Class ?Q Z 4lfc LITTERS OF A TRAVELLER, 3 5 Te» GEORGE SAND. TRANSLATED BY E L I Z A A. ASHURST. EDITED BY MATILDA M. HAYS, AUTHOR OF "HELEN STANLEY/' LONDON : E. CHURTON, 26, HOLLES STREET, 1847. V ADVERTISEMENT. The Editor, in bringing the George Sand series to a sudden close, feels it due to her author, no less than to herself, explicitly to declare, that nothing but inadequate support upon the part of the reading public, prevents the " English Edition of George Sand's Works," announced at the be- ginning of the year, from being carried out to its fullest extent. The selection which she considered best adapted for the first year of the Series, will however, even in its incompleteness, be sufficient to appeal against the pre- judice which condemns without a hearing, and the works already published in their English form, will, in their gradual dissemination, assist in obtaining from the English public, the verdict, which, sooner or later, must place George Sand among the noblest social reformers of the age. Matilda M. Hays. London, December, 1847. TO GEORGE SAO. A DESIRE. Thotj large-brained woman and large hearted man, Self-called George Sand ! whose soul, amid the lions Of thy tumultuous senses, moans defiance, And answers roar for roar, as spirits can : I would some wild miraculous thunder ran Above the applauded circus, in appliance Of thine own nobler nature's strength and science, Drawing two pinions, white as wings of swan, From thy strong shoulders, to amaze the place With holier light ! That thou to woman's claim, And man's might join beside the angel's grace Of a pure genius sanctified from blame, Till child and maiden pressed to thine embrace, To kiss upon thy lips a stainless fame. E. B. Baeeeit. TO GEORGE SAND. A RECOGNITION. True genius, but true woman ! dost deny Thy woman's nature with a manly scorn, And break away the gauds and armlets worn By weaker women in captivity ? Ah vain denial ! that revolted cry Is sobbed in by a woman's voice forlorn : — Thy woman's hair, my sister, all unshorn Floats back dishevelled strength in agony, Disproving thy man's name. And while before The world thou burnest in poetic fire, We see thy woman-heart beat evermore Through the large flame. Beat purer, heart, and higher, Till God unsex thee on the spirit shore ; To which alone unsexing, purely aspire. E. B. Barrett. INTRODUCTION. The book, of which we are now offering a translation to the English public, is the most attaching to the heart, and at the same time, we do not hesitate to say, the most important for the intellect, which we have met with for nearly twenty years. It is a fragment of the secret biography of a powerful intelligence, the confession of a great and noble soul, who has suffered much and loved much, addressed to all those who suffer and who love ; and at the same time it displays a burning page of truth snatched from contemporary history ; the account of a moral crisis which has lasted from 1815 until now ; the long and prophetic lamentation of a whole generation, which has come into the world between two suns, whose life, marked by genius and mis- fortune, has consumed itself amongst the ruins of social order, without being able to escape and spread itself joyously over the promised land of the future. The last pages of the book are illumined by the beams of the coming day, and the vague out- lines of the hoped-for land reveal themselves ; a reality distant, without doubt, but certain, nevertheless, in the opinion of this way- weary " Traveller." Let those, who have never suffered from the grievances of the present day ; — to whom, life as it is, without a heaven, without A 6 INTRODUCTION. love, with no common faith, appears yet desirable and normal ; and who, shadows among shadows, demand from this existence merely a course of agreeable sensations, from art, the pastime of an hour, from philosophy, a mere aimless gymnastic exercise for the intellectual faculties, from religion, only brick and mortar chapels, empty formulas, and individual hopes, leave this book unread. It is not meant for them. Doubtless they would find in it, matter for admiration, landscapes traced by the hand of a master, fascinating brilliancy of style, pages often equal, some- times superior to the best pages of Rousseau's Reveries, but the essence, the soul of the book, the only part to which the author would attach importance will utterly escape them. Those only who have early learned to think with Schiller that M Life is real, life is earnest,'' '* and who neither shrink from, nor repulse any of its consequences, can seize its import. They know that life has only been bestowed upon us that we may incarnate in ourselves, the ideal of which the prophecy has been implanted in our hearts by God, and that if God has not placed us as isolated beings in this world, it is to teach us self-devotion, that we may consecrate the results of this painful conquest to something beyond our own individuality. They know that the secret of this world is progress, laborious and incessant progress of the soul, and of all souls, through and for each other, towards eternal truth ; that life is one of God's thoughts, realizing itself in time and space ; that the physical universe is a grand symbol, a living form of this thought of which each epoch unfolds a fresh developement ; — man, an intelligence, a volition called to interpret the symbol, to investigate the form, in order to approximate towards the divine idea : that labour is consequently the law of our existence ; repose, its desertion and suicide. They comprehend, without profaning, the grand figure of the martyr whom humanity has worshipped, without imitating, for eighteen centuries. They feel * " Ernst ist das Leben." INTRODUCTION. 7 all that there is sacred in lamentation ; fruitful and inevitable in doubt ; prophetic and deeply religious in those instructive move- ments of nations which are stigmatized by the name of revolt, in those aspirations after the renewal of faith, which the narre of Heresy is used to smother. They fight and shed their blood for the good cause ; — and it is for them, her brethren, that George Sand has written this work ; for them, that this translation has been undertaken. They will draw from it consolations worthy of themselves; new strength for those moments of weak- ness which cannot fail to visit them during their struggle ; and a profound religious sentiment, without which the struggle would neither have aim nor hope. It is this which has been so much wanted until now. The principal characteristic of this period of transition, which has swallowed up one generation, and in which we are still dragging our weary way, whilst it is gnawing into the heart of the youth of the present time, is not, whatever may have been said, the want of poetry, there is too much sorrow, too much of presenti- ment in the world, for this to be true. Neither is it the want of individual courage. Never, perhaps, since many centuries, has martyrdom been braved with more stoicism in Europe. Neither is it the power of high thought which is wanting; — the last fifty years have seen historical intelligence, the closest analysis of social phenomena, scientific observation and philosophical in- tuition attain a degree of power which few of our ancestors could even have conceived. The cause of the evils of to day, so fatal to our youth, is, on one side, a foolish pride of individu- ality ; on the other, the want of persistant energy of will. There is in us, children of the nineteenth century, something of the Titan and of Hamlet. We commence by believing exclusively in ourselves, we end by believing in nothing. And both these phases of the soul, through which so many of us have passed, 8 INTRODUCTION. arise from one and the same cause, the want of a sacred and common faith. Life, thus disinherited, escapes from its straight- forward path, and in its irregular course, now soars to heaven, now plunges into the lowest depths, instead of expanding, calm and strong, through weal or woe. The Titan falls, overcome by the law of things ; Hamlet sinks under the weight of an idea ; — the Believer alone remains standing, like an old oak beaten by the tempests. — Sadly and silently does he accomplish his daily labour without cowardly discouragement ; he knows that the flower of his soul, hope, can only bloom beyond the cradle of transformation, in this world called the grave. The Heaven is gloomy, the earth encumbered with ruins, and from their depths rise long and mournful wailings, whieh express the sufferings of the millions of human beings who are swarming amongst these ruins. Proud and eager, the young man darts forward on his route, his pure heart throbbing with emotion, his brow frowning from the inner working of the thoughts of emancipation, peculiar to the age which has sent him forth ; he inhales, even unconsciously to himself, through every pore of his strong and manly breast, the freshening breath of the last hour of night. What obstacles can stop his course ? Danger is in- viting at his age, the joys of triumph and glory, which every man at the outset of his career, dreams of as so easily won, are his goal ; suffering itself has charms for youth. He goes onward, and still onward, through impulse, not by the energy of a re- flective will ; spurred on by hope, not by a sentiment of Duty im- posed by Faith ; because he believes in himself, not in God, and his holy law of labour ; still he goes on his way, espousing the cause of the oppressed, revolting against injustice ; he pro- tests, if not in the name of Truth, in the name of his own dignity, against the phantoms, the gigantic lies, which en- cumber his route. Later, his energy relaxes, his step hesitates, he had dreamed of danger, but of a brilliant danger, and a INTRODUCTION. 9 deadly struggle ; he has found inertia, that passive resistance which exhausteth but killeth not; the mocking smiles of the sceptic, the indifference of the unintelligent many, where he had expected to meet the savage cry of hatred, or noisy en- thusiasm. He had strength enough for the martyrdom of the body, not for the martyrdom of the soul, — barren disappoint- ment. Friendships, which he fondly believed immortal, have vanished like a morning dream. Love ought to have wreathed him a crown of roses, but the roses are withered by the icy breath of society, they have perished under the tempest of human chances, the thorns alone remain. Glory flies before his pursuit. If he soars high he is solitary, if he clings to the earth he had so wished to purify and transform, he is stained by its impurities, and torn by its brambles. He has no faith to guide his steps ; — the men around have no faith. His imprudent mother has murmured in his ear, with a kiss, be happy! His father has said to him, he rich ! Rich and happy ! Why should he not be so ? Why should he be self devoted to unhappiness for a world incapable of appreciating or understanding his sacrifice ? This is the commencement of his temptation. If he yield to it, he be- comes either a misanthrope or an egotist, — Timon or Don Juan : or if his endowments prevent his sinking so low, he will go through the world, useless to others, a burthen to himself, pursuing the Idea without its application, like Faust ; or the phantom of suicide across the Glaciers, like Manfred. Alas ! how many souls, dear to our heart, have we not seen come to this point? How many young men, perhaps even amongst those to whom these " Letters of a Traveller " allude, under ficticious names, (and if this be true, it must be one of George Sand's bitterest griefs) — how many young men have we not saluted at the commencement of their career, glowing with en- thusiasm and the poetry of great enterprises, whom we see to- day, dragging themselves along, precocious old men, with the 10 INTRODUCTION. wrinkles of cold calculation on their brow, calling themselves free from illusion, when they are only disheartened, and, practical, when they are only common place ! And how many amongst them might not have been saved, if instead of saying to them he happy, their mothers had said to them with the first developement of their intelligence* be good and pure ! if instead of saying to them be rich, their fathers had repeated unceasingly to them, be strong, know how to suffer ! there is no treasure worth a tranquil conscience J How many of these souls, good in themselves, but feeble because they had no other support than their own individuality, would have escaped the atheism of despair, if at the acme of the crisis, a friendly hand had touched their brow, and a faithful voice murmured in their ear ; " Be faithful to the dream of your youth ; it is the reflection of a distant Ideal; but, which, from the very fact of its being im- planted in each and all of us, must be realized sooner or later. Keep hope alive in your soul ; it is the bud of the flower. Be- lieve in friendship, worship love, but forget not that neither friendship nor love are happiness, they are but its promise : they are two wings, bestowed by God upon your soul, not to stagnate in mere enjoyment, but to raise yourselves to a nobler elevation. Of what do you complain ? For what cause, and against whom do you raise the cry of revolt ? Had you then formed so false an estimate of life as to imagine that the reward of your labour would be met with in this existence ? Does not the whole universe declare to you that this life is but a passage from one element to another ? Is not aspiration the normal state of your soul ? There is neither happiness nor repose upon this earth, what you call repose is egotism, the death of the soul ; and what you dream of, under the name of happiness, would be the cessation of all aspiration, that is to say, a cessation of all which constitutes the essence of a human being. All which has its INTRODUCTION. 11 beginning, perhaps, only continues its developement here,ha s its end elsewhere. In this lower world there is, for us, only conso- lation, there is but hope. Is it the world's fault if you require from it more than it can give you r Is it God's fault if he has not aecorued to you the power of reaching the haven before the voyage is finished ? You are yet in the midst of the ocean ; — struggle on bravely, the hand on the oar, and the eye raised to Heaven; the very billow which affrights you wdll forward you on your way, and you are strong enough to conquer it, as you would a fiery courser ; but let your arm drop, your energy relax for a moment, and you are thrust back to the point from which you departed, or swallowed up in the depths. Cast behind you, then, these phantoms of glory and enjoyment, fleeting clouds over your soul's heaven, illuminated by the sun's rays one second, dark and gloomy the moment after. There is but one reality in our human life : Duty, mournful, but sacred as the stars, as all lovely things. Make a pact with Duty : — God, in his goodness, will double your strength and give you love for your consolation. I, too, have suffered, I, also, have found life bitter ; I have passed through all your storms, my heart has also been torn by all your deceptions. But, God, my faith in Duty and Love have saved me. Men have seemed also to me degraded,wicked ; — but, was not this an added reason to endeavour, at all risks, to make them better ? Often have I taken the phan- tom of Love for Love itself; but ought I, for that, to desert its reality and smother its divine instinct within my heart ? When I found myself ready to fail, to sink under isolation and suffering, I thought of other sufferings, of the child of the people martyred by misery, and deprived of the life of the soul ; of Genius mis- understood, of nations enslaved ; of those who have died for them with a smile upon their lips, of Jesus on the cross, and his words of forgiveness, and I went on my way again. My cheek is pale and worn, my heart is dead to pleasure, but I am 12 " INTRODUCTION. calm ; — faith in the future and in God, this is enough for the few days yet remaining to us." Well then ! it is thus Madame Sand speaks, through these "Lettres d'un Voyageur," to our whole contemporary generation; — so eager in undertaking the struggle against egotism and social falsehood, and so easily discouraged at the first defeat. A witness to so much sublime aspiration and so much cowardly apostacy, having lived the whole life of the age, having suffered from all its sufferings, the more acutely, through being compelled to their analysis by the light of her own genius, she has believed that it might be well to unveil to her brethren the origin of the moral crisis through which she has passed, and the secret which has saved her, not indeed from grief, but from despair. She has stopped midway in her life, that decisive point which comes to all, but which, in us, has no importance for the world, in which the disenchantment of worldly illusion commences, and dreams, the dreams of friendships we believed eternal, dreams of love founded on enjoyment, dreams of immense enterprises requiring the martyrdom of one's whole life, but which one thinks may be realized in a few years, flee, one by one, leaving the bitterness of disappointment within, and a desert around us. She has dis- played these internal crises to our eyes, pointing out to us, with a hand yet trembling with pain, the star of safety, towards which our life must tend unceasingly. Dark gleams of the tempests of this life, and the holy, calm reflection of hopes beyond this existence, intermingle in every page of this record, which is our record, traced by the hand of the best of sisters, on whom God has bestowed the genius wanting in ourselves. May the sentiment of the good she has worked to many amongst us soften the recollection of her own sorrows ! It was in 1836 that I first met with these " Letters,' 1 in the numbers, I believe, of the " Re'vue des Deux Mondes." My dearest friend had perished in the prisons of Charles Albert; others were con- INTRODUCTION. " 13 demned to drag out their lives there, for twenty years ; others were still perishing of the death of the soul. Plans, formed with all the energies of mind and heart, had been just annihilated on the very point of accomplishment. From the tree of my life the fairest hopes withered every day, I heard them crackle like dead leaves under my footsteps. I had no longer faith in men ; no longer faith in myself. I believed in God, and had faith in the future of my country ; but, from time to time, doubt swept over me with its icy wings. The disgraceful character of a perse- cutor, which, at that time, was forced upon Switzerland, by foreign Cabinets, had commenced ; I was about to be chased from a land which I had learned to love as my second country. This book was to me a friend, a consolation. This sisterly voice, its accents broken by suffering, yet rinding strength to throw a word of encouragement and hope to those " who were yet wan- dering mid storm and darkness," was sweet to me as is the cradle song to the weeping child. Many others have felt, many will doubtless feel, all I felt then. Travellers themselves through difficult paths, they will learn through these " Letters " to what point discouragement and doubt can extend ; and know how to regain strength and hope " and the call of a friendly voice, from the height of the next hill, as they commence the ascent of the lofty mountain," will be unto them, I doubt not, an encouragement and a consolation. JOSEPH MAZZINI. PREFACE. Neveb was a work, if this may be called a work, less reasoned and less laboured than these two volumes of letters, written at distant periods, and almost always after deep emotion, of which they are not the account but the reflection. They have been an irre- flective and instructive solace to my anxieties during the fatigue and weariness, which would not allow me to commence or con- tinue a romance. Some were even written during a journey, hastily finished for the courier, and thrown into the post, without any thought of publication. The idea of making a collection of them, and of filling up some vacancies, determined me at last to ask for them again from those of my friends whom I supposed to have preserved them ; and these are probably not the worst, as will easily be believed ; the expression of personal emotion being always more free and sin- cere in a tete-a-t&e, than with an unknown third party. This un- known third party is the reader, is the public ; and if there were not in the act of writing a charm, often mournful, and sometimes intoxicating, almost always irresistible, which makes one forget the unknown witness and abandon oneself to the subject, I think we should seldom have the courage to write about ourselves ; unless we had a great deal of good to tell. Now, it will easily be granted, after reading these letters, that I have never found myself injhis last situation ; and that either a great deal of bold- 16 PREFACE. ness or thoughtlessness must have been required to entertain the public with my personality through two volumes. I mention all this, merely to excuse to my readers, lovers of romances, and accustomed to see me commit nothing worse, at any rate, the unlucky idea that has possessed me of bringing my- self upon the scene, instead of personages rather better placed and rather better draped for their public appearance. I have just said, it was when my brain was empty of heroes and adventures, that like a manager, whose troop of actors is behindhand at the hour of performance, I make my appearance, in trouble and robe-de-chambre, upon the stage, and recite vaguely the pro- logue of the expected piece. In fact, I believe, that whoever is interested in the secret movements of the human heart may find certain familiar letters, certain acts, insignificant in appearance, in the life of an artist, which would be the most explicit preface, the clearest exposition of his work. Let the lovers of fiction forgive me something, nevertheless. In several of these letters, I have laboured in their behalf, by dressing up my melancholy self in a costume not habitually its own, and making its material ex- istence disappear, as much as possible, behind a moral existence more truthful and more interesting. Therefore, in these letters, one cannot always distinguish whether it is a young man, an old man, or a child, relating his impressions. What does my age and condition matter to my reader ? It is at the opera that youth' beauty, and grace interest the eyes and the imagination. In a work like this, it is emotion, reverie, sadness, enthusiasm, and anxiety, which ought to render themselves interesting to the reader. What he asks from one who yields his soul to the anger or pity of the examiner, is to let him see the movements of this personified heart, if I may use this expression. Thus, whilst speaking sometimes like a truant schoolboy, sometimes like an old gouty uncle, sometimes like a young and ardent soldier, I have done nothing but paint my soul under the form it assumed at those moments, sometimes careless and joyous, sometimes mo- rose and fatigued, sometimes bounding and juvenile again ; and PREFACE. 17 which of us does not contain in himself, in each hour of his life, these three ages of moral, intellectual, and physical existence. What old man does not feel himself a child at certain times ; and what child does not sometimes feel the weariness of old age ? What man is not at once both aged and childish, in nearly all his anxieties ? Have I done aught else than write the history of each of us ? No, I have done nothing else ; neither was it my wish to do aught else. I did not wish, that under this disguise of a problematical traveller, the secret of some strange and remarkable individu- ality should be sought for. No one can suspect me of such a puerile thought, when they see with how little care I have ex- posed my bleeding heart to psychological experimentation. If I have done this, if I have yielded up myself to this torture without shame and without fear, it is through the knowledge I have of the wounds which rankle amongst the men of our own time, and the need which all have to know one another, to study one another, to sound their own consciences, to seek for self- enlightenment, through the revelations of their instincts and their necessities, their evils, and their aspirations. My soul, I am sure, has served as a mirror to many who have cast their eyes upon it. Several have felt afraid of themselves at the view, and seeing so much weakness, so much terror, irresolution, mobility, humiliated pride and powerless strength, they cry out that I am an invalid, a fool, an exceptional case, a prodigy of pride and scepticism. No, no, I am like yourselves, ye men of bad faith ; I only differ from you in not denying the evil ; and not seeking to beautify, with the colours of youth and health, my visage, now disfigured by despair. You have drunk from the same chalice, you have suffered from the same torments ; like me, you have doubted ; like me, you have denied and blas- phemed ; like me, you have wandered in darkness, cursing God and humanity, through want of understanding. In the last cen- tury, Voltaire wrote under the statue of Cupid, " Whoe'er thou art, thy master see ; He is, or was, or ought to be.' 5 18 PREFACE. To-day it would be upon the pedestal of another allegory that Voltaire would inscribe these celebrated verses ; it would be Doubt, and no longer Love, whom his aged, trembling hand would illustrate with this distich. Yes, doubt, modest or pe- dantic ; scepticism, bold or timid, triumphant or desolate, har- dened or repentant, oppressor or oppressed, tyrant or victim, Man of our own times ! — " Whoe'er thou art, thy master see -, He is, or was, or ought to be." Do not let us blush, therefore, so much, one for another, nor carry the burden of our misery so hypocritically. All of us are passing through a great moral epidemic, and if we have not al- ready been its prey, we are ready to become so. None but atheists make a crime and a disgrace of doubt, as none but cowards pretend never to have known fear. Doubt is the evil of our age, like the cholera ; but it is salutary, like all those crises towards which God directs our human intelligence ; it is the precursor of moral health, of faith. Doubt is born of exami- nation ; it is the unhealthy and morbid offspring of a powerful mother, liberty. But it is not oppression that can cure this ma- lady. Oppressors are atheists, oppression and atheism can only destroy. Liberty will, herself, take her feeble infant in her arms and raise it towards heaven, towards the light, and it will become robust and full of faith as herself. It will be transformed, it will become hope, and in its turn it will give birth to one of divine origin and nature, to knowledge ; who will bring forth the last-born, which will be faith. As for mc, a poor convalescent, w r ho but yesterday was knocking at the gates of death, and who know well the causes and effects of my own suffering, I have told them to you, and I will again declare them; my suffering is your suffering, doubt accompanied by ignorance. A little more knowledge will save us ; let us exa- mine more, learn ever, let us attain knowledge. Where we have PREFACE. 19 denied truth (I among the first,) we have only proclaimed our own blindness, and the generations coming after us will draw useful lessons from our age of darkness. They will say, we did well to complain, to be agitated, to fill the air with our cries, to weary heaven with our questions ; and by impa- tience and despair, to save ourselves from the evil which destroys those who slumber. In the retreat from Russia, fearful spectres were seen traversing the snows, endeavouring, amidst groans and imprecations, to find their road to their native land. Others, who seemed calm and resigned, lay down upon the ice, and, re- maining there, were frozen by death. Woe to the resigned of to-day ! Woe to those who accept injustice, error, ignorance, sophistry, and doubt, with a serene countenance. They will perish, they are dead, already buried in the ice and snow ; but those who are wandering with bleeding feet, and crying out with bitter complaining, will find the road to the promised land, and will see its sunshine. Ignorance, doubt, sophistry, injustice, have I said ? Yes, these are the shoals in the midst of which we are trying to direct our course ; these are the dangers and misfortunes which are scat- tered over our life. On a re-perusal of these " Letters of a Tra- veller," which I had not had courage to see or judge of, for many years, I am not at all surprised at finding myself ignorant, scepti- cal, sophistical, inconsistent, unjust, in every line; nevertheless, I have altered nothing of this unformed work, except a few awk- ward words, and some pages on common topics of little interest. The second volume has, in general, but little value under any point of view. The first, although filled with errors of all sorts, and yet more common-place, has a certain value ; that of having been written with a spontaneous carelessness, full of youth and frankness. If it fall into the hands of grave men, it will make them smile ; but if these grave men possess also some goodness and sincerity, they will find in it matter for pity, for consolation, for the encouragement and instruction of the dreamy, ardent, and blind youth of our epoch. Becoming, through my confes- 20 PREFACE. sion, better acquainted with the cause and nature of our suffer- ings, they will become more compassionate, and will learn, that it is neither with bitter raillery nor pedantic anathemas, that they can be cured, but with true teachings and the profound senti- ment of human charity. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. Venice, 1st May, 1834. It was nine o'clock when I arrived at Bassano, on a cold damp evening. I went to bed, sad and fatigued, after silently ex- changing a grasp of the hand with my travelling companion. I awoke at sunrise, and saw from my window, the ivy-covered battlements of the ancient fortress whieh commands the valley, denned against the clear blue of the atmosphere. I went out immediately to examine it, and convince myself of the beauty of the weather. I had not gone a hundred paces before I found the doctor sitting on a stone, smoking a pipe seven feet long, for which he had paid eight-pence to a peasant. He was so charmed with his bargain, and so enveloped in the clouds of his tobacco, that he had some trouble in perceiving me. When he had dismissed from his lips the last puff of smoke he could extract from what he' called his " pipetta" he proposed to me, to go and breakfast at a coffee shop near the trenches of the citadel, while the vetturino who was to take us back to Venice, was getting ready for the journey. I agreed to do so. I recommend to you, if you return by this route, the ca£6 of the Trenches, at Bassano, as one of the happiest chances which can fall to the lot of a traveller, thoroughly tired of the classic chefs-d'neuvres of Italy. Do you remember that, when we left 22 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. France, you said you cared for nothing but sculptured marble ? You called me a savage, when I replied that I would quit any palace in the world to see a mountain of unhewn marble in the Alps or Apennines. You may remember after a few days you were satiated with statues, frescoes, churches, and galleries. The sweetest souvenir which was left to you, was that of the cold and limpid waters of a fountain where you bathed your heated and weary brow in a garden in Genoa. The creations of art speak to the intellect alone, but the spectacle of nature appeals to every faculty. It influences us through every pore, as well as through every idea. To the entirely intellectual pleasure of admiration the aspect of the country adds a purely sensual enjoyment. The freshness of the fountains, the perfume of plants, the harmony of the winds, circulates through every nerve, whilsfthe brilliancy of colours and the beauty of outlines insinuate them- selves into the imagination. This feeling of pleasure and grati- fication is appreciable by every organization, even the com- monest animals feel it to a certain degree. But to an elevated mind it affords but a transitory pleasure, an agreeable repose after the more energetic functions of the intellect. To great minds, the entire universe is necessary ; the works of God, and the works of man. The fountain of pure water invites and charms you, but only for an instant do you repose there. You must ex- haust Michael Angelo and Raphael before you linger again on the way-side ; and when you have washed off the dust of the journey in the waters of the spring, you pass on saying, " Let us see what more there is under the sun." To minds so mediocre and idle as my own, the side of a hedge would suffice to sleep away my life, if this rough and barren journey might be slept or dreamt away. But even then, for me the fosse must be just like this one of Bassano ; that is to say, it must be at least one hundred feet above a delicious valley, and every morning must bring its breakfast on a grassy slope covered with primroses, with excellent coffee, mountain butter, and ani- seed bread. To such a breakfast I invite you, when you have time to wish LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 23 for repose. When that time comes, every thing will be known to you ; life will have no more secrets for you. Your hair will be slightly grey, mine entirely so ; but the valley of Bassano will be just as lovely, the Alpine snows as pure ; and our friend- ship ? I trust in your heart, and I answer for my own. . . . The country was not yet in all its splendour, the meadows were still only a yellowish green, and the leaves as yet were only budding on the trees. But the peach and almond trees in flower mingled their white and rosy garlands with the sombre masses of the cypress trees. In the midst of this immense garden, the Brenta flows rapidly and silently over its sandy bed, between banks covered with pebbles and rocky fragments, torn from the bosom of the Alps, with which it furrows the plain in its days of anger. A half circle of fertile hills covered with those long vine branches which suspend themselves from every tree in Venetia, were the imme- diate border of the picture, and the snowy mountains, sparkling in the sun's first rays, formed a second immense frame-work which rose like a silver fringe into the deep blue of the at* mosphere. " I wish you to observe," said the doctor to me, " that your coffee is getting cold, and the vetturino is waiting for us." " Now doctor," said I, "do you really believe I am going back to Venice with you ?" " The Devil?" said he, with a thoughtful air. " What have you to say ?" said I. " You have brought me here to see the Alps, apparently ; and when I am actually at their foot, you fancy that I am going to return to your marshy city?" "Bah! I have been up the Alps more than twenty times, " said the doctor. " It is not exactly the same pleasure for me to know that you have done it as to do it myself," replied I. " Besides," continued he without listening to me, " do you know that in my time I have been a celebrated chamois hunter? Look! do you see that gap up there, and that peak down there ? Ima- gine to yourself that one day. ..." b 2 24 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. " Basta, Basta, doctor, you can tell me all that, some evening at Venice when we are smoking a gigantic pipe under the tents of the square of St. Mark with your friends the Turks. They are people far too grave to interrupt a narrator, whatever mon- strous impertinence he may utter, and there is no danger that they will give the least sign of impatience or incredulity before the end of the recital, were it even to endure for three days and nights. As for to-day, I intend to follow your example and mount to that peak up there, and descend by that breach down there. . " " You !" said the doctor, throwing a contemptuous glance upon my insignificant person. And then, laying his hand upon the table, one half of which it covered, he looked at it complacently, smiled and drew himself up with a magnificent air. " The light troops go through the campaign quite as well as the cuirassiers," said I, rather piqued; "and as for climbing rocks, the smallest kid is more agile than the strongest horse." U I must observe to you," said my companion, "that you are ill, and that I have given my word to take you back to Venice alive or dead." " I know very well that as my doctor you arrogate to your- self the power of life and death over me ; but it is my whim, doctor ! I have taken it into my head to live for five or six days longer." " You really have not common sense," said he. " On one hand I have given my word to bring you back to Venice, and on the other hand I have given my word of honour to be there to- morrow morning. Will you oblige me to violate one of my two engagements ?" " Certainly, doctor, I will do so." He gave a deep sigh, and after a moment's reflection, said : " I have observed that little men are always endowed with great moral strength, or at least provided with an immense amount of obstinacy." * And is it in virtue of this learned observation," cried I, leaping from the balcony to the esplanade, " that you will leave me my liberty, most amiable doctor ?" LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 25 " You make me compromise my conscience :" said he, leaning over the balcony. " I have promised to bring you back to Venice, but I did not engage for any particular day." " Exactly so, dear doctor. I might not return to Venice for a twelvemonth, and provided we make our entree together by the canal of the Giudecca " " Are you mocking me r" cried he. " Exactly so, doctor ;" said I. And then we had a terrible quarrel, which ended by mutual concessions. He consented to leave me there, and I promised to return to Venice before the end of the week. " Be at Mestri on Saturday evening," said the doctor, " and I will meet you with Catullo and the gondola." " I will be there, doctor, I promise you." " Swear it to me by our best friend, by him who was still here a few days ago to make you reasonable." " I swear it by him," I replied, and you may believe it to be a sacred promise. " Adieu, doctor." He pressed my fingers in his large red hand, till they yielded like reeds. Tears streamed silently down his cheeks. Then shrugging his shoulders, he flung back my hand, exclaiming, "Go to the devil !" When he had walked off about ten steps, he turned round and called out, " Remember to have the heels of your boots roughed, before venturing on the snow. Do not go to sleep too near the rocks ; remember there are many vipers hereabouts. Do not drink at every spring indiscriminately with- out assuring yourself of the purity of the water, recollect that there are very injurious veins in these mountains. You may trust yourself to any mountaineer who speaks the true dialect, but if any tramper asks alms in a foreign language, or with a suspicious accent, put not your hand into your pocket, exchange not a word with him. Pass on your way, but keep an eye on his stick." " Is that all, doctor r" "Be sure I never omit anything really useful," said he impa- tiently, " and that no one knows better than myself what is best to be done or left undone on a journey." " Ciao egregio dottore" said I smiling. 26 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. "Your servant," replied he abruptly, pulling his hat down over his brows. if 4» ^f 4* ^fr 4 s ♦ I must confess that I am one of those who would willingly break their necks through mere bravado, and that no schoolboy is vainer than I am of his courage and agility. This is owing to my small stature, and the desire felt by all little men to do everything which a strong man can do. However, you may believe me when I tell you, that never had I less dreamt of making what we call an expedition. In my days of gaiety, in those days now so rare, when like Kreissler, I would willingly have gone out with one hat perched upon another. I might have risked the most graceful steps even on the edge of a preci- pice, but in my days of spleen, I walk calmly in the middle of the smooth highway, and no longer jest with abysses. I know too well that in those days, even the inopportune buzzing of an insect in my ear, or the impertinent titillation of a hair upon my cheek, would suffice to transport me with anger and despair and make me throw myself at once into the lake. Therefore the whole of this morning, I walked calmly along the road to Trent, remount- ing the course of the Brenta. This gorge is peopled with hamlets on either bank of the river, and little villas scattered over the sides of the mountains. All the lower part of the valley is care- fully cultivated. Higher up, immense pasture grounds extend themselves, of which nature herself takes charge. Then a ter- race of arid rocks rises towards the clouds, and the snow lies on their summits like a mantle. The snows were not yet dissolved. The Brenta still ran peace- fully in its narrow bed. Its water which had been troubled and poisoned for four years, by the dissolving of a rock, had reco- vered all its limpidity. Troops of children and lambs were playing indiscriminately on its borders, under the shade of flower- ing cherry trees. This season is delightful for travelling here. The country is a continuous orchard, and if vegetation is not in all its luxury, if verdure is wanting to the picture, yet the snow in compensation covers it with a dazzling halo, and one may walk the whole day between hedges of hawthorn and wild plum trees without meeting a single Englishman. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 27 I should have been delighted to go on to the Tyrolese Alps. I cannot think why I have always fancied them so beautiful ; but it is certain that in rny imagination they have always existed as one of those points on the globe, towards which I am borne by an undetinable sympathy. Must I believe with you that destiny summons us imperiously towards those spots where some moral crisis is to operate within us ? I cannot think that fatality has so great a part in my life. I believe in a special providence for men of great genius or virtue, but what can God have to accom- plish by me r When we were together, I believed in fate like a true Mussulman. I attributed all the evil or good which befell us to the parental care or the mysterious foresight of God to- wards you. I saw myself forced to such or such use of my will, as an instrument destined to excite you to action. I was one of the wheels of your life, and sometimes I felt the hand of God impressing my direction upon me. Now that this hand sepa- rates us, I feel myself useless and abandoned. Like a rock torn from a mountain, I am impelled by chance, and the acci- dents of the route decide my direction. This stone embarrassed the course of destiny. His breath swept it from its place, what imports it to him where it falls ? ****** I believe really that my old affection for the Tyrol hangs upon two slight remembrances : one that of a song which seemed to me very beautiful as a child, and which commenced thus : " Towards the mountains of Tyrol pursuing the chamois, The hoary-headed Engelwald has journeyed o'er the snow ;" and the other that of a young lady with whom I travelled one night, ten years ago, from. . . . to. . . . The diligence had been broken in going down a hill. There was a horrible frost, and a magnifi- cent moonlight. I was in a frame of mind at once ecstatic and ridiculous. I should have preferred being alone, but politeness obliged me to offer my arm to my fellow traveller. It was im- possible to think of any thing but the moonlight, the river run- ning in cascades by the road side, and the meadows bathed in a silvery vapour. The toilette of the traveller was problematic. She spoke incorrect French with a German accent, and she spoke 28 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. but seldom. I had therefore no clue to her station or tastes. Except indeed that a few rather knowing remarks which she had made at the table-tf hote upon the quality of an almond cream, had made me fancy that this discreet and judicious person might be a housekeeper in some rich family. I thought for a long time, what I could say that would be agreeable, and a quarter of an hour's incredible efforts, at length delivered me of, " Is it not true, mademoiselle, that this is an enchanting situ- ation ?" She smiled, and slightly shrugged her shoulders. I imagined that from the platitude of my expression she took me for a commercial traveller, and I was rather mortified ; but she said in a melancholy tone, and after a moment's silence : " Ah ! monsieur, you have never seen the mountains of the Tyrol !" " Are you from Tyrol ?" cried I. " Ah ! I once knew a song about Tyrol which has often made me dream with my eyes open. It is a very beautiful country, then ? I do not know why it has always lodged itself in a corner of my brain. Be kind enough to describe it a little to me." " I am from Tyrol," said she in a sad sweet voice, " but excuse me, I cannot talk about it." She put her handkerchief to her eyes, and spoke not a single word during the rest of the journey. As for me, I respected her silence religiously, and did not even feel a desire to hear more. This love of country, expressed in a word, by a refusal to speak of it, by tears so quickly dried, seemed deeper and more eloquent than a book. I saw an entire romance, a whole poem in the sadness of this silent stranger. And then this Tyrol, so delicately, so tenderly regretted, appeared to me like an enchanted land. When seated again in the diligence I. closed my eyes that I might no longer see the very landscape I had just been admiring, and which now inspired me with all the disdain which one feels for reality at twenty. Then passed before me, as in an immense panorama, the lakes, and verdant mountains, the pastures, the alpine forests, the flocks and torrents of the Tyrol. I heard for the first time those songs, at once so joyous, yet so melancholy, which seem made for echoes to repeat. Since then I have often enjoyed delightful wanderings in this land of fancy, borne LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 29 towards it on trie wings of Beethoven's pastoral symphonies. Ah ! what sleep 1 have had there, on odoriferous herbage, what lovely flowers I have gathered, what happy troops of shepherds have passed me laughing and dancing ! what austere solitudes I have found there in which to worship God ! What distances I have travelled through these mountains, during two or three mo- dulations of the orchestra. I seated myself on a rock a little higher than the road. Night was slowly falling on the hills. In the depth of the valley, fol- lowing the course of the torrent, my eyes distinguished a range of mountains confusedly piled one behind the other. These pale and lingering phantoms which were lost in the evening mists ; — these were " the Tyrol." From those distant summits, I said to myself, arise my golden dreams. They have flown towards me like a flock of wandering birds ; they came to seek me when a country child, I led my goats to pasture, chanting the romance of Eugelwald along the footpaths of the Vallee Noire. They hovered over me during a pale night of winter, when I had just accomplished a mysterious pilgrimage after other lost allu- < sions and other climes to which I may never return. They have transformed themselves into violins and hautboys in the hands of Brod and Urhan, though it was in Paris, though one was obliged to be in full dress, and light the lamps even at mid- day to hear them. They sang so well that it sufficed to shut one's eyes, for the hall of the Conservatoire to become an Alpine Valley, and Habeneck himself, bow in hand, became a chamois hunter, the hoary headed Engelwald himself, — or some other. Beautiful dreams of pilgrimage and solitude, wandering doves who refreshed my brow by the breezes of your wings, you have returned to your enchanted home and await me there. Behold me, ready to reach you, to grasp you ! Will you escape from me, like all my other dreams ? When I advance my hand to caress you, will you again fly far from me, oh, wild friends of mine ? — Will you not wing your way to some inaccessible summit where my desires will follow you in vain ? — * if •& # •%■ # During the daytime, and under a radiant sun, I had snatched a few hours repose. In order to avoid the dirty inns, I had arranged to journey onwards during the coolness of night, and 30 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. to sleep in the open air, during the day. The night was less calm than I had hoped for. The sky was covered with clouds and the wind was rising. But the route was so well defined, that I could walk without any difficulty in the midst of dark- ness. The mountains reared themselves on my right and on my left, like dusky giants. The wind lost itself amongst them, and roamed over their summits with long and melancholy tones. The fruit trees violently shaken covered me with their balmy flowers. Nature was sad and veiled her face, but was full of perfumes and wild harmonies. Some rain-drops warned me to seek the shelter of a grove of olive-trees situated a little distance from the high road ; and there I waited for the end of the storm. In about an hour the wind had fallen, and the sky above me was one long line of azure, strangely varied by the broken outline of the two walls of granite which were its boundaries on either side. It was the same coup-d'ceil which we found in miniature at Venice, when we wandered at evening in those dark and narrow streets from whence we could perceive the nigbt, extended over us like a light azure scarf sown with silver spangles. The murmur of the Brenta, the last moaning of the wind through the heavy foliage of the olive trees, the rain-drops falling from the* branches with a sound which resembled kisses, altogether caused an indefinable sense of sadness and tenderness to float through the air, and breathe from all the vegetation. I thought of Christ's watch in the garden of Olives, and I remem- bered that we had talked a whole evening on this canto of the divine poem. A melancholy evening was that ; — one of those long watchings when we have drained together the cup of bitter- ness. And thou, also, thou hast suffered an inexorable martyr- dom ; thou, also hast been nailed on a cross. Hadst thou some great crime to atone for, by offering thyself as a victim on the altar of grief? what hadst thou done to be thus threatened and chastised ? can guilt exist at thy age ? does one even know right or wrong ? Thou knewest that thou wert young, thou didst believe that life and pleasure were one and the same. Thou didst weary thyself by universal enjoyment, hurried and without reflection. Unmindful of thy own greatness or grandeur, thou didst allow thy life to be the sport of passions which must waste LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 31 and destroy it ; — as other men have the right to do. Thou didst arrogate this right over thyself, forgottest that thou wast one of those who do not belong to themselves. Thou didst wish to live for thyself alone, and to immolate thy glory through con- tempt for all human things. Thou didst throw into the abyss all the precious stones of the crown which God had placed upon thy brow ; — strength, beauty, genius, and even the purity of thy youth, which thou didst tread under thy feet, oh child of pride ! What love of destruction burnt then within thee ? what hadst thou against heaven which made thee disdain its most magnificent gifts ? Did the spirit of God reveal himself to thee with features too severe ? The angel of poetry who beams on his right hand bent over thy cradle to kiss thy brow, but thou wert alarmed doubtless by seeing the giant so near thee with his flaming wings. Thine eyes could not sustain the brightness of his face, and thou didst flee in order to escape him. Scarcely strong enough to walk alone, thou didst wish to tempt all the dangers of life, and to embrace with ardour all its realities, demanding from them asylum and protection against the terrors of thy sub- lime and terrible vision. Like Jacob thou didst wrestle with it, and like him thou wast overcome. In the midst of the fiery pleasures where thou vainly soughtest thy refuge, the mysterious spirit came to seize thee and reclaim thee. Fate willed that thou shouldest be a poet, and a poet thou wast in despite of thy- self. In vain didst thou abjure the worship of virtue, thou wouldst have been the most beautiful of her young levites ; thou wouldst have ministered to her altars chanting the most di- vine canticles upon a golden lyre ; and the white vestments of modesty would have clothed thy fragile frame with a sweeter grace than the cap and bells of Folly. But thou never forgottest the divine emotions of this primitive faith. Thou didst return to her from the depths of corruption, and thy song, commenced in blasphemy, became in spite of thyself, an outpouring of enthu- siasm and love. Those who listened regarded each other with astonishment. " Who then is this," said they, " and in what language does he celebrate our joyous rites ? We believed him one of us, but he is a fugitive from some other religion, an exile from some other world, more melancholy, yet more happy. 32 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. He seeks us, he sits at our board, but intoxication does not yield to him the same illusions as to us. How is it that from time to time a cloud passes over his brow, and pallor overspreads his face r Of what does he dream ? of what does he speak ? What strange words are those which hover on his lips, at every mo- ment, like remembrances of another life ? Why do virgins, love, angels, pass before him so unceasingly in his dreams and in his verses ? Does he mock himself or us ? Is it his God or ours whom he despises and betrays }" And thou, thou continuedst thy sublime and yet fantastic song, now cynical and fiery as an antique ode, now chaste and tender as an infant's prayer. Lying on our earthly roses, thou dreamedst of the roses of Eden which never fade, and breathing the passing perfume of thy pleasures, thou spokest of the eternal incense kept alive by angels on the steps of God's throne. Hadst thou then breathed this incense ? Hadst thou then gathered these immortal roses ? Hadst thou then retained vague but delicious recollections of this country of the poets, which prevented thy being satisfied with thy fleeting pleasures here below ? Suspended between earth and heaven, eager for the one, curious about the other, disdainful of glory, dreading annihilation, uncertain, tormented, changeable, in the midst of men thou wert alone, thou didst fly from solitude, and found it everywhere. The power of thine own soul fatigued thee. Thy thoughts were too immense, thy desires too vast, thy feeble frame bent under the weight of thine own genius. Thou didst seek in the incom- plete voluptuousness of earth forgetfulness of those unattainable blessings thou hadst had a glimpse of from afar. But when fatigue had exhausted thy body, thy soul awoke more active, and thy longing greater. Thou didst quit the embraces of thy wanton mistresses to sigh before Raphael's Madonnas. " Who then," said a pious and tender dreamer of thee, " is this young man who feels such inquietude as to the purity of marble statues ?" Like the mountain torrent I hear roaring in the darkness, thou didst leave thy source mor6 pure, more clear than crystal, and thy first waters reflected only the unsullied whiteness of the surrounding snows. But fearful, doubtless, of the silence of solitude, thou didst burst forth on thy terrible descent; thou hast LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 33 precipitated thyself amongst terrible shoals, and from the depths of the abyss thy voice raised itself like the roaring of a fierce and savage joy. From time to time thou didst calm thyself in a peaceful lake, happy to repose in its limpid waters, and reflect the purity of heaven. Enamoured of each star which sparkled on thy bosom, thou didst address to it a melancholy farewell when it quitted the horizon, Over our grassy slopes, linger awhile above, Quit not the heavens so soon, oh beaming star of love ! But soon, weary of inaction, thou didst pursue thy breathless course among the rocks, thou didst wrestle with them, and when thou hadst overcome, thou wentest on thy way with a song of triumph, forgetting that they encumbered thee in their fall, and left profound wounds upon thy bosom. At last friendship dawned upon thy haughty and solitary heart. Thou deignedst to believe in another than thyself, proud and un- happy one ! In his heart, thou sought est calm and confidence. The torrent calmed itself, and slept under a tranquil heaven. But in its waters were amassed so many fragments torn from its banks that it could scarcely clear its way. Like the torrent of the Brenta it was troubled for a long time, and scattered sterile sands and sharp rocks over the veiy valley which adorned it with flowers and shade. In like manner was the new life thou didst endeavour to live tormented and agitated. Thus did the remembrance of the turpitudes thou hadst seen come to poison, by arid doubts and bit- ter thoughts, the pure enjoyments of thy soul, still suspicious and fearful. Thus did thy frame, fatigued and weakened like thy heart, yield to the remembrance of its former weariness, and like a lily bowed itself to die. God, displeased at thy rebellion and pride, struck thee with his angry hand on thy brow ; and in an instant thy ideas be- came confused, and thy reason abandoned thee. The divine har- mony which had once been established in thy brain was overturned. Memory, discernment, all the noble faculties of intellect, so acute in thee, were troubled and effaced like the clouds scattered by the wi;id. Thou didst raise thyself up in thy bed, exclaiming : — 34 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. " Where am I, oh ! my friends, and why have ye buried me alive in the tomb ?" One sentiment in thy soul survived all others ; — Will, but a blind, disordered will, which bounded like an unbridled horse over the plain, without any definite aim. A devouring anxiety spurred thee on, thou didst repulse the control of thy friend, thou didst desire to dart forward, to dart away. A fearful strength impelled thee. " Leave me my liberty,' ' thou didst cry, " let me flee, do you not see that I live and am young ?" Where then didst thou wish to go ? What visions passed over thee in the vagueness of thy delirium ? What heavenly phantoms invited thee to a better life ? What secrets, impenetrable to human reason hast thou surprised even in the exaltation of madness ? Dost thou know now ? Tell me. Thou hast suffered the sufferings of death ; thou hast seen the grave open to receive thee; thou hast felt the cold air of the sepulchre, and thou hast cried out : — " Save me, save me from this deathlike earth !" Hast thou seen nothing else ? When, like Hamlet, thou wert persuing the traces of an invisible being, where didst thou think thv refuge was ? from what mysterious power didst thou demand help against the horrors of death ? Tell me, tell me, that I may invoke it in thy days of suffering, and that I may call it to thy aid in thy agonies. It has saved thee once, this unknown power, it has torn thee from the shroud already infolding thee. Tell me how to worship it, and by what sacrifices it may be propitiated. Is it a gloomy divinity who demands the blood of those who adore it as a holocaust ? Tell me in what temple or cavern is its altar raised. I will go there to offer up my heart, when thine is suffering ; I wil/ offer up my life when thine is menaced The only power in which I believe is that of a just, severe, but paternal God. It is he who inflicted all the evils of human nature upon us ; but, who, in compensation, also revealed the hopes of a future life. It is the same Providence thou didst so often misun- derstand, but to whom the deep emotions of thy joys and griefs brought thee back again. It is now appeased, my prayers have been heard, thou art given back to my friendship ; it is for me to bless and give thanks to God. If his goodness towards thee has LETTERS OF A* TRAVELLER. 35 made thee contract a debt of gratitude, it is I who charge myself with its fulfilment ^ here, in the silence of night, in the solitude of these mountains, in the most beautiful temple which can be opened to human footsteps. Listen, Listen, oh God, so good, so terrible ! It is false that thou hast not time to hear the prayer of man, thou hast even time to send the morning dew to every blade of grass ! Thou takest care of all thy works with infinite solicitude ; how then shouldest thou forget the heart of man, the noblest, the least understood of thy works ? Listen, then, to one who blesses thee in this desert, and who to-day, as always, offers thee his existence, and sighs for the day in which thou wilt deign to accept it. I am no greedy supplicant, wearying thy ear with desires for this world ; but a resigned and solitary heart, thanking thee for the good and evil thou hast bestowed. It was this which obliged me to return towards Lombardy, and defer the Tyrol till the next week. I arrived at Oliero towards four o'clock in the afternoon, after walking sixteen miles in ten hours, which, for an individual of my stature, was rather a long day's work. I had still some fever, and felt a burning heat in my head. I lay down upon the turf before the grotto, and fell asleep. But the barking of a great black dog, whom I had some difficulty in reducing to reason, soon awakened me. The sun had sunk behind the mountain summits, the atmosphere was mild and sweets The heavens, glowing with the richest colouring, tinted the snow with a rosy light. This hour's sleep had done me extreme service, my feet were no longer swelled, and my head was free from pain. I began to examine the spot I was in, it was a terrestrial paradise, an assemblage of the most graceful and yet imposing natural beau- ties. We shall go there together ; — let me hope so. When I had gone all over this enchanted place with the joy of a conqueror, I returned to sit down where I had been sleeping, to enjoy the pleasure of my discovery. I had been two days wan- dering through these mountains without finding one of these sites perfectly to my taste which abound in the Pyrenees, but which rare in this part of the Alps. I had torn my hands and kne< 36 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. climbing to solitudes which had all their own peculiar beauties, but not one the peculiar type which I wished for at this moment. The one seemed too wild to me, the other too countrified. I have done it, and have been agitated. — I had said again, I will 124 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. brave these dangers, and will not shudder ; I braved them, and came from the conflict pale with fear. I said at last, I will obtain such things, and they will content me ; I have obtained them, and am not content. I have fulfilled my duty tolerably well ; but I have found sorrow more bitter, and happiness less happy than I had dreamed them to be. Why does truth, instead of showing herself as she really is, grand, gaunt, naked and terri- ble, show herself laughing, beautiful and flowery, to children in their dreams ? LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 125 TO MALGACHE. 1 have been reading immensely for some days ; I say immensely, because for more than three years I have not read as much as an octavo volume, and now in a fortnight these are the three works I am swallowing and digesting : The Eucharist, by the Abbe Gerbet, Reflections on Suicide, by Madame de Stael ; and the life of Victor Alfleri, by Victor Alfieri. The first I read by chance ; the second from curiosity, to see how this man-woman compre- hended life ; and the third from sympathy, some one having repre- sented it as a book which would appeal energetically to my mind. A sermon — a dissertation — a history — the history of Alfieri resembles a romance ; it interests, warms, and excites one's feelings — the Catholicism of the Abbe has the narrow solemnity, the inevitable inutility of an ascetic book. There is only the disserta- tion, then, of Madame de Stael, which is what it wishes to be, a production, correct, logical, common as to the thoughts, beautiful as to the style, and learned in its arrangement. I have found no other solace in it, than the pleasure of learning that Madame de Stael loved life, that she had a thousand reasons for valuing it, that her destiny was infinitely more happy, her head stronger and more intelligent, than mine. As for the rest, I think her book has increased the attractions of suicide for me. When I find a village pedagogue on my route, I feel ennui, but I have patience with him, he exercises his trade. But if I meet an illustrious professor, and hoping to find some help from him, I consult him in order to clear up my doubts and calm my anxieties, I should be even more shocked, more sad than before, if he says to me in fine phrases and perfectly chosen words the same commonplaces which the village pedagogue had just been bestowing on me in kitchen latin ; he had the merit at least of sometimes making me smile at his barbarisms, and his emphases might be absurd ; but the doctoral coldness of the other is merely pitiable. It is like an oak to which you run for safety, and which breaks like a reed, letting you fall yet deeper into the abyss. 126 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. The " Eucharist" is certainly a book worthy of being distin- guished in spite of its defects. I am very glad to have read it ; not that it has done me any good, it is too Catholic for me, and special books can do good but to a very small number ; but because it took me back to the days of my first youth, so devout, tender and credulous. Alfieri pleases me as a man. What I like in him, is his pride ; what interests me in him, are his terrible combats between his pride and his weakness ; what I admire in him, is his energy, his patience, and his unheard-of efforts to make himself a poet. Alas, here is another who has suffered, who has detested life, who has sobbed and roared, (to use his own expression) in the fury of suicide, and he like the others has consoled himself with a rattle. He has experienced love, and its hideous disenchantments, its regrets mingled with shame and contempt, and the ennui of solitude and cold disdain, and the sad clear-sightedness of all things except of the last bauble which saved him, glory ! The life of Alfieri, considered as a book, is one of the most excel- lent I know. It is true I do not know many, especially since the time when memory of many things left me, but this one is written with extreme simplicity, and with a coolness of judgment, from whence results a great warmth of emotion to the reader, and with a conciseness and rapidity full of order and moderation. I think that all those who intend to write their lives, should propose this biography for their model, in form, dimensions, and manner. This is what I promised myself to do in reading it, and what I am equally sure not to fulfil. To resume, I must tell you that reading does me infinitely more harm than good. I will wean myself from it as quickly as possi- ble. It increases my uncertainty as to all truth, and my dis- couragement as to all futurity. All those who write the history of human sufferings, preach from the height of their calm or their forgetfulness. Peacefully seated on .the hobby which has carried them out of danger, they talk to me of the system of the belief or the vanity which consoles them. This one is a devotee, that one a savant, the great Alfieri makes tragedies. Across their pre- sent wellbeing, they see their past griefs only as grains of sand, LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 127 and treat mine as the same, forgetting that mine at present are mountains, as their own were. They have climbed them, and I, like Prometheus, remain beneath, having only my heart free, wherewith to nourish a vulture. They smile calmly, the cruel ones ! The one utters over my agony the word of religious contempt. Vani- tas ! The next calls my anguish, weakness ; and the third ignorance. '* Before I was devout/' says one, ee I also was beneath this rock ; he devout and rise up!" "You expire?" says Madame de Stael, " remember the great men of antiquity, and make some fine phrase thereupon. Nothing solaces one so much as rhetoric." " You suffer from ennui ?" cries Alfieri, " Oh ! how I also suffered from it ! But ' Cleopatra' got me clear off!'* Well, well I know it, you are all virtuous, happy and glorious. Each cries to me, " Pise ; rise, do as I do, write, sing, love, pray." Even so with you, my good Mal- gache, who advise me to build an ajoupa and to study the classifi- cations of Linnaeus. My masters and my friends, have you nothing better than this to say to me ? Can none of you carry his hand to this rock and take it from my oppressed and bleeding bosom ? At least, if I am to die without succour, chant to me the tears of Jeremiah or the Lamentations of Job. They were not pedants, they said openly, " Rottenness is in my bones, and the worms of the sepulchre have entered my flesh/ ; 128 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. TO ROLLINAT. I am very sorry I have written that bad book called Leila ; not because I repent of it ; that book was the most hardy and loyal action of my life, also one of the most foolish and likely to dis- gust me with the world on account of its results. But there are many things at which one is enraged and yet which one ridicules at the same time, many wasps which sting without exciting anger ; many contrarieties which make life a bore, but which do not amount to the despair which kills. The pleasure of having done these things soon effaces the pain of the attempt. If I regret having written Lelia, it is because I no longer have, the power of writing such a book. And yet I am in a state of mind so similar to that in which I wrote Lelia, that it woul d be the greatest solace to me now if I could recommence it. Unhappily, one cannot write two books upon the same idea, without introducing many modifica- tions. The state of my mind when I wrote Jacques (which is not yet published) allowed me to correct the character or idea of Lelia, to produce it differently and to facilitate its digestion to the good public. At present, I am past Jacques, and instead of ar- riving at the next step in my soul's progress, I fall back to the last. What ! will my time of settled mind never come ? Oh ! if it does come, my friend you shall see what profound philosophers, what antique stoics, what white -bearded hermits, shall promenade through my romances ! what heavy deliberations, what magnifi- cent pleadings, what proud condemnations, what pious sermons shall flow from my pen! how I will ask your forgiveness for having been young and unhappy ; how I will parade before you the wisdom of old age, and the calm joy of egotism ! Let no one dream of being unhappy in those times ; for I will set myself to work, and I will blacken three reams of paper in proving that he is a fool and a coward, and that as for me, I am quite happy. I will be as false, as bombastic, as useless as Trenmor, a type LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 129 which I have ridiculed more than any one else, and before any one else, but no one understood this. They did not see that, clothing divers passions, or divers opinions under human forms, and being forced by logic to make human reason appear also, I had been to seek for it in the galleys, and having erected it like a gallows in the midst of the other chatterers, at last, I sent it in the form of a great white stick, wandering towards the fields of futurity, lured onwards by a will-o'the-wisp for a hobby horse. I understand you to ask me if it is a comedy, this book which you have read so seriously, you, who are a veritable Trenmor in strength and virtue, who know how to think all that mine says, and know how to do all that mine merely indicates, I should answer you, yes, or no, according to the temper of the moment. There were nights of reflection, austere sorrow, enthusiastic re- signation, when I wrote fine phrases all in good faith. There were morning hours of fatigue, sleeplessness and anger, when I jested at the evening, and thought every blasphemy I wrote. There were afternoons of ironical and facetious humour, when, in order to escape, as I do to day, from the pedantry of consolation givers, I amused myself by making Trenmor a philosopher more empty than a gourd, and more impossible even than happiness. This book, so evil, yet so good, so true and so false, so serious, yet so full of working, is certainly ^the most profoundly, the most sadly, the most bitterly felt, that a brain in delirium has ever pro- duced. This is the reason it is deformed, mysterious and incapa- ble of success. Those who took it for a romance had good reason to think it detestable. Those who took for a reality all that the allegory concealed so sadly chaste, had good reason to be scandalized. Those who hoped to find a treatise on morals or philosophy make its appearance out of these caprices, have justly found the conclusion absurd and disappointing. Those alone, who suffering from the same anguish, have listened to its broken plaints, feverish sobs, mournful laughter and excitation, have com- prehended its import well, and by them it is loved without being approved. They think of it precisely as I do myself, that it is a frightful crocodile very well dissected; a naked bleeding heart, an object of horror and of pity. Where is the time, when one 130 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. would not have dared to print a book without furnishing it, not only with the king's permission, but with a good moral, thickly spread, quite proper and very useless. People with head and heart never fail in proving exactly the contrary of that which they wish to proye. L'Abbe Prevost, whilst demonstrating by the mouth of Tiberge, that it is a great misfortune and a great debasement to love a prostitute, proves by the example of Desgrieux that love ennobles every thing, and that nothing is repulsive that is deeply felt by a generous heart. To complete the blunder, Tiberge is useless, Manon is adorable, and the book is a sublime monument of love and truth. Jean Jacques may do his best ; Julie only becomes dear again to the reader when at her last hour she writes to St. Preux, that she has never ceased to love him. It is the logical, the reasoning, the utilitarian Madame de Stael who makes this remark. She also remarks that the letter in defence of suicide is far superior to the letter condemning it. Alas ! why write against one's conscience. Jean Jacques, if it is true, as many think, that you hastened your own death, why conceal it from us ? Why such sublime un- reasoning to conceal an overpowering despair ? Unhappy martyr, who pined to be classical like the others, why not cry aloud ? that would have consoled you, we would have drunk every drop of your blood with yet more fervour, we would pray to you as to our Christ weeping sacred tears. Is it beautiful or puerile, this affectation of philanthropic utility ? Is it the liberty of the press or the example of Goethe followed by Byron, or the reason of the age which has delivered us from it ? Is it a crime to own all one's chagrin, all one's ennui ? Is it a virtue to conceal it ! Perhaps ! to be silent, yes ; but to lie, to have the courage to write volumes, to disguise both from others and oneself the depths of one's soul ! Yes ! yes ! it was right ! These men laboured to cure them- selves, and to make their cure serviceable to others. Trying to persuade others, they persuaded themselves. Their pride wounded by mankind, raised itself again by the declaration that it had cured itself by its own efforts from their attacks. Ingenuous saviours of your ingenuous contemporaries, you did not see the LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 131 evil you had sown under the sacred flowers of your eloquence. You did not dream of a generation like the present, which nothing can deceive, which dissects and examines all emotions, and which, even beneath the halo of your Christian glory, can perceive your pale brows, furrowed by the storm ! You did not foresee that your precepts would go out of fashion, and your griefs alone remain to us and to our posterity ! LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER, TO FRANCOIS ROLLINAT. January, 1835. Why the devil did not you come yesterday ? We waited dinner for } T ou till seven o'clock, — a wonderful deed for appetites excited by the fresh air ©f the country. Were you delayed by a gossipping client ? You were not ill, at any rate ? Now we do not expect you till Saturday. But let me hear from you during the interval, do you hear Pylades ? we shall he uneasy. Your ap- pearance for the last three months has not been calculated to re- assure us. Poor, little, yellow, old man, what is wrong with you ? I know your usual reply to this question is, "What is wrong with yourself ? are you a young, rich, robust, and healthy man, that you should disquiet yourself so much about my looks?" Alas* we are both of us of a poor outside, and our parchment looking bodies contain souls both withered and weary, Comrade mine ! Bah ! of what am I talking ? yesterday we were gayer than ever ; nevertheless we wanted you very much, but we drank your health, and became rather elevated, whilst making vows for your good faith. Pylades, we must not deny the good which Providence still leaves us in reserve. At the very moment when we give up all as lost, the kind goddess is there behind us, covering with tin- sel some pretty little bauble, which she puts into our hands so gently that we do not even suspect her de , n ; for, if we did but imagine that she was mocking us and not thinking of our fury in a serious light, we should be capable of killing our- selves to force her to believe us. But we hope she is a little inti- midated by our threats, and that she will behave better to us for the future ; we look at the rattle she has put into our hands, and we shake its bells, declaring all the time, "Bells cf folly, you may ring as much as you please, but we shall take no pleasure in you.*' But we go on ringing them, and listen to them with such com- LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. If 3 plaisance that soon we turn into rattles ourselves ; and songs of joy and laughter issue from our void and desolate hearts. Then we find admirable reasons to reconcile ourselves with life, reason- ings quite as fine as those which made us so ready to renounce life in the preceding week. What a foolish jest is the human heart ! What after all, is this heart, of which we talk so much ? How is it that it is so odd, so impressible, so cowardly in suffering, so volatile in pleasure ? Are there good and bad angels which breathe their influence alternately over this poor organ of our life ? Can the diaphragm which opens responsive to a cup of coffee and a bon mot be a soul, a ray from the Divinity. But if it is but a sponge fit only to contain the vivifying blood, whence then come those sudden aspirations, the trembling fears, the anguish the agonizing cries which escape when certain syllables strike upon the ear, or when the light, playing on a wall, designs from the fringe of a curtain, or the angle of a carving, certain fantastic lines, profiles sketched by chance, and imbued with magical remembrances. Why, in the midst of our suppers, where, God be thanked, there is no lack of noise and gaiety, are there some amongst us to whom tears come without their knowing why ? " He is drunk'' — some say. But why does wine make this one weep, that one laugh ? Oh gaiety of man, how near art thou to tears ! And what then is this power* which a sound, an object, a vague thought has over us all ? When we are all wild together screaming, shouting, in all the false intonations, in all the incoherent keys of intoxication, if one amongst us makes a solemn sign and says Listen ! all are quiet and listen. Then in the silence of these vast saloons, a distant and plaintive voice raises itself. It comes from the depths of the valley, it mounts in harmonious circles, amidst the fir trees in the garden, then it reaches the corner of the house ; glides by a window, steals along the cor- ridors, and at length bursts against the doors of our saloon with powerful sobbing. All our countenances lengthen, our lips grow pale, we are fixed to our place, in the same attitude as when the sound first reached us. Then one cries out, " Bah, 'tis only the wind, I care not." In fact, it is the wind, and nothing but the wind, and people do care for it, and no one without an effort can 134 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. surmount the sadness which these things inspire. But why sad- ness ? Do the fox and the partridge feel melancholy when the wind sighs along the heath ? Does the doe mourn when the moon rises ? What, then, is this being who erects himself into lord of the creation, and whose reveries ; are nought but tears and alarm ? But why should we be melancholy, unless we have lost our senses ? Our wives are charming, and our friends, can there be better ) Are there many mortals so happy as to have united under one roof, nearly every day for a month fourteen or fifteen noble and true souls, linked together by a sacred friendship. Oh mv friends, beloved friends, do you know your value in a life of unhappiness ? you are not sufficiently aware of it, you are not sufficiently aware of the good you do ; it is indeed good to save a soul from despair. Alas, alas ! what is this mingling of bitterness and joy ? what is this sentiment of repulsion and love, which brings me back each year in the season which is not autumn, but which is not yet winter, a month of melancholy reverie and tender misanthropy ; for all this may be found in this poor weary head over which the paternal roof sheds so great a solemnity. Oh ! my household gods ! I find you the same as I left you. I bend before you with the respect which each year of advancing age renders deeper in the heart of man. Idols hidden by dust, which saw the infancy of my father, my own and my children's cradle pass at your feet, you who gazed on the bier of one gene- ration, and who will see that of the next. I hail you, oh ye protecting powers ! before whom my trembling childhood bowed itself ; godlike friends whom I have tearfully invoked from distant lands, from the depths of stormy passions. My sensations, when I again see you, are at once both sweet and bitter. Why did I quit you, who are always favourable to simple hearts, you who watch over infancy while the mother sleeps, you who send chaste dreams of love to hover over the couch of youthful maidens, you who give health and sleep to the aged. Do you recognize, oh peaceful Penates, the pilgrim who comes covered with the way- side du^t and in the evening twilight, do you not mistake him for LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 135 a stranger ? His faded cheeks, his furrowed brow, his eyes worn by weeping, like ravines hollowed by a torrent, his infirmities, his sadness, and his scars ; does not all this prevent your remem- bering the valiant spirit which went from hence one morning embodied in a robust frame, and mounted on a heath-fed palfrey, a steady and untiring courser, as though rider and animal intended to make the tour of the world ? Behold the rider, the children call him Toby, and they support him in order that he may be able to walk. The old horse there, eating the nettles growing in the cemetery, is Colette, once worthy of bearing Bradamante, but now become blind, she can yet through the insight of instinct and memory, regain the litter on which she w T ill perish to-morrow. Ah ! Colette, your best days are over, but it is a good action to have kept a corner and truss of straw for you in the stable. What has secured for you the fortunate destiny of not being sold -to the carrier, like all other old horses ? the most sacred of all claims, old age. That which has been has always something re- spectable about it. That which is is always open to doubt and dispute. From w T hence then arises the friendship which they feel for your old master here ? No one here knows him, he has been away long, he has travelled far ; his features are changed, of his tastes, habits, character, one now remembers nothing, for many things have passed in his existence since he was still proud and strong ! But one word, both simple and sweet attaches those to him who otherwise might distrust him, and this word is " auld lang syne."* " He was here then/' say they, " he did such and such things with us, he was one of us, we knew him ; this way he went to the chase, in that field he gathered mushrooms, do you remember such a one's wedding and such a one's burial ? ,; . . . . When one gets into the chapter of "do you remember" what precious bonds of gold and diamond link hearts together, what warm flushes of youth mount to the face, and revivify forgotten joys, and neglected affections ! One imagines, then, that affection was greater than it really was ; and in fact, past pleasures, like projected ones, seem more intense than those now present with us. "Ah! but it is an intense pleasure, though, to embrace one's friends after a long absence, crying, 'At last you are here, * " Ce mot ; — c'est Autrefois." 136 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. old friend ! is it you my daughter ! is it you, my niece, or my sister !" Do not tell me then, my friend, that I am courageous, and that the gaiety I show is an effort made by my friendship for you and them. Do not believe this. I am happy in fact, happy through you, unhappy through others. But once here, what matters anything which is not you ? Do not fancy I dwell upon it ? I remember it in spite of myself ; but why talk of it, why should you know it ? Oh no, let no one know it, except the two or three who cannot be deceived by the expression of my brow. But let others know nothing of me but the happiness which comes from them. The poor children might doubt its existence could they see the depths of the* abyss which they are covering with flowers. They would retire in fear, saying, " Nothing can bloom upon this desolate soil ; for those who can know no cure have no friends, and when man can no longer be useful to man, he who may yet be saved, flies to a distance, and the one for whom there is no hope, dies alone. Can these youthful minds comprehend what passes in the hearts of those who have lived and suffered ? . Can they know, that in one breast may be inclosed all elements of joy and grief, without the power to make use of either. At their age, they think all grief ought either to destroy or be destroyed ; theirs is the age for deep desolation, grave melodies, austere resolutions, dark and silent despair. But after these fatal epochs have passed, thev have on their side, youth, which resumes its rights, the heart which mav be renewed and re -inspirited ; the inner life which reveals itself, intense and eager to repair lost time, and in all this may be comprised ten or twenty stormy years filled with dreadful evils and indescribable joys. But when experience has really made itself felt, when the passions, not deadened but repressed, can yet burn- ingly awake, to be again struck with horror by the spectres of the past, then it is that the Hainan heart, before, so ready to promise and undertake, no longer recognizes itself. It knows that which it has been, but knows not what it may be, for its struggles have been so many it can no longer reckon on its strength. And besides it has lost the anxiety for suffering, so natural to the young. The old have suffered enough. Their grief has no poetry left ; grief only embellishes beauty. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 137 To be pale sometimes makes woman's beauty divine, and man's noble. But when grief manifests itself by irreparable ravages, when it furrows brows already ofd and sad, it is felt to be annoying and dangerous. It is bidden like a vice, and concealed from all sight, for fear that the dread of infection may make the happy keep aloof. Then, it is, that one is most worthy to be pitied, for one does not pity oneself, and one fears to excite compassion. It is at this age, that friends of a similar standing understand one another with a look, and that a word suffices to reveal all the history of a past life. How is it that when we meet again after a separation of months, you read so well upon my brow the history of the evils I have suffered in the interval ? How is it that you can tell me at once as you grasp my hand, " Well, well, such or such a thing has happened to you, you have acted thus ; I know what is passing in your heart ! Oh ! how exactly you relate to me all the details of my unhappiness. Poor human beings that we are ! the very griefs that we speak of with so much emphasis, and whose burthen we carry with so much pride, all know them, all have suffered them, it is like having the tooth-ache, every one says to you " I pity you, it is very hard to bear," — and all is said. Sad, oh sad ! But in friendship there is something so beautiful and beneficent which disquiets and occupies itself with your un- happiness as though it were unique in its kind. Oh ! sweet com- passion, maternal kindness to a weeping child who asks for pity ! how sweet it is to find you in the grave and experienced soul of an old friend ! He knows all, he is accustomed to watch over your wounds, and yet he is not weary of your sufferings, and his pity is renewed unceasingly. Friendship ! friendship ! delight of those hearts which love has injured and abandoned ! a gener- ous sister whom one neglects, but who alway pardons ! Oh ! my Pylades, I beg of you, do not make me into a tragic personage. Do not tell me that it requires a frightful strength to support this gaiety. No, no, it is not a part I play, it is not a task, it is not even a calculation, it is an instinct and a necessity. Human nature has no affinity for that which is in- 138 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. jurious to it, the soul does not desire suffering, the body does not desire death ; in the very face of the deepest grief, and most serious illness both soul and body disclaim and fly from the dreaded approach of destruction. There are some crises so violent, that suicide becomes a mania, a necessity. Some peculiar portion of the brain is suf- fering and physically declining. But once let the crisis pass over ; and nature, robust nature intended by God to endure a specified time, extends her desolate arms, and catches at the smallest shrub to save her from falling to the depths below. When life was made so miserable for man, Providence knew well that a great horror of death must be inspired to mankind. And that is the grandest, the most inexplicable of the miracles which concur towards the duration of the human species ; for any one who could see clearly all that is around him, would seek for death. These moments of fatal clearsightedness happen to us sometimes, but we do not always yield, and the same miracle which makes flowers and plants bloom again, after the snow and ice, operates in the heart of man. And then, all that one calls reason, human wisdom, all books, all these systems of philosophy, all the social and religious duties which attach us to life, are they not there ? Have they not also been invented to help us to flatter our natural inclinatiors,Iike all other fundamental principles, property, despotism, and the rest ? These laws are full of wisdom and formed to stand, but better ones might be made, and Jesus, in suffering martyrdom, has given a great ex. ample of suicide. As for myself, I declare to you, that if I do not kill myself, it is entirely because I am a coward. And what makes me a coward ? It is not the fear of giving myself a little pain either from dagger or pistol ; it is the fearful feeling of existing no longer, the grief of quitting my family, my children and my friends ; it is the horror of the grave ; for though the soul may hope for another life, yet it is so intimately bound up with this poor body, it has contracted, whilst its habitant, so sweet a complacency towards it, that it shudders at the idea of leaving it to rot as food for worms. The soul may feel that neither it nor the body will then know anything of it, but whilst they are united, the soul cares for and esteems her LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 139 envelope, and cannot form an idea of what separation from each other may be, I support life then, because I love it, and although the sum of my griefs is infinitely greater than that of my joys, although I have lost those pleasures, without which I thought life an impossibility, still I love the sad destiny which yet remains to me, and each time I reconcile myself to it, I discover, comforts of which I had taken no heed, or of which I denied the ex- istence when rich and proud with happiness. Oh, how insolent is man when his passion is triumphant ! When he loves or is beloved, how he despises all which is not love, how lightly he esteems his life, how ready he is to throw it away, when his star begins to pale a little ! And when he loses what he loves, what agony, what convulsions, what hatred of the consolations of friendship, for the mercies of God ! But God has made him fearful as well as boastful ; and soon again feeble, shamefaced, weeping like a child, seeking with timid steps to find his way again, he hastily seizes the hand held out to guide him. Ridi- culous, puerile and unfortunate being ! w T ho knows neither how to accept nor to withdraw himself from his destiny ! Ah ! do not let us make a jest of this miserable state, it is that of us all, and we all know that its degradation, and want of strength and grandeur renders it more unhappy and worthy of compassion. Whilst one has faith in one's strength, pride re- mains, and pride consoles for everything. One strides loftily along, and bends the brow with terrible and majestic calm ; it is decreed that one dies this evening or the next day, and such pride is felt at this grand resolution, (which a barber or prosti- tute is just as capable of executing as Cato of Utica,) and one is so pleased at scorning instead of submitting to the decrees of fate, that one is already half consoled. One's mind feels per- fectly free, which causes great astonishment ; the will is made, some letters are burnt, some left in the care of friends, solemn adieus are uttered ; one esteems, one admires and loves oneself. But here is the worst of it, one gets reconciled to oneself, and gains back self-esteem, and, affection returns with admirable goodness to place herself between the heroic self and the ex- piatory self. The sacrificer, that is to say, pride, little by little 140 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. extends grace to the victim, that is to say to weakness, the first is softened, the other laments ; Pride ask Weakness if she was sincere just now, if she really intended to bare her throat to the knife ; the other replies, Yes. Pride condescends to believe it, and to decide that the will is to be taken for the deed, that the shame is washed away, honour satisfied, and hope reanimated. Then comes a friend who smiles at your intention, but who feigns, if in the least good and delicate, to be alarmed at it and to snatch from you the murderous weapon, truth to tell, no very difficult task Alas ! alas ! let us not laugh at all this. All this ends in not killing oneself, and in the end one gives up the idea of being strong, and pride has a fall, and suffering is appeased ; but, there remains for ever in the depths of the soul a dumb sorrow, a profound melancholy, which accepts all distractions, but which no distraction changes ; for that which one believes, one wills, and that which one knows, one endures. — Now, which is better, the scaffold,'or a perpetuity of the galleys ? But good night, old friend, it is late — in an hour it will be broad daylight, and, I must awake with the cocks sounding their morning trumpet, and the dogs who begin howling that the court-yard gates may be opened, and your brother Charles who sings like a lark at the rising of the sun. You will come on Sunday, will you not ? It will I hope, be just such weather as we like, no moon, the sky frosty, the stars shining and the air clear and sonorous ; your brother will sing his stabat, and we go under the great pine tree to listen to him. It does us good to be sorrowful together, but when one is alone, one must avoid it, in our present state of mind. This is the reason of my writing to you, in order that I may not go to bed, till over- powering slumber will cut short all too grave reflection. Oh Heaven ! Behold, then, these gay guests, these amiable old men, behold them at their bedside, seized with terror at the idea of the thoughts which await them there. This is why one must sleep at break of day, that is the hour when the night- mare leaves the bed, and has no more power over man. Adieu ! Give my blessing to your twelve children. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 141 Sunday. Sixce you cannot come to-day, I have come to shut myself up with you, and chat through the medium of pen and ink with your ennui, for you are suffering from ennui, and nothing else. Do not go and imagine that you have any grief. Ennui is a sufficiently great evil, but it is a noble evil, and one from which all that is noble in the human soul may take its rise. It is only necessary to define one's ennui properly, and to direct its inspirations to some poetical end. But the devil take you, you are not in the least poetical. You determine every thing, you cannot remain in doubt about any subject. If you knew what ennui really is, and what may be done with it ! I will try to explain it to you as I understand it. Ennui is the languor of the soul, an intellectual atony, which succeeds to great emotions or great desires. It is a fatigue, an uneasiness, a disgust resembling that which the stomach feels when it experiences the necessity of eating without the wish. The mind seeks like the. stomach for an aliment which may re- animate and please its longings. Xeither work nor pleasure will do ; it requires happiness or suffering, and ennui is the very emotion preceding or following either of these. It is not a vio- lent state, but sad, easy to cure, easy to aggravate. But the moment one idealizes it, it becomes touching, and melancholy, and very becoming, either to the countenance or to the discourse. To reach this point, one must give oneself completely up to it. The receipt is as follows : — Clothe yourself comfortably, ac- cording to the season, have a pair of very good slippers, an excellent fire in winter, a light hammock in summer, a good horse in spring, and in autumn a garden walk, edged with ranunculuses. Besides this, you must have a book in the hand, a cigar in the mouth, read about a line an hour, and then think about it for eight or ten minutes at most, in order that you may not be governed by any fixed idea. The rest of the time you may dream, but take care to change your place, or your pipe* or the position of your head, or the direction of your eyes. 142 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. Thus, by determining not to disturb your uneasiness, bye and bye, you will see it turn into a very comfortable disposition. You will at first acquire a great clearness of observation; a great calmness in collecting the forms either of ideas, or objects in those divisions of the brain which resemble the leaves of an album. Then will come a mild contemplation of yourself and others ; and that which, just before, appeared inconvenient or in- different to you, will soon be agreeable, picturesque, and beau- tiful. The least object will soon have its particular trick in your eyes, the least sound will seem a melody, the least visit a happy event. It often happens to me, I can assure you, to wake in a terrible fit of spleen. The spleen is a serious attack of ennui, sufficiently disagreeable. I do not exactly know what Pascal meant by those " penstes de derritre la t4te^* which he reserved as a reply to polemical objections, or for denying in secret what he feigned to accept openly. This was most probably, the Jesuit- ism of intellect, forced to bend to outward duty, but never- theless involuntarily rebelling against the absurd decision. To me, the expression seemed a terrible one. It has not only been met with amongst his " Pensces," but written separately on a piece of paper, and conceived somewhat in this way : M And I also, I shall have my 4 thoughts from the back of the head/ ' Oh ! mournful words, drawn from a desolate heart ! Alas ! there are days when the human heart is like a double mirror, where one surface sends back to the other the reverse of those objects it has received in front. It is then that every thing, and every man, and every word has an inevitable wrong side, and that there is not a caress, an enjoyment, an idea, which has not its foil or shadow acting like an iron spring within the brain. This is a fatal and unhealthy power, you may be sure. Human reason indeed consists in seeing things on all sides, but a happily constituted human nature does not willingly enter into such self-examination ; it is not so clear-sighted, and Pascal has said elsewhere, " the will which takes more pleasure in one thing than another, predeter- mines the mind against considering the qualities of the one it • " Thoughts from the back of the head." LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 143 does not like, and the will thus becomes one of the principal organs of belief." And all this is dreadfully sad ; life is endu- rable only whilst forgetting these gloomy truths, and there are no possible feelings or affections where these " thoughts from the back of the head " do not intrude their presence. Therefore, whenever I feel myself in this miserable frame of mind, I use every effort to distract my attention, and soften its effects. I then mystify all my ideas in the enormous smoke clouds of my pipe. In summer I swing myself in my hammock till I am quite intoxicated ; in winter I expose my old tibias to the fire with such stoicism that a pretty severe burn is the con- sequence, and a kind of moxa which carries off the cerebral irritation. A beautiful verse, read while passing by, for God be thanked, our walls are covered by them, as a Mosque is by sen- tences from the Koran, a ray of sunlight piercing through the frost, a certain kind of dazzling taking place in my sight or my thoughts, and the habitual prism takes its position again, nature resumes her accustomed beauty, and in the large saloon our friends appear to me in groups, unremarked before, and which strike me as vividly as though I were Rembrandt or only Gerard Dow. Then comes a deep inner emotion, a kind of leaping forth of the spirit, a not to be realized longing to fix these pic- tures, a joy at having seized upon them, an impulse of the heart towards those who compose them. Have you not also had these thoughts, during those silent contemplations in which we have so often seen you plunged, while teazing one unlucky tress of your hair ? How many times this year have I been seized with an unconquerable irritation in the very midst of our dear com- panions, and our wildest evenings. And how many times, when returning to the saloon, after hastily traversing the withered alleys at the end of which the moon was rising, have I been delighted and surprised at the naive beauty of these pictures after the Flemish school ! Dutheil, wrapped up in his grotesque great coat, whose colour Hoffmann would have said 'resembled the key of F with one flat, with his raisin coloured cap upon his head, and raising his stone jug, filled with the modest nectar of the neighbouring hillside, has he not as red and shining a physiognomy as has ever been sketched by Teniers ? Silence • 144 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. his eye is kindling, his beard erecting itself; he throws forward his head like that of a buffalo preparing for defence. He is going to sing : listen, what a profoundly religious and philoso- phical song. Le bonheur et Je malheur Happiness and unhappiness Nous viennent du meme Auteur, Come to us from the same hand, Voila la ressemblance ; Behold their resemblance ; Le bonheur nous rend heureux Happiness makes us happj, Et le malheur malheureux Unhappiness unhappy Voila la difference. Behold their difference. This beautiful ode is by Monsieur de Bievre. I have never heard any thing more sadly stupid ; and whilst our companions are heartily laughing at this country platitude, to me there always comes a feeling of sadness whilst listening to it. Do you not know that all is said, both before God and man, when an unfortunate being demands a reason for his unhappiness, and this reply is all he obtains. What is there besides ? Nothing. The eternal rule which measures out good and evil to us is entirely comprised there : it is like the tooth-ache, to which the other day I was comparing all our moral evils. Is there any human complaint rising from this earth, meriting any other attention than the irony at once bitter and sweet given by another unfortunate, half consoled by wine, who gravely states your grief as a remarkable fact ? When DutheiFs terrible voice has left off shaking all the windows, there comes my brother, practising steps about as graceful as those of any bear trying to walk upon the brink of a precipice. Alphonso, sitting on the ground, is playing on the violin with the tongs and shovel ; and his large profile ct la Dante is shadowed on the wall, his laughter making its severe outlines yet more hollow and lugubrious. Charles keeps flitting round them like an evil spirit, in a mocking humour, always ready to overset a glass of wine in the drinker's sleeve, or to trip up an unsteady dancer. Oh ! as for these, these indeed my old friends, of former days, they know that one may be very gay and very sad at the same time ; and, who are easily happy in the felicity of another, and commence life afresh after each new suffering. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 145 And of what should they complain ? these spoiled children of destiny ! Look at that charming group round the piano. It is composed of their wives and their sisters ; there are Agasta and Felicia, those two sisters 'so tenderly united, so good, so kind, and so archly naive ! there are Laura and her mother, both so beautiful, so noble, so pure ! there is Brigitta, with her black eyes and brilliant gaiety, there is our lovely Rozana and our pretty Fleming, Eugenia. Do you know any thing more fresh, more sweet than these flowers of the provinces, blooming in true sun-light, far from the hot-houses in which our women of the cities fade from their very birth ? How heavenly does Laura look with her paleness, and her large black eyes so languid and holy in their glances. How charming is Agasta with her cheeks like a Bengal rose blossoming on snow, her coquettish and nonchalante manners, her sweet native pronunciation and her little white nun's cap ! Felicia's indolence has something in it more sad, hers is a melancholy smile. Love and grief have left their traces there, and resignation and self-denial have put their seal upon that calm brow, which has bowed so often in the tears of Christian prayer. For what weepest thou, fair Roman ? Hast thou not in the midst of thy griefs preserved the precious treasure of goodness to others, which unhappy women so easily forget ? My friend, how good it is to live amongst people so little artificial, amongst women as lovely in heart as in face, amongst men, laborious, firm, sincere, and religious in their friendship. Come often here, you will be cured. Now, if you ask me why, bein^ so happy, I always go away as winter sets in, I will tell you, but keep it to yourself. It is quite impossible for me, now, to be really happy in any situation whatever. Friendship is one of God's purest blessings to us, but it is one which has never remained long with me, and I shall die without the dream of my life being realized. To divide one's heart into ten or twelve portions, is very easy, very sweet, and very amiable. It is charming to be the good uncle of a joyous troop of children ; it is touching to grow old in the midst of an adopted family, in one's native place, but my happiness com- pared with the happiness of those who surround me, bears a great resemblance to the fortune . of a poor man, which is composed 146 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. of the alms of the rich. The men and women here whose faces always wear a smile, are all either unitedly love, or the exclusive friendship of marriage. And I, old friend, like you, I am the other self of no one. It matters little that I am getting old, but it matters much that I grow old, alone. But I have not met the being with whom I could have lived and died, or if I have met, I have not known how to keep him. Listen to this story and weep. There was a clever artist, called Watelet, who was a better en- graver than any of his contemporaries. He loved Marguerite le Conte, and 'taught her how to engrave as well as himself. She left her husband, her fortune and her country to live with Watelet. The world condemned them, but as they were poor and humble, they were soon forgotten. Forty years after in the environs of Paris, in a little house called the Moulin- Joli* an old man was discovered, an engraver, and an old woman whom he called his Meuniere,j and who, seated at the same table was also an engraver. The first idler who discovered this marvel told it to others, and the beau monde ran in crowds to Moulin Jolt to see this phenomena. A love lasting forty years, an industry so assiduous, and so beloved ; two twin talents ; Philemon and Baucis discovered in the reign of Mesdames Pompadour and Dubarry ! It was quite an event, and the miraculous couple had their flatterers, their friends, their poets, their admirers. Happily they both died of old age some few days after ; the world would have spoiled all. The last drawing they engraved, represented Le Moulin Joli, Marguerite's bouse, with this motto: " Cur valle permutem divitias Sabina operosiores ?" : This engraving is framed in my chamber and hangs over a portrait of which no one here has seen the original. During a year, the being; who left me this portrait, was seated at the same small table with me, and he gained his bread by the same labour as I did.. . At daybreak, we consulted each other on our work, and we supped at the same little table, conversing of art, sentiment, and the future. But to us the future has not kept its promise. Pray for me, oh Marguerite Le Conte ! And yet, in truth, friend, the more I think of it, the more I see it is too late to dare to be unhappy. We can no longer look ♦ Pretty Mill. t Milleress. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 147 at life seriously, at least the life which is before us ; for the life we have left behind us, we have believed in, it has existed. Have you recapitulated to yourself the anxious painful journey which conducts us from the cradle to the crutch ? I know the journey dif- fers according to the man, and that there are no two human exist- ences absolutely similar, any more than there are two leaves pre* cisely alike in a forest ; but one general view may be drawn from all, which will embrace the thousand details of which the diversity may be composed. If we only regard the organic system of man, we may say he is always the same, for as to his physical development, he has always one head, two arms, a trunk, &c, and his intellectual system is always composed of the same pas- sions, pride, anger, licentiousness, the desire for good and evil in divers proportions, and still always dividing and disputing the dominion of man, entering into him and making his moral life, like the nervous and arterial systems compose his material life. Thus I think I may sum up the history of all by summing up my own. At the beginning, strength, ardour, ignorance. Mid- way, use of strength, realization of desire, science of life. At the decline of life, disgust of action, fatigue, doubt, apathy ; and, then, the tomb, which offers itself as a couch to receive the pil- grim wearied with his day's work. — Oh, providence ! Youth is the portion of human life which varies the least, amongst all individuals ; manhood, that which differs the most. All age is the result of this period and differs accordingly ; but the weakening of the faculties confounds their distinctions, like distance weakening colours, and throwing over them its indistinct veil. It is almost impossible to know what a man will be, difficult to know what he is, but easy to know what he has been. One must neither distrust, nor trust blindly in young people ; and one must take great care not to depend upon men, nor to condemn them ; all is yet within them, the metal in a state of fusion is run- ning into the mould, God alone knows what |the statue will be. As for old men, whatever they may be, pity must be felt for them. For my part, I have seen how miserable and terrible, at the same time, is that youthful strength which does not obey our call, which carries us whither we wish not to go, and betrays us when we have need of it ; and I should now be astonished at 148 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. having been so proud of possessing it, did I not know that man's vanity draws food from every thing, from beauty, a gift of chance, to wisdom, which is the result of experience ; to be proud of one's strength is just as reasonable as to have slept well, and to have one's legs in good order for a long journey ; but beware the stones by the way-side. Oh ! how highly we think of our powers of walking when we are setting out, and our shoes are just new from the workman. I remember the impatience I felt to start forward on my road with waterproof boots. " Who will stop me ?" said I, " upon what thorns, what rub- bish can I not trample, without fear of wound or stain ? Where are the obstacles, where are the mountains, the seas, I shall not pass over?" I was forgetting the pitfalls on the road. And when I first began to use my strength, none but good and beautiful effects resulted from it ; for my baggage was all good, and my pockets filled with the most beautiful books in the world. I condescended to read about Plutarch's great men, and to grasp hands with them in some holy vision in which my pride illumined the magic atmosphere. And through my own pride in my strength and gait, I ima- gined I could not fall, and I loudly declared my belief to all my friends and acquaintances. Then amongst all these friends it was proclaimed that I was nothing less than a stoic of ancient times, who had the goodness to dress himself in coat and boots. Nevertheless, as 1 walked very fast, and scarcely looked at the ground, it happened that I stumbled against a stone and fell down ; I felt the pain in my foot, and mortification in my soul. But rising quickly, and thinking no one saw me, I went on say- ing, "this was an accident, quite a fatality, 1 ' and I began to have faith in fatality, which until then, I had boldly denied. But I hurt myself again, and fell down often. One day I perceived that I was wounded and bleeding, and that my appear- ance, so torn and muddy, made the passers-by laugh at me, more especially as I still carried myself with a majestic air, which only made me more grotesque. At last I was obliged to seat myself by the way- side, on a stone, and I began sadly to look upon my rags and my wounds. But my pride, at first, cast down and suffering, raised its head LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 149 again, and decided that I was not the less a good walker and stone- breaker,* although I had almost broken my back with over- walking. I forgave myself for all my falls, thinking it had been quite out of my power to prevent them, that destiny had been stronger than I, that Satan had been playing his part in all this mischief, and a thousand other excuses, invented to obscure to oneself and others, the avowal of one's own weakness, and the contempt each must sometimes feel for himself, if he is candid to his own soul. And I continued my route, limping and falling, always de- claring I walked very well, that the falls were not falls, that the stones were not stones ; and although many laughed at me, and with good reason, yet many took me at my word, because I was gifted with what artists call poetry, but what soldiers call blague.] - Lord Byron was just then giving a great example of what human presumption could do by clothing the pettiest vanities in purple and setting them in gold like diamonds ; this lame man mounted on his stilts and walked over every one who was blessed with more equal footing ; this succeeded with him, be- cause his stilts were solid, and magnificent, and he knew well how to use them. As for us, apes as we are, we all learn more or less well to walk upon our stilts, and even to dance on the tight rope, to the great admiration of the- idlers standing by, who know nothing at all about it. And we, I, above all, unhappy as I am ! I neg- lected pure and modest pleasures, I despised simple and obscure virtues, I mocked the devotees, I yielded increase to overbearing glory, and swelling with vanity, I pardoned no weakness in others, I, who had vices in my own heart. Neither would I make any sacrifice, for nothing in the world seemed to me so precious as my repose, my pleasure and my praises. Now, can you imagine, Francois, how after all this I have changed into an endurable old man, of gentle manners, modest in his expressions and in his pretensions ? Do you know what makes the difference between a man who is corrupted and a man who has simply wandered from the right ? Certainly, both of them have done foolish and evil deeds, but the one ceases to do * u Casseur de pierres.'* + Blague, humbug or blarney. K 150 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. so, and the other continues ; one grows old in his wooden shoes in his hermitage, or in his dressing gown in a garret with a few friends, whilst the other cravats and perfumes every evening, a mummy, which presumes to adopt the air of a living being, and which one morning may be found as dust at the bottom of an alembic. The man who perceives too late that he has taken the wrong route, and who has no longer strength to retrace his steps, may, at least, stop, and cry mournfully to those who are still advanc- ing. " Pass not by, here ; it is here I lost my way/' The wicked man finds pleasure in it, he advances on the route until his last hour, and dies of ennui when he has exhausted all the evil which a man can do. Another pleases himself by dragging after him as many unfortunates as he can, he laughs at seeing them fall into the mire, in their turn, and amuses himself by trying to per- suade them that this mire is a precious essence with which only great minds and fashionable people have any right to anoint and embalm themselves. In all this, Frangois, I find no great consolation for us, there is no great merit in our not being one of such as these. Have not we mingled in their feasts, have not we also drunk the poison of vanity and lying ? If the open air has carried off our intoxica- tion, it is because either providence or chance made us quit the fatal atmosphere and forced us to remain in a field rather than in a palace. My friend, that which is called virtue, certainly exists, but only in some exceptional characters, amongst such as we are, what we call goodness, is merely the sentiment of good, and aversion towards evil. Now on what does it depend I ask you, that this poor germ blown about by every wind, does not lose itself in the distance when we expose it so lightly to the storm ? When one thinks of the facility with which it flies away, ought we to rise very much in our own opinion for escap- ing the danger as if by miracle ? What a pale blossom is the honour yet remaining to us ! Where is the seraph who covered it with his pinions ? where is the ray which has reanimated it ? It is all very well for the good seed to fall in good ground ; but if the birds of the air should alight there, they will devour it. Whose then is the hand which hinders them ? Oh, God ! a feeling of terror LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 151 seizes upon a soul touched by thy benefits, when it looks back upon the past. But you, my friend, you have been able to make reparation. It was not too late for you when you arrested your course ; you returned to the point of departure, and there you found an onerous duty, a noble labour, and you accepted it with joy. Oh Francois, you had the past and its fatal habits to combat, to support the present and its gnawing cares ; you have fought the fight with these dragons ; your loins are strong as those of the archangel Michael, for you have vanquished. I who am old, who have not found a mother to console, and twelve children depending on my labour for bread, I weep, I pray, and cry out sometimes : " Come to me, descend from Heaven, alight upon my weary head, oh Dove of the Holy Spirit ! divine poetry ! sentiment of eternal beauty, love of nature in her youth and fruitfulness ; fusion of the great whole with the human soul which can de- tach itself and yield to thee ! sad and mysterious joy which God sends to his despairing children, emotions which seem to summon them to some unknown and sublime achievement, de- sire of death, desire of life, lightning which gleams before the eyes in the midst of darkness, ray which breaks through the clouds and clothes the Heavens with unexpected splendour, last agony in which a future life beams forth, fatal vigour, only belonging to despair, come to me, I have lost all upon this earth !" Winter is extending his grey veil over the saddened earth : the cold wind whistles and howls around our dwellings. But sometimes at noon, purple gleams break through the fog, and light up the dark hangings of my chamber. Then my bengali* be- comes agitated, and sighs in his cage, when he sees on the leaf- less lilacs in the garden a troop of silent sparrows with their feathers ruffled up and dreaming in melancholy beatitude. The branches of the trees are darkly outlined on the atmosphere filled with white frost. The heath, covered with its brown pods, throws up a little cluster of buds which are endeavouring to blossom. The earth, slightly moist, no longer cracks under * A Bird. 152 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. the children's tread. All is silence, regret and tenderness. The sun comes to bid adieu to the earth, the frost is melting, and tears are falling everywhere ; vegetation seems making a last effort to cling to life, but the last kiss of her spouse is so faint that the Bengal roses drop their leaves without having been able to blush forth and blossom. Behold the cold, — night, — death. This last ray of the sun shining through my windows, is my last remaining hope. To love all these objects, to weep over the departing autumn, to salute the returning spring, to count the first or last blossoms of the trees, to entice the sparrows to my window, this is all which remains to me of a life once so full and ardent. The winter of my soul has come ; an eternal winter ! There was a time when I regarded neither the heaven nor the flowers, when I neither disquieted myself for the sun's absence, nor pitied the sparrows frozen on the branches. On my knees before the altar where the sacred fire was burning, I shed upon it all the perfume of my heart. All that God has given to man of strength and youth, of aspiration and intoxica- tion, I consumed and reanimated by this flame kindled by another love. To day, the altar is overthrown, the sacred fire extinct, a faint smoke still rises and seeks to rejoin the flame which no longer exists ; it is my love exhaling itself and seeking to em- brace the soul by which itself was kindled. But that soul has fled towards heaven, and mine languishes and perishes on the earth. Now that my soul is widowed, there is nothing remaining for it, but to see and listen to God in his exterior manifesta- tions ; for God is no longer in me, and if I can yet rejoice, it is at that which passes around me. I will then proclaim thy goodness towards other men, oh God who hast abandoned me ! I will no longer live. I will watch and I will demonstrate ; from the depths of my grief, I will declare with a loud voice, so as to be heard by the passers by, these words, "Leave this path, here there is an abyss, and I who passed too near, have fallen within.' ' I will say to them also — "You have strayed, because you are deaf and blind, it was because I was so also, that I too strayed. I have LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 153 regained hearing and sight; but to discover that I was at the bottom of the precipice, and that I could no longer return with you. I was old !" Many like me have fallen into the abysses of despair. This world is immense, it is like a world of the dead which stirs and agitates itself beneath a world of the living. Something dark and gloomy, a phantom clothed and bearing a name, an indolent and broken frame, a pale and mournful visage, wanders still through human society, and still bears about the appearances of life. But our souls are below, plunged in the bitter waters of Erebus, and our young men know no more what is passing there, than the child in the cradle knows of death. But this gulf without any outlet has many degrees of depth, and various races of men mount and descend its steps. Tears and laughter issue from the entrails of this hell. In the lowest depths are those the most fallen, the most brutish, who sleep in the degra- dation of pleasure which may not be named ; not quite so low, are those who furiously cry and blaspheme against God whom they have not known and who has struck them down ; elsewhere are the cynics, who ( &eny virtue and happiness, and who seek to make others fall as low as themselves. But there are some who raise themselves above the poisonous miasma of their Tartarus, and who seating themselves on the first steps of these fatal stairs, say : "God, since I can no longer repass the thresh- hold, I will die here, I will descend no lower. They weep and la- ment, they are still near enough to God, to know what they might have been and what they ought to have done. They still hope in another life, for they have kept the sentiment of eternal beauty, and the means of its possession. Those repent and work, not for the sake of re-entrance into this mortal life, but towards its expiation, they proclaim the truth to men, without fear of wounding them, for those who are no longer of this world, have no longer any thing to care for, anything to fear ; none can do good or evil to them, none can make them fall — they precipitate themselves — May they, like Curtius, ap- pease celestial anger, and may the abyss close behind them ! But it seems to me, Francois, that I am becoming emphatic ; happily I see my old Malgache coming ; it is fifteen months 154 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. since I saw him ; lie is coming, breathless and palpitating with joy. Here he is under my window ; but, the devil, he stops, he has just seen a mal-formed violet, he gathers it, and begins to think. Behold me effaced from his memory, if I do not go to meet him, he will go back with his monster of a violet, without seeing me. I must go to him. Adieu, Pylades. THE END OF PAKT THE FIRST. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. LETTER VI. TO EVERARD. 11th April, 1835. Your friend the traveller arrived at home without any accident ; and feels proud and happy at the remembrance you have pre- served of him. He had not nattered himself much on this point ; he believed that a soul so active, so eager as yours would receive the least impressions vividly, but lose them also as quickly to give place to others. It is a duty and a necessity for you to be thus ; you do not belong to a few select souls, you belong to all men, or rather all men belong to you. Poor man of genius ! this must fatigue you very much. What a mission is yours ! a keeper of swine ; Apollo at the court of Admetus. But what is worst for you, is, that in the midst of your flocks, in the depths of your stables, you remember your divinity, and when you see a bird pursuing its way, you envy its flight and regret your heaven. Why cannot I bear you with me on the wings of the changing winds, and make you breathe the un- confined air of solitude, and teach you the secret of poets and of Bohemians ! But it is not God's will. He has cast you down like Satan, like Vulcan, like all other emblems of the grandeur and misfortunes of genius in this world. Behold yourself employed in ignoble labours, nailed to your cross, L 156 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER, chained to the miserable galley of human ambition. Go, and may he who has endowed you with strength and sorrow as your portion, surround the crown of thorns with a long enduring halo, which you will attain at the price of liberty, happiness and life. For, as to the philanthropy of which you reformers have the hu- mility to boast, I ask your pardon, but I do not believe in it. Phi- lanthropy makes sisters of charity. The love of glory is another thing, and produces other destinies. Sublime hypocrite, speak not thus to me, you misjudge yourself in taking that for a sen- timent of duty which is nothing but the inevitable and fatal declivity down which your instinctive strength is drawing you. As for me, I know that you are not one of those who observe duties, but of those who impose them. You love not men, you are not their brother, for you are not their equal. You are an exception amongst them, you are born a king. Ah ! this vexes you ; but in reality, you know well, there is a royalty which is of divine institution. Had God intended to found the principle of equality amongst men as you understand it, he would have shared amongst them an equal portion of in- telligence and virtue, but he forms great men to govern little men, as he has made the cedar protect the hyssop. The enthusiastic and almost despotic influence which you exercise here, in the middle of France, where all who can think and feel incline' themselves before your superiority, (to such a point that I, myself, the most insignificant individual who ever turned life into a hedge school, I am forced to go every year to pay my homage to you) tell me is this anything less than royalty ? your majesty cannot deny it. Sire the] foulard with which you crown yourself after the fashion of a toupee, is the crown of Aqui- taine whilst waiting for a better still. Your seat in the open air is a throne ; Fleury the Gaul is your captain of the guards ; Planet is your jester, and I, if you permit me, I will be your historian ; but morbleu, Sire ! you must behave well, for the higher the augury your humble bard draws for you, the more he will insist upon your reaching the goal, and you know it is not much easier to keep him quiet than the barber of King Midas. Andliere I must ask pardon for giving the title of King to the LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 157 late Midas. It is well known, he was not one of your cousins, but a king springing from human institutions j one of those beautiful types of legitimate kings whose ears grow quite natu- rally under the hereditary diadem. Think you that I dispute your rights ? Oh no, truly not : we shall never dispute on that point. One man is born to be a jockey, you are born a prince of the earth. As for myself, a poor writer of allegories, I feel ill sheltered under the umbrella of royalty, nevertheless I have no wish to support it myself, I should set badly about it, and all the thrones of the world are not worth to me a little flower growing by a lake amongst the Alps. But it would be a great question to solve whether God loves and estimates our physical frame as well as he does the balmy petals of the jasmine. I see that nature has taken as much care of the violet's beauty as of woman's, that the lilies of the fields are better arrayed than Solomon in all his glory, and for them I keep my worship and my love. Go, all the rest of you, make war, make laws. You say I never draw any conclusion ; — much I care to draw any conclusion ! I shall go and write your name and mine on the sands of the Hellespont in three months time ; and the next day there will remain as many traces as there will remain of my books after my death, and perhaps, alas, [of thy actions, oh Marius ! after the puff of wind, which will restore the fortune of the Syllas and the Napoleons upon the field of battle. It is not that I am deserting your cause in the least ;— of all causes, about which I care little, young and unbearded as I am, it is the most beautiful and the most noble. I cannot even conceive that poets can have any other ; for if all words were empty sounds, at least those of country and liberty are har- monious, whilst those of legitimacy and obedience are repulsive, evil sounding, and fit only for the ears of gendarmes. A brave people may be flattered, but to cringe to a crowned log, is to renounce the dignity of a man. For my part, I flee from the noise of human clamour, and I go to listen to the voice of torrents. You may feel assured that I shall pray the spirit of the lakes and the fairy of the glaciers to wing their flight some- times towards you, and to carry in the breeze with them a per- l 2 358 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. fume from the desert, a dream of liberty, an affectionate re- membrance of your friend the traveller. I am but a bird of passage in human life, I make no nest, and seek no love upon this earth ; I shall tap with my beak from time to time at your window, and bring news of the creation through your prison bars, and then I shall resume my inconstant flight in the aerial fields, catching flies for my nourishment while you share fetters and chains with your equals ! Your ambition is a noble and magnificent one, oh ye men of destiny. Of all the toys with which humanity amuses itself, you have chosen the least puerile, glory ! Yes, glory is beautiful indeed ! Achilles chose a sword amongst all the jewels which were presented to him ; you all of you choose the martyrdom of a lofty ambition, in the stead of money, titles and all the petty vanities which charm the vulgar herd. Generous madmen as you are, govern these foolish crea- tures well for me, and be not sparing of stripes to them, I shall go and sing upon a branch during the time. You will listen to me when you have nothing better to do ! you will come and sit under my tree when you want rest and amusement. Good evening, my brother Everard, brother and king, not in right of age, but in right of virtue. I love you with my Avhole heart, and am Sire your Majesty's very humble and very faithful subject. 15th April. You ask me many questions to which I should like to be able to give an answer, if it were only to show you how attentive I am to all which proceeds from your pen. To proceed after the manner of my dear Franklin, here they are, in the order in which you have placed them: 1st. Why am I so sad? 2nd. If I were not so different from you in all respects, should you love me so much ? 3rd. Do you occupy any space in our dis- course ? 4th. When shall I arrive at any conclusion? 5th. When can you sit down with me in the long grass, on the banks of some torrent ? kc. Yesterday I answered your first question, saying, that working for glory is at once the part of an emperor and a galley slave ; LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 159 and that you are confined within your own strength of volition as within a fortress, and that the least insect which buzzes with its wings against the window of your dungeon, sends a shudder through you, and wakes in you the mournful remembrance of your captivity. Take courage, Prometheus ! you are greater, chained to your rock, with the vulture's talons in your heart, than the fauns of the woods in their liberty. This is the place to answer your fifth question, " When shall I sit with you," &c. Never Everard, unless an enemy's army were on the other side, and you were waiting the signal for combat. But you forget the conflict, and slumber amongst the reeds ! you } I should like to know what were the thoughts of Marius in the marshes of Minturnus ; most surely he did not hold converse with the peaceable Naiads. Men of tumult come not to bathe your dusty and bleeding feet in the pure waves which murmur for our ears, it is to us, inoffensive dreamers, that the mountain streams belong ; it is to us they whisper of repose and oblivion, traditions of our humble happiness which would make you laugh in pity. Leave us this, we yield all the rest to you, the laurels and the altars, the labour and the triumph. If some day, wounded in the struggle or prisoner on parole, you come and sit by your brother the Bohemian, we will watch the heavens together, and I will discourse to you of the stars which reign over the destiny of mortals. This, I know will be the only subject to interest you, all that you will see in the limpid waters, will be the vague and trembling reflection of your star, and you will hasten to seek for it in the celestial vault in order to assure yourself it still shines there with all accustomed splendour. No, you will not love those silent valleys where the eagle is lord, instead of man, and those lakes where the faint- est cry of the wild duck finds more echo than your words. Deserts which you cannot subject either by the plough or the sword, steep rocks, a rebellious soil, impenetrable forests, where the artist goes to evoke the rural divinities intrenched there against the assaults of human industry, all this is not the coun- try for your intellect. You must have towns, fields, soldiers, workmen, commerce, labour, all the equipage of power, all the aliments which the necessities of man offer up to the pride of 160 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. the gods. The gocls dominate and protect ; when you say that you bear these poor human pigmies in your bosom, you mean to say, Hercules, that you bear them in your lion's skin, but you cannot slumber in the shadow of a wood, without their eagerly awakening you. They will torment you in your dreams, and the storms of your soul will trouble the serenity of the at- mosphere to the very summit of Mont Blanc. My poor brother, I love my pilgrim's staff better than your sceptre. But since the royalty of your intelligence has invested you with a fiery crown, since the desire to be great entered into you with your life blood, since you cannot abdicate, and repose would destroy you sooner than fatigue, far from contemplating your destiny with that cold philosophy which the sentiment of my own im- potence might suggest, I must unceasingly pity and admire you, oh sublime wretch ! But, good for nothing myself but talk- ing with Echo, gazing at the rising moon, composing melancholy or mocking songs for poetical or amorous students, I have con- tracted, as I told you yesterday, the habit of turning my life into a hedge school, where all lessons consist in giving chase to a butterfly along the hedges, falling with my face amongst thorns, striving after a flower which withers in my hand before I have enjoyed its odour, singing with the thrushes and sleeping under the first willow I come to, without regard either to the hour or to pedagogues. The best thing I can do for you is, to plant a laurel dedicated to you in my garden. Whenever I hear of one of your good actions, I will send you a leaf, and you will remember for a moment one who laughs at all ideas represented by mere pedants, but who bends with reverence before a great heart imbued with justice. Second question," If you were not so different from me, should I love you so much?" This is my answer, No, certainly not, you would not love me in the same way. Now you are pleased with me for having a little strength in a frame so frail, and in so humble a condition. You esteem me in proportion to the difficulty you imagine it has been for me to become a little estimable in social circumstances, where every thing tends to degrade the soul of those who follow their course. You believe me probably very superior now to what I have been heretofore, and you do not deceive yourself. My LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 161 remembrances are not calculated to cause me much, pride ; but the good which I have yet retained in my soul consoles me a little for the past, and gives me assurance of happy friendship both for the present and the future. This is all I need for the future. I feel no ambition of any sort, and the little noise which I may make as an artist does not inspire me with any jealousy towards those who deserve to enjoy much more re- nown. Passions and fancies have made me extremely unhappy in past time but I have radically cured myself of any fancies by my own will, and I shall soon be cured of passions by ad- vancing age and reflection. In all other respects, I am and have always been perfectly happy, and consequently good hearted and just in all cases, except cases of love, in which I become ill and splenetic and rash. 3rd. " Do I occupy any place in your discourse ?" There is nothing talked of but you. How can the limbs forget the heart from w T hence flows all their life-blood ? Before I saw you, this made me so impatient that I was actually obliged to go and see you again this year, that I might be able to say on my return, like the others, " Everard thinks ". . . . " Everard wishes ". . . . " Everard told me "... . May all this idolatry not spoil you ! 4th. " When will you arrive at any conclusion r and if you should die without coming to any ?" Faith, let the little George die when God wills, the world will not go on worse for being ignorant of his way of thinking. What do you wish me to say to you ? it will be necessary for me to speak again of myself, and nothing is so insipid as an individual who has not yet discovered the key to his destiny. I have no interest tending to formulate * any opinion whatever. Those who read my books, are wrong in believing that my conduct is a profession of faith, and the choice of the subject of my tales a kind of pleading against certain laws. Far from it, I own that my life is full of faults, and I should think I was committing a moral crime if I lashed my sides to find a philosophy which would authorize them. On the other hand, not being able to regard certain realities of life with enthusiasm, I cannot look upon these faults as grave enough to * Formuler. 162 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. require reparation or expiation. To require 'either would do them too much honour, and I do not see that my faults have prevented those who complain the most of them from getting on extremely well. All those who have known me long love me enough to judge me indulgently and'to pardon the evil I may have committed. My writings, having never come to any decision, have done neither good nor harm. , I ask no better than to give them a definite conclusion or moral,"' if I find one myself; but this is not yet accomplished, and I know too little upon certain subjects to dare to advance any opinion. I have a horror of the pedantry of virtue. It may be useful in the world ; for my part I am too honest to endeavour to reconcile myself by an act of hypocrisy to the severities which my irresolution (a courageous and loyal irresolution, I dare to affirm,) draws down upon me. I must bear this rigour, however painful it may be to me, whilst I cannot feel that I have the intimate conviction for which I wait. Do you blame me ? I am in but a small circle of things, and nevertheless by the aid of a microscope, you may compare it to that in which you are existing. Would you, in order to acquire more popularity or renown, feign to adopt the opinions they wish to impose upon you," and propose as an article of faith to yourself that which as yet was only in an embryo state in your conscience ? I care too much for your esteem not to speak openly as to the situation of my mind, I have been rather long ; pardon me for having spoken seriously of the serious side of my life ; it is not my custom. Adieu, I send you a packet of printed papers, which I have chosen for you amongst my collection, alas! a too voluminous one. 18th Apeil. You reproach'me seriously, my' friend, with my social atheism; you say that nothing which is not comprised within the doctrine of utility can be truly good or truly beautiful. You say that my indifference is culpable, a bad example, and that I must get rid of it by a moral suicide, cutting off my right hand, and never conversing with mankind. You are very severe, but I like you LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 163 for being so, it is right and worthy of you. You say also that every system of non-intervention is the excuse of cowardice or egotism, because there is no human thing which is not either advantageous or hurtful to humanity. Whatever my ambition may be, you say, whether I wish to be admired, whether I wish to be loved, I must be charitable, and charitable with discern- ment, with reflection, with science, that is to say, with philan- thropy. I usually reply with a jest or a sophism to those who hold this language to me ; but here the case is different, I recog- nise in you the right to pronounce these grand words of morality, which I dare hardly repeat after you. I have always been a restive spirit, and the fault lies with those who tried to baptize me with impure hands. If the stain of sin is to be washed away, it must be by a John the Baptist, for the humblest catechumen, as for Christ himself, and Magdalen's hair must not wipe the feet of those who still continue in the error of their ways. But you who question me, have you quitted the dangerous paths where your youth led you? Withdrawn into the sanctuary of your own will, have you practised, in these years of severe reflection, the antique virtues which you prize above all : tem- perance, charity, labour, constancy, disinterestedness, the holy simplicity of John Huss r Yes, you have done so. I know it. Well then ! Speak ! my pride revolts only against those no greater than myself, who wish to see me at their feet. You have not only the power of the intellect, but the strength of the heart. Speak ! I will reply as to a lawful judge, and will obey you by speaking of myself as much as you will, for I confess there was more of culpable idleness on my part in avoiding it than true modesty. Oh, my brother ! this is a grave discussion, a grave epoch in my poor existence. I did not come here with a feeling of en- thusiastic self-abnegation, but with a serious desire of seeing nothing in you but the truly beautiful parts of your character. I was armed against those magnetic effects, which are always to be feared on coming in contact with superior men. Therefore I can say I was not dazzled by the charm you exercise over others ; the Roman outlines of your brow, the power of your speech, the brilliancy and abundance of your thoughts have 164 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. never occupied me. That which has touched and convinced me has been that which I have heard you say, that which I have seen you do, in all simplicity, a kind or naive word in the midst of the greatest excitement, a familiarity at once rude and chaste, an exquisite purity in all your expressions and senti- ments. A more foolish calumny could not be invented against you than that of cupidity. I should like to know in what your political enemies could prove that money is so desirable to a man without vices, without whims, and who has neither mis- tresses, nor picture galleries, nor collections of medals, nor Eng- lish horses, nor luxury nor effeminacy of any kind. This is much, Everard, this freedom from all vice is nearly every thing in my eyes. No one can throw a doubt over this, whilst qualities may deck themselves with names that do not belong to them. But who can suspect the tranquil sobriety with which a strong soul uses the good things of this life ? Of what equivoque, of what hypocrisy have the homely domestic virtues ever had need? You spoke to me about the immense organization of Mirabeau, a being kneaded with virtues and vices. I am not sufficiently an enthusiast for oddity to find the statue of diamond and clay more beautiful and more imposing than that of pure gold. My friend, Henry Heine, has said of Spinoza, " his private life was exempt from all blame ; and remained pure and without blemish like that of its divine example, Jesus Christ." These simple words make me love Spinoza. Perhaps it was only by this part of his character that my feeble intellect could appreciate its grandeur. There is also in you, my dear brother, a point of view in which I do not know you, because my intellect, power- less or indolent, has not penetrated into any science. I under- stand what you are, but not what you do. I see the mechanism of this beautiful idea-machine, but the value and use* of its pro- ducts are unknown and indifferent to me. I see that the word virtue is your formidable lever, and I know that in this word there is a sense always the same, and always magnificent, what- ever may be its application : abnegation and an eternal sacrifice of all vulgar gratifications of the mind or senses to a supreme and divine satisfaction : and consecration of our human existence LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 165 to the worship of a vast and intelligent will, which is its altar fire. This is virtue, this is strength, this is the tendency of the soul, to elevate itself as high as possible, in order to embrace at once a higher view than the common herd, and to distribute the benefits of one's power through a wider field. This is a gene- rous ambition, this is faith, science, art, this comprehends all forms in which the Divinity manifests himself to man. This is the reason why to reign, even in virtue of rights the vulgarest and the most iniquitous, even at the price of repose and life, has always been such an ardent desire of mankind ; and one must not be astonished at it. To reign well or ill is to exercise an appearance of virtue and of moral right. If human expressions have a sense in the great book of nature, these two expressions are exact synonymes, and they are used so in our language fre- quently. I have written just above, " to reign in virtue of an iniquitous right," this is very good French, I believe, and in- volves no contradiction, that I know of. All that is difficult of accomplishment excites the surprise of mankind, and meets their admiration in direct proportion to the advantage which they may derive from this display of strength : and as nothing in all the works of God, can be in the eyes of man, of so much importance as his own existence, it is evident that what he calls the sentiment of natural justice, is the rational conviction of that which is useful to him. The most simple effort of this reasoning proves to him that he cannot live as a solitary being, that he has been, even when emerging from the most primitive state of existence that can be imagined, obliged to form association, and to group himself in colonies, under a system of laws dictated by the most skilful or the most powerful. Those who have succeeded in breaking these laws to serve their own personal interest, have commenced the eternal warfare be- tween the oppressors and the oppressed, the oppressed have conquered in their turn, and have become oppressors by right of conquest. In all this, where is justice ? Rise, ye chosen, ye divine men, who have invented virtue ! you have imagined a less gross felicity than that of sensual minds, but prouder than that of the warrior. You have discovered that in the love and gratitude of your brethren, there was more 1GS LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. enjoyment to be found, than in all the possessions for which they were disputing. And then, retrenching from your life all those pleasures which made these men so similar one to the other, you have wisely stigmatised with the name of vice, all that rendered them happy, and consequently greedy, jealous, violent, and unsociable. You have renounced your portion of riches and pleasure in this world, and having rendered yourselves such as to excite neither jealousy nor mistrust, you have placed your- selves in the midst of them, like beneficent divinities to en- lighten them as to their interests, and to give them useful laws. You have told them it was better to give than to possess, and where you have had dominion, justice has reigned; what sophisms can dispute your excellence, sublime and vain as you are ? There is nothing in the world greater than your- selves, nothing more precious, nothing more necessary. Go, and speak of virtue ; a day will come when the sensualists who now mock you, combatting the avidity and vengeance of those who have not yet been able to satisfy the enjoyments of sense, will' understand that there is a fate more worthy of envy, and more sheltered from the storm than their own ; they will understand then that popular reason is hovering over the world, that it has forced the doors of the boudoirs, that it may arrogate to itself the right of enjoyment in its turn, and may send the vanquished to the plough, to the thatched roof, to the crucifix, the only consolation of the poor. Then they would indeed be happy to meet the hand of the virtuous man, to divide the blessings of the earth equally, between the rich and the poor, and to explain to both of them what justice really is. I know not whether a day will ever come, when man will decide infallibly and definitively as to what is really good for man. I am not able to examine all the details of the system which you have embraced, I was jesting about it the other day, but from the moment you reduce me to speaking reasonably, (which, I declare to you, is no slight victory of your strength over mine) I must confess to you that the law of division and equality, inapplicable as it may appear to those who are afraid of it, and uncertain as its reign upon earth seems to me, who see all these things as from the depths of a cell, is the first and LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. ]67 invariable law of morality and equity, which has presented itself to my mind at any time whatever. All the scientific details by which one forms a theory, are entirely unknown to me, and as for the means by which it is forced upon the world, unhappily they seem to me so open to doubts, to disputes, to the scruples and repugnances of those who charge themselves with their execu- tion that I feel quite petrified with scepticism, even when I merely cast my eyes upon them, and see in what they consist. This is not my forte. By nature I am poetical and not legislative, warlike if need be, but not parliamentary . I might be employed in anything, if I was first of all convinced, and then commended ; but I am not fitted to discover any thing, or to decide any thing. I will accept any thing which is good. Therefore ask for my possessions, for my life, oh, Roman ! but leave my poor spirit to the sylphs and nymphs of poesy. "What mat- ters it r you will find numbers of heads which will deliberate more than there is any need. Will it not be allowed to the minstrels to sing to the women, while you make laws for the men ? This is the point to which I wish to come, Everard, to say to you that all need not be virtuous, only some of us. What is really necessary to all, is goodness. Be you virtuous, I will try to be good. Goodness is that instinctive wisdom, that natural mode- ration of which I was speaking a short time since, the absence of vice, that is to say of fiery passions, so hurtful to society, because they tend to monopolize the sources of enjoyment, which by the designs of providential nature, ought to be divided amongst all men. It is necessary that the governed should be good, temperate, honest, moral in fact, that the governments ma$- be able to raise a durable edifice upon their firm and submissive shoulders. I myself am far from possessing what they call the republican virtues, but what I should less pompously call, the qualities of the governable individual or the citizen. I have not lived wisely, I have made a foolish use of the goods which have fallen to my share, I have neglected the works of charity, I have passed my days in effeminacy, in ennui, in vain tears, in foolish love, in frivolous pleasures. I have bowed down before idols of flesh and blood, and I have allowed their intoxicating breath to J 68 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. efface the austere maxims which books of wisdom had engraven upon my youthful brow. I have permitted their innocent des- potism to consecrate my days to puerile amusements, in which the memory and love of good were extinguished, for I was once good, do you really know it, Everard ? My home friends will tell you so : every one knows it well in our parts ; but there was little merit in it ; I was young, and fatal passions had not then sprung up in my bosom. They have stifled many good qualities, but there are some from which I have not deteriorated in the least, even in the greatest reverses of my life ; and none of the others is irrecoverably lost to me. It is thus I reply to the question you asked me the other day : " Is it from want of power, or is it from indifference, that you defer becoming good?" Neither the one nor the other ; but I have been tempted from my route, led prisoner by a passion which I did not mis- trust, and which I believed noble and holy. It is so neverthe- less, but I doubtless allowed it to acquire either too much or too little power over me. My strength in vain revolted against it, and a fearful struggle devoured the best years of my life ; all this period I remained in a region foreign to my soul, in a land of exile and servitude, from whence I have at last escaped, bruised, degraded by slavery, and dragging after me the remains of the chain which I have broken, and which wounds me afresh every time I take a step backwards, to look at shores now distant and abandoned. Yes, I have been a slave, pity me, you that are a free man, and be not astonished at seeing that now all my sighs are for travelling in the free air, the great woods, and solitude. Yes, I have been a slave, and I can tell you from experience, that slavery brutalizes and degrades a man. It flings him into folly and perversity ; it makes him wicked, lying, vin- dictive, bitter, even more detestable than the tyrant who op- presses him ; this has happened to me, and in the hatred I had conceived against myself, I longed for death passionately, every day of my subjection. I am here nevertheless, and I am here with an arrow broken in my heart ; it is my own hand which has broken it, it is my own hand which will withdraw it ; for each day, I agitate the gharp edged point in my bosom, and each day, making the LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 169 wound bleed afresh, while I enlarge it, I proudly feel that I am withdrawing the weapon, and that my soul does not follow it. It is not then an incurable, or feeble person who is here before you ; it is a wounded prisoner, who has escaped, and may yet make a good soldier. Do you not see that I have brought no vice out of the land of Egypt, and that I am still strong and robust, for the journey through the desert ? Look at him to whom you are now addressing yourself : it is no longer to an effeminate prodigal, it is no longer to one of those young Athenians, with their perfumed tresses, whom Aristo- phanes chastised by introducing them into his dramas, and whom pointed out both by their name and the finger of scorn, he gave up to public censure ; you now speak to a sort of ploughboy, with a rush hat on his head, a waggoner's blouse, blue stockings, and hob-nailed shoes. This rustic penitent is still capable like yourself of temperance, charity, labour, constancy, disinterestedness, and simplicity ; besides being sincere and chaste, for he abjures his greatest weakness, love ? Republic ! dawn of justice and equality, divine L^topia, sun of a future, perhaps chimerical, hail ! shine forth in heaven, oh star which demandest the possession of the earth ! If thou descendest to us before the fulfilment of the expected time, thou wilt find me ready to receive thee, and already clothed ac- cording to thy sumptuary laws. My friends, my masters, my brothers, hail to you ! my blood, my bread are yours hence- forward, whilst waiting for the republic to claim them. And beautiful Switzerland ! mountains, eloquent waters, wild eagles, Alpine chamois, crystal lakes, silvery snows, gloomy fir trees, hidden pathways, fearful rocks ! it cannot be an evil which obliges me to go and throw myself on my knees, weeping, and alone, in the midst of your beauties. It cannot be forbidden either by virtue, or the republic, to a poor, unhappy and weary artist to wander, imprinting your sublime outlines, and beau- tiful colouring on his mental vision. You will permit him, oh echoes of the solitudes to recount his griefs to you ; soft and flower enamelled grass, you will be bed and table to him ; limpid streams, you will not flow backward when he ap- 170 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. proaches ; and thou, oh botany, sacred botany ; my blue cam- panulas which flower so tranquilly under the thunder of the cataracts ! oh panporcini of Oliero, which I found sleeping in your calices in the depths of a grotto, but which an hour afterwards, I found awake around me, as though you were gazing upon me with your fresh and rosy countenances ! Ah my beloved sage of the Tyrol ! oh my solitary hours, the only hours in my life, upon which I can look back with delight. But thou, idol of my youth, Love, whose temple I abandon for ever, adieu ! My knees tremble and my voice falters against my will, when I utter this parting phrase. Yet another look, yet another offering of a crown of white roses, the spring's first roses, and then adieu ! Enough of offerings, enough of vows. Insatiable divinity, choose younger and happier Levites than I, count me no longer amidst the number of your votaries. But whilst quitting thee, it is impossible for me to curse thee ; Oh torment, oh delight ; I cannot even reproach thee ; I will place at thy feet a funeral urn, emblem of my eternal 'mourning. Thy young Levites will overturn it whilst dancing round thy statue ; they will break it, and continue to love. Reign on Love, reign on, till virtue and the republic clip thy wings. 20th April. What are you suffering from ? and why is there so much sadness in your soul sometimes ? Why do you say that God has withdrawn himself from you ? Why do you ask the weak- est and least submissive of your disciples, to come to aid and encourage you ? Master, of what have been your dreams this night, and why .do your followers, accustomed to receive the manna of hope from you, now find you sad and dispirited ? Alas ! do you find that it is long in coming, this accom- plishment of a great destiny ? The hours pass on, your brow grows bald, and humanity does not progress. Your noble de- sires strike in vain against the brazen walls of indifference and corruption. You see yourself alone, man of goodness alone in LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 171 the midst of a world of brutes and usurers. Your dispersed and persecuted brethren make you hear from afar the dying voice of heroism perishing in the hideous arms of avarice and luxury. Yet a little longer, and mournful innocence will per- haps perish under vice at which men no longer even blush. This is what destroys me. When the spirit of enthusiasm is awakened in my breast, the contact of humanity, hostile and insensible to my dreams, freezes and throws back upon my soul its juvenile impulses. Then, seeing that even my indignation is ridiculous through its want of power, seeing these gross and vulgar men cast glances of bravado and contempt upon my feeble arm, and proclaim the right of the strongest whenever one speaks to them of equity, I begin to laugh, and say to my companions — " Let us clothe ourselves in gold and purple, let us drink nectar, let us stifle the last germ of virtue in our souls ; since it is fated that virtue must he overcome, let us kill ourselves whilst singing on the ruins of her temple." But you, my brother, you are not long under the influence of this fit of moral cowardice. You soon throw off your lan- guor, and soon your strength, numbed by the cold, rouses itself. and the aged lion shakes his mane. It would be in vain if the'earth fell to dust around you, you would become as marble, and like Atlas, bear up the world upon your immovable shoulders. Thus the clouds which pass over your noble brow do not dis- quiet the men who have rallied around you. They play the same game as yourself. What matters your sadness to them,, if on the day of action you do not remain in your lair more than in ordinary days ? I alone, perhaps, pity you as you merit, for I have sounded the depths of your sorrow, and know how much bitterness spreads doubt over our most beautiful conquests. I know those hours of the night, when one wanders alone in the silence, under the cold light of the moon and stars which seem to say ; " you are but vanity, grams of dust, to-morrow you will be nothing, and we shall take no heed." When you are in this state, master, you must fly from yourself and come to us. In vain will you struggle against the grand voice of the universe ; the eternal stars are always at 172 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. right, and man, however great amongst men, is always seized with fear and trembling when he questions that which is above him. Oh awful silence, the eloquent and terrible answer of eternity ! Return to us, seat yourself on the grass of our Sunium pro- montory, in the midst of your brethren. Standing, you are too far above them and you are alone. Descend, descend, and be consoled. There is something yet beyond greatness and strength — goodness, the sweetest and most spotless bond among men. A tear often? does more good than the victories of Spartacus. You have it within you, this treasure of goodness, man too rich in greatness. Share it with us, at those hours when not forced to gird on the cuirass and the sword ; — forget the past and the future for a time. Give the present to friendship. Friendship is the only thing of which I cannot doubt. If you did but know with what friends heaven has blessed me ! You know it, you know them, they are your brethren, but you cannot know the extent of their benefits towards me. You know not the gulf of despair from which they have rescued me a hundred times by their inexhaustible patience, their sub- lime mercy, even when I repulsed their saving arms with anger and distrust, and even when I cast into their faces my ingratitude and my scepticism. Blessed be they ! they have made me believe in something ; they have given me an anchor of refuge in my shipwreck. You may never know, alas ! all the grandeur of friendship. You will not need it. What you inspire is admiration, not pity. Providence sends this compensation for feeble souls, as it sends the beneficent evening breezes to the floweret weary and drooping from the heat of the day. But love my friends be- cause of what I owe to them, and when you are conquered by the angel that wrestled with Jacob, come to seek forgetfulness and serenity amongst them. They are gayer than you, they have not girded on the hair cloth of virtue. They are good and kind, ready to give all for their conviction, but the hour of martyrdom will most probably never sound for them. If it comes, their martyrdom will be neither long nor difficult to suffer, merely time for a last embrace, and then death. What LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 173 is that ? you, you entered into the agony the day of your birth, and the seal of sorrow marked you in your mother's womb. Come, we will respect your grief, and will try to alleviate its weight 22nd Apeil. You ask me for the history of my friend Neraud ; here it is. The Malgache (as I baptised him on account of the long recitals and fairy like descriptions he used to give us of the isle of Madagascar, on his return from his long voyages,) en- listed early under the flag of the republic. You have seen him ; — a little dry copper coloured man, rather worse dressed than a peasant ; an excellent pedestrian, droll, but rather sarcastic, brave from sang-froid, running to every outbreak whilst a student, and receiving great sabre cuts on the head without ceasing to quiz the gendarmerie in the style of Rabelais, for which he has a peculiar predilection. Divided between two passions, science and politics, instead of taking his degree at Paris, he went alternately from the carbonarist club to the school of comparative anatomy, sometimes dreaming of the reconstruction of modern society, and then of the limbs of the palaaotherium, of which Cuvier had just discovered a fossil leg. One morning, passing by one of the flower beds at the Jardin des Plantes, he saw an exotic fern, which seemed so beautiful to him, in its foliage, and so graceful altogether, that it happened to him, as it has often happened to me in my life, to fall in love with a plant, and to have neither dream nor desire but for it. The laws, the club, and the palgeotherium were all forgotten, and sacred botany became his dominant passion. One morning, he set off for Africa, and after ex- ploring the mountainous isles of the South Seas, "he returned quite emaciated, bronzed, and in rags, having supported the severest privations and the rudest fatigues ; but rich after his own heart, that is to say, furnished with a complete herbal of the Madagascan Flora; a strange and magnificent garland stolen from the lap of an ebony Goddess , In it was com- m 2 174 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. prised a fortuue, at any rate, a resource. But the lover of science laid his conquest at the feet of M. de Jussieu, and thought him- self rewarded "beyond his desires when this High Priest of Flora, gave the name of Neraudia Melastomefolia to a beautiful fern from Maurice Island, hitherto unknown to our botanists. It was at this epoch, that seeing the funeral of Lallemant pass by, he quitted his botany for his country, as he had quitted his country for his botany ; and after having his head cut open by a dragoon's sabre, he returned to his family, a merry cripple, With broken wing and weary foot, Rather lame and scarce alive. To keep him amid his penates, his father bethought himself of giving him a spot of ground, on a beautiful hill- side, where I mean to take you to walk* the first time you come to see us. Our Malgache planted exotic trees there, made his Madagascar flowers grow in our Berry earth, and built in the midst of his groves, a pretty little Indian ajoupa which he filled with his collections and books. One morning as I was passing in the ravine at day- break, I stopped my horse's gallop in order to admire some splendid flowers, which raised themselves majestically over the hedges. They were the first dahlias seen in our country and the first I had ever seen in my life. I was sixteen, just an age to admire flowers ! I got down from my horse to steal one, and galloped away. Whether Malgache, concealed in his ajoupa, saw my robbery, or whether some indiscreet friend betrayed my crime to him, I know not, but soon afterwards he sent me some dahlia roots, which I planted in my garden, and from that time our acquaintance dates, but not our friendship, we had no op- portunity of seeing each other for several years. In the interval he had married, and become a father, and had augmented his garden by a beautiful orchard, through which he had carried the waters of a rivulet. It was then, that being both fixed in the country, and our acquaintance having commenced under such sympathetic auspices, \\o became united by extreme friendship. A kind of gipsy journey we made together to the mountains of La Marchc, to the beautiful ruins of Crozant, revealed us entirely one to the LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 175 other. Although born in the opposite camp, I had always had a republican soul, and I had it the more so then, being younger and more given to illusions. He was extremely pleased to find me one of those obstinate men upon whom the prejudices of educa- tion produce no effects, and he declared to me that there wanted nothing more in me to obtain his confidence and entire esteem than a little knowledge of botany. I promised him to study it, and with his help, I got on so far, as not to know thoroughly, but to comprehend all the mysteries of the vegetable kingdom, and to be able to listen to him, as much as he pleased to talk. I never knew a man so agreeably learned, or so poetical, so clear, so picturesque, so engaging in his lessons. My tutor had made an insupportable pedant of nature to me ; but Malgache turned her into an adorable mistress. We stripped off without pity, her motley dress of Greek and Latin, through which I had always trembled at her sight. He displayed her to me naked and beautiful as Rhea. He spoke to me of the stars, of the sea, of the mineral kingdom, of the animated productions of nature, bat above all of insects for which he had then con- ceived a passion almost as lively as that for flowers. We passed our time hunting the lovely butterflies which hover over our meadows, whilst their variegated wings w r ere still heavy with the morning dew. At noon we surprised the emerald and sapphire beetles which slumber in the glowing calices of the roses. In the evening when the sphinx with ruby eyes buzzes round the enotheras, intoxicating itself with their perfume of vanilla, we lay in ambush to seize upon the agile though unwary sipper of ambrosia. Nothing suggests the idea of a disguised sylph, on a wooing expedition, like a large sphinx with its long body, its bird-like wings, its intelligent face, its flexible antennae, and its fantastic eyes. Sombre and mysterious colours, marked with magic and undecypherable characters are imprinted upon the two wings which lie folded on its back. Pale red, brown, grey and pale yellow are mingled under the cabalistic black and white, along and across; triangles, crescents, arrows are scattered all over it. But just in the same manner as one sees the owl and the osprey conceal their brilliant down under the breast, so when the sphinx opens its velvet mantle the 176 LETTERS OF A TRAVLELER. under wings are seen forming a tunic sometimes of a tender green, and sometimes of a soft rose colour with azure rings. I wager, unhappy man as you are, that you have never even seen a spotted sphinx ; and nevertheless, our vines give birth to them and these marvels of creation always seem to me too beautiful not to be animated by the spirits of the air and the night. Ah ! it is for want of knowing all this, miserable men, that you keep your contemplations invariably fixed upon the human race. It was not thus with my Malgache. Sometimes even he would let his evening paper remain in its blue envelope till the next morning, whilst he harried to prepare his flowers for the herbal, and his insects for their little stands of elder pith. What beautiful walks we took in autumn along the banks of the Indre, through the humid meadows of the Black Valley ! I remember one autumn was consecrated to the study of mushrooms, another autumn did not suffice for the study of mosses and lichens. Our baggage consisted of a magnify- ing glass, a book, a tin box for receiving and preserving the plants fresh, and in addition to all this, my son, a beautiful child of four years old, who would not be separated from us, and who acquired and still retains a passion for natural history. As he could not walk far at a time, we exchanged the load of the box and child alternately. We passed over many leagues in the fields after this grotesque fashion, but we were as attentively and conscienciously occupied, as you may be in the silence of your study, whilst I am giving you this account of the happiest years of my life. The nightingale sent forth such a lovely burst of melody, that I left both you and Malgache, to go and listen to it in the garden. It is a singularly melancholy night, a grey heaven, the stars are pale and veil their faces, not a breath amongst the plants, and an impenetrable obscurity over the earth. The lofty pines raise their vague and gloomy masses into the dusky atmosphere. Na- ture is not beautiful in this mood, but she is solemn and appeals to one of our senses, the one to which the nightingale speaks so eloquently when it meets a being created for it. All is silence, mystery, darkness, not a frog in the marshes, not an insect in the grass, not a dog baying, even the murmuring of the river does not reach us ; the wind blows from the south and carries it across LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 177 the valley. It seems as though all were silent to listen and receive the sounds, burning with desire, and palpitating with joy which the nightingale is sending forth. " Oh minstrel of happy nights !" as Obermann calls it. Happy nights for those who love and are together ; dangerous nights for those who have not yet loved ; and nights profoundly sad for those who love no longer. Return to your books, ye who wish henceforward to exist only through thought, it is not good for you to be here. The perfume of the fresh flowers, the odour of the rising sap, ferment with too much violence ; an atmosphere of forgetfulness and fever seems to weigh over us ; and sentiment exhales from every atom of crea- tion. Let us fly ! the spirit of fatal passions is abroad in this darkness, and intoxicating vapours. Oh God ! it is not long since I loved too ! and such a night would have been delicious. . . « Everv sigh of the nightingale sends an electric emotion through my breast ! Oh God ! my God ! I am still so young ! Pardon, pardon, my friend and brother ! at this hour you are watching the stars, you inhale the warm air, and you are thinking of me in the calm of your holy friendship ; but I have not been thinking of you, Everard ! I felt tears on my cheeks, and it was neither the power of your eloquent words, nor the emotion of a tragic or glorious history which made them flow ; but it was a faint glimmer which passed over the horizon, a vague phantom floating over the heath. All is over : the spirit of the meteor has no longer any power over me, its fugitive ray may send a shudder through my frame, as to a traveller all armed against the terrors of the night, but from these heights, from which our warnings come, your austere voice is calling and reproving me. Sublime fanatic, I follow you : fear not for me the enchantments and snares, which the enemy is plotting in the darkness. My guardian saint is the celestial warrior who treads the dragon under his horse's feet. It is God who guides thy arm, sacred pride winch makes thy steps invulnerable : oh George the blessed ! Friend, my patron saint is a great warrior, a hardy knight, I hope he will aid me to conquer my passions, those fatal dragons, which endeavour still to plant their claws in my heart and tear it from its eternal welfare. I return to thee, mv friend. Do not be anxious about the 178 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. recurrence of an emotion which you no longer know. A day may also come for me, perhaps soon, when my serenity will be no longer troubled, and nature will be for me only an august temple where I may always prostrate myself to pray and utter praise. Behold a faint wind is rising, and sweeping away the mists. A star is showing forth its brilliant face, like a diamond on the summit of the tallest tree in the garden. I am saved. This star is more beautiful than all the remembrances of my life, and the most ethereal portion of my soul darts forth towards it, away from the earth and me. Everard, is this your planet or mine ? Are you now addressing it ?. . . . I return to the history of my Malgache. . . . that is, I will return to it to-morrow ; I am tired, and shall sleep with that childlike sleep which I have recovered in the fold, like a guardian angel at my couch. I send you a flower from my gar- den. Good night, and the peace of the angels be with you, con- fessor of God and of truth. 23rd April. I return to the history of my Malgache. . . . But I perceive that it is finished, for I do not reckon amongst the facts of his life a little love affair, which nearly made him very unhappy, and which, thank God, confined itself to a sentimental and platonic episode. However, here is the episode. A lady in our neighbourhood, to whom from time to time he sent a bouquet, a butterfly, or a shell, inspired him with a sincere friendship, which she frankly returned. But a mania for playing on words made him give the name of love to what was nothing but a fraternal affection. The lady, who was our mutual friend, was neither angry nor proud of it. She was of a calm and affectionate disposition, loving a little elsewhere, and not concealing it from him. She continued to philosophize with him, to receive his but- terflies, his bouquets, and billets, in which now and then a little verse made its appearance. The discovery of one of these billet-doux brought on stormy quarrels between Malgache and another person, who had more LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 179 legitimate rights upon the lady, in the midst of which the fancy struck him of leaving the country and turning a Moravian brother. Behold him then" again, en route, with his tin case, on foot, a little in love, and unhappy on account of the sorrow he had caused, but supporting himself through all with jests, which he scatters like a shower of blossoms over the arid pathways of his life., and which he addresses to the natives or to the mules or even the stones in the road, for want of a more intelligent audi- tory. He stopped at the rocks of Vaucluse, determined to live and die on the borders of that fountain where Petrarch went to evoke the image of Laura in its waters. I did not feel very anxious about this unlucky resolution, I knew my Malgache too well to believe his grief irreparable. Whilst there are flowers and insects on this earth, Cupid will only waste his arrows upon him. Pre- cisely as the month of March covered the banks of the rivulet and the rocks of Vaucluse with the greenest water-plants and the freshest cresses, Malgache abandoned the part of Cardenio, made a beautiful collection of the aquatic mosses, and wrote to me, about the end of April, saying : u All this is very fine, but if my cruel love imagines that I am going to stop here, till she thinks proper to crown my constancy, she is mistaken. Tell her to give over weeping for my decease, I am still alive and cheerful, my herbal is finished, my shoes worn out, and during all this time my orchard is budding without me. I am not disposed to have my grafts done by some bungler. Pray interpose and do not let any one touch them, I only ask the time to have my pruning-knife reground, and I am with you." The unfortunate fellow returned, and resigned himself to being adored by his family, purely loved by his Dulcinea, and cherished by me, his brother and pupil. He built himself a pretty little pavilion on the hillside, above his garden, his meadow, his orchard, and his rivulet. Soon afterwards he became the father of a second child. His son was named Olivier,* wishing also to give the name of a plant to his daughter, and knowing none more estimable and agreeable than the rose-coloured fever-few, which grows in our meadows, he wished to call her Petite Centauree ;f and it was * Oliver. + Small Centaury. 180 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. with some trouble that his family made him give up the strange name. The first visit he paid to the lady of his thoughts, after his Vau- cluse expedition, cost him something ; he feared she might be piqued at finding him so soon consoled and returned. But she ran to meet him laughing, and kissed him on both cheeks. He entered her room, and saw that she had kept very carefully all the dried flowers and butterflies, which he had given her in former times. Besides this, she had put under glass a piece of Madagascar crystal, a fragment of basalt from the mountain called Pouce, (the one to which Paul went every evening to watch for the sail which was, he hoped, to bring Virginia back to him,) and a wasp's nest, in shape like a rose,which was beginning to crumble to pieces. A great tear rolled down the bronze cheek of our Malgache, which drowned love, but friendship survived, calm and purified. At present, Malgache, almost like a mummy in appearance, but more alert and active than ever, passes his peaceful days in the depths of his orchard. He has been a justice of the peace for some time, but soon disgusted, as he said, with the cares which gran- deur draws in its train, he gave in his resignation, and will no longer take in any letters which are not addressed to Monsieur ***** Nurseryman. As he has studied very much in his retreat, he has learned very much, and is now one of the most accom- plished savans in France, but no one knows this, not even him- self. A little melancholy now and then casts a shadow over his brilliant gaity, especially if frost comes in April, when the apricots are in flower ; and besides this, Malgache has at once a great good quality, and a great defect ; he is what our citizens call a " hare- brain ," that means he is a republican, that he does not consider the present state of society just or generous, and that it makes him suffer not to be able to give air, sunshine, and bread, to all who are in want of them. He consoles himself with a few sympathetic souls, who suffer and pray with him, but when he re- enters his solitude, he is profoundly sad, and writes to me : " Oh, my God ! are we really Utopians, and must we die leaving the world as it is, without any hope of its amelioration ? But never mind this, let us speak and act as though we did hope for a better future, shall we not, old friend ?" LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. ■ 181 Then he takes his blouse and his spade, to chase away dis- couragement, and when he has laboured all the day, he is philoso- phically humble and calm in the evening. He writes to me then with the ink of "joy and contentment.'" What he calls by this name is the juice of American grapes, which he expresses into a shell, and wbich produces a fine red colour, unluckily subject to fade like all other joys. Here is his last note : — u I have remarked in myself that the best treatment for all moral maladies is the exercise of the body. Ah ! how much ennui I have rolled away. My terraces are quite smoothed with it ! I do not advise you to become a roller of terraces, but adapt your occupations to your strength. I have just finished my new study. It is another sort of ajoupa, which I have constructed with trunks of trees, filled up with birch twigs. A sheet of zinc six feet long for a roof, enables me to brave the storms in it. This charming little building is on a little island, where I have transplanted my flowers and vegetables. It is surrounded by my orchard, whose trees are now in full vigour and beauty. Except an attack now and then of misanthropy, I enjoy in this place many peaceful hours. I regret the past but little, I have not made a good use of it, but I believe now I could not have done any better, it was not my nature. 1 am not sorry to grow old ; every age has its enjoyments, I look for none now but tranquil pleasures. Your friendship above all. Good night.' ' Besides the sympathies which unite him and me, and of which the principal one is the love at once so immense and so minute of nature, which renders us both tedious and insupportable, (except to each other) we have both a defect in common, which often causes us to feel ourselves tete-a-tete even in the midst of our friends. I do not know what to call it, it is like a natural timidity, a speciality belonging to a certain degree of enthusiasm, like a false shame which makes us afraid to say aloud even what we feel most deeply, an absolute impossibility of manifesting ourselves, by words, then and there where we ought to be most able to do it. In fact, it is exactly the contrary of the quality you so eminently profess, and which constitutes your power over men, eloquence and conviction. Both he, who is sparkling with intellect in all 182 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. other respects, and I, whose tongue is nimble enough sometimes, as you have seen when it was influenced by vexation or indignation, are too stupid to give any pleasure when we ought to be able to rise beyond ourselves. Our comrades conclude that we are worn out, he, by the habit of jesting, I, by the habit of doubting. For him, I declare to you that his heart is as fervent, young, and brave, as at twenty years of age. No man has ever laboured more industriously to assure himself a modest independence, after his own taste, and yet no one thinks less of life itself. He said to me the other day, "I would go, and I will go. I am not luxurious, what matters it to me whether I sleep upon a mat, on the pave- ment, or in a coffin ? M As for myself, perhaps !. . . . I do not know. You thought you had discovered a great secret in me the other day, whilst you were reading the account of the death of your brethren. I was uneasy all dinner time, because my petrifying silence, beside the enthusiasm of that Gaul, made me blush before you. But that tear you surprised, and which you thought so great an indication of internal warmth, know that it was caused by nothing higher than a profound and bitter jealousy which I had good reason to hide, and which at that moment, made me deeply regret my fate, my present inaction, my impotence, and my life passed doing nothing. You may love and weep with tenderness over such men, Everard, you are one of them ; as for me, I am a poet, that is to Bay difemmelette* In a revolution, your aim would be the liberty of the human race ; mine would be no higher than to seek death, to get rid of myself, and for the first time in my life, to have been of some use, were it only to heighten a barracade by the addition of one corpse more. Bah ! what am I saying ? Do not think me either melancholy, or that I care a straw for glory. You know what I have often said to you ; I have loved too much, I have done no good thing. Has any one a need of my life ? present or future ? — provided that it serves an idea, and not a passion, truth, and not a man, I consent to receive laws. But alas ! I warn you, I am fit for nothing but to receive and blindly obey an order. * Womanish little thing. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 183 I can act, but not deliberate ; for I know nothing and am sure of nothing. I can only obey by closing my eyes and shutting my ears, that I may see and hear nothing to dissuade me ; I can march with my friends, like the dog who sees his master depart in a vessel, and throwing himself into the sea, follows him, till he ex- pires with fatigue. The sea is great, oh my friends ! and I am weak, I am fit for nothing but a soldier, and I am not five feet high ! But never care for this, the pygmy is your own. I am yours because I love and esteem you. Truth is not amongst men, the kingdom of God is not of this world. But as much as man can do to snatch from the Divinity a ray of the divine light which illu- minates the world from above, you have done, children of Prome- theus, lovers of the naked truth and inflexible justice. Let us go on, whatever the colour of your banner, provided that your phalanx be always found upon the high road of a republican future ; in the name of Jesus, who upon the face of the whole earth has now but one true apostle, in the names of Washington and Franklin, who could not achieve sufficient in their day, and left us a task to accom- plish ; in the name of St. Simon, whose sons brave the brunt at once by advocating the sublime and terrible aim of a community cf goods (may God protect them !....) provided all that is done is done in the spirit of good, and that those who believe it prove it I am but a poor child in the regiment, but take me with you. 26th April. Will you be good enough to tell me what ails you, with all your declamations against artists ? Exclajm against them as much as you will, but respect art itself. Ah Vandal ! I can respect the bigoted sectarian who would put a robe of serge, and wooden shoes upon Taglioni, and employ Listz's hands to turn a mill, but who nevertheless throws himself upon the ground weeping when the Bengali sings, and who makes a disturbance at the theatre to pre- vent Othello from killing Malebran ! The austere citizen wishes to suppress artists as social superfluities who absorb too much sap, 184 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. but the same gentleman loves vocal music, and would extend pardon to singers. I hope the painters may find amongst you some good eye that can comprehend painting and who will not allow studio windows to be blocked up. And as to poets, they are your cousins, and you neither disdain the forms of their language nor the me- chanism of their periods, where you wish- to produce an effect upon simpletons. You will go amongst them to learn the use of metaphor and how to avail yourselves of it. Resides, the genius of the poet is a substance at once so elastic and so manageable ! it is like the sheet of white paper, which a conjurer turns alternately into a cap, a cock, a boat, a frill, a fan, a barber's bason, and twenty other different objects, to the great delight of the spectators. No triumphant hero has ever been in want of bards. Flattery is a profession like another, and when the poets sing what you wish, you will allow them also to sing as they wish, for their pleasure is in singing and making themselves heard. Oh Dante ! 'tis not thy deep toned muse which could have been induced to perjure itself ! But tell me why you are so displeased with artists. The other day, you imputed all social evils to them ; you called them dissolvers, you accused them of weakening the courage, corrupt- ing the morals, and enfeebling all the springs of volition. — Your declamation remained incomplete, and your accusation also, because I could not resist the foolish impulse of disputing with you. I should have done better to listen, you would with- out doubt have advanced some more serious reason, for this pro- position is the only thing ever advanced by you, which has not made me reflect deeply afterwards, however antagonistic to me at the time. Is it art itself you wish to plead against ? Tt laughs at you, at you all, and all imaginable systems ! Try to extinguish one of the sun's rivvs. But it is not that. If I replied to that, I should have to write to you only such novel remarks as these : the flowers smell sweetly ; it is very hot in summer : birds have feathers ; asses' ears are longer than horses' ears &c. &c. If it is not art then which you would destroy, neither can it be art- ists. Whilst Jesus is believed in on this earth, there will be priests, LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 185 and no human power can prevent a man from taking, if he wishes it, a vow of humility, chastity and mercy ; and in the same way, whilst there are fervent spirits on the earth, the divine lyre of art will still be sounded. It appears that here there is a peculiar and accidental disgnst taken by the children of young Rome against those of ancient Babylon. What has happened ? I do not know. The other day one of your set, that is to say one of ours, a republican, declared almost seriously, that I deserved death. The devil take me, if I know what for ! Nevertheless I am quite proud and delighted, as I ought to be, and since that day, I tell my friends in confidence, that I am a very important, literary, and political personage, giving great umbrage to my own party, because of my great social and intellectual superiority. I see that this rather surprises them, but they are so kind that they willingly partake my joy. The Malgache has asked for my protection, that he may have the honour of being hung at my right, and Planet at my left hand. We cannot fail to exchange in such a situation, the most charming jests, and most delicious facetiae. But whilst waiting for all this, I wish no one to make a jest of it ; and I desire that all my friends say of me : " He is too clever, he will not live." Let us see, nevertheless, let us examine the affairs of my brother artists. As for me, I have no care to defend myself. I should be too much afraid of being taken, for the most innocent of men, and not getting the honour of martyrdom for my ideas. One moment ! you will do me the honour of promulgating the aforesaid ideas after my decease, for until now I tell you in secret, there is not the shadow of an idea in my books or in my head. The duty of your friendship is to prove to those who by chance have read the aforesaid books, that which they do prove, and that which they do not prove. Perhaps also it would not be utterly useless to teach it to myself also, in order that I might show to my judges, by my answers, how much depth and perversity there is in my intellect, and how urgent it is that such a meteor, capable of setting the world on fire, should be extinguished. This granted, (and do not go and contradict me, and take it into your head to plead for my innocence ; God bless the obliging people ! I am much obliged by their good will, and beg them to 186 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. allow me to be hung in peace,) let us speak of the others. What have they done ? poor devils ? are they capable even of causing the death of a fly ? You must know that only Byron and I. . . . But I tire you with my incorrigible and stupid jesting. Shake hands with me, and I am again serious. I am quite ready to confess that we are great sophists. Sophistry has invaded everything, even the opera dancer's legs, and Berlioz has adapted it to a romantic symphony. Unluckily for the cause of ancient wisdom, when you hear the funeral march of Berlioz, there will be a nervous shuddering in your lion's heart, and you will commence roaring, as you did at Dcsdemona's death, which will be very disagreeable for me as your" companion, who pique my- self upon showing a pretty cravat, and grave and modest manners at the Conservatoire. The least which can happen to you, will be to own that this music is rather better than they gave us at Sparta, when we served under Lycurgus, and when you thought that Apollo, discontented at having seen us devote ourselves exclusively to Pallas, had played us the evil trick of giving some lessons to that Babylonian, in order that he might bewilder our spirits, and exer- cise over us a magical and fatal power. You will ask me if this is talking seriously. I speak seri- ously, Berlioz is a great composer, a man of genius, a true artist ; and since his name has come up, I am not sorry to let you know that he is a true artist, for you seem not in the least aware of it. The other day you named to me pretended artists, whom you loaded with your anger, a currier, a seller of rabbits' skins, a peer of France, an apothecary. You have named others to me, cele- brated ones, you said, whose names I had never heard. I see that you think the moon is made of green cheese, you take grocers for artists, and our garrets for satrapies. Berlioz is an artist ; he is very poor, very proud, and very brave. Perhaps he has the wickedness to think in secret, that all the people in the universe are not worth a chromatic scale rightly placed ; like myself, who have the insolence to prefer a white hyacinth to the crown of France. But you may be sure, that it is quite possible to have such follies as these in one's head, and not to be an enemy to the human race. You are all for sumptuary LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 167 Paws, Berlioz for triple crotchets, I am for the lily tribe. Every man to his taste. When it is time to build the new city of in- telligence, be sure that each will help according to his strength : Berlioz with a pick-axe, I with a tooth-pick, and the others with their arms, and their vigour. But our young Jerusalem will have its days of peace and happiness, I suppose, and then some will he allowed to return to their piano, the others to their flower-beds, and all be allowed to amuse themselves innocently, according to their taste and faculties. What are you doing, can you tell me, when watching the constellations at midnight, theorizing with us, and speaking of the unknown and of infinity ? If I were to in- terrupt you at the very moment, when you are uttering sublime words to address such brutal questions as these to you, " Of what use is all this ? Why trouble and weary the brain in these conjectures ? does this furnish bread and shoes to mankind ?" You would reply to me ; this produces holy emotions, and mysterious enthusiasm in those who labour in the sweat of their brow for mankind ; this teaches them to hope, to dream of the ' divinity, to take courage, to raise themselves above the disgusts and miseries of our human condition by the thought of a future, chimerical perhaps, but strengthening and sublime. What else has made you what you are, Everard ? but this fancy for evening reverie ? What has given you until now the courage to live in labour and in grief ? 'tis enthusiasm. And is it you, the most candid and dehghtfully rustic of all men of genius, who would declare war against the Levites of your God ? Saul, thou wouldst kill David, because the sounds of his harp bereave thee of thy senses, whilst listening to their tone. On your knees, Sicambre, on your knees, we will force you on your knees ! Alas ! T say we ! I think of my cause, and I am already persuading myself that I am judged and condemned as an artist. They would admit you, though, these true artists. If you did but know what these men really are, when they follow their gospel, and respect the sanctity of their apostle ship i There are but few of these it is true, and I must avow it, I am not of them, I avow it to my shame ! Embarked on a fatal destiny, having neither cupidity nor extravagant wants, but a prey to unforeseen reverses, charged with the care of pre- 188 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. cious beings, of whom I was the only support, I have not been an artist, although I have had all the fatigues, all the ardour, all the zeal, and all the sufferings attached to that sacred profession ; true glory has not crowned my labours, because I so rarely have been able to follow my inspiration. Hurried, obliged to gain money, I have forced my imagination to produce, without always waiting for the concurrence of my reason ; when my muse yielded not of her own free will, I have constrained her ; and she has revenged herself by cold caresses, and gloomy revelations. Instead of coming towards me, crowned and smiling, she has come pale, embittered, and indignant. Her dictation has produced weak and bilious effusions, and has taken a pleasure in freezing all the generous impulses of my soul, with doubt and despair. It is want of bread which made me ill ; it is the grief of being obliged to commit a moral suicide, that has made me sarcastic and sceptical, I related to you, one evening, the analysis of a beautiful drama upon the poet Chatterton, lately acted at the Theatre Francois. People in easy circumstances, men well to do in the world, have for the most part found it very bad taste, that a poet should make a disturbance about his position, and complain bitterly of being forced by necessity to derogate from it. Eor my own part, I shed many tears, whilst witnessing this struggle of an independent spirit with a fatal necessity, which recalled to me so many tortures and sacrifices. Pride is as touchy and irritable as genius. Doing my very best, I should perhaps have achieved nothing passable ; but when an artist sits down to his desk, he has faith in himself or he would not sit there ; and then, whether he be great, mediocre, or a nonentity, he endeavours and he hopes. But if his hours are counted, if a creditor waits at the door, if a child gone supper- less to sleep, recalls him to a sense of his poverty, and the neces- sity of finishing before daybreak, I assure you, however small his talent may be, he has a great sacrifice to make, and a great hu- miliation to suffer in his own estimation. He sees others working slowly, with reflection, with love ; he sees them read and re-read their pages, correct them, polish them minutely, scatter precious gems over them through after- thought, take off the least grain of dust, and then lay them aside in order to see them again, and to LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 189 surpass even perfection ! As for himself, unfortunate as he is, he has made, with blow of spade and trow r el, a rough work, unformed, energetic sometimes, bat always incomplete, hurried and feverish, the ink not being dry upon the manuscript before it must be given up, the faults not even corrected ! These little miseries make you smile and seem puerile to you. Nevertheless, if you admit, that even in great things, man's chief moving power is self-love, you must also own that in the smallest things a man must suffer in entire abnegation of this self-love. And then there is some- thing noble, something holy in that devotion of an artist to his art, which consists in doing well, in perfecting at the price of his fortune, of his glory, of his life. Faith is always a virtue, fortitude, your favourite word, I believe. The artizan prosecutes his work to augment his profits, the artist languishes two years in his gar- ret, over a work which would make his fortune, but which he will not yield whilst it is not completed after his own heart and con- science. What matters it to M. Ingres, to be rich or celebrated ? for him there is but one suffrage in the world, that of Raphael, whose spirit is always standing behind him ! Oh ! devout spirit ! And Urhan, who plays Beethoven's music with tears in his eyes ; and Baillot, who willingly leaves all the eclat of popularity to Paganini, rather than add the least ornament or new invention of his own to the old and sacred themes of Sebastian Bach ; and Delacroix, the melancholy and conscientious disciple of Ru- bens ! And you, ye men of renown and power, when have you ever been seen to eclipse yourselves behind another more skilful or more ambitious than yourselves, through love of the sacred truth ? Some of you I know have loved humanity with an artist's love ; and this is the highest eulogium that can be given. I might quote you many other living artists, who have a right to the respect of all intellectual beings ; but this silence would point out all those who proceed otherwise and seek renown and gold at any cost, blind Babylonians ! You would accuse me of partiality or rivalry, and in vain I should reply to you that I know scarcely any of those I have just named to you, and none of those whom I have not. I have lived alone always in the midst of the world, in n 2 - 190 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. love, a traveller, or a literary serf, I have seen these pure glories beaming from afar, and I have worshipped them. I have never had the time either to profit by them or to be jealous of them, for I have never had the time to look upon my profession as anything better than a trade. And yet, I was not born poor, nor am I naturally a sybarite, and 1 might have been able to work and live in peace. Those to whom I have devoted my life, consecrated my hours of watching, sacrificed my youth, and perhaps, my fu- ture, will they ever be grateful to me for it ? No, and it matters little. 29th April. You tell me I am an imbecile, be it so. Your letters, it is full time I should tell you, produce a magical effect upon me. They make me serious. What miracle is this ? I may try my best, I cannot speak lightly of you as I do of all others, and they have now found a method of silencing me when I wound them by my railleries. They speak to me of .you, they repeat the words they have heard you say, they remind me of (as though 1 had forgotten it), that last night passed in re-conducting each other to our re- spective dwellings, up to the number of nine times, and that pause at the church where we spoke of the dead, and the silence into which we sank at the foot of the palace staircase, beneath that pale lamp, above that quiet and deserted square, where you had just evoked such a fantastic tableau. I regretted at that moment, whilst looking at you, that I was not susceptible of the feeling of fear for any living being ; otherwise you would have caused me one of those lively emotions of terror one feels in dreams, which are not without their charm. I shall long remem- ber your words whilst descending that great Gothic staircase in the moonlight. You said to me, " I love you as Jesus loved John, his youngest and most romantic disciple ; and nevertheless, did it become a duty for me to kill you, I would tear you from my heart, and strangle you with my own hands." Faith, my dear master, I wish I were anything better than a poor [cock-chafer, just to see if you really possess all this courage and this virtue ! "Hut, bah ! you would not do it, charlatan that you are ! But who knows ? You, who never laugh — perhaps you would, and I would LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 1S1 give my head with the greatest pleasure, for the sake of seeing one true Roman. On my word of honour, there are some moments when I ima- gine that I have found virtue taking refuge and concealing herself with you, as in the times when men forced her to go and fortify herself in wild caverns, and inaccessible rocks. But suppose you are but a fanatic after all ! Bah, it is always so ; One is not a fanatic by merely wishing to be one, especially at the present time, and I should be rather prouder of myself than I have any reason to be at present, if I were only a little mad after your fashion. We, who are always laughing, now and then resemble those idiots who laugh when they see sensible people acting naturally. The other day, a peasant, one of my friends (I hope I am speaking in the true republican style), entered my study, and seeing me much occupied in writing, shrugged his shoulders with a great show of pity. He leaned over me, looking at what I was doing, much in the manner as though he had paid to see the tricks of a monkey at the fair. He took up a book from my table, God forgive me { it was a volume of the divine Plato, and he opened it the wrong way up, turning over the leaves very attentively, then he replaced it on the table, saying to me in a tone of profound contempt, " So it is in these trifles then, my good sir, that you pass your time, Sundays and holidays, and all ? What droll people there are in the world !" And he shook his head and burst out laughing, and I had really need of all my democratic philanthropy, not to turn him out of the room by the shoulders. However, I calmed myself by remembering that I had been a hun- dred times in this peasant's case, with you and your followers, and I am astonished at the patience with which you supported the im- pertinent and stupid raillery of do nothings like ourselves, who are good for nothing but criticizing that which they do not understand, and are not capable of executing themselves. But I will say as Planet does : " Why do not you tell me to walk off, with myself?" What do you want with me amongst you old Christians ? May God punish me if you are not angels ; nothing stops you, nothing shakes your progress ; you approach us with tenderness, and behold you address me as your young brother, and your dear child, I who 192 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. ought to be sent back to my pipe and my romances. Oh, prose- lytism, let those make distinctions who like ; it little matters to me what name they give thee, provided I see lessons of virtue and acts of charity emanating from thy influence. But, however, I must confide my trouble to you, my poor mis- understood prophet ! They are trying to infuse suspicion into the minds of your children against you. Party spirit knows no scru- ples. They tell us you are proud, ambitious, an intermeddler, that you should be sent to a lunatic asylum, and all of us who love you, should be shut up there with you. All this would be merely laughable, if men of good feeling and intellect were not mixed up with it, through their reliance upon others' opinions, and if they did not show, by their silence, that they distrust both you and us. That does not dispirit those cham- pions who are accustomed to storms, but for myself, just returned from Babylon, where I have slept five years in intoxication, and who fall, whilst still rubbing my eyes, into the very midst of our youth- ful Sion, I feel quite saddened and cast down to see the barrier of brass, which the apathy or indifference of the Gentiles has erected around us. Shall we ever get free from it, Master ? I see that we make a brave and valiant sortie from time to time, but the best of our brethren fall in the combat, and when we re-enter our tents, clamour, maledictions and hissing, from the victors, follow us and interrupt our prayers. What vexes me the most, myself, is the hissing. I know these Gentiles well, I have been in cap- tivity amongst them. I know how malicious they are, and what sharp arrows their irony can dart after us. Remember, well, that I am no proved servant, not I ; already I can hear their sneers assailing me, for the strange figure I cut as a soldier of the republic ; I beg you, my dear master, let me go to Stambol — I really have business there. I must go through Geneva, that I may buy an ass to traverse the mountains and carry my baggage, and I must go through the Black Forest to find a plant, which Malgache wishes me to bring back for him. At Corfu, I have a Mahometan friend, who begged me to go and take sherbet with him in his garden. Dutheil has given me a commission to buy him a pipe at Alexandria, and his wife has LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 1.93 begged me to step as far as Aleppo, to buy her a shawl and a fan. You see I cannot delay, I have indispensable duties and occupations. Listen ; if the republic is proclaimed during my absence, take everything, make yourselves at home, I have estates, give them amongst those who have none ; I have a garden, pasture your horses there ; I have a mansion, make it into a hospital for your wounded ; I have wine, drink it ; I have tobacco, smoke it ; I have my works in print, make wadding of them for your guns. In all my patrimony there are but two things, the loss of which would be painful to me — the portrait of my grandmother, and six square feet of turf planted with rose and cypress trees ; it is there she sleeps by my father's side. I consign this picture and this tomb, to the protection of the republic, and on my return, I ask that I may be thus indemnified for my losses ; to wit, that I may have a pipe, and pen and ink, by which means I will gain my living, joyously, and will pass the rest of my life in declaring that you have done welL If I never return, this is my last will and testament : I leave my son to my friends, my daughter to their wives and sisters, the tomb and the picture, the inheritance of my children, to you, the chief of our Aquitaine republic, to be their temporary guardian ; my books, minerals, herbals, and butterflies, to Malgache ; all my pipes to Rollinat. My debts, if I have any, to Fleury, to make him industrious ; my blessing and my last calembour, to those who have made me unhappy, that they may be consoled and for- get me. I name you my executor ! so adieu, and I will set off. Adieu, my children ! until now I have been more of a child than yourselves. I go alone on my pilgrimage, in order to grow old quickly and repair lost time. Adieu, my friends > my beloved brethren ; when sitting round the fire, speak sometimes of one who owes to you, the happiest days and dearest remembrances of life ; and you, my master, adieu ; and God bless you, for having forced me to look a great enthusiast in the face without laughter ; and for having made me bend the knee when departing from his presence. 194 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. Oh, Bohemia ! the fantastic home of souls without ambition and without fetters, I shall then see thee once more ! Often have I wan- dered in thy mountains and over thy fir-trees, I remember it well, although then I was not born amongst men, and it has been my misery not to be able to forget thee during my sojourn here. LETTER VII. TO FRANZ LISZT. Not knowing where you are at present, my dear Franz, and not knowing much better where I am going myself, I send you some news of me through our obliging friend, M. . . . I think he will iind out your retreat before I can, as I shall be confined in mine for some days to come yet. I need not tell you the regret I feel at not being able to join you. I see your mother is setting off, and Puzzi with his family. I suppose you are going to found a colony of artists in the ver- dant Bohemia, or beautiful Switzerland. Happy friends ; the art to which you have given yourselves up is a noble and happy vocation, and mine is but arid and vexatious labour after yours. Silence and solitude are absolutely necessary for my work, whilst a musician exists in harmony, sympathy, and union, with his pupils and his performers. Music can teach and reveal itself, can spread and communicate its own beauty. Does not the har- mony of sounds induce that of will and feeling ? What a grand republic might be formed by a hundred instrumentalists all united by the same spirit of loye and order, to execute the symphony of a great master ! When the spirit of Beethoven hovers over this sacred band, what fervent prayers rise towards God ! Yes, music is prayer, is faith, is friendship, is association, par excellence. " Where two or three of you are gathered together in my name," said Christ to his apostles when quitting them, "there am I also amongst you." The apostles, condemned to travel, to labour, and to suffer, were soon dispersed. But whenever be- LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 195 tween the prison and the martyrs' pile, between the fetters of Caiaphas and the stones of the synagogue, they met each other, they knelt down by the way side in some olive wood, or in the suburbs of some tcwn, or in a high chamber, and spoke about their master and friend Jesus, of the brother and the God, to whose worship they had devoted their life ; and then when each had spoken in his turn, the wish for all to join at the same time in invoking the manes of the well beloved, would doubtless inspire them with the wish to sing, and doubtless, the Holy Spirit who came down upon them in tongues of fire, and taught them un- known things, would also bestow upon them the gift of that sacred language which belongs only to select organizations. Oh ! be sure of this, if beings do exist before God of a nature sufficiently exalted to acquire new faculties suddenly, if their intelligence ex- panded, their tongues were loosened, then divine melodies must have flowed from their lips, and men have listened with ravished ears to a divine harmony. There is one fact in the history of human nature, before which I cannot cease to prostrate myself, whenever I think of it, and that is, the retreat of the twelve for forty days ; this fervent union and spotless purity of twelve faithful and devoted spirits for so long a time ! Even if I doubted the miracles which were its result, I would not say so, would you ? If it were proved to me, that these men were only very clever physicians and chemists for their day, I would reply that- such a thought takes away nothing from the reality of a divine man, and from the existence of a race of saints, powerful enough to walk upon the waters and resuscitate the dead. What is truly incontestable for me is, the miraculous powers of faith in man. Therefore if it could be proved to me that the apostles were obliged to have recourse to the prestige of what was then styled magic, I should think that they also had days of doubt and suffering when their celestial power was weak- ened within them. Let us find amongst ourselves, I would reply, twelve men superior to the apostles by the firmness of their faith and the sanctity of their life, twelve men who could pass forty days under the same roof, without disputing and domineering one over the other, unanimously occupied in prayer, in asking from 196 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. God the knowledge of truth and the strength of virtue, without faltering, without pride, without yielding to weariness of spirit or the presumptuous inspirations of the flesh, and doubt not, Oh ! my friends, but that miracles would be worked, that we should learn new sciences, unknown powers, and a universal religion. Man again made divine, on a beautiful spring dawn, would issue from such an assembly, with the sacred lire upon his brow, the secrets of life and death in his hand, with the power of drawing- tears of charity from the entrails of a rock, with the revelation of all tongues spoken by nations as yet unknown to us ; but above all with the gift of the divine language brought to its perfection ; music, I would say, carried to its highest degree of eloquence and persuasion. For, when the prodigy of the descent of the Holy Spirit was accomplished amongst the disciples of Jesus, the heavens opened above them, and they must have heard and retained con- fusedly the hymns of the ardent seraphim and the golden harps of those old and crowned men, who appeared in later days to John the Apocalypt, and whose divine harmonies he must also have heard, mingling some night in the stormy winds blowing over the shores of his desert isle. Oh, you, who in the silence of night, discover these sacred mysteries ; you my dear Franz, you whose hearing is quickened by the spirit of the Most High, that you may hear the heavenly harmonies from afar, and transmit them to us, feeble and for- saken ; how blessed are you to be able to unite in prayer during the day with hearts that understand you ! Your vocation condemns you not, as mine does, to solitude ; your fervour is rekindled at the hearth to which all you love bring their sympathy. Go on, pray in the angelic language, and sing the praises of God upon your instruments which vibrate to every heavenly breath. It is not thus with me, a solitary traveller ! I follow desert routes, and seek a shelter in silent walls. I had set off with the intention of joining you last month ; but caprice or destiny made me deviate from my route, and I stopped to pass the sultry hours of the day in one of the towns of our old France, on the banks of the Loire. Whilst I was asleep, the steam-boat raised its anchor, and when I waked, I saw its black trail of smoke flying rapidly over the silver LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 197 circle which the river formed in the horizon. I made up my mind to go to sleep again till the next day : and the next day, when I left my chamber to make enquiries after a boat or a horse, an old friend of mine, whom I did not in the least expect to find there (having lost sight of him during my years of wandering) was standing before me in the court-yard. Whilst he was breakfast- ing with me, he told me that he was married and settled in the town, but that he usually lived in a country-house in the environs, to which he was then going. He had just been hiring a horse at the inn, his own being ill or in use, and he wished to carry me off in a buggy, to introduce me to his new family. The proposition was not much to my taste. It was even more dusty and hot than the evening before. I still felt feverish, and the buggy had truly most countrified springs ; I am not fond of making new acquaint- ances on a journey, and feel very little in the humour to be ex- tremely polite, when I am excessively fatigued. I refused decidedly, therefore, and told him that I wished to remain at the inn until I had recovered from my indisposition. My excellent friend did not annoy me with a pitiless hospitality. He consented to leave me there, but just at the moment of entering his buggy, it en- tered his head to say to me, I have a house in the town, small, humble, and in very bad condition, it is true, but perhaps you would sleep there more quietly than here. If, notwithstanding, the neglect in which it has been left all this spring, owing to my having been in the country, you can put up with it. . . . I scarcely dare make the offer, it is little in a state to be shown ! Neverthe- less, unless you are changed, you are a poet and a friend to soli- tude. Perhaps it may please you. Here are the keys ; if you leave before I come back to see you, give them to the landlady of this inn, who knows me. And speaking thus he embraced and left me. 1 found this a most agreeable invitation. I felt decidedly too un- well to continue my journey for two or three days. I procured a guide to my friend's house ; it was not a very easy place to reach, I was obliged to mount and descend streets, narrow, sultry, and badly paved. The deeper we got into the faubourg, the more deserted and dilapidated did the streets appear. At last, by a set 198 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. of broken steps we arrived at a ruinous terrace, upon which there was a cluster of very old houses, each with its own court- yard or garden, enclosed with high walls covered with creeping plants. I had scarcely opened the door of the one destined for my occupa- tion, before I w r as delighted at its aspect, and wishing to give myself a kind of religious pleasure by entering it alone, I took my valise from the guide's hands, threw him his fare, and went in hastily, shutting the door in his face, which must have made him take me for a fool, a conspirator, or something worse. Either one must believe that nature is not intended exclusively for man's enjoyment, or that before his dominion extended over the whole earth, there w T as really a race of sylvan divinities ; that this superhuman race has not entirely withdrawn itself to heaven, and that its scattered phalanxes come sometimes to take refuge in spots neglected or deserted by man. If this be not so, how can one explain the religious respect w^ith which each of us is pene- trated when he first sets his foot upon a soil where no other human foot has trod. Why does solitude inspire us at the same time with both love and terror ? Why do we reverence ruins, unknown regions, or untrodden snows ? Why do virgin forests, deserted temples, or the simple aspect of loneliness, affect poetical spirits so tenderly, or feeble minds so painfully. If we could convince ourselves that we were the only living beings left upon the earth, we should only be more or less alarmed according to our dispo- sition. Nevertheless, has man any subject for rejoicing when he has no other society than his own ? Has he not reason to dread the absence of aid as much as he has reason to fear attack ? What is there then so impressive in the aspect of these unmarked sands, these lordless lands, these halls without guests ? Is it not that we feel there the existence of unknown beings who have established their empire, and who have either the goodness to receive us there, or the right to dismiss us ? These reflexions passed through my mind whilst leaning against the door which I had just closed behind me, and I could not de- cide to cross the court yard, for 1 should have been obliged to tread down the long grass which was as high as my knees, and from winch the sun's rays were beginning to exhale the morning LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 199 dew. What nymph had overturned her basket there, and scat- tered these light seeds, these delicate saxifrages, which were blooming in their virgin beauty sheltered from all profanation. "Pardon me, oh sylph," said I, "or at least bestow upon me thy lightness of step, that I may clear this space, without bending thy beloved plants to the earth. "Whoever had watched me, breath- less and dusty, leaning in a mournful manner against the door, would have taken me either for a man in the depths of despair or overwhelmed with remorse ; and yet no traveller w as ever prouder of his discovery, nor did ever pilgrim salute the holy land with greater reverence. The sylph of the place had not disdained the culture of the plants which the master of the deserted mansion had confided to her. Three Linden trees which divided the court-yard in half, a border of larkspurs along the wall, a vine, and immense pyramids of mallows, had attained a superb development. When I had reached the paved part of my little domain I took care to walk upon the disjointed stones without crushing the verdure which made itself a way through the cracks ; and thus I reached the inner door, this was a fresh embarrassment. Long vine branches had interlaced themselves before the entrance ; and formed every where leafy curtains over the windows. I was obliged to put an impious hand upon them, and raise them like drapery to allow me to open a passage over this venerable threshold. But as soon as I had stepped over it, the vine branches fell back again with suppleness and clung to each other as though to forbid my leaving this sacred enclosure. I have not yet disobeyed you, oh flexible and complaisant barriers of my beloved prison ! Each night I seat myself on the last step of the stair case and watch the moon through your silvery garlands. Each star seems set in a frame as it passes by the transparent network which you extend between us, and sometimes daylight surprises me, as J sit there immove- able and dumb as the stone upon which I am seated. Yes Franz, I am still here in this deserted house alone, absolutely alone, only opening the door to take in an anchorite's dinner, and I never remember to have passed days more soothing and more pure. It is for me, a great consolation, I can assure you, to see 200 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. that my soul is not yet so old, as to have lost relish for the en- joyments of its early youth. If my hours of meditation are no longer filled hy dreams of virtue, and ardent aspirations towards heaven, at least I still enjoy calm thoughts and religious hopes ; and beyond this, I am no longer devoured as I used to be, by the impatience of life. In proportion as I approach declining years I estimate more gratefully and justly all that this existence produces of generous and providential circumstance. On the slope of the hill I look round, and slowly descend, casting a look of love and admiration over the beauties of the place I am about to quit, and which I did not sufficiently appreciate, when I could have reaped its advantages more fully, whilst yet at the summit of the mountain. But you, who have not yet arrived there, be not too hasty. Do not rashly overleap those lofty summits from which one de- scends never again to mount. Ah ! your fate is happier than mine. Enjoy it, and disdain it not. As a man, you have yet the treasure of your best years to come, as an artist you serve a more fruitful and charming muse than mine. You are her well- beloved, whilst mine begins to find me aged, and condemns me now to salutary but melancholy reveries, which would kill your precious poetry. Go on, — exist ! the brilliant flowerets of your crown need the sunshine ; the bindweed and the hy of which mine is formed, emblems of the wild liberty enjoyed by the antique sylvans, grow in the shade and amongst ruins. I do not complain of my destiny, and I rejoice that Providence has blessed you with a happier one ; you deserve it, and if it were mine, Franz, I would yield it to you. So I have remained at * * * first through compulsion, and now from the love of reading and solitude ; later still, I shall per- haps remain here from indolence and forgetfulness of the passing . hours. But I wish to make you a sharer in a piece of good fortune which happened to me here, and which has contributed not a little to make me love this retreat. You who read a great deal, because you have not the same respect for books that I have jand you are right, your art must make you disdain ours) you I say, who are quick of comprehen- LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 2GI sion, and who really devour volumes, you cannot know of what importance slow and attentive reading is to an indolent soul like mine. Nevertheless I am not one of those who attribute to books a very serious moral and political influence. Philosophy above all appears to me the most innocent of all poetical speculations, and I think it is only souls, exceptional, either through their strength or thiough their weakness, who are capable of drawing real encouragement or resolution therefrom. All intellect which does not seek its light and conviction through the lessons of ex- perience and reality, and which allows itself to be governed by fiction, is organized exceptionally. If, above the average, it will be raised and fortified by good reading; if below, it will find great subject for consolation, or perhaps be unhappily affected by what it will believe its own condemnation. In both cases, reading will have played a very secondary part in these different destinies. Their results would have been produced sooner or later if the in- dividuals in question had not known how to read. And as to me, you know I have a high respect for the illiterate. I humble my- self before great legislators and great poets, and yet there are days when at the sight of certain souls, so naively, so purely ig- norant, I could willingly burn the Alexandrian library itself. This taken for granted, I can explain to you why, by reason of my own nonchalance and inaptitude for all species of social action, I am one of those to whom the knowledge of a book may become an actual moral event. The few excellent books I have read have developed the few good qualities I possess. I do not know what bad books might have done, for I never read any, having been so happy as to be well directed in my youth. On this point therefore none but sweet and happy memories remain to me. A book has always been for me, a friend, a counsellor, an eloquent and calm consolation, whose resources I did not wish to dissipate quickly, and which I reserved for important occasions. Oh ! which of us does not remember with delight the first books winch he de- voured and appreciated ? When the cover of some old worm-eaten book turns up on the shelves of some forgotten closet, does it not bring back the happy pictures of our youthful days. Have you not suddenly seen appear before you the large meadow bathed in 202 LETTERS CF A TRAVELLER. the crimson light of evening, where you read it for the first time ; the old elm, the hedge which sheltered you, and whose side served you at once for couch and table, whilst the thrush sang her farewell song to her companions, and the cow-herd's pipe was lost in the distance. Oh ! how fast the night darkened over these divine pages, and how cruelly did the twilight make the characters tremble on the vanishing leaves ! It is over, the lambs are bleating, the sheep in the fold, and the cricket takes possession of the stubble in the plains. The outlines of the trees are lost in the dimness of night, as the characters were effaced on the pages of the book. Depart at last one must, the road is stony, the weir is narrow and slippery, the hill- side rough, you are covered with sweat ; but hurry as you may, you will be too late, supper will be begun. In vain does the old servant who loves you, delay ringing the bell as long as possible ; you must suffer the humiliation of arriving the last, and the grandmother so inexorable on points of etiquette even in the depths of her estate, will address to you, in a voice at once kind yet sad, a slight and very tender reproach, to which you are more sensitive than to a heavy punishment. But when at night she asks you for the confession of your day's employment, and you have owned, blush- ingly, that you have passed it reading in a meadow, and you are summoned to produce the book, when after some hesitation and fear of seeing it confiscated without having finished it, you draw out, trembling, from your pocket, what ? Estelle and Nemorin, or Robinson Crusoe! Oh ! then the grandmother smiles. Be tran- quil, your treasure will be given back again ; but for the future you must not forget the hour of supper. Happy time ! oh ! my Black Valley ; oh Corinne ! oh Bernardin de St. Pierre ! the Iliad Millevoie ! Atala ! oh willows of the river banks ! oh, my vanished youth ! and my old dog to whom the hour of supper was not a forgotten thing, and who answered the distant sound of the bell by a mournful howl of regret and greediness ! Good Heavens ! of what was I talking to you ? I wished to speak to you of Lavater, and in fact I am upon the track. In my childhood, I had had Lavater's works in my hands. Ursula and I had looked at the plates with curiosity. We could scarcely read. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 203 We asked each other what this collection of droll, insignificant, hideous or agreeable visages was for, in the midst of the expla- nations and phrases which we could not understand, we sought for the principal designation of each face, we found drunkard, indolent, greedy, passionate, diplomatic, methodical. . . . Oh, then, we understood nothiDg more about it, and we went back to the pictures. Nevertheless we remarked that the drunkard resembled the coachman, the grumbling evil- speaking woman, the cook, the pedant, our preceptor, the man of genius, the effigy of the Empe- ror on pieces of money, and we were thoroughly convinced of the infallibility of Lavater. But still this science seemed to us mysterious and almost magical. After that time, the book was mislaid. In 1829 I met a man who believed firmly in Lavater, and who made me a witness of some such miraculous applications of physiognomical science, that I had a great desire to study it. I tried to procure a copy of the book, but could not find one. Something else came across me, and I forgot all about it. At last, here, on the very day of my arrival, I open a closet full of books, and the first I take up, is a copy of the works of Jean Gaspard de Lavater, minister of the holy gospel at Zurich, pub- lished in 1781, in three volumes, folio, translated into French, with engravings, &c. You may judge of my delight, and you must know that never have I read anything more agreeable, more in- structive, more healthy. Poetry, wisdom, profound observation, evangelic charity, pure morality, exquisite sensibility, and grandeur and simplicity of style, all this have I found in Lavater, whilst I was only seeking for physiognomical observations, and conclusions, erroneous perhaps, at least conjectural and hazardous. Since you ask rae for a long letter, and you are always in- terested in works of thought, I wish to speak to you about Lava- ter. And, besides, where I am just now, and, in the life I lead, it would be difficult to give you anything newer in literature. I hope with all my heart that the desire may seize you to make ac- quaintance with the guest, the venerable friend whom I have just discovered in this deserted house. I should also be glad if you, like all the other proud innovators o 204 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. of our time, had, until now, despised Lavater's science, as a tissue of reveries founded upon a false principle, that I might have the pleasure of making you change your opinion. At present physiognomy is considered a science judged, con- demned, and buried, and that upon its ruin, another science rises, not yet judged, but still worthy of examination and attention, phrenology. I hate the contempt and ingratitude with which our generation overturns the idols of our fathers, and caresses the disciples after crucifying the professors and martyrs. To prefer Schiller to Shakespeare, Corneille to the Spanish tragic poets, Moliere to the Latin comic writers, La Fontaine to Phcedrus or JEsop, this appears to me, not only an error but a crime. Ad- mit that the copyist, who from extra care, time, and attention sui passes his model, has therefore more merit than his mas- ter, we establish an abominable doctrine of injustice and false- hood. However perfect may be the translation or imitation, however important or necessary any improvement which you make in it, however highly finished, and embellished the produc- tion to which the mother ivork has given birth, this last is still not the less superior, venerable, generating and sacred. Certainly, old Homer will never be equalled by those who may do even better than he, for which amongst them would have had an idea of epic poetry, had he never read Homer ? Well, for my own part, I doubt not, that some day man will push his examination of the human form so far, that he will read the faculties and inclinations of his fellow beings as though in an open book. Have Gall, Spurzheim and their successors been the originators of this science ? No, no more than Vespucci was the conqueror of America, and nevertheless one half the universe bears his name, whilst the name of Columbus is only retained by a small province. The system of Dr. Gall is in honour to-day, or at least it is within sight. It is examined, criticized, and Lavater is forgotten. He falls back into dust in the libraries ; his editions are exhausted and not reprinted. I know not even if you could succeed in pro- curing yourself a copy of one of the most beautiful books which the human intellect ever produced. LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. 205 But Gall was a physician and Lavater an ecclesiastic. Our age, so positive, so material, has naturally preferred a mechanical ex- planation to a philosophical discovery. It is not the less true that cranioscopy enters into physiognomy, and that it is in Lavater' s opinion its essential and fundamental basis. This part of physi- ognomy, is of such importance, says he, that it demands a separate consideration. It belongs to anatomy to seek for the varia- tions of intelligence and to draw the revelation of the faculties of man from an exact knowledge of the different conformations of the brain. This wise and persevering observer will appear, adds the citizen of Zurich ; he will bring back the world to the truth, or at least to the desire of truth. From discoverv to discoverv, observation to observation, prejudices will be overcome, and man will recognise that physiognomy is a science as important, as diffi- cult, and as exalted as any of the other sciences upon which civilized society is established. Full of love, respect and conviction for his favourite science, the good Lavater yet modestly declares that he was not its first discoverer. He cites several of his pioneers, Aristotle, Montaigne, Solomon. He adduces the following proverbs from the Book of Wisdom. " Haughty eyes, and a puffed up heart. " Wisdom is seated on the brow of a sage, but the eyes of a fool wander to the ends of the earth. " There are men whose looks are full of pride, and whose eye- lids are raised with pride.' ' Lavater also adduces several passages from Herder which sup- port his opinion ; and here is a very remarkable one, which you have doubtless been fortunate enough to read in German, but which I bring to your notice again, because 1 find it embued with the genius of German metaphor, a metaphor at once lofty and uncommon. " What hand can seize upon that substance, lodged within the head and under the skull of man ? Can an organ of mere flesh and blood reach the abyss of faculties and internal strength which ferment or repose therein ? Divinity itself has had a care to 206 LETTERS OF A TRAVELLER. cover this sacred summit, the abode and workshop of the most secret operations, with a forest, emblem of those sacred woods where the ancient mysteries were celebrated. One feels a reli- gious terror at the idea of this shady mountain which encloses lightnings, one of which escaped from chaos might illuminate, em- bellish or destroy a world. " And of what expression also is not this forest of Olympus capable ! in its natural growth, the manner in which the hair is arranged, or extends, divides or mingles ! " The neck on which the head is supported, shows not what is in the interior of a man, but that which he would express. Some- times its noble and lofty position announces its dignity, sometimes in bending, it announces the resignation of the martyr, and some- times it is a column, emblem of the strength of Hercules. "The brow is the seat of serenity, joy, chagrin, anguish, stupidity, ignorance or wickedness. It is a brass tablet upon which all qualities are engraved in characters of fire. . . . Where the brow begins to lower itself, the understanding appears to be confounded with volition. It is here that the soul assembles and concentrates its strength for resistance. " Below the brow is placed its beautiful boundary, the eyebrow — a bow of heaven in its mildness, but a bow of discord- when ex- pressing anger. Thus in both cases, it is the announcing sign of the affections. " In general that region where the mutual links are assembled between the eyebrows, the eyes and the nose, is the seat of the soul's expression in the countenance, that is to say, the expression of will and active life. " The noble, profound and occult sense of hearing is placed by nature at the side of the head, where it is half hidden. Man hears for himself, therefore the ear is deprived of ornament. Deli- cacy, finish and depth, are its graces.