|LIBRi\RYOFCOx\GRESS.I t%H- mm^i Ao- ,4 UNITED STATES OF AMERICA f Rue, Thyme, and Myrtle. A COLLECTION OF POEMS AND SONGS. BY CHARLES EDGAR SPENCER. PHILADELPHIA: J B. LIPPINCOTT&CO. 1876. Entered, according to Act of Congress, in the year 1876, by CHARLES EDGAR SPENCER, In the Office of the Librarian of Congress at Washington. TO MRS. DR. J. D. AXLINE THIS VOLUME OF JUVENILE PIECES IS INSCRIBED, AS A SINCERE THOUGH HUMBLE TESTIMONY OF THE DEEP AFFECTION OF HER BROTHER. n ^ PREFACE. In offering this small volume of juvenile productions to the public, the author would say that they were written without the least anticipation of ever having them published, merely for the pleasure which their composition afforded him ; therefore, perhaps, they have served the only end that could be expected. But who has not at least a little vanity, especially among those who are given to the "^ sin' of rhyming"? If they have afforded him pleasure, why may they not afford others the same, though in a less degree? Besides, as Pope very justly tells us, th^only way that a writer can decide whether he can write or not is by appealing to the judgment of others, which certainly is no offense in itself. It was mainly the latter reason that induced the author to trespass upon the public by offering these humble productions to the better judgment of others. And, as his hope is limited for the success of even the best of his poems (for indeed it would be absurd to suppose that he could please, to any great extent, the taste of maturer minds at the age at which he composed these pieces), he will willingly abide the decision of those more competent to decide than himself, and be not greatly disappointed if they be condemned. 5 6 PREFACE. These poems were written upon " the impulse of the moment," without any reference to one another, and will, no doubt, be found incongruous as a whole. But may they not be likened, each with the impress of its peculiar passion or fancy, to the days in a week or month, some of which are bright and clear, others dark and cloudy, — and, after all, notwithstanding their inconsistence, be found to suit very well the times which produced them ? They were all composed at the age of eighteen or younger; the first at fifteen, except one, which was written some little time before that age. But a poem, whether composed at fifteen or fifty, is worthy, according to the grade of its excellence, a certain amount of consideration from the reader ; and it would, therefore, be ridiculous to offer excuses for the imperfection of these trifles under the plea of age. In conclusion, the author would say, in the words of Byron, that his pieces cannot be considered strictly original ; that they may have a casual coincidence with the books he has been in the habit of reading ; but that he has not been guilty of intentional plagiarism. He produces them tremblingly, for he is well aware oi their insignificance compared with the more happy pro- ductions of the day, and leaves them to the judgment of others without a recommendation. But if they wake a moment's pleasure in a sorrowing heart, if they cause a single eye to melt in compassion at another's griefs or failings, if they retard not in the least the progress of truth and virtue, the author will be content, with- out the poet's bays and the plaudits due to real merit. Somerset, December, 1874. CONTENTS. PAGE In the Autumnal Woods 9 Remembrance of Kelley's Island, in Lake Erie . 15 A Dream of Light 16 Stanzas to the Wild Sweet-Brier . . . .18 Song, — In the Glorious Autumn Weather . , .20 Ruth, A Sketch from Life: Part 1 22 "II 27 " III 33 "IV 38 Fishing Song 42 Ode to Nina 43 Winter 45 Incongruity 47 Among the Pines at Midnight 48 When I shall Write of Dandies . . . . -53 Listening 55 Temple of the Imagination 56 Ode to the Winter Wind at Night . . . -57 Sonnet 59 O'er the Hills, A Summer Idyl: Part 1 60 "II 6i « III. . . 62 "IV .64 Song, after the Style of Moore 66 7 8 CONTENTS. PAGE The Congressman 67 A Fragment < 69 Crab-Apple Blossoms 70 Melancholy 71 The Sultan of the Indies 73 That Old Beech-Tree 77 SoMNUs and Thanatos 79 Song 81 Singing 82 The Vagabond's Return 83 Address to the Comet of July, 1S74 . . . .85 Lines to Mary 88 The Forest Lake 89 Earthly Bliss 91 The Moss Rose 92 Here's a Health 93 Lines upon a Servant d' Amour escorting his Ladye- LovE down the Street 96 A Fragment - . .97 Sweet Eyes of Blue ■ . .98 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. IN THE AUTUMNAL WOODS. Another year has vanish' d in the past Since dreamy, blissful, sorry Autumn reign'd; Now once again the forest-leaves are cast, And on the air a moment are detain'd. As if to show how gorgeous all are stain' d, — More glorious in their life's expiring day ; E'en by my tread the forest is profaned. Where, low in death, they sadly strew my way, Like Beauty's rouseless sleep ere touch'd by foul decay. II. Thus year by year will roll forever on. And each will bring its pilgrims young and gray. Whose lives will fade as those before have gone ; The Present still will be the mighty day ; And every year will have its flowery May, Calm Summer, arch'd with sky so blue and clear, Hazed Autumn, breathing death so sadly gay. And ice-chain'd Winter, gloomy, cold, and drear, — Each in its turn to pass, forgot like this, my tear. 2 9 lO RUE, THYME, AA'D MYRTLE. III. Alas ! for strength, like beauty, must depart ; An empire's dirge at last must needs be sung; The worm, the king, the gentle loving heart, Low, low must sleep, return 'd to whence they sprung. And in the common tomb find rest among Their predecessors, mouldering 'neath the sod. Avails it aught that hearts be bold and young? They still must wend the way that all have trod, Doom'd by that Power inscrutable, conceiveless, — God. IV. The roses bud, then open fresh and bright Until in regal loveliness array'd ; And thus, a day, they bask in summer light, And then — the common end of all — they fade. Thou say'st, But who for that would fail to braid A wreath while still they breathe their sweet perfume ? Yes, thou art right ; but there are others made With lives less sunny, hearts o'erpall'd with gloom : Go thou and smile, — a torch their darkness to illume. There were low voices whose clear laugh and song Entranced my being, till it seem'd to dwell Within their music, stealing soft along In cadence sweet, past power of words to tell ; But they are hush'd. Thy voice, O vesper bell ! (At whose wild, plaintive sweetness oft I sigh, And that, e'en as I feel thy mystic spell, To think that sounds so heavenly should die,) Has fled away, and echo scarcely makes reply. IN THE AUTUMNAL WOODS. n VI, How calmly Autumn mounts his golden throne ! How dreamy blows the wind through every tree. Now lingering 'mid the leaves to breathe a moan, In sad reluctance on its way to flee ! The flowers on hill and dale have ceased to be; But e'en their stems, with downy seeds replete, Recall a thrill of rapture back to me From childish days, when on with dancing feet I sought wild-flowers, though tired, and aeem'd it pass- ing sweet. VII. Yes, I have loved the forest as my home ; For oft its whispers soothing peace could lend. As now within its dim-lit aisles I roam, Arch'd by the locking boughs that massy bend, I oft have felt each towering tree a friend. And scorn'd the friendship of a changing will ; While, from I know not where, I heard descend Strange voices when the forest seem'd most still. That spake unto my soul and made my being thrill, VIII. And I have pensive stray'd where Nature's hush Was broken only by the bickering stream, Or by the carol of the distant thrush. Whose warbling mingled sweetly with my dream ; Then earth and sky with beings seem'd to teem — The birth of Fancy — with all beauty fraught ; And e'en the sun outpour'd a softer beam, Till, bless'd, I built myself a realm of naught, And dwelt forgetful in my palaced dome of thought. KUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. I climb with reverent tread this ancient mound,* Heap'd by those hands that wrote no other page; But 'tis enough: they lived, and died, and found A lowly couch in Earth, from youth to age ; Their bosoms once o'erflow'd with love and rage. And throbb'd with deep emotion, joy, and pain ; And some were vainly proud, and some were sage; But now these senseless clods alone remain : Ah ! e'en the oaks grown o'er them seem to whisper — Vain. X. They once were rulers of this busy land, That haply bloom'd the Eden of the West ; The valley, cultured by a skillful hand. The upland, from its pristine rudeness dress'd. Made Nature smile; while o'er earth's fruitful breast Was rear'd the peaceful dwelling here and there, All fill'd with life, as bless'd as man is bless'd; But, ah ! this life is full of vexing care. And happy is the heart that never knew despair. * The mound here referred to is one of those built by the mound- builders, a pre -historic race, perhaps allied to the Aztecs of the South. These mounds are very common throughout various parts of Ohio and other States. They are filled with the remains of human bones ; and sometimes curious specimens of crockery and stone axes and arrow-heads are disinterred by those who explore their interior. Mr. Bryant's lines concerning this " disciplined and populous race" — to which 1 am indebted for the hint of several thoughts — I here adduce as support for my supposition that the mound-builders were at least a partly civilized people. IN THE AUTUMNAL WOODS. 13 XI. Perchance some cloud -draped mountain, capp'd with snow, Was their Olympus, view'd with hallow'd fear. Scorn not the prayer that pious hearts bestow ; Their will is good, whate'er their souls revere. They, haply, had their mighty Caesar here, And Cassius, fain to strike ambition dead. Their lives were form'd, like ours, of smile and tear, Of frustrate hope, of toil and error wed. Oh, let us seek the right ; full quickly life is fled. XII. Methinks I see a lingering swain advance Where he his lady's smile is wont to greet. And she awaits him there as if by chance ; 'Tis vain ; their lips unite e'en as they meet ! An aged mother's heart doth anxious beat; Her loved, her only son is far away. Oh, look ! the door is oped : he's at her feet ! Delicious tears of joy, that naught can stay, Fall showering on his neck, tell what no words portray. XIII. Deep in the Past, their Homer strung his lyre, Who, sage unletter'd, breathed his awful mind ; Whose song — as his of Hellas shall expire — Died heavenly; nor is echo left behind. And there were those so rapt they fain resign'd Their souls to Music's power, transporting song. But all their joys and griefs, both rude, refined, 14 RUE, THYME; AND MYRTLE. Were but the waves that moved life's bark along ; Now sleeping lowly as that once all-lusty throng. XIV. Still, much as life's quick-shifting scenes avail For good and evil, they their portion bore. When death is progress upward, why bewail ? Rest, mighty nation ! doom'd to be no more ! As fades the Red man from his native shore, So ye departed, e'en as fell your power; Still tenderly your tomb is sprinkled o'er With Autumn's tributes shed, a golden shower. That bear the impress bright of Summer's sweetest flower, XV. I love the hazy, soft autumnal air ; I love the woods when stain'd with many a dye ; I revel in their chaste and mellow'd glare, — Such glorious ruin needs provoke a sigh. Perhaps beneath an oak I, dreaming, lie To watch the leaves' sad quiver as they fall. And feel 'twere bliss, like them, to calmly die, — To sleep where oft is heard the mock-bird's call, And let the Indian's couch replace the sombre pall. XVI. How truly sweet if May could last the year ! But sweeter far if Autumn reign'd for aye ; For, to our hearts of dust, 'tis oft a tear Is far more blissful e'en than to be gay; Then whatsoe'er awakes its gentle sway REMEMBRANCE OF KELLEY'S ISLAND. Is balm, — an unction pour'd upon the heart ; 'Tis that, as rapturous music dies away. Which bids the soothing tear-drops rise and start. O thou I love ! sad, beauteous Autumn, ne'er depart ! 15 REMEMBRANCE OF KELLEY'S ISLAND, IN LAKE ERIE. I SEEM to tread that isle anew Which lies in Erie's heaving breast, And watch again the sunset-hue Of gold and crimson in the west O'ertip, along the waters blue. Each wavelet with a sheeny crest. Upon the beach, where calmly glass The waters in a slumber sweet, In fancy, now, a bonny lass Is stooping from a rock to meet And smooth the ripples, as they pass, With snowy hands and dainty feet. Such was that placid evening scene ; And inly still returns a spell — O'erleaping years that lie between — As memory pictures every swell That lassie's feet, with many a sheen, Sent dancing as they rose and fell. 1 6 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. The sweetness of a lovely face, The thoughts that grandeur does impart, Still leave for aye a treasured grace. Which prints their image on the heart ; And thus that long-remember' d place Can ne'er from out my soul depart. A DREAM OF LIGHT. All day the sleet fell thick and fast, Swept on, and on, before the blast, And smote the window as it pass'd. All day the trees, with dreary wail, Rocked fiercely in the wintry gale Beneath their load of icy mail. All day I dream'd of one no more, And heard the wild uncertain roar, And almost wish'd that life were o'er. Till, pondering on that vanish' d face, I saw it smile with softer grace, — Smile from its old accustom' d place ! At eve the clouds were reft on high. And dash'd like chariots through the sky, Till none were left to greet the eye. A DREAM OF LIGHT. And all the stars, with paly light, Came out against their azure height, And, brightening, were the eyes of Night. Then, with a smile no words define. Afar, I saw that face divine Look down with loving joy in mine ! And now, out in the midnight-day, As calm the moon steals on her way, Still 'neath her chaste, soft light I stray ; While in her hazed, illusive beam, The ice-gemm'd boughs, like diamonds, gleam, And earth is but a fairy dream ! White, stilly, sleep the hills aglow, Wrapp'd in their robe of ice and snow; A spell is cast o'er all below ! The hemlocks, bow'd as if in prayer. Stand like the aged oppress' d by care. With flowing locks of hoary hair. The night-wind scarce breathes a moan ; I hear no footfalls save my own, And yet I am not here alone ! I feel bright eyes of deep delight ; The icy trees are shimmering bright ; My sterile heart is touch'd with light ! 17 l8 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. STANZAS TO THE WILD SWEET- BRIER. Sweet rose with spicy leaves, how oft, When wayward roving fell and croft. Have I with pleasure turn'd to thee. And felt thy spell steal over me Like moonlight o'er a troubled sea! Not where they hold the Feast of Roses,* In shadowy vales and flowery closes Of Orient lands, where wreaths they twine To deck the shrines of Love and Wine, Is aught with breath so sweet as thine ! There's many a rose with brighter bloom That sheds a transient, soft perfume ; Thy fragrance fades not with thy flower, — Thy small gi-een leaves possess their power . Through each calm, dreamy summer hour. ■•■• Moore, in his " Light of the Harem,'' gives an account of the Feast of Roses held in the Vale of Cashmere : " A happier smile illumes each brow, With quicker spread each heart uncloses, And all is ecstasy — for now The Valley holds its Feast of Roses." TO THE WILD SWEET-BRIER. Thou emblem true of simple worth, Scarce known, and born of humble birth, Though unassuming, void of glare, Thy presence e'en pervades the air. And thus, though plain, art passing fair. What childish dreams, so vain and sweet, What boyish walks, with aimless feet. Thou bring'st to me from hours no more,— While now I sigh that they are o'er. And love thee for those days of yore ! When winter winds shriek fierce and loud. And earth has donn'd her snowy shroud. When Yule-tide comes with wassail cheer, When ghost nor goblin dares appear,* And froward is the hoary year. In braids and wreaths of winter-green I twine thy hips of ruddy sheen To deck my lady's tresses flowing. And know not, when both fairer growing, To which the mystic charm is owing. Sweet hermit of the dale and hill, Unpruned, and rear'd at Nature's will, 19 * " Some say, that ever 'gainst that season comes Wherein our Saviour's birth is celebrated, The bird of davi'ning singeth all night long : And then, they say, no spirit can walk abroad." Hamlet. RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. Though few of hurrying throngs delay To hail thee from life's busy way, Accept my all, — an artless lay. SONG, In the glorious autumn weather, When the startled quail was calling, Bonny May and I together Wander' d where the leaves were falling. And we pluck'd, from branches hoary. Drupes that made our fingers bloody ; And I whisper'd, "In their glory, None are like thy lips so ruddy." When we found — where rocks all mossy Hid the rabbit's coy recesses — Chestnuts brown, I said, "Though glossy. None are like thine eyes and tresses." As the dreamy wind blew showers Of the gorgeous leaves before her, "Ah!" I thought, "they're meant for flowers, And the forest-trees adore her." And I told her though the sighing Of the wind was Music's spirit, SONG. That, if she were but replying, It were lost, — I would not hear it ! "But a kiss?" Demure and meetly Show'd her face forbidding flushes; Half afraid, I kiss'd her fleetly, — She but turn'd to hide her blushes ! But how quick the tears upstarted ! (Sometimes tears presage our blisses,) Such would melt the iron-hearted ! Yes, I dried them all with kisses. RUE, 77/YME, AND MYRTLE. RUTH. A SKETCH FROM LIFE. " A beautiful and happy girl, With step as light as summer air, Eyes glad with smiles, and brow of pearl, Shadow'd by many a careless curl Of unconfined and flowing hair; A seeming child in everything, Save thoughtful brow and ripening charms. As Nature wears the smile of Spring When sinking into Summer's arms." Whittier. PART I. O CHILD ! with eyes so full of glee, And face iinmark'd by sin or care, Of all the world, I'd turn to thee, For thou art pure and passing fair ; And in my heart thou wak'st a joy, A rapture that is all divine, Till, once again, I am a boy And childhood's thoughtless bliss is mine ! 'Twas early May ; the sun had low declined ; The trees, just putting on their leafy growth, Cast shadows long upon the tender grass ; 'Twas near the hour when laborers seek repose. A little village, nestled on a hill, RUTH. 23 That held in prospect, smiling with the May, The distant woods, all white with dogwood flowers, The sloping upland, green with springing wheat. And many a field, just new prepared for corn, Seem'd peaceful as the placid eventide. Still on the village street, with lusty shouts. The school-boys linger'd on their way from school ; Some by the little church, in thoughtless glee. To stone the swallows on the belfry-eaves ; Others (near home) to taunt with names uncouth The tyrant of the playground, daily fear'd. A little westward down the village street — The last small dwelling — stood, in humble guise, A cottage with a flowery garden-plot. The cottage was o'erhung with climbing vines ; And, in the grassy yard before the door. Full many a rosebush, with artistic care, Was pruned and twined upon the lattice-frames. Presaging roses sweet in sunny June. The beautiful surroundings spake of peace ; And e'en the smoke, that hung in lazy wreaths Above the chimney on the moveless air. All voiceless, seem'd to whisper still of — Peace. The bell had rung to tell the evening meal Was wailing, and to call the farmer home; For he who own'd this cottage till'd the ground, And plow'd and sow'd and reap'd, and liked it well. The farmer's wife, who still was young and fair. Was sitting in the door, beneath the vines. To watch across the dale for his return. 24 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. Upon the step, beside the housewife's knee, Were two small children. — one a boy of six, AVith smiling face and open pleasant look ; And near, a lovely girl, perchance of four, With head o'erhung with showers of golden curls, — The farmer named her Ruth, his only child. The boy, whose name was Malcolm, was the son Of Vane, the blacksmith, living o'er the way, And daily came to play with little Ruth. He looked up, smiling, at the mother's face. Then kiss'd the little girl and homeward ran ; And Ruth climb'd on the gate to see him go. For oft they play'd together on the grass Around the cottage, and among the flowers. Sweet Ruth was known by all and loved by all: The villagers would stop and speak to her, And list her meet reply in childish phrase, And laugh to find it sage for one so young; And some would give her playthings (worthless treas- ures). Or smooth her flowing curls, or kiss her cheek. The mother placed the child upon her lap. And clasp'd the little dimpled hands in hers, Then, bowing down with all a mother's love, She gazed in thoughtful silence on her child. The dancing eyes look'd up all fiU'd with smiles; But, as the curly head at ease reclined, Their lids droop'd low, till, seal'd with silken lash (As waxen petals close the flowers at eve). Sweet Ruth lay wrapp'd in sleep without a dream. RUTH. Across the mother's face there sped a smile, That left a shade of sadness as it pass'd, Like to a fleeting cloud in snmmer-time; Then, speaking half aloud, like one who holds Deep converse with the teachings of the heart, She spake as if she heard not her own voice : *'0h, God! if harm should come upon thee, child! If thou shouldst die before 7ny time shall come, And I behold thee chain'd in icy death, So beautiful and cold, like sculptured stone, And all the brightness fled from out thine eyes ! I oft have roused thee from a peaceful sleep (With beating heart), half fearful that 'twas death. Then laugh'd at my own folly when thou smiledst. And woo'd thee back to slumber with a kiss : How anxious is the heart when full of love ! Or, worse, if he and I should leave thee thus An orphan, yet to frame thy future life ; For /have tried the sympathy of man, And few are those who turn not cold away From one that friendless threads the maze of life ; 'Tis frost, not dew, that melts th' unyielding rock. " Fair child, with mien so gentle, heart so pure. It cannot be that yet, in years to come, The ways of life, inseparable from sin, Will steal upon thee with their wonted power, Till, blending as by nature with thy thoughts. They twine in grossness round thy very soul. Which now is pure as heaven, and undefiled ! No, no ! it cannot be — it 7vill not be ! It may be so with others, — all beside; 3* 25 26 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. But thou, sweet child ! that slumberest on in peace, Unconscious of the snares thou yet shalt brave. So beautiful in innocence, — so still, — With features chisel'd like an Olympian god's, — Thou art a snowflake newly fallen from heaven. And, though thou minglest with the baser earth, Shalt rise up to thy native home again ! " T/iy heart will never burn with deep remorse, Thyself thine own accuser, — woe of woes. But, ah ! was I not once, like thee, my babe. Unsullied? pure? — O God ! my heart is sick ! I tremble for thee, O my darling child ! For who can read the future? what may come? What passions, almost governless, may rise? What dread temptations lure thee from the right ? Not those, whose feet have tried life's rugged way, Are sure but that, perchance, some hapless hour May come with evil fraught they think not of. With deeds that make the soul to fear itself!" She bow'd above her child iix voiceless prayer. She knew not that the gate swung on its hinge. Nor heard her husband's tread as home he came. He stood a moment near her, then he stoop'd And kiss'd her cheek, and whisper'd, "Why so sad?" She answer'd, "I was thinking, — that is all." Then Ruth awoke, and laugh'd with childish glee To see her father home return'd at eve. And when the door was closed, and darkness came. And cheery stream'd the lamp-light in the night, RUTH. 27 And merry voices sounded sweet within, The little cottage, overhung with vines, Still seem'd the same abode of Peace and Love, And Happiness — if it abide on earth. PART II. I saw her when she sweetly smiled, When, with unconscious, winning grace, She half my willing heart beguiled ; I thought there ne'er was lovelier face ; But when I saw her long-lash'd eyes O'erflow with tear-drops of despair, I felt a sad, a sweet surprise. That, weeping, she was more than fair ! Time is the scope of everlasting change. Life is to follow in the wake of time, — A day which has its morning, noon, and eve ; For life is change, else 'twere but sluggish death. 'Twas sweet-breath'd May again, and years had pass'd, — Pass'd with their wonted smiles, tears, joy, and woe. And were but in remembrance they had been. The village still was peaceful as before, And bore the same secluded, dreamy air. As if it knew not of the busy world. The cottages still seem'd as was their wont. Save that they look'd more gray and sober brown Amid the gathering dusk of twilight eve. Ere night fell o'er and robed them in her shades. 28 RUE, THYME, AND MYR/LF. The sparks flew out the blackeu'd smithy's door Into the darkness with a fitful glare ; And loud the anvil rung with cheery sound, As fell the sledge with measured sturdy blows, The same as day by day for many a year. But he, the smith, who, when his toil was done, Closed up the shop and bent his homeward course, Was not the same that had been there before. His step was too elastic, and his face Was scarcely bearded, but of manly cast ; He was the boy — then grown to be a man-^ Who roam'd at play among the cottage flowers. 'Twas well that Malcolm Vane should take the jjlace His father held in life : such is the law That guides the tenor of the march of change. The little cottage, peeping through the vines, Was still surrounded by the rustic yard. And bore the same appearance, save the shrubs And roses, twining on their trellis-bars. Were dress' d by hands more skillful than before. The garden-plot was fiU'd with rarest flowers, — The stars and gems of all the neighboring woods, Brought home by hands as lovely as themselves Through all the years of girlhood, with a joy That told the heart which loved the flowers and ferns Was kindred to their beauty in its thoughts. As rose the moon with large and ruddy face. Half hid behind the eastern wooded hills, There stood beside the little cottage gate A maid so fair it could be only Ruth. KUTH. 29 Her hair hung down in ringlets as of gold, And trembled on the mellow air of eve In bright profusion ; and her lovely face, Though fairer in the bloom of womanhood, Was still the child's, save that it bore a shade Of sadness yet unsettled, new, and strange, That was unmeet to one so beautiful. She stood in silence, while a tear stole down From 'neath the drooping lashes of her eye (Lit by the moon, like dew upon a flower) Across the damask softness of her cheek. Then, clasping her white hands, as if in prayer. She bow'd a moment low, while fitfully Her proud lip quiver'd like a bow just sprung; And sobs broke forth, and her full-rounded form Was shaken with emotion, dread, deep-stirr'd. Like to a lily rock'd before the storm ! But when 'twas past — when evening's spicy breath Bathed off the tear-drops from her fever'd cheek — She was so lovely, lost in pensive mood Beneath the moonbeams, misty, indistinct. That Fancy might have deem'd her not of earth. She barely started, as a hand clasp' d hers, And as an arm stole gently round her waist With loving pressure; still, she look'd not up, She spake not, moved not, but again a tear Coursed, sparkling in the moonlight, down her cheek. But when a kiss was press'd upon her lips, The spell was riven, and her color came And went alternate, and her voice broke forth (Like some swift stream from out its mountain source, 30 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. In fitful bursts) and bore her soul upon it : " Oh, Malcolm ! kiss me not ; you know me not ! Your love is too unsullied ; seek a heart That can return a seemly meed for such. My heart is not for you, — it cannot be ! If you but knew me as I know myself, Your arm would fall as if by palsy struck !" She tried to loose his grasp, but, with an arm Of gentle firmness, still he held her fast, And spake in accents passionate as is love : '■'■ Oh, Ruth ! my Ruth ! why has this come to pass? Why have you ceased to love the one whose love Was more for you than life, perchance than heaven ? For, ah ! I fancied heaven to be your smile. Did we not play together in the woods, Around the cottage, and among the flowers? And e'en in boyhood, when I kiss'd your lips (For early stole that dream within my thoughts), You said you loved me, and I knew but joy ! And, as my love grew with my riper years Until it fiU'd my being, made my life, How oft I told you — ah, not all! — my heart! And still you said you loved me; but, O God ! 'Tis changed, and worse than if it ne'er had been. " I felt it leave me, — saw it turn to him ; And oft as up the village street he drove. With all his pride to mock my life of toil. And you were seated by him, in my heart I felt a chillness like an icy touch ; But still I trusted, for my love was firm. RUTH. 31 And oft I watch'd your face at his approach, And saw the color course up to your hair, Leaving your brow as pallid as the snow ; But when he spoke a word, or touch'd your hand, The blood would mount again up to your cheeks, While, with averted face and low reply. Your eyes were scarcely raised from off the ground. But still, oh, Rutli, I dared not doubt your love, For weeks and months : the strength came by degrees. Although I saw it change from me, and go To one whose wife you knew you ne'er could be. And yet my love is changeless ! still it burns With all its wonted fierceness, quenchless, deep ! And, though you cease to love me, still my heart Will turn unto the Ruth, — the Ruth of old, — And love her in remembrance, call her dead." While thus he spake, she stood in silence still. Save now and then emotion shook her frame And scatter'd glittering tears upon his hand ; But, when he ceased, she sudden loosed his arm, And fled among the vines, and answered thus : " I never loved him as you say I did ; 'Twas but th' enchantment of an evil hour, Which now is past ; my heart is ever thine ! Yet I will never wed you, Malcolm Vane; So now good-night, — farewell for evermore !" She pass'd into the house ; and Malcolm Vane, With downcast face and slow and nerveless tread, Turn'd sadly homeward through the stilly night. An hour had scarcely pass'd ere Ruth again Came out, with hat upon her head, and shawl 32 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. Cast loosely o'er her shoulders ; in her hand She bore a small valise ; and, as the door Closed softly, she stood holding to the knob A moment, as if powerless to move. Then, passing through the little garden-plot. She cuU'd a sweet bouquet of early flowers, And turn'd to look back at the cottage, wrapp'd In midnight silence, and most sadly wept. And shook with deep emotion as before, Then gazed a moment at the golden stars, Like calm forgiving eyes in highest heaven. And, weeping, slowly cross'd the darkling fields, And soon was lost amid the shades of night. At morning, Sorrow, far worse than if Death Had clasp'd their loved one in his cold embrace, Hung brooding o'er the cottage, and the hearts Of those within bow'd down in hopeless woe ; For Ruth was gone ! The Ruth they loved so much, Their hope in life, the tie that join'd their hearts. Was gone, they knew not whither, nor in peace! Was gone, nor left a trace, except a note, To tell them what her lips could never speak : That she would ne'er come back, unless in years; She could not stay to shame them with her shame. For she was not the Ruth she was before. And, as the God of heaven beheld her woe, She loved them more, far more, than words could tell, And still would love with life and after death ! That they should now remember her as dead, — As if her death had been in those sweet days When she so loved the flowers, when pure and good ; RUTH. 33 And they should keep her garden as it was, And tend the flowers for love of erring Ruth ; That they should tell to Malcolm all her shame, For he would shed a tear for her he loved ; But let the unfeeling world, unloving, cold, That would but glory in her fall, go on With selfish care, and know not of her fate. PART III. None knew her, none could tell her name. How came she in the rushing stream ? Were hands less fair than hers to blame ? Perchance 'twas in a frenzied dream She sought her cold and watery bed. Or, haply, goaded by despair ; Yet, weep for one so lovely, dead. Though icy be her golden hair ! 'Twas in a city full of throbbing life. That coursed through all its streets and darker ways. In waves which scarce knew respite e'en at night. And roll'd continual on, and came, and went, And changed, and mingled, till the gazing eye Turn'd weary from the ever-swaying throng. Half dizzy at the faces new and strange ; Where, towering high, the church with steepled dome Seem'd mutely ever pointing up to heaven Beside the palaced den of blackest hell ; Where all the hard-sought learning of the world Was gather'd, till it rival'd with its lore The famed Athena's city, yet where few 4 34 l^UE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. Cast off the coil of ignorance to be wise ; Where high the imposing mansion loom'd aloft Above the hovels fill'd with want and crime ; Where one unceasing stream of life roll'd on — The good, the bad, the wise, the rich, the poor — Together to one haven, — all to death. 'Twas winter; and, as night fell o'er in gloom. The full-orb'd moon climb'd up her heavenward path, And now and then peep'd through the rifted clouds — That moved now slow, now fast, before the wind. Like sterile, rugged islands in the sky — With cheerful light ; then leaden darkness came, And left, perchance, a single star in heaven. The early hours sped on, and then the rout In giddy splendor gather'd at the ball And midnight revel, where the windows blazed. And laughter, wine, words, songs, and smiles were free As if they were not phantoms of delight. As still the hours pass'd on, the city's heart Grew weary of the tumult of the day, And sank almost to silence and repose. Save now and then disturb'd by clattering wheels That hurried on, and hollow echoing steps Of those returning from the night's debauch, Or sadly call'd, perchance, from pleasant dreams Unto the chamber visited by Death, Or drowsy watchman on his lonely beat. Upon the old and massy bridge that spann'd The river rushing, gurgling on below, RUTH. 35 'Twas far more lonely at that ghostly hour Within the silent suburbs of the town ; For none but stragglers pass'd that gloomy way, With noiseless tread, and hearts that plotted crime. The river had been frozen, and the ice, Part melted, broken by the current's force, Went floating like small icebergs on the stream, And struck the piers that held aloft the bridge, An^ splash'd the water with a mournful sound, — A sad continual gurgling, like the breath And moans of myriads drowning in the flood. The wind blew chill and blustery ; on the bridge, The lamps, that bicker'd blue through long neglect, Seem'd pinch'd as if with cold, and flutter'd faint. Like to the heart in sickness, when it hangs In wavering indecision near to death. The moon had just been shining for a space. And sending, as by magic, o'er the stream A dancing splendor as of very joy ; Then ebon darkness came, and quick a step Fell stealthily upon the shadowy bridge. It was a female figure that came on Unto the centre, and lean'd o'er the rail. And gazed a moment at the surge below. Then, rising up, stood muttering to herself, " Yes, that shall end it ; hunger, shame, and sin. What ! do I shrink? As hell is in my heart, 'Tis better than a life of conscious shame ! Oh, inconsistent ! do I fear to die. When life is willful crime, — a living death? Ah, now 'tis gone ; 'twas but a moment's thought ; 36 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. For resolution wavers, then is firm. Oh, God ! that I could weep ! I once could weep ; But tears, so eloquent in innocence, Are frozen in the guilty heart, and seem A dull and heavy weight upon the soul. " A leap, a moment's struggle, — and all's o'er ! No fond returning thoughts, like cutting steel, Of those so dear, that peaceful, happy home, Of virtue's blissful days, of him I love, Will follow ; if they do (and, ah, they may). It cannot be the worse, for this is hell ! My child — O God, 'tis well ! — has gone before, And why may /not follow, though uncall'd? Explore the future, though with all my sin, If 'tis to keep from sinning still the more ? I only ask for justice ; let it come ! For there is that within my soul which speaks, — A voice that whispers, God is Justice, Love ; That weariness at last shall rest in Peace : Ah, none but God can read the heart and judge !" She stood, with upturn'd face, in silent prayer ; And as the moon again shone through the clouds, How beautiful she seem'd! 'Twas fallen Ruth, With form so graceful, face so passing fair, Whose flowing curls lay on the chilly gale, A seeming halo round about her head ! 'Twas but a moment's flutter o'er the rail, A sudden, sullen splash, a gurgling scream. And, for an instant, on the yeasty foam RUTH. 37 There lay a glittering mesh of golden hair, Which sunk just as the moonlight fled away. Then silence came again, save still the low Uncertain splashing of the darkling stream Kept seemly concord with the wind of night, And save that from the distance came the wild Alarm of fire, while lurid redness glared Against the sky; but still the city slept, An^ left the toil to those whose task it was. At morning, in a pile of drifted ice, Was found a lady dead and paly fair. Whose tangled hair, though fill'd with ice and mud, Still glitter'd as the sunbeams in the east. And as a man, who lived by finding such,* Upbore her to the shore, he told his mate 'Twas but a murder or a suicide. But no one knew her, none could tell her name ; And so, without a tear, they bore her on Between the gleaming mansions of the dead, And placed her in that lowly couch of rest Where all must sleep, and sleep without a dream. And though they raised above her nameless grave No eulogizing stone, 'twas all the same ; For such tells to the mortal eye the praise (If praise be due the senseless dust below). While Heaven but reads the tablet of the heart. * The reader will remember the water-side characters in " Our Mutual Friend." 4* 38 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. RART IV, Plod on, O weary course of life ! Plod on with year and month and day, But what are all thy toil and strife When o'er? A winter past away ! 'Tis well that Time ne'er curbs his flight, And life is short; for, Man, compare Thy fleeting hours of joy, delight. With all thy wonted years of care. 'Twas in the early May, when airs were soft, When farmers plow'd and sow'd their fields again. That Ruth departed from the home she loved. And at the cottage farm, so neatly kept. Some fields were partly plow'd, and some half sown, And over-night, within the furrow' d glebe. The share was left just where the team was stopp'd, In readiness to wait the morrow morn. But when the morrow came, and with it woe. The fields were left untouch'd, as if forgot, — Half planted and half plow'd, just as before ; And long the plow stood rusting in the earth. Until the raindrops loosed it, and it fell. 'Twas still the same when summer stole apace. And in the scattering rows of puny corn The weeds grew up and spread their choking growth, Prolific, like to follies in the heart, — A wild, neglected waste of lusty naught. And thus, as years pass'd on, the cottage farm Fell worse and worse in ruins day by day ; RUTH. 39 And e'en the roses in the little yard, When, mouldering with the rest, their frames decay'd, Grew spreading at their will, unpruned and wild, Like their uncultured cousins of the hills. At first the farmer and his wife were bow'd In hopeless woe for Ruth, their only child ; But soon reaction came, and with it hope, For they, so easy to forgive, so good at heart. Thought they could bring her back unto her home. And then they sought her far and near \ but none Could tell them of her, none had seen their Ruth : Still hopefully they search'd until a year Was past, and then that heavy load came back, For people told them surely she was dead. Then they abode alone, and sought her not, But never ceased to grieve for her they loved, Nor e'er forgot how sweet the songs she sung, Nor how her gentle voice and smile could smooth The rugged way of life's declining years. Before another year was gone, a change, A pallor, crept upon the mother's face. That told the woeful sickness of her heart ; But ere she died she said that it was well, For who would wish to live without a hope ? The farmer then was left alone on earth ; And gradually his hair turn'd silvery white, And hung uncut about his careworn brow, Like winter's snowy locks upon the hills : The dreary winter of his life was come. 40 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. His mind, at first, grew shadowy, indistinct, As objects to the eye at twilight eve ; Then total darkness came, a weary wreck, A chaos of the intellect ; and Hope Stole back in phantasy, and he was bless' d : He watch' d for Ruth's return from morn to eve. Thus he would wander o'er the grass-grown paths Around the cottage, or upon the street. And stand and gaze about with vacant look, As if he scarce knew who or where he was. And whomsoe'er he met he ask'd, in words That proved how vague and scattering were hie thoughts. If Ruth was come, — if his dear Ruth was come. When answer'd with evading, pitying words, He smiled, and slowly shook his hoary hair, And mutter'd, " Ah ! and then she has not come? But she will come to-day, — will come to-day ;" And then would totter on his way again, And mutter to himself, in hollow tones, "Yes, she will come to-day, will come to-day." Oft he would stop beside the smithy's door. And Malcolm Vane would leave his toil within. To come and talk to him in hopeful words. While tears of heartfelt pity fiU'd his eyes. But soon they miss'd the old man on the street. Save at the smithy or beside his gate. Where oft he loiter'd, sitting in the sun ; And then he wander'd not from out the yard ; Then sat upon the cottage-steps ; and then The kindly neighbors said he was no more. RUTH. 41 They laid him 'neath the waving churchyard grass, And, as the clods fell sullen o'er his home. Full many a simple heart was touch'd with woe ; But Malcolm Vane's were tears a son might shed. Not many winters pass'd ere Malcolm's hair Was sprinkled through with silver, ere his face Bore marks of age unsuited to his years : His life was swifter than the wing of Time. But still he bore his part, — his humble part : Oft when he had his iron heated white (And hammer partly raised), he let it cool, Nor struck a blow; and many marvel'd why ; But none within the village read his thoughts. Though sad, this is my story, — sad as life. It yet may have its sequel in that life, That brighter day in future, without eve, We hope for, cherish deep within the heart. 42 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. FISHING SONG. Oh, come ! oh, come with me, While smiling May is in the land. And gather flowers upon the lea, Where roves the droning humble-bee. While airs are soft and bland. And angle in the stilly brook, That mirrors back the sky of blue And passing clouds of snowy hue. And hear the thrush from many a nook Sing songs forever new ! Oh, come ! I'll weave of flowers A chaplet for thy wavy hair ; And in the leafy forest-bowers With tale and song we'll pass the hours. Forgetting time and care; And, angling in the shady stream, We'll watch the wavelets glide away And shake the rushes green and gay. Till eve, unmark'd, with mellow gleam. Steal in the place of day. ODE TO NINA. 43 ODE TO NINA. IMITATION OF ANACREON. Vulcan cast a vase of gold In a garnish'd magic mould. O'er its sides in clusters twine, Ripe to yield their ruby wine, Grapes like Hebe's ruddy lips. Sweeter than the cup she sips. Bacchus gave the vase to me, For I love festivity : Thanks to Bacchus ! pass the bowl, Let us drink with heart and soul. He who quaffs this genial cup Sees, serenely mirror' d up, Her he loves, with soft surprise Beaming from her laughing eyes. Darling Nina smiles to me : Ah ! I love no one but thee. With thy lips of ruby hue: Yes, I drink, and kiss them too ! In the liquid depth I see. Now reflected back to me From the polish'd golden side, Through the fragrant rosy tide, 44 KUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. Hair, like gleaming rays of light, Streaming backward soft and bright. O'er her arms descending low, Like the autumn's hazy glow : 'Neath a brow of purest white, Crystal springs of soft delight Beam, from out their depth of blue, Dreamy sweetness to the view ; And with each enamoring glance Cupid casts a burning lance : Though my heart is sadly sore, Cupid, rend it even more ! Though 'twere death to see that eye, I would look again, — and die ! Cheeks, whose varying ruddy glow Seems like rose-leaves o'er the snow. Change their soft translucent hue With each sweet emotion new. And with blushes coy impart Love's soft language to the heart Far more sweetly than express Words that mean but blissfulness : Dimpled chin of curving grace Adds its beauty to her face, In whose midst, by Venus crown'd King of realm so plump and round, Love doth sit, with gentle sway Bearing every palm away, On his soft and dimpled throne, Made for him, and him alone : Lips, whose nectar'd breath divine Lends the fra!j;rance to the wine : WINTER. Neck of whiteness : snowy arms : Ah ! I leave a thousand charms To enraptured fancy's flight, Which to dream of is delight ! Drink ! let draughts to Nina flow Of our nectar here below ! Nina, press thy lips to mine Through the fragrant rosy wine ; Let me kiss thee at my will ! Could I ever kiss my fill ? 45 WINTER. I wander'd o'er the windy hi'l. Through sombre woodlands gaunt and bare, Cross'd sallow leas, deserted, still. Nor herd nor tinkling bell was there : Pluck'd this, — the only leaf of green Surviving from the summer day, — A hardy fern, that grew between The ancient rocks with lichen gray. I stood where oft in pleasant dream I stretch'd me in the summer shade. Beside the gurgling forest-stream, All fringed with violets through the glade ; 5 46 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. Where, half awake, 'twas mine to hear The humble-bee among the flowers. And muse on themes to memory dear To while the pensive stilly hours : But all was sterile, changed, or dead ; The bees and flowers were there no more ; The brook congeal'd, — its music fled ; How like the hopes of years before ! The solemn woods, gloom-veil'd and dim, Seem'd stretching forth to grasp the gale Their long bare arms, like spectres grim, With menace weird and sullen wail. Sweet sung one lone benighted bird : Ah ! deem not thou the heart to cheer With one sweet song, or smile, or word ; 'Twill leave the gloom more dark and drear ! I roved, and dream' d of beauty flown, Dejected by the wintry change ; Meseem'd as in a throng alone. Where every face is new and strange ; Or stood as one who sadly bends O'er urns of loved departed clay: The leaves and flowers had been my friends, I wept that they were pass'd away ! I sought, yet knew not what I sought. For vagueness whelm'd my weary mind ; Though dim-discern'd, still, still methought 'Twas something dear, not there to find ! INCONGRUITY. 47 INCONGRUITY. I HEARD two lovers' mingling laughter, •Heard friends bewail their idol dead, Heard wedding-bells ring gayly after, Heard Hunger's voice imploring bread. At eve, I heard fair sisters singing. Heard hopeless moans of chronic pain Heard revelers' glasses loudly ringing, Heard vagrants curse the falling rain. At morn, I saw a maid of beauty As from the street they bore, her dead, — A sinner. Strangers did their duty ; Some laugh'd, but not a tear they shed. I heard fair gossips talk delighted : "A lovely lady bought and sold ! But men, you know, though old and blighted, Are handsome if they have the gold 1" 48 RUE, THYME, AND MYRTLE. AMONG THE PINES AT MIDNIGHT. " Incipe Mrenalios mecum, mea tibia, versus. Maenalus argutumque nemus pinosque loquentes Semper habet." VIRGIL. O WHISPERING Pines ! Why sing ye such a melancholy lay ? Why burst ye forth in sighs and fitful sobs, So like some child whose heart is near to break ? Has Atys' madness spread through all the grove, And thus ye love to hear your frenzied voice Rise wildly, like the hopeless wails of some Benighted soul, whose hollow echoes wake The Stygian stream, and wane to shrilling moans, Just audible upon the midnight air. Quick turn'd to mutterings of a maniac ? Ye sadder sigh ! Oh, would that I might read Your answer ! I have thought, while listening to Your wild and mystic harmony, that sounds So strange are never breathed for human ears. And that perchance ye hold communion with The spirit-land, and those unearthly strains Are whisper'd meaningly unto the souls Of those departed. I have dream'd that all The strains of plaintive music, which pervade Your every tuneful, sad, demoniac wail, AMONG THE PINES AT MIDNIGHT. 4