CB Cbe JLitJratp of t|)e Onitjersitp of Jl^ottl) Carolina Colkction ot Jl^ottfi Catoliniana (KnDotocli bp of tl)e Gllaus of 1889 CB UNIVERSITY OF N.C. AT CHAPEL HILL 00032690847 This hoolc must not he tahen from the Lihravy huildin^. IN FOND AND LOVING MEMORY OF JConnie l^inton Miiifitoii PROEiM. These pages are intended not so mueh to eoni- nicnioi-ate the life and character ol" my ])rccious child, as to be heli)t'ul to her young friends in ini- l)ressing upon them the silent but powerful influ- ence which is constantly emanating from their every-day lives. This record of Lonnie's life as given through friends who knew her best, cannot fail to show that the speech and habits of even so young a girl, testify daily to her character. Lonnie early showed many traits of gentleness and loveliness, yet all the while she desired and labored to secure higher attainments and nobler development. Her gentle, loving, unselfish disposition which manifested itself so wonderfully during her last illness and elicited so many expressions of sur- {trise and admiration from those who saw her, was not a sudden development or instantaneous blos- soming of character, but these traits had grown and strengthened in the lovely bud ere they un- folded into the perfect flower. May this chai)let of imniortcllcs woven by tender hands to crown the memory of my precious child, prove to be enduring in beauty and influence to the dear girls who read these lovely tributes, as they will always be to Lonnie's Mother. LONNIE. A tiny habe just gone to sloep. Why does the tender uiotlier weep ? Ah, s^reat has been her sorrow. A little child, her father dead. She lias beeoiiie in father's stead, Tier mother's glad to-morrow. A gentle girl with .sweet brown eyes. As lovely as our Southern skies, So beautiful, so tender. A bounteous blessing she has come, A flood of sunshine to her home, Did Heavenly Father send her. Tho' beautiful in litrm and lace, iMore lovely far in Heavenly grace. The i)assing moments lind her. Her innocence and child-like trust, Her natural impulse to be just. Unto all hearts entwined her. Her life completed in its morn, Her day's work ended 'ere the thorn Of lengthened toil could wuuiid licr. She sees the smile without the frown ; Fre(» from the cross, she wears the crown. With kindred spirits round her. L. M. D. Ill tliat ftreat cloister's stillness and seclusion, By guardian angels led, Safe from temptation, safe from sin's pollution, She lives whom we call dead." LONNiE Winston. TjONNIK, (laughter and only child of Mrs. r^iura A. Winston, died near Greensboro, N. C, July 2d, 1890, in the fourteenth year of her age. She was born in Raleigh, N. C, August 2d, 1876. Her father, A. H. Winston, was called to Heaven oidy live days after her birth, and thus she became, in her earliest infancy, the sole earthly comfort and joy of her mother's heart. Even in babyhood her large, thoughtful, brown eyes would watch the '' slow dropping tears " of the sorrowing mother, and with baby caresses and loving looks seek to win a smile and to bring the love-light to her gentle, sorrowful face. And never did she fail in her mission, for the mother's heart would take courage for the sake of lier j>re- cious child, and the answering caress and loving smile, though often with l)linding tears, would bring sunlight to baby's watchful face. " Woulil yuii know the baby s skies? Baby's skies are mother's eyes. Mother's eyes and smile together 3Iake the baby's pleasant weather. Mother keop your eyes from tears. Keep your heart from foolish fears. Keep your lips from dull coniplaiuing Lest the haby think "tis rainiii.u;. " This little poem sent at that time to her mothei', described most ])ertectly the sympathy that ex- isted between the baby girl and her young mother, and also shows how early began her influence and tiie restraining, comforting, and beneficial effect. Little Lonnie had most tender, careful nurture, growing more and more beloved l^y all who knew her, and, increasing in stature and wisdom, she filled her niother's heart with love and joy. Thus the unfolding of her character, the devel- oping of all that was beautiful and good was a constant source of delight to her loved ones and friends. The only falsehood her mother ever knew her to tell occurred when she was about three years old. When the exceeding sinfulness of telling what was not true was explained to her by her mother, she became so penitent that with tearful e3^es slie clasped her little hands and prayed, " Please, Dod, don't let me tell any nu)re tories." Her greatest pleasure was to be with mama, and by every word and act to show dependence upon, and devotion to her. Under the careful training of her pious mother, aided by a most devout grandmother and other Christian relatives, she grew up fond of good works and anxiously desirous of doing all she could for the cause of her Saviour. One little incident will give an idea of her sim- ple, strong faith in prayer and illustrates the child- like trust our Lord, himself, approved. When five years of age she had frequent and violent attacks of croup, and after one very severe attack, when kneeling to say her evening prayer, she asked, " Mama, if I ask God not to let me have croup any more, will He not?" Her mother re- plied, " Darling, it may be that God sees best for you to have croup, but ask Him." So on fin- ishing her little prayer, she said, " Please, God, don't let me have croup any more," and she never did. It was when Lonnie was about six years old that her mother believes she was genuinely con- verted; since that time she ever tried in some way to work for Jesus. After her death, especially, servants, who had lived in the family, have told how she often spoke to them and asked them to " be good." She was naturally a timid, shrinking child ; and when any unpleasant duty was presented to her, she would draw back from it saying, "0, mama, I can't, I can't;" yet if asked to do it to please mama, or from a still higher motive, to please the Lord Jesus, she would put aside lier timidity, as much as possible, and perform the duty or accede to the request. It was her privilege to travel with ])er mother quite extensively, and on these trips she was associated with others of prominence, culture, and piety. She seemed to carry with her at all times the conscious nearness of her Saviour, and often, when apparently entirely engrossed in i)lay with other children, she would suddenly leave them and run to her mama to ask if certain expressions or acts were right. This tenderness of conscience and watchfulness on her part in regard to doing wrong, did not lessen her enjoyment of the pleasures and deliglits of childhood, but she rather entered with added zest and interest into lier pursuits and plays when assured of being right. During one of her journeys amidst mountain- ous scenery, awaking early one morning and look- ing from the car window, while passing over a river, she softly repeated to her mother a portion of the following lines from the beautiful poem " Cominti;." 10 " It 111:13' 'j<^ !i' tlic pock-crnw, Wlu'ii the ui^ht is dying slowly- In the skj', And the sea hioks cahn and I10I3', Waiting fur the (hiwn ( )f" the golden sun Whieh draweth nigh; When the mists are on the valleys, shading The river's chill, And my morning-star is fading, fading On the hill; Behold I say nnto you : A\'atch ; Let the door be on the latch In your home ; In the chill before the dawning, Between the night and morning, I may come." This little incident, from among many, is se- lected to show the child's appreciation and apjili- cation of the beautiful in Nature and Art. About two and a half years of her life were spent in Matamoras, Mexico, in an English school of Missions, conducted by her aunt, under the supervision of the Society of Friends. While so- journing there she readily acquired the Spanish language and spoke it fluently. It was in Mexico that she was enabled to do her most efficient work for the dear Saviour. Just before leaving for Mexico a gentleman 11 friend said to her, " Lonnie, I hope you will do those little Mexican girls a great deal of good," and she replied very distinctly, '' I will try." She did indeed '' try," and her efforts were crowned with abundant success. The lady with whom they travelled to Mexico was impressed with dear little Lonnie's distress when in New Orleans, at the desecration of the Sabbath. After arriving in Mexico the wicked customs of the people and especially the untruthfulness of the children often wounded her sensitive nature. On one occasion she came to her mama weeping bitterly and told her that one of the girls had made fun of her " faith " and said her religion was " all wrong." Yet before Lonnie left Mexico this girl became an earnest, devoted Christian. It is not known to any of us, God has these things in His own keeping, what this dear child did for these little Mexican girls with whom she associated day after day. Her devotion to her mama, her strict adherence to the truth under all circumstances, and her fearlessness in denouncing everything that was not true and right had an untold influence for good. Her Sunday after- noons were generally spent in relating Bible sto- ries to the children, in their own beautiful lan- guage. They were very fond of listening to her and would constantly beg for " one more." 12 She kept, while there, a diary in English, Span- ish, and French. She had also finished translat- ing about one-fourth of a sweet little Spanish story into the English language, and told her mania that if she could make any money from it, all of it should go to the Mission work in Mexico. This translation now remains, just as she left it, between the lids of her Spanish dictionary. Let- ters from her little friends and schoolmates in Mexico show the good influence exerted by her lovely character, and also tell how the girls looked up to, admired, and loved dear " Lonita " as she was called by them. One says, " She was always such a dear Christian girl;" another writes, " Lo- nita, we know, is with God and in a short time we who are good will be with her." Still another writes, " Never will I forget my dear ' Lonita,' and the sweet hours spent with her in the school. She was always a good Christian girl, and there is no doubt she is now with the Lord Jesus. I have always loved her ver}- much and can never, never forget her." A lady friend Avrites that Lonnie's influence is still fresh and strong over some of the little Mexican girls, so much they felt the power of her innocence and truthfulness. In the spring of 1889, after the death of her grandmother, Mrs. Yancey Ballinger, she returned with her mother to North Carolina. The last 13 entiy made in her diary was dated iMareli lo, 1889, just before she and lier mama left Mexico. It is as follows : Matamokas, Mexico, March 15, 1889. "A ver}' sad thing has ha])pened in our family. My dear grandma has gone to live with God : it is not sad that she has gone to live with God — that is glorious — but that she has left us alone. She died February 8, 1889." A beautiful trait in Lonnie's character showed itself when her grandma died. Upon receiving the first telegram that told of her grandmother's illness she was quite overcome and could not con- trol her grief. But when the last one reached them telling that the dear grandmother had passed into the skies, she forgot herself and tried tefore her death she looked up and said, " Papa !" as though he were present Avith her. She was perfectly conscious to the last, and at one time said in a clear, bright tone, " O, I am so liappy." Then she looked up with a startled expression, which soon gave way to one of wonder, as though she were looking upon some scene that was not familiar to her, then her countenance brightened, and, looking up higher and higher with radiant face, she passed beyond the portals of Heaven opened to receive her. One of those who stood by her bedside said that as she looked up, up, higher and higher, it seemed 16 that her spirit, like a beautiful bird, was soaring); away shedding celestial radiance in its Heaven- ward flight. " 81i'f|> (III lieluved, sleo)) and take tliy rest; Lay down thy head upon thy Saviour's breast; We love thee well, but Jesus loves thee best — ' Good-night !' ' Good-night !' ' Good-night !' "Only 'good-night,' beloved, not 'farewell,' A Httle while, and all His saints shall dwell In hallowed union, indivisible — 'Good-night!' 'Good-night!' 'Good-night!' " Until we meet again before His throne. Clothed in the spotless robe He gives His own, lentil we know even as we are known — 'Good-night!' 'Good-night!' ' orts with uncles and aunts, the love of Jesus borne to the children of Mexico where she was truly a Christian light, and the example of a Christian child-life; — the influence of a careful conscientious student — the thoughtful devoted daughter, who never left the mother's side in the morning without a prayer that God would " bless and keep mama through the day;" — the anxious thoughtful care for her mother with her latest breath ; — all of this and more h;is been the work of tliis dear child. The book of her life is finish(Hl when we thought only the preface written. It is composed of beau- tiful chapters of which, as we have scanned the 20 sweet little incidents, it seemed we would never tire and we long for iinother chapter; but she will write no more, tlie book is completed. The golden clasj) has been put on. Her mission is ended ! She has not lived in vain — her work is done, but her iuHuence is not ended. Her ])ure life made fragrant with the blossoms of the ('hristian graces has made holier all the young lives with which she has been associated and her influence still lives and will live on though she lias begun to tune her harp in Heaven. >i«J- 21 ■ She is not dead, — tlie child of oiir affection, But gone into that school Where she no longer needs our poor protectioi), And Christ himself doth rule." 22 IN MEMORY OF LONNIE WINSTON. I^eath always comes veiled in mystery and draped with sadness, and tlion»>;h but life's coun- terpart, for where the one is there you find the other, yet about the Providence wliich ])r()nipts this sketch a peculiar sorrow lingers. The old man bending beneath the weight of life's burden and with the tremor of age in his hand, lies down by the wayside of life, and giveth up the ghost without wonder or surprise on the part of those who have watched, loved and served him amid his weaknesses and the decline of his last days. But when the angel of death invades the sacred precincts of a widow's home and lays his cold and l)lighting fingers upon the heart of her only cliild and thus ends a life brief, 'tis true, but radiant while it lasted with sunshine and joy for all around, and to human view so full of future promise, then it is, we discover our arrival at that pass in life, which to us is thoroughly inexplica- ble and our oidy peace is found in looking aw'ay in simple trustfulness to the dawn of that day, 23 when there sliall be a satisfactory unlnldiiig of that l^rovidence at which we can only look through a glass darkly now — gathering sweetest comfort from Him who said : " What I do thou knowest not now, Init thou shalt know hereafter." Lonnie Winston was born in a Christian home, where she early learned the way of life and early walked therein — hence the ripeness of her Chris- tian experience was peculiarly marked because of her tender age. She was of that lovely mould of character which by its gentleness impresses one with the fact that she has been in sweet contact with the Saviour. Her piety found expression, not so much in words, as in her cheerfulness, purity and truthfulness. During her illness she sjjoke of her prei)aration for death. She was not afraid to meet death, to stand face to face with the King of Terrors, for in his hand, he held a crown of ever- lasting life for her now paled brow. She was, as in all other relations of her lite, faithful in the discharge of the duties devolving upon her as a member of this Sabl)ath School. She was jmnctual, attentive, studious and duti- ful. We miss her presence in our weekly gather- ings here and realize that in her death we have lost a valued member. To her loving and bereaved mother we tender our sincere prayers and symi)athy, with the hope •,M that the Holy Comforter ma}' apply to her l)owed spirit the coin forts and eoiisolations of Divine grace, so that she may he led to see only the ])right side of this eloud. " How sweet it will be in that beautiful land, So free from all sorrow and pain, With songs on our lips and with harjis in our hand. To meet one another aiiain." .Signed, J. H. CoiiDox, J. (i. BkoVVN, Mrs. T. B. Mosely, Miss Myrtle White, Miss Katie Belvin, Cowmllhc. Wliat cdulil it mean ? On the joy of our i];\y This swift ftluom of niiilit? Can He mean us to work, or to tliink or tu jiray With her face out of sicht? " 2(i LETTERS. RALKKiH, N. C, July 3, 1890. .... Voiir i;;riet' and loss is ours. You need comfort and strenatli and so do we; we canndt nive any, butdo pray I lie dear Lord to SHjiply all (hat is needed and are assured that Ho will. Ealeigh, N. C, July 1.3, 1890. .... True eonilort must come from the Coniforler. . . . You can rest satisfied " that as one whom his mother Comfortetli," so the Lord will comfort you. . . . I dare not trust mysell' to tell you how keen the loss is to me and how the future had been i)ictured and planned for the darliiii? child Blessed memory ! still there are regrets that I did not have her with me more in the time she was at school here, that T might have known more of her sweet character, and if possible, loved her more. As the child of my best friend, who fourteen years ago went before, and I must say, as a chiM of our Church, for in part she was so regarded, she was trebly ilear to me; in addition to all these things, there was her own beauty of character and spirit. Dear, dear Lonita : 2d 8am., ]2th Chapter, 23d verse. AXN nARROR. :M|(II., 9-21-1S90. .... Sekloiii if ever luive four words brought such a sliock to our luiuseliold. We knew the almost perf'ee- tioii of the eliihl and tli3' devoted love to her. Our hearts Ideed for thee— to have lost thy earthly nil of family, and one so bright and lovely as that sweet child, seems in- deed mysterious. Only the Lord can sustain thee. May his loving arms bear thee up. Dear child ! young as she was, she did not live in vain. Tier pure and loving life yet lives a bright example to draw others to virtue and to goodness, to the love and fear of the Lord. It has been with sweet pleasure that we have heard of her influence still fresh and strong, over some of those little Mexican girls, so much they felt the power of her innocence and truthfulness. May the lesson of her life j'et sink more deeply into many hearts. . . . Batesville, Ark., July 19, 1890. .... I have just heard of your bereavement; I weej) with you and mourn for her as one "too bright and pure for earth." May the Everlasting arm.s be about you and as a ten- der "mother comfurteth her child," may He comfort vou. . . . 28 Madison Springs, N. C, July 4, 1890. .... The sad ir)tc'lli 59 Avho was privileged to watch all the stages of de- velopment during the first few 3'ears. To one of the members of the old home circle, to whicli Lonnie's mother returned with her father- less little one, is given the sad, sweet pleasure of transcribing a few of the many pretty incidents of this period with which her memory teems. Should the result fail to picture a most winsome little maiden, it will he because tiie loving aunt is inadequate to the task of j^ortraying the beautiful life of the fair sunbeam which flashed across our pathway for only a moment of time. This little ray of light we called Lonnie, to per- petuate the name borne l)y the father, who went away just five days after his little daughter came to earth. So like unto him, in every respect, and so constantly did she remind us of him, we think she well merited her name. She was the centre of attraction in the old home of her grandparents, and so charming was she in all her many little ways, that every morning her appearance was hailed with delight by the whole household of uncles and aunts. Wlien only one year old, she was seriously ill. During the first part of her illness, she lay with lier precious little eyes closed, but, whenever we called her name, she would oi)en them and smile faintly. Her illness increased rapidly, and she 60 ceased to open her eyes ; then, we realized how dear she was to us, and what it wouhl cost to give her up. But tlie trial was not to come at that time ; life came back, and she was restored to us more ]irecious than ever, if possible. Ever after this, until her last illness, she had great terror of physicians, and all medical attention had to be administered through stratagem. Once, while playing, she had a fall, from which was afterward discovered a fractured collar-bone. It was difficult to determine, between mother and child, which had received the injury, so great was the sympathy. When she had recovered some- what from the shock, she looked up into her mother's tearful eyes and begged, " Mama, don't cr3^" The request was granted; but then came the much-dreaded task of having a physician. It was finally decided to take her to the doctor's home, into the nursery among his children. When she was in the midst of play, the doctor entered, under the disguise of "Uncle Henry," a very de- voted friend of her papa's, and the only person, outside of her relations, whom she had ever per- mitted to touch her; but the moment the doctor attemi)ted to examine her shoulder, she fled to her mama. When about fifteen months old, she made with her mother one of their accustomed visits to the 61 home of her papa's only sister. While tliere, her uncle " Peckie " taugl)t her to walk. The first day after her arrival home, the trio of young aunts kept her constantly going, until grandmamma protested that the little cliuhhy limhs would be tired out; but it was not easy for them to deny themselves the delight of watching the grandest accomplishment of baby's life. This trio of aunts never dreamed that there was any forbidden ground for Lonnie. 8he and her mama had been invited to sj^end a few days with a friend in the neighborliood ; the youngest of the three, who called herself '' Aunt Casie," went one morning, on her way to school, to see the little dear. When time for separation came, it was too much for both ; so, " Aunt Casie " concluded to take the little one with her, but as they neared the school, it occurred to the conscientious aunt that it was not quite the thing to do, as experience had taught her that nobody studied wdien baby came to school ; still, the temptation was too strong, and on they went. No sooner had they made their appearance, than the aunt was reproved for bring- ing " baby." " Well, then, Lonnie and Aunt Casie will go back, if they don't want us here," said the offended aunt. After this outburst, the little three-year old tot took up the battle, marched straight up to the teacher, and clinging tightly to 62 her skirts, spent her indignation with a force that was sufficient to prove that all the gentleness and patience of the after time was due to divine grace, even more than to natural characteristics. The Avriter sees the little darling yet, as slie placed her little hand in that of her aunt's, and both walked indignantly away with a determination never to return to that school. She was very fond of her grandfather, and no- thing gave him more pleasure than to entertain her with little stories. Once, he was reading to her the quaint old tale of the naughty boy steal- ing apples from the old man who pelted him with stones. She listened with deepest interest, and when he had iinished, said earnestly, " Grand- papa, I would not have an old man in this house for anything," not for once realizing her grand- father's age. On many occasions, in after years, that grandfather delighted to tell of her talks to him about " God and the angels." When Lonnie was seven years of age, the writer bade her good-bye for a long journey, not expect- ing to see her for years to come. Her mother de- cided to accompany me a part of the way, send- ing Lonnie to renuiin with her "Aunt Casie," in school. Delighted to join her aunt, and, at the same time, feeling the separation from her mother keenly — for these separations were few — the wri- 63 ter can, in her mind's eye,,see her, as she sat within lier uncle's arms, muffled up for her journey, with those large brown eyes, brimful with tears, looking back as she was driven rapidly away, to be gone two long weeks from mama. On Christmas day, just two years later, Lonnie with her mother joined me in ni}' missionary home in Mexico. The loveliness and beauty of her precious life had developed in a marked de- gree during these two years. A i)riceless little gem she proved to be ; shedding radiant light upon the pathway of many whose lives had been spent in darkness. Such integrity in a child was rather marvellous to those who had been taught from early childhood, both by examjile and pre- cept, that deception was a necessary constituency to make life a success. Lonnie was ver}' studious, and in a very short time mastered the Spanish language to such an extent, and spoke with such fluency and accuracy that not even the natives could detect the foreign accent to any great de- gree. Many were the compliments she received from the school oflicials during our public ex- aminations, in which she did the institution and berself great credit. Whatever she undertook, slie ))erfected. Unselfishness was one of tlie first principles of her character. It apj)eared, not as an occasional feature, Init as the whole habit of 64 her life. One little incident of map-drawino; was rather touching, as also illustrative of her perse- verance. There was a large class i)r('paring iuai)s for the examinations, and all the tables in tlie in- stitution were occupied by these mai)S. Not find- ing a jilace for hers, she quietly went into the par- lor, and there spread her map out ui)on the floor. Her teacher found her there upon her knees busily at work. When some suggestions were made as to her map, she begged, " Please, don't tell me anything, Auntie; if you do, the map will not be mine.'' Many of her maps and drawings still adorn the walls of Hussey Institute. When sent to practice her music, she would take her little clock, placing it upon the piano; not one moment of the hour would she lose. The children were not slow to discover that Lonnie's life possessed the true and the beautiful, and soon she became their ideal of a Christian. She had none of that austere nature one would suppose might result from coming daily in con- tact with a thing so obnoxious as falsehood must have been to her pure life. Extremely sensitive to the wounds to which a tender nature like hers is exposed, yet courageous when the principle of right or wrong was involved, her sweet, gentle, quiet ways told of her refined nature better than words can describe. She was a child of great ()5 adaptability, until yielding touched her higli sense of honor, then she became firmness itself. Nothing could ever induce her to come below the standard of absolute rectitude. Often, the dark eyes of our school children have filled with tears as they have related, since she went away, the many little in- cidents of her perfect life among them. In one instance, this, illustrative of her loyalty to lier mother: One of the girls, wishing to tell her a secret, insisted that she should keep it from her mother. Lonnie refused to receive her confidence without the ])rivilege of telling mama. Not- withstanding this,slie never lost their confidence. Her ready accjuisition of tlieir language, her simi- larity to their nation in her general appearance, and ]io]ite, aff'al)]e manners toward them, gave her a place of great respect and reverence in their hearts. Never did she impress me with the strength of her cliaracter as when a physician was called for medical advice for her. He prescribed wine. In- stantly the word was spoken, she turned upon tlie