by the " prefect of hall " for offences deemed unbecoming the character of a Wykehamist and a gentleman, and only for such. Any such petty larceny AT WINCHESTER, /^g exploits as the scholars at some other " seats of learning " are popularly said to be not nnfreqnently guilty of, such as robberies of orchards or poultry -yards or the like, would have inevitably entailed a public tunding. Any attempt whatsoever to appropriate unduly, either by fraud or vio- lence, anything sent to another boy from home — any por- tion of a " cargo," as such despatches were called — and d fortiori any money or money's value, would have neces- sitated a public tunding. The infliction was rare. Many half-years passed without any public tunding having been administered. And my own impression is that the prac- tice was eminently calculated to foster among us a high tone of moral and gentlemanlike feeling. These reminiscences of the penal code that was in vigor among ourselves are naturally connected with those refer- ring to the subject of corporal punishment in its more offi- cial form. On one of the whitewashed walls of the huge school- room was an inscription conceived and illustrated as fol- lows: '■^ Aiit disceP'' and there followed a depicted book and inkstand; ^^ Ant discedeV followed by a handsomely painted sword, as who should say, " Go and be a soldier !" (offering that as an alternative for which no learning was needed, after the fashion of a day before examinations for commissions were dreamed of !) ; and then, lastly, '■'■Manet sors tertia ccedi^'' followed by the portraiture of a rod. But this rod is of so special and peculiar a kind, and so dissimilar from any such instrument as used elsewhere, that I must try to explain the nature of it to my non- Wiccamical readers. A stick of some hard wood, beech I think it was, turned into a shape convenient to the hand, about a yard long, and with four grooves about three inches long and as large as a cedar pencil, cut in the ex- tremity of it, formed the handle. Into these four grooves were fitted four slender apple twigs about five feet long. They were sent up from Herefordshire in bundles, cut and prepared for the purpose, and it was the duty of the "pre- fect of school" to provide them. These twigs, fitted into the grooves, were fixed by a string which bound them tightly to the handle, and a rod was thus formed, the four- 80 WHAT I REMEMBER. fold switches of which stood out some foot — or more than that towards the end — from each other. The words "flog" or "flogging," it is to be observed, were never heard attiong us, in the mouth either of the masters or of the boys. We were " scourged." And a scourging was administered in this wise. At a certain spot in the school— near the seat of the '' informator'" when he was the executioner, and near that of the ^' hosti- arius''^ or under-master when he had to perform — in front of a fixed form, the patient knelt down. Two boys, any who chanced to be at hand, stepped behind the form, turned the gown of a collegian or the coat-tails of a com- moner over his shoulders, and unbuttoned his brace but- tons, leaving bare at the part where the braces join the trousers a space equal to the diameter of a crown-piece — such was the traditional inile. And aiming at this with more or less exactitude the master inflicted three cuts. Such was a " scourging." Prefects, it may be observed, were never scourged. The *' best possible instructors " of this enlightened age, who never treat of subjects the facts of which they are not conversant with, have said much of the " cruelty " and the " indecency " of such infliction of corporal punishment, and of the moral degradation necessarily entailed on the suf- ferers of it. As to the cruelty, it will be readily under- stood from the above description of the rod, that it was quite as likely as not that no one of the four twigs, at either of the three cuts, touched the narrow, bare part; especially as the operator — proceeding from one patient to another with the utmost possible despatch, and with his eyes probably on the list in his left hand of the culj^rits to be operated on — had little leisure or care for aiming. The fact simply was that the pain was really not worth speak- ing of, and that nobody cared the least about it. The affair passed somewhat in this wise. It is ten o'clock; the morning school is over; and we are all in a hurry to get out to breakfast. There are probably about a dozen or a score of boys to be scourged. Dr. Williams, as well beloved a master as ever presided over any school in the world, has come down from his seat, elevated three AT WINCHESTER. 81 steps above the floor of the school, putting on his great cocked hat as he does so. He steps to the form where the scourging is to be done; the list of those to be scourged, ■with the reasons why, is handed to him by the prefect, charged for the week with this duty, together with the rod. He calls " Jones " — swish, swish, swish ! — " Brown " — swish, swish, swish I — " Robinson "—swish, swish, swish ! as rapidly as it can be done. Each operation takes per- haps twenty seconds. Having got through the list, he flings the rod on the ground, makes a demi-volte so as to face the whole school, taking off his hat as he does so, rnd the "prefect of school" who has been waiting on the steps of the master's seat, vrith the prayer-book open in his hand, instantly reads the short prayer with which the school concludes, while those who have been scourged stand in the background hurriedly readjusting their brace buttons so as not to be behindhand at the buttery hatch for breakfast. Of any disgrace attached to the reception of a scourging, no one had any smallest conception. Of the cruelty of the infliction the reader may judge for himself. Of the indecent talk about indecency he may also know from the above accurate account what to think. The degree of " moral degradation " inflicted on the suffer- ers may perhaps be estimated by a reference to the roll of those whom Winchester has supplied to serve their coun- try in Church and State. The real and unanswerable objection to the infliction of " corporal punishment," as it was used in my day at Win- chester, was that it was a mere form and farce. It caused neither pain nor disgrace, and assuredly morally degraded nobody. I have been scourged five times in the day; not because, as might be supposed, I was so incorrigible that the master found it necessary to go on scourging me, but simply because it so chanced. I had, say, come into chapel '•^arcZe," i. e., after the service had commenced; I had omit- ted to send in duly my " culgus f I had been " floored" in my Horace; I had missed duly answering " sum," when on returning from "hills" "Gaffer" had met the procession on his gray horse and caused the "prefect of hall" "to call names," the reason being that I had been far away 4* 82 WHAT I REMEMBER. over the downs to Twyford, and bad not been able to run back in time; and an unlucky simultaneousness of these or of a dozen other such sins of omission or commission had occurred, which had to be wiped off by a scourging by the ^' hostiarius''^ at the morning school, and another by the ^^ informator ;^^ by a third from the former at ''middle school," when the head-master did not attend; by a fourth from the " hostiarius " at evening school, and a fifth from the '■Hnformator'''' the last thing before going out to din- ner at six. But this was a rare tour deforce, scarcely like- ly to occur again. I was rather proud of it, and wholly unconscious of any " moral degradation." I have spoken of the '■^ informator'''' putting on his cocked hat when about to commence his work of scourg- ing. I am at a loss to account for his having worn this very unacademical costume. It was a huge three-cornered cocked hat very much like that of a coachman on state occasions; and must, I take it, have been a survival from about the time of Charles the Second. It has, I believe, been since discarded. The mention above of a " viilgus " requires some expla- nation. Every " inferior," i. e., non-prefect, in the school was required every night to produce a copy of verses of from two to six lines on a given theme; four or six lines for the upper classes, two for the lowest. This was inde- pendent of a weekly " verse task " of greater lengtli, and was called a " vulgus,'''' I suppose, because everybody — the vidgiis — had to do it. The prefects were exercised in the same manner but with a difference. Immediately before going out from morning or from evening school, at the conclusion of the day's lesson, the " informator " would give a theme, and each boy was expected then and there, without the assistance of pen, paper, or any book, to com- pose a couple, or two couple, of lines, and give them mvd voce. He got up, and scraped with his foot to call the master's attention when he was ready; and as not above five or ten minutes were available for the business, a con- siderable degree of promptitude was requisite. The theory was that these compositions — "varying" was the term in the case of the prefects, as " vulgus " in that of AT WINCHESTER. 83 the inferiors — should be epigrammatic in their nature, and that Martial rather than Ovid should be the model. Of course but little of an epigrammatic nature was for the most part achieved; but great readiness was made habit- ual by the practice. And sometimes the result was credit- able to something more than readiness. I am tempted to give one instance of such a "varjdng." It belonged to an earlier time than mine — the time when Decus et tutameii was adopted as the motto cut on the rim of the five-shilling pieces. The author of the " varying " in question had been ill with fever, and his head had been shaved, causing him to wear a wig. Decus et tutamen was the theme given. In a minute or two he was ready, stood up, and, taking off his wig, said, '■^Aspicite hos crines! du- plicem servantur in usum ! Hi mihi tutamen nocte " — put- ting the wig on wrong side outwards ; " Dieque decus,^^ reversing it as he spoke the words. The memory of this "varying" lives — or lived — at Winchester. But I do not think it has ever been published, and really it deserves preservation. I wish I could give the author's name. When at the end of the summer holidays in that year, 1820, I returned to college, again brought down to Win- chester by my father in his gig, I confess to having felt for some short time a very desolate little waif. As I, at the time a child barely out of the nursery, look back upon it, it seems to my recollection that the strongest sense of being shoved off from shore without guidance, help, or protection, arose from never seeing or speaking to a female human being. To be sure there was at the sick-house the presiding " mother " — Gumbrell her name was, usually pronounced "Grumble" — but she was not a fascinating representative of the sex. An aged woman once nearly six feet high, then much bent by rheumatism, rather grim and somewhat stern, she very conscientiously administered the prescribed "black-dose and calomel pill" to those un- der her care at the sick-house. To be there was called being "continent;" to leave it was "going abroad" — in- telligibly enough. Tea was provided there for those " continent " instead of the usual breakfast of bread-and- butter and beer ; and I remember overhearing Mother 84 WHAT I KEMEMBER. Gumbrell, oppressed by an unusual number of inmates, say, " Talk of Job, indeed ! Job never had to cut crusty loaves into bread-and-butter !" I saw the old woman die! I was by chance in the sick- house kitchen — in after-years, when a prefect — and " Dicky Gumbrell," the old woman's husband, who had been butler to Dean Ogle, and w^ho by special and exceptional favor was allowed to live with his wife in the sick-house, was reading to her the story of Joseph and his Brethren, while she was knitting a stocking, and sipping occasionally from a jug of college beer which stood between them, when quite suddenly her hands fell on to her lap and her head on to her bosom, and she was dead ! while poor old Dicky quite unconsciously went on with his reading. But I mentioned Mother Gumbrell only to observe that she, the only petticoated creature whom we ever saw or spoke with, was scarcely calculated to supply, even to the imagination, the feminine element which had till then made so large a part of the lives of ten-year-old children fresh from their mother's knee. Perhaps the most markedly distinctive feature of the school lite was the degree in which w^e were uninterfered with by any personal superintendence. The two masters came into the schoolroom to hear the different classes at the hours which have been mentioned, also when we were *' in chambers " in the evening, either during the hour of study which intervened between the six-o'clock dinner and the eight-o'clock prayers in the chapel, or during the subsequent hour between that and nine o'clock, when all went, or ought to have gone, to bed; and subsequently to that, wt en all were supposed to be in bed and asleep, we were at any mo- ment liable to the sudden, unannounced visit of the " hosti- arius^'' or second master. The visit was a mere "going round." If all was in order, it passed in silence, and was all over in a minute. If any tea-things were surprised, they were broken, as before mentioned. If beer, or traces of the consumption of beer, were apparent, that was all right. The supply of a provision of that refreshment was recognized, it being a part of the duty of the bedmakers to carry every evening into each of the seven " chambers " a huge " nip- AT WINCHESTER. 85 perkin " of beer, " to last," as I remember one of the bed- makers telling me when I first went into college, "for all night." The supply, as far as my recollection goes, was always considerably in excess of the consumption. If all was not in order, " the prefect in course " — i. e., the prefect who in each chamber was responsible for due order during the current week — was briefly told to speak with the mas- ter next morning. And this comprises about all the per- sonal intercourse that took place between us and the masters. Not that it is to be understood that any hour of our lives was left to our own discretion as to the employment of it; but this was attained by no immediate personal superintendence or direction. The systematized routine was so perfect, and so similar in its operation to the move- ments of some huge, irresistible machine, that the disposal of each one of our hours seemed to be as natural, as neces- sary, and as inevitable as the waxing and waning of the moon. And the impression left on my mind by eight years' experience of such a system is, that it was pre-emi- nently calculated to engender and foster habitual concep- tions of the paramount authority of laio, as distinguished from the dictates of personal notions or caprices; of self- reliance, and of conscious responsibility in the individual as forming a unit in an organized whole. Of course the eighteen prefects were to a much smaller degree coerced by the machine, and to a very great degree active agents in the working of it. And I was a prefect during three years of my eight in college. But at first, when a little fellow of, say, ten years old entered this new world, it was not without a desolate sensation of abandonment, which it needed a month or two's experience to get the better of. All this, however, was largely corrected and modified by one admirable institution, which was a cardinal point in the Wiccamical system. To every " inferior " was ap- pointed one of the prefects as a "tutor." It was the duty of this tutor to superintend and see to the learning of his lessons by the inferior, and the due performance of his written " prose " and " verse tasks," to protect him against 80 WHAT I REMEMBER. all ill-usage or " bullying," and to be in all ways his prov- idence and friend. These appointments were made by the " informator.'''' The three or four senior prefects had as many as seven pupils, the junior prefects one or two only; and the tutor received from the parents of each pupil, by the hands of the master, two guineas yearly. In order rightly to understand the working of all these arrangements, it must be explained that each individual's place in " the school " and his place " in college " were two entirely different things. The first depended on his ac- quirements when he entered the college and his subse- quent scholastic progress. The latter depended solely on his seniority " in college." The junior in college was the last boy whose nomination succeeded in finding a vacancy in any given year; and he remained "junior" till the ad- mission of another boy next year, when he had one junior below him, and so on. Thus it might happen, and con- stantly did happen, that a boy's junior in college might be much above him in the school, either from having come in at a later age, or from being a better-prepared or clev- erer boy. And all the arrangements of the domestic col- lege life, the fagging, etc., depended wholly on juniority " in college," and had no reference to the place held by each in the school. But all this seniority and juniority " in college " ceased to operate in any way as soon as the individual in question became a prefect. He had then equal authority over every " inferior," whether such infe- rior were his senior or junior in college. It is evident, therefore, that the prefect's authority was frequently exercised over individuals older, bigger, stronger than himself; and for the due and regular work- ing of this system it was necessary that the authority of the prefect should be absolute and irresistible. It was traditionally supposed in college that for an " inferior " to raise his hand against a prefect would be a case of expul- sion. Whether expulsion would have actually followed, I cannot say, for during my eight years' residence in col- lege I never remember such a case to have occurred. I have heard my father and other old Wykehamists of his AT WINCHESTER. 87 day declare that no such absolute authority as that of a prefect at Winchester existed in England, save in the case of the captain of a man-of-war. It should be observed, however, in modification of this, that any. abuse of this authority in the way of bullying or cruelty would at once have been interfered with by that other prefect, the vic- tim's tutor. An appeal to the master would have been about as much thought of as an appeal to Jupiter or Mars. CHAPTER VI. AT WINCHESTER — (continuecT) . When I went into college in 1820, at ten years old, Dr. Gabell was the '•^ informator^'' 2.y^^ Mr. (afterwards Dr.) Williams the " hostiarms^'' or second master. When I quitted it in 1828, Dr. Williams was head-master, and Mr. Ridding second master. I do not know that Gabell was altogether an unpopular man, but he never inspired that strong affection that his successor did. His manner was disagreeable. In short, he was not so completely a gen- tleman as Williams was. I am tempted to give here an anecdote that was current- ly told of Gabell — though I cannot say that it occurred within my knowledge — because it is at all events a very characteristic one. Some boy or other — he was, I fancy, a " commoner," or one of Dr. Gabell's private pupils — was guilty of some small delinquency which had the unfortunate effect of es- pecially angering the Doctor, who, in his rage, without giv- ing a second thought to the matter, wrote off a hurried letter to the boy's father, telling him that if his son con- tinued his present conduct he was on the high-road to ruin. Unfortunately the parent lived in one of the far north- ern counties. In extreme distress he at once left home and posted to Winchester. Rushing, in agitation and anxiety, into Gabell's study, he gasped out, " What is it ? Tell it me at once ! What has my unhappy boy done ?" " What boy ?" snorted Gabell. " What do you mean ? I don't know what you are talking about!" The father, much relieved, but more amazed, pulls out the terrible letter which had summoned him, and puts it before the much crestfallen " informatorr "I had forgotten all about it !" he was compelled to AT WINCHESTER. 89 own. " The boy is a good boy enough. You had better go and talk to him yourself, and — and tell him not to miss answering his name again !" The parent's feelings and his expression of them may be imagined. It used to be said, I remember, that of the two masters of Winchester, one snored without sleeping (Gabell), and the other slept without snoring. Gabell was, in truth, al- ways snorting or snoring (so to call it) ; but the accusa- tion against Williams of sleeping was, I think, justified only by his peculiarly placid and quiet manner. He Avas a remarkably handsome man; and his sobriquet, among those of the previous generation rather than among us boys, was, " The Beauty of Holiness " — again with refer- ence to the unruffled repose of his manner. We boys in- variably called him " Gaffer." Why, I know not. Gabell, I think, had no nickname; but there was a phrase among us, as common as any liousehold word, w^hich was in some degree characteristic of the man. Any conduct which was supposed likely to turn out eventually to the detriment of the actor was called "spiting Gabell;" and the expression was continually used when the speaker in- tended no more reference to Dr. Gabell than a man who orders a spencer has to the first wearer of that garment. Mr. Ridding was not a popular master, though I do not know that he had any worse fault than a bad manner. It was a jaunty, jerky, snappish manner, totally devoid of personal dignity. It was said that in school he was not impartial. But by the time he became second master, on the retirement of Gabell, I had reached that part of the school which was under the head-master, and have no per- sonal knowledge of the matter. I do not think any boy would have gone to Ridding in any private trouble or difficulty. There was not one who would not have gone to Williams as to a father. But in my reminiscences of the college authorities I must not omit the first and greatest of all — the warden. Hun- tingford. Bishop of Hereford, was warden during the whole of my college career. He was an aged man, and somewhat of a valetudinarian. And to the imagination of us boys, Avho rarely saw him, he assumed something of 90 WHAT I KEMEMBER. the mystic, awe-inspiring character of a '' veiled prophet of Khorassan." The most awful threat that could be ful- minated against any boy was that he should be had up be- fore the warden. I do not remember that any boy ever was. He alone could expel a boy; and he alone could give leave out from college; as was testified by the ap- pearance every Sunday of a great folio sheet, on which were inscribed, in his own peculiar great square charac- ters, each letter standing by itself, the names of those who had been invited by friends to dine in the town, and who were thereby permitted to go out from, I think, one to five. To go out of the college gates without that permission was expulsion. But it was a crime never committed. There were traditional stories of scaling of walls, but I remember no case of the kind. There was one occasion on which every boy had an in- terview with the Avarden — that of taking before him the " college oath," which took place when we were, as I re- member, fourteen. On a certain day in every year the "prefect of hall " made inquiry for all of that age who had not taken the oath, and required them to copy a sheet of writing handed to them. I cannot remember the words in which the oath was couched," but the main provisions of it were to the effect that you would never by word or deed do aught to injure the college or its revenues; that you would be obedient to the authorities; and that you would never in any way by word or deed look down on any scholar of the college, the social position of whose family might be inferior to your own. And I remember that there was appended to the oath the story of a certain captain in Cromwell's forces, who, when the Parliament troopers were about to invade, and probably sack, the college, so exercised his authority as to prevent that misfortune, be- ing influenced thereto by the remembrance of his college oath. Before swearing, which we did with much awe, we had to read over the oath. And I well remember that if a boy in reading pronounced the Avord " revenue " with the accent on the first syllable (as it was already at that time the usual mode to do), the warden invariably cor- rected him with, " Revenue, boy !" It was, I suppose, an AT WINCHESTER. 91 exemplification of the dictum "No innovation," which (with the "a" pronounced as in "father") was said to be continually the rule of his conduct. Probably it did not occur to him that the Herefordshire people might have considered it an innovation that Here- fordshire candidates for orders should be obliged to come to be ordained in Winchester College Chapel, as was the case, instead of finding their bishop in his own cathedral church ! Bishop Huntingford was a notable Grecian, and had pub- lished a rudimentary book of Greek exercises, which was at one time largely used. I take it he was not in any larger sense a profound scholar. But I remember a story which v/as illustrative of his grammatical accuracy^ The Dean of Winchester, Dr. Rennell, was an enthusiastic Platonist, and upon one occasion, in conversation with the warden and others, quoted a passage from Plato, in which the ad- jective "Trarrwr" occurred. Upon which the bishop promptly denied that any such words were to be found in Plato. The controversy was said to have been remitted to the arbitrament of a wager of a dinner and dozen of port, when the warden, who in fact knew nothing of the passage quoted, but knew that the dean had said "7ravrw»/" in the masculine, when the substantive with which it was made to agree required the feminine, said, "No! no! Traarwy, Mr. Dean, Trao-wv !" and so won his wager. The warden's nickname, borne among sundry genera- tions of Wykehamists, was Tupto (rvTrrw), as we always supposed from that Greek verb used as the example In the Greek grammar. But I have heard from those of an earlier generation that it was quasi dicas " tiptoe," from the fact of his father having been a dancing-master. The former derivation seems to me the more plausible. " Tupto " very rarely came to college chapel, and when he did so in his episcopal wig and lawn sleeves it was felt by us that his presence gave a very marked addition- al solemnity to the occasion. Though assuredly far from being a model bishop according to the estimate of these latter days, I believe him to have been a very good man. He lived and died a bachelor, having at a very early period 92 WHAT I REMEMBER. of his life undertaken the support of a brother's widow and family, who had been left unprovided for. And it was reported among Wykehamists of an earlier genera- tion than mine that never was husband so severely ruled by a wife as the bishop was by his sister-in-law. "Peace to his manes," as old Cramer, the pianist, used to say, al- ways pronouncing it monosyllabically, "mains"! His rule of Winchester College was a long and prosperous one ; and as long as it lasted he was able to carry out his fa- vorite maxim, " No innovation !" But when old Tupto went over to the majority the spir- it of innovation, so long repressed, began to exert itself in many directions. I am told, for instance, that it has been found ^o much for young Wykehamists of the pres- ent generation to wait for their breakfasts till ten in the morning, and that the excursion to "morning hills" be- fore breakfast is declared to be too much for their strength. Well, I wish it may answer, as Sterne's Uncle Toby said. But I do not think that the college, during the latter years of our century, can show better bills of health than it did in its earlier decades. The dormitory arrangements are much changed, I be- lieve, and it may be worth while to record a few reminis- cences of what they were in my day. The second or inner quadrangle of the college buildings was formed by the chapel and hall and kitchen on one side, and on the other three by the lodgings of the fellows and the ^' hostiariiis^^ on the first floor, and the "chambers" of the scholars on the ground-floor. These chambers were seven in number. They contained, therefore, on an aver- age, ten beds each. But they were by no means equal in size. The largest, "seventh" (for they were all known by their numbers), held thirteen beds; the smallest," fifth," only eight. A few years before my time that side of the quadrangle under which were situated the "first" and " second " chambers was burned. And the beds and oth- er arrangements in these two chambers were of a more modern model. In the other five the old bedsteads re- mained as they had been from time immemorial. They were of solid oak of two or three inches thickness in every AT WINCHESTER. 93 part, and v/ero black with age. The part which held the bed was a box' about six feet and a half long by three wide, with solid sides some six inches deep, and supported on four massive legs. But at the head, for about eighteen inches or so, these sides were raised to a height of about four or five feet, and covered in. The whole construction was massive, and afforded an extremely snug and com- fortable sleeping-place, which was much preferred to the iron bedsteads in the two new chambers. Older bones might perhaps have found the oak planking under the bed somewhat hard, but we were entirely unconscious of any such objection. The door in every chamber was well screened from the beds. There was a huge fireplace with heavy iron dogs, on which we burned in winter large fagots' about four feet long. Four of such fagots was the allowance for each evening, and it was abundantly sufficient. It was the duty of the bedmakers, whose operations were all per- formed when we were in school, to put four fagots in each chamber, which we used at our discretion; i. e., at the discretion of the prefects in the chamber. As the eigh- teen prefects were distributed among the seven chambers, there were three prefects in each of the larger and two in each of the smaller chambers. By the side of each bed was a little desk, with a cupboard above, which was called a " toys," in which each boy kept the books he needed for work "in chambers," and any other private property. For his clothes he had also by his bedside a large chest, of a make contemporary with the bedstead, which served him also for a seat at the desk of the " toys." In the mid- dle of the chamber was a pillar, around which were hung our surplices. Over the huge fireplace was an iron sconce fixed in the wall, in which a rushlight, called by us a " f uncture," was burned all night. And the " prefect in course " was responsible for its being kept duly burning. The nightly rounds of the " hostiarius'''' were not frequent, but he might come at any minute of any night. Suddenly his pass-key would be heard in the door ; for it was the rule that every chamber-door should be kept locked all night; he came in with a lantern in his hand, and if all 94 WHAT I REMEMBER. was right, ^. e., if the functure was duly burning, every boy in his bed, and his candle put out, he merely looked around and passed on to another chamber. If otherwise, the "prefect in course" had an interview with him on the following morning. These chamber-doors, Avhich, as I have said, it was the rule to keep alwaj^s locked during the night, were exceedingly massive, iron-bound, and with enormous locks and hinges. Now there was a tradition in college that a certain former " senior prefect in third " (subaudi chamber) had carried the door of that chamber round the quadrangle. Tlie Atlas thus remembered was a minor canon of the cathedral when I was " senior prefect in third," and the tradition of his prowess excited my em- ulation. So I had the door in question taken from its hinges and laid upon my bent back, and caused the door of " fourth " to be carefully placed on the top of it, and so carried both doors round the quadrangle, thus outdoing the minor canon by a hundred per cent. In due propor- tion the feat should surely have made me in time a canon! But it has not done so. I think, however, that I might challenge any one of my schoolfellows of the present gen- eration, whose constitutions are cared for by the early breakfasts which we did not get, to do likewise; suppos- ing, that is, tlie old doors to be still in existence, and in statu quo. From seven to eight we were, or ought to have been, at work, seated at our "toys" in chambers. And during that hour no " inferior" could leave the cham- ber without the permission of the "prefect in course." At eight we went into chapel — or, rather, into the ante- chapel only — for short prayers, and after that till nine we were free to do as we pleased. Some would walk up and down "sands," as the broad flagstone pavement below the chapel was called. Each prefect in the chamber had a little table, at which he sat during the evening, and which in the morning served as a washing-stand, on which it was the duty of the " jun- ior," who was his " valet," to place his basin and washing things. But all "inferiors" had to perform their ablu- tions at the " conduit " in the open quadrangle. In severe or wet weather this was not Sybaritic ! But again I say AT WINCHESTER. 95 that it would have been difficult to find a healthier collec- tion of boys than we were. The discipline which regulated that part of college life spent " in chambers " must have been, I think, much more lax at a former day than it was in my time, for I remem- ber to have heard my father, who was in college under Dr. Warton, say that Tom Warton, the head-master's brother (and the well-known author of the "History of Poetry "), used frequently to be with the boys " in cham- bers " of an evening ; that he would often knock off a companion's " verse task " for him, and that the doctor the next morning would recognize "that rascal Tom's work." Now in my day it would have been altogether impossible and out of the question for any outsider, how- ever much an old Wykehamist, and brother of the mas- ter, to be with us in chambers. There was an anecdote current, I remember, among Wykehamists of that generation, respecting " that rascal Tom," to the effect that he narrowly missed becoming head of Trinity, of which college at Oxford he was a fel- low, under the following circumstances: There was a cer- tain fellow of the college, whose name need not here be recorded, rather famous among his contemporaries for the reverse of wisdom or intelligence. Upon one occasion Tom Warton was sitting in his stall in chapel close to the gentleman in question, who was reading the Psalms; and when the latter came to the verse, "Lord, thou knowest my simpleness," he was so indiscreet as to mutter, in an al- most audible tone, "Ay ! we all know tJiatP'' But it so chanced that, not very long afterwards, there was an elec- tion for the presidentship of the college, and Warton, who was a very popular man, was one of the two candidates. The college, however, was very closely divided between them, and "that rascal Tom" had to apply to his "sim- ple " colleague for his vote. " Not so simple as all that, Mr. Warton !" was the reply; and the story goes that the historian of poetry lost his election by that one vote. And this college chapel anecdote reminds me to say, before concluding my Wiccamical reminiscences, a few words about our chapel-going in the olden time. In this 96 WHAT I REMEMBER. department, also, very much of change has taken place, doubtless, here at least, for the better. But it must be remembered that any change of this sort has been contemporaneous with change, at least as strong- ly marked in the same direction, in the general tone of English manners, sentiments, and habits. We English were not a devout people in the days when George the Third was king, especially as regards all that portion of the world which held aloof from evangelicalism and dis- sent. We were not altogether without religious feeling in college, but it manifested itself chiefly in the form of a pronounced abhorrence for those two, as we consid- ered them, ungentlemanlike propensities. For about three weeks, at Easter time, the lower classes in the school read the Greek Testament instead of the usual Greek authors, and the upper classes read Lowth's " Preelections on the Sacred Poetry of the Hebrews," a book unimpeachable in point of Latinity and orthodoxy, for was not the author a Wyke- hamist ? But I do not remember aught else in the way of religious instruction, unless it were found in the assiduity of our attendances at chapel. We went to chapel twice (including the short evening prayers in the chapel) every day. On Fridays we went three times, and on Saturdays also three times; the ser- vice in the afternoon being choral. On Sundays we went thrice to chapel and twice to the cathedral; on red-letter days thrice to chapel, and as often on "Founder's com- memoration" and "Founder's obit." These latter ser- vices, as also those on Sundays and holidays, were choral. We had three chaplains, an organist, four vicars choral, and six choristers for the service of the chapel. The " chor- isters," who were mentioned at a former page as carrying the "dispers" up into hall, though so called, had nothing to do with the choral service. They were twelve in num- ber, were fed, clothed, and educated by a master of their own, and discharged the duty of waiting on the scholars as messengers, etc., at certain hours. Our three chaplains were all of them, also, minor can- ons of the cathedral. Very worthy, good men "they were; one of them especially and exceptionally exemplary in his AT WINCHESTER. 97 family relations; but their mode of performing the service in the chapel was not what would in these days be consid- ered decorous or reverential. Besides the chaplaincy of the college and the minor canonry of the cathedral, these gentlemen — all three of them, I believe — held small liv- ings in the city. And the multiplicity of duty which had thus to be done rendered a degree of speed in the perform- ance of the service so often a desideratum, and sometimes an absolute necessity, that that became the most marked characteristic of the performers. In reading, or, rather, intoning, the prayers, the habit was to allow no time at all for the choir to chant their "Amen," which had to be interjected in such sort that, when the tones of it died away, the priest had already got through two or three lines of the following prayer. One of our chaplains, who had the well-deserved character of being the fastest of the three, we called the diver. For it was his practice, in read- ing or intoning, to continue with great rapidity as long as his breath would last, and then, while recovering it, to proceed mentally, without interruption, so that we lost sight (or hearing) of him at one point, and when he came to the surface, i. e., became audible again, he was several lines further down the page; and this we called "diving." It was proudly believed in college that this was the gen- tleman of whom the story was first told that he was ready to give any man to " Pontius Pilate " in the Creed, and arrive at the end before him. But, however worthy com- petitor he may have been in such a race, I have reason to believe that the chaplain of a certain college in Oxford was the original of the story. Another of our three chaplains was a great sportsman. It was the practice that the lessons were always read in chapel by one of the prefects. I remember, by-the-bye (but this is parenthetical), that one of our number was unable to pronounce the letter " r," and we used to scheme that it should fall to his lot to tell us that " Baioabbas was a wobber." Now the boy who read the lessons, sat, not in his usual place, but by the side of the chaplain who was performing the service. And it was the habit of the reverend sports- 5 98 WHAT I REMEMBER. man I have referred to, to intercalate with the verses of the Psalm he was reading, sotto voce, anecdotes of his most recent sporting achievements, addressed to the youth at his side, using for the purpose the interval during which the choir recited the alternate verse. As thus, on one twenty-eighth evening of the month, well remembered after some sixty years: " Who smote great kings : for his mercy endureth forever." Then aside, in the well-known great rolling, mellow voice (I can hear it now) : " On Hurstley Down yesterday I was out with Jack Woodburn " (this was another minor canon of the cathe- dral, but not one of our chaplains). " Sehon king of the Amorites : for his mercy endureth forever." " My black bitch Juno put up a covey almost at our feet." ^ " And gave away their land for an heritage : for his mercy endureth for- ever." " I blazed away wdth both barrels and brought down a brace." "Who remembered us when wc were in trouble: for liis mercy endureth forever," "But Jack fired too soon and never touched a feather." And so on. ISTow there would be no sort of interest in recording that w^e unfortunately chanced to have at one time a very graceless chaplain, if such had been the case, which it was not. The interest lies in the fact that thv3 gentleman in question Avas a worthy and excellent man in all the rela- tions of life; that he was absolutely innocent of intentional impropriety; and that, as far as I can remember, we had none of us the faintest idea that we ought to have been shocked or scandalized. Such was the state of things and men's minds " sixty years since." The brother of this chaplain Vv^as the manciple of the college, and was known among us as " Damme Hopkins," from the following circumstance. His manner was a quaint mixture of pomposity and hojihomie, which made a con- AT WINCHESTER. 99 versation with him a rather favorite amusement with some of us. Xow the manciple was a very well-to-do man, and was rather fond of letting it be known that his independent circumstances made the emoluments of the place he held a matter of no importance to him. "Indeed," he would say, "1 sj^oke to the bishop [the warden] a few months ago of resigning, but the bishop says to me, 'No, no, damme, Hopkins, you must keep the place.' " And I have no doubt that the deficiency of dramatic instinct which thus led the worthy manciple to transfer his own phrase- ology to his right reverend interlocutor rendered him quite unconscious of any inaccuracy in his narration. We used to go twice every Sunday, as I have said, to the cathedral. But we did not attend the whole morning service. We timed our arrival there so as to reach the cathedral at the beginning of the Communion service, and to be present at that and at the sermon which followed it. We had no sermons in college chapel, save on certain special occasions, such as 5th of November, "Founder's commemoration," or "Founder's obit." On the former of these occasions a sermon used to be preached with which we had become familiar by the annual repetition of it during a succession of years. I wonder how many there are left who will remember the words, " A letter was sent, couched in the most ambiguous terms, and who so likely to detect it as the king himself?" At the cathedral a series of benches between the pulpit and bishop's throne and the altar were reserved for us, so that the preacher was immediately in front and to the right of us. The surplice was used in the cathedral pulpit at the morning service, the Geneva gown at that in the after- noon. At the former one of the prebendaries or the dean was the preacher, at the latter a minor canon. I remember that we used to think a good deal of the dean's sermons, and always attended to them — a compli- ment which was not often paid, to the best of my recol- lection, to the other preachers. Dean Rennell was a man of very superior abilities, but of great eccentricity, mainly due to extreme absence of mind. It used to be told of him that unless Mrs. Rennell took good care, he was toler- 100 WHAT I REMEMBER. ably certain, when he went up to his room to dress for a dinner-party, to go to bed. It will be understood from what has been said of the accommodation provided for us in the cathedral, that in order to face us, the preacher, addressing himself to the body of the congregation in the choir, must have turned himself round in the pulpit. And this Rennell would sometimes do, when he thought what he was saying especially calculated for our edification. He was, as I have already mentioned, a great Platonist, and when he alluded, as he not unfrequently did, to some doc- trine or opinion of the Grecian philosopher, he would turn to us arid say, in a sort of parenthetical aside, "Plato I mean." Amonor the stories that were current of Rennell I re- o member one to the effect that when upon one occasion he was posting from Winchester to London he stopped at Egham for luncheon. A huge round of boiled beef, nearly uncut, was placed upon the table. But the dean found it was as he thought, far too much boiled; so without more ado he cut the huge mass into four quarters and helped himself to a morsel from the centre! The landlady, when the mutilated joint was carried out, was exceedingly in- dignant, and insisted that a guinea should be paid for the entirety of it. The dean, much against the grain, as the chronicle goes, paid his guinea, but packed up the four quarters of the round and carried them off with him. Further indication of his eccentricity might be seen, as I remember, in his habit of wearing in the cathedral pulpit in cold weather, not a skull cap, but a flat square of velvet on his head, with which occasionally he would, in the heat of his discourse, wipe his face, then clap it on his head again. The cathedral, as I have had occasion to mention in a former chapter, had been undergoing a very extensive res- toration, one operation in the course of which had been the removal of the organ from over the screen; and the question whether it should be replaced there or be trans- ferred to the north transept was very earnestly, and, it was said, somewhat hotly debated by the chapter. The dean was exceedingly vehement in supporting the latter AT WINCHESTER. 201 course, which was eventually adopted, it can scarcely be doubted by those who see the church as it now is, with entire judiciousness. I could, not without gratification to myself, chatter much more about reminiscences of the years I passed at Winchester. But I feel that the only excuse for having yielded to the temptation as far as I have must be sought in the illustrations afforded by what I have written of the large changes in habits, thoughts, customs, feelings that have been wrought in English society and English institu- tions by the lapse of some sixty years. And now the time had come when I, having attained the age of eighteen, was superannuated at the election in the July of 1828. It was not at that time certain whether I should or should not succeed to a fellowship at New College, for that depended upon the number of vacancies that might occur in the year up to the election of 1829. Eventually I missed it by, as I remember, one only. One more journey of "Speedyman" before July, 1829, an- nouncing the marriage or the death of a fellow of New College, or the acceptance of a college living by one of them, would have made me a fellow of New College. But ^'Speedyman" did not make his appearance. I left Winchester a fairly good Latin scholar, and well grounded — I do not think I can say more — in Greek; and very ignorant indeed of all else. According to what I hear of the present day, I had no scholarly knowledge whatever of my own language. I knew nothing whatso- ever of Anglo-Saxon, or of mediaeval English. I had never — have never, I may rather say — had any English gram- mar in my hand from my cradle to the present hour. It is certain, however, that the enlarged requirements in this department, to which I have referred, have some- how or other failed to banish from the current literature of the day a vast number of solecisms, vulgarisms, and grammiatical atrocities of all sorts, which defile the lan- guage to a much greater degree than was the case at the time of which I have been writing, and which would have been as abhorrent to me when I left Winchester as they are now. 102 WHAT I REMEMBER. Of arithmetic I knew nothing — I should write "know" — and of all that arithmetic should be the first step to, d fortiori, still less. In the art of writing I received the best possible instruction, for I was licked by my tutor and scourged by the masters if my writing was illegible. Of less indirect tuition I had none. There was a writing-master — one Mr. Bower, Fungy Bower he was called, why, I know not — who sat at a cer- tain low desk in the school during school-hours. I never received from him, or saw any one else receive from him, any instruction in writing. Nor did he, to the best of my knowledge and belief, form any part of William of Wyke- ham's foundation. The only purpose his presence in school appeared to serve w^as to mend pens and make up the weekly account of marks received by each boy which reg- ulated his place in the class. The register containing the account of these marks was called the "classicus paj)er," and was kept in this wise: All the members of each "class" — or "form" as it is called in other schools — continually changed places while pro- ceeding with the lesson before the master, each, if able to answer a question which those above him could not an- swer, passing up above them. And part of the punish- ment for failing altogether in any lesson, for being as the phrase was " crippled in Yirgil," or " crippled in Homer," was to go to the bottom of the class. Thus the order in which the class sat Avas continually changed. And the first business every morning was for the two boys at the head of the class to take the "classicus paper," and mark " 1." against the name of the boy at the bottom, " 2." against the next, and so on; so that the mark assigned to him at the head was equal to the number in the class. And this rec- ord of the marks was handed every week to Fungy Bower to be made up, so as to indicate the place in the class held by each member of it. But though this was done weekly, the account was carried on during the whole half year, so that a boy's final place in the class was the accurate result of his diligence and success during the whole " half." Of course I was a cricketer — we all were, and were, in- deed, obliged to be, whether willingly or not, until we be- AT WINCHESTER. 103 came prefects, when, of course, those only who loved the game continued to practise it. I never was a great crick- eter, but have been " long stop " quite often enough to know how great is the nonsense talked by those of the present generation who maintain that all the elaborate precautions against being hurt which are so abundantly taken by the players of these latter days are necessitated by the greater force of the bowling as now practised. In simple truth this is all bosh ! though I can hardly expect a generation in cute curandd plus aequo operata to believe a very old batter and fielder when he tells them so ! My favorite game was fives. We had a splendid fives court, and the game was played in a manner altogether peculiar to Winchester; now I believe — like so much else — abandoned. We used a very small ball, hardly bigger than a good-sized walnut, and as hard as if made of wood, called a " snack." And this was driven against the wall by a bat of quite peculiar construction. It was made, I think, of ash, and there were only two men, rivals, who could make it. It was about a yard long, the handle round, and somewhat less than an inch in diameter. It then became gradually thinner and wider, till at about the distance of six inches from the extremity it was perhaps an inch and a half wide, and not thicker than half a crown. Then it expanded and thickened again into a head some- what of the shape of an ace of spades, some three inches across and half an inch thick. The thin part was kept continually well oiled — in such sort that it became so elas- tic that the heavy head might almost be doubled back so as to touch the part nearer the hand. It will be under- stood both that the difficulty of striking a bounding ball with this instrument was considerable, and that the mo- mentum imparted to the small hard ball by the blow was very great indeed. It is true that accidents occasionally, though very rarely, happened from a misdirected blow. But it does not seem necessary that the old bat should be abandoned, for our judicious grandsons might play with great comfort and safety in helmets ! Of course I, like most of my contemporaries, left Win- chester — and indeed subsequently left Oxford — as igno- 104 WHAT I REMEMBER. rant of any modern language, save English, as of Chinese! And as for music — though Oxford and Cambridge are the only universities in Europe which give degrees in music — it is hardly an exaggeration to say that, with very rare exceptions, to have taught an undergraduate, or a boy at a public school, music, would have been thought much on a par with teaching him to hem a pocket-handkerchief. And here the present generation has the pull to a degree which it perhaps hardly sufficiently recognizes ! It was during my last year at Winchester that I made my first attempt at authorship. Old Robbins, the gray- headed bookseller of College Street, who had been the college bookseller for many years, had recently taken a younger partner of the name of Wheeler, and this gentle- man established a monthly magazine, called the Hamp- shire and West of England Magazine, to which I contrib- uted three or four articles on matters Wiccamical. I have the volume before me now — perhaps the only extant copy of that long - since - forgotten publication. The Rev. E. Poulter, one of the prebendaries of Winchester, who had a somewhat wider than local reputation as a wit in those days, was the anonymous contributor of a poetical pro- logue of such unconscionable proportions that poor Wheeler was sadly puzzled what to do with it. It was impossible to refuse or neglect a reverend prebendary's contribution, besides that the verses, often doggerel, had some good fun in them. So they were all printed by instalments in suc- cessive numbers, despite the title of prologue which their author gives them. CHAPTER VII. VISIT TO AMERICA. I CAME back from Winchester for the last time after the election of 1828, to find a great change at home. My father, pressed more and more by pecuniary difficulties, had quitted Harrow, and established himself at Harrow Weald, a liamlet of the large parish in the direction of Pinner. He had not given up his farm at Harrow. He w^ould have been only too glad to do so, for it involved an annual loss undeviatingly; but that he could not do, for his lease tied him to the stake. But he took another farm at Harrow Weald, on which there was an old farmhouse, which had once been a very good one, and, living there, carried on both farms. How far this speculation w^as a wdse one I have no means of judging. Doubtless he took the Harrow Weald farm upon very largely more advan- tageous terms than those which he had accepted from Lord North wick for the farm at Harrow; but having been absent all the time at Winchester, I knew so little about the matter that I do not now know even who his Harrow Weald landlord was. Possibly I did know, but have for- gotten. But I think I remember to have heard my father say that the Harrow Weald farm did in some degree alle- viate the loss sustained by the larger farm at Harrow, and that, could he have got rid of the latter, the Harrow Weald farm m^ight have paid its w-ay. The excellent house he had built at Harrow was, in the meantime, let to Mr. Cunningham, the vicar. The change from it to the old farmhouse at Harrow Weald, as a home, was not a pleasant one ; but a very far worse and more important change awaited my home coming, in the absence of my mother. She had gone to America. Where, or under what circumstances, my parents had 5* 106 WHAT I REMEMBER. first become acquainted with General La Fayette I do not know. I myself never saw him; but I know that it was during a visit to La Grange, his estate in France, that my mother first met Miss Frances Wright, one of two sisters, his wards. I believe she became acquainted with Camilla Wright, the sister, at the same time. It is odd, considering the very close intimacy that took place between my mother and Frances Wright, that I never knew anything of the parentage and family of these ladies, or how they came to be wards of General La Fay- ette. But with Miss Frances Wright I did become sub- sequently well acquainted. She was in many respects a very remarkable personage. She was very handsome in a large and almost masculine style of beauty, with a most commanding presence, a superb figure, and stature fully masculine. Her features both in form and expression were really noble. There exists — still findable, I suppose, in some London fonds de magazin — a large lithographed portrait of her. She is represented standing, with her hand on the neck of a gray horse (the same old gig liorse that liad drawn my parents and myself over so many miles of Devonshire, Somersetshire, and Monmouthshire roads and cross roads — not that which so nearly made an end of us near Lynmouth, but his companion), and, if I remember rightly, in Turkish trousers. But these particulars of her bodily form and present- ment constituted the least remarkable specialties of her individuality. She was unquestionably a very clever wom- an. She wrote a slender octavo volume, entitled "A Few Days in Athens," which was published by Longman. It was little more than a brochure, and it is many years since I have seen it, but the impression that it was very clever abides in my mind. I remember the fact that the whole edition was sold. And the mention of this book reminds me of a circumstance that seems to show that my parents must have become to a considerable degree intimate with these wards of General La Fayette at some period preced- ing the visit to La Grange, which exercised in the sequel so large an influence over my own, and my mother's, and brothers' future. This circumstance is that I recollect my VISIT TO AMERICA. IQ/y father to have been in communication with the Longmans on behalf of Miss Wright in respect to her work. Be this how it may, at the time of that visit to La Grange spoken of above, Miss Wright's thoughts and aspirations were directed with a persistent and indomita- ble enthusiasm, which made the ground-work of her char- acter, to doing something for the improvement of the con- dition of the slave populations in the southern states of the great transatlantic republic. Both Frances and Ca- milla Wright were ladies of considerable fortune ; and I believe that General La Fayette wished much to induce his ward Frances not to employ her means in the scheme she was now bent on. But she was of age — I fancy some six or seven years more than that — and he had no author- ity to interfere with her purpose, with which besides, otherwise than as likely to be pecuniarily disastrous to her, he entirely sympathized. Her purpose was to purchase a property in the valley of the Mississippi — in Alabama I think it was — with the slaves upon it, to free them all immediately, and to culti- vate the estate by their free labor, living there with them in a sort of community, the principles and plan of which were, I fancy, very largely based upon the ideas and schemes of Mr. Owen of Lanark. His son, Robert Dale Owen, subsequently well known in Europe as the author of sundry works on spiritualism and political speculations, and as United States Consul at Naples and perhaps other cities, was a lifelong friend of Miss AVright's. Now, my parents had taken with them to La Grange my next brother, Henry, who has been mentioned as the companion of my early London rambles, and who was then rapidly approaching manhood without having found for himself, or having had found for him, any clear pros- pect of earning the livelihood which it was clearly enough necessary that he should earn in some way; and Miss Wright proposed to my mother to bring him to America to join in her projected establishment and experiment at " New Harmony " — such I believe to have been the name which Miss Wright gave to her property. The original name, I think, was Nashoba, but my knowledge of any of 108 WHAT I REMEMBER. these matters is very imperfect. I know that the whole scheme ended in complete disappointment to all con- cerned, and entire failure. To Miss Wright it involved very considerable pecuniary loss, which, as I learned sub- sequently from my mother, she bore with the utmost for- titude and cheerfulness, but without any great access of wisdom as regarded her benevolent schemes for the politi- cal and economical improvement of human, and especially black, society. I never saw her again; but remember to have heard of her marrying a French teacher of languages at the close of a course of lectures given by her against the institution of matrimony. All that I heard from my mother and my brother of their connection with Miss "Wright, of her administration of aif airs at New Harmony, and her conduct when her experiment issued in failure and disappointment, left with me the impression of her genu- inely high-minded enthusiasm, her unselfishness, bravery, and generosity, but, at the same time, of her deficiency in the qualities which can alone make departure from the world's beaten tracks — mill-horse tracks though they be — either wise, profitable, or safe. She had a fine and large intelligence, but not fine or large enough for going quite unpiloted across country. Whether my mother resided any time at Nashoba I am not sure, but I think not. At all events, very shortly after her arrival in America she established herself at Cincinnati. And when it became evident that there was no prospect of permanent work for my brother in the business of regenerating the negroes, it was determined — by the advice of what Cincinnati friends 1 know not — that he should join my mother there, and undertake the establishment and conduct of an institution which, as far as I was able to understand the plan, was to combine the specialties of an athenaeum, a lecture hall, and a bazaar! And it was when this enterprise had been decided upon, but before any steps had been taken for the realizing of it, that I accompanied my father on a visit to America. When I returned from Winchester, in July, there were still many months before me of uncertainty whether I might get a vacancy at New College or not, and my fa- VISIT TO AMERICA. 109 ther, having determined on going for a short visit to Cin- cinnati, proposed to take me with him. After what I have written in a previous chapter of my early tastes and pro- clivities, I need hardly say that the prospect of this travel was in the highest degree delightful to me. I am afraid that, at the time, any call to New College, which should have had the effect of preventing it, would have been to me a very unwelcome one. Our deparfaire was fixed for September, and the intervening time was spent by me in preparations for the great adventure, very much such as Livingstone may be supposed to have made on quitting England for the "dark continent." I w^as, as it seems to me now, still a very boyish boy, all ex-Wiccamical prefect as I was, and, I cannot help think- ing, younger and more childish than the youngsters of equal age of the present generation. The voyage, however, really was a bigger affair in those days than it has become in these times, for it was before the iron horse had been trained to cross the Atlantic. And my father made it a very much more serious business still by engaging for us berths in the steerage of a passen- ger ship. I hardly think that he would have done so had lie been at all aware of what he was undertaking. It is true that he was undoubtedly hard pressed for money, though I have not now, and had not then, any such knowl- edge of his affairs as to enable me to judge to what degree he was straitened. But there was also about my father a sort of Spartan contempt for comfort, and determination not to expend money on his own personal well-being, which was a prominent feature in his character, and which, I have no doubt, contributed to the formation of his resolu- tion to make this journey in the least costly manner possible. But, as I have said, I think that he had no very clear notion of what a steerage passage across the Atlantic im- plied. As for me, if he had proposed to make the voyage on a raft I should have jumped at the offer! It was, in truth, a sufficiently severe experience. But, as I was then at eighteen, I should have welcomed the chance of mak- ing such an expedition, even if I had accurately realized all the accompaniments and all the details of it. 110 WHAT I REMEMBER. We Avent on board the good ship Corinthian, Captain Chad wick, bound for New York, in the September of 1828. Ship and captain were American. I confess that my first feeling on entering the place which was to be my habitation during the next few weeks was one of dismay. It was not that the accommodation was rough. I cared little enough about that, and should have cared as litUe had it been much rougher. But it was the first time in my life that I had had any experience of the truth of the proverb that misfortune makes one ac- quainted with strange bedfellows! Of course there was in that part of the vessel allotted to the steerage passen- gers no sort of enclosure for the different berths, some dozen or score of them, in which the steerage passengers had to sleep. No sort of privacy either by day or by night was possible; add to which, the ventilation was very insuflScient, and the whole place was, perhaps unavoida- bly, dirty to a revolting degree. My father almost at once betook himself to his berth, and rarely left it during the entire voyage — indeed, he was for the most part inca- pable of doing so, having been suffering from his usual sick headache more or less during the whole time. If the voyage was a bad time for me, it must have been far worse for him. Indeed, I was scarcely ever below except when attending on him. Before the first night came I declared my intention of making no use of the berth assigned to me. Where was I to pass the night then ? I said I should pass it on deck. I had a huge greatcoat, a regular " dreadnought," so called in those days, and made with innumerable capes; and with that I should do well enough during the September night. My declared intention brought an avalanche of rid- icule down on my head, not only from my fellow-inhabi- tants of the steerage, but from the captain and his mates. A night on deck, or at the very most two, would make me glad and thankful enough for the shelter of my berth. I did not know what I was talking of, but should soon find out, etc. Well, the first night passed ! It was a fine moonlight. And I enjoyed it and the novelty of my surroundings VISIT TO AMERICA. lH keenly. I slept, wrapped in my capacious greatcoat, two or three hours at a time, and morning found me none the worse. The second night was less delightful ! I was weary, and began to feel the need of sleep after a fashion to which I was more accustomed. And then came bad weather, wet and cold ! I got some shelter in an erection on the deck called the " round-house ;" but the want of proper rest was beginning to tell upon me, and the fatigue was very severe. I think that, despite my horror of the steerage and the world that inhabited it, I should have succumbed and accepted its shelter if my determination not to do so had been confined to my own breast, and no necessity had existed for triumphing over the ridicule and the unanimous prophecies of the other passengers and the ship's officers. As it was, I was safe not to yield ! I did not yield I Our voyage was rather longer than an average one, and during all the thirty-eight days that it lasted I never passed a night below, or went there at all save for the purpose of changing my clothes or attending on my father, who lay sick and suffering in his berth during almost the whole time. It was a severer experience than it may seem, probably, to the imagination of those who never made a similar experiment. When I reached New York I felt as if it would be heaven to go to sleep for a week. We had one short spell of very bad weather, and were, as I subsequently learned, in considerable danger for an hour or so. We had been running all day before a fair wind exactly aft, which, continually increasing in violence, assumed at sun-down the force of a gale. Nevertheless, Captain Chad wick, against the advice of an old English merchant captain, who was a passenger, could not prevail on himself to lose the advantage of so good a wind, and determined to "cany on." But as the night advanced the wind continued to increase and the sea to rise, till the danger of being "pooped," if w^e continued to run before it, became too great to be neglected. But the danger of putting about, " broaching-to " I believe is the correct term, was also great. It became necessary, however, to do this about mid- 112 WHAT I EEMEMBER. night, and I was the only passenger on deck during the operation. The English merchant captain mentioned above kept running up for a few minutes at a time every now and then; but he had a wife and young children aboard, and would not remain long away from them. The good ship, as she came round into the trough of the sea, lay down on her side to such a degree that my body, as I clung to the bulwark on the weather-side, swung away to the leew^ard in such a sort that I was for a minute hanging from a hold above my head, instead of clinging to one at my side. And I saw and heard — very specially heard — every sail blown away from the yards. I heard, too, the shout of the men on the yards, " We can't get an inch," as they strove to reef. Much danger was occasioned to the men by the block at the foot of the mainsail remain- ing attached to the sail, which was blown about, before it could be secured, with a violence which knocked the cook's galley to atoms. And all this I saw to my great delight. For I consid- ered a storm at sea as a part of the experiences of a voyage Avhich it would have been a great pity to have missed, and was altogether unaware that we were in any real danger. Towards daybreak the gale moderated, and before noon it was perfectly calm, and all hands were busy in bending a new suite of sails. With all this I should have enjoyed the voyage immense- ly had it not been for the nature of the companionship to w^hich I should have been condemned if I had not es- caped from it in the manner I have described. The utter roughness of the accommodation, the scanty and not very delicate food, would all have signified to me in those days absolutely nothing. But I could not tolerate the compan- ionship of the men and w^omen with whom I should have lived. I could have no doubt tolerated it some twenty years later, but it was at that time too new to me. I take it that ill-luck had given us a rather specially bad lot as our destined companions in the steerage. I had seen quite enough of the laborers on the farm at Harrow to know what a man living with his family on a pound a w^eek was like, and I could have managed to live, if necessary, with VISIT TO AMERICA. 113 such men for a week or two without any insuperable re- pugnance. But some of the denizens of that steerage hol- (jia were blackguards of a description quite new to me. Two figures among them are still, after nearly sixty years, present to my mental vision. One was a large, loosely-made, middle-aged man, who always wore a long gray-serge dressing-gown. He was accompanied by no- body belonging to him, and I never had the least idea what grade or department of life he could have belonged to. His language, though horrible, as regards the ideas conveyed by it, was grammatically far superior to that of most of those around him; and he was very clever with his hands, executing various little arrangements for his own comfort with the skill of a carpenter, and almost with that of an upholsterer. His face Avas thoroughly bad, with loose, baggy, flaccid, pale cheeks, and a great, coarse, hanging under lip. He always looked exceedingly dirty, but, nevertheless, was always clean-shaved. He was al- ways talking, always haranguing those who would listen to him; always extolling the country for which we were bound and its institutions, and expressing the most ven- omous hatred of England and all things English. I used to listen to him during my hours of attendance on my fa- ther with an excess of loathing which I doubt not I failed to conceal from him, and which, acting like a strong brine, has preserved his memory in my mind all these years. The other was much less objectionable. He was a younger man and called himself a farmer, but his farming had evidently run much to horse-dealing, and he dressed in a horsey style. He had a miserable, sickly wife with him, who had once upon a time been pretty. She wore the remains of dresses that had once been smart, and was by far the most slatternly woman I ever saw. Her hus- band, so far as I could observe, did not ill-treat her, but he was constantly saying unkind things in language which should have made her blush, if she had not left all blushes far behind her, and at which the other worse brute used to laugh with obstreperous approbation. He could sing, too, as I thought at that time, very well, and used to sing a song telling how " The farm I now hold on your honor's 114 WHAT I REMEMBER. estate is the same that my grandfather held," etc. The tune of it runs in my head to this day; and I remember thinking that if the song related the singer's own fort- unes " his honor " must have gained by the change of ten- ant, however many generations of ancestors may have held it before him. By the time our voyage came to an end I was pretty nearly worn out by want of rest and night-and-day expos- ure of weather. But, to own the truth honestly, I was supported by a sense of pride in having sustained an amount of fatigue which none other in the ship had, and few probably could have, sustained, and which I had been defied to sustain. And after I had had a sleep "the round of the clock," as the phrase goes, I was none the worse. Moreover, it was a matter of extreme consolation to me to think that I was accumulating a store of strange experi- ences of a kind which nothing in my previous life had seemed to promise me. But, above all, the approach to New York, and the sight of the bay, was, I felt, more than enough to repay me for all the discomfort of the voyage. I thought it by far the grandest sight I had ever seen, as indeed, it doubtless was. I do not remember to have been much struck with the town of New York. I remember thinking it had the look of an overgrown colossal village, and that it was very dif- ferent in appearance from any English city. It seemed to me, too, that there was a strange contrast between the roomy, clean, uncity-like appearance of the place, and the apparent hurry and energetic ways of the inhabitants. I remember also remarking the very generally youthful ap- pearance of those who seemed to be transacting most of the business of the place. We were received most kindly by an old friend of my parents, Mr. Wilkes, the uncle, I think, or, perhaps, great- uncle of him who as Commodore Wilkes of the Trent sub- sequently became known to the world, as having very nearly set his country and England by the ears! How and why old Mr. Wilkes was a friend of my father's I do not know, but suspect that it was through the medium of some very old friends of my grandfather Milton, of the VISIT TO AMERICA. II5 name of Garnet. Two very old ladies of that name, spin- ster sisters, I remember to have seen at Brighton some twenty or five-and-twenty years ago. I remember that Mr. Wilkes struck me as a remarkably courteous and gen- tlemanlike old man, very English both in manners and appearance, in a blue dress-coat and buff waistcoat, and long white hair. I fancy that he was connected in some v/ay (by old friendship only, I imagine) with the Misses Wright, and I gathered that he altogether disapproved of Frances Wright's philanthropic Nashoba enterprise, and consequently of the share in it which my father and moth- er, on behalf of my brother Henry, had undertaken. Of the wisdom of his misgivings the result furnished abun- dant proof. My recollections of the journey from New York to Cincinnati are of a very fragmentary description ; those of so very many other journeys during the well-nigh sixty years which have elapsed since it was performed have nearly obliterated them. I remember being struck by the uncomfortable roughness of all the lodging accommoda- tion, as contrasted with the great abundance, and even, as it appeared to me, luxury of the commissariat depart- ment. We passed by Pittsburgh and crossed the Alleghany Mountains, the former remaining in my memory as a nightmare of squalor, and the latter as a vision of beauty and delight. We travelled long days through districts of untouched forest over the often described "corduroy" roads. I was utterly disappointed by the forests; all that I saw of them appeared to me a miserable collection of lank, unwholesome - looking, woebegone stems, instead of Windsor Forest on a vastly increased scale, which was, I take it, what I expected. I remember, too, being much struck by the performance of the drivers of the stages over the corduroy roads aforesaid, and often over boggy tracts of half-reclaimed forest amid the blackened stumps of burned trees. The things they proposed to themselves to accomplish, and did accomplish without coming to grief, other than shaking every tooth in the heads of their passengers, would have made an English coachman's hair 116 WHAT I KEMEMBER. stand on end. To have seen them at their work over a decent bit of road would, on the other hand, have provoked the laughter and contempt of the same critics. Arms and legs seemed to take an equal part in the work; the whip was never idle, and the fatigue must have been excessive. I do not think that any man could have driven fifty miles at a stretch over those roads. Cincinnati was reached at last. The journey to me had been delightful in the highest degree, simply from the novelty of everything. As things were done at that time it was one of very great fatigue, but in those days I seemed to be incapable of fatigue. At all events it was all child's play in comparison with my crossing the ocean in the good ship Corinthian. We found my mother and two sisters and brother Henry well, and established in a roomy, bright-looking house, built of wood, and all white with the exception of the green Venetian blinds. It stood in its own "grounds," but these grounds consisted of a large field, uncultivated save for a few potatoes in one corner of it; and the whole appearance of the place was made unkempt-looking — not squalid, because everything was too new and clean-look- ing for that — by uncompleted essays towards the making of a road from the entrance-gate to the house, and by fragments of boarding and timber, which it had apparent- ly been worth no one's while to collect after the building of the house was completed. With all this there was an air of roominess and brightness which seemed to me very pleasant. The house was some five or ten minutes' walk from what might be considered the commencement of the town, but it is no doubt by this time, if it still stands at all, more nearly in the centre of it. CHAPTER VIII. VISIT TO AMERICA — {contifiued) . My father and I remained between five and six months at Cincinnati, and my remembrances of the time are pleas- ant ones. In the way of amusement, to the best of my recollection, there was not much besides rambling over the countiy with my brother, the old companion of those Lon- don rambles which seemed to me then almost as far off in the dim past as they do now. But we were free, tied to no bounds, and very slightly to any hours. And I enjoyed those rambles immensely. I do not remember that the country about Cincinnati struck me as especially interest- ing or beautiful, and the Ohio, la belle 9'iviere, distinctly disappointed me. But it was a new world, and every ob- ject, whether animate or inanimate, was for us full of in- terest. Looking back to those Cincinnati days, I have to say that I liked the Americans, principally, I think, at that time, as far as my remembrances serve, because some quality in their manners and behavior had the effect of making me less shy with them than with others. I was then, and to a great degree have never ceased to be, pain- fully shy. How miserably this w^eakness afflicts those who suffer from it, how it disqualifies them and puts them at a disadvantage in circumstances constantly recurring, those who are free from it cannot imagine. And they glorify their superiority by saying all sorts of hard things to those who suffer from shyness — very unjustly in my opinion. Shyness proceeds in almost all cases, I should say probably in all, from difiidence. A man who thinks sufficiently well of himself is never shy. Did any one ever see a vain man shy? I do not think the Americans are an especially vain people; but there are specialties of their social condition which lead to every American citizen's estimate of himself, 118 WHAT I KEMEMBER. from the cradle upwards, being equal to his estimate of any other man. And one consequence of this is a certain frank and unconstrained manner in their intercourse with strangers or new acquaintances which is invaluable to a shy man. I remember an incident of my first year at Winchester, when I was between ten and eleven, which is illustrative of the misery w^hich shyness may inflict. A boy about a year my senior, and taller than I, was constantly annoying and bullying me, and one day in the presence of a consid- erable number of onlookers challenged me to fight him. I refused, and naturally, of course, was considered a cow- ard, and had to endure the jibes and taunts due to one. The explanation of my refusal of my enemy's challenge, however — never offered to mortal ear before the confiding of it to this page — was not that I w^as afraid to fight, but was too shy to do so. It was not that I could not face all that his fists could do to me, as I shortly afterwards showed him; but I could not bring myself to face the publicity of the proposed contest — the formality of it, the ring, in the centre of which I should have to perform, and to be a spectacle, and have my performance criticised. All this was too absolutely intolerable to me. But early the next morning, chancing to catch my adversary "in meads " with only one or two others near him, I attacked him, to his utter astonishment and dismay, and w-ithout very much difficulty gave him as good a pummelling as my heart desired. Whether this incident originated the nickname " Badg- er," which I bore at Winchester, as being one indisposed to fight, but likely to prove dangerous if " drawn," I do not know. It w^as during our stay at Cincinnati that my father and I paid a visit to an establishment of "Shaking Quakers," as they were called, and I believe called themselves, at Mount Lebanon, about five-and-twenty miles from Cincin- nati. We w^ere hospitably received, paying a moderate remuneration for our lodging and food. Both these were supplied of exactly the same kind and quality as used by the inmates of the establishment, and were, though very VISIT TO AMERICA. 119 simple and plain, admirable in quality. The extensive farm on which the Shakers lived, and which they culti- vated by their own labor, was their ow^n property, having been originally purchased at a time when land was of very small market value, and brought under tillage by the la- bor of the members. But nothing in the nature of private property w^as held or retained by any one. The number of women was about equal to that of the men. But there were no children. None were born in the establishment, and no man or woman joining it was allowed to bring any. Nor was marriage nor connubial life in any sort recognized or permitted. And, of course, these conditions rendered the whole experiment wholly useless as an example for the conduct of any ordinary community, or for an indication of what may be econom- ically accomplished for such. We did not eat in company with the members, though faring, as I have said, exactly as they did, but we were present at their religious worship, or at what stood in the place of such. This consisted in a species of dance, if the uncouth jumping or " shaking " which they practised could be so called. The men and women were assembled and danced in the same room, but not together. They jumped and " shook " themselves in two divided bodies. Any spectator would be disposed to imagine that the whole object of the performance was bodily exercise. It seemed to be carried on to the utmost extent that breath and bodi- ly fatigue would permit. Many were mopping the per- spiration from their faces. No laughing or gladness or exhilaration whatever appeared to accompany or to be caused by the exercise. All was done with an air of per- fect solemnity. All the men and all the women seemed to be in the en- joyment of excellent health. Most of them seemed to be somewhat more than well nourished — rather tending to obesity. They were florid, round-faced, sleek and heavy in figure. I observed no laughter, and very little conver- sation among them. The women were almost all in the prime of life, and many young. But there was a singular absence of good looks among them. Some had regular 120 WHAT I REMEMBER. features enough, but they were all heav}^, fat, dull-look- ing, like well-kept animals. I could not spy one pair of bright eyes in the place. All, men and women, were quite simply but thoroughly well and cleanly dressed, not alto- gether, as I remember, in uniform, but with very great uniformity. Gray cloth of very fair quality was the pre- vailing material of dress for both sexes. Various articles useful for country life of the simpler sort were manufactured by them for sale. And I learned that all the articles so made had throughout the country side a high reputation for excellence in their kinds. And there could be no doubt that the Shaker community was thriving and probably accumulating money. To what object they should do so seems a difficult question. I heard of no sickness or infirmity among them. Such there must of course have been occasionally, and I presume that the infirm, the sick, and the dying must have been cared for. These people lived in perfect equality* and their com- munity proved that a community of men and women (un- burdened with children) could by an amount of labor by no means excessive, or even arduous, provide themselves with an ample sufficiency of all things needful for their material well-being and comfort. It is true that they paid no rent, but I am disposed to think, from what I heard, that they might have paid a moderate rent for the land they cultivated, and still continued to do well. But it was impossible to avoid the reflection that this well-being was merely that of well-kept animals. There was an air of un- mistakable stupidity over the whole establishment. No- body laughed. Nobody seemed to converse. There was excellent lodging, clothing, and food in plenty till they died ! And that was all. Perhaps it may be fairly as- sumed that no one, save people of very mediocre powers and intelligence, had ever felt tempted to become a Shak- ing Quaker. But it can hardly be said that their experi- ment exhibited a very tempting sample of a world to be modelled after their fashion ! It has been said by some observers that this materially flourishing establishment has so many points of similarity VISIT TO AMERICA. 121 with the conventual institutions of Roman Catholicism that it may be considered as supplying the same natural want to which those institutions are supposed to cor- respond, an asylum, that is to say, for those of either sex, who, from various circumstances of fortune, or of tempera- ment, are unfitted for the struggles of the world, and find themselves left stranded on the banks of the great social stream. The impressions I received from my visit to Mount Lebanon do not dispose me to accept any such ex- planation of the Shaking Quaker raison cVUre. I saw no signs whatever, among either the men or the women, of individuals who had been tempest-tossed in any of the world's maelstroms, or of temperaments for which the contemplative life might be supposed to have had greater attractions than the active life of the world. The charac- teristics which were most notably observable were of a di- ametrically opposed kind. One would say that they were men and women thoroughly and unanimously minded to make for themselves in the most judiciously contrived manner a comfortable and clean sty, with abundant and perennial supply of everything needed for their bodily w^ants. Whether love or hatred, as they are found to exist in monastic communities, existed among them, of course I had not sufficient opportunity for even guessing. But assuredly it may be said with some confidence of not being mistaken, that neither those nor any other passions had left any of their usual marks on those sleek bodies and placid, meaningless faces. One would have said that the main and engrossing object of existence at Mount Lebanon was digesting. I have recently learned that the community continues to exist under the same conditions as those under which I saw it, I made acquaintance, I remember, at Cincinnati, with Mr. Long worth, who was, or became well known through- out America for his successful efforts in viticulture. He was one of those men who, being by no means entertain- ing companions on any other subject, become so, if you will talk to them upon their own. I have often thought that the " sink the shop " maxim is a great mistake. If I 6 122 WHAT I REMEMBER. had to pass an hour with a chhuney-sweep I should prob- ably find him very good company if he would talk ex- clusively about sweeping chimneys. Mr. Longworth was extremely willing to talk exclusively on schemes for the introduction of the vine into the Western States, and on that subject was well worth listening to. I find a note in a diary, written by me at that time, to the effect that he was then (1828) employing a large number of Germans on his estate at Columbia, near Cincinnati, at a little less than one shilling a day and their food. I remarked that this seemed scarcely in accord with the current accounts of the high price of labor in the States, and was answered that his — Mr. Longworth's — bailiff had said to him the other day, " If those men get to Cincinnati they will be spoiled'''' — a little touch which rather vividly illustrates one phase of the difference made in all things by railway communication. But the most remarkable acquaintance we made at Cin- cinnati was Hiram Powers, the subsequently well-known sculptor, with whom I again fell in many years afterwards at Florence, when he was living there with his large fam- ily, having just acquired a great and lucrative degree of celebrity by his statue of " The Greek Slave," purchased by an Englishman whom my mother had taken to visit his studio. I do not know by what chance she had first be- come acquainted with him at Cincinnati. • He was at that time about eighteen years old, much about my own contemporary; and my mother at once re- marked him as a young man of exceptional talent and promise. He was then seeking to live hj his wits, with every prospect of finding that capital abundantly suffi- cient for the purpose. There was a Frenchman named Dorfeuille at Cincinnati, who had established Avhat he called a " museum" — a show, in fact, in which he collected anything and everything that he thought would excite the curiosity of the people and induce them to pay their quar- ter dollars for admission. And this M. Dorfeuille, cleverly enough appreciating young Powers' capabilities of being useful to him, had engaged him as factotum and general manager of his establishment. Powers, casting about for VISIT TO AMERICA. 123 some new " attraction" for the museum, chanced one even- ing to talk over the matter with my mother. And it oc- curred to her to suggest to him to get up a representation of one of Dante's bolgias as described in the Inferno. The nascent sculptor, with his imaginative brain, artistic eye, and clever fingers, caught at the idea on the instant. And forthwith they set to work, my mother explaining the poet's conceptions, suggesting the composition of "tab- leaux," and supplying details, while Powers designed and executed the figures and the necessary mise en schie. Some months of preparation were needed before the work could be accomplished, and Dorfeuille, I remember, began to have misgivings as to recouping himself for the not inconsiderable cost. But at last all was ready. A vast amount of curiosity had been excited, in the place by preliminary announcements, and the result was an immense success. I have preserved for nearly sixty years, and have now before me, the programme and bill of the exhibition as it was drawn up by my mother. It is truly a curiosity in its kind, and I am tempted to reproduce it here. But it is too long, occupying four pages of a folio sheet. There are quotations from the Inferno^ translated by my mother (no copy of any published translation being then and there procurable), explanations of the author's meaning, and de- scriptions in very bugaboo style, and in every variety of type, with capitals of every sort of size, of all the horrors of the supposed scene. The success was so complete, and the curiosity, not only of the Cincinnati world but of the farmers round about and their families, was so eager, that the press of spectators was inconveniently great, and M. Dorfeuille began to fear that his properties might be damaged by indiscreet desires to touch as well as see. So Powers arranged a slight metal rod as a barrier between the show and the spectators, and contrived to charge it with electricity, while an announce- ment, couched in terrible and mystic terms and in verse, by my mother, to the effect that an awful doom awaited any mortal rash enough to approach the mysteries of the nether world too nearly, was appended to the doors and walls. The astonishment and dismay felt, and the laugh- 124 WHAT I REMEMBER. ter provoked, by those who were rash enough to do so, may be imagined ! IJpon the whole those autumn and winter months passed pleasantly, and have left pleasant recollections in my mem- ory. Doubtless there were many causes of anxiety for my elders ; but to the best of my remembrance they touched us young people very lightly. We had many more or less agreeable acquaintances, and I have a vivid recollection of the pleasure I received from the fact that they all belonged to types that were altogether new to me — if indeed it could be said of people, to me so apparently unclassifiable, that they belonged to any type at all. The cleverest among them was a Dr. Price, a very competent physician with a large practice, a foolish, friendly little wife, and a pair of pretty daughters. He was a jovial, florid, rotund little man who professed, more even, as I remember, to my as- tonishment than my horror, perfect atheism. His wife and daughters used to go to church without apparently producing the slightest interruption of domestic harmony. " La ! the doctor don't think anything more of the Bible than of an old newspaper!" Mrs. Price would say; "but then doctors, you know, they have their own opinions !" And the girls used to say, " Papa is an atheist," just as they would have said of the multiform persuasions of their acquaintances, " Mr. This is a Baptist," and " Mrs. That is a Methodist." And I remember well the confusion and displacement occasioned in my mind by finding that Dr. Price did not seem on the whole to be an abandoned man, and enjoyed to a high degree the respect of his townsmen. The two pretty daughters, girls of eighteen or nine- teen, used to have at their house frequent dances. We were constant and welcome guests, but, alas ! I was not — either then or ever since — a dancer ; the reason being pre- cisely the same as that which prevented my fighting at Winchester, as above recorded. I was too shy ! In other words, I had too low an opinion of myself, of my perform- ance as a dancer, should I attempt it, and, above all, of my acceptability as a partner, ever to overcome my diffidence. I was, as I have said when speaking of my earliest years, by no means a prepossessing child, and as a young man I VISIT TO AMERICA. 125 was probably less so. I had never any sort of pretension to good looks or to elegance of figure. I was five feet eight in height, and thick, sturdy, and ungainly in make, healthy and pure in complexion and skin as a baby, but with an "abbreviated nose" — as George Eliot says of me in finding me like a portrait of Galileo — and pale-colored, lanky hair. All which would not have signified a button if I could have been as ignorant of the facts in question as hundreds of my contemporaries, laboring under equal disadvantages, were in their own case ; but I was not ig- norant of these facts, and the consciousness of them con- stituted a most mischievous and disqualifying little repast off the tree of knowledge. It has, among many other re- sults, prevented me from ever dancing. I should have liked much, very much, to do so. I was abundantly well disposed to seek the society of the other sex. Though I never had a very perfect ear for tune, I had a markedly strong perception of time and feeling for rhythm, and therefore should probably have danced well. But the per- suasion that any girl whom I might have induced to dance with me would have far rather been dancing with some- body else was too much for me ! I should unquestionably have been a far happier young fellow if I had undoubtingly believed myself to have been adapted in all respects to attract the favorable attention and conciliate the liking of all I met. But can I even novv^, looking back over the vista of sixty years, regret that I was able to see myself as others saw me, and wish that I had inhabited that fool's paradise which is planted with conceits in place of insights? So I got no dancing with the Cincinnati girls. But there were theatricals, also, at the house of Dr. and Mrs. Price, and in those I did not refuse to join. It may seem that this would have been at least as great a trial to a shy man as any other form of self-exhibition; but it was not so. I think, so far as I am able at this distance of time to examine my mind upon the subject, it would have been impossible for me to attempt the representation of any per- sonage intended to be attractive to the spectator, or such as to be confounded in his mind with my own personality. 126 WHAT I REMEMBER. But it was proposed that I should act Falstaff in the "Mer- ry Wives of Windsor," and to this the difficulties referred to did not apply. I played Falstaff with immense success to an assuredly not very critical audience. My own im- pression, however, is, that I did it well. I think that I had reason to flatter myself, as I did flatter myself at the time, that all those who heard me understood the play and enjoyed the humor of the situations better than they had done before. I have played many parts since, on various stages, in different parts of the world, but that, I think, was my sole Shakesperian attempt. And the members of that merry and kindly theatrical company ! They have made their last exit from the larger boards we are all treading, every man and woman, every lad and lass of them. Not one but the old Falstaff of the company remains to write this chronicle of sixty years since ! There were very few formal meetings among the nota- bilities of the little Cincinnati world of that time, but there was an amount of homely friendliness that impressed me very favorably; and there was plenty of that generous and abounding hospitality which subsequent experience has taught me to consider an especially American charac- teristic. I have since that time shared the splendid hos- pitality of splendid American hosts, and I have been un- der American roofs where there was little save a heartfelt welcome to offer. But the heart-warming effect j^roduced by the latter was the same in both cases. How often have we all sat at magnificent boards where the host's too evi- dent delight consisted in giving you what you could not give him, and in the exulting manifestation of his magnif- icence. This is very rarely the feeling of an American host. He is thinking not of himself, but of you ; and the object he is striving at when giving you of his best is that you should enjoy yourself while under his roof ; that you should have, as he would phrase it, " a good time." And, upon my word, he almost invariably succeeds. Nor Avere the Cincinnati girls in 1829 like the New York belles of 1887. But there was much of the same charm about them, which arises from unaffected and un- VISIT TO AMERLCA. 127 self-regarding desire to please. American girls are ac- cused of being desperate flirts. But many an Englishman lias been deceived by imagining that the smiles and cheer- fulness and laughing chatter of some charming girl new to Europe were intended for his special benefit, when they were, in truth, only the perfectly natural and unaffected outcome of a desire to do her duty in that state of life to which it has pleased God to call her ! Only beams falling, like those of the sun, upon the just and the unjust alike ! There is another point on which Americans, both men and women, are very generally called over the coals by English people, as I think somewhat unreasonably. They are, it is said, everlastingly talking about the greatness and grandeur of their country, and never easy without ex- torting admissions of this. All this is to a great extent true ; at least to this extent, that an American is always pleased to hear the greatness of his country recognized. But when I remember the thoroughness with which that cardinal article of an Englishman's faith (sixty years ago !), that every Englishman could thrash three Frenchmen, was enforced with entire success on my youthful mind, I can hardly find it in my conscience to blame an American's pride in his country. Why, good heavens ! what an insen- sible block he would be if he was not proud of his country, to whose greatness, it is to be observed, each individ- ual American now extant has contributed in a greater de- gree than can be said to be the case as regards England and every extant Englishman ; inasmuch as our position has been won by the work of, say a thousand years, and his by that of less than a century. Surely the creation of the United States as they now exist within that time is such a feat of human intelligence and energy as the world has never before seen, and is scarcely likely to see again. I confess that the expression of American patriotism is never offensive to me. I feel somewhat as the old Cornish wrestler felt, who said, with immense pride, when he was told that his son had " whopped " the whole parish, " Ay, I should think so ! Why, he has whopped me afore now !" Yes ! I liked the Americans as I first made acquaintance with them almost among the backwoods at Cincinnati sixty 128 WHAT I REMEMBER. years ago ; and I like them as I have since known them better. For I have seen a great deal of them ; far more than an Englishman living at home would be likely to do, during my many years' residence in Italy. The American " colony," to use the common, though incorrect phrase, is large both at Florence and in Rome ; of late years fully as large, I think, as that from England. And not only do the two bodies associate indiscriminately with each other in perfect neighborliness and good-fellowship, but they do so, forming one single oasis in the midst of the surround- ing Continental life, in a manner which makes one con- stantly feel how infinitely nearer an American is to an Englishman in ideas, habits, ways, and civilization than either of them are to any other denizen of earth's surface. I was sorry when the time came for us to leave Cincin- nati, though, as usual with me, the prospect of the jour- ney, which we were to make by a different route from that by which we had travelled westward, was a joy and a con- solation. My father and I returned, leaving my mother, my two sisters, still quite children, and my brother Henry at Cincinnati. The proposed institution — bazaar, athenag- um, lecture-hall, or whatever it was to be, or to be called — had been determined on, and the site, to the best of my recollection, selected and purchased ; but nothing had yet been done towards raising the building. Contracts had been entered into, and my father was on his return to London to send out a quantity of goods for the carrying out of the commercial part of the scheme. He did so. But I had no share in or knowledge of the operations undertaken for this purpose, and may therefore as well relate here the upshot of the ill-fated enterprise. I learned subsequently that very large quantities of goods were sent out of kinds and qualities totally unfitted for the purpose. The building was duly raised, and I have been told by Americans who had seen it that it was a handsome and imposing one. But the net result was disaster and ruin. My father, having been educated to be a chancery barrister, was a good one. He became a farmer with no training or knowledge necessary for the calling, and it proved ruinous to him. He then embarked on this com- VISIT TO AMERICA. 129 mercial speculation, which, inasmuch as he was still more ignorant of all such matters than he was even of farming, turned out still more entirely disastrous. My father and I, as I have said, did not return from Cin- cinnati to New York by the same route by which we had travelled westward. We went by the lakes and Niagara, visiting, also, Trenton Falls en route. Had I written this page immediately after my journey, instead of sixty years after, I might have been justified in attempting — and no doubt should, in any case, have attempted — some descrip- tion of the great " water-privilege," which I saw as it will never be seen again. The two great cataclysms which have occurred since that time have entirely changed, and in a great measure spoiled, the great sight. And now, I am told, this " so-called nineteenth century" (as I read the other day in the fervid discourse of some pessimist orator) intends before it closes to utilize the lake as a mill-dam and the falls as so much " power." I remember that I enjoyed Trenton most. It appealed much less, of course, to the imagination and the sense of wonder, but far more to one's appreciation of the beau- tiful. Our Niagara visit was in a great measure spoiled by my father's illness. He was suffering from one of his worst sick-headaches. He dragged himself painfully to the usual spot near the hotel whence the fall is command- ed, and, having looked, got back to his bed. I had plenty of hours at my disposal for rambling in all directions, but, as usual with me, had not a coin of any sort in my pocket. The fall and its environs were not as jealously locked and gated and guarded as has been the case since ; but I was as- sured that I should be very unwise to attempt to penetrate below and behind the fall without a guide, and I should have been most willing to employ one had I possessed the means. But to lose the opportunity of enjoying a sight to which I had so eagerly looked forward was out of the question, and I did succeed in making my way by the slip- pery and rather terrible path behind the fall, rewarded by an effect of the sun on the sheet of falling water as perfect and admirable as if it had been ordered expressly for me, 6* 130 WHAT I REMEMBER. and none the worse for the enterprise save returning to the inn as thoroughly drenched as if I had been dragged through the fall ! Little enough I cared for that in those days! I may mention here ope of those singular coincidences which, though in reality so frequently occurring, are ob- jected to in a novelist's pages as passing the bounds of credibility. Many years after the date of my visit to Niagara the mother of ray present wife was there, and saw from the balcony of the hotel a boat with two rowers in it, who had incautiously approached too near the fall, carried over it ! Her account of the horror of the sight, and of the sudden and evident despair of the frantically struggling rowers was very impressive, and hardly less so when I heard it for the second time from an American met by chance in Italy, who, sitting in that same balcony at that same hour, had witnessed the same catastrophe ! At New York we were again most kindly and cordially received by Mr. Wilkes, who gave my father much advice respecting his projected Cincinnati venture — advice whol- ly, as I take it, ignored. Taught by experience, however, my father did not at- tempt a second steerage passage. We came back com- fortably enough, and had an entirely prosperous voyage, the result being that my remembrances of it are very far less vivid than those of my steerage experience. We reached England in March, and again took up our abode at Harrow Weald, where I, with such very imperfect means and appliances as were at my disposition, was to employ the abundant hours in preparing, in accordance with my own unassisted lights, for the university. Bad, however, as my father's circumstances were at this time, and little pleasant in any way as was our life in the farmhouse at Harrow Weald, I remember an excursion made by him and me, the only object of which, I think, could have been amusement. My father had an old friend named Skinner (no relative of the vicar of my uncle Meetkerke's parish of Julians, of whom I have spoken in a former chapter), who was the rector of a parish near Bath. He was a widower, living with an only daughter, VISIT TO AMERICA. 131 and was, I remember, an enthusiastic student of ancient British history in connection with the localities around him. One of the tw^o days we remained with him was de- voted to a visit to Cheddar Cliffs. Mr. Skinner mounted us, and we rode a partie carrhe^ he and my father. Miss Skinner and I, some twelve or fourteen miles to Cheddar. She was a pretty, bright girl, and I found her a charming companion in a scramble to the top of the cliffs overlook- ing the gorge through which the road runs. We became, indeed, such good friends, that, on our homeward ride, we gradually drew away from our respective parents nnd reached home a good half-hour before they did — which procured for us both a scolding for knocking the horses up. It was roughish riding, too, as I remember, for the road was very different from what I found it some months ago, when, revisiting Cheddar, I saw on the top of the hill a notice to bicycle riders that the descent is dangerous for them. CHAPTER IX. AT OXFORD. As the j^ear wore on without any prospect of a vacancy at New College, it became necessary to decide what should be done as regards sending me to the university. My father was very ill able to support the expense of this. But I had received from Winchester two exhibitions — all that the college had in its power to bestow — and he was very unwilling that I should be unable to avail my- self of them. Concomitantly with continued increase in the frequency and intensity of his headaches, my father's irritability of temper had increased to a degree which made him a very difficult person to live with. For simple assent to his utterances of an argumentative nature did not satisfy him ; he would be argued with. Yet argument produced irrita- bility leading to scenes of painful violence, which I had reason to fear hastened the return of his suffering. But the greatest good, in his opinion, that could then be achieved for me, was that I should have a university education ; ancl thiy he was steadfastly minded to pro- cure for me at any cost of pressure and privation. And then the question arose, at what college should I matriculate ? My father eventually selected Alban Hall — a singular and hardly a judicious choice in any case, but which un- der the circumstances, as they subsequently arose, proved a disastrous one. My father's financial position was at the time such that it would have seemed reasonable that he should have been in a great measure guided in his choice by the consideration of expense. But siich was not the case. For Alban Hall was at that time by no means a specially inexpensive place of academical residence. No ! the ruling motive was to place me under Whately, who AT OXFORD. 133 bad about four j'cars previously been appointed by Lord Granville Principal of Alb an Hall. My father, as I have mentioned, was a "Liberal," and Whately's Liberalism was the point in his character by which he was most known to the world in general. I do not think that any personal acquaintance, or even contact, had ever existed between my father and Whately. The connecting link I take to have been Whately's friend Senior. Whately's Liberalism certainly, and, I think I may say, mj^ father's also, would have made excellent Conservatism at the pres- ent day. But in those days the new principal of Alban Hall stood out in strong contrast with the intellectual attitude and habits of thought of Oxford. And this was the leading motive of my father's choice. I know not how the case may be now, but in those days it was* a decided disadvantage socially and academically to belong to any one of the "halls," instead of to a col- lege. But of all this side of Oxford life my father, who had been a New College man in the days when New Col- lege exercised its ancient privilege of presenting its mem- bers for their degree without submitting them for any ex- amination in the schools, knew nothing. In his day the New College man before the vice-chancellor for his degree, instead of using the formula prescribed for every other member of the university, to the effect that having satis- fied the examiners he begged his degree {2^eto gradwn), said, "Having satisfied my college, I demand my degree" (postulo gradum). This has long been voluntarily aban- doned by New College, which on the enactment of the new statute for examinations, of course, saw that the re- tention of it necessarily excluded them from "honors." But in the old day it had inevitably the effect of causing New College men to live very much in a world of their own. Alban Hall had been, previously to Whately's time, a sort of " refuge for the destitute " intellectually, or aca- demically ; as were for the most part the other halls at that period. This reproach Whately at once set himself to remove from Alban Hall, and had altogether removed by the time I joined the society. It would be difficult to 134 WHAT I REMEMBER. say what general operating influence had brought togeth- er the score or so of members who then constituted that society. They were certainly not intellectually superior to the average undergraduate of the time. Neither were they in any wise inferior in general respectability. But there was no coliesion, no general prevailing character. We seemed like a collection of waifs thrown together by as many different sets of circumstances as there were in- dividuals. I suppose all had been brought there by some personal connection with, or respect for, either Dr. Whate- ly, or for Mr. Hinds, the excellent vice-principal, who subsequently became Bishop of Norwich. There was, I remember, a knot of some three or four West Indians, who formed some little exception to what I have said of a general absence of cohesion. The time which I spent under Dr. Whately's authority and tuition led me to form a very exalted opinion of his intellectual capacity, high principle, and lofty determina- tion to do what he deemed to be his duty. But I do not think that he was the right man in the right place. His daughter. Miss Jane Whately, in her excellent and most interesting life of the archbishop, published some twenty years ago, writes: " Teaching was, indeed, the occupation most peculiarly suited to his powers and tastes, lie had a remarkable faculty of drawing out the mind of the learner, by leading him step by step, and obliging him to think for himself. He used to say that he believed himself to be one of the few teachers who could train a young person of retentive memory for words, without spoiling him. The temptation to the student in such cases is to rehearse by rote the rules or facts he had learned, without exercis- ing his powers of thought ; while one whose powers of recollection were less perfect would be forced to reflect and consider what was likely to be written or said on such a point by the writer, and thus to learn more in- telligently and less mechanically. The cure for this tendency in young persons who learned quickly by rote he effected by asking them questions, substantially the same as those in the text-book, but which they must an- swer in their own words, making them draw conclusions from axioms already laid down. In this manner he was able successfully to teach mathe- matics to many who had been apparently unable to master the first prin- ciples, and often to ground them in the elements of Euclid, better than some mathematicians whose actual attainments were far beyond his own. Both in this branch and in logic, as in all other studies, he always com- AT OXFORD. 135 menced analytically and ended synthetically; first drawing out the mind of the learner, by making him give the substance of the right answer, and then requiring the exact technical form of it in words." This must strike all, who remember Whately's teaching, as evidently true. But it in no wise leads me to modify the opinion above expressed as to his adaptation for the position in which I knew him. The style of teaching de- scribed by his biographer, if ever suitable at all for a col- lege lecture-room, could only be so in the case of a collec- tion of pupils far superior intellectually to those with whom (with one or two exceptions, notably that of Mr. Wall, whose subsequent career at Oxford did credit to his Alban Hall training) Dr. Whately had to deal. Miss Whately describes a teacher whose influence in tete-d-tete teaching over a clever pupil would be quite invaluable. But he was always firing far over the heads of his hearers 'y and I do not think that his method was adapted to driv- ing, pushing, hustling an idle and very backward and un- prepared collection of youths through their "little-go" and " pass," quod erat in votis. Most of this necessary driving fell to the share of Hinds, who was fitted for far higher work, but was patient, kind, laborious, and con- scientious to the utmost degree. Miss Whately's book, mainly by virtue of the great number of the archbishop's letters contained in it, suc- ceeds in giving a very just and vivid notion of her father's character and tone of mind. She is hardly justified, I think, by facts, in speaking of the " delicacy of his con- sideration for the feelings of others." A little circum- stance that I well remember scarcely seems to indicate the possession of any such quality. It was about the time when the then burning question of parliamentary reform was exercising the minds of all men. A large party of un- dergraduates were dining at Whately's table — such invi- tations were usually given by him in every term — and Mrs. Whately, at the head of the long table, was asking the young man who sat next her what was the general opinion in the hall on the Reform question, when Whate- ly, who at the bottom of the table had overheard her, called out, " Why don't you ask what the bedmakers 136 WHAT I REMEMBER. think ?" I have little doubt that the opinion of the bed- makers might have been ascertained with an equal, or perhaps greater, degree of profit. But I cannot think that the principal showed much " delicacy of considera- tion " for the feelings of his guests. Perhaps a degree of roughness akin to this, though hardly altogether of the same sort, contributed to increase that strong feeling of dislike for Whately which, outside his own Oriel, was pretty generally felt in Oxford, and which was mainly caused by more serious objections to his political,, and in some degree religious, liberalism. I fear that I profited very little by his tuition at Alban Ilal], doubtless chiefly from my own fault and idleness. But other causes contributed also to the result. The classical lectures were such as I had left a long way be- hind me. No study on my part was necessary to hold my own in the lecture-room by the side of my fellows in the team. Yet, of course, it was easy for such a teacher as Whately to perceive that I w^as trusting to Winchester work rather than to his instruction. And naturally this did not please him. I think, too, that he had a prejudice against public schools in general, and that for some reason or other he disliked Winchester in particular. I remem- ber his saying to me once — though 1 totally forget on what occasion — " We don't want any New-College ways here, sir !" I told him that I feared I did not deserve the compliment of being supposed capable of bringing any such there. And the reply failed to mollify him. Those who are old enough to remember anything of the social aspects of Oxford at that day, and, indeed, any who have read the excellent biography of Archbishop Whately by his daughter, know that he was exceedingly unpopular among "the dons," his contemporaries. This was due partly to the opinions he held on matters social, political, and religious, partly to those which prejudiced minds far inferior to his own supposed him to hold, but partly also to his own personal ways and manners. I think I know, and indeed I think I knew when I was his pupil, enough of the fibre and calibre of his mind to feel sure that he was greatly the intellectual superior to most of those of AT OXFORD. 13^ similar position around him. And I suppose that the world in general has by this time come to the conclusion tliat in respect of most of those opinions, which were then most obnoxious to the world in which he lived, Whately was right and his adversaries wrong. But he was not the man to win acceptance for new ideas in any society. The temper of his mind was in a high degree autocratical. He was born to be a benevolent and beneficent despot. His daughter, speaking of the painful experiences that awaited him when he became Archbishop of Dublin, says that " op- j^osition was painful to his disposition." Doubtless the principal of Alban Hall, thoroughly con- genial to him as was at that time the social atmosphere of the common room of his own Oriel, would have felt him- self much out of his element in most of the common rooms of Oxford. I remember a dear old man. Dr. Johnson, of Magdalen, who was greatly beloved by his own society, and a universal favorite with all who knew him. He was a high, though not altogether dry, right divine man {divino rightly spelled, be it understood, and not with an " e," as in jure de vino), and used to maintain that the lineal descendants of the last Stuarts were still the right- ful sovereigns of England. Sometimes a knot of young- sters would cluster around him, with, " But now. Dr. Johnson, do you really and truly believe that the present Duke of Modena is your lawful sovereign?" "Well, boy," the doctor would say when thus pressed, " after din- ner I do.'''* This was not the sort of man whom Whately would have tolerated, for though full of wit, as I have said, he was utterly devoid of any tincture of humor. Those were the days when it used to be said that the rule at Magdalen respecting preferment tenable together with a fellowship, was, "Hold your tongue, and you may hold anything else." It was supposed, I remember, at that day that there was to a certain special degree an antagonism and dislike between him and Dr. Shuttleworth, the warden of New College. There was a story current to the effect that the brusquerie of the principal of Alban Hall v/as upon one 138 WHAT I REMEMBER. occasion exhibited in an offensive manner in the drawing- room of the warden of New College, when not only men but ladies were present. Whately had a habit of sit- ting in all sorts of uncouth postures on his chair. He would balance himself, while nursing one leg over the knee of the other, on the two hind legs of his chair, or even on one of them, and was indulging in gymnastics of this sort when the leg of the chair suddenly snapped, and he, a large and heavy man, rolled on the floor. He was a man of far too much real pith and aplomb to be unneces- sarily disconcerted at such an accident. But the story ran that he manifested his disregard for it by simply toss- ing the offending and crippled chair into a corner, and taking another as he proceeded with what he was saying without one word of apology to his hostess. If it was true that there was any such special feeling of antagonism between Whately and Shuttle worth, it was a pity; for assuredly there were very few, if any, men among the heads of colleges of that day better calculated by power and originality of mind, and in many respects by liberality of thinking, to understand and foregather with Whately than the warden of New College. Shuttleworth was, and had the reputation of being, an especially witty man. And I consider Whately to have been the wittiest man I ever knew. But it is true that their wit was of a very different character. Whately was not a man fitted to shine in society, unless it were the so- ciety of those prepared by knowledge of and regard for him to recognize his undisputed right to be the acknowl- edged leader of it. Shuttleworth was, on the contrary, eminently calculated to contribute more than his share to the most brilliant social intercourse. He had, with abun- dance of solid sweetmeat at the bottom of the trifle, a sparkling store of that froth of wit which is most accepted as the readiest and pleasantest social small change. Whate- ly's wit was not of the kind which ever set any " table on a roar." It was of that higher and deeper kind, which consists in prompt perception, not of the superficial resem- blances in dissimilar things, but in the underlying resem- blances disclosed only to the eye capable of appreciating AT OXFORD. 139 at a glance the essential qualities and cliaracteristics of the matter in hand. I have heard Whately deliciously witty at a logic or Euclid lecture. An admirable specimen of this highest description of wit is given — among dozens of others indeed — by his daugh- ter in her biography of him, which delighted me much when I read it, and which may be cited because it is very brilliant and may be given shortly. It will be Tound at the thirty-eighth page of the first volume of Miss Whate- ly's work. The archbishop, writing of the controversy respecting the observance of the Sabbath, says, "This is a case in which men impose on themselves by the fallacy of the thaumatrope. On one side are painted (to obviate the absurdity of a probable law) the plain, earnest, and re- peated injunctions to the Jews relative to their Sabbath ; on the other side (to obviate the consequence of our hav- ing to keep the Jewish Sabbath) Ave have the New Testa- ment allusions to the Christian assemblies on the first day of the week. By a repeated and rapid twirl these two im- ages are blended into one picture in the mind. But a steady view will show that they are on opposite sides of the card." I remember a favorite saying of Whately's to the effect that the difficulty of giving a good definition of anything increased in proportion to the commonness of the thing to be defined. And he would illustrate his dictum by saying "Define me a teacup !" A trial of the experiment will probably convince the experimenter of the correctness of Whately's proposition. Whether it may have been that any antagonism be- tween Whately and Shuttleworth caused the former to be prejudiced against Wiccamical things and men, or whether the relationship of the two feelings were vice versa, I can- not say. But I certainly thought, and think still, that I suffered in his estimation from the fact that I was a Wykehamist. In writing on educational matters in or about 1839 (page 79 of Miss Whately's first volume), Whately says : " To compare schools generally with col- leges generally may seem a vague inquiry, but take the most in repute of each — Eton, Westminster, Harrow, etc., V. Oriel, Brasenose, Balliol, Christchurch, etc., etc." 140 WHAT I REMEMBER. ISTow, I cannot but feel that so singular an omission of Winchester from so short a list of the schools " most in repute," glaringly in contradiction as it was with all that the whole English world — even the non-academical world — knew to be the fact, could have been caused only by preconceived and unreasoning prejudice. Of course to me the utterance above quoted comes only as a confirma- tion of \^hat the personal observation of my undergradu- ate days led me to feel, for I knew nothing of it till I read Miss Whately's volumes published in 1886. Yet I do not doubt tbat I may have occasionally " rubbed Whately the Avrong way," as the phrase goes. He was, as I have said, a most autocratically minded man. And we Wykehamists, as the reader may have perceived from my Winchester reminiscences, were not accustomed to be ruled autocraticall3^ We lived under the empire, and I might almost say, in an atmosphere of law, as dis- tinguished from individual will. It was constantly in our minds and on our tongues, that the *' informator'''' or the " hostiarius " could or could not do this or that. We lived with the ever-present consciousness that the suprema lex was not what this master or the other master, or even the warden might say, save in so far as it coincided with the college statutes. And I doubt not that Whately per- ceived and understood the influence of this habit of mind in something or other that I might have said or done. It was probably something of the sort Avhich led to his telling me that he wanted no New- College manners at Alban Hall. My " Winchester manners," however, enabled me, I re- member, to understand him when some of his own flock could not. He would at a Euclid lecture say, "Take any straight line," scrawling, as he said the words, a line as far from straight as he could draw it, to the utter bewil- derment of some among his audience, who, I believe, really thought that the principal was a shocking bad draughtsman, wlnle the despised Wykehamist perfectly understood that his object was to show that the process of reasoning to be illustrated in no wise depended on ac- curacy of lines or angles. AT OXFORD. 141 There is another passage in one of the letters published by his biographer which illustrates Whatelj^'s aversion to all Wiccamical men and things, and at the same time his utter ignorance of them. "It is commonly said at Oxford," he writes, "at least it used to be, that it was next to impossible to make a Wykehamist believe that any examination could be harder than that which the candi- dates for New College undergo." My reader has already been told in some degree what that examination was, and the nature of it. It was a real and serious examina- tion, whereas that of candidates for admission to Winches- ter College was a mere form ; and it was certainlj^ a searching examination into the thoroughness with which schoolboys had done their schoolboy work. But the sup- position that any New -College man ever imagined his examination in election chamber to be of equal difficulty with the subsequent work at the university, or with that in the schools for honors, is an absolute proof that the per- son so supposing never knew anything about them, or had come much into contact with them. I have said that Whately's reputation for a very pro- nounced Liberalism, certainly at that time unparalleled among his brother heads of houses at Oxford, had been my father's reason for placing me at Alban Hall. And all that reached the undergraduate world in connection with him was of a nature to lead the academic mind to regard him as a phenomenon of Radicalism. And it is cu- rious to recall such impressions, while reading at the pres- ent day such a passage as the following (" Life of Whate- ly," vol. i. p. 302). The archbishop is writing about the schemes then in agitation for the application of a portion of the revenues of the Irish Church to the purposes of national education. The italics in the following transcrip- tion are mine. " It is concluded, first, that in parishes where there is a very small, or no Protestant population, the revenues of the Church will be either wholly, or in part, as the case may be, transferred to the education board, as the incum- bents drop, their life-interests being reserved ; secondly, that in the event of an increase of the Protestant popula- 142 WHAT I KEMEMBER. tion, such portion of the funds thus alienated as may be thought requisite shall be drawn from the education board, and restored to the original purpose ; thirdly, that in the event of a further diminution of the Protestants, a further portion shall be withdrawn from the Church, and applied to the purpose of general education. This last supposition is merely conjectural, but is so strictly the converse of the preceding, that every one at once concludes, and must conclude by parity of reasoning, that it must be contem- plated. Now it will not be supposed by any one, who knows much of the state of Ireland, that we contemplate as probable any such increase of the Protestant popula- tion as to call for the restoration of a considerable portion of the alienated funds. In a few places, perhaps, attempts may be made, I fear with disastrous results, by some zeal- ous Protestant landlords to increase, with this view, the proportion of Protestants on their estates ; but on the whole we neither hope nor fear any such result. What alarms us is, the holding out the principle of such a sys- tem as the apportioning the revenues of the Church and of the education board to the varying proportions of the Roman Catholic population to the Protestant; and again, the principle of making the funds for national education contingent upon the death of incumbents. The natural effect of the latter of these provisions must be to place the clergy so circumstanced in a most invidious, and ^>^ this country a onost dangerous situation. JSTo one lolio hnows anything of Ireland woidd like to reside here sur- rounded by his heirs, on whom his income was to devolve at his death. And such looidd he very tnuch the case with an incumbent, who was regarded as standing beticeen the nation and the national benefit^ viz., of provision for the education of their children. Then in respect of the other point, every Protestant who might come to settle, or remain settled in any parish, woidd be regarded as tending towards the loitJidrawing or withholding, as the case might be, of the funds of the national education, and diverting them to the use of cm heretical establishment. " The most harassing persecutions, the most ferocious outrages, the most systematic murders, woidd in conse- AT OXFORD. 143 qiieoice he increased fourfold. Bitter as religious animosi- ties have hitherto been in this loretched country, it loould be to 7iiost persons astonishiyig that they coidd he so much augme7itedy as I have no douht they would he, hy this fatal experiment. When instead of mere vague jealousy, revenge and party spirit, to prompt to crime and violence, there-was also held out a distinct pecuniary 7iational benefit in the extermination of Protestants, it icoidd he in fact a price set on their heads, and they woidd he hunted doimi like icolves. . . . Better, far better, would it be to confiscate at once and forever all the endowments held by the clergy, and leave them to be supported by voluntary contribution, or by manual labor. However impoverished, they and their congregations woidd at least have security for their lives.^^ " To seek to pacify Ireland,'''' he writes a little further on, " by compliance and favor shovm to its disturbers woidd be even loorse than the superstitious procedure of our fore- fathers loith their weapon salve, icho left the loound to itself and applied their unguents to the sword lohich had inflicted it:' Writing to his friend Senior on Parliamentary Reform, he says that a system of ten-pound qualification " could not last, but must go on to universal suffrage." His own plan would be universal suffrage with a plurality of votes to owners of property in proportion to the amount of it, and a system of election by degrees — parishes, e. g., to elect an elector. " Some may," he concludes, " perhaps think at the first glance that my reform is very democratical. I think that a more attentive mind will show that it is calculated to prevent in the most effectual way the inroads of excessive democracy. I can at least say that no one can dread more than myself a democratical government, chiefly because I am convinced it is the more warlike." Such were the utterances of an advanced Liberal in the first half of this century. Was I far wrong in saying that Whately's Liberalism would have made very good modern Conservatism? There was a story current, I remember, not long after Whately's acceptance of the see of Dublin, which, as I do not think it has been told in print, and as it is very 144 WHAT I REMEMBER. significant, I may tell here — observing that all I know is, that the story loas current. It was at the time when one of the great transatlantic passenger ships had been destroyed by fire with the loss of many lives. One of those saved was a Dublin clergy- man of the Low-Church school of divinity, who, returning to Dublin, and finding himself the hero of many tea-tables, was wont to moralize down the great event of his life after the fashion of those who will have it, quand meme^ that the tower of Siloam did fall because of the wickedness of those whom it crushed. And one da}^, at one of those levees of which Miss Whately speaks, he was improving his usual theme, the centre of a knot gathered around him, when the archbishop strolled up to the group, according to his fashion, and having heard, said : " Yes, truly Mr. , a most remarkable experience ! But I think I can cap it" (a faVorite phrase of Whately's, who was fond of the amusement of capping verses). " It is little more than a month ago that I crossed from Holyhead to Kingston, and by God's mercy the vessel never caught fire at all .^" I cannot bring to an end my reminiscences relating to so remarkable a man as Whately without relating a story, which he told me, as having been told him by his old and highly valued friend and protege^ Blanco White, once so well known a figure among all the Oriel set of that period. The story was introduced, I remember, as an illustration of a favorite (and doubtless correct) theory of Whately's to the effect that the popular English "hocus pocus," as applied to any sleight-of-hand deception, is simply a de- risory corruption of the " hoe est corpus " used in the Ro- mish liturgical formula for the consecration of the eucha- ristic elements. It may be that the story in question has been told in print before now, but I have never met with it. "A priest," said Blanco White, "was for some heinous crime condemned to capital punishment at Seville. But of course before he could be delivered over to the secular arm for the execution of the sentence, a ceremonial degra- dation from his sacerdotal character had to be performed. And this was to be done at the place appointed for his execution immediately before that was proceeded to ; and AT OXFORD. 145 for the greater efficacy of the terrible example to be in- culcated on the people, the market-day at Seville had been chosen for the purpose. " The criminal priest accordingly, as he was led to the place of execution, was still to all effects and purposes a priest, with all the tremendous powers inherent in that character, of which nothing save formal ecclesiastical deg- radation could deprive him. Now it so happened, or per- haps was purposely arranged, that the way from the prison to the place of execution lay through the market-place, where all the provisions of all sorts for the Sevillians for that day were exposed. And as the yet undegraded, and it must be feared unrepentant, priest passed among all the various displays of food thus spread out before him, the devil, seizing an opportunity rarely to be matched, entered into the unhappy priest's mind, and prompted him to deal one last malicious and sacrilegious blow at the population about to witness his miserable end. Suddenly, in the mid-market, he stretched out his arms, and pronounced with a loud voice the uncancellable sacramental words, ' Hoc EST CORPUS !' And all the contents of that vast market were instantaneously transubstantiated ! All the food in Seville was forthwith unavailable for any baser than eucharistic purposes, and Seville had to observe the vindictive priest's last day on earth as a very rigorous fast- day!" Whether Blanco White told this as absolutely having occurred within his own knowledge, or only as a Seville legend, 1 do not know, but in any case the story is a good one. I have said that when I entered Alban Hall I was not in a position to obtain much profit from the classical lec- tures, the main object of which was to drive those who attended them through the examination for the "little go." I was better able to pass that examination when I first went to Oxford than when the time came for my doing so. But the examination in question required that the candidate for passing should take up either logic or Euclid (four books only, as I remember), and of neither of these did I know anything. And there the Alban Hall 1 146 WHAT I KEMEMBER. lectures profited me. The admirably lucid logic lectures of both the principal and vice-principal, to my surprise, soon rendered the rationale of the science perfectly com- prehensible to me, and even Aldrich became interesting. I selected logic for my '' little go," and Whately made me abundantly able to satisfy the examiners. But, as I said a few pages back, my membership of Al- ban Kail was, for more reasons than those which have been already given, disastrous to me, and the disaster came about in this wise. Whately w^as, rightly and judiciously enough, very par- ticular in requiring that his men should return after vaca- tion punctually on the day appointed for meeting. Now, unfortunately, my father on one occasion detained me un- til the following day. What the cause may have been I entirely forget, but remember perfectly w^ell that it was in no way connected with any plans or wishes of mine. I returned a day late, and the penalty which Whately had enacted for this laches was the payment of a certain sum to his servant — the porter, buttery -man, and factotum at the hall. What the amount of this penalty was, and wdiether it were large or small, I have entirely forgotten, if I ever knew, for the whole matter in dispute passed be- tween my father and Whately. The former maintained, whether rightly or wrongly 1 have not the means of know- ing, that the latter acted ultra vires in making any such motu projorio edict. There was no likelihood that Whate- ly would yield in the matter — indeed it Avould have been out of the question that he should have done so. My fa- ther had quite as little of yielding in his nature, and kicked against the pricks determinedly. The result was that I was one morning summoned to the presence of the princi- pal, and told to take my name off the books ! My father was at first disposed to forbid me to do so, but the result of refusal would have been expulsion, w^hich would have en- tailed ruinous consequences, much vv'orse than the already sufficiently injurious results of being compelled to quit the hall. I should immediately have lost the two valuable exhibitions which I held from Winchester, besides incur- ring the very damning stigma that through life attaches AT OXFORD. 147 to a man wLo lias been expelled. Eventually I took my name oif the books under menace of expulsion if I did not. The case attracted a good deal of attention in the uni- versity at the time, and I think the general feeling among the heads of colleges was that Whately was wrong. At all events, without going into the question as between my father and him, it was emphatically a case of Delirant reges, plectuntur Achivi. From beginning to end the whole matter passed over my head. I had neither fault nor option in the matter. And Whately knew perfectly well how very great was the injury he was inflicting on me. It was nearly impossible to get admission, under the circumstances, to any college. The great majority of them could not possibly, even if any one of them had wished to do so, receive a man at a minute's notice, from absolute want of room, and the wrong that Avould have been done to others who were waiting for admission. But it would have been entirely contrary to the rules and prac- tice of almost, if not quite, every one of them to receive a man compelled to leave another college, even with a formal bene decessit. And the interval of a term (or even of a day, I take it in strictness) would have necessarily in- volved the forfeiture of my exhibitions. AH which Whate- ly also knew ; but all of which, as he might have fairly answered, my father knew also ! Eventually I was received at Magdalen Hall, which has since that day become Hertford College, of which Dr. Macbride was then principal. Dr. Macbride was one of the kindliest and best men in the world, and he was one of those who most strongly felt that I was being very hardly used. It was with difficulty that it could be managed that I should be received into his society at a day's notice ; but, looking to the urgency as well as to the other circum- stances of the case, it loas managed somehow, and I be- came a member of Magdalen Hall. But the mischief done to my university career was fatal ! Magdalen Hall was at that time a general refuge for the destitute ! Dr. Macbride, well known for his active be- nevolence and beneficence in various spheres of well-doing on the outside of his academical character, was hardly well 148 WHAT I REMEMBER. adapted for the position lie held in the university. Any- thing of the nature of punishment seemed impossible to the gentleness of his character; and I fancy he held theo- retically that it was desirable that a place such as his hall should exist in the university to serve as a refuge for those who, without being black sheep, were, for a variety of rea- sons, pushed aside from the beaten tracks of the academi- cal career. I made very little acquaintance with the men there ; but I do not think there were many, though no doubt some, black sheep among them. There was another hall in the university at that time famous for the " fastness " of its inmates. But the " shadiness " of Masfdalen Hall was of o a different kind. There were many middle-aged men there — ci-deimiit officers in the army, who had quitted their profession w^ith the intention of entering the Church ; schoolmasters, who, having begun their career in some ca- pacity which did not require a degree, were at a later day anxious to obtain one in order to better themselves. In general, the object of all there was not education or any other object save simply a degree needed for some social or economical purpose. " Honors " were, of course, about as much aspired to as bishoprics ! And it was the busi- ness of Mr. Jacobson — the gentle, kindly, patient, and long-suffering vice - principal — to secure " a pass " for as many of his heterogeneous flock as possible. Of discipline there could hardly be said to have been any. AYhen other men of the kick-over-the-traces sort told their stories of various surreptitious means of enter- ing college at all sorts of hours, Magdalen Hall men used to say that their plan was to ring at the gate and have it opened for them ! I remember upon one occasion, when I had shown myself in chapel only on the Sunday morning during an entire week, the vice-principal mildly remarked, " You have reduced it to a minimum, Mr. Trollope !" I suppose that in classical attainments I was much superior to any man in the place. There were many, it is true, .who were never seen at lecture at all — not, probably, from idleness, but because they were obtaining from a private tutor a course of cramming more desperately en- AT OXFORD. 149 ergetic than even kindly, patient Jacobson's elementary lectures could supply. For me the res angusta domi for- bade all idea of employing a private tutor. But as for a "pass" degree, I was just as capable of taking it when I left Winchester (with the exception of logic, and what was called " divinity ") as when I did take it ; and as re- gards logic, I was sufficiently capable when I left Whate- ly's hands. If my *' divinity " examination had consisted of as searching an inquiry into my knowledge of the con- tents of the Old Testament as was required from many men, I should infallibly have been " plucked." But, as it chanced, it consisted solely of construing two verses of the New Testament. I remember that the examiner had been hammering away at the man next before me for an inordinate time, and as I construed my Greek Testament glibly enough he was glad to make up for lost time. As for Jacobson's lectures, they were absolutely useless to me, and he never in the slightest degree pressed me to attend them. I remember, however, that he desired an interview with me on the morning I w^as to go into the schools, for the purpose of testing in some degree the probability of my passing. And it is a singular circum- stance that — Horace having been one of the books I was taking up — he put me on, as a trial, at the very passage selected for the same purpose by the examiner in the schools an hour or two later ! Jacobson found me able enough to deal with the passage he selected. But had it been otherwise he would have secured my passing — as far as Horace was concerned — despite any amount of igno- rance of the author, if only I had the wit to remember his cramming for an hour or two. Eventually, though I had in no wise aimed at anything of the sort, a third class was awarded to me — wholly, as I was given to understand, on account of my Latin writ- ing. The examiners had given — hardly judiciously — so stiff a passage from one of the homilies to be translated into Latin that the majority of the men could not under- stand the English; which, to a certain extent, interfered with their translation of it into another language. They were "pass men"! With the candidates for honors it 150 WHAT I REMEMBER. would doubtless have been otherwise. But I did under- stand it, and I took it into my head to translate it twice — once into Ciceronian and once into Sallustian Latin. And this was rewarded by a third class. YaUat quantum ! And thus ended my academical career in a comparative failure, the conclusion of which seemed to have been rather a foregone one. I had no private tutor, and, with the ex- ception of Whately's logic lectures, no college tuition of any value to me at all. And in addition to all this I was pulled up by the roots and transplanted in the middle of my career. No doubt I was idle, and might have done better. I read a good deal, but it was what I chose to read, and not what I ought to have read with a view to the schools. I had no very unacademical pursuits save one. I used occasionally to hire with a friend a gig with a fast horse, drive out to Witney, dine there, wait till the up-mail came through, and tlien run back to Oxford, tor- menting the coachman and his team by continually run- ning by him, letting him pass me, and then da capo. But these escapades were rare. A great deal more wine, or what was supposed to be such, was drunk at Oxford in those days than was desira- ble, or than, as I take it, is the case now. But I never was much of a wine-drinker. I think I have been drunk twice in my life, but not oftener. Very little credit, how- ever, is due to me for my moderation, from the fact, which I do not think I ever met with in the case of any other individual, that the headache which to most others comes the next morning as the penalty of excess, always used to come to me, if I at all exceeded, seance teoiante, and al- most immediately. Nor did wine ever pleasurably raise my spirits, nor did my palate care for it. To the present day, as a simple question of goitrmaoidise, I would rather drink a glass of lemonade than any champagne that was ever grown — lemonade, by-the-bye, not such liquid as goes by that name in this country, but lemonade made with lemons fresh and fragrant from the tree. Under these circumstances I can make small claim to any moral virtue for my sobriety. I used to be a good deal upon the water, either alone or AT OXFORD. 151 accompanied by a single friend with a pair of sculls. But I was a great walker, and cultivated in those days, and, indeed, during most of the many years that have passed since, a considerable turn of speed. In those days Captain Barclay was called the champion pedestrian of England, and had walked six miles within the hour. I hear people talk of eight and even nine miles having been done within the hour, but I absolutely refuse to believe the statement. I dare say that the ground may have been covered, but not at a fair vKilh — at what used to be called, and perhaps is called still, a toe-and-heel walk, i. c, a walk in perform- ing which one foot must touch the ground before the other leaves it. I tried very hard to match Captain Bar- clay's feat, but my utmost endeavors never achieved more than five miles and three quarters — I could never do more ; and, of course, that last quarter of a mile just made all the difference between a first-rate and a second-rate walker. The five and three quarters I have often done on the Ab- ingdon Road, milestone to milestone. And at the present day I should be happy to Avalk a match with any gentle- man born in 1810. The longest day's walk I ever did was forty-seven miles, but I carried a very heavy knapsack, making, I take it, that distance fully equal to sixty miles without one. How well I remember walking, one fair, frosty morning, from Winchester to Alresford, seven miles, before breakfast. I asked at the inn at which I breakfasted for cold meat. They brought me an uncut loin of small Southdown mut- ton, of which I ate the whole. And I can sec now the glance of that waiter's eye, accusing me, as plainly as if he had spoken the w^ords, of pocketing his master's provi- sions ! Eheu! fugaceSj Posthume, PostJiunie, lahuntur a7ini, and I never shall again eat a loin of mutton at one sitting ! partly, though, because scientific breeding has ex- terminated the good old Southdown mutton. One other reminiscence occurs to me in connection with the subject of walking. While I was living with my par- ents at Harrow, my mother's brother, Mr. Henry Milton, was living with his family at Fulham. And one Sunday mornincf I v/alked from Harrow to Fulham before break- 152 WHAT I REMEMBER. fast on a visit to him. As may be supposed, I was abun- dantly ready to do ample justice to tlie very solid and varied breakfast placed before me, but, after having done so, was hardly equally ready to accompany my uncle's family to Fulham Church to hear the Bishop of London preach. This, however, it behooved me to do, not without great misgiving as to the effect that the bishop's sermon might have on me after my twelve miles' walk and very copious breakfast — especially as my uncle's pew was exactly in front and in the vicinity of the pulpit ! So, minded to do my best under the difficult circumstances, I stood up dur- ing the sermon. All in vain ! Nature too peremptorily bade me sleep. I slept, with the result of executing an uninterrupted series of profound bows to the preacher, the suddenness and jerky nature of which evidently betokened the entirety of my agreement with his arguments. I feared the reproaches, which I doubted not awaited me on my way home. But my uncle contented himself with saying, " When you go to sleep during a sermon, Tom, never stand up to do it !" To sum up the story of my certainly unsuccessful but not entirely profitless life at Oxford, I may say that I was not altogether an idle man, nor ever in any degree a sharer in any of the "faster" phases of academical life. I was always a reader. But what academical good could come to a man who was reading " The Diversions of Purley," or Plot's " Oxfordshire," or Burton's " Anatomy of Melan- choly," or Brown's " Vulgar Errors," when he ought to have been reading Aristotle's " Ethics " ? Among other reminis- cences of the sort, my diary accuses me, for instance, for having taken from the library of Magdalen Hall (and read !) a volume called " Gaffarel's Curiosities." I suppose no other living man has read it ! The work contains among other " curiosities," a chapter " of incredible nonsense," as my diary calls it, on the construction and proper use of Talis- mans ! Alas, no "honors" were granted for proficiency in such studies ! CHAPTER X-. OLD DIARIES. Befoee quitting a phase of my life which many, if not most, old men are wont to look back on as their happiest time, but which I, by so considering, should grievously wrong many a subsequent period, I may string together at random a few notes from my diaries, which may seem to contribute some touch or trait to the story of the way we lived sixty years since. The way men lived in Germany at that date I find given in a letter from the Baron de Zandt to my mother, as fol- lows : " In many parts of Germany," says the baron, who, as I very well remember, understood what good living was, " a man may be boarded and lodged comfortably for £26 a year. If he prefers economy to comfort, it might be done for considerably less." From the journal of a walking tour in South Devon, performed in the year 1831, 1 take the well-nigh incredible statement, that no tobacconist ex professo could at that date be found in Plymouth ! *' I succeeded after some research," says tbe diary, "in getting some tolerable to- bacco from a chjmiist." Doubtless plenty of tobacco was to be had, if I had known where to look for it — at chan- dlers' shops and taverns. But I have no doubt that the statement in the fifty-five-year-old " text " is correct. No tobacconist's shop was then to be found in Plj^nouth. In July, 1832, I was walking in Wales, and reaching Caermarthen in assize time (where Judge Alderson, as is recorded, was trying prisoners on the Crown side), found much difliculty in getting any accommodation for bed or even board. But at length a commercial gentleman at the Ivy Bush, the principal inn, " entering into conversa- tion in a patronizing sort of way, told me it was a Aerror to suppose that commercial men were ^adverse to gentle- 154 WHAT I REMEMBER. men making use of the commercial room, provided tBey ^oas gentlemen. For himself, he was always most 'appy to associate with gentlemen ;" and, in fine, invited me to join their table, which I did at two o'clock. One of the assembled party — there were some fifteen or sixteen of them — was formally named president for the day, and took the head of the table. We were excruciatingly gen- teel. I, in my ignorance, asked for beer, but was with much politeness informed that malt liquor was not used at their table. Every man was expected to consume a pint of most atrocious sherry at 5s. 6c?., which I suppose compensated the landlord for the wonderfully small price of the dinner. A dinner of three courses, consisting of salmon, chicken, venison, three or four made dishes, and pastry, was put before us. I was surprised at the gor- geousness of this feast, and began to have alarming antici- pations of the amari aliquid which must follow. But I was assured that this was the ordinary every-day fare of the "commercial gentlemen," and the bill for the repast was two shillings ! My diary records that the conversa- tion at table in no wise savored of trade in any of its branches. Shakespeare and Walter Scott were descanted on in turn, and one dapper little man, who travelled in cutlery, averred that Sir Walter had on one occasion been exceedingly polite to him, and he should always say to the end of his life that he was a gentleman. At Dolgelly I Avas struck by the practice prevailing there of tolling, after the ringing of the curfew, a number of strokes on the biggest bell equal to the number of the days which had elapsed of the current month. I wonder whether they do so still ? I went out of my way, I find, in the course of the same journey, in order to go from Liverpool to Manchester by the new railway, which to me, as to thousands of others, was an object of infinite curiosity and interest. My diary notes that there were fifteen carriages attached to the en- gine, each carrying twelve passengers. Two of these were first-class, and the fare for the journey to Manchester in them was 5s. ; in the others the fare was 35. Qd. The train I was to travel by was called a second-class train. The OLD DIARIES. 155 first-class trains carried no second-class passengers, and did the journey of fifty-two miles in one hour and a half. They stopped only once on the way. The second-class trains stopped frequently, and were two hours on the road. I estimated the speed at something over twenty- five miles an hour, and remark in my diary that "that im- mense rapidity was manifested to the senses only by look- ing at the objects passed." At Manchester I find myself to have been much scan- dalized at a scene which I witnessed in the Collegiate Church there. There were seventeen couples to be mar- ried, and they -were all married at once, the only part of the service individually performed being the " I take thee," etc., etc. I perfectly well remember at this distance of time the bustling about of the clerk among them to insure that every male should be coupled to the right female. " After this wholesale coupling had been completed," says my diary, " the daily service was begun, and was performed in a more indecent and slovenly way than I ever before wit- nessed, which is saying a great deal ! While the Psalms were being sung the priest, as having nothing to do, walked out, and returned just in time to read the Lessons." Such were the manners and habits of 1832. A few weeks later I find an entry to the effect that, "'while my father was reading 'Grandison' to us in the evening I got M. Hervieu (the artist who did the illustra- tions for my mother's ' Domestic Manners of the Ameri- cans ' and other books, and who chanced to be passing the evening with us en famille) to draw m.e a caricature illus- trating the following passage of Beattie's "Minstrel:" "And yet young Edwin was no vulgar boy ; Deep thought would often fix his youthful eye. Dainties he heeded not, nor gaud, nor toy, Save one short pipe P^ I possess this remarkable work of art to the present day ! At another page I stumble on the record of a conversa- tion with the sexton of Leatherhead, whom, in one of my rambles, I found digging a grave in the churchyard there. 156 WHAT I REMEMBER. Three shillings, I learned, was the price of a grave of the ordinary depth of five feet. Those, however, who could afford the luxury of lying deeper paid a shilling a foot more. One more note from the diaries of those days I will venture to give, because it may be taken as a paralipo- menon to that "Autobiography" of my brother Avhich the world was kindly pleased to take some interest in : " Went to town yesterday [from Harrow], and among other commissions bought a couple of single-sticks with strong basket handles. Anthony much approves of them, and this morning we had a bout wdth them. One of the sticks bought yesterday soon broke, and we supplied its place by a tremendous blackthorn. Neither of us left the arena without a fair share of rather severe wales ; but Anthony is far my superior in quickness and adroitness, and perhaps in bearing j^ain too. I fear he is likely to re- main so in the first two, but in the third I am determined he shall not." Thus says the yellow fifty-seven-year-old page I And I have literally thousands of such pages ; volumi- nous records — among other matters — of walking excursions in the home counties, in Devon, in Wales, in Gloucester- shire, and on the banks of the Severn and Wye, not a page of which fails to bear its testimony to the curiously changed circumstances under which a pedestrian would now under- take such wanderings. I find among other jottings — deemed memorabilia at the time — that I carried a knap- sack weighing twenty-eight pounds over the top of Plinlim- mon, because I considered seven and sixpence demanded by the guide for accompanying me excessive. But ohe/ jam satis. I will inflict no more upon the patient reader — the impatient will have skij^ped much of what I have already given him. Alas ! the amari aliquid of these old records is the un- blushing chronicle of hitentions, enough to have paved all Acheron with a durability unachieved by any highway board ! The only comfort for diarists so imprudently candid as to record such aspirations, and so yet more im- prudent as to read them half a century after the penning OLD DIARIES. I57 of them, is the consideration that au bout des comptes the question is, not what one has done, but what one has be- come. If one could flatter one's self that one has the mens Sana in corpore sano at seventy-seven years, one might accept and condone the past without too much regret ; and at all events it is something to have undeniably brought the latter to its seventy-eighth year. CHAPTER XI. OLD DiAEiES — (continued). I CAME down from Oxford to find my mother and my two sisters returned from America, and living in that Harrow Weald farmhouse which my brother Anthony, in his "Autobiography," has described, I think, too much en noir. It had once been a very good house, probably the residence of the owner of the small farm on which it was situated. It certainly was no longer a very good house, but it was not "tumble-down," as Anthony calls it, and was indeed a much better house than it would have been if its original destination had been that of merely a farm- house. But it and "all that it inherited" was assuredly shabby enough, and had been forlorn enough, as I had known it in my vacations, when inhabited only by my father, my brother Anthony, and myself. But my mother was one of those people Avho carry sun- shine with them. The place did not seem the same. The old house, whatever else it may have been, was roomy ; and a very short time elapsed before my mother had got round her one or two nice girl guests to help her in brightening it. I may mention here a singular circumstance which fur- nished me with means of estimating my mother's character in a phase of her life which rarely comes within the pur- view of a son. Some years ago, not many years I think after my mother's death, an anonymous stranger sent my brother Anthony a packet of old letters written by my mother to my father shortly before and shortly after their marriage. He never was able to ascertain who his benevo- lent correspondent was, nor how the papers in question came into his possession. There they are, carefully tied up in a neat packet, most of them undated by her, but care- fully docketed with the date by my father's hand. The OLD DIARIES. I59 handwriting, not spoiled as it afterwards became by writ- ing over a liimdred volumes, is a very elegant one. There is a singularly old-world flavor about them. There is a staid moderation in their tone, which a reader of the present day, fresh from the perusal of similar litera- ture, as supplied by Mr. Mudie, would probably call cold- ness. In the few letters which precede the marriage there are no warm assurances of affection. After marriage the language becomes more warm. I am tempted to trans- cribe a few passages that the girls of the period may see how their great-grandmothers did these things. "It does not require three weeks' consideration, Mr. Trollope " — thus begins the first letter, undated, but dock- eted by my father, " F. M., undated, received 2d Nov., 1808 " — "to enable me to tell you that the letter you left with me last night was most flattering and gratifying to me. I value your good opinion too highly not to feel that the generous proof you have given me of it must forever, and in any event, be remembered by me with pride and gratitude. But I fear you are not sufiiciently aware that your choice, so flattering to me, is for yourself a very im- prudent one." And then follows a business-like statement of possessions and prospects, which the writer fears fall much short of what her suitor might reasonably expect. But none of my father's faults tended in the slightest degree to lead him to marry a millionaire, whom he cared less for, in preference to a girl without a sixpence, whom he loved better. " In an affair of this kind," the letter I have cited goes on to say, "I do not think it any disadvantage to either party that some time should elapse between the first con- templation and final decision of it. It gives each an op- portunity of becoming acquainted with the other's opinion on many important points, which could not be canvassed before it was thought of, and which it would be useless to discuss after it was settled." Could Mrs. Chapone have exp>ressed herself better ? I find in another letter, dated (by my father) 6th De- cember, 1808, the foil owning George-the-Thirdian passage: " The most disagreeable of created beings, Col. by 160 WHAT I REMEMBER. ■ name, by profession Sir 's led captain, is, while I am writing, talking in an animated strain of eloquence to Mrs. Milton " (my grandfather the vicar's second wife and the writer's stepmother), "frequently seasoning his discourse with the polished phrase, ' Blood and thunder, ma'am !' so if I happen to swear a little before I conclude, be so good as to believe that I am accidentally writing down what he is saying. . . . Poor, dear, innocent Dr. Nott ! His sim- plicity is quite pathetic ! I am reall}^ afraid that he will be taking twopence instead of two pounds from his par- ishioners, merely because he does not know the difference between them. I cannot help feeling a tender interest for such lamblike innocence of the ways of this wicked world. I dare say the night I saw him at the opera, he thought he was 07ily " (note the distinction) " at the play, nay, per- haps believed they were performing an oratorio." In one letter of the 9th of April, 1809, I find a mention of " a frank " sent by Mr Mathias with a translation by him into Italian of the "Echo Song" in Comus, of which the writer says that it is "elegantly done, but is not Milton." In another, of the 18th of May, 1809 — the last before the marriage took place — I find the following, which may interest some people. *'I wish you could be here to-mor- row," she writes, "we are going to see the prisoners of war at Odiam (near Reading) perform one of Moliere's plays. Two years ago we attended several of them, and I never enjoyed anything more." More than a score of these faded eighty-year-old letters are before me ; and I might, perhaps, have gleaned from them some other little touches illustrative of men and manners when George the Third was king, but were I to yield to all the temptations of the sort that beset the path on which I am travelling, I should try my readers' patience beyond all hope of forgiveness. My mother had brought home with her the MS. of a couple of volumes on America; and the principal business on hand when I came home from Oxford was the finding a publisher for these. In this quest she was zealously and very energetically assisted by Captain Basil Hall, himself OLD DIARIES. 161 the author of a work on America, and sundry other books, which at that time had made a considerable reputation, Basil Hall's book on America did not take a favorable view of the Americans or their institutions ; and it had been mercilessly attacked and accused of misrepresenta- tion by all the critics of the Liberal party. For Hall's book, and everything else concerning America, was in those days looked at from a political-party point of view. America and the Americans were understood to be anti- e very thing that was dear to Conservatives. They were accordingly the pets of the Whigs (Radicals and Radical- ism had not yet emerged into the ken of respectable folk, either Whig or Tory), and Hall's book had been abused accordingly. He was very sore about the accusations of untruthfulness, and was delighted with a book which sup- ported his assertions and his views. How my mother came to be introduced to him, and how it came to pass that the MS. of her work was shown to him, I do not re- member, but the result was that he was zealously eager for the publication of it. The title, if I recollect rightly, was proposed by him. "The Domestic Manners of the Americans " was published, and made an immediate and great success. It was emphatically the book of the season, was talked of everywhere, and read by all sorts and con- ditions of men and w^omen. It was highly praised by all the Conservative organs of the press, and vehemently abused by all those of the opposite party. Edition after edition was sold, and the pecuniary results were large enough to avert from the family of the successful author- ess the results of her husband's ruined fortunes. The Americans were made very angry by this account of their "domestic manners" — very naturally, but not very wisely. Of course, it was asserted that many of the statements made were false and many of the descriptions caricatured. Nothing in the book from beginning to end was false ; nothing of minutest detail which was asserted to have been seen had not been seen; nor was anything intentionally caricatured or exaggerated for the sake of enhancing literary effect. But the tone of the book was unfriendly, and was throughout the result of offended 162 WHAT I REMEMBER. taste rather than of well-weighed opinion. It was full of universal conclusions drawn from particular premises ; and no sufficient weight, or rather no weight at all, was allowed to the fact that the observations on which the re- corded judgments were founded had been gathered almost entirely in what was then the Far West, and represented the " domestic manners " of the Atlantic States hardly at all. Unquestionably the book was a very clever one, and written with infinite verve and brightness. But — save for the fact that censure and satire are always more amusing than the reverse — an equally clever and equally truthful book might have been written in a diametrically opposite spirit. No doubt the markedly favorable reception of the book was what mainly irritated our American cousins. But they certainly were angry far beyond what the importance of the matter would seem to have justified. I remember that Colley Grattan, whose fame as the author of " Highways and Byways" was then at its zenith, in writing to me from Boston, where he resided for many years as British consul, inviting me to visit him there, went into the question of the reception I might be likely to meet with on that side of the Atlantic. " I think," he wrote, " that to come over under a false name would be i7ifra dig. But really I fear that if you come under your own, you may be in for a digr Whether Grattan exaggerated the wrath of his Bos- tonian friends for the sake of his joke I do not know. Unquestionably the Americans, even speaking of them as a nation, were made very angry by my mother's book. But the anger was not of a very spiteful or rancorous de- scription, for from that day to this I have never met with anything but kindness and cordial friendliness from all the Americans I have known — and I have known very many. The return of my mother, and the success of her book, produced a change in the condition and circumstances of affairs at home which resembled the transformation scene in a pantomime that takes place at the advent of the good fairy. Even the old farmhouse at Harrow Weald was OLD DIARIES. 163 brightened up physically, and to a far greater degree morally, by her presence. But we did not remain long there. Very shortly she took us back to Harrow, not to the large house built by my father on Lord Northw^ick's land, but to another very good house on the same farm — not above a stone's throw from the previous one, which he had made (very imprudently) by adding to and improving the original farmhouse — a very comfortable residence. This was the house which the world has heard of as " Or- ley Farm." And there my mother became immediately surrounded by many old friends and many new ones. I remember among the latter Letitia Landon, better known to the world as "L. E. L." She was a petite figure, very insig- nificant-looking, with a sharp chin, turn-up nose, and on the whole rather piquante face, though without any pre- tension to good looks. I remember her being seated one day at dinner by the side of a certain dignitary of the Church, who had the reputation of being more of a hon vivant than a theologian, and who was old enough to have been her father ; and on my asking her afterwards what they had been talking about so earnestly, as I had seen them, "About eating, to be sure !" said she. "I always talk to everybody on their strong point. I told him that writing poetry was my trade, but that eating was my pleasure, and w^e were fast friends before the fish was fin- ished !" Her sad fate and tragic ending, poor soul ! at- tracted much attention and sympathy at the time. And doubtless fate and the world used her hardly ; but she was one of those who never under any circumstances would have run a straight and prosperous course. Another visitor whom I remember well at that and other times was the Rev. Henry Milman, the third son of Sir Francis Milman, who was, if I rightly recollect, physician to Queen Charlotte. I remember hearing him say (but this was long previously) that no man need think much about the gout wdio had never had it till he was forty. His widow, Lady Milman, lived with her daughter many years at Pinner, near Harrow, and they were very old friends of my mother. She was a dear old 164 WHAT I REMEMBER. lady with certain points of eccentricity about her. She used always to carry a volume of South's sermons with her to church for perusal during the less satisfactory dis- course of her more immediate pastor ; and I am afraid was not sufficiently careful to conceal her preference. It must be over sixty years since, lunching one day at Pin- ner, I was much amused at her insisting that Abraham, the old one-eyed footman, who had lived in the family all his life, should kneel before the dining-room fire to warm her plate of pickled salmon ! I remember walking with her shortly before her death in the kitchen garden at Pin- ner, when Saunders, the old butler, who had developed into a sort of upper gardener, was pruning the peach-trees. " Oh ! don't cut that, Saunders," said my lady ; " I want to see those blossoms. And I shall never see them anoth- er year !" "Must come off, my lady," said Saunders, inex- orably, as he sheared away the branch. " He never will let me have my way," grumbled the little old lady, as she resumed her trot along the gravel walk under the peach wall. My lady, however, could assert herself sufficiently on some occasions. I happened to be at Pinner one day when Mrs. Archdeacon Hodgson, a neighbor, called some- what earlier in the day than the recognized hour for morn- ing visits. " Very glad to see you, my dear, " said my lady, rising to meet her astonished visitor, who was at least twice as big a woman as herself, I mean physically, "but you must not do this sort of thing again P'' Her third son, Henry Milman, who, having begun his career as the author of, perhaps, the best " Newdegate " ever written, was famous during the earlier part of it as a poet and dramatist, and during the latter portion of it (more durably) as an historian, was, with his very beauti- ful wife, one of our visitors at this period. He was at that time certainly a very brilliant man, but I did not like him as well as I did his elder brother. Sir William. I give only the impressions of an undergraduate, who was, I think, rather boyish for his age. But it seemed to me that the poet had a strain of worldliness in his character, and a certain flavor of cynicism (not incompatible, how- ever, with serious views and earnest feelings on religious OLD DIARIES. 165 subjects), which were wholly absent from the elder broth- er, who wrote neither poems nor histories, but was to my then thinking a very ^^erfect gentleman. " JSfec vixit male qui 7iatus moriensque fefelllt.''^ I find recorded in a diary of that time (November, 1832) some notes of a conversation with Henry Milman, one evening when I, with my parents and sister, had been dining with Lady Milman at Pinner, which are, perhaps, worth reproducing here. I asked him, in the course of a long after-dinner con- versation, what he thought of Shuttleworth's book on the " Consistency of Revelation with Itself and with Human Reason," which formed the second volume of the series called the " Theological Library," and which I had recent- ly been reading. He said the work had a great many faults, one of the principal of which was its great difficul- ty. On this point I find, from other entries in my diary, that my undergraduate experience fully coincided with his more valuable judgment. The reasoning in a great many places was, he said, false ; and in that part which treated of the Mosaic account of the creation of the world, the great question was entirely blinked. The abstract of moral duties appeared to him, he said, to be by far the most able part of the book. He considered Shuttleworth " a man of very limited reading." And this, perhaps, he may have seemed to one of whom it used to be said jocosely in his own family that " Henry reads a book, not as other mor- tals do, line after line, but obliquely, from the left-hand upper corner of a page to the right-hand lower corner of the same !" Milman, on the same occasion, spoke much of the decay of a love of learning in England generally, and particular- ly at Oxford. He said that no four men could be found there who were up to the European level of the day in any branch of learning — not even in theology. And speaking of England generally, he said that in no one public library in the country could the books requisite for a man who w^ished to write a learned work on any subject whatever be found. Germany was, and was, he thought, likely to remain, the great emporium of all learning. 166 WHAT I REMEMBER. As for the Church, he said that it would never be the profession that it had been — that it would not be his choice for a son of his ; and that the law was the only- profession for talent in these days. He observed that it was very remarkable that no change — no revolution — had ever passed over this country without adding power and wealth to that profession. Here, also, I may record, if the reader will pardon the abruptness of a transition that hurries him from scholarly disquisition to antipodean regions of subject and social atmosphere, an expedition I and my brother Anthony made together, which recurs in my mind in connection with those days. But I think that it must have belonged to the Harrow Weald times before the return of my mother from America, because the extreme impecuniosity, which made the principal feature of it, would not have occurred subsequently. We saw — my brother and I — some advertisement of an extra - magnificent entertain- ment that was to take place at Vauxhall ; something of so gorgeous promise in the way of illuminations and fire- works, and all for the specially reduced entrance fee of one shilling each person, that, chancing to possess just that amount, we determined to profit by so unique an occasion. Any means of conveyance other than legs, ignorant in those days of defeat, was not to be thought of. We had just the necessary two shillings, and no more. So we set off to walk the (at least) fourteen miles from Harrow Weald to Vauxhall, timing ourselves to arrive there about nine in the evening. Anthony danced all night. I took no part in that amusement, but contented myself with looking on and with the truly superb display of fireworks. Then at about 1 a.m. we set off and walked back our fourteen miles home again without having touched bite or sup ! Did anybody else ever purchase the delight of an evening at Vauxhall at so high a price ? I did, however, much about the same time, a harder day's walk. I was returning from Oxford to Harrow Weald, and I determined to walk it, not, I think, on this occasion, dejiciente cru7nend, but for pleasure, and to try my powers. The distance, I think, is, as near as may be, OLD DIARIES. 167 forty-seven miles. But I carried a very heavy knapsack — a far heavier one than any experienced campaigner would have advised. This was the longest day's walk I ever achieved ; and I arrived very tired and footsore. But the next morning I was perfectly well, and ready to have taken the road again. Upon this occasion I walked my first stage of twelve miles before breakfast ; absolute- ly, that is to say, before breaking my fast. I think that not very many persons could do this, and I am sure that the few who could do it had much better not do so. I have spoken of the immense change operated in the circumstances and surroundings of all of us by my mother's return from America and the success of her first work, the " Domestic Manners of the Americans." But, effica- cious as this success was for producing so great a change, and sufficient as the continued success of her subsequent works was to rescue the whole of her family from the slough of ruin, in which my father's farming operations, and to some extent, I suppose, his injudicious commercial attempt at Cincinnati, had involved him, the results of this success were very far from availing to stem the tide of ruin as regarded his affairs. They were sufficient to re- lieve him from all expenses connected with the household or its individual members, but not to supply, in addition to all these, the annual losses on HarroAV farm. Hence the break-up described by my brother in his " Autobiography," and my father's exodus from Harrow as there narrated. CHAPTER XII. , OLD DIARIES — (C07lti7lUed.) Of all that Anthony there describes I saw nothing. I was attending the " divinity lectures " in Oxford. But as soon as the short course of them was completed, I left England to join my parents at Bruges. And here is the condensed record of the journey as performed in 1834. I suppose that I went by the Thames to Calais, instead of by Dover, as a measure of economy. I left Oxford by the Rocket at three in the morning on Tuesday, the 20th May, and on reaching London found that there was no packet to Ostend till the following Saturday. I deter- mined, therefore, to go to Calais by that which left Tower Stairs on the Wednesday. It was the first time I had ever crossed the Channel. The times I have crossed that salt girdle subsequently must be counted by hundreds. I observe that having begun ray journey at 3 a.m. did not prevent me from finding "Farren admirable" in both "The Minister and the Mercer" and in "Secret Service," at Drury Lane that Tuesday evening. I slept at the Spread Eagle in Gracechurch Street that night, and left Tower Stairs at 10 a.m. the next morning in the Loixl Melville, Captain Middletown (names of ship and captain duly recorded), and had a rough passage of thirteen hours; all hands sick, " even I a little at last," says the veracious chronicle. I was taken by the victor in a sharp contest with half a dozen rivals over my body to the Hotel de Londres, a clean, comfortable, and quiet, but, I suppose, quite second-rate inn. There was no conveyance to Dun- kirk before one the next day. So, " after a delicious break- fast on coffee." (Ah ! how la helle France has degringoled in respect to coffee and some other matters since those happy days ! Then coffee really was ahcays good every- where in France. Now England has no cause whatever OLD DIARIES. 169 to envy her neighbor in that respect.) I spent the inter- vening hours in going (of all things in the world) to the top of the church tower. The diligence brought me to Dunkirk in time for supper at the Tete de Flandres Hotel, at Avhich " a Frenchman, who sat next me, insisted on my sharing his bottle of vin de Bourdeaux, and would not hear of my paying my share of the cost, saying that he was at home in his own country." I find that I went after supper " to the top of a fine tower " (my second that day ! I had a mania, not quite cured yet, for ascending towers), and started at five the next morning for Nieuport " in a vile little barge, in company with two young pedestrianiz- ing Belgians," and arrived there about noon, after a most tedious voyage, and changing, without bettering, our barge three or four times. At Nieuport we found " a sort of immense overgrown gig with two horses, which con- vej^ed eight of us to Ostend." There I was most kindly and hospitably received by Mr. Fauche, the English consul, and his very lovely wife. Mrs. Fauche had been before her marriage one of my mother's cohort of pretty girl friends, and was already my old acquaintance. She was the daughter of Mr. Tom- kisson, a pianoforte manufacturer, who had married the daughter of an Irish clergyman. Their daughter Mary was, as I first knew her, more than a pretty girl. She was a very beautiful and accomplished woman, with one of the most delicious soprano voices I ever heard. I was anxious to join my mother at Bruges, who, despite her literary triumphs, had passed through so much trouble since I had seen her. But it needed the reinforcement of .this anxiety by a sense of duty to enable me to resist Mrs. Fauche's invitation to remain a day or two at Ostend. I found my father and mother, and my two sisters, Cecilia and Emily, established in a large and very roomy house, just outside the southern gate of the city, known as the Chateau d'Hondt. It was a thoroughly good and comfortable house, and, taken unfurnished, speedily be- came under my mother's hands a very j^leasant one. Nor was it long before it became socially a very agreeable one, for the invariable result of my mother's presence, which 170 WHAT I REMEMBER. drew what was pleasant around her as surely as a magnet draws iron, showed itself in the collection of a variety of agreeable people — some from the other side of the Chan- nel, some from Ostend, and some few from Bruges. All this made a social atmosphere, which with the for- eign flavoring so wholly new to me, was very pleasant; but it seems not to have sufficed to prevent me from seiz- ing the opportunity for a little of that locomotive sight- seeing, the passion for which, still unquenched, appears to have been as strong in me as when I hankered after a place on some one of the "down" coaches starting from the " Cellar " in Piccadilly, or gazed enviously at the out- ward-bound ships in the docks. For I find the record of a little week's tour among the Belgian cities, with full details of all the towers I ascended, observations of an ecclesiological neophyte on the churches I everywhere visited, and remarks on men and manners, the rawness of which does not entirely destroy the value of them, as il- lustrating the changes wrought there too by the lapse of half a century. In one place I find myself tasting the contents of the library of a Carmelite monastery, and remarking on the strangeness of the sole exception to the theological char- acter of the collection having consisted in a Cours Gastro- nomique, which appeared to me scarcely needed by a com- munity bound by its vows to perpetual abstinence from animal food. Some pages of the record also are devoted to the state- ment of *' a case " which I lighted on in some folio on casuistry, on the question "whether it is lawful to adore a crucifix, when there is strong ground for supposing that a demon may be concealed in the material of which it is constructed !" It seems to me on reading these pages (for the first time since they were written), that I was to no small degree seductively impressed by the music, architectural beauties, and splendid ceremonial of the Roman Catholic worship, seen in those days to much better effect in Belgium than at the present time in Rome. But amid it all, the sturdy Protestantism of Wbately's pupil manifests itself in a OLD DIARIES. I7I moan over the pity, the pity of it, that it should " all be based on falsehood." All the pleasant state of things at the Chateau d'Hondt at Bruges, described above, was of short duration, how- ever, for disquieting accounts of the health of ray brother Henry, who had been stajnng at Exeter with that dear old friend, Fanny Bent, to whom the reader has already been introduced, began to arrive from Devonshire. It was moreover necessary that I should without loss of time set my hand to something that might furnish me with daily bread. So on the 21st of June I " went on board Captain Smithett's vessel the Arroio and had a quiet pas- sage to Dover." On arriving there I " hastened to secure my place on a coach about to start, and the first turn for having my baggage examined at the custom-house. This examination was rather a rigid one, and they made me pay 45. Id. for two or three books I had with me. We reached Canterbury about nightfall, breakfasted at Roch- ester, and arrived at Charing Cross at six." My diary does not say " six p.m.," and it seem incredible that any coach — though on the slowest road out of London, as the Dover road always was — should have breakfasted at Rochester, and taken J^he whole day to travel thence to Charing Cross ; but it is more incredible still that we should have stopped to breakfast at Rochester, and then reached London at 6 a.m. It must have been 6 p.m.; but I read that *'I started at once to walk to Harrow by the canal (!) where I was re- ceived with more than kindness by the Grants." I had come down to London with the intention of giv- ing classical teaching to any who were willing to pay about ten shillings an hour for it. I had testimonials and recommendations galore from a very varied collection of pastors, masters, and friends. Several of the latter also were actively eager to assist my object, foremost amona^ whom I may name with unforgetting gratitude Dr. David Williams, ray old raaster at Winchester, then warden of New College. Thus furnished, pupils were not wanting, and raoney araply sufficient for my imraediate needs seemed to come in easily. I did my best with ray pupils 172 WHAT I REMEMBER. during the short hours of my work ; but much success is not to be expected from pupils the very circumstance and terms of whose tuition give rise to the presumption that they are irremediably stupid or idle, and the hired " coach " a dernier resort. Such employers as I had to deal with, however, if they assigned you somewhat hopeless tasks, appeared to be satisfied with an infinitesimal amount of results, and I believe I gave satisfaction in all cases save that of a lady, the widowed mother of an only son, a very elegant and fashionable dame in Belgrave Square, who complained once to the clergyman who had recommended me to her, that I had come to her house one Monday morn- ing "in a very dusty condition." 1 fear she might have said every Monday morning, for my custom was to walk up to my lesson from Harrow, where I had been spending the Sunday with the Grants, and " hnmer noch stduhen die Wege"*^ hardly less on the Harrow road than Goethe found them to do in Italy. I had to tell her that the dust on my shoes had not reached my brain, and that I had no pretension, and entirely declined, to be an exemplar to her son in the matter of his toilet. We parted very good friends, however, at the end of my engagement. When she said some complimentary words about my work with her son, I could not refrain from saying that I had done my best to prepare myself for it by having my shoes care- fully blacked. She laughed, and said, "I could not find fault with your Latin and Greek, Mr. Trollope. And would it not be better if people always confined their criticism to what they do understand ?" I was living during these months in Little Marlborough Street, in a house kept by a tailor and his mother. It was a queer house, disconnected with the row of buildings in which it stood, a survival of some earlier period. It stood in its own court, by which it was separated from the street. I found all the place transmogrified when I visited it a year or two ago. During the latter part of my residence there the lodgings were shared by my brother Anthony, who, as related by himself, had accepted a place in the secretary's office in the post-office. The lodgings were very cheap, more so I think than the goodness of them OLD DIARIES. I73 might have justified. We were the only lodgers ; and the cheapness of the rooms was, I suspect, in some degree caused by the fact that the majority of young-men lodgers would not have tolerated the despotic rule of our old land- lady, the tailor's mother. She made us very comfortable ; but her laws were many, and of the nature of those of the Medes and Persians. Meantime matters were becoming more and more gloomy in the Chateau d'Hondt, outside the St. Peter's Gate, at Bruges. My brother Henry had returned thither from Devonshire ; and his condition was unmistakably becom- ing worse. While I was still living in Little Marlborough Street, my mother came over hurriedly to London, bring- ing him and my sister Emily with her. They travelled by boat from Ostend to London to avoid the land journey. I take it poor Henry was led to suppose that the journey was altogether caused by the necessity of interviews be- tween my mother and her publishers. But the real motive of it was to obtain the best medical advice for him and (as, alas ! it began to appear to be necessary) for my sister Emily. All kinds of schemes of southern travel, and voyages to Madeira, etc., had been proposed for Henry, who, having himself, with the hopefulness peculiar to his malady, no shadow of a doubt of his own recovery, entered into them all with the utmost zest. A kind friend, I forget by what means or interest, had offered to provide free passages to Madeira. Alas ! the first consultation with the medical authorities put an end to all such schemes. And my poor mother had the inexpressibly sad and diflicult task of quashing them all without allowing her patient to suspect the real reason of their being given uj). She had to take him back to Bruges ; and I accom- panied them to the boat lying off the Tower, and remained with them an hour before it weighed anchor. And then and there I took the last leave of my brother Henry, I well knowing, he never imagining, that it was forever. And now began at Bruges a time of such stress and trouble for my mother as few women have ever passed through. The grief, the Rachel sorrows of mothers watch- 174 WHAT I REMEMBER. iiig by the dying beds of those to save whose lives they would — ah ! how readily — give their own, are, alas, com- mon enough. But no account, no contemplation of any such scene of anguish, can give an adequate conception of what my mother went through victoriously. Her literary career had hitherto been a succession of triumphs. Money was coming in with increasing abun- dance. But these successes had not yet lasted long enough to enable her, in the face of all she had done for the ruined household to which she had returned from America, to lay by any fund for the future. And though the proceeds of her labor were amply sufficient for all current needs, it was imperative that that labor should not be suspended. It was under these circumstances that she had to pass her days in watching by the bedside of a very irritable invalid, and her nights — when he fortunately for the most part slept — in composing fiction ! It was desirable to keep the invalid's mind from dwelling on the hopelessness of his condition. And, indeed, he was constantly occupied in planning travels and schemes of activity for the antic- ipated time of his recovery, which she had to enter into and discuss with a cheerful countenance and bleeding heart. It was also especially necessary that my sisters, especially the younger, already threatened by the same malady, should be kept cheerful, and prevented from dwelling on the phases of their brother's illness. This was the task in which, with agonized mind, she never faltered from about nine o'clock every morning till eight o'clock in the evening. Then with wearied body, and mind attuned to such thoughts as one may imagine, she had to sit down to her desk to write her novel with all the verve at her command, to please light-hearted readers, till two or three in the morning. This, by the help of green tea and sometimes laudanum, she did daily and nightly till the morning of the 23d of December of that sad 1834; and lived after it to be eighty-three ! But her mind was one of the most extraordinarily con- stituted in regard to recuperative power and the capacity of throwing off sorrow that I ever knew or read of. Any one who did not know her, as her own son knew her, might OLD DIARIES. I75 have supposed that she was deficient in sensibility. No judgment could be more mistaken. She felt acutely, ve- hemently. But she seemed to throw off sorrow as, to use the vulgar phrase, a duck's back throws off water, be- cause the nature of the organism will not suffer it to rest there. JIow often have I applied to her the words of David under a similar affliction ! My brother died on the 23d of December, 1834, and was buried at Bruges, in the Protestant portion of the city cemetery. Had his life been much prolonged, I think that that of my mother must have sunk under the burden laid upon it. I hastened to cross the Channel as soon as I heard of my brother's death, but did not arrive in time for his funeral. A few days later I was, I find, consulting a Bruges phy- sician, a Dr. Herbout, whom I still remember perfectly well, about the health of my father, which had recently been causing my mother some anxiety. Herbout was an old army doctor who had served under Napoleon. It is probable that he was more of a surgeon than a physician. His opinion was that my father's condition, though not satisfactory, did not indicate any cause for immediate alarm. I remained at Bruges till the first week in April. That is to say, the Chateau d'Hondt was my home during those months, but the monotony of it was varied by frequent visits to Ostend, which Mrs. Fauche always found the means of making agreeable. One week of the time also was spent in a little tour through those parts of Belgium which I had not yet seen, in company with my old friend, and the reader's old acquaintance, Fanny Bent. It was an oddly constituted travelling party — the young man full of strength, activity, and eagerness to see everything that indefatigable exertion could show him, and the very plain, Quaker -like, middle-aged old maid, absolutely new to Continental ways and manners and habits. Yet few peo- ple, I think, have ever seen the many interesting sights of the region we travelled over more completely than I and Fanny Bent. The number of towers (Antwerp among them) to the tops of which I took her, as recorded in my 1Y6 WHAT I REMEMBER. diary, seems preposterous. But Fanny Bent bravely stuck to her work, and where I led she followed. I have since squired many fairer and younger dames, but never one so bravely determined on doing all that was to be done. And very much we both enjoyed it. Almost immediately after my return from this little excursion I received a letter from an old Wykehamist schoolfellow, the Rev. George Hall, of Magdalen, son of the head of Pembroke at Oxford, offering me a master- ship in King Edward's Grammar School, at Birmingham. The head -master of that school was at that time Dr. Jeune, a Pembroke man, and thence a close friend of George Hall, who himself held one of the masterships, which he was about to resign. The salary of the master- ship offered me was £200 a year, with, of course, pros- pects of advancement. I at once determined to accept it, and, with the promptitude which in those days charac- terized me (at least in all cases in which promptitude in- volved immediate locomotion), I decided to leave Bruges for Birmingham on the morrow. I slept at Ostend the next night, and the following day crossed to Dover with my friend Captain Smithett, of the Arroic, " the only other passengers," says my diary, "being a maniac and a corpse." Smithett was a remarkably handsome man, and the very beau-ideal of a sailor. For many years he was the man always selected to carry any royal or distinguished personage who had to cross the Channel from or to Dover. He was an immense favorite with all the little Ostend -^orld — with the female part of it, of course, especially. I remember his showing me, with much laughter, an anony- mous billet doux which had reached him, beginning, " O toi qui commandes la Flhche, tu peux aussi commander les coeurs,^'' etc., etc. I discovered the writer some time sub- sequently in an extremely pretty baigneuse^ the wife, I am sorry to say, of a highly respected Belgian banker. Per- haps all his Ostend admirers did not know that he had a charming wife at Dover, He was all the more an object of our admiration from the singular contrast between him and his colleague, a certain Captain Murch. Between OLD DIARIES. 177 tfiem they did in those days the whole of the Ostend and Dover mail business. Poor Murch was much of an inva- lid, and, strange as it may seem, suffered invariably on every passage, from year's end to year's end, from sea- sickness. Think of the purgatory involved in the combi- nation of such a constitution with such a profession ! The port of Ostend was at that time somewhat difficult to en- ter in heavy weather, and bad fogs were very frequent on that coast. Poor Murch was always getting into difficul- ties which involved " lying to," and reaching his destina- tion long after time ; whereas we held that the dashing Arrow would go wherever the Flying Dutchman could. And indeed I have seen her come in when I could only remain at the pier-head by lashing myself to a post. So much for " le heau Capitaine Smitete." Losing no time in London,! reached Birmingham on the evening of Sunday the 5th, and found my friend Hall quite sure of my election by the governors of the school on the recommendation of his friend Jeune. But then began a whole series of slips between the cup and the lip. There appeared to be no doubt of their electing me if they elected anybody; but a part of the board wished, on financial grounds, to defer the election of a new master for a while. The governors, at their meeting, put off the decision of the matter to another meeting on the 24th. On the 24th the matter was again put off. I had left Birmingham on the 12th, with the promise from Jeune, in whom on that, and on subsequent occasions, I found a most kind friend, that he would do all he could to urge the governors to a decision, and lose no time in letting me know the result. On the 24th the election of a new mas- ter was again " deferred " by the governors, and the pros- pect of their coming to a decision to elect one shortly seemed to become more uncertain. Many other meetings of the board took place with a similar result. On one occasion Jeune told me that, had he been in Birmingham at the time of the meeting, he felt sure that he could have induced them to come to an election; but he had unfor- tunately been absent. At another meeting I was told that I should have been elected had not Sir Edward Thomason, 178 WHAT I REMEMBER. one of the governors who wished to elect a master, run away to a dinner-party, thus leaving the non-content party in the majority. Meantime I took my degree at Oxford on the 29th of April, which was needed for holding the appointment in question, and waited with what patience I could in Lon- don, dividing my time between the dear and ever -kind Grants and my brother Anthony, who was doing — or, rather, getting into continual hot water for not doing — his w^ork at the post-office. He was, I take it, a very bad office-clerk ; but as soon as he was appointed a surveyor's clerk became at once one of the most efficient and valua- ble officers in the post-office. Leaving Oxford on the night of the 29th I returned to Birmingham, and was again tantalized by repeated incon- clusive meetings of the school governors, till at last, on the 6th of May, Jeune told me that he thought that they would not come to an election till midsummer, but that, in any case, there was another of the masters whose resignation he had reason to believe would not be long deferred, and I should assuredly have his place. On this I returned to London, and on the 8th of May left it for Dover, on my way to join my mother in Paris. Having spoken of Anthony's efficiency as an officer of the post-office, I may, I think, in the case of so well-known a man, venture to expend a page in giving the reader an anecdote of his promptness, of which, as of dozens of oth- er similar experiences, he says nothing in his " Autobiog- raphy." He had visited the office of a certain postmaster in the southwest of Ireland in the usual course of his du- ties, had taken stock of the man, and had observed him in the course of his interview carefully lock a large desk in the office. Two days afterwards there came from head- quarters an urgent inquiry about a lost letter, the contents of which were of considerable value. The information reached the surveyor late at night, and he at once put the matter into the hands of his subordinate. There was no conveyance to the place where my brother determined his first investiarations should be made till the followino- morn- ing. But it did not suit him to wait for that, so he hired OLD DIARIES. ' I79 a horse, and, riding bard, knocked np the postmaster whom he had interviewed, as related, a couple of days before, in the small hours. Possibly the demeanor of the man in some degree influenced his further proceedings. Be this as it may, he walked straight into the office, and said, " Open that desk !" The key, he was told, had been lost for some time past. Without another word he smashed the desk with one kick, and there found the stolen letter ! I have heard from him so many good stories of his offi- cial experiences that I feel myself tolerably competent to write a volume of "Memoirs of a Post-office Surveyor." But for the present I must content myself with one other of his adventures. He had been sent to South America to arrange some difficulties about postal communication in those parts which our authorities wished to be accom- plished in a shorter time than had been previously the practice. There was a certain journey that had to be done by a mounted courier, for which it was insisted that three days were necessary, while my brother was persuad- ed it could be done in two. He was told that he knew nothing of their roads and their horses, etc. "Well," said he, "I will ask you to do nothing that I, who know nothing of the country, and can only have such a horse as your post can furnish me, cannot do myself. I will ride with your courier, and then I shall be able to judge." And at daybreak the next morning they started. The brute they gave him to ride was, of course, selected with a view of making good their case, and the saddle was sim- ply an instrument of torture. He rode through that hot day, and kept the courier to his work in a style that rath- er astonished that official. But at night, when they were to rest for a few hours, Anthony confessed that he was in such a state that he began to think that he should have to throw up the sponge, which would have been dreadful to him. So he ordered two bottles of brandy, poured them into a wash-hand basin, and sat in it! His description of the agonizing result was graphic ! But the next day, he said, he was able to sit in his saddle without pain, did the journey in the two days, and carried his point. But I must abstain from further anticipations of the 180 WHAT I REMEMBER. memoirs above spoken of, the more especially as I left my own story at the point where I had before me, like Rous- seau — and probably with no less rose-colored anticipations — un voyage dfaire, et Paris an houty and that for the first time in my life ! CHAPTER XIII. AT PARIS. I OBSERVE that I left Calais in the banquette of the dili- gence at 6 P.M. on the Friday night, May 8, 1835, and reached Paris at 3 p.m. on Sunday morning — thirty-three hours. I remember my great surprise at finding the en- tire way paved after the fashion that I had been accus- tomed to consider proper only for the streets of towns. We used, for by far the greatest part of the way, the un- paved spaces left on either side of the paved causeway. But the conductor told me that in winter they were gen- erally obliged to keep on the latter the whole way. The horses, two wheelers and three leaders abreast, were al- most — indeed, I think quite — without exception gray. They were also all, or almost all, stallions. The style of driving struck me as very rough, awkward, violent, and inelegant, but masterful and efficacious. The driver was changed with every relay ; and it seemed to me very prob- able that it was expedient that each man should know such cattle, not only on the road, but in the stable. We breakfasted at Abbeville and dined at Beauvais. And I find it recorded that I contrived at both places to find time for a flying visit to the cathedral, and was high- ly delighted with the noble fragment of a church at the latter city. I went to bed on arriving at the Hotel de Lille et d' Al- bion, which was in those days a very different place from its noisy, pretentious, and vulgar successor of the same name in the Rue St. Honore. The old house in the Rue des Filles de St. Thomas has long since disappeared, to- gether with the quiet little street in which it was situated. Like its successor, it was almost exclusively used by Eng- lish, but they were the English of the days when person- ally-conducted herds were not. The service was performed 182 WHAT I REMEMBER. by handmaidens in neat caps, and white bodices over their colored skirts. There were no swallow-tail-coated waiters, and the coffee was exquisite. Tem^pi passati, perchh non tornate pilX f At ten the next morning I went to No. 6 Rue de Pro- vence, where I found my parents and my sisters at break- fast. The object of this Paris journey was twofold — the writ- ing a book in accordance with an agreement which my mother had entered into with Mr. Richard Bentley, the father of the publisher, and the consultation of a physi- cian to whom she had been especially recommended re- specting my father's health, which was rapidly and too evidently declining. They had been in Paris some time already, and had formed a large circle of acquaintance, both English and French. I was told by my mother that the physician, who had seen my father several times, had made no pleasant report of his condition. He did not apprehend any immediately alarming phase of illness, but said that, had he been left to guess my father's age after visiting him, he should have supposed him to be more than fourscore, the truth being that he was very little more than sixty. This, my first visit to Paris, lasted one month only, from the 9th of May to the 9th of June, and many of the recollections which seem to me now to be connected with it very probably belong to subsequent visits, for my diary, reopened now for the first time after the interval of more than half a century, was kept, I find, in a very intermittent and slovenly manner. Ko doubt I found very few min- utes for journalizing in the four-and-twenty hours of each day. I well remember that my first impression of Lutetia Parisiorum — "Mudtown of the Parisians," as Carlyle translates it — was that of having stepped back a couple of centuries or so in the history of European civilization and progress. We are much impressed at home, and talk nauch of the vastness of the changes which the last fifty years have made in our own city, but I think that which the same time has operated in Paris is much greater. AT PARIS. 283 Putting aside the mere extension of streets and dwellino-s which, great as it has been in Paris, has been much greater in London, the changes in the former city have been far more radical. Certainly there are many quarters of Lon- don where the eye now rests on that which is magnificent, and which, at the time when I knew the town well, pre- sented nothing but what was, if not sordid, at least ugly. But, to those who remember the streets of Louis Philippe's city, the change, in the whole conception of city life and the ma7iihre d^etre of the population, is far greater. With the exception of the principal boulevards in the neighbor- hood of the recently completed " Madeleine " and its then recently established flower-market, the streets were still traversed by filthy and malodorous open ditches, which did, more or less imperfectly, the duty of sewers, and Paris still deserves its name of "Mudtown." Wretched little oil-lamps, suspended on ropes stretched across the streets, barely served to make darkness visible. Water was still carried, at so much the bucket, up the interminable stair- cases of the Parisian houses by stalwart Auvergnats, who came from their mountains to do a work more severe than the Parisians could do for themselves. But another specialty, which very forcibly struck me, and cannot be said to have been any survival of ways and habits obsolete on the other side of the Channel, was the remarkable manner in which the political life of the hour, with its emotions, opinions, and passions, was enacted, so to speak, on the stage of the streets, as a drama is present- ed on the boards of a theatre. Truly he who ran through the streets of Paris in those days might read, and, indeed, could not help reading, the reflection and the manifesta- tion of the political divisions and passions which animated the reign of the bourgeois king, and ended by destroy- ing it. And in this respect the time of my first visit to Paris was a very interesting one. The Parisian world was, of course, divided into Monarchists and Republicans, the lat- ter of whom labored under the imputation, in some cases probably unjust, but in more entirely merited (as in cer- tain other more modern instances), of being willing and 184 WHAT I REMEMBER. ready to bring their theories into practice by perpetrating or conniving at any odious monstrosity of crime, violence, and bloodshed. The Fieschi incident had recently en- lightened the world on the justice of such accusations. But the Monarchists were more amusingly divided into " Parceque Bourbon," supporters of the existing regime^ and ^'Qiioique Bourbon," tolerators of it. The former, of course, would have preferred the white flag and Charles Dix ; but failing the possibility of such a return to the old ways, were content to live under the rule of a sovereign who, though not the legitimate monarch by right divine, was at least a scion of the old legitimate race. The " Quoique Bourbon " partisans were the men who, deny- ing all right to the throne save that which emanated from the will of the people, were yet Monarchists from their well-rooted dread of the intolerable evils which Republi- canism had brought, and, as they were convinced, would bring again upon France, and were therefore contented to support the bourgeois monarchy " although " the man on the throne was an undeniable Bourbon. But what made the streets, the boulevards, the Champs Elysees, and especially the Tuileries garden peculiarly amusing to a stranger, was the circumstance that the Pa- risians all got themselves up with strict attention to the recognized costume proper to their political party. The Legitimist, the '^Quoique Bourbon'''' bourgeois (very prob- ably in the uniform of the then immensely popular Nation- al Guard), and the Republican in his appropriate bandit- shaped hat and coat with exaggeratedly large lappels, or draped picturesquely in the folds of a cloak, after a fashion borrowed from the other side of the Alps, were all distinguishable at a glance. It was then that deli- ciously graphic line (I forget who wrote it) " Feignons dfeindre dfin de mieux dissimuler^^ was applied to char- acterize the conspirator-like attitudes it pleased these gentlemen to assume. The truth was that Paris was still very much afraid of them. I remember the infinite glee, and the outpouring of ridicule, which hailed the dispersion of a Republican "demonstration" (the reader will forgive the anachro- AT PARIS. 185 iiism of the phrase), at the Porte St. Martin, by the judi- cious use of a powerful fire-engine. The heroes of the drapeau rouge had boasted they would stand their ground against any charge of soldiery. Perhaps they would have done so. But the helter-skelter that ensued on the first well-directed jet of cold water from the pipe of a fire- engine furnished Paris with laughter for days afterwards. But, as I have said, Paris, not unreasonably, feared them. Secret conspiracy is always an ugly enemy to deal with. And no violence of mere speculative opinion would have sufiiced, had fear been absent, to cause the very marked repulsion with which all the Parisians, who had anything to lose, in that day regarded their Republican fellow- citizens. Assuredly the Conservatives of the Parisian world of 1835 were not "the stupid party." Both in their news- papers, and other ephemeral literature, and in the never- ending succession of current inots and jokes which circu- lated in the Parisian salons, they had the pull very decid- edly. I remember some words of a parody on one of the Republican songs of the day, which had an immense vogue at that time. " On devrait planter le cMne^'' it ran, ''^ pour Varhre de la liherte " (it will be remembered that planting "trees of liberty " was one of the common and more harm- less " demonstrations " of the Republican party). ^^ Ses glands nouriraient sans peine les cochons qui Vont plant e!''^ And the burden of the original which ran, '•^ Mourir pour la patrie, G^est le sort le plus beau le ^:)^i^s dig7ie d^envie,^"* was sufficiently and very appositely caricatured by the slight change of " 3Iourir pour la patrie " into " JSfourris par la patrie,'' etc. To a stranger seeing Paris as I saw it, and frequenting the houses which I frequented, it seemed strange that such a commamity should have considered itself in serious danger from men who seemed to me, looking from such a standpoint, a mere handful of skulking melodramatic en- thusiasts, playing at conspiracy and rebellion rather than really meditating it. But I was not at that time fully aware how entirely the real danger was to be found in regions of Paris and strata of its population which were 186 WHAT I REMEMBER. as entirely hidden from my observation as if they had been a thousand miles away. But though I could not see the danger, I saw unmistakably enough the fear it inspired in all classes of those who, as I said before, had anything to lose. It was this fear that made the National Guard the heroes of the hour. It was impossible but that such a body of men — Parisian shopkeepers put into uniform (those of them who had condescended to wear it ; for many used to be seen who contented themselves with girding on a sabre and assuming a firelock, while others would go to the extent of surmounting the ordinary black coat with the regulation military shako) — should afford a target for many shafts of ridicule. The capon-lined paunches of a considerable contingent of these w^ell-to-do warriors were an inexhaustible source of not very pungent jokes. But Paris would have been frightened out of its wits at the bare suggestion of suppressing these citizen saviours of society. Of course they were petted at the Tuileries. No reception ov fete of any kind was complete without a large sprinkling of these shopkeeping guardsmen, and their presence on such occasions was the subject of an un- failing series of historiettes. I remember an anecdote excellently illustrative of the time, which was current in the salons of the " Parceque Bourbon " society of the day. A certain elderly duchess of the vieille roche, a dainty little woman, very mignoniie^ whose exquisite parure and still more exquisite manners scented the air at a league's distance, to use the common French phrase, with the odor of the most aristocratic salons of the Quartier St. Germain, was, at one of Louis Phi- lippe's Tuileries receptions, about to take from the tray handed round by a servant the last of the ices which it had contained, when a huge outstretched hand, with its five wide-spread fingers, was protruded from behind over her shoulder, and the refreshment of which slie was about to avail herself was seized by a big National Guard with the exclamation, '■'' Enfoncle la petite mhreP'' Nevertheless, it may be safely asserted that the little duchess, and all the world she moved in, would have been AT PARIS. 187 infinitely more dismayed had they gone to the Tuileries and seen no National Guards there. Among the many persons of note with whom I became more or less well acquainted during that month, no one perhaps stands out more vividly in my recollection than Chateaubriand. He also, though standing much aloof from the noise and movement of the political passions of the time, was an aristocrat jusqu'au bout des ongles, in appearance, in manners, in opinions, and general tone of mind. The impression to this effect immediately produced on one's first presentation was in no degree due to any personal advantages. He was not, when I knew him, nor do I think he ever could have been, a good-looking man. He stooped a good deal, and his head and shoulders gave me the impression of being somewhat too large for the rest of his person. The lower part of his face too, was, I thought, rather heavy. But his every word and movement were characterized by that exquisite courtesy which was the inalienable, and it would seem incommunicable, specialty of the seigneurs of the ancien regime. And in his case the dignified bear- ing of the grand seigneur was tempered by a honhomie which produced a manner truly charming. And having said all this, it may seem to argue want of taste or want of sense in. myself to own, as truthfulness compels me to do, that I did not altogether like him. I had a good deal of talk with him, and that to a youngster of my years and standing was in itself very flattering, and I felt as if I were ungrateful for not liking him. But the truth in one word is, that he appeared to me to be a " tink- ling cymbal." I don't mean that he was specially insincere as regarded the person he was talking to at the moment. What I do mean is, that the man did not seem to me to have a mind capable of genuine sincerity in the conduct of its operations. He seemed to me a theatrically-minded man. Immediately after making his acquaintance I read the Gbiie du Chretienisme, and the book confirmed my impression of the man. He honestly intends to play a very good and virtuous part, but he is playing a part. He was much petted in those days by the men, and 188 WHAT I REMEMBER. more especially by the women, of the ancien regime and the Quartier St. Germain. But I suspect that he was a good deal quizzed, and considered an object of more or less good-natured ridicule by the rest of the Parisian world. I fancy that he was in straitened circumstances. And the story went that he and his wife put all they pos- sessed into a box, of which each of them had a key, and took from day to day what they needed, till one fine day they met over the empty box with no little surprise and dismay. Chateaubriand thought he understood English well, and rather piqued himself upon the accomplishment. But I well remember his one day asking me to explain to him the construction of the sentence, " Let but the cheat en- dure, I ask not aught beside." My efforts to do so during the best part of half an hour ended in entire failure. He was in those days reading in Madame Recamier's salon at the Abbaye-aux-Bois (in which building my mother's friend, Miss Clarke, also had her residence), those celebrated 3femoires cVOutretomhe of which all Paris, or at least all literary and political Paris, was talking. Im- mense efforts were made by all kinds of notabilities to ob- tain an admission to these readings. But the favored ones had been very few. And my mother was proportionably delighted at the arrangement that a reading should be given expressly for her benefit. M. de Chateaubriand had ceased these seances for the nonce, and the gentleman who had been in the habit of reading for him had left Paris. But by the kindness of Miss Clarke and Madame Recamier, he was induced to give a sitting at the Abbaye expressly for my mother. This arrangement had been made before I reached Paris, and I consequently, to my great regret, was not one of the very select party. My mother was accompanied by my sisters only. I benefited, however, in my turn by the acquaintance thus formed, and subsequently passed more than one evening in Madame Re- camier's salon at the Abbaye-aux-Bois in the Rue du Bac. My mother, in her book on " Paris and the Parisians," writes of that reading as follows : " The party assembled at Madame Recamier's on this occasion did not, I think, AT PARIS. 18y exceed seventeen, including Madame Recamier and M. de Chateaubriand. Most of these had been present at for- mer readings. The Duchesses de Larochefoucald and de Noailles, and one or two other noble ladies, were among them. And I felt it was a proof that genius was of no party when I saw a granddaughter of General Lafayette enter among us. She is married to a gentleman who is said to be of the extreme cote gauche.'''' The passage of the "Memoires" selected for the evening's reading was the account of the author's memorable trip to Prague to visit the royal exiles. " Many passages," writes my mother, "made a profound impression on my fancy and on my memory, and I think I could give a better account of some of the scenes described than I should feel justiiied in doing, as long as the noble author chooses to keep them from the public eye. There were touches that made us weep abundantly ; and then he changed the key, and gave us the prettiest, the most gracious, the most smiling pict- ure of the young princess and her brother that it was pos- sible for pen to trace. And I could have said, as one does in seeing a clever portrait, ' That is a likeness, I'll be sworn for it.' " It may be seen from the above passage, and from some others in my mother's book on "Paris and the Parisians,", that her estimate of the man Chateaubriand was a some- w^hat higher one than that which I have expressed in the preceding pages. She w^as under the influence of the ex- ceeding charm of his exquisite manner. But in the fol- lowing passage, which I am tempted to transcribe by the curious light it throws on the genesis of the present lite- rary history of France, I can more entirely subscribe to the opinions expressed : " The active, busy, bustling politicians of the hour have succeeded in thrusting everything else out of place, and themselves into it. One dynasty has been overthrown, and another established ; old laws have been abrogated, and hundreds of new ones formed ; hereditary nobles have been disinherited, and little men made great. But amidst this plenitude of destructiveness, they have not yet con- trived to make any one of the puny literary reputations 190 WHAT I REMEMBER. of the day weigh down the renown of those who have never lent their voices to the cause of treason, regicide, rebellion, or obscenity. The literary reputations both of Chateaubriand and Lamartine stand higher beyond all comparison than those of any other living French authors. Yet the first, with all his genius, has often suffered his imagination to run riot ; and the last has only given to the public the leisure of his literary life. But both of them are men of honor and principle, as well as men of genius ; and it comforts one's human nature to see that these qualities will keep themselves aloft, despite what- ever squally winds may blow, or blustering floods assail them. That both Chateaubriand and Lamartine belong rather to the imaginative than to the positif class cannot be denied; but they are renowned throughout the world, and France is proud of them. The most curious literary speculations, however, suggested by the present state of letters in this country are not respecting authors such as these. They speak for themselves, and all the world knov^s them and their position. The circumstance de- cidedly the most worthy of remark in the literature of France at the present time is the effect which the last revolution appears to have produced. With the excep- tion of history, to which both Thiers (?) * and Mignet have added something that may live, notwithstanding their very defective philosophy, no single work has appeared since the Revolution of 1830 which has obtained a substantial, elevated, and generally acknowledged reputation for any author unknown before that period — not even among all the unbridled ebullitions of imagination, though restrained neither by decorum, principle, nor taste. Not even here, except from one female pen, which might become, were it the pleasure of the hand that wields it, the first now ex- tant in the world of fiction" (of course, Georges Sand is alluded to), " has anything appeared likely to survive its author. Nor is there any writer who during the same period has raised himself to that station in society by means of his literary productions which is so universally * My query. AT PARIS. 191 accorded to all who have acquired high literary celebrity ill any country. " The name of Guizot was too well known before the Revolution for these observations to have any reference to hira." (Cousin should not have been forgotten.) "And however much he may have distinguished himself since July, 1830, his reputation was made before. There are, however, little writers in prodigious abundance. . . . Never, I believe, was there any period in which the printing- presses of France worked so hard as at present. The Rev- olution of 1830 seems to have set all the minor spirits in motion. There is scarcely a boy so insignificant, or a workman so unlearned, as to doubt his having the power and the right to instruct the world. ... To me, I con- fess, it is perfectly astonishing that any one can be found to class the writers of this restless clique as ' the literary men of France.' . . . Do not, however, believe me guilty of such presumption as to give you my own unsupported judgment as to the position which this 'new school,' as the decousu folks always call themselves, hold in the pub- lic esteem. My opinion on this subject is the result of careful inquiry among those who are most competent to give information respecting it. When the names of such as are best known among this class of authors are men- tioned in society, let the politics of the circle be what they may, they are constantly spoken of as a pariah caste that must be kept apart. " ' Do you know ?' has been a question I have re- peatedly asked respecting a person whose name is cited in England as the most esteemed French writer of the age — and so cited, moreover, to prove the low standard of French taste and principle. " ' No, madame,' has been invariably the cold answer. " < Or ?' ** * No ; he is not in society.' « < Or ?' " * Oh, no ! His works live an hour — too long — and are forgotten.' " Now, are the writers of French literature of the present day, whose names will at once present themselves to every 192 WHAT I REMEMBEPw. reader's iiiiiul, to be (Icemed superior to tliose of the time of Louis Philipjje, who "lent tlieir voices to the cause of trea- son, regicide, rebellion, or obscenity," and were unrestrained by either "decorum, principle, or taste?" For it is most assuredly no longer true that the writers in question are held to be a " pariah caste," or that they are not known and sought by " society." The faeilis deceusus progress of the half-century that has elai)sed since the cited pas- sages were written is certainly remarkable. There is one name, however, which cannot be simply classed as one of the decousus. Victor Hugo had already at that day made a European reputation. But the fol- lowing passage about him from my mother's book on " Paris and the Parisians" is so curious, and to the pres- ent generation must appear so, one may abnost say, mon- strous, that it is well worth while to reproduce it. " I have before stated," she writes, " that I have uni- formly heard the whole of the decousu school of authors spoken of with unmitigated contempt, and that not only })y the venerable advocates for the bo7i vieux temps, but also, and equally, by the distinguished men of the pres- ent day — distinguished botli by position and ability. Re- specting Victor Hugo, the only one of the tribe to which I allude who has been sulliciently read in England to jus- tify his being classed by us as a person of general celeb- rity, the feeling is more remarkable still. I have never mentioned him or his works to any person of good moral feeling or cultivated mind who did not appear to shrink from according him even the degree of reputation that those who are received as authority among our own cities liave been disposed to allow him. / might say that of him Jb\ance seems to be ashamed."*^ (My italics.) " ' Per- mit me to assure you,' said one gentleman, gravely and earnestly, * that no idea was ever more entirely and alto- gether erroneous than that of supposing that Victor Hugo and his productions can be looked on as a sort of type or specimen of the literature of France at the present hour, lie is the head of a sect, the high priest of a congregation who have abolished every law, moral and intellectual, by which the eiforts of the human mind have hitherto been AT J'AKIS. J 03 regulated. ITc lia.s attained tliis pre-eminence, and I trust tliat no otli(!r will arine to dispute it with liirn. IJut Vic- t(jr Hugo is NO'i' a pojuilar French author.' " My rtseolleetioriH of all that I heard in l^ai-is, and my knowl(;dge of the cir(;leH (more than one;) in which my mother uscid to live, enable me to t(!Htify to the absolute truth of the above representation of the prevalent Parisian f(;eling at that day respecting Victor Hugo. Yet he had then published his "Lyrics," "Notre Dame de Paris," and the most notable of his dramas ; .and I think no such won- dei-fiil change of national oj>iiiion and scTitiment as the cliange from the above estimate to that now universally njcognizcd in France can be mvX with in the nicords of European literary liistory. Is it not passing strange that whole regions of l?aris should have Ix^en but the other day tiirn(!d, so to speak, into a vast mausol(!um to this same " ])ariah," and that 1 myself should have seen, as I did, the Pantheon not yet cleared from tlir; wreck of garlands and inscrijjtions and scaffoldings for sj)e(;tators, all of which had been pre])ared to do honor to his obsequies? ]>iit it must b(! observcid that the violent ref)ulsion and reprobation with whi(;h he was in those dnyn regarded l>y all his countrymen, save the extreme and restless spirits of the Ke[)idjlican party, cannot fairly be taken as the re- sult and outcome of genuine literary criticism. All liter- ary jiidgnKjnts in I^'i-ance were tlu^n subordinated to po- litieal party fcjcling, and that was intensified by the most fatal of all disqualifications for the formation of sound and equal)le estimates — })y fear. All those well-to-do detesters of Victor Hugo and all his works, the ^' Quoique IJourbons" as well as the " Pro'cer/ue l*ourbons," the pros- f)erous suj)porters of the new ref/ime as well as the regret- ful adh(;rents of the old, lived in pc^rpetual fear of the men whose corypheus and hierophant was Victor Hugo, and felt, not without reason, tliat the admittedly rickety throne of the citizen king and those sleek and paunchy National (guardsmen alone stood between th(;m and the loss of all they h('.](\ dearest in tlu; world. Nevertheless, the contrast between the judgments and the feeling of IB.'J.'j and those of fifty years later is sufHciently remarkable. 194 WHAT I REMEMBER. Much has been said, especially in England, of the great writer's historical inaccuracy in treating of English mat- ters. But an anecdote which my mother gives in her book is worth reproducing for the sake of the evidence it gives that in truth Victor Hugo was equally ignorantly and care- lessly inaccurate when speaking of home matters, on which, at least, it might have been thought that he would have been better informed. " An able lawyer, and most accomplished gentleman and scholar, who holds a distinguished station in the cour royaW'' (in all probability Berryer), "took us to see the Palais de Justice. Having shown us the chamber where criminal trials are carried on, he observed that this was the room described by Victor Hugo in his romance, add- ing, ^ He was, however, mistaken here, as in most places where he affects a knowledge of the times of which he writes. In the reign of Louis XI. no criminal trials ever took place within the walls of this building, and all the ceremonies as described by him resemble much more a trial of yesterday than of the age at which he dates his tale.' " Georges Sand, certainly upon the whole the most re- markable literary figure in the French world at the time of my visit to Paris, vidi tantum. That I had an oppor- tunity of doing on various occasions. She was a person on whom, quite apart from her literary celebrity, the eye of any observer would have dwelt with some speculative curiosity. She was hardly to be called handsome, or even pretty, but was still decidedly attractive. The large eyes a fleitr de tete, and the mobile and remarkably expressive mouth rendered the face both attractive and stimulative of interest. The features were unmistakably refined in character and expression, and the mouth — the most trust- worthy evidence-giving feature upon that point — was de- cidedly that of a high-bred woman. She was at that period of her varied career acting as well as writing in a manner which attracted the attention of Louis Philippe's very vigilant and abnormally suspicious police. She had recently left Paris for an excursion in the tete-d-tete company of the well-known Abbe de Lamenais, AT PARIS. 195 who was at that time giving much trouble and disquietude to the official guardians of the altar and the throne. His comings and goings were the object of vigilant supervision on the part of the police authorities ; and it so happened by a strange chance that the report of the official observ- ers of this little excursion, which reached the official head- quarters, reached me also. And all the watchers had to tell was that the abbe and the lady his companion shared the same bedchamber at the end of their first day's jour- ney. Now the Abbe de Lamenais was an old, little, wiz- ened, dried-up, dirty — very dirty — priest. It is possible, but I have reason to think highly improbable, that econ- omy was the motive of this strange chamber comradeship. But I Avas then, and am still, very strongly convinced that the sole purpose of it was to outrage the lady's (and the priest's) censors, to act differently from everybody else, and to give evidence of superiority to conventionality and "prejudice." I wrote very carefully and conscientiously, some few years subsequently, a long article on Georges Sand in the Foreign Quarterly which attracted some attention at the time. I should write in many respects differently now. The lady in subsequent years put a considerable quantity of "water into her wine" — and though not altogether in the same sense — I have done so too. To both Guizot and Thiers I had the honor of being in- troduced. If I were to say that neither of them seemed to me to have entirely the manners and bearing of a gen- tleman, I should probably be thought to be talking affected and offensive nonsense. And I do not mean to say so in the ordinary English every-day use of the term. What I mean is that they were both of them very far from pos- sessing that grand-seigneur manner which, as I have said, so markedly distinguished Chateaubriand and many an- other Frenchman whom I knew in those days ; by no means all of them belonging to the aristocratic caste, party, or class. Guizot looked for all the world like a village schoolmaster, and seemed to me to have much the manner of one. He stooped a good deal, and poked his head forward. I remember thinking that he was, in 196 WHAT I REMEMBER. manner, more like an Englishman than a Frenchman; and that it was a matter of curious speculation to me at the time, whether this effect might have been produced by the fact that he was a Protestant, and an earnest one, in- stead of being a Roman Catholic. Possibly my impres- sion of his schoolmaster-like deportment may have been the result of his manner to me. I was but a boy, with no claim at all to the honor of being noticed by him in any way. But I remember being struck by the difference of the manner of Thiers in this respect. All my prejudices and all that I knew of the two men disposed me to feel far the higher respect for Guizot. And my opinion still is that I judged rightly, whether in respect to character or intellectual capacity. Not but that I thought and think that Thiers was the brighter and, in the ordinary sense of the terra, the cleverer man of the two. There was no brightness about the premier ahord of Guizot, though doubtless a longer and more intimate acquaintance than was granted to me would have corrected this impression. But Thiers was, from the bow with which he first received you to the latest word you heard from him, all brightness. Of dignity he had nothing at all. If Guizot might have been taken for a schoolmaster, Thiers might have been mistaken for a stockbroker, say, a prosperous, busy, bustling, cheery stockbroker, or any such man of business. And if Guizot gave one the im- pression of being more English than French, his great rival was unmistakably and intensely French. I have no recollection of having much enjoyed my interview with M. Guizot. But I was happy during more than one even- ing spent in Thiers' house in Paris. Of Madame Recamier I should have said the few words I have to say about the impression so celebrated a woman produced upon me, when I was speaking of her salo7i in a previous page. But they may be just as well said here. Of the beauty for which she was famed throughout Europe, of course little remained when I saw her in 1835. But the grace, which was in a far greater degree unique, re- mained in its entirety. I think she was the most grace- fully moving woman I ever saw. The expression of her AT PARIS. 197 face bad become perhaps a little sad, but it was sweet, at- tractive, full of the promise of all good things of heart and mind. If I were to say that her management of her salon might be compared in the perfection of its tactical success with that of a successful general on the field, it might give the idea that management and discipline were visible, which would be a very erroneous one. That the perfection of art lies in the concealment of it, was never more admirably evidenced than in her "administration" as a reine da salon. A close observer might perceive, or, perhaps, rather divine only, that all was marshalled, or- dered, and designed. Yet all was, on the part at least of the guests, unconstrained ease and enjoyment. That much native talent, much knowledge of men and women, and exquisite tact must have been needed for this perfection in the art of teiiir salon cannot be denied. Finally it may be said that a great variety of historiettes^ old and new, left me with the unhesitating conviction that despite the unfailing tribute to an eclat such as hers, of malicious in- sinuations (all already ancient history at the time of which I am writing), Madame Recamier was and had always been a truly good and virtuous Christian woman. Miss Clarke, also, as has been said an inmate of the Abbaye-aux-Bois, and a close friend of her celebrated neighbor, I became intimate with. She was an eccentric little lady, very plain, brimful of talent, who had achieved the wonderful triumph of living, in the midst of the choic- est society of Paris, her own life after her own fashion, which was often in many respects a very different fashion from that of those around her, without incurring any of the ridicule or anathemas with which such society is wont to visit eccentricity. I remember a good-naturedly re- counted legend, to the effect that she used to have her chemises, which were constructed after the manner of those worn by the grandmothers of the present genera- tion, marked with her name in full on the front flap of them ; and that this flap was often exhibited over the bosom of her dress in front ! She too was a reine de salon after her fashion — a somewhat different one from that of her elegant neighbor. There was, at all events, a greater 198 WHAT I REMEMBER. and more piquant variety to be found in it. All those to be found there were, however, worth seeing or hearing for one reason or another. Her method of ruling the fre- quenters of her receptions might be described as simply shaking the heterogeneous elements well together. But it answered so far as to make an evening at her house un- failingly amusing and enjoyable. She was very, and I think I may say, universally popular. She subsequently married M. Mohl, the well-known Orientalist, whom I re- member to have always found, when calling upon him on various occasions, sitting in a tiny cabinet so absolutely surrounded by books, built up into walls all round him, as to suggest almost inevitably the idea of a mouse in a cheese, eating out the hollow it lived in. Referring to my mother's book on *' Paris and the Pa- risians" for those extracts from it which I have given in the preceding pages, I find the following passage, the sin- gular forecast of Avhich, and its bearing on the present state of things in France, tempts me to transcribe it. Speaking in 1835, and quoting the words of a high politi- cal authority, whom she had met " at the house of the beau- tiful Princess B " (Belgiojoso), she writes: "'You know,' he said, * how devoted all France was to the em- peror, though the police was somewhat tight, and the con- scriptions heavy. But he had saved us from a republic, and we adored him. For a few days, or rather hours, we were threatened again five years ago by the same terrible apparition. The result is that four millions of armed men stand ready to protect the prince who chased it. Were it to appear a third time, which Heaven forbid ! you may depend upon it, that the riionarch icho should next ascend the throne of Frayice might play at " lejeu de quilles^'' with his subjects and no one he foimd to complahi.'' " (My ital- ics.) On the margin of the page on which this is printed my mother has written in the copy of the book before me, " Vu et approuve. Dec. 10, 1853. F T." The mention of the Princess Belgiojoso in the above passage reminds me of a memorable evening which I spent at her house, and of my witnessing there a singular scene, which at the present day may be worth recounting. AT PARIS. 199 The amnsement of the evening consisted in hearing Liszt and the princess play, on two pianos, the whole of the score of Mozart's " Don Giovanni." The treat was a delightful one ; but I dare say that I should have forgot- ten it but for the finale of the performance. No sooner was the last note ended than the nervous musician swooned and slid from his seat, while the charming princess, in whom apparently matter was less under the dominion of mind, or at least of nerve, was as fresh as at the begin- ning. My month at Paris, with its poor thirty times twenty- four hours, was all too short for half of what I strove to cram into it. And of course I could please myself with an infinitude of recollections of things and places, and oc- casions, and above all, persons, who doubtless contributed more to the making of that month one of the pleasantest I have to look back on than any of the celebrities whom I had the good-fortune to meet. But it may be doubted whether any such rambling reminiscences would be equally pleasing to my readers. There is one anecdote, however, of a well-remembered day, which I must tell, before bringing the record of my first visit to Paris to a conclusion. A picnic party — rather a large one, and consisting of men and women of various nationalities — had been organ- ized for a visit to the famous and historic woods of Mont- morenci. We had a delightful day, and my memory is still, after half a century, crowded with very vivid re- membrances of the i^laces and persons, and things done and things said, which rendered it such. But as for the places, have they not been described and redescribed in all the guide-books that were ever written ? And as for the persons, alas ! the tongues that chattered so fast and so pleasantly are still for evermore, and the eyes that shone so brightly are dim, if not, as in most instances, closed in their last sleep ! But it is only with an incident that formed i\\Q finale of our day there that I mean to trouble the reader. Thackeray, then an unknown young man, with whom I that day became acquainted for the first time, was one of 200 WHAT I KEMEMBER. " our party. Some half-dozen of us — the boys of the party — thmking that a day at Moiitmorenci could not be passed selo7i les prescriptio7i8 without a cavalcade on the famous donkeys, selected a number of them, and proceeded to urge the strongly conservative animals probably into 2)laces, and certainly into paces, for which their lifelong training had in no wise prepared them. A variety of struggles between man and beast ensued with divers vicissitudes of victory, till at last Thackeray's donkey, which certainly must have been a plucky and vigorous beast, succeeded in tossing his rider clean over his long ears, and, as ill-luck would have it, depositing him on a heap of newly-broken stones. The fall was really a severe one, and at first it was feared that our picnic would have a truly tragic conclusion. But it was soon ascertained that no serious mischief had been done beyond that the mark of which the victim of the accident bore on his face to his dying day. I think that when I climbed to the banquette of the Lille diligence to leave Paris, on the morning of the 7th of June, 1835, it was the first time that the prospect of a journey failed in any way to compensate me for quitting what I was leaving behind. CHAPTER XIV. AT BRUGES. AT IIADLEY. I LEFT Paris a day or two before my father, mother, and sisters, though bound for the same destination — Bruges. My object in doing so appears to have been to get a sight of some of the towns of French Flanders by the way. But I was not many days after them in reaching the Chateau d'Hondt, outside the Porte St. Pierre at Bruges ; and there I remained, with the exception of sun- dry visits to Ostend, and two or tliree rambles among the Flemish cities, till the 3d of October. One used to go from Bruges to Ostend in those days by " Torreborre's " barge, which was towed by a couple of horses. There was a lumbering but very roomy diligence drawn by three horses abreast. But the barge, though yet slower than the diligence, was the pleasanter mode of making the journey. The cost of it, I well remember, was one franc ten centimes, which included (in going by the morning barge, which started, if I remember rightly, at six A.M.), as much bread-and-butter and really excellent cafe, cm lait as the traveller chose to consume — and I chose in those days to consume a considerable quantity. What the journej'' cost without any breakfast, I forget, if I ever knew. I fancy no such contingency as any passen- ger declining his bread-and-butter and coffee was contem- plated, and that the charge was always the same whether you took breakfast or not. It was not an unpleasant man- ner of travelling, though specially adapted for the inmates of the Castle of Indolence. The cabin was roomy and comfortably furnished, and infinitely superior to the ac- commodations of any of the Dutch treJcschuyts of the present day. One took one's book with one. And a cigar on the well-seated cabin roof v»^as in excellent keeping with 9* 202 WHAT I REMEMBER. the lazy smoothness of the movement, and the flat, sleepy monotony of the banks. And these visits to Ostend were very pleasant. Consul Fauche's hospitable door was always open to me, and there was usually sure to be something pleasant going on withjjn it — very generally excellent music. I have already spoken of Mrs. Fauche's charming voice. Any pleasant English, who might be passing through, or spending the bathing season at Ostend, were sure to be found at the consul's — especially if they brought voices or any musical disposi- tions with them. But Mary Fauche herself was in those days a sufficient attraction to make the whitest-stone even- ing of all, that when no other visitor was found there. JVbctes ccenceque Detlm / But those pleasant Ostend days were, before the summer ended, overshadowed by a tragedy which I will not omit to record, because the story of it carries a valuable warn- ing with it. We had made acquaintance at Paris with a Mrs. Mack- intosh and her daughter, very charming Scotch people. Mrs. Mackintosh was a widow, and Margaret was her only child. She was an extremely handsome girl, nineteen years of age, and as magnificent a specimen of young woman- hood as can be conceived. " More than common tall," she showed in her whole person the development of a Juno, enhanced by the vigor, elasticity, and blooming health of a Diana. She and her mother came to Ostend for the bath- ing season. Margaret was a great swimmer ; and her de- light was to pass nearly the whole of those hot July days in the water. Twice, or even thrice every day she would return to her favorite element. And soon she began to complain of lassitude, and to lose her appetite and the splendor of her complexion. Oh ! it was the heat, which really only the constant stimulus of her bath and swim could render tolerable. She was warned that excess in bathing, especially in salt water, may sometimes be as dangerous as any other excess, but the young naiad, who had never in her life needed to pay heed to any medical word or warning, would not believe, or would not heed. And before the September was over we followed poor AT BRUGES. 203 Margaret Mackintosh to the little Ostend cemetery, killed by over-bathing as decidedly as if she had held her head under water. This sad tragedy brought to a gloomy end a season which had been, if not a verj^ profitable, a very amusing one. There was a ci-devant Don Quixote sort of a look- ing man, a Count Melfort, whose young and buxom wife boasted some strain of I forget what noble English blood, and who used to give the consul good dinners such as he particularly affected, which his wife was neither asked nor cared to share, though the ladies as well as the gentlemen were excellent good friends. There was a wealthy Col- onel Dickson who also used to give dinners, at one of which, having been present, I remember the host fussing in and out of the room during the quarter of an hour be- fore dinner, till at last he rushed into the drawing-room with his coat-sleeves drawn up to his elboAvs, horror and despair in his mien as he cried, " Great Heaven ! the cook has cut the fins off the turbot !" If any who partook of that mutilated fish survive to this present year of grace (which, I fear, is hardly likely to be the case) I am sure they will recall the scene which ensued on the dreadful announcement. There was the very pretty and abnormal- ly silly little banker's wife, who supplied my old friend, Captain Smithett, with billets cloux and fun, and who used to adapt verses sent her by a still sillier youthful adorer of her own to the purpose of expressing her own devotion to quite other swains. It was a queer and not very edifying society, exceed- ingly strange, and somewhat bewildering to a lad fresh from Oxford who was making his first acquaintance with Continental ways and manners. All the married couples seemed to be continually dancing the figure of chassee croisez, and I, who had no wife of my own, and was not yet old enough to know better, thought it extremely amusing. When October came, and I had not heard anything from Birmingham of the appointment to a mastership in the school there, for which I had been all this time waiting, I thought it was time to look up my Birmingham friends 204 WHAT I KEMEMBER. and see how matters stood there. At Birmingham I found that the governors of King Edward's School were still shilly-shallying ; but I heard enough to convince me that no new master would be appointed till the very fine new building which now ornaments the town, but was then in course of construction, should be completed. Having become convinced of this, in which it eventually turned out that I was right, it only remained to me to re- turn to Bruges, with the assurance from Dr. Jeune and several of the governors that I and nobody else should have the mastership when the appointment should be made. I returned to Bruges, passing one day with the dear Grants at Harrow, and an evening with my brother Anthony in London by the way, and reached the Chateau d'llondt on the 15th of October, to find ray father very much worse than I had left him. He was in bed, and was attended by the Dr. Herbout of whom I have before spoken. But he was too evidently drawing towards his end ; and after much suffering breathed his last in the afternoon of the 23d of October, 1835. On the 25th I fol- lowed his body to the grave, close to that of my brother Henry, in the cemetery outside the Catherine Gate of the town. The duty was a very specially sad one. When I fol- lowed my mother to the grave at Florence many years afterwards my thoughts were far from being as painfully sad, though she was, I fear, the better-loved parent of the tw^o. She died in a ripe old age after a singularly happy, though not untroubled, life, during many years of which it was permissible to me to believe that I had had no small share in ministering to her happiness. It was oth- erwise in the case of my father. He v/as, and had been, I take it, for many years a very unhappy man. All had gone wrong with him ; misfortunes fell on him, one on the back of the other. Yet I do not think that these mis- fortunes were the real and efficient causes of his unhappi- ness. I do not see what concatenation of circumstances could have made him happy. He was in many respects a singular man. Ill-health and physical suffering, of course, are great causes of an unhappy life ; but all suffering in- AT BRUGES. 205 valids are not unhappy. My father's mind was, I think, to a singular degree under the dominion of his body. The terrible irritability of his temper, which sometimes in his latter years reached a pitch that made one fear his reason was, or would become, unhinged, was undoubtedly due to the shattering of his nervous system, caused by the habitual use of calomel. But it is difficult for one who has never had a similar experience to conceive the degree in which this irritability made the misery of all who were called upon habitually to come into contact with it. I do not think that it would be an exaggeration to say that for many years no person came into my father's presence who did not forth- with desire to escape from it. Of course, this desire was not yielded to by those of his own household, but they v>^ere none the less conscious of it. Happiness, mirth, cour tentment, pleasant conversation, seemed to fly before him as if a malevolent spirit emanated from him. And all the time no human being was more innocent of all malevolence towards his fellow-creatures ; and he was a man who would fain bave been loved, and who knew that he was not loved, but knew neither how to manifest his desire for affection nor how to conciliate it. I am the more convinced that bodily ailment was the causa caiisans of most, if not of all, of his unhappy idio- .syncrasy, that I have before me abundant evidence that as a young man he was beloved and esteemed by his contem- poraries and associates. I have many letters from college friends, fellows of New College, his contemporaries, sev- eral of them thanking him for kindnesses of a more or less important kind, and all written in a spirit of high regard and esteem. What so grievously changed him? I do not believe that he was soured by pecuniary misfortune, though he had more than enough. His first great misfortune — the marriasre of his old widower uncle, whose heir he was to have been — was, 1 have the means of knowing, borne by him well, bravely, and with dignity. I believe that he was destroyed mind and body by calomel, habitually used dur- ing long years. Throuorhout life he was a laborious and industrious 206 WHAT I REMEMBER. man. I have seen few things of the kind with more of pathos in it than his persevering attempt to render his labor of some vakie by compiling a dictionary of ecclesi- astical terms. He had quite sufficient learning and suffi- cient industry to have produced a useful book upon the subject if he had only had the possibility of consulting the, of course, almost innumerable necessary authorities. The book was published in quarto by subscription, and two or three parts of it had been delivered to the subscribers when death delivered him from his thankless labor and his subscribers from further demands on their purses. I do not suppose that any human being purchased the book because they wished to possess it. And truly, as I have said, it was a pathetic thing to see him in his room at Chateau d'Hondt, ill, suffering, striving with the abso- lutely miserable, ridiculously insufficient means he had been able with much difficulty to collect, to carry on his work. He was dying — he must, I think, have known that he was ; he had not got beyond D in his dictionary; all the alphabet was before him, but he would not give up; he would labor to the last. My mother was laboring hard, and her labor was earning all that supplied very abun- dantly the needs of the whole family. And I cannot help thinking that a painful but not ignoble feeling urged my poor father to live at least equally laborious days, even though his labor was profitless. Poor father ! My thoughts, as I followed him to the grave, were that I had not done all that I might have done to alleviate the burden of unhappiness that was laid upon him. Yet, looking back on it all from the vantage- ground of my own old age (some fifteen years greater than that which he attained) I do not see or think that any conduct of mine would have made matters better for him. My father's death naturally made an important change in my mother's plans for the future. The Chateau d'Hondt was given up, adieus were said, not without many an re- voirs, to many kind friends at Bruges, and more especially at Ostend, and we left Belgium for England. After some time spent in house-hunting, my mother hired a pleasant AT HADLEY. 207 house with a good garden on the common at Hadley, near Barnet, and there I remained with her, still awaiting my Birmingham preferment, all that winter and the following spring. The earlier part of the time was saddened by the rapid decline and death of my younger sister, Emily. We knew before leaving Bruges that there was but a slender hope of saving her from the same malady which had been fatal to my brother Henry. But the medical men hoped, or professed to hope, that much might be expected from her return to her native air. But the mark of the cruel disease was upon her, and very rapidly after our estab- lishment at Hadley she sank and painlessly breathed her last. Poor little Emily ! She was a very bright espilgle child, full of fun and high spirits. There is a picture of her exactly as I remember her. She is represented with flowing flaxen curls and wide china-blue eyes, sitting, with a brown holland pinafore on, before a writing-desk and blowing a prismatically-colored soap-bubble. The writing copy on the desk lying above the half-covered and neg- lected page of copy-book bears the legend "Study with determined zeal." Her youngest child had ever been to my mother as the apple of her eye, and her loss was for the passing day a crushing blow. But, as usual with her, her mind refused to remain crushed, any more than the grass is perma- nently crushed by the storm wind that blows over it. She had the innate faculty and tendency to throw sorrow off when the cause of it had passed. She owed herself to the living, and refused to allow unavailing regret for those who had been taken from her to incapacitate her for pay- ing that debt to the utmost. And once again, as was usual with her, her new home became a centre of social enjoyment and attraction for all, especially the young, who were admitted to it. I do not remember that, with the exception of the family of the rector, Mr. Thackeray, we had many acquaintances at Hadley. I remember a bit of fun, long current among us, which was furnished by the reception my mother met with when returning the call of the wife of a wealthy distiller 208 WHAT I REMEMBER. resident in the neighborhood. The lady was of abnormal bulk, and when my mother entered the room in which she was sitting, she said, " Excuse me, ma'am, if I keep my chair, I never raise. But I am glad to see you — glad to see anybody," with much emphasis on the last word. I wish every caller was received with as truthful an expres- sion of sentiments. Our society consisted mainly of friends staying in the house, or of flying visitors from London. As usual, too, my mother soon gathered around her a knot of nice girls, who made the house bright. For herself she seemed al- ways ready to take part in all the fun and amusement that was going; and was the first to plan dances, and charades, and picnics, and theatricals on a small and un- pretending scale. But five o'clock of every morning saw \ her at her desk ; and the production of the series of nov- els, which was not brought to a conclusion till it had reached the hundred and fifteenth volume, though it was not begun till she was past fifty, never ceased. The Christmas was, I remember, a very merry one. We were seeing a good deal of a young fellow-clerk of my brother's in the secretary's office at the post-office, who was then beginning to fall in love with my sister Cecilia, whom he married not long afterwards. He was then at the beginning of a long official life, from which he retired some years ago as Sir John Tilley, K.C.B. Among others of our little circle, I especially remember Joseph Henry Green, the celebrated surgeon, Coleridge's literary execu- tor, who first became known to us through his brother-in- law, Mr. Hammond, who was in practice at Hadley. Green was an immensely tall man, with a face of no beauty, but as brightly alive with humor as any I ever saw. He was a delightful companion in a walk ; and I remember to the present hour much of the curious and out-of-the-way in- formation I picked up from him, mainly on subjects more or less connected with his profession — for he, as well as I, utterly scouted the stupid sink-the-shop rule of conversa- tion. I remember especially his saying of Coleridge, apro- pos of a passage in his biography which speaks of the singular habit (noticed by his amanuensis) that he had of AT HADLEY. 209 occupying his mind with the coming passage, which he was about to dictate, while uttering that with which the writer was busy, that he (Green) had frequently observed the same peculiarity in his conversation. Some few of our guests came to us from beyond the Channel, among them charming Mrs. Fauche, with her lovely voice and equally lovely face, whose Ostend hospi- talities my mother was glad to have an opportunity of returning. Among these visitors from the other side of the Chan- nel, I remember one elderly lady of the Roman Catholic faith, and a strict observer of its precepts, who was pleased to express a very strong approbation of a certain oyster soup which made its appearance one day at my mother's table. She w^as charmed at the idea of being able to eat such soup for a maigre dinner, and begged that the receipt might be written out for her. " Oyster soup ! Just the thing for a Friday !" So the mode of preparing the de- sired daint}^ was duly written out for her. But her face was a study for a physiognomist when she read the first line of it, to the effect that she was to " Take of prime beef^'' so much. Oyster soup, indeed ! It was a pleasant time — so pleasant that I am afraid that I did not regret, perhaps so much as I ought to have done, the continued delay of the Birmingham appointment for which I was all this time waiting. But pleasant as it was, its pleasantness was not sufficient wholly to restrain me from indulging in that propensity for rambling which has been with me the ruling passion of a long lifetime. It was in the spring following that merry Christmas that I found time for a little tour of about three weeks in Normandy. The reader need not fear that I am going to tell him anything of all I did and all I saw, though every detail of it seemed to me at the time worthy of minute record. But it has all been written and printed some scores of times since those days — by myself once among the rest — and may now be dismissed wdth a " See guide- books 2^ctssim.^^ The expenses of my travel, accurately recorded, I have also before me. There, indeed, I might furnish some facts which would be new and surprising to 210 WHAT I REMEMBER. tourists of the present day, but they would only serve to make him discontented with his generation. There is one anecdote, however, connected with this little journey which I must relate. I was returning from southern Normandy and reached Caen without a penny in my i^ocket. My funds, carefully husbanded as they had been, had sufficed to carry me so far and no farther. There were no such things as telegrams or railways in those days ; and I had nothing for it but to go to a hotel and there remain till my application to Hadley for funds could be answered — an affair of some ten or twelve days as things then were. While I was waiting and kicking my heels about the old Norman city, from which I had already extracted all the interest it could afford me, I lounged into the shop of a bookseller, M. Mancel. I re- visited him on a subsequent occasion, and find the record of this second visit in the first of two volumes which I wrote, and entitled A Summer in Brittany. There I find that M. Mancel is " the publisher of numerous works on the history and antiquities of Normandy. . . . M. Mancel has also an extensive collection of old books on Norman history; but the rarest and most curious articles are con- gregated into a most bibliomaniacal-looking cabinet, and are not for sale." Well, this was the gentleman into whose very tempting shop I strayed with empty pockets. He was extremely civil, showed me many interesting things, and, finding that I was not altogether an ignoramus as regarded his sj^ecialty, observed ever and anon, " That is a book which you ought to have !" "That is a work which you will find very useful !" till at last I said, " Very true ! There are two or three books here that I should like to have ; but I have no money !" He instantly begged me to take any book or books I should like to buy, and pay for them v>^hen I got to London. " But," rejoined I, " I don't know when I shall get to London, for I have no money at all. I reached Caen with my jDurse empty, and am stranded here !" M. Mancel thereupon eagerly begged me to let him be my banker for my immediate needs, as well as for the price of any volumes I chose to purchase. And though AT HADLEY. 211 he had never seen my face or heard my name before, he absohitely did furnish me with money to reach home, and gave me credit for some two or three pounds' worth of books, it being arranged that I should, on reaching Lon- don, pay the amount to M. Dulau in Soho Square. A few years ago, on passing through Caen, I went to the oki book shop ; but M. Mancel had long since gone to join the majority, and his place knew him no more. His succes- sor, however, on my explaining to him the motive of my visit, remarked, with a truly French bow, " My predeces- sor seems to have been a good physiognomist, monsieur !" I returned to Hadley to find my mother eagerly occu- pied with the scheme of a journey to Vienna, and a book as the result of it. She had had, after the publication of her book on "Paris and the Parisians," some idea of under- taking an Italian tour, but that was now abandoned in favor of a German journey, whether on the suggestion of her publisher, or from any other cause of preference, I do not know. Of course I entered into such a scheme heart and soul. My only fear now was that news of my ap- pointment to a mastership at Birmingham might arrive in time to destroy my hopes of accompanying my mother. But no such tidings came; on the contrary, there seemed every reason to suppose that no new master would be ap- pointed till after the following Christmas holidays. My mother was as anxious as I was that I should be free to act as her courier, for, in truth, she could hardly dispense with some such assistance ; and I alone remained who could give it to her. My sister Cecilia was to accompany my mother. She wished also to take with her M. Hervieu, the artist who illustrated her former books; and I obtained her permission to ask an Oxford friend to make one of the party. We were thus a party of five, without counting my mother's maid, an old and trusted servant, the taking of whom, however, she subsequently considered so great a mistake that she never fell into it on any other occasion. My delight at the prospect of such a journey was in- tense. I surrounded myself forthwith with an amazing supply of maps and guide-books, and was busy from morn- ing to night with the thoroughly congenial task of study- ing and preparing our proposed route. CHAPTER XV. GERMAN^ TOUR. IN AUSTRIA. That I started on this occasion even more than on any other with the greatest delight " goes without saying." A longer and more varied journey than I had ever before enjoyed was before me. All was new, even more entirely new to the imagination than Paris ; and my interest, curi- osity, and eagerness were great in proi:)ortion. We trav- elled by way of Metz, Strasbourg, and Stuttgardt, and, after reaching the German frontier, by Lohnkutscher, or vetturino — incredibly slow, but of all modes of travelling save the haquenee des Cordeliers the best for giving the traveller some acquaintance with the country traversed and its inhabitants. A part of the journey was performed in a yet slower fashion, and one which was still richer in its opportunities for seeing both men and things. For we descended the Danube on one of those barges which ply on the river, used mainly for cargo, but also occasionally for passen- gers. When I look back upon that part of our expedition I feel some astonishment at not only the hardihood of my mother and sister in consenting to such an enterprise, but more still at my own — it really seems to my present no- tions — almost reckless audacity in counselling and under- taking to protect them in such a scheme. Wliethcr any such boats still contiuQe to navigate the Danube I do not know. I should think that quicker and better modes of transporting both human beings and goods have long since driven them from their many time secular occupation. In any case it is hardly likely that any Eng- lish travellers will ever again have such an experience. The Lohnkutscher, with his thirty or forty miles a day and his easy-going, lotus-eating-like habitudes, is hardly like to tempt the traveller who is wont to grumble at the IN AUSTRIA. 213 tediousness of an express-train. But a voyage on a Dan- ube carrier-barge would be relegated to the category of those things which might be done, " could a man be se- cure that his life should endure As of old, for a thousand long years," but which are quite out of the question in any other circumstances. Here is the account which my mother gives of the boat on which we were about to embark at Ratisbon for the voyage down the river to Vienna. " We start to-morrow, and I can hardly tell you whether I dread it or wish for it most. We have been down to the river's bank to see the boat, and it certainly does not look very promising of comfort. But there is nothing better to be had. It is a large structure of unpainted deal boards, almost the whole of which is occupied by a sort of arklike cabin erected in the middle. This is very near- ly filled by boxes, casks, and bales ; the small portion not so occupied being provided with planks for benches and a species of rough dresser placed between them for a table. This we are given to understand is fitted up for the express accommodation of the cabin passengers." In point of fact, we had, as I remember, no fellow-pas- sengers in any part of our voyage. I take it that nobody, save perhaps the peasants of the villages on the banks of the stream, for short passages from one of them to the other, ever thought of travelling by these barges even in those days. They were, in fact, merely transports for merchandise of the heavier and rougher sort. The ex- treme rudeness of their construction, merely rough planks roughly nailed together, is explained by the fact that they are not intended ever to make the return voyage against the stream, but, on arriving at Vienna, are knocked to pieces and sold for boarding. "But the worst thing I saw," continues my mother, "is the ladder which, in case of rain, is to take us down to this place of little ease. It consists of a plank with sticks nailed across it to sustain the toes of the crawler who would wish to avoid jumping down seven or eight feet. The sloping roof of the ark is furnished with one bench of about six feet long, from which the legs of the brave 214 WHAT I REMEMBER. souls who sit on it dangle down over the river. There is not the slightest protection whatever at the edge of this abriibtly sloping roof, which forms the only deck ; and nothing but the rough, unslippery surface of the deal planks, of which it is formed, with the occasional aid of a bit of stick about three inches long nailed here and there, can prevent those who stand or walk upon it from gently slidincr down into the stream. . . . Well ! we have dete7'- mined, one and all of us, to navigate the Danube between Ratisbon and Vienna ; and I will neither disappoint my- self nor ray party from the fear of a fit of vertigo or a scramble down a ladder." But if the courage of the ladies did not fail them, mine, as that of the person most responsible for the adventure, did. And I find that, on the day following that on which the last extract was written, my mother writes : "At a very early hour this morning T. [Tom] was up and on board, and perceiving — by a final examination of the deck, its one giddy little bench, and all things apper- taining thereto — that we should inevitably be extremely uncomfortable there, he set about considering the ways and means by which such martyrdom might be avoided. He at last got hold of the Schiffmeister, which he had found impossible yesterday, and by a little persuasion and a little bribery induced him to have a plank fixed for us at the extreme bow of the boat, which we can not only reach without difficulty, but have a space of some nine or ten feet square for our sole use, on condition of leaving it free for the captain about five minutes before each land- ing. This perch is perfectly delightful in all respects. Our fruit, cold meat, wine, bread, and so forth are stowed near us. Desks and drawing -books can all find place; and, in short, if the sun will but continue to shine as it does now, all will be well. . . . Our crew are a very mot- ley set, and as we look at them from our dignified retire- ment they seem likely to aiford us a variety of picturesque groujis. On the platforms, which project at each end of the ark, stand the men — and the women too — who work the vessel. This is performed by means of four immense oars protruding lengthwise \i. e., in a fore-and-aft direc- IN AUSTRIA. 215 tion], two in front and two towards the stern, by which tlie boat is steered. Besides these, there are two others to row with. These latter are always in action, and are each worked by six or eight men and women, the others being only used occasionally, when the boat requires steer- ing. It appears that there are many passengers who work for their passage [but this I take to have been inference only], as the seats at the oars are frequently changed, and as soon as their allotted task is done they dip down into the unknown region bej^ond the ark and are no more seen till their turn for rowing comes round again. I presume the labor, thus divided, is not very severe, for they appear to work with much gayety and good-humor, sometimes singing, sometimes chatting, and often bursting into shouts of light-hearted laughter." It was a strange voyage : curious, novel, and full of never-failing interest ; luxurious even in its way, in many respects ; which may now be considered an old-world ex- perience ; which probably has never been tried since, and certainly will never be tried again, however many wander- ing young Englishmen (of whom there are a hundred now for every one to be met with in those days) might fancy trying it. No danger vdiatever of the kind which my mother appears to have anticipated threatened any of the party; but the adventure was not without danger of an- other kind, as the sequel showed. Of course, all the people with whom we were brought into contact — the captain and crew of the boat, the river- side loungers at the landing-places, the hosts and house- holds of the little inns in the small places at which the boat stopped every night (it never travelled save by day- light) — were all mystified, and had all their ideas of the proprieties and the eternal fitness of things outraged by the phenomenon of a party of English ladies and gentle- men — supposed by virtue of ancient and well-recognized reputation to be all as rich as Croesus, and who were at all events manifestly able to pay for a carriage — choosing such a method of travelling. Nor had English wanderers at that time earned the privilege since accorded to their numcrousness, of doing all sorts of strange things unques- 216 WHAT I REMEMBER. tioned on the score of tlie well-known prevalent insanity of the race. All who came within sight of us were ut- terly puzzled at the unaccountableness of the phenome- non. And one does not mystify the whole of a somewhat rude population without risking disagreeables of various sorts. On looking back on the circumstances from my present lofty and calm observatory I am disposed to Avonder that nothing worse betided us than the one adventure of which I am about to speak. But, as I remember, the people generally were, if somewhat ruder and rougher than an English population of similar status, upon the whole very kindly and good-natured. But at one place — a village called Pleintling — we did get into trouble, which very nearly ended tragically. The terms upon which we were to be housed for the night and the price to be paid for our accommodation of all sorts had been settled overnight, and the consciousness that we were giving unusual trouble induced us to pay without grumbling such a price for our beds and supper and break- fast as the host had assuredly never received for his food and lodging in all his previous experience. But it was doubtless this very absence of bargaining which led our landlord to imagine that he had made a mistake in not demanding far more, and that any amount might be had for asking it from so mysterious a party, who parted, too, so easily with their money. So, as we "were stepping on board the next morning, he came down to the water's edge, and with loud vociferation demanded a sum more than the double of that which we had already paid him. The ladies, and, indeed, all the party save myself, who was the paymaster, had already gone on board, and I was about to follow, unheeding his demands and his threats, when he seized me by the throat, and, dragging me back- ward, declared in stentorian tones that he had not been paid. I sturdily refused to disburse another kreutzer. The other men, v/ho had gone on board, jumped back to my assistance. But suddenly, as if they had risen from the earth, several other fellows surrounded us and dragged down my friends. The old landlord, beside himself with IN AUSTRIA. 217 rage, lifted an axe which he had in his hand and was about to deal me a blow which would probably have re- lieved the reading world of this and many another page. But my mother, shrieking with alarm, had meantime be- sought the captain of the boat to settle the matter by pay- ing whatever was demanded. He also jumped on shore just in time, and released us from our foes, and himself from further delay, by doing so. At the next place at which we could go on shore we made a complaint to the police officials ; and it is not without satisfaction, even after the lapse of half a cent- ury, that I am able to say that a communication from the police in an Austrian town some days subsequently, and after we had crossed the Bavarian frontier, informed us that the old scoundrel at Pleintling had not only been made to disgorge the sum he had robbed us of, but had been trounced as he deserved. I suspect that he had im- agined, from the strangeness of our party and our mode of travelling, that there were reasons why we should not be inclined to seek any interview with the officers of the po- lice. With that sole exception our voyage from Ratisbon to Vienna was a prosperous, and, on the whole, pleasant one, varied only by not unfrequently recurring difficulties oc- casioned by shoals and sandbanks, when all hands, save the non-working party in the bow, would take to the wa- ter in a truly amphibious fashion to drag the boat off. But I must not be led by these moving accidents by flood and field to forget a visit paid to the sculptor Dan- necker in his studio at Stuttgardt. There is in my moth- er's book an etching by M. Hervieu of the man and place. I remember well the affectionate reverence with which he uncovered for us his colossal bust of Schiller, as described by my mother, and the reasons which he assigned (mistak- en, as they appeared to me, but it is presumptuous in ine to say so) for making it colossal. Schiller had been his lifelong friend, and these reasons, whether artistically good or not, were, at all events, morally admirable and pa- thetically touching, as given by the old man while look- ing up at his work with tears in his octogenarian eyes. I 10 218 WHAT I REMEMBER. do not think the reproduction of the bust in M. Hervieu's etching is a very happy one, but I can testify to the full- length portrait of the aged sculptor being a thoroughly lifelike one. It is the old man himself. He died a year or two after the date of our visit. Uhland, too, we visited, and Gustav Schwab. Of the former I may say literally vidi tantum^ for I could speak then no German, and very few words now, and TJhland could speak no other language. And our interview is worth recording mainly for the case of the noticeable fact that such a man, holding the position he did and does in the literature of his country, should at that day have been unable to converse in French. Gustav Schwab, though talking French fluently, and, as I remember, a little English also, impressed me as quint- essentially German in manner, in appearance, and ways of thinking. He was one of the kindliest of men, contented with you only on condition of being permitted to be of service to you, and at the end of half an hour making you somehow or other feel as if he must have been an old friend, if not in your present, at least in some former state of existence. My journey among these southern Germans left me with the impression that they are generally a kindly and good- natured people. A little incident occurred at Tubingen which I thought notably illustrated this. The university library there is a very fine one ; and, while the rest of our party were busied with some other sight-seeing, I went thither, and applied to the librarian for some information respecting the departments in which it was strong, its rules, etc. He immediately set about complying with my wishes in the most obliging manner, going through the magnifi- cent suite of rooms with me himself, and pausing before the shelves wherever he had any special treasure to show. All of a sudden, without any warning, just as we were passing through the marble jambs of a doorway from one room to another, my head began to swim ; I lost conscious- ness, and fell, cutting my head against the marble suffi- ciently to cause much bloodshed. When I recovered my senses I found the librarian standinsr in consternation over IN AUSTRIA. 219 me, and his i^retty young wife on her knees, with a basin of water, bathing my head. She had been summoned from her dwelling to attend me, and there was no end to their kindness. I never experienced such a queer attack before or since. I suppose it must have been occasioned by too much erudition on an empty stomach. Our route to Vienna was a very devious one, including southern Bavaria, Salzburg, and great part of the Tyrol. But I must not indulge in any journalizing reminiscences of it. Were I to do so in the case of all the interesting journeys I have made since that day, how many volumes would suffice for the purpose? When calling, the other day, only two or three months ago, on Cardinal Massaia, at the Propaganda in Rome, in order to have some con- versation with him respecting his thirty-five years' mis- sionary work in Africa, on returning from which he re- ceived the purple from Leo XIIL, he obligingly showed me the MS. which he had prepared from his recollection of the contents of the original notes, unfortunately de- stroyed during his imprisonment by hostile tribes in Af- rica, and which is now being printed at the Propaganda Press in ten volumes quarto. His eminence was desirous that it should be translated into English, and published in London, with the interesting illustrations he brought home with him, and which adorn the Roman edition. But as the wish of his eminence was that it should be published unabridged (!) I was obliged to tell him that I feared he would not find a London publisher. We parted very good ; friends, and on taking my leave of him he said, pressing my hand kindly, that we should shortly meet again in heaven ; which, considering that he knew he was talking to a heretic, I felt to be a manifestation of liberal feeling worthy of note in a cardinal of the Church of Rome. Will the kind reader, bearing in mind the recognized and almost privileged garrulity of old age, pardon the chronology-defying introduction of this anecdote here, which was suggested to me solely by the vision of what my reminiscences would extend to if I were to treat of all my wanderings up and down this globe in extenso. The latter part of our voyage was especially interesting 220 WHAT i REMEMBER. and beautiful, but tantalizing from the impossibility of landing on every lovely spot which enticed us. Never- theless, we at last found ourselves at Vienna with much delight, and our first glimpses of the city disposed us to acquiesce heartily in the burden of the favorite Viennese folk-song, "^5 ist nur ein Kaiser stadt^ es ist nur em Wie7ir I remember well an incident which my mother does not mention, but which seemed likely to make our first debut in the Kaiserstadt an embarrassing one. There was, in some hand-bag belonging to some one of the party, an old, forgotten pack of playing-cards, which the examining offi- cer of the customs pounced on with an expression of almost consternation on his face. " Oh, well, throw them away," said the spokesman of our party, airily, " or, if the regulations require it, we will pay the duty, though we have not the least desire to retain possession of them." But this we soon found did not meet the case by any means. We had been guilty of a serious misdemeanor and offence against the law by having such things (unde- clared, too) among our baggage ! There must be a report and a written petition, setting forth, with due contrition and humble peccavi admissions, our lamentable ignorance, and perhaps the enormity might be condoned to a foreigner ! After a little talk, however, and the incense of a little con- sternation on our faces, duly offered to the official Jove (who entirely spurned any offering of another sort), the said Jove wrote the petition for us himself, carried it some- where behind the scenes, and shortly announced that it was benignly granted ; as I believe, by himself ! The accursed thing was ceremoniously destroyed before our eyes, and we were free to walk forth into the streets of the Kaiser- stadt. I revisited Vienna two or three years ago, and found that " ein Wien " had become at least three ! If the in- crease and changes of London and Paris have made my early recollections of those cities emphatically those of a former age, the changes at Vienna, though, of course, smaller in absolute extent, have yet more entirely meta- IN AUSTRIA. 221 morpliosed the character of the place. The abolition of the wall, which used to shut in the exclusive little city, and placed between it and the suburbs not only a material barrier, but a gulf such as that which divided Dives from Lazarus, has changed the social habitudes and even the moral characteristics of the inhabitants. In the days of my first visit, now just a little more than fifty years ago, nobody who was anybody would have dreamed of living on the outside of the sacred barrier of the wall any more than a member of the fashionable world of London would dream of living to the eastward of Tem- ple Bar. I think, indeed, that the former would have been more utterly out of the question than the latter. I remem- ber that, even in the case of foreigners like ourselves, it was deemed, in accordance with the best advice we could procure on the subject, necessary, or at least expedient, that we should find lodgings in the city, despite the ex- ceeding difficulty and the high price involved in procuring them. The division of the society into classes, still more marked in Vienna than, probably, in any other city of Europe, at that time almost amounted to a division into castes ; and, in the case of the higher aristocracy, to have lived in any one of the suburbs would assuredly have in- volved a loss of social caste. Mainly this arose, of course, from the inappellable law of fashion that so it should be. But in part, also, it prob- ably arose from the little social inconveniences arising from mere distance. The society of Vienna at that day — soci- ety jt>ar excellence — was a very small one. Everybody knew everybody, not only their pedigree and all their quarterings (very necessary to be known), but the men and women themselves personally. I forget entirely what were the introductions which placed my mother and her party at once in the very core of this small and exclusive society. But we did find ourselves so placed, and that at once. Probably the general notion in England was then, and may be still, that the aristocratic society of Vienna would be less likely to open its doors to one who had no title whatever to enter them save a literary reputation than the corresponding classes in any other European capital. But, 222 WHAT I REMEMBER. whatever was the " Open Sesame " my mother possessed, the fact was that all doors were open to her with the most open-handed hospitality. And, as I have said, to know one was, even in the case of a stranger, pretty nearly equivalent to knowing them all. The by far greater number of this small society of no- bles were, as was to be expected, wealthy men ; some, more especially the Hungarians, were such, even if estimated by English standards. But there were some among them who were very much the reverse. And my opportunities of observation were abundantly sufficient to enable me to perceive, without any fear of being mistaken, that the terms of intimacy and equality upon which these latter lived with their wealthier neighbors were no whit affected by their comparative irapecuniosity. One single lady of very noble birth I well remember, who to a great pres- sure of the res angusta domi added no small spice of ec- centricity ; but there was no mansion so magnificent that did not open its doors very widely to her. No fete was complete without her. She always wore a turban, and al- ways carried it about with her in her pocket. And I have seen her pause in the midst of a splendid entrance-hall, with half a dozen lackeys standing around, while she took her turban from her pocket, adjusted it on her head, and changed her shoes. The ladies of the grand monde in Vienna in those days had the queer habit of writing no notes. Their invitations and the answers to them, and the excuses, or any other communications arising from the social intercourse of the day, were all sent by word of mouth by footmen. Whether the highest hon ton required an affectation of not being able to write, I cannot say ! But such was the practice. Another specialty consisted in a practice of the young men of the same world. Every man of them retained in his special pay and service one of the (very excellent) hackney coaches of the city, which he always expected to find ready for his service, and the driver of which was trusted by him as much, or more perhaps, than a man is in the habit of trusting his own servant. IX AUSTRIA. 223 The social division between the different castes — be- tween the noble and the non-noble — was absolute in those days ; and, of course, both parties were the losers in sun- dry respects by such separation. But the results were not bad in all respects. One was an exceeding simplicity and absence of any affectation of finery or morgue on the part of the noble class, and a corresponding easy-going freedom from the small forms of social ambition on the part of the non-noble. There was among the latter no attempt or thought of attempting to enter the noble so- ciety. It was out of the question ; and, as far as I could see, such entry did not appear to be an object of ambition, or the impossibility of it to occasion either heart-burning or jealousy. In the case of the ladies of the deux mondes, the separation was absolute and without exception. But I was told that in some few cases the young men of the upper class might be seen in the houses of certain of their non-noble fellow-citizens, but never with any reciprocity of toleration. In respect of mere wealth and luxury in the manner of living, there were many bourgeois families on a par, and in many cases on far more than a par, with those of the nobles. And no doubt it frequently oc- curred that the social law which forbade all intercourse between tlie two septs was felt to be as inconvenient and as much a matter of regret on one side of the barrier as on the other. But, noblesse oblige, and the law was not transgressed. In the case of foreigners, however, or at least of English foreigners, we were very soon given to understand that the law in question was not applicable. We were perfect- ly free to make acquaintances in either world, and some of the most valued friends we made in Vienna, and some of the pleasantest hospitalities we accepted, were found in bourgeois houses. I remember two different instances of a very amusing curiosity on the part of certain noble ladies, which prompted them to avail themselves of our chartered liberty in the matter, for the obtaining of tidings of the ways and manners of the inmates of certain houses, which there was no possibility of their ever having an opportu- nity of observing for themselves. But on ransacking my 224 WHAT I REMEMBER. memory for instances of the kind, I must say that all that occur to me refer to curiosity of the upper respecting the nether world, and that I do not recollect any vice versd cases. I have said that the rule of exclusion as regards all that part of the Vienna world not nobly born was absolute. But if absoluteness can be conceived as ever becoming more absolute, the social law did so in the case of Jewish families. These were numerous, and many of them in respect of wealth, and more in respect of culture, were on a par with the best and highest portion of the Viennese society. I remember one Jewish family in particular, consisting of a widow and her daughter and her niece, with whom we became intimately acquainted, and in whom and whose surroundings we found a level of high culture (taking that word in its largest extension to all that goes to form the idiosyncrasy of a human being), far in advance of anything we met with among their social superiors. In fact, the grand monde of that far-distant day in Vienna was frivolous, unintellectual, and, I am afraid I must say, uneducated to a remarkable degree. It had its own peculiar charm, which consisted in the most perfectly high-bred tone of manner combined with complete sim- plicity, the absolute absence of any sort of affectation whatever, and great good-nature. But in all my experi- ence of them there was not to be found a salo7i among them of equal social attraction to that of my above-men- tioned Jewish friends. But all this refers to the social conditions of a day which, as my recent visits to Vienna have shown me, is one passed away and gone. It belongs to the days when *' Vater Franz " was, or, to be accurate, had only two years previously ceased to be, the idol of Austrian, and especial- ly Viennese, loyalty and affection. The most striking in- stances of the devotion of all classes of the population to their emperor were constantly narrated to me. I specially remember the tale of one occasion, when the emperor had remained shut up in the palace for three or four days — or perhaps the period was somewhat longer — because he had IN AUSTRIA. 225 caught a cold. A cloud seemed to have passed over the blue Vienna sky. The occasion of his first drive through the streets of the city after his little indisposition was an ovation. The people filled the streets, and hung about his carriage. Market-women poked their faces in at the win- dow to assure themselves that " Vater Franz " was restored to them none the worse for his confinement. It was, to the best of my remembrance, on every Thursday, at that time, that it had been the emperor's practice to devote a certain number of hours in the day to receiving any one of his subjects who had notified in the proper quarter a desire to speak with him. But might not some Socialist or Ni- hilist, or other description of radical, have easily shot him at one of those entirely unguarded interviews ? Aye ! but I am writing of half a century ago, before such things and persons had appeared upon the scene. And assuredly the possibility of such a catastrophe had never entered into the brain of any man, woman, or child in the Kaiser- stadt. There was one among the many acquaintances we made at Vienna who belonged in no wise to any division of its society, but who was, like ourselves, to be met with among them all. This was old Cramer the pianist. I took a great liking to him. The mingled simplicity, honhomie, shrewdness, and old-world courtesy of the old man de- lighted me. He was full of old-world stories, generally ending any anecdote of some one of the many notable per- sonages he had known with a sigh, and " Well, peace to his manes P^ pronounced as one syllable, as I have men- tioned in an earlier page. For old John Cramer had lived in the days before the schoolmaster had gone " abroad " so widely as in these latter times. The old maestro had just written a monody to the memory of Malibran, then recently lost to the world of music prematurely. " It is full of feeling," writes my mother, " and, as I listened to this veteran pianist, as he performed for me his simj^le and classic little composition, and marked the delicacy and finish of his style, unencumbered by a single move- ment in which the conceptions of a harmonious genius are made to give way before the meretricious glory of active 10* 226 WHAT I REMEMBER. fingers, I felt at the very bottom of my heart that I was rococo, incorrigibly rococo, and that such I should live and die." Another specialty, which in those days gave to Vienna much of the physiognomy which made it different in out- ward appearance from any other of the great capitals of Europe, and which would not be observed there at the present time, was caused by the heterogeneousness of the countries which compose the empire, and the very motley appearance of the specimens of all of them which might be found in the capital. A Parisian tells you in France that a provincial in the streets of Paris is as recognizable at a glance as if he were ticketed on the forehead. And so he may be to a Parisian. But the eccentricities of his appearance are not such as to impart any variety to the moving panorama in the streets of Paris as it appears to a stranger. The Breton, the Provengal, the Bearnais makes himself look, when he visits Paris, as much like a Parisian as he can, and flatters himself, no doubt, that he succeeds perfectly. But Croatians, Bohemians, wild-look- ing figures from Transylvania might be seen in the streets of Vienna, precisely as they might have been seen in their own distant homes. Strange and not a little sinister-look- ing groups of Hungarian gypsies, encampments outside and at the foot of the walls of Bohemian wagoners, caf- taned Jews from the distant parts of Galicia, all added to the strangeness and much to the picturesqueness of the city. I remember one especial group, the extreme barbar- ism of whose appearance, incredible filthiness, and wild, picturesque, but very forbidding physiognomies, particu- larly attracted my attention. I was told that they were gypsies from Croatia. On the whole it is — or, rather, I should say was — evident that one has travelled far eastward to reach Vienna, and the whole physiognomy of the place is modified by that fact. I am unwilling to close this chapter of my Vienna rem- iniscences without mentioning a lady whose very ex- ceptional histrionic talent had impressed me as vividly as it did my mother, who has given an honorable place in IN AUSTRIA. 227 her volumes to Madame Hettich. I subsequently became intimate with her very charming daughter in Italy, and it is from her that I learned the fact that her mother had been the first actress to personate Goethe's "Gretchen" on the stage. Considerable doubt had been felt as to the expediency of the attempt. But Madame Rettich made it — not for the first time at Vienna, but at some provincial theatre — with entire success. CHAPTER XVI. IN AUSTRIA — {continued). Of all my reminiscences of Vienna, and those I saw- there, the most interesting are those connected with my introduction to Prince Metternich. The present generation is perhaps hardly aware — or not habitually so — of the largeness of the space Metternich occupied in the political world half a century ago. It is not too much to say that Europe in those days thought as much about Metternich as it does in these days about Bis- marck. Of course the nature of the two men, as of the circumstances with which they were called on to deal, is far as the poles asunder. But on the European stage-^ not, of course, on the English — no actor of that day could compete with Prince Metternich in the importance of the position assigned to him by the world in general, as no actor of this day can with Prince Bismarck. It is hardly enough to say, as is said above, that the nature of the two men was as far as the poles asunder; it was singularly contrasted. To both of them the salus patricB has ever been the suprema ex ; and both of them, with increasingly accepted wisdott, have sought that su- preme end in the strengthening of the principle of author- ity. The history of human affairs has not yet sufficiently unfolded itself for it to be possible to say in this year of grace 1887 whether they have done so with very differ- ent measures of success. But it is very curious to mark the similarity thus far existing between the two great min- isters, chancellors, and statesmen, combined with such very marked (though perhaps in fact more or less super- ficial) differences between the two men. Prince Bismarck has not been thought, even by those who have most thoroughly admired and applauded his fortiter in re, to have very successfully combined with it IN AUSTRIA. 22§ the suaviter in modo. The habit of clothing the iron hand with a velvet glove has not been considered to be among his characteristics. And these qualities were very pre-eminently those of the other all-powerful minister. And the outward and bodily presentment of the two men was as contrasted and as expressive of this difference as that of two high-born gentlemen could well be. I saw recently, in Berlin, a portrait by Lembach of the great North German chancellor. It is one of those portraits which eminently accomplishes that which it is the highest excellence of every great portrait to achieve, in that it gives those who look at it with some faculty of insight, not only that outward semblance of the man, which all can recognize, but something more, which it is the artist's business to reveal to those who have not the gift of read- ing it for themselves. That portrait, in common with most of those by the great masters in the art of portrait- ure, reveals to you, with an instantly recognized truthful- ness, the interior and intrinsic nature of the man, with a luminousness which your owm gaze on the living person would not achieve for you. I have also before me a por- trait of Prince Metternich, made at the time of which I am writing, by M. Hervieu, in crayons, for my mother. And without, of course, claiming either for the artist or for the style of work such power as belongs to the por- trait of which I have been speaking, I may say that it does very faithfully and expressively give you the pre- sentment of a man in whom strength of w^ill, tenacity of purpose, and high intellectual power are combined with suave gentleness of manner and an air of high-bred cour- tesy. TJiat is the man whose lineaments I look on in the sketch, and that is the man with whom I had many op- portunities of being in company, and had on several oc- casions the high honor of conversing. Whether it might be possible for a man devoid of all advantage of feature to produce on those brought into contact with him the same remarkable impression of dignity, the consciousness of high station, and perfection of courtly bearing com- bined with a pellucid simplicity of manner, I cannot say. 230 WHAT I REMEMBER. But it is true that all this was rendered more possible in the case of Metternich by great personal handsomeness. He was, of course, when I saw him, what may be called an old man — a white-headed old man — but I doubt if at any time of his life he could have been a better-looking man. My mother notes in her book on "Vienna and the Aus- trians " that, as we were returning from a dinner at the house of the English ambassador. Sir Frederic Lamb, where we had just met Metternich for the first time, I observed that he was just such a man as my fancy painted Sir William Temple to have been, and that she thought the illustration a good one. And I don't think that any subsequent knowledge or reflection would lead me to can- cel it. He was a man of middle height, slenderly made rather than thin, though carrying no superfluous flesh ; upright, though without the somewhat rigid uprightness which usually characterizes military training to the last, how- ever far distant the training time may have been ; and singularly graceful in movement and gesture. He must have been a man of sound body and even robust consti- tution, but he did not look so at the time of which I am speaking. Not that he had the appearance or the manner of a man out of health ; but his extreme refinement and delicacy of feature seemed scarcely consistent with bodily strength. I remember a man — the old Dr. Nott spoken of in the first chapter of this book — who must have been about the same age with Metternich when I first saw him, who equalled him in clear-cut delicacy and refinement of feature, who was certainly a high-bred gentleman, not altogether ignorant of the ways and manners of courts, and who was emphatically a man of intellectual pursuits and habits. But there all equality and similarity between the two men ends. Good, refined, elegant Dr. Nott pro- duced no such impression on those near him as the Aus- trian statesman did. There must have been therefore a something in the latter beyond all those advantages of person and feature with which he was so eminently en- dowed. And this "something" I take to have been pro- IN AUSTRIA. 231 duced partly by native intellectual power, and partly by the long possession of quite uncontested authority. Upon that first occasion I had no opportunity of hear- ing any word from Metternich save one gracious phrase on being presented to him. He took my mother in to dinner. I was seated at a far distant part of the huge round table, where I could see, but not hear. And it was the fashion in Vienna for people to leave the house at which they had been dining almost immediately after taking their cup of coffee. But before the party sepa- rated it had been arranged that we were to dine at the minister's house on the following Monday. But all this time I have said no word of the Princess Metternich, who also dined with Sir Frederic Lamb on that, to me, memorable day. In one word, she was one of the most beautiful women I ever looked on. She was rather small, but most delicately and perfectly formed in person, and the extreme beauty of her face was but a part, and not the most peerless part, of the charm of it. To say that it sparkled with expression, and an expression which changed with each changing topic of conversation, is by no means enough. Every feature of her face was instinct with meaning and intelligence. The first impres- sion her face gave me was that of a laughter-loving and 7nuti7ie disposition. But ray mother, who saw much of her — more, of course, than it was possible for her to see of the chancellor (especially while the princess was sitting for her portrait by M. Hervieu for her, during which sit- ting my mother, by her express stipulation, was always with her), and who learned to love her dearly, testified that there was much more behind ; that her unbounded affection and veneration for her husband was not incom- patible with the formation of thoughtful opinions of her own upon the questions which were then exercising the minds of politicians, as well as all the higher topics of human interest. I dined at Metternich's table on the day mentioned above as well as on sundry other occasions ; on some of which I was fortunate enough to make one of the little circle enjoying his conversation, Of course the dinner- 232 WHAT I REMEMBER. parties at the prince's house were affairs of much magnifi- cence and splendor. But I had, on more than one occa- sion, the higher privilege of dining with hira enfamille. On both and all occasions, whether it was a grand ban- quet of thirty persons or more, or a quite unceremonious dinner en famille, the prince's practice was the same, and was peculiar. He did not in any wise partake of the spread before him. He had always dined previously at one o'clock. But he had a loaf of brown bread and a plate of butter put before him ; and, while his guests were dining, he occupied himself with spreading and cutting a succession of daintily thin slices of bread-and-butter for his own repast. Victor Emmanuel used similarly to dine in the middle of the day, and at his state banquets used to take no more active part than was involved in honoring them with his presence. But Metternich, I think, would not have said what my friend G. P. Marsh, the United States minister, once told me Victor Emmanuel said to him on one occasion. Mr. Marsh, as dean of the dii)lomatic body (it was before any of the great powers sent ambassadors to the court of the Quirinal) was seated next to his majesty at table. In- numerable dishes were being carried round in long suc- cession, when the king, turning to his neighbor with a groan, said, "Will this never come to an end?" I have no doubt Marsh cordially echoed his majesty's sentiments on the subject. The words of men who have occupied positions in any degree similar to that of Prince Metternich are apt to be picked up, remembered, and recorded, when in truth the only value of the utterances in question is to show that such men do occasionally think and speak like other mor- tals. And my note-books are not without similar evidences of gohemoucherie on my own part. But there is one sub- ject on which I have heard Metternich speak words which really are worth recording. That subject was the Empe- ror Napoleon Bonaparte. Of course on such a topic the Austrian statesman might have said much that he was not at liberty to say ; and IN AUSTRIA. 233 tbere was also much that he might have said which could not have found place in one half ^hour's conversation. The particular point upon which I heard him speak was the celebrated interview at which the emperor lost his tem- per because he could not induce Austria to declare war. Metternich described the way in which the emperor, with the manners of the guardroom rather than those of the council-chamber, suddenly and violently tossed his cocked-hat into the corner of the room, "evidently ex- pecting that I should pick it up and present it to him," said the old statesman ; " but I judged it better to ignore the action and the intention altogether, and his majesty, after a minute or two, rose and picked it up himself." He went on to express his conviction that all this dis- play of passion on the emperor's part was altogether af- fected, fictitious, and calculated ; and said that similar manifestations of intemperate violence were by no means infrequently used by the emperor wath a view to produce calculated effects, and were often more or less successful. It w^ould be a great mistake to suppose that the most cynical observer could have detected the slightest shade of bitterness in the words or the manner of Prince Met- ternich. On that field of battle, at all events, the honors did not fall to the share of Napoleon. And his aged ad- versary spoke of the encounter with the amused pleasantry and easy smile of a veteran who recounts passages at arms in which his part has been that best worth telling. But with a graver manner he went on to say, that the most unj^leasant part of the circumstance connected with dealing with Napoleon arose from the fact that he was not a gentleman in any sense of the word, or anything like one. Of course the prince, with his unblemished six- teen quarterings, was not talking of anything connected with Napoleon's birth. And I doubt w^hether he may have been aw^are that Napoleon Bonaparte was techni- cally gentle by virtue of his descent from an ancient Tus- can territorial noble race. Metternich, in expressing the opinion quoted, was not thinking of anything of the kind. He was speaking of the moral nature of the man. In these days, after all that has since that time been published on 234 WHAT I REMEMBER. the subject, the expression of Metternich seems almost like the enunciation of an accepted and recognized truism. Nevertheless, even now the judgment on such a point, of one who had enjoyed (no, certainly not enjoyed, but we will say undergone) so much personal intercourse with the great conqueror, is worth recording. My mother has given an account of the same conver- sation, which I have here recorded, in the second volume of her book on "Vienna and the Austrians." Her account tallies with mine in all essentials (I did not read it — in this half-century — till after I had written the above sen- tences) ; but she relates one or two circumstances which I have omitted ; and she aj^parently did not hear what the prince said afterwards about Napoleon as a gentleman — or perhaps it was said upon another occasion, which I can- not assert may not have been the case. One point of my mother's narrative should not be omitted. Metternich, observing that it was impossible for any human being to have heard what passed between him and Napoleon, but that everybody had read all about it, said that Savary relates truly the incident of the hat, which must have been told him by Napoleon himself. This is very curious. Another amusing anecdote recounted by Metternich one evening, when my mother and myself, together with only a very small circle of habitues were present, I remember well, and intended to give my own reminiscences of it in this place. But I find the story so well told by my mother, and it is so well worth repeating, that I will re- produce her telling of it. "During the hundred days of Napoleon's extraordinary but abortive restoration, he found himself compelled by circumstances, bon gre mal gre, to appoint Fouche minister of police. About ten days after this arch-traitor was so placed, Prince Metternich was informed that a stranger desired to see him. He was admitted, and the prince recognized him as an individual whom he had known as an employe at Paris. But he now appeared under a bor- rowed name, bringing only a fragment of Fouche's hand- writing, as testimony that he was sent by him. His mis- IN AUSTRIA. 235 sion he said was of the most secret nature, and, in fact, only extended to informing the prince that Fouche was desirous of offering to his consideration propositions of the most important nature. The messenger declared himself wholly ignorant of their purport, being authorized only to invite the prince to a secret conference through the me- dium of some trusty envoy, who should be despatched to Paris for the purpose. The prince's reply was, ' You must permit me to think of this.' The agent retired, and the Austrian minister repaired to the emperor, and recounted what had passed. 'And what do you think of doing?' said the emperor. "'I think,' replied the prince, 'that we should send a confidential agent, not to Paris, but to some other place that may be fixed upon, who shall have no other instruc- tions but to listen to all that the Frenchman, who will meet him there, shall impart, and bring us faithfully an account of it.' " The emperor signified his approbation ; ' And then,' continued the prince, ' as we were good and faithful allies, and would do nothing unknown to those with whom we were pledged to act in common, I hastened to inform the allied sovereigns, who were still at Vienna, of the arrival of the messenger, and the manner in which I proposed to act.' The mysterious messenger was accordingly dis- missed with an answer purporting that an Austrian, call- ing himself Werner, should be at a certain hotel in the town of Basle, in Switzerland, on such a day, with in- structions to hear and convey to Prince Metternich what- ever the individual sent to meet him should deliver. This meeting took place at the spot and hour fixed. The dip- lomatic agents saluted each other with fitting courtesy, and seated themselves vis-d-viSj each assuming the attitude of a listener. *' ' May I ask you, sir,' said the envoy from Paris, at length, ' what is the object of our meeting ?' "'My object, sir,' replied the Austrian, 'is to listen to whatever you may be disposed to say.' " ' And mine,' rejoined the Frenchman, ' is solely to hear what you may have to communicate.' 236 WHAT I REMEMBER. "Neither tlie one nor the other had anything further to add to this interesting interchange of information, and after remaining together long enough for each to be satis- fied that the other had nothing to tell, they separated with perfect civility, both returning precisely as wise as they came. " Some time after the imperial restoration had given way to the royal one in France, the mystery was explained. Fouche, cette revolution i7icarnee, as the prince called him, no sooner saw his old master and benefactor restored to power than he imagined the means of betraying him, and accordingly despatched the messenger,who presented him- self to Prince Metternich. Fouche was minister of police, and probably all the world would have agreed with him in thinking that if any man in France could safely send off a secret messenger it was himself. But all the world would have been mistaken, and so was Fouche. The argus ej^es of Napoleon discovered the proceeding. The first messenger was seized and examined on his return. The minister of police was informed of the discovery, and coolly assured by his imperial master that he would prob- ably be hanged. The second messenger was then des- patched by Napoleon himself with exactly the same in- structions as the envoy who met him from Vienna, to the effect that he was to listen to all that might be said to him, and when questioned himself, confess, what was the exact truth, that all he knew of the mission on which he came was that he was expected to remember and repeat all that he should hear." On the 30th of November in that year I witnessed the by far most gorgeous pageant I ever saw — for I was not in Westminster Abbey on the 21st of June, 1887 — the in- stallation of eleven Knights of the Golden Fleece. As a pageant, nothing, I think, could exceed the gorgeous and historic magnificence of this ceremony; but no " Kings of the Isles brought gifts," nor was the imperial body-guard composed of sovereign princes or their representatives. In significance^ that show and all others such, even the meeting of the Field of the Cloth of Gold itself, is eclipsed by the ever-memorable day which England has just seen. IN AUSTRIA, 237 But it was not only a very grand but a very interesting sight, the whole details of which may be found by those interested in such matters very accurately described in the volume by my mother which I have so often quoted. On the very next day I saw another sight which I think it probable no subsequent sight-seer in Vienna during all the half-century that has elapsed since that day has seen, or any will see in the future. It was a sight more mon- strously contrasted with the scene I had yesterday wit- nessed than it could well enter into the human mind to conceive. It was a visit to the vast, long-disused cata- combs under the cathedral church of St. Stephen. It was then about sixty years, as I was told — now more tlian a hundred — since these vaults were used as a place of sepul- ture. Here, as in many other well-known instances, the special peculiarities of soil and atmosphere prevent all the usual processes of decay, and the tens of thousands of corpses which have been deposited there — very many un- coffined and unshrouded during the visitation of the plague in 1713 — have become to all intents and purposes mummies. They retain not only the form of human beings, but in many cases the features retain the ghastly expres- sion which was their last when the breath of life left them. The countless forms, which never apparently from the day they were deposited there had been subjected to any sort of arrangement whatever, lay in monstrous confused heaps, mingled with shattered remains of coffins. The skin in every case had become of the consistency of very thick and tough leather, not quite so thick as that used for the sole of a stout shoe, but a good deal thicker than what is generally used for the upper leather even of the stoutest. There was not the slightest disagreeable odor in any part of the vaults. In the course of a long life I have seen very many strange sights, but never any one to match that in weird strangeness and impressive horror. If any sight on earth merits the degraded epithet "awful," it must be that of those fearsome catacombs. What I have written here conveys but a very imperfect notion of all that we saw and felt during our progress through that terrible succession of vaults. But I abstain 238 WHAT I REMEMBER. from clironiclinp: the siorhts of this charnel-house for the same reason that I refrained from any attempt at describ- ing the cloth of gold and the velvets and the silks and satins of the previous day. The detailed description of them may all be found in my mother's book, in the forti- eth chapter of which the reader so inclined may sup full of horrors to his heart's content. I will content myself with testifying to the perfect accuracy and absence of ex- aggeration in the account there given. My mother expresses disapproval of the authorities who permit such an exhibition, and she is very vague as to the means by which we obtained admission to it. Nor does my memory furnish any clear information upon this point, but I have a strong impression that it was all an affair of bribery managed "under the rose" (what a phrase for such an exploit !) by back-stairs influence in some way. I do not think that the first comer, with however large a fee in his hand, could have caused the door of that chamber of horrors to be opened to him. There are, it is true, sun- dry wprds and incidents in my mother's account which seem W indicate that the showman guide who attended us was in the habit of similarly attending others ; but I am persuaded that my mother was in error in supposing, if she did suppose, that to be the case. Unquestionably the man was at home in the gruesome place, and well acquainted with all the parts of it, but I have reason to be persuaded that his familiarity with it arose simply from the habit of pillaging the remains of the coffins for fire- wood ! Not long after this memorable expedition to the cata- combs I received a communication from Birmingham which rendered it necessary for me to leave Vienna and turn my face homeward. CHAPTER XVII. AT BIRMINGHAM. I LEFT Vienna by the carriage wbich carried the im- perial mail, shortly before Christmas, in very severe weather. It would be impossible to construct a more comfortable carriage for the use of those to whom speed is no object. It carried only two passengers and tlie courier, and was abundantly roomy and well cushioned. It carried, of course, also all the mails from Hungary and from Vienna to the north and westward, including those to Munich and Paris and London. And to the best of my recollection all these despatches, printed as well as written, were carried in the hind boot of our conveyance. If they were not there I can't guess where they were. I remember that I was tremendously great-coated, hav- ing, besides my "box-coat," a "buifalo robe," which I had brought back with me from America, and I have no recol- lection of suffering at all from cold. We proceeded in very leisurely fashion ; and I well remember the reply of the courier to my question, how long we were to remain at the place at which we were to dine, given with an air of mild surprise at my thinking such a demand necessary. *' Till we have done dinner," said the courier — " Bis wir gespeist haben " / Tlie words seem still to echo in my ears ! To me, whose experiences were of the Quicksilver "tnail ! When we had done dinner, and he asked me with lei- surely courtesy if I had dined well, he said, in answer to my confessing that I could have wished nothing more, un- less it were a cup of coffee, if perchance there were one ready, " No doubt the hostess will make us one. It is best fresh made" ! And so, while the imperial mail and all the Paris and London letters and the post - horses waited at the door, the coffee was made and leisurely discussed. 240 WHAT I EEMEMBER. I will upon this occasion also spare the reader all guide- book chatter, and pass on to the arrival of myself and the friend who Avas with me at Dover, which arrival was a somewhat remarkable one. We had travelled by Antwerp, which I wished to revisit for the sake of the cathedral, and crossed from Ostend, where also I was not sorry to pass a day. We had a long and nasty passage, but at last reached Dover to find the whole town and the surrounding hills under snow, and to be met by the intelligence that all communication between Dover and London was inter- rupted. Even the boat which used to ply between Do- ver and the London Docks would not face the abomina- ble weather, and was not running. There was nothing for it but to take up our abode at the King's Head (no Lord Warden in those days !), and wait for the road to be opened. We waited one day, two days, with no prospect of any amelioration of our position. On the third day two young Americans who were in the house, equally weather-bound with ourselves, and equally impatient of their imprison- ment, assured us that in their country the matter would speedily be remedied, and declared their determination of getting to Canterbury on a sledge. We had heard by that time that from Canterbury to London the road was open. The people at the King's Head assured us that no such at- tempt had any chance of succeeding. But, of course, our American friends considered that to be a strictly profes- sional opinion, and determined on starting. We agreed to share the adventure with them. Four of the best post- horses we could find in Dover were hired, a couple of postboys, whose pluck was stimulated by promises of high fees, were engaged, and a sledge was rigged under the per- sonal supervision of our experienced friends. On the fourth day we got ourselves and our respective trunks on to the sledge, and started among the ill-omened prognostications of our host of the King's Head and his friends. I think the postboys did their utmost bravely, but at the end of about five miles from Dover they dis- mounted from their floundering horses and declared the AT BIKMINGIIAM. 241 enterprise an impossible one. It was totally out of the question, they said, to reach Canterbur}^ It would be quite as much as they could do to get back to Dover. What was to be done ? The boys were so evidently right that the Americans did not attempt to gainsay their decision. A council of war was called, the upshot of which was that our two American allies decided to return to Dover with their and our baggage and loraps^ while my friend and I determined at all risks to push on to Canter- bury on foot. We had eleven miles of bleak country be- fore us, which was simply one uniform undulating field of snow. The baffled postboys gave us many minute di- rections of signs and objects by which we were to endeavor to keep the road. We had started from Dover about nine o'clock in the morning. It was then not quite noon. The mail would leave Canterbury at ten at night for London, and we had, therefore, ten hours before us for our under- taking. We thought that four, or, at the outside, five, would be ample for the purpose, if we were ever to get to Canter- bury at all. But we did not reach The Fountain in that much-longed-for city till past eight that evening. It was a terrible walk. Of course at no conceivable rate of progression could we have been eight hours in walking eleven miles if we had continued to progress at all. But we lost the road again and again ; sometimes got far away from it, and fought our way back to it by the di- rections obtained at farmhouses or laborers' cottages, from people who evidently deemed our enterprise a desperate one. Mostly we were struggling knee-deep in snow, once or twice plunging into and out of drifts over our waists. We were not on foot quite all the time ; for once we rested in a hospitable cottage for an hour, when we were about six miles from Canterbury. Our host there, who was, I take it, a wagoner, strongly advised us to give it up, and offered to let us pass the night in his cottage. We were already very much beaten, and were sorely tempted to close with his proposal. Perhaps, if we had known that we should never, as was the case, see those Americans again, we should have done so. But much as our bodies needed rest, our 11 242 WHAT I REMEMBER. souls needed triumph more. So we turned out into the snow again, and — by eight o'clock did reach the hospita- ble Fountain. But we were in a sad plight, desperately wearied, a good deal bruised and knocked about, and as thoroughly wet through literally as though we had been walking in water instead of snow. Kest was delicious ; a hot supper was such delight as no "gods" had ever enjoyed. Good beds would have been Elysium. But — the thought of the next morning gave us pause. We had no rag of cloth- ing of any sort save the thoroughly soaked things on our backs. No boots or shoes. And how should we possibly put on again those on our feet if once they were taken off ? In London, if once reached, all these troubles would be at an end. Finally we decided to go on by the mall at ten that night. But here a fresh disappointment awaited us. The mail was booked full inside. There were two out- side places, those on the roof behind the driver, available. But we were dead beat, wet through to the bone, un- provided with any wrap of any kind, and it Avas freezing hard. But on to the mail we climbed at ten o'clock. I believe the good hostess of The Fountain genuinely thought our proceeding suicidal, and the refusal of her beds absolute- ly insane. That journey from Canterbury to London was by far the worst I ever made. It really was a very bad business. But at every change of horses I got down, and, holding on by the coach behind, ran as far as my breath and strength would allow me, and thus knocked a little warmth into my veins. I could not persuade my companion to do like- wise. He seemed to be wxaried and frozen into apathy. The consequence was that whereas I was after some twelve hours in bed not a jot the worse, he was laid up for a fortnight. Shortly afterwards I assumed my new^ duties at Bir- mingham. The new building had been completed, and was — or, rather, is, as all the world may see to the present day — a very handsome one. The head-master, whose as- AT BIRMINGHAM. 243 sistaiit I specially was, was Dr. Jeune, wlio became subse- quently Bishop of Peterborough. The second master, Mr. Gedge, liad also an assistant named Mason. Our duties were to teach Latin and Greek to any of the sons of the inhabitants of Birmingham who chose to avail themselves of King Edward's benevolent foundation. None of the masters had anything to do with the business of lodging or victualling boys. The boys were all day boys, and our business was to teach them Latin and Greek during certain hours of every day. I soon became aware, by a strangely subtle process of feeling rather than observation, that my eight years' Win- chester experience of schoolboy life and ways had not con- stituted a favorable preparation for my present work. I felt that I was working in an atmosphere and on a material that was new to me. It would be absurd to imagine that all those sons of Birmingham tradesmen were stupider or duller boys than the average of our Winchester lads. But it appeared to me that it was far more difficult to teach them with any fair amount of success. They were no doubt all, or nearly all, the sons of men who had never learned anything in their lives save the elements of a strictly commercial education. And I felt myself tempted to believe that the results of heredity must extend them- selves even to the greater or lesser receptivity of one de- scription of teaching instead of another. I suppose that the descendant of a long line of shoemakers would be more readily taught how to make a shoe than how to build a ship. And it may be in like manner that ingeniias dicli- cisse fideliter artes comes more readily to a boy whose forefathers have for generations done the same thing than it would to the descendant of generations unm.oulded by any such discipline. Corporal punishment was used, and naturally had to be resorted to much more frequently by me than by ray su- perior, v/hose work was concerned with the older and bet- ter-conducted portion of the boys. In fact, as far as my recollection at the present day goes, it seems to me that hardly any morning or afternoon passed without the appli- cation of the cane. And this corporal castigation, though 244 WHAT I KEMEMBER. devoid of all the judicial formality which might have made our Winchester "scourging" a really moral punish- ment if the frequency of it and the prevailing sentiment upon the subject both of masters and scholars had been other than it was, Avas in truth a very much severer inflic- tion as regards the absolute pain to be suffered by the patient. Three or four strokes with the cane over the palm of the hand would be very much worse than the perfunctory swishing with the peculiar Winchester rod. I do not remember that this caning was ever judicially used as a sentence to be executed at any future time, or that it was ever, for the most part, used to punish the idle- ness which had prevented a boy from learning his lessons at his home. It was used almost exclusively, as far as I remember, for the preservation of order and silence dur- ing the school hours, and the correction of the offender followed instantly on the commission of the offence. And this necessity of enforcing order among a very un- disciplined crew of some forty or fifty lads, of ages vary- ing from, perhaps, twelve to about fourteen or fifteen, was by far the most irksome and diflicult part of my duty. I was accustomed to tuition. But the cumulation of the office of beadle with that of teacher was new to me, and I did not like it. And still less did I like the constant ten- dency of the urgent duties of the first office to encroach upon those of the second. My scholastic experiences bad accustomed me to a state of things in which idleness, violence, dare-devil audacity, and neglect of duty had been common enough, but in which organized trickery and deception had been rarely seen. And I felt myself unfitted for the duties of a police- man among these turbulent Birmingham lads. I never saw the face of any one of them save during school hours ; and I remember thinking at the time that, had this been otherwise, I might have obtained a moral influence over at least some of them, which might have been more useful than all my efforts during school hours to force the rules and principles of syntax into unwilling brains, accustomed to the habitual defiance of them during all the remainder of their lives. AT BIRMINGHAM. 245 It appeared to me that I was engaged in the perpetual, and somewhat hopeless, task of endeavormg to manufac- ture silk purses out of sows' ears ; and I confess that I never put on my academical gown to go into school with- out feeling that I was going to an irksome, and, I feared, unprofitable labor. I tried hard to do my duty ; but I fear that I was by no means the right man in the right place. No preparation of any kind, beyond assuming my gown and trencher cap, before going into school was needed, and I had, therefore, abundance of leisure, during which I did a considerable quantity of miscellaneous reading, not, perhaps, altogether so unprofitable as the advocates of regular study devoted to some well-defined end might suppose. We endeavored — my colleague Mason and I — I remem- ber, to get up a debating society among the few — very few — young men with whom we had become acquainted. But it did not succeed. Young Birmingham, intent on making, and on its way to make, " plums " in hardware, did not think that *' debating " was the best way of em- ploying the hours that could be spared from the counting- house. There might, no doubt, have been found a better ele- ment of social intercourse in the younger clergy of the town; but they were all strongly "evangelical," which was at that time quite sufticient to entail an oil-and-vine- gar mutual repulsion between them and the young Wyke- hamist. And this, involving as it does a confession of a discreditable amount of raw young-man's prejudice, I men- tion as an illustration of the current opinions, feelings, and mental habits of the time, for, after all, I was not more prejudiced and more stupid than the rest of the world around me. In fact my life at Birmingham was for the most part a very solitary one. I used to come home tired and worn out to my lodgings with Mrs. Clements in New Hall Street; and the prospect of a lonely even.ing with my book, my teapot, and my pipe was not unwelcome to me, for it was, at least, repose and quiet after noise and tur- 246 WHAT I REMEMBER. moil. Every now and then I used to dine and pass the evening with Dr. Jeune ; and these were my red-letter days. Jeune had married the daughter of Dr. Symonds, the warden of Wadham. She was a tall and very hand- some woman, as well as an extremely agreeable one. At first, I remember, I used to think that if she had been the daughter of anybody else than the " Head of a House," one just emerging from statu piipillari might have found her more charming. But this soon wore off as we got to know each other better. And long talks with Mrs. Jeune are the pleasantest — indeed, I think I may say the only pleasant — recollections of my life at Birmingham. CHAPTER XVIir. THE PARTING OF THE WAYS. I HELD my mastership in King Edward's School at Bir- mingham a year and a half — from shortly after the first day of 1837 to the 19th of June, 1838. At the end of that time I went back to my mother's house at Hadlcy. She had in the meantime returned from Vienna, had completed her two volumes on that journey, and published them with such a measure of success as to encourage her in hoping that she might vary her never- ceasing labor in the production of novels by again under- taking other journeys. But for this, and still more for the execution of other schemes, of which I shall have to sjDeak further on, my presence and companionship were necessary to her. And after much consultation and very many walks together round the little quiet garden at Hadley, it was decided between us that I should send in my resignation of the Birmingham mastership, defer all alternative steps in the direction of .any other life career, and devote myself, for the present at least, to becoming her companion and squire. The decision was a very momentous one. As might have been anticipated, the " deferring " of any steps in the direction of a professional career of any sort turned out eventually to be the final abandonment of any such. It could hardly be otherwise in the case of a young man of twenty-eight, which was my age at the time. I was the son of a father who had left absolutely nothing behind him, and I had no prospect whatever of any independent means from any other source. It is true that property settled on my mother before her marriage would in any case suffice to keep me from absolute destitution, but that was about all that could be said of it. And certainly the decision to which my mother and I came during these 248 WHAT I EEMEMBER. walks round and round the Had ley garden was audacious rather than prudent. I have never regretted it during any part of the now well-nigh half a century of life that has elapsed since the resolution was taken. I have been, I have not the smallest doubt, a much happier man than I should have been had I followed a more beaten track. My brother Anthony used to say of me that I should never have earned my salt in the routine work of a profession, or any employment under the authoritative supervision of a superior. I al- ways dissented, and beg still to record my dissent, from any such judgment. But, as it is, I can say with sincerely grateful recognition in my heart, that I have been a very happy — I fear I may say an exceptionally happy — man. Despite this, I do not think that were I called upon to advise a young man in precisely similar circumstances to mine at that time, I should counsel him to follow my ex- ample; for I have been not only a happy, but a singularly fortunate man. Again and again, at various turning-points of my life, I have been fortunate to a degree which no con- duct or prudence of my own merited. I was under no immediate obligation to work in any way, but I cannot say of myself I have been an idle man. I have worked much, and sometimes very hard. Upon one occasion — the occasion was that of sudden medical advice to the effect that it was desirable that I should take my first wife from Florence for a change of climate, which I was not in funds to do comfortably — I planned and wrote, from title-page to colophon, and sold a two-volume novel of the usual size in four-and-twenty days. I had a " turn of speed" in writing as well as walk- ing. I could do my five miles and three quarters in an hour at a fair toe-and-heel walk, and! wrote a novel in twenty-four days — it was written indeed in twenty-three, for I took a whole holiday in the middle of the work. Of com;se it may be said that the novel was trash. But it was as good as, and was found by the publisher to be more satisfactory than, some others of the great number I have perpetrated. And I should like those who may imagine that the arduous nature of the feat I accomplished THE PARTING OF THE WAYS. 249 was made less by the literary imperfection of the work to try the experiment of copying six hundred post-octavo pages in the time. I found the register of each day's work the other day. The longest was thirty-three pages. It was no great matter to have written three-and-thirty pages in one day, but I am disposed to think that few men (or even women) could continue for as many days at so high an average of speed. My brother used to say that he could not do the like to save his life and that of all those dearest to him. And he was not a slow writer. Of course when my book was done I was nearly done too. But I do not know that I was ever any the worse for the effort. The novel in question was called " Beppo the Conscript." No, I have not been an idle man since the day when my mother and myself decided that I was to follow no recog- nized profession. The long, too long, series of works which have been published as mine will account for probably considerably less than half the printed matter which I am responsible for having given to the world. Nor can I say that I was driven to work ''by hunger and request of friends," During all my long career of authorship there was no period at which I could not have lived an idle man — not so well as I wished, certainly; but I was not driven by imperious necessity. Yet I have a very pretty turn for idleness too. It is as pleasant to me " to smoke my canister and tipple my ale in the shade," as Thackeray says, as to any man. An- thony had no such turn. Work to him was a necessity and a satisfaction. He used often to say that he envied me the capacity for being idle. Had he possessed it, poor fellow, I might not now be speaking of him in the past tense. And still less than of me could it be said of him that he was ever driven to literary work deficiente cru- meoid. But he labored, during the whole of his manhood life, with an insatiable ardor that (taking into considera- tion his very efficient discharge of his duties as post-office surveyor) puts my industry into the shade. Certainly vv^e both of us ought to have inherited, and I suppose did inherit, an aptitude for industry. My father 11* 250 WHAT I REMEMBER. was, as I have said, a remarkably laborious, though an un- successful, man, and my mother left a hundred and fifteen volumes, written between her fiftieth year and that of her death. Shortly after my final return from Birmingham my mother had a bad illness. It could not have been a very long one ; the record of her published work shoWs no ces- sation of literary activity. Whether this illness had any- thing to do with the resolution she came to much about the same time to change her residence, I do not remem- ber, but about this time we established ourselves at No. 20 York Street. Here, as everywhere else where ray mother found or made a home, the house forthwith became the resort of pleasant people ; and my time in York Street was a very agreeable one. Among other frequenters of it, my diary makes frequent mention of Judge Haliburton, of Nova Scotia, better known to the world as Sam Slick, the Clock- maker. He was, as I remember him, a delightful compan- ion — for a limited time. He was in this respect exactly like his books — extremely amusing reading if taken in rather small doses, but calculated to seem tiresomely mo- notonous if indulged in at too great length. He Avas a thoroughly good fellow, kindly, cheery, hearty, and sym- pathetic always; and so far always a welcome companion. But his funning was always pitched in the same key, and always more or less directed to the same objects. His social and political ideas and views all coincided with my own, which, of course, tended to make us better friends. In appearance he looked entirely like an Englishman, but not at all like a Londoner. Without being at all too fat, he was large and burly in person, with gray hair, a large ruddy face, a humorous mouth, and bright blue eyes al- ways full of mirth. He was an inveterate chewer of to- bacco, and, in the fulness of comrade-like kindness, strove to indoctrinate me with that habit. But I was already an old smoker, and preferred to content myself with that mode of availing myself of the blessing of tobacco. " Highways and Byeways " Grattan we also saw occa- sionally when anything brought him to London. He also THE PARTING OF THE WAYS. 251 was, as will readily be believed, Avliat is generally called very good company. He, too, was full of fun, and cer- tainly it could not be said that his fiddle had but one string to it. His fault lay in the opposite direction. His fun- ning muse "made increment of" everything. He was in- tensely Irish, in manner, accent, and mind. He had a bro- ken, or naturally bridgeless, nose, and possessed as small a share of good looks or personal advantages as most men. He first urged me to try my hand at a novel. He had seen some of my early scribblings, but repeated that " Fic- tion, me boy, fiction and passion are what readers want." But I did not at that time, or for many a long year after- wards, feel within myself any capacity for supplying such want. CHAPTER XIX. MESMERIC EXPEEIENCES. ' On the l^th of August, in 1838, as I find by my diary, "I went with Henrietta Skerret to see the Baron Dupotet magnetize his patients." This was my first introduction to a subject, and to a special little world of its own, of which subsequently I saw a great deal, and which shortly began to attract an increasing amount of attention from the p-reater world around it. The Miss Skerret mentioned was the younger of two sisters, the nieces of Mathias, the author of the once well-known, but now forgotten, " Pur- suits of Literature." Mr. Mathias and his sister, Mrs. Sker- ret, had been old acquaintances of my mother from earlier days than those to which any reminiscences of mine run back. And Maryanne and Henrietta Skerret were lifelong friends of my mother's and of mine. They were left at the death of their parents very slenderly provided for, and Maryanne, the elder, became by the interest of some influ- ential person among their numerous friends, received into the service of the queen in some properly menial capacity. But of all those in the immediate service of her majesty, it is probable that there was not one, whether menial or other, equal to Miss Skerret in native power of intellect, extent of reading, and linguistic accomplishment. And this the queen very speedily discovered, the result of which was that to her particular service, which I believe consisted in taking charge of the jewelry which the queen had in daily use, was added that of marking in the volumes which her majesty wished to make some acquaintance with those passages which she deemed worth the queen's attention. She remained with the queen many years, till advancing age was thought to have entitled her to a retir- ing pension, which she was still enjoying when I saw her, a very old woman, two or three years ago. I know that she MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 253 found licr position in the household, as may be readily- understood, an irksome and materially uncomfortable one. But of her royal mistress, and of every member of the royal family she came into contact with, she never ceased to speak with the utmost affection and gratitude. The younger sister, Henrietta, died some years before her. I had of late years seen much more of her than of her sister ; for of course the position of the latter cut her off very much from all association with her friends. Henrietta was as remarkably clever a woman as her sister, but very different from her. She was as good a linguist, but her natural bent was to mathematics and its kindred subjects rather than to general literature. And whereas Maryanne was marked by an exquisite sense of humor, and was al- ways full of fun, Henrietta was, I think, the most judicial- minded v\^oman I have ever known. I have never met the man or woman whom I should have preferred to consult on a matter of weighing and estimating the value of evidence. She was for many years, as was my mother also, an inti- mate friend of Captain Kater, wlio was in those days well known in the scientific world as "Pendulum Kater," from some application, I fancy, of the properties of the pendulum to the business of mapping, in which he had been engaged in India. Young, Woolaston, De Morgan, and others ejus- dem farince, were all Miss Skerret's friends, especially the last named. And I was brought into contact with some of them by her means. This was the lady who, in 1838, invited me to accompany her to a seance at the house of Baron Dupotet, a French- man, whose magnetizing theories and practice were at that time exciting some attention. Here is an extract from my diary written the same evening: "The phenomena I have witnessed are certainly most extraordinary and unaccountable. That one young woman was thrown into a convulsive state is entirely undeniable. Her muscles, which we felt, were hard, rigid, and in a state of tension, and so remained for a longer time than it is possible for any person voluntarily to keep them so — for, I should say, at least twenty minutes. A little girl be- 254 WHAT I REMEMBER. came to all appearance somnambulous. This, however, might more possibly be imposture. When the little girl and the yomig woman were placed near each other, the effect on both was increased, and the girl instead of being merely somnambulous, became convulsive. The little girl, as far as the close observation of the onlookers could detect [underlining in original], saw the colors of objects, etc., with her eyes closed. This, however, is evi- dence of a nature easily deceptive. When waked from her magnetic trance, she forgot, or professed to have for- gotten, all that she had said or done when in it. But when again put into a state of trance or somnambulism, she again remembered and sj^oke of what had occurred in the former trance. " After these patients were disposed of, two young men of the spectators offered themselves as subjects to the magnetizer. He said that they were not good subjects for it, and that it would be difficult to affect them, and w^ould take a long time. He then tried me, and after a short space of time, I think not more than half a minute, he said that I was very sensitive to the magnetic influence, and that in two or three sittings he could produce '' des effets extraordinaires'' on me ; but that he was then tired, and that '• rien ne coule plus^ from his fingers." It is not so stated in my diary, but I remember perfect- ly well that the general impression left on my mind by the baron was not a favorable one. I find by my diary that I read his book, translated from the French by Miss Sker- ret, a few days afterwards, and the result was to increase the above impression. But I was far from coming to the conclusion that his pretensions were all chimerical. As regards his dictum about my own impressionability, I may observe that on various occasions at long -distant times I have been subjected to the experiments of several pro- fessing magnetizers of reputed first-rate power, but that never has the slightest effect of any kind whatever been produced upon me. Sometimes I was pronounced to be physically a bad subject ; sometimes I was accused of spoil- ing the experiment by wilfully resisting the influence j sometimes the ma^jnetizer was too tired. MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 255 I think I may as well throw together here the rest of my experiences and reminiscences in connection with this sub- ject — or rather some selections from them, for I have at different times and places seen so much of it that I might fill volumes with the reports of my observations. On the 13th of February, 1839, my mother and I dined with Mr. Grattan to meet Dr. Elliotson, and on the follow- ing day we went by appointment to meet him at the house of a patient of his, a little boy in Red Lion Street. I saw subsequently a great deal of Dr. Elliotson, and I may say became intimate with him. It needed but little inter- course with him to perceive that here was a man of a very different calibre from Baron Dupotet. Without at all coming to the conclusion that the latter was a charlatan, it was abundantly evident to me that Elliotson was in no de- gree such. He was a gentleman, a highly educated and accomplished man, and so genuinely in earnest on this sub- ject of " animal magnetism," as it was the fashion then to call it, that he was ready to spend and be spent in his efforts to establish the truthfulness and therapeutic useful- ness of its pretensions. Here is the account of what we — my mother and I — witnessed on that 14th of February, as given in my diary written the same day : "He put the little boy to sleep very shortly, then drew him by magnetic passes out of his chair, and caused him, while evidently all the time asleep, to imitate him [Dr. Elliotson] in all his attitudes and movements. We both firmly believed that the boy loas asleep. We then went to the house of another patient, Emma Melhuish, the daughter of a glazier, sixteen years old, and ill in bed from cataleptic fits." This was a very remarkable case, and had attracted con- siderable attention. Emma Melhuish was a very beauti- ful girl, and she was perhaps the most remarkable instance I ever witnessed of a singular phenomenon resulting from magnetic sleep, which has been often spoken of in relation to other cases — the truly wonderful spiritual beauty as- sumed by the features and expression of the patient dur- ing superinduced cataleptic trance, which has never, I be- 256 WHAT I REMEMBER. lieve, been observed in cases of natural catalepsy. I have seen this girl, Emma Melhuisli (doubtless a very pretty girl in her normal state of health, but with nothing intel- lectually or morally special about her), throw herself during her magnetic trance into attitudes of adoration, the grace and expressiveness of which no painter could hope to find in the best model he ever saw or heard of, while her face and features, eyes especially, assumed a rapt and ecstatic ex- pressiveness which no Saint Theresa could have equalled. It was a conception of Fra Angelico spiritualized b}^ the presence of the breath of life. Never shall I forget the look of the girl as I saw her in that condition ! I can see her now ! and can remember, as I felt it then, the painful- ness of the suggestion that such an apparent outlook of the soul was in truth nothing more than the result of certain purely material conditions of the body. But was it such ? Here is ray diary's account of what I saw that first day: " We found her in mesmeric sleep, she having been so since left by Dr. Elliotson in that condition the day be- fore. We heard her predict the time when her fits would recur, and saw the prediction verified with the utmost ex- actitude. We heard her declare m what part of the house her various sisters were at the moment, saying that one had just left the counting-house and had come into the next room, all which statements we carefully verified. My mother and myself came home fully persuaded that, let the explanatory theory of the matter be what it might, there had been no taint of imposture in what we had wit- nessed." On subsequent visits we assured ourselves of the entire truthfulness of statements to the effect that Emma was conscious of the approach of Dr. Elliotson, while he was still in a different street, and to the punctuality with which she went to sleep and waked, at the hour she had named herself as that when she should do so. I remember Dr. Elliotson relating to me, as an instance of the utility of the magnetic influence, a curious case to which he had been called. The brother of a young girl had, as a practical joke, suddenly fired off a pistol behind her head. She was of course painfully startled, with the MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 257 result of becoming affected by a fit of hiccough so per- sistent that no means could be found or suggested of making it cease. It was absolutely impossible for the girl to swallow anything. She was becoming exhausted, and the case assumed a really alarming aspect. It was at this conjuncture that Elliotson was called in. He suc- ceeded in putting her into a magnetic sleep, with of course perfect calm, after which the hiccough returned no more. But by far the most curious and interesting of Elliot- son's cases was one of which a good deal was, I think, said and printed in those days, but of which very few per- sons, probably, saw as much as I did — the case of the two Okey girls. They were both patients, I believe, for some form of catalepsy, in a hospital of which Dr. Elliotson was one of the leading physicians. Dr. Elliotson was obliged to throw up his position there, because those who were in authority at the hospital were bitterly opposed to his magnetizing experiments and practice. And about the same time, or shortly afterwards, the Okey girls were dis- missed for a cause which seems grotesquely absurd, but the story of which is strictly true. These girls, of, I sup- pose, about thirteen and fourteen, being in the very ex- traordinary condition which a prolonged course of mag- netizing had produced (of which I shall speak further presently), were in the habit of declaring that they "saw Jack" at the bedside of this or that patient in the hospi- tal. And the patients of whom they made this assertion invariably died ! That the presence of such prophetesses in the hospital was undesirable is intelligible enough ; but what are we to think of the motives, presentiments, in- stincts, intuitions of mental or physical nature which prompted such guesses or prophecies ? Much about the same time my brother had a serious and dangerous illness, so much so that his medical attendants — of whom Dr. Elliotson was, I know not why, not one, though we were intimate with him at the time — were by no means assured respecting the issue of it. Now it is within my own knowledge that the Okey girls^ especially one of them (Jane, I think^her name was), were very fre- quently in the lodgings occupied by my brother at the 258 WHAT I REMEMBER. time, during the period of his greatest danger, and used constantly to say that they "saw Jack by his side, but only up to his knee," and therefore they thought he would recover — as he did ! I am almost ashamed to write what seems such childish absurdity. But the facts are certain, and taken in conjunction with the cause of the girls' dis- missal from the hospital, and with a statement made to me subsequently by Dr. EUiotson, they are very curious. I may add that when cross-examined as closely as was possible as to what they saw, the girls said they did not know — that they did know that certain persons whom they saw were about to die shortly, and that was their way of saying it. They, on more than one occasion, on reaching our house by omnibus, said that they had seen "Jack" by the side of one of the passengers — of course I cannot say with what issue. The statement referred to was as follows : Elliotson having been in some sort the cause of the two girls being turned out of the hospital, and being anxious, moreover, to continue his observations on them, took them into his own house. There, looking out one day from an upper window, they saw across the street at the opposite window three fine healthy-looking children. They were, said El- liotson, the children of a hairdresser, who had a shop be- low. " What a pity," said Jane Okey, " that that child in the middle has Jack at him. He will die !" And so with- in a day or two — it might have been hours, I am not cer- tain — the child did die ! Believing, as I do. Dr. Elliotson to have been a truthful and habitually accurate speaker, I confess that it does not satisfy me to dismiss this story, especially when taken in conjunction with the other anec- dotes I have related, as mere " coincidence," though I have no shadow of a theory to offer in explanation of it. The purely physical experiments which were performed with these girls before my eyes were curious and interest- ing. I have seen those Okey girls, and they were slight, small girls, lift weights which it would be quite impossi- ble for them to lift normally, not by applying the whole strength of the body and back to the task, but by taking the ring of an iron weight in the hand, and so lifting it in MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 259 obedience to the "passes" of the magnetizer applied to the arm. But decidedly the most singular and curious part of the case consisted in the abnormal condition of mind and in- telligence in which they lived under magnetic influence for many weeks at a time. There were three conditions, or, as it might be said, three stages of condition in which I saw and studied them. Firstly — though it Avas lastly as regards my opportunities of observation — there was their normal natural condition. Secondly, there was a condi- tion not of trance, or somnambulism, but of existence car- ried on according to the usual laws and conditions, but resulting apparently from the application of magnetism during prolonged periods of time, during w^hich complete interruption of conscious identity seemed to have taken place. The third state was that of trance. In the first state they were much such as children of that age taken out of a workhouse, say, might be expected to be — awk- ward, shy, seemingly stupid, and unwilling to speak much when questioned. In the second state they were bright, decidedly clever, apt to be pert, and perfectly self-con- fident. And in this condition they had no recollection whatsoever of any of the circumstances, persons, or things connected with their previous lives. It was in this state that they talked about " Jack," and in this state that we — my mother and myself — knew them for weeks together. While in this state a very slight accident was suflicient to produce cataleptic rigidity and trance ; often one without the other. I remember one of the girls dining once with us in the middle of the day. A dish of pease was handed round, the spoon in which, it being hot weather, was no doubt heated by the successive hands which had used it. When Jane Okey grasped it in her hand to take some pease her fingers became clinched around it, and she could not open them. But there ensued no trance or other manifestation of catalepsy. On another occasion she was in my mother's house playing on the accordion, which she did very nicely in her magnetic state, but could not do at all in her normal state, and I, sitting at the other side of the room opposite to her, and reading a book, was moving 260 WHAT I REMEMBER. my hand in time to the music, though not thinking of her or of it. Suddenly she fell back in a trance, magnetized unconsciously by me by the " passes " I was making with my hand. I have also produced a similar result by mag- netizing her intentionally behind her back, while she was entirely unconscious of what I was doing. But perhaps the most singular and remarkable scene connected with these girls was that which occurred Avhen, their physical health having been very greatly, if not per- fectly, restored, it became necessary to take them out of that " second state " which has been above described, and to restore them to their former consciousness, their former life, and their parents. The scene was a very painful one. The mother only, as far as I remember, was j^resent. Mem- ory seemed only gradually, and, at first, very partially, to return to them. The mother was a respectable, but poor and very uneducated woman, and of course wholly differ- ent in intelligence and manners from all the surroundings to which the girls had become habituated. And the ex- pression of repulsion and dismay with which they at first absolutely refused to believe the statements that were made to them, or to accept their mother as such, while she, poor woman, was weeping at what appeared to her this newly-developed absence of all natural affection, was painful in the extreme. Subsequently the daughter of one of these girls lived for some years, I think, with my brother's family at Wal- tham, as a housemaid. The next reminiscences I have in connection with this subject belong to a time a few years later. We, my mother and I, had heard tidings from America of a certain Mr. Daniel Hume, of whom very strange things were related. It was no longer a question of physical spe- cialties and manifestations, which unquestionably did tend, apart from their medical value, to throw some gleams, or hopes of gleams, of light on the mysterious laws of the connection between mind and matter. The new candidate for the attention of the world claimed {not to have the power, as was currently stated at the time, but) to be oc- casionally and involuntarily the means of producing visi- MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 261 tations from the denizens of the spirit world. And before long we heard that he had arrived in England, and was a guest in the house of Mr. Rymer, a solicitor, at Ealing. We lost no time in procuring an introduction to that esti- mable gentleman and his amiable wife, and were most courteously invited by him to visit him for the purpose of interviewing and making acquaintance with his remarkable guest. We went to Ealing, were most hospitably received, and forthwith introduced to Mr. Daniel Hume, as he was then called, although he afterwards called himself, or came to be called, Home. He was a young American, about nineteen or twenty years of age I should say, rather tall, with a loosely-put-together figure, red hair, large and clear but not bright blue eyes, a sensual mouth, lanky cheeks, and that sort of complexion which is often found in in- dividuals of a phthisical diathesis. He was courteous enough, not unwilling to talk, ready enough to speak of those curious phenomena of his existence which differen- tiated him from other mortals, but altogether unable or unwilling to formulate or enter into discussion on any theory respecting them. We had tea, or rather supper, I think. There were the young people of Mr. Rymer's family about on the lawn, and among them a pretty girl, with whom, naturally enough, our young " medium " (for that had become the accepted term) was more disposed to flirt — after a fashion, I remember, which showed him to have been a petted inmate of the household — than to at- tend to matters of another world. But other guests arrived. Sir David Brewster I remem- ber among them, and Daniel had to be summoned to the business of the evening. This was commenced by our all placing ourselves round a very large and very heavy old- fashioned mahogany dining-table, where we sat in expec- tation of whatever should occur. Before long little crack- ings were heard, in the wood of the table apparently. Then it quivered, became more and more agitated, was next raised first at one end and then at the other, and finally was undeniably raised bodily from the ground. At that moment Sir David Brewster and myself, each acting on his own uncommunicated impulse, precipitated our- 262 WHAT I REMEMBER. selves from our chairs under the table. The table was seen to be for a moment or two hovering in the air, per- haps some four or five inches from the floor, without its being possible to detect any means by which it could have been moved. I said to Sir David, as our heads were close together under the table, and we were on "all fours" on the floor, " Does it not seem that this table is raised by some means wholly inexplicable?" "Indeed it would seem so!" he replied. But he wrote a letter to the Times the next day, or a day or two after, in which he gave an account of his visit to Ealing, but ended by denying that he had seen anything remarkable. But it is a fact that he did do and say what I have related. This was the sum of what occurred. There was no pre- tence of the presence of any spiritual visitor. I may ob- serve that although an ordinarily strong man might have lifted either end of the table while the other end remained on the ground, I am persuaded that no man could have raised it bodily, unless, perhaps, by placing his shoulders under the centre of it. After the table exhibition Mr. Hume fell into a sort of swoon or trance. And it was then that he uttered the often-quoted words, " When Daniel recovers give him some bottled porter !" which was accordingly done ! It may be observed, however, that he did appear to be much exhausted. Various little fragments of experiences, and the increas- ing amount of attention which the world was giving to the subject, had kept the matter in my mind, till some years afterwards I had an opportunity of inviting Mr. Hume to visit me in my house in Florence. He came, and stayed with us for a month. And during the whole of that time — every evening as it seems to my remembrance, though I have no diary which records the fact — we had frequent experiments of his " mediumship." Of course it is (happily for the reader) out of the ques- tion for me to attempt to give any detailed record of the proceedings and experiences of those repeated seances. I can only select a few facts which appeared to me most MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 263 striking at the time, and add the general result as to the impression produced on my mind. All our Florentine friends and acquaintances were eager to have an opportunity of passing an evening with the al- ready celebrated medium. We generally limited our num- ber to about eight persons ; but pretty regularly had as many as that every evening. The performance usually began by crackings and oscillations of the round table at which we sat. Then would come more distinct raps ; then the declaration that a visitor from the spirit world was present, then the demand for whom the said visit was in- tended, to which a reply was "knocked out," by raps in- dicating the letters required to form the desired name as the letters of the alphabet, always on the table, were rap- idly run over. Sometimes a mistake was made, and an unintelligible word produced in consequence of too great haste in doing this. And then the process had to be gone through again. The medium never corrected any such mistake at the moment it was made, but seemed to await the completion of the process, as the rest did. One or more " spirits " came, to the best of my recollec- tion, every evening. Nor could I detect any sort of favor- itism, or motive of any sort for the selection of the parties said to be visited. This is the sort of thing that would occur: There was present a well-known and much- re- spected English banker, established in Florence, a hale, robust, cheery sort of man, and a general favorite — the last man in the Avorld one would say to be credited with nervous impressionability. A " spirit " was announced as having " come for him." Who is it ? A name was rapped out in the manner described. The elderly banker declared that he had never had any friend or relative of that name, and had never heard it before. A second time the name was spelled out while the banker sat threshing out his rec- ollections. Suddenly he struck his forehead with his hand, and exclaimed, " By Heaven ! it is true ! I^anny " (I forget the name). " She was my nurse in York- shire more than half a century ago!" Of course those wdio do not understand that scepticism is frequently more credulous than faith, sav ^t once that Mr. Hume, in the 264 WHAT I KEMEMBER. exercise of his profession, like the gypsies in the exercise of theirs, had made it his business to discover the former existence of Nanny , and her connection with the per- son he was bent on befooling. But taking into considera- tion the total severance of the old banker's infancy both as to years and locality from any of his then surroundings; the fact that it was so long since he had heard the name in question mentioned that he had himself entirely for- gotten it ; and the further fact that there was nobody in Florence who had any connection with him or his family in his early years, and the circumstance that he that even- ing saw Mr. Hume for the first time, I confess that it seems to me that the improbability of any proposed explanation of the mystery must be incalculably great indeed, for a solution the improbability of which approaches so very near to impossibility to be preferably accepted. Here is one other case, which I will give both because the person on whose testimony the value of it depends was one on whose accurate veracity I could dej^end as on my own, and because it illustrates one specialty of Mr. Hume's performances which I have not yet spoken of. This was a sensation of being touched, which was frequent- ly experienced by many of those present. This touching almost invariably took the form of a knee being grasped under the table, or a hand being laid upon it. In the case I am about to relate this was experienced in a more re- markable manner. A very highly valued old female servant, who had lived in my then wife's family since her birth, and had followed her when she married me, had some months previously died in my house. The affection which had subsisted be- tween her and my wife was a very old and a very strong one. Now there was, it would seem, an old nursery pet name, by which this woman had been, long years before, in the habit of calling my wife. I had never heard it, or of it. My Avife herself had never heard it for very many years. She and the old servant had never for years and years spoken on the subject. But one evening this pet name was very distinctly spelled ; and my wife declared that she at the same time felt a sort of pressure at her MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 265 side, as she sat in the circle, as if some person or thing had been endeavoring to find a j^lace by her side. But for all that, my wife, though utterly mystified and incapa- ble of suggesting any theory on the subject, was a strong disbeliever in all Mr. Hume's pretensions. She strongly disliked the man. And were it not that, as we all know, her sex never permits their estimate of facts to be influ- enced by their feelings, it might be supposed possible that this biassed her mind upon the subject. I could add dozens of cases to the above two, but they were all very similar; and it is sufficient to say that the same sort of thing occurred over and over again. I may mention, however, that I observed that any ques- tion addressed to the supposed spirits bearing on theology and matters of creed were invariably answered according to the views of the questioner. Catholics, Protestants, materialists, were all impartially confirmed in the convic- tions of their diverse persuasions. Also I should not omit to mention that my wife, taking her occasion from Mr. Hume's complaints of his own weak- ness of lungs, spoke of my brother's death in Belgium and of my life at Ostend, and at a sitting some few days after- wards asked if she could be told where I had last seen my brother on earth. The answer came promptly, "At Ostend." But the truth is, as the reader knows, that I took my leave of him on board the Ostend steamer in the Thames. My account of these sittings would not be as judicially accurate as I have endeavored to make it, however, were I to omit the statement that Mr. Hume on two or three occasions offered to cause " spirit hands " to become visible to us. The room was darkened for this purpose; and at the opposite side of a rather large table from that at which the spectators were sitting certain forms of hands did be- come faintly visible. To me they appeared like long kid gloves stuffed with some substance. But I am far from asserting that they were such. On the whole, the impression left on my mind by my month-long intercourse with Mr. Hume was a disagreeable one of doubt and perplexity. I was not left with the con- 12 ^: 266 WHAT I REMEMBER. viction that he was an altogether trustworthy and sincere man. Nor was I fully persuaded of the reverse. I saw nothing which appeared to me to compel the conclusion that some agency unknown to the ascertained and recog- nized laws of nature was at work. But I did hear many communications made in Mr. Hume's presence in the man- ner which has been described, which seemed to me to be wholly inexplicable by any theory I could bring to bear upon them. It may be observed that no theory of thought- reading' will serve the turn, for in many cases the facts, circumstances, or names communicated were evidently not in the thoughts of the persons to whom they were so com- municated. Of course it may be answered, " Ah ! but however ' evident ' that may have seemed to you, the facts ivere in the thoughts of the parties in question." To this I can only reply that to me, my very complete knowledge of the persons in question, and of their veracity — one of them, as in the case above related, being my own wife — renders the explanation suggested absolutely inadmissible. I have seen at various subsequent periods a great many professors of " mediumship " and their performances. I was present at many sittings given by Mrs. G ^ , a huge mountain of a woman, very uneducated, apparently good- natured and simple, but with a tendency to become dis- agreeable when her attempts at communication with the unseen world were declared to be failures. I will give here the copy of a letter which I wrote to the secretary of " The Dialectical Society," which had ap- plied to me for my " experiences " on the subject. I can- not at the present day sura up any better the conclusions' to which they led me. "Florence, 2Wi December, 1869. " Sir, — In reply to your letter of the iVth I can only say that I have but little to add to those previous statements of mine, of which you are in pos- session. " With regard to the sittings with Mrs. G., I can only say that the great- est watchfulness on the part of those sharing in them failed to detect (as regards the physical phenomena) any trace of imposture. These phe- nomena, which took place in the dark, such as the sudden falling on the table of a large quantity of jonquils, which filled the whole room with their odor, were extraordinary, and on any common theory of physics un- MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 267 accountable. The room in which this took place had been completely ex- amined by me, and Mrs. G.'s person had been carefully searched by my wife. With regard to metaphysical phenomena, an attempt to hold com- munication with intelligences other than those present in the flesh was stated by a lady to whom a communication was addressed to have been extraordinarily successful, and to have been proved by the event. In the case of myself and my wife all such attempts resulted in total failure. "I have recently had a sitting with Dr. Willis of Boston. The phj^sical manifestations (in the dark) were remarkable and perplexing. The at- tempts at spiritual communication were altogether failures. " In short, the result of my experience thus far is this — that the physi- cal phenomena frequently produced are, in many cases, not the result of any sleight of hand, and that those who have witnessed them with due attention must be convinced that there is no analogy between them and the tricks of professed ' conjurors.' I may also mention that Bosco, one of the most accomplished professors of legerdemain ever known, in a con- versation with me upon the subject, utterly scouted the idea of the pos- sibility of such phenomena as I saw produced by Mr. Hume being per- formed by any of the resources of his art. " To what sort of agency these results are to be attributed I have no idea, and give no opinion ; although (inasmuch as I consider that the w^ord ' supernatural ' involves a contradiction in terms) I hold that to admit that the phenomena exist, implies the admission that they are 'natural,' or in accordance with some law of nature. " AVith regard to the metaphysical phenomena, though I have witnessed many strange things, I have never known any that satisfactorily excluded the possibility of mistake or imposture. " Your obedient servant, T. Adolphus Trollope." If I am asked what, upon the whole, is my present state of mind upon the subject, I can only say that it is that unpleasant one expressed in Lord Chancellor Eldon's often- quoted words, "I doubt." Before, however, quitting the subject, my gossip about which has run to a length only excusable on the ground of the very general interest that has been attracted by it, I will give two more excerpts from my recollections, which relate to cases respecting which I have 7io doubt. They both refer, however, to purely physical phenomena. A French professor of "animal magnetism" came to Florence. His name, I think, w^as Lafontaine. He had a young girl with him, his patient. He brought her to my house, in which there was a long room, at one end of which he directed me to stand, then put the girl imme- diately in front of me, and told me to hold her, so as to 268 WHAT I REMEMBER. prevent her from coming to him, when, standing at the farther end of the room, he should draw her to him. I accordingly placed my arms around her waist, interlacing my fingers in front of her. She was a small, slight girl, and I was at that time a somewhat exceptionally strong man. The operator, then standing at the distance of some twenty feet or more, made "passes," as it were, beckon- ino- her with his hands to come to him. She struggled forward. I held her back with all my force, but was drao-o-ed after her towards the magnetizer. This may be accepted as an absolutely accurate and certain fact. This same Lafontaine had entirely failed in attempts to magnetize me, and in telling me, as he promised to do, what I in my house was doing at a given moment while he was absent. ^ My second excerpt concerns also my own experience, and shall be given with equally truthful accuracy. My wife, my wife's sister, and myself had been spend- ino- the evening in the house of Mr. Seymour Kirkup, an artist, who, once well known in the artistic world, lived on in Florence to a great age after that world liad forgotten him. A girl, his daughter by a servant who lived several years in his house, and who also had pretended to very strongly developed spiritualistic powers, developed, as he asserted, similar powers in a very wonderful degree. And during his latter years the old man absolutely and entirely lived, in every respect, according to the advice and dic- tates of " the spirits," as oracularly declared by Imogene, for that was her name. In short, she was a clever, worth- less hussy, and he was a besotted old man. Our visit to his house was to witness some of Imogene's performances. There was also present a Colonel Bowen, who was a con- vinced believer. I, my wife, and sister-in-law detected unmistakabl}^ the girl's clumsy attempts at legerdemain, but knew poor old Kirkup far too well to make any attempt to convict her. But as we walked home, with our minds full of the sub- ject, we said, " Let us try whether v/e can produce any effect upon a table, since that seems the regulation first- step in these mysteries ; and, at least, we shall have the MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 269 certainty of not being befooled by trickery." So, on reaching home, we took a table — rather a remarkable one. It was small, not above eighteen or twenty inches across the top of it. But it was very much heavier than any or- dinary table of that size, the stem of it being a massive bit of ancient chestnut-wood carving which I had adapted to that purpose. Well, in a minute or tw^o the table began to move very unmistakably. We were startled, and began to think that the ladies' dresses must have, unconsciously to them, pressed against it. We stood back therefore, taking care that nothing but the tips of our fingers touched the table. It still moved ! We said that some unconscious exertion of muscular force must have caused the movement, and, finally, we suspended our fingers about an inch or so above the surface of the table, taking the utmost care to touch it in no way whatever. The table still turned, and that to such an extent that, entirely untouched, it turned itself over, and fell to the ground. I can only observe of this, as the little boy said who was accused of relating an impossibilty as a fact, " I don't say it is possible, I only say it is true !" In Kirkup's case his entire and never-varying conviction of the truthfulness of Miss Imogene's material manifesta- tions and spiritual revelations was the more remarkable in that he had for many years — for all his life, for aught I know to the contrary — entertained and professed the most thor- ough persuasion of the futility and absurdity of all belief that the soul of man survived material death. His tenets on this subject are the more strongly impressed on my memory by an absurd incident that occurred to my pres- ent wife in connection with his materialistic theories. He and she were one day talking upon the subject, as they sat tete-d-tete on opposite sides of a table. Now Kirkup was very deaf — w^orse by a great deal than I am — and my wafe failing to make him hear a question she put to him, and having no other wanting materials at hand, hastily drew a card from her card-case and pencilled on the back of it : " What are your grounds for assurance that the visible death of the body is the death of the spirit A^ 270 WHAT I REMEMBER. also?" He read, and addressed himself to reply, letting the card fall on the table between them, which she, think- ing only of the matter in discussion, mechanically put back into her card-case, and left at the next house at which she happened to be making a morning-call ! Kirkup's conversion to spiritualism was so complete that, as I have said, his entire life w^as shaped according to the dictates which Miss Imogene chose to represent as coming from her spiritual visitors. The old man had lived for very many years in Florence. All the interests which still bound him to life were there, and he was much attached to the city in w^hich so large a portion of his long life had been passed. But Imogene one day an- nounced that " the spirits " declared that he must go and live in Leghorn ! Of course the blow to the old man was a terrible one, but he meekly and unhesitatingly obeyed, and submitted to be uprooted when he was past eighty and packed o& to Leghorn ! I discovered subsequently — what I might have guessed at the time — that the good- for-nothing jade had a lover at Leghorn. Kirkup's new faith in the existence of a soul in man, separable from his body, continued firm, I believe, till his death, which oc- curred shortly afterwards. I have, at various times and in various countries, been present at the performances of spiritualistic 'iuediums (a monstrous word, but one can't write media), and always with a uniformly similar result in one respect. No non- material experience whatever has ever been vouchsafed to me myself. 31aterial phenomena of a very surprising nature, and altogether unaccountable in accordance with any received physical theories, I have seen in great abun- dance. And I must in justice say that the performances of Messrs. Maskelyne and Cooke, which attracted so much attention in Piccadilly, masterly as they were as exhibi- tions of legerdemain, did not by any means succeed in proving the imposture of the pretensions of Hume and others by doing the same things. I think the Piccadilly performances did achieve this as regards the tying and loosening of knots in a dark cabinet. But when one of the performers above mentioned proceeded to "float in MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. oTl the air " be only demonstrated the impossibility of doing, by any means known to his art, that which Hume — or Home — was declared, on the most indisputable testimony, to have done. Mr. Maskelyne certainly " floated in the air" above the heads of the spectators, but I saw very un- mistakably the wire by which he was suspended. It may not have been icire, but I saw the cord, thread, or what- ever it may have been, by which he was suspended. Nor is it possible to doubt that the gentlemen who saw, or supposed themselves to have seen, Mr. Hume floating in the air above them would have failed to detect any such artifice as that by which the professor of legerdemain was enabled to do the same. And then we must not lose sight of the all-important difference between the two perform- ances, arising from the fact that the one performer has at command all the facilities afforded by a locale in which he has had abundant opportunity of making every prepara- tion which the resources of his art could suggest to him ; whereas the other exhibits his wonders under circum- stances absolutely excluding the possibility of any such preparation. But I never saw Mr. Hume float in the air. The only physical phenomena which I saw produced by him con- sisted in the moving and lifting of tables — in some cases very heavy tables. But I have witnessed, in very numer- ous cases, communications made by the medium to indi- viduals who have declared it to have been absolutely im- possible that Mr. Hume should by any ordinary means have known the facts communicated. And it has appeared to me, knowing all the circumstances, to have been as nearly impossible as can well be conceived without being absolutely so. Here is one more remarkable case — one out of dozens of such. A middle-aged Italian gentleman of the Jewish per- suasion asked that the spirit of his father, who, it was stated by the medium, was present, should mention where he and his son, then communicating with him, last met on earth. It should be stated that the inquirer, having aban- doned the faith of his fathers, professed entire disbelief in any existence of the soul, or any future life. The answer 272 WHAT I REMEMBER. to bis query was spelled out in the manner I have already described, a certain Italian city being named. I watched the face of the sceptical inquirer as the letters were " rapped out " and gradually completed the name required. And I needed no confession of the fact from him to know that the answ^er had been correctly given. I thought the man would have fallen from his chair. He became ghast- ly pale, and trembled all over. He was in truth very ter- ribly impressed and affected, but — and the phenomenon is a very curious, though by no means an uncommon one — a few days afterwards the impression had entirely faded from his mind. He continued fully to admit that the fact which had occurred was altogether inexplicable, but wholly refused to believe that it involved any supposition incon- sistent with his strictly materialistic creed. In the above case, as in that of the banker given above, it may of course be said that it wiis within the bounds of possibility that Mr. Hume should have previously ascer- tained the fact that he stated. It is, of course, impossible for me here to explain to the reader every detail of the circumstances that seem to me to render such an explana- tion wholly inadmissible. I can only say that to a mind as entirely open upon the subject as I think my mind is, the supposition in question appears so improbable that it fails to impress me as a possibility. On the other hand, I have to say that every attempt of a similar kind, whether by Mr. Hume or by any other so- called medium, in which I myself have been the subject of the experiment, has absolutely and wholly failed. Mr. Hume never, to the best of my remembrance, introduced or announced the presence of any spirit " for me." I was like the boy at school whom no relative ever comes to see. The Mrs. G who has been mentioned at an earlier page announced upon one occasion the presence of my mother with results which would have sufficed to prove very sat- isfactorily that my mother's spirit was not there, if I had previously fully believed the case to have been otherwise. I once w^ent to visit the then celebrated Alexis in Paris. He knew that I was a resident in Florence, and began op- erations by proposing to describe to me my house there. MESMERIC EXPERIENCES. 273 Of course such an experiment admitted of almost every conceivable kind of mystification and uncertainty. I told him that the proposed description would necessarily oc- cupy more of his time than seemed to me needed for pro- ducing the conviction of the reality of his power which I was anxious to acquire ; and that it would be abundantly sufficient for that purpose if he would simply tell me the number composed of four figures which I had written on a piece of paper, and sealed in a (perfectly non-transpar- ent) packet. He refused to make the attempt. Many years subsequently I attended the seances of a gentleman in London, whose performances attracted a good deal of attention at the time — of an unfavorable de- scription, for the most part — and whose chief specialty con- sisted in enclosing a piece of slate pencil loosely between two ordinary framed slates, securely tied together, and awaiting communications to be made by writing produced on the slate by the pencil thus enclosed acting automati- cally. I did see written words thus produced, where to the best of my observation there had been no words be- fore the slates were (quite securely) tied together. Nor could I form any theory or guess as to the manner in which this writing was produced under circumstances which seemed to make it perfectly impossible that it should be so produced. But the words so written con- vej^ed no remarkable or surprising information — and, in- deed, to the best of ray recollection had little meaning at all. Thus once again that portion of the performance which was, or might have been, of the nature of sleight of hand, was done so well as to cause much puzzlement and sur- prise ; while what may be called the spiritual part of the promised phenomenon failed entirely. I have witnessed the performances of sundry other me- dhims^l hate to write the word ! — always with the same net result. That is to say, the strictly physical phenome- na witnessed were in very many cases — not in all — utter- ly unaccountable and incomprehensible. The statement that the performances of many masters of legerdemain are also unaccountable and incomprehensible appears to 12* 274 WHAT I REMEMBER. me, while I fully admit the truth of it, to be of very little value. The phenomena produced by these professors are in almost every case totally different in kind, and are in every case placed in a wholly different category by the fact that the performers of them have the assistance of tools and means — the highly-skilled preparation and com- bination of which constitute a very important (if not the most essential) part of their professional equipment — and of the resources of their own prepared locale. Further- more, I cannot forget the testimony of that "prince of conjurors," Bosco, to the effect that the phenomena which I declared to him I had seen were entirely unachievable by any of the resources of his art. Above all I have the certain knowledge (resting not only on my own very perfect recollection, but on the un- varying testimony of the two other persons engaged in the experiment) that a table did move much and violently, as recorded above, while wholly and certainly untouched by any human hands or persons, and uncommunicated with — if I may use such an expression — save by the minds of the operators. The net conclusion, therefore, of my rather extensive experience in the matter is, that as regards phenomena purely physical, such have been and are frequently pro- duced by the practisers of " animal magnetism " — or by whatever name it may be preferred to call it — of a nature wholly inexplicable by any of the theories or suggestions which have been adduced for the explanation of them. With regard to non-physical phenomena — that is to say, such as imply the abnormal exercise of intelligences, whether incarnate or disembodied, outside the intelligence of the individual experimenting — I have to testify that I have heard from many highly credible persons the state- ment of their own experience of such communication with intelligences other than their own. And I have heard such statements immediately on the occurrence of the facts. But I have never in my own person received or been made the subject of any such. CHAPTER XX. IN THE NORTH OF ENGLAND. No ! as I said at the end of the last chapter but one, before I was led away by the circumstances of that time to give the world the benefit of my magnetic reminis- cences — valeat quantum! — I was not yet bitten, despite Colley Grattan's urgings, with any temptation to attempt fiction, and " passion, me boy !" But I am surprised on turning over my old diaries to find how much I was writ- ing, and planning to write, in those days, and not less sur- prised at the amount of running about which I accom- plished. My life in those years of the thirties must have been a very busy one. I find myself writing and sending off a surprising number of "articles" on all sorts of subjects — reviews, sketches of travel, biographical notices, fragments from the byways of history, and the like, to all kinds of periodical publications, many of them long since dead and forgotten. That the world should have forgotten all these articles " goes without saying." But what is not perhaps so common an incident in the career of a penman is, that I had in the majority of cases utterly forgotten them, and all about them, until they were recalled to mind by turn- ing the yellow pages of my treasured but almost equally forgotten journals ! I beg to observe, also, that all this pen-work was not only printed but paid for. My motives were of a decidedly mercenary description. " Hie scribit famd ductus, at ille fame.'''* I belonged emphatically to the latter category, and little indeed of my multifarious pro- ductions ever found its final resting-place in the waste- paper basket. They were rejected often, but redespatched a second and a third time, if necessary, to some other "organ," and eventually swallowed by some editor or other. 276 WHAT I REMEMBER. I am surprised, too, at the amount of locomotion which I contrived to combine with all this scribbling. I must have gone about, I think, like a tax-gatherer, with an ink- stand slung to my button-hole. And in truth I was in- dustrious; for I find myself in full swing of some journey, arriving at my inn tired at night, and finishing and send- ing off some article before I went to my bed. But it must have been only by means of the joint supplies contributed by all my editors that I could have found the means of paying all the stage-coaches, diligences, and steamboats which I find the record of my continually employing. ^^ JVavibus atque Quadrigis pethniis bene vivereP^ And I succeeded by their means in living, if not well, at least very pleasantly. For I was born a rambler. I heard just now a story of a little boy, who replied to the common question, "What he would like to be when he grew up ?" by saying that he should like to be either a giant or a retired stockbroker ! I find the qualifying ad- jective delicious, and admire the pronounced taste for re- pose indicated by either side of the alternative. But my propensities were more active, and in the days before I entered my teens I used always to reply to similar de- mands, that I would be a " king's messenger." I knew no other life which approached so nearly to perpetual mo- tion. " The road " was my paradise, and it is a true say- ing that the child is father to the man. The Shakespearian passage which earliest impressed my childish mind and carried with it my heartiest sympathies was the song of old Autolycus : " Jog on, jog on, the foot-path way, And merrily hent the stile-a : Your merry heart goes all the day, Your sad tires in a mile-a." Over how many miles of " foot-path way," under how many green hedges, has my childish treble chanted that enlivening ditty ! But that was in much earlier days to those I am now writing of. During the years between my dreary time at Birming- IN THE NORTH OF ENGLAND. 277 liam and my first departure for Italy, I find the record of many pedestrian or other rambles in England and abroad. There they are, all recorded day by day — the qualities of the inns and the charges at them (not so much less than those of the present day as might be imagined, with the exception of the demands for beds), the beauty and spec- ialties of the views, the talk of wayfaring companions, the careful measurements of the churches, the ever-recur- ring ascent of the towers of them, etc., etc. Here and there in the mountains of chaff there may be a grain worth preserving, as where I read that at Had don Hall the old lady who showed the house, and who boasted that her ancestors had been servitors of the possessors of it for more than three hundred years, pointed out to me the portrait of one of them, who had been " forester," hanging in the hall. She also pointed out the window from which a certain heiress had eloped, and by doing so had carried the hall and lands into the family of the pres- ent owners, and told me that Mrs. Radcliffe, shortly before the publication of her " Mysteries of Udolpho," had visited Haddon, and had sat at that window busily writing for a long time. I seem to have been an amateur of sermons in those days, from the constant records I find of sermons listened to, by no means always, or indeed generally, compliment- ary to the preachers. Here is an entry criticising, with young presumption, a sermon by Dr. Dibdin, whose bib^ liophile books, however, I had much taste for : " I heard Dr. Dibdin preach. He preached, with much gesticulation, emphasis, and grimace, the most utterly trashy sermon I ever heard ; words — words — words— with' out the shadow of an idea in them." I remember, as if it were yesterday, a shrewd sort of an old lady, the mother, I think, of the curate of the parish, who heard me, as we were leaving the church, expressing my opinion of the doctor's discourse, saying, " Well, it is a very old story, young gentleman, and it is mighty diffi- cult to find anything new to say about it !" The bibliomaniacal doctor, however, seems to have pleased me better put of the pulpit than in it, for I find 278 WHAT I REMEMBER. that " he called in the afternoon and chatted amusingly for an hour. He fell tooth and nail upon the Oxford Tracts men, and told us of a Mr. Wackerbarth, a curate in Essex, a Cambridge man, who, he says, elevates the host, crosses himself, and advocates burning of heretics. It seems to me, however," continues this censorious young diarist, "that those who object to the persecution, even to extermination of heretics, admit the uncertainty and dubi- ousness of all theological doctrine and belief. For if it be certain that God will punish disbelief in doctrines es- sential to salvation, and certain that any church possesses the knowledge what those doctrines are, does it not follow that a man who goes about persuading people to reject those doctrines should be treated as we treat a mad dog loose in the streets of a city ?" Thus fools, when they are young enough, rush in where wise men fear to tread ! I had entirely forgotten, but find from my diary that it was our pleasant friend but indifferent preacher, Dr. Dib- din, w^ho on the 11th of February, 1839, married my sis- ter, Cecilia, to Mr., now Sir John, Tilley. It appears that I was not incapable of appreciating a good sermon when I heard one, for I read of the impres- sion produced upon me by an "admirable sermon preached by Mr. Smith " (it must have been Sydney, I take it) in the Temple Church. The preacher quoted largely from Jeremy Taylor, " giving the passages with an excellence of enunciation and expression w^hich impressed them ou my mind in a manner which will not allow me to forget them." Alack ! I hane forgotten every word of them ! I remember, however, perfectly well, without any refer- ence to my diary, hearing — -it must have been much about the same time — Sydney Smith preach a sermon at St. Paul's, which much impressed me. He took for his text, " Knowledge and wisdom shall be the stability of thy times" (I write from memory ^-the memory of half a cen- tury ago — but I think the words ran thus). Of course the gist of his discourse may be readily imagined. But the manner of the preacher remains more vividly present to my mind than his words. He spoke with extreme rapid- ity, and had the special gift of combining extreme rapidity L\ THE NORTH OF ENGLAND. 279 of utterance with very perfect clearness. His manner, I remember thinking, was unlike any that I had ever wit- nessed in the pulpit, and appeared to me to resemble rather that of a very earnest speaker at the hustings than the usual pulpit style. His sentences seemed to run down- hill, with continually increasing speed till they came to a full stop at the bottom. It was, I think, the only sermon I ever heard which I wished longer. He carried me with him completely, for the century was in those days, like me, young. But if I were to hear a similarly fervid discourse now on the same subject, I should surely desire some clearer setting forth of the difference between "knowl- edge" and " wisdom." It was about this time, i. e., in the year 1839, that my mother, who had been led, by I forget what special cir- cumstances, to take a great interest in the then hoped-for factory legislation, and in Lord Shaftesbury's efforts in that direction, determined to write a novel on the subject with the hope of doing something towards attracting the public mind to the question, and to visit Lancashire for the purpose of obtaining accurate information and local details. The novel was written, published in the then newly- invented fashion of monthly numbers, and called "Michael Armstrong." The publisher, Mr. Colburn, paid a long price for it, and did not complain of the result. But it never became one of the more popular among my mother's novels, sharing, I suppose, the fate of most novels written for some purpose other than that of amusing their readers. Novel readers are exceedingly quick to smell the rhubarb under the jam in the dose offered to them, and set them- selves against the undesired preachment as obstinately as the naughtiest little boy who ever refused to be physicked with nastiness for his good. My mother neglected no means of making the facts stated in her book authentic and accurate, and the jnise en scene of her story graphic and truthful. Of course I was the companion of her journey, and was more or less useful to her in searching for and collecting facts in some places where it would have been difficult for her to look for them. 280 WHAT I REMEMBER. We carried with us a number of introductions from Lord Shaftesbury to a rather strange assortment of persons, whom his lordship had found useful both as collectors of trustworthy information and energetic agitators in favor of legislation. The following letter from the Earl of Shaftesbury, then Lord Ashley, to my mother on the subject, is illustrative of the strong interest he took in the matter, and of the means which he thought necessary for obtaining informa- tion respecting it : " Madam, — The letters to Macclesfield and Manchester shall be sent by this evening's post. On your arrival at Macclesfield be so kind as to ask for Reuben Bullock, of Roe Street, and at Manchester for John Dohert}', a small bookseller of Hyde's Cross in the town. They will show you the secrets of the place, as they showed them to me. "Mr. Wood himself is not now resident in Bradford, he is at present in Hampshire ; but his partner, Mr. Walker, carries out all his plans with the utmost energy. I will write to him to-night. The firm is known by the name of ' Wood & Walker.' Mr. Wood is a person whom you may easily see in London on your return to town. With every good wish and prayer for your success, I remain your very obedient servant, " Ashley. "P.S. — The Quarterly Review of December, 1836, contains an article on the factory system which would greatly assist by the references to the evi- dence before Committee, etc., etc." It is useless here and now to say anything of the hor- rors of uncivilized savagery and hopeless abject misery which we witnessed. They are painted in my mother's book, and should any reader ever refer to those pages for a picture of the state of things among the factory hands at that time, he may take with him my testimony to the fact that there was no exaggeration in the outlines of the pict- ure given. What we are there described to have seen, we saw. And let doctrinaire economists preach as they will, and Radical socialists abuse a measure which helps to take from them the fulcrum of the levers that are to upset the whole existing framework of society, it is impossible for one who did see those sights, and who has visited the same localities in later days, not to bless Lord Shaftes- bury's memory, ay, and the memory, if they have left IN THE NORTH OF ENGLAND. 281 any, of the humble assistants whose persistent efforts helped on the work. But the little knot of apostles to whom Lord Shaftesbury's letters introduced us, and into whose intimate conciliahules his recommendations caused our admittance, was to my mother, and yet more to me, to whom the main social part of the business naturally fell, a singularly new and strange one. They were all, or nearly all of them, men a little raised above the position of the factory hands, to the righting of whose wrongs they devoted their lives. They had been at some period of their lives, in almost every case, factory workers themselves, but had by various cir- cumstances, native talent, industry and energy, or favor- ing fortune — more likely by all together — managed to raise thej^selves out of the slough of despond in which their fellows were overwhelmed. One, I remember, a Mr. Doherty, a very small bookseller, to whom we were spe- cially recommended by Lord Shaftesbury. He was an Lishman, a Roman Catholic, and a furious Radical, but a very clever man. He was thoroughly acquainted with all that had been done, all that it was hoped to do, and with all the means that were being taken for the advancement of those hopes, over the entire district. He came and dined with us at our hotel, but it was, I remember, with much difficulty that we persuaded him to do so, and when at table his excitement in talking was so great and continuous that he could eat next to nothing. I remember, too, a Rev. Mr. Bull, to whom he intro- duced us subsequently at Bradford. We passed the evening with this gentleman at the house of Mr. Wood, of the firm of Walker & Wood, to whom also we had let- ters from Lord Shaftesbury. He, like our host, was an ardent advocate of the ten hours' bill, but, unlike him, had very little hope of legislative interference. Messrs. Walk- er & Wood employed three thousand hands. At a sacrifice of some thousands per annum, they worked their hands an hour less than any of their neighbors, which left the hours, as Mr. Wood strongly declared, still too long. Those gen- tlemen had built and endowed a church and a school for their hands, and everything was done in their mill which 282 WHAT 1 REMEMBER. could humanize and improve the lot of the men, women, and children. Mr. Bull, who was to be the incumbent of the new church, then not quite finished, was far less hope- ful than his patron. He told me that he looked forward to some tremendous popular outbreak, and should not be surprised any night to hear that every mill in Bradford was in flames. But perhaps the most remarkable individual with whom this Lancashire journey brought us into contact was a Mr. Oastler. He was the Danton of the movement. He would liave been a remarkable man in any position or calling in life. He was a very large and powerfully framed man, over six feet in height, and proportionally large of limb and shoulder. He would, perhaps, hardly have been said to be a handsome man. His face was coarse, an^,„in parts of it, heavy. But he had a most commanding j^resence, and he was withal a picturesque — if it be not more ac- curate to say a statuesque — figure. Some of the features, too, were good. He had a very keen and intelligent blue eye, a mass of iron -gray hair, lips, the scornful curl of which was terrible, and with all this a voice stentorian in its power, and yet flexible, with a flow of language rapid and abundant as the flow of a great river, and as unstem- mable — the very beau ideal of a mob orator. " In the evening," says my diary, *' we drove out to Stayley Bridge to hear the preaching of Stephens, the man who has become the subject of so much newspaper celebrity." (Does any one remember who he was?) "We reached a miserable little chapel, filled to suffocation, and besieged by crowds around the doors. We entered through the vestry with great difficulty, and only so by the courtesy of sundry persons who relinquished their places on Do- herty's representing to them that we were strangers from a distance and friends to the cause. Presently Stephens arrived, and a man who had been ranting in the pulpit, merely, as it seemed, to occupy the people till he should come, immediately yielded his place to him. Stephens spoke well, and said some telling words in that place, of the cruel and relentless march of the great Juggernaut, Gold. But I did not hear anything which seemed to me IX THE NORTH OF ENGLAND. 283 to justify bis great reputation. Really the most striking part of the performance, and that which I thought seemed to move the people most, was Oastler's mounting the pul- pit and giving out the verses of a hymn, one by one, which the congregation sang after him." So says my diary. Him I remember well, though Stephen^s not at all. I re- member, too, the pleasure w^ith w^hich I listened to his really fine delivery of the lines ; his pronunciation of the w^ords was not incorrect, and when he spoke, as I heard him on sundry subsequent occasions, his language, though emphasized rather, as it seemed, than marred by a certain roughness of Lancashire accent, was not that of an uncul- tivated man. Yes ! Oastler, the King of Lancashire, as the people liked to call him, was certainly a man of power, and an advocate whom few platform orators would have cared to meet as an adversary. When my mother's notes for her projected novel were completed we thought that before turning our faces south- ward we would pay a flying visit to the lake district, which was new ground to both of us. I remember well my intense delight at my first introduction to mountains worthy of the name. But I mean to mention here two only of my reminiscences of that first visit to lake-land. The first of these concerns an excursion on Windermere with Captain Hamilton, the author of " Cyril Thornton," which had at that time made its mark. He had recently received a new boat, which had been built for him in Nor- way. He expected great performances from her, and as there was a nice fresh wind idly curling the surface of the lake, he invited us to come out with him and try her, and in a minute or two we were speeding merrily before the breeze towards the opposite shore. But about the middle of the lake we found the water a good deal rougher, and the wind began to increase notably. Hamilton held the tiller, and not liking to make fast the halyard of the sail, gave me the rope to hold, with instructions to hold on till further orders. He was a perfect master of the business in hand, and so was the new boat a perfect mistress of her business, but this did not prevent us from getting thorough- ly ducked. My attention was sufliciently occupied in obey- 284 WHAT I REMEMBER. ing my orders, and keeping my eye on him in expectation of fresh ones. The wind meanwhile increased from minute to minute, and I could not help perceiving that Hamilton, despite his cheery laughter, was becoming a little anxious. We got back, however, to the shore we had left after a good buffeting, and in the condition of drowned rats. My mother was helped out of the boat, and while she was making her way up the bank, and I was helping him to make the boat secure, I said, " Well ! the new boat has done bravely !" " Between you and me, my dear fellow," said he, as he laid his hand on my shoulder with a grip that I think must have left his thumb-mark on the skin, " if the boat had not behaved better than any boat of her class that I ever saw, there would have been a considera- ble probability of our being dined on by the fishes, in- stead of dining together, as I hope we are going to do. I have been blaming myself for taking your mother out ; but the truth is that on these lakes it is really impossible to tell for half an hour what the next half-hour may bnng forth." The one other incident of our visit to lake-land which I will record was our visit to Wordsworth. For my part I managed to incur his displeasure while yet on the threshold of his house. We were entering it together, when, observing a very fine bay-tree by the door- side, I unfortunately expressed surprise at its luxuriance in such a position. " Wh}^ should you be surprised?" he asked, suddenly turning upon me with much displeasure in his manner. Not a little disconcerted, I hesitatingly an- swered that I had imagined the bay-tree required more and greater warmth of sunshine than it could find there. " Pooh !" said he, much offended at the slight cast on his beloved locality, " what has sunshine got to do with it ?" I had not the readiness to reply, that in truth the world had abundance of testimony that the bay could flourish in those latitudes. But I think had I done so, it might have made my peace — for the remainder of that evening's experiences led me to imagine that the great poet was not insensible to incense from very small and humble wor- shippers. IN THE NORTH OF ENGLAND. 285 The evening, I think I may say the entire evening, was occupied by a monologue addressed by the poet to my mother, who was, of course, extremely well pleased to lis- ten to it. I was chiefly occupied in talking to my old school-fellow, Herbert Hill, Southey's nephew, who also passed the evening there, and with whom I had a delight- ful walk the next day. But I did listen with much pleas- ure when Wordsworth recited his own lines descriptive of Little Langdale. He gave them really exquisitely. But his manner in conversation was not impressive. He sat continuously looking down with a green shade over his eyes even though it was twilight ; and his mode of speech and delivery suggested to me the epithet " maundering," though I was ashamed of myself for the thought with refer- ence to such a man. As we came away I cross-examined my mother much as to the subjects of his talk. She said it had been all about himself and his Avorks, and that she had been interested. But I could not extract from her a word that had passed worth recording. I do not think tliat he was popular with his neighbors generally. There were stories current, at Lowther among other places, which imputed to him a tendency to outstay his welcome w^lien invited to visit in a house. I suspect there was a little bit of a feud between him and my broth- er-in-law, Mr. Tilley, Avho was the post - office surveyor of the district. Wordsworth as receiver of taxes, or issuer of licenses, or whatever it was, would have increased the profits of his place if the mail-coach had paid its dues, whether for taxes or license, at his end of the journey in- stead of at Kendal, as had been the practice. But, of course, any such change would have been as much to the detriment of the man at Kendal as to Wordsworth's ad- vantage. And my brother-in-law, thinking such a change unjust, would not permit it. I cannot say that, on the whole, the impression made on me by the poet on that occasion (always with the notable exception of his recital of his own poetry) was a pleasant one. There was something in the manner in which he al- most perfunctorily, as it seemed, uttered his long mono- logue, that suggested the idea of the performance of a 286 WHAT I REMEMBER. part got up to order, and repeated without much modifi- cation as often as lion-hunters, duly authorized for the sport in those locahties, might call upon him for it. I dare say the case is analogous to that of the hero and the valet, but such was my impression. CHAPTER XXL JOURXEY IN BRITTANY. I HAD been for some time past, as has been said, trying my hand, not without success, at a great variety of arti- cles in all sorts of reviews, magazines, and newspapers. I already considered mj^self a member of the guild of pro- fessional writers. I had done much business with pub- lishers on behalf of my mother, and some for other per- sons, and talked glibly of copyrights, editions, and tokens. (I fancy, by-the-bye, that the latter term has somewhat fallen out of use in these latter days, whether from any change of the methods used by printers or publishers I do not know. But it strikes me that many youngsters, even of the scribbling tribe, may not know that the phrase " a token" had no connection whatever with signs and won- ders of any sort, but simply meant two hundred and fifty copies.) And being thus equipped, I began to think that it was time that I should attempt a hook. During a previous hurried scamper in Normandy I had just a glimpse of Brittany, which greatly excited my desire to see more of it. So I pitched on a tour in Brittany as the subject of my first attempt. Those were happy days, when all the habitable globe had not been run over by thousands of tourists, hundreds of whom are desirous of describing their doings in print — not but that the notion, whether a publisher's or writ- er's notion, that new ground is needed for the production of a good and amusing book of travels, is other than a great mistake. I forget what proposing author it was, who in answer to a publisher urging the fact that " a dozen writers have told us all about so and so," replied, "But /have not told you what Zhave seen and thought about it." But if I had been the publisher I should at 288 WHAT I REMEMBER. once have asked to see his MS. The days when a capital book may be written on a voyage autour de ma chainhre are as present as ever they were. And " A Summer After- noon's Walk to Highgate " might be the subject of a de- lightful book if only the writer were the right man. Brittany, however, really was in those days to a great extent fresh ground, and the strangely secluded circum- stances of its population offered much tempting material to the book-making tourist. All this is now at an end ; not so much because the country has been the subject of sundry good books of travel, as because the people and their mode of life, the country and its specialties, have all been utterly changed by the pleasant, convenient, indis- pensable, abominable railway, which in its merciless, irre- sistible tramp across the world crushes into a dead level of uninteresting monotony so manj^ varieties of character, manners, and peculiarities. And thus " the individual withers, and the world is more and more !" But is the world more and more in any sense that can be admit- ted to be desirable, in view of the eternity of that same individual. As for the Bretons, the individual has withered to that extent that he now wears trousers instead of breeches, while his world has become more and more assimilated to that of the Faubourg St. Antoine, with the result of losing all those really very notable and stiff and sturdy virtues wdiich differentiated the Breton peasant, when I first knew him, while it would be difficult indeed to say what it has gained. At all events the progress which can be stated is mainly to be stated in negatives. The Breton, as I first knew him, believed in all sorts of superstitious rubbish. He now believes in nothing at all. He was disposed to honor and respect God, and his priest, and his seigneur perhaps somewhat too indiscriminately. Now he neither honors nor respects any earthly or heavenly thing. These, at least, were the observations which a second, or, rather, third visit to the country a few years ago suggested to me, mainly, it is true, as regards the urban population. And without going into any of the deeper matters which such clianges suggest to one's consideration, there can be JOUKNEY IN BRITTANY. 289 no possible doubt as to the fact that the country and its people are infinitely less interesting than they were. My plans were soon made, and I hastened to lay them before Mr. Colburn, who was at that time publishing for my mother. The trip was my main object, and I should have been perfectly contented with terms that paid all the expenses of it. Di auctins fecerimt, and I came home from my ramble with a good round sum in my pocket. I was not greedy of money in those days, and had no unscriptural hankerings after laying up treasure upon earth. All I wanted was a sufficient supply for my un- ceasing expenditure in locomotion and inn bills — the lat- ter, be it observed, always on a most economical scale. I was not a profitable customer ; I took nothing " for the good of the house." I had a Gargantuesque appetite, and needed food of some sort in proportion to its de- mands. I neither took, or cared to take, any wine with my dinner, and never wanted any descrij^tiou of " night- cap." As for accommodation for the night, anything suf- ficed me that gave me a clean bed and a sufficient window- opening on fresh air, under such conditions as made it possible for me to have it open all night. To the present day I cannot sleep to my liking in a closed chamber; and before now, on the top of the Righi, have had my bed clothes blown off my bed, and snow deposited where they should have been. But quo mitsa tendis ? I was talking about my travels in Brittany. I do not think my book was a bad coup cPessai. I re- member old John Murray coming out to me into the front office in Albemarle Street, where I was on some business of my mother's, with a broad, good-natured smile on his face, and putting into my hands the Times of that morn- ing, with a favorable notice of the book, saying as he did so, " There, so you have waked this morning to find your- self famous !" And, what was more to the purpose, my publisher was content with the result, as was evidenced by his offering me similar terms for another book of the same description — of which, more anon. As my volumes on Brittany, published in 1840, are lit- is 290 WHAT I REMEMBER. tie likely to come under the eye of any reader at the pres- ent day, and as the passage I am about to quote indicates accurately enough the main point of difference between what the traveller at that day saw and what the traveller of the present day may see, I think I may be pardoned for giving it. "We had observed that at Broons a style of coiffure which was new to us prevailed ; and my companion wished to add a sketch of it to his fast-increasing collection of Breton costumes. With this view, he had begun making love to the maid a little, to induce her to do so much vio- lence to her maiden modesty as to sit to him for a few minutes, when a far better opportunity of achieving his object presented itself. " The landlady's daughter, a very pretty little girl about fourteen years old, was going to be confirmed, and had just come down-stairs to her mother, who was sitting knit- ting in the salle d manger, for inspection and approval be- fore she started. Of course, upon such an occasion, the art of the bla?ichisseuse was taxed to the utmost. Lace was not spared; and the most recherche coiffure was adopted that the rigorous immutability of village modes would permit. "It would seem that the fickleness of fashion exercises in constant local variations that mutability which is ut- terly denied to it in Brittany with regard to time. Every district, almost every commune, has its own peculiar * mode' (for both sexes), which changes not from generation to generation. As the mothers dress, so do their daughters, so did their grandmothers, and so will their granddaugh- ters." [But I reckoned, when writing thus, without the railroad and its consequences.] " If a woman of one par- ish marries, or takes service, or for any other cause resides in another, she still retains the mode of her native village ; and thus carries about her a mark which is to those among whom she is a sojourner a well-recognized indication of the place whence she comes, and to herself a cherished souvenir of the home which she never ceases to consider her own country. "But though the form of the dress is invariable, and JOURNEY IN BRITTANY. 291 every inhabitant of the commune, from the wealthy farm- er's wife to the poorest cottager who earns her black bread by labor in the fields, would as soon think of adopt- ing male attire as of innovating on the immemorial inode dupays, yet the quality of the materials allows scope for wealth and female coquetry to show themselves. Thus the invariable mode de Broons^ with its trifling difference in form, which in the eye of the inhabitants made it as different as light from darkness from the mode de St. Joucm, was equally observable in the coarse linen coiffe of the maid, and the richly laced and beautifully ' got-up ' head-dress of the daughter of the house. "A very slight observation of human nature, under a few only of its various phases, may suffice to show that the instinct which prompts a woman to adorn her person to the best possible advantage is not the hothouse growth of cities, but a genuine wild-flower of nature. No high- born beauty ever more repeatedly or anxiously consulted her wax-lit Psyche on every faultless point of hair, face, neck, feet, and figure, before descending to the carriage for her first ball, than did our young Bretonne again and again recur to the mirror, which occupied the pier be- tween the two windows of the salle d manger, before sally- ing forth on the great occasion of her confirmation. "The dear object of girlish ambition was the same to both; but the simplicity of the little pays^wwe showed it- self in the utter absence of any wish to conceal her anx- iety upon the subject. Though delighted with our com- pliments on her appearance, our presence by no means prevented her from springing upon a chair every other minute to obtain a fuller view of the tout ensemble of her figure. Again and again the modest kerchief was ar- ranged and rearranged to show a hair's-breadth more or a hair's-breadth less of her brown but round and taper throat. Repeatedly, before it could be finally adjusted to her satisfaction, was the delicate fabric of her coiffure moved with cautious care and dainty touch a leetle back- warder or 2, leetle forwarder over her sunburned brow. *' Many were the pokings and pinchings of frock and apron, the smoothings down before and twitchings down 292 WHAT I REMEMBER. behind of the not less anxious mother. Often did she retreat to examine more correctly the general effect of the coup d^oeil, and as often return to rectify some inju- dicious pin or remodel some rebellious fold. When all was at length completed, and the well-pleased parent had received from the servants, called in for the express pur- pose, the expected tribute of admiration, the little beauty took 'L'Imitation de la Vierge' in her hand, and tripped across to a convent of Sceurs Grises on the other side of the way to receive their last instructions and admoni- tions respecting her behavior when she should be present- ed to the bishop, while her mother screamed after her not to forget to pull up her frock when she knelt down. *'A11 the time employed in this little revision of the toilet had not been left unimproved by my companion, who at the end of it produced and showed to the proud mother an admirable full-length sketch of her pretty dar- ling. The delighted astonishment of the poor woman, and her accent, as she exclaimed, 'O, si c^etait pour moiP and then blushed to the temples at what she had said, were irresistible, and the good-natured artist was fain to make her a present of the drawing." My Breton book ("though I says it as shouldn't") is not a bad one, especially as regards the upper or north- ern part of the province. That which concerns lower Brittany is very imperfect, mainly, I take it, because I had already nearly filled my destined two volumes Avhen I reached it. I find there, however, the following notice of the sardine fishery, which has some interest at the pres- ent day. Perhaps the majority of the thousands of Eng- lish people who nowadays have " sardines" on their break- fast-table every morning, are not aware that the contents of a very large number of the little tin boxes which are supposed to contain the delicacy are not sardines at all. They are very ej^cellent little fishes, but not sardines ; for the enormously increased demand for them has out- stripped the supply. In the days Avhen the following sentences were written, sardines might certainly be had in London (as what might not ?) at such shops as Fort- JOUKNEY IN BRITTANY. 293 num & Mason's, but they y/ere costly, and by no means commonly met with. On reaching Douarnenez in the summer of 1839, 1 wrote : " The whole poj^ulation and the existence of Douarnenez depend on the sardine fishery. This delicious little fish, which the gourmands of Paris so much delight in, when preserved in oil, and sent to their capital in those little tin boxes whose look must be familiar to all icho have frequented the Parisian breakfast - houses'''^ [but is now more familiar to all who have entered any grocer's shop throughout the length and breadth of England], "is still more exquisite when eaten fresh on the shores which it frequents. They are caught in immense quantities along the whole of the southern coast of Brittany, and on the western shore of Finisterre as far to the northward as Brest, which, I believe, is the northern limit of the fish- ery. They come into season about the middle of June, and are then sold in great quantities in all the markets of southern Brittany at two, three, or four sous a dozen, according to the aoundance of the fishery and the dis- tance of the market from the coast. I was told that the commerce in sardines along the coast from I'Orient to Brest amounted to three millions of francs annually." At the present day it must be enormously larger. I remember well the exceeding plentifulness of the little fishes — none of them so large as many of those which now fill the so-called sardine boxes — when I was at Douarnenez in 1839. All the men, women, and children in the place seemed to be feasting upon them all day long. Plates with heaps of them fried and piled up crosswise, like tim- ber in a timber-yard, were to be seen out-doors and in- doors, wherever three or four people could be found to- gether. All this was a thing of the past when I revisited Douarnenez in 1866. Every fish was then needed for the tinning business. They were to be had, of course, by or- dering and paying for them, but very few indeed were consumed by the population of the place. And this subject reminds me of another fishery which I witnessed a few months ago — last March — at Sestri di Ponente, near Genoa. We frequently saw nearly the 294 WHAT I REMEMBER. whole of the fisher population of the place engaged in dragging from the water on to the sands enormously long nets, which had been previously carried out by boats to a distance not more I think than three or four hundred yards from the shore. From these nets, when at last they were landed after an hour or so of continual dragging by a dozen or twenty men and women, were taken huge bas- ketfuls of silvery little fish sparkling in the sun, exactly like whitebait. I had always supposed that whitebait was a specialty of the Thames. Whether an ichthyologist would have pronounced the little Sestri fishes to be the same creatures as those which British statesmen consume at Greenwich I cannot say ; but we ate them frequently at the hotel under the name of gianchetti, and could find 7io difference between them and the Greenwich delicacy. The season for them did not seem to last above two or three weeks. The fishermen continued to drag their net, but caught other fishes instead of gianchetti. But while it lasted the plenty of them was prodigious. All Sestri was eating them, as all Douarnenez ate sardines in the old days. When the net with its sparkling cargo was dragged up on the sand and the contents were being shov- elled into huge baskets to be carried up into the town, the men would take up handfuls of theiii, fresh, and I sup- pose still living, from the sea, and plunging their bearded mouths in them, eat them up by hundreds. The children, too, irrepressibly thronging round the net, would pick from its meshes the fishes which adhered to them and eat them, as more inland rising generations eat blackberries. I did not try the experiment of eating them thus, as one eats oysters, but I can testify that, crisply fried, and eaten with brown bread and butter and lemon juice, they were remarkably good. Fortified by the excellent example of Sir Francis Doyle, who in his extremely amusing volume of " Reminiscences" gives as a reason for disregarding the claims of chronol- ogy in the composition of it, the chances that he might forget the matter he had in his mind if he did not book it at once, I have ventured for the same reason to do the same thing here. But I have an older authority for the JOURNEY IN BRITTANY. 295 practice in question, which Sir Francis is hardly likely to have lighted on. That^ learned antiquary and porten- tously voluminous writer, Francesco Cancellieri, who was well known to the Roman world in the latter years of tlio last, and the earliest years of the present century, used to compose his innumerable works upon a similar prin- ciple. And when attacked by the critics his contempora- ries, who, Italian-like, supposed academically correct form to be the most important thing in any literary work, he defended himself on the same ground. " If I don't catch it 71010, I may probably forget it ; and is the world to be deprived of the information it is in my power to give it for the sake of the formal correctness of my work ?" There is another passage in my book on Brittany re- specting which it would be interesting to know whether recent travellers can report that the state of things there described no longer exists. I wrote in 1839 : " Very near Treguier, on a spot appropriately selected for such a worship — the barren top of a bleak, unsheltered eminence — stands the chapel of Notre Dame de la Haine! Our Lady of Hatred ! The most fiendish of human pas- sions is supposed to be under the protection of Christ's religion ! What is this but a fragment of pure and un- mixed paganism, unchanged except in the appellation of its idol, which has remained among these lineal descen- dants of the Armorican Druids for more than a thousand years after Christianity has become the professed religion of the country ! Altars, professedly Christian, were raised under the protection of the Protean Virgin, to the demon Hatred ; and have continued to the present day to receive an unholy worship from blinded bigots, who hope to ob- tain Heaven's patronage and assistance for thoughts and wishes which they would be ashamed to breathe to man. Three Ai^es repeated with devotion at this odious and mel- ancholy shrine are firmly believed to have the power to cause, within the year, the certain death of the person against whom the assistance of Our Lady of Hatred has been invoked. And it is said that even yet occasionally, in the silence and obscurity of the evening, the figure of some assassin worshipper at this accursed shrine may be 29G WHAT I REMEMBER. seen to glide rapidly from the solitary spot, where he has spoken the unhallowed prayer whose mystic might has doomed to death the enemy he hatesr I must tell one other story of ray Breton recollections, which refers to a time much subsequent to the publica- tion of the book I have been quoting. It was in 1866 that I revisited Brittany in company with my present wife ; and one of the objects of our little tour was the Finisterre land's end at the extreme point of the hornlike promontory which forms the department so named. We found some difficulty in reaching the spot, not the least part of which was caused by the necessity of threading our way, when in the immediate neighborhood of the cliffs, among enormous masses of seaweed stacked in huge heaps and left to undergo the process of decay, which turns it into very valuable manure. The odor which im- pregnated the whole surrounding atmosphere from these heaps was decidedly the worst and most asphyxiating I ever experienced. We stood at last on the utmost finis terrce and looked over the Atlantic not only from the lighthouse, which, built three hundred feet above the sea-level, is often, we were told, drenched by storm-driven spray, but from va- rious points of the tremendous rocks also. They are tre- mendous, in truth. The scene is a much grander one than that at our own " Land's End," which I visited a month or two ago. The cliffs are much higher, the rocks are more varied in their forms — more cruelly savage-look- ing, and the cleavages of them are on a larger scale. The spot was one of the most profound solitude, for we were far from the lighthouse, and the scream of the white gulls as they started from their roosting-places on the face of the rocks, or returned to them from their swirling flights, were the only indication of the presence of any creature having the breath of life. The rock ledges, among which we were clambering, were in many places fearful spots enough — places where a stumble or a divagation of the foot but six or eight inches from the narrow path would have precipitated the blunderer to assured and inevitable destruction. " Here," JOURNEY IN BRITTANY. 297 said I to my wife, as we stood side by side on one such ledge, " would be the place for a husband, who wanted to get rid of his wife, to accomplish his purpose. Done in ten seconds ! With absolute certainty ! One push would suffice ! No cry of any more avail than the screams of those gulls ! And no possibility of the deed being wit- nessed by any mortal eye !" I had hardly got the words out of my mouth before our ears were startled by a voice hailing us ; and after some searching of the eye we espied a man engaged in seeking sea-fowls' eggs, w^ho had placed himself in a position winch I should have thought it absolutely impossible to reach, whence he had seen us, as we now saw him ! Let this then, my brethren, be a warning to you ! 13* CHAPTER XXir. AT PENKITH. AT PARIS. Returning from my Breton journey, I reached my mother's house in York Street on the 23d of July, 1839, and on the 26th of the same month left London with her to visit my married sister in her new home at Penrith, where Mr. Tilley had established himself as post-office surveyor of the northern district. His home was a pretty house situated between the town and the well-known bea- con on the hill to the north of it. The first persons I became acquainted with in this, to me, entirely new region, were Sir George Musgrave, of Edenhall, and his wife, who was a sister of Sir James Graham. My brother-in-law took me over to Edenhall, a lovely walk from Penrith, and we found both Sir George and Lady Musgrave at home. We — my mother and I — had not at that time conceived the idea of becoming resi- dents at Penrith. But when, subsequently, we were led to do so, we found extremely pleasant and friendly neigh- bors at Edenhall, and though not, in strict chronology, due in this place, I may throw together my few Reminis- cences of Sir George. He was the heau ideal of a country gentleman of the old school. He rarely or never went to London — not, as was the case with some of his neighbors, because the expense of a season there was formidable, for his estate was a fine one, and he was a rich man, living largely within his in- come, but because his idea was that a country gentleman's proper place was on his own acres, and because London had no temptations for him. He was said to be the best landlord in the county, and really seemed to look upon all his numerous tenants and all their laborers as his born subjects, to whom protection, kindness, assistance, and general looking-after were due in return for their fealty AT PENRITH. 2-99 and loyal attachment. I think he would have kicked off his land (and he was a man who conld kick) any man who talked in his hearing of the purely commercial relation- ship between a landlord and his tenants. Of course he was adored by all the country side. No doubt the stout Cumberland and Westmoreland farmers and hinds were good and loyal subjects of Queen Victoria, but for all practical purposes of reverence and obedience Musgrave was king at Edenhall. Lady Musgrave was a particularly ladylike woman, the marked elegance of whose breeding might, with advantage, have given the tone to many a London drawing-room'. I have seen her surrounded by country neighbors, and though she was vdut inter ignes luna minores, I never saw the country squire's or country parson's wife who was not perfectly happy and at ease in her drawing-room, while, unconsciously, all the time taking a lesson in good-breed- ing and ladylike manners. She was thoroughly a help- meet for her husband in all his care for his people. I be- lieve that both he and she were convinced, at the bottom of their hearts, that Cumberland and Westmoreland con- stituted the choicest, best, and most highly-civilized part of England. And she was one of those of whom I was thinking when, in a former chapter, I spoke of highly- educated people whom I had known to affect provincialism of speech. Lady Musgrave always, or, perhaps, it would be more correct to say generally, called a cow a "coo;" and though I suspect she would have left Westmoreland behind if evil fate had called her to London, on her own hillsides she preferred the accents of the native speech. Sir George had, or affected to have, considerable respect for all the little local superstitions and beliefs which are so prevalent in that "north countree." And the kindness with which he welcomed us as neighbors when we built a house and came to live there was shown, despite a strong feeling which he had, or affected to have, with regard to an incident which fatally marked our debut in that coun- try. We bought a field in a very beautiful situation, over- looking the ruins of Brougham Castle and the confluence 300 WHAT I REMEMBER. ■ of the Eden with the Lowther, and proceeded to build a house on the higher part of it. But there was a consider- able drop from the lower limit of our ground to the road which skirted the property and furnished the only access to it. There was some difficulty, therefore, in contriving a tolerable entrance from the road for wheel-traffic, and it was found necessary to cause a tiny little spring that rose in the bank by the roadside to change its course in some small degree. The affair seemed to us a matter of infini- tesimal importance, but Sir George was dismayed. We had moved, he said, a holy well, and the consequence would surely be that we should never succeed in establishing our- selves in that spot. And, surely enough, we never did so succeed; for, after having built a very nice little house, and lived in it one winter and half a summer, we — for I cannot say that it was my mother more than I, or I more than my mother — made up our minds that " the sun yoked his horses too far from Penrith town," and that we had had enough of it* Sir George, of course, when he heard our determination, while he expressed all j^ossible regret at losing us as neigh- bors, said that he knew perfectly well that it must be so, from the time that we so recklessly meddled with the holy well. He was the most hospitable man in the world, and could never let many days pass without asking us to dine with liim. But his hospitality was of quite the old-world school. One day — but that was after our journey to Italy, and when he had become intimate with us — being in a hurry to get back into the drawing-room to rejoin a pretty girl next whom I had sat at dinner, I tried to escape from the dining-room. " Come back !" he roared, before I could get to the door ; " we won't have any of your d — d fori- neering habits here ! Come back and stick to your wine, or by the Lord I'll have the door locked." He was, unlike most men of his sort, not very fond of riding, but was a great walker. He used to take the men he could get to walk with him a tramp over the hill till they were fain to cry " Hold ! enough !" But there I was his match. AT PEXRITH. 301 Most of my readers have probably heard of the " Luck of Edenhal]," for, besides Longfellow's * well-known poem, the legend relating to it has often been told in print. I refer to it here merely to mention a curious trait of char- acter in Sir Georo-Q Musofrave in connection with it. The "Luck of Edenhall" is an ancient decorated glass goblet, which has belonged to the Musgraves time out of mind, and which bears on it the legend : '* When this cup shall break or fall, Farewell the luck of Edenhall." After wliat I have written of Sir George and the holy well, which w^e so unfortunately moved from its proper site, it will be readily imagined that he attached no small importance to the safe-keeping of the "Luck ;" and, truly, he did so. But, instead of simply locking it up, where he might feel sure it could neither break nor fall, he would show it to all visitors, and, not content with that, would insist on their taking it into their hands to examine and handle it. He maintained that otherwise there was no fair submission to the test of luck which was intended by the inscription. It would have been mere cowardly pre- varication to lock it away under circumstances which took the matter out of the dominion of "luck" altogether. I wonder that, under such circumstances, it has not fallen, for the nervous trepidation of the folks who were made to handle it may be imagined. I made another friend at Penrith in the person of a man as strongly contrasted with Sir George Musgrave as two north-country Englishmen could well be. This was a Dr. Kicholson, who has died within the last few months, to my great regret, for I had promised myself the pleas- ure of taking him by the hand yet once again before starting on the journey on which we may or may not meet. He was my senior by a few years, but not by many. Nicholson was a man of very extensive reading * Subsequently to the publication of his poem Musgrave asked Longfel- low to dine at Edenhall, and "picked a crow" with him on the conclusion of the poem, which represents the " Luck " to have been broken, which Sir George considered a flight of imagination quite transcending all per- missible poetical license. 302 WHAT I REMEMBER. and of profound Biblical learning. It may be deemed surprising by others, as it was and is to me, that such a man should have been an earnest and thoroughly convinced Swedenborgian ; but such was the case. And I can con- scientiously give this testimony to the excellence of that creed — that it produced in the person of its learned north- country disciple at least one truly good and amiable man. Dr. Nicholson was emphatically such in all the relations of life. He was the good and loving husband of a very charming wife, the unremittingly careful and affectionate father of a large family, a delightful host at his own table, and an excellent and instructive companion over a cigar (hardly correctly alluded to in the singular number !), and a most jiiCU7idus comes in a tramp over the hills. Amusing to me still is the contrast between those Cum- berland walks with Sir George and my ramblings over the same or nearly the same ground with the meditative Swe- denborgian doctor ; the first always pushing ahead as if shouldering along a victorious path through life, knowing the history of every foot of ground he passed over, inter- ested in every detail of it, and with an air of continually saying " Ha ! ha !" among the breezy trumpets of those hills, like the scriptural war-horse ; the second with his gaze very imperfectly turned outward, but very fruitfully turned inward, frequently pausing, with argumentative finger laid on his companion's breast, and smile, half satir- ical, half kindly, as the flow of discourse revealed theolog- ical lacunm in my acquirements, which, I fear, irreparably and most unfairly injured the Regius professor of divinity in the mind of the German graduate. For Nicholson was a theological "doctor" by virtue of a degree from I for- get what German university, and had a low estimate, per- haps more justified at that day than it would be now, of the extent and calibre of Oxford theological learning. He was himself a disciple and enthusiastic admirer of Ewald, a very learned Hebraist, and an unflagging student. I was more capable of appreciating at its due value the extent and accuracy of his knowledge upon another sub- ject — a leg of mutton ! It may be a mere coincidence, but, certainly, the most learned Hebraist it was ever my AT PENRITH. 303 lot to know was also the best and most satisfactory carver of a leg of mutton. Nobody knows anything about mutton in these days, for the very sufficient reason that there is no mutton worth knowing anything about. Scientific breeding has improved it off the face of the earth. The immature meat is killed at two years old, and only we few survivors of a former generation know how little like it is to the mutton of former days. The Monmouthshire farmers told me the other day that they could not keep Welsh sheep of pure breed, be- cause nothing under an eight-foot park paling would con- fine them. Just as if they did not jump in the days when I jumped too ! Believe me, my young friends, that George the Third knev*^ what he was talking about (as upon cer- tain other occasions) when he said that very little venison was equal to a haunch of four-year-old mutton. And the gravy ! — chocolate-colored, not pink, my innocent young friends. Ichabod ! Ichabod! My uncle, too, Mr. Partington— w^ho married my fa- ther's sister, and lived many years chairman of quarter sessions at Offham, among the South Downs, near Lewes — was a man who understood mutton. A little silver saucepan was placed by his side when the leg of mut- ton, or sometimes two, about as big as fine fowls, were placed in one dish before him. Then, after the mutton had been cut, the abundantly flowing gravy was trans- ferred to the saucepan, a couple of glasses of tawny old port and a quantum suff. of cUrrant jelly and cayenne were added, the whole was warmed in the dining-room, and then — we ate mutton, as I shall never eat it again in this world. Well ! revenir d nos moutons we never, never shall ! So we must, alas ! do the reverse in returning to my Pen- rith reminiscences. I remember specially an excellent old fellow and very friendly neighbor, Colonel Macleod, a bachelor, who hav- ing fallen in love with a very beautiful spot, in the valley of the Lowther, built an ugly brick house, three stories high, because, as he said, he was so greedy of the view, forgetful, apparently, that he was providing it mainly for 304 WHAT I REMEMBER. his maid-servants. Then there was the old maiden lady, with a name that might have been fomid in north-country annals at almost any date during the last seven hundred years, who mildly and maternally corrected my sister at table for speaking of vol-au-vent, telling her that the correct expression Avas voulez-vous! My sister always adopted the old lady's correction in future, at least when addressing her. Then there were two pretty girls, Margaret and Char- lotte Story, the nieces of old De Whelpdale, the lord of the manor. I think he and Mrs. De Whelpdale never left their room, for I do not remember to have ever seen either of them; nor do I remember that I at all resented their absence from the drawing-room when I used to call at the manor-house. One of the girls was understood to be en- gaged to be married to a far-distant lieutenant, of whom Penrith knew nothing, which circumstance gave rise to sundry ingenious conceits in the acrostic line, based on allusions to " his story " and " mystery." I wonder whether Charlotte is alive. If she is, and should see this page, she will remember. It was for her sake that I de- serted, or tried to desert, Sir George's port, as related above. We left Penrith on that occasion without having form- ed any decided intention of establishing ourselves there, and returned to London towards the end of August, 1839. During the next two months I was hard at work complet- ing the MS. of my volumes on Brittany. And in Novem- ber of the same year, after that long fast from all journey- ing, my mother and I left London for a second visit to Paris. But we did not on this occasion travel together. I left London some days earlier than she did, and travelled by Ostend, Cologne, and Mannheim, my princi- pal object being to visit my old friend, Mrs. Fauche, who was living at the latter place. I passed three or four very pleasant days there, including, as I find by my diary, sun- dry agreeable jaunts to Heidelberg, Carlsruhe, etc. My mother and I had arranged to meet at Paris on the 4th of December, and at that date I punctually turned up there. I think that I saw Paris and the Parisians much more AT PARIS. 305 satisfactorily on this occasion than during my first visit ; and I suspect that some of the recollections recorded in these pages as connected with my first visit to Paris be- long really to this second stay there , especially I think that this must have been the case with regard to my ac- quaintance Avith Chateaubriand, though I certainly was introduced to him at the earlier period, for I find the record of much talk with him about Brittany, which was a specially vv^elcome subject to him. It was during this second visit that I became acquaint- ed with Henry Bulwer, afterwards Lord Dalling, and at that time first secretary of the British legation. My visits were generally, perhaps always, paid to him when he was in bed, where he was lying confined by, if I remembel- rightly, a broken leg. I used to find his bed covered with papers and blue-books, and the like. And I was told that the whole, or at all events the more important part of the business of the embassy was done by him as he lay there on the bed, which must have been for many a long hour a bed of suffering. Despite certain affectations — which were so palpably af- fectations, and scarcely pretended to be aught else, that there was little or nothing annoying or offensive in them — he was a very agreeable man, and was unquestionably a very brilliant one. He came to dine with me, I remember, many years afterwards at my house in Florence, when he insisted (the dining-room being on the first floor) on being carried up-stairs, as we thought at the time very unnec- essarily. But for aught I know such suspicion may have wronged him. At all events his disability, whatever it may have been, did not prevent him from making himself very agreeable. One of our guests upon that same occasion (I must drag the mention of the fact in head and shoulders here, or else I shall forget it) was that extraordinary man, Baron Ward, who w^as, or perhaps I ought to say at that time had been, prime-minister and general administrator to the Duke of Lucca. Ward had been originally brought from Yorkshire to be an assistant in the ducal stables. There, doubtless because he knew more about the business than' 306 WHAT I REMEMBER. anybody else concerned with it, he soon became chief. In that capacity he made himself so acceptable to the duke that he was taken from the stables to be his high- ness's personal attendant. His excellence in that position soon enlarged his duties to those of controller of the whole ducal household. And thence, by degrees that were more imperceptible in the case of such a government than they could have been in a larger and more regularly adminis- tered state. Ward became the recognized and nearly all- powerful head, manager, and ruler of the little Duchy of Lucca. And I believe the strange promotion was much for the advantage of the duke and of the duke's subjects. Ward, I take it, never robbed him or any one else. And this eccentric specialty the duke, though he was no Solo- mon, had the wit to discover. In his cups the ex-groom, ex-valet, was not reticent about his sovereign master, and his talk was not altogether of an edifying nature. One sally sticks in my memory. " Ah, yes ! He was a grand favorite with the women. But I have had the grooming of him ; and it was a wuss job than ever groom- ing his bosses was !" Ward got very drunk that night, I remember, and we deemed it fortunate that our diplomatist guest had de- parted before the outward signs of his condition became manifest. Henry Bulwer, by mere circumstance of synchronism, has suggested the remembrance of Ward, Ward has called up the I)uke of Lucca, and he brings with him a host of Baths of Lucca reminiscences respecting his serene high- ness and others. But all these mu8t be left to find their places, if anywhere, when I come to them later on, or we shall never get back to Paris. It was on this our second visit to IJutetia Parisiorum that my mother and I made acquaintance with a yqyj specially charming family of the name of D'Henin. The family circle consisted of General le Vicomte D'Henin, his English wife, and their daughter. The general was a delightful old man, more like an English general officer than any other Frenchman I ever met. Madame D'Henin was like an En2:lishwoman not unaccustomed to courts and AT PARIS. 307 wholly unspoiled by them. Mademoiselle D'Henin, veiy pretty, united the qualities of a denizen of the inmost circles of the fashionable world with those of a really seri- ous student to a degree I have never seen equalled. They were great friends of the Bishop of London, and Made- moiselle D'Henin used to correspond with him. She was earnestly religious, and I remember her telling me of a demele she had had with her confessor. She had told him in confession that she was in the habit of reading the Eng- lish Bible. He strongly objected, and at last told her that he could not give her absolution unless she promised to discontinue the jDractice. She told him that rather than do so she would take what would be to her the painful step of declaring herself a Protestant, whereupon he undertook to obtain a special permission for her to read the English Bible. Whether he did really take any such measures I don't know, and I fancy she never knew ; but the upshot was that she continued to read the heretical book, and nothing more was ever said of refusing her absolution. I have a large bundle of letters from this highly accom- plished young lady to my mother. Many passages of them would be interesting and valuable to an historian of the reign of Louis Philippe. She writes at great length, and her standpoint is the very centre of the monarchical side of the French political world of that day. But as I am not writ- ing a history of the reign of Louis Philippe, I must content myself with extracting two or three suggestive notices. In a letter dated from Paris, 19th July, 1840, she writes : "You show much hospitality towards your royal guests. But I assure you it will not in this instance be taken as an homage to superior merit — words which I have heard fre- quently applied here to John Bull's frenzy about Soult, and to the hospitality of the English towards the Due de N[emours]. When I told him how much I should like to be in his place (^. e., about to go to England), he protested that he would change places with no one, ' qiiand il s\igis- sait (faller dans un aussi delicieux pays^ que cette helle Angleteri^e, que vous avez si bonne 7xdson d"* aimer et dhid- mirer.^ " On the 29th of August in the same year she writes at 308 WHAT I REMEMBER. great length of the indignation and fury produced in Paris by the announcement of the Quadruple Alliance. She is immensely impressed by the fact that "people gathered in the streets and discussed the question in the open air." " Ireland, Poland, and Italy are to rise to the cry of Liberty." But she goes on to say, "Small causes produce great effects. Much of this warlike disposition has arisen from the fact of Thiers having bought a mag- nificent horse to ride beside the king at the late review." She proceeds to ridicule the minister in a tone very natu- rally suggested by the personal appearance of the little great man under such circumstances, which no doubt fur- nished Paris with much fun. But she goes on to suggest that the personal vanity which made the prospect of such a public appearance alluring to him was. reinforced by " cer- tain other secondary but still important considerations of a different nature, looking to the results which might fol- low from the exhibition of a war policy. This desirable end being attained beyond oven the most sanguine hopes, the martial fever seems on the decline." Now all this gossip may be accepted as evidencing the tone prevailing in the very inmost circles of the cit- izen king's friends and surroundings, and as such is curi- ous. Writing on the 8th of October in the same year, after speaking at great length of Madame Laffarge, and of the extraordinary interest her trial excited, dividing all Paris into Laffargists and anti-Laffargists, and almost supersed- ino- war as a general topic of conversation, she passes to the then burning subject of the fortification of Paris, and writes as follows — curiously enough, considering the date of her letter : "Louis Philippe, whose favorite hobby it has ever been, from the idea that it makes him master of Paris, lays the first stone to-day. Some people consider it the first stone of the mausoleum of his dynasty. I sincerely hope not ; for everything that can be called lady or gentleman runs a good chance of forming part of the funeral pile. The political madness which has taken possession of the pub- lic mind is fearful. Foreign or civil war ! Such is the AT PARIS. 309 alternative. Thiers, wlio governs the masses, flatters them by promises of war and conquest. The MarselUdse, so lately a sign of rebellion, is sung openly in the theatres ; the soldiers under arms sing it in chorus. The Guarde Nationale urges the king to declare war. He has resisted it with all his power, but has now, they say, given way, and has given Thiers carte blanche. He is, in fact, entirely un- der his controL The Chambers are not consulted. Thiers is our absolute sovereign. We call ourselves a free people. We have beheaded one monarch, exiled three generations of kings merely to have a dictator, ' mal n% tnal fait^ et mcil eleve.'' There has been a rumor of a change of min- istry, but no one believes it. The overthrow of Thiers would be the signal for a revolution, and the fortifications are not yet completed to master it. May not all these armaments be the precursors of some couiy d'etat? A general gloom is over all around us. All the faces are long ; all the conversations are sad." This may be accepted as a thoroughly accurate and trustworthy representation of the then state of feeling and opinion among the friends of Louis Philippe's gov- ernment, whether Parceque Bourbon or Quoique Bourbon^ and as such is valuable. It is curious too, to find a stanch friend of the existing government, who may be said to have been even intimate with the younger members of the royal family, speaking of the prime-minister with the detestation Avhich these letters again and again express for Thiers. In a letter of the 19th November, 1840, the writer de- scribes at great length the recent opening of the Chamber by the king. She enlarges on the intensity of the anxiety felt for the tenor of the king's speech, which was supposed to be the announcement of war or peace ; and describes the deep emotion with which Louis Philippe, declaring his hope that peace might yet be preserved, called upon the nation to assist him in the effort to maintain it ; and expresses the scorn and loathing with which she over- heard one republican deputy say to another as the king spoke, ^^Voyez done ce liobert 3Iacaire, comme ilfait sem- blant cV avoir du coeurP'' 310 WHAT I KEMEMBER. A letter of the 14th March, 1842, is written in better spirits and a lighter tone. Speaking of the prevalent hos- tile feeling towards England, the writer wishes that her countrymen would remember Lamartine's observation that ^^ ce patriotis'me coUte pen! II siiffit cVignorei\ cVinjiirier et de hair.'''' She tells her correspondent that "if Lord Cowley has much to do to establish the exact line between Lord Aberdeen's observations and objecUo7is, Lady Cowley has no less difficulty in keeping a nice balance between dignity and popularity," as "the embassy is besieged by all sets and all parties ; the tag and rag, because pushing is a part of their nature ; the juste milieu [how the very phrase recalls a whole forgotten world !], because they consider the English embassy as their property ; the noble Faubourg, because they are tired of sulking, and would not object to treating Lady Cowley as they treated Colonel Thorn,* viz., establishing their quarters at the Cowley Arms, as they did at the Thorn's Head, and invit- ing their friends on the recognized principle, ' Cest moi qui invite, et Monsieur qui paie.'' " Then follows an account of a fancy hal monstre at the Tuileries, which might have turned out, says the writer, to deserve that title in another sense. It was believed that a plot had been formed for the assassination of the king, at the moment when, according to his invariable custom, he took his stand at the door of the supper-room to receive the ladies there. Four thousand five hundred tickets had been issued, and a certain number of these, still blank, had disappeared. That was certain. And it was also certain that the king did not go to the door of the supper-room as usual. But the writer remarks that the tickets may have been stolen by, or for, people who could not obtain them legitimately. But the instantly conceived suspicion of a plot is illustrative of the conditions of feel- ing and opinions in Paris at the time. * Colonel Thorn was an American of fabulous wealth, who was for a season or two very notorious in Paris. Ho was the hero of the often-told story of the two drives to Longchamps the same day ; first with one gor- geous equipment of liveries^ and a second time with other and more re- splendently clothed retainers. AT PARIS. 311 "For my part," continues Mademoiselle D'Henin, "I never enjoyed a ball so much ; perhaps because I did not expect to be amused ; perhaps because all the royal fam- ily, the Jockey Club, and the fastidious Frenchwomen congratulated me upon my toilet, and voted it one of the handsomest there. They said the most becoming (but that was de Veau benite de cour) ; perhaps it was because the dukes of Orleans, Nemours, and Aumale, who never dance, and did so very little that evening, all three honored me with a quadrille. You see I expose to you all the very linings of my heart. I dissect it and exhibit all the vanity it contains. But you will excuse me when I tell you of a compliment that might have turned a wiser head than mine. The fame of my huntress's costume [Mademoiselle D'Henin was in those days the very beau ideal of a Diana] was such that it reached the ears of the wife of our butcher, who sent to beg that I would lend it to her to copy, as she was going to a fancy ball !" A letter of the 8th of August, 1842, written from Ful- ham Palace, contains some interesting notices of the grief and desolation caused by the sad death of the Duke of Orleans. " Was there ever a more afflicting calamity ?" she writes. " When last I wrote his name in a letter to you, it was to describe him as the admired of all beholders, the hero of the/d^e, the pride and honor of France, and now what re- mains of him is in his grave ! The affliction of his family baffles all description. I receive the most touching ac- counts from Paris. Some ladies about the court w^rite to me that nothing can equal their grief. As long as the coffin remained in the chapel at Neuilly, the members of the family were incessantly kneeling by the side of it, praying and weeping. The king so far mastered his feel- ings that whenever he had official duties to perform he was sufficiently composed to perform son metier de roi. But when the painful task was done he would rush to the chapel and weep over the dead body of his son till the whole palace rang with his cries and lamentations. When the body was removed from Neuilly to Notre Dame, the scene at Neuilly was truly heartrending. My father has 312 WHAT I REMEMBER. seen the king and the princes several times since the catas- trophe, and he says it has done the work of years on their personal appearance. The Due de Nemours has neither eaten nor slept since his brother died, and looks as if walk- ing out of his grave. Mamma wrote him a few lines of condolence, which he answered by a most affecting note. Papa was summoned to attend the king to the House, as grand officier, and says he never witnessed such a scene. Even the opposition shed their crocodile tears. Placed immediately near the king on the steps of the throne, he * saw the struggle between kingly decorum and fatherly affliction. Nature had the victory. Three times the king attempted to speak, three times he was obliged to stop, and at last burst into a flood of tears. The contagion gained all around him. And it was only interrupted by sobs that he could proceed. And it is in the face of this despair, when the body of the prince is scarcely cold, that that horrid Thiers and his associates begin afresh their infernal manoeuvres !" A letter of the 'Sd April, 1842, contains among a quan- tity of the gossip of the day an odd story, which, the writer says, "is putting Rome in a ferment, and the clergy in raptures." I thhik I remember that it made a considerable stir in ecclesiastic circles at the time. A certain M. Ratisbonne, a Jew, it seems entered a church in Rome (the writer does not say so, but, if I remember rightly, it was the " Gesu ") with a friend, a M. de Bus- sieres, who had some business to transact in the sacristy. The Jew, who professed complete infidelity, meantime was looking at the pictures. But M. de Bussieres, when his business was done, found him prostrate on the pave- ment in front of a picture of the Madonna. The Jew, on coming to himself, declared that the Virgin had stepped from her frame and addressed him, with the result, as he said, that having fallen to the ground an infidel, he rose a convinced Christian ! Mademoiselle D'Henin writes in a tone which indicates small belief in the miracle, but seems to accept as certain the further facts, that the convert gave all he possessed to the Church and became a monk. I have recently — even while transcribing these extracts AT PARIS. 313 from her letters — heard of the death, within the last few years, of the writer of them. She died in England, I am told, and unmarried. Her sympathies and affections were always strongly turned to her mother's country, as indeed may be in some degree inferred from even those passages of her letters which have been given. And I can well conceive that the events which, each more disastrous than its predecessor, followed in France shortly after the date of the last of them, may have rendered, especially after the death of her parents, a life in France distasteful to her. But I, and, I think, my mother also, had entirely lost sight of her for very many years. Had I imagined that she was living in England I should undoubtedly have endeavored to see her. I have known many women, denizens of le grand inonde, who have adorned it with equally brilliant talents, equally captivating beauty, equally sparkling wit and vivacity of intelligence. And I have known many, denizens of the studious and the book world, gifted with larger powers of intellect, and more richly dowered with the results of thought and study. But I do not think that I ever met with one who possessed in so large a degree the choice product resulting from conversance with both these worlds. She was in truth a very brilliant creature. Madame D'Henin I remember made us laugh heartily one evening by telling us the following anecdote. At one of those remarkable omnium- gatherum receptions at the Tuileries of which I have spoken in a former chapter, she heard an American lady, to whom Louis Philippe was talking of his American recollections and of various per- sons he had known there, say to him, " Oh, sire, they all retain the most lively recollections of your majesty's so- journ among them, and icish nothing more than that you shoidd return among them again f The Duke of Orleans, who was standing behind the king, fairly burst into a guf- faw. There was a story current in Rome, in the days of Pius the Ninth, which may be coupled with this as a good^^e??- dant. His holiness, when he had occupied the papal throne for a period considerably exceeding the legendary twenty- 14 314 WHAT I REMEMBER. five years of St. Peter, was one day very affably asking an Englishman, who had been presented to him, whether he had seen everything in Rome most calculated to interest a stranger, and was answered : " Yes indeed, your holiness, I think almost everything, except one which I confess I have been particularly anxious to witness — a conclave !" Here are a few jottings at random from my diary, which may still have some little interest : " Madame Le Roi, a daughter of General Hoche, told me (22d January, 1840) that as she was driving on the boulevard a day or two ago, a sou piece was thrown with great violence at the window of her carriage, smashing it to pieces. This, she said, was because her family arms were emblazoned on the panel. Most of the carriages in Paris, she said, had no arms on them for fear of similar attacks." Then we were active frequenters of the theatres. We go, I find, to the Fran9ais, to see Mars, then sixty years old, in *'Les Dehors Trompeurs" and in the " Fausses Confidences;" to the opera to hear "Robert le Diable" and " Lucia di Lammermuir," with Persiani, Taraburini, and Rubini ; and the followhig night to the Fran9ais again, to see Rachel in '* Cinna." I thought her personally, I observe, very attractive. But that, and sundry other subsequent experiences, left me with the impression that she was truly very powerful in the representation of scorn, indignation, hatred, and all the sterner and less amiable passions of the soul, but failed painfully when her role required the exhibition of tenderness or any of the gentler emotions. These were my impressions when she was young and 1 was compara- tively so. But when, many years afterwards, I saw her repeatedly in Italy, they were not, I think, much modified. The frequent occasions on which, subsequently, I saw Ristori produced an impression on me very much the re- verse. I remember thinking Ristori's " Mirra " too good, so terribly true as to be almost too painful for the thea- tre. I thought Rachel's " Marie Stuart," upon the whole, her finest performance, though " Adrienne" ran it hard. Persiani, I note, supported by Lablache and Rubini, had AT PARIS. 315 a most triumphant reception in " Inez de Castro," while Albertazzi was very coldly received in " Blanche de Cas- tille." Grisi in "Norma" was "superb." "Persiani and P. Garcia sang a duet from ' Tancredi ;' it was divine ! I think I like Garcia's voice better than any of them. Nor could I thhik her ugly, as it is the fashion to call her, though it must be admitted that her mouth and teeth are alarming." Then there were brilliant receptions at the English embassy (Lord Granville) and at the Austrian embassy (Comte d'Appony). My diary remarks that stars and gold lace and ribbons of all the orders in Christendom were more abundant at the latter, but female beauty at the former. I remember much admiring that of Lady Honoria Cadogan, and that of a very remarkably lovely Visconti girl, a younger sister of the Princess Belgiojoso. But despite this perfect beauty, my diary notes that it was " curious to observe the unmistakable superiority as a human being of the young English patrician." I re- member that the "sit-down" suppers at the Austrian em- bassy — a separate little table for every two, three, or four guests — were remarked on as a novelty (and applauded) by the Parisians. Then at Miss Clarke's (afterwards Madame Mohl) I find Fauriel, "the first Proven9al scholar in Europe," de- lightful, and am disgusted with Merimee, because he man- ifested self-sufficiency, as it seemed to my youthful criti- cism, by pooh-poohing the probability of the temple at Lanleff in Brittany having been aught else than a church of the Templars. Then Arago reads an Eloge on " old Ampere," of which I only remark that it lasted two hours and a half. Then there was a dinner at Dr. Gilchrist's, whose widow our old friend Pepe, who for many years had always called her "Madame Ghee-cree," subsequently married. My notes, written the same evening, remind me that " I did not much like the radical old doctor (his wife was an old acquaintance, but I had never seen him before) ; he is eighty, and ought to know better. Old Nymzevitch (I am not sure of the spelling), the ex-Chancellor of Poland, 316 WHAT I REMEMBER. dined with us. He is eighty-four. When he said that he had conversed with the Due de Richelieu, I started as if he had announced himself as the Wandering Jew. But, in fact, he had had, when a young man, an interview with the due, then ninety. He was, Nymzevitch told me, dread- fully emaciated, but dressed very splendidly in a purple coat all bedizened with silver lace. ' He received me,' said the old ex-chancellor, * with much affable dignity.' " Then comes a breakfast with Pepe, at which I met the President Thibeaudeau, "a gray old man who makes a point of saying rude, coarse, and disagreeable thiflgs, which his friends call dry humor. He found fault with everything at the breakfast-table." Then a visit to the Chamber (where I heard Soult, Du- pin, and Teste speak, and thought it " a terrible bear-gar- den ") is followed by attendance at a sermon by Athanase Coquerel, the Protestant preacher whose reputation in the Parisian beau monde was great in those days. He was, says my diary, " exceedingly eloquent, but I did not like his sermon ;" for which dislike my notes proceed to give the reasons, which I spare the, I hope grateful, reader. Then I went to hear Bishop Luscombe at the ambassador's chapel, and listened to "a very stupid sermon." I seem, somewhat to my surprise as I read the records of it, to have had a pronounced taste for sermons in those days, which I fear I have somewhat outgrown. But, then, I have been very deaf during my later decades. Bishop Luscombe may perhaps, however, be made more amusing to the reader than he was to me in the embassy chapel by the following fragment of his experience. The bishop arrived one day at Paddington, and could not find his luggage. He called a porter to find it for him, telling him the name to be read on the articles. The man, very busy with other people, answered hurriedly, "You must go to hell for your luggage." Now Luscombe, who was a somewhat pompous and very hishopy man, was dread- fully shocked, and felt, as he said, as if the porter had struck him in the face. In extreme indignation he de- manded where he could speak with any of the authorities, and was told that *'the board" was then sitting up-stairs. AT PARIS. 31 Y So to the boardroom the bishop went straightway, and, announcing himself, made his complaint. The chairman, professing his regret that such offence should have been given, said he feared the man must have been drunk, but that he should be immediately summoned to give an ac- count of his conduct. So the porter, in great trepidation, appeared in a few minutes before the august tribunal of " the board." "Well, sir," said he, in reply to the chairman's indig- nant questioning, " what could I do ? I was werry busy at the time. So when the gentleman says as his name was Luscombe, I could do no better than tell him to go to h'ell for his luggage, and he'd have found it there all right !" "Oh ! I see," said the chairman; "it is a case of mis- placed aspirate ! We have spaces on the wall marked with the letters of the alphabet, and you would have found your luggage at the letter L. You will see that the man meant no offence. I am sorry you should have been so scandalized, but though we succeed, I hope, in making our porters civil to our customers, it would be hopeless, I fear, to attempt to make them say L correctly." Sohimtur risit tahulce. I find chronicled a long talk with Mohl one evening at Madame Recamier's. The room was very full of notable people of all sorts, and the tide of chattering was running very strong. " How can anything last long in France ?" said he, in reply to my having said (in answer to his as- sertion that Cousin's philosophy had gone by) that it had been somewhat short-lived. " Reputations are made and pass away. It is impossible that they should endure. It is in such places as this that they are destroyed. The friction is prodigious !" We then began to talk of the state of religion in France. He said that among a large set religion was now d la mode. But he did not suppose that many of the fine folks who patronized it had much belief in it. The clergy of France were, he said, almost invariably very illiterate. Guizot, I remembered, calls them, in his "History of Civ- ilization," doctes et erudits^ but I abstained from quoting 318 WHAT I REMEMBER. him. Molil went on to tell me a story of a newspaper that had been about to be established, called Le Democrat. The shareholders met, when it appeared that one party wished to make it a Roman Catholic and the other an atheist organ. Whereupon the existence of God was put to the vote and carried by a majority of one, at which the atheist party were so disgusted that they seceded in a body. I got to like Mohl much, and had more conversation, I think, with him than with any other of the numerous men of note with whom I became more or less acquainted. On another occasion, when I found him in his cabinet, walled up as usual among his books, our talk fell on his great work, the edition of the Oriental MSS. in the " Biblio- theque Royale," v»^hich was to be completed in ten folio volumes, the first of which, just out, he was showing me. He complained of the extreme slowness of the govern- ment presses in getting on with the work. This he at- tributed to the absurd costliness, as he considered it, of the style in which the work was brought out. The cost of producing that first volume, he told me, had been over £1600 sterling. It was to be sold at a little less than a hundred francs. Something was said (by me, I think) of the possibility of obtaining assistance from the king, who was generally supposed to be immensely wealthy. Mohl said that he did not believe Louis Philippe to be nearly so rich a man as he was supposed to be. He had spent, he said, enormous sums on the chateaux he had restored, and was afiirmed, by those who had the means of know- ing the fact, to be at that time twelve millions of francs in debt. My liking for Mohl seems to have been fully justified by the estimation he was generally held in. I find in a recently published volume by Kathleen O'Meara, on the life of my old friend, Miss Clarke, who afterwards became his wife, the following passage quoted from Sainte-Beuve, who describes him as " a man who was the very embodi- ment of learning and of inquiry, an Oriental savant — more than a savant — a sage, with a mind clear, loyal, and vast ; a German mind passed through an English filter, a cloud- AT PARIS. 319 less, unruffled mirror, open and limpid; of pure and frank morality; early disenchanted with all things ; with a grain of irony devoid of all bitterness, the laugh of a child un- der a bald head ; a Goethe-like intelligence, but free from all prejudice." "A charming and spirituelle Frenchwom- an," Miss O'Meara goes on to say, " said of Julius Mohl that Nature, in forming his character, had skimmed the cream of the three nationalities to which he belonged by birth, by adoption, and by marriage, making him deep as a German, spirituel as a Frenchman, and loyal as an Eng- lishman." I may insert here the following short note from Madame Mohl, because the manner of it is very characteristic of her. It is, as was usual with her, undated. " My dear Mr. Troli.ope, — By accident I have just learned that you are in London. If I could see you and talk over my dear old friend (Madame Recamier) I should bo so much obliged and so glad, I live 68 Oxford Terrace, Hyde Park. If you would write me a note to say when I should be at home for the purpose. But if you can't, I am generally, not always, found after four. But if you could come on the 10th or r2th after nine we have a party. I am living at Mrs. Schwabe's just now till 16th this month. Pray write me a note, even if you can't come. " Yours ever, " Mary Moiil." All the capital letters in the above transcript, except those in her name, are mine ; she uses none. The note is written in headlong hurry. Mignet, whom I met at the house of Thiers, I liked too, but Mohl was my favorite. It was all very amusing, with as much excitement and interest of all kinds crammed into a few weeks as might have lasted one for a twelvemonth. And I liked it better than teaching Latin to the youth of Birmingham. But it would seem that there was something that I liked better still. For on March 30, leaving my mother in the full swing of the Parisian gayeties, I bade adieu to them all and once again " took to the road," bound on an excursion through central France. CHAPTER XXIII. IN WESTERN FRANCE. AGAIN IN PARIS. My journey through central France took me by Char- tres, Orleans, down the Lcire to Nantes, then through La Vendee to Fontenay, Niort, Poitiers, Saintes, Rochefort, La Rochelle, Bordeaux, Angouleme, Limoges, and thence back to Paris. On looking at the book for the first time since I read the proof-sheets I find it amusing. The fault of it, as an account of the district traversed, is that it treats of the localities described on a scale that Avould have needed twenty volumes, instead of two, to complete the story of my tour in the same proportion. I do not remember that any of my critics noted this fault. Per- haps they feared that on the first suggestion of such an idea I should have set about mending the difficulty by the production of a score of other volumes on the subject ! I could easily have done so. I was in no danger of incur- ring the anathema launched by Sterne — I think it was Sterne — against the man who went from Dan to Beersheba and found all barren. I found matter of interest every- where, and could have gone on doing so, as it seemed to me in those days, forever. The part of France I visited is not much betravelled by Englishmen, and the general idea is that it is not an inter- esting section of the country. I thought, and still think, otherwise. My notion is that if a line were drawn through France from Calais to the centre of the Pyrenean chain, by far the greater part of the prettiest country and most interesting populations, as well as places, would be found to the westward of it. I do not think that my bill of fare excited any great interest in the reading world ; but I sup- pose that I contrived to interest a portion of it, for the book was fairly successful. I wrote a book in many respects of the same kind many IN WESTERN FRANCE. 321 years subsequently, giving an account of a journey through certain little-visited districts of central Italy, under the title of a " Lenten Journey." It is not, I think, so good a book as my French journeys furnished, mainly, to my mind, because it was in one small volume instead of two big ones, and both for want of space and want of time was done hurriedly and too compendiously. The true motto for the writer of such a book is 7iihil a me alienum 2mto, whether humanum or otherwise. My own opinion is, to make a perfectly clean breast of it, that I could now write a fairly amusing book on a journey from Tyburn turnpike to Stoke Pogis. But then such books should be addressed to readers who are not in such a tearing hurry as the unhappy world is in these latter days. It would seem that I found my two octavo volumes did not afford me nearly enough space to say my say respect- ing the country traversed, for they are brought to an end somewhat abruptly by a hurried return from Limoges to Paris ; whereas my ramble was much more extended, in- cluding both the upper and lower provinces of Auvergne and the whole of the Bourbonnais. My voluminous notes of the whole of these wanderings are now before me. But I will let my readers off easy, recording only that I walked from Murat to St. Flour, a distance of fifteen miles, in five minutes under three hours. Not bad! My diary notes that it was frequently very difficult to find my way in walking about Auvergne, from the paucity of people I could find who could speak French, the kmgue du pays being as unintelligible as Choctaw. This would hardly be the case now. I don't know whether a knot of leading tradesmen at Bordeaux could now be found to talk as did such a party with whom I got into conversation in that year, 1840. It was explained to me that England, as was well known, had liberated her slaves in the West Indies perfectly well knowing that the colonies would be absolutely ruined by the measure, but expecting to be amply compensated by the ruin of the French colonies, which would result from the example, and the consequent extension of trade with the East Indies, from which France would be compelled 14* 322 WHAT I REMEMBER. to purchase all the articles her own colonies now supplied her with. One of these individuals told me and the rest of his audience that he had the means of knowing that the interest of the English national debt was paid every year by fresh borrowing, and that bankruptcy and abso- lute smash must occur within a few years. '' Ah !" said a much older, gray-headed man, who had been listening sitting with his hands reposing on his walking-stick before- him, and who spoke with a sort of patient, long-expecting hope and a deep sigh — '* ah ! we have been looking for that many a year, but I am beginning to doubt whether I shall live to see it." My assurances that matters were not alto- gether so bad as they supposed in England, of course, met with little credence. Still, they listened to me, and did not show angry signs of a consciousness that I was auda- ciously befooling them, till the talk having veered to Lon- don, I ventured to assure them that London was not sur- rounded by any octroi boundary, and that no impost of that nature was levied there.* Then, in truth, I might as well have assured them that London streets were literally paved with gold. On the 30th of May, 1840, I returned with my mother from Paris to her house in York Street. Life had been very pleasant there to her I believe, and certainly to me during those periods of it which my inborn love of ram- bling allowed me to pass there. But in the following June it was determined that the house in York Street should be given up. Probably the causa causans of this determination was the fact of my sister's removal to far Penrith. But I think, too, that there was a certain un- avowed feeling that we had eaten up London, and should enjoy a move to new pastures. I remember well a certain morning in York Street when we — my mother and I — held a solemn audit of accounts. It was found that during her residence in York Street she had spent a good deal more than she had supposed. She had entertained a good deal, giving frequent "little din- * It may possibly be necessary to tell untravelled Englishmen that the octroi, universal on the Continent, is an impost levied on all articles of consumption at the gates of a town. AGAIN IN PARIS. 323 ners." But dinners, however little, are apt in London to leave tradesmen's bills not altogether small in proportion to their littleness. "The fact is," said my mother, "that potatoes have been quite exceptionally dear." For a very long series of years she never heard the last of those ex- ceptional potatoes. But, despite the alarming deficit caused by those unfortunate vegetables, I do not think the aban- donment of the establishment in York Street v/as caused by financial considerations. She was earning in those years large sums of money — quite as large as any she had been spending — and might have continued in London had she been so minded. No doubt I had much to do with the determination we came to. But, for my part, if it had at that time been proposed to me that our establishment should be reduced to a couple of trunks, and all our worldly possessions to the contents of them, with an opening vista of carriages, diligences, and ships ad llbitmn in prospect, I should have jumped at the idea. A caravan, which, in addition to shirts and stockings, could have carried about one's books and writing-tackle, would have seemed the summiim ho- nuin of human felicity. So we turned our backs on London without a thought of regret and once again " took the road ;" but this time separately, my mother going to my sister at Penrith and I to pass the summer months in wanderings in Picardy, Lorraine, and French Flanders, and the ensuing winter m Paris. I hardly know which was the pleasanter time. By this time I was no stranger to Paris, and had many friends there. It was my first experiment of living there as a bachelor, as I was going to say, but I mean "on my own hook," and left altogether to my own devices. I found, of course, that my then experiences diflfered considerably from those acquired when living en famille. But I am disposed to think that the tolerably intimate knowledge I flatter myself I possessed of the Paris and Parisians of Louis Philippe's time was mainly the result of this second residence. I remember, among a host of things indicating 324 WHAT I REMEMBER. the extent of the difference between those days and these, that I lived in a very good apartment, mt troisihme, in one of the streets immediately behind the best part of the Rue de Rivoli for one hundred francs a month ! This price included all service (save, of course, a tip to the porter), and the preparation of my coffee for breakfast if I needed it. For dinner, or any other meal, I had to go out. " Society " lived in Paris in those days — not unreason- ably as the result soon showed — in perpetual fear of being knocked all to pieces by an outbreak of revolution, though, of course, nobody said so. But I lived mainly (though not entirely) among the hien pensants people, who looked on all anti - governmental manifestations with horror. Perhaps the restless discontent which destroyed Louis Philippe's government is the most disheartening circum- stance in the whole course of recent French history. That the rule of Charles Dix should have occasioned revolt may be regrettable, but is not a matter for surprise. But that of Louis Philippe was not a stagnant or retrogressive re,- gime. '"'■La carrUre''^ was very undeniably open to talent and merit of every description. Material well-being was on the increase. And the door was not shut against any political change which even very advanced Liberalism, of the kind consistent with order, might have aspired to. But the Liberalism which moved France was not of that kind. One of my most charming friends of those days, Rosa Stewart, who afterwards became and was well known to literature as Madame Blaze du Bury, was both too clever and too shrewd an observer, as well as, to me at least, too frank to pretend any of the assurance which was then de mode. She saw what was coming, and was fully per- suaded that it must come. I hope that her eye may rest on this testimony to her perspicacity, though I know not whether she still graces this planet with her very pleasing presence. For as, alas ! in so many scores of other in- stances, our lives have drifted apart, and it is many years since I have heard of her. One excursion I specially remember in connection with that autumn was partly, I think, a pedestrian one, to Ami- AGAIN IN PARIS. 325 ens and Beauvais, made in company with the W A of whom my brother speaks in his autobiography ; which I mention chiefly for the sake of recording my tes- timony to the exactitude of his description of that very singular individual. If it had not been for the continual carefulness necessitated by the difficulty of avoiding all cause of quarrel,! should say that he was about the pleas- antest travelling companion I have ever known. In the beginning of April, 1841, after a little episode of spring wandering in the Tyrol and Bavaria (in the course of which I met my mother at the chateau of her very old friend the Baroness de Zandt, who has been mentioned before, and was now living somewhat solitarily in her huge house in its huge park near Bamberg), my mother and I started for Italy. Neither of us had at that time con- ceived the idea of making a home there. The object of the journey, which had been long contemplated by my mother, was the writing of a book on Italy, as she had al- ready done on Paris and on Vienna. Our journey was a prosperous one in all respects, and our flying visit to Italy was very pleasant. My mothers book was duly written, and published by Mr. Bentley in 1842. But the "Visit to Italy," as the work was entitled (with justly less pretence than the titles of either of its predecessors had put forward, was in truth all too short. And I find that almost all of the huge mass of varied rec- ollections which are connected in my mind with Italy and Italian people and things belong to my second " visit " of nearly half a century's duration ! We made, however, several pleasant acquaintances and some fast friends, principally at Florence, and thus paved the way, although little intending it at the time, for our return thither. Our visit was rendered shorter than it would proba- bly otherwise have been by my mother's strong desire to be with my sister, who was expecting the birth of her first child at Penrith. And for this purpose we left Rome in February, 1842, in very severe weather. We crossed the Mont Cenis in sledges — which to me was a very accepta- ble experience, but to my mother was one which nothing 326 WHAT I KEMEMBER. could have induced her to face, save the determination not to fail her child at her need. Plow vrell I remember hearing, as I sat in the hcmquette of the diligence which was just leaving Susa for its climb up the mountain amid the snow, then rapidly falling, the driver of the descending diligence, which had accom- plished its work and was just about entering the haven of Susa, sing out to our driver — ^'Voiis allezvous amiiser joli- ment Id haut, croyez moir We did not, however, change the diligence for the sledges till we came to the descent on the northern side. But as we made our slow way to the top our vehicle was supported from time to time on either side by twelve strapping fellows, who put their shoulders to it. I appreciated during that journey, though I was glad to see the mountain in its winter dress, the recommendation not to let your flight be in the winter. CHAPTER XXIV. IN lEELAND. — AT ILFKACOMBE. IN FLOEENCE. I ACCOMPANIED my mother to Penrith, and forthwith de- voted myself heart and body to the preparation of our new house, and the beautifying of the very pretty paddock in which it was situated. I put in some hundreds of trees and shrubs with my own hands, which prospered marvel- lously, and have become, I have been told, most luxuriant shrubberies. I was bent on building a cloistered walk along the entire top of the field, which would have afforded a charming ambulatory sheltered from the north winds and from the rain, and would have commanded the most love- ly views, while the pillars supporting the roof would have presented admirable places for a world of flowering climb- ing plants. And doubtless I should have achieved it, had we remained there. But it would have run into too much money to be undertaken immediately — fortunately ; for, inasmuch as there was nothing of the sort in all that coun- try-side, no human being would have given a stiver more for the house when it came to be sold, and the next owner would probably have pulled it down. There was no au- thority for such a thing. Had it been suffered to remain it would probably have been called " Trollope's Folly !" Subsequently, but not immediately after we left it, the place — oddly enough I forget the name we gave it — be- came the property and the residence of my brother-in- law. Of my life at Penrith I need add nothing to the jot- tings I have already placed before the reader on the occa- sion of my first visit to that j^lace. My brother, already a very different man from what he had been in London, came from his Irish district to visit us there ; and I returned with him to Ireland, to his head- quarters at Banagher on the Shannon. Neither of this 328 WHAT I REMEMBER. journey need I say much. For to all who know anything of Ireland at the present day — and who does not? worse luck ! — anything I might write would seem as 7nhil ad rem as if I were w^'iting of an island in the Pacific. I re- member a very vivid impression that occurred to me on first landing at Kingstown, and accompanied me during the whole of my stay in the island, to the effect that the striking differences in everything that fell under my ob- servation from what I had left behind me at Holyhead were fully as great as any that had excited my interest when first landing in France. One of my first visits was to my brother's chief. He was a master of foxhounds and hunted the country. And I well remember my astonishment when the door of this gentleman's residence was opened to me by an extremely dirty and slatternly bare-footed and bare-legged girl. I found him to be a very friendly and hospitable good fel- low, and his wife and her sister very pleasant women. I found too that my brother stood high in his good graces by virtue of simply having taken the whole work and affairs of the postal district on his shoulders. The re- jected of St. Martin's-le-Grand was already a very valua- ble and capable ofiicer. My brother gave me the choice of a run to the Killeries or to Killarney. We could not manage both. I chose the former, and a most enjoyable trip we had. He could not leave his w^ork to go with me, but was to join me sub- sequently, I forget where, in the west. Meantime he gave me a letter to a bachelor friend of his at Clifden. This gentleman immediately asked me to dinner, and he and I dined tete-d-tete. Nevertheless, he thought it necessary to apologize for the appearance of a very fine John Dory on the table, saying that he had been himself to the market to get a turbot for me, but that he had been asked half a crown for a not very large one, and really he could not give such absurd prices as that ! Anthony duly joined me as proposed, and we had a grand walk over the mountains above the Killeries. I don't forget, and never shall forget — nor did Anthony ever forget ; alas ! that we shall never more talk over IN IRELAND. 329 that day again — the truly grand spectacular changes from dark, thick, enveloping cloud to brilliant sunshine, sud- denly revealing all the mountains and the wonderful color- ing of the intertwining sea beneath them, and then back to cloud and mist and drifting sleet again. It was a glorious walk. We returned wet to the skin to Joyce's Inn, and dined on roast goose and whiskey punch, wrapped in our blankets like Roman senators ! One other scene I must recall. The reader will hardly believe that it occurred in Ireland. There was an election of a member for I forget what county or borough, and my brother and I went to the hustings — the only time I ever was at an election in her majesty's dominions. What were the party feelings, or the party colors, I utterly forget. It was merely for the fun of the thing that we went there. The fun, indeed, was fast and furious. The whole scene on the hustings, as well as around them, seemed to me one seething mass of senseless but good-humored hustling and confusion. Suddenly in the midst of the uproar an ominous cracking v.as heard, and in the next minute the hustings swayed and came down with a crash, heaping together in a confused mass all the two or three hundreds of human beings who were on the huge platform. Some few were badly hurt. But my brother and I being young and active, and tolerably stout fellows, soon extricated ourselves, regained our legs, and found that we were none the worse. Then we began to look to our neighbors. And the first who came to hand was a priest, a little man, who was lying with two or three fellows on the top of him, horribly frightened and roaring piteously for help. So Anthony took hold of one of his arms and I of the oth- er, and by main force dragged him from under the super- incumbent mass of humanity. When we got him on his legs his gratitude was unbounded. " Tell me your names," he shouted, " that I'll pray for ye !" We told him laugh- ingly that we were afraid it was no use, for we were heretics. "Tell me your names," he shouted again, "that I'll pray for ye all the more !" I wonder whether he ever did. He certainly was very much in earnest while the fright was on him. 330 WHAT I REMEMBER. Not very long after my return from this Irish trip we finally left Penrith, on the thircf of April, 1843 ; and I trust that the nymph of the holy well, whose spring we had disturbed, was appeased. My mother and I had now " the world before us where to choose." She had work in hand, and more in perspec- tive, but it was work of a nature that might be done in one place as well as in another. So when " Carlton Hill " (all of a sudden the name comes back to my memory) was sold, we literally stood with no impedimenta of any sort save our trunks, and absolutely free to turn our faces in whatsoever direction we pleased. What we did in the first instance was to turn them to the house of our old and well-beloved cousin, Fanny Bent, at Exeter. There after a few days we persuaded her to accompany us to Ilfracombe, where we spent some very enjoyable summer weeks. What 1 remember chiefly in connection with that pleasant time was idling rambles over the rocks and the Capstone Hill, in company with Mrs. Coker and her sister Miss Aubrey, the daughters of that Major A who needs to the whist-playing world no further commemoration. The former of them was the wife and mother of Wykehamists (founder's kin), and both were very charming women. Ilfracombe Avas in those days an unpretending sort of fishing-village. There was no huge Ilfracombe Hotel, and the Capstone Hill was not strewed with whitey-brown biscuit bags and the fragments of bottles, nor continually vocal with nigger minstrels and ranting preachers. The Royal Clarence did exist in the little town, whether under that name or not, I forget. But I can testify from experience, acquired some forty years afterwards, that Mr. and Mrs. Clemow now keep there one of the best inns of its class that I, no incom- petent expert in such matters, know in all England. Then, when the autumn days began to draw in, we re- turned to Exeter, and many a long consultation was held by my mother and I, sallying forth from Fanny Bent's hosijitable house for a tete-d-tete stroll on Northernhay, on the question of " What next ?" It turned out to be a more momentous question than AT ILFRACOMBE. 33 1 we either of us imagined it to be at the time ; for the decision of it involved the shape and form of the entire future life of one of us, and still more important modifica- tion of the future life of the other. Dresden was talked of. Rome was considered. Paris was thought of. Venice was discussed. No one of them was proposed as a future permanent home. Finally Florence came on the tajns. We had liked it much, and had formed some much-valued friendships there. It was supposed to be economical as a place to live in, which was one main point. For our plan was to make for ourselves for two or three years a home and way of living sufficiently cheap to admit of combin- ing with it large plans of summer travel. And eventu- ally Florence was fixed on. As for my mother, it turned out that she was then se- lecting her last and final home — though the end was not, thank God, for many a long year yet. As for me, the decision arrived at during those walks on Exeter Northern- hay was more momentous still. For I was choosing the road that led not only to my home for the next half-cen- tury nearly, but to two marriages, both of them so happy in all respects as rarely to have fallen to the lot of one and the same man. How little we either of us, my mother and I, saw into the future — beyond a few immediate inches before our noses ! Truly prudens fiituri temporis exitiim caliginosd 7iocte premit Deus! And when I hear talk of "conduct making fate," I often think — humbly and gratefully, I trust; marvelling, certainly — how far it could liave d priori seemed probable that the conduct of a man who, without either ces in presenti^ or any very visible prospect of ms in futuro^ turns aside from all the beaten paths of professional industry should have led him to a long life of happiness and content, hardly to be surpassed, and, I should fear, rarely equalled. Dens nobis hcec otia fecit! — Deus, by the intromission of one rarely good mother, and two rarely good, and I may add rarely gifted, wives ! Not that I would have the reader translate " otia " by idleness. I have written enough to show that my life hitherto had been a full and active one. And it continued 332 WHAT I REMEMBER. in Italy to be an industrious one. Translate the word rather into "independence." For I worked at work that I liked, and did no task-work. Nevertheless, I would not wish to be an evil exemplar, vitlis irnitahile, and I don't recommend you, dear boys, to do as I did. I have been quite abnormally fortunate. Well, we thought that we were casting the die of fate on a very subordinate matter, while, lo ! it was cast for us by the Supernal Powers after a more far-reaching and overruling fashion. So on the 2d of September, 1843, we turned our faces southward and left London for Florence. We became immediately on arriving in Firenze la gen- tile (after a little tour in Savoy, introduced as an interlude after our locomotive rambling fashion) the guests of Lady Bulwer, who then inhabited in the Palazzo Passerini an apartment far larger than she needed, till we could find a lodging for ourselves. We had become acquainted with Lady Bulwer in Paris, and a considerable intimacy arose between her and my mother, whose nature was especially calculated to sym- pathize with the good qualities which Lady Bulwer un- questionably possessed in a high degree. She was brill- iant, witty, generous, kind, joyous, good-natured, and very handsome. But she was wholly governed by impulse and unreasoning prejudice ; though good-natured, was not al- ways good-humored ; was totally devoid of prudence or judgment, and absolutely incapable of estimating men aright. She used to think me, for instance, little short of an admirable Crichton ! Of course, all the above-rehearsed good qualities were, or were calculated to be, immediately perceived and ap- preciated, while the less pleasant specialties which accom- panied them were of a kind to become more perceptible only in close intimacy. And while no intimacy ever les- sened that regard of my mother and myself that had been won by the first, it was not long before we were both, my mother especially, vexed by exhibitions of the second. As, for instance : Lady Bulwer had for some days been complaining of feeling unwell, and was evidently suffer- IN FLORENCE. 333 ing. My mother urged her to have some medical advice, whereupon she turned on her very angrily, while the tears started to her beautiful eyes, and said, " How caii you tell me to do any such thing, when you know that I have not a guinea for the purpose ?" (She was frequently wont to complain of her poverty.) But she had hardly got the words out of her mouth when the servant entered the room saying that the silversmith was at the door asking that the account which he laid on the table might be paid. The account (which Lady Bulwer made no attempt to con- ceal, for concealment of anything Avas not at all in her line) was for a pair of small silver spurs and an orna- mented silver collar which she had ordered a week or two previously for the ceremonial knighting of her little dog Taffy! On another occasion a large party of us were to visit the Boboli Gardens. It was a very hot day, and we had to climb the hill to the upper part of the gardens, from whence the view over Florence and the Val d'Arno is a charming one. But the hill, as those who have been at Florence will not have forgotten, is not only an extremely steep, but a shadeless one. The broad path runs between two wide margins of turf, which are enclosed on either side by thick but not very high shrubberies. The party sorted themselves into couples, and the men addressed themselves to facilitating as best they might the not slight- ly fatiguing work before the ladies. It fell to my lot to give Lady Bulwer my arm. Before long we were the last and most lagging couple on the path. It Avas hard work, but I did my best, and flattered myself that my companion, despite the radical moisture which she was copiously los- ing, was in high good-humor, as indeed she seemed to be, when suddenly, without a word of warning, she dashed from the path, thrcAV herself prone among the bushes, and burst into an uncontrollable fit of sobs and weeping. I was horrified with amazement. What had I done, or what left undone ? It was long before I could get a word out of her. At last she articulated amid her sobs, '' It is too hot ! It is cruel to bring one here !" Yes, it was too hot ; but that was all. Fortunately I was not the cruel bringer. 334 WHAT I REMEMBER. I consoled her to the best of my power, and induced her to wipe her eyes. I dabbled a handkerchief in a neigh- boring fountain for her to wash her streaked face, and eventually I got her to the top of the hill, where all the others had long since arrived. The incident was entirely characteristic of her. She was furiously angry with all things in heaven above and on the earth below because she was at the moment incon- venienced. Here is the beginning of a letter from her of a date some months anterior to the Boboli adventure : " lUustrissimo Signor Tommaso" (that was the usual style of her address to me), "as your book is just out you must feel quite eoi train for puffs of any description. Therefore I send you the best I have seen for a long while, 'La Physiologic du Fumeur.' But even if you don't like it, doriH put it in your pipe and smoke it. Vide Joseph Fume." A little subsequently she Avrites : " Signor Tommaso, the only revenge I shall take for your lecture " (probably on the matter of some outrageous extravagance) " is not to call you illustrissimo and not to send you an illuminated postilion " (a previous letter having been ornamented with such a decoration at the top of the sheet), "but let you find your way to Venice in the dark as you can, and then and there, ' On the Rialto I will rate you,' and, being a man, you know there is no chance of my overrating you." The following passage from the same letter refers to some negotiations with which she had intrusted me relative to some illustrations she was bent on having in a forthcoming book she was about to publish : " As for the immortal Cruikshank, tell him that I am sure the mighty genius which conceived Lord Bateman could not refuse to give any lady the werry best, and if he does I shall pass the rest of my life registering a similar wo^o to that of the fair Sophia, and exclaiming, 'I vish, George Cruikshank, as you vas mine.' " The rest of the long, closely-written, four-paged letter is an indiscriminate and bitter, though joking attack, upon the race of publishers. She calls Mr. Colburn an "em- IN FLORENCE. 335 bodied shiver," which will bring a smile to the lips of those — few, I fear — who remember the little man. Here are some extracts from a still longer letter written to my mother much about the same time : " I hear Lady S has committed another novel, called 'The Three Peers,' no doubt Vim pire que V autre! ... I have a great many kind messages to you from that very charming per- son Madame Recamier, who fully intends meeting you at Venice with Chateaubriand in October, for so she told me on Sunday. I met her at Miss Clarke's some time ago, and as I am a bad pusher I am happy to say she asked to be introduced to me, and was, thanks to you, my kind friend ! She pressed me to go and see her, which I have done two or three times, and am going to do again at her amiable request on Thursday. I think that her fault is tliat she flatters a little too much. And flattery to one whose ears have so long been excoriated by abuse does not sound safe. However, all is right when she speaks of you. And the point she most eulogized in you is that which I have heard many a servile coward who could never go and do likewise " [no indication is to be found either in this letter or elsewhere to whom she alludes] "select for the same purpose, namely, your straightforward, unflinching, courageous mtegrity. . . . Balzac is furious at having his new play suppressed by Thiers, in which Arnauld acted Louis Philippe, wig and all, to the life ; but, as I said to M. Dupin, * C''est tout natiirel que M. Thiers ne permetterait dpersoiine de jouer Louis Philippe que lui-inerae.'' . . . There is a wonderful pointer here that has been advertised for sale for twelve hundred francs. A friend of mine went to see him, and, after mounting up to a little garret about the size of a chessboard,*«z« vingt-septihne, he interrogated the owner as to the dog's education and acquirements, to which the man replied, ' Pour pa, mo7isieur, c'est un chien parfait. Je lui at tout appris onoi-meme dans ma cham- &re.'* After this my friend did not sing 'Together let us range the fields !' . . . Last week I met Colonel Potter * " As for that, sir, the dog is perfect. I liave myself taught him every- thing in my oion room P 336 WHAT I REMEMBER. M'Queen, who was warm in his praises of you, and the great good your 'Michael Armstrong'" (the factory story) " had done. . . . Last Thursday despatches arrived, and Lord Granville had to start for London at a moment's notice. 1 was in hopes this beastly ministry were out ! But no such luck ! For they are a compound of glue, sticking-plaster, wax, and vice — the most adhesive of all known mixtures." Before concluding my recollections of Rosina, Lady Lytton Bui we r, 1 tliink it right to say that I consider my- self to have perfectly sufficient grounds for feeling certain that the whispers which were circulated in a cowardly and maliojnant fashion as^ainst the correctness of her con- duct as a woman were wholly unfounded. Her failings and tendency to failings lay in a quite different direction. I knew perfectly well the person whose name was men- tioned scandalously in connection with hers, and knew the whole history of the relationship that existed between them. The gentleman in question was for years Lady Bulwer's constant and steadfast friend. It is quite true that he would fain have been something more, but true also that his friendship survived the absolute rejection of all warmer sentiments by the object of it. It was almost a matter of course that such a woman as Lady Bulwer, living unprotected in the midst of such a society as that of Florence in those days, should be so slandered. And were it not that there were very few if any persons at the time, and I think certainly not one still left, able to speak upon the subject with such connaissance de cause as I can, I should not have alluded to it. She was an admirably charming companion before the footlights of the world's stage — not so uniformly charm- ing behind its scenes, for her unreasonableness always and her occasional violence were very difficult to deal with. But she was, as Dickens' poor Jo says in " Bleak House," " werry good to me !" CHAPTER XXV. IN FLORENCE. After some little time and trouble we found an apart- ment in the Palazzo Berti, in the ominously named Via dei Malcontenti. It was so called because it was at one time the road to the Florentine Tyburn. Our house was the one next to the east end of the church of Santa Croce. Our rooms looked on to a large garden, and were pleasant enough. We witnessed from our windows the building of the new steeple of Santa Croce, which was completed before we left the house. It was built in great measure by an Englishman, a Mr, Sloane, a fervent Catholic, who was at that time one of the best-known figures in the English colony at Florence. He was a large contributor to the recently completed fagade of the Duomo in Florence, and to many other be- nevolent and pietistic good works. He had been tutor in the Russian Boutourlin family, and when acting in that capacity had been taken, by reason of his geological ac- quirements, to see some copper mines in the Volterra district, which the grand duke had conceded to a company under whose administration they w^ere going utterly to the bad. Sloane came, saw, and eventually conquered. In conjunction with Horace Hall, the then well-known and popular partner in the bank of Signor Emanuele Fenzi (one of whose sons married an English wife, and is still my very good and forty-years-old friend), he obtained a new concession of the mines from the grand duke on very favorable terms, and by the time I made his acquaint- ance had become a w^ealthy man. I fancy the Halls, Hor- ace and his much-esteemed brother Alfred (who survived him many years, and was tlie father of a family, one of the most respected and popular of the English colony dur- ing the whole of my Florence life), subsequently consid- 15 338 WHAT I REMEMBER. ered themselves to have been shouldered out of the enter- prise by a certam unhandsome treatment on the part of the fortunate tutor. What may have been the exact his- tory of the matter I do not know. But I do know that Sloane always remained on very intimate terms with the grand duke, and was a power in the inmost circles of the ecclesiastic world. He used to give great dinners on Friday, the principal object of which seemed to be to show how magnificent a feast could be given without infringing by a hair's-breadth the rule of the Church. And admirably he succeeded in showing how entirely the spirit and intention of the Church in prescribing a fast could be made of none ef- fect by a skilfully managed observance of the letter of its law. The only opportunity I ever had of conversing with Cardinal Wiseman was in Casa Sloane. And w^hat I chiefly remember of his eminence was his evident annoy- ance at the ultra-demonstrative zeal of the female portion of the mixed Catholic and Protestant assembly, who icoiild kneel and kiss his hand. A schoolmaster meeting boys in society, who, instantly on his appearance should begin un- buttoning their brace buttons behind, would hardly appre- ciate the recognition more gratefully. Within a very few weeks of our establishment in Casa Berti my mother's home became, as usual, a centre of at- traction and pleasant intercourse, and her weekly Friday receptions were always crowded. If I were to tell every- thing of what I remember in connection with those days, I should produce such a book as non dt, non homines^ non concessere volum7im — a book such as neither publishers, nor readers, nor the columns of the critical journals would tolerate, and should fill my pages with names, wdiich, how- ever interesting thej^ may still be for me, would hardly have any interest for the public, however gentle or pensive. One specialty, and that not a pleasant one, of a life so protracted as mine has been in the midst of such a society as that of Florence in those days, is the enormous quan- tity of the names which turn the tablets of memory into palimpsests, not twice, but fifty times written over ! — un- IX FLORENCE. 339 pleasant, not from tbc thronging in of tlie motley company, but from the inevitable passing out of them from the field of vision. One's recollections come to resemble those of the spectator of a phantasmagoric show. Processions of heterogeneous figures, almost all of them connected in some way or other with more or less pleasant memories, troop across the magic circle of light, only, alack ! to van- ish into uttermost night when they pass beyond its limit. Of course all this is inevitable from the migratory nature of such a society as that which was gathered together on the banks of the Arno. Some fixtures — comparatively fixtures — of course there were, who gave to our moving quicksand-like society some degree of cohesion. Chief among these was, of course, the British minister — at the time of our arrival in Florence, and many years afterwards — Lord Holland. A happier instance of the right man in the right place could hardly be met with. At his great omnium-gatherum dinners and receptions — his hospitality was of the most catholic and generous sort — both he and Lady Holland (how pretty she then was there is her very clever portrait by Watts to testify) never failed to win golden opinions from all sorts and conditions of men and women. And in the smaller circle, which as- sembled in their rooms yet more frequently, they showed to yet greater advantage, for Lord Holland was one of the most amusing talkers I ever knew. Of course many of those who ought to have been grate- ful for their admission to the minister's large receptions were discontented at not being invited to the smaller ones. And it was by some of these malcontents with more wit than reason that Lady Holland was accused of receiving in two very distinct fashions — en menage and en tnma- gerie. The 7not was a successful one, and nobody was more amused by it than the spirituelle lady of whom it was said. It was too happy a mot not to have been stolen by divers pilferers of such articles, and adapted to other persons and other occasions. But it was originally spoken of the time, place, and person here stated to have been the object of it. 340 WHAT I REMEMBER. Generally, in such societies in foreign capitals, a fruit- ful source of Jealousy and discord is found in the neces- sary selection of those to be presented at the court of the reigning sovereign. But this, as far as I remember, was avoided in those halcyon days by the simple expedient of presenting all vi^ho desired it. And that Lord Holland icas the right man in the right place as regards this matter the following anecdote will show. When Mr. Hamilton became British minister at Flor- ence, it was announced that his intention was, for the avoiding of all trouble and jealousy on the subject, to ad- here strictly to the proper and recognized rule. He would present everybody and anybody who had been presented at home, and nobody who had not been so presented. And he commenced his administration on these lines, and the grand duke's receptions at the Pitti became notably weeded. But this had not gone on for more than two or three weeks before it was whispered in the minister's ear that the grand duke would be pleased if he were less strict in the matter of his presentations. " Oh !" said Hamilton, " that's what he wants ! A la bo?ine heure ! He shall have them all, rag, tag, and bobtail." And so we returned to the Satmmia regna of " the good old times," and the duke was credibly reported to have said that he " kept the worst drawing-room in Europe." But, of course, his highness was thinking of the pockets of his liege Florentine letters of apartments and tradesmen, and was anxious only to make his city a favorite place of resort for the gold-bring- ing foreigners from that distant and barbarous western isle. The pope, you see, had the pull in the matter of gorgeous Church ceremonies, but he couldn't have the fertilizing barbarians dancing in the Vatican once a week ! One more anecdote I must find room for, because it is curiously illustrative in several ways of those tempi passati, die non tornano piil. Florence was full of refugees from the political rigors of the papal government, who had for some time past found there an unmolested refuge. But the aspect of the times was becoming more and more alarming to Austria, and the TJuchmi, as we called the sovereigns of Modena and Parma ; and pressure was put IN FLORENCE. 34 1 on the duke by the pontifical government insisting on the demand that these refugees should be given up by Tus- cany. Easy-going Tuscany, not yet in any wise alarmed for herself, fought oif the demand for a while, but was at last driven to notify her intention of acceding to it. It was in these circumstances that Massino d' Azeglio came to me one morning, in the garden of our house in the Via del Giglio — the same in which the poet Milton lodged w^hen he was in Florence — to which we had by that time moved, and told me that he wanted me to do something for him. Of course I professed all readiness, and he went on to tell me of the critical and dangerous position in wdiich the refugees of whom I have spoken were placed, and said that I must go to Lord Holland and ask him to give them British passports. He urged that nothing could be easier, that no objection could possibly be taken to it ; that the Tuscan government was by no means desirous of giving up these men, and would only be too glad to get out of it ; that England both at Malta and in the Ionian Islands had plenty of Italian subjects — and, in short, I undertook the mission, I confess w4th very small hopes of success. Lord Holland laughed aloud when I told my tale, and said he thought it was about the most audacious request that had ever been made to a British minister. But he ended by granting it. Doubtless he knew very well the truth of what d' Azeglio had stated — that the Tuscan government w^ould be much too well pleased to ask any questions ; and the passports w^ere given. It w^as not long after our establishment in the Yia dei Malcontenti that a great disaster came upon Florence and its inhabitants and guests. Arno was not in the habit of following the evil example of the Tiber by treating Flor- ence as the latter so frequently did Rome. But in the winter of the year 1844 a terrible and unprecedented flood came. The rain fell in such torrents all one night that it was feared that the Arno, already much swollen, would not be able to carry off the waters with sufiicient rapidity. I went out early in the morning before breakfast, in com- pany with a younger brother of the Dr. Nicholson of Pen- rith whom I have mentioned, who happened to be visiting 342 WHAT I REMEMBER. lis. We climbed to the top of Giotto's tower, and saw at once the terrible extent and very serious character of the misfortune. One third, at least, of Florence was under water, and the flood was rapidly rising. Coming down from our lofty observatory, we made our way to the " Lung' Arno," as the river quays are called. And there the sight was truly a terrible and a magnificent one. The river, extending in one turbid, yellow, swirling mass from the walls of the houses on the quay on one side to those of the houses opposite, was bringing down with it frag- ments of timber, carcasses of animals, large quantities of hay and straw — and amid the wreck we saw a cradle with a child in it, safely navigating the tumbling waters ! It was drawn to the window of a house by throwing a line over it, and the infant navigator was none the worse. But very great fears were entertained for the very an- cient Ponte Vecchio, with its load of silversmiths' and jewellers' shops, turning it from a bridge into a street — the only remaining example in Europe, I believe, of a fashion of construction once common. The water con- tinued to rise as we stood watching it. Less than a foot of space yet remained between the surface of the flood and the keystone of the highest arch ; and it was thought that if the water rose sufiiciently to beat against the solid superstructure of the bridge, it must have been swept away. But at last came the cry from those who were watching it close at hand, that for the last five minutes the surface had been stationary ; and in another half -hour it was followed by the announcement that the flood had begun to decrease. Then there was an immense sensa- tion of relief ; for the Florentines love their old bridge ; and the crowd began to disperse. All this time I had not had a mouthful of breakfast, and we betook ourselves to Doney's hottega to get a cup of coffee before going home. But when we attempted this we found that it was more easily said than done. The Via dei Malcontenti as well as the whole of the Piazza di Santa Croce was some five feet under water. We suc- ceeded, however, in getting aboard a large boat, which was already engaged in carrying bread to the people in IN FLORENCE. 343 the most deeply flooded parts of the town. But all difli- culty was not over. Of course the street door of the Pa- lazzo Berti was shut, and no earthly power could open it. Our apartment was on the second floor. Our landlord's family occupied the prima. Of course I could get in at their windows and then go up-stairs. And we had a lad- der in the boat ; but the mounting to the first floor by this ladder, placed on the little deck of the boat, as she was rocked by the torrent, was no easy matter, especially for me, who went first. Eventually, however, Nicholson and I both entered the window, hospitably opened to re- ceive us, in safety. But it was one or two days before the flood subsided sufiiciently for us to be provisioned in any other manner than by the boat ; and for long years afterwards social events were dated in Florence as having happened "be- fore or after the flood." In those days, and for many days subsequently to them, Florence did indeed — as I have observed when speaking of the motives which induced us to settle there — join to its other attractions that of being an economical place of residence. Our money consisted of piastres, pauls, and crazie. Eight of the latter were equal to a paul, ten of which were equivalent to a piastre. The value of the paul was, as nearly as possible, equal to fivepence-half penny English. The lira — the original rep- resentative of the leading denomination of our own I. s. d. — no longer existed in — the flesh I was going to say, but rather in — the metal. And it is rather curious that, just as the guinea remained, and indeed remains, a constantly used term of speech after it has ceased to exist as current coin, so the scudo remained, in Tuscany, no longer visi- ble or current, but retained as an integer in accounts of the larger sort. If you bought or sold house or land, for instance, you talked of scudi. In more every-day matters piastre or "francesconi" were the integers used, the latter being only a synonym for the former. And the propor- tion in value of the scudo and the piastre was exactly the same as that of the guinea and the sovereign, the former being worth ten and a half pauls, and the latter ten. The handsomest and best preserved coin ordinarily current 344 WHAT I REMEMBER. was the florin, worth two panls and a half. Gold we rarely saw, but golden sequins {zecchmi) were in exist- ence, and were traditionally used, as it was said, for I have no experience in the matter, in the payment by the gov- ernment of prizes worn in the lottery. Now, after this statement the reader will be in a posi- tion to appreciate the further information that a flask of excellent Chianti, of a quality rarely met with nowadays, was ordinarily sold for one paul. The flask contained (legal measure) seven troy pounds weight of liquid, or about three bottles. The same sum purchased a good fowl in the market. The subscription {abhuonamento) to the Pergola, the principal theatre, came to exactly two crazie and a half for each night of performance. This price admitted you only to the pit, but as yon were perfectly free to enter any box in which there were persons of your ac- quaintance, the admission in the case of a bachelor, perma- nently or temporarily such, was all that was necessary to him. And the price of the boxes was small in proportion. These boxes were indeed the drawing-rooms in which very much of the social intercourse of the beau uionde was carried on. The performances were not very fre- quently changed (two operas frequently running through an entire season), and people went four or five times a week to hear, or rather to be present at, the same rejDre- sentation. And except on first nights or some other such occasion, or during the singing of the well-known tid-bits of any opera, there was an amount of chattering in the house which would have made the hair of a fcmatico per la musica stand on end. There was also an exceedingly comfortable but very parsimoniously lighted large room, which was a grand flirting-place, where people sat very patiently during the somewhat long operation of having their names called aloud, as their carriages arrived, by an ofiicial, who knew the names and addresses of us all. We also knew his mode of adapting the names of foreign- ers to his Italian organs. "Hasa" (Florentine for casa) " Trolo-pe," with a long-drawn-out accent on the last vowel, was the absolutely fatal signal for the sudden breaking-up of many a pleasant chat. IN FLORENCE. 345 Florence was also, in those days, an especially economi- cal place for those to whom it was pleasant to enjoy, dur- ing the whole of the gay season, as many balls, concerts, and other entertainments as they could possibly desire, without the necessity, or indeed the possibility, of putting themselves to the expense of giving anything in return. There w^as a weekly bail at the Pitti Palace, and another at the Casino dei Nobili, which latter was supported en- tirely by the Florentine aristocracy. There were two or three balls at the houses of the foreign ministers, and gen- erally one or two given by two or three wealthy Floren- tine nobles — there were a few, but very few such. Perhaps the pleasantest of all these were the balls at the Pitti. They were so entirely sans gene. No court dress was required save on the first day of the year, when it was de rigueur. But absence on that occasion in no way excluded the absentee from the other balls. Indeed, save to a new-comer, no invitations to foreigners were issued, it being understood that all who had been there once were welcome ever after. The Pitti balls were not by any means concluded, but rather divided into two, by a very handsome and abundant supper, at which, to tell tales out of school (but then the offenders have no doubt mostly gone over to the majority), the guests used to be- have abominably. The English would seize the plates of honhons and empty the contents bodily into their coat pockets. The ladies would do the same with their pocket- handkerchiefs. But the duke's liege subjects carried on their depredations on a far bolder scale. I have seen large portions of fish, sauce and all, packed up in a newspaper, and deposited in a pocket. I have seen fowls and ham share the same fate without any newspaper at all. I have I seen jelly carefully wrapped in an Italian countess's laced tnouchoir ! I think the servants must have had orders not to allow entire bottles of wine to be carried away, for I never saw that attempted, and can imagine no other rea- son why. I remember that those who affected to be knowing old hands used to recommend one to specially pay attention to the Grand Ducal Rhine wdne, and re- member, too, conceiving a suspicion that certain of these 15* 346 WHAT I REMEMBER. connoisseurs based their judgment in this matter wholly on their knowledge that the duke possessed estates in Bohemia ! The English were exceedingly numerous in Florence at that time, and they were reinforced by a continually in- creasing American contingent, though our cousins had not yet begun to come in numbers rivalling our own, as has been the case recently. By-the-bye, it occurs to me that I never saw an American pillaging the supper-table ; though, I may add, that American ladies would accept any amount of honhons from English blockade-runners. And the mention of American ladies at the Pitti re- minds me of a really very funny story, which may be told without offence to any one now living. I have a notion that I have seen this story of mine told somewhere, with a change of names and circumstances that spoil it, after the fashion of the people "who steal other folks' stories and disfigure them, as gypsies do stolen children to es- cape detection." I had one evening at the Pitti, some years, however, after my first appearance there, a very pretty and naively charming American lady on my arm, whom I was endeav- oring to amuse by pointing out to her all the personages whom I thought might interest her, as we walked through the rooms. Dear old Dymock, the champion, was in Flor- ence that winter, and was at the Pitti that night. I dare say that there may be many now who do not know with- wit being told, that Dymock, the last champion, as I am almost afraid I must call him — though doubtless Scrivelsby must still be held by the ancient tenure — was a very small old man, a clergyman, and not at all the sort of individ- ual to answer to the popular idea of a champion. He was sitting in a nook all by himself, and not looking very he- roic or very happy as we passed, and, nudging my com- panion's arm, I whispered, "That is the champion." The interest I excited was greater than I had calculated on, for the lady made a dead stop, and facing round to gaze at the old gentleman, said, " Why, you don't tell me so ! I should never have thought that that could be the fellow who licked Heenan ! But he looJcs a pluclzy little chapT'' IN FLORENCE. 347 Perhaps the reader may have forgotten, or even never known, that the championship of the pugilistic world had then recently been won by Sayers — I think that was the name — in a fight with an antagonist of the name of Heenan. In fact it was I, and not my fair companion, who was a muff, for having imagined that a young American woman, nearly fresh from the other side of the Atlantic, was likely to know or ever have heard anything about the champion of England. There happened to be several Lincolnshire men that year in Florence, and there was a dinner at which I, as one of the " web-footed," by descent if not birth, was present, and I told them the story of my Pitti catastrophe. The lady's concluding words produced an effect which may be imagined more easily than described. The grand duke at these Pitti balls used to show him- self and take part in them as little as might be. The grand duchess used to walk through the rooms some- times. The grand duchess, a Neapolitan princess, was not beloved by the Tuscans ; and I am disposed to believe that she did not deserve their affection. But there was at that time another lady at the Pitti, the dowager grand duchess, the widow of the late grand duke. She had been a Saxon princess, and was very favorably contrasted with the reigning duchess in graciousness of manner, in appearance — for though a considerably older, she was still an elegant-looking woman — and, according to the popular estimate, in character. She also would occasionally walk through the rooms ; but her object, and indeed that of the duke, seemed to be to attract as little attention as possible. Only on the first night of the year, when we were all in grayi gala^ i. e., in court-suits or uniform, did any personal communication with the grand duke take place. His man- ner, when anybody was presented to him on these or oth- er occasions, was about as bad and unprincely as can well be conceived. His clothes never fitted him. He used to support himself on one foot, hanging his head towards that side, and occasionally changing the posture of both foot and head, always simultaneously. And he always 348 WHAT I REMEMBER. appeared to be struggling painfully with the conscious- ness that he had nothing to say. It was on one of these occasions that an American new arrival was presented to him by Mr. Maquay, the banker, who always did that office for Americans, the United States having then no repre- sentative at the grand ducal court. Maquay, thinking to help the duke, whispered in his ear that the gentleman was connected by descent with the great Washington ; upon which the duke, changing his foot, said, '^ Ah! le grand VashP'' His manner was that of a lethargic and not wide-awake man. When strangers would sometimes venture some word of compliment on the prosperity and contentment of the Tuscans his reply invariably was, '^ jSono tranquillV — they are quiet. But, in truth, much more might have beeii said ; for, assuredly, Tuscany was a Land of Goshen in the midst of the peninsula. There was neither want nor discontent (save among a very small knot of politicians, who might almost have been counted on the hand) nor crime. There was at Florence next to no police of any kind, but the streets were perfectly safe by night or by day. There was a story, much about that time, which made some noise in Europe, and was very disingenuously made use of, as such stories are, of a certain Florentine and his wife, named Madiai, who had been, it was asserted, perse- cuted for reading the Bible. It was not so. They were " persecuted " for, i. 6., restrained from, preaching to oth- ers that they ought to read it, which is, though doubtless a bad, yet a very different thing. I believe the grand duke {gran ciuGO — great ass — as his irreverent Tuscans nicknamed him) was a good and kindly man, and, under the circumstances and to the ex- tent of his abilities, not a bad ruler. The phrase which Giusti applied to him, and which the inimitable talent of the satirist has made more durable than any other memo- rial of the poor gran ciuco is likely to be, " asciuga tasche e maremme " — he dries up pockets and marshes — is as un- just as such mots of satirists are wont to be. The drain- ing of the great marshes of the Chiana, between Arezzo and Chiusi, was a well-considered and most beneficent IN FLORENCE. 349 work on a magnificent scale, which, so far from "drying pockets," added enormously to the wealth of the country, and is now^ adding yerj appreciably to the prosperity of Italy. Nor was Giusti's reproach in any way merited by the grand ducal government. The grand duke, person- ally, was a very wealthy man, as well as, in respect to his own habits, a most simple liver. The necessary expenses of the little state were small, and taxation was so light that a comparison between that of the Saturnian days in question and that under which the Tuscans of the present day not unreasonably groan might afford a text for some very far-reaching speculations. The Tuscans of the pres- ent day may preach any theological doctrines they please to any who will listen to them, or, indeed, to those who won't, but it would be curious to know how many individ- uals among them consider that, or any other recently ac- quired liberty, well bought at the price they pay for it. The grand duke was certainly not a great or wise man. He was one of those men of whom their friends habitually say that they are " no fools," or " not such fools as they look," which generally may be understood to mean that the individual spoken of cannot, with physiological accu- racy, be considered a cretin. Nevertheless, in his case the expression was doubtless accurately true. He was not such a fool as he looked, for his appearance w^as certainly not that of a wise, or even an intelligent man. One story is told of him w^hich I have reason to believe perfectly true, and which is so characteristic of the man and of the time that I must not deprive the reader of it. It was the custom that on St. John's Day the duke should visit and inspect the small body of troops w^ho w^ere lodged in the Fortezza di San Giovanni, or Fortezza da Basso, as it was popularly called, in contradistinction from another fort on the high ground above the Boboli Gardens, And it was expected that, on these occasions, the sovereign should address a few words to his soldiers. So the duke, resting his person first on one leg and then on the other, after his fashion, stood in front of the two or three score of men drawn up in line before him, and, after telling them that obedience to their officers and at" 350 WHAT I REMEMBER. tachment to duty were the especial virtues of a soldier, lie continued, " Above all, my men, I desire that you should remember the duties and observances of our holy religion, and — and — " (here, having said all he had to say, his high- ness was at a loss for a conclusion to his harangue. But, looking down on the ground as he strove to find a fitting peroration, he observed that the army's shoes were sadly in want of the blacking-brush, so he concluded, with more of animation and significance than he had before evinced) " and keep your shoes clean !" I may find room further on to say a few words of what I remember of the revolution which dethroned poor gran ciuco. But I may as well conclude here what I have to say of him by relating the manner of his final exit from the soil of Tuscany, of which the malicious among the few who knew the circumstances were wont to say — very unjustly — that nothing in his reign became him like the leaving of it. I saw him pass out from the Porta San Gallo on his way to Bologna among a crowd of his late subjects, who all lifted their hats, though not without some satirical cries of ^' Addio, saiP'' '''' Buon viaggioP'' But a few — a very few — friends accompanied his carriage to the papal frontier, an invisible line on the bleak Apen- nines, unmarked by any habitation. There he descended from his carriage to receive their last adieus, and there was much lowly bowing as they stood on the highway. The duke, not unmoved, bowed lowly in return, but, un- fortunately, backing as he did so, tripped himself up with characteristic awkwardness, and tumbled backwards on a heap of broken stones prepared for the road, with his heels in the air, and exhibiting to his unfaithful Tuscans and ungrateful duchy, as a last remembrance of him, a full view of a part of his person rarely put forward on such occasions. And so exeunt from the sight of men and from history a grand duke and a grand duchy. CHAPTER XXYI. CHARLES DICKENS, It was not long after the flood in Florence — it seems to me, as I write, that I might almost leave out the two last words ! — that I saw Dickens for the first time. One morn- ing in Casa Berti my mother was most agreeably surprised by a card brought in to her with " Mr. and Mrs. Charles Dickens " on it. We had been among his lieartiest admir- ers from the early days of " Pickwick." I don't think we had happened to see the "Sketches by Boz." But my uncle Milton used to come to Hadley full of " the last ' Pickwick,' " and swearing that each number out-Pick- wicked Pickwick. And it was with the greatest curiosity and interest that we saw the creator of all this enjoyment enter in the flesh. We were at first disappointed, and disposed to imagine there must be some mistake. No ! that is not the man who wrote " Pickwick " ! What we saw was a dandified, pretty-boy-looking sort of figure ; singularly young-look- ing, I thought, with a slight flavor of the whipper-snapper genus of humanity. Here is Carlyle's description of his appearance at about that period of his life, quoted from Fronde's " History of Carlyle's Life in London": "He is a fine little fellow — Boz — I think. Clear-blue, intelligent eyes, eyebrows that he arches amazingly, large, protrusive, rather loose mouth, a face of most extreme mobility, which he shuttles about — eyebrows, eyes, mouth, and all — in a very singular manner when speaking. Sur- mount this with a loose coil of common-colored hair, and set on it a small, compact figure, very small, and dressed d la D'Orsay rather than well — this is Pickwick. For the rest, a quiet, shrewd-looking little fellow, who seems to guess pretty well what he is and what others are." 352 WHAT I REMEMBER. One may perhaps venture to suppose that, had the sec- ond of these guesses been less accurate, the description might have been a less kindly one. But there are two errors to be noted in this sketch, graphic as it is. Firstly, Dickens' eyes were not blue, but of a very distinct and brilliant hazel — the color tradi- tionally assigned to Shakespeare's eyes. Secondly, Dick- ens, although truly of a slight, compact figure, was not a very small man. I do not think he was below the average middle height. I speak from my remembrance of him at a later day, when I had become intimate with him ; but, curiously enough, I find, on looking back into my mem- ory, that, if I had been asked to describe him as I first saw him, I, too, should have said that he was very small. Carlyle's words refer to Dickens' youth soon after he had published " Pickwick " ; and no doubt at this period he had a look of delicacy, almost of effeminacy, if one may accept Maclise's well-known portrait as a truthful record, which might give those who saw him the impression of his being smaller and more fragile in build than was the fact. In later life he lost this D'Orsay look completely, and was bronzed and reddened by wind and weather like a seaman. In fact, when I saw him subsequently in London, I think I should have passed him in the street without recognizing him. I never saw a man so changed. Any attempt to draw a complete pen-and-ink portrait of Dickens has been rendered forevermore superfluous, if it were not presumptuous, by the masterly and exhaustive life of him by John Forster. But one may be allowed to record one's own impressions, and any small incident or anecdote which memory holds, on the grounds set forth by the great writer himself, who says in the introduction to the " American Notes " (first printed in the biography) : "Very many works having just the same scope and range have been already published. But I think that these two volumes stand in need of no apology on that account. The interest of such productions, if they have an}^, lies in the varying impressions made by the same novel things on different minds, and not in new discoveries or extraor- dinary adventures," CHARLES DiCKEXS. 353 At Florence Dickens made a pilgrimage to Landor's villa, the owner being then absent in England, and gath- ered a leaf of ivy from Fiesole to carry back to the veter- an poet, as narrated by Mr. Forster. Dickens is as accu- rate as a topographer in his description of the villa as looked down on from Fiesole. How often — ah, how often ! — have I looked down from that same dwarf wall over the matchless view where Florence shows the wealth of villas that Ariosto declares made it equivalent to two Romes ! Dickens was only thirty-three when I first saw him, being just two years my junior. I have said what he ap- peared to me then. As I knew him afterwards, and to the end of his days, he was a strikingly manly man, not only in appearance, but in bearing. The lustrous brilliancy of his eyes was very striking. And I do not think that I have ever seen it noticed that those wonderful eyes which saw so much and so keenly were appreciably, though to a very slight degree, near-sighted eyes. Very few per- sons, even among those who knew him well, were aware of this, for Dickens never used a glass. But he continu- ally exercised his vision by looking at distant objects, and making them out as well as he could without any artificial assistance. It was an instance of that force of will in him which compelled a naturally somewhat delicate frame to comport itself like that of an athlete. Mr. Forster some- where says of him, " Dickens' habits were robust, but his health was not." This is entirely true as far as my obser- vation extends. Of the general charm of his manner I despair of giving any idea to those who have not seen or known him. This was a charm by no means dependent on his genius. lie might have been the great writer he was and yet not have warmed the social atmosphere wherever he appeared with that summer glow which seemed to attend him. His laugh was brimful of enjoyment. There was a peculiar humor- ous protest in it when recounting or hearing anything specially absurd, as who should say " 'Pon my soul this is too ridiculous ! This passes all bounds !" and bursting out afresh as though the sense of the ridiculous over- whelmed him like a tide, which carried all hearers away 354 WHAT I REMEMBER. with it, and which I well remember. His enthusiasm was boundless. It entered into everything he said or did. It belonged doubtless to that amazing fertility and wealth of ideas and feeling that distinguished his genius. No one having any knowledge of the profession of lit- erature can read Dickens' private letters and not stand amazed at the unbounded affluence of imagery, sentiment, humor, and keen observation which he poured out in them. There was no stint, no reservation for trade pur- poses. So with his conversation — every thought, every fancy, every feeling was expressed with the utmost vivac- ity and intensity, but a vivacity and intensity compatible with the most singular delicacy and nicety of touch when delicacy and nicety of touch were needed. What were called the exaggerations of his writing were due, I have no doubt, to the extraordinary luminosity of his imagination. He saw and rendered such an individu- ality as Mr. Pecksniff's or Mrs. Nickleby's, for instance, something after the same fashion as a solar microscope renders any object observed through it. The world in general beholds its Pecksniffs and its Mrs. Nicklebys through a different medium. And at any rate Dickens got at the quintessence of his creatures, and enables us all, in our various measures, to perceive it too. The proof of this is that we are constantly not only quoting the sayings and doings of his immortal characters, but are recognizing other sayings and doings as what they would have said or done. But it is impossible for one who knew him as I did to confine what he remembers of him either to traits of out- ward appearance or to appreciations of his genius. I must say a few, a very few words of what Dickens appeared to me as a man. I think that an epithet, which, much and senselessly as it has been misapplied and degraded, is yet, w^hen rightly used, perhaps the grandest that can be ap- plied to a human being, was especially applicable to him. He was a hearty man, a large-hearted man that is to say. He was perhaps the largest-hearted man I ever knew. I think he made a nearer approach to obeying the divine precept, " Love thy neighbor as thyself," than one man in CHARLES DICKENS. 355 a hundred thousand. His benevolence, his active, ener- gizing desire for good to all God's creatures, and restless anxiety to be in some way active for the achieving of it, were unceasing and busy in his heart ever and always. But he had a sufficient capacity for a virtue which, I think, seems to be moribund among us — the virtue of moral indignation. Men and their actions were not all much of a muchness to him. There was none of the in- differentism of that pseudo-philosophic moderation which, when a scoundrel or scoundrelly action is on the tajns, hints that there is much to be said on both sides. Dick- ens hated a mean action or a mean sentiment as one hates something that is physically loathsome to the sio-ht and touch. And he could be angry, as those with whom he had been angry did not very readily forget. And there was one other aspect of his moral nature, of which I am reminded by an observation which Mr. For- ster records as having been made by Mrs. Carlyle. " Light and motion flashed from every part of it [his face]. It was as if made of steel." The first part of the phrase is true and graphic enough, but the image offered by the last words appears to me a singularly infelicitous one. There was nothing of the hardness or of the (moral) sharp- ness of steel about the expression of Dickens' face and features. Kindling mirth and genial fun were the expres- sions which those who casually met him in society were habituated to find there, but those who knew him well knew also well that a tenderness, gentle and sympathetic as that of a woman, was a mood that his surely never " steely " face could express exquisitely, and did express frequently. I used to see him very frequently in his latter years. I generally came to London in the summer, and one of the first things on my list was a visit to 20 Wellington Street. Then would follow sundry other visits and meetings — to Tavistock House, to Gadshill, at Verey's in Regent Street, a place he much patronized, etc., etc. I remember one day meeting Chauncy Hare Town send at Tavistock House and thinking him a very singular and not particularly agreeable man. Edwin Landseer, I remember, dined there 356 WHAT I REMEMBER. the same day. But he had been a friend of my mother's, and was my acquaintance of long, long years before. Of course we had much and frequent talk about Italy, and I may say that our ideas and opinions, and especially feelings on that subject, were always, I think, in unison. Our agreement respecting English social and political matters was less perfect. But I think that it would have become more nearly so had his life been prolonged as mine has been. And the approximation would, if I am not much mistaken, have been brought about by a move- ment of mind on his part, which already I think those who knew him best will agree with me in thinking had com- menced. We differed on many points of politics. But there is one department of English social life — one with which I am probably more intimately acquainted than with any other, and which has always been to me one of much interest — our public-school system — respecting which our agreement was complete. And I cannot refrain from quoting. The opinion which he expresses is as true as if he had, like me, an eight years' experience of the system he is speaking of. And the passage which I am about to give is very remarkable as an instance of the singular acumen, insight, and power of sympathy which enabled him to form so accurately correct an opinion on a matter of which he might be supposed to know nothing. " In July," says Mr. Forster, writing of the year 1858-9, "he took earnest part in the opening efforts on behalf of the Royal Dramatic College, which he supplemented later by a speech for the establishment of schools for actors' chil- dren, in which he took occasion to declare his belief that there were no institutions in England so socially liberal as its public schools, and that there was nowhere in the country so complete an absence of servility to mere rank, position, and riches. ' A boy there ' " (Mr. Forster here quotes Dickens' own words) " ' is always what his abili- ties and personal qualities make him. We may differ about the curriculum and other matters, but of the frank, free, manly, independent spirit preserved in our public schools I apprehend there can be no kind of question.' " I have in my possession a great number of letters from CHARLES DICKENS. 357 Dickens, some of which might probably have been pub- lished in the valuable collection of his letters published by his sister-in-law and eldest daughter had they been get-at-able at the time when they might have been avail- able for that publication.* But I was at Rome, and the letters were safely stowed away in England in such sort that it would have needed a journey to London to get at them. I was for several years a frequent contributor to House- hold VTords^ my contributions for the most part consist- ing of what I considered tid-bits from the byways of Ital- ian history, which the persevering plough of my reading turned up from time to time. In one case I remember the article was sent " to order." I was dining with him after I had just had all the remain- ing hairs on my head made to stand on end by the pe- rusal of the officially published " Manual for Confessors," as approved by superior authority for the dioceses of Tus- cany. I was full of the subject, and made, I fancy, the hairs of some who sat at table with me stand on end also. Dickens said, with nailing forefinger levelled at me, " Give us that for Household Words. Give it us just as you have now been telling it to us " — which I accordingly did. Whether the publication of that article was in any wise connected with the fact that when I wished to purchase a second copy of that most extraordinary work I was told that it was out of print, and not to be had, I do not know. Of course it was kept as continually in print as the " Latin Grammar," for the constant use of the class for whom it was provided, and who most assuredly could not have found their way safely through the wonderful intricacies of the confessional without it. And equally, of course, the publishers of so largely circulated a work did not succeed in preventing me from obtaining a second copy of it. * Some of the letters in question — such as I had with nie — were sent to London for that purpose. I do not remember now wliich were and which were not. But if it should be the case that any of those printed here have been printed before, I do not think any reader will object to having them again brought under his eye. 358 WHAT I KEMEMBER. Many of the letters addressed to me by Dickens con- cerned more or less my contributions to his periodical, and many more are not of a nature to interest the public even though they came from him. But I may give a few extracts from three or four of them.* Here is a passage from a letter dated 3d of December, 1861, which my vanity will not let me suppress. " Yes ; the Christmas number was intended as a conveyance of all friendly greetings in season and out of season. As to its lesson, you need it almost as Uttle as any man I know ; for all your study and seclusion conduce to the general good, and disseminate truths that men cannot too earnestly take to heart. Yes, a capital story that of ' The Two Seaborn Babbies,' and wonderfully droll, I think, I may say so without blushing, for it is not by me. It was done by Wilkie Collins." Here is another short note, not a little gratifying to me personally, but not without interest of a larger kind to the reader : *' Tuesday, 15th November, 1859. " My dear Trollope, — I write this hasty word, just as tlie post leaves, to ask you this question, which this moment occurs to me. " Moutalembert, in his suppressed treatise, asks, 'What wrong has Pope Pius the Ninth done?' Don't you think you can very pointedly answer that question in these pages ? If you cannot, nobody in Europe can. "Very faithfully yours always, Charlks Dickens." Some, some few, may remember the interest excited by the treatise to which the above letter refers. No doubt I could, and doubtless did, though I forget all about it, an- swer the question propounded by the celebrated French writer. But there was little hope of my doing it as " point- edly" as my correspondent would have done it himself. The answer, which might well have consisted of a succinct statement of all the difficulties of the position with which Italy was then struggling, had to confine itself to the limits of an article in All The Year Round, and needed, in truth, to be pointed. I have observed that, in all our many conversations on Italian matters, Dickens' views and opin- ions coincided with my own, without, I think, any point of * I wish it to be observed that any letters, or parts of letters, from Dickens here printed are published with the permission and authorization of his sister-in-law, Miss Georgina Hogarth. CHARLES DICKENS. 359 divergence. Very sj^ecially was this the case as regards all that concerned the Vatican and the doings of the Curia. How well I remember his arched eyebrows and laughing eyes when I told him of Garibaldi's proposal that all priests should be summarily executed ! I think it modified his ideas of the possible utility of Garibaldi as a politician. Then comes an invitation to "my Falstaff house at Gadshill." Here is a letter of the 17th February, 1866, which I will give in extenso, bribed again by the very flattering words in which the writer sj^eaks of our friendship: " My dear Trollope, — I am heartily glad to hear from you. It was such a disagreeable surprise to find that you had left London [I had been! called away at an hour's notice] on the occasion of your last visit without my having seen you, that I have never since got it out of ray mind. I felt as if it were my fault (though I don't know how that can have been), and as if I had somehow been traitorous to the earnest and affectionate regard with which you have inspired me. "The lady's verses are accepted by the editorial potentate, and shall presently appear. [I am ashamed to say that I totally forget who the lady was.] " I am not quite well, and am being touched up (or down) by the doc- tors. Whether the irritation of mind I had to endure pending the discus- sions of a preposterous clerical body called a Convocation, and whether the weakened hopefulness of mankind which such a dash of the Middle Ages in the color and pattern of 1866 engenders, may have anything to do with it, I don't know. " What a happy man you must be in having a new house to work at. When it is quite complete, and the roc's egg hung up, I suppose you will get rid of it bodily and turn to at another. [Ahsit omen ! At this very moment, while I transcribe this letter, I am turning to at another.] , " Daily News correspondent [as I then for a short time was], Kovel, and Hospitality ! Enough to do, indeed ! Perhaps the day might be ad- vantageously made longer for such work — or say life. [Ah! if the small matters rehearsed had been all, I could more contentedly have put up with the allowance of four-and-twenty hours.] And yet I don't know. Like enough we should all do less if we had time to do more in. " Layard was with us for a couple of days a little while ago, and brought the last report of you, and of your daughter, who seems to have made a great impression on him. I wish he had had the keepership of the Na- tional Gallery, for I don't think his government will hold together through many weeks. " I wonder whether you thought as highly of Gibson's art as the lady did who wrote the verses. I must say that I did not, and that I thought it of 360 WHAT I REMEMBER. a mechanical sort, with no great amount of imagination in it. It seemed to me as if he ' didn't find me ' in that, as the servants say, but only pro- vided me with carved marble, and expected me to furnish myself with as much idea as I could afford. " Very faithfully yours, Charles Dickens," I do not remember the verses, though I feel confident that the lady who sent them through me must have been a very charming person. As to Gibson, no criticism could be sounder. I had a considerable liking for Gibson as a man, and admiration for his character, but as regards his ideal productions I think Dickens hits the right nail on the head. In another letter of the same year, 25th July, after a page of remarks on editorial matters, he writes : " If Italy could but achieve some brilliant success in arms ! That she does not, -causes, I think, some disappointment here, and makes her slug- gish friends more sluggish, and her open enemies more powerful. I fear, too, that the Italian ministry have lost an excellent opportunity of repair- ing the national credit in London city, and have borrowed money in France for the poor consideration of lower interest, which [sic, but I suspect which must be a slip of the pen for than'] they could have got in England, greatly to the re-establishment of a reputation for public good faith. As to Louis Napoleon, his position in the whole matter is to me like his position in Europe at all times, simply disheartening and astounding. Between Prussia and Austria there is, in n)y mind (but for Italy), not a pin to choose. If each could smash the otlier I should be, as to those two powers, perfectly satisfied. But I feel for Italy almost as if I were an Italian born. So here you have in brief my confession of faith. "Mr. Home [as he by that time called himself — when he was staying in my house his name was Hume], after trying to come out as an actor, first at Fechter's (where I had the honor of stopping him short), and then at the St. James's Theatre under Miss Herbert (where he was twice an- nounced, and each time very mysteriously disappeared from the bills), was announced at the little theatre in Dean Street, Soho, as a 'great attraction for one night only,' to play last Monday. An appropriately dirty little rag of a bill, fluttering in the window of an obscure dairy behind the Strand, gave me this intelligence last Saturday. It is like enough that even that striking business did not come off, for I believe the public to have found out the scoundrel ; in which lively and sustaining hope this leaves me at present. Ever faithfully yours, Charles Dickens." Here is a letter which, as may be easily imagined, I value much. It was written on the 2d of November, 1866, and reached me at Brest. It was written to congratu- CHARLES DICKENS. 361 late me on my second marriage, and among the great num- ber which I received on that occasion is one of the most warm-hearted : *' My dear Trollope, — I should have written immediately to congratu- late you on your then approaching marriage, and to assure you of my most cordial and affectionate interest in all that nearly concerns you, had I known how best to address you. " No friend that you have can be more truly attached to you than I am. I congratulate you with all my heart, and beUeve that your marriage will stand high upon the list of happy ones. As to your wife's winning- a high reputation out of your house — if you care for that ; it is not much as an addition to the delights of love and peace and a suitable companion for life — I have not the least doubt of her power to make herself famous. "I little thought what an important master of the ceremonies I was when I first gave your present wife an introduction to your mother. Bear me in your mind then as the unconscious instrument of your having given your best affection to a worthy object, and I shall be the best-paid master of the ceremonies since Nash drove his coach and six through the streets of Bath. Faithfully yours, Charles Dickkns." Among a heap of others I find a note of invitation writ- ten on the 9th of July, 1867, in which he says: "My * readings ' secretary, whom I am despatching to America at the end of this week, will dine with me at Yerey's in Regent Street at six exact to be wished God-speed. There will only be besides. Wills, Wilkie Collins, and Mr. Arthur Chappell. Will you come ? No dress. Evening left quite free." I went, and the God-speed party was a very pleasant one. But I liked best to have him, as I frequently had, all to myself. I suppose I am not, as Johnson said, a " clubba- ble" man. At all events I highly appreciate what the Irishman called a tatur-tatur dinner, whether the gender in the case be masculine or feminine ; and I incline to give my adherence to the philosophy of the axiom that declares "two to be company, and three none." But then I am very deaf, and that has doubtless much to do with it. On the 10th of September, 1868, Dickens writes : "The madness and general political bestiality of the general election will come off in the appropriate Guy Fawkes days. It was proposed to me, un- der very flattering circumstances indeed, to come in as the third member for Birmingham ; I replied in what is now my stereotyped phrase, ' that no 16 362 WHAT I REMEMBER. consideration on earth would induce me to become a candidate for the rep- resentation of any place in the House of Commons.' Indeed, it is a dismal sight, is that arena altogether. Its irrationality and dishonesty are quite shocking. [What would he have said now !] How disheartening it is, that in affairs spiritual or temporal mankind will not begin at the begin- ning, but will begin with assumptions. Could one believe without actual experience of the fact, that it would be assumed by hundreds of thousands of pestilent boobies, pandered to by politicians, that the Established Church ill Ireland has stood between the kingdom and popery, when as a crying grievance it has been popery's trump-card. " I have now growled out my growl, and feel better. " With kind regards, my dear Trollope, " Faithfully yours, Charles Dickens." In the December of that year came another growl, as follows : "Kennedy's Hotel, Edinburgh. *' My dear Trollope, — I am reading here, and had your letter forward- ed to me this morning. The MS. accompanying it was stopped at Alt Tlie Year Bound office (in compliance with general instructions referring to any MS. from you) and was sent straight to the printer. " Oh dear, no ! Nobody supposes for a moment that the English Church will follow the Irish Establishment. In the whole great universe of sham- mery and flummery there is no such idea floating. Everybody knows that the Church of England as an endowed establishment is doomed, and would be, even if its hand wei'e not perpetually hacking at its own throat; but as was observed of an old lady in gloves in one of my Christmas books, 'Let us be polite or die!' "Anthony's ambition [in becoming a candidate for Beverley] is in- scrutable to me. Still, it is the ambition of many men ; and the honester the man who entertains it, the better for the rest of us, I suppose. "Ever, my dear Trollope, "Most cordially yours, Charles Dickens." Here is another " growl," provoked by a species of char- latan, which he, to whom all charlatans were odious, es- pecially abominated — the pietistic charlatan : " Oh, we have such a specimen here ! a man who discourses extempo- raneously, positively without the power of constructing one grammatical sentence ; but who is (ungrammatically) deep in Heaven's confidence on the abstrusest points, and discloses some of his private information with an idiotic complacency insupportable to behold. "We are going to have a bad winter in England too probably. What with Ireland, and what with the last new government device of getting in the taxes before they are due, and what with vagrants, and what with fever, the prospect is gloomy." CHARLES DICKENS. 363 The last letter I ever received from bim is dated the 10th of November, 1869. It is a long letter, but I will give only one passage from it, which has, alas ! a pecul- iarly sad and touching significance when read with the remembrance of the catastrophe then hurrying on, which was to put an end to all projects and purposes. I had been suggesting a walking excursion across the Alps. He writes : " Walk across tlie Alps ? Lord bless you, I am * going ' to take up my alpenstock and cross all the passes. And, I am 'going' to Italy. I am also ' going ' up the Nile to the second cataract ; and I am ' going ' to Je- rusalem, and to India, and likewise to Australia. My only dimness of per- ception in this wise is, that I don't know v)hen. If I did but know when, I should be so wonderfully clear about it all ! At present I can't see even so much as the Simplon in consequence of certain farewell readings and a certain new book (just begun) interposing their dwarfish shadow. But whenever (if ever) I change ' going ' into ' coming,' I shall come to see you. "With kind regards, ever, my dear Trollope, " Your affectionate friend, Charles Dickens." And those were the last words I ever had from him ! I CHAPTER XXVII. AT LUCCA BATHS. In those days — temporihus illis, as the historians of long-forgotten centuries say — there used to be a very general exodus of the English colony at Florence to the baths of Lucca during the summer months. Almost all Italians, who can in any wise afford to do so, leave the great cities nowadays for the seaside, even as those do who have preceded them in the path of modern luxurious living. But at the time of which I am writing the Flor- entines who did so were few, and almost confined to that inner circle of the fashionable world which partly lived with foreigners, and had adopted in many respects their modes and habits. Those Italians, however, who did leave their Florence homes in the summer, went almost all of them to Leghorn. The baths of Lucca were an especially and almost exclusively English resort. It was possible to induce the vetturini who supplied carriages and horses for the purpose to do the journey to the baths in one day, but it was a very long day, and it was necessary to get fresh horses at Lucca. There was no good sleeping-place between Florence and Lucca — nor indeed is there such now — and the journey from the capi- tal of Tuscany to that of the little Duchy of Lucca, now done by rail in less than two hours, was quite enough for a vetturmo's pair of horses. And when Lucca was reached there were still fourteen miles, nearly all collar work, be- tween that and the baths, so that the plan more generally preferred was to sleep at Lucca. The baths (well known to the ancient Romans, of course, as what warm springs throughout Europe were not ?) con- sisted of three settlements, or groups of houses — as they do still, for I revisited the well-remembered place two or three years ago. There was the " Ponte," a considerable AT LUCCA BATHS. 365 village gathered round the lower bridge over the Lima, at which travellers from Florence first arrived. Here were the assembly-rooms, the reading-room, the principal baths, and the gaming-tables — for in those pleasant wicked days the remote little Lucca baths were little better than Baden subsequently and Monte Carlo now. Only we never, to the best of my memory, suicided ourselves, though it might happen occasionally that some innkeeper lost the money which ought to have gone to him, because "the bank" had got hold of it first. Then, secondly, there was the "Villa," about a mile higher up the lovely little valley of the Lima, so called because the duke's villa was situated there. The Villa had more the pretension — a very little more — of looking something like a little bit of town. At least it had its one street paved. The ducal villa was among the woods im- mediately above it. The third little group of buildings and lodging-houses was called the "Bagni Caldi." The hotter, and, I fancy, the original springs were there, and it was altogether more retired and countrified, nestling closely among the chest- nut woods. The whole surrounding country, indeed, is one great chestnut forest, and the various little villages, most of them picturesque in the highest degree, which crown the summits of the surrounding hills, are all of them closely hedged in by the chestnut woods, which clothe the slopes to the top. These villages burrow in what they live on like mice in a cheese, for many of the in- habitants never taste any other than chestnut-flour bread from year's end to year's end. The inhabitants of these hills, and indeed those of the duchy generally, have throughout Italy the reputation of being morally about the best population in the peninsula. Servants from the Lucchese, and especially from the dis- trict I am here speaking of, were, and are still, I believe, much prized. Lucca, as many readers will remember, en- joys among all the descriptive epithets popularly given to the different cities of Italy, that of Lucca la industriosa. To us migratory English those singularly picturesque villages which capped all the hills, and were reached by 366 WHAT I REMEMBER. curiously ancient paved mule-paths zig-zagging up among the chestnut woods, seemed to have been created solely for artistic and picnic purposes. The Saturnian nature of the life lived in them may be conceived from the informa- tion once given me by the inhabitants of one of these mountain settlements in reply to some inquiry about the time of day, that it was always noon there when the priest was ready for his dinner. Such were the summer quarters of the English Floren- tine colony, temporibus illis. There used to be, I remem- ber, a somewhat amusingly distinctive character attrib- uted, of course in a general way subject to exceptions, to the different groups of the English rusticating world, ac- cording to the selection of their quarters in either of the above three little settlements. The "gay" world pre- ferred the "Ponte," where the gaming-tables and ball- rooms were. The more strictly "proper" people went to live at the " Villa," where the English Church service was performed. The invalid portion of the society, or those who wished quiet, and especially economy, sought the " Bagni Caldi." In a general way we all desired economy, and found it. The price at the many hotels was nine pauls a day for board and lodging, including Tuscan wine, and was as much a fixed and invariable matter as a penny for a penny bun. Those who wanted other wine generally brought it with them, by virtue of a ducal ordinance which specially exempted from duty all wine brought by English visitors to the Baths. I dare say, if I were to pass a summer there now, I should find the atmosphere damp, or the wine sour, or the bread heavy, or the society heavier, or indulge in some such unreasonable and unseasonable grumbles as the near neighborhood of fourscore years is apt to inspire one with ; but I used to find it amazingly pleasant once upon a time. It is a singular fact, which the remembrance of those days suggests to me, and which I recommend to the attention of Mr. Gallon and his co-investigators, that the girls were prettier then than they are in these days, or that there were more of them ! The stupid people, who are AT LUCCA BATHS. 357 always discovering subjective reasons for objective obser- vations, are as impertinent as stupid ! The Duke of Lucca used to do his utmost to make the baths attractive and agreeable. There is no Duke of Lucca now, as all the world knows. The Congress of Vienna put an end to him by ordaining that, when the ducal throne of Parma should become vacant, the reigning Duke of Lucca should succeed to it, while his duchy of Lucca should be united to Florence. This change took place while I was still a Florentine. The Duke of Lucca would none of the new dukedom proposed to him. He abdicated, and his son became Duke of Parma. This son was, in truth, a great ne'er-do-well, and very shortly got murdered in the streets of his new capital by an offended husband. The change was most unwelcome to Lucca, and especially to the baths, which had thriven and prospered under the fostering care of the old duke. He used to pass every summer there, and give constant very pleasant, but very little royal, balls at his villa. The Tuscan satirist Giusti, in the celebrated little poem in which he characterizes the different reigning sovereigns in the peninsula, calls him the Protestant Don Giovanni, and says that in the roll of tyrants he is neither fish nor flesh. Of the first two epithets I take it he deserved the second more than the first. His Protestantizing tendencies might, I think, have been more accurately described as non-Cathol- icizing. But people are very apt to judge in this matter after the fashion of the would-be dramatist, who, on being assured that he had no genius for tragedy, concluded that he must therefore have one for comedy. The duke's Prot- estantism, I suspect, limited itself to, and showed itself in, his dislike and resistance to being bothered by the rulers of neighboring states into bothering anybody else about their religious opinions. As for his place in the " roll of tyrants," he was always accused of (or praised .for) liberal- izing ideas and tendencies, which would in those days have very soon put an end to him and his tiny duchy, if he had attempted to govern it in accordance with them. As mat- ters were, his " policy," I take it, was pretty well confined to the endeavor to make his sovereignty as little trouble- 368 WHAT I REMEMBER. some to himself or anybody else as possible. His subjects were very lightly taxed, for his private property rendered him perfectly independent of them as regarded his own personal expenditure. The "gayer" part of our little world at the baths used, as I have said, more especially to congregate at the " Ponte," and the more "proper" portion at the "Villa," for, as I have also said, the English Church service was performed there, in a hired room, as I remember, when I first went there. But a church was already in process of being built, mainly by the exertions of a lady, who assuredly cannot be forgotten by any one who ever knew the baths in those days, or for many years afterwards — Mrs. Stisted. Unlike the rest of the world, she lived neither at the " Ponte," nor at the " Villa," nor at the " Bagni Caldi," but at " The Cot- tage," a little habitation on the bank of the stream about half-way between the " Ponte " and the " Villa." Also un- like all the rest of the world, she lived there permanently, for the place was her own, or rather tlie property of her husband. Colonel Stisted. He was a long, lean, gray, faded, exceedingly mild, and perfectly gentlemanlike old man ; but she was one of the queerest people my roving life has ever made me acquainted with. She was the Queen of the Baths. On one occasion at the ducal villa, his highness, who spoke English perfectly, said, as she entered the room, " Here comes the Queen of the Baths !" " He calls me his queen," said she, turning to the surrounding circle with a magnificent wave of the hand and delightedly complacent smile. It was not ex- actly that that the duke had said, but he was immensely amused, as were we all, for some days afterwards. She was a stout old lady, with large, rubicund face and big blue eyes, surrounded by very abundant gray curls. She used to play, or j^rofess to play, the harp, and adopt- ed, as she explained, a costume for the purpose. This consisted of a loose, flowing garment, much like a muslin surplice, which fell back and allowed the arm to be seen when raised for performance on her favorite instrument. The arm probably was, or had once been, a handsome one. The large gray head and the large blue eyes and AT LUCCA BATHS. 360 the drooping curls were also raised simultaneously, and the player looked singularly like the picture of King Da- vid similarly employed, which I have seen as a frontis- piece in an old-fashioned prayer-book. But the specialty of the performance was that, as all present always said, no sound whatever was heard to issue from the instrument ! " Attitude is everything," as we have heard in connection with other matters ; but with dear old Mrs. Stisted at her harp it was absolutely and literally so to the exclusion of all else. She and the good old colonel — he teas a truly good and benevolent man^ and, indeed, I believe she was a good and charitable woman, despite her manifold absurdities and eccentricities — used to drive out in the evening among her subjects — her subjects, for neither I nor anybody else ever heard him called King of the Baths ! — in an old-fash- ioned, very shabbj^ and very high -hung phaeton, some- times with her niece Charlotte — an excellent creature and universal favorite — by her side, and the colonel on the seat behind, ready to offer the hospitality of the place by his side to any mortal so favored by the queen as to have re- ceived such an invitation. The poor dear old colonel used to play the violoncello, and did at least draw some more or less exquisite sounds from it. But one winter they paid a visit to Rome, and the old man died there. She w^ished, in accordance doubt- less with his desire, to bring back his body to be buried in the place they had inhabited for so many years, and with which their names were so indissolubly entwined in the memory of all who knew them — which means all the generations of nomad frequenters of the baths for many, many years. The Protestant burial-ground also was rec- ognized as quasi hers, for it is attached to the church which she was mainly instrumental in building. The colo- nel's body, therefore, was to be brought back from Rome to be buried at Lucca Baths. But such an enterprise was not the simplest or easiest thing in the world. There w^ere official difficulties in the way, ecclesiastical difficulties, and custom-house difficul- ties of all sorts. Where there is a will, however, there is 16* 370 WHAT I REMEMBER. a way. But the way which the determined will of the Queen of the Baths discovered for itself upon this occa- sion was one which would probably have occurred to few people in the world save herself. She hired a vetturino, and told him that he was to convey a servant of hers to the baths of Lucca, who would be in charge of goods which would occuj^y the entire interior of the carriage. She then obtained, what was often accorded without much difficulty in those days, from both the pontifical and the Tuscan governments, a lascia passare for the contents of the carriage as ho7id fide roha usata — " used up, or second- hand goods." And under this denomination the poor old colonel, packed in the carriage together with his beloved violoncello, passed the gates of Rome and the Tuscan frontier, and arrived safely at the place of his latest des- tination. The servant who was employed to conduct this singular operation did not above half like the job intrust- ed to him, and used to tell afterwards how he was fright- ened out of his wits, and the driver exceedingly aston- ished, by a sudden pom-m-m from the interior of the carriage, caused by the breaking, in consequence of some atmospheric change, of one of the strings of the violon- cello. Malicious people used to say that the Queen of the Baths was innocent of all deception as regarded the cus- tom-house officials; for that if any article was ever hon- estly described as roha usata, the old colonel might be so designated. The queen herself shortly followed (by another convey- ance), and was present at the interment, on which occasion she much impressed the population by causing a superb crimson chair to be placed at the head of the grave, in or- der that she might be present without standing during the service. The chair was well known, because the queen, both at the baths and at Florence, was in the habit of sending it about to the houses at which she visited, since she preferred doing so to incurring the risk of the less satisfactory accommodation her friends might offer her. If space and the readei^'s patience would allow of it, I AT LUCCA BATHS. 371 might gossip on of many more reminiscences of the baths of Lucca, all pleasant or laughable ; but I must conclude by the story of a tragedy, which I will tell, because it is, in many respects, curiously characteristic of the time and place. The duke, who, as I have said, spoke English perfectly well, was fond of surrounding lumself with foreign, and specially English, dependants. He had, at the time of which I am speaking, two English — or, rather, one English and one Irish — chamberlains, and a third, who, though a German, was, from having married an Englishwoman, and habitually speaking English, and living with Englishmen, much the same, at least to the duke, as an Englishman. The Englishman was a young man ; the German an older man, and the father of a family. And both were good, upright, and honorable men ; both long since gone over to the majority. The Irishman, also a young man, was a bad fellow ; but he was an especial favorite with the duke, who was strong- ly attached to him. It is not necessary to print his name. He has gone to his account. But it might nevertheless happen that the printing of my story with his name in these pages might still give pain to somebody. There was also that year an extremely handsome and attractive lady, a widow, at the baths. I will not give her name either ; for, though there was no sort of blame or discredit of any kind attached or attachable to her from any part of my story, as she is, I believe, still living, and as the memory of that time cannot but be a painful one to her, it is as well to suppress it. The lady, as I have said, was handsome and young, and, of course, all the young fellows who got a chance flirted with her — en tout hien tout honneur. But the Irish chamberlain attached himself to her, not with any but perfectly avowable inten- tions, but more seriously than the other youngsters, and with an altogether serious eye' to her very comfortable dower. Now during that same summer there was at the Baths Mr. Plowden, the banker, from Rome. He was then a young man ; he has recently died an old one in the Eter- 372 WHAT I REMEMBER. nal City. His name I mention in telling my story be- cause much blame was cast upon him at the time by people in Rome, in Florence, and at the Baths, who did not know the facts as entirely and accurately as I knew them ; and I am able here to declare publicly what I have often declared privately, that he behaved well and blame- lessly in the whole matter. And probably, though I have no distinct recollection that it was so, Plowden may have also been smitten by the lady. Now, whether the Irishman imagined that the young banker was his most formidable rival, or whether there may have been some previous cause of ill-will be- tween the two men, I cannot say, but so it was that the chamberlain sent a challenge to the banker. The latter declined to accept it on the ground that he icas a banker and not a fighting -man, and that his business position would have been materially injured by his fighting a duel. The Irishman might have made the most of this triumph, such as it was ; but he was not content with doing so, and lost none of the opportunities, which the social habits of such a place daily afforded him, for insulting and out- raging his enemy. And he was continually boasting to his friends that before the end of the season he would compel him to come out and be shot at. And before the end of the season came his persistent efforts were crowned with success. Plowden, finding his life altogether intolerable under the harrow of the bully's insolence, at length one day challenged him. Then arose the question of the locality where the duel was to take place. The laws of the duchy were very strict against duelling, and the duke himself was strongly opposed to it. In the case of his own favorite chamberlain, too, his dis- pleasure was likely to be extreme. But in the neighbor- hood of the baths the frontier line which divides the Duchy of Modena from that of Lucca is a very irregular and intricate one. A little below the "Ponte" at the baths the Lima falls into the Serchio, and the upper valley of the latter river is of a very romantic and beautiful character. Now we all knew that hereabouts there were portions of Modenese territory interpenetrating that of AT LUCCA BATHS. 373 the Duchy of Lucca, but none of us knew the exact line of the boundary. And the favorite chamberlain, with true Irish impudence, undertook to obtain exact information from the duke himself. There was a ball that night, at which the whole of the society was present ; and, strange as it may seem, I do not think there was a man there who did not know that the duel was to be fought on the morrow, except the duke himself. Many of the women even knew it perfectly well. The chamberlain, getting the duke into conversation on the subject of the frontier, learned from him that a cer- tain highly romantic gorge, opening out from the valley of the Serchio, and called Turrite Cava, which he pre- tended to take an interest in as a place fitted for a picnic, was within the Modenese frontier. All was arranged, therefore, for the meeting with pistols on the following morning ; and the combatants proceed- ed to the spot fixed on, some five or six miles, I think, from the Baths. Plowden, who, as a sedate business man, was less intimate with the generality of the young men at the Baths, was accompanied only by his second ; his adversary was attended by a whole cohort of acquaintances — really far more after the fashion of a party going to a picnic, or some other party of pleasure, than in the usual guise of men bent on such an errand. Plowden had never fired a pistol in his life, and knew about as much of the management of one as an archbishop. The other was an old duellist, and a practised performer with the weapon. All this was perfectly well known, and the young men around the Irishman were earnest with him during their drive to the ground not to take his ad- versary's life, beseeching him to remember how heavy a load on his mind would such a deed be during the whole future of his own. Not a soul of the whole society of the Baths, who by this time knew what was going on to a man, and almost to a woman (my mother, it may be ob- served, had not been at the ball, and knew nothing about it), doubted that Plowden was going out to be shot as certainly as a bullock goes into the slaughter-house to be killed. 374 WHAT I REMEMBER. The Irishman, in reply to all the exhortations of his companions, jauntily told them not to distress themselves; he had no intention of killing the fellow, but would con- tent himself with "winging" him. He would have his right arm off as surely as he now had it on ! In the midst of all this the men were put up. At the first shot the Irishman's well-directed bullet whistled close to Plowden's head, but the random shot of the latter struck his adversary full in the groin. He was hastily carried to a little osteria^ which stood (and still stands) by the side of the road which runs up the valley of the Serchio, at no great distance from the mouth of the Turrite Cava gorge. There was a young medical man among those gathered there, who shook his head over the victim, but did not, I thought, seem very well up to dealing with the case. One of my mother's earliest and most intimate friends at Florence was a Lady Sevestre, who was then at the Baths with her husband. Sir Thomas Sevestre, an old Ind- ian army surgeon. He was a very old man, and was not much known to the younger society of the place. But it struck me that he was the man for the occasion. So I rushed off to the Baths in one of the bagherini (as the little light gigs of the country are called) which had conveyed the parties to the ground, and knocked up Sir Thomas. Of course, all the story came new to him, and he was very much inclined to wash his hands of it. But on my repre- sentations that a life was at stake, his old professional habits prevailed, and he agreed to go back with me to Turrite Cava. But no persuasions could induce him to trust himself to a hagherino. And truly it would have shaken the old man well-nigh to pieces. There was no other carriage to be had in a hurry. And at last he allowed me to get an arm- chair rigged with a couple of poles for bearers, and placed himself in it — not before he had taken the precaution of slinging a bottle of pale ale to either pole of his equipage. He wore a very wide-brimmed straw hat, a suit of pro- fessional black, and carried a large white sunshade. And thus accoutred, and accompanied by four stalwart bearers, AT LUCCA BATHS. 375 he started, while I ran by the side of the chair, as queer- looking a party as can well be imagined. I can see it all now ; and should have been highly amused at the time had I not very strongly suspected that I was taking him to the bedside of a dying man. And when he reached his patient, a very few minutes sufficed for the old surgeon to pronounce the case an ab- solutely hopeless one. After a few hours of agony the bully, who had insisted on bringing this fate on himself, died that same afternoon. Then came the question who was to tell the duke. Who it was that undertook that disagreeable but necessary task I forget. But the duke came out to the little osteria im- mediately on hearing of the catastrophe ; also the English clergyman officiating at the Baths came out. And the scene in that large, nearly bare, upper chamber of the little inn was a strange one. The clergyman began pray- ing by the dying man's bedside, while the numerous as- semblage in the room all knelt, and the duke knelt with them, interrupting the prayers with his sobs after the un- controlled fashion of the Italians. He was very, very angry. But in unblushing defiance of all equity and reason his anger turned wholly against Plowden, who, of course, had placed himself out of the small potentate's reach within a very few minutes after the catastrophe, But the duke strove by personal appli- cation to induce the Grand Duke of Tuscany to banish Plowden from his dominions, which, to the young banker, one branch of whose business was at Florence and one at Rome, would have been a very serious matter. But this, poor old ciuco, more just and reasonable in this case than his brother potentate, the Protestant Don Giovanni of Lucca, refused to do. So our pleasant time at the Baths, for that season at least, ended tragically enough ; and whenever I have since visited that singularly romantic glen of Turrite Cava, its deep, rock-sheltered shadows have been peopled for me by the actors in that day's bloody work, CHAPTER XXVIII. THE GARKOWS. SCIENTIFIC CONGRESSES. MY FIRST MARRIAGE. It was, to the best of my recollection, much about the same time as that visit of Charles Dickens which I have chronicled in the last chapter but one, which turned out to be eventually so fateful a one to me, as the correspond- ence there given shows, that my mother received another visit, which was destined to play an equally influential part in the directing and fashioning of my life. Equally influential perhaps I ought not to say, inasmuch as one- and-twenty years (with the prospect I hope of more) are more important than seventeen. But both the visits I am speaking of as having occurred within a few days of each other were big with fate, to me, in the same department of human affairs. The visit of Dickens was destined eventually to bring me my second wife, as the reader has seen. The visit of Mr. and Mrs. Garrow to the Via dei Malcontenti, much about the same time, brought me my first. The Arno and the Tiber both take their rise in the flanks of Falterona. It was on the banks of the first that my first married life was passed ; on those of the more south- ern river that the largest portion of my second wedded happiness was enjoyed. • Why Mr. and Mrs. Garrow called on my mother I do not remember. Somebody had given them letters of in- troduction to us, but I forget who it was. Mr. Garrow was the son of an Indian officer by a high-caste Brahmin woman, to whom he was married. I believe that unions between Englishmen and native women are common enough. But a marriage, such as that of my wife's grand- father I am assured was, is rare, and rarer still a marriage with a woman of hiojh caste. Her name was Sultana. I THE GARROWS. S11 have never heard of any other name. Joseph Garrow, my father-in-law, was sent to England at an early age, and never again saw either of his parents, who both died young. His grandfather was an old Scotch schoolmaster at Hadley, near Barnet, and his great-uncle was the well- known Judge Garrow. My father-in-law carried about with him very unmistakable evidence of his Eastern origin in his yellow skin, and the tinge of the white of his eyes, which was almost that of an Indian. He had been edu- cated for the bar, but had never practised, or attempted to do so, having while still a young man married a wife with considerable means. He was a decidedly clever man, especially in an artistic direction, having been a very good musician and performer on the violin, and a draughtsman and caricaturist of considerable talent. The lady he married had been a Miss Abrams, but was at the time he married her the widow of (I believe) a naval officer named Fisher. She had by her first husband one son and one daughter. There had been three Misses Abrams, Jewesses by race undoubtedly, but Christians by baptism, whose parent or parents had come to this coun- try in the suite of some Hanoverian minister, in what ca- pacity I never heard. They were all three exceptionally accomplished musicians, and seem to have been well known in the higher social circles of the musical world. One of the sisters was the authoress of many once well-known songs, especially of one song called " Crazy Jane," which had a considerable vogue in its day. I remember hearing- old John Cramer say that my mother-in-law could, while hearing a numerous orchestra, single out any instrument which had played a false note — and this he seemed to think a very remarkable and exceptional feat. She was past fifty when Mr. Garrow married her, but she bore him one daughter, and Avhen they came to Florence both girls, Theodosia, Garrow's daughter, and Harriet Fisher, her elder half-sister, were with them, and at their second morn- ing call both came with them. The closest union and affection subsisted between the two girls, and ever continued till the untimely death of Harriet. But never were two sisters, or half-sisters, or indeed any two girls at all, more unlike each other. 378 WHAT I REMEMBER. Harriet was neither specially clever nor specially pretty, but she was, I think, perhaps the most absolutely unselfish human being 1 ever knew, and one of the most loving hearts. And her position was one that, except in a nature framed of the kindliest clay, and moulded by the rarest perfection of all the gentlest and self-denying virtues, must have soured, or at all events crushed and quenched, the individual placed in such circumstances. She was simply nobody in the family save the ministering angel in the house to all of them. I do not mean that any of the vul- gar preferences existed which are sometimes supposed to turn some less favored member of a household into a Cin- derella. There was not the slightest shadow of anything of the sort. But no visitors came to the house or sought the acquaintance of the family for her sake. She had the dear, and, to her, priceless love of her sister. But no ad- miration, no pride of father or mother fell to her share. Her life was not made brilliant by the notice and friend- ship of distinguished men. Everything was for the younger sister. And through long years of this eclipse, and to the last, she fairly worshipped the sister who eclipsed her. Garrow, to do him justice, was equally af- fectionate in his manner to both girls, and entirely im- partial m every respect that concerned the material well- being of them. But Theodosia was always placed on a pedestal on which there was no room at all for Harriet. Nor could the closest intimacy with the family discover an}^ faintest desire on her part to share the pedestal. She was content and entirely happy in enjoying the reflected brightness of the more gifted sister. Nor would, perhaps, a shrewd judge, whose estimate of men and women had been formed by observation of aver- age humanity, have thought that the position which I have described as that of the younger of these two sisters was altogether a morally wholesome one for her. But the shrewd judge would have been wrong. Tliere never was a humbler, as there never was a more loving soul, than that of the Theodosia Garrow who became, for my perfect happiness, Theodosia Trollope. And it was these two qualities of humbleness and lovingness that, acting like THE GARROWS. 379 invincible antiseptics on the moral nature, saved her from all " spoiling " — from any tendency of any amount of flattery and admii-ation to engender selfishness or self-suf- ficiency. Nothing more beautiful in the way of family affection could be seen than the tie which united in the closest bonds of sisterly affection those two so differently constituted sisters. Very many saw and knew what Theo- dosia was as my wife. Very few indeed ever knew what she was in her own home as a sister. When I married Theodosia Garrow she possessed just one thousand pounds in her own right, and little or no prospect of ever possessing any more ; while I on my side possessed nothing at all, save the prospect of a strictly bread-and-cheese competency at the death of my mother, and "the farm which I carried under my hat," as some- body calls it. The marriage w^as not made with the full approbation of my father-in-law; but entirely in accord- ance with the wishes of my mother, who simply, dear soul, saw in it, what she said, that " Theo " was, of all the girls she knew", the one she should best like as a daughter-in- law. And here again the wise folks of the world (and I among them !) would hardly have said that the step I then took was calculated, according to all the recognized chances and probabilities of human affairs, to lead to a life of contentment and happiness. I suppose it ought not to have done so. But it did. It would be mon- strously inadequate to say that I never repented it. What should I not have lost had I not done it ! As usual my cards turned up trumps, but they began to do so in a way that caused me much, and my wife more, grief at the time. Within two years after my mar- riage poor, dear, good, loving Harriet caught small-pox and died. She w^as much more largely endowed than her half-sister, to whom she bequeathed all she had. She had a brother, as I have said above. But he had al- together alienated himself from his family by becoming a Roman Catholic priest. There was no open quarrel. I met him frequently in after -years at Garrow's table at Torquay, and remember his bitter complaints that he was tempted by the appearance of things at table which he 380 WHAT I REMEMBER. ought not to eat. It would have been of no use to give or bequeath money to him, for it would have gone im- mediately to Romanist ecclesiastical purposes. He had nearly stripped himself of his own considerable means, reserving to himself only the bare competence on which a Catholic priest might live. He was altogether a very queer fish. I remember his coming to me once in tear- ful but very angry mood, because, as he said, I had guile- fully spread snares for his soul ! I had not the smallest comprehension of his meaning till I discovered that his woe and wrath were occasioned by my having sent him as a present Berington's " Middle Ages." I had fancied that his course of studies and line of thought would have made the book interesting to him, utterly ignorant or oblivious of the fact that it labored under the disqualification of appearing in the " Index." I take it I knew little about the " Index " in those days. In after-years, when three or four of my own books had been placed in its columns, I was better informed. I re- member a very elegant lady who,having overheard my pres- ent wife mention the fact that a recently published book of mine had been placed in the " Index," asked her, with the intention of being extremely polite and complimentary, whether her (ray wife's) books had been put in the "Index." And when the latter modestly replied that she had not written anything that could merit such a distinction, her interlocutor, patting her on the shoulder with a kindly and patronizing air, said, " Oh, my dear, I am sure they will be placed there. They certainly ought to be." Mrs. Garrow, my wife's mother, was not, I tliink, an amiable woman. She must have been between seventy and eighty when I first knew her ; but she was still vigor- ous, and had still a pair of what must once have been mag- nificent, and were still brilliant and fierce black eyes. She was in no wise a clever woman, nor was our dear Harriet a clever girl. Garrow, on the other hand, and his daughter were both very markedly clever, and this produced a close- ness of companionship and alliance between the father and daughter which painfully excited the jealousy of the wife and mother. But it was totally impossible for her to cabal THE GARROWS. 381 with hei' daughter against the object of her jealousy. Harriet, always seeking to be a peacemaker, was ever, if peace could not be made, stanchly on Theo's side. I am afraid that Mrs. Garrow did not love her second daughter at all ; and I am inclined to suspect that my marriage was in some degree facilitated by her desire to get Theo out of the house. She was a very fierce old lady, and did not, I fear, contribute to the happiness of any member of her family. How well I remember the appearance of Mr. and Mrs. Garrow and those two girls in my mother's drawing-room in the Via dei Malcontenti. The two girls, I remember, were dressed exactly alike and very dov^dily. They had just arrived in Florence from Tours, I think, where they had passed a year, or perhaps two, since quitting " The Braddons " at Torquay ; and everything about them from top to toe was provincial, not to say shabby. It was a Friday, my mother's reception-day, and the room soon filled with gayly dressed and smart people, with more than one pretty girl among them. But I had already got into conversation with Theodosia Garrow, and, to the gross neglect of my duties as master of the house, and to the scandal of more than one fair lady, so I remained, till a summons more than twice repeated by her father took her away. It was not that I had fallen in love at first sight, as the phrase is, by any means. But I at once felt that I had got hold of something of a quite other calibre of intelli- gence from anything I had been recently accustomed to meet with in those around me, and with a moral nature that was sympathetic to my own. And I found it very delightful. It is no doubt true that, had her personal ap- pearance been other than it was, I should not probably have found her conversation equally delightful. But I am sure that it is equally true that had she been in face, figure, and person all she was, and at the same time stupid, or even not sympathetic, I should not have been equally attracted to her. She was by no means what would have been recognized by most men as a beautiful girl. The specialties of her 382 WHAT I REMEMBER. appearance, in the first place, were in a great measure due to the singular mixture of races from which she had sprung. One half of her blood was Jewish, one quarter Scotch, and one quarter pure Brahmin. Her face was a long oval, too long and too lanky towards the lower part of it for beauty. Her complexion was somewhat dark, and not good. The mouth was mobile, expressive, per- haps more habitually framed for pathos and the gentler feelings than for laughter. The jaw was narrow, the teeth good and white, but not very regular. She had a magnificent wealth of very dark brown hair, not without a gleam here and there of what descriptive writers, of course, would call gold, but which really was more accu- rately copper color. And this grand and luxuriant wealth of hair grew from the roots on the head to the extremity of it, at her waist, when it was let down, in the most beau- tiful ripples. But the great feature and glory of the face were the eyes, among the largest I ever saw, of a deep clear gray, rather deeply set, and changing in expression with every impression that passed over her mind. The forehead was wide, and largely developed both in those parts of it which are deemed to indicate imaginative and idealistic power, and those that denote strongly marked perceptive and artistic faculties. The latter, perhaps, were the more prominently marked. The Indian strain showed itself in the perfect gracefulness of a very slender and elastic figure, and in the exquisite elegance and beauty of the modelling of the extremities. That is not the description of a beautiful girl. But it is the fact that the face and figure very accurately so de- scribed were eminently attractive to me physically, as well as the mind and intelligence, which informed them, were spiritually. They were much more attractive to me than those of many a splendidly beautiful girl, the immense superiority of whose beauty nobody knew better than I. Why should this have been so ? That is one of the mys- teries to the solution of which no moral or physical or psychical research has ever brought us an iota nearer. I am giving here an account of the first impression my future wife made on me. I had no thought of wooing SCIENTIFIC CONGRESSES. 383 and winning her, for, as I have said, I was not in a posi- tion to marry. Meanwhile she was becoming acclimatized to Florentine society. She no longer looked dowdy when entering a room, but very much the reverse ; and the little Florentine world began to recognize that they had got something very much like a new Corinne among them. But of course I rarely got a chance of monopolizing her as I had done during that first afternoon. We were, how- ever, constantly meeting, and were becoming ever more and more close friends. When the GarroAvs left Florence for the summer, I visited them at Lucerne, and subse- quently met them at Venice. It was the year of the meeting of the Scientific Congress in that city. That was a pleasant autumn in Venice. By that time I had become pretty well over head and ears in love with the girl by whose side I generally contrived to sit in the gondolas, in the Piazza in the evening, et cgetera. It was lovely September weather — just the time for Venice. The summer days were drawing in, but there was the moon, quite light enough on the lagoons ; and we were a great deal happier than the day was long. Those Scientific Congresses, of which that at Venice was the seventh and the last, played a curious part, which has not been much observed or noted by historians, in the story of the winning of Italian independence. I believe that the first congress, at Pisa, I think, was really got up by men of science, with a view to furthering their own objects and pursuits. It was followed by others in succes- sive autumns at Lucca, Milan, Genoa, Naples, Florence, and this seventh and last at Venice. But Italy was in those days thinking of other matters than science. The whole air was full of ideas, very discordant all of them, and vague most of them, of political change. The gov- ernments of the peninsula thought twice, and more than twice, before they would grant permission for the first of these meetings. Meetings of any kind were objects of fear and mistrust to the rulers. Those of Tuscany, who were by comparison liberal, and, as known to be such, were more or less objects of suspicion to the Austrian, Roman, and Neapolitan governments, led the way in giv- 384 WHAT I REMEMBER. ing the permission asked for ; and perhaps thought that an assembly of geologists, entomologists, astronomers, and mathematicians might act as a safety-valve, and divert men's minds from more dangerous subjects. But the cur- rent of the times was running too strongly to be so di- verted, and proved too much for the authorities and for the real men of science, who were, at least some of them, anxious to make the congresses really what they professed to be. Gradually these meetings became more and more mere social gatherings in outward appearance, and revolution- ary propagandist assemblies in reality. As regards the former aspect of them, the different cities strove to outdo each other in the magnificence and generosity of their re- ception of their "scientific" guests. Masses of publica- tions were prepared, especially topographical and histori- cal accounts of the city which played Amphytrion for the occasion, and presented gratuitously to the members of the association. Merely little guide-books, of which a few hundred copies were needed in the case of the earlier meet- ings, they became in the case of the latter ones at Naples, Genoa, Milan, and Venice, large and magnificently printed tomes, prepared by the most competent authorities and produced at a very great expense. Venice especially outdid all her rivals, and printed an account of the Queen of the Adriatic, embracing history, topography, science in all its branches, and artistic story, in four huge and magnificent volumes, which remains to the present day by far the best topographical monograph that any city of the peninsula possesses. This truly splen- did work, which brought out in the ordinary way could not have been sold for less than six or eight guineas, was presented, together with much other printed matter — an enormous lithographed panorama of Venice and her la- goons, some five feet long, in a handsome roll cover, I remember among them — to every " member " on his en- rolment as such. Then there were concerts and excursions and great daily dinners the gayest and most enjoyable imaginable, at which both sexes were considered to be equally scien- SCIENTIFIC CONGRESSES. 385 tiiic and equally welcome. The dinners were not abso- lutely gratuitous, but the tickets for thera were issued at a price very much inferior to the real cost of the enter- tainment. And all this, it must be understood, was done not by any subscription of members scientific or other- wise, but by the city and its municipality; the motive for such expenditure being the highly characteristic Italian one of rivalling and outdoing in magnificence other cities and municipalities, or, in the historical language of Italy, " communes." Old Rome, with her dependent cities, made no sign during all these autumns of ever - increasing festivity. Pity that they should have come to an end before she did so ; for at the rate at which things were going, we should all, at least, have been crowned on the Capitol, if not made Roman senators, pour Vamour du Grec, as the savant says in the " Precieuses Ridicules," if we had gone to the Eter- nal City. But the fact was, that the soi-disant 'ologists kicked up their heels a little too audaciously at Venice under Aus- tria's nose ; and the government thought it high time to put an end to "science." For instance. Prince Canino made his appearance in the uniform of the Roman National Guard ! This was a little too much ; and the prince, all prince and Bonaparte as he was, was marched off to the frontier. Canino had every right to be there as a man of science ; for his acquire- ments in many branches of science were large and real; and specially as an entomologist he was known to be prob- ably the first in Italy. But he was the man who, when selling his principality of Canino, insisted on the insertion in the legal instrument of a claim to an additional five pauls (value about two shillings), for the title of prince which was attached to the possessor of the estates he was selling. He was an out-and-out avowed Republican, and was the blackest of black sheep to all the constituted gov- ernments of the peninsula. He looked as little as he felt and thought like a prince. He was a paunchy, oily-look- ing, black-haired man, whose somewhat heavy face was illumined by a brilliant black eye full of humor and a 17 386 WHAT I REMEMBER. moutli expressive of good-nature and bonhamie. His ap- pearance in the proscribed uniform might have been con- sidered by Austria, if her police authorities could have appreciated the fun of the thing, as wholesomely calcu- lated to throw ridicule on the hated institution. He was utterly unassuming and good-natured in his manner, and when seen in his ordinary black habiliments looked more like a well-to-do Jewish trader than anything else. As for the social aspects of these scientific congresses, they were becoming every year more festive, and, at all events to the ignoramus outsiders who joined them, more pleasant. My good cousin and old friend, then Colonel, now General, Sir Charles Trollope, was at Venice that au- tumn. I said, on meeting him, " Now the first thing is to make you a member." " Me, a member of a scientific congress !" said he. " God bless you, I am as ignorant as a babe of all possible 'epteras and 'opteras, and 'statics and 'matics." " Oh, nonsense ! we are all men of sci- ence here. Come along !" — i. e., to the ducal palace to be inscribed. " But what do you mean to tell them I am ?" he asked. " Well, let's see ! You must have superintended a course of instruction in the goose-step in your day ?" " Rather so," said he. " Very well, then. You are Instructor in Military Exercises in her B. M. Forces. You are all right. Come along !" And if I had said that he was Trumpeter Major of the 600th Regi- ment in the British Army it would doubtless have been equally all right. So said, so done. And I see his bewil- dered look now, as the four huge volumes, about a load for a porter, to which he had become entitled, together with medals and documents of many kinds, were put into his arms. Ah, those were pleasant days ! And while Italy, under the wing of science, was plotting her independence, I was busy in forging the chains of that dependence which was to be a more unmixed source of happiness to me than the independence which Italy was compassing has yet proved to her. Those chains, however, as regarded at all events the outward and visible signs of them, had not got forged yet. MY FIRST MARRIAGE. 387 I certainly had not " proposed " to Theodosia. In fact, to the very best of my recollection, I never did " propose " to her — or "pop," as the hideous phrase is — any decisive question at all. We seem, to my recollection, to have come gradually, insensibly, and mutually to consider it a matter of course that what we wanted was to be married, and that the only matter which needed any words or con- sideration was the question how the difficulties in the way of our wishes were to be overcome. In the autumn of 1847 my mother and I went to pass the winter in Rome. My sister Cecilia's health had been failing; and it began to be feared that there was reason to suspect the approach of the malady which had already destroyed my brother Henry and my younger sister Emily. It was decided, therefore, that she should pass the winter in Rome. Her husband's avocations made it impossible for him to accompany her thither, and my mother there- fore took an apartment there to receive her. It was in a small palazzo in that part of the Via delle Quattro Fon- tane which is now situated between the Via Nazionale and the Church of Santa Maria Maggiore, to the left of one going towards the latter. There was no Via Nazio- nale then, and the buildings which now make the Via delle Qnattro Fontane a continuous line of street existed only in the case of a few isolated houses and convents. It was a very comfortable apartment, roomy, sunny, and quiet. The house exists still, though somewhat modernized in outward appearance, and is, I think, the second, after one going towards Santa Maria Maggiore has crossed the new Via Nazionale. But the grand question was whether it could be brought about that Theodosia Garrow should be permitted to be my mother's guest during that winter. A hint on the matter was quite sufficient for my dear mother, although I do not think that she had yet any idea that I was minded to give her a daughter-in-law. Theodosia's parents had certainly no faintest idea that anything more than ordinary friendship existed between me and their daughter, or, if they had had such, she would certainly have never been allowed to accept my mother's invitation. As for Theo- 388 WHAT I REMEMBER. dosia herself and her willingness to come, it seems to me, as I look back, that nothing was said between us at all, any more than anything was said about making her my wife. I think it was all taken for granted, sans mot dire, by both of us. But there was one person who knew all about it ; knew what was in both our hearts, and was eagerly anxious that the desire of them should be fulfilled. This was the good fairy, Harriet Fisher. Without the strenuous exertion of her influence on her mother and Mr. Garrow the object would hardly have been accom- plished. Of course the plea put forward was the great desirability of taking advantage of such an opportunity of seeing Rome. My sister, whose health, alas ! profited nothing by that visit to Rome, and could have been profited by no visit to any place on earth, became strongly attached to Theo- dosia ; and the affection which grew up between them was the more to the honor of both of them, in that they were far as the poles asunder in opinions and habits of thought. My sister was what in those days was called a " Puseyite." Her opinions were formed on the highest High-Church model, and her Church opinions made the greatest part, and, indeed, nearly the whole of her life. Theodosia had no Church opinions at all. High or Low. All her mind and interests were, at all events at that time, turned tow- ards poetry and art. Subsequently she interested herself keenly in political and social questions, but had hardly at that time begun to do so. But she made a conquest of my sister. Indeed it would have been very diflicult for any one to live in the same house with her without loving her. She was so bright, her sympathies so ready, her intelligence so large and varied, that day after day her presence and her conversation were a continual delight; and she was withal diflident of herself, gentle and unassuming to a fault. My mother had already learned to love her truly as a daughter, before there was any apparent probability of her becoming one. We did not succeed in bearing down all the opposition that in the name of ordinary prudence was made to our MY FIRST MARRIAGE. 339 marriage, till the spring of forty-eight. We were finally married on the 3d of April in that year, in the British minister's chapel in Florence, in the quiet, comfortable way in which we used to do such things in those days. I told my good friend Mr. Plunkett (he had then be- come the English representative at the court of Tuscany) that I wanted to be married the next day. "All right," said he ; " will ten o'clock do ?" " Could not be better!" " Very good. Tell Robbins [the then English clergyman] I'll be sure to be there." So, at ten the next morning we looked in at the Palazzo Ximenes, and in about ten min- utes the business was done. Of Mr. Robbins, who was as kind and good a little man as could be, I may note, since I have been led to speak of him, the following rather singular circumstance. He was, as I have been told, the son of a Devonshire farmer, and his two sisters were the wives of two of the principal Florentine nobles, one having married the Marchese In- ghirami and the other the Marchese Bartolomei. What circumstances led to the accomplishment of a destiny ap- parently so strange for the family of a Devonshire farmer I never heard. The clergyman and his sisters were all much my seniors. After the expeditious ceremony we all— about half a score of us— went off to breakfast at the house of Mr. Garrow in the Piazza di Santa Maria Novella, and before noon my wife and I were off on a ramble among the Tus- can cities. CHAPTER XXIX. ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING. My very old friend, Colonel Grant — General Grant many- years before lie died — used to say that if he wished, with- out changing his place himself, to see the greatest possi- ble number of his friends and acquaintances, he should stand perpetually at the foot of the column in the Place Yendome. But it seems to me that at least as advan- tageous a post of observation for the purpose would be the foot of Giotto's tower in Florence ! Who in these days lives and dies without going to Florence ; and who goes to Florence without going to gaze on the most perfectly beautiful tower that human hands ever raised? Let me tell (quite parenthetically) a really good story of that matchless building, which yet, however, will hardly be appreciated at its full value by those who haye never seen it. When the Austrian troops were occupying Flor- ence, one of the white-coated officers had planted him- self in the piazza in front of the tower, and was gazing at it earnestly, lost in admiration of its perfect beauty. " Si svita, signore^'''' said a little street urchin, coming up behind him — " It unscrews, sir !" As much as to say, *' Wouldn't you like just to take it off bodily and carry it away ?" But, as I said, to apprehend the aptitude of the gamiii's sneer, one must have one's self looked on the absolute perfection of proportion and harmony of its every part, which really does suggest the idea that the whole might be lifted bodily in one piece from its place on the soil. Whether the Austrian had the wit to answer, " You are blundering, boy ; you are taking me for a Frenchman," I don't know. But I was saying, when the mention of the celebrated tower led me into telling, before I forgot it, the above ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING. 391 story, that Florence was of all the cities of Europe that in which one might be likely to see the greatest number of old, and make the greatest number of new, acquaint- ances, I lived there for more than thirty years, and the number of persons, chiefly English, American, and Ital- ian, whom I knew during that period is astonishing. The number of them was of course all the greater from the fact that the society, at least so far as English and Ameri- cans were concerned, was to a very great degree a float- ing one. They come back to my memory, when I think of those times, like a long procession of ghosts. Most of them, I suppose, are ghosts by this time. They pass away out of one's ken, and are lost ! Some, thank Heaven, are not lost ; and some, though lost, will never pass out of ken. If I w^ere wn-iting only for myself I should like to send my memory roving among all that crowd of phantoms, catch them one after another as they dodge about, half eluding one when just on the point of recovering them, and, fixing them in memory's camera, photograph them one after another. But I cannot hope that such a gallery would be as interesting to the reader as it certainly would to me. And I must content myself with recording my recollections of those among them in whom the world may be supposed to take an interest. Theodosia Garrow^, when living with her parents at " The Braddons," at Torquay, had known Elizabeth Barrett. The latter was very much of an invalid at the time ; so much so, as I think I have gathered from my wife's talk about those times, as to have prevented her from being a visitor to "The Braddons." But Theodosia was, I take it, to be very frequently found by the side of the sofa to w^hich her friend was more or less confined. I fancy that Mr. Kenyon, w^ho was an old friend and family connec- tion of Elizabeth Barrett's family, and was also intimately acquainted wnth the Garrows and with Theodosia, must have been the first means of bringing the girls together. There were assuredly very few young women in England at that day to whom Theodosia Garrow in social inter- course w^ould have had to look up^ as to one on a higher 392 WHAT I REMEMBER. intellectual level than her own. But Elizabeth Barrett was one of them. I am not talking of acqidretnents. Nor was my wife thinking of such when she used to speak of the poetess as she had known her at that time. I am talk- ing, as my wife used to talk, of pure native intellectual power. And I consider it to have been no small indica- tion of the capacity of my wife's intelligence, that she so clearly and appreciatingly recognized and measured the distance between her friend's intellect and her own. But this appreciation on the one side was in no w^se incom- patible with a large and generous amount of admiration on the other. And many a talk in long subsequent years left with me the impression of the high estimation which the gifted poetess had formed of the value of her highly, but not so exceptionally, gifted admirer. Of course this old friendship jDaved the way for a new one when the Brownings came to live in Florence. I flat- ter myself that that would in any case have found some raison cVetre. But the pleasure of the two girls — girls no more in any sense — in meeting again quickened the growth of an intimacy which might otherwise have been slower in ripening. To say that amid all that frivolous, gay, giddy, and, it must be owned, for the most part very unintellectual so- ciety (in the pleasures and pursuits of which, to speak honestly, I took, well pleased, my full share), my visits to Casa Guidi were valued by me as choice morsels of my existence, is to say not half enough. I was conscious even then of coming away from those visits a better man, with higher views and aims. And pray, reader, under- stand that any such effect was not produced by any talk or look or word of the nature of preaching, or anything approaching to it, but simply by the perception and ap- preciation of what Elizabeth Barrett Browning was ; of the immaculate purity of every thought that passed through her pellucid mind, and the indefeasible nobility of her every idea, sentiment, and opinion. I hope my reader is not so much the slave of conventional phraseology as to imagine that I use the word "purity" in the above sen- tence in its restricted, and one may say technical, sense. ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING. 393 I mean the purity of the upper spiritual atmosphere in which she habitually dwelt ; the absolute disseverance of her moral as well as her intellectual nature from all those lower thoughts as well as lower passions which smirch the human soul. In mind and heart she was ichite — stainless. That is what I mean by purity. Her most intimate friend at Florence was a Miss Isabella Blagden, who lived for many years at Bellosguardo, in a villa commanding a lovely view over Florence and the valley of the Arno from the southern side, looking across it therefore to Fiesole and its villa-and-cypress-covered slopes. Whether the close friendship between Mrs. Browning and Isa Blagden (we all called her Isa always) was first formed in Florence, or had its commencement at an earlier date, I do not know. But Isa was also the intimate and very specially highly-valued friend of my wife and myself. And this also contributed to our com- mon friendship. Isa was (yes, as usual, " was," alas, though she was very much my junior) a very bright, very warm- hearted, very clever little woman, who knew everybody, and was, I think, more universally beloved than any other individual among us. A little volume of her poems was published after her untimely death. They are not such as could take by storm the careless ears of the world, which knows nothing about her, and must, I suppose, be admitted to be marked by that mediocrity which neither gods nor men can tolerate. But it is impossible to read the little volume without perceiving how choice a spirit the authoress must have been, and understanding how it came to pass that she was especially honored by the close and warm attachment of Mrs. Browning. I have scores of letters signed " Isa," or rather Sibylline leaves scrawled in the vilest handwriting on all sorts of abnormal frag- ments of paper, and despatched in headlong haste, gener- ally concerning some little projected festivity at Bellos- guardo, and advising me of the expected presence of some stranger whom she thought I should like to meet. Very many of such of these fragmentary scribblings as were written before the Brownings left Florence contain some word or reference to her beloved "Ba," for such was the 394 WHAT I REMEMBER. pet name used between them, with what meaning or origin I know not. Dear Isa's death was to me an especially sad one, be- cause I thought, and think, that she need not have died. She lived alone with a couple of old servants, and though she was rich in troops of friends, and there were one or two near her during the day or two of her illness, they did not seem to have managed matters wdsely. Our Isa was extremely obstinate about calling in medical advice. It could not be done at a moment's notice, for a message had to be sent and a doctor to come from Florence. And this was not done till the second day of her illness. And I had good reason for thinking that, had she been prop- erly attended to on the first day, her life might have been saved. She would not let her friends send for the doc- tor, and the friends were unable to make her do so. Un- happily, I was absent for a few days at Siena, and returned to be met by the intelligence that she was dead. It seemed the more sad in that I knew that if I had been there I could have made her call a doctor before it was too late. Browning could also have done so ; but it was after the death of Mrs. Browning and his departure from Florence. How great her sorrow was for the death of her friend, Browning knew, doubtless, but nobody else, I think, in the world save myself. I have now before me one of her little scraps of letters, in which she encloses one from Mrs. Browning which is of the highest interest. The history and genesis of it is as follows : Shortly after the publication of the well-known and exquisite little poem on the god Pan in the Cornhill Magazine^ my brother Anthony wrote me a letter ven- turing to criticise it, in which he says: "The lines are very beautiful, and the working out of the idea is deli- cious. But I am inclined to think that she is illustrating an allegory by a thought, rather than a thought by an allegory. The idea of the god destroying the reed m making the instrument has, I imagine, given her occasion to declare that in the sublimation of the poet the man is lost for the ordinary purposes of man's life. It has been thus instead of being the reverse ; and I can hardly believe ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING. 395 that she herself believes m the doctrine which her fancy- has led her to illustrate. A man that can be a poet is so much the more a man in becoming such, and is the more fitted for a man's best work. Nothing is destroyed, ani in preparing the instrument for the touch of the musician the gods do nothing for which they need weep. The idea, however, is beautiful, and it is beautifully worked." Then follows some verbal criticism which need not be transcribed. Going on to the seventh stanza he says, "In the third line of it, she loses her antithesis. She miuit spoil her man, as well as make a poet out of him — spoi. him as the reed is spoiled. Should we not read the lines thus : *' ' Yet one half beast is the great god Pan Or he would not have laughed by the river. Making a poet he mars a man ; The true gods sigh,' etc. ?" In justice to my brother's memory I must say that this was not written to me with any such presumptuous idea as that of offering his criticism to the poetess. But I showed the letter to Isa Blagden, and at her request left it with her. A day or two later she writes to me : " Dear friend, — I send you back your criticism and Mrs. B.'s re- joinder. She made me show it to her, and she wishes you to see her answer." Miss Blagden's words would seem to imply that she thought the criticism mine. And if she did, Mrs. Browning was doubtless led to suppose so too. Yet I think this could hardly have been the case. Of course my only object in writing all this here is to give the reader the great treat of seeing Mrs. Browning's "rejoinder." It is very highly interesting. " Dearest Isa, — Very gentle my critic is ; I am glad I got him out of you. But tell dear Mr. Trollope he is wrong nevertheless [here it certainly seems that she supposed the criticism to be mine] ; and that my ' thought ' was really and decidedly anterior [sic] to my ' allegory.' Moreover, it is my thought still. I meant to say that the poetic organiza- tion implies certain disadvantages ; for instance an exaggerated general susceptibility, . . .* which may be shut up, kept out of the way in every- * These dots do not indicate any hiatus. They exist in the MS, as here given. 396 WHAT I REMEMBER. day life, and must be (or the man is ' marred,^ indeed, made a Rousseau or a Byron of), but which is necessarily, for all that, cultivated in the very cultivation of art itself. There is an inward reflection and refraction of the heats of life. . . .* doubling pains and pleasures, doubling, therefore, ti-e motives (passions) of life. I have said something of this in A. L. [" Aurora Leigh "]. Also there is a passion for essential truth (as appre- hei.ded) and a necessity for speaking it out at all risks, inconvenient to personal peace. Add to this and much else the loss of the sweet uncon- scious cool privacy among the ' reeds ' . . .* which I for one care so much for— the loss of the privilege of being glad or sorry, ill or well, without a 'njiice.' That may have its glory to certain minds. But most people wjuld be glad to 'stir their tea in silence' when they are grave, and even h talk nonsense (much too frivolously) when they are merry, without its running the round of the newspapers in two worlds, perhaps. You know I don't invent, Isa. In fact, I am sorely tempted to send Mr. Trollope a letter I had this morning, as an illustration of my view, and a reply to his criticism. Only this letter, among many, begins with too many fair speeches. Still it seems written by somebody in earnest and with a liking for me. Its main object is to complain of the cowardly morality in Pan. Then a stroke on the poems before Congress. The writer has heard that I 'had been to Paris, was feted by the emperor, and had had my head turned by imperial flatteries,' in consequence of which I had taken to ' praise and flatter the tyrant, and try to help his selfish ambition.' Well ! one should laugh and be wise. But somehow one doesn't laugh. A letter beginning, ' You are a great teacher of truth,' and ending, ' You are a dishonest wretch,' makes you cold somehow, and ill-disposed towards the satisfactions of literary distinction. Yes ! and be sure, Isa, that the ' true gods sigh,' and have reason to sigh, for the cost and pain of it ; sigh only . . . don't haggle over the cost; don't grudge a crazia, but . . . sigh, sigh . . . while they pay honestly. " On the other hand, there's much light talking and congratulation, ex- cellent returns to the pocket from the poem in the Cornhill ; pleasaTit praise from dear Mr. Trollope . . . with all drawbacks : a good opinion from Isa worth its gold — and Pan laughs. " But he is a beast up to the waist ; yes, Mr, Trollope, a beast. He is not a true god. " And I am neither god nor beast, if you please — only a Ba." It seems that she certainly imagined me to be the critic ; but must have been subsequently undeceived. I will not venture to say a word on the question of the marring or making of a man which results from the creation of a poet ; but if mj brother had known Mrs. Browning as well as I knew her, he would not have written that he * These dots do not indicate any hiatus. They exist in the MS. as here given. ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING. 397 could " hardly believe that she herself believes in the doctrine that her fancy has led her to illustrate." At all events, the divine afflatus had not so marred the absolute- ly single-minded truthfulness of the woman in her as to make it possible that she should, for the sake of illustrat- ing, however appositely, any fancy, however brilliant, put forth a " doctrine " as believing in it which she did not believe. It may seem that this is a foolish making of a mountain out of a molehill ; but she would not have felt it to be so. She had so high a conception of the poet's office and responsibilities that nothing would have in- duced her to play at believing, for literary purposes, any position, or fancy, or imagination which she did not in her heart of hearts accept. There w^as one subject upon which both my wife and I disagreed in opinion with Mrs. Browning ; and it was a subject which sat very near her heart, and was much oc- cupying all minds at that time — the phases of Italy's struggle for independence, and especially the part which the Emperor Napoleon the Third was taking in that struggle, and his conduct towards Italy. We were all equally " Italianissimi," as the phrase went then; all equally desirous that Italy should accomplish the union of her disjecta memhra^ throw off the yoke of the bad governments which had oppressed her, make herself a na- tion, and do well as such. But we differed widely as to the ultimate utility, the probable results, and, above all, as to the motives of the emperor's conduct. Mrs. Browning believed in him and trusted him. We did neither. Hence the following interesting and curious letter, written to my wife at Florence by Mrs. Browning, who was passing the summer at Siena. Mrs. Browning felt very warmly upon this subject — so, indeed, did my wife, differing from her toto coelo upon it. But the difference not only never caused the slightest suspension of cordial feeling between them, but never caused either of them to doubt for a mo- ment that the other was with equal sincerity and equal ardor anxious for the same end. The letter was written, as only the postmark shows, on September 26, 1859, and was as follows : 398 WHAT I REMEMBER. " My dear Mrs. Trollope, — I feel doubly grateful to you ... for the music (one of the proofs of your multiform faculty) and for your kind and welcome letter, which I have delayed to thank you for. My body lags so behind my soul always, and especially of late, that you must consider my disadvantages in whatever fault is committed by me, trying to forgive it. " Certainly we differ in our estimate of the Italian situation, while loving and desiring for Italy up to the same height and with the same heart. "For me I persist in looking to /ac/s rather than to words official or un- official, and in repeating that, ' whereas we were bound, now we are free.' " * I think, therefore I am.' Cogito, ergo sum, was, you know, an old formula. Italy thinks (aloud) at Florence and Bologna ; therefore she is. And how did that happen? Could it have happened last year, with the Austrians at Bologna, and ready (at a sign) to precipitate themselves into Tuscany ? Could it have happened previous to the French intervention ? And could it happen noio if France used the power she has in Italy against Italy ? Why is it that the Times newspaper, which declared . . . first that the elections were to be prevented by France, and next that they were to be tampered with ... is not justified before our eyes? I appeal to your sober judgment ... if, indeed, the Emperor Napoleon desires Ihe res- toration of the dukes ! ! Is he not all the more admirable for being loyal and holding his hand off while he has fifty thousand men ready to ' protect ' us all and prevent the exercise of the people's sovereignty ? And he a despot (so called) and accustomed to carry out his desires. Instead of which Tuscans and Romagnoli, Parma and Modena, have had every oppor- tunity allowed them to combine, carry their elections, and express their full minds in assemblies, till the case becomes so complicated and strength- ened that her enemies for the most part despair. "The qualities shown by the Italians — the calm, the dignity, the intelli- gence, the constancy ... I am as far from not understanding the weight of these virtues as from not admiring them. But the oj^portunity for ex- ercising them comes from the Emperor Napoleon, and it is good and just for us all to remember this while we admire the most. " So at least I think ; and the Italian official bodies have always admitted it, though individuals seem to me to be too much influenced by the suspi- cions and calumnies thrown out by foreign journals — English, Prussian, Austrian, and others — which traduce the empei'or's motives in diplomacy, as they traduced them in the war. A prejudice in the eye is as fatal to sight as mote and beam togethei-. And there are things abroad worse than any prejudices — yes, worse ! " It is a fact that the emperor used his influence with England to get the Tuscan vote accepted by the English government. Whatever wickedness he meant by that the gods know ; and English statesmen suspect ... (or suspected a very short time ago) ; but the deed itself is not wicked, and you and I shall not be severe on it whatever bad motive may be imput- able. " So much more I could write • . • about Villafranca, but I won't. The emperor, great man as he is, could not precisely anticipate the high quali- ties given proof of in the late development of Italian nationalit3\ He ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING. 399 made the best terms he could, having had his hand forced. In consequence of this treaty he has carried out his engagement to Austria in certain offi- cial forms, knowing well that the free will and choice of the Italians are hindered by none of them ; and knowing besides that every apparent cold- ness and reserve of his towards the peninsula removes a jealousy from England, and instigates her to a more liberal and human bearing than formerly. " Forgive me for all these words. I am much better, but still not as strong as I was before my attack ; only getting strength, I hope. "Miss Blagden and Miss Field are staying still with us, and are gone to Siena to-day to see certain pictures (which has helped to expose you to this attack). We talk of returning to Florence by the first of October, or soon after, in spite of the revival of fine weather. Mr. Landor is surprisingly improved by the good air here and the repose of mind; walks two miles, and writes alcaics and pentameters on most days ... on his domestic cii'cumstances, and ... I am sorry to say . . . Louis Napoleon. But I tell him that I mean him to write an ode on my side of the question be- fore w^e have done. " I honor you and your husband for the good work you have both done on behalf of this great cause. But his book* we only know yet by the extracts in the Athenceiim, which brings us your excellent articles. May I not thank you for them ? And when does Mr. Trollope come back V [from a flying visit to England]. We hope not to miss him out of Flor- ence long. "Peni's love to Bice.f He has been very happy here, galloping through the lanes on a pony the color of his curls. Then he helps to work in the vineyards and to keep the sheep, having made close friends with the con- tadini, to whom he reads and explains Dall' Ongaro's poems with great ap- plause. By the way, the poet paid us a visit lately, and we liked him much. "And let me tell Bices mother another story of Penini. He keeps a journal, be it whispered ; I ventured to peep through the leaves the other morning, and came to the following notice : ' This is the happiest day of my hole (sic) life, because dearest Vittoria Emanuele is really nostra re P " There's a true Italian for you ! But his weak point is spelling. " Believe me, with my husband's regards, ever truly and affectionately yours, Elizabeth Barrett Browning." It may possibly enter into the mind of some one of those who never enjoyed the privilege of knowing Mrs. Browning the woman to couple together the stupidly- calumnious insinuations to which she refers in the first letter I have given with the admiration she expresses for the third Napoleon in the second letter. I differed from her wholly in her estimate of the man and in her views of * "Tuscany in J849 and 1859." f Browning's boy and my girl, 400 WHAT I REMEMBER. his policy with regard to Italy. And many an argument have I had with her on the subject. And my opinions respecting it were all the more distasteful to her because they concerned the character of the man himself as well as his policy as a ruler. And those talks and arguments have left me probably the only man alive, save one, who knows with such certainty as I know it, and can assert as I can, the absolute absurdity and impossibility of the idea that she, being what she was, could have been bribed by any amount of imperial or other flattery, not only to pro- fess opinions which she did not veritably hold — this touch- es her moral nature, perhaps the most pellucidly truthful of any I ever knew — but to hold opinions which she would not have otherwise held. This touches her intellectual nature, which was as incapable of being mystified or mod- ified by any suggestion of vanity, self-love, or gratified pride as the most judicial-mimied judge who ever sat on the bench. Her intellectual view on the matter was, I thought, mystified and modified by the intensity of her love for the Italian cause and of her hatred for the evils from which she was watching the Italians struggling to liberate themselves. I heard, probably from herself, of whispered calumnies, such as those she refers to in the first of the two letters given. She despised them then, as those who loved and valued her did, though the sensitive, womanly gentleness of her nature made it a pain to her that any fellow-creat- ure, however ignorant and far away from her, should so think of her. And my disgust at a secret attempt to stab has impelled me to say what I Jcnoio on the subject. But I really think that not only those who knew her as she lived in the flesh, but the tens of thousands who know her as she lives in her written words, cannot but feel my vin- dication superfluous. The above long and specially interesting letter is writ- ten in very small characters on ten pages of extremely small duodecimo note-paper, as is also the other letter by the same writer given above. Mrs. Browning's hand- writing shows, ever and anon, an odd tendency to form each letter of a word separately — a circumstance which I ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING. 401 mention for the sake of remarking that old Huntingford, the Bishop of Hereford, in my young days, between whom and Mrs. Browning there was one thing in common, name- ly, a love for and familiarity with Greek studies, used to write in the same manner. The Dall' Ongaro here spoken of was an old friend of ours — of my wife's, if I remember right — before our mar- riage. He was a Venetian, or, rather, to speak accurately, I believe, a Dalmatian by birth, but all his culture and sympathies were Venetian. He had in his early youth been destined for the priesthood, but, like many another, had been driven by the feelings and sympathies engen- dered by Italy's political struggles to abandon the tonsure for the sake of joining the "patriot" cause. His muse was of the drawing-room school and calibre. But he wrote very many charming little poems breathing the warmest aspirations of the somewhat extreme gauche of that day, especially some stornelli after the Tuscan fash- ion, which met with a very wide and warm acceptance. I remember one extremely happy, the refrain of which still runs in my head. It is written on the newly adopted Italian tricolor flag. After characterizing each color sep- arately in a couplet, he ends : "E il rosso, il bianco, e il verde, E un terno che si giuoca, e non si perde." The phrase is borrowed from the language of the lot- tery. " And the red, and the w^hite, and the green, are a threefold combination " [I am obliged to be horribly pro- saic in order to make the allusion intelligible to non-Ital- ian ears] "on which we may play and be sure not to lose !" I am tempted to give here another of Mrs. Browning's letters to my first wife, partly by the persuasion that any letter of hers must be a matter of interest to a very large portion of English readers, and partly for the sake of the generously appreciative criticism of one of my brother's books, which I also always considered to be one of his best. I must add that Mrs. Browning's one bit of censure coin- cides as perfectly with my own judgment. The letter, as 402 WHAT I REMEMBER. usual, is dateless, but mast have been written very shortly after the publication of my brother's novel called " The Three Clerks." "My dear Mrs. Trollope, — I return 'The Three Clerks' with our true thanks and appreciation. We both quite agree with you in considering it the best of the three clever novels before the public. My husband, who can seldom get a novel to hold him, has been held by all three, and by this the strongest. Also, it has qualities which the others gave no sign of. For instance, I was wrung to tears by the third volume. What a thoroughly man's book it is ! I much admire it, only wishing away, with a vehemence which proves the veracity of my general admiration, the con- tributions to the ' Daily Delight ' — may I dare to say it ? " I do hope you are better. For myself, I have not suffered more than was absolutely necessary in the late unusual weather. " I heard with concern that Mrs. Trollope [my mother] has been less well than usual. But who can wonder, with such cold ? " Most truly yours, Elizabeth Barrett Browning. "Casa Guidi, Wednesday.'''' Here is, also, one other little memorial, written, not by "Elizabeth Barrett Browning," but by "Elizabeth Bar- rett." It is interesting on more than one account. It bears no date save " Beacon Terrace [Torquay], Thursday." But it evidently marks the beginning of acquaintanceship between the two exceptionally, though not equally, gift- ed girls, Elizabeth Barrett and Theodosia Garrow. It is written on a sheet of the very small duodecimo note-paper which she was wont to use many years subsequently, but in far more delicate and elegant characters than she used when much pen-work had produced its usual deteriorating effect on her caligraphy. "I cannot return the 'Book of Beauty' [Lady Blessington's annual] to Miss Garrow without thanking her for allowing me to read in it soonei' than I should otherwise have done those contributions of her own which help to justify its title, and which are indeed sweet and touching verses. " It is among the vexations brought upon me by my illness that I still remain personally unacquainted with Miss Garrow, though seeming to my- self to know her through those who actually do so. And I should venture to hope that it might be a vexation the first to leave me, if a visit to an invalid condemned to the peine forte et dure of being very silent, notwith- standing her womanhood, were a less gloomy thing. At any rate, I am encouraged to thank Miss Fisher and Miss Garrow for their visits of re- peated inquiry, and their other very kind attentions, by these written words rather than bv a message. For I am sure that wherever kindness ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING. 403 can come thankfulness may, aad that whatever intrusion my note can be guilty of, it is excusable by the fact of my being Miss Garrow's " Sincerely obliged, E. Barrett." Could anything be more charmingly girlish or more prettily worded? The diminutive little note seems to have been preserved, an almost solitary survival of the memorials of the days to which it belongs. It must doubt- less have been followed by sundry others, but was, I sup- pose, specially treasured as having been the first step tow- ards a friendship which was already highly valued. Of course, in the recollections of an Englishman living during those years in Florence, Robert Browning must necessarily stand out in high relief and in the foremost line. But very obviously this is neither the time nor the place, nor is my dose of presumption sufficient, for any attempt at a delineation of the man. To speak of the poet, since I write for Englishmen, would be very super- fluous. It may be readily imagined that the " tag-rag and bob-tail" of the men who mainly constituted that very pleasant, but not very intellectual society, were not likely to be such as Mr. Browning would readily make intimates of. And I think I see, in memory's magic glass, that the men used to be rather afraid of him. Not that I ever saw him rough or uncourteous with the most exasperating fool that ever rubbed a man's nervous system the wrong way, but there was a quiet, lurking smile which, support- ed by very few words, used to seem to have the singular property of making the utterers of platitudes and the mis- takers of non-sequiturs for sequiturs uncomfortably aware of the nature of their words within a very few minutes after they had uttered them. I may say, however, that I believe that, in any dispute on any sort of subject between any two men in the place, if it had been proposed to sub- mit the matter in dispute for adjudication to Mr. Brown- ing, the proposal would have been jumped at with a greater readiness of consensus than in the case of any other man there. CHAPTER XXX. REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. The Italians, I believe, were "thinking" at a consider- ably earlier period than that which, in the second letter, transcribed in the preceding chapter, Mrs. Browning seems to have considered as the beginning of their " cogitating" existence, and thinking on the subjects to which she is there adverting. They were "thinking," perhaps, less in Tuscany than in any other part of the peninsula, for they were eating more and better there. They were very lightly taxed. The mezzeria system of agriculture, which, if not absolutely the same, is extremely similar to that which is known as " conacre," rendered the lot of the peasant pop- ulation very far better and more prosperous than that of the tillers of the earth in any of the other provinces. And, upon the whole, the people were contented. The Tuscan public was certainly not a "pensive public." They ate their bread not without due condiment of compagnati- co^ or even their chestnuts in the more remote and primi- tive mountain districts, drank their sound Tuscan wine from the generous, big-bellied Tuscan flasks, holding three good bottles, and sang their stornelli in cheerfulness of .heart, and had no craving whatsoever for those few spe- cial liberties which were denied them. Epicuri de grege porci ! No progress ! Yes, I know all that, and am not saying what should have been, but what was. There was no progress. The contadini on the little farm which I came to possess before I left Tuscany cultivated it precisely after the fashion of their grand- fathers and great-grandfathers, and strenuously resisted any suggestion that it could, should, or might be cultivated * Anything to make the bread " go down," as our people say — a morsel of bacon or sausage, a handful of figs or grapes, or a bit of cheese. REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 405 in any other way. But my contadino inhabited a large and roomy casa colonica ; he and his buxom wife had six stalwart sons, and was the richer man in consequence of having them. No, in my early Florentine days the co- gito, ergo surtiy could not have been predicated of the Tus- cans. But the condition of things in the other states of the peninsula, in Venice and Lombardy under the Austrians, in Naples under the Bourbon kings, in Romagna under the pope, and very specially in Modena under its dukes of the House of Este, was much otherwise. In those regions the Italians were "thinking" a great deal, and had been thinking for some time past. And somewhere about 1849, those troublesome members of the body social who are not contented with eating, drinking, and singing — cantank- erous reading and writing people living in towns, who wanted most unreasonably to say, as the phrase goes, that " their souls were their own " (as if such fee-simple rights ever fall to the lot of any man !) — began in Tuscany to give signs that they also were "thinking." I remember well that Alberi, the highly accomplished and learned editor of the " Reports of the Venetian Am- bassadors," and of the great edition of Galileo's works, was the first man who opened my altogether innocent eyes to the fact that the revolutionary leaven was working in Tuscany, and that there were social breakers ahead. This must have been as early as 1845, or possibly 1844. Al- beri himself was a Throne-and-Altar man, who thought, for his part, that the amount of proprietorship over his own soul which the existing regime allowed him was enough for his purposes. But, as he confided to me, a very strong current of opinion was beginning to run the other way in Florence, in Leghorn, in Lucca, and many smaller cities — not in Siena, which always was, and is still, a nest of conservative feeling. Nevertheless there never was, at least in Florence, the strength and bitterness of revolutionary feeling that exist- ed almost everywhere else throughout Italy. I remember a scene which furnished a very remarkable proof of this, and which was at the same time very curiously and signifi- 406 WHAT I REMEMBER. cantly characteristic of the Florentine character, at least as it then existed. It was during the time of the Austrian occupation of Florence. On the whole the Austrian troops behaved well ; and their doings, and the spirit in which the job they had in hand was carried out, were very favorably con- trasted with the tyranny, the insults, and the aggressive arrogance with which the French army of occupation afflicted the Romans. The Austrians accordingly were never hated in Florence with the bitter intensity of hate which the French earned in the Eternal City. Neverthe- less, there were now and then occasions when the Floren- tine populace gratified their love of a holiday and testified to the purity of their Italian patriotism by turning out into the streets and kicking up a row. It was on an occasion of this sort that the narrow street called Por' Santa Maria, which runs up from the Ponte Vecchio to the Piazza, was thickly crowded with people. A young lieutenant had been sent to that part of the town with a small detachment of cavalry to clear the streets. Judging from the aspect of the people, as his men, coming down the Lung' Arno, turned into the narrow street, he did not half like the job before him. He thought there certainly would be bloodshed. And just as his men were turning the corner and beginning to push their horses into the crowd, one of them slipped sideways on the flagstones, with which, most distressingly to horses not used to them, the streets of Florence are paved, and came down with his rider partly under him. The officer thought, "Now for trouble ! That man will be killed to a certainty." The crowd — who were filling the air with shouts of " Morte .^" " Ahhasso r Austria /" ^'Morte agli AustriaciP^* — crowded round the fallen trooper, while the officer tried to push forward towards the spot. But when he got within earshot, and could see also what was taking place, he saw the people immediate- ly round the fallen man busily disengaging him from his horse. ^' poveritio / Ti sei fatto male? Orsu! JVofi * " Death !" " Down with Austria !" *' Death to the Austrians !" REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 407 saraniente! Su! A cavallo,ehf^^ And having helped the man to remount, they returned to their amusement of ^^3Iorte agli Austriaci /" The young officer perceived that he had a very different sort of populace to deal with trom an angry crowd on the other side of the Alps, or indeed on the other side of the Apennines. I remember another circumstance which occurred a few years previously to that just mentioned, and which was in its way equally characteristic. In one of the principal cafes of Florence, situated on the Piazza del Diiomo — the cathedral yard — a murder was committed. The deed was done in full daylight, when the cafe was full of people. Such crimes, and indeed violent crimes of any sort, were exceedingly rare in Florence. That in question was com- mitted by stabbing, and the motive of the criminal, who had come to Florence for the express purpose of killing his enemy, w^as vengeance for a great wrong. Having ac- complished his purpose, he quietly walked out of the cafe and went away. I happened to be on the spot shortly afterwards, and inquired, with some surprise at the escape of the murderer, why he had not been arrested red-handed. " He had a sword in his hand !" said the person to whom I had addressed myself, in a tone w^hich implied that that quite settled the matter — that of course it was absolutely out of the question to attempt to interfere with a man who had a sword in his hand ! It is a very singular thing, and one for which it is diffi- cult to offer any satisfactory explanation, that the change in Florence in respect to the prevalence of crime has been of late years very great indeed. I have mentioned more than once, I think, the very remarkable absence of all crimes of violence which characterized Florence in the earlier time of my residence there. It was not due to rigorous repression or vigilance of the police, as may be partly judged by the above anecdote. There was, in fact, no police that merited the name. But anything in the nature of burglary was unheard of. The streets were so * " Oh, poor fellow ! Have you hurt yourself ? Up with you ! It will be nothing ! Up ! Again on your horse, eh ?" 408 WHAT I REMEMBER. absolutely safe that any lady might have traversed them alone at any hour of the day or night. And I might add to the term " crimes of violence " the further statement that pocket-picking was equally unheard of. JS^ow there is perhaps more crime of a heinous character in Florence, in proportion to the population, than in any city in the peninsula. I think that about the first indica- tion that all that glittered in the mansuetude of Firenze la Gentile was not gold showed itself on the occasion of an attempt to naturalize at Florence the traditional sport- iveness of the Roman Carnival. There and then, as all the world knows, it has been the immemorial habit for the population, high and low, to pelt the folks in the car- riages during their Corso procession with bonbons, bou- quets, and the like. Gradually at Rome this exquisite fooling has degenerated under the influence of modern no- tions till the bouquets having become cabbage stalks, very effective as offensive missiles, and the bonbons plaster-of- Paris pellets, with an accompanying substitution of a spiteful desire to inflict injury for the old horse-play, it has become necessary to limit the duration of the Satur- nalia to the briefest span, with the sure prospect of its being very shortly altogether prohibited. But at Flor- ence on the first occasion, now several years ago, of an attempt to imitate the Roman practice, the conduct of the populace was such as to demand imperatively the im- mediate suppression of it. The carriages and the occu- pants of them were attacked by such volleys of stones and mud, and the animus of the people was so evidently malevolent and dangerous, that they were at once driven from the scene, and any repetition of the practice was for- bidden. It is so remarkable as to be, at all events, worth noting, that contemporaneously with this singular deterioration in respect to crime, another social change has taken place in Florence. La Gentile Fire^ize has of late years be- come very markedly the home of clericalism of a high and aggressive type. This is an entirely new feature in the Florentine social world. In the old time clerical vicAvs were sufiiciently supported by the government to give REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 409 rise to the famous Madiai incident, which has been before alluded to. But clericalism in its more aggressive aspects was not in the ascendant either bureaucratically or social- ly. The spirit which had informed the policy and gov- ernment of the famous Leopoldine laws was still suffi- ciently alive in the mental habitudes of both governors and governed to render Tuscany a rather suspected and dis- liked region in the mind of the Vatican and of the secular governments which sympathized with the Vatican's views and sentiments. The change that has taken place is there- fore a very notable one. I have no such sufficiently inti- mate knowledge of the subject as would justify me in link- ing together the two changes I have noticed in the con- nection of cause and effect. I only note the synchronism. On the other hand there are not wanting sociologists who maintain that the cause of the outburst of lawless- ness and crime which has undeniably characterized Flor- ence of late years is to be sought for exactly in that old- time, easy-going tolerance in religious matters which they say is now producing a tardy but sure crop from seeds that, however long in disclosing the true nature of the harvest to be expected from them, ought never to have been expected by wise legislators to produce any other. Noil nostrum est tantas componere lites! But Florence is certainly no longer Firenze la Gentile, as she so emi- nently was in the days when I knew her so well. When any of the other cities of Italy have in any degree ceased to merit the traditional epithets which so many successive generations assigned to them — how far Genoa is still la Superba, Bologna la Grassa, Padua la Dotta, Lucca la Industriosa — I cannot say. Venezia is unques- tionably still la Bella. And as for old Rome, she vindi- cates more than ever her title to the epithet Eterna, by her similitude to those nursery toys which, throw them about as you will, still with infallible certitude come down heads uppermost. As for the Florence of my old recollections, there were in the early days of them many little old-world sights and sounds which are to be seen and heard no longer, and which differentiated the place from other social centres. 18 410 WHAT I REMEMBER. I remember a striking incident of this sort which hap- pened to my mother and myself " in the days before the flood," therefore very shortly after our arrival there. It was the practice in those days to carry the bodies of the dead on open biers, with uncovered faces, to their burial. It had doubtless been customary in old times so to carry all the dead ; but the custom was retained at the time of which I am writing only in the case of distinguished persons, and very generally of the priesthood. I remem- ber, for instance, a poor little humpbacked grand duchess being so carried through the street magnificently be- decked as if she were going to a ball, and with painted cheeks. She had been a beneficent little body, and the people, as far as they knew anything about her, revered her, and looked on her last presentation to them with sym- pathetic feelings. But it was a sorry sight to see the poor little body, looking much like a bedizened monkey, so paraded. Well, my mother and I were, aimlessly but much admir- ingly, wandering about the vast spaces of the cathedral when we became aware of 2^funzione of some sort — a ser- vice as we should say — being conducted in a far part of the building. There was no great crowd, but a score or two of spectators, mainly belonging to the gamin category, were standing around the officiating priests and curiously looking on. We went towards the spot, and found that the burial service was being performed over the body of a young priest. The body lay on its back on the open bier, clad in full canonicals and with the long tasselled cap of the secular clergy on his head. We stood and gazed with the others, when suddenly I saw the dead man's head slightly move ! A shiver, I confess, ran through me. A moment's reflection, however, reminded me of the recognized deceit- fulness of the eyes in such matters, and I did not doubt that I had been mistaken. But the next minute I again saw the dead priest slightly shake his head, and this time I was sure that I was not mistaken. I clutched ray moth- er's arm and pointed, and again saw the awful phenomenon, which sent a cold wave through both of us from head to foot. But nobody save ourselves seemed to have seen REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 411 anything unusual. The service was proceeding in its wonted order. Doubting whether it might possibly be one of those horrible cases of suspended animation and mistaken death, I was thinking whether it were not my duty to call attention to the startling thing we had seen, and had with outstretched neck and peering eyes advanced a step for further observation, and with the half-formed purpose of declaring aloud that the man was not dead, when I spied crouched beneath the bier a little monkey, some nine or ten years old, who had taken in his hand the tassel of the cap, which hung down between the wooden bars which formed the bier, and was amusing himself with slowly swaying it forward and backward, and had thus communicated the motion to the dead man's head ! It was almost impossible to believe that the little urchin had been able to reach the position he occupied without hav- ing been observed by anj^ of the clerical attendants, of whom several were present, and still more difficult to sup- pose that no one of them had seen what we saw, standing immediately in front of the corpse while one of them per- formed the rite of lustration with holy water, the vessel containing which was held by another. But no one inter- fered, and none but those who know the Florentines as well as I know them can feel how curiously and intensely characteristic of them was the fact that no one did so. The awful reverence for death which would have impelled an Englishman of almost any social position to feel in- dignation and instantly put a stop to what he would con- sider a profanation, was absolutely unknown to all those engaged in that perfunctory rite. A certain amount of trouble and disturbance would have been caused by dis- lodging the culprit, and each man there felt only this ; that it didn't matter a straw, and that there was no reason for Mm to take the trouble of noticing it. As far as I could observe, the amusement the little wretch derived from his performance was entirely unsocial, and confined to his own breast ; for I could not see that any of the gamin fraternity noticed it, or cared about it, any more than their seniors. I remember another somewhat analogous adventure of 412 WHAT I REMEMBER. mine, equally illustrative of the Florentine habits of those days. I saw a man suddenly stagger and fall in the street. It was in the afternoon, and there were many persons in the street, some of them nearer to the fallen man than I was, but nobody attempted to help him. I stepped for- ward to do so, and was about to take hold of him and try to raise him, when one of the bystanders eagerly caught me by the arm, saying, " He is dying, he is dying !" " Let us try to raise him," said I, still pressing forward. " You mustn't, you mustn't ! It is not permitted," he added, as he perceived that he was speaking to a foreigner, and then went on to explain to me that what must be done was to call the Misericordia, for which purpose one must run and ring a certain bell attached to the chaj)el of that brother- hood in the Piazza del Duomo. Among the many things that have been written of the Florentine Misericordia, I do not think that I have met with the statement that it used to be universally believed in Florence that the law gave the black brethren the privi- lege and the monopoly of picking up any dying or dead person in the streets, and that it was forbidden to any one else to do so. Whether any such laio really existed I much doubt, but the custom of acting in accordance with it, and the belief that such practice was imperative, undoubtedly did. And I have no doubt that many a life has been sacrificed to it. The half-hour or twenty minutes which necessarily elapsed before the Misericordia could be called and answer the call must often have been supremely im- portant, and in many cases ought to have been employed in the judicious use of the lancet. The sight of the black-robed and black-cowled brethren, as they went about the streets on their errands of mercy, was common enough in Florence. But the holiday visitor had very little opportunity of hearing anything of the in- ternal management and rules of that peculiar mediaeval society or of the nature of the work it did. The Florentine Misericordia was founded in the days when pestilence was ravaging the city so fiercely that the dead lay uncared for in the streets, because there was no man sufficiently courageous to bury or to touch them. REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 413 The members of the association, which was formed for the performance of this charitable and arduous duty, chose for themselves a costume the object of which was the ab- solute concealment of the individual performing it. A loose black linen gown drapes the figure from the neck to the heels, and a black cowl, with two holes cut for the eyes, covers and effectually conceals the head and face. For more than five hundred years, up to the present day, the dress remains the same, and no human being, either of those to whom their services are rendered, or of the thou- sands who see them going about in the performance of their self-imposed duty, can know whether the mysterious weird-looking figure he sees be prince or peasant. He knows that he may be either, for the members of the brotherhood are drawn from all classes of society. It used to be whispered, and I have good reasons for be- lieving the whisper to have been true, that the late grand duke was a member, and took his turn of duty with his brethren. Some indiscreet personal attendant blabbed the secret, for assuredly the duke himself was never untrue to the oath which binds the members to secrecy. The whole society is divided into a number of com- panies, one of which is by turns on duty. There is a large, most melancholy, and ominously sounding bell in the chapel of the brotherhood (not that already mentioned by which anybody can call the attention of the brother in permanent attendance, but a much larger one), which is heard all over the city. This summons the immediate attendance of every member of the company on duty, and the mysterious black figures may any day be seen hurry- ing to the rendezvous. There they learn the nature of the call, and the place at which their presence is required. I remember the case of an English girl who was fear- fully burned at a villa at some little distance from the city. The injuries were so severe that, while it was extremely desirable that she should be removed to a hospital, there was much doubt as to the possibility of moving her. In this difticulty the Misericordia were summoned. They came, five or six of them, bringing with them their too well-known black-covered litter, and transported the pa- 414 WHAT I REMEMBER. tient to the hospital, lifting her from her bed and placing her in the litter with an exquisitely delicate and skilled gentleness of handling which spared her suffering to the utmost, and excited the surprise and admiration of the English medical man who witnessed the operation. Every part of the work, every movement, was executed in ab- solute silence and with combined obedience to signalled orders from the leader of the company. Another case which was brought under my notice was that of a woman suffering from dropsy, which made the necessary removal of her a very arduous and difficult operation. It would probably have been deemed impos- sible save by the assistance of the Misericordia, who man- aged so f eatly and deftly that those who saw it marvelled at the skill and accurately co-operating force, which noth- ing but long practice could have made possible. It is a law of the brotherhood, never broken, that they are to accept nothing, not so much as a glass of water, in any house to which they are called. The Florentines well know how much they owe as a community, and how much each man may some day come to owe personally to the Misericordia; and when the doleful clang of their well- known bell is heard booming over the city, women may be seen to cross themselves with a muttered prayer, while men, ashamed of their religiosity, but moved by feeling as well as habit, will furtively do the same. There is an association at Rome copied from that at Florence, and vowed to the performance of very similar duties. I once had an opportunity of seeing the registers of this Roman Misericordia, and was much impressed by the frequently recurring entry of excursions into the Cam- pagna to bring in the corpses of men murdered and left there ! CHAPTER XXXI. REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE — Continued. Among the other things that contributed to make those Florence cla5^s very pleasant ones, we did a good deal in the way of private theatricals. Our impresario^ at least in the earlier part of the time, was Arthur Vansittart. He engaged the Cocomero Theatre for our performances, and to the best of my remembrance defrayed the whole of the expense out of his own pocket. Yansittart was an excep- tionally tall man, a thread-paper of a man, and a very bad actor. He was exceedingly noisy, and pushed vivacity to its extreme limits. I remember well his appearance in some play — I fancy it was in "The Road to Ruin," in which I represented some character, I entirely forget what — where he comes on with a four-in-hand whip in his hand ; and I remember, too, that for the other performers in that piece, their appearance on the stage was a service of dan- ger, from which the occupants of the stage-boxes w^ere not entirely free. But he was inexhaustibly good-natured and good-humored, and gave us excellent suppers after the performance. Then there was Edward Hobhouse, with — more or less with — his exceedingly pretty and clever wife, and her sis- ter, the not at all pretty but still more clever and very witty Miss Graves. Hobhouse was a man abounding in talent of all sorts, extremely witty, brimful of humor, a thorough good fellow, and very popular. He and his wife, though very good friends, did not entirely pull together ; and it used to be told of him that, replying to a man who asked him "How's your wife?" he answered, with much humorous semblance of indignation, " Well, if you come to that, how's yours ?" Hobhouse was far and away the cleverest and best-educated man of the little set (these dramatic reminiscences refer to the early years of my 416 WHAT I REMEMBER. Florence life), and, in truth, was somewhat regrettably wasted in the midst of such a frivolous and idle commu- nity. But I take it that he was much of an invalid. Of course we got up "The Rivals." I was at first Bob Acres, with an Irishman of the name of Torrens for my Sir Lucius, which he acted, when we could succeed in keeping him sober, to the life. My Bob Acres was not much of a success. And I subsequently took Sir Anthony, which remained my stock part for years, and which I was considered to do well. Sir Francis Vincent, a resident in Florence for many years, with whom I was for several of them very intimate, played the ungrateful part of Falkland. He was a heavy actor with fairly good elocution and delivery, and not un- fitted for a part which it might have been difficult to fill without him. He was to a great degree a reading man, and had a considerable knowledge of the byw^ays of Flor- entine history. My mother "brought the house down" nightly as Mrs. Malaprop; and a very exceptionally beautiful Madame de Parcieu (an Englishwoman married to a Frenchman) was, in appearance, manih^e cVetre, and deportment, the verita- ble beau ideal of Lydia Languish, and might have made a furore on any stage, if it had been possible to induce her to raise her voice sufficiently. She was most good-nat- uredly amenable. But when she was thus driven against her nature and habits to speak out, all the excellence of her acting was gone. The meaning of the words was taken out of them. Sir Anthony Absolute became, as I said, my stock part. And the phrase is justified by my having acted it many years afterwards in a totally different company — I the only remaining brick of the old edifice — and to audiences not one of w^hom could have witnessed the performances of those earlier days. Mrs. Richie, an American lady — who had, T think, been known on a London stage under the name of " Mowatt " — was in those latter days, now so far away in the dim past, our manageress. Mrs. Proby, the wife — now, I am sorry to say, the widow — of the British consul, was on that occasion our Mrs. Malaprop, and was REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 417 an excellent representative of that popular lady, .though she will, I am sure, forgive me for saying not so perfect a one as my mother. Quite indescribably strange is the effect on my mind of looking back at my three Thespian avatars — Falstaff at Cincinnati, Acres and Sir Anthony in Grand Ducal Flor- ence, and Sir Anthony again in a liberated Tuscany. I seem to myself like some old mail-coach guard, who goes through the whole long journey, while successive coach- men "Leave you here, sir?" But then in my case the passengers are all changed too ; and I arrive at the end of the journey without one " inside " or " outside " of those who started with me. I can still blow my horn cheerily, however, and chat with the passengers who joined the coach w^hen my journey w^as half done as if they were quite old fellow-travellers. It must not be imagined, however, that that pleasant life at Florence w^as all cakes and ale. I was, upon the whole, a hard worker. I wrote a series of volumes on various portions of Italian, and especially Florentine history, beginning with ^' The Girlhood of Catharine de' Medici." They were all fairly well received, the "Life of Filippo Strozzi" perhaps the more so. But the volume on the story of the great quarrel between the Papacy and Venice, entitled " Paul the Pope and Paul the Friar," was, I think, the best. The volumes entitled " A Decade of Italian Women," and dealing with ten typical historic female figures, has attained, I believe, to some share of public favor. I see it not unfrequently quoted by writers on Italian subjects. Then I made a more am- bitious attempt, and produced a " History of the Common- wealth of Florence," in four volumes. Such a work appeals, of course, to a comparatively limited audience. But that it was recognized to have some value among certain Anglo-Saxons whose favorable judgment in the matter was worth having, may be gathered from the fact that it has been a text-book in our own and in trans- atlantic universities ; while a verdict perhaps still more flattering (though I will not say more gratifying) was given by Professor Pasquale Villari (noAv^ senator of the 18* 418 WHAT I REMEMBER. kingdom of Italy), who, in a letter in my possession, pro- nounces my history of Florence to be in his opinion the best work on the subject extant. Professor Villari is not only an accomplished scholar of a wide range of culture, but his praise of any work on Italian — and perhaps especially on Tuscan — history comes from no " prentice han'." His masterly " Life of Macchia- velli" is as well known in our country as in his own, through the translation of it into English by his gifted wife, Linda Villari, whilom Linda White, and my very valued friend. All these historical books were written con amove. The study of bygone Florentines had an in- terest for me which was quickened by the daily and hour- ly study of living Florentines. It was curious to mark in them resemblances of character, temperament, idiosyn- crasy, defects, and merits to those of their forefathers who move and breathe before us in the pages of such old chroniclers as Villani, Segni, Varchi, and the rest, and in sundry fire-graven strophes and lines of their mighty poet. Dante's own local and limited characteristics, as distin- guished from the universality of his poetic genius, have always seemed to me quintessentially Tuscan. Of course it is among the lower" orders that such traits are chiefly found, and among the lower orders in the coun- try more than those in the towns. But there is, or was, for I speak of years ago, a considerable conservative pride in their own inherited customs and traditions common to all classes. Especially this is perceived in the speech of the genuine Florentine. Quaint proverbs, not always of scrupulous refinement, old-world phrases, local allusions, are stuffed into the conversation of your real citizen or citizeness of Firenze la Gentile as thickly as the beads in the vezzo di corallo on the neck of a contadina. And, above all, the accent — the soft (not to say slobbering) c and g, and the guttural aspirate which turns casa into hasa and capitale into hapitale, and so forth — this is cherished with peculiar fondness. I have heard a young, elegant, and accomplished woman discourse in very choice Italian with the accent of a market-woman, and, on being remonstrated with for the REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 41 9 use of some very pungent proverbial illustration in her talk, she replied with conviction, " That is the right way to speak Tuscan. I have nothing to do with what Ital- ians from other provinces may prefer. But pure, racy Tuscan — the Tuscan tongue that we have inherited — is spoken as I speak it — or ought to be !" I had gathered together, partly for my own pleasure, and partly in the course of historical researches, a valu- able collection of works on Storia Patria, which were sold by me when I gave up my house there. The reading of Italian, even very crabbed and ancient Italian which might have puzzled more than one " elegant scholar," be- came quite easy and familiar to me, but I have never attained a colloquial mastery over the language. I can talk, to be sure, with the most incorrect fluency, and I can make myself understood — at all events by Italians, whose quick, sympathetic apprehension of one's meaning, and courteous readiness to assist a foreigner in any linguistic straits, are deserving of grateful recognition from all of us who, however involuntarily, maltreat their beautiful lan- guage. But the colloquial use of a language must be acquired when the organs are young and lissom. I began too late. And,besides, I have labored under the great disadvantage that my deafness prevents me from sharing in the hourly lessons which those who hear all that is going on around them profit by. Besides the above-mentioned historical works, I wrote well-nigh a score, I think, of novels, which also had no great, but a fair, share of success. The majority of them are on Italian subjects ; and these, if I may be allowed to say so, are good. The pictures they give of Italian men and women, and things and habits, are true, vivid, and ac- curate. Those which I wrote on English subjects are un- questionably bad. I had been living the best part of a lifetime out of England ; I knew but little comparatively of English life, and I had no business to meddle with such subjects. But, besides all this, I was always writing in periodical publications of all sorts, English and American, to such an extent that I should think the bulk of it, if 420 WHAT I REMEMBER. brought together, would exceed that of all the many vol- umes I am answerable for. No, my life in that Castle of Indolence — Italy — was not 2^, far-niente one. We were great at picnics in those Florence days. Per- haps the most favorite place of all for such parties was Pratolino, a park belonging to the grand duke, about seven miles from Florence, on the Bologna road. These seven miles wave almost all more or less up hill, and when the high ground on which the park is situated has been reached, there is a magnificent view over the Val d' Arno, its thousand villas, and Florence, with its circle of sur- rounding hills. There was once a grand-ducal residence there, which was famous in the later Medicean days for the multiplic- ity and ingenuity of its water-works. All kinds of sur- prises, picturesque and grotesque effects, and practical jokes, had been prepared by the ingenious but somewhat childish skill of the architect. Turning the handle of a door would produce a shower-bath, sofas would become suddenly boats surrounded by water, and such-like more or less disagreeable surprises to visitors, who were new to the specialties of the place. But all this practical joking was at length fatal to the scene of it. The pipes and conduits got out of order, and eventually so ruined the edifice that it had to be taken down, and has never been replaced. But the principal object of attraction — besides the view, the charming green turf for dining on, the facility for get- ting hot water, plates, glasses, etc., from a gardener's house, and a large hall in the same, good for dancing — was the singular colossal figure, representing " The Apennine," said to have been designed by Michael Angelo. One used to clamber up inside this figure, which sits in a half crouch- ing attitude, and reach on the top of the head a platform, on which four or five persons could stand and admire the matchless view. About three miles farther, still always ascending the slope of the Apennine, is a Servite monastery which is the cradle and mother establishment of the order. Sometimes we used to extend our rambles thither. The brethren had REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 421 the reputation, I remember, of possessing a large and val- uable collection of prints. They were not very willing to exhibit it ; but I did once succeed in examining it, and, as I remember, found that it contained nothing much worth looking at. A much more favorite amusement of mine was a picnic arranged to last for two or three days, and intended to em- brace objects farther afield. Yallombrosa was a favorite and admirably well-selected locality for this purpose. And many a day and moonlight night never to be forgotten have I spent there. Sometimes we pushed our expeditions to the more distant convents — or " sanctuaries," as they were called — of Camaldoli and La Vernia. And of one very memorable excursion to these two places I shall have to speak in a subsequent chapter. Meantime those dull mutterings as of distant thunder, which Signor Alberi had, as mentioned at a former page, first signalized to me, were gradually growing into a roar which was attracting the attention and lively interest of all Europe. Of the steady increase in the volume of this roar, and of the results in which it eventuated, I need say little here, for I have already said enough in a volume entitled "Tuscany in 1849 and in 1859." But I may jot down a few recollections of the culminating day of the Florentine revolution. I had been out from an early hour of that morning, and had assisted at sundry street discussions of the question, What would the troops do ? Such troops as were in Flor- ence were mainly lodged in the forts, the Fortezza da Basso, which I have had occasion to mention in a former chapter, and the other situated on the high ground beyond the Boboli Gardens, and therefore immediately above the Pitti Palace. My house at the corner of the large square, now the Piazza dell' Indipendenza, was almost immediately under the walls and the guns of the Fortezza da Basso ; but I felt sure that the troops would simply do nothing ; might very possibly fraternize with the people, but would in no case burn a cartridge for the purpose of keeping the grand duke on his throne. 422 WHAT I REMEMBER. A short, wide street runs in a straight line from the middle of one side of the Piazza to the fort ; and a consid- erable crowd of people, at about ten o'clock, I think, be- gan to advance slowly up this street towards the fortezza-f and I went with them. High above our heads, on the turf-covered top of the lofty wall, there were a good num- ber, perhaps thirty or forty soldiers, not drawn up in line, but apparently merely lounging, and enjoying the air and sunshine. They had, I think all of them, their muskets in their hands, but held them idly and with apparently no thought whatever of using them. I felt confirmed in my opinion that they had no intention of doing so. Arrived at the foot of the fortress wall, the foremost of the people began calling out to the soldiers, ^' Abbasso V Austria! Siete per Italia o per V Austria .^" I did not — and it is significant — hear any cries of ^^ Abbasso il Gran DucaP'' The soldiers, as far as I could see at that distance, appeared to be lazily laughing at the people. One man called out, " Ecco un bel muro per fracassare il capo contro /" — " That is an excellent wall to break your heads against !" It was very plain that they had no in- tention of making any hostile demonstration against the crowd. At the same time there was no sort of manifesta- tion of any inclination to fraternize with the revolution- ists. They were simply waiting to see how matters would go ; and, under the circumstances, they can hardly be se- verely blamed for doing so. But there can be no doubt that, whichever way things might go, their view of the matter would be strongly influenced by the very decided opinion that that course would be best w^hich should not imply the necessity for doing anything. I think that the feeling generally in " the army," if such it could be called, was on the whole kindly to the grand duke, but not to the extent of being willing to fight anybody, least of all the Florentines, in his defence ! How matters did go it is not necessary to tell here. If ever there was a revolution " made with rose-water," it was the revolution which deposed the poor gran ciuco. I don't think it cost any human being in all Florence a scratch or a bloody nose. It cost an enormous amount of REMINISCENCES AT FLORENCE. 423 talking and screaming, but nothing else. At the same time it is fair to remember that the popular leaders could not be sure that matters might not have taken another turn, and that it might have gone hard with some of them. In any case, however, it would not have gone very hard with any of them. Probably exile would have been the worst fate meted out to them. It is true that exile from Tuscany just then would have been attended by a similar difficulty to that which caused the old Scotch lad}^, w^hen urged to run during an earthquake, to repl}^, " Ay, but whar wull I run to ?" I do not think there was any bitter, or much even un- kind, feeling on the part of the citizens towards the sover- eign against whom they rebelled. If any fact or circum- stance could be found which was calculated to hold him up to ridicule it was eagerly laid hold of, but there was no fiercer feeling. A report was spread during the days that immediately followed the duke's departure that orders had been given to the officers in the upper fortress to turn their cannon on the city at the first sign of rising. Such reports were very acceptable to those who, for political purposes, would fain have seen somewhat of stronger feeling against the duke. I have good reason to believe that such orders had been given, but I have still stronger reasons for doubting that they were ever given by the grand duke. And I am surest of all that, let them have been given by whom they may, there was not the smallest chance of their being obeyed. As for the duke himself, I am very sure that he would have given or even done much to prevent any such catastrophe. But perhaps the most remarkable and most singular scene of all that rose-water revolution was the duke's de- parture from his capital and his duchy. Other sovereigns in similar plight have hidden themselves, travestied them- selves, had hairbreadth escapes, or have not escaped at all. In Tuscany the fallen ruler went forth in his own carriao-e, with one other following it, both rather heavily laden with luggage. The San Gallo gate is that by which the hearse that conveys the day's dead to the cemetery on the slope 424 WHAT I REMEMBER. of the Apennine leaves the city every night. And the duke passed amid the large crowd assembled at the gate to see him go, as peaceably as the vehicle conveying those whose days in Florence, like his, were at an end, went out a few hours later by the same road. CHAPTER XXXTI. LETTERS FROM PEARD. GARIBALDI. LETTERS FROM PULSZKT. Among the very great number of men and women whom I have known during my life in Italy — some merely ac- quaintances, and many whom I knew to be, and a few, alas ! a very few, whom I still know to be trusty friends — there were many of whom the world has heard, and some perhaps of whom it would not unwillingly hear something more. But time and space are limited, and I must select as best I may. I have a very pleasant recollection of " Garibaldi's Eng- lishman," Colonel Peard. Peard had many more qualities and capabilities than such as are essential to a soldier of fortune. The phrase, however, is perhaps not exactly that which should be us»d to characterize him. He had qualities which the true soldier of fortune should not pos- sess. His partisanship was with him in the highest degree a matter of conviction and conscientious opinion, and nothing would have tempted him to change his colors or draw his sword on the other side. I am not sure, either, whether a larger amount of native brain power, and (in a much greater degree) a higher quality of culture, than that of the general under whom it may be his fortune to serve, is a good part of the equipment of a soldier of fortune. And Peard 's relation to Garibaldi very notably exempli- fied this. He was a native of Devonshire, as was my first wife ; we saw a good deal of him in Florence, and I have before me a letter written to her by him from Naples on the 28th of January, 1861, which is interesting in more re- spects than one. Peard was a man who idould have all that depended on him ship-shape. And this fact, taken in conjunction with the surroundings amid which he had 426 WHAT I REMEMBER. to do his work, is abundantly sufficient to justify the growl he indulges in. " My dkar Mrs. Trollope," he writes, " I am asliamed to think either of .you or of other friends at Florence ; it is such an age since I have writ- ten to any of you. But I have been daily, from morning to night, hard at work for weeks. The honor of having a command is all very well, but the trouble and worry are unspeakable. Besides, I had such a set under me that it was enough to rile the sweetest-tempered man. Volunteers may be very well in their way. I doubt not their efficiency in repelling an attack in their own country, but defend me from ever again command- ing a brigade of English volunteers In a foreign country. As to the offi- cers, many were most mutinous, and some something worse. Thank goodness, the brigade is at an end. All I now wait for is the settlement of the accounts. If I can get away by the second week in February I at present think of taking a run as far as Cairo, then crossing to Jerusalem, and back by Jaffa, Beyrout, Smyrna, and Athens to Italy, when I shall once more hope to see you and yours. "Politics do not look well in Southern Italy, I fear. The Mazzinists have been most active, and have got up a rather strong feeling against Cavour and what they think the peace party. Now Italy must have a lit- tle rest for organization, civil as well as military. They do not give the government time to do or even propose good measures for the improve- ment of the country. No sooner are one set of ministers installed than intrigues are on foot to upset them. I firmly believe that the only hope for Southern Italy and Sicily is in a strong military government. These districts must be treated as conquered provinces, and the people educated and taught habits of industry, whether they like it or not. The country is at present in a state of barbarism, and must be saved from that. All that those who are supposed to be educated seem to think about is how they can get a few dollars out of government. [I fear the honest Englishman would find that those supposed to be educated in those provinces are as much in a state of barbarism in the matters that offended him as ever.] I never saw such a set of harpies in my life. One had the assurance to come to me a few days since, asking if I could not take him on the strength of the brigade, so as to enable him to get six months' pay out of the government. As to peculation, read 'Gil Bias,' and that will give you a faint sketch of the customs and habits of all impiegati [civil servants] in this part of Ita- ly. I do not believe that the Southern Italians, taken as a body, know what honesty is, [All that he says is true to the present day. But the dis- tinction which he makes between the Southern Italians and those of the other provinces is most just, and must be remembered.] But that is the fault of the horrid system of tyranny under which they have so long lived. I do not say that the old system must be reformed ; it must be totally changed. Solomon might make laws, but so corrupt are all the impiegati that I doubt if he could get them carried out. Poor Garibaldi is made a tool of by a set of designing intriguers, who will sacrifice him at any mo- ment. He is too honest to see or believe of dishonesty in others. He has LETTERS FROM PEARD. 427 no judgment of character. He has been surrounded by a set of blacklegs and swindlers, many among them, I regret to say, English. How I look forward to seeing you all again ! Till we meet, believe me, " Most truly yours, Gio. [sic'] Peard." The last portion of this letter is highly interesting and historically well worth preserving. It is entirely and ac- curately true. And there was no man in existence more fitted by native integrity and hatred of dishonesty on the one hand, and close intimacy with the subject of his re- marks on the other, to speak authoritatively on the matter than " Garibaldi's Englishman." The following letter, written, as will be seen, on the eve of his departure for the celebrated expedition to Sicily, is also interesting. It is dated Genoa. "Dear Mrs. Trollope, — I have been thinking over your observations about tetmo. I don't give up my translation ; but would it not be literal enough to translate it, ' the bravest three colors ?' [This refers to the rendering of the lottery phrase terno in a translation by my wife of the stornello of Dall' Ongaro previously mentioned. In the Italian lottery, ninety numbers, 1-90, are always put into the wheel. Five only of these are drawn out. The player bets that a number named by him shall be one of these {semplice estratto) ; or that it shall be the first drawn {estratto determinato) ; or that two numbers named by him shall be two of the five drawn (ambo) ; or that three so named shall be drawn {terno). It will be seen, therefore, that the winner of an estratto determinato ought, if the play were quite even, to receive ninety times his stake. But, in fact, such a player would receive only seventy-five times his stake, the profit of the government consisting of this pull of fifteen per ninety against the player. Of course, what he ought to receive in any of the other cases is easily (not by me, but by experts) calculable. It will be ad- mitted that the difficulty of translating the phrase in Dall' Ongara's little poem, so as to be intelligible to English readers, was considerable. The letter then proceeds] : "I did not start, you will see, direct from Livorno [Leghorn], for Medici wrote me to join him here. Moreover, the steamer by which I expected to have gone did not make the trip, but was sent back to this city. I will worry you with a letter when anything stirring occurs. We sail to-night. Part went off last evening — fifteen hundred. We got in three steamers, and shall overtake the others. *' With kind regards to all friends, believe me, "Yours very faithfully, John Peard." The remarks contained m the former of the two letters here transcribed seem to make this a proper place for re- cording " what I remember " of Garibaldi. 428 WHAT I REMEMBER. My first acquaintance with him was through my very old, and very highly valued, loved, and esteemed friend, Jessie White Mario. The Garibaldi culte has been with her truly and literally the object (apart from her devoted love for her husband, an equally ardent worshipper at the same shrine) for which she has lived, and for which she has again and again affronted death. For she accompa- nied him in all his Italian campaigns as a hospital nurse, and on many occasions rendered her inestimable services in that capacity under fire. If Peard has been called " Garibaldi's Englishman," truly Jessie White Mario de- serves yet more emphatically the title of " Garibaldi's Englishwoman." She has published a large life of Gari- baldi, which is far and away the best and most trust- worthy account of the man and his wonderful works. She is not blind to the spots on the sun of her adoration, nor does she seek to conceal the fact that there were such spots, but she is a true and loyal worshipper all the same. Her husband, Alberto Mario, was — alas ! that I should write so ; for no Indian wife's life was ever more ended by her suttee than Jessie Mario's life has practically been ended by her husband's untimely death ! — among the, I fear, few exceptions to Peard's remarks on the men who were around Garibaldi. He was not only a man of large literary culture, a brave soldier, an acute politician, a for- midable political adversary, and a man of perfect and in- corruptible integrity, but he would have been considered in any country and in any society in Europe a very per- fect gentleman. He was in political opinion a consistent and fearlessly outspoken Republican. He and I therefore dififered toto ccelo. But our differences never diminished our, I trust, mutual esteem, nor our friendly intercourse. But he was a horw frondeur. He edited during his latter years a newspaper at Rome, which was a thorn in the side of the authorities. I remember his being prosecuted and condemned for persistently speaking of the pope in his paper as " Signor Pecci." He was sentenced to imprison- ment. But all the government wanted was his condemna- tion ; and he was never incarcerated. But he used to go daily to the prison and demand the execution of his sen- GARIBALDI. 429 tence. The jailer used to shut the door in his face, and he narrated the result of his visit in the next day's paper. It was as Jessie Mario's friend, then, that I first knew Garibaldi. One morning at the villa I then possessed, at Rieorboli, close to Florence, a maid-servant came flying into the room, where I was still in bed at six o'clock in the morn- ing, crying out in the utmost excitement, " C^ il Geyierale! c'h il Generale! E chiede di lei, sigyioreP'' — "Here's the General ! here's the General ! And he is asking for you, sir !" She spoke as if there was but one general in all the world. But there was hardly any room in Florence at that time where her words would not have been under- stood as well as I understood them. I jumped out of bed, got into a dressing-gown, and ran out to where the " General " was on the lawn before the door, just as I was, and hardly more than half awake. There he was, all alone. But if there had been a dozen other men around him, I should have had no difficulty in recognizing him. There was the figure as well known to every Italian from Turin to Syracuse as that of his own father — the light-gray trousers, the little foraging-cap, the red shirt, the bandana handkerchief loosely thrown over his shoulders and round his neck. Prints, photographs, portraits of all kinds, have made the English public scarcely less familiar than the Italian with the physiognomy of Giuseppe Garibaldi. But no photograph, of course, and no j^ainting which I have ever seen, gives certain peculiarities of that striking head and face, as I first saw it, somewhere about twenty years ago. The pose of the head, and the general arrangement and color of the tawny hair (at that time but slightly grizzled), justified the epithet "leonine" so often applied to him. His beard and mustache were of the same hue, and his skin was probably fair by nature, but it had been tanned by wind and weather. The clear blue eyes were sur- rounded by a network of fine lines. This had no trace or suggestion of cunning, as is often the case with wrinkles round the setting of the eyes, but was obviously the result of habitual contraction of the muscles in gazing at very 430 WHAT I REMEMBER. distant objects. In short, Garibaldi's eyes, both in this respect and in respect of a certain steadfast, far-away look in thera, were the eyes of a sailor. Seamanship, as is generally known, was his first profession. Another phys- ical peculiarity of his which I do not remember to have seen noticed in print was a remarkably beautiful voice. It was fine in quality and of great range ; sweet, yet manly, and with a suggestion of stored-up power which harmonized with the man. It seemed to belong, too, to the benevolence which was the habitual expression of his face when in repose. *' Jessie [pronounced Jessee] told me I should find you up ; but you are not so early as I am !" was his salutation. I said he had dans le temps been beforehand with others as well as with me. At which he laughed, not, I thought, ill-pleased. And then we talked — about Italy of course. One subject of his talk I specially remember, because it gave rise to a little discussion, and in a great degree gave me the measure of the man. "As for the priests," said he, " they ought all to be put to death, without exception and without delay." " Rather a strong measure," I ventured to say. " Not a bit too strong, not a bit," he rejoined, warmly. "Do we not put assassins to death ? And is not the man who murders your soul worse than the man who only kills your body?" I attempted to say that the difference of the two cases lay in the fact that as to the killing of the body there was no doubt about the matter, whereas mankind differed very widely as to the killing of the soul ; and that as long as it remained a moot point whether priests did so or not, it would hardly be practicable or even politic to adopt the measure he suggested. But he would not listen to me — only repeated with in- creasing excitement that no good could come to humanity till all priests were destroyed. Then we talked about the Marios, of both of whom he spoke with the greatest affection ; and of the prospects of " going to Rome," which, of course, he considered the sim- plest and easiest thing possible. GARIBALDI. 431 I saw Garibaldi on many subsequent occasions, but never again tete-d-tete, or a quattro occhi, as the Italians more significantly phrase it. The last time I ever saw him was under melancholy circumstances enough, though the occa- sion professed to be one of rejoicing. It was at the great gathering at Palermo for celebrating the anniversary of the Sicilian Vespers. Of course such a celebration would have brought Garibaldi to partake in it, wherever he might have been, short of in his grave. And truly he was then very near that. It was a melancholy business. He was brought from the steamer to his bed in the hotel on a litter through the streets lined by the thousands who had gathered to see him, but who had been warned that his condition was such that the excitement occasioned by any shouting would be perilous to him. Amid dead silence his litter passed through the crowds who were longing to welcome him to the scene of his old triumphs. Truly it was more like a funeral procession than one of rejoicing. It was very shortly before his death, which many peo- ple thought had been accelerated by that last effort to make his boundless popularity available for the propaga- tion of Radicalism. Peard's words reveal with exactitude the deficiency which lay at the root of all the blunders, follies, and im- prudences which rendered his career less largely beneficent for Italy than it might have been. " He had no judgment of character," and was too honest to believe in knavery. It must be added that he was too little intellio-ent to de- tect it, or to estimate the consequences of it. Of any large views of social life, or of the means by which, and the ob- jects for which, men should be governed, he was as inno- cent as a baby. In a word, he was not an intellectual man. All the high qualities which placed him on the pinnacle he occupied were qualities of the heart and not of the head. They availed with admirable success to fit him for exercising a supreme influence over men, espe- cially young men, in the field, and for all the duties of a guerilla leader. They would not have sufiiced to make him a great commander of armies ; and did still less fit him for becoming a political leader. 432 WHAT I REMEMBER. Whom next sliall I present to the reader from the por- trait-gallery of my reminiscences ? Come forward, Franz Pulszky, most genial, most large- hearted of philosophers and friends ! — I can't say "guides," for though he was both the first, he was not the last, dif- fering widely as we did upon — perhaps not most, but at all events — many large subjects. I had known the lady whom Pulszky married in Vienna many years previously, and long before he knew her. She was the daughter of that highly cultivated Jewish family of whom I have spoken before. When I first knew her she was as pretty and charming a young girl as could be imagined. She was possessed then of all the accomplish- ments that can adorn a girl at that period of life. Later on she showed that she was gifted with sense, knowledge, energy, firmness, courage, and caracthre in a degree very uncommon. Since leaving Vienna I had neither seen nor heard more of her, till she came to live with her husband and family of children in Florence. But our old acquaint- anceship was readily and naturally renewed, and his villa near the city became one of the houses I best loved to frequent. She had at that time, and even well-nigh I take it in those old days at Vienna, abandoned all seem- ino- of conformity to the practices of the faith she was born in. I used to say of Pulszky that he was like a barrel full to the bung with generous liquor, which flowed in a full stream, stick the spigot in where you would. He was — is, I am happy to say is the proper tense in his case — a most many-sided man. His talk on artistic subjects, mainly his- torical and biographical, was abundant and most amusing. His antiquarian knowledge was large. His ethnographical learning, theories, and speculations were always interest- ing and often most suggestive. Years had, I think, put some water in the wine of his political ideas, but not enough to prevent differences between us on such sub- jects. He was withal — there again I mean " is," for I am sure that years and the air of his beloved Pesth cannot have put any water in that generous and genial wine — a fellow of infinite jest, and full of humor ; in a word, one LETTERS FROM PULSZKY. 433 of the fullest and most delightful companions I have ever known. He talked English with no further accent than served to add a raciness to the flavor of his conversation ; and every morning of one fixed day in the week he used to come to Ricorboli for what he called a tobacco parlia- ment. I used frequently to spend the evening at his villa, where one met a somewhat extraordinary cosmopolitan gathering. Generally we had some good music ; for Ma- dame Pulszky was — unhappily in her case the past tense is needed — a very perfect musician. Among other people more or less off the world's beaten track I used to meet there a very extraordinary Russian, who had accomplished the rare feat of escaping from Siberia. He was a Nihilist of the most uncompromising type ; a huge, shaggy man, with an unkempt head and chest like those of a bear ; and by his side — more or less — there was a ■pretty, 2:)etite, dainty little young wife — beauty and the beast, if ever that sto- ried couple were seen in the flesh. Many years afterwards when I and my wife saw Pulszky at Pesth, and were talking of old times, he reminded me of this person ; and on my doubting that any man in his senses could believe in the practicability of the extreme Nihilist theories, he instanced our old acquaintance, say- ing, "Yes, there is a man who in his very inmost con- science believes that no good of any sort can be achieved for humanity till the sponge shall have been passed over all that men have instituted and done, and a perfect tabula rasa has been substituted for it." I have many letters from Pulszky, written most of them after his return to Pesth, and for the most part too much occupied with the persons and politics of that recent day to be fit for publication. Here is one, written before he left Florence, which may be given: "Villa Petrovich, "My dear Trollope, — I am just returned from a long excursion with Boxall to Arezzo, Cortona, Borgo San Sepolcro, Citt^ di Castello, Perugia, and Assisi. We were there for a week, and enjoyed it amazingly. I am sorry to say that I am not now able to join your party to Camaldoli, since I must see Garibaldi, and do not know as yet what I shall do when the war 19 434 WHAT I REMEMBER. begins, which might happen during your excursion. I hope you will drink a glass of water to my remembrance at La Vernia from the miraculous well, called from the rocks by my patron saint, St. Francis of Assisi. I shall come to you on Sunday, and will tell you more about him, I studied him at Assisi. Yours sincerely, Fr. Pulszkt." The following passages may be given from a long letter, written from Pesth on the 2'7th of March, 1869. It is for the most part filled with remarks on the party politics of the hour, and persons, many of them still on the scene : " My dear Mrs. and Mr. Trollope, — You don't believe how glad I was to get a token of remembrance from you. It seems to me quite an age since I left Florence, and your letter was like a voice from a past period. I live here as a stranger ; you would not recognize me. I talk nothing but politics and business. There is not a man with whom I could speak in the way that we did on Sundays at your villa. I am of course much with old Deak. I often dine with him. I know all his anecdotes and jokes by heart. He likes it, if I visit him; but our conversation remains within the narrow limits of party politics and the topics of the day. Sometimes I spend an evening with Baron Eotvos, the minister of public instruction, my old friend ; and there only we get both warm in remembering the days of our youth, and building chateaux en Eapagne for the future of the coun- try. Eotvos has appointed me director of the National Museum, which contains a library of one hundred and eighty thousand volumes, mostly Hungarian; a very indifferent picture-gallery, with a tew good pictures and plenty of rubbish ; a poor collection of antiquities ; splendid mediaeval goldsmith work ; arms, coins, and some miserable statues ; a good collec- tion of stuffed birds ; an excellent one of butterflies ; a celebrated one of beetles, and good specimens for geology and mineralogy. But all this col- lection is badly, if at all, catalogued ; badly arranged ; and until now we have in a great palace an appropriation of only £1200 a year. I shall have much to do there — as much as any minister in his office, if politics leave me the necessary time for it." Then follows a quantity of details about the party pol- itics of the day. And then he continues : "Such a contested election with us costs about £2000 to £3000. I must say I never spent money with more regret than this ; but I had to maintain the party interest and my family influence in my electoral dis- trict. I have there a fine old castle and a splendid park, but I rarely go to the country, since I have jumped, as you know, once more into the whirlpool of politics, and can't get out again. An agrarian communistic agitation has been initiated, I do not know whether with or without the sanction of S , but certainly it has spread rapidly over a great portion of the country, and I doubt whether government has the energy for put- LETTERS FROM PULSZKY. 435 ting that agitation down. It is a very serious question, especially as it finds us engaged in many other questions of the highest interest." Then he gives an outline of the position of Hungary in relation to other states, and then he continues : *'We remain still in opposition with the Wallachians, or, as they now like to call themselves, Rumanes, and we try to maintain the peace with Prussia. And now when we should concentrate all our forces to meet the changes which threaten us, a stupid and wicked opposition divides the na- tion into two hostile camps [how very singular and unexampled !]. We fight one another to the great pleasure of Russia and Prussia, who enjoy our fratricidal feuds as the Romans in the amphitheatre enjoyed the fights of the barbarians in the arena. "I must beg your pardon, dear Mrs. Trollope, that I grow so pathetic! You know it is not my custom when I am with ladies. But you must know likewise that I live now outside of female society. I do not exactly know whether it is my fault or that of the ladies of Pesth ; so much is cer- tain that only at Vienna, where I go from time to time, I call upon ladies. As to my children, Augustus, whom you scarcely know, is a volunteer in the army according to our law of universal conscription. Charles you may have seen at Florence. I sent him thitlier to visit his grandmother. [Madame Walter, the mother of Madame Pulszky ; the lady who had re- ceived us with such pleasant hospitality at Vienna, and who had come to reside at Florence, where she lived to a great age much liked and re- spected.] Polixena gets handsome and clever ; little Garibaldi is to go to school in September next. I grow old, discontented, insupportable [we found him at Pesth many years afterwards no one of the three !] ; a journey to Greece and Italy would certainly do me immense good ; but I fear I must give up that plan for the present year, since after a contested election it is a serious thing to spend money for amusement. In June I shall leave my present lodging and go to the museum, which stands in a handsome square opposite to the House of Parliament. Excuse me for my long, long talk ; and do not forget your faithful friend, in partibus infi- dclhmi, Fr. Pulszky." On the 26th of March, 1870, he writes a letter which was brought to us by his son, the Augustus mentioned in the letter I have just transcribed : " My dear Mrs. and Mr. Trollope, — Detained by parliamentary duties and the management of my own affairs, I am still unable to make a trip to Italy to visit my friends, who made the time of my exile more agreeable to me than my own country. But I send in my stead a second edition of the old Pulszky, revised and corrected ad usiim Ddphini, though I do not doubt that you prefer the old book, to which you were accustomed. My son Augustus has now finished his studies, and is D.E.L. — in a few days 436 WHAT I REMEMBER. lieutenant in the reserve, and secretary at tlie ministry of finance. Few young men begin their career in a more promising way. As to myself, Augustus will tell you more than I could write. I have remained too long in foreign countries to feel entirely at home at Pesth, where people know how to make use of everybody. I am M.P., belong to the finance commit- tee, am chairman of the committee of foreign affairs in the delegation, di- rector of the museum, chairman of the philological section in the academy of sciences, chairman of the society of fine arts, vice-president of three in- surance offices, and member of the council of two railroads. This long list proves sufficiently that my time is taken up from early morning to night. But my health is good, despite of the continuous wear and tear. "During the summer vacations 1 wish to go to England. For ten years I have not been there ; and I long to see again a highly civilized people ; else I become myself a barbarian. Still I am proud of my Hun- garians, who really struggle hard, and not without success, to be more than they are now — the first of the barbarians. *' I have for a long time not heard of you. Of course, in our correspond- ence your letter was the last, not mine. It is my own fault. But you must excuse me still for one year. Then I hope I can put myself in a more com- fortable position. For the present I am unable even to read anything but Hungarian papers, bills, reports, and business letters. I envy you in your elegant villa, where you enjoy life ! I hope you are both well, and do not forget your old friend, Fr. Pulszky. "P.S. — Augustus will give you a good photograph of me." Here is one other letter of the 13th June, 1872 : " My dear Trollope, — What a pity that my time does not allow me to visit Italy at any other season than just in summer. We are in the midst of our canvass for the general elections. My son Augustus is to be re- turned for my old place, Szecseny, without opposition on the 21st. On the following day we go to the poll at Gyongyos, a borough which is to send me to Parliament. It is a contested election, therefore rather troublesome and expensive, though not too expensive. Parliament meets with us on the first of September. Thus my holidays are in July and August. Shall we never have the pleasure to see you and Mrs. Trollope, to whom I beg you to give my best regards, here at Pesth ? Next year is the great ex- hibition at Vienna. Might it not induce you to visit Vienna, whence by an afternoon trip you come to Pesth, where I know you would amuse your- selves to your hearts' content. " My children are quite well. Charles is at the university at Vienna. He despises politics, and wants to become professor at the University of Pesth in ten or twelve years. "As to me, I am well, very busy ; much attacked by the opposition since I am a dreaded party man. Besides I have to reorganize the National Museum, from the library, which has no catalogue, to the great collection of mineralogy and plants. We bought the splendid picture-gallery of Prince Esterhazy. This, too, is under my direction, with a most important LETTERS FROM PULSZKY. 43 Y collection of prints and drawings. You see, therefore, that my time is fully occupied. Yours always, Fr. Pulszky." My wife and I did subsequently visit our old friend at Pesth, and much enjoyed our brief stay there and our chat of old times. But the work of reorganizing the museum was not yet completed. I do sincerely hope that the task has been brought to an end by this time, and that I may either in England or at Pesth once again see Franz Pulszky in the flesh ! CHAPTER XXXIII. WALTER S. LANDOK. G. P. MARSH. According to the pathetic, and on the face of it accu- rately truthful, account of the close of his life in Mr. For- ster's admirable and most graphic life of him, I never knew Landor. For the more than octogenarian old man whom I knew at Florence was clearly not the Landor whom England had known and admired for so many and such honored years. Of all the painful story of the regrettable circumstances which caused him to seek his last home in Florence it would be mere impertinence in me to speak, after the lucid, and at the same time delicately touched, account of them which his biographer has given. I may say, however, that even after the many years of his absence from Florence there still lingered a traditional remembrance of him — a sort of Landor legend — which made all us Anglo -Florentines of those days very sure that however blarnable his conduct (with reference to the very partially understood story of the circumstances that caused him to leave England) may have been in the eyes of lawyers or of moralists, the motives and feelings that had actuated him must have been generous and chivalrous. Had we been told that, finding a brick wall in a place where he thought no wall should be, he had forthwith pro- ceeded to batter it down with his head, though it was not his wall but another's, we should have recognized in the report the Landor of the myths that remained among us concerning him. But that while in any degree compos mentis he had, under whatever provocation, acted in a base, or cowardly, or mean, or underhand manner, was, we considered, wholly impossible. There were various legendary stories current in Florence in those days of his doings in the olden times. Once — so said the tradition — he knocked a man down in the street, WALTER S. LANDOR. 439 was brought before the delegato, as the police magistrate was called, and promptly fined one piastre, value about four and sixpence ; whereupon he threw a sequin (two piastres) down upon the table and said that it was unneces- sary to give him any change, inasmuch as he purposed knocking the man down again as soon as he left the court. We, po^er/, as regarded the date of the story, were all con- vinced that the true verdict in the matter was that of the old Cornish jury, " Sarved un right." Landor, as I remember him, was a handsome-looking old man, very much more so, I think, than he could have been as a young man, to judge by the portrait prefixed to Mr. Forster's volumes. He was a man of somewhat leonine aspect as regards the general appearance and expression of the head and face, which accorded well with the large and massive build of the figure, and to which a superbly curling white beard added not only picturesqueness, but a certain nobility. Landor had been acquainted with the Garrows, and with my first wife at Torquay ; and the acquaintance was quickly renewed during his last years at Florence. He would frequently come to our house in the Piazza dell' Independenza, and chat for a while, generally after he had sat silent for some little time ; for he used to appear fa- tigued by his walk. Later, when his walks and his visits had come to an end, I used often to visit him in " the little house under the wall of the city, directly back of the' Carmine, in a by-street called the Via Nunziatina, not far from that in which the Casa Guidi stands," which Mr. Forster thus describes. I continued these visits, always short, till very near the close ; for whether merely from the perfect courtesy which was a part of his nature, or whether because such interruptions of the long morning hours were really welcome to him, he never allowed me to leave him without bidding me come again. I remember him asking me after my mother at one of the latest of these visits. I told him that she was fairly well, was not suffering, but that she was becoming very deaf. "Dead, is she ?" he cried, for he had heard me im- perfectly ; " I wish I was ! I can't sleep," he added, "but I 440 WHAT I REMEMBER. very soon shall, soundly too, and all the twenty-four hours round." I used often to find him reading one of the novels of his old friend G. P. R. James, and he hardly ever failed to remark that he was a "woonderful" writer ; for so he pronounced the word, which was rather a favorite one with hira. It was a singular thing that Landor always dropped his aspirates. He was, I think, the only man in his position in life whom I ever heard do so. That a man who was not only by birth a gentleman, but was by genius and culture — and such culture ! — very much more, should do this, seemed to me an incomprehensible thing. I do not think he ever introduced the aspirate where it was not needed, but he habitually spoke of 'and, 'ead, and 'ouse. Even very near the close, when he seemed past caring for anything, the old volcanic fire still lived beneath its ashes, and any word which touched even gently any of his favorite and habitual modes of thought was sure to bring forth a reply uttered with a vivacity of manner quite startling from a man who the moment before had seemed scarcely alive to what you were saying to him. To what extent this old volcanic fire still burned may be estimated from a story which was then current in Florence. The circumstances were related to me in a manner that seemed to me to render it impossible to doubt the truth of them. But I did not see the incident in question, and therefore cannot assert that it took place. The attendance pro- vided for him by the kindly care of Mr. Browning, as narrated by Mr. Forster, was most assiduous and exact, as I had many opportunities of observing. But one day when he had finished his dinner, thinking that the servant did not come to remove the things so promptly as she ought to have done, he took the four corners of the table- cloth (so goes the story), and thus enveloping everything that w^as on the table, threw the whole out of the window. I received many notes from Landor, for the most part on trifling occasions, and possessing little interest. They were interesting, however, to the race of autograph col- lectors, and they have all been coaxed out of me at differ- ent times, save one. I have, however^ in my possession WALTER S. LANDOR. 44 1 several letters from him to my father-in-law, Mr. Garrow, many passages in which are so characteristic that I am sure my readers will thank me for giving them, as I am about to do. The one letter of his that remains to me is, as the reader will see, not altogether without value as a trait of character. The young lady spoken of in it is the same from whose papers in the Atlantic 3Io7ithly, entitled " Last Days of Walter Savage Landor," Mr. Forster lias gleaned, as he says, one or two additional glimpses of him in his last Florence home. The letter is without date, and runs as follows : " My dear Sir, — Let me confess to you that I am not very willing that it should be believed desirous [he evidently meant to write either " that I should be believed desirous," or " that it should be believed that I am desirous "] of scattering my image indiscriminately over the land. On this sentiment I forbade Mr. Forster to prefix an engraving of me over my collected works. If Miss Field wishes one more photograph, Mr. Alinari may send it to her, and 1 enclose the money to pay for it. With every good wish for your glory and prosperity, "I remain, my dear sir, "Very truly yours, W.S. Landor." The writing is that of a sadly shaking hand. The lady's request would unquestionably have been more sure of a favorable response had she preferred it in person, instead of doing so through me. But I suspect from the phrase " one more," and the underlining of the word one, that she had already received from him more than one photo- graph, and was ashamed to make yet another application. But she had led, or allowed, me to imagine that she was then asking for the first time. The care to send the money for the price of the photograph was a characteristic touch. Miss Field was, I well remember, a great favorite with Landor. I remember her telling me that he wished to give her a very large sort of scrap-book, in which, among a quantity of things of no value, there were, as I knew, some really valuable drawings ; and asking me whether she should accept it, her own feeling leaning to the opin- ion that she ought not to do so, in which view I strongly concurred. If I remember right the book had been sent to her residence, and had to be sent back again, not with- out danger of seriously angering him. 19* 442 WHAT I REMEMBER. Here are the letters I have spoken of, written by Lan- dor to Mr. Garrow. They are all undated save by the day of the month, but the postmarks show them to have been all written in 1836-1838. The first is a very long let- ter, almost the whole of which is about a quarrel between husband and wife, both friends of the writer, which it would serve no good purpose to publish. The following passage from it, however, must not be lost : '* What egregious blockheads must those animals have been who dis- cover a resemblance to my style in Latin or other quotations. I have no need of crutches. I can walk forward without anybody's arm ; and if I wanted one, I should not take an old one in preference. Not only do I think that quotations are deformities and impediments, but I am apt to believe that my own opinion, at least in those matters of which I venture to treat, is quite as good as any other man's, living or dead. If their style is better than my own, it would be bad policy to insert it ; if worse, I should be like a tailor who would recommend his abilities by engraft- ing an old sleeve on a new coat. . . . Southey tells me that he has known his lady more than twenty years, that the disproportion of their ages is rational, and that, having only one daughter left, his necessary absences would be irksome to her. Whatever he does, is done wisely and vir- tuously. As for Rogers, almost an octogenarian, be it on his own head ! A dry nettle tied to a rose-bud, just enough life in it to sting, and that's all. Lady Blessington would be delighted at any fresh contribution from Miss Garrow. Let it be sent to her at Gore House. I go there to-morrow for ten days, then into Warwickshire, then to Southampton. But I have not given up all hope of another jaunt to Torquay. Best compliments to the ladies. Yours ever, W. S. L." The following is dated the 15th of November, 1837 — just half a century ago ! " 35 St. James's Square, Bath. " I should be very ungrateful if I did not often think of you. But among my negligences I must regret that I did not carry away with me the address of our friend Bezzi. [A Piedmontese refugee who was a very intimate friend of Garrow's. I knew him in long subsequent years, when political changes had made it possible for him to return to Italy. He was a very clever and singularly brilliant man, whose name, I think, became known to the English public in connection with the discovery of the celebrated portrait of Dante on a long whitewashed wall of the Bar- gello, in Florence. There was some little jealousy about the discovery between him and Kirkup. The truth was that Kirkup's large and curious antiquarian knowledge led him to feel sure that the picture must be there, under the whitewash ; while Bezzi's influence with the authorities suc- ceeded in getting the wall cleared of its covering.] I am anxious to WALTER S. LANDOR. 443 hear how he endures his absence from Torquay, and I will write to him the moment I hear of him. Tell Miss Garrow that the muses like the rustle of dry leaves almost as well as the whispers of green ones. If she doubts it, entreat her on my part to ask the question of them. Nothing in Bath is vastly interesting to me now. Two or three persons have come up and spoken to me whom I have not seen for a quarter of a century. Of these faces I recollect but one, and it was the ugliest ! By the same token — but here the figure of aposiopesis is advantageous to me — old Madam Burridge, of my lodgings, has sent me three large forks and one small, which I left behind. She forgot to send another of each. What is worse, I left behind me a three-faced seal, which I think I once showed you. It was enclosed in a black, rough case. This being of the time of Henry the Eighth, and containing the arms of my family connections, I value far above a few forks, or a few dozens. It cannot be worth six- pence to whoever has it. One of the engravings was a greyhound with an arrow through him, a crest of my grandmother's, whose maiden name was Noble. If you pass by, pray ask about it — not that I am ever dis- appointed at the worst result of an inquiry. I am afraid the ladies of your house will think me imprudent ; and what must be their opinion, if you let it transpire that I have furthermore invested a part of my scrip in the beaver trade. Offer ray best regards to them all, and believe me, " My dear sir, Yours very sincerely, W. S. L." The following is dated only January 2d, but the post- mark shows it to have been written from Bath on that day, 1838: " My dear Sir, — Yesterday there were lying across my fender three or four sheets of paper, quite in i^eadiness to dry themselves, and receive my commands. One of these, I do assure you, was destined for Torquay, but the interruption of visitors would allow me time only to cover half a one ■with my scrawl. Early last week I wrote a long letter to Bezzi, but wanted the courage to send it. I wish him to remain in England as much almost as you yourself can do. But if after promising his lady [it is noteworthy that such a master of English as Landor should use, now for the second time in these letters, this ugly phrase] to let her try the air of Italy, he should withdraw, she might render his life less comfortable by reproaches not altogether unmerited. When she gets there she will miss her friends ; she will hear nothing but a language which is unknown to her, and will find that no change of climate can remove her ailments. I offered my house to Bezzi some time ago, with its two gardens and a hundred acres of land, all for a hundred a year. But I am confident my son will never remain in England, and after the expiration of the year will return to Tus- cany. Bezzi cannot find another house, even without garden, for that money. James paid for a worse twelve louis a month, although he took it for eight months. So the houses in Tuscany are very far from inviting to an economist, although vastly less expensive than at Torquay, the rival of Naples in this respect as in beauty. ... I have found my seal in a 444 WHAT I REMEMBER. waistcoat pocket. I do not think the old woman stole the forks, but she knew they were stolen. . . . Kenyon has something of Falstaff about him, both in the physical and the moral. But he is a friendly man, of rare judgment in literary works, and of talents that only fall a little short of genius. " God preserve you from your Belial Bishop ! [Phil potts]. What an incumbent ! I would not see the rascal once a month to be as great a man as Mr. Shedden, or as sublime a genius as Mr. Wise ; [word under the seal] would drown me in bile or poison me with blue pills. A society has been formed here, of which the members have come to the resolution of making inquiries at every house about the religion of the inmates, what places of worship they attend, etc., etc. Is it not hard upon a man who has changed a couple of sovereigns into half-crowns for Christmas boxes, to be forced to spend ten shillings for a horsewhip, when he no longer has a horse? Our weather here is quite as mild and beautiful as it can possibly be at Torquay. Miss Garrow, I trust, has listened to the chal- lenges of the birds, and sung a new song. As Bezzi is secretary and librarian, I must apply to him for it, unless she will condescend to trust me with a copy. I will now give you a specimen of my iron seal, brass setting and pewter mending. Yours ever, W. S. L." The mention of Bishop Philpotts (though not by name) in the foregoing letter, reminds me of a story which used to be told of him, and which is too good to be lost, even though thus parenthetically told. When at Torquay he used to frequent a small church, in which the service was at that time performed by a very young curate of the extra gentle butter-won't-melt-in-his-mouth kind, who had much objection to the phrase in the communion service, " Eateth and drinketh his own damnation," and ventured somewhat tremblingly to substitute "condemnation" for the word which offended him. Whereupon the orthodox bishop reared his head, as he knelt with the rest of the congregation, and roared aloud ''^ Damnation P"* Whether the curate had to be carried out fainting I don't remember. The next letter of Landor's that I have is dated 13th April, St. James's Square, Bath. The postmark shows that it was written in 1838. '* My dear Sir, — I have had Kenyon here these last four days. He tells me that he saw Bezzi in London, and that we may entertain some hopes that he will be induced to remain in England. All he wants is some employment ; and surely his powerful friends among the Whigs could easily procure him it. But the Whigs, of all scoundrelly factions, are, and have ever been, the most scoundrelly, the most ungenerous, the WALTER S. LANDOR. 445 most ungrateful. What have they done for Fonblanque, who could have kicked them overboard on his toe-nail ? Their abilities put together are less than a millionth of his ; and his have been constantly and most zeal- ously exerted in their favor. My first conversation with Kenyon was about the publication of his poems, which are just come out. They are in part extremely clever ; particularly one on happiness and another on the shrine of the Virgin. He was obliged to print them at his own expense; and his cousin, Miss Barrett, who also has written a few poems of no small merit, could not find a publisher. These, however, bear no proportion to Miss Garrow's.* Yet I doubt whether publishers and the folks they consult would find out that. " Southey was about to write to me when his brother's death, by which six children came under his care, interrupted him. I wish I possessed one or two of Miss Garrow's beautiful poems, that I might ask his opin- ion and advice about them. His opinion I know would be the same as mine ; but his advice is what I want. Surely it cannot be requisite and advantageous to withhold them from the world so long as you imagine. In one single year both enough of materials and of variety for a volume might be collected and prepared. Would Miss Garrow let me offer one to the ' Book of Beauty ' ? I shall be with Lady Blessington the last day of the present month. One of the best poems of our days [on death], appeared in the last 'Book of Beauty.' But in general its poetry is very indifferent. With best regards to the ladies, " I am ever, my dear sir, " Yours most sincerely, W. S. L." The following, dated merely " Gore House, Sunday morning," was written, or at least posted, on the 14th May, 1838: " My dear Sir, — It is impossible you should not often have thought me negligent and ungrateful. Over and over again have I redd [s?c] the in- comparably fine poetry you sent me ; and intended that Lady Blessington should partake in the high enjoyment it afforded me. I had promised her to be at Gore House towards the end of April, but I had not the courage to face all my friends. However, here I came on Friday evening; and be- fore I went to bed I redd to her ladyship what I promised her. She was enchanted. I then requested her to toss aside some stuff of mine, and to make way for it in the next ' Book of Beauty.' The gods, as Homer says, * To those who never knew Landor, and the habitual limitless exagger- ation of his manner of speaking, it may be necessary to observe that he did not really hold any opinion so monstrous as might be supposed from the passage in the text. And a letter given by Mr. Forster expresses earnestly and vigorously enough his high admiration for Miss Barrett's poetry. It must be remembered, also, that at the time this was written Mr. Landor could only have seen some of the earliest of Miss Barrett's writinffs. 446 WHAT I REMEMBER. granted half my prayer, and it happened to be (what was not always the case formerly) the better half. She will insert both. It is only by some such means as that that the best poetry in our days comes with mincing step into popularity. Mine being booted and spurred, both ladies and gentlemen get out of the way of it, and look down at it with a touch of horror. "Now for news, and about your neighbors. Captain Ackland is going to marry a niece of Massy Dawson. Mischievous things are said about Lady M , all false, you may be sure. Admiral Aylraer, after all his services under Nelson, etc., etc., is unable to procure a commission in the marines for his nephew, Frederick Paynter. Lord A. will not ask. I am a suitor to all the old women I know, and shall fail too, for it is not the thing they want me to ask of them. " I see two new deputy lord-lieutenants have been appointed for the County of Monmouth, My estate there is larger than the lord lieutenant's ; yet even this mark of respect has not been paid me. It might be, safely. I shall consider myself sold to the devil, and for more than my value, when I accept any distinction, or anything else from any man living. The Whigs are growing unpopular, I hear. I hope never to meet any of them. Last night, however, I talked a little with Grantley Berkeley, and told him a bit of my mind. You see, I have not much more room in ray paper, else I should be obliged to tell you that the bells are ringing, and that I have only just time to put on my gloves for church. " Adieu, and believe me, v^^ith kindly regards to the ladies, " Yours, W. S. L." The last in this series of letters which has reached ray hands is altogether undated, but appears by the postmark to have been written from Bath, 19th July, 1838 : *' My dear Sir, — There is one sentence in your letter which shocked me not a little. You say ' The Whigs have not offered you a deputy-lieuten- antcy ; so cheap a distinction could not have hurt them. But then you are too proud to ask,' etc. Do you really suppose that I would have accepted it even if it had been offered ? No, by God ! I would not accept any dis- tinction even if it were offered by honest men. I will have nothing but what I can take. It is, however, both an injustice and an affront to confer this dignity on low people, who do not possess a fourth of my property, and whose family is as ignoble as Lord Melbourne's own, and not to have of- fered the same to me. In the eleventh page of the ' Letters ' I published after the quelling of Bonaparte are these words : ' I was the first to abjure the party of the Whigs, and shall be the last to abjure the principles. When the leaders had broken all their promises to the nation, had shown their utter incapacity to manage its affairs, and their inclination to crouch before the enemy, I permitted my heart after some struggles to subside and repose in the cool of this reflection — Let them escape. It is only the French nation that ever dragged such feebleness to the scaffold.' Again, page rS5 ; ' Honest men, I confess, have generally in the present times an WALTER S. LANDOR. 447 aversion to the Whig faction, not because it is suitable either to honesty or understanding to prefer the narrow principles of the opposite party, but because in every country lax morals wish to be and are identified with pub- lic feeling, and because in our own a few of the very best have been found in an association with the very worst.' Whenever the Tories have deviated from their tenets, they have enlarged their views and exceeded their prom- ises. The Whigs have always taken an inverse course. Whenever they have come into power, they have previously been obliged to slight those matters, and to temporize with those duties, which they had not the courage either to follow or to renounce. "And now, my dear sir, to pleasanter matters. I have nothing in the press, and never shall have. I gave Forster all my works, written or to be written. Neither I nor my family shall have anything to do with book- sellers. They say a new edition of my ' Imaginary Conversations ' is called for. I have sent Forster a dozen or two of fresh ones, but I hope he will not hazard them before my death, and will get a hundred pounds, or near it, for the whole. " If ever I attended a pubUc dinner, I should like to have been present at that which the people gave to you. Never let them be quiet until the Church has gone to the devil, its lawful owner, and till something a little like Christianity takes its place. If parsons are to be lords, it is but right and reasonable that the queen should be pope. Indeed, I have no objec- tion to this, but I have to the other. What a singularity it is that those who profess a belief in Christ do not obey him, while those who profess it in Mahomet or Moses or Boodh are obedient to their precepts, if not in certain points of morality, in all things else. Carlyle is a vigorous thinker, but a vile writer, worse than Bulwer. I breakfasted in company with him at Milman's. Macaulay was there, a clever clown, and Moore too, whom I had not seen till then. Between those two Scotchmen he appeared like a glow-worm between two thistles. There were several other folks, literary and half literary. Lord Northampton, etc., etc. I forgot Rogers. Milman has written the two best volumes of poetry we have seen lately ; but when Miss Garrow publishes hers I am certain there will be a total eclipse of them. My friend Hare's brother, who married a sister of the impudent coxcomb, Edward Stanley, has bought a house at Torquay, and Hare tells me that unless he goes to Sicily he shall be there in winter. If so, we may meet ; but Bath is my dear delight in all seasons. I have been sitting for my picture, and have given it to Mrs. Paynter, It is admirably executed by Fisher. Yours ever, W. S. L." These letters are all written upon the old-fashioned square sheet of letter paper, some gilt-edged, entirely written over, even to the turned-down ends, and heavily sealed. Mr. Forster says no word about the deputy-lieutenantcy, and Landor's anger and disgust in connection with it. He - must necessarily have known all about it, but probably 448 WHAT I REMEMBER. in the exuberance of his material did not think it worth mentioning. But it evidently left almost as painful an impression on Landor's mind as the famous refusal of the Duke of Beaufort to appoint him a justice of the peace. During the later portion of my life at Florence, and subsequently at Rome, Mr. G. P. Marsh and his very charming wife were among our most valued friends for many years. Marsh was an exception to the prevailing American rule, which for the most part changes their di- plomatists with the change of president. He had been United States minister at Constantinople and at Turin be- fore he came to Florence with the Italian monarchy. At Rome he was " the dean " of the diplomatic body, and on many occasions various representative duties fell upon him as such which were especially unwelcome to him. The determination of the Great Powers to send ambassadors to the court of the Quirinal instead of ministers plenipo- tentiary, as previously, came as a great boon to Mr. Marsh. For as the United States send no ambassadors, his position as longest in office of all the diplomatic body no longer placed him at the head of it. Mr. Marsh was a man of very large and varied culture. A thorough classical scholar and excellent modern linguist, philology was, perhaps, his most favorite pursuit. He wrote various books, his best I think a very large octavo volume, entitled not very happily "Man in Nature." The subject of it is the modifications and alterations which this planet has undergone at the hands of man. His subject leads him to consider much at large the denudation of mountains, which has caused and is causing such calami- tous mischief in Italy and the south of France. He shows very convincingly and interestingly that the destruction of forests causes not only floods in winter and spring, but drought in summer and autumn. And the efforts which have recently been made in Italy to take some steps tow- ards the reclothing of the mountain-sides have in great measure been due to his work, which has been largely cir- culated in an Italian translation. The following letter, which I select from many received G. P. MARSH. 449 from him, is not without interest. It is dated 30th No- vember, 1867. "Dear Sir, — I return you Layard's article, which displays his usual marked ability, and has given me much pleasure as well as instruction. I should much like to know what are his grounds for believing that ' a satis- factory settlement of this Roman question Avould have been speedily brought about with the concurrence of the Italian government and the Liberal party in Rome, and with the tacit consent of the Emperor of the French, had it not been for the untoward enterprise of Garibaldi,' p. 283. I certainly have not the slightest ground for believing any such thing ; nor do I understand to whom the settlement referred to would have been ' satis- factory.' Does Mr. Layard suppose that any conceivable arrangement would be satisfactory both to the papacy and to Italian Liberals out of Rome? The government of Italy, which changes as often as the moon, might have accepted something which would have satisfied Louis Xaooleon, Antonelli, and the three hundred nohili of Rome, who waited at dinner, napkin on arm, on the Antiboiui, to whom they gave an entertainment — but the people ? " I send you one of Ferretti's pamphlets, which please keep. And I en- close in the package two of Tuckerman's books. If you could turn over the leaves of these and say to me in a note that they impress you favor- ably, and that you are not displeased with his magazine article, I will make him a happy man by sending him the note. " Very truly yours, Geo. P. Marsh." I did more than "turn over the leaves " of the book sent, and did very truly say that they had interested me much. It is rather suggestive to reflect how utterly unintelligible to the present generation must be the terra " Antiboini" in the above letter, without a word of explanation. The highly unpopular and objectionable "Papal Legion" had been in great part recruited from Antibes, and were hence nicknamed " Antiboini," and not, as readers of the present day might fairly imagine, from having been the opponents of any " boini." The personal qualities of Mr. Marsh had obtained for him a great and, I may indeed say, exceptional degree of consideration and regard from his colleagues of the diplo- matic body, and from the Italian ministers and political world generally. And I remember one notable instance of the manifestation of this, which I cannot refrain from citing. Mr. Marsh had written home to his government some rather trenchantly unfavorable remarks on some por- tion of the then recent measures of the Italian ministry. 450 WHAT I REMEMBER. And by some awkward accident or mistake these had found their way into the columns of an American news- paper. The circumstances might have given rise to very disagreeable and mischievous complications and results. But the matter was suffered to pass without any official observation solely from the high personal consideration in which Mr. Marsh was held, not only at the Consulta (the Roman foreign office), but at the Quirinal, and in many a Roman salon. Mr. Marsh died, full of years and honors, at a ripe old age. But the closing scene of his life was remarkable from the locality of it. He had gone to pass the hot sea- son at Vallombrosa, w^here a comfortable hotel replaces the old forestleria of the monastery, w^hile a school of forestry has been established by the government w^ithin its walls. Amid those secular shades the old diplomatist and scholar breathed his last, and could not have done so in a more peaceful spot. But the very inaccessible nature of the place made it a question of some difficulty how the body should be transported in properly decorous fashion to the railway station in the valley below — a difficulty which was solved by the young scholars of the school of forestry, w^ho turned out in a body to have the honor of bearing on their shoulders the remains of the man whose writings had done so much to awaken the government to the necessity of establishing the institution to which they belonged. Mrs. Marsh, for so many years the brightest ornament of the Italo-American society, and equally admired and welcomed by the English colony, first at Florence and then at Rome, still lives for the equal delight of her friends on the other side of the Atlantic. I may not, therefore, venture to say more of " what I remember " of her than that it abundantly accounts for the feeling of an unfilled void, which her absence occasioned and occa- sions in both the American and English world on the banks of the Tiber. CHAPTEK XXXIV. MR. AND M E S. LEWES. It was in the spring of the year 1860 that I first became acquainted with " George Eliot " and G. H. Lewes in Flor- ence. But it was during their second visit to Italy in 1861 that I saw a good deal more of them. It was in that year, towards the end of May, that I succeeded in persuading them to accompany me in a visit to the two celebrated Tuscan monasteries of Camaldoli and La Vernia. I had visited both on more than one occasion previously — once with a very large and very merry party of both sexes, of whom Colley Grattan was one — but the excursion made in company with G. H. Lewes and George Eliot was an- other-guess sort of treat, and the days devoted to it stand out in high relief in my memory as some of the most memorable in my life. They were anxious to be moving northwards from Flor- ence, and I had some difliculty in persuading them to un- dertake the expedition. A certain weight of responsibil- ity, therefore, lay on me — that folks whose days were so sure of being turned to good profit, should not by my fault be led to waste any of them. But I had already seen enough of both of them to feel sure that the special- ties of the very exceptional little experience I proposed to them would be appreciated and acceptable. Neither he nor she were fitted by their habits, or, indeed, by the conditions of their health, to encounter much "roughing," and a certain amount of that was assuredly inevitable — a good deal more five-and-twenty years ago than would be the case now. But if the flesh was weak, truly the spirit was willing! I have heard grumbling and. discontent from the young of either sex in the heyday of health and strength in going over the same ground. But for my companions on the present occasion, let the difliculties and 452 WHAT I REMEMBER. discomforts be what they might, the continually varied and continually suggestive interest they found in every- thing around them overrode and overbore all material con- siderations. Kever, I think, have I met with so impressionable and so delicately sensitive a mind as that of George Eliot ! I use "sensitive" in the sense in which a photographer uses the word in speaking of his plates. Everything that passed within the ken of that wonderful organism, wheth- er a thing or combination of things seen, or an incident, or a trait revealing or suggesting character, was instantly reproduced, fixed, registered by it, the operating light being the wonderful native force of her intellect. And the photographs so produced were by no means evanes- cent. If ever the admirably epigrammatic phrase, " Wax to receive and marble to retain," was applicable to any human mind, it was so to that of George Eliot. And not only were the enormous accumulations of stored-up im- pressions safe beyond reach of oblivion or confusion, but they were all and always miraculously ready for co-ordi- nation with those newly coming in at each passing mo- ment. Think of the delight of passing, in companionship with such a mind, through scenes and circumstances en- tirely new to it ! Lewes, too, was a most delightful companion, the cheer- iest of philosophers. The old saying of " Comes jucundus in vid pro vehiculo est " was especially applicable to him. Though very exhaustible in bodily force, he was inex- haustible in cheerfulness, and, above all, in unwearied, in- cessant, and minute care for "Polly." In truth, if any man could ever be said to have lived in another person, Lewes in those days, and to the end of his life, lived in and for George Eliot. The talk of worshipping the ground she trod on, and the like, are pretty lovers' phrases, some- times signifying much, and sometimes very little. But it is true accurately and literally of Lewes. That care for her, at once comprehensive and minute, unsleeping watch- fulness, lest she should dash her foot against a stone, was never absent from his mind. She had become his real self, his genuine ego to all intents and purposes. And his MR. AND MRS. LEWES. 453 talk and thoughts were egoistic accordingly. Of his own person, his ailments, his works, his ideas, his impressions, you might hear not a word from him in the intercourse of many days. But there was in his inmost heart a naif and never-doubting faith that talk on all these subjects as re- garded her must be profoundly interesting to those he talked with. To me, at all events, it was so. Perhaps had it been otherwise there would have been less of it. We were to reach Camaldoli the first night, and had therefore to leave Florence very early in the morning. At Pelago, a little 7:>«e.se — village we should call it — on the Arno, some fourteen or fifteen miles above Florence, we were to find saddle-horses, the journey we were about to make being in those days practicable in no other way, unless on foot. There was at that time a certain Antonio da Pelago, whose calling it was to act as guide, and to furnish horses. I had known him for many years, as did all those whose ramblings took them into those hills. He was in many respects what people call "a character," and seemed to fancy himself to have in some degree proprie- tary rights over the three celebrated Tuscan monasteries, Vallombrosa, Camaldoli, and La Yernia. He was well known to the friars at each of these establishments, and indeed to all the sparse population of that country-side. He was a very good and competent guide and courier, possessed with a very amusingly exaggerated notion of his own importance, and rather bad to turn aside from his own preconceived and predetermined methods of doing everything that had to be done. George Eliot at once made a study of him. I am reminded, too, as I write, of the great amusement with which my old and highly valued friend of many years, Alfred Austin, who long subsequently was making the same excursion with me and both our wives, listened to an oration of the indispensable Antonio. One of his baggage-horses had strayed and become temporarily lost among the hills. He was exceedingly wroth, and poured forth his vexation in a torrent of very unparliamentary language. ^^Corpo di GiiidaP'' he exclaimed, among a cu- rious assortment of heterogeneous adjurations — " Body of 454 WHAT I REMEMBER. Judas !" — stooping to the ground as he spoke, and striking the back of his hand against it, with an action that very graphically represented a singular survival of the classical testor inferos! Then suddenly changing his mood, he apostrophized the missing beast with the most tearful re- proach, " There ! there now ! Thou hast made me throw away all my devotions ! All ! And Easter only just gone !" That is to say, your fault has betrayed me into violence and bad language, which has begun a new record of offences just after I had made all clear by my Easter devotions. The first stage of our rough ride was to the little hill- town of Prato Vecchio on the infant Arno, and close un- der the lofty peaks of Falterona, in the flanks of which both the Arno and the Tiber rise. The path, as it de- scends to the town, winds round the ruins of an ancient castle, beneath the walls of which is still existent that Fontebranda fountain which Adam the forger in the "In- ferno " longed for a drop of, and which almost all Dantes- can scholars and critics mistake for a larger and nowadays better-known fountain of the same name .at Siena. On pointing it out to George Eliot, I found, of course, that the name and the whole of Adam the forger's history was familiar to her ; but she had little expected to find his local habitation among these wild hills; and she was un- aware of the current mistake between the Siena Fonte- branda and the little rippling streamlet before us. The little osteria, at which we were to get some break- fast, was a somewhat lurid dwelling in an uninviting back lane. But the ready and smiling good-humor with which the hostess prepared her coffee and bread, and eggs and bacon, availed much to make up for deficiencies, especially for guests far more interested in observing every minute specialty of the place, the persons, and the things, than they were extreme to mark what was amiss. I remember George Eliot was especially struck by the absence of either milk or butter, and by the fact that the inhabitants of these hills, and indeed the Tuscans of the remoter parts of the country generally, never use them at all — or did not in those days. MR. AND MRS. LEWES. 455 But it was beyond Prato Vecchio that the most charac- teristic part of our ride began. The hills, into the folds and gullies of which we plunged almost immediately after leaving the walls of the little town, are of the most arid and, it is hardly too much to say, repulsive description. It is impossible to imagine soil more evidently, to the least experienced eye, hopeless for any purpose useful to man than these rolling and deeply water-scored hills. Nor has the region any of the characters of the picturesque. The soil is very friable, consisting of an easily disintegrated, slaty limestone, of a pale whitey-brown in prevailing col- or, varied here and there by stretches of similar material greenish in tint. For the most part the hillsides are in- capable of nourishing even a blade of grass ; and they are evidently in the process of rapid removal into the Medi- terranean, for the further extension of the plain that has been formed between Pisa and the shore since the time, only a few hundred years ago, when Pisa was a first-class naval power. All this, with the varied historical corolla- ries and speculations which it suggested, was highly inter- esting to my fellow-travellers. But the ride, nowhere dangerous, though demanding some strong faith in the sure-f ootedness of Antonio's steeds, is not an easy one. The sun was beating with unmiti- gated glare on those utterly shadeless hillsides. It was out of the question to attempt anything beyond a w^alk. The sides of the gullies, which had to be ascended and de- scended, though never reaching to the picturesque propor- tions of precipices, were yet sufficiently steep and rough to make very fatiguing riding for a lady unaccustomed to such exercise. And George Eliot was in no very robust condition of health at the time. And despite his well-dis- sembled anxiety I could see that Lewes was not easy re- specting her capability of resisting the heat, the fatigue, and the unwonted exercise. But her cheerfulness and activ- ity of interest never failed her for an instant. Her mind " made increment of everything." Nor even while I led her horse down some of the worst descents did the exigencies of the path avail to interrupt conversation, full of thought and far-reaching suggestiveness, as her talk ever was. 456 WHAT I REMEMBER. At last we reached the spot where the territory of the monastery commences ; and it is one that impresses itself on the imagination and the memory in a measure not likely to be forgotten. The change is like a pantomime trans- formation scene. The traveller passes without the slight- est intermediate gradation from the dreary scene which has been described into the shade and the beauty of a re- gion of magnificent and well-managed forest. The bodily delight of passing from the severe glare of the sun into this coolness, welcome alike to the skin and to the eye, was very great. And to both my companions, but especially to George Eliot, the great beauty of the scene we entered on gave the keenest pleasure. Assuredly Saint Romuald in selecting a site for his Camaldolcse did not derogate from the apparently in- stinctive wisdom which seems to have inspired the found- ers of monasteries of every order and in every country of Europe. Invariably the positions of the religious houses were admirably well chosen; and that of Camal- doli is no exception to the rule. The convent is not visi- ble from the spot where the visitor enters the forest boundary which marks the limit of the monastic domain. Nearly an hour's ride through scenery increasing in beau- ty with each step, where richly green lawns well stocked with cattle are contrasted wonderfully with the arid des- olation so recently left behind, has still to be done ere the convent's hospitable door is reached. The convent door, however, in our case was not reached, for the building used for the reception of visitors, and called the forest ieria, occupies* its humble position by the road-side a hundred yards or so before the entrance to the monastery is reached. There Antonio halted his caval- cade and, while showing us our quarters with all the air of a master, sent one of his attendant lads to summon the padre forestieraio — the monk deputed by the society to receive strangers. Had our party consisted of men only, we should have been received in the convent, where there was a very handsome suite of rooms reserved for the purpose. But females could not enter the precincts of the cloister. The MR. AND MES. LEWES. 457 father in question very shortly made his appearance, a magnificent figure, whose long black beard flowing over his perfectly clean white robe made as picturesque a pre- sentment of a friar as could be desired. He was extremely courteous, and seemed to desire nothing better than to talk ad libitum. But for my fellow-travellers, rest after their broiling ride was the thing most urgently needed. And this requirement brought us to the consideration of our accommodation for the night. The humble little forestieria at Camaldoli was not built for any such pur- pose. It never, of course, entered into the heads of the builders that need could ever arise for receiving any save male guests. And for such, as I have said, a handsome suite of large rooms, both sitting-rooms and bedrooms, with huge fireplaces for the burning of colossal logs, is provided. Ordinary brethren of the order would not be lodged there. The magnificence is reserved for a cardi- nal (Gregory XYL, who had been a Camaldolese, frequent- ly came here), or a travelling bishop and his suite, or a heretic English or American milord. But not for any daughter of Eve ! And the makeshift room over a car- penter's shop, which is called the forestieria^ has been de- voted to the purpose only in consequence of the incompre- hensible mania of female English heretics for visiting the disciples of St. Romuald. And there the food supplied from the convent can be brought to them. But for the night? I had warned my friends that they would have to occupy different quarters ; and it now became necessary to introduce George Eliot to the place she was to pass the night in. At the distance of about twenty minutes' walk above the convent, across a lovely but very steep extent of beau- tifully green turf, encircled by the surrounding forest, there is a cowhouse, with an annexed lodging for the cow- herd and his wife. And over the cow stable is — or was, for the monks have been driven away and all is altered now — a bedchamber with three or four beds in it, which the toleration of the community has provided for the ac- commodation of the unaccountable female islanders. I have assisted in conveying parties of ladies up that steep 20 458 WHAT I REMEMBER. grassy slope by the light of a full moon, when all the beds had to be somewhat more than fully occupied. But fort- unately George Eliot had the whole chamber to herself — perhaps, however, not quite fortunately, for it was a very novel and not altogether reassuring experience for her to be left absolutely alone for the night, to the protection of an almost entirely unintelligible cowherd and his wife. But there was no help for it. G. H. Lewes did not seem to be quite easy about it ; but George Eliot did not appear to be troubled by the slightest alarm or misgiving. She seemed, indeed, to enjoy all the novelty and strangeness of the situation ; and when she bade us good-night from the one little window of her chamber over the cows, as we turned to walk down the slope to our grand bedrooms at the convent, she said she should be sure to be ready when we came for her in the morning, as the cows would call her, if the cowherds failed to do so. The following morning we were to ride up the moun- tain to the Sagro Eremo. Convent hours are early, and soon after the dawn we had convoyed our female compan- ion down the hill to the little forestieria for breakfast, where the padre forestieraio gave us the best coffee we had had for many a day. George Eliot declared that she had had an exceptionally good night, and was delighted with the talk of the magnificently black-bearded father, who superintended our meal, while a lay brother waited on us. The former was to start in a day or two on his triennial holiday, and he was much excited at the prospect of it. His naif talk and quite childlike questions and specula- tions as to times and distances, and what could be done in a day, and the like, amused George Eliot much. In reck- oning up his available hours he deducted so much in each day for the due performance of his canonical duties. I remarked to him that he could read the prescribed service in the diligence, as I had often seen priests doing. "Sec- ular priests no doubt !" he said, "but that would not suit one of us P^ Our ride up to the Sagro Eremo was a thing to be re- membered. I had seen and done it all before ; but I had MR. AND MRS. LEWES. 459 not seen or done it in company with George Eliot. It was like doing it with a new pair of eyes and freshly in- spired mind. The way is long and steep, through mag- nificent forests, with every here and there a lovely en- closed lawn, and fugitive peeps over the distant country. On our way up we met a singular procession coming down. It consisted of a low, large cart drawn by two oxen, and at- tended by several lay brothers and peasants, in the centre of which was seated an enormously fat brother of the order, whose white-robed bust with immense flowino^ white beard, emerging from a quantity of red wraps and coverings that concealed the lower part of his person, made an ex- traordinary appearance. He was being brought down from the Sagro Eremo to the superior comfort of the con- vent, because he was unwell. At the Sagro Eremo — the sacred hermitage — is seen the operation of the Camaldolese rule in its original strict- ness and perfection. At the convent itself it is, or has become, much relaxed in many respects. The Camaldo- lese, like other Carthusians, are properly hermits, that is to say, their life is not conventual, but eremitical. Each brother at the Sagro Eremo inhabits his own separately- built cell, consisting of sleeping-chamber, study, wood- room, and garden, all of microscopical dimensions. His food, exclusively vegetable, is passed in to him by a little turn-table made in the wall. There is a refectory, in which the members of the community eat in common on two or three festivals in the course of the year. On these occa- sions only is any speech or oral communication between the members permitted. There is a library tolerably well furnished with historical as well as theological works. But it is evidently never used. Nor is there any sign that the little gardens are in any degree cultivated by the occu- pants of them. I remarked to George Eliot on the strange- ness of this abstinence from both the two permitted occu- pations, which might seem to afford some alleviation of the awful solitude and monotony of the eremitical life. But she remarked that the facts as we saw them were just such as she should have expected to find. The Sagro Eremo is inhabited by three classes of in' 460 WHAT I REMEMBER. mates : firstly, by novices, who are not permitted to come down to the comparative luxury and comfort and milder climate of the convent till they have passed three or four years at the Sagro Ererao ; secondly, by those who have been sent thither from the convent below as punish- ment for some misdoing thirdly, by those who remain there of their own free will, in the hope of meriting a high- er and more distinguished reward for their austerities in a future life. One such was pointed out to us, who had never left the Eremo for more than fifty years ; a tall, very gaunt, very meagre old man, with white hair, hollow cheeks, and parchment-skin, a nose like an eagle's beak, and deep-set, burning eyes — as typical a figure, in its way, as the rosy mountain of a man whom we met travelling down in his ox-cart. Lewes was always anxious lest George Eliot should overtire herself. But she was insatiably interested both in the place and the denizens of it. Then, before supper at the forestieria was ready, our friend, the isither forestieraio, insisted on showing us the growing crop of haricot-beans, so celebrated for their ex- cellence that some of them were annually sent to .Poj)e Gregory the Sixteenth as long as he lived. Then followed another night in the cowhouse for George Eliot and for us in the convent, and the next morning we started with Antonio and his horses for La Vernia. The ride thither from Camaldoli, though less difiicult, is also less peculiar, than that from Prato Vecchio to the latter monastery, at least until La Vernia is nearly reached. The penna (Cornish, Pen ; Cumbrian, Penrith ; Spanish, Pena) on which the monastery is built is one of the nu- merous isolated rocky points which have given their names to the Pennine Alps and Apennines. The Penna de la Vernia rises very steeply from the rolling ground below, and towers above the traveller with its pyramidal point in very suggestive fashion. The well-wooded sides of the conical hill are diversified by emergent rocks, and the plume of trees on the summit seems to suggest a Latin rather than a Celtic significance for the "Penna." It is a long and tedious climb to the convent, but the MR AND MRS. LEWES. 461 picturesque beauty of the spot, the charm of the distant outlook, and, above all, the historical interest of the site, rewards the visitor's toil abundantly. There is diforestieria here also, within the precincts of the convent, but not with- in the technical " cloister." It is simply a room in which visitors of either sex may partake of such food as the poor Franciscans can furnish them, which is by no means such as the more well-to-do Carthusians of Camaldoli supply to their guests. Nor have the quarters set apart for the sleeping accommodation of male visitors within the clois- ter anything of the spacious old- world grandeur of the strangers' suite of rooms at the latter monastery. The difficulty, also, of arranging for the night's lodging of a female is much greater at La Vernia. There is, indeed, a very fairly comfortable house, kept under the manage- ment of two sisters of the order of St. Francis, expressly for the purpose of lodging lady pilgrims to the shrine. For in former days — scarcely now, I think — the wives of the Florentine aristocracy used to undertake a pilgrimage to La Vernia as a work of devotion. But this house is at the bottom of the long ascent — nearly an hour's severe climb from the convent — an arrangement which necessa- rily involves much additional fatigue to a lady visitor. George Eliot writes to Miss Sara Hennell, on the 19th of June, a letter, inserted by Mr. Cross in his admirable biography of his wife : " I wish you could have shared the pleasures of our last expedition from Florence to the mon- asteries of Camaldoli and La Vernia. I think it was just the sort of thing you would have entered into with thor- ough zest." And she goes on to speak of La Vernia in a manner which seems to show that it was the latter estab- lishment which most keenly interested and impressed her. She was, in fact, under the spell of the great and still po- tent personality of Saint Francis, which informs with his memory every detail of the buildings and rocks around you. Each legend was full of interest for her. The alem- bic of her mind seemed to have the secret of distilling from traditions which, in their grossness, the ordinary visitor turns from with a smile of contempt, the spiritual value they once possessed for ages of faith, or at least th^ 462 WHAT I REMEMBER. poetry with which the simple belief of those ages has in- vested them. Nobody could be more alive to every aspect of natural beauty than she showed herself during the whole of this memorable excursion. But at La Vernia the hu- man interest overrode the simple aesthetic one. Her day was a most fatiguing one. And when Lewes and I wearily climbed the hill on foot, after escorting her to her sleeping-quarters, he was not a little anxious lest on the morrow she should find herself unable for the ride which was to take us to the spot where a carriage was available for our return to 'Florence. But it was not so. She slept well under the care of the Franciscan nuns, who managed to get her a cup of milk- less coffee in the morning, and so save her from the neces- sity of again climbing the hill. A charming drive through the Casentino, or valley of the Upper Arno, showing us the aspect of a Tuscan valley very different from that of the Lower Arno, brought to an end an expedition which has always remained in my memory as one of the most delight- ful of my life. I had much talk with George Eliot during the time — very short at Florence — when she was maturing her Ital- ian novel, " Romola." Of course, I knew that she was di- gesting the acquisitions of each day with a view to writ- ing, but I had not the slightest idea of the period to which her inquiries were specially directed, or of the nature of the work intended. But when I read "Romola" I was struck by the wonderful power of absorption manifested in every page of it. The rapidity with which she squeezed out the essence and significance of a most complex period of history and assimilated the net results of its many-sided phases was truly marvellous. Nevertheless, in drawing the girl Romola, her subjec- tivity has overpowered her objectivity. Romola is not — could never have been — the product of the period and of the civilization from which she is described as having is- sued. There is far too much of George Eliot in her. It was a period, it is true, in which female culture trod upon the heels of the male culture of the time, perhaps, more closely than it has ever done since. But, let Vittoria Co- MR. AND MRS. LEWES. 463 lonna be accepted, as probably she may be, as a fair expo- nent of the highest point to which that culture had reached, and an examination of the sonnets into which she has put her highest thoughts and aspirations together with a com- parison of those with the mental calibre of Romola will, I think, support the view I have taken. Tito, on the other hand, gives us, with truly wonderful accuracy and vigor, "the very form and pressure of the time." The pages which describe him read like a quint- essential distillation of the Florentine story of the time and of the human results which it had availed to produce. The character of Savonarola, of course, remains, and must remain, a problem, despite all that has been done for the elucidation of it since " Romola " was written. But her reading of it is most characteristically that which her own idiosyncrasy — so akin to it in its humanitarian aspects, so superior to it in its methods of considering man and his relations to the unseen — would lead one to expect. In 1869-70 George Eliot and Mr. Lewes visited Italy for the fourth time. I had, since the date of their former visit, quitted my house in Florence, and established my- self in a villa and small podere at Ricorboli, a commune outside the Florentine Porta San Niccolo. And there I had the great pleasure of receiving them under my roof, assisted in doing so by my present wife. Their visit was all too short a one — less than a week, I think. But one knows a person with whom one has passed even that short time under the same roof far better than can ever be the result of a very much longer acquaintanceship during which one meets only in the ordinary intercourse of society. And the really intimate knowledge of her which I was thus enabled to obtain has left with me the abiding conviction that she was intellectually by far the most extraordinarily gifted person it has ever been my good-fortune to meet. I do not insist much on the uni- form and constant tender consideration for others, which was her habitual frame of mind, for I have known others of whom the same might have been said. It is true that it is easy for those in the enjoyment of that vigorous health which renders mere living a pleasure to be kindly ; 464 WHAT I REMEMBER. and that George Eliot was never betrayed by suffering, however protracted and severe, into the smallest manifesta- tion of impatience or unkindly feeling. But neither is this trained excellence of charity matchless among women. What was truly, in my experience, matchless, was simply the power of her intelligence ; the precision, the prompti- tude, the rapidity (though her manner was by no means rapid), the largeness of the field of knowledge, the com- pressed outcome of which she was at any moment ready to bring to bear on the topic in hand ; the sureness and lucidity of her induction ; the clearness of vision, to which muddle was as impossible and abhorrent as a vacuum is supposed to be to nature ; and all this lighted up and gild- ed by an infinite sense of and capacity for humor — this was what rendered her to me a marvel, and an object of inexhaustible study and admiration. To me, though I never passed half an hour in conversa- tion with her w^ithout a renewed perception of the vast- ness of the distance which separated her intelligence from mine, she was a companion each minute of intercourse with whom was a delight. But I can easily understand that, despite her perfect readiness to place herself for the nonce on the intellectual level of those with whom she chanced to be brought in contact, her society may not have been agreeable to all. I remember a young lady — by no means a stupid or unintelligent one — telling me that being with George Eliot always gave her a pain in " her mental neck," just as an hour passed in a picture-gallery did to her physical neck. She was fatigued by the constant at- titude of looking up. But, had she not been an intelligent girl, she need not have constantly looked up. It w^ould be a great mistake to suppose that George Eliot's mental habits exacted such an attitude from those she conversed with. Another very prominent and notable characteristic of that most remarkable idiosyncrasy was the large and al- most universal tolerance with which George Eliot regarded her fellow-creatures. Often and often has her tone of mind reminded me of the French saying, '"''Tout conyiaitre ce serait tout pardomier /" I think that of all the human MR. AXD MRS. LEWES. 465 beings I have ever known or met George Eliot would have made the most admirable, the most perfect father confes- sor. I can conceive nothing more healing, more salutary to a stricken and darkened soul than unrestricted con- fession to such a mind and such an intelligence as hers. Surely a church with a whole priesthood of such confes- sors would produce a model world. And with all this I am well persuaded that her mind was at that time in a condition of growth. Her outlook on the world could not have been said at that time to have been a happy one. And my subsequent acquaintance with her in after-years led me to feel sure that this had become much modified. She once said to me at Florence that she wished she never had been born. I was deeply pained and shocked ; but I am convinced that the utterance was the result, not of irritation and impatience caused by pain, but of the influence exercised on the tone of thought and power of thinking by bodily malady. I feel sure that she w^ould not have given expression to such a sentiment when I and my wife were subsequently staying with her and Lewes at their lovely home in Surrey. She had by that time, I cannot but think, reached a brighter outlook and happier frame of mind. We had as neighbors at Ricorboli, although on the op- posite bank of the Arno, our old and very highly-valued friends, Mr. G. P. Marsh, the United States minister, and his charming wife, to w^hom for the sake of both parties w^e were desirous of introducing our distinguished guests. We thought it right to explain to Mrs. Marsh fully all that was not strictly normal in the relationship of George Eliot and G. H. Lewes before bringing them to- gether, and were assured both by her and by her husband that they saw nothing in the circumstances which need deprive them of the pleasure of making the acquaintance of persons whom it would be so agreeable to them to know. The Marshes were at that time giving rather large weekly receptions in the fine rooms of their villa, and our friends accompanied us to one of these. It was very easy to see that both ladies appreciated each other. There was a large gathering, mostly of Americans, and Lewes exerted him- 20* 466 WHAT I REMEMBER. self to be agreeable and amusing — which he always was, when he wished to be, to a degree rarely surpassed. He and I used to walk about the country together when " Polly " was indisposed for walking ; and I found him an incomparable companion, whether a gay or a grave mood were uppermost. He was the best raconteur I ever knew, full of anecdote, and with a delicious perception of humor. She also, as I have said — very needlessly to those who have read her books — had an exquisite feeling and appreciation of the humorous, abundantly sufficient, if unsupported by other examples, to put Thackeray's dicta on the subject of woman's capacity for humor out of court. But George Eliot's sense of humor was different in qualit}'- rather than in degree from that which Lewes so abun- dantly possessed. And it was a curious and interesting study to observe the manifestation of the quality in both of them. It was not that the humor, which he felt and expressed, was less delicate in quality or less informed by deep human insight and the true nihil-humanum-a-mealie- nxim-puto spirit than hers, but it was less wide and far- reaching in its purview of human feelings and passions and interests ; more often individual in its applicability, and less drawn from the depths of human nature as ex- hibited by types and classes. And often they would cap each other with a mutual relationship similar to that be- tween a rule of syntax and its example, sometimes the one coming first and sometimes the other. I remember that during the happy days of this visit I was writing a novel, afterwards published under the title of " A Siren," and Lewes asked me to show him the manu- script, then nearly completed. Of course I was only too glad to have the advantage of his criticism. He was much struck by the story, but urged me to invert the order in which it was told. The main incident of the plot is a murder caused by jealousy, and I had begun by nar- rating the circumstances which led up to it in their natural sequence. He advised me to begin by bringing before the reader the murdered body of the victim, and then unfold the causes which had led to the crime. And I followed his advice. MR. AND MRS. LEWES. 467 The murder is represented as having been committed on a sleeping person by piercing the heart with a needle, and then artistically covering the almost imperceptible orifice of the wound with wax, in such sort as to render the dis- covery of the wound and the cause of death almost impos- sible even by professional eyes. And I may mention that the facts were related to me by a distinguished man of science at Florence as having really occurred. Perhaps, since I have been led to speak of this story of mine, I may be excused for recording an incident con- nected with it, which occurred some years subsequently at Rome, in the drawing-room of Mrs. Marsh. The scene of the story is Ravenna. And Mrs. Marsh specially intro- duced me to a very charming young couple, the Count and Countess Pasolini of Ravenna, as the author of "A Siren." They said they had been most anxious to know who could have written that book. They thought that no Englishman could have been resident at Ravenna with- out their having known him, or at least known of him. And yet it was evident that a writer who could photo- graph the life and society of Ravenna as it had been photographed in the book in question must have resided there and lived in the midst of it for some time. But I never was in Ravenna for a longer time than a week in my life. It was many years after the visit of George Eliot and Mr. Lewes to my house at Ricorboli that I and my wife visited them at The Heights, Witley, in Surrey. I found that George Eliot had grown. She was evidently happier. There was the same specially quiet and one may say har- monious gentleness about her manner and her thought and her ways. But her outlook on life seemed to be a brighter, a larger, and, as I cannot doubt, a healthier one. She would no longer, I am well assured, have talked of re- gretting that she had been born. It would be to give an erroneous impression if I were to say that she seemed to be more in charity with all men, for assuredly I never knew her otherwise. But, if the words may be used, as I think they may be understood, without irreverence, or any meaning that would be akin to blasphemy, she seemed 468 WHAT I REMEMBER. to me to be more in charity with her Creator. The ways of God to man had become more justified to her ; and her outlook as to the futurity of the world was a more hope- ful one. Of course optimism had with her to be long- sighted. But she seemed to have become reconciled to the certainty that he who stands on a lofty eminence must needs see long stretches of dusty road across the plains beneath him. Nothing could be more enjoyable than the evenings passed by the partie carree consisting of herself and Lewes, and my wife and myself. I am afflicted by hardness of hearing, which shuts me out from many of the pleas- ures of society. And George Eliot had that excellency in woman, a low voice. Yet, partly no doubt by dint of an exertion which her kindness prompted, but in great meas- ure from the perfection of her dainty articulation, I was able to hear her more perfectly than I generally hear any- body. One evening Mr. and Mrs. Du Maurier joined us. The Leweses had a great regard for Mr. Du Maurier, and spoke to us in a most feeling way of the danger which had then recently threatened the eyesight of that admirable artist. We had music ; and Mr. Du Maurier sang a drink- ing-song, accompanying himself on the piano. George Eliot had specially asked for this song, saying, I remem- ber, " A good drinking-song is the only form of intem- perance I admire." I think also that Lewes seemed in higher spirits than when I had been with him at Florence. But this was no more than an additional testimony to the fact that she was happier. She also was, I take it, in better health, for we had some most delightful walks over the exceptionally beautiful country in the neighborhood of their house, to a greater extent than she would, I think, have been capable of at Florence. One day we made a most memorable excursion to visit Tennyson at Black Down. It was the first time I had ever seen him. He walked with us round his garden, and to a point finely overlooking the country below, charm- ingly varied by cultivated land, meadow, and woodland. MR. AND MRS. LEWES. 469 It was a magnificent day ; but as I looked over the land- scape I thought I understood why the woods, which one looks down on from a similar Italian height, are called macchie — stains — whereas our ordinarily more picturesque language knows no such term and no such image. In looking over a widespread Italian landscape one is struck by the accuracy and picturesque truth of the image ; but it needs the sun and the light and the atmosphere of Italy to produce the contrast of light and shade which justifies the phrase. Our friends were evidently personce gratce at the court of the laureate; and after our walk he gave us the ex- quisite treat of reading to us the just completed manu- script of *'Rizpah." And how he read it ! Everybody thinks that he has been impressed by that wonderful poem to the full extent of the effect that it is capable of pro- ducing. They would be astonished at the increase of weird terror which thrills the hearer of the poet's own recital of it. He was very good-natured about it. It was explained to him by George Eliot that I should not be able to enjoy the reading unless I were close to him, so he placed me by his side. He detected me availing myself of that posi- tion to use my good eyes as well as my bad ears, and pro- tested ; but on my appeal ad miseincordiam, and assurance that I should so enjoy the promised treat to infinitely greater effect, he allowed me to look over his shoulder as he read. After " Rizpah " he read the " Northern Cob- bler " to us, also with wonderful effect. The difference between reading the printed lines and hearing them so read is truly that between looking on a black-and-white engraving and the colored picture from which it has been taken. Another thing also struck me. The provincial dialect, which, when its peculiarities are indicated by let- ters, looks so uncouth as to be sometimes almost puzzling, seemed to produce no difficulty at all as he read it, though he in no wise mitigated it in the least. It seemed the ab- solutely natural and necessary presentation of the thoughts and emotions to be rendered. It was, in fact, a dramatic rendering of them of the highest order. 470 WHAT I REMEMBER. I remember with equal vividness hearing Lowell read some of his "Biglow Papers" in the drawing-room of my valued friend Arthur Dexter, of Boston, when there were no others present save him and his mother and my wife and myself. And that also was a great treat ; that also was the addition of color to the black-and-white of the printed page. But the difference between reading and hearing was not so great as in the case of the laureate. When, full of the delight that had been afforded us, we were taking our leave of him, our host laid on us his strict injunctions to say no word to any one of what we had heard, adding with a smile that was half 7iaif, half fun- ning, and wholly comic, "The newspaper fellows, you know, would get hold of the story, and they would not do it as well !" And then our visit to the Leweses in their lovely home drew to an end, and we said our farewells, little thinking as we four stood in that porch that we should never in this world look on their faces more. The history of George Eliot's intellect is to a great ex- tent legible in her books. But there are thousands of her readers in both hemispheres who would like to possess a more concrete image of her in their minds — an image which should give back the personal peculiarities of face, voice, and manner, that made up her outward form and semblance. I cannot pretend to the power of creating such an image ; but I may record a few traits which will be set down, at all events, as truthfully as I can give them. She was not, as the world in general is aware, a hand- some, or even a personable woman. Her face was long ; the eyes not large nor beautiful in color — they were, I think, of a grayish blue — the hair, which she wore in old- fashioned braids coming low down on either side of her face, of a rather light brown. It was streaked with gray when last I saw her. Her figure was of middle height, large-boned, and. powerful. Lewes often said that she in- herited from her peasant ancestors a frame and constitu- tion originally very robust. Her head was finely formed, with a noble and well-balanced arch from brow to crown. MR. AND MRS. LEWES. 47 1 The lips and mouth possessed a power of infinitely varied expression. George Lewes once said to me when I made some observation to the effect that she had a sweet face (I meant that the face expressed great sweetness). "You might say what a sweet hundred faces ! I look at her sometimes in amazement. Her countenance is constantly changing." The said lips and mouth were distinctly sensu- ous in form and fulness. She has been compared to the portraits of Savonarola (who was frightful) and of Dante (who though stern and bitter-looking was handsome). Something there was of both faces in George Eliot's physiognomy. Lewes told us, in her presence, of the exclamation uttered suddenly by some one to whom she was pointed out at a place of pub- lic entertainment — I believe it was at a Monday Popular Concert in St. James's Hall. " That," said a bystander, "is George Eliot." The gentleman to whom she was thus indicated gave one swift, searching look and ex- claimed sotto voce, " Dante's aunt !" Lewes thought this happy, and he recognized the kind of likeness that was meant to the great singer of the Divine Comedy. She herself playfully disclaimed any resemblance to Savona- rola. But, although such resemblance was very distant — Savonarola's peculiarly unbalanced countenance being a strong caricature of hers — some likeness there was. Her speaking voice was, I think, one of the most beautiful I ever heard, and she used it conscientiously^ if I may say so. I mean that she availed herself of its modulations to give thrilling emphasis to what was profound in her utter- ances, and sweetness to what was gentle or playful. She bestowed great care, too, on her enunciation, disliking the slipshod mode of pronouncing which is so common. I have several times heard her declare with enthusiasm that ours is a beautiful language, a noble language even to the ear, when properly spoken ; and imitate with disgust the short, snajypy, inarticulate way in which many people utter it. There was no touch of pedantry or affectation in her own measured, careful speech, although I can well imagine that she might have been accused of both by those per- sons — unfortunately more numerous than could be de- 472 WHAT I REMEMBER. sired — who seem to take it for granted that all differ- ence from one's neighbor, and especially a difference in the direction of superiority, must be affected. It has been thought by some persons that the influence of George Henry Lewes on her literary work was not a fortunate one, that he fostered too much the scientific bent of her mind to the detriment of its artistic richness. I do not myself hold this opinion. I am even inclined to think that but for his companionship and encouragement she might possibly never have written fiction at all. It is, I believe, im- possible to overestimate the degree to which the sunshine of his complete and understanding sympathy and his ador- ing affection developed her literary powers. She has writ- ten something to this effect — perhaps more than once ; I have not her biography at hand at this moment for refer- ence — in a letter to Miss Sara Hennell. And no one who saw them together in anything like intimate intercourse could doubt that it was true. As I have said before, Lewes worshipped her, and it is considered a somewhat un- wholesome experience to be worshipped. Fortunately the process is not so common as to constitute one of the dan- gers of life for the average human being. But in George Eliot's case I really believe the process was not deleterious. Her nature was at once stimulated and steadied by Lewes's boundless faith in her powers, and boundless admiration for their manifestation. Nor was it a case of sitting like an idol to be praised and incensed. Her own mental atti- tude towards Lewes was one of warm admiration. She thought most highly of his scientific attainments, whether well-foundedly or mistakenly I cannot pretend to gauge with accuracy. But she also admired and enjoyed the sparkling brightness of his talk, and the dramatic vivacity with which he entered into conversation and discussion, grave or gay. And on these points I may venture to re- cord my opinion that she was quite right. I always used to think that the touch of Bohemianism about Lewes had a special charm for her. It must have offered so piquant a contrast with the middle - class surroundings of her early life. I observed that she listened with great complacency to his talk of theatrical things and people. MR. AND MRS. LEWES. 473 Lewes was fond of talking about acting and actors, and in telling stories of celebrated theatrical personages would imitate — half involuntarily, perhaps — their voice and man- ner. I remember especially his doing this with reference to Macready. Both of them loved music extremely. It was a curious, and, to me, rather pathetic study to watch Lewes — a man naturally self-sufficient (I do not use the word in any odious sense), of a combative turn of intellect, and with scarcely any diffidence in his nature — so humbly admit- ting, and even insisting upon, " Polly's " superiority to himself in every department. Once when he was walking with my wife in the garden of their house in Surrej^, she turned the conversation which had been touching other topics to speak of George Eliot. " Oh," said Lewes, stop- ping short and looking at her with those bright eyes of his, " Your blood be 07i your oio?i head! I didn't begin it ; but if you wish to speak of her, I am always ready." It was this complete candor, and the genuineness of his ad- miring love for her, which made its manifestations delight- ful, and freed them from offence, CHAPTER XXXV. LETTEKS FKOM MR. AND MRS. LEWES. I HAVE a great many letters from G. H. Lewes, and from George Eliot. Many of the latter are addressed to ray wife. And many, especially of those from Lewes, re- lating as they do mainly to matters of literary business, though always containing characteristic touches, are not of sufficient general interest to make it worth while to transcribe them for publication. In no case is there any word in any of them that would make it expedient to withhold them on any other ground. I might, perhaps, have introduced them into my narrative as nearly as pos- sible at the times to which chronologically they refer. But it has seemed to me so probable that there may be many readers who may be glad of an opportunity of see- ing these letters without feeling disposed to give their time to the rest of these volumes, that I have thought it best to throw them together in this place. I will begin with one written from Blandford Square, by George Eliot, to me, which is of great interest. It bears no date whatever, save that of place ; but the sub- ject of it dates it with considerable accuracj^ "Dear Mr. Trollope, — I am very grateful to you for your notes. Con- cerning netto di specchio, I have found a passage in Varchi which decides the point according to your impression. [Passages equally decisive might be found passim in the old Florentine historians. And I ought to have referred her to them. But as she had altogether mistaken the meaning of the phrase, I had insinuated my correction as little presumptuously as I could.] *' My inference had been gathered from the vague use of the term to ex- press disqualification [^. e., non netto dispecchio expressed disqualification]. But I find from Varchi, b. viii., that the specchio in question was a public book, in which the names of all debtors to the Commune were entered. Thus your doubt [no doubt at all !] has been a very useful caveat to me. 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