THE LIBRARY OF THE UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA LOS ANGELES REV. HESKETH. HANSON. MA. i- . it was unanimously resolved, that the following letter should be addressed to the Rev. G. Clayton, in reply to his letter communi- cated to us by the Rev. W. Kingsbury : — "Rev. Sir, and our dearly-beloved Minister, — We have this dav met to hear read to us, with much distress of mind, by our beloved pastor, the contents of your letter addressed to us, dated the 14th inst., and which we can truly say, one and all, has much wounded our hearts. " We should think ourselves ungrateful to you, deficient in our duty to ourselves, and unthankful to God, for sending you amongst us, were we not to communicate to you our feelings on the present occasion ; and to express to you our united sentiments, on this truly distressing circumstance. We do it with some degree of hope ; as we trust that both you and ourselves wish to be directed by the Holy Spirit of God, whose guidance we humbly implore, on this very momentous occasion. " We beg leave, in the first place, with perfect unanimity, to express our warmest affection for you ; and that, as we ever have done, so we ever shall (should Providence continue you amongst us), make it our study to render you happy, and to administer to your comfort, under every circumstance of God's providence. We believe you were at first brought to South- ampton by the hand of God. We are the more confirmed in this opinion by what our eyes have seen, our ears have heard, and our hands have done, since you have been with us. It has pleased God to make you peculiarly acceptable to us, and to our town in general. Previous to your coming to Southampton, we had an intention of enlarging our place of worship ; but we believe the project would have failed of execution, had you not been the means of uniting our minds, and enlarging our hearts, to complete this sacred fabric. "Under God, sir, you have been the instrument of drawing many families and individuals regularly to attend divine ordinances. We believe many hundreds also occasionally hear the Gospel, who, before you came amongst us, seldom, if ever, heard the word of truth. We believe you have essentially benefited the young in influencing many to be sober-minded; LETTER FROM THE PEOPLE. 239 and we have no hesitation in declaring it to be our hope, that in many a heart the seeds are sown which will produce fruit unto life eternal. Some, we believe, ascribe to you the honour of being the instrument, in disposing their hearts to serve the Lord fully. " We believe you, sir, to be acceptable to old and young, rich and poor, the serious and those that are still in the world : that the gifts with which it has pleased God to bless you are adapted to the situation where His providence has placed you : that your ministry has been crowned with success beyond our most sanguine expectations. It does not appear to us, that a field of more extensive usefulness than that where it has pleased God to place you, can offer itself, in the whole world. We therefore, the church and congregation now assembled, unanimously, cordially, and affectionately, invite your continuance with us, as our minister. We, the pastor, deacons, and members, invite you to accept the co-pastoral charge ; and we all unitedly trust and pray that the good Spirit of the Lord will lead you to that decision which shall ultimately promote His glory, and the peace, happiness, and prosperity of the church of our adorable Lord Jesus, in this place. "We cannot close our letter without expressing the high degree of pleasure we have received in beholding the most cordial affection which has always subsisted between yourself and our revered pastor; a pleasing omen of future peace and prosperity. Signed, — " W - Kingsbury, Pastor, | ^ ^^ of ^ chmch « Petek Bernard, Deacon, ^ tion> " James W. Lobb, Deacon, ) "Wm. Bernard, "Joseph L. Darvall, "Edwd. Toomer, "Thos. Bernard, the congregation." " Saml. S. Taylor, " Richd. Taylor, J To this earnest and affectionate communication he gave, as it deserved, a prayerful and anxious attention. It was, of course, most cheering to his heart to find Trustees in behalf of 240 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. how firmly and closely he had entwined himself around the affections of the people; and to know that his desires and efforts for their spiritual advancement had been appreciated, and were not destitute of beneficial results. There were many things that made it desirable he should remain at Southampton. The cordiality of the senior minister ; the division of labour and responsibility in the pastorate; the warm attachment of the people; and the fact, which was daily becoming more and more evident, that, in the two years spent in the town, he had gained a public position of great importance and influence — which, in a new sphere, would have to be secured by breaking ground afresh, — all these things pointed to his continuance in the scene of his present labours, as having much to recommend it. But other considerations pressed with equal and even greater weight upon his judgment; and led to the adoption of another course. On the 26th of January, he communicated to Mr. Kingsbury, and the friends under his charge, his final decision, relative to the co-pastorship — which was to decline it; and from this time his mind was at rest. The people, however, were very reluctant to part with him. Many private and personal efforts were made to endeavour to alter his determination, and under date February 27th he says : — "The people here are not enabled to give me up. Lord, what wilt thou have me to do ? I have no wish but to honour thee, and to promote thy glory. Oh ! discover my motives to myself. Thou readest the heart ; but to me it is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked. Search me, Lord, aud try me, and see if there be any way of wickedness in me, and lead me in the way everlasting ! 0, for ten thousand worlds, I would not err, in a matter of so much moment. If thy presence PRAYER FOR GUIDANCE. 241 go not with me, cany me not up hence. Cleanse my heart, Lord ; remove all iniquity from me, and do with me as seemeth thee good. Truly can I say (unless my mind egregiously deceives me), that as to one single affair of life, I have not a will of my own. To Jesus Christ I desire to live ; to His disposal I resign myself, and make His will mine. Oh ! thou lowly, meek, yet all-discerning Jesus, I now apply to thee in solemn prayer. The heathen had their oracles : thou art the true and infallible Teacher, and Guide of thy church. By thy Hoi}' - Spirit thou dost give counsel to thy people. Oh ! counsel me, by that wisdom which cannot err. Guide me by thine eye. Remove every inclination of my bosom which thou disapprovest, and strengthen and uphold, in undaunted exercise, all that thou hast implanted. Oh ! Spirit of all divine power and grace, dwell richly in my heart ; console, fortify, direct, and purge my soul. Oh ! blessed and glorious Trinity, three divine persons, mysteriously subsisting in one God, co-equal, co-eternal, ever- lasting; God in covenant, whom I serve in my spirit, and to whom I have devoted myself in body and in soul, appear for me, who am but dust and ashes, the weakest and unworthiest of thy creatures ; who am less than the least. Pitifully regard me; save and deliver; and at this time take me to thyself rather than suffer me to err in my demeanour and my decisions. Help, help, oh ! holy Lord, Father of mercies, God of grace. Teach me to do thy will, for thou art the Lord my God. Lead me in a plain path, because of my observers. Hold thou me up and I shall be safe !" These extracts show his supreme anxiety to know the •will of God, that he might not follow the inclinations of his own heart, but the unmistakable directions of his divine Master. One more effort was made by the good people at Southampton. Their deacon, Mr. Jobb, was commis- sioned to offer the young minister double the salary he had been receiving, and a house to reside in; but he remained firm to his prayerfully-formed resolution ; and records, with thankfulness, under the date of March 1st, 242 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. the fact, that at a meeting of the people it was finally determined not to press the invitation any further. "And when he would not he persuaded, they ceased, saying, ' The will of the Lord he done.' " The removal to London was urged upon him hy friends to whose judgment he could not but pay great deference. Dr. Simpson, his tutor; his father, and his brother John, — now happily settled at Kensington, — gave it as their unhesitating opinion that he should go thither; and his own mind was strongly, and, as he says, in his diary, unaccountably impressed with the belief that God had called him to labour there. Subsequent events proved that he had not been following an illusion of his own brain ; but that an invisible hand was drawing him onwards to the great metropolis, as certainly as Paul was summoned, by the providence of God, to preach the Gospel to the Gentiles, on European soil. So he prepared to follow the pillar of cloud, that had been taken up from over the door of the tabernacle; and to pitch his tent in another part of the wilderness. His prayer was that of the leader of Israel, in which he desired not to depart, except with the sanction and under the guidance of God. It was a painful task to leave the circle of friends with whom, for more than two years, he had enjoyed social and religious intercourse, which had been mutually pleasant and profitable ; but the resolve having been made, the separation took place, amid mingled expressions of heartfelt sorrow, and mutual loving commendation to God. On Sunday, March 25th, he preached his farewell sermons to crowded audiences in Southampton ; and on the following Wednesday returned to London. In the contemplation of his residence in the great city, he indulges in some sensible remarks, in a letter to his father : — SETTLEMENT AT WALWORTH. 243 " May He who fixes the bounds of our habitations realize all that appearances unquestionably promise ! I shall certainly feel less when 1 come to London ; and be obliged to entertain more diminutive ideas of my own importance. This I shall esteem a real benefit ; though some may esteem it an injury. I shall no longer be tempted to be self-complacent, as 'par inter pares;' but shall know my own inferiority, which I hope will nourish humility, and operate as a stimulus to diligence in reading, meditation, and prayer." On Sabbath clay, April 1st, 1804, he preached what may now be regarded as his first pastoral sermon, at Walworth ; for although he was at the time but a probationer for the pulpit, and had not received any formal call from the people, to take the spiritual over- sight of them, yet that was the commencement of ministerial labours that were to be carried on, without interruption, in one place, for the long period of half a century. He had not completed his twentieth year, when he thus entered upon the cares and anxieties of a London pastor's life ; and in after clays, he looked back with wonder at his temerity, in undertaking a task so onerous, with the limited experience of a man only just out of his teens. But he realized to the fullest extent the truth of the promise, "As thy days, so shall thy strength be." He records in his diary, with gladness and gratitude, the hallowed emotions with which he went through the services of this Sabbath, and the pleasure he enjoyed in the society of Captain Wilson, whose guest he was, for the day. Of the romantic history of this excellent man, who commanded the ship " Duff," — the first vessel sent out by the London Missionary Society, — and who was one of the deacons of the chapel at York Street, a short account will be given in the next chapter. 244 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. On the 29th of April, Mr. G. Clayton was admitted to the fellowship of the church, at Walworth, by the Rev. J. (afterwards Dr.) Pye Smith, of Home.rton. This was the initiatory transaction adopted by the people, before they made a formal choice of their newly- elected brother — one of their own number — as their teacher and pastor ; a mode of action in those days not confined to the church at York Street, although now it has fallen into disuse. On May 13th, he preached an admirable sermon, which was afterwards published, on behalf of the Protestant Union ; a valuable society, " established in 1798, for the purpose of enabling ministers to make provision for their widows and children, by means of annual premiums among themselves, and of donations, annual contributions, and bequests." Although still a young minister and a young man, he had imbibed the true esprit du corps, as the following paragraph, with which the sermon closes, shows : — " This fund, if established on liberal and enlarged principles, would remove some very serious obstacles to the formation of those ties which are ' honourable to all.' By this means, you will enable your ministers to discharge the duties of domestic life with greater ease and quietude of mind ; raise them above the little prying narrowness of home economy, which some are disposed to ridicule ; and consequently afford them an opportu- nity of paying a more devoted and undivided attention to the concerns of your families and their flock, and to give themselves more entirely to reading, meditation, and prayer. " In the ministerial character, the teasing thoughtfulness, occasioned by worldly anxiety and narrow circumstances, should be, as much as possible, avoided ; and the mind set at rest with regard to futurity. The man, encircled by a numerous offspring, can enjoy but little, if the dark and distressing imagination perpetually haunts him, that, should he die, his defenceless ORDINATION SERVICE. 245 partner and infant race are to be plunged into complicated woes. You censure him for want of cheerfulness ; for reserve ; for timidity. How can it be otherwise, when his brow is incessantly furrowed with care ; his tongue chained in silence, and sentinels placed at the door of his lips, lest the big sorrow of his heart should escape him ; and his fortitude depressed, by fearing to incur the displeasure of those, at whose mercy his earthly all may one day or other be left ? "This charity paves the way for the calm and resigned dissolution of ministerial connexions. It smooths and softens his deathbed, and plucks from his last pillow the sharp thorn of care. The agonies of his departure are alleviated by the thought that, while he takes his flight to the world where they hunger and thirst no more, his weeping helpmate and his sobbing babes will not be obliged to experience, in this vale of tears, the miserable contrast to his enjoyments. " The Protestant Union borrows the voice of divine mercy, and says, 'Leave thy fatherless children with me, and I will keep them alive : ' it stands, as the favourite disciple, to receive the dying bequest of the servant of God : it opens the doors of an asylum, where the widow dries her tears, receives ' beauty for ashes, and the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness ; ' where the ' barrel of meal wastes not, nor does the cruse of oil fail ; ' and where the ' fatherless findeth mercy.' To the support of such an establishment, you will esteem it your honour and privilege to contribute. May you inherit ' the blessing of him who was ready to perish, and cause the widow's heart to sing for joy!'" The formal call of the church was given to Mr. G. Clayton on May 19th, 1804, and accepted by him the following week ; and on Wednesday, June 6th, his ordination took place. His brother John began the service with prayer, and reading the Scriptures. The introductory discourse was delivered, and the usual questions put, by the Rev. Mr. Kingsbury, with whom the young minister about to be ordained had been associated at Southampton. Dr. Simpson, Mr. George 0|6 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Clayton's beloved tutor at Hoxton, offered the designa- tion prayer; and his father, who had to come from watching by the sick bed of his daughter Jane, who shortly after died, gave the charge from 1 Timothy vi. 20 : "0 Timothy, keep that which is committed to thy trust." This, together with Air. Kingsbury's dis- course, was published. Dr. Nicol, of the Scotch Church, Swallow Street, London, preached to the people. Thus happily the newly-elected pastor was settled in the midst of his flock ; and gave himself heartily to the work of the ministry; resolved, as God should help him, to esteem " all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus his Lord;" and not to count his life dear to himself, so that he might finish his course with honour and joy. Chapter TS. REV. GEOEGE CLAYTON".— 1804-1821. HIS MARRIAGE. — SILENT SABBATH. — EXTRACTS FROM HIS DIARY. — ENLARGEMENT OF CHAPEL. — VISIT TO IRELAND. — REOPENING OF CHAPEL. — HAPPY MOMENTS. — ILLNESS. — LEAVING HOME. — ATTACK OF APOPLEXY. — PREACHES IN AN EPISCOPAL CHURCH. — ROMANTIC HISTORY OF CAPTAIN WILSON, COMMANDER OF THE SHIP " DUFF." — HEART- SEARCHING. — SECOND APOPLECTIC ATTACK. — PUBLIC ENGAGEMENTS. — MISSIONARY SERMON.— RESIDENCE AT GAINES, ESSEX. In the autumn of 1804, Mr. George Clayton was married to Miss Mary Whennell, of Hornchurch, a lady of great accomplishments, and sterling piety. To her his ministry had been remarkably blessed ; and frequent intercourse developed the existence of those feelings which led ultimately to marriage. But before this event took place, the course of the young people's love not only did not run smooth, but was impeded so per- tinaciously, met with such terrible opposition, that the difficulties in the way of their union seemed insuperable. These principally arose from the noncon- formity of the suitor for the lady's hand. But at length the chief obstacles were overcome; and Mr. George Clayton welcomed his bride to his new residence, at Charlotte Row, Walworth ; and introduced to his people a pastor's wife, who was destined to exercise a most beneficial influence over her husband's flock, especially over the young people of her own sex. Mr. Clayton was soon entirely occupied with the multiplying engagements of his ministerial life; and learned, ere long, how fearful is the demand which 248 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. public duties make on those who, like himself, are called to occupy a prominent position in the church of God. He deeply lamented the interference with his hours for retirement, and converse with his own heart and God, to which these public engagements led. He complained of the unconscionably frequent, and lengthened calls of the people, in the midst of whom he had taken up his abode; and longed for a habitation where this would be in some degree impracticable. He was intent on doing good; and for this purpose all his studies for the pulpit were pursued with conscientious fidelity. But he often found, as all his brethren have done, that the most careful mental preparation does not always secure a successful and happy presentation of what has been prepared; and had often to solace himself with the hope, which instances not a few tended to justify, that his own personal discomfort might be attended with a divine blessing to others. In August, 1805, his daughter Mary was born; and the parents devoted themselves, with much prayer and anxiety, to the discharge of their new and interesting duties. With the opening of 1806, came a severe fit of illness, that, for a time, incapacitated him for his pulpit labours. But he was learning lessons in the sick chamber by which he was to be fitted for the more efficient discharge of public engagements. Thus he writes, Sabbath day, April 20th, 1S0G :— " A silent Sabbath ! A Lord's day spent in confinement and solitude ; and my first wish is that it may be a profitable one. My Jesus and His Spirit are not restrained to any places, or any times ; may their united influence search and try me, cheer and enliven me, unfetter and enlarge me ; shower down in copious measures grace and peace, and love and joy, that I may hold SOLITARY MUSINGS. 249 communion with my covenant God, my Father and my Friend! I have this day been wrestling with God, for my dear people. May they be edified, and sinners called this day to the knowledge and love of a crucified Eedeemer ! Oh, Spirit of truth ! exert thine omnipotent energies, and snatch men as brands from the burning. " I ought to be unfeignedly thankful that I have been laid aside so seldom from my delightful work. Blessed be God ! it is long, very long, since this embargo was laid on me, and my lips sealed in silence. I take shame to myself, when I think of the many misspent, unprofitable, unserviceable, and unspiritual Sabbaths I have passed, when my tongue and my heart have been at sad and lamentable variance. " These records from his diary are valuable, as indicating the fact, that with a growing and extending popularity, which was sufficient to produce mental intoxication, he was the subject of spiritual conflicts that tended to keep him humble. Thus, in a meditation on the eve of the Sabbath, he writes: — " And now, my soul, like the patriarchs of old, thou art found alone. Having been thinking for others, it becomes thee now to think for thyself. Thou hast, as it were, closed the labours of preparation for the Sabbath, as far as relates to the exertions of the«pulpit; now aim to attain a suitable frame of mind for the day of rest, and for the exercise of ministerial duties. And how is it with thee, my 'soul ? Hast thou made any progress in the divine life? Hast thou acquired more knowledge, more love, more experience, a more steady and uniform obedience ? Alas ! alas ! I hardly dare answer in the affirmative. " I have such cold, heartless, and unprofitable seasons in the closet, that I sometimes fear my religion is more external than inward and real. I trust that in the family, and in public ordinances, I have more enjoyment of God, and a greater perception of what I take to be the exercises and actings of grace; but even then, in those engagements, I may well exclaim, 'My leanness, my leanness!' • How swiftly time 250 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. revolves. Another year is hastening to its close ; and how soon my frail life may end, God only can determine. Lord, I fly to thee afresh. Pardon me, through Jesus Christ, the Saviour of thine appointment, and my thankful, admiring, and believing choice. Apply to my soul, by the power of the divine Spirit, the precious peace-speaking blood of Jesus. I trust I love Him, and desire to be spent in His service ; but I pray not to be deceived in a matter of such moment, and to this end would daily begin anew my repentance, faith, and humble confidence." Deeply conscious of the abounding goodness of God towards him, in the several relations he sustained, he grieved that his heart was not more affected by these divine dealings. Eagerly he embraced the opportunity afforded for communing with himself and his God ; that he might pour out his acknowledgments to Him who had clone great things for him. Thus, just after his 25th birthday, he meditates in the silence of his study: — " Sweet are the hours of solitude to my spirit, worn with pidpit exertions, and other public duties. Scarcely ever do I know those seasons of impervious retirement which Isaac must have enjoyed, when he went out to meditate ; and which Jacob knew when he was visited by God at Bethel ; but I do love to be alone, and can truly say that — ' In secret silence of the mind, My heaven, and there my God, I find.' It is matter of continual wonder that, loving, as I do, this retreating from the creature and the world, I do it so seldom, so irregularly, and that I can ever allow my sacred hours to be exchanged or interrupted. This arises from the nearness of sensible objects, and their undue influence over my mind. How forcibly do they plead for entertainment and indulgence, and swallow up my time, and encroach on the seasons of worship ! This I often consider as the worst s}Tnptom of my religious character, that I do not maintain a more intimate nearness, a closer walk with God. " "Why should friends, or sleep, or visiting, or anything, VISIT TO IRELAND. 251 separate my soul from Jesus, or keep me from my God ? His kindness to me in providence is very great. I surely have a prospered lot — in an affectionate and pious family, in a loving wife, a thriving child, obedient servants, a kind people, honour among my neighbours, respect in the world. Nay, what have I not ? Ingratitude must blush to ask more. Lord, I should be happy, thrice happy, if I enjoyed more of thy blessed presence, tasted more thy heavenly love, and possessed a stronger likeness to the adorable Saviour. Temporal good I have received, in a manner quite wonderful, and am a living witness of the faith- fulness of God to His promises. I entreat that I may not be Imrt by the smiles of providence, but that every temporal good may prove as a ladder, by which I may ascend to heaven. I have lately entered into some plans and schemes as to secu- larises. Lord, let me not become earthly, nor permit even things lawful to draw me from thyself. I should dread to be among those who ' mind earthly things.'" In the summer of 1808, a severe attack of illness rendered it necessary that Mr. Clayton should, for a season, abstain from labour; and change of air being deemed advisable, he visited Ramsgate. Previously to this, the increase of the congregation at York Street having rendered it necessary to enlarge the chapel, steps had been taken to carry this design into effect. During Mr. Clayton's illness the alterations were commenced; and the people had to disperse for several weeks, greatly to the regret of the pastor, on account of his forced absence. His restoration to health having followed his removal to Ramsgate, and his chapel being still in the builder's hands, so that he could not return at once to his usual place of labour, his services were sought by the com- mittee of the Hibernian Society, on whose behalf he visited Ireland. Some weeks were happily and usefully spent by him, in different public engagements. This 252 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. journey tended still further to the invigoration of his before enfeebled powers ; and afforded, by the novelty of the scenes he visited, the pleasant society with which he mingled, and the work in which he engaged, in the advocacy of the society's claims, much and varied enjoyment; so that he returned to Walworth, some short time before the chapel was ready for opening, with a good stock of replenished health, wherewith to enter upon his enlarged sphere of operations. It was with peculiar and mingled emotions he appeared once more in the midst of his own people; whom, at the reopening services, he addressed from the words (Hag. ii. 9), " In this place will I give peace." His father preached in the afternoon ; taking for his text the prayer of the Psalmist (Ps. cxviii. 25), " Send now prosperity." Very soon every seat in the place, to which the minister and his flock had thus returned, w 7 as occupied ; and many additions were made to the church, that now begun to assume proportions which it tasked his utmost strength to keep up with, so as to meet the legitimate claims that w r ere made upon him, in his pastoral character. On February 1st, 1809, it w T as his happiness to take part in the services held at Saffron- Walden, on the occasion of the settlement of his brother William; between whom and himself a most unusually warm fraternal attachment existed, which was cemented still •further by spiritual sympathies, and a similarity of tastes and occupations. From this time, nothing occurred to interrupt the usual course of labour in which Mr. George Clayton was engaged, for several years. His ministrations were increasingly successful, and the mutual attachment of HAPPY MOMENTS. 253 pastor and people — bound together only by the bands which should unite those who sustain such holy and momentous relationships; there being on the part of the minister a hearty devotedness to the highest interests of his charge, and on theirs a loving gratitude in the recognition of such devotedness — this mutual attach- ment was daily becoming stronger ; so that the church at Walworth presented, with the usual individual excep- tions, a bright and cheering example to sister com- munities, of a united and happy Christian family. Such individual exceptions were, however, very trying to the sensitive mind of Mr. Clayton, who seems at times to have thought more of them than of the happier and more encouraging, and overwhelmingly numerous facts of an opposite character. But these served to temper the elation of heart which, otherwise, his almost unin- terrupted ministerial success might have awakened. No wonder that with so much to gladden and stimu- late the pastor, he should be able to record in his diary, under date of March 3rd, 1811, an account of some " happy moments " he was permitted to enjoy. These, as his words evince, he estimated carefully; regarding them as compensatory visitations for past annoyances ; or as designed to afford comfort, in the remembrance thereof, when other and far less pleasant emotions should be afterwards excited. " ' Ere I was aware, my soul made me like the chariots of Amminadib.' If ever this sentiment was realized in my expe- rience, it was this morning. In the exercises of family devotion a secret sweetness distilled upon my soul. I was softened, melted, and humbled at the throne of grace; filled with a sense of the evil of sin, and the love of Jesus Christ, whose agony and death were peculiarly impressed upon my mind. I saw Him fainting, groaning, dying, to become the life of 251 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. perishing souls. I could scarcely finish the duty of pra3 r or, and hastened from my knees into my study, where those sweet feelings were perpetuated; and I felt as though I could cheerfully have bid adieu to earthly scenes, and have taken wing for another world. Oh! that I knew more of those happy frames, and that by them my prayers might bo accele- rated, and my attainments in holiness promoted! Perhaps, the sceno of delight is intended to prepare me for trials, or rather to support me under those which I already feel ! There are, alas! sad causes of grief to me, ministerially. Oh ! Lord, give me wisdom, patience, meekness, and dependence on thee. I am a child ! Undertake for me ! " In the autumn of 1811, Mr. George Clayton was invited by his old flock, at Southampton, to take part in the ordination of the Rev. T. Adkins, — who still occupies his post among an attached flock at the Above Bar chapel; esteemed and beloved, as he righteously deserves to be, not only by the ministers and churches of his own denomination, but by all the people of God to whom he is known; and crowned with the honours of an unblemished reputation, and the evidences of extensive usefulness, which have accumulated through an official life of 5G years, spent in one place, and among one people. Mr. Clayton preached on the occasion to a very crowded audience. "I received," he says in his note- book, " from the people at large, the most affecting expressions of gratitude and love." His choice of another sphere of permanent labour, while at the time it pained and troubled them, did not sever the cords of affection with which they had been for two years bound; while this renewal of the intercourse, before so pleasant, seven years afterwards, only deepened the respect and regard they entertained for each other. In 1812 he was elected into the same fraternity into VISIT TO THE LAKES. 2oo which his father and brother John had, some years before, been introduced — the Eclectic Society ; at whose meetings, for the chief part of his ministerial life, he was accustomed to associate with clergymen and other ministers, in friendly fellowship. Severe personal affliction again visited him ; and the recollection that he was approaching the age at which his two predecessors at York Street had died, seemed to suggest to him that it would be the part of wisdom to decline some of the numerous extra-pastoral engage- ments to which he was invited, and to restrict his labours more to his own pulpit and people. The number of those who, week after week, thronged his chapel, rendered such a resolve as this a necessity; for he found it very difficult to overtake the visiting which w r as required, especially among the sick. He made a list of the members of his congregation, and of their places of abode, and inserted the dates of his calls upon them ; so that no one should be overlooked, and that there should not be an undue attention given to some to the neglect of others. For six weeks, in the summer of 1812, he went to the north of England, and paid his first visit to the lakes. He appears to have gone with some sad fore- bodings, which, however, were happily unrealized. In the anticipation of an unfavourable issue of his present illness, just before his departure, he penned the following in his diary : — " To take leave of my home, my child, my family, my flock, for so long a period, must be regarded, at all times, and under all circumstances, as a serious change ; but to one in ill-health, with sensations of great weakness and infirmity, it is doubly serious; therefore I desire to record that I do now, in the presence of the all-seeing God, and of the attendant and 25G THE CLAYTON FAMILY. witnessing angels, solemnly, deliberately, and, I would hope, believingly, commit myself and all my interests into the hands of God. " I consider this the greatest of all privileges — to be permitted to give myself up to the custody and government of a covenant God. Take me as I am, oh ! Jehovah — Father, Son, and Holy Ghost ; — the God of my salvation. Make me what I should be ; and do with me and mine whatsoever seemeth good in thy sight. I am a sinful, a blind, an insig- nificant worm. Thou art the infinitely wise, gracious, holy, faithful God; and therefore I flee from myself to thee; and desire to hide under the shadow of thy wings. I desire to place my soul and its weighty interests in the hand of Jesus ; and the print of the nail in that adored hand forms my security. I give my health, my relatives, my reputation, my flock, my life, my all, to the care of Him whose is ' all power in heaven and in earth,' and who doeth all things well. " Such is the uncertainty of all things, that I know not whether I may ever see this home again. Oh ! that every sin committed in it may be pardoned; every stain it has received from the inhabitant be effaced; and blood divine, sprinkled upon the walls and doors, cleanse, and preserve, and sanctify the whole. " In going abroad I entreat the presence of God, I hope I can say, 'If thy presence go not with us, carry us not up hence.' I pray that I may find favour among the strangers and people into whose society I may be thrown ; and chiefly, and above all, I beg that usefulness may mark my course. May the excellent savour of Jesus be diffused, and the great name of God be honoured! Lord, let thy blessing attend 'our going out and our coming in, from this time forth, and even for evermore.' ' : At the outset of this journey, which was mostly performed in his own chaise, and by easy stages, he suffered greatly. But by degrees the change and rest recruited him ; and he was enabled thoroughly to enjoy the lovely scenery of Cumberland and Westmoreland, which he surveyed with an eye that was fast losing ArorLECTIC ATTACK. 257 the languor of sickness, and soon flashed with the brightness of renewed health. On his return, after seven weeks' absence, he found his people in peace ; and large audiences, as before, ready to welcome his resumption of ministerial duties. The distance of his place of residence from the chapel where he preached — for after residing in Charlotte Row, Walworth, for a year, he had removed to Addington Place, Camberwell — rendered it at length necessary that he should again live nearer; and so, in March, 1813, he left the spot where he had resided for eight years, and pitched his tent nearer to York Street ; an arrangement which, while it had one drawback, as a too great proximity to a place of worship has to ministers, had many and special advantages, on which the people had certainly occasion to congratulate them- selves. Another preservation from death, on his journey to the West of England, in the autumn of 1813, is recorded by Mr. Clayton, with grateful acknowledgments of the divine care. But the most serious occurrence of this nature happened in the opening of the year 1814. His own words will best describe it : — " On Tuesday, January 25th, I left my own habitation, about ten o'clock in the morning, in a good state of health and spirits. After having paid several short visits to the sick and afflicted, I was attacked by an alarming seizure, under the influence of which I fell to the ground, and continued in a state of insensibility, for more than half an hour. Had I never awoke to consciousness in this world, where had my immortal soul found her abode ? It pleased God so to appoint, that I dropped at the door of one who is numbered with my flock, and to whom, I trust, I have been made the instrument of spiritual good. Here every attention was promptly and cheerfully rendered; an apothecary sent for, without delay; and every s 258 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. means used for my restoration. Confusion of mind gradually subsided; and I became, in a few hours, calm, collected, and tranquil. "I cannot deny that the shock was severely felt. I was, however, greatly supported ; delivered from alarm, and enabled, though conscious of great unworthiness, to cast my care, for time and eternity, on Him, whose sacrifice and intercession are my only hope. The world appeared to be vanishing: death seemed making his immediate approach : nothing but eternity was present. Then I found that none but Jesus could do me any good; because He alone can pluck the sting from death, and open the gate of immortal bliss. "During the weeks of my confinement and convalescence, I have desired to have my ear opened to discipline, and to receive the instruction which my heavenly Father designed to impart. I have felt more than ever the uncertainty of life ; the necessity of hourly preparation for the tomb ; the importance of an interest in Christ ; and of being found diligently attentive to the duties of our post and station. " My affliction has been mitigated by everything that could soften and assuage it. My friends, my relatives, my neigh- bours, have been all kindness and attention ; and I desire to bless God, who has done such great things for me. While I offer up praise and adoration to the Most High, I would earnestly beg the sanctification of this trial. ! let not the effect of the chastisement, as a stroke of moral discipline, be weakened by worldly objects, nor impaired by time. May I reap a harvest of present and everlasting gain ; and so have to say, ' It is good for me that I have been afflicted.' "Never let me forget the sermon of my dear brother, on the first Sabbath that I re-entered my pulpit, ' Casting all your care upon Him ; for He careth for you.' " In July of this year, Mr. George Clayton was called to occupy a rather novel position. He had gone into Lancashire, to be present at the festivities attendant on the attainment of his majority, by his cousin, Mr. Daw- son, of Aldcliffe Hall; between whom and himself a PEEACHES IN A CHURCH. 259 warm friendship existed. While staying with him he preached at several places; among others at Lancaster and Liverpool ; in the latter town at the chapel which had been erected for the lamented Thomas Spencer, but which, through his early and sudden death, he was not permitted to occupy; and where, at the time of Mr. Clayton's visit, Dr. Raffles was labouring with brilliant success. But at the village of Wharton, in the same county, he found himself in the pulpit of the parish church; the clergyman of the place reading the prayers, preparatory to the sermon, which was delivered by his Nonconformist brother. These days, now more than half a century ago, were hardly far enough removed from the time of Whitfield and Wesley, — when interchanges between clergymen and dissenting ministers were far from being un- common, — to cause such an incident as this to pro- duce any very great commotion. So far as is known, no notice whatever was taken of this breach of ecclesiastical discipline, by the superior of the clergy- man in question; and certainly no proceedings were commenced, or threatened, in the Arches Court, against the bold Congregationalist minister, who had ventured into the forbidden precincts ; but who, as the law then stood, and still stands, by simply preaching the Gospel of the blessed God there, had run the risk of an action, for brawling in an Episcopal church. We can fancy the excitement which such an occur- rence as this would now create; and the dreadful scandal it would prove to high-blown Churchmen, to have suggested to them the bare idea of a dissenting minister lifting up his voice, in preaching or prayer, in any pulpit of the Establishment. Yet worse things than that might happen ; are indeed now happening to our 200 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Episcopalian friends, as perhaps many of them know and lament. Mr. Clayton's return home to Walworth was to the second reopening of his chapel, which had for some weeks been closed for repairs, and for the purpose of making enlarged accommodation for the ever-growing number of worshippers. At this time his diaconate was greatly reduced, by death and resignation ; and his mind was naturally anxious about obtaining suitable successors. Among those who had been removed from the service of the church below was Captain Wilson, whose name has already been mentioned, as associated with York Street chapel. His history, although he died at a comparatively early age, was so chequered and romantic that a slight sketch will not be deemed out of place. I am indebted to my friend and brother, the Rev. J. Turquand, the co-pastor and successor of Mr. Clayton at Walworth, for the following particulars, which are recorded in the York Street Chapel Year-Book, for 1866. "CArTAIN JAMES WILSON. "The following brief sketch of his life has been compiled, partly from the Missionary Enterprises of the martyred Williams ; partly from an account of missionary ships, by the Eev. E. Prout ; and partly from a memoir of Captain Wilson, now scarce, and out of print, very kindly lent by J. Newbald, Esq., for the purpose. "James Wilson was the son of a captain of a vessel employed in the Newcastle coal trade, and grew up a rough and reckless sailor boy. When still a very young man, he was placed in command of a small vessel, bound to the Nicobar Islands, in the sea of Bengal. Shortly after his arrival in the East, he learned that the English army was surrounded by the troops of Hyder Ali, the warlike prince of Mysore ; that their stores were nearly exhausted, and that a large French fleet had cut off all supplies ADVENTURES OF CAPTAIN WILSON. 261 by sea. Captain Wilson, at the request of the Governor of Madras, undertook to attempt a passage, with four store ships;, manned by black men, in order to save his countrymen from famine and captivity. He performed this perilous service with great skill and success, and arrived at the English camp with supplies, when the troops had only a little rice remaining. Captain Wilson continued, amid much danger and many narrow escapes, to carry supplies to the army ; but in one of his ventures, while in charge of a valuable cargo, he was taken prisoner by the French, and carried into Cuddalore, where he was given up, with three hundred other captives, to Hyder Ali for a large sum of money. "No sooner did the captain find himself exposed to the cruelty of the Indian prince, than he resolved to make his escape from a slavery worse than death. One evening, evading the guard, he contrived to reach the ramparts of the fort in which he was confined, along with his servant, a young Hindoo boy. In the darkness he could not tell the height of the wall, nor the depth of the river which ran below ; so, leaping at a venture, he alighted on his feet, but the shock was so great that he fell headlong into the river. By great exertions he recovered himself and landed; then, bidding the boy drop down, he caught him in his arms. " The subsequent journey, first marked by marvellous dangers and deliverances, and then by capture and suffering, has scarcely a parallel. Making his way across the dead level and numerous rivers of that part of India, swimming the streams with the boy upon his back, he at length reached the last and most dreaded obstacle between himself and liberty. This was the river Coloroon — a river full of alligators. Worn out, and almost fainting with previous efforts, he trembled as he gazed upon the broad rushing stream ; but the courage of despair and the love of freedom braced his nerves. He plunged into the foaming flood, which swept him swiftly towards the sea. How long he was hurried forward upon the current he never knew, for while swimming he either slept or swooned, but, strange to say, did not sink; and when his reason returned he found himself resting against the mast of a ship, or a tree which was 262 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. floating down the stream. Having reached the opposite shore, he flattered himself that his dangers were past, and his liberty secured. But, alas ! on ascending an eminence, to survey the surrounding country, he was perceived by some soldiers of Hyder Ali, who galloped towards him, seized him, stripped him naked, tied his hands behind his back, and, fastening a rope to them, drove him before them for many miles, under a burning sun, to their commander. When interrogated by one of the chieftains, he gave an account of his escape from the prison at Cuddalore ; but the commander exclaimed, ' That's a lie, as no man ever swam across the Coloroon ; for had he only dipped his finger in it, the alligators would have seized him.' Upon being convinced, however, of the fact, they all gazed with astonish- ment ; and, iiplifting his hands, the Turk exclaimed, ' This is God's man,' and so indeed he ultimately proved to be. " After this, as a punishment for his attempt to escape, he was chained to another prisoner ; and barefoot, naked, and wounded, was driven by brutal soldiers a distance of five hundred miles to Seringapatam. Some of his fellow-prisoners had pity upon his forlorn condition, and did what they could to supply his wants. One gave him a shirt, another a waistcoat,' and a third a pair of shoes. But the cruel guards at the first halting-place stripped him again, leaving only a small piece of cloth to wrap round his waist. In the various villages through which they passed, in this long and weary journey, he was placed under cover, as an object of curiosity, and exhibited to the country people, many of whom had never seen a white man before. There he was forced to present himself in all possible positions, and to display all the antics of which he was capable, in order to amuse the bystanders, so that his conductors might obtain money at the expense of their poor captive. " On arriving at the end of his journey, he was by day exposed to the scorching sun, and at night was thrust into a damp prison, without clothes, and almost without food. Here he was attacked by an alarming disease. Still his miserable condition did not soften the hearts of his guards towards him. They placed on him chains weighing thirty pounds, and at night he was fastened to a soldier. His bed was the earth ; a ADVENTUKES OF CAPTAIN WILSON. 263 few rags were thrown to him to wrap round his loins, and his daily portion of food was a pound of rice, which was so full of stones that he was compelled to swallow it whole. So great at times was the raging of hunger that his jaws snapped involun- tarily, when his scanty meal was brought to him. Often the corpse was unchained from his arm in the morning, that another living sufferer might take its place, and sink under the same merciless treatment. What he suffered cannot be described, ( but may be imagined, from the fact that, after twenty-two months' imprisonment, only thirty-two out of a hundred and fifty-three prisoners survived, the rest having miserably perished. Captain Wilson was reduced to the point of death ; and that he should have survived such accumulated miseries, for so long a period, was next to a miracle. "At length the monster Hyder Ali was subdued, and the doors of the black -hole were thrown open; when, emaciated, naked, half starved, and covered with ulcers, the few survivors escaped. Captain Wilson now made his way to Madras, and, through God's blessing on the kind care of his friends, was soon restored to his former health and spirits. After a short time he went again to sea, where other perils awaited him. At Bencoolen, in the ship which he commanded, every European, except himself, died after a few hours' illness. Although in deaths oft, he did not recognize the hand that preserved him. During one of his voyages he had a pious missionary on board, as a passenger; and the infidel principles, and the careless conduct of the captain so grieved the heart of the good man, that he said he had more hope of converting the Lascars to Christianity than of making any impression on him. "At length Captain Wilson had several successful voyages, and accumulated a good property. He then retired from a seafaring life, and settled near Portsea, where he was known, not only as a man of fashion and pleasure, but as a bold enemy to the Gospel of Christ. "One day, however, when dining with a friend, he met a minister, who engaged him in conversation on the subject of religion. To him Captain Wilson vauntingly said, — 'I have never met with a clergyman yet, and I have conversed with a few, that I could not foil in half an hour.' 264 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. "Notwithstanding this boast, an impression was made upon his mind ; and on the following Sunday he was seen, to the astonishment of all, to enter the house of God where the young minister was to preach. The sermon was on the compassion of the Saviour, and His willingness to receive and to save all who come to Him in faith. During this appeal tears fell from those eyes which had never wept before. From this hour the captain made the Bible his daily study ; and after an anxious struggle he declared himself a sincere believer, and became an eminent and devoted Christian. " He now sought opportunities of doing good ; and reading in the Evangelical Magazine that it was the intention of the London Missionary Society to send out a ship, he volunteered gratuitously to command it. Such an offer, from such a man, was received by all with wonder and delight. Many exclaimed, ' This is the Lord's doing ! ' and were more than ever encouraged in the great enterprise upon which they had entered. Thus sacrificing all the home comforts which he had gathered round him, he once more embarked upon the deep. "Space forbids, or we should like to follow him throughout his interesting voyage in the ship 'Duff' — the first sent out by the London Missionary Society, and the precursor of the ' John Williams.' But we can only say that he sailed in August, 1796, with thirty missionaries on board, who were safely conveyed to the Marquesan, Tahitian, and Friendly Islands. After a most successful voyage he returned home, having been absent about two years ; the missionaries having been settled, and everything having succeeded in accordance with the wishes of the directors and friends of the benevolent enterprise. ' This success,' says John Williams, 'in a great measure may be attributed to the skill of Captain Wilson, whom God raised up, and, by a series of events, almost without a parallel in the history of man, qualified to take charge of the expedition.' " Upon Captain Wilson's return to England he settled at Walworth, and became a member of the church at York Street, shortly after its formation. He was the first deacon elected, and was one of the trustees of the chapel. Having married the only daughter of Mr. Richard Ilolbert, he was appointed one of the executors to his will. SUCCESS AT WALWORTH. 265 "He appears to have suffered heavy affliction and losses, which he bore with submission and resignation to the will of God. His sight beginning to fail, he set himself to learn the more precious chapters of the Bible by heart, so that he might recall them, when unable to read. He derived much comfort from this course, and recommended it strongly to others. But the time of his departure was at hand, and he prepared himself to die. He was memorable in his eventful life, and remarkable in his triumphant death. On the 12th of August, 1814, at the comparatively early age of fifty-four, he departed this life, and his dying words were — " ' Triumphant now from sin and death, From law and curse secure ; Peaceful I yield my parting breath, And know my heaven is sure.' " ' Lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace : for mine eyes have seen thy salvation.' "His remains were interred in the family vault of the Holberts, near the vestry windows." Four new deacons were after this appointed, one of whom, Mr. Pelham Maitland, sustained the important office until his death, a period of thirty-two years. Still the congregation increased, so that although the place had been twice enlarged, seventy applicants for seats were waiting for accommodation. " Thus, in Judah, things went well." But Mr. Clayton and his family were not to enjoy the prosperity, with which God had visited them, with- out counterbalancing troubles. A family transaction, with which nobody on earth, save the members of that family, had anything to do, was, chiefly through the malignant conduct of one person — who, unfortunately, was a relative, and whose eccentric behaviour had for years been the subject of intense grief and vexation to his best friends — made the occasion of public notice and OGG THE CLAYTON FAMILY. slander; and the low arts of the scurrilous caricaturist and buffoon were called into requisition, to give point to that malignity, and pain to its victims. The thought- less public is ever too ready to welcome a high-spiced piece of gossip, especially if it be directed to any prominent and specially-successful person; and if he happen to belong to the ministerial order, the more acceptable are the accusations. Were it necessary to state all the facts of the case, in relation to this matter, those who have been unjustly branded with epithets, derogatory and humiliating, would be found to have acted as nobly and generously as they have been supposed to act mercenarily, and with selfish ends. It is best, however, that such things should await the revelations and justifications of another tribunal than that of man. " The day will declare it." Meanwhile, Mr. George Clayton was honestly and earnestly probing his own heart, in connexion with the duties of his office. Thus, in the autumn of 1816, he writes : — " When I lift up the veil from my heart, I am sickened and discouraged by a view of the abominations which disclose themselves. What a chamber of imagery ! What a cage of unclean birds ! What a sink of sin ! It requires some courage to look at such a mass of moral mischief as I carry within me ; so much pride, earthliness, and carnality ; so much unbelief, sinful fear, and instability, that I am ready to doubt whether the cure is begun. But this I am sure of, that I desire to be made whole. Lord, I throw myself at thy feet, just as I am ; earnestly entreating that thou wouldest make me what I should be. I long to find the rebellions of sin weakened, and the divine life growing stronger and stronger. I long to be what Christ is ; to be holy, as God is holy. "At the sacramental table I gave three items of advice, which I pray God to enable me to take to myself. Never to let the SECOND APOPLECTIC ATTACK. 267 world come in God's room ; to set apart some portion of every day to think on eternity ; and to shun the company that shuns God. These things, duly regarded, will administer to the growth of religion in my heart, with a supply of the Spirit of Jesus Christ. 0, my Saviour! withhold not that supply, I beseech thee. " When I look around, I am overpowered by a view of my mercies and comforts. I may say that God has ' comforted me on every side.' In my church I have abundant comfort : there all is harmony, peace, and love. No root of bitterness has yet sprung up to trouble us : no dissensions, no divisions are taking place, to weaken my hands and to grieve my heart. I trust God's blessed word is winning its way, and that the grace of the Holy Spirit is not withdrawn from us. My family, I bless God, is peaceful and happy. My beloved wife has been for some weeks in far better health than for several previous months ; my dearest child is improving in growth and educa- tion. My servants are dutiful and obliging, sober and diligent. My honoured parents are yet spared to me. My brothers and their families prosperous and happy. No discord or alienation amongst us ! " On January 16th, 1817, a repetition of the apoplectic attack occurred, while walking with his daughter near Hornchurch, where he was on a visit to his father. " Though the attack came upon me," he says, " without any sensible warning, yet I had a very marked preparation of mind for it ; something amounting to a presentiment of its approach. " An observation I made to my child, and a hymn which I was singing, afford me proof of this, in the recollection I have of the occurrence. Those words were peculiarly impressed on my mind, and had several times passed my lips : — '"A guilty, weak, and helpless worm, On thy kind arms I fall ; Be Thou my strength and righteousness, My Jesus, and my all.' At about twelve o'clock I actually did fall : whether in a species 208 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. of apoplexy or epilepsy, I know not — ' God knowcth.' ' He knoweth our frame, and rcmembcreth that we are dust.' "Here I would note the presence of my dear child, who, by God's ordination, was at my side, and was the instrument of procuring assistance. I might, but for this circumstance, have lain for hours — indeed till the spark of life itself had been extinguished. But ' the Lord was ready to save ; ' and she to whom I gave life, was the instrument ordained for the preser- vation of mine. " Being on a visit at my father-in-law's, was also a circum- stance I wish to record. In that house there were those to whom the sight of my sorrows and my supports, my affliction and the temper which, through divine grace, I was enabled to discover under it, will, I trust, be made useful. I pray God to own and override this providence, for so important an end ! Then shall I glory in my infirmities, if my fall should conduce, in the most distant way, to the rising again of some lost soul from the ruins of the first apostasy. "I cannot suffer to escape my notice the tender affection of my relatives ; the sympathy of my friends ; the prayers of my people ; the supports of the Spirit. My calmness has been unruffled through the whole scene ; and I have been enabled not only to acquiesce in, but even to approve and subscribe to, the dealings of God towards me. I trust I am humbly concerned for the sanctification of the event. I want to have Christ more endeared to me ; sin embittered ; earth renounced ; and my title to heaven insured. Lord, forbid that I should lose the benefit of this correction ! " When the thirteenth anniversary of his ordination service returned, he indulged in the following reflec- tions, which show that familiarity with ministerial duties, and the frequent discharge thereof, had not diminished his sense of their magnitude, nor led him to glide, unconsciously, into a perfunctory fulfilment of them : — " The Great Head of the church, the Shepherd and Bishop of souls, has permitted me to witness another anniversary of RETROSPECT. 269 my ordination to the pastoral office, among the beloved flock committed to my charge. I have held a day of abstinence ; and devote a few hours this evening to recollection, self-examina- tion, and prayer. I have now thirteen years to look back upon; and did my memory retain all the sins and failings which the book of God's remembrance records, I should be over- whelmed with shame, despair, and sorrow. Of those high duties which pertain to the Christian ministry, how many have been wholly omitted, and how many imperfectly performed ! ' Enter not into judgment with thy servant, O Lord ! Mark with strictness my errors and offences, and I am undone.' " I grieve to think of the muddiness of my motives, the slowness of my progress, and the coldness of my affections towards Christ, His kingdom, and the soids of men ; and the miserable lack of personal holiness and spirituality. How just were it in the holy Lord God to take the word of truth utterly out of my mouth. O, my soul ! burdened with these recollec- tions, haste thee to the cross of Jesus, and to the footstool of a forgiving God ! Pardon, pardon, thou most gracious Father, the official delinquencies of thirteen years! If penitential confession takes the lead, in the sensations which pervade *my bosom, admiring, adoring gratitude is impatient to pour forth her tribute of praise, at the altar of God. What shall I render for the strength afforded me; for the harmony and love sub- sisting between me and the dear people of my charge ; for the many proofs of a divine blessing on my labours ? Lord, why me? That I should have maintained my standing for these years, is a wonderful evidence of rich, free, and sovereign grace. " I have been perusing my ordination service ; and I thank my gracious Master that I have not yet renounced my chosen office ; nor sacrificed the truths I engaged to preach ; nor become indifferent to the souls committed to my charge. I continue to this day, testifying both to small and great, that Christ is all and in all, the Alpha and the Omega. I thank God that I have lived to this hour in all good conscience ; and that none can accuse me of riot, injustice, falsehood, or even, to my knowledge, of intentional unkindness. I have had a large share of prosperity and public favour, and these have a tendency 270 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. unduly to elevate. But God, by various dispensations, is labouring to keep me humble, and to show me the vileness of my own heart. Alas ! in many respects have I a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to buffet and to humble me. Lord, sanctify, if thou dost not remove it, and let thy grace be sufficient for me ! " Help me, Lord, now to set out afresh ; and to aim at a more diligent, circumspect, zealous, and affectionate discharge of pastoral duties. Give me strength according to my day, whether that day be longer or shorter. Unable to look into futurity, I am sensible that my Lord's coming may be near. May I stand prepared ; and receive the notice of His approach with firmness and with joy ! " I wish especially to commend my people to the benediction of the Great Head of the church. The young, the aged, the rich, and the poor ; my friends and benefactors ; my enemies and revilers ; I beseech thee, Lord, to think on them for good. Amen. " June 7th, 1817." About this time, he entered upon the occupation of Manor House, Walworth ; with gratefulness of heart to God, for the comforts and advantages which such a home afforded him, and with earnest desires that no multiplication of earthly benefits should be permitted to wean his soul from his Saviour. On his thirty-fifth birthday, when — as had been his custom, every year, on the return of that day — he sought the privacy of his study, for communion with God, his chief thought and prayer were in relation to the honour of his Master, so far as that was connected with his consistency, as a minister of Christ. "I often fear," he says, "lest I should be left, in the sequel of my days, to dishonour God, and wound His blessed Gospel : and yet I think I can say that no thought of any possible calamity is so pungently distressing to me as this. No loss of property ; no bereavement of friends ; no decay of health ; no MINISTEKIAL DANGEKS. 271 form of death imprints on my heart so much of terror and grief, as the idea of grieving the Spirit ; crucifying afresh the Lord of glory ; and disgracing the Gospel I have so long preached. May God forbid it, for His name and mercy's sake ! " Lord, in the faith of the covenant, and of thy Son's blood, I now commit myself to thee ; praying for a large measure of the Spirit's grace, to keep me near thee and for thee ; that I may be spared and acknowledged to be thine, in the day of thy dear Son's appearing. Amen. "April 9th, 1818." And thus he recognizes " Ministerial Dangers :" — " for a closer walk with God ! I see plainly that a man may be much engaged in keeping the vineyards of others, while his own is neglected. He may go from place to place, preaching, praying, speaking, instructing, and warning others ; exciting the zeal and liberality of the Christian public, and yet be deceiving and neglecting his own soul ; and beating out a pathway, through the sanctuary and its services, through the Bible and the plans of dispersing it abroad, to the damnation of hell, the blackness of darkness for ever ! my God, think upon me for good ! If one of the ancients exclaimed, ' In Ileitis perimus /' what will become of those who will find it to be their motto, ' In sacris perimus !' " In 1819, his parents, who began to feel the gradual approach of old age, and were by the marriage of their daughter, Mrs. Janson, left alone, came to reside with their second son, at Walworth. Mrs. Clayton's total deafness rendered her position exceedingly painful and dependent; and made it necessary that some one interested in her welfare should be at hand, — when Mr. Clayton by his public duties was necessarily absent, — who might, with due authority, direct or advise. As Manor House was capacious enough for the two families, and the son and his wife were supremely desirous to minister to the comfort and necessaries of their aged parents, this arrangement was mutually X', \> THE CLAYTON FAMILY. acceptable ; and continued until Mr. and Mrs. Clayton retired to their country residence at Gaines, near Upminster, in Essex. All this time, Mr. Clayton was not only labouring with great assiduity at Walworth, but giving much of his time and thought to extra-pastoral services. He, for many years, held the post of one of the secretaries of the Southwark Bible Society ; and in the service of the parent institution, as well as in order to aid the churches of his own and other denominations, at anniversaries, ordinations, &c, he was frequently from home; always carrying with him, and leaving behind him, a hallowed influence; and permitted at different places and seasons to be the honoured instrument in the conversion of souls. In April, 1820, the present spacious chapel at Above Bar, Southampton, erected to accommodate the increasing congregation attending the ministry of the Rev. T. Adkins, was opened for public worship; and once more Mr. George Clayton found himself among the attached people, in the midst of whom his earliest ministerial labours had been passed. He was invited, with Mr. Jay, of Bath, to preach one of the sermons on the day of opening; and this pleasing duty he performed, discoursing from 1 Kings ix. 3 : "I have hallowed this house, which thou hast built, to put my name there for ever." As he had been blessed at Walworth, so had his successor at Southampton; and each had the most satisfactory evidences that he had chosen his proper sphere of action. In 1821, he preached the annual missionary sermon for the London Missionary Society, at Surrey chapel, from the text, Ephesians ii. 11, 12: "Wherefore remember, that at that time ye were without Christ." MISSIONARY SERMON. 273 One extract from this sermon will suffice to convey a general idea of his usual style of £>reaching : — " The circumstances which marked the origin and birth of the London Missionary Society, are such as, in my judgment, ought never to be forgotten. At a moment when infidel philosophy had succeeded in prostrating the human understand- ing, and demoralizing the human heart, and in producing a general convulsion amongst the nations of the European conti- nent ; when thrones were shaken, and sceptres tossed as feathers on the billowy breeze ; when political changes were arising, with a succession so rapid as to perplex the wisest, and confound the most experienced observers ; and when the eyes of all were fastened on the awful drama of revolutionary devastation ; then arose, in the metropolis of Britain, that spiritual confederacy, of which it was the sole and simple object, to give a more universal extension to the Gospel of Christ, and thus to bring glory to God in the highest, to restore on earth peace, and establish good will among men. Then, amidst 'distress of nations with perplexity ; the sea and the waves roaring, and while the hearts of men were failing them for fear, and for looking after those things that were coming on the earth/ did this rainbow of mercy appear in the clouds. All who piously and attentively beheld these things, laid them up in their hearts, saying, ' What manner of child shall this be, rocked by the tempest, and cradled in the storm?' From a birth so portentous, much might be expected, and the event has more than realized the expectations which were formed. Forcing the consideration of the wise and good, from themes of secular and sublunary interest, all men were invited to apply, with increased energy and united strength, the only remedy for human corruption and human wretchedness. ' Come/ said this society, ' behold the works of the Lord, what desolations He hath made in the earth. He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth ; He breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder ; He burneth the chariot in the fire. Be still, and know that I am God : I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. The Lord of hosts is with us ; the God of Jacob is our refuge.' " 274 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Year after year he records, with gratitude, the continued success of his preaching at York Street, and the peace of his church ; and once more, and for the third time, the idea of enlargement was started among the people, and was soon after embodied in action. In the meanwhile, as Mr. Clayton's parents had resolved to live in their own house at Gaines, Mr. George Clayton was not desirous to continue his large establishment at Manor House, where for four years he had resided. A favourable opportunity presented itself of disposing of the property ; and having purchased an estate in Essex, bordering upon his father's, he designed to make that the place of his residence; arranging for being certain days in town, to attend to his pulpit and pastoral engagements ; and, in the summer of 1821, he, too, took up his abode at Gaines. Visits to Southampton, the Isle of Wight, and to Bristol, where he had the gratification of an interview with Mrs. Hannah More, made the summer of 1821 a delightful time of recreation. This was followed by the reopening of the chapel, after the third enlargement, by which an addition of from four to five hundred sittings was made. Notwithstanding this great excess of accommodation, the place very soon again became filled. Chapter Xm. REV. GEORGE CLAYTON. -1823-1834. RETURN TO LONDON. — MEDITATION ON THE THRESHOLD OF A NEW TEAR. — PASTORAL DESIRES. — REMARKABLE DELIVERANCE FROM DEATH.— LESSONS LEARNED FROM THE EVENT. — DEATH OF MR. JANSON. — LOVE OF RETIREMENT. — RETROSPECT OF TWENTY-ONE YEARS' MINISTRY. — CURIOUS DREAM. — DOMESTIC SORROW. — DANGERS OF WEALTH.— SUCCESS AT YORK STREET. — REV. R. KNILL. — THE BISHOP OF WINCHESTER. The change, which Mr. George Clayton had made from Walworth to Gaines, was found so inconvenient, that he was obliged to return to town; and his sister and her husband became the tenants of his surrendered dwelling. He had greatly enjoyed the quiet and retire- ment of the country; but as the facilities of modern travelling did not exist then, as now, it became impos- sible for him to keep up the pastorate at Walworth, and continue to reside at a distance of nearly twenty miles from his people. It was with reluctance, and yet submission to the divine will, he tore himself away from a spot to which, though his enjoyment of it was but a brief one, he had become strongly attached. He now went to live at Heme Hill; with a growing conviction, forced on him by these repeated changes, of the instability of all earthly positions and comforts. Thus, on the threshold of the new year, 1823, he writes : — " Another year of this mortal pilgrimage has flown away ; and, on its rapid pinion, has conducted me into a new period of time. The year 1822 has retired for ever, and given way to 1823. A new scene of things opens; and it becomes every 276 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. thoughtful, every serious mind, — it peculiarly becomes me, as a professor of Christianity, as a minister of the Gospel, — to pause, to reflect, to weep, to pray, to praise. " In the midst of official duties it is possible for the thoughts to be so far distracted and dissipated, as to give little oppor- tunity for collected, fixed, and salutary meditation, on the great points which belong to personal religion. And, alas ! how poor, how sad a thing is it, to be preaching to others, and praying for others, if one should neglect preaching to his own heart, and crying mightily unto God, for his own individual salvation ! If the great apostle of the Gentiles represents it as a possible thing that, after having preached to others, he might himself be cast away, how much more may I fear ! " ' Lord, let not all my hopes be vain, Create my heart entirely new, Which hypocrites could ne'er attain, Which false apostates never knew.' "Lord, I lay open my heart under thine all-seeing eye. I invite and entreat thine inspection and thy scrutiny. ' Search me and try me, and see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting ! ' Have I been losing ground, or advancing, in the year that is past ? Is salvation nearer, or is it more distant? Which way am I travelling? To what o-oal tending? To heaven, or to hell? God forbid that I should deceive myself with vain words, or with delusive sophistries. Lord God! enable me to deal honestly with myself, and to remember that — " ' Nothing but truth before thy throne With honour can appear.' " May I hope that my state is described in these words, ' faint, yet pursuing'? I trust I have not lost sight of the prize of my high calling. Jesus is precious to my soul. The savour of His priestly anointing is sweetly fragrant and reviving. His glory is, in some degree at least, my aim; and nothing is nearer to my heart than to realize, in my own experience and conduct, that apostolic saying, ' For me to live is Christ,' and to add, when I am summoned hence, ' to die is gain.' OBJECTS OF THE MINISTKY. 277 " It is still a day of conflict with me, though the ground of the contention is somewhat changed. Now it is from the things of the world — anxieties, plannings, distrustful jealousies, complacent thoughts in and about the objects of this perishing state ! The enemy has come in as a flood, with the pleas of lawfulness, necessity, prudence, foresight of probable evils ; and my soul has been darkened, defiled, and disturbed. O Lord Jesus, preserve me from a worldly spirit, from a disproportion- ate musing, and a fruitless poring over earthly things ! May I ever keep them in a subordinate place, yea, very subordinate ; and have grace given me so to pass through things temporal as not finally to lose those which are eternal. " O for a contrite spirit, a holy courage, a fervent faith, a more expansive charity ; — even that love which is the fulfilling of the law ! "Uncertain what events this year will develop, I desire to seek preparation for God's holy will in all things. For scenes more shadowed, or more joyous ; for the smoother or rougher passages of the journey, Lord, give me the Holy Spirit for my guide ; and then shall I be prepared to travel, to combat, to suffer, to enjoy, to live or to die. Amen and Amen." A lengthened continuance in his work did not diminish his sense of its importance and responsibility, as the following extract of the objects of his ministry will prove : — " What am I really proposing to myself, in the labours of my ministry ? Fame or wealth, ease and popularity ? I trust my conscience qualifies me to give a decided negative as to these points. To seek out the lost sheep of Christ ; to feed the lambs ; to defend the truths of God's holy Word and Gospel; to promote faith and holiness, zeal and usefulness, in the people of my care ;- — these are the points at which I desire to be continually aiming. Yet, how far short am I daily coming of the mark proposed ! Dear Jesus, raise me higher ! Am I living under realizing and awful impressions of judgment and eternity ? Life ; — how short ! Eternity ; — how overwhelming ! What loud and impressive calls are continually made upon us ! 278 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. How soon must the curtain drop, which will hide us from the view of all the living ! " How earnestly he pleaded for his people, in the silence of his own closet, let the following show : — " Through the favour of an indulgent Providence, I have an allotted season of solitude. My numerous public engagements have taught me the high value of religious retirement. I love to be alone ; and trust that I can say, with truth and sincerity, that I am never less alone than when alone. Yet have I deeply to lament the wanderings of a truant heart ; and feel that when T would do good, evil is present with me. Lord, let thy good Spirit help my infirmities, and be my Teacher, Guide, and Comforter. " This is to me a day which deserves to be particularly marked, inasmuch as I have been engaged in improving the death of an aged and much-loved officer of the church, of which I am appointed the overseer. For more than nine years he has gone in and out before us ; and during that space of time he has been very pleasant, very helpful, and very orna- mental, in his relation to myself and my people. I desire now to bless God for his coming amongst us, and for his having been preserved to a good old age, — even as long as he could enjoy good, and do good. His end was most tranquil, and marked by a heavenly composure. "Never may I forget the hallowed chamber from which his spirit fled — 'just on the verge of heaven.' that I may ' die the death of the righteous, and that my last end may be like his.' His dying words formed the text of his funeral discourse, — ' My portion for ever ! ' O Lord Jesus, who hast graciously condescended to be the portion of our souls, grant that we may ever make up our whole happiness in thee ; and never seek a portion in anything else ! " The death of our dear friend makes it imperative that the church should be called on to elect and appoint other officers, to fill up the vacancies which have been made in our number by death, or removal, or resignation. On this occasion, I would set myself to seek the Lord and Head of the church, by prayer TASTOEAL DESIRES. 279 fasting, and earnest intercession ; entreating Him, for His mercies' sake, to guide us by His wisdom, to preserve us from all discrepancy of judgment, and collision of feeling; and to cause the Spirit of peace and love to abide and remain amongst us. "Lord! I deeply feel how justly Thou mightest come out of thy place, to punish us for our carelessness, coldness, and unfruitfulness. For my own personal sins and miscarriages Thou mightest, indeed, enter into judgment, and scatter us one from another, and leave us neither root nor branch. But thy mercies are great ; and, casting myself at thy feet, in humble prostration, I desire to entreat for myself and my beloved flock, pardon, purity, direction, and assistance. Leave us not, I pray thee, Lord, for thy name's sake. Satan, that roaring- lion, envies our prosperity, and would exult in our ruin. Destroy him ; cast him down ; let him fall by his own counsels ! " Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, the God upon whom, as a people, our hopes and our happiness are exclusively built, send the Spirit of thy Son into our hearts ; and may we consult only thine honour, and the good of thy body, the church. " Let no root of bitterness, springing up, trouble us — no root that beareth wormwood and gall. Let those be chosen and appointed who shall approve themselves ; men of prudence* piety, zeal, and kindness. My time is fast wearing away, and soon must I stand before the judgment-seat of Christ. O keep me humble, teachable, faithful, and zealous ; yea, faithful unto death, that I may receive the crown of life. O Jesus, my adored Master, whom I so unworthily serve, meet us when we are assembled in thy name ; and let the Spirit of truth and peace and love be in the midst of us, now and for ever ! " At the close of the year 1823, Mr. George Clayton, indulging in those meditations, which were so sought after and prized by him, penned some sentences in his diary, which, taken in connexion with what in a short time happened to him, and which is about to be narrated, seem to be singularly and strikingly antici- patory of a critical event in his history. He had been preaching, at the last Sabbath service 280 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. of the year, from the words, Ezekiel xii. 97 : " They say, The vision that he seeth is for many days to come, and he prophesieth of the times that are far off." From this text he discoursed on the minister's duty, and the sinner's surmise ; pointing out the fallacy of the in- sinuation, that the things of eternity are to be con- sidered as distant; — and showing that, if they were, it would detract nothing from their importance and solemnity ; but that in point of fact they are ever near at hand, — because life is short, and uncertain ; — every rolling year bringing them into nearer view; and many of our kindred and friends having already been brought into immediate contact with them. He explained that the indications of decay in our own persons supply a refutation to the idea; and that whenever eternity approaches, it will burst upon us with amazing sudden- ness and solemnity. In his reflection on this sermon he says : — "O the felicity of those who are prepared to meet this incomprehensible eternity which stretches out before us ! Lord, I beseech thee to bring these reflections home to my soul, that I may feel and improve them ; and walk evermore, as surrounded by invisible and eternal realities. How uncertain is all that is before me ! — that is, so far as I am concerned. All is known to God perfectly ; and is not that enough for me to know ? Help me, Lord, to cast all my care upon Him that careth for me ; and let my mind be evermore held in sweet content, and a full complacence with all thy holy, perfect, and righteous will." It was on the following Saturday, April 3rd, that he left home for the city; and having occasion to take a boat, in order to cross the river Thames, he was in the act of stepping on board, when he was suddenly seized with a fit; and, in a state of perfect unconsciousness, fell into the water. For a few moments he disappeared DELIVERANCE FROM DEATH. 281 from view; and when again he rose to the surface, it was close to the bow of a barge, that lay moored near the spot where he fell ; and underneath this the rapidity of the current bore him, a second time, from the sight of the bystanders, who set up a cry of horror and alarm. For a few seconds, the boatman who had been about to receive Mr. Clayton, as a passenger, stood almost paralyzed, on the brink of the river; but at length regaining his senses, and fully alive to the peril of the stranger, he leaped on board, and seizing a boat-hook that lay at the stern of his wherry, he thrust it under the barge, without any distinct idea of the exact position of the drowning man. Most providentially, he caught some portion of Mr. Clayton's dress, by means of which he was drawn out of the water ; and, with the assistance of others, brought, though perfectly senseless, on shore. He was immediately taken to a neighbouring house, and a medical man being sent for, the usual restoratives were applied, which, with the divine blessing, were at length successful in reproducing consciousness. After remaining a short time under the roof of his hospitable entertainers, and suitable clothing having been provided, he was able to return to his own home ; being the first to inform his family of his imminent peril, and most remarkable preservation. The next day was the Sabbath ; and fearing that the shock which he had received from the fit, and the immersion in the water, would incapacitate him for preaching, he tried to get a supply for his pulpit. But he failed in his efforts to obtain help ; and had to conduct the whole of the service himself, including the administration of the Lord's supper. To his great surprise, he was enabled to perform his duties without any perceptible diminution of energy, and with great 2S2 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. satisfaction to his people ; who participated in their minister's gratitude, for the sparing mercy which had been vouchsafed to him. He had never before been so near the eternal world, and the circumstance naturally produced the deepest impressions on his mind. His fortieth birthday, which happened within a week from his merciful deliverance, was to him an unusually heart-searching season. Every year, this was a day set apart for special meditation and prayer; but this time he felt it to be one of the most solemn he had ever known. " Drawn out of the water," he writes, " it seems like another birth into the land of the living; and I bless God for the renewal of life, reason, sensation, and the capacity for continued usefulness. " ' That life which Thou hast made thy care, Lord, I devote to thee.' " My marvellous preservation has been followed already by some consequences, which, lead me to hope that I may appro- priate the language of David, 'It is good for me that I have been afflicted.' I have smarted under a discipline which I trust has been profitable. It has lowered and abased me even to the dust. It has quickened the sense of my dependence on God. It has shown me the vanity and emptiness of earth. It has led me to a renewed consecration of my restored faculties to God. It has awakened my sympathies towards others who suffer adversity. It has strengthened my purpose of a vigorous and concentrated effort, to secure the great ends of my pastoral office. It has led me to cast all my cares and devolve all my interests upon my covenant God ; and I can say that I would not, on any account, have missed this heavenly correction." He was desirous not only to derive instruction himself from this occurrence, but, as the subjoined extract shows, he strove to make it the occasion of promoting the good of others : — DEATH OF MR. JANSON. 283 " The casual introduction I had to a young medical practi- tioner, in consequence of niy attack, will, I hope, lead on to some important results. I find him well read and clever ; apparently modest, and open to conviction. But with all this he is tinctured (alas ! and pretty strongly) with sceptical opinions. Lord God of the spirits of all flesh, I humbly and earnestly approach thy throne for this young man ! Let his life be much set by, in thy sight ! I now present my petition for the life of his soul. Give me this soul, and I shall glory in my infirmities, that they should have given opportunity to the exertion of the power of Christ in his salvation. May He who called Luke, the beloved physician, call this medical practitioner to Christianity, to hope, to heaven, and to God ! Lord, give me wisdom to treat with him, and earnestness to plead with him, and firmness to defend thy cause, without fear or shame !" The death of his brother-in-law, Mr. Janson, occurred at this time ; and Mr. Clayton records the impression produced on his mind by the funeral solemnities which accompanied his interment ; and which were carried out in accordance with those usually observed by the Society of Friends, of which community Mr. Janson was a member. They were noticeable for their simplicity; and the occasion was marked by the thoroughly evan- gelical character of the addresses delivered by Mrs. Fry and her brother, Mr. Joseph John Gurney. Some years passed on in the usual routine of duty; public engagements still crowding in upon him, and requests made for services, which it was more easy to fulfil than to refuse ; but ever was his heart craving for more quiet, and less publicity ; a desire with which many of those most occupied can sympathize ; but who know not how to secure it, compatibly with what are felt to be the claims of God and His church upon them. Thus he writes : — 284 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. " How sweet are these recollective hours, at the close of the day, — of the Lord's day, — at the termination of the active labours of the sanctuary ! I have been, for these two hours, in perfect solitude. My beloved wife and daughter from home ; my servants gone to public worship ; myself left alone, to listen to the voice of the Lord, in the cool of the day ; to catch the utterances of that blood which speaketh ; to interpret the whispers of the still small voice, which are best heard when no other sound is stirring. O wondrous mercy, that God will grant these manifestations to worms ! to dust and ashes ! Though I have never improved seclusion as I ought, nor sought it as I ought, I do most truly love and prize it ; and can say that I am never ha]3pier than when alone, and drawing near to the Lord my Redeemer. Lord, be with me in every solitary hour ; and especially when, all alone, I shall cross that Jordan, on whose banks I have already sown too many thorns, whose sharp points can only be blunted by a free, a full, an irrevocable pardon ! " A retrospect of tlie ministry of twenty-one years led to these reflections : — "On the whole, though condemned, absolutely condemned, on other points, I do feel that, in my preaching, to do good has been my constant aim and habitual desire ; and it would be contrary to honesty were I to affirm that I had not, to the best of my knowledge, from the beginning, preached the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Yet am I greatly abashed, in my own eyes, because of innumerable sins and miscarriages which have beset me, through my whole course. Pride, and worldliness, and self-seeking, and undue regard to man, and too little dependence on God, — these are the things which humble, and abase, and confound me. I have therefore chastened my soul before God, on account of the sins of thrice seven years. I have fled to the cross of the adorable Redeemer, for pardoning mercy, and cleansing blood. I have sought a renewed outpouring of the Holy Spirit upon myself, and my beloved flock ; and I shall now in humble confidence wait the fulfilment of the promise, and the answer of my prayers. PREMONITIONS. 285 i Lord, ' cast me not away from thy presence, and take not thy Holy Spirit from me ! ' "The gratitude I owe is, beyond expression, great. How thankful ought I to be for the measure of health and strength vouchsafed to me ; for the help, intellectual and spiritual, communicated to me ; for the pleasing tokens of success in the conversion and edification of souls ; for the harmony of the church ; for the degree of purity in doctrines and morals which, I trust, is to be found with us ; for the increase of our numbers ; and the enlargement of our borders ! I am less than the least of all thy mercies, yet Thou thinkest upon me. "Many are the sinful fears, and God-dishonouring doubts, which have thrust themselves upon me ; but I have bade them depart, in the name of the Lord. ' Because Thou hast been my help,. therefore in the shadow of thy wings will I trust.' "Finally, I renew the dedication, entire and unreserved, to God and my people. I have no one wish but to serve my Redeemer while I have any being; where, as long, and in whatever form He may appoint. But with my dear people I hope I shall be associated, until death shall call me home. that we may stand in the presence of the Lamb, when earth and skies are fled ; and pass our immortality in His service, and in His smile ! Amen and Amen." It is not an uncommon thing for persons of strong imaginativeness, when any unusual occurrence happens, that has been preceded by certain thoughts and feelings, which aftenvards appeared premonitory of the occur- rence, instantly to infer that there was a necessary connexion between such supposed premonitions and the fact; and this is often referred to, as confirmatory of the semi-superstitious notion, which is more preva- lent than is imagined, that to some persons a species of preternatural intimation or warning is given, of an approaching calamity, or a descending favour — generally the former — so that the mind may be, to a certain extent, prepared for it. " Coming events," the proverb 28 6 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. tells us, " cast their shadows before ; " and these are deemed, by those who hold the opinions now animad- verted on, sufficient in importance to w r arrant these preparatory warnings ; although it is frequently found, on looking at the occurrences which are presumed to be foreshadowed, that they are often of so insigni- iicant, and sometimes of so ridiculous, a nature, that one marvels they should ever have been deemed de- serving of any pre- announcement, that seems to involve a violation of the usual order of things. If the Hora- tian advice to the poet — " Nee Deus intersit, nisi digmis vindice nodus Incident," be a judicious one, its soundness is certainly questioned by those who imagine it to be necessary that super- natural machinery should be put into motion for even the most trivial ends. But such good people do not tell us of the many cases, where there have been as vivid apprehensions and premonitions as those of which they speak ; which had, however, no sequel like that which is said to have befallen them. Perhaps, therefore, it was not amiss in Mr. George Clayton to record the following incident, which, in after days, he could look back upon, as correcting any over-credulous tendencies of which he might be the subject : — " I am not given to superstitious imaginings ; but last night, on my bed, just as my eyelids were closed in sleep, I liad a sort of disturbed vision of the image of my dear wife, by the curtain nearest the window. She seemed to be hastily retreating from the bed, when I made a strenuous effort, as I thought, to retain her, but she as forcibly disengaged herself, and suddenly vanished. I looked in her wonted place, and thought I missed her ; and not till I had put my hand upon her forehead, did I feel convinced that she was slumbering by my side. I do not DOMESTIC SOEKOW. 287 in reality attach anything of importance to this circumstance ; but it was altogether so strongly charactered, and productive of so powerful an effect of dread and solicitude on my spirit, that I thought it right to note it, whether it may or may not be followed by any remarkable results. She had, I thank God, been unusually well through the whole winter, more than for many antecedent years ; so that there is no reason to apprehend anything ominous in the occurrence, though for the grounds above stated I have recorded it in this place." At the close of 1829, a dark shadow overspread Mr. George Clayton's household, in the affliction of mind that overtook his only child ; " the result," he says, " of a highly-wrought sensitiveness of mental temperament, and of a severe nervous affliction," similar to that with which her mother had been assailed at the same age ; and who was then the subject of a depression so great, that it " threatened to unseat reason from her throne." In the latter case, however, the merciful interposition of God averted the calamity; in the former it had not so gracious a termination. Fever, languor, and nervous debility, were of constant con- tinuance; and an unaccountable and perpetual silence, for some time, sealed the lips of the suffering one. Change of scene and society were tried, but in vain ; a temporary restoration being soon followed by a relapse. This trouble was the father's thorn in the flesh, that was not to depart from him ; although he besought the Lord often, and with strong crying and tears, for this longed-for mercy. It became the skeleton of the house, whose presence told of the death of the fondest hopes and expectations, and dimmed the brightness of the flame of domestic enjoyment. The weeping ones could only bow the head, with meek submissiveness to the dark and inexplicable dispensation, and say, " It is the 288 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Lord : let Him do what seemeth Him good ; " and from Him who had smitten them came the assurance, which was abundantly realized, " My grace is sufficient for thee : for my strength is made perfect in weakness." With this brief reference to a sacred sorrow, which wrung the heart of the parents with unutterable anguish, but which was attended with the most sanc- tified results, the hand of the biographer must draw the curtain reverently over this mournful domestic scene. God, who sent this affliction to the father, sent compensating comforts in his pastoral relationships ; so that on the twenty-sixth anniversary of his settlement at Walworth he writes : — " It is now twenty-six years since, by the providence of God, I was placed in the pastorate here. Through how many changes, trials, duties, temptations, and sorrows, have I been conducted ; and what a miracle of mercy and grace do I appear to myself at this moment ! I desire to give myself over, this evening, to a sort of pastoral scrutiny of my own heart and life. I would search and try my ways, as in the sight of Almighty God. 11 Pastoral humiliation, very deep and submissive, much becomes me, in the presence of my great Master. for a contrite heart, to mourn over my ministerial faults and mis- carriages ! I see such lamentable defects of motive, effort, and action, that if I were to spend twenty-six years in weeping over the sins of the twenty-six years that are gone, it might well befit so sinful and so unprofitable a servant as I. ' Lord, enter not into judgment with me.' I feel that I have done nothing well ; that evil has been mixed with all the good ; that I have not done half that I might for the beloved people of my charge, many of whom have passed into eternity, and I must meet them at the judgment-seat of Christ. Lord ! let it not appear that any have been lost through my negligence, cold- ness, or unfaithfulness. ' Deliver me from bloodguiltincss, Q-od thou God of my salvation ! ' If the atonement, which I PASTORAL RECOLLECTIONS. 289 recommend in my preaching, were not prepared for the priests, as well as the people, woe, woe unto me ! ' " ' Jesus, my God, thy blood alone Hath power sufficient to atone ; Thy blood can make me white as snow : No Jewish types could cleanse me so.' " Pastoral gratitude becomes me : for I seriously question whether any minister, in any age, or any country, has had so much to be thankful for, as myself. In the peace, in the increase, in the kindness and sympathy of my flock ; in their prayers, and in their fruitfulness, I have very much to be thankful for. O Lord, what shall I render ? I am ' lost in wonder, love, and praise.' "Pastoral dedication and renewed consecration form the desire of my soul, on this solemn occasion. Here, " ' Lord, I give myself away ; "lis all that I can do.' Take me, purify me, use me for thy glory. ' Here am I, send me ! ' "Pastoral resolution shall mark this day; for I would be more entirely given up to the good of the people, and the glory of Jesus, my Lord. I will, in His strength, aim to do more, and to do better, than I have yet done. "Pastoral hope shall come in, to crown the whole. Wilt Thou not go with me, and bless me ? Yes ; bless me, more abundantly than ever. I ask much ; I expect much ; for I know who is ' able to do exceeding abundantly above all I can ask or think.' Lord, do as Thou hast said. " It has been a day of clouds and darkness, as to my dear daughter ; the domestic horizon has been quite obscured ; but I commit all to God. " ' We, through the cloud, believe thy grace, Secure of thy compassions still.' " This week we set out on an excursion to Bath, Bristol, and Ireland. Lord, if thy presence go not with us, carry us not up hence. In the whole of our journey do Thou go with us ; bless us ; keep us ; and give us peace. I woidd stand prepared, u 290 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. by faith in Jesus, for every event ; for pain or pleasure ; life or death ; usefulness in time, or blessedness in eternity. Number me, Lord, among the righteous, and then all shall be well with me, both now and for ever. Amen. " Saturday evening, June 6th, 1830." It was with a subdued spirit he received the strokes which his heavenly Father laid upon him, and kissed the rod that was chastening him. His desire was earnest and fervent, that all might tend to the growth of personal holiness, and ministerial effectiveness. " I bless God," he says, " that I am kept from murmuring ; that I am enabled to see His hand in all these things ; and to hope that it is the hand of a Father ; that I can say, ' Not my will but thine be done;' and am assisted, through all the superincumbent gloom, to wait, and hope, and pray. I do not, I dare not, I cannot despair. For God, my God, is wise and powerful, gracious and kind. He cannot err. He cannot injure. Nothing can confound, or perplex, or disconcert Him. Without a God in Christ, I should despair, and even die ; but ' the Lord is my light and my salvation ' — my hope, my rest, my joy. " My prevailing wish is the entire sanctification of the afflic- tion to us all ; that sin may be detected, embittered, confessed, pardoned, and forsaken. Lord, let the fruit of all be the taking away of sin ! "May Jesus be more endeared in His sympathy, power, and promise ; and the Holy Spirit more sought after and enjoyed, as a Comforter, Purifier, and Deliverer. I pant for holiness ; and long for higher measures of conformity to the blessed Lord, my Saviour. to have a heart wholly absorbed, and taken up in and with Him ! " A missionary deputation tour, in Wales, and some of the western counties of England, in company with Mr. George Bennett, who, with the Rev. D. Tyerman, had visited several of the stations, belonging to the London Missionary Society, in India, China, and the DANGERS OF WEALTH. 291 South Seas, was a refreshing relief to the cares and anxieties attendant upon his domestic sorrows. The effect of these cares upon his own spirituality was most marked. His diary, on almost every page, reveals that God was maturing the piety of His servant, by subjecting him to the fiery processes of personal and relative affliction. He came forth as gold ; and his people, as well as himself, were rich gainers by the occurrence of these divine providences. The power and unction of his public ministrations were never so manifest as at this crisis in his affairs. It was at this time, that certain unlooked-for circum- stances happened, by which his position was materially changed, as to " this world's good." But the danger which might have resulted from unexpected affluence, and of which he was not ignorant, was to a great extent prevented by the severe trial appointed to him. Before he carried more sail aloft, the vessel was ballasted with a heavy weight of secret trouble ; and if his course was not quite so swift and triumphant as otherwise it might have been, it became safer to all who were on board the bark. Most mistaken notions had, for years, been enter- tained of his means ; and of course rumour, with her hundred tongues, was ever ready to magnify his posses- sions; yet, when approaching fifty years of age, he could say, — " I have, from the period of my marriage, been comparatively poor, though seeming, and accounted of, as though I rolled in abundance. A competent liveli- hood, with many, and great, and undeserved mercies, I have most gratefully to acknowledge ; but I have never been entirely free from incumbrance, while striving ever to keep within my limited resources." When, there- fore, through the operation of providential events, he 292 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. became a steward, to whom was committed a much larger amount of his Lord's substance than he had ever before possessed, he could say, — "God is my witness that I looked forward to this time with fear and trembling. An accession of wealth will tell very materially on my personal religion ; on my domestic appoint- ments ; on my public exertions ; on my ministry in the church. O Lord, grant that it may tell advantageously and usefully, in all these respects ; and give what Thou wilt, or withhold what Thou wilt, only give thy servant a wise and understanding- heart ; with more of humility, faith, zeal, love, disinterestedness, heavenly-mindedness, superiority to this world, and assurance of blessedness in the next. Without this augmentation of spiritual and imperishable good, I cannot anticipate the im- provement of my outward circumstances, but with terror and deprecation. Lord, sanctify all thy dispensations ; and sanctify me by them, and by thy Word and Spirit, that I may be a vessel chosen, and made meet for the Master's use ! Amen." Once more Mr. Clayton changed his place of abode, and again returned to Walworth. A visit to Bath, in the autumn of 1832, to preach for Mr. Jay, enabled him to renew his ancient friendship with one, whom he designates his earliest and best friend, Mr. Thomas Kingsbury, in whose house, he says, he found " the elements of order, devotion, and love, wisely combined ; and forming a scene on which the mind could rest with serenity and delight." Returning to his own home and flock, he notices with gratitude the harmony, increase, and blessedness which existed among his people — " rarely equalled, and never surpassed." " Is not the Spirit of the Lord amongst us ? Seven young people are this day added to our fellowship ; and five others are proposed for communion. More are coming forward to tell what God hath done for their souls, and that by my wretched PLEASING RETROSPECT. 293 instriunentality. Since the Lord has so cuttingly laid His hand upon my natural offspring, He has raised up for himself, by me, a spiritual seed to glorify His name. God of my fathers, bless all my spiritual children ! Pour upon them thy Spirit. Write upon them thy new name. Keep them from falling ; and let them be presented faultless before the throne. may I see them, and rejoice with them, and praise with them, in thy presence for ever ! " The retrospect of this year enabled him to say : — " Sixty- four new members have been joined to us, during the last twelve months ; while six only have been removed by death, or other changes. Besides this, we have eight now proposed ; and from what I see and hear, many, I believe, are under serious impressions ; while there is a movement which augurs favourably, as to future additions to the church of God. That I myself have been strengthened, after twenty-nine years of service on the same spot, and when verging fast towards fifty years of age, is a miracle of mercy. Not one Sabbath, for some time past, have I been laid aside by illness, nor missed, when at home, a single week-day service. What thanks I owe thee, and what love ! A boimdless, endless store ! Lord, help me to praise thee, and to bind the sacrifice with cords, even to the horns of the altar ! ' Having obtained help of God, I continue to this day.' "The future I am willing to leave, with Ml content and satisfaction, to my heavenly Father ; only anxious to be found watching with Him, in real and close communion ; in willing- service, and social usefulness ; and to be standing prepared for life, for death, and for eternity. Ebenezer ! Glory to God for ever." As his days multiplied, the labours of his hands increased upon him, and made even greater demands on his time and thoughts and strength ; yet he felt, as many similarly situated feel — and with him it was an ever- deepening conviction — how desirable it was to get more alone with God, and walk more frequently on 294: THE CLAYTON FAMILY. the silent shores, where is heard more distinctly the heavmgs of the eternal sea. But the round of clamorous duties pressed so upon him, that how to find the neces- sary leisure he knew not. Nor was he quite sure of himself that, if the leisure were found, it would he more wisely employed than his occupied time was now. Who cannot sympathize with these reflections ? — " It is, alas ! many months, since I have enjoyed the privi- lege of spending a Sabbath evening at home, and alone. The continual reiteration of public services, with comparatively short intervals of solitude, constitutes one part of the cross I am called to bear ; and one of the calls to self-denial, which, as a disciple of the Redeemer, He bids me exercise. To be incessantly before the eyes of others, and so little under my own, in self-communing ; so little under that of my Father, who seeth in secret, is, as He knows, a real and aggravated trial. But I am always sighing and hoping for far more of voluntary leisure ; and then I promise myself more of devout seclusion, more of converse and fellowship with my God and Saviour. But this may be delusion ; the beau ideal of fancied spirituality and sentimental devotion! I know too much of my heart to trust it, in any given circumstances ; and seeing that I do not adequately improve the leisure I have, there is too much reason to suspect, that if more were possessed, it might be as little consecrated to God's glory, and my own spiritual good. " I have thought, whether erroneously or not, that while I am in full health and unimpaired vigour, it becomes me to undertake and perform as much as I possibly can, for the service of the church of God, and my fellow-sinners around me. The words of our blessed Lord are powerfully impressed on my mind : ' I must work the works of Him that sent me, while it is day; the night cometh, when no man can work.' I expect that the evening shadows are hastening upon me, and perhaps the night may fall ere I am aware. to be ready for that chill, dark night of the tomb ! to know whom I have believed, and to feel that I shall not be ashamed before Him at His coming ! " EEV. K. KNILL. 295 Mr. Clayton's love of all good men led kira to delight in the society, and rejoice in the success, of all who laboured in the service of the Lord, whether among his own fraternity, or in other sections of the church of Christ. His ministerial status, and official relation- ships with some of the religious institutions of the great metropolis, frequently brought him into contact with persons of rank; as also with men who, though the multitude cared not to honour them with nattering titles, were, by the providence of God, called, either temporarily or otherwise, to fill a prominent position before the church and the world. On the same page of his diary he refers to his inter- course with two men, very differently circumstanced, but each eminent in his own line of action. One was the Rev. R. Knill, who had recently returned from St. Petersburg, and who was at this period visiting the churches affiliated with the London Missionary Society, as a deputation. His extraordinary fervour, his impas- sioned and pathetic eloquence, his irresistible aj^peals to the conscience and sympathy of his audiences, pro- duced effects, on the congregations to which he minis- tered, rarely surpassed by any orator. Young and old, learned and illiterate, alike bowed down before the simple but powerful and touching pleadings of this man of God. After one of his addresses at York Street, Mr. Clayton says : " The preaching of dear Mr. Knill — the missionary servant of Jesus Christ — in my pulpit, produced a most remarkable effect. A solemn heart-stirring sermon it was ! The people were struck ; and many were dissolved in tears. I was greatly affected and delighted; and thought it a high honour to have the devoted man among us." "Yesterday," he writes in his diary, referring to another servant of Jesus Christ, though not a missionary : — 29 G THE CLAYTON FAMILY. "Yesterday I had the honour of a visit from the Bishop of Winchester, who took his dinner with me, and afterwards strolled with me through the Zoological Gardens. He is a man of God, a fine example of a Christian bishop, and distinguished by manners most perfect, — combining all that is dignified with all that is graceful, — by simple spiritual piety, and by a catholic spirit of Christian love. " I feel honoured with the acquaintance of such a man ; so learned, so exalted, and pious. I felt my heart drawn out in prayer to God for him and his. " I looked not on his mitre or stole with the least particle of grudging or envy. While I thanked God that the National Church had such a bishop, I was glad that I was not one in connexion with a community from which, as a State estab- lishment, my conscience most palpably revolts. I am, I trust, a bishop of Christ's creation ; an overseer and guide to the flock at Walworth, whom I truly love, and with whom I find it in my heart to live and die ; devoted to their present welfare, and their everlasting good. "June 1st. 1834." (Chapter XOT3L REV. WILLIAM CLAYTON.— 1800-1831. DESTRUCTION OF MANUSCRIPTS. — ENTRANCE ON BUSINESS AT MAIDENHEAD. — CALL TO THE MINISTRY. — STUDENT AT HOXTON. — SETTLEMENT AND ORDINATION AT SAFFRON-WALDEN. — MINUTE DIARY. — NEW CHAPEL. — LABOURS AND LIFE AT WALDEN. — ANECDOTE. — ILLNESS OF HIS CHILD. — MISSIONARY SERMON. — MILL HILL GRAMMAR SCHOOL. — INVITATION TO THE CHAPLAINCY. In the last chapter, the memorials of Mr. George Clayton were brought down to the same period at which those of his brother John were broken off, with the design of taking up the floating threads of their respective histories in subsequent pages. The attention of the reader is now called to some records of the youngest of Mr. Clayton's sons, a man in every way equal to his brothers, in intellect and culture, and pre-eminently distinguished by a naturally- sweet and most loving disposition, — adorned, and sanctified, by the gifts and graces of the Spirit of God. There is a charm about an innate amiability, which arrests the attention, and interests the mind of every observer; just as a landscape of soft and sylvan scenery attracts the eye of the traveller, and awakens admiration, even though the heavens above be clouded; but as the beauty of the view becomes enhanced a thousandfold, when from the blue sky the sunshine is streaming in golden showers, so when a natural benignity of soul is suffused with the rich glow of real religion, a sight of transcendent loveliness presents itself, unrivalled in the effect it produces on the beholder. Such was the aspect 298 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. which the character of Mr. William Clayton presented, when contemplated as nature and grace had made him. It is to his biographer a source of intense regret, that the sensitiveness and scrupulosity of Mr. Clayton's mind were such, as to lead him to give directions that all the records of faith and feeling, which had accumulated during a period of thirty yearSj should, at his death, be destroyed. Whenever such an injunction as this is given and obeyed, an irreparable loss is sustained ; — so far as a knowledge of the process and progress of the workings of a man's intellectual and spiritual nature is concerned. By means of a thoughtful person's written meditations on great themes, and his recorded estimates of men and things, the development of mind and feeling in his soul may be discerned : — ever an interesting and instructive study. Of course, there are penetralia in every heart, into which no human eye should attempt to glance ; and from the very threshold of which a right-minded observer would keep aloof. But if the sanctified experience of one Christian is to be made useful to others, it cannot but be a subject of lamentation that the opportunity for ascertaining its character and extent should be so irretrievably lost, as in the case before us, except as the disjecta membra of conversations or letters enable a biographer to form a judgment. But Mr. Clayton's motive was so pure; the design so honourable to his humility, and so expressive of his sense of the lofty standard of Christian excellence, — to which he, like the great apostle of the Gentiles, felt he had not yet attained, — that, while regretting the destruction of his manuscripts, one can only breathe a benediction on his name and memory. The brief account which is here given, is compiled FEAGEANT MEMORIES. 299 chiefly from some fragmentary papers of his brother George, — who at one time evidently intended to draw up a more lengthened notice than that which appeared in the sermon, preached on the occasion of his death, and printed by his brother John, — and from the per- sonal recollections of the writer of these pages, whose close intercourse with the subject of this memoir during the last two years of the latter's life — an intercourse, alas ! so brief, but so delightful, — enabled him to form some correct estimate of a character which appeared to him at that time — and years, and a further acquaint- ance with men and things, have not diminished the force of the impression — to be one of the noblest and loveliest with which it has been his good fortune, through life, to form a familiar acquaintance. The rains and sunshine of a quarter of a century may have dulled the marble that enshrines the dead ; but the tears of love, and the sweet though sad smiles of remembrance, have nourished and developed the flowers which the hand of affection planted around the tomb ; and which, year by year, have sprung afresh, as from imperishable seeds, and still exhale a welcome fragrance to all who draw near to muse on the dead, and who delight to call to mind the many traits of excellence by which he was distinguished. After leaving school, William Clayton grew up a fine, handsome lad, full of life and vigour; a buoyant, sprightly mind being enshrined in a well-built and symmetrical frame. With his parents it was, for some time, a matter of anxious and prayerful consideration, what course to adopt, in reference to his future career in life; and at length it was decided that he should enter into business. 300 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. During his father's occasional visits to Reading, while George was at school there, he halted often at the neighbouring town of Maidenhead, where several valued friends resided. Among these was the Rev. John Cooke, for many years the beloved and useful minister of the Congregational church in that place. Here Mr. Clayton became acquainted with Mr. AVest- brook, one of his deacons, and a thriving tradesman of the town. After due consideration, and consulting with his domestic adviser, he came to the resolution of placing his son William with Mr. Westbrook, as an apprentice. This connexion, however, though mutually agreeable, was not destined to be of very long duration. After a year or two had passed away, the youth gave unequivocal evidence of true piety, and at length united himself to Mr. Cooke's church. He engaged in prayer at the weekly social meetings ; and by his gifts, his spirit, and his consistent behaviour, made a favourable impression on the congregation ; and became much endeared to the minister, and to his flock generally. An opinion was expressed that he should not remain in trade, but devote himself to the work of the ministry. The subject was discussed at a meeting of the members ; and it was resolved that he should be called out to labour in the vineyard of the Lord. He himself solemnly and prayerfully considered this summons on the part of the church ; and, after advising with his parents, who, not without anxious deliberation and some hesitancy, assented to his wishes, his retreat from secular business was effected. His indentures with Mr. Westbrook were cancelled ; and he entered Hoxton Academy, under the presidency of the Rev. Dr. Simpson. Here he studied diligently ; was uniformly consistent in his conduct; and preached with much acceptableness SETTLEMENT AT SAFFRON-WALDEN. 301 to the various congregations to which he was sent as a supply. Here, too, he formed friendly intimacies with several of his fellow-students ; more especially with three, who attained to a high position in the Congrega- tional body. These were the late Rev. Joseph Fletcher, D.D., of Stepney; the Rev. Dr. Payne, late tutor of the Western College at Plymouth; and the Rev. H. F. Burder, D.D., of Hackney. "On finishing the allotted terni of study at Hoxton, he preached in various places, and won the hearts of all, by his frank and ingenuous manners, his amiable and cheerful spirit, his humble, circumspect behaviour, and by the manifestation of a decided and unaffected piety. " At Cambridge, at Newbury, and at Edmonton, successively, he supplied the pulpit, as a probationer for the pastoral office ; and at the last two places, if not at the first also, was invited to fix his residence. But there were determining considerations which led his own mind, and that of his wisest and best friends, to conclude, that the call of providence was not so decisive as to warrant his compliance with the invitations addressed to him from these churches. He was willing to wait ; and while waiting he prayed that it wpuld please the Great Head of the church to fix the bounds of his habitation. "In the year 1807, he was asked to supply the pulpit at Saffron- Walden, in Essex, the church being then without a pastor. He consented to do so ; and, after passing two or three months with the people, received a unanimous and affectionate invitation to become their spiritual shepherd and overseer. After much and serious deliberation, he met this call with affectionate readiness, and was solemnly ordained to the office of the pastorate, February 1st, 1809."* On this occasion both the young minister's brothers took part in the service. The introductory discourse * Sermon delivered at the Poultry Chapel, on the occasion of the sudden death of the Rev. W. Clayton, by his brother, the Rev. John Clayton. 302 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. was preached by the Rev. W. Carver, who also asked the questions, and received the confession of faith. The ordination prayer was offered by the Rev. G. Burder ; and the sermon to the people delivered by the Rev. W. Harris, of Cambridge, who, at a short notice, consented to supply the place of Mr. Win. Clayton's pastor, the Rev. John Cooke, of Maidenhead, " who was prevented from fulfilling his engagement to take this part of the service by the high flood, which rendered the roads, in many parts of the country, impassable." As was to be expected, the address to the young pastor was given by his venerable father, who had the high and rare gratifi- cation, for the third time, to address one of his sons, — on this occasion the youngest, — in a solemn charge, founded on 1 Timothy vi. 11 : "But thou, man of God, flee these things ; and follow after righteousness, godliness, faith, love, patience, meekness." This discourse, with others preached at the ordination service, was afterwards published. As in the previous addresses to the two elder brothers, there is in this the same fearless and faithful exposition of duty, presented in the most plain and uncompromising language. He neither disguises the difficulties of the work, nor the dangers of the work- man ; and certainly could not be charged with a failure in proclaiming the whole counsel of God, in relation to ministerial fidelity, in and out of the pulpit. In reading this charge, one feels as if inhaling an invigorating mountain breeze. It seems to brace up the soul to a holy resolve; and to compel the recog- nition of the necessity of an utter and everlasting abandonment of all trifling, all dilatoriness of spirit or action, in a work so momentous and great, as that of the Christian ministry. The son was not unworthy of his sire, for faithfulness MINISTEEIAL ACTIVITY. 303 in duty : his official life at Saffron- Walden being a literal embodiment of the instructions he had received from the lips of his father. After this solemn event in his history, he entered upon his work with yet greater ardour and characteristic devotedness of spirit : not content with fulfilling his ministerial duties to the people who statedly came to his chapel to hear him, but continually breaking up new ground, in the villages near Walden, in order to sow the good seed of the kingdom ; obtaining suitable places for assembling the people together — a farmhouse kitchen — a barn or granary — which he had fitted up with benches, pulpit, &c, and got licensed for worship: for in those days this was a necessary precaution, in order to keep the congregation within the protection of the law, against vulgar, and not always ignorant interrupters of religious services, that were not held in the parish church. The reminiscences of Mr. Clayton, as he was in those days, are very pleasant to those who can call up the memories of the past; mellowed as they are by time, and consecrated by death. To eminent piety, and fixed habits of devotional converse with the Invisible, he joined a cheerfulness and hilarity, approaching to facetiousness, which made his company to be much sought, and his conversation to be highly appreciated. It was next to impossible to be dull or dispirited in his society. He had a large and generous heart, and refused no expense in his power, and in some few instances beyond his power, to serve and oblige others ; and especially to promote the happiness of those immediately connected with him. He, like his revered father, was remarkable for his love of order, in all things ; and was so sensitive, cir- 304 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. cumspect, and guarded in his walk through life, that some persons thought his conduct savoured of scrupu- losity, and approached to moral bondage. He had such deep convictions of the depravity, maliciousness, and wickedness of human nature, and its proneness to calumniate the innocent, and to magnify the infirmities of the good into acts of criminality, that he deemed it incumbent on all Christians, but more particularly on the ministers of the Gospel, to be doubly on their guard; to be incessantly vigilant; to be fully armed against the shafts of envy and malice ; and to shun all those frailties which might soon be exaggerated into matters of reproach. From the time when he was ordained to the pastoral office at Saffron-Walden, to the period of his sudden and much-lamented decease, he kept a minute diary, in which he noted with much brevity, and with scarcely any comments, the engagements and transactions of every hour of his life. These papers, in the course of thirty years, swelled into a large mass, which was destroyed — agreeably to his express direction — at his death. When questioned by his relatives, as to the reason of imposing upon himself so much labour and trouble, he would reply, that it might be an advantage to a man, under some circumstances, to be able to prove an alibi. By the course he adopted he could ascertain with precision where he was, how he was occupied, and with whom he was associated, every day, and every hour, for the last thirty years of his earthly sojourn. Shortly after his settlement, Mr. William Clayton was united to an accomplished lady, the daughter of one of the trustees of Mr. George Clayton's chapel at Walworth : a gentleman distinguished by his prudence, NEW CHAPEL. 305 kindheartedness, and generosity, and by the interest he took in the happiness of his minister, and the welfare of the cause of God. By this marriage Mr. Clayton was blessed with a daughter — an only child — whom the parents reared with the tenderest assiduity. He had not been ordained at Saffron-Walden much more than two years, before the meeting-house, in Abbey Lane, became too strait for the worshippers. It was one of the oldest nonconforming places in this eminently nonconforming county of Essex — dating from about 1666; and, after the lapse of 150 years, required to be replaced by a new building, and one more in accordance with modern tastes in architecture. This was determined on ; and it was Mr. Clayton's happiness to see the project carried out, from its commencement to its completion. He and his people entered upon their new sanctuary, towards which the friends and family connexions of the minister contributed hand- somely, with high hopes and large anticipations, which were destined, in due time, to be fully realized. Thus the same honour was conferred upon the youngest of the fraternal band, which had been enjoyed by his two brothers, — that of either originating a new or a larger place of worship, in their respective ministerial spheres ; and in this manner all were permitted to receive a distinguishing token of the approval of their divine Master. To the increasing demands made upon his time and energies, he was promptly and conscientiously alive. As his sphere of operation enlarged, so did his heart and hands prepare themselves for wider action ; and though residing in a comparatively quiet town — at some dis- tance from the roar and bustle of the great city, where his brothers' lots were cast — living where more leisure 30 G THE CLAYTON FAMILY. moments could be snatched, than it is the privilege of the London pastor to secure, he nevertheless found his hours fully occupied; and, by devoted attention to the best interests of his spiritual charge, showed how desirous he was to make full proof of his ministry. By careful study, by prayerful preparation, he sought to qualify himself to be a teacher of others. Nothing slovenly ever appeared in his public instructions. For the many or the few, for the Sabbath or the week-day, there was the fixed season for meditation, honestly spent. He read much and thoughtfully — laying up, with great care, in the storehouse of his memory, precious thoughts gathered in the course of his reading, which could be made available for the edification of his people; and eagerly following out the suggestive hints of his favourite authors — among whom John Howe, John Owen, Jeremy Taylor, Flavel, Goodwin, Bunyan, and the Henrys occupied the chief places — so as to develop from a small seed a rich and flowering plant, in which not only he but his people should delight. Ho literally answered to the description of the model minister of Solomon : " Moreover, because the preacher was wise, he still taught the people knowledge ; yea, he gave good heed, and sought out, and set in order many proverbs. The preacher sought to find out acceptable words : and that which was written was upright, even words of truth." His indefatigable application to the duties of his vocation; his large catholic spirit, displayed toward those who differed from him in his opinions upon eccle- siastical matters, yet with whom he laboured in various departments of Christian duty — among whom were several of the neighbouring clergy — Professor Farish, of Cambridge; the late Bishop of London, then of PASTOKAL EFFICIENCY. 307 Chesterford, and the Rev. H. Bull, of Littlebury; — his zealous devotion to the local institutions of the town ; his courteous manners ; and, above all, his retiring modesty, and the lowly estimate he formed of himself, his attainments, and his doings, soon won many hearts, and earned for him golden opinions from all. While his lips taught many, his life taught more. Not a few of the inhabitants of his adopted town, who were not accustomed to attend his ministry, could say, — " Behold now, I perceive that this is a holy man of God, which passeth by us continually." Thus, during the time of his residence at Walden, which extended over a period of twenty-four years, he evinced the qualities of a true Christian workman. He was instant, in season and out of season, in teaching, warning, reproving, and consoling ; and many were the " seals of his apostleship in the Lord." The young people of the families of his flock, with whom, from his buoyant, happy spirit, he was ever a great favourite, and the schools of the congregation, engaged much of his attention. As a pastor he was constant in his visitation of the sick, the aged, and the poor; and with these various qualifications no wonder that under his presidency the church was increased and edified, and " the word of the Lord had free course, and was glorified." In the summer season, as has been noticed, he devoted himself most indefatigably to village preaching, almost every evening in the week ; and, like his great Master, went about doing good; seeking to win souls to Christ. In these voluntary, yet exhausting services, he took great delight; though he often walked eight, ten, or twelve miles, in going to, and returning from, the places which he visited as a home missionary; 308 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. while at the same time it generally happened, that the conduct of the psalmody, the reading of the lessons, and the prayers, as well as the sermon, devolved exclusively on himself. At this period of his life he was blest with robust health, and a measure of athletic power which per- formed feats, in the way of duty, almost incredible ; so that some sportively gave him the name of "the Giant;" a designation which seems to have been justified by the following amusing incident: — On a certain afternoon, in the month of June, he set forth, accompanied by his daughter — who was occasionally his associate in his preaching travels — to a village about four miles distant from his home. The weather was intensely hot; which led him to procure a donkey- cart, for easier transport from one place to another. He had driven through several fields — for there was no turnpike road — until he came to the last, which was of considerable extent; and with the barn in which he was to preach, in view. To his great mortification, he discovered that the gate of this field was fastened, and strongly barricaded. What was to be done ? No vociferation on his part, had he tried it, could have been heard ; no human being was near, to afford help in this emergency ; and as the time for commencing the service was fast approaching, nothing remained but that, summoning all his energies, he should literally put his shoulder to the wheel. He first lifted his daughter over the gate, and provided for her safety. This done, he unharnessed the donkey, and lifted the cart over the gate, in like manner. But the most difficult part of the effort remained to be accomplished. Nothing daunted, however, he grasped the donkey, and with one powerful effort succeeded in ILLNESS OF HIS DAUGHTEE. 309 placing the animal on the other side, to the astonish- ment, yet to the great amusement and joy, of his young companion. He then proceeded on his way, and joined the congregation punctually at the hour of worship. To some persons this exploit may appear almost incredible ; but to those familiar with his muscular form, and physical power, it will be known to be quite in keeping with his efforts, both on ordinary and extraordinary occasions. Without any particular occurrences to vary the routine of a country pastor's life, — except occasional visits to London, where he from time to time occupied some of the metropolitan pulpits, with great acceptance; and renewed, amid the scenes of his early domestic life, his intercourse with beloved friends, — his days glided onward, peacefully and happily. Once a dark shadow seemed for a while to gather around his dwelling, in the dangerous illness of his daughter. At a period of opening youth, when every fibre of the parental heart has fixed itself so firmly around the child, that to touch the one is to send a thrill of agony through the other — " seeing his life is bound up in the child's life " — she was attacked by a dangerous ill- ness that threatened her existence, and that awoke in the hearts of her parents and relatives great anxiety, and excited deep sympathy among all who knew and loved the afflicted family. But " God had mercy on them;" the fears of their heart were removed: and the even current of domestic and ministerial life, which had been broken by this temporary obstruction, flowed on smoothly again, beneath the bright sunshine of ,a cleared and unclouded sky. In 1828, Mr. William Clayton, following ;his two elder brothers, who had engaged in a similar special 310 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. service, preached one of the May sermons for the London Missionary Society, at Tottenham Court Road chapel, from the text, 3 John 7, 8 : " Because that for His name's sake they went forth, taking nothing of the Gentiles. We therefore ought to receive such, that we might be fellow-helpers to the truth." This was a much more lengthened and elaborated discourse than was either of those delivered by his brothers, on the same theme. One extract may be given, which will enable the reader to judge of the literary merits, as well as the missionary spirit, of the sermon : — "Observe the high, and sublime motive by which these primitive servants of the cross were inspired, as denoted by the comprehensive phrase, 'Because for His name's sake they went forth, taking nothing of the Gentiles.' Love to their Lord and Master was the mainspring of all their endeavours, — the life-blood of their zeal. Love is the fulfilling of the royal law. Not only did His personal excellencies attract their admiration, and secure their attachment, but an individual persuasion of vast and boundless obligation to Him. Affection to the Saviour; ardent and inexpressible gratitude, were the strong, impulsive, and imperishable principles of their activity. These are motives of constantly-accumulating power ; and urge with augmenting influence to persevering diligence. ' For the love of Christ constrahieth us ; because we thus judge, that if one died for all, then were all dead : and that he died for all, that they which live should not henceforth live unto themselves, but unto Him which died for them, and rose again.' "The first heralds of salvation were men of genuine and unsuspected personal religion; and enjoyed, as the special qualification and the general accompaniment of extraordinary service and suffering, an abiding sense of their interest in the Kedeemer's favour and mercy. " A sense of pardoning grace, combined, as it invariably is, with deep and humbling views of un worthiness and guilt, MISSIONARY SERMON. 311 producing abhorrence of sin, and an ardent thirst for pro- gressive conformity to the image of Christ, has ever been found the true and efficient cause of good works. Hence sprang the transcendent diligence, and the more abundant labours, of one who considered himself as less than the least of all saints ; and who appears at a loss for terms adequately- vigorous to express his affectionate gratitude to Him who put him into this ministry, and bestowed upon him this distin- guished ' grace ' or privilege, that he might preach among the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ. His ardours were so intense, that his carnal or less spiritual friends were disposed to pronounce his zeal excessive and irrational. Like his great Lord and Master, whose fervours he emulated, he was considered as 'beside himself.' " For the same degree of enthusiasm which exalts a painter or a poet to the highest pinnacle of fame, places a preacher or a missionary on the world's pillory, and assimilates him to the 'despised and rejected of men.' Patriotism, indeed, and impas- sioned ardours for secular objects, have covered a multitude of sins. All relative charities, and life itself, have been deemed a cheap sacrifice at the altar of national liberty. Our youth are early taught to applaud to ecstasy the Roman patrician, who sacrificed his life for the supposed good of his country, by leaping into the gulf, to which he was impelled by the ambiguous oracle of a blind superstition; but men who would act with equal determination, to save souls from eternal woe, are everywhere spoken against. "Such dormant prejudices and sophisms are to be dispersed only by the just appreciation of invisible realities, and by a supreme and ascendant love to the Redeemer. How high and awful a function is that which proposes to establish in the soul an interior dominion, to illuminate its powers by a celestial flight, and introduce it to an intimate, ineffable, and unchanging alliance with the Father of spirits ! The moment we permit ourselves to think lightly of the Christian ministry, our right arm is withered ; nothing but imbecility and relaxation remains ; for no man ever excelled in a profession to which he felt not an attachment bordering on enthusiasm; though what is enthu- 312 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. siasm in all other professions, in this is the dictate of sobriety and ' truth.' " Such sentiments and conclusions are not only sustained by the most lucid and convincing arguments, but sanctioned by observation, and by the practical experience of men in ancient and modern times. The hallowed enthusiast (for I glory in the term) has effected wonders ; and when his fervours have intermitted, he has renewed their warmth and influence by recollections of a Saviour's love, indefatigable benevolence, and unparalleled sufferings. In all parts of his history, from the infantile cry at Bethlehem, to the awful groan on Calvary, there is a holy and efficient excitement. When Buchanan's firm and steady mind was momentarily discouraged by unexpected oppo- sition, and by unforeseen obstacles, he was conscious of a gloom and chill worse than those produced by nocturnal vapours. The appearance of a star in the heavens, brought to his remem- brance, so seasonably and forcibly, another Star which he had seen in the East, that he thanked God and took courage. When the devoted Henry Martyn, by bodily pain, and by mental suffering, was ready to despair even of life, the occasional shelter from an almost vertical sun, and from parched sands, which he obtained in a stable, so refreshed his spirit, by leading him into a train of holy cogitations concerning the Child born, and the Son given, and for whom there was no room in the inn, that he became as a giant refreshed by sleep, and awoke to more strenuous and persevering efforts. Are these fanatics ? A fanatic can never be permanently and consistently virtuous. And is this fanaticism ?^-fanaticism, which invariably debases both the intellectual and moral powers of the heart ? Are these the emotions of ignorant, or hardened, or perverted minds? Are not here the finest sensibilities excited, by an intelligent reminiscence of scenes which were the admiration of angels, and produced the veneration and offerings of the wise men, and . have fed the flame of piety and devotion through the long succession of revolving centuries ?" After passing twenty-four years of the prime of his life at Saffron-Walden, Mr. Clayton received an invita- MILL HILL SCHOOL. 313 tion to take the office of chaplain to the Protestant Dissenters' Grammar School, at Mill Hill, Hendon. This scholastic establishment was founded in 1807, for the purpose of affording a first-rate liberal education to the sons of gentlemen, who were debarred, by the ecclesiastical arrangements of other large public schools, from sending their children thither. Situated in one of the loveliest neighbourhoods of the metropolis, on a hill whence could be seen the spire and buildings of the village of Harrow, the establishment at Hendon commenced its career, in a noble rivalry with its more time-honoured and renowned competitor. A beautiful valley lay stretched out between the two hills on which the schools are built, and over this extent of country — a fair specimen of cultivated England, — rich in farms and verdant meadows, that form part of the demesnes of wealthy residents and proprietors ; with here and there a diminutive village, whose smoke could be seen rising above woods and plantations that dotted the landscape, — the spirit of peace seemed ever to brood; suggestive of the thought that between the two estab- lishments no other rivalry need exist than that of each striving, frankly and honourably, to outdo the other, in most effectively educating the eager and aspiring youth, who came thither to receive instruction and guidance. The mental athletes could, by hardy and vigorous exer- cise, in their several palasstra, prepare themselves, within sight of each other, for the time when, in the actual and serious contests of life, they should prove the worth of their respective trainings. About the time negotiations were commenced with Mr. William Clayton, to become the chaplain of the institution, and the pastor of the village church, which had existed since 1728, the school was passing through 314 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. a crisis in its history. It had foes without, and there were fears within. It evidently needed some resusci- tating power to he at work; the infusion of new vigour into all the departments of official life ; and the presence of one who, to the exercise of a kind, yet firm and wise control over the establishment, should he able to add an influence upon the world and the church without; so as to awaken a well-grounded expectation in the judicious management of the institution ; and lead the chief men among Dissenters and liberal-minded Church- people, fearlessly to confide in the judgment and good feeling of those into whose hands the highest interests of their children might be committed. In looking round, with no small anxiety and care, for a suitable person in whom this great trust could be reposed, the attention of the committee of the Mill Hill school was directed to Mr. William Clayton. His own position in the Congregational body — as a minister who, for nearly a quarter of a century, had presided over a most respectable provincial congregation, — and his connexion, through his father and brothers, with three of the most important and influential churches in London; above all, his high character for prudence, judgment, and simple yet ardent piety, and his well-known affection for the young, seemed to mark him out, above all others, as fitted for the post to which, with the hearty concurrence of the friends and supporters of the institution, the committee invited him. It was believed that his acceptance of the office would, by the blessing of God, bring back to the school its former prosperity, and insure even a larger amount of efficiency and success. At the time he received the invitation of the com- mittee, there were circumstances, of a personal nature, ACCEPTS THE CHAPLAINCY. 315 which seemed to indicate that a change of position would be desirable. He would not be necessitated, by accepting the invitation to Mill Hill, to forego his minis- terial duties, or his pastoral relationships, both of which were to him sacred pleasures as well as obligations; while he would be brought into a more immediate inter- course with his revered parents, now advanced in years, and other near and dear relatives. But the chief and all-powerful incentive to compliance with this invitation was the fact, that he would thereby be brought into direct contact with young minds, belonging to the elite of Nonconformist families, as well as others, at the time they were passing through their educational course. These, he knew, were destined, in future life, to form no inconsiderable portion of the mercantile, scientific, and religious population of the kingdom ; and so he felt that it was impossible to exaggerate the importance of the post filled by a chaplain to such an institution, with these opening and ingenuous minds continually at hand to receive the influences and teachings of an earnest Christian minister, intent upon the grand object of securing them all for the service of Christ. After weighing these considerations in the balances, with his characteristic caution, and with a conscientious regard to the will of God, he resolved to resign his charge at Saffron-Walden, after a union of nearly a quarter of a century, and to accept the chaplainship at Mill Hill. This he did, and in the spring of 1831 left the scene of his early labours, in the midst of un- equivocal tokens of regret, on the part of those before whom he had gone in and out, for so lengthened a period, and took up his abode at Hendon. Chapter SST03L EEV. WILLIAM CLAYTON.— 1831-1838. chaplaincy at mill hill. — new charel. — success. — attachment to the young. — interesting anecdote of the earl of c . mr, Clayton's closing labours. — premonition of sudden death. — visit to london. — last moments. — affecting scene at the funeral service at mill hill. — interment in bunhill fields. — retrospect of his life and character. Mr. William Clayton entered upon his new scene of duty with no small amount of diffidence, and with much anxious prayerfulness ; relying, not on his own resources or capabilities, but on the promised strength of Him who has said, " I will be with thee in all places whither thou goest; my presence shall go with thee; my grace is sufficient for thee." He soon won the confidence and esteem of all with whom he stood connected. The committee of manage- ment did everything in their power to strengthen and encourage him in his labours, by their willing co-opera- tion and liberal supplies. The masters welcomed the new chaplain with much respect and friendliness ; while, attracted by his gentlemanly manners, practical wisdom, and consistent example, they were aroused to new energy; and aided him in all acts of moral dis- cipline, and in all his plans and efforts, within his prescribed sphere, for the benefit of the scholars. On Monday, May 16th, he was solemnly set apart to his office, at a devotional meeting, held in the chapel belonging to the school. At the same time, the Rev. H. L. Berry was inducted into the head-mastership. SUCCESS AT MILL HILL. 317 The Revs. T. Binney, A. Stewart, of Barnet, and the Revs. J. Burnet, of Carnberwell, G. Clayton, E. Steane, and others, took part in the service. In the unavoidable and regretted absence of Mr. Clayton's father, Dr. Pye Smith, of Homerton College, delivered an excellent and affectionate charge to the newly- elected chaplain ; while the Rev. Joseph Berry addressed his son. Through the blessing of God upon the labours of Mr. Clayton, and with a desire to provide a place of worship for the school and the neighbourhood, more in accordance with the reputation of the place, a new and elegant chapel was erected in 1832. He was indefati- gable in his efforts in connexion with the rearing of this structure ; and had the pleasure, in a short space of time after the laying of the foundation-stone, of seeing it dedicated to the service of God, and entering upon it himself, as the scene of his latest ministerial labours — labours, alas ! to be soon brought to a close. But of this he had then no premonitions ; and he and his friends, who contemplated his position in the midst of young people gathered from all parts of the kingdom, as fraught with the highest possible results, fondly anticipated for him a long career of extended usefulness. From a survey of the seven years during which he presided over this important establishment, it is evident that the blessing of God rested on his varied labours, for the good of all those with whom he was connected. The pupils reverenced and loved him ; the masters regarded him as an acceptable fellow-labourer, and a sincere friend ; the household servants were taught by his example, and won by his kindness ; the church and congregation, with which he was associated in the fellowship of the Gospel, nourished under his care ; while he zealously and efficiently encouraged and 318 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. directed the efforts made by the school, by the wor- shippers of the chapel, and by others in the village, on behalf of the Bible Society, the Missionary Society, and other benevolent institutions. It is only when the books shall be opened, and the secrets of all hearts shall be revealed in the light of eternity, that it will be fully known how many of the young were savingly impressed by his private discourses — always accompa- nied by prayer ; and how many of the adult population were turned to righteousness and to God, by his public ministrations. He was not satisfied with a mere routine of service. He was ever casting about for some fresh mode of interesting his youthful charge in holy things ; and one of his most successful methods of awakening attention to them was to win the affections of the pupils towards himself, as their teacher, and God's ambassador. This was generally no difficult task, with one who was so eminently calculated to gain the love of those with whom he came in contact. Having secured this as a fulcrum on which to work, he sought, by earnest, simple, and manly, yet tender expostulations, appeals, warnings, and invitations, to bring to thoughtfulness the naturally wayward heart of youth. Nor did he labour in vain. There rose up around him reflective lads, who reciprocated his regard; listened reverently to his counsels; and gave full proof of their wisdom and worth, by a choice of the service of Christ. Some, now in the ministry of the Gospel, and others, sus- taining honourable positions in the church and the world, can bear their grateful testimony to the value of his instructions. Every morning, before family worship, some one of a number of the boys, — to whom, as a special mark of ANECDOTE. 319 favour, on account of excellence of conduct, and diligence in study, the privilege was accorded of private friendship, — was received in his study, for a quarter of an hour's conversation, — always terminated by a short prayer. There are some now living who remember, with a thrill of gratitude and affection, that prized and happy season. They can recall to mind the wise advice, the loving admonitions, and the words of encouragement that fell from his lips ; while his beaming countenance, radiant as a glow of sunshine, proclaimed the parental tenderness that dwelt in his heart. Every boy, when he went forth from his presence, carried with him to the religious service that immediately followed, in the hall of the school, a conviction that the chaplain, who led their devotions, had the best interests of the pupils at heart; and each day, one young spirit, at least, knelt down with a soul chastened and sanctified, by the sweet moral influence which had been brought to bear upon it. I cannot forbear recording an incident, which occurred while I was once travelling with him, in Hampshire, as illustrating his interest in the young, and his singular tact, in striving to benefit strangers, by a word in season. We were walking upon the hard at Portsmouth, when a small boat, from a man-of-war that lay in the harbour, touched the shore, and two young midshipmen stepped out. Mr. Clayton directed my attention to the lads, and said, "What an open and noble countenance that younger boy has ! He is a gentleman, evidently, from his bearing; any mother's heart must be anxious about such a son, in such a profession. I'll go and speak to him ; perhaps God may bless what I say : and in the perilous position he occupies, on board a man-of-war — one of peril both to body and soul — a stranger's word of warning and advice may be of service." 320 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Suiting the action to the word, he walked up to the midshipmen, and, in his well-known, courteous, and winning manner, asked some question concerning the ship and themselves, to which they readily replied. He then glided away, hy a natural, easy transition, to higher and more solemn topics. As he spoke the lads listened; at first with surprise; then with evident interest; and at length with deep emotion ; and when, pointing to his clerical dress, he said, " Gentlemen, you will, I am sure, pardon my earnestness and freedom, when you recognize my profession, as a minister of Christ," they took off their caps and bowed low before him. In a strain of exquisite adaptation to his young auditors' position and inexperience, and in tones of melting tenderness, he besought them, by the memories of home, by the love of mother and sister, and by a regard for their own souls, to guard against the sinful influences to which, in the presence of so many who had no fear of God before their eyes, they would be exposed; and bade them remember how often, when on the wide deep, it would be literally true that there was "but a step between them and death." When he had ended these remarks, he asked them each to receive a little book which he offered them, — I think it was James's Anxious Inquirer, or the Young Man from Home, — and inquired their names, that he might remember them in his prayers, with a special petition. This, he assured them, he would present to God, while they were on the voyage which, as they had informed him, they were to commence in a few days. They accepted the books with a quivering of the lip, which told that his words had not fallen on unsuscep- tible hearts ; and stood with bared heads, as, with his own lips trembling with emotion, he ejaculated a benediction upon them. FLUCTUATIONS IN HEALTH. 321 "But your names, young gentlemen?" said lie; as after having given them the books, he shook hands with them, and was about to turn away. "Mine," said the tallest youth, "is ; and my friend is the eldest son of the Earl of C ." I do not give the names, for obvious reasons ; but it is with a glow of grateful feeling I record the fact, that it is borne now by one, whose piety and philanthropy adorn him more than his coronet; and, judging from the lapse of years, and the age of the present wearer of the title, I conclude, with almost positive certainty, that he is the midshipman in whom my departed friend was so deeply interested. If so, I have pleased myself with the thought that, not improbably, Mr. Clayton's inter- view with him on the hard, at Portsmouth, was a turning-point in his history. The interesting course of things at Mill Hill was not ordained to be of long continuance. Mr. Clayton's health fluctuated a good deal, in the last year of his service at the school, — although there were no very marked symptoms of disease ; certainly none that were urgent or alarming. He consulted one or two physicians of celebrity, who prescribed for him ; but without prog- nosticating any imminent danger, whatever might have been their private opinion. On Saturday, April 4th, he commenced a course of lectures on the life and character of Elisha — designing to make the several incidents in the history of the prophet illustrative of certain great religious truths, for which he was anxious to gain admission into the hearts of his youthful auditors; having found, by experience, that no more effectual method for attaining this object could be employed than by such a style 322 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. of teaching. The first lecture was on the fact of Elisha's entrance upon his prophetic office, symbolized by his assumption of the mantle of his predecessor; and, naturally, he had to discourse on the translation of Elijah, as the great occurrence attendant on, and preparatory to, that investiture. After the service was finished, and he had retired to the vestry, he spoke on the theme of his discourse to one of the friends of the congregation; and especially referred to the subject of sudden death; and as though, for a season, the prophetic mantle had descended on the preacher, he remarked, — and how vividly the words were remembered afterwards, when death seemed to set a solemn seal on them, as though spoken from God, may well be imagined, — "It is probable that I shall leave you in an unexpected moment: they shall seek me in the morning, and I shall not be." That this was not a mere momentary impression, but had long been a presentiment of his mind, is evident from the closing paragraph of a work which Mr. Clayton published, while at Saffron-Walden, called The Invisible Hand. Referring to the contents of the book, and his design in writing and sending it forth, he says : — " To lead persons to an acquaintance with themselves, and their own affairs, has been the object of the previous detail. In scenes of affliction, the sentiments there illustrated have been the sweet solace of the writer's mind. He has invariably found, that events in his retired life, which were unpropitious in aspect, or mysterious in their language, have been the messengers of favour, and tended to a consummation devoutly to be wished. With these views, he, from the loophole of retreat, looks at an agitated and tumultuous world. As darkness is dispelled, there appears confusion among the atoms which before fluctuated unseen in the atmosphere. Their manifestation ought not to distress the observer. It shall at length be clearly evident, LAST VISIT TO LONDON. 323 that He hath, done all things well ; and warrant the acclamation of angels and beatified spirits : ' Just and true are thy ways, thou King of saints.' "As to what concerns himself, daily expecting the summons to leave this state, where even the light of Goshen is but comparative, as enjoyed in contrast with surrounding darkness, he hopes that he shall pass safely and with composure through the regions of terror and tyranny ; and, not fearing the wrath of the King, he shall then endure, as seeing Him who is invisible." On the Monday of the week in which he died, he visited London, on business connected with the school ; and by appointment I met him in the city. Here let me be pardoned a personal reminiscence, and for ven- turing to obtrude my own affairs, in connexion with the account of this last interview I ever had with him on earth. But that interview had so important a bearing on my own subsequent ministerial life, and his words afterwards appeared so prophet-like in their advice and assurance, that I cannot refrain from referring to it ; in addition to which, memory delights to linger upon the last moments spent in the society of a beloved friend, whose voice will be heard, and whose form will be seen, no more among the living. I had sought his counsel, relative to the acceptance of a, call I had just received from the church at Kingsland, to the co-pastorate with the Rev. J. Campbell. My own mind was strongly disinclined to accept it; my heart had fixed itself on another people, in a different suburb of the metropolis, where spiritual children had been already given me. But Mr. Clayton's judgment was entirely opposed to my own; and he most vigorously combated all my objections. "When I observed that there were, among the 150 people assembling in Kingsland chapel, not a dozen young persons with 324 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. whom a minister was likely to grow up, and from whom he might look for co-operation — that it was. literally an " assembly of elders " — for there were, out of sixty-eight members of the church, twelve about eighty years of age, — he only replied, " Go, and call such young people in." When I said the place was very small, his answer was, " Go, and enlarge it." When I remarked that there was a sparse population among which to work, — Kingsland then was a mere hamlet — cornfields and pasture lands lying » between it and London, — he said, "Though the beginnings be small, its latter end will greatly increase." And so, while I was waiting, and desirous to know the will of God in a matter to me of deep and anxious interest, he, in the last words I ever heard him utter — and referring to the success with which his brother George had been honoured in his sphere of labour, — said to me, " Go to Kingsland, and make it a second Walworth." I was not disobedient to the advice, which the solemn event of three days afterwards seemed to invest with the authority and sacredness of a divine command ; and now, on looking back upon the result of the labours of twenty-nine years, in the pastorate which he earnestly and affectionately urged me to accept, I see the wisdom of his counsel, and bless God who gave me so faithful and judicious an adviser. On Thursday, the 12th of April, he appeared in his usual health, and was full of spirits and activity, as he went about his several duties. After dinner, he invited his daughter — who was frequently his companion in his walks around that pleasant neighbourhood — to accom- pany him through the grounds of the school. As they strolled along, he conversed cheerfully on a variety of topics; but as though his spirit was unconsciously HIS DEATH. 325 pluming its wings for its departure, he spoke of the uncertainty of life, and the necessity for making all our arrangements subject to the providential control of God : " For that ye ought to say, If the Lord will, we shall live, and do this, or that." Something incidentally engaging the attention of Miss Clayton, she left him for about two minutes, to examine the object of her curiosity. In this brief interval, a divine messenger had whispered to the man of God — who stood prepared to receive the summons, — " The Master is come, and calleth for thee. As soon as he heard that, he arose quickly, and came to Him." When his daughter returned to where she had left her father, she found him prostrate on the ground. Bewil- dered, terrified, hoping, fearing, — it was the work of an instant to raise an alarm, and bring the needed assist- ance to lift up the fallen body. But, alas ! the heart that had clung to her so fondly had ceased to beat for ever ; its last utterances had been poured into the ears which had from infancy been familiar with its loving tones — tones that shall be heard no more, till parent and child shall greet one another in the Celestial City. Of course, every effort was made to resuscitate life, but in vain ; the arrow had sped direct to its mark. "In the midst of life he was in death." One minute conversing with his companion in the language of earth ; the next listening, astonished and entranced, to the language of heaven. Erewhile speaking of Him, "whom having not seen, he loved," then suddenly ushered with breathless awe into His presence, — "beholding His face in righteousness; awaking in His likeness; seeing Him as He is." In a moment the great veil, which hides all things in the spirit-world from mortal vision, was rent, and a limitless horizon stretched out before him. 320 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Wondrous change ! Yet, though sudden, should any one deprecate it, who is living habitually, and thought- fully, on the confines of the two worlds ? Mr. William Clayton did so live; and the language of the inspired historian, as supplemented by the apostle Paul, admir- ably expounds his case: " Enoch walked with God: and he was not; for God took him. He was not found, because God had translated him; for before his trans- lation he had this testimony, that he pleased God." "And it came to pass as they still went on and talked, that, behold, there appeared a chariot of fire, and horses of fire, and parted them both asunder; and Elijah went up by a whirlwind into heaven. And Elisha saw it, and he cried, ' My father, my father, the chariot of Israel, and the horsemen thereof.'" This event, in itself so awfully sudden, produced, through a wide circle of relatives and friends, great consternation and grief. The sad intelligence of the chaplain's decease flew rapidly in every direction, and to the most remote parts of the kingdom ; as from many of its cities, provincial towns, and country places, some of the pupils had come for education at the Grammar School ; and others who had finished 'their studies, had taken up their residence in them. It would not be easy to count the number of those among the young and the aged, the rich and the poor, who participated in the profound sorrow which this unexpected death occa- sioned, and by whom the name and virtues of William Clayton are embalmed in tender and affectionate remembrance. When the tidings of the domestic bereavement were conveyed to Gaines, the residence of his venerable father, who had now for two years been a widower, it was feared that they might be productive of some PAKENTAL SOEEOW. 327 mischievous effects upon his enfeebled frame, and were divulged with the utmost caution. He was in his study alone, when the catastrophe was gradually broken to him. After a vehement paroxysm of parental agony had in some degree subsided, he seemed to collect his thoughts, and in a devotional tone breathed forth a thanksgiving to God. " The Lord be praised," said he, " that dear William is safely landed. The great end of his existence is answered. The object of the anxious solicitude and earnest prayers of his dear mother and myself is realized ; he is now and for ever with the Lord ! " But again the old man wept, sorrowfully — though not as those without hope ; for the " fountains of the great deep are broken up," when the children precede the parent to the grave. It was a mystery, in the arrangements of Him who " giveth not account of any of His matters," that his youngest son should be taken first from the ministerial triad ; taken in the very zenith of his usefulness, and from the midst of an occupation so congenial to his nature and disposition, and so likely to be attended with the most important results. But the heart of the aged Christian had learned to school itself to a holy acquiescence, and with devout reverence he listened to the admonition, "Be still, and know that I am God;" meekly replying, "Even so, Father; for so it seemed good in thy sight." A post-mortem examination of the body was made, by which it was found that disease of the heart was the cause of death. Mr. Clayton had long entertained the belief that this vital organ was affected ; and it produced the conviction to which, shortly before he died, he gave utterance, that his departure would be without any specific warning. This, too, led him, as a devout 328 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. learner, at the feet of Infinite Wisdom, to " number his days ; " and to live in continual preparation for a change of worlds. "How many fall as sudden, not as safe ! " It was deemed appropriate that, without any undue parade, the funeral of a minister who had occupied a post of so much importance and prominence should he a public one ; so as to afford an opportunity for the numerous friends, who revered his memory, to testify their regard, by their presence at the solemn services that were ajmointed to be held, both at Mill Hill and in London. Those at the former place w r ere especially affecting, from the presence of the young people, in whose temporal and eternal welfare Mr. William Clayton had felt so deep an interest. The distance of the residence of the deceased from the place of burial was too great to admit of the attendance of more than the representatives of the school, in the persons of some of the members of the committee, and the principal officers of the establishment ; but it was felt to be of the highest moment that an opportunity should be afforded to the whole of that large household, to participate in some of the funeral solemnities. So, before the procession left the house, the coffin was borne into the hall of. the school, and all the scholars were gathered together, to pay their last tribute of love and reverence to the dead. Dr. Pye Smith delivered an address to the family and the pupils, full of tender sympathy with them in their respective relationships; and Dr. Morison, of Brompton, a warm friend of the deceased, implored the sanctifying blessing of Heaven to attend this most painful bereavement. The silence which followed the prayer was then broken by the measured march of the youths who, as FUNERAL SOLEMNITIES. 329 they rose from their seats to leave the hall, one by one, approached the coffin, and placed their hands upon it, to take an earthly farewell of one who had watched over them with a paternal interest, and who had now gone to give an account of his stewardship, in relation to them, as well as others. Must there not have been some who, in the presence of death, breathed a sacramental vow of service to the living God? Some who were desirous to be baptized for the dead? who then resolved on unswerving fidelity to the instructions they had received from the lips that were now so silent and cold? "The day will declare it." Nothing would have been more in harmony with the yearning desires of their pastor, than that his departure from among them should be the occasion of spiritual decision to those who remained. Like Paul, he was solicitous that " Christ should be magnified in his body, whether it be by life, or by death ; " that they to whom he had so faithfully ministered should "be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom they should shine as lights in the world; holding forth the word of life; that he might rejoice in the day of Christ, that he had not run in vain, neither laboured in vain." With his whole heart would he have cried, "Yea, and if I be offered upon the sacrifice and service of your faith, I joy and rejoice with you all." " So then death worketh in us, but life in you." The mournful cortege left the school, and proceeded to Bunhill Fields, London, where the interment was to take place. A service was held in the City Road Wesleyan chapel, in the presence of a large and deeply- affected assembly, that had gathered together from various quarters. Dr. Leifchild delivered the 330 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. funeral oration, and Dr. Burder offered prayer. The coffin was then placed by the side of the mother and sister of the deceased, in the family vault; and for a season he was left to slumber in the midst of many of the excellent of the earth, — men " of whom the world was not worthy," — who, for conscience sake, had become Nonconformists, and did not shrink from the odium which was attached to the name; whose dust reposes in that honoured necropolis, awaiting the resurrection- of the just."" Some kind hands, moved by loving hearts, strewed flowers on the bier, — on which, at that moment, the snow fell, — as reverently it was laid in its sepulchral abode; for out of the circle of his own family, there were those who had come " to the grave, to weep there," and offer their silent yet expressive tribute of affection to one who was so eminently worthy of honour. The following Sunday, Dr. Joseph Fletcher, of Stepney, who, with Dr. Burder, had been a fellow- student with Mr.Wm. Clayton, at Hoxton, preached a funeral sermon in the chapel, which for nearly six years had been the scene of his faithful ministration ; and then were set before the bereaved congregation, and the pupils of the school, the solemn lessons which the unexpected removal of their pastor was calculated and designed to teach. A handsome tablet to Mr. Wm. Clayton's memory * Surely the unseemly pertinacity of the Ecclesiastical Commissioners, — ia their resistance to the offer of the corporation of the city of London, to keep this "God's acre" intact from all secular uses, unless a large sum of money be paid them — will never be persisted in. Religious sentiment and good feeling alike revolt from the huckstering spirit that has been displayed. The graves of Owen, and Bunyan, and Watts, — names of national rather than of denomina- tional renown, — should surely awaken some reverence and regard for the place ; and the mercenary spirit, that would make capital out of the ground where such men repose in their last sleep, should be cast out with ignominy. MONUMENTAL TABLET. 331 was placed in the chapel, in the rear of the pulpit, by certain friends, and bears the following inscription : — TO THE MEMORY OP THE EEV. WILLIAM CLAYTON, CHAPLAIN OF THE PROTESTANT DISSENTERS' GRAMMAR SCHOOL, AND PASTOR OP THE CONGREGATIONAL CHURCH, IN THIS VILLAGE ; WHO, IN THE MIDST OP HIS LABOURS AND HIS USEFULNESS, WAS SUDDENLY REMOVED TO HIS HEAVENLY REST, ON THE 15TH OF MARCH, 1838, IN THE FIFTY-FOURTH YEAR OF HIS AGE. DURING A RESIDENCE OP ONLY SEVEN YEARS, HE RENDERED ESSENTIAL SERVICE TO THE INSTITUTION, AND TO THE CAUSE OF CHRIST, BY PROMOTING THE ERECTION OF THIS PLACE OF WORSHIP, AND BY VARIOUS OTHER EFFORTS OF ACTIVE BENEVOLENCE. BY THE DILIGENCE, FIDELITY, AFFECTION, AND ZEAL, WITH WHICH HE FULFILLED THE DUTIES OF HIS IMPORTANT OFFICES, HE COMMENDED HIMSELF TO THE DEVOTED ATTACHMENT OF HIS BELOVED PUPILS, AND OF HIS BEREAVED FLOCK, WHO HAVE UNITED IN RAISING THIS TABLET, TO TESTIFY THEIR HIGH REGARD FOR HIS CHARACTER, AND THEIR VENERATION FOR HIS MEMORY. At the lower part of the tablet the family arms are sculptured, with the motto, "Nihil sine Deo." It is scarcely necessary much further to eulogize the character of Mr. William Clayton. He would have been the first to deprecate the act; for no man had a more humiliating estimate of poor human nature — and of himself, not the least— than he had. He was conscious of the existence and workings of inbred corruption, — 332 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. that awoke the hursting sigh of self-abasement, and led him to cling, with strong tenacity of purpose, to the cross, whence he derived all his hopes of pardon and acceptance. He was a man of unfeigned piety; loving the hour of solitude for communion with his God; having regularly in reading some searching book on experimental religion, as a help to the probing of his own heart. Of the solemnities of that secret intercourse which he so regularly and scrupulously kept up with God, of course no one can speak; and if any one could, his duty is to keep silence. But as the prophet, admitted to a solemn audience with God — of which no other of mortal mould was privileged to be a spectator — silently indicated, in the radiant light that streamed from his face, with whom he had held intercourse, amid the awful grandeurs of the mount, so did Mr. Clayton, when he left his study, after these secret communings with God, in the bright and happy smile that shone on his features, — so expressive of child-like faith, holy serenity, and devout joy, — announce to all who took knowledge of him, that he had been privileged with " fellowship with the Father, and with His Son Jesus Christ." What he was as a son ; what was his " manner of life from his youth, which was at the first among his own people," knew a large circle of observant friends. Tenderly affectionate, yet filially reverent, was he — as were both his brothers and sisters — towards his parents. There was ever, in the intercourse of the younger people with their elders — even to the last days of their lives, — and this was especially conspicuous in the style of address adopted in their letters — more of that old deferential spirit which found its abode in the house- holds of England a century ago, but which is now so HIS CHAEACTEE. 333 rarely met with ; when a child would not think of sitting down in the presence of his father or mother without an invitation to that effect; when every word was couched in respectful tones ; and when love was found to he perfectly consistent with profound venera- tion for the parental character. There is something so beautiful in all this, that one cannot but lament the modern innovations, which have banished — though, it is to be hoped, only for a season — this reverential mode of behaviour from our English homes. Reference has already been made to the fraternal spirit, which was cherished and displayed by the brothers, and which made the interests of one the concern of the rest. In his intercourse with them and his sister, the thorough amiability of Mr. William Clayton ever displayed itself. Happy were those reunions, which from time to time were enjoyed ; wdien from their respective localities they met at the house of one or other of the members of the family; pleasant social converse ever being chastened and sanctified by the introduction of topics of the highest importance, on which every one felt it a pleasure and a privilege to speak. But it was in his own home, by his own fireside — albeit the circle was small that gathered there — that Mr. William Clayton was seen to perfection. Refine- ment, culture of mind, kindred sympathies on matters of religion ; similarity of tastes in art and science ; a love of nature, in all her varying moods and manifesta- tions ; — these constituted a strong bond between "the husband and father, and the wife and daughter. The latter, as the only child, was not unnaturally soon looked upon more as a companion, than as the youngest member of the household; and to the development of 334 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. her mind both parents devoted themselves, with all the ardour of their souls; and were blessed in their work. A happier household than that which met under the minister's roof, both at Saffron-Walden and at Mill Hill, could not be found ; and the smile that lighted up his countenance, and the glance of affection that beamed in his eye, never shone with so rich a lustre, as when he crossed the threshold of his own dwelling. Dark, therefore, and intense, was the gloom which suddenly overshadowed it, when that light was quenched in the darkness of death. To Mr. William Clayton's pastoral character there has already been a reference. In the discharge of the duties connected with his office, he was scrupulously conscientious ; showing to all equal attention ; whether the members of his flock were " the poor of this world, rich in faith and heirs of the kingdom," or those who had " this world's good," and were socially in the same position as himself. In his pulpit preparations he was, as I have already intimated, most assiduous. I have before me, as I write, the last two sermons he preached, four days before he died. Both are written out in full, and an analysis of each discourse' accompanies the more expanded manuscript ; together with the hymns chosen for both services, endorsed on a fly leaf; — so methodical was he in all he did. One of these, which was the second of the course on Elisha, was entitled, " Children mocking sacred things put under a curse," and founded on 2 Kings ii. 23-25. As among the last teachings of their revered pastor, this discourse would surely be solemnly remembered by his youthful audience. The afternoon sermon was from Proverbs xiv. 11 : " The backslider in heart shall be filled with his own ways;" HIS CHARACTER. 335 and is a most faithful exposition of the appalling state of the class of persons alluded to, who were held up as beacons, warning others off from the rocks and shoals with which the sea of life abounds. Both subjects, remembered in connexion with the event of the following Thursday, were most instructive. That he might not derogate at Mill Hill from his well-earned character, as a diligent student, when at SafFron-Walden, he burnt the whole of the sermons he had written at the latter-named place, — more than two thousand in number, — and thus necessitated the composition of fresh ones in his new sphere of labour. There was an amount of moral courage displayed in this transaction that few would have evinced; and a resolution, to work as vigorously as ever, that was unmistakable. It was one of many proofs of a firmness of purpose for which he was remarkable, and from which no love of ease, or temptation to spare himself, could turn him aside. He was the author of two volumes : The Invisible Hand, a tale ; and Submission Exemplified, or the Amiable Stranger; both of which went into a second edition. They were simple, sober narratives, at an infinite remove from the sensational, both in style and incident. They were written, as their titles imply, for the purpose of solacing the heart of the weary and afflicted with such views of the ways of God as were calculated to inspire confidence in His goodness, and lead the heart to nestle quietly beneath the wing of divine love. These, with the sermon preached before the London Missionary Society, appear to have been the only publications he sent from the press. Chapter SEX- REV. JOHN CLAYTON. -1804-1836. CONTINUED LABOURS AT THE WEIGHIIOUSE. — ACCESSION OF GEORGE IV. — RESIDENCE AT GAINES. — ASSISTANCE IN PREACHING. RETIREMENT FROM THE TASTORATE. — RESOLUTIONS OF THE CHURCH. — HIS OWN EMOTIONS ON RETIRING. — SrLENDID TESTIMONIAL FROM HIS PEOPLE. INAUGURAL ADDRESS AT THE OPENING OF THE NEW MILL HILL GRAMMAR SCHOOL. — INTEREST IN THE LABOURS OF HIS SONS AND HIS SUCCESSOR AT THE WEIGHIIOUSE. — LETTER FROM MR. BINNET. — PREACHES AT WALWORTH. — BAPTISMAL SERVICES. — SECOND LETTER FROM MR. BINNEY. It is necessary now to return to the elder Mr. Clayton, from whom, at page 170, we had for a while to part, in order to insert the notices which have been given of his three sons. As has been shown, these, with their father, were for many years permitted to labour for God, in their several pastorates; without any interruptions, other" than those which are incident to all human occupations, and to which such references as were necessary have already been made. He was allowed to witness the evident tokens of the divine Master's approval with which his children's services were crowned. He rejoiced in their joy ; and felt himself, to a great extent, a sharer in all the honours conferred upon them ; while, in his own immediate sphere of action, the same blessing accompanied his exertions as had, during the earlier period of his ministry, been so distinguishingly bestowed. On the accession of George IV., in 1820, to the throne of these kingdoms, Mr. Clayton was chosen to draw up the address, on behalf of the General Body of the Three Denominations. This not unnaturally led EESIDENCE AT GAINES. 337 him to turn to the records of that body, to see what had been done, sixty years before, when George III. began his reign. Of the 104 ministers, who then went up to the palace with the address, not one remained alive ; and the old man was deeply affected as he glanced along the list of the names of departed worthies, many of whom were still occupying their posts when he began his ministry, and with not a few of whom he had, during the space of forty-two years, taken sweet counsel. But now all had fallen asleep. "Your fathers, where are they? and the prophets, do they live for ever?" Having, about the year 1820, purchased a small estate at Gaines, in Essex, he resolved to build a house there, and make that his country residence. The infirmities of increasing years made it necessary for him to with- draw from the immediate neighbourhood of the busy city, where callers were too numerous, and interruptions too many, to comport with that retirement which he now began to feel he more than ever required. Other arrangements, too, were contemplated, which would facilitate this removal of his household gods. Among the very few papers left behind by the venerable man, is one, in his own handwriting, referring to this change of residence ; and another, expressive of his profound gratitude to God, who had done great things for him, whereof he was glad. "August 8th, 1821. — I and my dear wife entered the house at Great Gaines, Upminster, Essex. This dwelling I had, during its erection, repeatedly given to God ; and when prepared as a habitation, it was taken possession of in the name of Jesus Christ, the great Heir of all things, whose merit and grace alone can insure the sanctified use of all He deems fit to bestow on believers. z 338 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. ""When I call to remembrance my small beginnings, and reflect on the stream of divine bounty which has flowed in a current, uninterrupted and increasing, all the days of my life, I ought to be lost in wonder, love, and praise. O, my gracious God, give me a heart to remember thy benefits, with suitable gratitude and devotion ! "August 20th, 1821. — It is forty-three years this day since I preached my first sermon at the King's Weighhouse, Eastcheap. How much I have to be humbled for, during the lapse of so much time ! I thank thee, Lord, for thy great forbearance, and for mercies, more than I can number. As a husband — I have been favoured by the kind attentions of an affectionate wife, for forty-two years ; as a father — Thou hast graciously given me children, who are not only performing with promptitude every filial duty, but are abounding in the work of the Lord, and honoured by signal success in preaching the word of life. " I yesterday received the holy sacrament, for the first time, from the hands of my beloved son, George ; with a pious, but little band, in this village. I had great delight (notwithstand- ing my bodily indisposition) in the services of the day. I sat during worship by the side of my only daughter, for whose good sense, devotion, benevolence, affection, and usefulness I cannot be sufficiently thankful." It was about this same time that, after forty-three years' service, Mr. Clayton began to feel the necessity for some help in conducting the worship of the sanctuary; and he called L his church members together, for the purpose of reading a communication which he had to make upon the subject,* and addressed them thus : — "My highly- esteemed brothers and sisters in the Lord, — You are called together this evening to receive a communication, in due form, on a subject which has been under my serious consideration, for two years past. It relates to an afternoon preacher. " The necessity for assistance on one part of the Lord's day, MINISTEEIAL COADJUTOE. 339 has pressed upon me, with more or less weight, for the space of time I have mentioned. "It was in order, to communicate my mind relative to this business, first, to the officers of the church. It now comes, in regular course, before you ; being assembled, in consequence of a public notice given last Lord's day. " Under some circumstances, a diminution of active service in the church of God may be the consequence of sloth ; in others, the demand of duty and submission. On this point, with me there have been great searchings of heart. " I undertook a pastoral charge, at first, with fear and trembling. The same order of feeling has attended me, more or less, through the lengthened period of my labours amongst you : and I now announce the abridgment of my services, with affectionate reluctance : nevertheless, under a persuasion that the God of nature, who has destined the human body to decay, will not be dishonoured by a timely yielding to His ordination ; and that He, as the God of grace, will not allow your improve- ment to be impeded by my partially receding from public duty. "As a church, you are now called to exercise a very important right. A voice, in the choice and introduction of a preacher into a pulpit, must be considered as involving your own religious interests, and those of your children, and even of remote posterity. Whether the occupation of the pulpit be for a longer or a shorter time, the results of ministerial influence may be permanently good or evil. The business of this evening will, it is hoped, be entered on, with a suitable dependence on the wisdom and grace of the Great Head of the church. " I have expressed a wish to our office-bearers, that the assistance to be given us by an afternoon preacher, may not subject the congregation to any additional pecuniary burden. I might, perhaps, without offence, after nearly forty- three years' constant service, prefer some claims as to temporalities; but these I waive ; and repeat the request that, in your prospective compensatory arrangements, the preacher's stipend, whoever he may be, may be paid out of the proceeds of subscriptions raised for your pastor ; in such proportion, as the sound judgment, equity, and generosity of the deacons may determine. 340 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. "Having said thus much, my own feelings, on an occasion like this, together with propriety, dictate the necessity of my retiring, in the present stage of the business of this meeting ; requesting one of our brethren to offer a prayer to God before you separate. " The Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit. Grace be with you all. Amen." In accordance with the wishes thus expressed, arrange- ments w r ere made to relieve Mr. Clayton of the afternoon service, which continued in force, for a while. But at length the strong men so bowed themselves, and the keepers of the house so trembled, that he felt it neces- sary to withdraw from his post. He dreaded continuing on in the ministry with failing powers ; lest the cause, which was dear to his heart, should suffer — as it most probably would have done — from his utter inability to meet the demands that were made upon his physical and mental energies. Not a few congregations have declined, in numbers and usefulness, from this very cause ; and the humilia- ting spectacle has presented itself of men, enfeebled in all their faculties, attempting tasks which required a herculean strength for their right performance. The wise and timely introduction of more youthful powers mi«rit have averted the downward tendency of affairs, in some congregations ; and the infusion of fresh blood have awakened new life and vigour, throughout the whole ecclesiastical body. It is not difficult to under- stand why those venerable and venerated brethren thus cling to their position. Some are the last to perceive that they are shorn of their strength ; and cannot discern, ■what is very patent to others, that the eye is dim and the natural force abated. Others look round upon their home circle, and cannot always discover whence the RETIREMENT FROM THE TASTORATE. 341 help is to come, for the loved ones there, when the usual source of supply is closed to them. If on the one hand they think they hear, in the house of God, a voice which tells them their stewardship in the church should come to a close, they hear another in their own dwelling— the Toice of imperious necessities — when, perhaps, wife and children are waiting to be fed, "Whence shall we buy bread, that these may eat?" It will not do for others to be oblivious of these facts, however strong their convictions may be of the absolute propriety of abdicating a position, the functions of which cannot be duly discharged.'" Happily, Mr. Clayton was not in circumstances which made it necessary to pause, on these grounds. God had given him a competency; and he thankfully accepted it, as from the divine hand : and not the least was he grateful for this, in that it gave him the opportunity of withdrawing from a post which he could not, with satisfaction to himself, nor with the usual amount of edification to his people, fill. He resolved, therefore, to retire from his pastorate ; and leave the way clear for the introduction of another minister, whose hands should be more strong to labour than his, which had for so many years been put to the plough, and which were now becoming feeble and faint. He was desirous of seeing another standard- bearer appointed, to receive from him that banner which he had so nobly, and faithfully, and fearlessly * The author cannot forbear the expression of his thankfulness, that this difficulty, so frequently and poignantly felt, is likely to be met, to a great extent, by the establishment of the "Pastors' Retiring Fund," of which the Rev. Dr. Ferguson is the able secretary. He commends it warmly to the sympathy and aid of all the churches of the Congregational order, from a personal observation of the exceedingly happy results that have already flowed from its beneficent operations. 342 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. borne, before that portion of the army of the living God, accustomed to look so confidently up to him for direction, and valorous inspiration, in the holy warfare in which they were engaged; and who knew that, who- ever might be recreant or laggard, that w r ould be waved in the forefront of the conllict, in whatever direction the tide of battle rolled. The resolve was made known to the church in the following communication, which was thus prefaced : — "Mr. Cla} T ton does not feel that lie has sufficient firmness, personally to address the church, to-morrow evening, and re- quests Mr. Watson to read the underwritten communication. "Dear Brethren, — In the year 1778, having, by a signal concurrence of providences, been called to minister in holy things in this place, I have continued to teach and to preach to you, and your predecessors, repentance towards God, and faitli in oiu* Lord Jesus Christ, to the present period. For this grace given to me, who am less than the least of all saints, I give thanks to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit — the God of my salvation. "The influence of time on the body, which is destined to decay and dissolution, has rendered me less capable of active labour. My growing infirmities, together with your disappoint- ment, hitherto, in not obtaining a suitable afternoon preacher (with other reasons, which need not be mentioned), induce me to believe, that my retirement from office, at the Weighhouse, will facilitate your obtainment of an eligible successor. My reason for thus judging is, that a minister whom God has endowed with gifts and grace, adapted to raise and keep together a London congregation, will not be inclined to accept an invitation to anything less than the station of a sole pastor. " Wishing to see you (in my lifetime, shoidd it please God) happily settled, in unity and love, in a promising church state, whenever the desired gift of a competent teacher is brought to your approving notice, I shall readily, by a finished resignation, surrender to you the awful and responsible right of choosing,. LETTER EROM THE CHURCH. 343 for yourselves and posterity, a minister who may go in and out before you and your dear children ; diligently caring for the flock, over which the Holy Ghost may make him the overseer. " This communication is respectfully made, from the concern I cherish for your present and future religious prosperity ; not to urge you to adopt any hasty proceedings. As my retreat from professional duty is by no means intended to be uncour- teously abrupt ; so your measures will be marked by Christian deliberation ; yet not lukewarm, or dilatory. " The wise and gracious guidance of the Great Head of the church, which you have sought, and will continue to seek, I trust will, at no very distant day, put you in possession of a pastor, who shall feed you with knowledge and understanding. "This, my dear brethren, be assured, is the sincere and earnest prayer of — your faithful and affectionate pastor, "John Clayton. "Gaines, Upminstee, 22nd of February, 1826." This letter was, as requested, read to the members,, assembled for the purpose of hearing this communi- cation from their pastor ; and the emotions with which it was received, may be easily gathered from the resolutions which were then presented for adoption. " February 22nd, 1826. "At a church-meeting held this evening, at the Weigh- house, it was unanimously " Resolved, First : — "That the members of this Christian society desire humbly to record their unfeigned gratitude to Almighty God, for having, in His wise and merciful providence, directed and appointed, in the year 1778, the Rev. John Clayton to the superintendence of the church and congregation worshipping in this place ; for having preserved his valuable life, and for having bestowed upon him such general bodily health, as that, to the great comfort of his attached flock, he has seldom been prevented from discharging his ministerial and pastoral duties, through a period of more than forty- seven years. And especially do they desire to express their devout 314 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. thankfulness to the Great Head of the church, for having built up His people in their most holy faith, by the edifying labours of their beloved and venerable pastor ; and for having made him the honoured instrument of turning many sinners from the error of their ways, from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God. " Resolved, Secondly : — " That a large proportion of the members of this church, having long enjoyed the advantages connected with, and resulting from, the pulpit exercises and pastoral duties of their esteemed minister, and all of them feeling a most ardent and filial affection for his person, they receive the communication, made by him this evening, — that he is desirous of relinquishing the endeared connexion which has so long subsisted between them, — with deep regret ; but, sorrowful as they all feel, in look- ing forward to the entire secession of their minister and friend from his public labours, they desire to bless their heavenly Father, as the God of peace, for the reciprocal friendship and affection which have hitherto subsisted between the pastor and his people ; ever to remain, they trust, unabated and undiminished. That the members of this church and congregation can never forget the faithful, wise, and affectionate counsels given from the pulpit, in this place, by their minister ; nor his occasional friendly and pastoral visits to their respective families ; and as they believe that the fervent prayers, offered by him, publicly and privately, for their temporal and spiritual welfare, have been, in many instances, mercifully heard and answered, so they trust they shall still ever be remembered by him, in his suj)plications at the throne of the heavenly grace. " Resolved, Thirdly : — " That it is a satisfaction to the members of this society, that the painful feelings, induced by anticipated separation, are mitigated by the assurance given to them, that their beloved pastor will continue his accustomed services, until the church is provided with a suitable successor. That they do cordially and unanimously embrace this opportunity of expressing their sincerely affectionate regard for their minister, and their veneration of his uniformly consistent character; and also LETTER FROM THE CHURCH. 345 beg to assure him that they will not cease to pray that a copious effusion of the enriching, sanctifying, and consoling influences of the Holy Spirit may ever be poured upon him, by the Great Head of the church ; that the evening of his life may be attended with a holy peace, and a serenity of mind which passeth all understanding. " Resolved, Fourthly : — "That it now becomes the duty of the members of this church, collectively and individually, by earnest prayer, to beseech God, the Fountain of wisdom, to direct them in the choice of an able, diligent, affectionate, and faithful man of God, to preside over them in the Lord, as the successor of their beloved pastor. " Resolved, Fifthly : — " That a committee be now appointed (aided, as it is trusted they will be, by the counsel and prayers of the church), for the especial purpose of making the inquiries requisite for obtaining a suitable minister ; one who is richly endowed with spiritual gifts, distinguished by his piety and humility, and also by his zeal and love for the cause of the Redeemer's kingdom, generally; and for the prosperity of the church and congre- gation in this place, in particular ; and that the following members constitute the said committee, viz. : — Messrs. " Dyson, Burkill, Roberts, Turner, "Tomkins, Brown, Hanson, Cooke, " Watson, Procter, Wood, Curling, " Dawson, Piper, Sutcliffe, Mills. " Resolved, Sixthly : — "That the letter received from the Rev. J. Clayton, which has been read this evening to the church, be entered in the church book, together with the foregoing resolutions ; and that the officers of the church be desired to wait upon the highly- esteemed and venerable pastor of this Christian society, with a copy of these resolutions." A few days afterwards, Mr. Clayton, in a letter to his son George, gave expression to some of the emotions with which he contemplated the step he had taken, and 31G THE CLAYTON FAMILY. which, to superficial observers, might have appeared one in which feeling had no place — so calmly had he gone throuah the act of resignation. But his was not a nature to reveal to every passer by, or even to every friend, the secrets of his heart. To his son, however, he could venture to open its inner chambers, and permit him to read the inscriptions there. He writes from Devonshire Square, under date February 27th, 1826 :— "My dear George, — I thank you for the copy of a very excellent charge, delivered at a late ordination, in the Poultry chapel. I value much your filial love, conveyed in expressions far exceeding my parental claims. "It contributes to my satisfaction, that you think I have done right, in the solemn transaction of last week. You favoured us with your prayers, whilst the business was in progress ; we need and request the continuance of your suppli- cations, that a comfortable settlement may be granted to the church. " What I have done has been sanctioned by my judgment ; but my softer passions are not under that control I could wish. The tender recollections, furnished by the interesting events which have taken place, during my pastoral connexion with the church at the Weighhouse, affect me, when alone, unduly. May a gracious God pity, and also forgive, the infirmity of my excitement ! for sin is blended with all I think, feel, and do. "It has been my anxious labour, for half a century, to collect, not ornamental, but useful materials, for ministerial work. My efforts have been too official in one respect; my own vineyard has not been sufficiently kept. I shall, however, if spared, have an opportunity of remedying the defect ; but the opportunity alone is not sufficient, without a supply of the Spirit of Jesus Christ. " I ought to be truly thankful to my gracious Master — who has been pleased to retain me in His service for so many years — that I do not retire from my station and connexion with my people, in consequence of mutual weariness of each other, nor PEESENTATION OF PLATE. 347 with apathy; for the affectionate resolutions, passed at the church-meeting, last Thursday, are of a character that I cannot read without emotions almost overwhelming. May the day of your separation from your beloved flock be distant ! When it does, as it certainly will, take place, may the closing scene be attended with the like Christian feeling, for which I and my people have to thank a gracious God. " We hope to see you in the country, next week. "Give my love to my daughters, who are, your excellent wife, and obedient daughter. " I am, as ever, dear George, your affectionate father, "John Clayton." During, that year the Rev. Edward Parsons was introduced to the congregation at the Weighhouse, as a suitable successor to Mr. Clayton, on his retirement; and after preaching for some time he was invited to the pastorate. This invitation was accepted, and Mr. Clayton himself introduced the newly-elected minister to his charge, preaching from the words, Psalm cxviii. 19 : " Save now, I beseech thee, Lord; Lord, I beseech thee, send now prosperity." It was natural that, on the occasion of his withdraw- ment from office, the people who had for so long a period enjoyed his faithful ministrations, should desire to present him with some permanent token of their love and gratitude, to which he himself, and his children after him, might look, with honest pride, and pardonable exultation ; as proofs of the appreciation of the labours of nearly half a century. A committee was formed, and plate, of the value of £228, was purchased, and on January 1st, 1827, presented to Mr. Clayton, at a crowded public meeting, held in the edifice which had been for so many years the scene of his public labours. It was the wish of the congregation, and particularly of the young people, who had ever participated in the 348 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. affectionate veneration cherished for their late minister, to witness the ceremony; and therefore, although it would have been more congenial with his own feelings to have received it privately, Mr. Clayton consented to gratify the prevailing desire. In The Times newspaper of January 2nd, 1827, there was a lengthened account of the presentation; from which the following description of the plate, and an epitome of the addresses delivered on the occasion, are given. " The plate consists of a vase, and two salvers. The vase is of silver, richly gilt, in dead and burnished gold, 21 inches high, and weighs 223 ounces. The cover is surmounted with the acanthus leaf, upon which stand the three characteristic vir- tues — Faith, Hope, and Charity. Beneath is a wreath of palm leaves, and at the edge, a bold border of flowers and scrolls ; the body is occupied, on one side, by a bas-relief copy from Raphael's cartoon of Paul preaching at Athens; and on the reverse is the following inscription : — "'To the Kev. John Clayton, who, for forty-eight years, sustained, with distinguished acceptance, fidelity, and usefulness, the interesting and responsible office of pastor of the church and congregation, assembling for divine worship at the "Weigh- house meeting, Little Eastcheap, this tribute of affectionate regard was, on his retirement, presented by the people of his charge, in testimony of their love for his person, of their veneration for his character, and of their gratitude for the many advantages, — inteUectual, moral, and spiritual, — which, by his instrumentality, were conferred upon them, by the Great Head of the church.— 1826.' "Above these is a rich border of laurel leaves and berries. On the lower part is again introduced the acanthus, enriched with flowers, from the top of which rise the handles, in an elegant and serpentine form. The lower part of the vase is ornamented with leaves, flowers, and a wreath of laurel. "Each waiter is 17J inches in diameter, and weighs 97 ounces. It is supported on rich shell feet. The bottom is ADDEESS OF THE LORD MAYOR. 349 chased, and in the centre is an inscription corresponding with that on the vase. "The right hon. the lord mayor (alderman Brown), an old and respected member of the church, became the representative and organ of the donors of this splendid gift. "The chair was taken by R. Dawson, Esq., one of the deacons, who, after a hymn had been simg, and prayer offered by the Rev. Edward Parsons, stated the object of the meeting. He reminded the assembly, that on this day was completed the laudable object, for which they had met on the 27th of May, when they determined to present some appropriate token of gratitude and affection to their late valued minister. The chairman acknowledged that, at the public recognition of his successor, some months before, he experienced a considerable mixture of joy and regret ; but on this day his feelings were of the most pleasurable kind ; and after happily expatiating on the obligation under which the church and congregation were laid to Mr. Clayton, he directed their minds to that God who had qualified him for his work, had smiled upon his labours? and crowned them with His blessing. " The lord mayor then rose, and said : — " ' Rev. and dear sir, — The committee have confided to me the presentation of these memorials of gratitude and esteem. I am sensible that it might have been considered desirable, that this should have been made by some gentleman connected, by office, with the church and congregation, over which you have, for so many years, presided. Still, I will not affect to conceal my pleasure, that I have been selected to perform this duty. Not among the least of the reasons for the pleasure I feel, is the persuasion, that the gift will not be the less acceptable for coming through the hands of one towards whom, I have good ground for belief, from many instances, not merely of official attention, but of personal kindness, you entertain a warm and sincere affection.' "He proceeded to state, that the church and congregation there assembling for the public worship of Almighty God, had felt that their late pastor, — after forty- eight years' continuance among them ; after having, during all that period, faithfully 350 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. discharged every pastoral duty — was justly entitled to a lasting memorial of their gratitude; that nothing need be said to justify the proceedings of that day, to those before whom he stood, because an advocate for their propriety was to be foimd in the feelings of every one who heard him. He spoke most feelingty, when he said, that parents who were present were conscious they owed not only their own conversion, but that of their children, under God, to their late pastor. He knew that he spoke the sentiments of many present, who, by their parents, now with God, had been presented to the rev. gentleman whom he addressed, in order to their being by him dedicated to God, in holy baptism. He remarked, that if it were permitted to the spirits of the just made perfect to know what was passing in our world, many a member of the church triumphant, with whom the minister before him had, in days that were past, taken sweet counsel, would join in approving of what was then passing, in that portion of the church militant ; that while the feelings of the assembly were interested in the business on which they were met, their judgment was in full accordance with their feelings ; and that he hoped, and was fully persuaded, that He who graciously condescended to approve of the conduct of one who, in the days of His flesh, poured upon his Sacred Person the alabaster box of ointment, would deign to approve of the testimony of affection which they were about paying to one of His faithful ministers. "He said that he felt the more satisfaction in what was passing, because he believed most firmly, that while it was the desire of that people to obey the injunction of the apostle, 'to know them who labour among them, and are over them in the Lord, and admonish them, and to esteem them very highly in love for their work's sake ; ' it was their earnest wish to adopt the full spirit of that sentiment which was inscribed upon the plate, — to regard their late minister as the instrument whereby many spiritual blessings had been conveyed to them, but to give to God the glory of all the good that had been achieved. "In alluding to the three sons of Mr. Clayton, and to his successor (all of whom were present), the speaker expressed his mr. Clayton's reply. 351 persuasion, that the scene which they were witnessing would tend to strengthen their hands, and encourage their spirits, in the warfare which they were leading against Satan and his kingdom. In reference to his own situation, as chief magistrate of the city, — in the very heart of which, for so long a period, Mr. Clayton had faithfully, perseveringly, and unhesitatingly, amidst evil report and good report, declared the whole counsel of God, — his lordship took occasion to speak of his obligations to a kind providence, for having, by its merciful dispensations, introduced him to a connexion which had been to him the source of great domestic happiness, and the means of leading him to that place, wherein, upon true Christian principles, he had been faithfully taught his duty to his God, his neighbour, and himself ; and ascribed whatever either of private or public usefulness he might have been enabled, amidst much cause for self-humiliation, to exemplify, to the blessing of God upon those instructions. He exhorted the young, if they would live honourably and usefully, and die safely and happily, to attach themselves to a practical evangelical ministry; to take the Word of God for their rule ; and to make conscience of prayer for the blessing of the Holy Spirit, to give effect to the means of His own appointment. " On presenting the plate, he expressed his own wish, and his full persuasion that he gave utterance to the desires of every individual present, that the rev. gentleman might pass the autumn of his life serene and happy — that his usefulness might be protracted — that at a very distant day he might come to his grave, in a full age, like as a shock of corn fully ripe in its season — that then he might be introduced by many whom he had survived, but to whom his labours had been blessed, into the immediate presence of that Saviour, whom he had long and faithfully held up to sinners — that by Him he might be welcomed with a 'Well done, good and faithful servant' — and that he might, at the great day of final account, and consum- mation of all things, appear before his Master and his Judge, accompanied, if it were the will of Heaven, by every individual to whom his message had been addressed. " The Rev. John Clayton said, he could not forget that at the 352 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. ao-e of twenty-three he entered this fumed city, with his staff, and undertook the pastoral charge of this church and congrega- tion ; and now, after having laboured for nearly half a century, he was called, on retiring from his station, to receive unlooked- for honours. The presentation by the chief magistrate he considered as adding value to the gift. 'I am not,' said he, 'elated, but humbled by your commendation of my pastoral fidelity. I have a very humble view of the manner in which I have discharged my duties, compared with that of many of my brethren.' He ascribed the presentation of this metallic gift to their sense of the value of the delightful truths of the Gospel, which he trusted were inscribed, not on gold or silver, but on the tablets of their hearts. He believed those principles would be found influential on the chief magistrate, who, he hoped, would not prove a pliant osier, but an oak. He expatiated on the liberal spirit of Gospel truth. Some, he said, had regarded Protestant Dissenters as bigots in principle, and anti-social in conduct. He repelled the insinuation, and felt thankful that he had frequently associated with the clergy of the Establish- ment, and exhorted his young successor to cherish a friendly regard to the ministers of the endowed church. ' All,' said he, ' who are illuminated by the Spirit of God, are illuminated by the same Spirit. There is an identity of principle in the heart, and the fruit will be the same.' " The circumstances of that day he regarded as encouraging to ministers. He exhorted his successor and the people to fear God, to love the brotherhood, and to honour the king. He paid a tribute to the church and congregation, for this act of their kindness and munificence ; and for all former instances, in which their kindness had been as a refreshing stream. He entreated that they would add to their gift their fervent prayers on his behalf. "After a short pause, the Rev. John Clayton, jun., rose, and spoke to the following effect : — " ' Mr. Chairman, — Being totally unacquainted with the order of this service, may I request your permission (if I shall not disturb your arrangements) to say a few words on this highly- interesting occasion. For as I have been gazing at the sur- ADDRESS OF HIS ELDEST SOX. 353 rounding scenery, and nmsing upon the things which I have heard, I have felt the fire kindling within me, and I can hardly refrain from speaking with my tongue. Interesting, sir, such an engagement must be to the late pastor of this church and congregation, while he is called to accept so valuable an expres- sion of the uncooled affection of a people, among whom he has laboured, for a period of nearly fifty years, with so much acceptance and success. Interesting it must be to the religious community, from which my beloved father has recently retired ; while they have the satisfaction to perceive that the separation which has taken place, has not been effected amidst the storm of strife and angry debate, nor in the sullen and ominous calm of secret alienation of heart, but amidst the quickening breezes of devotion, and in the mild atmosphere of Christian love. Interesting it must be to the present highly- valued minister of this place, while he is furnished with so conspicuous a proof of the reciprocal affection of the former pastor and his flock ; and sees, in this splendid gift, a pledge that, not only in the fire and enthusiasm of his youth, but in his sober autumn, and even in the December of his life, he is likely to be surrounded by those who will continue, in unabated friendship, to cheer him by their assurances of attachment, by their prayers, and by their beneficent ministrations. Interesting, more especially, is this solemnity, to those of us who form part of the family of the preceding speaker. It takes us back in thought to the earliest parts of our history, and to the scenes of our childhood and youth ; it reminds us of the period when we were first brought to this temple, and consecrated, in baptism, to God ; of the season when we assembled with the worshippers, and began to lisp the name of Jesus, and to call upon "Our Father, who is in heaven;" and of that golden hour when, bending before the cross of the Saviour, we surrendered ourselves to Him, and to His service for ever. " ' Surrounding friends will surely forgive us, if at such a meeting as this, and amidst such recollections as these, we drop a tear or two ; and charitable allowance will be made, if the speaker discovers more weakness and embarrassment than his endeared brothers, who sit by his side. This assembly, I say, A A 354 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. will pardon us if, for once, we publicly offer our grateful acknowledgments to our honoured father, who has often charged us, within these walls, to "Remember our Creator in the days of our youth;" and to our venerable mother, who, as we were grouped around her, frequently bedewed our heads with the tears of her devotion, and who travailed anew, that Christ might be formed in our hearts, the hope of glory. We have not the " cup and platter " of gold and silver to offer, but we present the devout gratitude of affectionate filial hearts. Gratitude, sir, may be compared to a fountain, which divides itself into several streams. If there be one which flows towards our parents, there is another which rolls in quick and strong current towards you, and the members of the religious society in the midst of which we stand. " ' We will not employ words of compliment and adulation. We sincerely thank you for all your past kindnesses, and your present memorial of unbroken regard. We feel ourselves in the situation of the younger of the three sons, who were bidden by an Eastern lady to furnish her with an expression of their love, before she went a long journey. One brought a marble tablet, with the inscription of her name ; another presented her with a rich garland of fragrant flowers ; and the third entered her presence, and thus accosted her : " Mother, I have neither marble tablet, nor fragrant nosegay, but I have a heart. Here your name is engraven ; here your memory is precious : and this heart, full of affection, will follow you wherever you travel, and remain with you wherever you repose." " ' Allow me only to add, sir, that I cannot but consider this service as a very expressive type of that which shall take place in future, both in this world and that which is to come. The hour fast approaches, when we shall be successively separated from each other, at the tomb; in the darksome chambers of which our bodies shall slumber, till the consummation of all things shall arrive. But when the fair morning of the resurrec- tion shall dawn, and the dispersed children of God shall be collected together, all, who have been participants of the Spirit and grace of Christ, shall meet again, in a temple so spacious as to contain a multitude which no man can number ; when the RETIREMENT AT GAINES. 355 endearing reciprocities of a perfect charity shall suffer no inter- ruption ; where a eucharistic festival shall be celebrated, at which there will be no need of the chalices of silver and gold ; and where the devout and delighted assembly shall never be dissolved.' " Thus ended the connexion, so long and so faithfully maintained by pastor and people; and Mr. Clayton retired to the solitude of his country residence at Gaines, to prepare for another separation, of a more momentous character than even this. In the society of his beloved and honoured wife, and in the near neigh- bourhood of his most estimable daughter; surrounded by his books in his own library, or reading the wider pages of nature, in the heavens and earth, his life glided peacefully on towards its close; calm as a summer evening — and, like that, flushing with a golden sunset, in the accumulated honours and affections with which his last days were crowned. On the occasion of the opening of the new buildings, erected at Mill Hill Grammar School, in June, 1827, Mr. Clayton, from his high position in the Congrega- tional body, his known sympathy with the educational movements of Dissenters, and from his venerable years, was selected to give the inaugural address. How would his interest in the event have been increased, had he foreseen that that was to be the scene of his youngest son's latest pulpit labours, and of his lamented and early death ! Although withdrawn from the active duties of his ministerial office, and freed from the incumbent obliga- tions inseparable from the pastoral relationship, he did not cease to feel interested in the honour and usefulness of the church of God, and especially of those portions of it presided over by his sons. This is evident from 356 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. a letter, written on the occasion of the anticipated exercise of some stern church discipline, by one of them. " Upitjxstek, January 30, 1828. "My dear , — The present crisis of your ecclesiastical affairs at , lias with weight rested on my mind, ever since I read the letter addressed to your sister. My anxiety has risen, in part, from a fear that you may ho discouraged and enfeebled, in the discharge of your pastoral duty, by the unholy boldness of any opposing power, human or infernal. "You, as a minister of Christ, stand upon high and solid ground, where the express directions of your great Master have placed you; consequently, your duties are not optional but defined, and imposed by the supreme will of Him, to whom you hereafter must give an account of your ministerial labours. If you, and the officers and members of the church, keep to written instructions, with a spirit of prayer, you may be assured of the presence of Christ. Matt, xviii. 15-20 inclusive, contains a law of the kingdom, intelligible, and of easy application. You have nothing to do with the use Satan and human corruption may make of a religious profession, and Gospel discipline in action. The King of truth will be answerable for all the con- sequences of your duty, whilst performed in LTis Spirit, and depending on His blessing. " The church is a kingdom not of this world. What do you mean to touch in your prospective measures? Not the civil rank, liberty, or property of any man; but to deal with de- partures from the explicit laws of that King whom God has set in Zion; departures, not of an equivocal character, but established by tangible facts. "Do not, my beloved , think that any strange thing has now happened to you and your charge. Meet the trying dispensation in the exercise of grace, and it will turn your present administration into an honourable, instructive, holy, and convincing testimony, which will silence adversaries ; yea, convince and convert sinners, and most certainly edify the faithful. " I like much your spirit of holy and charitable sorrow for ON CHURCH DISCIPLINE. 357 the delinquent. You are in the temper of the supremo Pastor, who says, 'I hate putting away.' In the present instance, there is a call for the most poignant grief, because the previous deliberate and temperate measures have produced wrath rather than penitence. This state of mind forebodes heavy chastise- ments in this world, or the pains of hell for ever. The last consideration to you must be almost overwhelming, after so many years of intercourse on sacred ground, and in often- repeated acts of sacramental commemoration of the dying love of Him who gave himself for us, to redeem us from all iniquity. "Church discipline is disliked by unsound professors. Do not be surprised if, in a church so numerous, there should be found some individuals who would approve a sermon on Chris- tian zeal, but cavil at an act of zeal. Lengthened observation has grounded me in the conviction that, in some circumstances, the most morbid characters will find partisans, who will endea- vour, by well-worded declamations, to draw away even true disciples after them. ' Stand fast, quit you like men, be strong.' Bead Rom. xvi. 17-19. " I have penned the above, not because you want information, but that you may know that your father, although retired from public scenes of action, retains his public spirit; and that he entertains a prayerful solicitude for the prosperity of the church of Christ, and for the honour and success of all her ministers ; especially for his beloved sons, whose Christian deportment and ministerial diligence, favoured by proofs of divine approbation, are occasions of much satisfaction to both their aged parents, and demand from them abounding thanksgiving to God. To His guidance and blessing you are commended. "With tender affection to your dear ones, from your mother and myself, — " I am, dear , your loving father, " Jno. Clayton." Id the welfare of the cause with which he had been so long identified, he took the liveliest interest, even to the last. When, therefore, the church at the Weigh - house invited the Rev. Thomas Binney, then of Newport, in the Isle of Wight, to be their pastor, he rejoiced with 358 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. great joy; and in July, 1829, offered the designation prayer on the occasion of the new minister's introduc- tion to his charge. It is with much pleasure I introduce the following letter from Mr. Binney, as illustrative of the veneration with which Mr. Clayton was regarded hy one who entered into his lahours, — and was therefore capable of forming a judgment of the ministerial and personal estimation in which he ought to be held — one who has occupied, and still happily occupies, a far more prominent and influential position in the church of Christ than was ever allotted to the venerable subject of these memoirs. Esto perpetua. This letter contains a reference to Mr. Clayton's expressed opinion — not unimportant or insignificant — on some of Mr. Binney's publications — especially as, in one of them, the " Celebrated Sentence " occurred, which has entailed more unjust obloquy on its author, and more ungenerous animadversions on him and his convictions, than were ever uttered or penned by the fiercest polemics of a past generation. It is not a little curious to see how current events are every day writing confirmatory proofs of the correctness of the sentiment, embodied in his memorable words ; which, though demonstratively shown to be the offspring of others, not of Mr. Binney's communion, was quoted against him as if it had been indebted to him alone for existence. "13, Finsbury Square, October 31st, 1832. "Dear Sir, — I should be quite ashamed to acknowledge your very kind and gratifying communication, so many days after receiving it, were it not that I know you must be so well acquainted with the incessant occupations of a London life, as to be able to make every allowance for one who is in the midst of the heat and burden of that day, the hallowed and calm evening of which has so softly descended upon yourself. I well knew, LETTER FROM MR. BINNEY. 359 my dear sir, your continued interest in the church and congrega- tion at the Weighhouse, and felt persuaded that in your daily intercessions for them, your successor in the pastoral office was not forgotten ; still, it is pleasing to be assured of the fact, and to receive from yourself those kind and indulgent expressions of your regard which your letter contains. " Your sympathy, both in my sorrow and my joy, is acceptable and gratifying. The stroke with which we were visited, in the removal of our sister, was indeed distressing, both from its severity and its suddenness ; it has been followed, however, by such transcendent mercy as demands our deepest gratitude. Not only was Mrs. Binney sustained in the hour of peril, and made the rejoicing mother of a living child, but both have continued ever since perfectly well, and are affording me the prospect of their continued health. "The satisfaction that you express with my publications affords me, I assure you, no ordinary pleasure. My last, especially, I expect to be spoken against by the bigoted and selfish of all parties ; and it is gratifying to find men of age, experience, and wisdom, encouraging one's efforts to bring people together, on the principle of mutual love and mutual forbearance, rather than to feed and foster party pride. We all want reform, in the highest sense ; we want more of the Spirit of Christ, and less of the spirit of the world. There is far too much secularity both in our ministry and our churches. We want the fire of another Whitfield to melt the frozen, and to animate the sluggish. God's Spirit is withheld from us, because we are too much taken up in quarrelling with each other, and too little intent on the conversion of souls, and the glory of Christ. " Begging to be remembered continually in your prayers, and with kind regards to yourself and Mrs. Clayton, in which Mrs. Binney cordially joins, " I remain, dear sir, " Yery much and respectfully yours, " T. Bixxey." In July, 1834, Mr. Clayton officiated at York Street chapel, in Walworth, on the occasion of the absence of 3 CO THE CLAYTON FAMILY. his son George, and in a letter addressed to him, thus refers to the service : — " I have complied with the united request of the pastor and officers of York Street chapel, to take the morning service. Indeed the request was conveyed in terms so earnest and affectionate, that I could not decline, what I, nevertheless, undertook with fear and trembling. My text was Ileb. xii. 6. I was graciously assisted, beyond my expectations, and very, very far beyond my deservings ; for I am prone to forget not only the word of exhortation, but the word of promise also. "The attention of the auditory gave me reason to believe that they heard a voice, now much impaired by time. The whole scene at your chapel affected me much ; not only at the time I was there, but on the retrospect of my visit. Your officers are men of mature age, grave, and adorned with the graces and proprieties of their Christian office. You have, I am persuaded, their willing co-operation in all your endeavours to promote the cause of our blessed Saviour. The large assembly of immortal beings filled me with awe. Has my son (I thought within myself) this nmltitude to address every Lord's day, and a great majority of an impressible age, not yet hardened by a corrupting intercourse with an evil world? What a large prize has your great Lord put into your hand, — to impart wisdom to souls who, in the space of thirty or forty years, will be in a state of everlasting happiness or endless torments ! " May large supplies of the Spirit of Jesus Christ continue your strength for useful labour ; and sustain, in unbroken exercise, your patience, of which you have great need. You have hitherto been well supported, for which many thanks- givings to God are offered by your relatives and others; and there are promises to be inherited which contain more than at present we can conceive ; for at best ' we see through a glass, darkly.' " We had a great press of Weighhouse people at the chapel, and many in the vestries. Alderman Brown took me in his carriage to Manor Place, after the services. So much kindness was too much for me to bear with firmness, and the pictures in the parlour completed my overthrow. A flood of tears relieved me." LETTER FROM MR. BINNEY. 361 At times Mr. Clayton preached to the people at Upminster, with whom he statedly worshipped; and other congregations now and then enjoyed his services. Ever were these welcomed. It seemed as if one of the old prophets had returned to hear testimony for God, when the noble -looking old man ascended the pulpit, and, with a blending of great dignity and solemnity, delivered his message to the people. In the baptism of some of the children of those he had baptized years before, he was found not unfrequently engaged. As has been intimated, this was ever a favourite service with him; and those who witnessed it, as performed by him in his old age, will never forget the thrill of emotion with which they beheld it. The following letter from Mr. Binney was written with a vivid remembrance of one of these scenes. Mr. Clayton had sent four Bibles to Mr. Binney's four sons, the youngest of whom he had recently baptized, and this was the acknowledgment : — "Kennington Common, December 13t7i, 1839. "Dear Sir, — I can hardly express to you, in words, the feelings with which Mrs. Binney and myself received your present for our sons, and read your letter to ourselves. We have always looked back to the day when you dedicated our dear child to God, with deep interest. It can never be forgotten by us ; and we trust the day may come when that child, taught to realize the fact, shall feel as if 'aged Simeon' had 'taken him up in his arms and blessed him/ and, impressed by the moral influence of such a recollection, learn earnestly to seek the fulfilment of the prayers which were so fervently offered for him then. Such a result, we cannot but believe, will be greatly aided by the manner in which you have now expressed your feelings of interest in the child. Not only for him, indeed, but on all, do we trust, that the possession of the Holy Scriptures, as a gift from you, will ' avail much.' Taught, as they will be, to venerate your character, as an aged minister of the Lord, and 3G2 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. having in their hands what was felt by such an one to be the most valuable thing on earth, after a sojourn in it nearly approaching to a hundred years — this, under God, may greatly contribute to attach them to its truths, and lead them to seek its consolations for themselves. "I am much affected by the kind manner in which you speak of myself, personally, and of the interest you feel in my engagements, as your successor in the church. I often painfully acknowledge, to myself and to God, the utter incompetency of which I am conscious, for the duties that daily devolve upon me. I highly value the prayers with which I know you remember me, and solicit, dear sir, their constant and earnest presentation on my behalf. I ought to mention, that the elder children are exceedingly pleased with their books, and think that 'it was so very kind in Mr. Clayton to remember them.' Mrs. Binney unites with me in thanking you for the good wishes you offer for ourselves and our children, and in prayer to God, that you may continue to enjoy, in an abundant measure, the supports and hopes of that Gospel which you so long dispensed. I much regret that extraordinary engagements this week have quite prevented my writing till to-day. — I am, dear sir, your obliged friend, and (I may add) son, and successor, in the Gospel, "T. Binney." Chapter £3L MRS. CLAYTON". HER GENTLE RULE. — EDUCATION OF HER DAUGHTERS. — LETTERS TO GEORGE CLAYTON. — INTEREST IN HER HUSBAND'S LABOURS. — LETTERS TO MR. AND MRS. JOHN CLAYTON.— ILLNESSES AND FEAR OF DEATH. LETTER FROM HER SON. — ANECDOTE OF MR. JAY, OF BATH. — HER LAST HOURS AND HAPPY DEPARTURE. — MRS. JOHNSON'S "REMINISCENCES OF HER MOTHER." — LETTER FROM REV. J. SORTAIN. The calm current of Mr. Clayton's domestic life was, however, destined now to be ruffled, by an event which, though not unexpected, came upon the old man with terrible violence. God was about to take from him " the desire of his eyes with a stroke." But before I describe that occurrence, it is most fitting that the principal portion of this chapter should be devoted to a more detailed account of the excellencies of character possessed by the venerable lady, to whom frequent references have already been made, in connexion with some of the leading events in her husband's or children's lives. A happier choice, neither the man nor the minister could have made, than that which, under divine guidance, Mr. Clayton was led to make, when he chose Miss Mary Flower, as the partner of his joys and cares. Intimations and proofs have already been given of her matronly dignity, and wisdom, and tenderness. She reigned as queen in her home, but it was a sceptre of love that she swayed ; she governed her domestics, but it was with a happy blending of kindness, firmness, and 304 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. self-respect; she held all her children in the bonds of subjection, but the cords were silken, and pleasant, and never chafed ; while to her husband she was ever atten- tive, affectionate, and sympathizing ; never forgetting that he was a minister of the sanctuary, and a bishop in the church of God, to whose hands was committed a trust that would often necessitate self-denial on her part, as well as his; and cause to devolve upon her additional and heavy obligations, in the home manage- ment of her children. Faithfully did she discharge the varied duties of her household ; and most lovingly was she reverenced in consequence. There was a playfulness about her that was a pleasant relief to the more Roman stateliness of her husband ; and one can easily conceive how welcome this would be to the young people, whose natural hilarity would find, in this peculiar feature of their mother's character, that which harmonized most with their own moods of mind. Yet Mrs. Clayton could be as grave and dignified as her husband, when occasion required ; and her children ever found, on all questions of morals or religion, a tone of decision was assumed, and a look of thoughtful seriousness worn, that bespoke a consciousness of the entrance upon a class of subjects, which could only be contemplated in one aspect, and that a most solemn one. She took great delight in the superintendence of the education of her daughters ; watching, tenderly and anxiously, over the budding and unfolding of their minds. She was ever tremulously alive to the impor- tance of a true moral development, which she knew greatly depended upon the kind and mode of instruction given to young people, as well as upon the examples that were' continually before them. So that it was with EDUCATION OF HER DAUGHTERS. 365 the greatest anxiety she made arrangements for their education ; and regretted much when, through any failure of health, which was very frequent, her usual attention to her daughters' studies was interrupted. That her heart always yearned for a return to this congenial occupation, and that she was keenly alive to the responsibility and importance attaching to her superintendence, is evident from one of her letters to her son George. " My beloved and necessary business I cannot yet enter upon — the instruction of the dear girls, especially Jane, who needs me much, unless others more qualified could and would attend to her. O how I dread your sisters entering upon the world, superficial, half-educated, idle-headed, and idle-handed young women ! I am sure I do not belie the truth, when I say that, in the professing world, — I mean the dissenting world, which I am in, — there are many set in battle array against solid, mental, religious, and moral improvement. Therefore, though I am only a poor wounded warrior, I must fight upon stumps for your sisters." Another extract from a letter on the same subject, written by Mrs. Clayton to her sister, Mrs. Dawson, who was then residing at Lancaster, will not be unacceptable, as showing the possession of that " good common sense " of which she writes. " We have gone through the five volumes of Saurin's Sermons, with much pleasure, and I hope profit ; and we have now entered on Dr. Home's Sermons, with great delight. Jane occasionally — daily if we can — reads poetry to me. She is now going through Milton, the second time. " As for accomplishments, I can give them none, for I possess none ; but I wish to give them ideas, to communicate knowledge, to form a sound judgment of man and things. I am anxious that they may partake of that good common sense, which shall pervade everything in the whole circle of action, during their 306 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. lives, wherever they are destined to move. I have endeavoured to form in them tempers Christian, amiable, and benevolent. It would be flattering to me to have them shine; but my prayer is, ' Let them be good and do good ; lessen the stock of human misery, and add to the stock of happiness.' Then I have the assurance that they shall be blessed in their generation." As her sons grew up, and entered upon their Master's work, she displayed great interest, not only in their personal but ministerial welfare. Her letters to them evince a keen insight into human motives, a pretty close observation of the world, and a sagacity that often served to indicate the course which those she loved should pursue, w r hen they themselves were hesitating or halting. When George was settled at Southampton, she wrote the following letter to him, in relation to the offer of a tutorship to some young gentleman, the son of an influential member of the congregation to which her son ministered, and which is referred to, on page 227. "Need you, my dear George, determine respecting your tutorship, till we come ? I think, when your good father is on the spot, his wisdom could decide. Do not finally fix: time, and a little prayerful waiting, generally give true light. I can only say, ' May our good God make every path of duty straight, and plain before your face.' You should well consider the characters of your people, who advise for, or against. Their motives, their views of your holiness, as a minister, were I acquainted with them, would greatly influence me to side with them, or differ from them. Those who think you do not visit enough, — what do they want you to visit for ? to sink your mind, talents, and religion? or to raise themselves, and keep you up to the rare and very difficult duty of spiritual, rational, well- improved hours ? I confess, could the plan be fixed, which could insure time for pulpit preparation and closet prayer, at stated seasons, I should, without hesitation, try, for one twelvemonth. That minister gains much, whose employments are all rational ; never debased by a thousand things, which custom and a low a mother's desires. 367 standard of religion, worldly propriety, and affected politeness, among the richer low people now give a sanction to ; but how different the estimate of Scripture, reason, learning, and sound good sense ! Beside, you have not a baby to educate, but a youth ; to form him to religion and good morals — which, by God's blessing, I hope you would do. History, poetry, philo- sophy, moral and natural, would fill up great part of your time ; and happy and very useful are those ministers who can, by a spiritual art, work up all for the sanctuary. God is a God of wisdom, as well as grace. I want you to have much of these things, and bring gold, frankincense, and myrrh to your blessed Saviour. I wish it may ever be said of your labours, that, after you have worshipped Him in prayer, you, like those sages, open your treasures." While thankful to find that her sons were labouring with acceptance, and that substantial tokens of kindness and regard were not wanting, she was most anxious for their spiritual usefulness. On the occasion of a present of some plate to her eldest son, about the time of his marriage, she wrote thus : — " If my warmest wishes can avail, I say, ' that they may be emblematical of the richness, duration, lustre and light of his ministry in that place ! ' for, separate from this, I should feel no pleasure. Could you have riches, honour, and all the bounties of divine providence, bestowed upon you, except it was all, all consecrated to Christ and His temple, the wishes of a fond mother — poured out from the time my infant sons were laid on their first pillows, to this period — would all be frustrated. I aspired high for you; asked the durable riches of eternity, where moth and rust do not corrupt ; and prayed that in your sacred employments to adorn the temple of God, you might bring and polish lively stones, and place them as pillars in the heavenly Jerusalem, where they shall eternally shine to the honour of the dear Redeemer. Whatever you possess, in providence and grace, may it all be devoted to this blessed cause; for 'worthy is the Lamb to receive riches, as well as honour and glory.' " 3G8 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Most judicious and motherly, and at the same time far seeing, were the counsels she gave, when, after her son George's mind had been troubled to know what course he ought to pursue, in a perplexed condition of his affairs, she penned the following letter. The admirable advice, too, which she gives to him, in connexion with his ministerial preparation and duties, is beyond all praise. " Highbury Place, September 20th, 1803. "My dear George, — "We were truly glad that a calm had succeeded the storm ; and that agitation and conflicting passions had given place to tranquillity and resignation of mind. I think God has strongly marked out your present duty, to pray and wait. His voice is, 'Be still, and know that I am God.' It is our highest interest and sweetest rest to be found submissive at His feet. I pray God to continue this state of mind. Remember a state of suspense is the present ordination of God, to exercise you in the highest duties and graces of the Christian; to lead away from all self-dependence, from all second causes and means ; and to bring you to repose your cares on that omnipotent power, love, and goodness, which alone can make crooked things straight, and rough places plain; whose sole prerogative it is to create peace ; to cause light to arise out of darkness, and order out of confusion; and to make all perplexities ' work together for good to them that love God.' "Make daily use, therefore, of the gracious command and high privilege to cast all your care upon God, who careth for vou. Be not sinfully careful, even in this affair; but by 'prayer and supplication make known your request unto God, and His peace shall keep your heart and mind.' May His gracious promise be fulfilled to you ! " The admirable Charnock has this beautiful remark : ' The springs of God's providence often run underground out of sight ; but ere long they will arise with new medicinal qualities, contracted from the earth through which they ran.' "It is a good plan to read what is suited to the present state of the miud. I have found Flavel on Providence, and LETTEE TO HER SON. 369 Charnock on the same, frequently, in my seasons of trial, balm to my hurt mind. I earnestly recommend these treatises to your perusal, and to your memory ; and many things contained in them to your place-book. Now is the season to gather this fruit, and to preserve it rich and fine ; for yourself, your future family, and the church of God. My heart has suffered much, lest your ministerial character should, in the least, be injured, by this perplexed affair ; but I have poured out my soul to the Lord, da%, to prevent it. God grant that you may be enabled to give yourself to reading, meditation, and prayer. " Now, my dear George, is your seedtime ; and if much is not sown in youth, there will not be the rich and golden harvest in future life. You are a labourer ; your time is the Lord's ; and the work of the ministry should occupy him who has entered upon it, as much as the counting-house, the shop, the wharf, or the exchange, does the merchant and the tradesman. To change my metaphor, ever remember good Bishop Hall, speaking of ministers, says, ' They should always be fishing, or mending their nets.' I may add, if their nets were not of so flimsy a texture, and so dreadfully broken, as in too many instances they are, more fish would be caught; for the inseparable connexion of means and ends is God's predestination, to accomplish His purposes of grace to a fallen world. " I have been, and am still, a sincere mourner of wasted time, in many ministers. That talent of talents ! give yourself wholly to your sacred work, that your profiting may, through a long course of years, appear to all ! You live in days of peculiar temptation, especially as to the sacred hours of the closet and the study ; and yet however popular, however cheerful and jocular in the parlour, many of this description are (and the uncoloured fact is, many such there are in this day — I must say it, nor am I censorious in saying it) — they cannot have any scriptural claims to be holy men of God, such as the written Word describes. We cannot make a false estimate when we take Acts xx., and St. Paul's epistles and commands to Timothy and Titus, for our guidance. I was much pleased that you read, and so much admire, the life of the holy Philip Henry — a good model for you. Read it again and. again. Your sisters tell you B B 370 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. all the news, while I write my heart. Believe it, my dear George, to be that of the most affectionate of mothers. "Hary Clayton." Her connexion with some of the institutions at the Weighhouse lias been already noticed, and the excellencies of the pastor's wife were — if not quite so conspicuous as those of the mother of his children — noticeable, and most praiseworthy. Until afflicted with the deafness, which incapacitated her from uniting much with the committees, who managed the several societies connected with the chapel, she was ever ready, so far as her home duties would allow, to take her place with other admirable workers, and to share their labours and responsibilities. The subjoined letter, written to her daughter Mary, will show her deep interest in the subject of education, and the heartiness with which she joined in all her husband's plans for the benefit of the poor : — " Good Mary Henwood has left the almshouse, for a mansion prepared by love divine, in the New Jerusalem. She was eighty years of age, and had been a member of the Weighhouse forty j T ears. Papa preached a beautiful sermon for her, yesterday. ' Godliness with contentment is great gain.' Rich or poor, may our lot be with the saints ! He is no proper judge of blessedness who hesitates a moment to prefer the condition of a penitent in the porch, to that of a sinner on the throne. " what a thrice happy day I had last Tuesday ! In the upper school-room were assembled nearly three hundred people, the flower of the Weighhouse congregation. When all the visitors were seated, the children came in, one by one, in slow order ; girls first, then boys, with the master and mistress. Papa began by singing the forty-first psahn, and then prayed. A very charming address followed ; — first to the benefactors, S. M , Esq., who gave the ground, and Mr. T , who gave £300. Other liberal donations were mentioned; the circum- THE WlilGHHOUSE SCHOOLS. 371 stances enlarged on and improved; and the gracious goodness of God celebrated. Reference was made to the fact that some children, brought tip there, were now excellent servants, others flourishing tradesmen ; and that some had died in the faith. One girl, who was patronized by a lady present, had departed this life, an eminent believer in the Lord Jesus Christ. "Papa then addressed the children, and the master and mistress. Then the scholars repeated Scripture and hymns ; and a poem to their benefactors, simple and pretty, written for the occasion. All was concluded with prayer. " Dear M. M , all activity, stood by a large table, ready to distribute the rewards — articles of clothing, &c, &c. O how pleased the poor children were ! When the shawls were noticed by some of the ladies, I believe they were as highly gratified as a duchess would have been, in displaying the various elegances of a drawing-room at a grand rout. The company then went downstairs, and in the boys' school-room two long tables were spread, with a small one for the master and mistress, and abundant provision for all. " Several dear friends were there, and presented their offering. But none could have my feelings. I hope I did wonder, love, and adore, when I remembered that the boys' school originated in the desire of a poor female of little note. When it was mentioned to papa, he said, with a grave countenance, ' He was sure the Weighhouse congregation could not support two schools.' I replied, ' Let us try twelve boys.' We selected them ; and our pious servant, Robert Beale, who was incapable of labour, from shortness of breath, became the master. We took a room, paid him half-a-guinea a week, and it flourished ; but he was soon called to glory. His prayers, I doubt not, were precious seed which has sprung up. I well remember making them shirts at Highbury ; and when they were clothed and came thither, to have tea and cake, what joy it gave me to see them walk in the garden. They were noticed at worship ; inquiry was made ; subscriptions came in ; and now twenty- one boys are educated, annually clothed, and have a dinner on the Sabbath ; and, — a grand conclusion — one thousand pounds have been raised for the .spacious building. 372 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. " Thou art, Lord, a God who docst wonders. Thou hast not despised the day of small things. What has God wrought ! In this instance he has done exceedingly abundant more than I could ask or think. O praise the Lord for His goodness !" When unable to do much abroad, she was ever keenly alive to her domestic obligations. Nothing relating to her husband or her children was a matter of indifference to her. She seized all opportunities to prove that she was an observant wife and mother, and was ready with help or counsel, as the case might require. On the first anniversary of her eldest son's wedding-day, she sent this greeting : — " My very dear Children, — Though Mary will answer dear Sarah's letter, respecting our sweet invalid, I must send you a line, to wish you many happy returns of this day. IIow many minds mingle when bodies are separated ! Had the feelings of my heart been gratified, I certainly should have visited you this day ; but in this, as in many other instances, I am the child of necessity, not of choice ; or in other words, I must not have my own will, but am called very frequently to give it up. for blessed resignation to calm my soul ; to teach me to say, 'Father, thy will be done.' " I am continually pressing after cheerful submission to the divine appointment ; and sometimes hope I shall in patience possess my soul, and attain to the 'ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price ; ' and the finest adorning of the female character. I believe I have been with you as much in spirit, all this morning, as if I had actually been sitting in your parlour; and have with genuine affection poured out my heart for you, before the throne of mercy. " On a review of your first year of marriage, in retracing the various providences of God, we must sing of mercy and judgment. Many have been your trials; but what deliverances! what signal instances of favour ! what providential supplies ! So marked, that the divine and beneficent hand has been most LETTER TO HER DAUGHTER-IN-LAW. 373 conspicuous, and has put unbelief to the blush, and hushed our guilty fears. Let us then say, ' Praise the Lord ; for His mercy endureth for ever.' "My wish for you, my beloved children, is, that you may walk in all the ordinances of the Lord blameless, like the holy couple set before us in Scripture example. 'Walk together as heirs of the grace of life,' that your prayers may not be hindered. Live in that love you have begun. Beware of the least diminution. 'Be of one heart, and one mind; and the God of love and peace be with you.' " I have had many thoughts respecting the situation at Kensington; and in looking back, and seeing what has been done, it must, beyond a doubt, appear that it was a chaos. Has not some order arisen from the rough, rude, heterogeneous mass? Who can tell but light, life, and fruitfulness may, in God's due time, through His all-gracious, all-powerful influence, be given. His work is gradual, in the new creation. Let much prayer be made, for God to prosper His word to those ends to which He has appointed it. "Papa unites in all kind wishes, at this period, with your truly affectionate mother, "Mary Clayton. "Highbury Place, May 12th, 1804." The subjoined letter was written to Mrs. John Clayton, when the latter had entered upon her inte- resting maternal duties with her young and rising family; and shows both the submission of the writer's heart, under her heavy affliction, and her supreme concern for the spiritual welfare of those who were dear to her. "Highbury Place, December 12th, 1810. " Amid the multitude of undeserved mercies, which a gracious God, of His free bounty, has bestowed on me, I account my dear children a very prime one. Their attention, prayers, and true sympathy, demand my gratitude, and devout acknowledgment to Him, from whom cometh every good and perfect gift. This leads me to return my dear daughter my heartfelt thanks, for oT-A THE CLAYTON FAMILY. every expression of her love and kindness, by messages, and especially by lier affect ionate letter, received by Mr. Clayton, on Sabbath day. Could I have heard your soothing, condoling, and encouraging language, how glad should I have been of a visit, in my affliction, from my dear Sarah ; but the distracting noise in my head, my not hearing my own voice, with other pains, and total deafness, have made me covet stillness and retirement, as the only means of quiet ; and, — should it please the all-disposing Providence— a little partial recovery. " I have reason to bless God that I am rather better ; and hope Dr. S 's prescriptions have been of some benefit. I am going on with them. I know you will join me in praying, if it be the divine will, that they may be still more efficacious in the recovery of my health; and, what is yet more to be desired, in a renewal of animal spirits ; for sure the worst part of my disorder has been extreme dejection, which, I believe, is the quintessence of nervous malady. Oh, how does this spread a gloom over everything, earthly and heavenly ! What an avenue for the grand enemy of souls to enter, and act with his cruel devices. Yet I have reason to praise God, for Satan has not prevailed. My confidence in the dear Lord Jesus has been unshaken. I have cast anchor on the sure and immovable promises of God ; and though in storms, and clouds, and tempest, have not, I trust, lost sight of the skilful Pilot, who can bring me safe into the port of rest and joy. " I hope you and your dear tribe are well. May the divine benediction rest iipon them, and on all your care and labour of love towards them. I should tell a falsehood if I said I pitied you. ~No ! those cares are delightful ; especially those you are now entering upon, or, rather, have entered upon. It is no poetic fiction to say, ' Delightful task, to rear the infant mind.' I know the truth as much as mortal can; and look back and view those hours, so spent, as my period of bliss. Ah ! pleasant task, to draw out the infant reason; to teach the young to think ; nor to rest till you have improved the mind, as well as stored the memory; to see the dear little ones take in and digest their knowledge ; and grow up with strong, vigorous souls — making a true and scriptural estimate of persons and MBS. JOHNSON. 375 tilings around them. Above all, oh, bliss divine ! to lead them to Jesus, who has promised to take the lambs in His arms, and fold them to His bosom ! May this, my dear daughter, be your happy experience ; and then I may add, for my dear second progeny, 'Not a grandmother's fondest wishes, can to greater joys aspire.' " I once hoped, in this employ, I should have the honour to be a coadjutor with you. But I am still a babe — a learner in the great lesson of resignation. Yet though I lisp, I desire from my heart to say, 'Not my will, Lord, but thine be done.' "Was my dear Mr. Clayton at home he would send his love. The child of my heart, my matchless Mary, desires her affectionate regards to you and ' John, the beloved ; ' in which cordially joins your very affectionate mother, "Mary Clayton. "Excuse all defects ; the last page is written in the dark." As her sons one by one settled in life, she was left with only her daughter Mary for her female companion, and most tender and loving was the intercourse between them — more like that of sisters, with some slight dis- parity of years, than of mother and child. Mrs. Clayton's affliction and growing infirmities rendered it necessary that she should be cared for, with untiring assiduity. This care was never intermitted; for even when Miss Clayton, in 1816, was married to Mr. Janson, and subsequently contracted a second marriage with Mr. Johnson, her home being situated near her mother's, she was still able to perform her filial duties, or at least so to superintend those who ministered to the venerable lady's wants, as that nothing was neglected that was necessary for her comfort. A more amiable and excellent woman than Mrs. Johnson never existed. In the above letter, her mother calls her her " matchless Mary ; " and, making 37G THE CLAYTON FAMILY. all due allowances for maternal preferences, there was ] rally a solid foundation for so high an estimate of her daughter. But -she was one of the timid and trembling class of Christians. John Bunyan's Mercy, at the wicket gate, admirably represents her — for while others were " rejoicing in Christ Jesus," she " did stand without, trembling and crying, for fear that she was rejected, and that no gate should be opened to her." While every one recognized the unmistakable evidences of a true spiritual vitality in her profession, her constant fear was that she had " a name to live and was dead." Through her whole life she went mourning, under the apprehension that she had no interest in the Saviour ; and, to the last, dared only, and as it were in secret, touch the hem of His garment ; with the hope, though generally a faint one, that she might be made whole. She never doubted the power of the Divine Healer, but could not realize the fact of His willingness to restore her ; and this arose from the profoundly humble estimate she had formed of herself, in the presence of Infinite Perfection. I have no doubt that this intensely morbid sensibility, that was most distressing to those who loved her, and revered her for her numerous excellencies — excellencies which were patent both to rich and poor, who shared either in her bounty or friendship, — resulted from physical causes, whose subtle operations could not be traced, but whose effects, too plainly visible, were painful in the extreme. Mrs. Clayton was often the subject of severe and dangerous affliction. More than once, especially between the years 1811 and 1813, all hope of her restoration to health was abandoned; and her husband and children were hourly anticipating the loss of one of the best of wives and mothers. But these trying seasons, that LETTER TO HER SON GEORGE. 377 tested her faith and patience to the utmost, served only the more vividly to elicit the graces of a meek and submissive spirit, which, amid the tempests that were sweeping around her, could exclaim, " Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him;" and God came nigh in the hour of peril, to rescue her; so that she was spared to a good old age, to adorn her station with those Christian and matronly graces which so dignify and beautify " a mother in Israel." Another letter to her son George, dated Upminster, December 6th, 1823, must close the extracts given from her correspondence. It will be seen that, towards the conclusion of it, she refers to what was a marked feature in her religious experience, her dread of the hour of death ; through fear of which she was " all her lifetime subject to bondage." "I hail you, my beloved son, that your great and good Master does not turn you out of work, but keeps you in the best employment ; gives the highest wages, and the sure promise of a rich inheritance, when you cease from your labour. Who can tell the blessedness, when He shall not only enrich, but approve ? Oh! the felicity to hear, 'Well done, thou good and faithful servant, enter thou into the joy of thy Lord.' Bliss beyond the conception of mortals ! " Pray take care of your health. The body is His servant, and yours ; therefore do all you can to keep it strong for service, and unimpaired. Much as I long for and love your company, I gladly relinquish the pleasure, for His sake who pleased not himself; nor must mother or sister interrupt His service. It grieves me much to hear of my dear daughter's pains and suffering. I take her affliction where I take my own — to the throne of mercy — to Jesus, whose infinite love bore our sins and sicknesses, and carried all our sorrows. Give my love to her, and assure her of my heartfelt sympathy — made peculiarly so, at this time, as a partner in pain, though somewhat abated. " I thank you for the precious little book. I have perused it 378 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. with pleasure, and I hope profit. It is wise, scriptural, and holy; I wish it may spread, and he adopted hy the heads of families; especially that God may be glorified, and the pious zeal of the author reap his reward. " Good Mr. Curling's death must be called a translation ; so peaceful ! Such a well-founded confidence in his Redeemer may well banish, or at least mitigate, the dread of the last enemy. I hope, in this illness, my fear and bondage have a little subsided ; at least I have endeavoured to maintain the combat against unbelief, fear, and despondency. In the prospect of death, in former sickness, this was my state — lingering on the brink, I feared to launch away. Now I have laboured to glance beyond Jordan ; to enter more into the employment and enjoyment of the heavenly state. I have been greatly aided in my meditations by the admirable Saurin ; especially by two of his discourses, Revelation v. 11, 12, and 1 John iii. 2, where he shows the blessedness of the beatified soul to consist in four communications from the adorable Saviour : 1st, A communica- tion of ideas — all rectified from sin, darkness, and error ; 2nd, A communication of love ; 3rd, Of holiness ; 4th, Of felicity. His enlargement on these charmed me. Indeed I have chiefly read Saurin, of late. His sublime devotion, original thought, strong reasoning, just conclusions, and eloquence of style, have been a means of fixing my attention, and diverting and drawing off my mind from my painful bodily feelings. — Believe me to be, your loving mother, "Mary Clayton." To this prevailing fear of death her son George refers, in a letter he addressed to her in 1820, in which he mentions, for her encouragement, a case not unlike her own, that had a happy termination; and adverts also to one of God's afflicted children, whose accumu- lated woes might well awaken in the hearts of others a tender sympathy, excite gratitude for freedom from such trials of faith, and lead to the magnifying of that grace, which sustained the trembling and troubled spirit, and bore it safely through terrible " storms and seas of deep distress." Mr. George Clayton says : — FEAR OF DEATH. 379 "It lias long been the earnest desire of my heart, that you may be favoured with a larger measure of spiritual peace and sensible consolation ; but though this is to a certain degree denied you, and though you walk in darkness, and have no light, yet it is your happiness to trust in the Lord, and stay yourself upon your God. I can believe for you, though you may not be able to take the comfort of it yourself, 'that at evening time, it shall be light' Have you seen Mr. J. Bran- dam's funeral sermon for the late Alderman Lea? His expe- rience, for many years, was like your own ; but at last the sun of divine consolation broke forth in all its splendour, before he entered that bright world, where it shall go down no more, for ever. " It was just so with a dear old lady, whose removal I endeavoured to improve last Sabbath — Mrs. "Webb, of Fetter Lane — the daughter-in-law of the minister who once preached there. My text was, 'Cast down, but not destroyed;' which might be truly said to be her motto, as descriptive of her outward afflictions, and inward depressions. Her youngest daughter was, by accident, burnt to death ; her eldest son, by a fall, fractured his skull, and was killed, at twenty-five years of age ; her husband died in the midst of his days, of a decline ; and she remained a widow forty-three years. After this she lost her eldest daughter, who died — in consequence of family troubles — of a broken heart, at fifty years of age; and to complete the sad picture, on a principle of mistaken generosity, she sacrificed her property to some other children, and lived, for twenty-five years, in a state of poverty and dependence. Yet was she a gentlewoman, by birth, manners, and education ; and a bright ornament to her Christian profession, in humility, integrity, meekness, and submission, for sixty- six years. One of the long ' cloud of witnesses.'" This fear of death was as much, if not more, a dread of the actual struggle with the last enemy, than of the consequences. How she should pass through the river ? — that was her anxiety. Whenever she met with Christian ministers, or persons of marked piety, and 380 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. lengthened experience in the divine life, she invariably introduced the subject, hoping to hear, from some of them, words, whereby she might be saved from the continuance of the torturing apprehensions which pos- sessed her. One day, before her deafness became quite confirmed, she was in the society of Mr. Jay, of Bath, and, as usual, her favourite topic was introduced. She spoke to her visitor of her fears; and of her sorrow because she knew those fears were derogatory, both to her profession, and to the lovingkindness of her Lord. "Madam," said Mr. Jay, "why do you persist in making boats, and carrying them on your head ? " " Carrying boats on my head ! " replied the lady, rather perplexed, for a moment, to discover his mean- ing; " I don't understand you." "Why, madam," rejoined Mr. Jay, gravely, "you are, I know, about to cross a river — it may be dark and deep — it may, I believe it will, be shallow, and bright with Heaven's splendour. But you seem to think that the Lord of the country whither you are going, when He summons His friends to come and abide with Him, does not properly provide for their necessities, — by having some mode of transit ready for His guests, when they come to the water that flows between His country and ours; and so you think it needful to carry a boat along with you." Mrs. Clayton looked earnestly at the speaker, and, as though a new light had flashed in upon her soul, said, " Ah, my dear friend, you have fairly described the state of the case. Like the disciples on the sea, when the Saviour was asleep, I have been very fearful. Well may the blessed One — who now never slumbers nor sleeps, but who has said, ' The Lord shall preserve thee from all TRIUMPH OVER DEATH. 381 evil, He shall preserve thy soul ; the Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore' — chide me with the loving rehuke, ' thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?'" There are many who can sympathize with Mrs. Clayton, in her mental trouble, who need only call to remembrance the " exceeding great and precious promises" which have been given on this subject. Surely He, who bears with His people through all the wilderness, will never leave nor forsake them, when they come to the Jordan t He who has divided the Ked sea, and enabled His ran- somed ones to pass safely, from the Egypt of the world unto the mount of God, will certainly care for them in crossing the narrow stream ! If, in the greater and more lengthened conflict with the prince of the power of the air, we have stood still, and seen " the salvation of the Lord ; " in that which we must wage with death — his enfeebled and oft- defeated offspring — we shall certainly not be less encouraged, by the presence and power of our great Deliverer ! " We shall be more than conquerors through Him that loved us." With Satan bruised under our feet, we shall, undoubtedly, one day exultingly exclaim, "0 death, where is thy sting? Thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ." " All things are yours ; whether life or death, or things present, or things to come; all are yours; and ye are Christ's; and Christ is God's." "For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." 382 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Mrs. Clayton's last hours were a remarkable commen- tary on the truth of this assurance. She had reached the advanced period of ninety years; and having been often the subject of severe bodily suffering, at times extending over many months, it is no marvel that the tabernacle should be very feeble, when such extreme old age was attained. At this time any intercourse with her, by means of speech, was utterly impossible ; her deafness having become hopelessly incurable. Every communication had to be made by writing; and although her family and domestics patiently sought by this slow method to converse with her, yet, from the very necessity of the case, it was scanty information that could be conveyed. She was therefore left much to her own resources, and her time was principally passed in reading or meditation. She, of course, was able to make known her wishes and thoughts to her family, for the faculty of speech was enjoyed, though that of hearing was lost; and sweet and welcome were the communications that came from her experienced and cultivated mind. Her counsels were most precious ; for they were recommended by the forcible example of a lengthened and holy life. The Christian meekness, and humility which clothed her as with a garment, falling in graceful folds around her, had an irresistible charm ; while the loving tenderness, undiminished by the lapse of years, that gleamed in her looks, and trembled in her tones, won the reverential affection of all her social circles. She was often visited by her children and her grandchildren, who, as they sat at her feet, felt how awful, and at the same time how beautiful, goodness was ; and that it never shines with a richer lustre than when it reveals itself in old age. If ever profound veneration is felt for another ; if at any MR. SIMEON, OF CAMBEIDGE. 383 time one feels inclined to render a kind of worship to the creature that may deprecate censure, it is when one is in the presence of an aged disciple like Mrs. Clayton ; who, while yet a sojourner on earth, seems as if living in the atmosphere of heaven. No one who had been in her society ever failed to feel interested in her ; and often her solitude was cheered by the presence of Christian visitors, who delighted to hear, from her lips, her varied reminiscences of three quarters of a century back. Mr. Simeon, of Cambridge, was one of her friends; and he sent a message to her, through her son, which was amongst the very last communications she received from the outer world, a short time before her death. " He inquired much about the state of your mind," wrote Mr. George Clayton, on the sheet, with which he communicated with his mother. " I said, I thought you dwelt in the atmosphere of contrition. He said, 'I wish I could talk with her, for that is my prevailing frame of mind; in dust and ashes before the cross of Christ.' He added, ' I should covet to live and die with the two Marys. To live with the first, sitting at the Saviour's feet; and to die with the second, bathing those feet with tears.' " But at length " the time drew nigh that she must die ; " and it was granted to her that her experience should afford another illustration of the tender and loving care of God over His people; that "like as a father pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth them that fear Him ; for He knoweth our frame, He remem- bereth that we are dust." For some days increasing difficulty of breathing had been noticed by Mrs. Johnson, and the attendant; and, at their earnest solicitation, she consented, though very reluctantly, to adopt a rather sharp remedy, in the 3S4 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. shape of a blister. The night that followed was a very- restless one, but she arose the next morning, as usual, and readily partook of the food that was brought to her. Durin^ the day she several times fell into a quiet doze, as she sat in her easy chair ; watched by the loving eyes that could see the shadow beginning to fall, which was to end in the total eclipse of the light, that had for so many years gleamed on that beloved face. When the hour for her evening devotions arrived, she asked for her Bible and hymn-book, that she might read her portion ; but the eyes failed to perform their functions, and she laid down the books gently, with a sigh, that seemed to whisper a consciousness that the duties of " those that look out of the windows " were well-nigh ended. She then crossed her hands meekly, and her lips breathed some words of prayer, which, at intervals, became audible to those around her. " Blessed Jesus," she said, " cleanse me in thy blood ; cleanse from every sin ! Make me like thyself — holy. Prepare me for thy presence." These w T ere among her last words. Shortly after, she feebly attempted to rise, and walk towards the bed, — her daughter and her attendant sup- porting each arm. " How is this ? " she exclaimed, suddenly; as, leaning heavily upon them, she turned from one to the other, with a look of wonder in her eyes. They placed her gently on the bed ; and she laid her head lightly on the pillow; then lifting up a loving glance towards the face of her daughter, whose filial attentions had, for so many years, been most solacing to the beloved invalid, she gave her a sweet expressive smile. That was the last farewell between the mother and the child, — for the next moment she was in heaven. Not a quivering of the lip was seen, not the faintest MRS. CLAYTON S DEATH. 385 sigh even was heard; the solemn stillness of that moment was unbroken, till the sobbing of the bereaved ones told that all was over. "I heard a voice from heaven, saying, ' Blessed are the dead which die in the Lord.' " " Weep not; she is not dead, but sleepeth." Thus she who, " all her lifetime," had anticipated this solemn hour with dread, found that the valley was full of light, and the pathway smooth and clear. She did not see death ; she knew nothing of the anticipated conflict with the last enemy. She was a conqueror without a struggle. As silently and softly as the flower folds its petals, at the evening time, so did her eyelids gently close, as the night shadows fell around her ; and she sank into calm and dreamless slumber. "So He giveth His beloved sleep." Her blessed Lord had fulfilled His promise : "I will come again, and receive you unto myself." With this peaceful scene before us, do we not say, " So come to us, Lord Jesus"? Mrs. Johnson, after her mother's death, gratified her own filial affection, and complied with the wishes of many friends, by writing the following "reminiscences of a beloved mother. " To gather up a few favourite sentiments of hers, and endeavour, however feebly, to delineate some per- manent characteristics, cannot violate her wish that no eulogy should be attempted ; a wish which will ever be held sacred by those who so tenderly loved her, and in whose hearts her precious memory is embalmed. " Being the eldest in a large family of children, her time was fully occupied in domestic duties ; which, she was wont to say, would always be the honour and glory of females, while the last chapter of the book of Proverbs was held canonical; for no indolent, selfish, or ignorant c c 386 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. person, could ever consider, plan, and execute, as did the ' virtuous woman.' She did not, as many, after her long day of exertion, boast of her efforts, and be ill- humoured with all about her; for in her tongue was the law of kindness. She used to say the duty of women was, in Paul's epistle to Timothy, said to be the ' guidance ' of the house ; but too many read the passage, ' Drive the house ; ' therefore there was so much misery in the kitchen. Guiding implies calm- ness and judgment, not petulance and exaction. " She had a secluded room, in her father's country house at Tooting, where she devoted her hours to study, and working for the poor. As the younger part of her father's family grew up, she had much more time for reading, which she highly prized, and diligently im- proved, by the perusal of the best authors. Among the poets with whom she was conversant were Homer, Milton, and Young. In her after days, Cowper was her constant companion; and she committed much of his poetry to memory. All the old divines were perused, and transcribed from ; and many volumes of diary were written, all of which were burnt, before she went to heaven. " This life eminently fitted her for the position she was called afterwards to occupy, and so eminently to adorn. When she married, she was a sweet solace to her husband, and a great help to him, as a minister; ever ready, in animated and highly intellectual converse, to blend her mind with bis ; while all that was tender and domestic engaged her affections and efforts. " Her three sons were formed in the nursery. She had an earnest wish that her eldest son should be a minister; and she has told us that, the night he was born, she was constantly repeating the lines, REMINISCENCES. 387 ' May'st thou live to know and fear Him, Love and serve Him all thy days ; Then go dwell for ever near Him, • See His face, and sing His praise.' She committed him to her God and Saviour, as surely as Hannah did the infant Samuel. " Very early did she wish her children to recognize the sacredness of the Lord's day, and to love it. She obliged us to put away all our toys at six, on Saturday afternoon. She found pleasing and entertaining books, suited to our age ; and used to narrate to us the historical parts of Scripture, in her own language, and we were to guess the names of the persons. Every Sabbath evening she was accustomed to gather us around her, taking the youngest on her lap, and ask us very close questions, about our thoughts and feelings; and pray with us, in most simple, tender language. Perhaps the very first convictions of sin in the heart, and the desire to have it pardoned and subdued, may be dated from these seasons of maternal watchfulness and love. " She used to wish young people to be taught to think. She said that in education the memory was tasked, and there were masters for every branch of learning; but she never heard of a thinking master. "As we grew older, proverbs and select sentences were gathered during the week, and we each read them, on the Sabbath evening. Then Scripture characters were illustrated ; then my dear brothers took a text, and wrote upon it. This was the beginning of their studies, in composition and sermon-making, in which God has made them so eminently useful, through their whole lives. " She loved to be the companion of her sons and 3SS THE CLAYTON FAMILY. daughters, and to get their confidence as ^vell as affec- tion. When it became twilight, before the candles were brought, she delighted to amuse and instruct us, and to call our mental faculties into exercise. She went through the various tribes of bird, beast, fish, plants, and trees; asking each child, in turn, what was its favourite, and why he or she liked that best; and when we had selected ours, some for form, or beauty of plumage, or fine singing, &c, she would tell us which was her choice, and give substantial reasons for valuing it; bringing out useful qualities, or gentle manners; and thus leading us to estimate most highly what benefited or delighted society, rather than what merely attracted the eye, by the showy and extrinsic. " She was anxious, at the very earliest period, to subdue the will, but on no account to break the spirit. She said the duties, cares, and trials of future life would call for all the cheerfulness and buoyancy that any young one possessed ; and therefore it was wise to keep the spirit as firm and unbroken as possible; but to induce, as soon as could be, the self-denial, self- relinquishruent, meekness, and gentleness, which the religion of Jesus taught. Once, when two of her children had quarrelled violently, one of them said, ' Mamma, I cannot bear to be so treated.' " ' My dear,' she replied, ' you must learn to bear whatever God pleases to appoint. Even the ill-temper and harshness of others you must quietly endure, that you may gain patience and forbearance. Now I desire you to go up into your room, and open the Testament, and pray over those words, " Learn of me ; for I am meek and lowly in heart : and ye shall find rest to your souls." And I charge you not to come downstairs to me, till you have wept and pleaded over that text; and keminiscenc.es. 389 till you have a hope that the gentle spirit of Jesus is in measure given to you.' " The child did so ; and that was an occurrence that remained in the memory, as a waymark in life's history : for never was such petulance again felt; and never again was there a quarrel between the two, who were then so angry with each other. " Our beloved mother used to have many young- persons around her, from the congregation, and read to them interesting passages from various books ; and was especially anxious for the welfare of those who were soon to be united in marriage; giving them advice, which many a one, in after years, has told her was beyond all price ; for to it they owed much of their happiness in the progress of life. She enforced the duty of submission on women, and used jokingly to say, 'If your husband wishes you to put a shoe on your head, do it to please him. Do everything for him but violate conscience.' She often said, 'Young persons, before their marriage, are studying to please in everything; taking pains with their manners, their tempers, their attire ; but afterwards, when the object is gained, they neglect to keep up those things which first attracted and delighted. Whereas, love is a refined and delicate feeling, and needs to be cherished and fed. Therefore, my dear girls, be as neat and nice, as polite and attentive, as intelligent and lovely, after marriage, as if your husband were your lover.' "To the youths she was in the habit of saying, 'Remember the apostolic injunction, "Husbands, love your wives, and be not bitter against them.'" 'How extraordinary!' you will say, 'to tell me to love this treasure ; this lovely creature ; and not be bitter against her !' ' Ah ! my dear young friend, the time may come, 390 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. in life's rough journey, when your spirits will be jaded, and your hopes frustrated ; and a numerous family, and straitened circumstances, will test and sour your temper; when you must resort to duty, and duty enforced by God, who alone can keep you in tender attachment to the woman you have chosen and vowed to love; and keep you from uttering a bitter word against her.' " She was especially anxious that her children should never hear anything ludicrous associated with Scripture, or sacred subjects. One day, a minister came to Highbury, and mentioned some blunders that persons had made, in reading the Bible. He also told some stories of weak and uneducated people, who had said laughable things connected with their religious feelings. She was deeply grieved in spirit ; and when the minister was gone, she called her children, and extorted a solemn promise from them, that they would never repeat any of the conversation they had the great misfortune to hear ; and also that, if in future they heard any relations of the sort, they would never reproduce them; because Satan often made use of such things to distract and harass the mind, in seasons of devotion ; and even what the holy soul hated, it could not always forget. She said she should endeavour to take an opportunity, humbly, yet forcibly, to express her feelings to the minister, who had spoken so much of the ignorance and faults of professors. " She was ever solicitous that conversation should be rendered profitable ; and when her children were going out, she used to ask them if they had prayed for wisdom and grace to use the tongue aright ? whether they had been begging of God to guide those they might meet, and themselves, to speak wisely, truly, and kindly ? ' A wholesome tongue,' she said, 'is a tree of life;' that REMINISCENCES. 391 organ is the glory of the frame, if God tune it, and direct it aright.' " Our precious mother was watchful that family politeness should be constantly maintained. She dreaded that vulgar familiarity which is perilous to domestic tenderness. She said relative affection was a beauteous gem, and should ever be enshrined in respectful and courteous manners. As her husband always treated her as a lady, and she never forgot the reverence due to him, but acted towards him with constant deference, so her sons should ever treat their sisters as ladies, and the girls behave to their brothers as gentlemen. How often has she bewailed the reverse in circles she has known 1 Eespectful attention shown to entire strangers, or company in general ; and neglect and inconsideration, and even harshness, to those nearest and dearest, with whom there was daily association. " From our childhood, she enforced gentleness and great consideration towards servants. She used to say servitude itself was to be pitied; it was a continued giving up of the will to the employer, as it regarded the time and manner of doing things ; therefore there ought to be no petulance, no imperative tone, but a calm and decided one, in making every reasonable requisition ; continually putting ourselves mentally in the place of the servant, and asking how we should like to be dealt with. She never had a servant give her warning, as it is termed, during above fifty years of housekeeping; and many were indebted to her, both for time and eternity. She always made it a duty to act towards them, as she would have wished her children to be treated, had such service been allotted to them. She used to say there was nothing so hard-hearted as a 392 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. complete ' fine lady;' who often, through her ignorance of domestic things, expected that to be done in a few hours which it would take days to accomplish, nicely and thoroughly; — and that selfish ease was all that was thought of by many masters and mistresses. " She was very careful of the time of poor and working people. She said it was their bread; and unnecessarily to detain them, or keep them waiting, was robbery. She deeply deplored the oppression and vexation caused to those in humble life, by such as had the command of their hours, or a purse to make up the deficiency. " She used to inculcate on her children, the impor- tance of never letting an opportunity to oblige or serve another slip by. She said, 'Little children can do so few things to be useful, and show their gratitude to others, that they should watch to please ; and if in the village or street they see a poor old person drop his stick, should run and pick it up for him; or if an animal is hurt or in distress, try and help it : thus always cultivating the disposition to be kind and helpful whenever they can.' " These may seem small matters, comparatively, but ' trifles make up the sum of human things,' and attention to them materially adds to domestic and social enjoyment." Such is a brief account of the excellent lady, from whom Mr. Clayton was called, by the providence of God, to part, on January 11th, 1836, at the age of ninety years; and the rest of his life's journey he had to pursue alone. This chapter may fitly conclude with the following letter, from the Rev. Joseph Sortain to the Rev. George Clayton :^ LETTER FROM MR. SORTAIN. 393 "27, Bedford Square, Brighton, ISth Jan., 1836. "My very dear Sir, — In the Globe, last Saturday, I read an account of the death of the invaluable Mrs. Clayton. This is the only channel through which I have been informed of it ; but I am desirous of losing no time in expressing our sincere sympathy with yourself and family. " I have been thinking, if it is possible to imagine a case in which death could have been more fully deprived of his wonted sting ? Mrs. Clayton has been spared so long, and meanwhile has had the declivity of life made so gentle in its descent ; has had the usual monotony of age so cheered and kept alive, by the active events and usefulness of her sons' lives, and has been so fully comforted with the consolations of hope and faith, that I can conceive of no more holy or pleasing an end. She has indeed been a l shock of corn fully ripe.' In some instances, it would seem as if the seed was left too long after maturity, only to gather mildew and expend its healthiness; but this, though the ingathering has been long delayed, was still ' golden. 5 " I trust that the venerable survivor will have that grace given him which shall diminish the force of this severe shock. May I beg my sincerest sympathies to be offered to him ? "Believe me, my very dear sir, most faithfully and sympa- thizingly yours, "Joseph Sortain." Chapter SXJL REV. JOHN CLAYTON— 1836-1843. CLOSING TEARS. — SPIRITUAL CONTRASTS. — QUESTIONS FOR SELF-EXAMINA- TION. — FAMILY BEREAVEMENTS. — INTEREST IN PUBLIC MATTERS. — LAST MONTHS OF LIFE. — MEMORANDA OF HIS CHILDREN. — LAST HOURS. — DEATH. — FUNERAL SERVICES. — EXTRACT FROM REV. GEORGE CLAYTON'S SERMON. — SUMMARY OF CHARACTER, AND LEGACY OF WISDOM TO HIS SONS AS PREACHERS. — LETTER OF REV. J. SORTAIN. In the retirement of Gaines, Mr. Clayton's last days glided peacefully away. A sweet serenity of spirit possessed his soul, even when he looked out on the stirring world beyond ; for he knew that amid the complicated wheels of various national and social revolutions, which were then startling Europe, a divine Spirit was moving ; that out of apparent confusion and commotion would evolve order and beauty; and righ- teousness and truth be established among men. This quietude of existence was broken, as we have seen, by the death of his son William, in 1838 : an event which he felt deeply, and which tended still more to loosen the ties that bound him to life. His principal employment now was the preparation for his own departure, which he knew could not be far distant. He lived very near the eternal world ; and realized the solemnity, and, at the same time, the happiness, which a close proximity to heaven produces. He was permitted now to enjoy a " consolation and good hope through grace," in delightful contrast to the stormy time of doubt through which he passed, in his earlier years. TEMPTATION TO DESPONDENCY. 395 In reference to that period his sonGeorge says, in one of his memoranda : — "Mr. Clayton was occasionally the subject of such inward conflict, severe temptations, and depressions, that all was little enough to keep him, in certain seasons of inward trial and conflict, from total despair. It is not wise to lift the veil from the exercises of Christian experience, even in good and holy men ; yet it may afford some comfort to tried and tempted Christians to know, that the same harassments they endure from the arch tempter, are common to others of their brethren, in this probationary state. Richard Baxter, in his Dying Thoughts, records, that there were particular seasons in which he had been left to wish he had been created a horse, or a toad, or some other viler reptile, rather than an accountable and immortal being: upon which Mr. Clayton writes on the margin of the leaf, ' Et ego quoque. J. C "At certain periods of his life, temptation had pressed so ruthlessly upon his spirit, that he has been known to request that he might not be left alone. It was the saying of Martin Luther that three things go to form the minister, — meditation, temptation, and prayer. Happy they who escape the second in its direst forms ; but happier still they who, under such circum- stances, can repair in faith to Him 'who was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin,' and is therefore able to sympathize with and succour them that are tempted." Thus, on two occasions, Mr. Clayton, — in a private note-book, of very early date, which he appears to have preserved from the flames, to which he consigned the rest of his manuscript, for the purpose of enabling him, by the perusal of these brief but pregnant records of his early mental struggles, to appreciate the devout peace of mind he now enjoyed — wrote as follows : — " I am filled with shame when I examine my own heart. At present, I cannot perceive that I have at all grown in sanctity ; and I am suffused with a mixture of shame, dejection, and despair, when I consider that I sustain the character and office 390 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. of a minister. I have little zeal and still less ability, and deeply regret the want of a better education. " Mysterious providence ! I entered on the work of preaching a raw, inexperienced youth. I am now fixed as a pastor, in a sphere where great abilities seem necessary ; the want of them in me gives a striking proof of God's sovereignty. I am astonished at my success. Lord ! it is thy pleasure to make use of inconsiderable instruments, to accomplish great designs, that the excellency of the power may appear to be of thyself." The next extract indicates the terrible conflict of soul through which he passed, while doubtful not only of his call to the ministry of the Gospel, but of his possession of any real piety at all — his misgivings concerning the one fearfully aggravating his doubts concerning the other. " what a Sabbath has this been ! I ought to be astonished, above measure, that I am out of hell. My heart has been full of rebellion and discontent. I have been on the brink of giving up all, — my pastoral charge, the ministry, yea, the profession of religion. I was, in my own apprehension, the greatest hypocrite in the congregation. I could scarcely open my mouth in prayer. My present feelings — the duties that he before me to perform — press my spirit so exceedingly, that relief must soon arrive, or I know not what will become of me. Lord, I am oppressed sore ; undertake for me. All thy waves and billows are gone over me. My sins are innumerable, and aggravated to the last degree. O Lord, my spirit is overwhelmed within me. Give me help, speedily. Thou that hearest the young ravens when they cry, be not silent unto me, lest I be like those that go down into the pit. 'Why art thou cast down, O my soul? Hope thou in God, for I shall yet praise Him for the help of His countenance.' " Happily this agitation passed away. God drew him up from the depths, " set his feet upon a rock, and established his goings." Through all his subsequent ministerial life he was enabled to keep fast hold of SELF-EXAMINATION. 397 the promises ; and his earnest and uncompromising maintenance of the truth, in all his ministrations, and his fervent appeals to his hearers, to receive that truth into their hearts, were the result of his own personal experience of its value. He could, with the apostle, say, " Having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, 'I believed, and therefore have I spoken;' we also believe, and therefore speak." That his attention to his ministerial duties might not be suffered to create and nourish the delusion, that an official discharge thereof must, of necessity, keep the heart right with God, he was accustomed to institute a daily examination of himself, with a strict scrutiny of his desires and motives. He drew up a series of inquiries which he headed, " Questions for my own heart, every evening," which were as follow : — " (1.) Did I awake with God in the morning, and in His strength, resolve to walk with. Him all the day long? Psalm cxxxix. 17, 18. " (2.) Did I willingly leave my bed, that I might go to prayer, and search the "Word of God? Did I long for and enjoy communion with God, in these duties ? Psalm v. 3 ; cxix. 147. " (3.) Have I walked within my house with a perfect heart ? praying with the inmates, edifying them, and giving no occasion of offence or stumbling to them ? "Every Christian's family should be like Philemon's — a church. Genesis xviii. 19 ; Joshua xxiv. 15 ; Philemon 2, 3. " (4.) Have I kept my heart, this day, with all diligence ? The heart should be kept for God ; and from sin and Satan, and this present evil world. " (5.) Have I so walked and prayed, that I might not enter into temptation ? "(6.) Have I done justly, and acted as if I loved mercy? 1 Thessalonians iv. 6 ; Titus ii. 11, 12. " (7.) Have I bridled my tongue ? James i. 26. 398 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. " (8.) Ilare I been spiritual in my civil employments ? 1 Cor. vii. 30, 31. " (9.) Have I been careful to redeem time ? Psalm xc. 12. "(10.) Have I received mercies thankfully, and borne crosses patiently ? " (11.) How much have I advanced in heaven's way, to-day? " (12.) Have I waited upon the Lord all this day long ? Psalm xxv. 3. " (13.) What care have I had, to adorn the Gospel this day, and to win those that are without to a love of religion? Philippians ii. 15." Thus, through his lengthened life, he strove to fulfil the apostolic injunction, " Examine yourselves ; prove your own selves;" and though ever humbled under a deep sense of his deficiencies, he could " rejoice that he had the testimony of his conscience, that, in simplicity and godly sincerity, not with fleshly wisdom, hut by the grace of God, he had had his conversation in the world." Domestic bereavements were now following one another fast. Those of 1836 and 1838 have been referred to. In April, 1840, his eldest son's faithful and devoted wife passed away to her rest ; and in August, 1842, another chasm was created in the domestic circle at Gaines, by the death of Mrs. George Clayton, at Brighton. Of both these ladies some notice will be given in a future page. The winter of this year brought with it increased weakness to the aged Christian, who began to be conscious that soon he must lay aside his pilgrim's staff and shoon, and exchange a temporary for an eternal home. Some dropsical symptoms became apparent, which increased till the time of his death. Yet still his interest in the cause of his divine Master was unabated ; and thus, in one of his latest communica- CLOSING DAYS OF LIFE. 399 tions to his son George, he writes, under date December 19th, 1842:— " The glorious Gospel of the blessed God affords me a sacred calmness of mind, which will not, I trust, be found delusive, at the coming of Jesus Christ. I am comforted by knowing that my surviving sons, with many others, faithful men, are diligently preaching the unadulterated truth ' as it is in Jesus.' I lament over Oxford, which is now sending out captains to lead the population of our Protestant country back to mystical Egypt. May the Holy Spirit lift up His standard against the enemy, which is coming in like a flood ; and which I fear will drown numbers in destruction and perdition." The words of his surviving children will best describe the closing months of Mr. Clayton's life : — " On the sacramental Sabbath, in February, 1843, he appeared for the last time in the pulpit ; and a supply having failed, he delivered a short and pathetic discourse on the text, 'Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world ' — affectionately urging his hearers to betake themselves to the atonement of Jesus, as the only foundation of their hopes for eternity. "While his disease was making slow, but certain, progress, his spirit was obviously meetening for that heaven to which he aspired. He familiarized himself with the admonitory infirmities which, he said, were 'the inexorable messengers, to warn him of the approach of death ; ' and often expressed his gratitude that they 'did not subject him to acute pain, nor hinder him in the employment of those private means of grace, through which he could still hold communion with his Saviour and Lord.' He conversed much with his relatives and friends, on the goodness and mercy of God, which had followed him all the days of his life. He expatiated largely on his vast obligations to that divine Saviour, in whom he reposed his confidence, and whom he frequently entreated ' to release him from the prison of the flesh, and receive him into the everlasting arms of His mercy.' ' I am thankful, also,' he said, ' that I usually enjoy much peace of mind ; not, I trust, the calm of 400 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. indifference or delusion, but derived from the righteousness and sacrifice of the Son of God.' When one of his kindred offered him a congratulation, on the serenity of his mind and the firmness of his hopes, he lifted up his voice, and added — ' Yes ! but I am no hero on a dying bed. Christ is all my hope : I am nothing without Him ; ' and then, with tears of mingled love and humiliation, he quoted the lines of one of his favourite hymns — ' Jesus, thy blood and righteousness My beauty are, my glorious dress,' &c. "His faculties remained unbroken during his protracted indisposition ; his devotional spirit was uniform ; his affection constantly breathing itself forth towards his surrounding children and attendants ; while he poured out brief and importunate prayers for the maintenance of piety among his descendants ; for the prosperity of the pastoral charges of his successor and his sons ; for the little flock in the village of his residence, and for the advancement of the kingdom of the Redeemer throughout the world. The last few days of his mortal existence he spent in the repeated expression of kind wishes for those around him, and in holy aspirations to his Lord and Master, whose coming he ardently desired."* Mrs. Johnson noted down each day, during the last week of her father's life, the various occurrences and conversations that took place ; as everything indicated that the sands in the hour-glass were nearly run, and all around him desired to treasure up sacredly, in their memories, the words of wisdom, and piety, and humility, that fell from his lips. "September 14. — Both my loved brothers prayed with him, at different parts of the day. He was greatly impressed by the abounding mercy of God, in giving him such sons ; and spoke of them with great tenderness, expressing his utter unworthiness of such exalted favour." * The Present and Future Privileges of the Believer: a Sermon delivered at the Poultry Chapel, on the death of the Rev. John Clayton, by his son. LAST HOUES. 401 On the 15th, Mr. George Clayton visited him again, and records a conversation he held with him : — " I found liim very feeble, and much, oppressed by infirmity. He, observed that lie had passed a very trying night, much dis- turbed with violent coughing. ' I several times thought myself at the point of dissolution/ he said. I reminded him that he might suffer more than he had done already, ere that change should come ; and expressed a hope that patience might have its perfect work. ' I am looking to the God of patience,' he replied, ' for a continual supply of patience. O to endure unto the end ! God has wise and gracious reasons for keeping me in the furnace. There's something to be got rid of, and something more to be attained, that I may shine in His image.' I reminded him of the saying of the apostle, ' Our light affliction,' &c. 'What wondrous words are these,' he exclaimed ; ' an eternal weight of glory ! ' " He then spoke very feelingly of Christ, as the forerunner, who had taken possession of heaven for us, having, by His own merit and blood-shedding, entered into the holy place. He made inquiry concerning some temporal matters ; and then said, 'How truly may I say, for myself and family, the Lord hath dealt bountifully with me and mine, as a provider, a protector, a benefactor, and especially as the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. Blessed, for ever blessed be His name ! I have every attention and alleviation which my condition will admit of. I am often looking back upon the rock whence I was hewn, and say, " Who am I, Lord, and what is my house ? " "He spoke of the refreshment he enjoyed, from a prayer offered for him by his elder son. 'Dear fellow,' he gently murmured, 'it proved a great comfort to me.' He spoke of what he felt from the loss of public ordinances. He wanted to be edified by the gifts and graces of others. He referred to family worship, performed with enfeebled powers, but never omitted. He said, a form of prayer which he sometimes used, although not so copious as he wished, yet kept up connexion with God, through Jesus Christ, the Mediator." Mrs. Johnson continues her narrative of the last hours of her father : — 402 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. " September 1G. — On entering his chamber, he said, 'I am just alive, waiting for the Son of David, who has the key. He openeth, and no man shutteth. O if it would please Him, this day, to open to my spirit the gates of everlasting life ! ' "Sabbath morning. — As Mary "Wilton and myself were sitting near the bed, while he dozed, he looked up, and said, ' And they watched Him there. I am honoured by having those who love Jesus to watch by me; — assimilated to the Great Head of the church.' " After he had been got up, and wheeled into an adjoining room, he asked for the Bible, and was left in quiet, for his devotions. This was the last time he was able to read. The chapter in course was 1 Teter ii. When I returned to him I said, ' My dear and honoured father, I have been reviewing your Sabbaths at the Weighhouse.' He replied, ' Ah ! my dear ; blessed be God, I was permitted to preach there for nearly fifty years. But, oh ! my deficiencies, in motive, rule, and aim ! God be merciful to me, a sinner. Blessed be His name ! there is a great High Priest to bear away the iniquity of our holy things.' "After having lifted him into his bed, with considerable trial to himself, and frequent pauses, lest his breath should fail him, I said, ' Now I trust you will have some refreshing sleep.' He raised both his hands and said, 'If it be thy blessed will, blessed God, grant to one of thy most unworthy creatures repose — " Tired Nature's sweet restorer, balmy sleep." 1 need a fresh sprinkling of the blood of Jesus; grant it to me ! May every blessing descend on those agents who are appointed to help me. Guide, protect, and comfort them.' Then, with a solemn invocation to the sacred Trinity, he concluded, ' Amen and Amen.' " On Monday morning he was partially dressed, and taken into the next chamber. The Bible was brought, as usual ; but, on looking over the page, he said, ' My head and eyes are so weak I cannot see ; ' so the chapter was read to him. Then he said, ' Oh ! holy and blessed book, — praised be God for the sacred records ! ' DYING MOMENTS. 403 "On Tuesday he sat up for a few hours. The impress of death was on his countenance, which was emaciated, and almost transparent. His silver hair glistening, his eyes bright, and altogether presenting such a peculiar unearthly appearance — he seemed an inhabitant of another world. He did not ask for the morning reading, but had Isaiah lv. repeated to him, and then desired prayer to be offered. After this, in extreme and sad weakness, he was lifted into bed, and appeared almost exhausted when the slightest movement was made. " He then slept some hours ; partly from the effects of a sedative, given to quiet the cough, which, at intervals, was most violent and distressing. He often prayed for patience, and said, ' Lord, help me ; Lord, have mercy upon me.' " On Thursday, about half-past eleven, he was slightly con- vulsed, and exclaimed, 'Raise me up, raise me up; I am dying.' He soon, however, became calm ; and had no more such apparent conflict. Early in the morning my brother John called. On taking leave, his father said, 'Farewell, dear John; peace be with you : ' the last words he uttered to him. " My brother George stayed at the house, deeply and tenderly anxious to watch the ascent of the immortal spirit to glory, and catch the falling mantle of the faithful servant of God. He was seldom from the bedside ; but once, having left the room for a short time, he was called up hastily, and bending over the sufferer said, 'When thou passest through the waters they shall not overflow thee.' His father was rather agitated by the excessive difficulty of breathing, and said, ' Oh ! this I cannot bear; I cannot bear.' Then quiet was graciously restored; and he breathed gradually shorter, with his eyes closed, for some time. "In the afternoon George repeated one of his favourite hymns, ' Jesus, thy blood and righteousness,' &c, &c. ; and in some lines was at a loss. The dying saint supplied the word or sentence needed. When the hymn, ' Jesus, lover of my soul,' was repeated to him, and the line came, ' Still support and comfort me,' he said twice, ' Still support and comfort me : comfort roe! He often raised his hand and said, 'Eock of ages, cleft for me, Let me hide myself in thee.' 404 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. ' Lord, have mercy on me ; Christ, have mercy on me.' When my brother prayed with him, he joined most devoutly, and said, ' the mercy of having such sons ! Thank you, George ; thank you.' " The night was partly dozed away, when his most devoted and tender nurse and friend said, ' Sir, can I do anything for you ? ' he replied, ' Nothing, my dear, unless you could go into eternity with me.' "At half-past six, on Friday morning, his faithful female servant came into the chamber, and he very inarticulately inquired after her welfare. When he was asked, ' Is Jesus with you ? ' he made a slight assenting sound, but could not speak. "At a quarter before nine, the messenger of release was evidently come ; and all present kneeled around the bed. Dearest brother George commended the departing spirit to the care of angels, and the bosom of the Redeemer ; and at nine the last sigh was breathed. Then we kneeled again, and Georo-e "-ave thanks for the mercy vouchsafed to the loved and honoured saint. " The heavens seemed opened : the shining ones took him to the Celestial City; the harpers sounded a welcome; the ran- somed, rescued souls, whom he had led to Jesus, hailed him; the spirits of relations, gone before, rejoiced in his entrance to the New Jerusalem ; and he saw Him, whom he had so constantly and ardently longed to behold, 'The Lamb slain from the foundation of the world.' " His mortal remains were committed to the tomb, in Bunhill Fields, where already several members of his family had been laid; the funeral services being con- ducted by Dr. Burder. On the following Lord's day sermons were preached by his sons, and by other ministers, who desired to testify their veneration for the. excellencies of the departed, and to magnify the grace of God in him. Mr. John Clayton's sermon was from the appropriate text, Psalm xci. 16, "With long life will I satisfy him, and show him my salvation." FUNERAL SERMON. 405 His son George preached to his own people at Walworth, from 2 Kings ii. 11, 12 — the translation of Elijah. From this latter unpublished discourse I give the following extract, as a summary of the leading charac- teristics of his venerable father : — " Let me show the applicability of the circumstances narrated, in this account of the translation of Elijah, to the case before us. "Your pastor has verified it in some of its distinguishing features. He had a great desire and determination, like Elisha, to witness the last conflict ; and it was granted to him. He talked with him, as he drew near to the Jordan ; he beheld the change, and the departure, which was peaceful and glorious; and from the depths of his heart cried, ' My father, my father, the chariot of Israel, and the horsemen thereof.' In this exclamation many here will unite. " He loved the congregation at York Street. I never visited him, but he inquired after you and your families. The last sacramental service he ever celebrated, was here. You will remember the majesty, the solemn seriousness and benignity, with which he rose to give you his blessing, at the close of the service. The affectionate greetings which he received from you, were fragrant as precious ointment ; and, as it has happened, therewith was he anointed for his burial. " I may sum up his character in a few sentences. " 1. As a Christian and a minister, he was of divine, not human formation ; not a mere creature of tuition or imitation. The hand of God was manifestly seen in all the incidents that led to his introduction to the ministerial office, and in the subsequent movements of his eventful life. "2. He was distinguished by his steady attachment to truth and holiness. His testimony he bore with unflinching courage, against error in doctrine ; against ritualistic novelties in worship ; and against everything dishonourable in practice. In nothing was he more stern, than in his denunciations of shameless and dishonest commercial transactions, and revolu- tionary movements, in the political world. " 3. He was distinguished by eminent prudence and discre- 406 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. tion, in all his affairs. lie was frugal in his habits, but never parsimonious ; beneficent, but not profuse ; remembering he was to be a wise steward, who neither on himself nor others wasted his Master's goods. " 4. lie was a decided and conscientious Nonconformist. He never concealed his convictions, nor compromised his principles. Yet he could never bring himself to speak in terms of disrespect and contempt of the Established Church. He could not forget that at St. Ann's, Blackfriars, under Mr. Romaine, he first drew the breath of spiritual life. He associated much with the clergymen of that church, and prayed fervently for all its members. During his later years it was a part of his Sabbath work to read over, in his closet, the morning service of the Book of Common Prayer, never omitting the Litany ; in order, as he said, that he might hold communion with the members of that fellowship, on the Lord's day. There was no acrimony in his nonconform^. He gave, as he claimed, the right to every man to choose for himself, according to his deep and solemn convictions. He loved all, and treated all with courtesy, who loved the Lord Jesus Christ, and bore His image. " 5. He was eminently blessed with conversational talents. He was almost as useful by his private addresses, as by his public ministrations. All was natural and unaffected. There was no offensiveness of tone, but a deep and evident solicitude for the good of those he addressed. His manner was ever kind, yet with an air of authority, that made him impressive and commanding. In the midst of his public labours, and after- wards in his retirement, he lost no opportunity of doing good. He had a marvellous facility of adaptation of address to the persons spoken to, and to the circumstances that were occurring at the thne — a rare and most precious talent. " 6. As a preacher he was ever dignified, serious, scriptural, animated, earnest, and affectionate. His appearance, his voice, his manner, all told mightily on his audience. Well do I remember how often his congregation listened in deep silence ; and the breathless pauses that were frequently noticed in that crowded assembly, when the people seemed to hang on his lips. His was the eloquence of nature, not of art; and the effects that followed were great, ' The word was with power.' " ADVICE TO MINISTERS. 407 All who remember the venerable preacher, to whom his son thus refers, will confirm the testimony here given, as to the striking effects produced by his pulpit ministrations. For these, as has been stated, he made very careful preparations. Among Mr. George Clayton's papers I found the following hints, which he, along with his brothers, received from their father, as designed to help them in their studies for the pulpit ; and may not be inappropriately introduced here. They may, doubt- less, be regarded as descriptive of the course he himself usually pursued; and will explain the originality, freedom, and vigour, which characterized his public addresses : — " In composing your sermons, endeavour," said he, " to ascertain, by every possible method, the genuine sense and design of the passage. In order to do this, resort to your Hebrew Bible and Greek Testament : mark well the context, and other collateral portions of Holy Scripture; and consult judicious and approved commentators, with a just appreciation of their opinions, but not with slavish deference. Let your thoughts in sermonizing be the offspring of your own minds. You may borrow another man's spectacles, but be careful always to see with your own eyes. Avoid plagiarism, and the intentional imitation of any living preacher, however eminent or popular. I have found it a wholesome exercise, after my own preparations have been completed, to read the work of some sound divine of established celebrity, on the subject of the intended discourse, not for the purpose of furnishing extracts or quotations, but of rectifying any misconceptions into which I might have inadvertently fallen, and of catching the spirit and unction of the best of our theological writers. "Study variety in the choice of your topics of discourse. Tether not yourself nor your hearers to a few favourite themes; but walk at large through the fair field of revelation, in the length and Jbreadth of it. Old knoivledge continually repeated, grows wearisome, and excites disgust. Like the hoarded manna in the 40S THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Israelitish camp, it breeds worms and corruption. Old truths as often as you please ; but presented to the mind in all the freshness of recent composition, with such additional lights as time, reflection, and experience may cast upon them. Beware of ' the sallow manuscript ; ' unless you set to work upon it, in order to give it fresh attire, and adjust it skilfully to the existing state of things, and the ever- varying exigencies of your people. "Furthermore, cautiously guard against monotony in your tones : they have a deadening effect, and dispose to somnolence on the part of the hearer. Beware, also, of contracting, insensibly, unseemly habits in public service ; distortions of the countenance, in the devotional exercises; and awkward twitchings of the body, in preaching. Give the people the benefit of the eye, by looking at those you address, instead, as some have done, of fixing your gaze on the ceiling, the opposite wall, or the pulpit cushion." He urgently recommended a style of tender expostulation in public addresses. Criticism, logical niceties, elaborate disqui- sitions, he believed to be unedifying and uninteresting to the majority of our auditories, and much out of place in the sacred desk. " That which is required is the lucid statement of the truth of the Gospel ; something that will ' strike and stay,' pressed home upon the consciences and feelings of the hearers." He mentioned, in reference to pulpit criticism, that when newly settled in London, he went to hear an elder minister, who was held in great repute, for his varied and extensive learning. Having taken his text from the prophet's vision of " the baskets of summer fruit," he bestowed three quarters of an hour in discussing the material and shape, and capacity of the baskets, at that time in use amongst the Jews ; quoting largely from Hebrew authors, of great antiquity, and at last left it altogether uncertain whether these baskets were of wicker or straw, of porcelain or metal ; whether oval, roimd, or square, whether of larger or smaller quantity. He then drew his discourse to a close, lamenting that the time was far spent, and that he must necessarily abstain from the improvement of the subject which he had contemplated. Mr. Clayton being asked how he liked MR. sortain's letter. 409 the sermon, could only reply, "We have heard much of the baskets, but where was the fruit ? " He frequently and solemnly inculcated the duty and neces- sity of prayer, in the composition of sermons, and all prepara- tions for the pulpit. " Pray, before you begin — pray, as you proceed — pray, when you have finished; " quoting often the well- known saying, " Bene orasse, est bene studuisse." " Watch also with anxious expectation for the result. The happy consequences of the faithful proclamation of the Gospel, when circumstances permit, should be diligently inquired for ; and they are well worth looking after, as supplying a present encouragement to the minister, and useful direction in his future course." With these words of good sound sense and wisdom, the memoir of Mr. Clayton must close. That he was a man who deserved well of his contemporaries, and one, the memory of whom should not pass utterly away, without some such attempt as has here been made to introduce him " to the generation following," will, I think, be admitted, even though the work of the biographer may have been imperfectly performed. Mr. Sortain's words, in a note of condolence, which he addressed to Mr. George Clayton, when he heard of his father's death, record the opinion of all who knew the subject of his eulogy, and may fitly end this chapter : — "You and your whole family have the best sympathies of the entire Christian church. I believe that there never was a servant of Christ, who, after a most honourable, dignified, consistent, and useful life, 'waited for the consolation of Israel' with a more legitimate hope. It was his lot to be the link between the calm, soberminded, judicious ministiy of the former generation, and the fervid, active one of the present. O ! would that we could with ' like patience possess our souls.' " I trust, my dear sir, that Mrs. Clayton and Mrs. Johnson are enabled, with yourself, so brightly to realize the reward which the patriarch is now enjoying, that you feel no gloom. 'The path of the just is as the shining light, that shineth more and more unto the perfect day.'" Chapter XH3L REV. JOHN CLAYTON. -1834-1848. MINISTERIAL PROSPERITY. — DEATH OP MRS. JOHN CLAYTON. — SKETCH OF HER LIFE AND CHARACTER BY" HER HUSBAND. — RESIDENCE AT ROMFORD. — SECOND MARRIAGE. — ANNOUNCEMENT OF HIS RETIREMENT FROM THE POULTRY CHAPEL PASTORATE. — LETTERS TO AND FROM THE CHURCH. — RESIGNATION. — "WELCOME TO TITUS." — PRESENTATION OF TESTIMONIAL. Until the commencement of 1836, the even current of Mr. John Clayton's domestic and public life flowed on, as we have described it, in a former chapter, with no other than the orcUnary interruptions that are incident to mortal existence. His autumn was a truly golden one ; rich in the ripe fruits of experience and wisdom, of which multitudes were privileged to partake. His preaching was never characterized by more unction than at this time. With no less fervour than he had displayed in his more youthful ministrations, it had that mellowness which only years can give ; and the large congregations that used to listen to him, with devout pleasure, never more thoroughly realized the meaning of the words of the prophet Isaiah : " And in this mountain shall the Lord of hosts make unto all people a feast of fat things, a feast of wines on the lees, of fat things full of marrow, of wines on the lees well refined." But, as has been stated, the opening month of 1836 introduced a great destroyer into the household at Gaines, and his venerable mother was summoned to her rest. Two years later, the sudden death of his MES. JOHN CLAYTON. 411 brother William occurred, at Mill Hill, on March 15th, 1838 ; and the increasing solemnity of his own position was deeply felt, as voices from the unseen world became more and more audible, and gleams thence seemed more vividly to flash before his eyes. He was destined, however, after two more years had elapsed, to feel the keenest pangs of bereavement he had yet known ; when the same dread messenger, who had invaded the sanctities of the happy homes at Gaines and Mill Hill, came to beckon away from his side the wife of his bosom, who for thirty- seven years had been the light and life of his household. A funeral sermon, preached by the Eev. Dr. Burder, on the occasion of Mrs. Clayton's death, which occurred April 23rd, 1840, had appended to it a sketch of the deceased, which, though not avowedly acknowledged as from her husband's pen, bears unequivocal evidence of its authorship. It is given here entire, as presenting a better and more lifelike portraiture than any other hand could draw. " Her children arise up, and call her blessed ; her husband also, and he praiseth her." " The late Mrs. Sarah Clayton was the daughter of Mr. William Ellis, of Fenchurch Street, London, and entered this world on the 28th of December, 1779. Her childhood was spent chiefly at home ; as from the delicate state of her health she was not able to bear the bustle, and some of the inevitable restraints, of school. The instruction which she received was partly from an aunt, and partly at the establishment of Mrs. Walker, of Hackney. She was in the constant habit of attending, with her parents, on the ministry of the Rev. John Clayton, of the King's Weighhouse, Eastcheap ; and under his discourses was frequently 412 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. the subject of deep convictions of sin. An intimacy having been formed between her and the sister of the Ecv. George Ford, of Stepney, she often went to hear him at Zion chapel, and Orange Street, Leicester Square. It was while attending to one of his discourses that her inquiring and anxious mind obtained spiritual relief; and it proved the more immediate instrument of that change, which she always considered as her conversion to God. It has been her frequent exclama- tion, ' that I could always be the subject of those lively impressions, which I felt when Mr. Ford gave his address to the people, from that beautiful passage, " Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory." ' "On the 4th of June, 1801, she was united to the church at Stepney; and remained in communion with that Christian society till her marriage with the Eev. John Clayton, jun., in 1803. "It is obvious, from the written records of her experience, that her entrance on so new a sphere of relationship and duty called forth a spirit of most earnest prayer, that she might not only prove a suitable partner to her husband, but that, in the semi-public station in which she was to be occupied, she might exemplify the character of a Christian minister's wife. This was a period in which she evidently spent much time in converse with God, and in the exercise of habitual vigilance, that neither her religious profession, nor the ministry to which she was allied, might be justly blamed. " ' I think/ she writes, ' that some of those who marry ministers carry themselves proudly, so that the poor are afraid of them; and some are so vulgar, that the rich are disgusted with them ; some arc so light and trifling, that they are MBS. JOHN CLAYTON. 413 hindrances rather than helpmeets to their husbands. Lord, preserve me from these three evils ! ' "111 the course of a comparatively few years, she became the mother of eight children; three of whom are numbered with the dead, and five of whom survive. During this period of life, her domestic character pleasantly and advantageously exhibited itself to view. Punctual in her early morning devotions, she was always prepared calmly to enter on the duties of the busy day; and was remarkable for the order, accuracy, and efficiency of their fulfilment. She often quoted a familiar saying of her mother-in-law, ' That everything in a family should have its proper place and season; and that the mistress should guide the house, and not drive it.' She was very considerate, as to the requirements which she made of her servants ; and wished, as she said, ' to see them always adequately employed, but not in a violent hurry ; as the work was then likely to be ill done, and bad tempers to be excited.' " As the minds of her little ones were developed, she attentively watched the opportunities of conveying the simple truths of the Gospel to their understandings, as well as of applying them to their hearts; and her surviving sons and daughters can attest, how earnest and constant were her efforts to conduct them to that gentle Shepherd, who gathers the lambs in His arms, and carries them in His bosom ; and how repeatedly, on the evenings of the Sabbath, as she knelt in the midst of the youthful group, she bedewed their heads with the tears of devout desire, that ' Christ might be formed in their hearts, the hope of glory.' " The following extract from her diary will best exhibit the state of her mind, in reference to the eternal welfare of her children : — 414 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. " ' I have just had an interesting and melting interview with my two sons. I entered into full conversation with them, on the great concerns of their souls ; and was enabled to engage in prayer with .them, with much liberty. This solemn inter- view will not be forgotten by me. that it may produce serious impressions on them ! I feel it a most momentous affair to be a parent ; and as my children rise up into society, I am anxious to know that they have commenced their travels to a better country. The hopes and fears to which Christian parents are liable, can only be fully known by experience. What would satisfy a worldly, is not sufficient for the Christian, father or mother. No ; we cannot fully rejoice till we can say, "Our children are walking in the truth." I want something more than mental furniture upon common subjects, and decency of conduct. I long for the tears of penitence, for the cry, "What must I do to be saved?" for the holy and bold resolution to join themselves to the Lord, in a covenant not to be forgotten. Oh ! to hear them say, " Here, Lord, we give ourselves away ; 'Tis all that we can do." Lord, hear my request ! I ask not, as the mother of Zebedee's children, that my two sons may be eminent in their stations in this life — that I leave entirely in thy hands ; but I do importunately ask that they may have seats in the church on earth, and in the kingdom of heaven at last.' " In the arrangements of providence, her companion removed from Kensington, where he was first fixed, as a pastor, and settled over the church in Camomile Street, London, which was in a widowed state, owing to the death of the Rev. John Reynolds. In the year 1819, the Christian community removing to the new chapel in the Poultry, an alteration soon took place in the times of conducting public worship. It then became the practice of Mrs. Clayton to devote the afternoon of the Lord's day to her children ; and she thus states her opinion upon the subject: — MRS. JOHN CLAYTON. 415 " ' If I were in single life, or had no family, I should generally deem it my duty to instruct in the Sunday school ; but I do not like those ostriches, who run to great distances in the desert, and neglect their own brood.' " Her custom she continued, therefore, until her offspring reached an age when they retired to read by themselves, or attended the services of some neighbour- ing sanctuary. As they successively passed away into society, and into different positions of life, she was wont to say, 'Well, our children are no longer under the wing of our immediate protection; now let us spread the wings of more earnest prayer for them/ During this course of parental proceeding, it was the habit of herself and husband to devote special seasons to prayer, that the blessing of God might rest on their united endeavours to train up their children in the 1 nurture and admonition of the Lord.' " While Mrs. Clayton shone in the domestic depart- ment, to which she was principally devoted, in her earlier years of married life, her example in the public scene became brighter and brighter, as she advanced. Many of the religious and benevolent societies at the Poultry originated exclusively in her agency, assisted, for a considerable length of time, by only one or two steady coadjutors. In the establishment and movements of all she became singularly active.* Her words were, — " ' I think that I am acquiring some influence among our beloved people ; and as it is a talent for which I am responsible, I must try and turn it to a good account. I am ashamed to see * Amongst numerous letters of affectionate condolence, which Mr. Clayton has received from Christian friends, since the decease of the lamented subject of the above brief memoir, are valuable communications from the deacons of the church, and the committees of all the societies at the Poultry chapel, expressive of their sympathy ; and attesting the calm but energetic zeal with which Mrs. Clayton devoted herself to their several interests. 41 G THE CLAYTON FAMILY. so many professors, who have much leisure, but who spend their time in nothing else but idle gossiping, and give themselves i;p to no useful pursuit whatever. Lord, may I not be a drone, but a busy bee, in the hive to which I belong ! ' "The committees of the Schools, of the Maternal and Benevolent Societies, and of the Cheap Clothing Society, can bear testimony to her zeal for their welfare, and her untiring assiduity to maintain their useful operations. She was the life and soul of the Friendly Female Society, instituted for the removal of a debt of a thousand pounds on the school-house and asylum ; and upon her completion of that enterprise, on her return home, her joy was such that she wept profusely, and exclaimed, as her husband read over the details of the meetings, ' I feel that I am an utterly unprofitable servant towards God; but I bless His name, that He has enabled me and my companions, notwithstanding some have discouraged us, to finish this work.' " Some time afterwards, on the receipt of a silver tea- service, and a purse of one hundred guineas for her husband, from the church and congregation, and which (to use her own words) were ' presented in a manner so unostentatious, delicate, and affectionate, as to delight her heart ; ' she was so overpowered with strong emotions that, for many days together, she was occasionally weeping (as she said) ' with gratitude to God, and tender attachment to the people of her choice ; ' adding, ' I am no admirer of those religious ramblers who rove everywhere, and seem to me, after all, to do little or nothing that is effective. I dwell among my own people.' " About five years ago, Mrs. Clayton was attacked with an affection which seemed to indicate a disease of the heart, which greatly enfeebled her strength, and MRS. JOHN CLAYTON. 417 which, in connexion with certain painful anxieties respecting some of her children, hore down her animal spirits. On her recovery, from a confinement of some months to her chamber, she writes : ' I have felt a very strong temptation to retire altogether into privacy ; hut I must resist it ; and hope to pursue an active course, with as much vigour as the impaired state of my health will admit.' This determination she amply fulfilled; for, until her last fatal illness, she was unremitting in her attempts to sustain and advance those institutions, in the prosperity of which she took so lively an interest. " It was on her attendance on a meeting of the young persons who had been educated in the schools, that she caught a violent cold. She strove against it for a few days ; but it issued in an attack of influenza and sore throat, which rendered her incapable of swallowing anything but a little liquid, for ten days. An imposthume also formed in the right ear, which gave her great pain ; but on its breaking, she found relief, and appeared to be gradually recovering. " On Tuesday, the 22nd of April, 1840, she sat up for two hours, in the afternoon ; and on the return of her husband from an anniversary service, he took a chair by her side, and inquired how she felt, as to body and mind. With a smile of love and of Christian hope on her countenance, she said, ' As to the body, I am certainly much better, though I have such sensations in my head, and such a numbness in my arm, that I have an impression I shall not ultimately recover from this attack; but I think I shall some day go off suddenly, like my aunt. As to the mind,' she added, ' I enjoy a singular calmness, for so anxious a being as I am. I wished to tell you what a Sabbath morning I spent in bed. I had such a sense of God's love to me, E E 41 S THE CLAYTON FAMILY. in all His dealings, and such a sweet persuasion of my interest in Christ, that I felt as though I could give my mortal interests up, and make my God my all. I assure you, it was to me a Sabbath morning of unmixed delight, and seemed like a foretaste of heaven.' " And so it was — a taste of the grapes of Canaan, before she crossed the Jordan. On Thursday, the 23rd, she relapsed; and an extreme restlessness came on, which was most distressing to witness. Two medical attendants saw her, both of whom entertained a hope that the malady would again yield to appropriate treatment. In the evening she stated that her head had become so bad that she should lose her senses, if she had not a composing draught given to her, and which she importuned the nurse to administer. A moderate opiate had been provided, in case of necessity; and soon after she had taken it she sunk into a tranquil slumber. "At four o'clock on Friday morning, her husband went into the room and found her asleep, though apparently breathing with some difficulty, and stated that in a couple of hours he would return. About twenty minutes to five, her attendant knocked at his door, and said, ' sir, will you come into my mistress's room ? for she has given two or three sighs, and really seems as though she did not breathe ! ' He hastened into the chamber, and finding no pulsation at the wrist, and no beating at the heart, as he wiped away the cold perspiration from her face, and bent over her, to give her a parting kiss, he saw unequivocal indications that her spirit had fled from the clay tenement, and had winged its way to the bosom of her Saviour and her God. The household was immediately alarmed: several came around her bed : one or two exclaimed, ' No, she MRS. JOHN CLAYTON. 419 is not dead ; it is only a fainting fit.' But it proved to be the crisis of dissolution — the moment of her glorious birth into a world where no sigh is heaved, no groan is heard, no tear is shed ; and where the immortal inhabi- tant can suffer no painful separations. " The required brevity of this memoir, intended only as an appendage to a funeral discourse, forbids its writer to expatiate on the numerous excellencies of character which the beloved deceased sustained. In the conjugal relation she was always tender, affectionate, and devotedly attentive to her husband; in the maternal, overflowing with love to her children, and ready to make any personal sacrifice for their well-being in both worlds; in the private walks of life, respectful and courteous to superiors, condescending and kind to inferiors, and ever prompt to relieve, to the utmost of her ability, the wants and woes of her fellow-creatures ; and, as the wife of a minister, most considerate, prudent, sympathetic, and usefully active. Her friendly attach- ment to those whom she esteemed, as the faithful servants of Christ, was very strong; and among social pleasures none gratified her more than to see them at the table of her hospitality ; and to mingle in conversa- tion with them, on the state of their flocks, and the progress of religion in the world. " She breathed a true missionary spirit ; of which some judgment may be formed from the subjoined extract : — " 'July 2lst, 1829. — Among the many spiritual advantages which I possess, in the situation in which a kind providence has placed me, one is, that I have so often the pleasure of enjoying the society of holy and eminent ministers of Christ : and, if my heart does not deceive me, I do greatly prize this privilege. This last week, however, has been to me one of the 4.20 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. most interesting and impressive I ever enjoyed in my life. We accompanied dear Dr. Philip, and his wife and two daughters, down to Gravesend, to take leave of them, before they sail for the Cape. The evening on which we arrived (Thursday, 17th), we went with them to the house of God, and held a missionary meeting ; and at the close committed the Christian company to Him who holds the waters in the hollow of His hand. " ' The next morning we met some more Christian friends at breakfast. The conversation was melting, and yet animating ; and related to the advancement of the Redeemer's kingdom. My husband engaged in prayer ; and was so assisted and enlarged, as to produce a strong feeling ; and, I think, none rose from their knees without, weeping eyes. At about twelve at noon, we were joined by fourteen or fifteen more missionaries ; some from France, and others from Germany, but all of one heart and mind. With them came many ministers, among whom were Mr. Orme, Mr. Arundel, Drs. Fletcher and Reed, Mr. James and Mr. Slatterie. Such conversation, prayers, and addresses, and such a genuine flow of Christian love, I never heard or witnessed before ; and I hardly expect to see anything equal to it, on this side heaven. " ' The excitement has actually affected my bodily health, so that I am almost unfitted for the duties to which I have returned. Lord, I desire that the past scene may stir me up to holy inquiries, whether I am in the right way to that blessed world, where all thy saints shall meet again, and where missionary work will be needed no more ; when the whole body of the ransomed of the Lord shall be brought from the north and south, the cast and west, and sit down together in the kingdom of God. " There shall our passions all be love, And all our powers be praise." ' " Mrs. Clayton's visitors at her own house can testify to the animated joy which she felt, in receiving the refugees from Madagascar, in company with the Rev. Mr. Freeman, and while listening to his details of the MRS. JOHN CLAYTON. 421 history of the sable group, around whom were collected about forty of her Christian friends. " On points of difference among Christian professors, she said that she was intentionally guarded in her conversation, as she thought that many let their tongues run a useless race, on this subject, and often got no valuable prize by it. She was, on principle, a Congre- gationalist; yet her disposition was most catholic towards all who hold the head, Christ. She often expressed a dislike to vehement and angry controversy, and avowed her determination to suppress, so far as she was able, that spirit and language, which she deemed particularly unbecoming in a Christian female ; and by which the adherents of different denominations separate friends, undermine true charity, impede usefulness in the church, and present a repulsive edition of Christianity to the world. " Perhaps her prejudices were too strong against those persons in whom she witnessed what she called ' heterodoxy of temper,' connected with matters of reli- gion. The writer of these lines scarcely ever remem- bers her to have used anything like the language of strong censure, excepting when she discovered a bitter spirit in others towards fellow- Christians. One striking instance of this occurred at table, on a particular occasion. A certain person was dealing out his accu- satory and acrimonious remarks very liberally around him; and turning to her, and, with an air and tone of rudeness, rebuking her for silence, said, ' Well, now I am determined to have your opinion.' She coolly replied, 'Why, sir, I had rather be excused from giving it.' He rejoined, 'But we must and will have it; for we live in times in which we ought to show our colours.' 'Well, sir,' she added, ' my opinion is this; that gentle- 422 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. men had better keep their razors to shave their own faces ; and not employ them to cut and slash everybody who does not think exactly as they do. I also think, sir, that Paul judged the same, when he said to Titus, " Put them in mind to speak evil of no man ; to be no brawlers, but gentle, showing all meekness unto all men." ' Several pious friends are living who can confirm this statement ; and who can recollect the effect produced on the whole company, by the sudden check thus given to the gratuitous exercise of unchari- tableness. " The papers which Mrs. Clayton has left behind her afford many striking exemplifications, not only of the spirit, but of the practice of her charity. As a lover of all the good, she secretly ministered of her substance to the necessitous, to whatever caste they belonged; and considering the limitation of her means, — more especially till within the last ten or fifteen years, — the extent of her silent liberalities to the poor, and her self-denial to communicate to some persons in particular, have excited much astonishment. She has often gone to her drawers, and when she could not find appropriate garments to give away to applicants, has disposed of articles of dress which she had not made up for herself, and parted with them to clothe the indigent. " Yet, withal, such was her deep humility and sense of unworthiness, and such her extreme dislike of every- thing that had the aspect of flattery, that she could not bear to hear a word in her own praise ; and on a late occasion, when, after an act of singular and ill-requited generosity, the sentence was quoted to her from the book of Proverbs — ' Her husband, he praiseth her ; ' she exclaimed, ' In this world, my love, I wish to serve in the shade ; in the next, I hope I may serve and shine.' RESIDENCE AT ROMFORD. 423 In short, her motto was, 'For me to live is Christ; and to die, gain.' During her earthly course, she well illustrated the first part of this interesting sentence; and now, having hid adieu to all the cares, conflicts, and imperfect satisfactions of this inferior scene, the author of this lowly sketch avows his full and consola- tory persuasion, that she ' shines with the brightness of the firmament, and as the stars for ever and ever.' " Shortly after this, Mr. Clayton left Hackney, and went to reside at Romford, that he might he near his venerable father, and his only sister, Mrs. Johnson, who lived at Upminster. Through the facilities of transit, it required scarcely any additional expenditure of time, to reach London from Romford, than was formerly necessary in going thither from Hackney; while that distance from town secured him a greater freedom from the invasion of the quiet and retirement of his home, from which he could not obtain exemption when residing nearer the great city. Then, an inces- sant stream of callers — each one probably imagining that he was the only visitor for the day— made sad havoc with the hours devoted to study, or that ought to have been consecrated to domestic claims. By the change now effected his time became more at his own disposal. With Mr. Clayton's thoroughly domesticated habits, the loss of the wife who had so long been his congenial companion could not but be deeply felt; and having arrived at a time of life when a man more than ever desires the endearments of the social circle, it is not to be wondered at, that, when a period of three years of widowerhood had elapsed, he contracted a second marriage, in June, 1843, with Mrs. Lloyd, a widow lady, residing at South Ockenden, in Essex. •121 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. Shortly after tliis, ho began to consider the propriety of relinquishing his charge at the Poultry. The example of his father, which had been followed by the subsequent happy settlement of Mr. Binney, as his successor at the Weighhousc, had doubtless no small influence on him in coming to a determination. \Yith all the reasons, by which his fathers mind had been governed, he was familiar; and his own convictions being in perfect harmony with those of his venerable parent, he ventured to imitate his example. There were no indications of failing powers, other than those which sixty-five years naturally supplied; but before the increase of these should compel him to retire from the pastorate, and before any of his people should have occasion to con- sider it desirable, he resolved to relinquish it voluntarily. On New Years day, 1845, he sent the following note to his estimable deacons : — "Dear Brethren, — On the first day in the new year, I convey to you my best wishes, that it may please the God of providence and grace to shower down the choicest favours on you and your families, ' from the beginning to the end thereof.' " I have also to make a reference to a subject of very considerable importance, which has for some time past occu- pied my thoughts and my prayers. I did not purpose to allude to it till next April ; but as the annunciation of my decision to you (made at present in perfect confidence) may be needful to guide or modify your movements, I beg to inform you that, if life be spared, it is my full and fixed determination to relin- quish all pastoral responsibility at the Poultry chapel, on December 31st, 1845. "At the same time, if required and expedient, I shall be most happy to render my beloved flock assistance, as their occasional preacher ; and, by any means in my power, to facilitate the introduction and agency of an intelligent, faithful, catholic, and efficient minister, on whom the future election may fall. LETTER TO THE CHURCH. 425 "It is not needful, at present, to trouble you with the reasons of my prospective procedure, which, at the appropriate time, will be fully and openly given to my charge ; but most earnestly praying that you, and the church and congregation, may be directed by heavenly wisdom in all your deliberations and proceedings, I remain, dear brethren, your attached friend, and faithful servant in the Gospel, "John Clayton." This was followed, in a few days, by a Letter to the Deacons and Members of the Church and Congregation assembling in the Poultry Chapel, London. This was printed, and a second edition shortly afterwards sent forth. It was a very lengthened document; and some portions of it — when it fell into the hands of others, who did not belong to his flock — gave offence, on account of his references to the movements of a politi- cal nature, in connexion with Dissenters, of which he disapproved. As it explains his reasons for retiring, and may be regarded as a manifesto — explanatory of his motives for abstaining from appearing prominently before the public, in connexion with political matters, which towards the close of his ministry were widely and earnestly discussed, — I give several extracts from it. " My dear Friends, — It has pleased the great Master whom I serve, to sustain me in ministerial labours, for above forty -five years ; and though I have reason to be thankful for exemption from the painful pressure of corporeal infirmities, yet my period of life, while it should urge me to gratitude, humility, and confidence in God, tells me that I cannot reasonably look for a much more protracted competency for those exertions to which I have been long accustomed. that a sense of past deficiencies, and of my increased liability to be summoned away by death, may prompt me to greater diligence to make my own calling and election sure, and to effect whatever I can achieve to promote the peace and prosperity of Zion ! 126 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. " There is, however, a subject on which I have been anxious for some time past to communicate to j r ou my thoughts. It relates to desirable changes in our Christian community. For not only do I find that I am not so capable of vigorous and continued movement s, as in years which are fled, but there are other facts deserving sedate consideration, and which render a full compliance with the demands of my station altogether impracticable. " One is the altered and dispersed state of our city congrega- tions. Formerly, they were in a sort of ring fence, or parochial locality, so that, with some orderly arrangement, they were accessible, with comparative ease. Of late years they have been scattered, not only through the length and breadth of the metropolis, but in the surrounding suburbs. Up to the close of last year, we had members and attendants residing at Finchley, Hornsey, Highgate, Islington, Dalston, Newington, Hackney, Homerton, Bow, Stratford,~\Valtham Abbey, Enfield, Eotherhithe, Brixton, Peckham, and some other places equally remote. With strenuous effort, I kept up the plan of pastoral visitation and inspection for more than thirty j^ears. This task I can now no longer execute, either to my own satisfaction, or the required advantage of the community. " In the next place, our institutions, not one of which existed when our connexion was first formed, have become so numerous and so onerous, that they demand much more attention on the part of a pastor, than one who has long borne the burden and heat of the day can possibly give, consistently with other claims. Hearers in general are not aware of the extent of our engage- ments and responsibilities; but when you take into consideration the baptisms we have to administer at private houses, the funerals we have to attend, the sick and dying we have to see, the institutions we have to superintend, the candidates Ave have to examine, the countless visits to be received and paid on various matters of business, the correspondence we have to conduct, and the calls of the great societies in the metropolis which we cannot altogether decline, — to say nothing of our weekly preparations for the pulpit (no mean effort in these days in which we live), — I can assure you, we are kept on a full stretch of exertion, by which we are often almost overpowered. LETTER TO THE CHURCH. 427 " In the third place, I have observed that when large churches and congregations are subjected to the sudden disqualification, or the removal of their pastors, they are in danger of confusion, or of separation, unless some provision is made for the prospective emergency ; and it is a desideratum, that such provision should be arranged, before the religious society languishes, or falls into that state of decay, from which it is very difficult to be recovered. ...... " I determine, then, to retire, — not from weariness, or disgust with my work, in which I still take delight ; not to enjoy the otium cum dignitate, which my principles would not sanction, nor my moderate means allow ; not to assume the character of an officious spy on our own, or on any other denomination, to make a public report of the delinquencies of those who may have fallen into temptation ; not to become an ecclesiastical or political incendiary, holding up a torch of flame and smoke and terror, or carrying about with me lucifers to fire the peaceful homesteads of my rural brethren, in whose wants and sorrows I have long and deeply sympathized ; no, nor from any cooling of affection for those with whom I have walked in communion during the greater part of my life, — but from the fullest persuasion that I am no longer capable of fulfilling the duties of my extensive sphere, in the manner in which they ought to be performed ; and from the ardent desire which I cherish, that my friends may be at the most perfect liberty to select an over- seer, who shall effectively carry on the work which, through 'the tender mercy of God,' was so auspiciously commenced, and has been so happily sustained. Nor do I think that my Master in heaven will deny me the comparatively slight and short repose, which a humane earthly employer would give to one who had been nearly fifty years in his service. " Yet it is not my wish to spend my possibly remaining days or years in listless indolence. There are many tranquil modes of usefulness which, owing to my voluntary and uniform absorption in my pastorate, I have never attempted, but in some of which, perhaps, I may embark. Often have I coveted the hundred hands of the fabled Briareus, that I might 428 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. accomplish more for the cause of the Saviour, and for the interest of the souls lie came to redeem. Full many a time have I envied that sweet goddess, who, from her cornucopia, is ever dispensing the blessings of plenty and peace. And if the days of darkness and extreme decrepitude do not await me, I would aspire, in one sense, to the distinction of the Jewish hero, of whom it is recorded that ' the dead which he slew at his death were more than they whom he slew in his life.' " As I thus gradually dissolve my pastoral relation, I look back with penitential regret on many intirmities and deficiencies, which, however, it is better to confess to a merciful and pardoning God, than to talk of before the multitude. I daily feel it necessary to flee for refuge to the righteousness, atone- ment, and intercession of that Saviour who has been the chief theme of my ministry ; on whose arm of strength I rely in the autumn of my life, as well as in the prospect of death ; and in whose celestial fellowship I hope to spend a blissful eternity. " There is one feature of my ministry, however, for which I have been often and most severely censured, to which I shall make a cursory reference, because I consider it to be closely connected with the general usefulness of the Christian pastor. The number of letters, chiefly anonymous, which I have received, on this and a few collateral subjects, is truly astonishing. I shall not copy the rude, sarcastic, and indignant style in which very many of them have been written, but coolly say to the writers, to whatever denomination they belong, ' Strike,' as hard and long as you please, ' but hear me.' "Warmly attached as I am to the simplicity, freedom, elasticity, and useful tendency of a candid Nonconformity, yet my pulpit services have been conducted, as much as possible, with a cautious abstinence from everything like a party spirit- I have endeavoured to guard against bitter and vituperative remarks on the ecclesiastical polity of others ; and have not given perpetual and irritating prominence to the subordinate points of difference subsisting among real Christians. Taking to myself the full right of private judgment, I have freely given it to all. I have had no sympathy with the temper of the intense denominational partisans of the day, but have studiously LETTER TO THE CHURCH. 429 endeavoured to follow the things which make for peace and universal edification. Whatever may be my opinions on ' men and measures/ I have always kept them out of the pulpit ; and thus have tried not to throw off my power to edify opposite parties, by putting into my hat the cockade, or wearing on my shoulders the epaulette of either. In the execution of my duties, as a minister of the Gospel of peace, I have completely cast into the shade Whigs, Tories, Radicals, Conservatives, and Destructives, and have been a 'total abstainer' from their agitations; being chiefly anxious that they might mourn for sin, and flee to Christ, and that 'by all means they might be saved.' My aim has been to avoid the political, which is only one form of a worldly, spirit ; which has soured the temper, embittered the language, diverted the energies, obstructed the usefulness, and withered the prospects of some ; or, to say the least, has wiped off the bloom and beauty of the sacred profession, with which the servant of the 'Prince of peace' should be habitually adorned. I have been a quiet, but not an inattentive observer of the signs in the ecclesiastical Zodiac. There are distinctly discernible, Aries and Taurus, Cancer and Leo, Scorpio, Capricornus and Sagittarius ; but I am the subject of the most perfect conviction, that the fraternal association of Gemini, the charms of the charitable Virgo, the catholic equity of Libra, the gentle culture of Aquarius, and the soft gliding of Pisces through the roaring floods, will, in due time, effect those ends, which the horns, and paws, and bites, and sharp arrows of the others, will ultimately fail to accomplish. " In the views which I entertain on this subject I have been abundantly confirmed, by marking the effects of an opposite mode of advocating what may appear to be truth. I have travelled, with ' open eyes and ears,' over numerous parts of my native land, and I have found scarcely any instances in which such a style of proceeding has wrought sober conviction, though possibly it may have established some in the opinions which they previously held ; just as stormy winds will occasionally root trees faster in the earth. But I have witnessed many cases in which it has exasperated opponents, while it has conciliated none. It has repulsed, but not attracted. It has driven away from many 430 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. of our country congregations, catholic friends, from other denominations, who -wore in the habit of contributing to the support of the dissenting minister, and the religious institutions of his congregation, and multiplied his privations by the serious diminution of his resources. It lias restrained young persons of education and respectability from uniting themselves to our body, lest they should fling themselves on a bed of thorns. It has contributed to the retirement of not a few from the ranks of Nonconformity ; — and it is a fact not unworthy of notice, that while those parents who have endeavoured to recommend their dissenting profession, by mingling with their denominational instructions the suavity of Christian candour, have seen their offspring rising up generous adherents to their religious caste ; others, who have been always boring them with controversy, have been mortified by the spectacle of their sons and daughters renouncing their connexion, and even running into the preposterous absurdities and ruinous delusions of Anglo- Eomanism. " Above all, when I have studied the New Testament, I have not discovered any sanction for that modus operandi, which, however justifiable in the officers of the kingdoms of this world, I conscientiously disapprove in those who are devoted to the ministry of reconciliation. The conduct of our blessed Lord and His apostles furnishes me with no models, such as are supplied bv some of our modern ministerial associations. The first heralds of that Gospel which proclaims peace to them that are nigh, and to them that are afar off, never linked themselves together in such forms of alliance. Gigantic and formidable as were the antagonists with whom they had to contend, both among Jews and Gentiles, they trusted to the weapons of a warfare which were not carnal but spiritual, to pull down the strongholds of idolatry and superstition. 'By pureness, by knowledge, by longsuffering, by kindness, by the Holy Ghost, by the word of truth, by the power of God, by the armour of righteousness on the right hand and on the left/ they sought to extend the victories of that cross, which is destined to subdue a rebellious world to God. I firmly believe that, if our entire body had adopted this procedure, Nonconformity, by its argumentative LETTER TO THE CHURCH. 431 weight and moral power, would have acquired an ascendency, which it will now take many years to obtain. " In short, who that addicts himself to a careful study of the entire ritual of piety, does not discover that all the forms of godliness are only forms, and are quite distinct from its power? Some are apparently more consistent with the sacred Scriptures than others; some are the offspring of human wisdom, or a legitimate expediency; but there is not any mode of church government which can be adopted, which does not combine both. Our business is to conform, as nearly as we can, to ' the pattern shown us in the mount ; ' but there are minor regulations in all our communities, for which we have no express command or example, in the Word of God. Yet, were it possible to frame an ecclesiastical polity of the most perfect order, its ordinances and sacraments would only be organs of transmission — mediums, or instruments of action, altogether impotent to the production of spiritual effects on the heart and character — a shell without a kernel, a body without a soul. "But though I have inculcated this spirit, and humbly attempted to pursue this career, I can appeal to you, that I have not kept back our own distinctive principles. Witness my Course of Lectures, especially on the Acts of the Apostles, and the Seven Churches of Asia. "\yitness my discussion of denominational topics, in connexion with some signal events which have passed over us. Witness the appeals to the Legislature, which I have promoted on a variety of appropriate occasions. Testify whether I have not interwoven our peculiar views in the texture of very many of my discourses, in which they have appeared, as a good old divine says, 'not in lumps, but diffused through the whole cup which has been put into the hand : ' while my principal and avowed effort has been, to exhibit our Nonconformity, as the companion of charity, and to overcome that which appeared to me to be error, by the manifestation of that which I believed to be truth : and I have yet to learn that it is a necessary proof of sincerity, or an evidence of moral courage, to pour forth vehement accusations against those who hold opinions different from our own. " Whoever may be your future minister, my heart's desire and 432 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. prayer arc, that lie may be one who shall contend earnestly for the faith once delivered to the saints, and that lie may recommend it to the embrace of all ranks and classes around him, by the benevolence of his spirit, as well as by the use- fulness of his life ; that he may ever bear in mind, that the servant of the Lord should be ' gentle towards all men, apt to teach, patient;' and that he may shun those angry conflicts about the externals of Christianity, which appear to me to be some of the heaviest obstructions to the conversion of mankind to God. Let him labour to make them sincere and eminent Christians ; and impress them with the importance of daily appeals to 'the law and the testimony;' and he may rest satisfied that they will not move far from that part of the com- pass, towards which the truly magnetized needle will ultimately point. In essentials, may he be firm as the oak of the forest ; in non-essentials, may he exhibit the graceful pliancy of the willow, which, to a certain extent, can bend with the breeze, and flow with the stream. ...... " In much fear and trembling I entered into your association, in the twenty-fifth year of my life. A devout and united band of fifteen or twenty disciples agreed together, touching that which they should ask of the Lord of the vineyard ; and resolved to use every scriptural means to ' strengthen the things which remained, and which were ready to die.' They did not despise my youth. They had patience with me, and did not expect, in April, the produce of autumn. In a few years, ' the little one became a thousand;' and those residts gradually followed, which have often called forth the acknowledgment, 'The Lord hath done great things for us, whereof we are glad.' " But I cannot close my short address, without offering you my cordial congratulations on the present state of our Christian society. The debt of above £12,000, on your chapel and schools, has been long since rolled away, by your liberal contributions. Your institutions, with one exception, flourish, and are regula- ted by harmonious superintendents and effective committees. Though your numbers are not so overflowing as in years past, yet your useful efficiency has been steadily increasing, and was LETTER TO THE CHURCH. 433 never at a higher point than at this crisis. Your contributions to missionary causes alone have reached nearly £1,500, in the past twelve months, apart from the large amounts raised for other purposes. Your union, so far as I am aware, is as com- plete as can be expected in this world ; or, at least, will only be surpassed in the millennial day. Your reputation, as a church, has not been sullied or impaired. Your influence has augmented, rather than decreased; and, judging from the testimony of unequivocal facts, you are not left without witness, that the labours of your minister have not been in vain. " With me, a growing consciousness of un worthiness altogether excludes boasting ; but most truly can I state, that I have served you, in my youth, my maturity, and my riper age, according to the best of my ability, and with a thorough devotedness of heart and action to your highest interests ; quite content to forego the plaudits which, possibly, I might have gained, by some more popular forms of usefulness, that I might win your souls to Christ, and at last present you perfect in Him. I wish that I could adopt, with application to myself and my course, the whole of the descriptive statement which St. Paul supplies, in the impassioned appeal to the elders of the Ephesian church, when he bade them farewell ; — a picture at which, however, when I look, I blush to think how faint and imperfect is my attempted resemblance. But I can affirm, that I have tried to 'declare to you the whole coimsel of God.' I can assert, that by the space of 'forty years, I have not ceased to warn you night and day,' and often ' with tears.' I can say, that I have endeavoured to prove that ' I have not coveted your silver, or gold, or apparel ; but have showed you, how that so labouring, you ought to support the weak, and to remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how He said, It is more blessed to give than to receive.' And now, my beloved brethren and sisters, ' I commend you to Gfod, and to the word of His grace, which is able to build you up, and to give you an inheritance among all them who are sanctified.' If my physical strength begins to give way, my ardent attachment to you, my sense of obligation to many of you, for your steady regard, — from the novitiate to the close of my public career, — and my intense desires F F 434 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. for your spiritual welfare, remain as fresh as ever, and put forth vigorous blossoms, as I pass into the winter of life. On the front of the glowing altar of my heart, is written this inscription — ' Lord, save thy people, and bless thine inherit- ance : feed them also, and lift them up for ever ! ' — I remain, your affectionate friend, and faithful servant in the Gospel, "John Clayton. "Chapel House, Poultry, January, 1845." This communication from the pastor naturally led to gatherings and consultations among the people. That they did not imagine the vigour and efficiency of their beloved teacher s ministrations to be impaired, although he had passed the grand climacteric, was evident, from the earnest efforts they made to induce him to alter his determination. At a meeting, summoned for the purpose of considering the pastor's letter to the church, it was resolved by a formal, but earnest application, to request him to reconsider the matter. The letter that was written and sent by the deacons, in the name of their fellow-members, is an interesting document; expressive of the high estimate they entertained of their minister, and their sincere desire for the continuance of their mutual relationship. "The Deacons and Members of the Church assembling at the Poultry Chapel, to their beloved Pastor. "Poultry Chapel, February Gth, 1845. " Reverend and dear Sir, — With emotions of the liveliest gratitude, mingled with the deepest regret, have we perused the affectionate letter you have just addressed to us. "Considering, however, as we do, that it wears a most unfavourable aspect towards the continued peace and prosperity of this church and congregation, we have been earnest in our supplications, that our divine Master would, at the present juncture, bestow, both on the pastor and the flock, an enlarged measure of grace and wisdom ; and that He would so direct us, LETTER FROM THE CHURCH. 435 that no step may be taken but such as shall tend to the pro- motion of His own glory, and to the advancement of our best interests. "The communication of a purpose so important, pregnant, too, with injury, as it may be, to the cause of Christ here, has naturally been received by your attached people with the sincerest sorrow. "It has pleased the Great Head of the church to continue your oversight of us, for so many years ; and so greatly to bless your labours, to the enlargement of the church, and the edification of its members, that the very thought of a separation is most distressing to our feelings. "For above forty years have some of us travelled with you through the wilderness, and we have felt that our- bond of union was of no common order. An unbroken harmony has uniformly pervaded all our intercourse, and we had hoped that it was in your heart to have lived and died with us. Others amongst us have passed a longer or shorter portion of our lives under your highly- valued ministrations ; and all are desirous of recording our gratitude to God for the unwearied diligence, the abundant labours, the disinterested sacrifices, and the elevated devotion, which He has enabled you to manifest — not only in your public, but in every private capacity — as the spiritual pastor, the faith- ful counsellor, the gentle monitor, the tender participator in our trials, and the ever-accessible and steady friend. "To these gifts and graces, bestowed upon you, we are conscious that, under the blessing of God, our peace, unity, and prosperity, as a church, are mainly owing ; and if you, our beloved pastor, say that you find occasion to 'look back with penitential regret on many infirmities and deficiencies, and to flee for refuge to the righteousness, atonement, and intercession of that Saviour, who has been the chief theme of your ministry,' what cause have we to be humbled, under so many and so great advantages, shared by so few, and excelled by none ! "Permit us, dear sir, most respectfully but earnestly, to invite you to a reconsideration of the various reasons which have conducted to a conclusion so unlooked for by us ; and which, we would venture to hope, will not, on more deliberate consideration, 430 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. commend itself, under the circumstances it would necessarily place us in, to your adoption. "How many, and how powerful, arc the arguments which might be adduced in favour of such reconsideration, in the review of the state of our Zion — with your energies of mind and body still unbroken ; and so many encouraging circumstances existing among us, — in the efficient state of most of our institutions ; and when the lambs of the flock — whom you baptized in infancy, or taught from their youth up, with others trained in our Sabbath schools — are coming forward, to declare what the Lord hath done for their soids. " We presume not further to urge this delicate subject, than thus to give utterance to the emotions of our hearts. We wish to spread your letter before the Lord ; and should Lie be pleased so to influence your mind, that our present relationship may be prolonged, we shall indeed hail the prospect with delight. "We would not conclude, without expressing our entire concurrence in your catholic recommendation of Christian union; and the duty of forbearance towards those who differ in non- essentials, with a constant cultivation of the law of love; remembering the words of our blessed Lord, ' By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples ; ' and fervently praying that we may be preserved from the least approach to an opposite spirit, we beg to subscribe ourselves, on behalf of the church, — yours very affectionately and respectfully, "Samuel Legg, "Samuel Houston." To this letter Mr. Clayton sent the following reply:— " To Samuel Legg and Samuel Houston, Esquires. "My dear Brethren, — I avail myself of the earliest opportunity which I can command, to acknowledge the receipt of the letter signed by you, on behalf of the church assembling in the Poultry chapel. " Most sincerely do I reciprocate the expressions of affectionate attachment which it contains, and I shall proceed to answer it, I trust, in the same spirit which it breathes. " The important subject to which your letter refers, has been LETTEK TO THE DEACONS. 437 deeply considered by me, for the past two years of my life ; and while I join with you in grateful acknowledgments to the Great Head of the church for His smiles, which we have so long enjoyed, I will yield to none of my Christian friends, in the integrity and ardour of my wishes for the future peace and prosperity of the religious society with which we have for many years been connected. " Forgive me, however, if I add that the step which I propose gradually to take, appears to me to be precisely that which is essentially necessary to perpetuate the flourishing state of our community. Your epistolary favour does not even touch the reasons which I have assigned for my procedure ; and the request with which you have honoured me, neither repairs the decay of my physical strength, nor suggests means for the revival of that which droops, nor answers my objections to a collegiate charge. " The mode in which I have proposed to execute my purpose, I humbly conceive, is free from anything abrupt, precipitate, or unkind; but your appeal to me does not in the least degree mitigate the pressure, which I find it impossible to bear. "While, therefore, I am prepared, by divine permission, to do everything in my power to aid a minister of your choice, in his comfortable settlement, it is still my fixed intention, after carefully weighing the facts and arguments which bear upon our mutual relation, to relieve myself, as soon as Providence will allow, from all pastoral responsibilities. I hope, too, that after six and forty years of laborious service in the church, I shall not be considered as justly deserving censure, if I seek a little comparative repose, in the evening of my life. " I will not now enter into any further detail. We shall ere long be called to hold a special church meeting; when I shall be quite ready to furnish you with a variety of statements, which will justify my entire proceeding. " Earnestly praying that the Spirit of wisdom, holiness, and love, may guide you in all your deliberations ; and requesting you to assure my beloved flock of my unabated affection and solicitude for their welfare, I remain, dear brethren, your faithful friend, and devoted servant in the Gospel, "John Clayton. "6, St. Helen's Place, February 7th, 1845." 438 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. In pursuance of this resolve he brought his pastoral labours at the Poultry chapel to a close, amid mutual expressions of love and attachment between the shep- herd and his flock. Before, however, he took a final leave of his people, he had the privilege of seeing them united together in the choice of a successor. The Rev. S. B. Bergne, then residing at Lincoln, was invited to the pastorate, which invitation he accepted in the spring of 1847; and continued there until 1853, when he succeeded the Rev. George Brown, as one of the secretaries of the Bible Society. He was followed, in 1854, by the Rev. Dr. Spence, who is still the esteemed minister of the congregation assembling in the Poultry. When arrangements had been made for the settle- ment of Mr. Bergne, Mr. Clayton preached and printed three discourses which he had delivered to his old flock, under the title of Welcome to Titus. From this publica- tion two extracts are appended; the first, an earnest appeal for prayer on the behalf of ministers, on account of the responsibilities and anxieties attendant upon their official position : the second presents us with the farewell utterances with which he parted from his people. " Prayer for your ministers is both a just and kind return for their sacrifices, labours, and intercessions for you. It is touching on a tender and delicate point, when we speak of ourselves ; but, surely, it will not be considered a trespass on propriety, if we suggest, that probably no small proportion of the trials which we are called upon to undergo, is the direct result of our having publicly embarked in your service. Possibly we might have passed quietly through society and life, at least with no other than common interruptions to our tranquillity ; but it is for you, that we are exposed to the hatred and scorn of the world, and sometimes to its angry persecutions ; for you, that we encounter WELCOME TO TITUS. 439 many difficulties, and sustain the wear and tear of public life, so destructive to many of those calm satisfactions which you, in your privacy, enjoy. " Nor is this the only view to be taken of the subject. Doubtless not a few of our afflictions are sent to increase our qualifications to sympathize with you, that we may speak a word in season to the heavily laden. In addition to which, we often yield up our edification to yours. In the hour of retire- ment, we should often gladly pursue some favourite theme of meditation, but we are restrained by a regard to your profit. In public we should be thankful to sit down in peace, and listen to the pleasant subjects of discussion, without any anxious excitement ; but we must be prepared with some address, calcu- lated to rouse the thoughtless, to pierce the hardened conscience, and to sound an alarm among those who are at ease in Zion. We are compelled to put a stress on our own feelings, that we may awaken an appropriate order of emotions in your bosoms, and preach so as to save them who hear us. Thus, as Paul says, ' We endure all things for the elect's sake ; ' and, surely, the least we can expect from you in return, is, that you will succour and uphold us by your prayers." " Titus has come into the midst of you, under favourable circumstances. Though your numerical attendance has been somewhat diminished, yet look at what God has wrought ! Located in the heart of the metropolis ; on a tranquil site ; in a noble sanctuary, completely relieved from the many thousand pounds of its debt ; with a group of prosperous institutions, for the relief of want and misery, and the diffusion of the Gospel at home and abroad ; and, above all, united in brotherly affection, and prayerful for the peace and prosperity of Jerusalem, your field of usefulness is thrown open, and the skies overhead are bright. " Amidst the strong emotions by which my mind is stirred, I cannot withhold an expression of my gratitude to the Great Head of the church, that He has permitted me to see this well- constructed vessel, with a fresh pilot and company of officers, and with numerous passengers, about to launch forth again on 440 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. another voyage. May it bo signally prosperous, until we shall arrive at the fairest of fair havens, in which, having bid adieu to the deceitful calms, and to stormy winds and waves, 'there shall be no more sea,' and sorrowful separations shall be for ever unknown ! " In a word, if, without impropriety, I may make one more slight reference to myself, in connexion with you and your interests, I will only add that, during my course of more than forty years in your service, I have, though amidst many lamentable deficiencies, heartily devoted myself to your welfare. Detaching mj^self, as much as was compatible with the numerous claims of a London sphere, from secular, and perhaps more exciting popular pursuits, I have readily sacrificed many of the pleasures derived from science, from the arts, and the charms of general society, that I might be the pastor ; and count every- thing else but loss for Christ and your salvation. If I had any sparks of sacred fire in my youth, if any energy in the ministry of my manhood, if any mellowness in the discourses and the influence of my autumn and decline — all have been yours. "True, the series of my regular labours among you is now brought to a final close ; but suffer me to remind you that our responsibility remains ; and we must all give an account of ourselves before God. Sinners ! once more I warn you to ' flee from the wrath to come,' and repair to Jesus as the only hope set before you in the Gospel. Saints ! ' This also I wish, even your perfection.' May the Spirit of the living God descend and abide on this hill of Zion ! May your pastor be endowed with the richest gifts, adorned with the brightest graces, and shine as a star of magnitude and sweet influence, in this moral firmament ! May he be clothed with righteousness, and his people shout aloud for joy, symphonious to the anthems of the heavenly choirs ! "Though my stated engagements among you terminate, yet I have one delightful reflection, that if I cannot serve as a vigorous labourer, I can still plead for you as a lowly supplicant ; and when I pass into comparative retirement, this, in my best moments, shall be my fervent prayer : ' Now the God of peace, who brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great TESTIMONIAL. 441 shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of the everlasting covenant, make you perfect in every good work to do His will, working in you that which is well-pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ ; to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen!'" A handsome testimonial was presented to Mr. Clayton some time after his retirement from his charge. " The pieces of plate consisted of an oval, pierced, arabesque- bordered engraven tea salver, with chased foliage handles and feet, with arms and inscription ; two round waiters to correspond; and a richly-chased and superb inkstand." The inscription which the salver bears is as follows : — " A tribute of affectionate respect, presented December 12th, 1848, by the church and congregation assembling at the Poultry chapel, London, to the Rev. John Clayton, M.A., on retiring from his charge, after a pastorate of more than forty years, in testimony of the sincere regard which they cherish for his private virtues, and his public worth; but more especially to mark their sense of his zeal and fidelity as a minister, and also his untiring assiduity as a pastor ; which, under the divine blessing, were the means of recovering their Christian commu- nity, then worshipping in Camomile Street, from a state of extreme depression, to its present high standing among the churches of the metropolis : and they record with grateful recollection his active co-operation, and his generous sacrifices, when enlarged accommodation was required for increasing numbers, which mainly contributed to effect the erection of the Poultry chapel." The presentation took place in private, at Mr. Clay- ton's own house at Worthing, whither he had gone to reside. After some prefatory remarks, made by the senior officer of the church, and a prayer offered by the Rev. S. B. Bergne, an address was read, to which Mr. Clayton responded as follows : — 442 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. "My Christian Friends, — When a disciple of Jesus Christ, on a memorable occasion, brought an alabaster box of precious ointment, and poured its contents upon His person, some captious individuals were offended, and said, ' To what purpose is all this waste ? for this ointment might have been sold for much, and given to the poor.' But our Saviour, who looked at the motives and intentions of His faithful follower, vindicated and com- mended her action, and replied, ' Why trouble ye the woman ? for she hath wrought a good work upon me ; for in that she hath poured this ointment upon my body, she did it for my burial. Verily I say unto you, "Wheresoever this Gospel shall be preached in the whole world, there shall also this, that this woman hath done, be told for a memorial of her.' " Now it strikes me that a similar objection might be made to the procedure of this interesting hour ; and that the costly and beautiful present, which you, gentlemen, as a deputation from my former flock, have placed before me, might have been devoted to more useful purposes than that to which it is applied. I am prepared most fully to concede this ; but I am desirous to copy the example of our divine Master; and in His spirit I would gratefully accept the donation which you have brought, and which is so agreeably expressive of the sentiments and feelings of the Christian society, of which you are the representatives. It is the fragrant composition, by which my pastoral relation is embalmed on its interment ; and its presentation will be reported to your honour, wherever the intelligence of your proceedings may be diffused. " It would have been gratifying to me, on this pleasing occa- sion, to have indulged in an extended retrospect of our mutual connexion, during the past forty years ; but you have done this in the touching address to which I have listened with impas- sioned emotions, and I have attempted it, in some discourses which I preached and published, when I bade you a friendly farewell. I shall therefore content myself with saying that, while I feel much on the review to humble me, under a sense of imperfections and deficiencies, we have ample cause for reciprocal congratulation, and for the exercise of gratitude to Him who is 'head over all things to the church.' Soon after our union, in me. Clayton's acknowledgment. 443 the year 1805, we were favoured with His gracious and percep- tible smiles. ' The little one became a thousand, and the small one a strong people.' By our united efforts we reared, at a large expense, that noble structure in the heart of the city, in which we conducted our worship, and you rose into one of the most conspicuous and nourishing churches in the metropolis. For a long season we enjoyed one even flow of religious prosperity. Various institutions sprung up among us into active efficiency. Though we lived in times when we were often surrounded by storms in the political, commercial, and ecclesiastical worlds, yet, like the bush at Horeb, enveloped in flames, we were unscorched and unconsumed. On the highway of our steady progress, ' no lion nor ravenous beast ' was suffered to tread. Our harmony remained unbroken ; and our co-operation in labours of love acquired constant accessions of strength. Full many a soul within the walls of our sanctuary was born to new life ; and full many a tree of righteousness was transplanted from among us, to flourish in the celestial paradise of God. There, when the cares, the conflicts, and the imperfect pleasures of life shall have passed away, we hope to meet with many who were our com- panions on earth, to join their purer fellowship, and to mingle in the praises of Him ' who sits upon the throne, and of the Lamb.' " To you, my respected brethren, and especially to my elder friends, connected with your religious society, I am deeply in- debted for many tokens of kindness, for a series of years, which have long since rolled away. Receive, and express to them, in your own courteous manner, the assurance of my strong sense of obligation, for numerous displays of liberality, sympathy, and prompt readiness to carry into execution our various projects of usefulness ; and for those patterns of piety, by which you have recommended to others the principles which you profess. I congratulate you on the proof which you have supplied, that, while habitually alive to the preservation of your rights and liberties, you could labour to maintain and enlarge them, without violation of Christian temper, or disturbance of the public tran- quillity. On several very critical occasions, you have demonstrated the practicability of combining a jealous regard to rational free- 444 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. dom, with loyalty to our sovereign, and a just appreciation of our valuable constitution ; and have openly shown that, amidst the extensive plantation of churches in the capital and its suburbs, Nonconformity need not be the pricking brier, but rather that it may bud and blossom, as the rose without a thorn. " I cannot refrain from offering you my hearty gratulations upon two other subjects, intimately connected with your honour and welfare. The one relates to the cause and mode of our separation. It was not the effect of a mutual alienation of heart ; not the result of heretical, political, or sectarian agitation and dispute ; not the consequence of the wearing out, or break- ing up of the religious interest at the Poultry chapel ; nor a severance which took place after a very brief period of time had elapsed ; — but after my ministrations had been conducted among you, during my youth, my manhood, and the greater part of the autumn of my life. It is only an act of justice to your character, and to the circumstances in which you were placed, when we bade each other adieu, to state that, in addition to the usual supplies, you raised for public institutions, in the year before we parted, an amount which surpassed that of any of the churches of our body in the kingdom ; and that, although there was some diminution as to numerical attendance, in all other respects your position was such as to call forth thankfulness and praise. When physical weakness came upon me, by which I was disqualified for the due and vigorous performance of the duties of my weighty charge, divine Providence enabled me to retire ; which I did in the exercise of the most perfect charity, and without proving the least burden to my flock, or an impedi- ment to the revival and progressive advancement of your community. "I rejoice with you also, that, after a comparatively short interval of fifteen months, your attention was directed to one who had for years proved himself to be 'a good and faithful servant ' of Jesus Christ ; whose ministerial talents, devout and catholic spirit, and energetic industry, give fair promise, if life be spared, of a course of usefulness, which will ' shine more and more to the perfect day.' " While I undervalue not the splendid testimonial of which ME. CLAYTONS ACKNOWLEDGMENT. 445 you, gentlemen, have been the conveyancers, yet, be assured that the sentiments which glow, and the spirit which breathes, in the document which accompanies it, are of far higher price, in my estimation, than ten thousands of gold and silver. The material substances are perishable, but the ethereal elements of our friendship are capable of everlasting duration ; and will con- tribute to the strength and sweetness of an attachment which will give freshness to our social enjoyments in the winter of life, will survive the decays of age, and nourish beyond the tomb. " Accept, gentlemen, my sincere thanks for your visit and its object ; convey my best acknowledgments to my friends on your return, accompanied by my fervent prayers that you may long be spared in the enjoyment of every personal and domestic comfort ; that the church to which you are allied may continue to prosper ; and that our present association may be a type of our meeting in that ' better country ' where painful separations shall be unknown." The Kev. S. B. Bergne then offered an affectionate and fraternal address; Mr. Clayton closed the engage- ment with prayer and praise; and the deputation, — which, in addition to the new pastor, consisted of Samuel Houston, Robert Simpson, Eusebius Smith, John Radley, John Perry, and William Bateman, Esqs., — after sharing his hospitality, amidst reciprocal expres- sions of friendship, returned to London. Thus ended the official connexion between pastor and people, who had been united together, in hallowed and happy relationship, for upwards of forty years. Cfjapter ££SH« REV. GEORGE CLAYTON.— 1835-1842. ACCIDENT. — DEATH OF HIS MOTHER. — SYMPTOMS OF FAILING STRENGTH. — DEATH OF HIS BROTHER. — SORROWFUL MUSINGS. — MRS. GEORGE CLAYTON : SKETCH OF HER LIFE AND CHARACTER I EARLY TRAINING. — CONVERSION. — MARRIAGE. — USEFULNESS. — YOUNG LADIES' CLASS. — EXTRACTS FROM CORRESPONDENCE. — SICKNESS. — DEATH. — EXTRACT FROM THE ADDRESS OF DR. PYE SMITH. Perhaps the records of most men's lives, extending to more than threescore years and ten, would show that frequently they have been the objects of a special divine care and watchfulness, and have often been delivered from impending dangers, threatening life or limb. It was so with Mr. George Clayton, who was ever mindful of his obligations to his great Protector, and strove to learn the lesson which such events were designed to teach. Late in the autumn of 1835, he and his family were staying at Brighton for a few weeks. Riding out on the downs, in company with his friend and deacon, Mr. White, he was thrown with violence from his horse. No limb was broken, but he was much bruised, and sustained injuries that necessitated abstinence from exciting duties for some time. In reference to this circumstance, he wrote in his diary thus : — " Lord, show me for what cause, and to what end, Thou hast contended with nie ! "It is not a little remarkable that we had, the night but one before this visitation, an alarm of fire in the house where we lodged. By some irregularity in burning the gas, at eleven DEATH 0E HIS MOTHER. 447 o'clock the premises were threatened with conflagration. We were called up from our beds, and were putting ourselves in a posture for escape, when our divine Protector extinguished the flame, restored quietness, and indulged us with a night of safety and repose. Here, again, if we were not as ' brands plucked out of the burning,' that promise was literally fulfilled — ', Neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.' O with what sentiments of gratitude and joy did I revisit my habitation, and bend my knee in the presence of my heavenly Preserver and divine Benefactor ! Now, Lord, what shall I render? Behold, I do most solemnly, deliberately, cheerfully, irrevocably renew the dedication of my- self and my all to thee. May I be the better as a man, as a Christian, as the head of a family, as a citizen, as a pastor and teacher in thy church, by reason of the things that have befallen me!" In January, 1836, he was called, with the rest of his family, to mourn over the loss of his excellent mother, of whom he ever wrote and spoke with the utmost reverence and tenderness. Although, from her extreme age, the event could not be regarded by him as unexpected, yet filial affection felt keenly the sharpness of the pang of severance, when it did occur. To this he adverts in his journal, where he penned down the thoughts and senti- ments which the bereavement had awakened. "Among other blessings, it was not the least that, my dear parents and their children, without exception, were permitted to meet together in the Christmas week, and on the last day but one of the year. And it was the last meeting we shall have on this side eternity. Already the parent trunk has been riven asunder ; and my ever dear and most excellent mother has been called home. On the 11th day of January, at half-past six p.m., her waiting spirit was released. She has dropped the garment of the flesh, to put on the robes of light and immortality. To me, the trial being perfectly new, there has been such a rush of varied instincts, and overwhelming emotions, in my bosom, as cannot be described. One must feel, in order to know what it is 448 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. to lose a parent ; a mother, such as I have now resigned. I bless God, who made her to me and to my brothers and sisters — what she became, through the influence of the Holy Spirit — the parent of a new, a heavenly birth. I bless God, who spared her so long to her family, and to the world, — even for ninety years. I bless God, for her humble, holy, cheerful, blameless, and eminently useful course, and for her tranquil dismission, and almost unconscious departure from the body. " It was yesterdaj^, the 13th, that I visited her loved remains; stroked her clay-cold forehead ; knelt by her coffin ; and prayed that her God might be my God, for ever and ever, and my guide even unto death ! We have lost not only a most wise and tender relative, but a powerful intercessor, and a bright example. Lord, support, comfort, and preserve unto the end my widowed father. Let thy wisdom guide, thy love soothe, and thy grace uphold thy aged servant ! Sanctify this event to our whole family ; help us to cleave to thee, and to each other, to promote each other's highest welfare, and love and labour that we may meet at last, with all the faithful, in the unsuffering, undying kingdom of God our Saviour. Amen." The time had at length arrived when the rich glow of early and mature manhood was gradually fading into the soberer gray of advancing years ; and Mr. George Clayton was now about to be taught one of the hardest lessons a public man, who has been honoured with a long and prosperous career in the church, can possibly learn. In nothing did the nobleness of John the Baptist reveal itself more, than in his perfect readiness to retire from observation, when the Great Teacher of men appeared amongst them. " He must increase, but I must decrease." It requires no small amount of grace to say this, and to submit to it, without a sigh of dis- satisfaction. A Christian pastor, who has for years gone before his rlock, beloved, revered, deferred to, can hardly, with unruffled equanimity, contemplate the cessation of THOUGHTS ON THE CO-PASTORATE. 449 this close intercourse, or the advent of another person, who shall divide the attachment of his people, and draw off some of the affections which had been wont to centre on himself alone. In Mr. Clayton's case, a whole generation had passed away, since his settleinent at Walworth ; so that the ties which now bound pastor and flock together had been cemented by time, as well as by religion : the severance or weakening of such ties could scarcely be contemplated without a pang. Hundreds there had been baptized by his hands, and received by him into the church ; — their children in turn had also been dedicated by him to God ; and his heart clung to them with an affection which can only be understood by those who have sustained similar relationships, or by those who knew the genial warmth and tenderness of Mr. Clayton's heart. To leave them ; or to be, only in part, what he had been for so long a time altogether, was, not unnaturally, something from which he shrank. Yet in no action of his life, either in the anticipation of the event, or when it occurred, did he display more noble traits of character. The following extract from his diary, of the date of January, 1837, lays bare his whole heart to our view : — " I do feel bound to my dear people by tenderest ties. I am sensibly touched when I leave them, but for a season ; and I cannot be thankful enough for the degree of light, and peace, and love, which is found among them. I have many searchings of heart, when I feel, or think I do, some symptomatic failure of physical strength — some gentle intimations that I must decrease in vigour, in energy, and activity. I am indeed in a strait betwixt two ; first, being perfectly willing to work up the last shred of existence, in the service of my blessed Master ; and feeling, at the same moment, that the very willingness requires to be placed under discreet regulations. G G 450 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. " I greatly dread the thought of seeing the congregation grow languid or supine ; and the more so, if such a state of things should be imputable, even in semblance only, to any of the irresistible influences of time upon the mental habits or physical powers of the minister. God has certainly wrought a great work for me, and by me, in this neighbourhood. There are many adversaries, as there always will be, wherever a wide and effectual door is opened. how would they rejoice to see York Street deserted ! York Street divided ! A torrent of Church influence has set in against us, but it has been signally defeated. Two large churches raised in the parish, it was pre- dicted, would swamp the dissenting meeting-houses ! But no such effect has followed. " I hope I can appeal to the Searcher of the heart, that it is no motive of vanity, or avarice, or ambition, but those impulses which spring from love to Christ, love to souls, love to truth, love to the principles of Protestant Nonconformity, by which I am urged to approach this very weighty and momentous ques- tion, of a colleague in my work. I love my work, my Master, my sphere ; and am content, vastly more than content, nay, abundantly thankful, for all the circumstances of my position. Nor would I move or stir, till compelled to do so, but for the conviction that, when this necessity comes, it may be too late to have the thing rightfully, wisely, and calmly effected. " He who seeks the good of Jerusalem — her peace and pros- perity — must look forward ; and endeavour by faith, by prayer, and prudence, to remove obstructions to the peace and prosperity of the Jerusalem he loves. This, then, is now the topic of all- absorbing interest and solicitude with me. I wish, I desire to deal with God, in the matter. It is between Him and me alone. I, a worm, and no man, come to the footstool of my father's God ; the God of my covenant, the God to whom I am minis- terially devoted ; I come to tell Him, with adoring gratitude for the past, and with the confidence of perfect love, that I am willino- to serve — anywhere, and in my best manner, and for any length of time He pleases — His redeemed flock. " I have been thirty-five years in active and unceasing labour; and am not tired, nor do I seek inglorious repose ; but I begin DEATH OF HIS BROTHER. 45 1 sometimes to feel faint ; and I would have health, and youth, and piety, and talent called into the field, that two may help each other in the work of the Lord ; gather in greater armfuls ; bind fuller sheaves, and crown the Lord of the increase with a richer crown. I therefore now commit this affair to the Lord Christ ; that I may be wise in His wisdom, strong in His might, and only live and move by His counsel, and to His glory. Speak, Lord, and I will hear. I shall now watch every breath of providence, and move or rest as Thou biddest. "What a rich mercy would it be to see Jerusalem a quiet, prosperous habita- tion, ere the days of darkness come upon me, and ere the going down of the sun ! " Mr. Clayton was now to become familiar with afflictive visitations. The footsteps of the destroyer were to be heard near his dwelling with solemn frequency; and whispers from the spirit-land, floating around him, warned him to set his house in order. A sickness, extending over eleven weeks, visited him in the summer of 1837, and entirely prevented him from attending to his ministerial duties. But in the autumn he was restored to health ; and returned to his post with renewed earnestness of soul. A few months rolled by, and once more the angel of Death entered within the family circle, to summon away one of its members — the youngest of the fraternal band. To see those, who had set out in the journey of life long before him, vanish from his vision, was nothing surprising, however painful might be the bereavement. But to find those who were his juniors pass off the stage of earthly existence, while he remained a spectator of their departure, was what he had not anticipated. One of the greatest trials of his life befell him, when his youngest and much-loved brother, William, was sud- denly snatched away from the midst of a large and attached circle of friends. He pours out his heart in 452 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. the most touching expressions of tenderness and sorrow. The whole strain rings like the breaking of a harp- string. It is David lamenting over Jonathan. " Very pleasant" had the slain one been to the weeping sur- vivor — his love had been tender and pure as that of woman. Thus the grieved one records his emotions : — " It has pleased the Lord of my life and the Author of all my mercies to lengthen out my existence, and to permit me to witness another anniversary of the day of my birth. Never before have I passed a birthday under circumstances of equal sorrow. My dearest brother William never failed to meet this day with the heartiest congratulations, and kindest wishes of fraternal love ; but now the hand which wielded his affectionate pen is cold and motionless in the dust. That countenance, which beamed with confidence and gladness, is hidden in the grave ; and that tongue, which gave utterance to the tenderest emotions of friendship, is silent in death. " Alas ! alas ! my brother, I am distressed ; not for thee, but for those whom thou hast left behind, to mourn their irreparable loss. Ah me, my brother ! thou hast been snatched away from those who loved and delighted in thee ; and I am left to pursue my journey, as it were, in comparative solitude. For though much remains to me, of which I am utterly unworthy, yet much, very much, has been subtracted from my social joy and felicity, by thy glorious translation to the regions of light. But I dare not repine ; thou art perfectly holy and happy; and this, in the midst of sorrow, shall bring joy to my heart. " May I be like thee, in all that was like thy blessed Master, into whose joy and glory thou hast entered ! Let me look back with gratitude upon the years of help, pleasure, and sacred solace, I knew in thy society ; and let me adore and give praise to God, whose grace made thee what thou wast to me ; and seek my all in Jesus, whom thou lovedst and servedst on earth, and with whom thou reignest in heaven. Let not my tears obscure my mercies; or hinder me from sending forth my grateful ascriptions to Him who has spared a sinful worm, less fit to depart, less meet than thou for the inheritance of the saints in light. MRS. GEOEGE CLAYTON. 453 " O that on this day I may resolve, with all my heart, on a new and more entire consecration of my life, my all to God. Let me be more diligent, cautious, circumspect, and prayerful ; and seek a larger measure of the Spirit's grace to sanctify me wholly; to preserve me to the end; and to make me a more abundant blessing to my family, my church, and the world! for a renewed application of the blood of sprinkling ; that, with a sense of pardoned sin, I may pursue my course, hold on my way, wait all the days of my appointed time, and finish my short day of life to the glory of my God and Saviour ! "April 9th, 1838." In the summer of 1842, Mr. Clayton and his wife journeyed to Brighton, for a temporary sojourn there. The latter appeared in her usual health and spirits — the fresh air of the country, and the invigorating breezes of the sea, seemed to give new life to her delicate frame. But, after four days, she was seized with illness, while staying at the house of the Eev. J. Sortain. This illness increased upon her rapidly, and reduced her to a state of distressing weakness. Everything was done, that human agency could accomplish, to arrest the progress of the disease; but without effect. From the beginning she had a presentiment that this sickness would be unto death; and composed herself with wondrous self- possession in the exercises of contrition, faith, and prayer, to meet her last hour. This will be the proper place for a short notice of this estimable lady, who, for nearly thirty-eight years, had been the companion and coadjutor of her husband, in his great work. Mrs. George Clayton,* who was born in 1779, was the * For these particulars concerning Mrs. Clayton, I am mainly indebted to a short Memoir of her, published by the Rev. Joseph Sortain, in 1844. 454 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. only child of Burchett Whennell, Esq., then residing at Aveley, in Essex. She was of a good family ; General Oglethorpe, of Cranham Hall, and Sir Nathan Wright, Bart., a soldier distinguished hy his loyalty and devotion to the house of Stuart, heing among her maternal ancestors. In her infancy she was visited with a sudden loss of power in the right limh, the effect of slight paralysis. All that medical skill could devise failed to neutralize the evil. But as her mind developed, it gave indications of a robustness and intelligence, in happy contrast with her physical weakness. In her eighth year she was placed at school, at Reading; and, in 1790, was sent to one at Great Baddow, where she found herself in the midst of sixty scholars. Here her reading embraced a wide range of literature ; the classical authors of other lands, as well as those of her own, being her favourites. In her autobiography she says : — " When Miss More's Treatise on Education was published, I read it diligently, but could not enter into the last chapter of either volume. By the recommendation of this writer, I deter- mined to read Locke's Essay on the Understanding. Never was I more captivated by a book ! It introduced me into a new intellectual region. I regretted that I had wasted so much time in reading novels; and determined to discard them for the future, as I now heartily despised them. This resolution I was enabled to keep." While at Reading, Mr. Cadogan's preaching produced in her mind the first awakenings of a sense of the evil of sin ; but they were met by the opposition of her unregenerate nature ; and when, at different times, she was brought to listen to a faithful evangelical ministry, which she did not find where her parents worshipped, it seems only to have excited afresh the latent hostility of the unchanged heart. MRS. GEORGE CLAYTON. 455 In 1794, she left school, and spent some time in town ; where she contracted a taste for dramatic representations, which were her ruling passion for four years. Tired at length of novels and light literature, in which she had indulged, she gave herself to the perusal of works calculated more to improve her mind. Bishop Taylor's Holy Living and Dying became a prime favourite : — " I entered," she says, " into his austere and legal views with great zest ; retired at the prescribed hours for secret prayer, — using the prayers of Bishop Andrews — -with great constancy. This, however, only lasted while I was at home. When I visited London, I was ensnared by its pleasures, and absorbed in the pursuit of them. I read Plato's Dialogues, and, as if I had never heard of a revelation from God, nor seen a Bible, I was thrown into the greatest perplexity, as to the nature and existence of the Supreme Being, and the way of acceptance with Him. Under deep anxiety of mind did I grope in darkness, while the effulgent beams of divine truth were shed around me; but I had no spiritual light to behold them." It was shortly after this that a young minister from college — her future husband — was introduced to her. In a small private circle, he read the account of Moses, given in Robinson's Scripture Characters, and at once a new light broke in upon her. She saw that if God was to be pleased, the world must be renounced; and she resolved to do it. Her own words, written long afterwards, will best state this : — "On this day, 1802, I was first introduced to . On this day, the arrows of conviction first pained my heart ; I saw what was to be given up for Christ ; I was made willing to accept the terms of the Gospel. How much have I been a gainer by my losses ! How true is that divine word : ' No man hath forsaken lands, or houses,' &c. I would set my seal to the truth of the promise. I have waded through a sea of affliction, since I first 456 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. set out in the Christian course ; but never have I repented ; never, through the grace of my Lord, cast a lingering look on the world which I have quitted. Thus far have I persevered, though with unequal, and sometimes faltering steps. I now look forward to the prize, and can say, truly, that I despise all that earth can offer. O that I could more steadfastly believe that He, that spared not His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, will with Him also freely give us all things ! " From this time her chosen preachers were of the evangelical school, for which, up to this period, she had entertained the bitterest contempt. But now the Rev. John Newton, the Rev. Thomas Scott, the commentator, Dr. Waugh, and others, were listened to with delight. This change, however, exposed her to the opposition of her parents, who had cared for none of these things, and to the official remonstrances of their parish clergyman. But she maintained her position with calmness, dignity, and success. The very difficulties by which she was beset, led her more closely to examine her own heart, and consider well those truths, for which she had to endure the frowns of friends ; and the result was a firmer attachment to them, from a conviction of their scripturalness and worth. It was at this time she formed an engagement with Mr. Clayton, which ultimately issued in their marriage. But before this event could take place, she had to pass through deep waters ; and by a stern mental discipline, to which her divine Master subjected her, be qualified for the position of a minister's wife, who would often be called upon to " speak a word in season to those who are weary;" and must "know how" to do it, from a remembrance of her own experience. Referring to this, she says : — " During a visit in town, I was seized with the influenza : the MRS. GEORGE CLAYTON. 457 attack was violent, and my frame much debilitated by it. I continued for four months in a state of great bodily weakness. My mind became unstrung ; a nervous depression settled on my spirits ; I lost all my comfort ; nay, even hope itself was lost. I could not pray, nor read the Scriptures, nor endure to be present at religious services, — the tempter persuading me that my sacrifices were an abomination in the sight of God, and would only tend to enhance my condemnation. I could not open my lips to any who were competent to enter into my case, or afford me consolation, from an apprehension that they would charge me with hypocrisy; and as I judged myself to be indeed a hypocrite, I gave myself up for lost. For six months I remained in the deepest despair, assaulted by the most fearful temptations, and the prey of the most fearful imaginings. It pleased God, however, by restoring my health, to calm my mind. And though, for many months after, I enjoyed not a ray of comfort, yet I was enabled to attend to the duties of religion, as it respected external worship." Reference has already been made to the trying circumstances which preceded her marriage with Mr. Clayton. But the opposition of her friends was at length overcome; and she entered upon her new sphere of service for God, with a devout desire to glorify Him, whose she was. Her first care was over her own heart ; and systemati- cally she strove to instruct and discipline it. Scrupu- lously attentive to her private devotions, she drew up for herself a series of " Reflections on the opening of the day, by way of preparation for the solemn exercise of prayer." For the evening, she instituted a number of searching inquiries into the spirit, and temper, and manner in which the day's engagements had been observed; that she might have topics for reflection, and subjects which should induce becoming emotions of penitence or thankfulness, at the throne of grace. 458 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. She arranged her devotions for each day of the week, according to a special plan, and ever made meditation precede prayer ; " remembering that as the mind is musing the fire burns; and so, ere she spake to God with her tongue, she pondered in silence over the sub- ject of her petitions." Among her papers was found "A solemn Covenant with Almighty God, made through His beloved Son Jesus Christ, and by the aid of His Holy Spirit; to be frequently reviewed." That covenant she sought daily to keep; and by the help of God, amid many conscious defects, she remained faithful to it. Mrs. Clayton was, amidst all her engagements, a great reader. She kept a catalogue of those books which she read from 1788 to 1841. " It would seem that immediately upon her having concluded a volume, she herein recorded it. The works thus studied are classified under the heads of Divinity, History, Biography, Poetry, Travels, and Natural History and Philosophy. To these is added a large number of books which defied arrange- ment. When it is recollected that her meditative habits made her what might be called a slow reader; — that the moment a work betrayed its worthlessness, she threw it aside, and omitted to record it in this catalogue ; — that never- theless, of books which she had thoroughly studied, on the truths of which she had ruminated, thus converting them into pabulum for her mind, there were 16 folios, 58 quartos, 1,118 octavos, and 241 duodecimos ; making in the whole 1,433 ; — her mental industry will surprise, and should arouse to emula- tion. . . . Hers could not have been a contracted mind, seeing that it was familiar with the rich tomes of Bishops Hall and Taylor ; the sublime Christian philosophy of Howe ; the varied literature and theology of Watts. Hers could not have been a weak mind, seeing that it had held converse with Plato, and Seneca, and Bacon, and Locke, and Butler, and Berkeley. To commune with them, and to respond to them, showed power. MRS. GEOEGE CLAYTON. 459 Hers could not have been an unattunod mind, seeing that it had listened, as ' Our sweetest Shakspeare, fancy's child, Warbled his native wood-notes wild ;' had heard, in awe and reverence, the deep diapason of Milton ; and had caught the mystic whisperings of Wordsworth. Indeed, it was a refreshing thing to watch her ; to know the profound and conscientious piety of her heart ; to be aware that its delicacy was such that, like the mimosa, it shrunk at the bare touch of evil ; and yet to perceive that, instead of sympathizing with the religious prudery around her, she found it morally healthful to live with the wise of all ages, and to hearken to genius, as to the inspiration of the Most High."* But it is not to be supposed that there was any omission of domestic or social duties, on account of these intellectual pursuits. It is sometimes alleged that the love of literature and a true domesticity are rarely combined. It may be that individual cases can be found of absorption in study to the neglect of home duties ; but there is no necessary disconnexion between these things; and a rightly-regulated mind, such as Mrs. Clayton's was, will ever take care that each receives its due amount of time and attention. It is certain that she was deeply interested in the success of the various societies affiliated with the York Street congregation, and, as she had opportunity and strength, aided in their working. Her chief interest, however, centred in a charity school of girls, which she established in 1810, and over which she watched with parental solicitude, for thirty-two years. During the whole of that time she wrote the reports that were annually presented to the subscribers, and strove in a variety of ways to multiply its friends and supporters. * Sortain's Memoir. 460 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. But that which was most noticeable was the healthy influence, of an intellectual and spiritual character, which she exercised over a large number of her own sex. The value of this it would not be easy to exaggerate ; while its important results can never be fully ascertained, until the disclosures of the last day shall reveal the nature and extent of holy incentive, which a vigorous, refined, and sanctified mind can give to those who come within the sphere of its action. Mrs. Clayton was in the habit of meeting, at stated times, with the young ladies of the families worshipping at York Street ; " when topics selected from subjects which bore upon the mental and spiritual culture of females were discussed, in the easiest and most informal manner; and when, as if one of themselves, — as a learner, not an instructress ; as a companion, not a senior, — she would avail herself of her extensive reading and experience. One of that number, who shared, more than most, her affections and interest, thus writes of her, in a strain in which all the rest would, I am sure, cordially acquiesce : — " ' I can scarcely yet realize that we shall see no more, or commune with, this beloved friend. She stood out to the eye of my early youth, as a pillar of mental rectitude and moral worth, whose fair outline time never dimmed. I know no one who, for so long-continued a term of years, maintained such a strong and yet affectionate influence over me, for good. Her cast of mind was so calm, lucid, and reflective ; she was such an eminent Christian ; viewing all things by the light of another world, and setting so little store by the glitter of this. She appreciated talent, but it never dazzled her, or even won her admiration, unless used in God's service. She really loved the beautiful in nature, and felt the powerful in art. Her society, in free and intimate intercourse, was always elevating. She was a truly refined and spiritually-minded woman. She is gone, after MRS. GEORGE CLAYTON. 461 fulfilling her allotted period of probation and usefulness on earth, to the land where such spirits dwell. ' " Heaven gives us friends to bless tlie present life : Removes them to prepare us for the next. " ' For the maintenance of this variety of social intercourse she was, with one exception, singularly fitted. Though decided in her opinions, and conscious, as she must have been, of great mental vigour, she was, nevertheless, I am convinced, timid and diffident. The direct result of these peculiarities was a reserve, which the superficial or malicious might have called pride. But the moment that this timidity and diffidence gave way to an intimate acquaintanceship, her manner became irresistibly attractive, from its confidingness and candour. Her repartee, which often approached to wit, enlivened the gravest subjects. If it ever wounded, its barb, beforehand, had been steeped in a balm. Her discussions on individual character always interested the best feelings of her associates ; for they held a happy medium between what would have been meaninglessly general, or unkindly specific. Sometimes her manner lost its ordinary placidity, and her voice quivered with emotion ; her thoughts breathed, and her words burned ; and then her invective, which was never, to my knowledge, against men, was eloquent against measures. Hence, her influence upon public men, in stirring them up to the advocacy of great numan rights, was often most decisive.' "* A few quotations from Mr. Sortain's Extracts from her Correspondence will give a slight idea of the discursive character of her reading, her keen perceptions of men and things, and of the vigour with which she could wield her pen. " Christian Experience. — Every day I endeavour to push the world from me, and inquire, what of its causes, and pursuits, and enjoyments, can be dispensed with ? — that I may be more entirely devoted. But, alas ! when the nightly review is * Memoir. •162 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. instituted, nothing seems to have been cither renounced, on the one hand, or accomplished, on the other. 'To will is present, but how to perform I find not.' Do you know what it is to feel as if you made no progress in the celestial journey? — to have the same spiritual prospect continually before your eyes? — contending with the same enemies ; encountering the same temptations ; committing the same sins every day, as if you never moved a step onward, in the path of Zion ? That is my experience. Did I not retain a vivid recollection of the broad road, and the motives which impelled me along its course, I should sometimes doubt whether I had entered on the heavenly way. But, no ! it cannot be mistaken : it is narrow, and thickly strewn with thorns and briers, on the one side ; while, on the other, the flowers and fruits of paradise offer themselves in rich abundance to the weary traveller." "Jonathan Edwards. — I thank you for introducing Edwards to me. I find his work on religious affections profitable. I like him for his sober-mindedness. There is much that is cautious and discriminating in his delineation of spiritual feeling, and an ample exposure of what is spurious and counterfeit. What an admirable quotation is that from Mr. John Smith, on Pharisaic righteousness, page 117. It is very pleasant, occa- sionally, to climb the dazzling height, where fancy, waving her magic wand, exhibits the glories of her unreal world to the astonished gaze; or roaming in the labyrinth of metaphysic lore, to listen to the sage, profound, and erudite, who, discoursing of that subtle essence, mind, shall investigate its powers, analyze its perceptions, and trace its actings. But it is safest and best to walk in the good old path, where the light of Scripture, the evidence of faith, the deductions of corrected reason, and the harmony of subjugated passion, combine to assure us that it is the King's highway, and will certainly conduct us to the celestial paradise. "In lately meditating on the intermediate state, I have been led to think that it is as remote from the refinement of intel- lectuality, as from the grossness of materiality. I am inclined to the opinion, expressed on Saturday evening, — that conscious- MRS. GEORGE CLAYTON. 4 Co ness and the moral sense will be the all-pervading impression, and only perception of the spirit. Judgment will be past ; memory will probably be in exercise ; but imagination, and the discursive faculty, held as it were in abeyance, till the soul is united to the glorified body, when the various mental faculties may find a slightly analogous employment in the new theatre of human activity. What is your prevailing idea of heaven ? Is it as a state of individual felicity, or social enjoyment ; or as a beatific absorption in the contemplation of the divine nature? I perceive that Edwards answers my query concerning mental intercourse negatively: 'Spirits united to bodies have no medium of acting, as it respects other creatures but the body.' So it is not only the instrument and the habitation, but the prison of the soul. But, thanks to Heaven, written speech can fly whither spirit cannot ; and convey its thoughts, feelings, and wishes." " Nervous Affections. — You ask if I have experienced the feelings you describe ? I am well acquainted with many forms of that hydra — nervous disease ; and to the wild workings of a morbid fancy I am no stranger. The various undefined and undefinable ills, the fearful apprehensions which it conjures up, and the false surmises in which it indulges — these I also know. With regard to physical suffering, I acquired at an early age (14), from my first moral master, Seneca, some control over animal feeling ; and a capacity of endurance, which comes nearer to the idea of passive power than anything else which I can conceive of. " This, I hope, has improved in a higher school. When suffering pain, I generally retire within myself, and pray, and endure, and strive to perfect patience — which I invariably find the best anodyne. By this means I can lie still, almost motion- less, when the slightest sound beats with distressing violence on the diseased sensorium, and the least movement of another is painful and annoying. " I find it easier to reason with nerves and muscles than with imaginary terrors. I think the dominion of mind over matter would be apparent, if the first ten years of human life were spent on subjugating the animal, and cultivating the moral powers, 464 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. instead of forming the intellectual. How much is effected this way by the Moravians and the Friends ! Abstinence from stimulants, during the entire period of youth, would, I think, also contribute to this end. But, leaving the physical view of the subject, we know that our God, who is rich in mercy towards them that fear Him, will not lay upon us more than He will enable us to bear. He will give dying grace in dying moments." " Classics. — Dear has been most assiduous in her atten- tions during my illness, and visited me three or four times every week. We have had a whole Iliad of battles on the subject of the classics ; but no Homer to recount them, for the amusement of future ages. She insists that, if the classics were abolished, taste would be extinct ; whereas, I contend that a most elegant philosophic mythology might be built on the discoveries of modern science ; one that would excite the imagination, without stimulating the passions. What lovely forms might be conceived to bask in the soft rays of polarized light, reflecting prismatic hues from their gauzy wings ! What wondrous beings might be supposed to direct electro-magnetic influence, and produce chemical transformations ! What a variety of personifications might be employed to control the forces which act on the material world around us; and what sublime intelligences, to preside over the sidereal movements ! "But is mythology necessary, either for taste or poetry? Were the youthful mind no longer corrupted by the baleful streams which flow from Castalia's polluted fount, the soft flowing waters of ' Siloa ' would attract them, and the dews of Hermon impearl their brows. Surely, the terrors of Sinai, the glories of Tabor, and the more thrilling words, as revealed to the lone inhabitant of Patmos' isle, would furnish loftier themes than Empyrean Jove and ' his rabble rout ' of inferior deities would ever inspire ! . . I have not forgotten your favourite Longinus. He reminded me of a fine tract of country diversified with mountain scenery and fertile plains, while, ever and anon, a bog or slough betrays the feet of the unwary travellers, and annoys those who love to walk in clean paths." MRS. GEORGE CLAYTON. 465 " The Christian Ministry. — Laymen cannot form any just conceptions of the labour of making sermons. They do not calculate on the deep thought, the patient research, the dis- criminating judgment, the chastised imagination, the fervour of devout affection, which should be employed in every prepa- ration for the pulpit. Or, if from habits of mental application, they can form some estimate of these, yet it is impossible that they should realize the solemn feelings, the melting emotions, the painful searchings of heart, the fearful forebodings of those who, in the true spirit of their office, stand up between the living and the dead, as the messengers of God, as the ambassa- dors of Christ; knowing that no argument, no warning, no appeal from their lips, is without its effect. It is either a savour of life unto life, or of death unto death ! Who is sufficient for these things ? They filled the Saviour's heart : they would fill an angel's hands. " But persons in general have very inadequate ideas on the subject. The merchant thinks it as easy to write a sermon as a letter of business ; the tradesman, as to cast an accoimt ; and some, probably, think with the countryman, that it comes by nature — like reading and writing. Inconsideration is one source of this misconception ; but there is a yet more culpable one ; — religion has too little influence upon the heart : we are too little conversant with awful realities. The minister's voice is to many but as a lovely song, which charms the ear, and dies away from the mind. " I love the priesthood, and I must stand up for its defence while I can wield the pen." Throughout her life Mrs. George Clayton had often been the subject of bodily affliction; while her domestic sorrow — to which reference has already been made — bowed her heart very often to the dust. But amidst it all the meekness of the Christian shone forth beauti- fully. No murmur was heard ; but a holy acquiescence in the appointment of the all- wise God was ever visible. When her last days approached, and she found that H H 4CG THE CLAYTON FAMILY. she had left her earthly home to die in that of another, she prepared herself for the event. Mr. Clayton furnished some minutes of a conversa- tion held with his wife, on her deathbed, from which I extract the following : — "She appeared to labour under considerable difficulty and embarrassment, in uttering that which she nevertheless was anxious to communicate. At length she said, 'I wished to speak to you on the state of my mind ; I intended to do so yesterday, but was prevented. I hope this illness will be a great blessing to me. For some time past I have mourned over great darkness and distance from God ; such coldness of heart, such want of sensible comfort ! I am full of fear in relation to the time to come ; lest I should become helpless, and useless, and a burden. But why should I look forward to the morrow, when I have so many mercies, innumerable mercies, for the present day ! I want more submission to the will of God. I want an increase of faith. " Lord, increase my faith." This must be henceforth my motto—" Only believe." I have, alas ! read too much, and prayed too little ; I have read many books which might have been better left alone. Yet I really did it often with a view to the good of the young people ; to the improvement of their minds.' " I reminded her that the cultivation of the understanding is a duty, and that in an age of information it was as well to keep up to some extent with the advancement of knowledge. ' Ah ! ' she replied, 'the knowledge of Christ is the one thing — the everything. "To know my Jesus cru< ' By far excels all things beside." It is well,' she continued, 'that I have been called aside from the incessant round of duties, too formally discharged — not neglected, but with so little of the heart in them. that I had read less in my private hours of devotion, and meditated more! Meditation, communing with our own hearts, is the thing to be especially aimed at.' "Then, with much emotion. Fhe repeated a favourite verse — MRS. GEORGE CLAYTON. 467 ' Yet save a trembling sinner, Lord, Whose hope, still hovering round thy word, "Would light oil some sweet promise there — Some sure support against despair.' " I reminded her that that was a favourite verse of my dear mother's, and that she had never taken higher ground, in her religious experience. She smiled and said, 'How low, then, ought I to place myself!' She complained of pride; 'How much I have had of it! How God has been humbling me for it, all along ; " But pride — that busy sin, Spoils all that I perform.'" " She asked if I thought that ' a soul, which sincerely loved Christ, or that sincerely desired to love Him, could perish?' I answered, ' Certainly not ; it is incongruous and impossible.' She added, C I do sincerely desire to love Him. Of one thino- I am certain, that I desire holiness above all things ; a holy heaven, and nothing else. I sometimes hope that this may be regarded as an evidence of grace.' " She sent messages to the people at Walworth, — "her dear people, with her best love, and hope to meet them in heaven, if they never met again on earth." Gloomy thoughts at times oppressed her, hut they gradually passed away; and at length, the tired one sunk to a sweet repose. Mrs. Clayton died August 13th, 1842, aged sixty- three years. An extract, from Dr. Pye Smith's oration at the grave, will close this sketch : — " Our departed sister was by God formed, naturally, and in the arrangements of His providence, to attract universal admira- tion and love. I well remember, in the commencement of her course, it being said by one who was a good judge of human nature, 'She is all intellect.' Her fine understanding, her penetration, her vivacity, had she chosen to take her lot in the world, would have made her the ornament of the most brilliant circle. But she chose to take her lot with the people of God ; 468 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. and to consecrate her natural and acquired talents of mind, in every respect, to the honour of the Redeemer ; and you know (though you can but imperfectly know) the simplicity, the humility, the self-renunciation, the abdication of human applause, with which she habitually laboured to promote the love and honour of the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. As ' the beloved Persis ' ' laboured much in the Lord,' so do you know — you, the members of the church of Christ, under the pastoral care of my dear brother — that she infused life and energy into numerous associations ; and that yet, with all this vivacity, there was feminine sweetness, and softness, and tender- ness, and everything that exhibited always an anxiety that not she, but the grace of the Lord, should be contemplated. " While she thus wrought, in every part of the circle she had filled, domestic and private, as well as when brought forth into a measure of public knowledge, she left no duty — I may say, without any exaggeration, so far as the human eye could see — she left no duty neglected. Order ; exact, wise, and beneficent adjustment of time and circumstances, showed that she possessed what is the mark of a great mind — comprehension ; and an ability to combine attention to the greatest, with a dignified, yet affectionate arrangement of the smallest, affairs. But whilst thus our departed sister ' was as an angel of God ' walking the earth, attracting love and admiration, or scattering blessings around, her spirit habitually held communion with the Infinite and the All Perfect; and thence she drew the vital power which animated the whole of her character. " Yes, that vital power was union to Christ. The Lord Jesus Christ was the centre and the energy of all that lovely, and active, and useful character, which it is a delight to survey. I may apply to her, without any impropriety, an epitaph which stands in one of the churches in Westphalia, — ' What things were gain, those I counted loss, for the excellency of the know- ledge of Jesus Christ my Lord.' So thought, so felt, so lived, the Princess Amelia Galitzin; so thought, so felt, so lived, Mary Clayton. It is true, it is true, without any exaggera- tion." Chapter XXIV. REV. GEORGE CLAYTON.— 1843-1862. SECOND MARRIAGE. — ILLNESS. — CO-PASTORATE. — REV. P. J. TURQUAND. — LETTER TO MRS. WILLS. — FETE AT GAINES. — PRESENTATION OF TESTI- MONIAL FROM THE CHURCH AT YORK STREET. — LETTER FROM THE BISHOP OF WINCHESTER. — RESIGNATION OF THE PASTORATE. — " CLAY- TON MEMORIAL SCHOOLS." — DEATH OF MRS. JOHNSON. — ATTACK OF APOPLEXY. — GENEROSITY TO RELATIVES. — LAST YEAR OF LIFE. — LAST PUBLIC SERVICES. — LAST ENTRY IN HIS DIARY. — MRS. CLAYTON'S ACCOUNT OF HIS LAST MOMENTS. — DEATH. — FUNERAL SERVICES. For more than three years, Mr. George Clayton continued a widower; but on December 18th, 1845, he entered again into the marriage relationship with Mary, the elder daughter of Edward Giles, Esq., of Clapham Common ; an event which contributed so largely to his domestic and ministerial happiness, that, to the latest hour of his life, his heart breathed devoutest thanks to God, who had once more gilded his home with a chastened sunshine ; and enabled him, in the genial society of one who could sympathize with him, in all matters social, intellectual, and spiritual, to realize as much of earthly blessedness as his soul could desire. With devout joy does he record the fact, that never had his ministry been more acceptable, more valued, or useful, than in the fourth decade of his pastorate at Walworth. For some years afterward he continued to pursue his course, with an extraordinary measure of bodily health and strength. Public services, and more 470 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. private labours, ho says, were " never less fatiguing, or more pleasant." In 1846, lie was permitted to lay the foundation of his beautiful mansion, at Gaines Park; and in June, 1849, entered upon its possession, with earnest supplication to his heavenly Father, to abide with him, " that it might be the house of prayer, and the dwelling- place of God." In 1850, while on a visit to his brother, he had another attack, of an apoplectic character; but happily a very slight one, — for the immediate application of appropriate remedies led to a speedy restoration. In February, 1851, he delivered the oration at the funeral of the Rev. Dr. Pye Smith, of Homerton, who had taken a prominent part in his settlement at Walworth, forty-seven years before, and of whom, in this excellent address, he speaks, with the admiration of a man who had learned to appreciate the great erudition of the departed; and with all the warmth of a friend, who loved the venerable sage, for his " humble and modest bearing, his gentleness and patience, the suavity and Christian courtesy of his manners, asso- ciated at the same time with the stern love of justice, and an uncompromising firmness of principle." He eulogized "his disinterestedness and generosity; the facility with which he forgave injuries, forbore to retaliate affronts, and ever returned good for evil ; and that which formed the very climax of his virtues — his utter abnegation of self, and the willing attribution of all he was, all he possessed, all he achieved, solely to the ' grace which was with him.' " The frequent recurrence of attacks of illness was too significant a warning to be despised; and thus he records his meditation on a subject which, for some time, had been engaging his attention : — ME. W. D. WILLS. 471 " The time is come, when I consider it my duty to call in more stated and regular assistance than I have hitherto required. The illness of last autumn, the state of my hearing, and some other minor symptoms of decay, remind me that the grass withereth, the flower fadeth, and that strength and vigour must decline. I have sought the Lord, on this point, in earnest prayer, and have been waiting for an answer. I seek not my own will, hut His glory ; not my way, but that which shall most conduce to the peace, progress, fruitfulness, and prosperity of the dear people, and the advancement of Christ's kingdom amongst us, and around us. "April 9th, 1851." It was about this time, that the following letter was sent to Mrs. W. D. Wills, on the occasion of an accident to her husband, by which a limb was broken. It has a solemn and affecting character about it, when read with the remembrance of the fact, that Mr. Wills was again the subject of a terrible accident, while attending the missionary meetings in London, in May, 18G5. He was run over by an omnibus, in Holborn ; and, being taken to St. Bartholomew's Hospital, suffered amputation of the leg, but, from the collapse that followed a few hours afterwards, he died : — "Gaines, 29th April, 1851. " My dear Friend, — It gave to Mrs. Clayton and myself much pain to hear of the sad accident which has befallen your dear and excellent husband. My young cousin, Mr. GK Dawson, gave us the information on Sabbath morning ; and the concern felt for the sufferer was deep and sincere. It extended beyond the limits of the pulpit ; and the prayers of many hundreds of devout and sympathizing minds ascended to Heaven on his behalf and yours. " We hope that the fractured limb is progressing favourably ; and shall be happy, when you have a moment's leisure, to have the assurance of it from your own pen. "I need not remind you of the comfort contained in the sentiment, ' My times are in thy hands.' All things that 472 THE CLAYTON FAMILY. concern us arc arranged and directed by a wisdom that cannot err, and a goodness "which is unimpeachable and unchanging. " If a sparrow fallcth not to the ground without our Father, we are sure that no casualty can happen to us, but by the special permission or appointment of Him who has said, 'Ye are of more value than many sparrows.' " I have sought for you both, a humble, patient, and submissive frame, under this trial; and the abundant sanctifi- cation of it, through the power and grace of the Holy Spirit. Your good Mr. Wills has been, eminently, the active servant of God for many years ; he is now called to practise another and a harder lesson, the exemplification of the passive graces, under the suspension of his wonted energies, in comparative solitude and quiet seclusion. It is good when a broken heart takes precedency of a broken limb ; for such a heart prepares us to suffer with unrepining acquiescence, and will enable us to acknowledge, ' It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed.' "'Wherefore doth a living man complain; a man for the punishment of his sins ?' especially when he has every reason to hope that sin is pardoned ; that condemnation is averted ; and that these 'light afflictions, which are but for a moment, are working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory ' ? "Present our united Christian regards and affectionate sympathy to Mr. Wills; accept the same yourself; and, with best remembrances to Mr. William, believe me, as ever, affectionately yours, "George Clayton." Before the end of this year he carried into effect the design he had for some time been contemplating. The admonitions of his own increasing feebleness, which now began to be sensibly felt, were too frequent and urgent for him any longer to delay making the request to his people, for assistance in the pulpit and the pastorate. Thus, under date November 28th, he writes : — " The crisis, which I had already foreseen, and of which I REV. P. J. TUEQUAND. 473 have had many foreshadowing premonitions, has actually presented itself. Various ailments have assaulted the earthly house of this my frail and mortal tabernacle. I would fain have continued at my post for a longer season, and that in full occupation; but as the Supreme will, always good, seems to indicate another course, I desire to bow with unqualified submission, and without a murmuring word. " I can most truly and distinctly aver that my chief solicitude has been about my beloved flock, whom I have tended, on one spot, for very nearly forty and eight years. I have feared lest they should be scattered ; lest they should be disunited; lest any root of bitterness should spring up to trouble us ; lest the fair and lovely garden should be blighted; souls scandalized; Christ dishonoured; His enemies furnished with causes of triumph, and the effective usefulness of an harmonious church be impaired. But is the Spirit of the Lord straitened ? 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