tC^o. nrSfr~"\'^9^ THE LIBRARY OF THE UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA RIVERSIDE EVELINA £7 Cvo .-'^ - 1 &*> ■ l hadscarce shut the garden gate.— P. 356. A. JxA^ ' T~ 7\ OR THE HISTORY OF a YOUNG LADY3 1 ENTRANCE INTO THE WORLD //////BY /FANNY BURMEY • XV I £ WITH AN INTRODUCTION BY OTJST1N BOB^QN )0~ ILLUSTRATIONS BY HUGH THOMSON LONDON" HACMILLAN &CO LIMITED H PANY y 1963 INTRODUCTION Evelina ; or, A Young Lady's Entrance into the World, 1 - was first published at the aid of January, iJjS, by Thomas Lowndes of ~J Fleet Street, who, fourteen years earlier, had issued another popular and anonymous work, Horace JValpole's Castle of Otranto. Evelina ivas certainly fortunate in the moment of Its birth. At the date of its appearance, the literary horizon was as bare of rivals as it had been when, in November, J 7 40, Richardson burst upon a public exhausted by French romances with his real-life story of a virtuous servant-girl. 1 The sub-title was subsequently altered to The History of a Young Lady's Entrance into the World. vii EVELINA Between Pamela and Evelina \ and has made me very sad. We did not see anybody we knew. Well, adieu ; it is too late to write more. Friday. Captain Mirvan is arrived. I have not spirits to give an account of his introduction, for he has really shocked me. I do not like him. He seems to be surly, vulgar, and dis- agreeable. Almost the same moment that Maria was presented to him, he began some rude jests upon the bad shape of her nose, and called her a tall, ill-formed thing. She bore it with the utmost good-humour; but that kind and sweet- tempered woman, Mrs. Mirvan, deserved a better lot. I am amazed she would marry him. For my own part, I have been so shy, that I have hardly spoken to him, or he to me. I cannot imagine why the family was so rejoiced at his return. If he had spent his whole life abroad, I should have supposed they might rather have been thankful than sorrowful. However, I hope they do not think 35 EVELINA so ill of him as I do. At least, I am sure they have too much prudence to make it known. Saturday Night. We have been to the opera, and I am still more pleased than I was on Tuesday. I could have thought myself in paradise, but for the continual talking of the company around me. We sat in the pit, where everybody was dressed in so high a style, that, if I had been less delighted with the performance, my eyes would have found me sufficient enter- tainment from looking at the ladies. I was very glad I did not sit next the Captain, for he could not bear the music or singers, and was extremely gross in his observations on both. When the opera was over, we went into a place called the coffee-room, where ladies as well as gentlemen assemble. There are all sorts of refreshments, and the company walk about, and chat with the same ease and freedom as in a private room. On Monday we go to a ridotto, and on Wednesday we return to Howard Grove. The Captain says he won't stay here to be smoked with filth any longer : but, having been seven years smoked with a burning sun, he will retire to the country, and sink into a fair-weather chap. — Adieu, my dear Sir. LETTER XIII EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Tuesday, April 12. My dear Sir — We came home from the ridotto so late, or rather so early, that it was not possible for me to write. Indeed we did not go, you will be frightened to hear it, — till past eleven o'clock : but nobody does. A terrible reverse of the order of nature ! We sleep with the sun, and wake with the moon. The room was very magnificent, the lights and decorations were brilliant, and the company gay and splendid. Hut 1 should have told you, that I made many objections to being of the party, according to the resolution I had formed. How- 36 EVELINA ever, Maria laughed me out of my scruples, and so once again — I went to an assembly. Miss Mirvan danced a minuet, but I had not the courage to follow her example. In our walks I saw Lord Orville. He was quite alone, but did not observe us. Yet. as he seemed of no party, I thought it was not impossible that he might join us : and tho ! I did not wish much to dance at all — yet, as I was more acquainted with him than with any other person in the room, I must own I could not help thinking it would be infinitely more desirable to dance again with him, than with an entire stranger. To be sure, after all that had passed, it was very ridiculous to suppose it even probable, that Lord Orville would again honour me with his choice ; yet I am compelled to confess my absurdity, by way of explaining what follows. Miss Mirvan was soon engaged ; and presently after, a very fashionable, gay-looking man, who seemed about thirty years of age, addressed himself to me, and begged to have the honour of dancing with me. Now Maria's partner was a gentleman of Mrs. Mirvan's acquaintance ; for she had told us it was highly improper for young women to dance with strangers, at any public assembly. Indeed it was by no means my wish so to do ; yet I did not like to confine myself from dancing at all ; neither did I dare refuse this gentleman, as I had done Mr. Lovel, and then, if any acquaintance should offer, accept him : and so, all these reasons combining, induced me to tell him — yet I blush to write it to you ! — that I was already engaged ; by which I meant to keep myself at liberty to dance or not, as matters should fall out. I suppose my consciousness betrayed my artifice, for he looked at me as if incredulous ; and, instead of being satisfied with my answer, and leaving me, according to my expectation, he walked at my side, and, with the greatest ease imaginable, began a conversation, in the free style which only belongs to old and intimate acquaintance. But, what was most provoking, he asked me a thousand questions concerning the paj-fner to whom I was engaged. And, at last, he said, ' Is it really possible that a man whom you have honoured with your ac- ceptance, can fail to be at hand to profit from your goodness ? ' I felt extremely foolish, and begged Mrs. Mirvan to lead to a seat, which she very obligingly did. The Captain sat next 37 EVELINA her, and, to my great surprise, this gentleman thought proper to follow, and seat himself next to me. 'What an insensible !' continued he. 'Why, Madam, you are missing the most delightful dance in the world ! The man must be either mad, or a fool. Which do you incline to think him yourself?' ' Neither, Sir,' answered I in some confusion. He begged my pardon for the freedom of his supposition, saying, ' I really was off my guard, from astonishment that any man can be so much and so unaccountably his own enemy. But where, Madam, can he possibly be? — has he left the room ? — or has not he been in it ? ' ' Indeed, Sir,' said I peevishly, ' I know nothing of him.' ' I don't wonder that you are disconcerted, Madam ; it is really very provoking. The best part of the evening will be absolutely lost. He deserves not that you should wait for him.' ' I do not, Sir,' said I, 'and I beg you not to- ' 'Mortifying, indeed, Madam,' interrupted he, 'a lady to wait for a gentleman : — O fie ! — careless fellow ! — what can detain him ? — Will you give me leave to seek him ? ' ' If you please, Sir,' answered I, quite terrified lest Mrs. Mir van should attend to him, for she looked very much sur- prised at seeing me enter into conversation with a stranger. ' With all my heart," cried he ; ' pray what coat has he on ? ' ' Indeed I never looked at it.' ' Out upon him ! ' cried he. ' What ! did he address you in a coat not worth looking at ? — What a shabby wretch ! ' How ridiculous '. I really could not help laughing, which, I fear, encouraged him, for he went on. 'Charming creature! — and can you really bear ill-usage with so much sweetness ? — Can you, like patience on a monu- ment, smile in the midst of disappointment ? — For my part, though I am not the offended person, my indignation is so great, that I long to kick the fellow round the room ! — unless, indeed (hesitating and looking earnestly at me), — unless, in- deed — it is a partner of your own creating?* I was dreadfully abashed, and could not make any answer. ' But no ! ' cried he (again, and with warmth), it cannot be that you are so cruel ! Softness itself is painted in your eyes : — You could not, surely, have the barbarity so wantonly to trifle with my misery.' 33 EVELINA I turned away from this nonsense, with real disgust. Mrs. Mirvan saw my confusion, but was perplexed what to think of it, and I could not explain to her the cause, lest the Captain should hear me. I therefore proposed to walk, she consented, and we all rose ; but, would you believe it ? this man had the as- surance to rise too, and walk close by my side, as if of my party ! ' Now,' cried he, ' I hope we shall see this ingrate. Is that he?' — pointing to an old man, who was lame, 'or that?' And in this manner he asked me of whoever was old or ugly in the room. I made no sort of answer ; and when he found that I was resolutely silent, and walked on, as much as I could, without observing him, he suddenly stamped his foot, and cried out, in a passion, ' Fool ! idiot ! booby ! ' I turned hastily toward him : ' O Madam,' continued he, 'forgive my vehemence, but I am distracted to think there should exist a wretch who can slight a blessing for which I would forfeit my life! — O! that I could but meet him! I would soon But I grow angry : pardon me, Madam, my passions are violent, and your injuries affect me ! ' I began to apprehend he was a madman, and stared at him with the utmost astonishment. ' I see you are moved, Madam,' said he, 'generous creature! — but don't be alarmed, I am cool again, I am indeed, — upon my soul I am, — I entreat you, most lovely of mortals ! I entreat you to be easy.' ' Indeed, Sir,' said I very seriously, ' I must insist upon your leaving me ; you are quite a stranger to me, and I am both unused, and averse to your language and your manners.' This seemed to have some effect on him. He made me a low bow, begged my pardon, and vowed he would not for the world offend me. 'Then, Sir, you must leave me,' cried I. ' I am gone, Madam, I am gone ! ' with a most tragical air ; and he marched away, a quick pace, out of sight in a moment ; but before I had time to congratulate myself, he was again at my elbow. 'And could you really let me go, and not be sorry ? — Can you see me suffer torments inexpressible, and yet retain all your favour for that miscreant who flies you ? — Ungrateful puppy ! — I could bastinado him !' 'For Heaven's sake, my deaV,' cried Mrs. Mirvan, 'who is he talking of?' 39 Is thai he ? EVELINA 'Indeed — I do not know, Madam, 5 said I, 'but I wish he- would leave me.' 'What's all that there?' cried the Captain. The man made a low bow, and said, ' Only, Sir, a slight objection which this young lady makes to dancing with me, and which I am endeavouring to obviate. I shall think myself greatly honoured, if you will intercede for me.' 'That lady, Sir,' said the Captain coldly, 'is her own mistress.' And he walked sullenly on. ' You, Madam,' said the man (who looked delighted, to Mrs. Mirvan), 'you, I hope, will have the goodness to speak for me.'. ' Sir,' answered she gravely, ' I have not the pleasure of being acquainted with you.' ' I hope, when you have, Ma'am,' cried he (undaunted), ' you will honour me with your approbation ; but, while I am yet unknown to you, it would be truly generous in you to countenance me ; and, I flatter myself, Madam, that you will not have cause to repent it.' Mrs. Mirvan, with an embarrassed air, replied, ' I do not at all mean, Sir, to doubt your being a gentlemen, — but ' ' But what, Madam ? — that doubt removed, why a cut?' ' Well, Sir,' said Mrs. Mirvan (with a good-humoured smile), ' I will even treat you with your own plainness, and try what effect that will have on you : I must therefore tell you, once for all ' ' O pardon me, Madam ! ' interrupted he eagerly, ' you must not proceed with those words, once for all; no, if / have been too plain, and though a man, deserve a rebuke, remember, dear ladies, that if you copy, you ought, injustice, to excuse me.' We both stared at the man's strange behaviour. ' Be nobler than your sex,' continued he, turning to me, 'honour me with one dance, and give up the ingrate who has merited so ill your patience.' Mrs. Mirvan looked with astonishment at us both. ' Who does he speak of, my dear ? — you never mentioned ' ' O Madam ! ' exclaimed he, ' he was not worth mentioning — it is pity he was ever thought of: but let us forget his existence. One dance is all I solicit ; permit me, Madam, the honour of this young lady's hand ; it will be a favour I shall ever most gratefully acknowledge.' 41 EVELINA ' Sir,' answered she, ' favours and strangers have with me no connection.' ' If you have hitherto/ said he, 'confined your benevolence to your intimate friends, suffer me to be the first for whom your charity is enlarged.' ' Well, Sir, I know not what to say to you, — but ' He stopped her but with so many urgent entreaties, that she at last told me, I must either go down one dance, or avoid his importunities by returning home. I hesitated which alternative to choose ; but this impetuous man at length prevailed, and I was obliged to consent to dance with him. And thus was my deviation from truth punished ; and thus did this man's determined boldness conquer. During the dance, before we were too much engaged in it for conversation, he was extremely provoking about my partner, and tried every means in his power to make me own that I had deceived him ; which, though I would not so far humble myself as to acknowledge, was, indeed, but too obvious. Lord Orville, I fancy, did not dance at all ; he seemed to have a large acquaintance, and joined several different parties : but you will easily suppose I was not much pleased to see him, in a few minutes after I was gone, walk towards the place I had just left, and bow to, and join Mrs. Mirvan '. How unlucky I thought myself, that I had not longer with- stood this stranger's importunities ! The moment we had gone down the dance, I was hastening away from him, but he stopped me, and said that I could by no means return to my party, without giving offence, before we had done our duty of walking up the dance. As I know nothing at all of these rules and customs, I was obliged to submit to his directions ; but I fancy I looked rather uneasy, for he took notice of my inattention, saying, in his free way, ' Whence that anxiety ? — Why are those lovely eyes perpetually averted ? ' ' I wish you would say no more to me, Sir ' (cried I peevishly) ; ' you have already destroyed all my happiness for this evening.' ' Good Heaven ! what is it I have done ? — How have I merited this scorn ? ' ' You have tormented me to death ; you have forced me from my friends, and intruded yourself upon me, against my will, for a partner.' ' Surely, my dear Madam, we ought to be better friends 42 EVELINA since there seems to be something of sympathy in the frankness of our dispositions. — And yet, were you not an angel — how do you think I could brook such contempt?' ' If I have offended you,' cried I, ' you have but to leave me ^and O how I wish you would ! ' 'My dear creature' (said he, half laughing), 'why, where could you be educated ? ' ' Where I most sincerely wish I now was ! ' ' How conscious you must be, all beautiful that you are, that those charming airs serve only to heighten the bloom of your complexion ! ' 'Your freedom, Sir, where you are more acquainted, may perhaps be less disagreeable ; but to me ' 'You do me justice' (cried he, interrupting me), 'yes, I do indeed improve upon acquaintance ; you will hereafter be quite charmed with me.' ' Hereafter, Sir, I hope I shall never ' ' O hush ! — hush ! — have you forgot the situation in which I found you ? — Have you forgot, that when deserted, I pursued you, — when betrayed, I adored you ? — but for me ' ' But for you, Sir, I might, perhaps, have been happy.' 'What then, am I to conclude that, but for me, yom f>ar//nr would have appeared ? — poor fellow ! — and did my presence awe him ? ' ' I wish his presence, Sir, could awe jv« / ' ' His presence ! — perhaps then you see him ? ' 'Perhaps, Sir, I do : ' cried I, quite wearied of his raillery. 'Where? — where? — for Heaven's sake show me the wretch ! ' 'Wretch, Sir?' ' O, a very savage ! — a sneaking, shamefaced, despicable puppy ! ' I know not what bewitched me— but my pride was hurt, and my spirits were tired, and — in short — I had the folly, looking at Lord Orville, to repeat, ' Despicable, you think ? ' His eyes instantly followed mine ; ' Why, is that the gentleman ? ' I made no answer ; I could not affirm, and I would not deny ; — for I hoped to be relieved from his teasing, by his mistake. The very moment wc had done what he called our duty, I eagerly desired to return to Mrs. Mirvan. 43 EVELINA ' To your partner, I presume, Madam ? ' said he, very gravely. This quite confounded me ; I dreaded lest this mischievous man, ignorant of his rank, should address himself to Lord Orville, and say something which might expose my artifice. Fool 1 to involve myself in such difficulties ! I now feared what I had before wished, and, therefore, to avoid Lord Orville, I was obliged myself to propose going down another dance, though I was ready to sink with shame while I spoke. 'But your partner, Ma'am?' 'said he, affecting a very solemn air), ' perhaps he may resent my detaining you : if you will give me leave to ask his consent ' ' Not for the universe.' 'Who is he, Madam?' I wished myself a hundred miles off. He repeated his question, ' What is his name ? ' ' Nothing — nobody — I don't know.' He assumed a most important solemnity ; ' How ! — not know ? — Give me leave, my dear Madam, to recommend this caution to you : Never dance in public with a stranger, — with one whose name you are unacquainted with, — who may be a mere adventurer, — a man of no character, — consider to what impertinence you may expose yourself Was ever anything so ridiculous ? I could not help laughing, in spite of my vexation. At this instant, Mrs. Mirvan. followed by Lord Orville, walked up to us. You will easily believe it was not difficult for me to recover my gravity ; but what was my consternation, when this strange man, destined to be the scourge of my artifice, exclaimed, ' Ha ! my Lord Orville ! — I protest I did not know your Lordship. What can I say for my usurpation ? — Yet, faith, my Lord, such a prize was not to be neglected.' My shame and confusion were unspeakable. Who could have supposed or foreseen that this man knew Lord Orville ! But falsehood is not more unjustifiable than unsafe. Lord Orville — well he might, — looked all amazement. 'The philosophic coldness of your Lordship,' continued this odious creature, ' every man is not endowed with. I have used my utmost endeavours to entertain this lady, though I fear without success ; and your Lordship will not be a little flattered, if acquainted with the difficulty which attended my 44 //'/'/// an air of gallantry. EVELINA procuring the honour of only one dance.' Then, turning to me, who was sinking with shame, while Lord Orville stood motionless, and Mrs. Mirvan astonished, he suddenly seized my hand, saying, ' Think, my Lord, what must be my reluctance to resign this fair hand to your Lordship ! ' In the same instant, Lord Orville took it of him ; I coloured violently, and made an effort to recover it. ' You do me too much honour, Sir,' cried he (with an air of gallantry, pressing it to his lips before he let it go) ; ' however, I shall be happy to profit by it, if this lady ' (turning to Mrs. Mirvan) ' will permit me to seek for her party.' To compel him thus to dance, I could not endure, and eagerly called out, ' By no means — not for the world ! — I must beg ' 'Will you honour me. Madam, with your commands," cried my tormentor ; ' may / seek the lady's party ? ' ' No, Sir,' answered I, turning from him. ' What shall be done, my dear?' said Mrs. Mirvan. 'Nothing, Ma'am; — anything, I mean ' ' But do you dance, or not ? you see his Lordship waits. 5 ' I hope not, — I beg that — I would not for the world — I am sure I ought to — to ' I could not speak ; but that confident man, determined to discover whether or not I had deceived him, said to Lord Orville, who stood suspended, ' My Lord, this affair, which, at present, seems perplexed, I will briefly explain ; — this lady proposed to me another dance, — nothing could have made me more happy — I only wished for your Lordship's permission, which, if now granted, will, I am persuaded, set everything right.' I glowed with indignation. ' No, Sir. It is your absence, and that alone, can set everything right.' 'For Heaven's sake, my dear' (cried Mrs. Mirvan, who could no longer contain her surprise, 'what does all this mean? — were you pre-engaged ? —had Lord Orville ' 'No, Madam,' cried I, — 'only — only I did not know that gentleman, — and so, — and so I thought — I intended — I ' Overpowered by all that had passed, I had not strength to make my mortifying explanation ; my spirits quite failed me, and I burst into tears. They all seemed shocked and amazed. 46 EVELINA 'What is the matter, my dearest love?' cried Mrs. Mirvan, with the kindest concern. 'What have I done!' exclaimed my evil genius, and ran officiously for a glass of water. However, a hint was sufficient for Lord Orville, who com- prehended all I would have explained. He immediately led me to a seat, and said in a low voice, ' Be not distressed, I beseech you ; I shall ever think my name honoured by your making use of it.' This politeness relieved me. A general murmur had alarmed Miss Mirvan, who flew instantly to me ; while Lord Orville, the moment Mrs. Mirvan had taken the water, led my tormentor away. ' For Heaven's sake, dear Madam,' cried I, ' let me go home, — indeed, I cannot stay here any longer.' ' Let us all go,' cried my kind Maria. 'But the Captain — what will he say? — I had better go home in a chair.' Mrs. Mirvan consented, and I rose to depart. Lord Orville and that man both came to me. The first, with an attention I had but ill merited from him, led me to a chair, while the other followed, pestering me with apologies. I wished to have made mine to Lord Orville, but was too much ashamed. It was about one o'clock. Mrs. Mirvan's servants saw me home. And now, — what again shall ever tempt me to an assembly ? I dread to hear what you will think of me, my most dear and honoured Sir : you will need your utmost partiality, to receive me without displeasure. This morning Lord Orville has sent to inquire after our healths : and Sir Clement Willoughby, for that, I find, is the name of my persecutor, has called : but I would not go down- stairs till he was gone. And now, my dear Sir, I can somewhat account for the strange, provoking, and ridiculous conduct of this Sir Clement last night ; for Miss Mirvan says, he is the very man with whom she heard Lord Orville conversing at Mrs. Stanley's, when I was spoken of in so mortifying a manner. He was pleased to say he was glad to hear I was a fool, and therefore, I suppose, he concluded he might talk as much nonsense as he pleased to me : however, I am very indifferent as to his 47 EVELINA opinion ; but for Lord Orville, — if then he thought me an idiot, now, I am sure, he must suppose me both bold and presuming. .Make use of his name ! — what impertinence ! — he can never know how it happened, — he can only imagine it was from an excess of vanity : — well, however, I shall leave this bad city to-morrow, and never again will I enter it ! The Captain intends to take us to-night to the Fantocini. I cannot bear that Captain ; I can give you no idea how gross he is. I heartily rejoice that he was not present at the dis- agreeable conclusion of yesterday's adventure, for I am sure he would have contributed to my confusion ; which might perhaps have diverted him, as he seldom or never smiles but at some other person's expense. And here I conclude my London letters, — and without any regret, for I am too inexperienced and ignorant to conduct myself with propriety in this town, where everything is new to me, and many things are unaccountable and perplexing. Adieu, my dear Sir ; Heaven restore me safely to you ! I wish I was to go immediately to Berry Hill ; yet the wish is ungrateful to Mrs. Mirvan, and therefore I will repress it. I shall write an account of the Fantocini from Howard Grove. We have not been to half the public places that are now open, though I dare say you will think we have been to all. But they are almost as innumerable as the persons who fill them. LETTER XIV EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Queen Ann Street, April 13. How much will you be surprised, my dearest Sir, at receiving another letter from London of your Evelina's writing ! But. believe me, it was not my fault, neither is it my happiness, that I am still here : our journey has been postponed by an accident equally unexpected and disagreeable. We went last night to see the Fantocini, where we had infinite entertainment from the performance of a little comedy, in French and Italian, by puppets, so admirably managed, that they both astonished and diverted us all, except the 4 S EVELINA Captain, who has a fixed and most prejudiced hatred of what- ever is not English. When it was over, while we waited for the coach, a tall elderly woman brushed quickly past us, calling out, ' My Cod ! what shall I do ? ' 'Why, what would you do?' cried the Captain. ' Ma foi, Monsieur,' answered she, 'I have lost my company, and in this place I don't know nobody.' There was something foreign in her accent, though it was difficult to discover whether she was an English or a French woman. She was very well dressed, and seemed so entirely at a loss what to do, that Mrs. Mirvan proposed to the Captain to assist her. 'Assist her ! ' cried he, 'ay, with all my heart ; — let a link- boy call her a coach.' There was not one to be had, and it rained very fast. ' Mon Dieu,' exclaimed the stranger, ' what shall become of me ? Je sin's au de'sespoir ! ' 'Dear Sir,' cried Miss Mirvan, 'pray let us take the poor lady into our coach. She is quite alone, and a foreigner- — .' ' She's never the better for that,' answered he : ' she may be a woman of the town, for anything you know.' 'She does not appear such,' said Mrs. Mirvan, 'and indeed she seems so much distressed, that we shall but follow the golden rule, if we carry her to her lodgings.' ' You are mighty fond of new acquaintance,' returned he, 'but first let us know if she be going our way. 5 Upon inquiry, we found that she lived in Oxford Road, and, after some disputing, the Captain, surlily, and with a very bad grace, consented to admit her into his coach ; though he soon convinced us that he was determined she should not be too much obliged to him, for he seemed absolutely bent upon quarrelling with her : for which strange inhospitality, I can assign no other reason, than that she appeared to be a foreigner. The conversation began, by her telling us, that she had been in England only two days : that the gentlemen belonging to her were Parisians, and had left her, to see for a hackney- coach, as her own carriage was abn ad ; and that she had waited for them till she was quite frightened, and concluded that they had lost themselves. 49 E -'/>' GW/ Tc/W jvW/ / do ? • EVELINA 'And pray,' said the Captain, 'why did you go to a public place without an Englishman ? ' l Mafot, Sir,' answered she, 'because none of my acquaint- ance is in town.' 'Why then,' said he, ' I'll tell you what ; your best way is to go out of it yourself.' ' Pardi, Monsieur,'' returned she, 'and so I shall; for, I promise you, I think the English a parcel of brutes ; and I'll go back to France as fast as I can, for I would not live among none of you.' ' Who wants you ? ' cried the Captain ; ' do you suppose, Madam French, we have not enough of other nations to pick our pockets already ! I'll warrant you, there's no need for you for to put in your oar.' ' Pick your pockets, Sir ! I wish nobody wanted to pick your pockets no more than I do ; and I'll promise you, you'd be safe enough. But there's no nation under the sun can beat the English for ill-politeness ; for my part, I hate the very sight of them, and so I shall only just visit a person of quality or two, of my particular acquaintance, and then I shall go back again to France.' ' Ay, do,' cried he, ' and then go to the devil together, for that's the fittest voyage for the French and the quality.' 'We'll take care, however,' cried the stranger, with great vehemence, ' not to admit none of your vulgar, unmannered English among us.' ' O never fear ' (returned he coolly), ' we shan't dispute the point with you ; and you and the quality may have the devil all to yourselves.' Desirous of changing the subject of a conversation which now became very alarming, Miss Mirvan called out, ' Lord, how slow the man drives ! ' L Never mind, Moll,' said her father, ' I'll warrant you he'll drive fast enough to-morrow, when you are going to Howard Grove.' ' To Howard Grove ! ' exclaimed the stranger ; ' why, mon Dieu, do you know Lady Howard ? ' ' Why, what if we do ? ' answered he, ' that's nothing to you ; she's none of your quality, I'll promise you.' 'Who told you that,' cried she; 'you don't know nothing about the matter ; besides, you're the ill-bredest person ever 51 EVELINA I see ; and as to your knowing Lady Howard, I don't believe no such thing ; unless, indeed, you are her steward.' The Captain, swearing terribly, said, with great fury, ' l'oit would much sooner be taken for her wash-woman.' ' Her wash-woman, indeed ! — Ha, ha, ha ! — why, you han't no eyes ; did you ever see a wash-woman in such a gown as this ? — besides, I'm no such mean person, for I'm as good as Lady Howard, and as rich too ; and besides, I'm now come to England to visit her.' ' You may spare yourself that there trouble,' said the Captain ; 'she has paupers enough about her already.' ' Paupers, Mr. ! — no more a pauper than yourself, nor so much neither ; — but you are a low, dirty fellow, and I shan't stoop to take no more notice of you.' ' Dirty fellow ! ' (exclaimed the Captain, seizing both her wrists) ; 'hark you, Mrs. Frog, you'd best hold your tongue, for I must make bold to tell you, if you don't, that I shall make no ceremony of tripping you out of the window ; and there you may lie in the mud till some of your Monseers come to help you out of it.' Their increasing passion quite terrified us ; and Mrs. Mirvan was beginning to remonstrate with the Captain, when we were all silenced by what follows. ' Let me go, villain that you are, let me go, or I'll promise you I'll get you put to prison for this usage ; I'm no common person, I assure you, and, mafoi, I'll go to Justice Fielding about you ; for I'm a person of fashion, and I'll make you know it, or my name i'n't Duval.' I heard no more : amazed, frightened, and unspeakably shocked, an involuntary exclamation of Gracious Heaven .' escaped me, and, more dead than alive, I sank into Mrs. Mirvan's arms. But let me draw a veil over a scene too cruel for a heart so compassionately tender as yours ; it is sufficient that you know this supposed foreigner proved to be Madame Duval, — .the grandmother of your Evelina ! O, Sir, to discover so near a relation in a woman who had thus introduced herself! — what would become of me, were it not for you, my protector, my friend, and my refuge ? My extreme concern, and Mrs. Mirvan's surprise, im- mediately betrayed me. But I will not shock you with the manner of her acknowledging me, or the bitterness, the 52 ■a I. ';{, : «:lisV ••'>,>" -\ oOTJl Hark you, Mrs. Frog, you'd test hold your tongue. EVELINA grossness — I cannot otherwise express myself, — with which she spoke of those unhappy past transactions you have so pathetically related to me. All the misery of a much-injured parent, dear, though never seen, regretted, though never known, crowded so forcibly upon my memory, that they rendered this interview — one only excepted — the most afflicting I can ever know. When we stopped at her lodgings, she desired me to accom- pany her into the house, and said she could easily procure a room for me to sleep in. Alarmed and trembling, I turned to Mrs. Mirvan. 'My daughter, Madam,' said that sweet woman, ' cannot so abruptly part with her young friend ; you must allow a little time to wean them from each other.' ' Pardon, me, Ma'am,' answered Madame Duval (who, from the time of her being known, somewhat softened her manners), ' Miss can't possibly be so nearly connected to this child as I am.' ' No matter for that,' cried the Captain (who espoused my cause to satisfy his own pique, though an awkward apology had passed between them) ; ' she was sent to us, and so, d'ye see, we don't choose for to part with her.' I promised to wait upon her at what time she pleased the next day, and, after a short debate, she desired me to break- fast with her, and we proceeded to Queen Ann Street. What an unfortunate adventure ! I could not close my eyes the whole night. A thousand times I wished I had never left Berry Hill ; however, my return thither shall be accelerated to the utmost of my power ; and, once more in that abode of tranquil happiness, I will suffer no temptation to allure me elsewhere. Mrs. Mirvan was so kind as to accompany me to Madame Duval's house this morning. The Captain too offered his service, which I declined, from a fear she should suppose I meant to insult her. She frowned most terribly upon Mrs. Mirvan, but she received me with as much tenderness as I believe she is capable of feeling. Indeed, our meeting seems really to have affected her ; for when, overcome by the variety of emotions which the sight of her occasioned, I almost fainted in her arms, she burst into tears, and said, ' Let me not lose my poor daughter a second time ! ' This unexpected humanity 54 EVELINA softened me extremely ; but she very soon excited my warmest indignation, by the ungrateful mention she made of the best of men, my dear and most generous benefactor. However, grief and anger mutually gave way to terror, upon her avowing the intention of her visiting England was to make me return with her to France. This, she said, was a plan she had formed from the instant she had heard of my birth, which, she protested, did not reach her ears till I must have been twelve years of age ; but Monsieur Duval, who, she declared, was the worst husband in the world, would not permit her to do anything she wished : he had been dead but three months, which had been employed in arranging certain affairs, that were no sooner settled, than she set off for England. She was already out of mourning, for she said nobody here could tell how long she had been a widow. She must have been married very early in life ; what her age is I do not know, but she really looks to be less than fifty. She dresses very gaily, paints very high, and the traces of former beauty are still very visible in her face. I know not when, or how, this visit would have ended, had not the Captain called for Mrs. Mirvan, and absolutely insisted upon my attending her. He is become, very suddenly, so warmly my friend, that I quite dread his officiousness. Mrs. Mirvan, however, whose principal study seems to be healing those wounds which her husband inflicts, appeased Madame Duval's wrath, by a very polite invitation to drink tea and spend the evening here. Not without great difficulty was the Captain prevailed upon to defer his journey some time longer ; but what could be done ? it would have been indecent for me to have quitted town the very instant I dis- covered that Madame Duval was in it ; and to have stayed here solely under her protection — Mrs. Mirvan, thank Heaven, was too kind for such a thought. That she would follow us to Howard Grove, I almost equally dreaded ; it is, therefore, determined that we remain in London for some days, or a week : though the Captain has declared that the old French kag, as he is pleased to call her, shall fare never the better for it. My only hope, is to get safe to Berry Hill ; where, counselled and sheltered by you, I shall have nothing more to fear. Adieu, my ever dear and most honoured Sir ! I shall have no happiness till I am again with you ! 55 EVELINA LETTER XV MR. VILLARS TO EVELINA Berry Hill, April 16. In the belief and hope that my Evelina would ere now have bid adieu to London, I had intended to have deferred writing till I heard of her return to Howard Grove ; but the letter I have this moment received, with intelligence of Madame Duval's arrival in England, demands an immediate answer. Her journey hither equally grieves and alarms me : how much did I pity my child, when I read of a discovery at once so unexpected and unwished ! I have long dreaded this meet- ing and its consequence ; to claim you, seems naturally to follow acknowledging you : I am well acquainted with her disposition, and have for many years foreseen the contest which now threatens us. Cruel as are the circumstances of this affair, you must not, my love, suffer it to depress your spirits ; remember, that while life is lent me, I will devote it to your service ; and, for future time, I will make such provision as shall seem to me most conducive to your future happiness. Secure of my protection, and relying on my tenderness, let no apprehensions of Madame Duval disturb your peace; conduct yourself towards her with all the respect and deference due to so near a relation, remembering r always, that the failure of duty on her part, can by no means justify any neglect on yours : indeed, the more forcibly you are struck with improprieties and mis- conduct in another, the greater should be your observance and diligence to avoid even the shadow of similar errors. Be careful, therefore, that no remissness of attention, no indifference of obliging, make known to her the independence I assure you of ; but when she fixes the time for her leaving England, trust to me the task of refusing your attending her : disagree- able to myself I own it will be, yet to you it would be improper, if not impossible. In regard to her opinion of me, I am more sorry than surprised at her determined blindness ; the palliation which she feels the want of, for her own conduct, leads her to seek k6 EVELINA for failings in all who were concerned in those unhappy trans- actions which she has so much reason to lament. And this, as it is the cause, so we must, in some measure, consider it as the excuse of her inveteracy. How grateful to me are your wishes to return to Berry Hill ! your lengthened stay in London, and the dissipation in which I find you are involved, fill me with uneasiness : I mean not, however, that I would have you sequester yourself from the party to which you belong, since Mrs. Mirvan might thence infer a reproof which your youth and her kindness would render inexcusable. I will not, therefore, enlarge upon this subject, but content myself with telling you, that I shall heartily rejoice when I hear of your safe arrival at Howard Grove, for which place I hope you will be preparing at the time you receive this letter. I cannot too much thank you, my best Evelina, for the minuteness of your communications ; continue to me this indulgence, for I should be miserable if in ignorance of your proceedings. How new to you is the scene of life in which you are now engaged, — balls — plays — operas — ridottos. Ah, my child ! at your return hither, how will you bear the change? My heart trembles for your future tranquillity. — Yet I will hope everything from the unsullied whiteness of your soul, and the native liveliness of your disposition. I am sure I need not say, how much more I was pleased with the mistakes of your inexperience at the private ball, than with the attempted adoption of more fashionable manners at the ridotto. But your confusion and mortifications were such as to entirely silence all reproofs on my part. I hope you will see no more of Sir Clement Willoughby, whose conversation and boldness are extremely disgustful to me. I was gratified by the good-nature of Lord Orville, upon your making use of his name, but I hope you will never again put it to such a trial. Heaven bless thee, my dear child, and grant that neither misfortune nor vice may ever rob thee of that gaiety of heart which, resulting from innocence, while it constitutes your own, contributes also to the felicity of all who know you ! Arthur Villa rs. 57 vj-syKc^vivvi ,.„ > Introduced by the name of Monsieur Du Bois* EVELINA - LETTER XVI EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS Queen Ann Street, Thursday Morning, April 14. Before our dinner was over yesterday, Madame Duval came to tea : though it will lessen your surprise to hear that it was near five o'clock, for we never dine till the day is almost over. She was asked into another room, while the table was cleared, and then was invited to partake of the dessert. She was attended by a French gentleman, whom she introduced by the name of Monsieur Du Bois : Mrs. Mirvan received them both with her usual politeness ; but the Captain looked very much displeased, and after a short silence, very sternly said to Madame Duval, ' Pray who asked you to bring that there spark with you ? ' ' O,' cried she, ' I never go nowhere without him.' Another short silence ensued, which was terminated by the Captain's turning roughly to the foreigner, and saying, ' Do you know, Monseer, that you're the first Frenchman I ever let come into my house ? ' Monsieur Du Bois made a profound bow. He speaks no English, and understands it so imperfectly, that he might possibly imagine he had received a compliment. Mrs. Mirvan endeavoured to divert the Captain's ill-humour, by starting new subjects ; but he left to her all the trouble of supporting them, and leant back in his chair in gloomy silence, except when any opportunity offered of uttering some sarcasm upon the French. Finding her efforts to render the evening agreeable were fruitless, Mrs. Mirvan proposed a party to Ranelagh. Madame Duval joyfully consented to it, and the Captain, though he railed against the dissipation of the women, did not oppose it, and therefore Maria and I ran upstairs to dress ourselves. Before we were ready, word was brought us that Sir Clement Willoughby was in the drawing-room. He introduced himself under the pretence of inquiring after all our healths, and entered the room with the easy air of an old acquaintance ; though Mrs. Mirvan confesses that he seemed embarrassed, 59 -- Their conversation was supported with great vehemence- EVELINA when he found how coldly he was received, not only by the Captain, but by herself. I was extremely disconcerted at the thoughts of seeing this man again, and did not go downstairs till I was called to tea. He was then deeply engaged in a discourse upon French manners with Madame Duval and the Captain, and the subject seemed so entirely to engross him, that he did not, at first, observe my entrance into the room. Their conversation was supported with great vehemence ; the Captain roughly maintaining the superiority of the English in every particular, and Madame Duval warmly refusing to allow of it in any : while Sir Clement exerted all his powers of argument and of ridicule to second and strengthen whatever was advanced by the Captain : for he had the sagacity to discover, that he could take no method so effectual for making the master of the house his friend, as to make Madame Duval his enemy : and indeed, in a very short time, he had reason to congratulate himself upon his successful discernment. As soon as he saw me he made a most respectful bow, and hoped I had not suffered from the fatigue of the ridotto : I made no other answer than a slight inclination of the head, for I was very much ashamed of that whole affair. He then re- turned to the disputants, where he managed the argument so skilfully, at once provoking Madame Duval, and delighting the Captain, that I could not forbear admiring his address, though I condemned his subtlety. Mrs. Mirvan, dreading such violent antagonists, attempted frequently to change the subject ; and she might have succeeded, but for the inter- position of Sir Clement, who would not suffer it to be given up, and supported it with such humour and satire, that he seems to have won the Captain's heart ; though their united forces so enraged and overpowered Madame Duval, that she really trembled with passion. I was very glad when Mrs. Mirvan said it was time to be gone. Sir Clement arose to take leave ; but the Captain very cordially invited him to join our party : he Juui an engagement, he said, but would give it up to have that pleasure. Some little confusion ensued in regard to our manner of setting' off: Mrs. Mirvan offered Madame Duval a place in her coach, and proposed that we four females should go all together: however, this she rejected, declaring she would by 61 EVELINA no means go so far without a gentleman, and wondering so polite a lady could make so English a proposal. Sir Clement Willoughby said his chariot was waiting at the door, and begged to know if it could be of any use. It was, at last, decided that a hackney-coach should be called for Monsieur Du Bois and Madame Duval, in which the Captain, and, at his request, Sir Clement, went also ; Mrs. and Miss Mirvan and I had a peaceful and comfortable ride by ourselves. I doubt not but they quarrelled all the way ; for when we met at Ranelagh, every one seemed out of humour : and, though we joined parties, poor Madame Duval was avoided as much as possible by all but me. The room was so very much crowded that, but for the uncommon assiduity of Sir Clement Willoughby, we should not have been able to procure a box (which is the name given to the arched recesses that are appropriated for tea-parties') till half the company had retired. As we were taking posses- sion of our places, some ladies of Mrs. Mirvan's acquaintance stopped to speak to her, and persuaded her to take a round with them. When she returned to us, what was my surprise, to see that Lord Orville had joined her party ! The ladies walked on ; Mrs. Mirvan seated herself, and made a slight, though respectful, invitation to Lord Orville to drink his tea with us, which, to my no small consternation, he accepted. I felt a confusion unspeakable at again seeing him, from the recollection of the ridotto adventure : nor did my situation lessen it, for I was seated between Madame Duval and Sir Clement, who seemed as little as myself to desire Lord Orville's presence. Indeed, the continual wrangling and ill-breeding of Captain Mirvan and Madame Duval, made me blush that I belonged to them. And poor Mrs. Mirvan and her amiable daughter had still less reason to be satisfied. A general silence ensued after he was seated : his appear- ance, from different motives, gave a universal restraint to everybody. What his own reasons were for honouring us with his company, I cannot imagine, unless, indeed, he had a curiosity to know whether 1 should invent any new impertinence concerning him. The first speech was made by Madame Duval, who said, ' It's quite a shocking thing to see ladies come to so genteel a place as Ranelagh with hats on ; it has a monstrous vulgar 62 EVELINA look ; I can't think what they wear them for. There's not such a thing to be seen in Paris.' ' Indeed,' cried Sir Clement, 'I must own myself no advocate for hats ; I am sorry the ladies ever invented or adopted so tantalising a fashion ; for, where there is beauty, they only serve to shade it, and where there is none, to excite a most unavailing curiosity. I fancy they were originally worn by some young and whimsical coquette.' ' More likely,' answered the Captain, ' they were invented by some wrinkled old hag, who'd a mind for to keep the young fellows in chase, let them be never so weary.' ' I don't know what you may do in England,' cried Madame Duval, ' but I know in Paris no woman needn't be at such a trouble as that, to be taken very genteel notice of.' 'Why, will you pretend for to say,' returned the Captain, ' that they don't distinguish the old from the young there as well as here ? ' ' They don't make no distinguishments at all,' said she ; 'they're vastly too polite.' ' More fools they ! ' cried the Captain, sneeringly. 'Would to Heaven,' cried Sir Clement, 'that, for our own sakes, we Englishmen too were blest with so accommodating a blindness.' ' Why the devil do you make such a prayer as that ? ' demanded the Captain ; 'them are the first foolish words I've heard you speak ; but I suppose you're not much used to that sort of work. Did you ever make a prayer before, since you were a sniveller ? ' 'Ay, now,' cried Madame Duval, 'that's another of the unpolitenesses of you English, to go to talking of such things as that : now in Paris, nobody never says nothing about religion, no more than about politics.' ' Why then,' answered he, ' it's a sign they take no more care of their souls than of their country, and so both one and t'other go to Old Nick.' ' Well, if they do,' said she, ' who's the worse, so long as they don't say nothing about it ? it's the tiresomest thing in the world to be always talking of them sort of things, and nobody that's ever been abroad troubles their heads about them.' ' Pray then,' cried the Captain, ' since you know so much 63 EVELINA of the matter, be so good as to tell us what they do trouble their heads about ? — hay, Sir Clement ! ha'n't we a right to know that much ? ' ' A very comprehensive question,' said Sir Clement, ' and I expect much instruction from the lady's answer.' 'Come, Madam,' continued the Captain, 'never flinch; speak at once ; don't stop for thinking.' ' I assure you I am not going,' answered she ; ' for as to what they do do, why they've enough to do, I promise you, what with one thing or another.' ' But what, what do they do, these famous Monseers ? ' demanded the Captain ; ' can't you tell us ? do they game ? — or drink ? — or fiddle ? — or are they jockeys ? — or do they spend all their time in flummering old women ? ' ' As to that, Sir, — but indeed I shan't trouble myself to answer such a parcel of low questions, so don't ask me no more about it.' And then, to my great vexation, turning to Lord Orville, she said, ' Pray, Sir, was you ever in Paris ? ' He only bowed. ' And pray, Sir, how did you like it ? ' Thus comprehensive question, as Sir Clement would have called it, though it made him smile, also made him hesitate ; however, his answer was expressive of his approbation. ' I thought you would like it, Sir, because you look so like a gentleman. As to the Captain, and as to that other gentle- man, why they may very well not like what they don't know : for I suppose, Sir, you was never abroad ? ' ' Only three years, Ma'am,' answered Sir Clement, drily. 'Well, that's very surprising! I should never have thought it : however, I dare say you only kept company with the English.' ' Why pray, who should he keep company with ? ' cried the Captain ; ' what, I suppose you'd have him ashamed of his own nation, like some other people not a thousand miles off, on purpose to make his own nation ashamed of him?' ' I'm sure it would be a very good thing if you'd go abroad yourself.' ' How will you make out that, hay, Madam ? come, please to tell me, where wou'd be the good of that ? ' ' Where ! why a great deal. They'd make quite another person of you.' 64 EVELINA ' What, I suppose you'd have me learn to cut capers ? — and dress like a monkey ? — and palaver in French gibberish ? — hay, would you ? — And powder, and daub, and make myself up, like some other folks ? ' ■ I would have you learn to be more politer, Sir, and not to talk to ladies in such a rude, old-fashion way as this. You, Sir, as have been in Paris ' (again addressing herself to Lord Orville), 'can tell this English gentleman how he'd be despised, if he was to talk in such an ungenteel manner as this, before any foreigners. Why there isn't a hairdresser, nor a shoe- mak.r, nor nobody, that wouldn't blush to be in your company.' 'Why look ye. Madam,' answered the Captain, 'as to your hair-pinchers and shoe-blacks, you may puff off their manners, and welcome ; and I am heartily glad you like 'em so well ; but as to me, since you must needs make so free of your advice, I must e'en tell you, I never kept company with any such gentry.' 'Come, ladies and gentlemen,' said Mrs. Mirvan, 'as many of you as have done tea, I invite to walk with me.' Maria and I started up instantly ; Lord Orville followed ; and I question whether we were not half round the room ere the angry disputants knew that we had left the box. ^ As the husband of Mrs. Mirvan had borne so large a share' in this disagreeable altercation, Lord Orville forbore to make \ any comments upon it ; so that the subject was immediately dropped, and the conversation became calmly sociable, and politely cheerful, and, to everybody but me, must have been highly agreeable ; — but, as to myself, I was so eagerly desirous of making some apology to Lord Orville for the impertinence of which he must have thought me guilty at the ridotto, and yet so utterly unable to assume sufficient courage to speak to him concerning an affair in which I had so terribly exposed myself, that I hardly ventured to say a word all the time we were walking. Besides, the knowledge of his contemptuous opinion haunted and dispirited me, and made me fear he might possibly misconstrue whatever I should say. So that, far from enjoying a conversation which might, at any cither I time, have delighted me, I continued silent, uncomfortable, and ashamed. O Sir, shall I ever again involve myself in so foolish an embarrassment ? I am sure that, if 1 do, I shall \ deserve yet greater mortification. 6? F ■ EVELINA We were not joined by the rest of the party till we had taken three or four turns round the room, and then they were so quarrelsome, that Mrs. Mirvan complained of being fatigued, and proposed going home. No one dissented. Lord Orville joined another party, having first made an offer of his services, which the gentlemen declined, and we proceeded to an outward room, where we waited for the carriages. It was settled that we should return to town in the same manner we came to Ranelagh, and, accordingly, Monsieur Du Bois handed Madame Duval into a hackney-coach, and was just preparing to follow her, when she screamed, and jumped hastily out, declaring she was wet through all her clothes. Indeed, upon examina- tion, the coach was found to be in a dismal condition ; for the weather proved very bad, and the rain had, though I know- not how, made its way into the carriage. Mrs. and Miss Mirvan, and myself, were already disposed of as before ; but no sooner did the Captain hear this account, than, without any ceremony, he was so civil as to immediately take possession of the vacant seat in his own coach, leaving Madame Duval and Monsieur Du Bois to take care of them- selves. As to Sir Clement Willoughby, his own chariot was in waiting. I instantly begged permission to offer Madame Duval my own place, and made a motion to get out ; but Mrs. Mirvan stopped me, saying that I should then be obliged to return to town with only the foreigner, or Sir Clement. 'O never mind the old beldame,' cried the Captain, 'she's weather-proof, I'll answer for her ; and besides, as we are all, I hope, English, why she'll meet with no worse than she ex- pects from us.' 'I do not mean to defend her,' said Mrs. Mirvan; 'but indeed, as she belongs to our party, we cannot, with any decency, leave the place, till she is, by some means, accom modated.' ' Lord, my dear,' cried the Captain, whom the distress of Madame Duval had put into very good humour, ' why she'll break her heart if she meets with any civility from a filthy Englishman.' Mrs. Mirvan, however, prevailed, and we all got out of the coach, to wait till Madame Duval could meet with some better carriage. We found her, attended by Monsieur Du Bois, 66 EVELINA standing amongst the servants, and very busy in wiping her negligee, and endeavouring to save it from being stained by the wet, as she said it was a new Lyons silk. Sir Clement Willoughby offered her the use of his chariot, but she had been too much piqued by his raillery to accept it. We waited some time, but in vain, for no hackney-coach could be procured. The Captain, at last, was persuaded to accompany Sir Clement himself, and we four females were handed into Mrs. Mirvan's carriage, though not before Madame Duval had insisted upon our making room for Monsieur Du Bois, to which the Captain only consented in preference to being incommoded by him in Sir Clement's chariot. Our party drove off first. We were silent and unsociable ; for the difficulties attending this arrangement had made every one languid and fatigued. Unsociable, I must own, we con- tinued ; but very short was the duration of our silence, as we had not proceeded thirty yards, before every voice was heard at once, — for the coach broke down ! I suppose we concluded, of course, that we were all half killed, by the violent shrieks that seemed to come from every mouth. The chariot was stopped, the servants came to our assistance, and we were taken out of the carriage, without having been at all hurt. The night was dark and wet ; but I had scarce touched the ground, when I was lifted suddenly from it by Sir Clement Willoughby, who begged permission to assist me, though he did not wait to have it granted, but carried me in his arms back to Ranelagh. He inquired very earnestly if I was not hurt by the accident ? I assured him I was perfectly safe, and free from injury, and desired he would leave me, and return to the rest of the part)', for I was very uneasy to know whether they had been equally fortunate. He told me he was happy in being honoured with my commands, and would joyfully execute them ; but insisted upon first conducting me to a warm room, as I had not wholly escaped being wet. He did not regard my objections, but made me follow him to an apartment, where we found an excellent fire, and some company waiting for carriages. I readily accepted a seat, and then begged he would go. And go, indeed, he did ; but he returned in a moment, telling me that the rain was more violent than ever, and that he had sent his servants to offer their assistance, and acquaint 67 EVELINA the Mirvans of my situation. I was very mad that he would not go himself; but as my acquaintance with him was so very slight, I did not think proper to urge him contrary to his inclination. Well, he drew a chair close to mine, and, after again in- quiring how I did, said, in a low voice, ' You will pardon me, Miss Anville, if the eagerness I feel to vindicate myself, induces me to snatch this opportunity of making sincere acknowledgments for the impertinence with which I tormented you at the last ridotto. I can assure you, Madam, I have been a true and sorrowful penitent ever since ; but — shall 1 tell you honestly what encouraged me to ' He stopped ; but I said nothing, for I thought instantly of the conversation Miss Mirvan had overheard, and supposed he was going to tell me himself what part Lord Orville had borne in it ; and really I did not wish to hear it repeated. Indeed, the rest of his speech convinces me that such was his intention ; with what view, I know not, except to make a merit of his defending me. ' And yet,' he continued, ' my excuse may only expose my own credulity, and want of judgment and penetration. I will, therefore, merely beseech your pardon, and hope that some future time ' Just then the door was opened by Sir Clement's servant, and I had the pleasure of seeing the Captain, Mrs. and Miss Mirvan, enter the room. ' O ho,' cried the former, ' you have got a good warm berth here ; but we shall beat up your quarters. Here, Lucy, Moll, come to the fire, and dry your trumpery. But, hey-day,- — why where's old Madam French ?' ' Good God,' cried I, ' is not Madame Duval then with you ?' ' With me ! No, — thank God ! ' I was very uneasy to know what might have become of her, and, if they would have suffered me, I should have gone out in search of her myself; but all the servants were dispatched to find her, and the Captain said we might be very sure her French beau would take care of her. We waited some time without any tidings, and were soon the only party in the room. My uneasiness increased so much, that Sir Clement now made a voluntary offer of seeking her. However, the same moment that he opened the door 68 EVELINA with this design, she presented herself at it, attended by Monsieur Du Bois. ' I was this instant, Madam,' said he, ' coming to see for you.' ' You are mighty good, truly,' cried she, ' to come when all the mischief's over.' She then entered, — in such a condition ! — entirely covered with mud, and in so great a rage, it was with difficulty she could speak. We all expressed our concern, and offered our assistance, — except the Captain ; who no sooner beheld her, than he burst into a loud laugh. We endeavoured, by our inquiries and condolements, to prevent her attending to him ; and she was, for some time, so wholly engrossed by her anger and her distress, that we succeeded without much trouble. We begged her to inform us how this accident had happened. ' How ! ' repeated she,- — ' why it was all along of your all going away, — and there poor Monsieur Du Bois — but it wasn't his fault, — for he's as bad off as me.' All eyes were then turned to Monsieur Du Bois, whose clothes were in the same miserable plight with those of Madame Duval, and who, wet, shivering, and disconsolate, had crept to the fire. The Captain laughed yet more heartily ; while Mrs. Mirvan, ashamed of his rudeness, repeated her inquiries to Madame Duval ; who answered, ' Why, as we were a-coming along, all in the rain, Monsieur Du Bois was so obliging, though I'm sure it was an unlucky obligingness for me, as to lift me up in his arms, to carry me over a place that was ankle-deep in mud ; but instead of my being ever the better for it, just as we were in the worst part, — I'm sure I wish we had been fifty miles off, — for, somehow or other, his foot slipped, — at least, I suppose so, — though I can't think how it happened, for I'm no such great weight, — but, however that was, down we both came together, all in the mud ; and the more we tried to get up, the more deeper we got covered with the nastiness — and my new Lyons negligee, too, quite spoilt ! — however, it's well we got up at all, for we might have laid there till now, for aught you all cared ; for nobody never came near us.' This recital put the Captain into an ecstasy ; he went from the lady to the gentleman, and from the gentleman to the lady, 69 Held a candle to Madame Duval, that he might have a mote complete view of her disaster. EVELINA to enjoy alternately the sight of their distress. He really shouted with pleasure ; and, shaking Monsieur Du Bois strenuously by the hand, wished him joy of having touched English ground; and then he held a candle to Madame Duval, that he might have a more complete view of her disaster, declaring repeatedly, that he had never been better pleased in his life. The rage of poor Madame Duval was unspeakable ; she dashed the candle out of his hand, stamped upon the floor, and, at last, spit in his face. This action seemed immediately to calm them both, as the joy of the Captain was converted into resentment, and the wrath of Madame Duval into fear ; for he put his hands upon her shoulders, and gave her so violent a shake, that she screamed out for help ; assuring her, at the same time, that if she had been one ounce less old, or less ugly, she should have had it all returned on her own face. Monsieur Du Bois, who had seated himself very quietly at the fire, approached them, and expostulated very warmly with the Captain ; but he was neither understood nor regarded, and Madame Duval was not released, till she quite sobbed with passion. When they were parted, I entreated her to permit the woman who has the charge of the ladies' cloaks to assist in drying her clothes ; she consented, and we did what was possible to save her from catching cold. We were obliged to wait in this disagreeable situation near an hour, before a hackney-coach could be found ; and then we were disposed in the same manner as before our accident. I am going this morning to see poor Madame Duval, and to inquire after her health, which I think must have suffered by her last night's misfortunes ; though, indeed, she seems to be naturally strong and hearty. Adieu, my dear Sir, till to-morrow. 7i EVELINA LETTER XVII EVELINA IX CONTINUATION Friday Mornings April 15. Sir Clement Willoughby called here yesterday at noon, and Captain Mirvan invited him to dinner. For my part, I spent the day in a manner the most uncomfortable imaginable. I found Madame Duval at breakfast in bed, though Monsieur Du Bois was in the chamber ; which so much astonished me, that I was, involuntarily, retiring, without con- sidering how odd an appearance my retreat would have, when Madame Duval called me back, and laughed very heartily at my ignorance of foreign customs. The conversation, however, very soon took a more serious turn ; for she began, with great bitterness, to inveigh against the barbarous brutality of that fellow the captain, and the horrible ill-breeding of the English in general, declaring she should make her escape with all expedition from so beastly a nation. But nothing can be more strangely absurd, than to hear politeness recommended in language so repugnant to it as that of Madame Duval. She lamented, very mournfully, the fate of her Lyons silk, and protested she had rather have parted with all the rest of her wardrobe, because it was the first gown she had bought to wear upon leaving off her weeds. She has a very bad cold, and Monsieur Du Bois is so hoarse he can hardly speak. She insisted upon my staying with her all day, as she in- tended, she said, to introduce me to some of my own relations. I would very fain have excused myself, but she did not allow me any choice. Till the arrival of these relations, one continued series of questions on her side, and of answers on mine, filled up all the time we passed together. Her curiosity was insatiable ; she inquired into every action of my life, and even' particular that had fallen under my observation, in the lives of all I knew. Again, she was so cruel as to avow the most inveterate rancour against the sole benefactor her deserted child and grandchild have met with ; and such was the indignation her ingratitude 72 EVELINA raised, that I would actually have quitted her presence and house, had she not, in a manner the most peremptory, absolutely forbid me. But what, good Heaven ! can induce her to such shocking injustice ? O my friend and father ! I have no command of myself when this subject is started. She talked very much of taking me to Paris, and said I greatly wanted the polish of a French education. She lamented that I had been brought up in the country, which, she observed, had given me a very bumfikinish air. However, she bid me not despair, for she had known many girls, much worse than me, who had become very fine ladies after a few years' residence abroad ; and she particularly instanced a Miss Polly Moore, daughter of a chandler's -shop woman, who, by an accident not worth relating, happened to be sent to Paris, where, from an awkward ill-bred girl, she so much improved, that she has since been taken for a woman of quality. The relations to whom she was pleased to introduce me, consisted of a Mr. Branghton, who is her nephew, and three of his children, the eldest of which is a son, and the two younger are daughters. Mr. Branghton appears about forty years of age. He does not seem to want a common understanding, though he is very contracted and prejudiced : he has spent his whole time in the city, and I believe feels a great contempt for all who reside elsewhere. His son seems weaker in his understanding, and more gay in his temper ; but his gaiety is that of a foolish, overgrown schoolboy, whose mirth consists in noise and disturbance. He disdains his father for his close attention to business, and love of money, though he seems himself to have no talents, spirit, or generosity, to make him superior to either. His chief delight appears to be tormenting and ridiculirg his sisters, who, in return, most heartily despise him. Miss Branghton, the eldest daughter, is by no means ugly, but looks proud, ill-tempered, and conceited. She hates the city, though without knowing why ; for it is easy to discover she has lived nowhere else. Miss Polly Branghton is rather pretty, very foolish, very ignorant, very giddy, and, I believe, very good-natured. The first half- hour was allotted to making themselves comfortable, for they complained of having had a very dirty 73 EVELINA walk, as they came on foot from Snow Hill, where Mr Branghton keeps a silversmith's shop ; and the young ladies had not only their coats to brush, and shoes to dry, but to adjust their head-dress, which their bonnets had totally dis- composed. The manner in which Madame Duval was pleased to introduce me to this family, extremely shocked me. ' Here, my dears,' said she, 'here's a relation you little thought of: but you must know my poor daughter Caroline had this child after she run away from me, — though I never knew nothing of it, not I, for a long while after ; for they took care to keep it a secret from me, though the poor child has never a friend in the world besides.' ' Miss seems very tender-hearted, aunt,' said Miss Polly, ' and to be sure she's not to blame for her mamma's undutiful- ness, for she couldn't help it.' ' Lord, no,' answered she, ' and I never took no notice of it to her ; for indeed, as to that, my own poor daughter wasn't so much to blame as you may think, for she'd never have gone astray, if it had not been for that meddling old parson I told you of 'If aunt pleases,' said young Mr. Branghton, 'we'll talk o' somewhat else, for Miss looks very uneasy-like.' The next subject that was chosen, was the age of the three young Branghtons and myself. The son is twenty ; the daughters, upon hearing that I was seventeen, said that was just the age of Miss Polly ; but their brother, after a long dispute, proved that she was two years older, to the great anger of both sisters, who agreed that he was very ill-natured and spiteful. When this point was settled, the question was put. Which was tallest? — We were desired to measure, as the Branghtons were all of different opinions. None of them, however, disputed my being the tallest in the company, but, in regard to one another, they were extremely quarrelsome : the brother insisted upon their measuring fair, and not with heads and heels ; but they would by no means consent to lose those privileges of our sex, and therefore the young man was cast, as shortest ; though he appealed to all present upon the injustice of the decree. This ceremony over, the young ladies began, very freely, 74 ■// ■/ The young ladies began to examine my dress. EVELINA to examine my dress, and to interrogate me concerning it. 'This apron's your own work, I suppose, Miss? but these sprigs a'nt in fashion now. Pray, if it is not impertinent, what might you give a yard for this lutestring ? — Do you make your own caps, Miss? — ' and many other questions equally interesting and well-bred. They then asked me hmv I liked London ? and whether I should not think the country a very dull place when I returned thither ? ' Miss must try if she can't get a good husband,' said Mr. Branghton, 'and then she may stay and live here.' The next topic was public places, or rather the theatres, for they knew of no other ; and the merits and defects of all the actors and actresses were discussed : the young man here took the lead, and seemed to be very conversant on the subject. But during this time, what was my concern, and, suffer me to add, my indignation, when I found, by some words I occasionally heard, that Madame Duval was enter- taining Mr. Branghton with all the most secret and cruel particulars of my situation ! The eldest daughter was soon drawn to them by the recital ; the youngest and the son still kept their places, intending, I believe, to divert me, though the conversation was all their own. In a few minutes, Miss Branghton, coming suddenly up to her sister, exclaimed, ' Lord, Polly, only think ! Miss never saw her Papa ! ' ' Lord, how odd ! ' cried the other ; ' why then, Miss, I suppose you wouldn't know him ? ' This was quite too much for me ; I rose hastily, and ran out of the room : but I soon regretted I had so little command of myself, for the two sisters both followed, and insisted upon comforting me, notwithstanding my earnest entreaties to be left alone. As soon as I returned to the company, Madame Duval said, ' Why, my dear, what was the matter with you ? why did you run away so ? ' This question almost made me run again, for I knew not how to answer it. But, is it not very extraordinary, that she can put me in situations so shocking, and then wonder to find me sensible of any concern ? Mr. Branghton, junior, now inquired of me whether I had seen the Tower, or St. Paul's Church ? and upon my answering 76 EVELINA in the negative, they proposed making a party to show them to me. Among other questions, they also asked if I had ever seen such a thing as an Opera f I told them I had. 'Well, said Mr. Branghton, 'I never saw one in my life, so long as I've lived in London, and I never desire to see one, if I live here as much longer.' ' Lord, Papa,' cried Miss Polly, ' why not ? you might as well for once, for the curiosity of the thing : besides, Miss Pomfret saw one, and she says it was very pretty.' ' Miss will think us very vulgar,' said Miss Branghton, 'to live in London, and never have been to an opera ; but it's no fault of mine, I assure you, Miss, only Papa don't like to go.' The result was, that a party was proposed, and agreed to, for some early opportunity. I did not dare contradict them ; but I said that my time, while I remained in town, was at the disposal of Mrs. Mirvan. However, I am sure I will not attend them, if I can possibly avoid so doing. When we parted, Madame Duval desired to see me the next day ; and the Branghtons told me, that the first time I went towards Snow Hill, they should be very glad if I would call upon them. I wish we may not meet again till that time arrives. I am sure I shall not be very ambitious of being known to any more of my relations, if they have any resemblance to those whose acquaintance I have been introduced to already. LETTER XVIII EVELINA IN CONTINUATION I had just finished my letter to you this morning, when a violent rapping at the door made me run downstairs ; and who should I see in the drawing-room, but — Lord Orville ! He was quite alone, for the family had not assembled to breakfast. He inquired, first of mine, then of the health of Mrs. and Miss Mirvan, with a degree of concern that rather surprised me, till he said that he had just been informed of the accident we had met with at Ranelagh. He expressed his sorrow upon the occasion with the utmost politeness, and 77 EVELINA lamented that he had not been so fortunate as to hear of it in time to offer his services. ' But I think." he added. ' Sir Clement Willoughby had the honour of assisting you ? ' ' He was with Captain Mii-van. my Lord.' ' I had heard of his being of your par I hope that flighty man has not been telling Lord Orville he only assisted me .' however, he did not pursue the subject, but said, ' This accident, though extremely unfortunate, will not, I hope, be the means of frightening you from gracing Ranelagh with your presence in future ? ' ' Our time, my Lord, for London, is almost expired already.'' ' Indeed ! do you leave town so very soon ': ' ' O yes, my Lord : oar stay has already exceeded our intentions.' ' Are you. then, so particularly partial to the country ? ' We merely came to town, my Lord, to meet Captain Mirvan.' 'And does Miss Anville feel no concern at the idea of the many mourners her absence will occasion ? ' ' O, my Lord, — I'm sure you don't think— — - : I stopped there, for, indeed, I hardly knew what I was going to say. My foolish embarrassment. I suppose, was the cause of what followed ; — for he came to me, and took my hand, saying. ' I do think, that whoever has once seen Miss Anville must receive an impression never to be forgotten/ This compliment, — from Lord Orville. — so surprised me, that I could not speak : but felt myself change colour, and stood, for some moments, silent, and looking down ; however, the instant I recollected my situation. I withdrew my hand, and told him that I would see if Mrs. Mirvan was not dressed. He did not oppose me. so away I went. I met them all on the stairs, and returned with them to breakfast. I have since been extremely angry with myself for neglecting so excellent an opportunity of apologising for my behaviour at the ridotto ; but, to own the truth, that affair never once occurred to me during the short tete-a-tete which we had together. But, if ever we should happen to be so situated again, I will certainly mention it ; for I am inexpressibly concerned at the thought of his harbouring an opinion that I am bold or impertinent, and I could almost kill mvself for 7S EVELINA having given him the shadow of a reason for so shocking an idea. But was it not very odd that he should make me such a compliment ? I expected it not from him ; — but gallantry, I believe, is common to all men, whatever other qualities they may have in particular. Our breakfast was the most agreeable meal, if it may be called a meal, that we have had since we came to town. Indeed, but for Madame Duval I should like London extremely. The conversation of Lord Orville is really delightful. His manners are so elegant, so gentle, so unassuming, that they at once engage esteem, and diffuse complacence. Far from being indolently satisfied with his own accomplishments, as I have already observed many men here are, though without any pretensions to his merit, he is most assiduously attentive to please and to serve all who are in his company : and, though his success is invariable, he never manifests the smallest degree of consciousness. I could wish that you, my dearest Sir, knew Lord Orville, because I am sure you would love him : and I have felt that wish for no other person I have seen since I came to London. I sometimes imagine, that, when his youth is flown, his vivacity abated, and his life is devoted to retirement, he will, perhaps, resemble him whom I most love and honour. His present sweetness, politeness, and diffidence, seem to promise in future the same benevolence, dignity, and goodness. But I must not expatiate upon this subject. When Lord Orville was gone. — and he made but a very- short visit, — I was preparing, most reluctantly, to wait upon Madame Duval ; but Mrs. Mirvan proposed to the Captain, that she should be invited to dinner in Queen Ann Street, and he readily consented, for he said he wished to ask after her Lyons negligee. The invitation is accepted, and we expect her every moment. But to me, it is very strange, that a woman, who is the uncon- trolled mistress of her time, fortune, and actions, should choose to expose herself voluntarily to the rudeness of a man who is openly determined to make her his sport. But she has very few acquaintances, and. I fancy, scarce knows how to employ herself. How great is my obligation to Mrs. Mirvan, for bestowing 79 EVELINA her time in a manner so disagreeable to herself, merely to promote my happiness ! every dispute in which her undeserving husband engages, is productive of pain and uneasiness to her- self; of this I am so sensible, that I even besought her not to send to Madame Duval, but she declared she could not bear to have me pass all my time, while in town, with her only. Indeed she could not be more kind to me, were she your daughter. LETTER XIX EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Saturday Morning, April 16. Madame Duval was accompanied by Monsieur Du Bois. I am surprised that she should choose to introduce him where he is so unwelcome ; and, indeed, it is strange that they should be so constantly together : though I believe I should not have taken notice of it, but that Captain Mirvan is perpetually rallying me upon my grandmama's beau. They were both received by Mrs. Mirvan with her usual good-breeding ; but the Captain, most provokingly, attacked her immediately, saying, ' Now, Madam, you that have lived abroad, please to tell me this here : Which did you like best, the warm room at Ranelagh, or the cold bath you went into afterwards ? though, I assure you, you look so well that I should advise you to take another dip.' ' Ma foi, Sir,' cried she, 'nobody asked for your advice, so you may as well keep it to yourself: besides, it's no such great joke, to be splashed, and to catch cold, and spoil all one's things, whatever you may think of it.' '■Splashed, quoth-a ! — why I thought you were soused all over. — Come, come, don't mince the matter, never spoil a good story ; you know you hadn't a dry thread about you. — 'Fore George, I shall never think on't without hallowing ! such a poor, forlorn, draggle-tailed — gentlewoman! and poor Monseer French, here, like a drowned rat, by your side '. ' ' Well, the worse pickle we was in. so much the worser in you not to help us, for you knowed where we were fast enough, because, while I laid in the mud, I'm pretty sure I heard you 80 Madame Duval, accompanied by Monsieur Du Bofs. EVELINA snigger ; so it's like enough you jostled us down yourself, for Monsieur Du Bois says, that he is sure he had a great jolt given him, or he shouldn't have fell.' The Captain laughed so immoderately, that he really gave me also a suspicion that he was not entirely innocent of the charge : however, he disclaimed it very peremptorily. 'Why then,' continued she, 'if you didn't do that, why didn't you come to help us ?' ' Who, I ? — what, do you suppose I had forgot I was an Englishman — a filthy, beastly Englishman ?' ' Very well, Sir, very well ; but I was a fool to expect any better, for it's all of a piece with the rest ; you know you wanted to fling me out of the coach-window, the very first time ever I see you : but I'll never go to Ranelagh with you no more, that I'm resolved ; for I dare say, if the horses had runn'd over me, as I laid in that nastiness, you'd never have stirred a step to save me.' ' Lord, no, to be sure, Ma'am, not for the world ! I know your opinion of our nation too well, to affront you by supposing a Frenchman would want my assistance to protect you. Did you think that Monseer here, and I, had changed characters, and that he should pop you into the mud, and I help you out of it ? Ha, ha, ha ! ' ' O, very well, Sir, laugh on, it's like your manners ; however, if poor Monsieur Du Bois hadn't met with that unlucky accident himself, I shouldn't have wanted nobody's help.' ' O, I promise you, Madam, you'd never have had mine ; I knew my distance better ; and as to your being a little ducked, or so, why, to be sure, Monseer and you settled that between yourselves ; so it was no business of mine.' 1 What, then, I suppose, you want to make me believe as Monsieur Du Bois served me that trick o ; purpose? ' ' O' purpose ! ay, certainly, who ever doubted that ? Do you think a Frenchman ever made a blunder ? If he had been some clumsy-footed English fellow, indeed, it might have been accidental : but what the devil signifies all your hopping and capering with your dancing-masters, if you can't balance yourselves upright ? ' In the midst of this dialogue. Sir Clement Willoughby made his appearance. He affects to enter the house with the 82 EVELINA freedom of an old acquaintance, and this very easiness, which, to me, is astonishing, is what most particularly recommends him to the Captain. Indeed, he seems very successfully to study all the humours of that gentleman. After having heartily welcomed him, ' You are just come in time, my boy,' said he, ' to settle a little matter of a dispute between this here gentlewoman and I ; do you know, she has been trying to persuade me, that she did not above half like the ducking Monsecr gave her t'other night.' ' I should have hoped ' (said Sir Clement, with the utmost gravity) ' that the friendship subsisting between that lady and gentleman, would have guarded them against any actions professedly disagreeable to each other ; but, probably, they might not have discussed the matter previously ; in which case, the gentleman, I must own, seems to have been guilty of inattention, since, in my humble opinion, it was his business first to have inquired whether the lady preferred soft or hard ground, before he dropped her.' ' O very fine, gentlemen, very fine,' cried Madame Duval, ' you may try to set us together by the ears as much as you will ; but I'm not such an ignorant person as to be made a fool of so easily ; so you needn't talk no more about it, for I sees into your designs.' Monsieur Du Bois, who was just able to discover the subject upon which the conversation turned, made his defence, in French, with great solemnity : he hoped, he said, that the company would at least acknowledge, he did not come from a nation of brutes, and consequently, that to wilfully offend any lady, was, to him, utterly impossible ; but that, on the contrary, in endeavouring, as was his duty, to save and guard her, he had himself suffered, in a manner which he would forbear to relate, but which, he greatly apprehended, he should feel the ill effects of for many months ; and then, with a countenance exceedingly lengthened, he added, that he hoped it would not be attributed to him as national prejudice, when he owned that he must, to the best of his memory, aver, that his unfortunate fall was owing to a sudden, but violent push, which, he was shocked to say, some malevolent person, with a design to his injury, must certainly have given him ; but whether with a view to mortify him, by making him let the lady fall, or whether merely to spoil his clothes, he could not pretend to determine. 83 Monsieur Du Bois making /lis defence. EVELINA This disputation was, at last, concluded by Mrs. Mirvan's proposing that we should all go to Cox's Museum. Nobody objected, and carriages were immediately ordered. In our way downstairs, Madame Duval, in a very passionate manner, said, ' Ma foi, if I wouldn't give fifty guineas only to know who gave us that shove ! ' This Museum is very astonishing, and very superb ; yet it afforded me but little pleasure, for it is a mere show, though a wonderful one. Sir Clement Willoughby, in our walk round the room, asked me what my opinion was of this brilliant spectacle ? ' It is very fine, and very ingenious,' answered I, ' and yet — I don't know how it is, — but I seem to miss something? ' Excellently answered ! ' cried he, ' you have exactly defined my own feelings, though in a manner I should never have arrived at. But I was certain your taste was too well formed, to be pleased at the expense of your understanding.' ' Pardi} cried Madame Duval, ' I hope you two is difficult enough ! I'm sure if you don't like this, you like nothing ; for it's the grandest, prettiest, finest sight that ever I see in England.' ' What ' (cried the Captain with a sneer), ' I suppose this may be in your French taste ? it's like enough, for it's all kickshaw work. But, pr'ythee, friend ' (turning to the person who explained the devices), ' will you tell me the use of all this ? for I'm not enough of a conjurer to find it out.' ' Use, indeed ! ' (repeated Madame Duval disdainfully). ' Lord, if everything's to be useful ! ' 'Why, Sir, as to that, Sir,' said our conductor, 'the in- genuity of the mechanism, — the beauty of the workmanship, — the— undoubtedly, Sir, any person of taste may easily discern the utility of such extraordinary performances.' ' Why, then, Sir,' answered the Captain, ' your person of taste must be either a coxcomb, or a Frenchman ; though, for the matter of that, 'tis the same thing.' Just then, our attention was attracted by a pine-apple, which, suddenly opening, discovered a nest of birds, who immediately began to sing. ' Well,' cried Madame Duval, ' this is prettier than all the rest ! I declare, in all my travels, I never see nothing eleganter.' 'Hark ye, friend,' said the Captain, 'hast never another pine-apple ? ' 85 EVELINA ' Sir ? " ' Because, if thou hast, pr'ythee give it us without the birds : for, d'ye see. I'm no Frenchman, and should relish something more substantial.' This entertainment concluded with a concert of mechanical music : I cannot explain how it was produced, but the effect was pleasing. Madame Duval was in ecstasies ; and the Captain flung himself into so many ridiculous distortions, by way of mimicking her, that he engaged the attention of all the company ; and. in the midst of the performance of the Corona- tion Anthem, while Madame Duval was affecting to beat time, and uttering many expressions of delight, he called suddenly for salts, which a lady, apprehending some distress, politely handed to him, and which, instantly applying to the nostrils of poor Madame Duval, she involuntarily snuffed up such a quantity, that the pain and surprise made her scream aloud. When she recovered, she reproached him, with her usual vehemence : but he protested he had taken that measure out of pure friendship, as he concluded, from her raptures, that she was going into hysterics. This excuse by no means ap- peased her, and they had a violent quarrel ; but the only effect her anger had on the Captain was to increase his diversion. Indeed, he laughs and talks so terribly loud in public, that he frequently makes us ashamed of belonging to him. Madame Duval, notwithstanding her wrath, made no scruple of returning to dine in Queen Ann Street. Mrs. Mirvan had secured places for the play at Drury Lane Theatre, and, though ever uneasy in her company, she very politely invited Madame Duval to be of our party ; however, she had a cold, and chose to nurse it. I was sorry for her indisposition, but I knew not how to be sorry she did not accompany us, for she is — I must not say what, but very unlike other people LETTER XX EVELINA IX CONTINUATION" Our places were in the front row of a side-box. Sir Clement Willoughby. who knew our intention, was at the door of the theatre, and handed us from the carriage. 86 EVELINA We had not been seated five minutes, before Lord Orville, who we saw in the stage-box, came to us : and he honoured us with his company all the evening. Miss Mirvan and I both rejoiced that Madame Duval was absent, as we hoped for the enjoyment of some conversation, uninterrupted by her quarrels with the Captain : but I soon found that her presence would have made very little alteration, for so far was I from daring to speak, that I knew not where even to look. The play was Un . and though it is fraught wit and entertainment, I hope I shall never see it represented again ; for it is so extremely indelicate, — to use t' word I can. — that Miss Mirvan and I were perpetually out of countenance, and could neither make any observations our- selves, nor venture to listen to those of others. This was the more provoking, as Lord Orville was in excefle and exceedingly entertaining. When the play was over. I flattered myself I should be able to look about me with less restraint, as we intended to • the farce : but the curtain had hardly dropped, when the box- door opened, and in came Mr. Lovel, the man by whose foppery and impertinence I was so much teased at the ball where I first saw Lord Orville. I turned away my head, and began talking to Miss Mirvan, for I was desirous to avoid speaking to him : — but in vain, for as soon as he had made his compliments to Lord Orville and Sir Clement Willoughby. who returned them very coldly, he bent his head forward, and said to me, • I hope. Ma'am. have enjoyed your health since I had the honour — I beg ten thousand pardons, but I protest I was g g 1 - tbe honour of dancing with you — however, I mean the honour of se you dance ; ' He spoke with a self-complacency, that convinced me he had studied this address, by way of making reprisals for my conduct at the ball : I therefore bow; L slightly, but made no answer. After a short silence, he again called r: tkm, by saying, in an easy, negligent way. • I think. Ma'am, you was never in town before ? ' • No, - ' So I did presume. Doubtless. Ma'am, e , must be infinitely novel to you. Our l - - • Doubtless, Ma'am everything must h- infinitely navel to you. EVELINA etiquettes de nous mitres, can have very little resemblance to those you have been used to. I imagine, Ma'am, your retire- ment is at no very small distance from the capital ? ' I was so much disconcerted at this sneering speech, that I said not a word ; though I have since thought my vexation both stimulated and delighted him. ' The air we breathe here, however, Ma'am ' (continued he, very conceitedly), ' though foreign to that you have been accustomed to, has not, I hope, been at variance with your health ? ' ' Mr. Lovel,' said Lord Orville, ' could not your eye have spared that question ? ' ' O, my Lord,' answered he, ' if health were the only cause of a lady's bloom, my eye, I grant, had been infallible from the first glance ; but ' 'Come, come,' cried Mrs. Mirvan, ' I must beg no insinua- tions of that sort ; Miss Anville's colour, as you have success- fully tried, may, you see, be heightened ; — but I assure you, it would be past your skill to lessen it.' ' 'Pon honour, Madam,' returned he, ' you wrong me ; I presumed not to infer that rouge was the only succedaneum for health ; but, really, I have known so many different causes for a lady's colour, such as flushing, — anger, — mauvaise honte, — and so forth, that I never dare decide to which it may be owing.' 'As to such causes as them there,' cried the Captain, 'they must belong to those that they keep company with.' 'Very true, Captain,' said Sir Clement; 'the natural com- plexion has nothing to do with occasional sallies of the passions, or any accidental causes.' ' No, truly,' returned the Captain, ' for now here's me, why I look like any other man just now ; and yet, if you were to put me in a passion, 'fore George, you'd soon see me have as fine a high colour as any painted Jezabel in all this place, be she never so bedaubed.' ' But,' said Lord Orville, ' the difference of natural and of artificial colour seems to me very easily discerned ; that of Nature is mottled, and varying ; that of art, set, and too smooth ; it wants that animation, that glow, that indescribable somctJiing which, even now that I see it, wholly surpasses all my powers of expression.' 89 EVELINA ' Your Lordship,' said Sir Clement, ' is universally acknow- ledged to be a connoisseur in beauty.' 'And you, Sir Clement,' returned he, 'an enthusiast.'' ' I am proud to own it,' cried Sir Clement ; ' in such a cause, and before such objects, enthusiasm is simply the consequence of not being blind.' ' Pr'ythee a truce with all this palavering,' cried the Captain ; ' the women are vain enough already ; no need for to puff 'em up more.' 'We must all submit to the commanding officer,' said Sir Clement, ' therefore let us call another subject. Pray, ladies, how have you been entertained with the play ? ' 'Want of entertainment,' said Mrs. Mirvan, 'is its least fault ; but I own there are objections to it, which I should be glad to see removed.' ' I could have ventured to answer for the ladies,' said Lord Orville, ' since I am sure this is not a play that can be honoured with their approbation.' ' What, I suppose it is not sentimental enough ! ' cried the Captain, ; or else it's too good for them; for I'll maintain it's one of the best comedies in the language, and has more wit in one scene, than there is in all the new plays put together.' ' For my part,' said Mr. Lovel, ' I confess I seldom listen to the players : one has so much to do, in looking about, and finding out one's acquaintance, that, really, one has no time to mind the stage. Pray ' (most affectedly fixing his eyes upon a diamond ring on his little finger i, — ' pray — what was the play to-night ?' 'Why, what the D 1,' cried the Captain, 'do you come to the play without knowing what it is?' 'O yes, Sir, yes, very frequently: I have no time to read play-bills ; one merely comes to meet one's friends, and show that one's alive.' ' Ha, ha, ha ! — and so,' cried the Captain, ' it costs you rive shillings a night just to show that you're alive ! Well, faith, my friends should all think me dead and under ground before I'd be at that expense for 'em. Howsomever, this here you may take from me ; — they'll find you out fast enough, if you've anything to give 'em. And so you've been here all this time, and don't know what the play was ? ' ' Why, really, Sir, a play requires so much attention, — it is 90 EVELINA scarce possible to keep awake, if one listens ; for, indeed, by the time it is evening, one has been so fatigued with dining, — or wine, — or the house, — or studying, — that it is — it is perfectly an impossibility. But, now I think of it, I believe I have a bill in my pocket ; O, ay, here it is — Love for Lore, ay, — true, — ha, ha, — how could I be so stupid ! ' ' O, easily enough, as to that, I warrant you,' said the Captain ; ' but, by my soul, this is one of the best jokes I ever heard ? Come to a play, and not know what it is ! — Why, I suppose you wouldn't have found it out, if they had fob\i you off with a scraping of fiddlers, or an opera ?■ — Ha ! ha ! ha ! — why now, I should have thought you might have taken some notice of one Mr. Tattle that is in this play ! ' This sarcasm, which caused a general smile, made him colour : but turning to the Captain with a look of conceit, which implied that he had a retort ready, he said, ' Pray, Sir, give me leave to ask, — what do you think of one Mr. Ben, who is also in this play ? ' The Captain, regarding him with the utmost contempt, answered in a loud voice, ' Think of him ! — why I think he's a man .' ' And then, staring full in his face, he struck his cane on the ground, with a violence that made him start. He did not, however, choose to take any notice of this ; but, having bit his nails some time, in manifest confusion, he turned very quick to me, and, in a sneering tone of voice, said, ' For my part, I was most struck with the country young lady, Miss Prue ; pray what do you think of her, Ma'am ? ' ' Indeed, Sir,' cried I, very much provoked, ' I think — that is, I do not think anything about her.' ' Well, really, Ma'am, you prodigiously surprise me ! — mats, apparemment ce it est qu'un facon de parler t — though I should beg your pardon, for probably you do not understand French ? ' I made no answer, for I thought his rudeness intolerable ; but Sir Clement, with great warmth, said, ' I am surprised that you can suppose such an object as Miss Prue would engage the attention of Miss Anville even for a moment.' ' O, Sir,' returned this fop, "tis the first character in the piece! — so well drawn, — so much the thing! — such true country-breeding, — such rural ignorance ! — ha ! ha ! ha ! — 'tis most admirably hit off, 'pon honour ! ' 9 1 EVELINA I could almost have cried, that such impertinence should be levelled at me ; and yet, chagrined as I was, I could never behold Lord Orville and this man at the same time, and feel any regret for the cause I had given of displeasure. ' The only female in the play,' said Lord Orville, ' worthy of being mentioned to these ladies, is Angelica.' 'Angelica,' cried Sir Clement, 'is a noble girl; she tries her lover severely, but she rewards him generously.' ' Yet, in a trial so long,' said Mrs. Mirvan, ' there seems rather too much consciousness of her power.' 'Since my opinion has the sanction of Mrs. Mirvan's,' added Lord Orville, ' I will venture to say that Angelica bestows her hand rather with the air of a benefactress, than with the tenderness of a mistress. Generosity without delicacy, like wit without judgment, generally gives as much pain as pleasure. The uncertainty in which she keeps Valentine, and her manner of trifling with his temper, give no very favourable idea of her own.' ' Well, my Lord,' said Mr. Lovel, ' it must, however, be owned, that uncertainty is not the ton among our ladies at present ; nay, indeed, I think they say, though, faith,' taking a pinch of snuff, ' I hope it is not true — but they say, that we now are most shy and backward.' The curtain then drew up, and our conversation ceased. Mr. Lovel, finding we chose to attend to the players, left the box. How strange it is, Sir, that this man, not contented with the large share of foppery and nonsense which he has from nature, should think proper to affect yet more ! for what he said of Tattle and of Miss Prue, convinced me that he really had listened to the play, though he was so ridiculous and foolish as to pretend ignorance. But how malicious and impertinent in this creature to talk to me in such a manner ! I am sure I hope I shall never see him again. I should have despised him heartily as a fop, had he never spoken to me at all ; but now that he thinks proper to resent his supposed ill-usage, I am really quite afraid of him. The entertainment was, The Deuce is in Hi»u which Lord Orville observed to be the most finished and elegant petite piece that was ever written in English. In our way home, Mrs. Mirvan put me into some con- 92 EVELINA sternation, by saying it was evident, from the resentment which this Mr. Lovel harbours of my conduct, that he would think it a provocation sufficiently important for a duel, if his courage equalled his wrath. I am terrified at the very idea. Good Heaven ! that a man so weak and frivolous should be so revengeful ! How- ever, if bravery would have excited him to affront Lord Orville, how much reason have I to rejoice that cowardice makes him contented with venting his spleen upon me ! But we shall leave town soon, and, I hope, see him no more. It was some consolation to me, to hear from Miss Mirvan, that, while he was speaking to me so cavalierly, Lord Orville regarded him with great indignation. But, really, I think there ought to be a book, of the laws and customs a- la- mode, presented to all young people upon their first introduction into public company. To-night we go to the opera, where I expect very great pleasure. We shall have the same party as at the play ; for Lord Orville said he should be there, and would look for us. LETTER XXI EVELINA IN CONTINUATION I have a volume to write of the adventures of yesterday. In the afternoon, — at Berry Hill, I should have said the evening, for it was almost six o'clock, — while Miss Mirvan and I were dressing for the opera, and in high spirits, from the expectation of great entertainment and pleasure, we heard a carriage stop at the door, and concluded that Sir Clement Willoughby, with his usual assiduity, was come to attend us to the Haymarket ; but, in a few moments, what was our surprise, to see our chamber- door flung open, and the two Miss Branghtons enter the room ! They advanced to me with great familiarity, saying, ' How do you do, cousin ? — so we've caught you at the glass! — well, I'm determined Til tell my brother of that ! ' Miss Mirvan, who had never before seen them, and could not, at first, imagine who they were, looked so much astonished, 93 ' So we've canglit you at the glass.' EVELINA that I was ready to laugh myself, till the eldest said, ' We're come to take you to the opera, Miss ; papa and my brother are below, and we are to call for your grandmama as we go along.' ' I am very sorry,' answered I, ' that you should have taken so much trouble, as I am engaged already.' ' Engaged ! Lord, Miss, never mind that,' cried the youngest ; ' this young lady will make your excuses, I dare say ; it's only doing as one would be done by, you know.' ' Indeed, Ma'am,' said Miss Mirvan, ' I shall myself be very sorry to be deprived of Miss Anville's company this evening.' ' Well, Miss, that is not so very good-natured in you,' said Miss Branghton, ' considering we only come to give our cousin pleasure ; it's no good to us ; it's all upon her account ; for we came I don't know how much round about to take her up.' ' I am extremely obliged to you,' said I, ' and very sorry you have lost so much time ; but I cannot possibly help it, for I engaged myself without knowing you would call.' ' Lord, what signifies that?' said Miss Polly, 'you're no old maid, and so you needn't be so very formal : besides, I dare say those you are engaged to a'n't half so near related to you as we are.' ' I must beg you not to press me any further, for I assure you it is not in my power to attend you.i ' Why we came all out of the city on purpose : besides, your grandmama expects you ; — and pray, what are we to say to her ? ' ' Tell her, if you please, that I am much concerned, — but that I am pre-engaged.' 'And who to?' demanded the abrupt Miss Branghton. 'To Mrs. Mirvan, — and a large party.' ' And, pray, what are you all going to do, that it would be such a mighty matter for you to come along with us ? ' ' We are all going to — to the opera.' 'O dear, if that be all, why can't we go all together?' I was extremely disconcerted at this forward and ignorant behaviour, and yet their rudeness very much lessened my concern at refusing them. Indeed, their dress was such as would have rendered their scheme of accompanying our party impracticable, even if I had desired it ; and this, as they did 95 EVELINA not themselves find out, I was obliged, in terms the least mortifying I could think of, to tell them. They were very much chagrined, and asked where I should sit. ' In the pit,' answered I. ' In the pit ! ' repeated Miss Branghton, ' well, really, I must own I should never have supposed that my gown was not good enough for the pit : but come, Polly, let's go ; if Miss does not think us fine enough for her, why to be sure she may choose.' Surprised at this ignorance, I would have explained to them that the pit at the opera required the same dress as the boxes ; but they were so much affronted, they would not hear me, and, in great displeasure, left the room, saying they would not have troubled me, only they thought I should not be so proud with my own relations, and that they had at least as good a right to my company as strangers. I endeavoured to apologise, and would have sent a long message to Madame Duval ; but they hastened away without listening to me ; and I could not follow them downstairs, because I was not dressed. The last words I heard them say, were, ' Well, her grandmama will be in a fine passion, that's one good thing.' Though I was extremely mad at this visit, yet I so heartily rejoiced at their going, that I would not suffer myself to think gravely about it. Soon after Sir Clement actually came, and we all went downstairs. Mrs. Mirvan ordered tea ; and we were engaged in a very lively conversation, when the servant announced Madame Duval, who instantly followed him into the room. Her face was the colour of scarlet, and her eyes sparkled with fury. She came up to me with a hasty step, saying, ' So, Miss, you refuses to come to me, do you ? And pray who are you, to dare to disobey me ? ' I was quite frightened; — I made no answer; — I even attempted to rise, and could not, but sat still, mute and motionless. Everybody, except Miss Mirvan, seemed in the utmost astonishment ; and theCaptain, rising and approaching Madame Duval, with a voice of authority, said, 'Why, how now, Mrs. Turkey Cock, what's put you into this here fluster ? ' 96 - y, ■ a- r. k 1 • * - J-'i - 1 ^' Her eyes sparkled with fury. EVELINA 'It's nothing to you,'' answered she, 'so you may as well hold your tongue, for I sha'n't be called to no account by you, I assure you.' 'There you're out, Madam Fury,' returned he, 'for you must know I never suffer anybody to be in a passion in my house but myself.' ' But you shall,' cried she, in a great rage, 'for I'll be in as great a passion as ever I please, without asking your leave ; so don't give yourself no more airs about it. And as for you, Miss,' again advancing to me, ' I order you to follow me this moment, or else I'll make you repent it all your life.' And, with these words, she flung out of the room. I was in such extreme terror, at being addressed and threatened in a manner to which I am so wholly unused, that I almost thought I should have fainted. 'Don't be alarmed, my love,' cried Mrs. Mirvan, 'but stay where you are, and I will follow Madame Duval, and try to bring her to reason.' Miss Mirvan took my hand, and most kindly endeavoured to raise my spirits : Sir Clement, too, approached me, with an air so interested in my distress, that I could not but feel myself obliged to him ; and, taking my other hand, said, ' For Heaven's sake, my dear Madam, compose yourself ; surely the violence of such a wretch ought merely to move your con- tempt ; she can have no right, I imagine, to lay her commands upon you, and I only wish that you would allow Die to speak to her.' ' O no ! not for the world ! — -indeed, I believe, — I am afraid — I had better follow her.' ' Follow her ! Good God, my dear Miss Anville, would you trust yourself with a mad woman ? for what else can you call a creature whose passions are so insolent ? Xo, no ; send her word at once to leave the house, and tell her you desire that she will never see you again.' 'O Sir! you don't know who you talk of! — it would ill become me to send Madame Duval such a message.' ' But whyj cried he (looking very inquisitive), ' tu/iy should you scruple to treat her as she deserves ? ' I then found that his aim was to discover the nature of her connection with me ; but I felt so much ashamed of my near relationship to her, that I could not persuade myself to answer EVELINA him, and only entreated that he would leave her to Mrs, Mirvan, who just then entered the room. Before she could speak to me, the Captain called out, ' Well, Goody, what have you done with Madame French ? is she cooled a little ? 'cause if she ben't, I've just thought of a most excellent device to bring her to.' ' My dear Evelina,' said Mrs. Mirvan, ' I have been vainly endeavouring to appease her ; I pleaded your engagement, and promised your future attendance : but I am sorry to say, my love, that I fear her rage will end in a total breach (which I think you had better avoid) if she is any further opposed.' 'Then I will go to her, Madam,' cried I, 'and, indeed, it is now no matter, for I should not be able to recover my spirits sufficiently to enjoy much pleasure anywhere this evening.' Sir Clement began a very warm expostulation and entreaty, that I would not go ; but I begged him to desist, and told him, very honestly, that, if my compliance were not indis- pensably necessary, I should require no persuasion to stay. He then took my hand to lead me downstairs ; but the Captain desired him to be quiet, saying he would 'squire me himself, ' because,' he added (exultingly rubbing his hands'), ' I have a wipe ready for the old lady, which may serve her to chew as she goes along.' We found her in the parlour. ' Oh, you're come at last, Miss, are you?- — fine airs you give yourself, indeed ! mafoi, if you hadn't come, you might have stayed, I assure you, and have been a beggar for your pains.' ' Heyday, Madam,' cried the Captain (prancing forward, with a look of great glee), ' what, a'n't you got out of that there passion yet ? why then, I'll tell you what to do to cool your- self; call upon your old friend, Monseer Slippery, who was with you at Ranelagh, and give my service to him, and tell him, if he sets any store by your health, that I desire he'll give you such another souse as he did before : he'll know what I mean, and I'll warrant you he'll do't for my sake.' ' Let him, if he dares ! ' cried Madame Duval ; ' but I sha'n't stay to answer you no more ; you are a vulgar fellow- and so, child, let us leave him to himself.' 'Hark ye, Madam,' cried the Captain, 'you'd best not call names, because, d'ye see, if you do, I shall make bold to show you the door.' 99 EVELINA She changed colour, and saying, ' Pardi, I can show it my- self,' hurried out of the room, and I followed her into a hackney-coach. But before we drove off, the Captain, looking out of the parlour window, called out, ' D'ye hear, Madam, — don't forget my message to Monseer.' You will believe our ride was not the most agreeable in the world ; indeed, it would be difficult to say which was least pleased, Madame Duval or me, though the reasons of our dis- content were so different : however, Madame Duval soon got the start of me ; for we had hardly turned out of Queen Ann Street, when a man, running full speed, stopped the coach. He came up to the window, and I saw he was the Captain's servant. He had a broad grin on his face, and panted for breath. Madame Duval demanded his business. ' Madam,' answered he, ' my master desires his compliments to you, and — and — and he says he wishes it well over with you. He ! he ! he ! ' Madame Duval instantly darted forward, and gave him a violent blow on the face. ' Take that back for your answer, sirrah,' cried she, ' and learn to grin at your betters another time. Coachman, drive on!' The servant was in a violent passion, and swore terribly ; but we were soon out of hearing. The rage of Madame Duval was greater than ever, and she inveighed against the Captain with such fury, that I was even apprehensive she would have returned to his house, purposely to reproach him, which she repeatedly threatened to do ; nor would she, I believe, have hesitated a moment, but that, not- withstanding her violence, he has really made her afraid of him. When we came to her lodgings, we found all the Branghtons in the passage, impatiently waiting for us, with the door open. ' Only see, here's Miss ! ' cried the brother. ' Well, I declare I thought as much '. ' said the younger sister. ' Why, Miss,' said Mr. Branghton, ' I think you might as well have come with your cousins at once ; it's throwing money in the dirt to pay two coaches for one fare.' ' Lord, father,' cried the son, 'make no words about that ; for I'll pay for the coach that Miss had.' ioo EVELINA 1 0, J know very well,' answered Mr. Branghton, 'that you're always more ready to spend than to earn.' I then interfered, and begged that I might myself be allowed to pay the fare, as the expense was incurred upon my account ; they all said no, and proposed that the same coach should carry us on to the opera. While this passed, the Miss Branghtons were examining my dress, which, indeed, was very improper for my company : and as I was extremely unwilling to be so conspicuous amongst them, I requested Madame Duval to borrow a hat or bonnet for me of the people of the house. But she never wears either herself, and thinks them very English and barbarous ; there- fore she insisted that I should go full dressed, as I had pre- pared myself for the pit, though I made many objections. We were then all crowded into the same carriage ; but when v.e arrived at the opera-house, I contrived to pay the coachman. They made a great many speeches ; but Mr. Branghton's reflection had determined me not to be indebted to him. If I had not been too much chagrined to laugh, I should have been extremely diverted at their ignorance of whatever belongs to an opera. In the first place, they could not tell at what door we ought to enter, and we wandered about for some time, without knowing which way to turn : they did not choose to apply to me, though I was the only person of the party who had ever before been at an opera ; because they were unwilling to suppose that their country cousin, as they were pleased to call me, should be better acquainted with any London public place than themselves. I was very indifferent and careless upon this subject, but not a little uneasy at finding that my dress, so different from that of the company to which I belonged, attracted general notice and observation. In a short time, however, we arrived at one of the door- keeper's bars. Mr. Branghton demanded for what part of the house they took money ? They answered, the pit, and re- garded us all with great earnestness. The son then advancing, said, 'Sir, if you please, I beg that I may treat Miss.' 'We'll settle that another time,' answered Mr. Branghton, and put down a guinea. Two tickets of admission were given to him. Mr. Branghton, in bib turn, now stared at the door-keeper, LIBRARY UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA RIVERSIDE EVELINA and demanded what he meant by giving him only two tickets for a guinea. ' Only two, Sir ! : said the man, ' why, don't you know that the tickets are half a guinea each ? ' ' Half a guinea each ! ' repeated Mr. Branghton, ' why. I never heard of such a thing in my life ! And pray, Sir, how- many will they admit ? ' 'Just as usual, Sir, one person each.' ' But one person for half a guinea ! — why, I only want to sit in the pit, friend.' ' Had not the ladies better sit in the gallery, Sir, for they'll hardly choose to go into the pit with their hats on ? ' ' Oh, as to that,' cried Miss Branghton, ' if our hats are too high, we'll take them off when we get in. I sha'n't mind it, for I did my hair on purpose.' Another party then approaching, the doorkeeper could no longer attend to Mr. Branghton, who, taking up the guinea, told him it should be long enough before he'd see it again, and walked away. The young ladies, in some confusion, expressed their surprise, that their papa should not know the opera prices, which, for their parts, they had read in the papers a thousand times. ' The price of stocks,' said he, ' is enough for me to see after ; and I took it for granted it was the same thing here as at the play-house.' ' I knew well enough what the price was,' said the son, ' but I would not speak, because I thought perhaps they'd take less, as we're such a large party.' The sisters both laughed very contemptuously at this idea, and asked him if he ever heard of peoples abating anything at a public place. ' I don't know whether I have or no,' answered he, ' but I'm sure if they would, you'd like it so much the worse' ' Very true, Tom,' cried Mr. Branghton; 'tell a woman that anything is reasonable, and she'll be sure to hate it.' ' Well,' said Miss Polly, ' I hope that Aunt and Miss will be of our side, for Papa always takes part with Tom.' ' Come, come,' cried Madame Duval, ' if you stand talking here, we sha'n't get no place at all.' Mr. Branghton then inquired the way to the gallery, and, 102 , EVELINA when we came to the doorkeeper, demanded what was to pay. ' The usual price, Sir,' said the man. 'Then give me change, 5 cried Mr. Branghton, again putting down his guinea. ' For how many, Sir ? ' ' Why — let's see, — for six.' ' For six, Sir ? why, you've given me but a guinea. ' But a guinea ! why, how much would you have ? I suppose it i'n't half a guinea a-piece here too? ' No, Sir, only five shillings.' Mr. Branghton again took up his unfortunate guinea, and protested he would submit to no such imposition. I then proposed that we should return home, but Madame Duval would not consent, and we were conducted, by a woman who sells books of the Opera, to another gallery-door, where, after some disputing, Mr. Branghton at last paid, and we all went upstairs. Madame Duval complained very much of the trouble of going so high, but Mr. Branghton desired her not to hold the place too cheap, ' for, whatever you may think,' cried he, ' I assure you I paid pit price ; so don't suppose I come here to save my money.' 'Well, to be sure,' said Miss Branghton, 'there's no judging of a place by the outside, else, I must needs say, there's nothing very extraordinary in the staircase.' But, when we entered the gallery, their amazement and disappointment became general. For a few instants, they looked at one another without speaking, and then they all broke silence at once. ' Lord, Papa,' exclaimed Miss Polly, ' why, you have brought us to the one-shilling gallery ! ' ' I'll be glad to give you two shillings, though,' answered he, ' to pay. I was never so fooled out of my money before, since the hour of my birth. Either the doorkeeper's a knave, or this is the greatest imposition that ever was put upon the public' ' Ma foij cried Madame Duval, ' I never sat in such a mean place in all my life ; — why, it's as high ! — we sha'n't see nothing.' ' I thought at the time,' said Mr. Branghton, ' that three shillings was an exorbitant price for a place in the gallery, 103 EVELINA but as we'd been asked so much more at the other doors, why, I paid it without many words ; but then, to be sure, thinks I, it can never be like any other gallery, — we shall see some crinkum-crankum or other for our money ; — but I find it's as arrant a take-in as ever I met with.' •Why, it's as like the twelvepenny gallery at Drury Lane,' cried the son, ' as two peas are to one another. I never knew father so bit before.' ' Lord,' said Miss Branghton, v I thought it would have been quite a fine place, — all over I don't know what, — and done quite in taste.' In this manner they continued to express their dissatisfac- tion till the curtain drew up ; after which, their observations were very curious. They made no allowance for the customs, or even for the language of another country, but formed all their remarks upon comparisons with the English theatre. Notwithstanding my vexation at having been forced into a party so very disagreeable, and that, too, from one so much — so very much the contrary — yet, would they have suffered me to listen, I should have forgotten everything unpleasant, and felt nothing but delight in hearing the sweet voice of Signor Millico, the first singer ; but they tormented me with continual talking. 'What a jabbering they make!' cried Mr. Branghton; ' there's no knowing a word they say. Pray what's the reason they can't as well sing in English ? — but I suppose the fine folks would not like it, if they could understand it.' ' How unnatural their action is ! ' said the son ; ' why now, who ever saw an Englishman put himself in such out-of-the- way postures ? ' ' For my part,' said Miss Polly, ' I think it's very pretty, only I don't know what it means.' ' Lord, what does that signify ? ' cried her sister ; ' mayn't one like a thing without being so very particular ? — You may see that Miss likes it, and I don't suppose she knows more of the matter than we do." A gentleman, soon after, was so obliging as to make room in the front row for Miss Branghton and me. We had no sooner seated ourselves, than Miss Branghton exclaimed, 'Good gracious! only see! — why, Polly, all the people in the pit are without hats, dressed like anything ! ' 104 EVELINA 'Lord, so they are,' cried Miss Polly; 'well, I never saw the like ! — it's worth coming to the opera if one saw nothing else.' I was then able to distinguish the happy party I had left ; and I saw that Lord Orville had seated himself next to Mrs. Mirvan. Sir Clement had his eyes perpetually cast towards the five-shilling gallery, where I suppose he concluded that we were seated ; however, before the opera was over, I have reason to believe that he had discovered me, high and distant as I was from him. Probably he distinguished me by my headdress. At the end of the first act, as the green curtain dropped, to prepare for the dance, they imagined that the opera was done, and Mr. Branghton expressed great indignation that he had been tricked out of his money with so little trouble. ' Now if any Englishman was to do such an impudent thing as this,' said he, 'why he'd be pelted; — but here, one of these outlandish gentry may do just what he pleases, and come on, and squeak out a song or two, and then pocket your money without further ceremony.' However, so determined he was to be dissatisfied, that before the conclusion of the third act, he found still more fault with the opera for being too long - , and wondered whether they thought their singing good enough to serve us for supper. During the symphony of a song of Signor Millico's, in the second act, young Mr. Branghton said, ' It's my belief that that fellow's going to sing another song ! — why there's nothing but singing ! — I wonder when they'll speak.' This song, which was slow and pathetic, caught all my attention, and I lean'd my head forward to avoid hearing their observations, that I might listen without interruption ; but, upon turning round, when the song was over, I found that I was the object of general diversion to the whole party ; for the Miss Branghton s were tittering, and the two gentlemen making signs and faces at me, implying their contempt of my affectation. This discovery determined me to appear as inattentive as themselves ; but I was very much provoked at being thus prevented enjoying the only pleasure, which, in such a party, was within my power. 'So, Miss,' said Mr. Branghton, 'you're quite in the fashion, !°5 EVELINA I see ; — so you like operas ? well, I'm not so polite ; I can't like nonsense, let it be never so much the taste.' ' But pray, Miss,' said the son, ' what makes that fellow look so doleful while he's singing ? ' ' Probably because the character he performs is in distress.' ' Why then I think he might as well let alone singing till he's in better cue ; it's out of all nature for a man to be piping when he's in distress. For my part, I never sing but when I'm merry ; yet I love a song as well as most people.' When the curtain dropped, they all rejoiced. ' How do you like it ? — and how do you like it ?' — passed from one to another with looks of the utmost contempt. 'As for me,' said Mr. Branghton, : they've caught me once, but if ever they do again, I'll give 'em leave to sing me to Bedlam for my pains : for such a heap of stuff never did I hear ; there isn't one ounce of sense in the whole opera, nothing but one continued squeaking and squalling from beginning to end.' ' If I had been in the pit,' said Madame Duval, ' I should have liked it vastly, for music is my passion ; but sitting in such a place as this, is quite unbearable.' Miss Branghton, looking at me, declared that she was not genteel enough to admire it. Miss Polly confessed, that, if they would but sing English, she should like it very well. The brother wished he could raise a riot in the house, because then he might get his money again. And, finally, they all agreed, that it was monstrous dear. During the last dance, I perceived, standing near the gallery- door, Sir Clement Willoughby. I was extremely vexed, and would have given the world to have avoided being seen by him : my chief objection was, from the apprehension that he would hear Miss Branghton call me cousin. — I fear you will think this London journey has made me grow very proud, but indeed this family is so low-bred and vulgar, that I should be equally ashamed of such a connection in the country, or any- where. And really I had already been so much chagrined that Sir Clement had been a witness of Madame Duval's power over me, that I could not bear to be exposed to any further mortification. As the seats cleared, by parties going away, Sir Clement 106 EVELINA approached nearer to us ; the Miss Branghtons observed, with surprise, what a fine gentleman was come into the gallery, and they gave me great reason to expect that they would endeavour to attract his notice, by familiarity with me, whenever he should join us ; and so I formed a sort of plan to prevent any conversation. I am afraid you will think it wrong ; and so I do myself now, — but, at the time, I only considered how I might avoid immediate humiliation. As soon as he was within two seats of us, he spoke to me : ' I am very happy, Miss Anville, to have found you, for the ladies below have each a humble attendant, and therefore I am come to offer my services here.' 'Why then,' cried I (not without hesitating), ' if you please, — I will join them.' ' Will you allow me the honour of conducting you ? ' cried he eagerly ; and, instantly taking my hand, he would have marched away with me : but I turned to Madame Duval, and said, ' As our party is so large, Madam, if you will give me leave, I will go down to Mrs. Mirvan, that I may not crowd you in the coach.' And then, without waiting for an answer, I suffered Sir Clement to hand me out of the gallery. Madame Duval, I doubt not, will be very angry, and so I am with myself, now, and therefore I cannot be surprised : but Mr. Branghton, I am sure, will easily comfort himself, in having escaped the additional coach expense of carrying me to Queen Ann Street : as to his daughters, they had no time to speak, but I saw they were in utter amazement. My intention was to join Mrs. Mirvan, and accompany her home. Sir Clement was in high spirits and good-humour; and, all the way we went, I was fool enough to rejoice in secret at the success of my plan ; nor was it till I got downstairs, and amidst the servants, that any difficulty occurred to me of meeting with my friends. I then asked Sir Clement how I should contrive to acquaint Mrs. Mirvan that I had left Madame Duval ? ' I fear it will be almost impossible to find her,' answered he ; ' but you can have no objection to permitting me to see you safe home.' He then desired his servant, who was waiting, to order his chariot to draw up. 107 EVELINA This quite startled me ; I turned to him hastily, and said that I could not think of going away without Mrs. Mirvan. ' But how can we meet with her ? ' cried he ; ' you will not choose to go into the pit yourself; I cannot send a servant there ; and it is impossible for me to go and leave you alone.' The truth of this was indisputable, and totally silenced me. Yet, as soon as I could recollect myself, I determined not to go in his chariot, and told him I believed I had best return to my party upstairs. He would not hear of this ; and earnestly entreated me not to withdraw the trust I had reposed in him. While he was speaking, I saw Lord Orville, with several ladies and gentlemen, coming from the pit passage : unfortunately, he saw me too, and, leaving his company, advanced instantly to- wards me, and, with an air and voice of surprise, said, ' Good God, do I see Miss Anville ! ' I now most severely felt the folly of my plan, and the awkwardness of my situation ; however, I hastened to tell him, though in a hesitating manner, that I was waiting for Mrs. Mirvan : but what was my disappointment, when he acquainted me that she was already gone home ! I was inexpressibly distressed ; to suffer Lord Orville to think me satisfied with the single protection of Sir Clement Willoughby, I could not bear ; yet I was more than ever averse to returning to a party which I dreaded his seeing : I stood some moments in suspense, and could not help exclaiming, ' Good Heaven, what can I do ! ' ' Why, my dear Madam,' cried Sir Clement, ' should you be thus uneasy ? — you will reach Queen Ann Street almost as soon as Mrs. Mirvan, and I am sure you cannot doubt being as safe.' I made no answer, and Lord Orville then said, ' My coach is here ; and my servants are ready to take any commands Miss Anville will honour me with for them. I shall myself go home in a chair, and therefore ' How grateful did I feel for a proposal so considerate, and made with so much delicacy ! I should gladly have accepted it, had I been permitted, but Sir Clement would not let him even finish his speech ; he interrupted him with evident dis- pleasure, and said, ' My Lord, my own chariot is now at the door.' 1 08 EVELINA And just then the servant came, and told him the carriage was ready. He begged to have the honour of conducting me to it, and would have taken my hand, but 1 drew it back, saying, ' I can't — I can't indeed ! pray go by yourself — and as to me, let me have a chair.' ' Impossible ! ' (cried he with vehemence) ; ' I cannot think of trusting you with strange chairmen, — I cannot answer it to Mrs. Mirvan ; — come, dear Madam, we shall be home in five minutes.' Again I stood suspended. With what joy would I then have compromised with my pride, to have been once more with Madame Duval and the Branghtons, provided I had not met with Lord Orville ! However, I flatter myself that he not only saw, but pitied my embarrassment, for he said, in a tone of voice unusually softened, ' To offer my services in the pre- sence of Sir Clement Willoughby would be superfluous ; but I hope I need not assure Miss Anville how happy it would make me to be of the least use to her.' I curtsied my thanks. Sir Clement, with great earnest- ness pressed me to go ; and while I was thus uneasily deliberating what to do, the dance, I suppose, finished, for the people crowded downstairs. Had Lord Orville then repeated his offer, I would have accepted it, notwithstanding Sir Clements repugnance ; but I fancy he thought it would be impertinent. In a very few minutes I heard Madame Duval's voice, as she descended from the gallery. 'Well,' cried I, hastily, ' if I must go ' I stopped, but Sir Clement immediately handed me into his chariot, called out ' Queen Ann Street,' and then jumped in himself. Lord Orville, with a bow and a half smile, wished me good night. My concern was so great, at being seen and left by Lord Orville in so strange a situation, that I should have been best pleased to have remained wholly silent during our ride home : but Sir Clement took care to prevent that. He began by making many complaints of my unwillingness to trust myself with him, and begged to know what could be the reason ? This question so much embarrassed me, that I could not tell what to answer, but only said, that I was sorry to have taken up so much of his time. 'O Miss Anville' (cried he, taking my hand), ' if you knew with what transport I would dedicate to you not only the 109 Again I stood suspended. EVELINA present but all the future time allotted to me, you would not injure me by making such an apology.'" I could not think of a word to say to this, nor to a great many other equally fine speeches with which he ran on, though I would fain have withdrawn my hand, and made almost con- tinual attempts ; but in vain, for he actually grasped it between both his, without any regard to my resistance. Soon after, he said that he believed the coachman was going the wrong way, and he called to his servant, and gave him directions. Then again addressing himself to me, ' How often, how assiduously have I sought an opportunity of speaking to you, without the presence of that brute, Captain Mirvan ! Fortune has now kindly favoured me with one, and permit me ' (again seizing my hand), ' permit me to use it, in telling you that I adore you.' I was quite thunderstruck at this abrupt and unexpected declaration. For some moments I was silent ; but when I recovered from my surprise, I said, ' Indeed, Sir, if you were determined to make me repent leaving my own party so foolishly, you have very well succeeded.' 'My dearest life,' cried he, 'is it possible you can be so cruel ? Can your nature and your countenance be so totally opposite ? Can the sweet bloom upon those charming cheeks, which appears as much the result of good -humour as of beauty ' ' O, Sir,' cried I, interrupting him, 'this is very fine ; but I had hoped we had had enough of this sort of conversation at the Ridotto, and I did not expect you would so soon resume it.' ' What I then said, my sweet reproacher, was the effect of a mistaken, a profane idea, that your understanding held no competition with your beauty ; but now, now that I find you equally incomparable in both, all words, all powers of speech, are too feeble to express the admiration I feel of your excel- lences.' ' Indeed,' cried I, ' if your thoughts had any connection with your language, you would never suppose that I could give credit to praise so very much above my desert.' This speech, which I made very gravely, occasioned still stronger protestations, which he continued to pour forth, and I continued to disclaim, till I began to wonder that we were not I 1 1 EVELINA in Queen Ann Street, and begged he would desire the coach- man to drive faster. ' And does this little moment,' cried he, ' which is the first of happiness I have ever known, does it already appear so very long to you ? ' ' I am afraid the man has mistaken the way,' answered I, ' or else we should ere now have been at our journey's end. I must beg you will speak to him.' 'And can you think me so much my own enemy? — if my good genius has inspired the man with a desire of prolonging my happiness, can you expect that I should counteract its indulgence ? ' I now began to apprehend that he had himself ordered the man to go a wrong way, and I was so much alarmed at the idea, that, the very instant it occurred to me, I let down the glass, and made a sudden effort to open the chariot-door myself, with a view of jumping into the street ; but he caught hold of me, exclaiming, ' For Heaven's sake, what is the matter?' ' I — I don't know,' cried I (quite out of breath), ' but I am sure the man goes wrong, and, if you will not speak to him, I am determined I will get out myself.' ' You amaze me,' answered he (still holding me). ' I cannot imagine what you apprehend. Surely you can have no doubts of my honour ? ' He drew me towards him as he spoke. I was frightened dreadfully, and could hardly say, ' No, Sir, no, — none at all, — only Mrs. Mirvan, — I think she will be uneasy.' ' Whence this alarm, my dearest angel ? — What can you fear ? — my life is at your devotion, and can you, then, doubt my protection ? ' And so saying he passionately kissed my hand. Never, in my whole life, have I been so terrified. I broke forcibly from him, and, putting my head out of the window, called aloud to the man to stop. Where we then were I know not, but I saw not a human being, or I should have called for help. Sir Clement, with great earnestness, endeavoured to appease and compose me. ' If you do not intend to murder me,' cried I, ' for mercy's, for pity's sake, let me get out ! ' 'Compose your spirits, my dearest life,' cried he, 'and I will do everything you would have me.' And then he called i 12 1 For Heaven's mke, what is the matti > '< EVELINA to the man himself, and bade him make haste to Queen Ann Street. ' This stupid fellow,' continued he, ' has certainly mistaken my orders ; but I hope you are now fully satisfied.' I made no answer, but kept my head at the window, watching which way he drove, but without any comfort to myself, as I was quite unacquainted with either the right or the wrong. Sir Clement now poured forth abundant protestations of honour, and assurances of respect, entreating my pardon for having offended me, and beseeching my good opinion : but I was quite silent, having too much apprehension to make reproaches, and too much anger to speak without. In this manner we went through several streets, till at last, to my great terror, he suddenly ordered the man to stop, and said, ' Miss Anville, we are now within twenty yards of your house ; but I cannot bear to part with you, till you generously forgive me for the offence you have taken, and promise not to make it known to the Mirvans.' I hesitated between fear and indignation. 1 Your reluctance to speak redoubles my contrition for having displeased you, since it shows the reliance I might have on a promise which you will not give without consideration.' ' I am very, very much distressed,' cried I ; ' you ask a promise which you must be sensible I ought not to grant, and yet dare not refuse.' ' Drive on ! ' cried he to the coachman ; — ' Miss Anville, I will not compel you ; I will exact no promise, but trust wholly to your generosity.' This rather softened me ; which advantage he no sooner perceived, than he determined to avail himself of, for he flung himself on his knees, and pleaded with so much submission, that I was really obliged to forgive him, because his humiliation made me quite ashamed ; and, after that, he would not let me rest till I gave him my word that I would not complain of him to Mrs. Mirvan. My own folly and pride, which had put me in his power, were pleas which I could not but attend to in his favour. However, I shall take very particular care never to be again alone with him. When, at last, we arrived at our house, I was so overjoyed, that I should certainly have pardoned him then, if I had not 114 EVELINA before. As he handed me upstairs, he scolded his servant aloud, and very angrily, for having gone so much out of the way. Miss Mirvan ran out to meet me, — and who should I see behind her, but — Lord Orville ! All my joy now vanished, and gave place to shame and confusion ; for I could not endure that he should know how long a time Sir Clement and I had been together, since I was not at liberty to assign any reason for it. They all expressed great satisfaction at seeing me, and said they had been extremely uneasy and surprised that I was so long coming home, as they had heard from Lord Orville that I was not with Madame Duval. Sir Clement, in an affected passion, said that his booby of a servant had misunderstood his orders, and was driving us to the upper end of Piccadilly. For my part, I only coloured ; for though I would not forfeit my word, I yet disdained to confirm a tale in which I had myself no belief. Lord Orville, with great politeness, congratulated me that the troubles of the evening had so happily ended, and said that he had found it impossible to return home before he inquired after my safety. In a very short time he took leave, and Sir Clement followed him. As soon as they were gone, Mrs. Mirvan, though with great softness, blamed me for having emitted Madame Duval. I assured her, and with truth, that for the future I would be more prudent. The adventures of the evening so much disconcerted me, that I could not sleep all night. I am under the most cruel apprehensions, lest Lord Orville should suppose my being on the gallery stairs with Sir Clement was a concerted scheme, and even that our continuing so long together in his chariot was with my approbation, since I did not say a word on the subject, nor express any dissatisfaction at the coachman's pretended blunder. Yet his coming hither to wait our arrival, though it seems to imply some doubt, shows also some anxiety. Indeed, Miss Mirvan says that he appeared extremely anxious, nay uneasy and impatient, for my return. If I did not fear to flatter myself, I should think it not impossible but that he had a suspicion of Sir Clement's design, and was therefore concerned for my safety. IJ 5 EVELINA What a long letter is this ! however, I shall not write many more from London, for the Captain said this morning that he would leave town on Tuesday next. Madame Duval will dine here to-day, and then she is to be told his intention. I am very much amazed that she accepted Mrs. Mirvan's invitation, as she was in such wrath yesterday. I fear that to-day I shall myself be the principal object of her displeasure ; but I must submit patiently, for I cannot defend myself. Adieu, my dearest Sir. Should this letter be productive of any uneasiness to you, more than ever shall I repent the heedless imprudence which it recites. LETTER XXII EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Monday Mornings April 18. Mrs. Mirvan has just communicated to me an anecdote concerning Lord Orville, which has much surprised, half pleased, and half pained me. While they were sitting together during the opera, he told her that he had been greatly concerned at the impertinence which the young lady under her protection had suffered from Mr. Lovel ; but that he had the pleasure of assuring her, she had no future disturbance to apprehend from him. Mrs. Mirvan, with great eagerness, begged he would explain himself, and said she hoped he had not thought so insignificant an affair worthy his serious attention. 'There is nothing,' answered he, 'which requires more immediate notice than impertinence, for it ever encroaches when it is tolerated.' He then added, that he believed he ought to apologise for the liberty he had taken of interfering, but that, as he regarded himself in the light of a party concerned, from having had the honour of dancing with Miss Anville, he could not possibly reconcile to himself a patient neutrality. He then proceeded to tell her, that he had waited upon Mr. Lovel the morning after the play ; that the visit had proved an amicable one, but the particulars were neither entertaining 116 EVELINA nor necessary ; he only assured her, Miss Anville might be perfectly easy, since Mr. Lovel had engaged his honour never more to mention, or even to hint at, what had passed at Mrs. Stanley's assembly. Mrs. Mirvan expressed her satisfaction at this conclusion, and thanked him for his polite attention to her young friend. ' It would be needless,' said he, 'to request that this affair may never transpire, since Mrs. Mirvan cannot but see the necessity of keeping it inviolably secret ; but I thought it incumbent upon me, as the young lady is under your protec- tion, to assure both you and her of Mr. Lovel's future respect.' Had I known of this visit previous to Lord Orville's making it, what dreadful uneasiness would it have cost me ! Yet that he should so much interest himself in securing me from offence, gives me, I must own, an internal pleasure, greater than I can express ; for I feared he had too contemptuous an opinion of me, to take any trouble upon my account. Though, after all, this interference might rather be to satisfy his own delicacy, than from thinking well of me. But how cool, how quiet is true courage ! Who, from seeing Lord Orville at the play, would have imagined his resentment would have hazarded his life ? yet his displeasure was evident, though his real bravery and his politeness equally guarded him from entering into any discussion in our presence. Madame Duval, as I expected, was most terribly angry yesterday ; she scolded me for I believe two hours, on account of having left her, and protested she had been so much surprised at my going, without giving her time to answer, that she hardly knew whether she was awake or asleep. But she assured me, that if ever I did so again, she would never more take me into public. And she expressed an equal degree of displeasure against Sir Clement, because he had not even spoken to her, and because he was always of the Captain's side in an argument. The Captain, as bound in honour, warmly defended him, and then followed a dispute in the usual style. After dinner, Mrs. Mirvan introduced the subject of our leaving London. Madame Duval said she should stay a month or two longer. The Captain told her she was welcome, but that he and his family should go into the country on Tuesday morning. "7 EVELINA A most disagreeable scene followed ; Madame Duval insisted upon keeping me with her ; but Mrs. Mirvan said, that as I was actually engaged on a visit to Lady Howard, who had only consented to my leaving her for a few days, she could not think of returning without me. Perhaps if the Captain had not interfered, the good-breeding and mildness of Mrs. Mirvan might have had some effect upon Madame Duval ; but he passes no opportunity of provoking her, and therefore made so many gross and rude speeches, all of which she retorted, that, in conclusion, she vowed she would sooner go to law, in right of her relationship, than that I should be taken away from her. I heard this account from Mrs. Mirvan, who was so kindly considerate as to give me a pretence for quitting the room, as soon as this dispute began, lest Madame Duval should refer to me, and insist on my obedience. The final result of the conversation was, that, to soften matters for the present, Madame Duval should make one in the party for Howard Grove, whither we are positively to go next Wednesday. And though we are none of us satisfied with this plan, we know not how to form a better. Mrs. Mirvan is now writing to Lady Howard, to excuse bringing this unexpected guest, and to prevent the disagree- able surprise, which must, otherwise, attend her reception. This dear lady seems eternally studying my happiness and advantage. To-night we go to the Pantheon, which is the last diversion we shall partake of in London, for to-morrow This moment, my dearest Sir, I have received your kind letter. If you thought us too dissipated the first week, I almost fear to know what you will think of us this second ; — however, the Pantheon this evening will probably be the last public place which I shall ever see. The assurance of your support and protection in regard to Madame Duval, though what I never doubted, excites my utmost gratitude : how, indeed, cherished under your roof, the happy object of your constant indulgence, how could I have borne to become the slave of her tyrannical humours ? — pardon me that I speak so hardly of her ; but, whenever the idea of 118 EVELINA passing my days with her occurs to me, the comparison which naturally follows, takes from me all that forbearance, which, I believe, I owe her. You are already displeased with Sir Clement : to be sure, then, his behaviour after the opera will not make his peace with you. Indeed, the more I reflect upon it, the more angry I am. I was entirely in his power, and it was cruel in him to cause me so much terror. my dearest Sir, were I but worthy the prayers and the wishes you offer for me, the utmost ambition of my heart would be fully satisfied ! but I greatly fear you will find me, now that I am out of the reach of your assisting prudence, more weak and imperfect than you could have expected. 1 have not now time to write another word, for I must immediately hasten to dress for the evening. LETTER XXIII EVELINA IX CONTINUATION Queen Ann Street, Tuesday, April 19. There is something to me half melancholy in writing an account of our last adventures in London ; however, as this day is merely appropriated to packing and preparations for our journey, and as I shall shortly have no more adventures to write, I think I may as well complete my town journal at once. And, when you have it all together, I hope, my dear Sir, you will send me your observations and thoughts upon it to Howard Grove. About eight o'clock we went to the Pantheon. I was extremely struck with the beauty of the building, which greatly surpassed whatever I could have expected or imagined. Yet, it has more the appearance of a chapel than of a place of diversion ; and, though I was quite charmed with the mag- nificence of the room, I felt that I could not be as gay and thoughtless there as at Ranelagh, for there is something in it which rather inspires awe and solemnity than mirth and pleasure. However, perhaps it may only have this effect upon such a novice as myself. 119 EVELINA I should have said, that our party consisted only of Captain, Mrs. and Miss Mirvan, as Madame Duval spent the day in the city — which I own I could not lament. There was a great deal of company ; but the first person we saw was Sir Clement Willoughby. He addressed us with his usual ease, and joined us for the whole evening. I felt myself very uneasy in his presence, for T could not look at him, nor hear him speak, without recollecting the chariot adventure ; but to my great amazement, I observed that he looked at me without the least apparent discomposure, though certainly he ought not to think of his behaviour without blush-' ing. I really wish I had not forgiven him, and then he could not have ventured to speak to me any more. There was an exceeding good concert, but too much talking to hear it well. Indeed, I am quite astonished to find how- little music is attended to in silence ; for though everybody seems to admire, hardly anybody listens. We did not see Lord Orville till we went into the tea-room, which is large, low, and under ground, and serves merely as a foil to the apartments above ; he then sat next to us. He seemed to belong to a large party, chiefly of ladies ; but, among the gentlemen attending them, I perceived Mr. Lovel. I was extremely irresolute whether or not I ought to make any acknowledgments to Lord Orville for his generous conduct in securing me from the future impertinence of that man ; and I thought, that as he had seemed to allow Mrs. Mirvan to ac- quaint me, though no one else, of the measures which he had taken, he might, perhaps, suppose me ungrateful if silent : however, I might have spared myself the trouble of deliberating, as I never once had the shadow of an opportunity of speaking unheard by Sir Clement. On the contrary, he was so ex- ceedingly officious and forward, that I could not say a word to anybody but instantly he bent his head forward, with an air of profound attention, as if I had addressed myself wholly to him : and yet I never once looked at him, and would not have spoken to him on any account. Indeed, Mrs. Mirvan herself, though unacquainted with the behaviour of Sir Clement after the opera, says it is not right for a young woman to be seen so frequently in public with the same gentleman ; and, if our stay in town was to be lengthened, she would endeavour to represent to the Captain the im- 120 w .is /// had addressed myself -wholly to him. EVELINA propriety of allowing his constant attendance ; for Sir Clement, with all his easiness, could not be so eternally of our parties if the Captain was less fond of his company. At the same table with Lord Orville, sat a gentleman, — I call him so only because he ix.),;,.. ' ' ' ( ' you creature .' EVELINA you are going to say ; but, positively, I won't sit by you, if you're so wicked.' 'And how can one sit by you, and be good,' said he, 'when only to look at you is enough to make one wicked — or wish to be 'so ? ' ' Fie, my Lord ! ' returned she, ' you are really insufferable. I don't think I shall speak to you again these seven years.' ' What a metamorphosis,' cried Lord Orville, ' should you make a patriarch of his Lordship ! ' ' Seven years ! ' said he, ' dear Madam, be contented with telling me you will not speak to me after seven years, and I will endeavour to submit.' ' O, very well, my Lord,' answered she, ' pray date the end of our speaking to each other as early as you please, I'll promise to agree to your time.' 'You know, dear Madam,' said he, sipping his tea, 'you know I only live in your sight.' ' O yes, my Lord, I have long known that. But I begin to fear we shall be too late for Ranelagh this evening.' ' O no, Madam,' said Mr. Lovel, looking at his watch, ' it is but just past ten.' ' No more ! ' cried she ; ' O then we shall do very well.' All the ladies now started up, and declared they had no time to lose. ' Why, what the D 1,' cried the Captain, leaning forward with both his arms on the table, ' are you going to Ranelagh at this time of night ? ' The ladies looked at one another, and smiled. ' To Ranelagh ?' cried Lord . ' Yes, and I hope you are going too ; for we cannot possibly excuse these ladies.' ' I go to Ranelagh ? — if I do, I'll be ' Everybody now stood up, and the stranger Lord, coming round to me, said, ' You go, I hope ? ' ' No, my Lord, I believe not.' ' O you cannot, must not be so barbarous.' And he took my hand, and ran on saying such fine speeches and com- pliments, that I might almost have supposed myself a goddess, and him a pagan, paying me adoration. As soon as I possibly could, I drew back my hand ; but he frequently, in the course of conversation, contrived to take it again, though it was ex- tremely disagreeable to me : and the more so, as I saw that i 28 EVELINA Lord Orville had his eyes fixed upon us, with a gravity of attention that made me uneasy. And, surely, my dear Sir, it was a great liberty in this Lord, notwithstanding his rank, to treat me so freely. As to Sir Clement, he seemed in misery. They all endeavoured to prevail with the Captain to join the Ranelagh party ; and this Lord told me, in a low voice, that it was tearing his heart out to go without me. During this conversation, Mr. Lovel came forward, and assuming a look of surprise, made me a bow, and inquired how I did, protesting, upon his honour, that he had not seen me before, or would sooner have paid his respects to me. Though his politeness was evidently constrained, yet I was very glad to be thus assured of having nothing more to fear from him. The Captain, far from listening to their persuasions of accompanying them to Ranelagh, was quite in a passion at the proposal, and vowed he would sooner go to the Black Hole in Calcutta. ' But,' said Lord , ' if the ladies will take their tea at Ranelagh, you may depend upon our seeing them safe home, for we shall all be proud of the honour of attending them.' ' Maybe so,' said the Captain ; ' but I'll tell you what, if one of these places ben't enough for them to-night, why to- morrow they shall go to ne'er a one.' We instantly declared ourselves very ready to go home. ' It is not for yourselves that we petition,' said Lord , 'but for us j if you have any charity, you will not be so cruel as to deny us ; we only beg you to prolong our happiness for a few minutes, — the favour is but a small one for you to grant, though so great a one for us to receive.' ' To tell you a piece of my mind,' said the Captain, surlily, ' I think you might as well not give the girls so much of this palaver : they'll take it all for gospel. As to Moll, why she's well enough, but nothing extraordinary, though, perhaps you may persuade her that her pug-nose is all the fashion.: and as to the other, why she's good white and red to be sure ; but what of that ! — I'll warrant she'll moulder away as fast as her neighbours.' ' Is there,' cried Lord , another man in this place. who, seeing such objects, could make such a speech ?' 129 K EVELINA ' As to that there,' returned the Captain, ' I don't know whether there be or no, and, to make free, I don't care ; for I sha'n't go for to model myself by any of these fair-weather chaps, who dare not so much as say their souls are their own, — and, for aught I know, no more they ben't. I'm almost as much ashamed of my countrymen as if I was a Frenchman, and I believe in my heart there i'n't a pin to choose between them ; and, before long, we shall hear the very sailors talking that lingo, and see never a swabber without a bag and a sword.' ' He, he, he ! — well, 'pon honour,' cried Mr. Lovel, ' you gentlemen of the ocean have a most severe way of judging.' ' Severe ! 'fore George, that is impossible ; for, to cut the matter short, the men, as they call themselves, are no better than monkeys ; and as to the women, why they are mere dolls. So now you've got my opinion of this subject ; and so I wish you good night.' The ladies, who were very impatient to be gone, made their curtsies, and tripped away, followed by all the gentle- men of their party, except the Lord I have before mentioned, and Lord Orville, who stayed to make inquiries of Mrs. Mirvan concerning our leaving town ; and then saying, with his usual politeness, something civil to each of us, with a very grave air, he quitted us. Lord remained some minutes longer, which he spent in making a profusion of compliments to me, by which he prevented my hearing distinctly what Lord Orville said, to my great vexation, especially as he looked — I thought so, at least — as if displeased at his particula ity of behaviour to me. In going to an outward room, to wait for the carriage, I walked, and could not possibly avoid it, between this noble- man and Sir Clement Willoughby ; and, when the servant said the coach stopped the way, though the latter offered me his hand, which I should much have preferred, this same Lord, without any ceremony, took mine himself; and Sir Clement, with a look extremely provoked, conducted Mrs. Mirvan. In all ranks and all stations of life, how strangely do characters and manners differ ! Lord Orville, with a polite- ness which knows no intermission, and makes no distinction, is as unassuming and modest as if he had never mixed with EVELINA the great, and was totally ignorant of every qualification he possesses ; this other Lord, though lavish of compliments and fine speeches, seems to me an entire stranger to real good- breeding ; whoever strikes his fancy, engrosses his whole attention. He is forward and bold, has an air of haughtiness towards men, and a look of libertinism towards women, and his conscious quality seems to have given him a freedom in his way of speaking to either sex, that is very little short of rudeness. When we returned home, we were all low-spirited ; the evening's entertainment had displeased the Captain, and his displeasure, I believe, disconcerted us all. And here I thought to have concluded my letter ; but, to my great surprise, just now we had a visit from Lord Orville. He called, he said, to pay his respects to us before we left town, and made many inquiries concerning our return ; and, when Mrs. Mirvan told him we were going into the country without any view of again quitting it, he expressed his concern in such terms — -so polite, so flattering, so serious — that I could hardly forbear being sorry myself. Were I to go immediately to Berry Hill, I am sure I should feel nothing but joy ; — but, now we are joined by this Captain, and by Madame Duval, I must own I expect very little pleasure at Howard ('.rove. Before Lord Orville went, Sir Clement Willoughby called. He was more grave than I had ever seen him, and made several attempts to speak to me in a low voice, and to assure me that his regret upon the occasion of our journey was entirely upon my account. But I was not in spirits, and could not bear to be teased by him. However, he has so well paid his court to Captain Mirvan, that he gave him a very hearty invitation to the Grove. At this, he brightened, — and, just then, Lord Orville took leave. No doubt but he was disgusted at this ill-timed, ill-bred partiality ; for surely it was very wrong to make an imitation before Lord Orville, in which he was not included ! I was so much chagrined, that, as soon as he went, I left the room ; and 1 shall not go downstairs till Sir Clement is gone. Lord Orville cannot but observe his assiduous endeavours to ingratiate himself into my favour ; and does not this extravagant civility of Captain Mirvan give him reason to 131 EVELINA suppose, that it meets with our general approbation ? I can- not think upon this subject without inexpressible uneasiness ; — and yet, I can think of nothing else. Adieu, my dearest Sir. Pray write to me immediately. How many long letters has this one short fortnight produced ! More than I may, probably, ever write again : I fear I shall have tired you with reading them ; but you will now have time to rest, for I shall find but little to say in future. And now, most honoured Sir, with all the follies and im- perfections which I have thus faithfully recounted, can you, and with unabated kindness, suffer me to sign myself — Your dutiful and most affectionate EVELINA ? LETTER XXIV MR. VILLARS TO EVELINA Berry Hii.l, April 22. How much do I rejoice that I can again address my letters to Howard Grove ! .My Evelina would have grieved had she known the anxiety of my mind, during her residence in the great world. My apprehensions have been inexpressibly alarming ; and your journal, at once exciting and relieving my fears, has almost wholly occupied me, since the time of your dating it from London. Sir Clement Willoughby must be an artful designing man ; I am extremely irritated at his conduct. The passion he pretends for you has neither sincerity nor honour ; the manner and the opportunities he has chosen to declare it are bordering upon insult. His unworthy behaviour after the opera, convinces me that, had not your vehemence frightened him, Quean Ann Street would have been the last place whither he would have ordered his chariot. O my child, how thankful am I for your escape ! I need not now, I am sure, enlarge upon your indiscretion and want of thought, in so hastily trusting yourself with a man so little known to you, and whose gaiety and rlightiness should have put you on your guard. The nobleman you met at the Pantheon, bold and forward 132 EVELINA as you describe him to be, gives me no apprehension ; a man who appears so openly licentious, and who makes his attack with so little regard to decorum, is one who, to a mind such as my Evelina's, can never be seen but with the disgust which his manners ought to excite. But Sir Clement, though he seeks occasion to give real offence, contrives to avoid all appearance of intentional evil. He is far more dangerous, because more artful ; but I am happy to observe that he seems to have made no impression upon your heart, and therefore a very little care and prudence may secure you from those designs which I fear he has formed. Lord Orville appears to be of a better order of beings. His spirited conduct to the meanly impertinent Lovel, and his anxiety for you after the opera, prove him to be a man of sense and of feeling. Doubtless, he thought there was much reason to tremble for your safety, while exposed to the power of Sir Clement ; and he acted with a regard to real honour, that will always incline me to think well of him, in so immediately acquainting the Mirvan family with your situation. Many men of this age, from a false and pretended delicacy to a friend, would have quietly pursued their own affairs, and thought it more honourable to leave an unsuspecting young creature to the mercy of a libertine, than to risk his displeasure by taking measures for her security. Your evident concern at leaving London is very natural ; and yet it afflicts me. I ever dreaded your being too much pleased with a life of dissipation, which youth and vivacity render but too alluring ; and I almost regret the consent for your journey, which I had not the resolution to withhold. Alas, my child, the artlessness of your nature, and the simplicity of your education, alike unfit you for the thorny paths of the great and busy world. The supposed obscurity of your birth and situation makes you liable to a thousand disagreeable adventures. Not only my views, but my hopes for your future life, have ever centred in the country. Shall I own to you, that, however I may differ from Captain Mirvan in other respects, yet my opinion of the town, its manners, inhabitants, and diversions, is much upon a level with his own ? Indeed it is the general harbour of fraud and of folly, of duplicity and of impertinence ; and I wish few things more fervently, than that you may have taken a lasting leave of it. 1 33 EVELINA Remember, however, that I only speak in regard to a public and dissipated life ; in private families, we may doubtless find as much goodness, honesty, and virtue in London as in the country. If contented with a retired station, I still hope I shall live to see my Evelina the ornament of her neighbourhood, and the pride and delight of her family : giving and receiving joy from such society as may best deserve her affection, and employing herself in such useful and innocent occupations as may secure and merit the tenderest love of her friends, and the worthiest satisfaction of her own heart. Such are my hopes, and such have been my expectations. Disappoint them not, my beloved child, but cheer me with a few lines, that may assure me this one short fortnight spent in town has not undone the work of seventeen years spent in the country. Arthur Villars. LETTER XXV EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS Howard Grove, April 25. No, my dear Sir, no : the work of seventeen years remains such as it was, ever unworthy your time and your labour, but not more so now, — at least I hope not, — than before that fortnight which has so much alarmed you. And yet, I must confess, that I am not half so happy here at present, as I was ere I went to town : but the change is in the place, not in me. Captain Mirvan and Madame Duval have ruined Howard Grove. The harmony that reigned here is disturbed, our schemes are broken, our way of life is altered, and our comfort is destroyed. But do not suppose London to be the source of these evils ; for, had our excursion been any- where else, so disagreeable an addition to our household must have caused the same change at our return. I was sure you would be displeased with Sir Clement Willoughby, and therefore I am by no means surprised at what you say of him : but for Lord Orville — I must own I had greatly feared, that my weak and imperfect account would not 134 EVELINA have procured him the good opinion which he so well deserves, and which I am delighted to find you seem to have of him. Oh, Sir, could I have done justice to the merit of which I believe him possessed, — could I have painted him to you such as he appeared to me, — then, indeed, you would have had some idea of the claim which he has to your approbation ! After the last letter which I wrote in town, nothing more passed previous to our journey hither, except a very violent quarrel between Captain Mirvan and Madame Duval. As the Captain intended to travel on horseback, he had settled that we four females should make use of his coach. Madame Duval did not come to Queen Ann Street till the carriage had waited some time at the door, and then, attended by Monsieur Du Bois, she made her appearance. The Captain, impatient to be gone, would not suffer them to enter the house, but insisted that we should immediately get into the coach. We obeyed ; but were no sooner seated, than Madame Duval said, 'Come, Monsieur Du Bois, these girls can make very good room for you : sit closer, children.' Mrs. Mirvan looked quite confounded, and M. Du Bois, after making some apologies about crowding us, actually got into the coach, on the side with Miss Mirvan and me. But no sooner was he seated, than the Captain, 'who had observed this transaction very quietly, walked up to the coach-door, saying, 'What, neither with your leave, nor by your leave ?' M. Du Bois seemed rather shocked, and began to make abundance of excuses ; but the Captain neither understood nor regarded him, and, very roughly, said, ' Look'ee, Monseer, this here may be a French fashion, for aught I know ; — but Give and Take is fair in all nations ; and so now, d'ye see, I'll make bold to show you an English one.' And then, seizing his wrist, he made him jump out of the coach. M. Du Bois instantly put his hand upon his sword, and threatened to resent this indignity. The Captain, holding up his stick, bid him draw at his peril. Mrs. Mirvan, greatly alarmed, got out of the coach, and, standing between them, entreated her husband to re-enter the house. ' None of your clack ! ' cried he, angrily ; ' what the D 1, do you suppose I f,.n't manage a Frenchman ?' Meantime, Madame Duval called out to M. Du Bois, 'Eli, l 35 wemvm i ■ M. Du Bois put his h aid upon his sword. EVELINA faissez-le, mon ami, ne le corrigez pas; e'est un vilain bete qui )icn vaitt pas la peine.'' 'Monsieur le CapitaineJ cried M. Du Bois, ' voulez-vous Men me demander pardon?* ' ho, you demand pardon, do you ? ' said the Captain. ' I thought as much ; I thought you'd come to ; — so you have lost your relish for an English salutation, have you ? ' strutting up to him with looks of defiance. A crowd was now gathering, and Mrs. Mirvan again besought her husband to go into the house. 'Why what a plague is the woman afraid of? — did you ever know a Frenchman that could not take an affront ? — I warrant, Monseer knows what he is about ; — don't you. Monseer ? ' M. Du Bois, not understanding him, only said, ' Plait-il Monsieur ? ' 'No, nor dish me, neither,' answered the Captain ; 'but be that as it may, what signifies our parleying here ? If you've anything to propose, speak at once ; if not, why let us go on our journey without more ado.' ' Parbleu, je lientends rien, vwi ." cried M. Du Bois, shrugging his shoulders, and looking very dismal. Mrs. Mirvan then advanced to him, and said, in French, that she was sure the Captain had not any intention to affront him, and begged he would desist from a dispute which could only be productive of mutual misunderstanding, as neither of them knew the language of the other. This sensible remonstrance had the desired effect, and M. Du Bois, making a bow to every one except the Captain, very wisely gave up the point, and took leave. 'We then hoped to proceed quietly on our journey ; but the turbulent Captain would not yet permit us : he approached Madame Duval with an exulting air, and said, 'Why, how's this, Madam ? what, has your champion deserted you ? why, I thought you tolcl me, that you old gentlewomen had it all your own way among them French sparks ? ' ' As to that, Sir,' answered she, ' it's not of no consequence what you thought ; for a person who can behave in such a low way may think what he pleases for me, for I sha'n't mind.' ' Why, then, Mistress, since you must needs make so free,' cried he, ' please to tell me the reason why you took the liberty '37 EVELINA for to ask any of your followers into my coach, without my leave ? Answer me to that.' ' Why, then, pray, Sir,' returned she, ' tell me the reason why you took the liberty to treat the gentleman in such an impolite way, as to take and pull him neck and heels out ? I'm sure he hadn't done nothing to affront you, nor nobody else ; and I don't know what great hurt he would have done you. by just sitting still in the coach ; he would not have eat it.' ' What, do you think, then, that my horses have nothing to do but to carry about your snivelling Frenchmen ? If you do, Madam, I must make bold to tell you, you are out, for I'll see 'em hanged first.' ' More brute you. then ! for they've never carried nobody half so good.' ' Why, look'ee, Madam, if you must needs provoke me, I'll tell you a piece of my mind ; you must know I can see as far into a mill-stone as another man, and so, if you thought for to fobb me oft" with one of your smirking French puppies for a son-in-law, why, you'll find yourself in a hobble, — that's all.' ' Sir, you're a but I won't say what ; — but, I protest, I hadn't no such a thought, no more hadn't Monsieur Du Bois.' ' My dear,' said Mrs. Mirvan, 'we shall be very late.' ' Well, well,' answered he, ' get away then ; off with you as fast as you can, it's high time. As to Molly, she's fine lady enough in all conscience ; I want none of your French chaps to make her worse.' And so saying, he mounted his horse, and we drove off. And I could not but think with regret of the different feelings we experienced upon leaving London, to what had belonged to our entering it ! During the journey Madame Duval was so very violent against the Captain, that she obliged Mrs. Mirvan to tell her that, when in her presence, she must beg her to choose some other subject of discourse. We had a most affectionate reception from Lady Howard, whose kindness and hospitality cannot fail of making everybody happy, who is disposed so to be. Adieu, my dearest Sir. I hope, though I have hitherto neglected to mention it, that you have always remembered me to whoever has made any inquiry concerning me. T38 EVELINA LETTER XXVI EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS Howard Grove, April 27. O, my dear Sir, I now write in the greatest uneasiness ! Madame Duval has made a proposal which terrifies me to death, and which was as unexpected as it is shocking. She had been employed for some hours this afternoon in reading letters from London, and, just about tea-time, she sent for me into her room, and said, with a look of great satisfaction, ' Come here, child, I've got some very good news to tell you : something that will surprise you, I'll give you my word, for you ha' n't no notion of it.' I begged her to explain herself ; and then, in terms which I cannot repeat, she said she had been considering what a shame it was, to see me such a poor country, shame-faced thing, when I ought to be a fine lady ; and that she had long, and upon several occasions, blushed for me, though she must own the fault was none of mine : for nothing better could be expected from a girl who had been so immured. However, she assured me she had, at length, hit upon a plan which would make quite another creature of me. I waited, without much impatience, to hear what this preface led to ; but I was soon awakened to more lively sensations, when she acquainted me that her intention was to prove my birthright, and to claim, by law, the inheritance of my real family I It would be impossible for me to express my extreme con- sternation, when she thus unfolded her scheme. My surprise and terror were equally great. I could say nothing ; I heard her with a silence which I had not the power to break. She then expatiated very warmly upon the advantages I should reap from her plan ; talked in a high style of my future grandeur ; assured me how heartily I should despise almost everybody and everything r I had hitherto seen ; predicted my marrying into some family of the first rank in the kingdom ; and, finally, said I should spend a few months in Paris, where my education and manners might receive their last polish. '39 1 t-J'u ■ 'Co.yie here, child.' EVELINA She enlarged also upon the delight she should have, in common with myself, from mortifying the pride of certain people, and showing them that she was not to be slighted with impunity. In the midst of this discourse, I was relieved by a summons to tea. Madame Duval was in great spirits ; but my emotion was too painful for concealment, and everybody inquired into the cause. I would fain have waved the subject, but Madame Duval was determined to make it public. She told them that she had it in her head to make something of me, and that they should soon call me by another name than that of Anville, and yet that she was not going to have the child married, neither. I could not endure to hear her proceed, and was going to leave the room ; which when Lady Howard perceived, she begged Madame Duval would defer her intelligence to some other opportunity ; but she was so eager to communicate her scheme that she could bear no delay, and therefore they suffered me to go without opposition. Indeed, whenever my situation or affairs are mentioned by Madame Duval, she speaks of them with such bluntness and severity, that I cannot be enjoined a task more cruel than to hear her. I was afterwards acquainted with some particulars of the conversation by Miss Mirvan, who told me that Madame Duval informed them of her plan with the utmost complacency, and seemed to think herself very fortunate in having suggested it ; but soon after, she accidentally betrayed, that she had been instigated to the scheme by her relations the Branghtons, whose letters, which she received to-day, first mentioned the proposal. She declared that she would have nothing to do with any round-about ways, but go openly and instantly to law, in order to prove my birth, real name, and title to the estate of my ancestors. How impertinent and officious, in these Branghtons, to interfere thus in my concerns ! Vou can hardly imagine what a disturbance this plan has made in the family. The Captain, without inquiring into any particulars of the affair, has peremptorily declared himself against it, merely because it has been proposed by Madame Duval, and they have battled the point together with great violence. Mrs. Mirvan says she will not even think, till she hears your opinion. But Lady 141 EVELINA Howard, to my great surprise, openly avows her approbation of Madame Duval's intention : however, she will write her reasons and sentiments upon the subject to you herself. As to Miss Mirvan, she is my second self, and neither hopes nor fears but as I do. And as to me, — I know not what to say, nor even what to wish ; I have often thought my fate peculiarly cruel, to have but one parent, and from that one to be banished for ever ; — while, on the other side, I have but too well known and felt the propriety of the separation. And yet, you may much better imagine than I can express, the internal anguish which sometimes oppresses my heart, when I reflect upon the strange indifferency that must occa- sion a father never to make the least inquiry after the health, the welfare, or even the life of his child ! O Sir, to me, the loss is nothing ! — greatly, sweetly, and most benevolently have you guarded me from feeling it ; — but for him, I grieve indeed ! — I must be divested, not merely of all filial piety, but of all humanity, could I ever think upon this subject, and not be wounded to the soul. Again I must repeat, I know not what to wish : think for me, therefore, my dearest Sir, and suffer my doubting mind, that knows not which way to direct its hopes, to be guided by your wisdom and unerring counsel. EVELINA. LETTER XXVII LADY HOWARD TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS Howard Grove. Dear Sir, — I cannot give a greater proof of the high opinion I have of your candour, than by the liberty I am now going to take, of presuming to offer you advice, upon a subject concerning which you have so just a claim to act for yourself: but I know you have too unaffected a love of justice, to be partially tenacious of your own judgment. Madame Duval has been proposing a scheme which has put us all in commotion, and against which, at first, in common with the rest of my family, I exclaimed ; but upon more mature consideration, I own my objections have almost wholly vanished. This scheme is no other than to commence a law-suit with 14- EVELINA Sir John Belmont, to prove the validity of his marriage with Miss Evelyn ; the necessary consequence of which proof will be securing his fortune and estate to his daughter. And why, my dear Sir, should not this be ? I know that, upon first hearing, such a plan conveys ideas that must shock you ; but I know, too, that your mind is superior to being governed by prejudices, or to opposing any important cause on account of a few disagreeable attendant circumstances. Your lovely charge, now first entering into life, has merit which ought not to be buried in obscurity. She seems born for an ornament to the world. Nature has been bountiful to her of whatever she had to bestow ; and the peculiar attention you have given to her education, has formed her mind to a degree of excellence, that, in one so young, I have scarce ever seen equalled. Fortune, alone, has hitherto been sparing of her gifts ; and she, too, now opens the way which leads to all that is left to wish for her. What your reasons may have been, my good Sir, for so carefully concealing the birth, name, and pretensions of this amiable girl, and forbearing to make any claim upon Sir John Belmont, I am totally a stranger to ; but, without knowing, I respect them, from the high opinion I have of your character and judgment : but I hope they are not insuperable ; for I cannot but think, that it was never designed for one who seems meant to grace the world, to have her life devoted to retirement. Surely Sir John Belmont, wretch as he has shown himself, could never see his accomplished daughter, and not be proud to own her, and eager to secure her the inheritance of his fortune. The admiration she met with in town, though merely the effect of her external attractions, was such, that Mrs. Mirvan assures me she would have had the most splendid offers, had there not seemed to be some mystery in regard to her birth, which, she was well informed, was assiduously, though vainly, endeavoured to be discovered. Can it be right, my dear Sir, that this promising young creature should be deprived of the fortune, and rank of life, to which she is lawfully entitled, and which you have prepared her to support and to use so nobly ? To despise riches may, indeed, be philosophic, but to dispense them worthily, must, surely, be more beneficial to mankind. '43 EVELINA Perhaps a few years, or, indeed, a much shorter time, may make this scheme impracticable : Sir John, though yet young, leads a life too dissipated for long duration ; and, when too late, we may regret that something was not sooner done ; for it will be next to impossible, after he is gone, to settle or prove anything with his heirs and executors. Pardon the earnestness with which I write my sense of this affair ; but your charming ward has made me so warmly her friend, that I cannot be indifferent upon a subject of such importance to her future life. Adieu, my dear Sir ; — send me speedily an answer to this remonstrance, and believe me to be, etc. M. Howard. LETTER XXVIII MR. VILLARS TO LADY HOWARD Berry Hill, May 2. Your letter, Madam, has opened a source of anxiety to which I look forward with dread, and which to see closed I scarcely dare expect. I am unwilling to oppose my opinion to that of your Ladyship, nor, indeed, can I, but by arguments which, I believe, will rather rank me as a hermit, ignorant of the world, and fit only for my cell, than as a proper guardian, in an age such as this, for an accomplished young woman. Vet, thus called upon, it behoves me to explain, and endeavour to vindicate, the reasons by which I have been hitherto guided. The mother of this dear child, — who was led to destruction by her own imprudence, the hardness of heart of Madame Duval, and the villany of Sir John Belmont, — was once, what her daughter is now, the best beloved of my heart ; and her memory, so long as my own holds, I shall love, mourn, and honour ! On the fatal day that her gentle soul left its mansion, and not many hours ere she ceased to breathe, I solemnly plighted my faith, That her child, if it lived, should know no father, but inyself or her acknowledged husband. You cannot, Madam, suppose that I found much difficuly in adhering to this promise, and forbearing to make any claim 1 44 EVELINA upon Sir John Belmont. Could I feel an affection the most paternal for this poor sufferer, and not abominate her destroyer ? Could I wish to deliver to kirn, who had so basely betrayed the mother, the helpless and innocent offspring, who, born in so much sorrow, seemed entitled to all the compassionate tenderness of pity ? For many years, the name alone of that man, accidentally spoken in my hearing, almost divested me of my Christianity, and scarce could I forbear to execrate him. Yet I sought not, neither did I desire, to deprive him of his child, had he, with any appearance of contrition, or, indeed, of humanity, endeavoured to become less unworthy such a blessing ; — but he is a stranger to all parental feelings, and has, with a savage insensibility, forborne to inquire even into the existence of this sweet orphan, though the situation of his injured wife was but too well known to him. You wish to be acquainted with my intentions. I must acknowledge, they were such as I now perceive would not be honoured with your Ladyship's approbation : for though I have sometimes thought of presenting Evelina to her father, and demanding the justice which is her due, yet, at other times, I have both disdained and feared the application ; dis- dained, lest it should be refused, and feared, lest it should be accepted ! Lady Belmont, who was firmly persuaded of her approach- ing dissolution, frequently and earnestly besought me, that if her infant was a female, I would not abandon her to the direction of a man so wholly unfit to take the charge of her education ; but, should she be importunately demanded, that I would retire with her abroad, and carefully conceal her from Sir John, till some apparent change in his sentiments and conduct should announce him less improper for such a trust. And often would she say, ' Should the poor babe have any feelings correspondent with its mother's, it will have no want while under your protection.' Alas ! she had no sooner quitted it herself, than she was plunged into a gulf of misery, that swallowed up her peace, reputation, and life. During the childhood of Evelina I suggested a thousand plans for the security of her birthright ; — but I as oftentimes rejected them. I was in a perpetual conflict, between the desire that she should have justice done her, and the appre- 145 L EVELINA hension that, while I improved her fortune, I should endanger her mind. However, as her character began to be formed, and her disposition to be displayed, my perplexity abated ; the road before me seemed less thorny and intricate, and I thought I could perceive the right path from the wrong : for, when I observed the artless openness, the ingenious simplicity of her nature ; when I saw that her guileless and innocent soul fancied all the world to be pure and disinterested as herself, and that her heart was open to every impression with which love, pity, or art might assail it ; — then did I flatter myself, that to follow my own inclination, and to secure her welfare, was the same thing ; since, to expose her to the snares and dangers inevitably encircling a house of which the master is dissipated and unprincipled, without the guidance of a mother, or any prudent and sensible female, seemed to me no less than suffering her to stumble into some dreadful pit, when the sun was in its meridian. My plan, therefore, was not merely to educate and to cherish her as my own, but to adopt her the heiress of my small fortune, and to bestow her upon some worthy man, with whom she might spend her days in tran- quillity, cheerfulness, and good -humour, untainted by vice, folly, or ambition. So much for the time past. Such have been the motives by which I have been governed ; and I hope they will be allowed not merely to account for, but also to justify, the conduct which has resulted from them. It now remains to speak of the time to come. And here, indeed, I am sensible of difficulties which I almost despair of surmounting according to my wishes. I pay the highest deference to your Ladyship's opinion, which it is extremely painful to me not to concur with ; yet, I am so well acquainted with your goodness, that I presume to hope it would not be absolutely impossible for me to offer such arguments as might lead you to think with me, that this young creature's chance of happiness seems less doubtful in retire- ment, than it would be in the gay and dissipated world : but why should I perplex your Ladyship with reasoning that can turn to so little account ? for, alas ! what arguments, what persuasions can I make use of, with any prospect of success, to such a woman as Madame Duval ? Her character, and the violence of her disposition, intimidate me from making the 146 EVELINA attempt : she is too ignorant for instruction, too obstinate for entreaty, and too weak for reason. I will not, therefore, enter into a contest from which I have nothing to expect but altercation and impertinence. As soon would I discuss the effect of sound with the deaf, or the nature of colours with the blind, as aim at illuminating with conviction a mind so warped by prejudice, so much the slave of unruly and illiberal passions. Unused as she is to control, persuasion would but harden, and opposition incense her. I yield, there- fore, to the necessity which compels my reluctant acquiescence, and shall now turn all my thoughts upon considering of such methods for the conducting this enterprise, as may be most conducive to the happiness of my child, and least liable to wound her sensibility. The law-suit, therefore, I wholly and absolutely disapprove. Will you, my dear Madam, forgive the freedom of an old man, if I own myself greatly surprised that you could, even for a moment, listen to a plan so violent, so public, so totally repugnant to all female delicacy ? I am satisfied your Lady- ship has not weighed this project. There was a time, indeed, when, to assert the innocence of Lady Belmont, and to blazon to the world the wrongs, not guilt, by which she suffered, I proposed, nay attempted, a similar plan : but then, all assist- ance and encouragement was denied. How cruel to the remembrance I bear to her woes, is this tardy resentment of Madame Duval ! She was deaf to the voice of Nature, though she has hearkened to that of Ambition. Never can I consent to have this dear and timid girl brought forward to the notice of the world by such a method — a method which will subject her to all the impertinence of curiosity, the sneers of conjecture, and the stings of ridicule. And for what ? — the attainment of wealth, which she does not want, and the gratification of vanity, which she does not feel. - A child to appear against a father ! — no, Madam, old and infirm as I am, I would even yet sooner convey her myself to some remote part of the world, though I were sure of dying in the expedition. Far different had been the motives which would have stimulated her unhappy mother to such a proceeding ; all her felicity in this world was irretrievably lost : her life was become a burthen to her, and her fair fame, which she had 147 EVELINA early been taught to prize above all other things, had received a mortal wound : therefore, to clear her own honour, and to secure from blemish the birth of her child, was all the good which Fortune had reserved herself the power of bestowing. But even this last consolation was withheld from her ! Let milder measures be adopted ; and — since it must be so — let application be made to Sir John Belmont ; but as to a law-suit, I hope, upon this subject, never more to hear it mentioned. With Madame Duval, all pleas of delicacy would be in- effectual ; her scheme must be opposed by arguments better suited to her understanding. I will not, therefore, talk of its impropriety, but endeavour to prove its inutility. Have the goodness, then, to tell her, that her own intentions would be frustrated by her plan, since, should the law-suit be commenced, and even should the cause be gained, Sir John Belmont would still have it in his power, and, if irritated, no doubt in his inclination, to cut off her granddaughter with a shilling. She cannot do better, herself, than to remain quiet and in- active in the affair : the long and mutual animosity between her and Sir John, will make her interference merely productive of debates and ill-will. Neither would I have Evelina appear till summoned. And as to myself, I must wholly decline acting, though I will, with unwearied zeal, devote all my thoughts to giving counsel : but, in truth, I have neither inclination nor spirits adequate to engaging personally with this man. My opinion is, that he would pay more respect to a letter from your Ladyship upon this subject, than from any other person. I therefore advise and hope, that you will yourself take the trouble of writing to him, in order to open the affair. When he shall be inclined to see Evelina, I have for him a posthumous letter, which his much-injured lady left to be presented to him, if ever such a meeting should take place. The views of the Branghtons, in suggesting this scheme, are obviously interested ; they hope, by securing to Evelina the fortune of her father, to induce Madame Duval to settle her own upon themselves. In this, however, they would probably be mistaken ; for little minds have ever a propensity to bestow their wealth upon those who are already in affluence, and, therefore, the less her grandchild requires her assistance, the more gladly she will give it. 14S EVELINA I have but one thing more to add, from which, however, I can by no means recede : my word so solemnly given to Lady Belmont, that her child should never be owned but with herself, must be inviolably adhered to. — I am, dear Madam, with great respect, your Ladyship's most obedient servant, Arthur Villars. LETTER XXIX MR. VILLARS TO EVELINA Berry Hill, May 2. How sincerely do I sympathise in the uneasiness and concern which my beloved Evelina has so much reason to feel ! The cruel scheme in agitation is equally repugnant to my judgment and my inclination, — yet to oppose it, seems im- practicable. To follow the dictates of my own heart, I should instantly recall you to myself, and never more consent to your being separated from me ; but the manners and opinion of the world demand a different conduct. Hope, however, for the best, and be satisfied you shall meet with no indignity ; if you are not received into your own family as you ought to be, and with the distinction that is your due, you shall leave it for ever ; and, once again restored to my protection, secure your own tranquillity, and make, as you have hitherto done, all the happiness of my life ! LETTER XXX EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS HOWARD Grove, May 6. The die is thrown, and I attend the event in trembling ! Lady Howard has written to Paris, and sent her letter to town, to be forwarded in the ambassador's packet, and in less than a fortnight, therefore, she expects an answer. O Sir, with what anxious impatience shall I wait its arrival ! 149 EVELINA upon it seems to depend the fate of my future life. My solicitude is so great, and my suspense so painful, that I can- not rest a moment in peace, or turn my thoughts into any other channel. Deeply interested as I now am in the event, most sincerely do I regret that the plan was ever proposed : methinks it can- not end to my satisfaction ; for either I must be torn from the arms of my more than father, — or I must have the misery of being finally convinced, that I am cruelly rejected by him who has the natural claim to that dear title — a title which, to write, mention, or think of, fills my whole soul with filial tenderness. The subject is discussed here eternally. Captain Mirvan and Madame Duval, as usual, quarrel whenever it is started : but I am so wholly engrossed by my own reflections, that I cannot even listen to them. My imagination changes the scene perpetually ; one moment I am embraced by a kind and relenting parent, who takes me to that heart from which I have hitherto been banished, and supplicates, through me, peace and forgiveness from the ashes of my mother ! — at another, he regards me with detestation, considers me as the living image of an injured saint, and repulses me with horror ! — But I will not afflict you with the melancholy phantasms of my brain, I will endeavour to compose my mind to a more tranquil state, and forbear to write again, till I have, in some measure, succeeded. May Heaven bless you, my dearest Sir! and long, long may it continue you on earth, to bless — your grateful Evelina ! LETTER XXXI LADY HOWARD TO SIR JOHN BELMONT, BART. Howard Grove. May 5. Sir — You will, doubtless, be surprised at receiving a letter from one who had for so short a period the honour of your acquaintance, and that at so great a distance of time ; but the motive which has induced me to take this libertv, is of so EVELINA delicate a nature, that were I to commence making apologies for my officiousness, I fear my letter would be too long for your patience. You have, probably, already conjectured the subject upon which I meant to treat. My regard for Mr. Evelyn and his amiable daughter was well known to you : nor can I ever cease to be interested in whatever belongs to their memory or family. I must own myself somewhat distressed in what manner to introduce the purport of my writing ; yet, as I think that, in affairs of this kind, frankness is the first requisite to a good understanding between the parties concerned, I will neither torment you nor myself with punctilious ceremonies, but proceed instantly and openly to the business which occasions my giving you this trouble. I presume, Sir, it would be superfluous to tell you that your child resides still in Dorsetshire, and is still under the protection of the Reverend Mr. Villars, in whose house she was born ; for, though no inquiries concerning her have reached his ears, or mine, I can never suppose it possible you have forborne to make them. It only remains, therefore, to tell you, that your daughter is now grown up, that she has been educated with the utmost care and the utmost success, and that she is now a most deserving, accomplished, and amiable young woman. Whatever may be your view for her future destination in life, it seems time to declare it. She is greatly admired, and, I doubt not, will be very much sought after : it is proper, therefore, that her future expectations, and your pleasure concerning her, should be made known. Believe me, Sir, she merits your utmost attention and regard. You could not see and know her, and remain unmoved by those sensations of affection which belong to so near and tender a relationship. She is the lovely resemblance of her lovely mother; — pardon, Sir, the liberty I take in mentioning that unfortunate lady, but I think it behoves me, upon this occasion, to show the esteem I felt for her ; allow me, therefore, to say, and be not offended at my freedom, that the memory of that excellent lady has but too long remained under the aspersions of calumny ; surely it is time to vindicate her fame ! — and how can that be done in a manner more EVELINA eligible, more grateful to her friends, or more honourable to yourself, than by openly receiving, as your child, the daughter of the late Lady Belmont ? The venerable man who has had the care of her education, deserves your warmest acknowledgments for the unremitting pains he has taken, and attention he has shown, in the dis- charge of his trust. Indeed, she has been peculiarly fortunate in meeting with such a friend and guardian : a more worthy man, or one whose character seems nearer to perfection, does not exist. Permit me to assure you, Sir, she will amply repay whatever regard and favour you may hereafter show her, by the comfort and happiness you cannot fail to find in her affection and duty. To be owned properly by you is the first wish of her heart; and I am sure, that to merit your approbation will be the first study of her life. I fear that you will think this address impertinent ; but I must rest upon the goodness of my intention to plead my excuse. — I am, Sir, your most obedient humble servant, M. Howard. LETTER XXXII EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS Howard Gkovk, May 10. Our house has been enlivened to-day by the arrival of a London visitor ; and the necessity I have been under of con- cealing the uneasiness of my mind, has made me exert myself so effectually, that I even think it is really diminished ; or, at least, my thoughts are not so totally, so very anxiously occupied by one only subject, as they lately were. 1 was strolling this morning, with Miss Mirvan, down a lane about a mile from the grove, when we heard the trampling of horses ; and, fearing the narrowness of the passage, we were turning hastily back, but stopped upon hearing a voice call out 'Pray, ladies, don't be frightened, for I will walk my horse.' We turned again, and then saw Sir Clement Willoughby. He dismounted, and approaching us, with the reins in his hand, 152 1 ' ti^%y 'Mr^MMi TI1 './Vay, /«-jan, / have brought a petitioner. ' EVELINA ten years, I'll never put on another good gown, that I'm resolved.' ' Will you let the maid try if she can iron it out, or clean it, Ma'am ? ' ' No, she'll only make bad worse. — But look here, now, here's a cloak ! Mon Dieu ! why, it looks like a dish-clout I Of all the unluckinesses that ever I met, this is the worst! for, do you know, I bought it but the day before I left Paris ? — Besides, into the bargain, my cap's quite gone ; where the villain twitched it I don't know, but I never see no more of it from that time to this. Now you must know this was the be- comingest cap I had in the world, for I've never another with pink ribbon in it ; and, to tell you the truth, if I hadn't thought to have seen M. Du Bois, I'd no more have put it on than I'd have flown ; for as to what one wears in such a stupid place as this, it signifies no more than nothing at all.' She then told me that she had been thinking all night of a contrivance to hinder the Captain from finding out her loss of curls, which was, having a large gauze handkerchief pinned on her head as a hood, and saying she had the toothache. ' To tell you the truth,' added she, ' I believe that Captain is one of the worst men in the world ; he's always making a joke of me ; and as to his being a gentleman, he has no more manners than a bear, for he's always upon the grin when one's in distress ; and, I declare, I'd rather be done anything to than laugh'd at, for, to my mind, it's one or other the dis- agreeablest thing in the world.' Mrs. Mirvan, I found, had been endeavouring to dissuade her from the design she had formed of having recourse to the law, in order to find out the supposed robbers ; for she dreads a discovery of the Captain, during Madame Duval's stay at Howard Grove, as it could not fail being productive of infinite commotion. She has, therefore, taken great pains to show the inutility of applying to justice, unless she were more able to describe the offenders against whom she would appear, and has assured her, that as she neither heard their voices, nor saw their faces, she cannot possibly swear to their persons, or obtain any redress. Madame Duval, in telling me this, extremely lamented her hard fate, that she was thus prevented from revenging her injuries ; which, however, she vowed she would not be 176 EVELINA persuaded to pocket tamely, ' because,' added she, ' if such villains as these are let to have their own way, and nobody takes no notice of their impudence, they'll make no more ado than nothing at all of tying people in ditches, and such things as that : however, I shall consult with M. Du Bois, as soon as I can ferret out where he's hid himself. I'm sure I've a right to his advice, for it's all along of his gaping about at the Tower that I've met with these misfortunes.' ' M. Du Bois,' said I, 'will, I am sure, be very sorry when he hears what has happened.' ' And what good will that do now ? — that won't unspoil all my clothes ; I can tell him, I a'n't much obliged to him, though it's no fault of his, — yet it i'n't the less provokinger for that. I'm sure, if he had been there, to have seen me served in that manner, and put neck and heels into a ditch, he'd no more have thought it was me than the Pope of Rome. I'll promise you, whatever you may think of it, I sha'n't have no rest, night nor day, till I find out that rogue.' ' I have no doubt, Madam, but you will soon discover him.' l Pardi, if I do I'll hang him, as sure as fate ! — but what's the oddest, is, that he should take such a special spite against me, above all the rest ! it was as much for nothing as could be, for I don't know what I had done, so particular bad, to be used in that manner: I'm sure, I hadn't given him no offence, as I know of, for I never see his face all the time ; and as to screaming a little, I think it's very hard if one mustn't do such a thing as that, when one's put in fear of one's life.' During this conversation, she endeavoured to adjust her head-dress, but could not at all please herself. Indeed, had I not been present, I should have thought it impossible for a woman at her time of life to be so very difficult in regard to dress. What she may have in view, I cannot imagine, but the labour of the toilette seems the chief business of her life. When I left her, in my way downstairs, I met Sir Clement, who, with great earnestness, said he must not be denied the honour of a moment's conversation with me ; and then, without waiting for an answer, he led me to the garden, at the door of which, however, I absolutely insisted upon stopping. He seemed very serious, and said, in a grave tone of voice. At length, Miss Anvillc, I flatter myself I have hit upon an 177 N She endeavoured to adjust her head-dress. EVELINA expedient that will oblige you, and therefore, though it is death to myself, I will put it in practice.' I begged him to explain himself. ' I saw your desire of saving Madame Duval, and scarce could I refrain giving the brutal Captain my real opinion of his savage conduct ; but I am unwilling to quarrel with him, lest I should be denied entrance into a house which you inhabit : I have been endeavouring to prevail with him to give up his absurd new scheme, but I find him impenetrable : — I have therefore determined to make a pretence for suddenly leaving this place, dear as it is to me, and containing all I most admire and adore ; — and I will stay in town till the violence of this boobyish humour is abated.' He stopped ; but I was silent, for I knew not what I ought to say. He took my hand, which he pressed to his lips, saying, 'And must I then, Miss Anville, must I quit you — sacrifice voluntarily my greatest felicity, — and yet not be honoured with one word, one look of approbation ? ' I withdrew my hand, and said, with a half laugh, ' You know so well, Sir Clement, the value of the favours you confer, that it would be superfluous for me to point it out.' 'Charming, charming girl ! how does your wit, your under- standing rise upon me daily ! and must I, can I part with you ? — will no other method ' ' O, Sir, do you so soon repent the good office you had planned for Madame Duval ? ' ' For Madame Duval ! — cruel creature, and will you not even suffer me to place to your account the sacrifice I am about to make ? ' 'You must place it, Sir, to what account you please ; but I am too much in haste now to stay here any longer.' And then I would have left him, but he held me, and, rather impatiently, said, ' If, then, I cannot be so happy as to oblige you, Miss Anville, you must not be surprised should I seek to oblige myself. If my scheme is not honoured with your approbation, for which alone it was formed, why should I, to my own infinite dissatisfaction, pursue it?' We were then, for a few minutes, both silent ; I was really unwilling he should give up a plan which would so effectually break into the Captain's designs, and, at the same time, save me the pain of disobliging him ; and I should instantly and *79 EVELINA thankfully have accepted his offered civility, had not Mrs. Mirvan's caution made me fearful. However, when he pressed me to speak, I said, in an ironical voice, ' I had thought, Sir, that the very strong sense you have yourself of the favour you propose to me, would sufficiently have repaid you, but, as I was mistaken, I must thank you myself. And now,' making a low curtsy, ' I hope, Sir, you are satisfied.' ' Loveliest of thy sex ' he began, but I forced myself from him, and ran upstairs. Soon after, Miss Mirvan told me that Sir Clement had just received a letter, which obliged him instantly to leave the Grove, and that be had actually ordered a chaise. I then acquainted her with the real state of the affair. Indeed, I conceal nothing from her ; she is so gentle and sweet-tempered, that it gives me great pleasure to place an entire confidence in her. At dinner, I must own, we all missed him ; for though the rlightiness of his behaviour to me, when we are by ourselves, is very distressing, yet, in large companies, and general con- versation, he is extremely entertaining and agreeable. As to the Captain, he has been so much chagrined at his departure, that he has scarce spoken a word since he went : but Madame Duval, who made her first public appearance since her accident, was quite in raptures that she escaped seeing him. The money, which we left at the farm-house, has been returned to us. What pains the Captain must have taken to arrange and manage the adventures which he chose we should meet with ! Vet he must certainly be discovered, for Madame Duval is already very much perplexed, at having received a letter this morning from M. Du Bois, in which he makes no mention of his imprisonment. However, she has so little suspicion, that she imputes his silence upon the subject to his fears that the letter might be intercepted. Not one opportunity could I meet with while Sir Clement was here, to inquire after his friend Lord Orville : but I think it was strange he should never mention him unasked. Indeed, I rather wonder that Mrs. Mirvan herself did not introduce the subject, for she always seemed particularly attentive to him. And now, once more, all my thoughts involuntarily turn upon the letter I so soon expect from Paris. This visit of Sir 1 80 EVELINA Clement has, however, somewhat diverted my fears, and therefore I am very glad he made it at this time. Adieu, my dear Sir. LETTER XXXV SIR JOHN BELMONT TO LADV HOWARD Paris, May n. Madam, — I have this moment the honour of your Lady- ship's letter, and I will not wait another, before I return an answer. It seldom happens that a man, though extolled as a saint, is really without blemish ; or that another, though reviled as a devil, is really without humanity. Perhaps the time is not very distant, when I may have the honour to convince your Ladyship of this truth, in regard to Mr. Villars and myself. As to the young lady, whom Mr. Villars so obligingly proposes presenting to me, I wish her all the happiness to which, by your Ladyship's account, she seems entitled ; and. if she has a third part of the merit of her to whom you compare her, I doubt not but Mr. Villars will be more successful in every other application he may make for her advantage, than he can ever be in any with which he may be pleased to favour me. — I have the honour to be, Madam, your Ladyship's most humble and most obedient servant, John Belmont. LETTER XXXVI EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS Howard Grove, May 18. Well, my dear Sir, all is now over ! the letter so anxiously expected is at length arrived, and my doom is fixed. The various feelings which oppress me, I have not language to describe ; nor need I, — you know my heart, you have yourself formed it, — and its sensations upon this occasion you may but too readily imagine. 181 EVELINA Outcast as I am, and rejected for ever by him to whom I of right belong, — shall I now implore your continued protec- tion ? — no, no, — I will not offend your generous heart, which, open to distress, has no wish but to relieve it, with an applica- tion that would seem to imply a doubt. I am more secure than ever of your kindness, since you now know upon that is my sole dependence. I endeavour to bear this stroke with composure, and in such a manner as if I had already received your counsel and consolation. Yet, at times, my emotions are almost too much for me. O, Sir, what a letter for a parent to write ! must I not myself be deaf to the voice of Nature, if I could endure to be thus absolutely abandoned, without regret ? I dare not even to you, nor would I, could I help it, to myself, acknow- ledge all that I think ; for, indeed, I have sometimes sentiments upon this rejection, which my strongest sense of duty can scarcely correct. Yet suffer me to ask, — might not this answer have been softened ? — was it not enough to disclaim me for ever, without treating me with contempt, and wounding me with derision ? But, while I am thus thinking of myself, I forget how much more he is the object of sorrow than I am ! Alas, what amends can he make himself, for the anguish he is hoarding up for time to come ! My heart bleeds for him, whenever this reflection occurs to me. What is said of you, my protector, my friend, my bene- factor ! — I dare not trust myself to comment upon. Gracious Heaven ! what a return for goodness so unparalleled ! I would fain endeavour to divert my thoughts from this subject, but even that is not in my power ; for, afflicting as this letter is to me, I find that it will not be allowed to con- clude the affair, though it does all my expectations : for Madame Duval has determined not to let it rest here. She heard the letter in great wrath, and protested she would not be so easily answered ; she regretted her facility in having been prevailed upon to yield the direction of this affair to those who knew not how to manage it, and vowed she would herself undertake and conduct it in future. It is in vain that I have pleaded against her resolution, and besought her to forbear an attack, where she has nothing to expect but resentment ; especially as there seems to be a hint, 182 EVELINA that Lady Howard will one day be more openly dealt with : she will not hear me ; she is furiously bent upon a project which is terrible to think of, — for she means to go herself to Paris, take me with her, and there, face to face, demand justice ! How to appease or to persuade her, I know not ; but for the universe would I not be dragged, in such a manner, to an interview so awful, with a parent I have never yet beheld ! Lady Howard and Mrs. Mirvan are both of them infinitely shocked at the present situation of affairs, and they seem to be even more kind to me than ever ; and my dear Maria, who is the friend of my heart, uses her utmost efforts to console me, and, when she fails in her design, with still greater kindness, she sympathises in my sorrow. I very much rejoice, however, that Sir Clement Willoughby had deft us before this letter arrived. I am sure the general confusion of the house would, otherwise, have betrayed to him the whole of a tale which I now, more than ever, wish to have buried in oblivion. Lady Howard thinks I ought not to disoblige Madame Duval, yet she acknowledges the impropriety of my accom- panying her abroad upon such an enterprise. Indeed, I would rather die than force myself into his presence. But so vehement is Madame Duval, that she would instantly have compelled me to attend her to town, in her way to Paris, had not Lady Howard so far exerted herself, as to declare she could by no means consent to my quitting her house till she gave me up to you, by whose permission I had entered it. She was extremely angry at this denial ; and the Captain, by his sneers and raillery, so much increased her rage, that she has positively declared, should your next letter dispute her authority to guide me by her own pleasure, she will, without hesitation, make a journey to Berry Hill, and teach you to know who she is. Should she put this threat in execution, nothing could give me greater uneasiness, for her violence and volubility would almost distract you. Unable as I am to act for myself, or to judge what conduct I ought to pursue, how grateful do I feel myself, that I have such a guide and director to counsel and instruct me as yourself ! 183 EVELINA Adieu, my dearest Sir ! Heaven, J trust, will never let me live to be repulsed and derided by you, to whom I may now sign myself — Wholly your Evelina. LETTER XXXVII MR. VILLARS TO EVELINA Berry Hill, May 21. Let not my Evelina be depressed by a stroke of fortune for which she is not responsible. Xo breach of duty, on your part, has incurred the unkindness which has been shown you ; nor have you, by any act of imprudence, provoked either censure or reproach. Let me entreat you, therefore, my dearest child, to support yourself with that courage which your innocency ought to inspire ; and let all the affliction you allow yourself, be for him only, who, not having that support, must one day be but too severely sensible how much he wants it. The hint thrown out concerning myself, is wholly unintel- ligible to me : my heart, I dare own, fully acquits me of vice, but without ble))iish I have never ventured to pronounce myself. However, it seems his intention to be hereafter more explicit, and then, — should anything appear, that has on my part con- tributed to those misfortunes we lament, let me, at least, say, that the most partial of my friends cannot be so much astonished as I shall myself be at such a discovery. The mention, also, of any future applications I may make, is equally beyond my comprehension. But I will not dwell upon a subject which almost compels from me reflections that cannot but be wounding to a heart so formed for filial tender- ness as my Evelina's. There is an air of mystery throughout the letter, the explanation of which I will await in silence. The scheme of Madame Duval is such as might be reason- ably expected from a woman so little inured to disappointment, and so totally incapable of considering the delicacy of your situation. Your averseness to her plan gives me pleasure, for it exactly corresponds with my own. Why will she not make the journey she projects by herself? She would not have even the wish of an opposition to encounter. And then, once more, 184 EVELINA might my child and myself be left to the quiet enjoyment of that peaceful happiness, which she alone has interrupted. As to her coming hither, I could, indeed, dispense with such a visit ; but, if she will not be satisfied with my refusal by letter, I must submit to the task of giving it her in person. My impatience for your return is increased by your account of Sir Clement Willoughby's visit to Howard Grove. I am but little surprised at the perseverance of his assiduities to interest you in his favour ; but I am very much hurt that you should be exposed to addresses, which, by their privacy, have an air that shocks me. You cannot, my love, be too circum- spect ; the slightest carelessness, on your part, will be taken advantage of, by a man of his disposition. It is not sufficient for you to be reserved ; his conduct even calls for your resent- ment : and should he again, as will doubtless be his endeavour, contrive to solicit your favour in private, let your disdain and displeasure be so marked, as to constrain a* change in his behaviour. Though, indeed, should his visit be repeated while you remain at the Grove, Lady Howard must pardon me if I shorten yours. Adieu, my child. You will always make my respects to the hospitable family to which we are so much obliged. LETTER XXXVIII MR. VILLARS TO LADY HOWARD Berry Hill, May 27. Dear Madam, — I believe your Ladyship will not be surprised at hearing- I have had a visit from Madame Duval, as I doubt not her having made known her intention before she left Howard Grove. I would gladly have excused myself this meeting, could I have avoided it decently ; but, after so long a journey, it was not possible to refuse her admittance. She told me that she came to Berry Hill in consequence of a letter I had sent to her granddaughter, in which I had forbid her going to Paris. Very roughly she then called me to account for the authority which I assumed ; and, had I been disposed to have argued with her, she would very angrily >S5 Skc called »w to account very roughly. EVELINA have disputed the right by which I used it. But I declined all debating. I therefore listened very quietly, till she had so much fatigued herself with talking, that she was glad, in her turn, to be silent. And then I begged to know the purport of her visit. She answered, that she came to make me relinquish the power I had usurped over her granddaughter, and assured me she would not quit the place till she succeeded. But I will not trouble your Ladyship with the particulars of this disagreeable conversation ; nor should I, but on account of the result, have chosen so unpleasant a subject for your perusal. However, I will be as concise as I possibly can, that the better occupations of your Ladyship's time may be the less impeded. When she found me inexorable in refusing Evelina's attending her to Paris, she peremptorily insisted that she should, at least, live with her in London till Sir John Belmont's return. I remonstrated against this scheme with all the energy in my power, but the contest was vain ; she lost her patience, and I my time. She declared that if I was resolute in opposing her, she would instantly make a will, in which she would leave all her fortune to strangers, though, otherwise, she intended her granddaughter for her sole heiress. To me, I own, this threat seemed of little consequence ; I have long accustomed myself to think, that, with a competency, of which she is sure, my child might be as happy as in the possession of millions : but the incertitude of her future fate deters me from following implicitly the dictates of my present judgment. The connections she may hereafter form, the style of life for which she may be destined, and the future family to which she may belong, are considerations which give but too much weight to the menaces of Madame Duval. In short, Madam, after a discourse infinitely tedious, I was obliged, though very reluctantly, to compromise with this ungovernable woman, by consenting that Evelina should pass one month with her. I never made a concession with so bad a grace, or so much regret. The violence and vulgarity of this woman, her total ignorance of propriety, the family to which she is related, and the company she is likely to keep, are objections so forcible to her having the charge of this dear child, that nothing less than 187 EVELINA my diffidence of the right I have of depriving her of so large a fortune, would have induced me to listen to her proposal. Indeed we parted, at last, equally discontented ; she, at what I had refused ; I, at what I had granted. It now only remains for me to return your Ladyship my humble acknowledgments for the kindness which you have so liberally shown to my ward : and to beg you would have the goodness to part with her when Madame Duval thinks proper to claim the promise which she has extorted from me. — I am, dear Madam, etc. Arthur Villars. LETTER XXXIX MR. VILLARS TO EVELINA Berry Hill, May 28. With a reluctance which occasions me inexpressible un- easiness, I have been almost compelled to consent that my Evelina should quit the protection of the hospitable and respectable Lady Howard, and accompany Madame Duval to a city which I had hoped she would never again have entered. But alas! my dear child, we are the slaves of custom, the dupes of prejudice, and dare not stem the torrent of an opposing world, even though our judgments condemn our compliance ! however, since the die is cast, we must endeavour to make the best of it. You will have occasion, in the course of the month you are to pass with Madame Duval, for all the circumspection and prudence you can call to your aid : she will not, I know, propose anything to you which she thinks wrong herself; but you must learn not only to judge but to act for yourself : if any schemes are started, any engagements made, which your understanding represents to you as improper, exert yourself resolutely in avoiding them, and do not, by a too passive facility, risk the censure of the world, or your own future regret. You cannot too assiduously attend to Madame Duval herself; but I would wish you to mix as little as possible with her associates, who are not likely to be among those whose acquaintance would reflect credit upon you. Remember, my 1S8 EVELINA dear Evelina, nothing is so delicate as the reputation of a woman : it is, at once, the most beautiful and most brittle of all human -things. Adieu, my beloved child ; I shall be but ill at ease till this month is elapsed. A. V. LETTER XL EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. V1LLARS London, Jum 6. Once more, my dearest Sir, I write to you from this great city. Yesterday morning, with the truest concern, I quitted the dear inhabitants of Howard Grove, and most impatiently shall I count the days till I see them again. Lady Howard and Mrs. Mirvan took leave of me with the most flattering kindness ; but indeed I knew not how to part with Maria, whose own apparent sorrow redoubled mine. She made me promise to send her a letter every post. And I shall write to her with the same freedom, and almost the same confidence, you allow me to make use of to yourself. The Captain was very civil to me, but he wrangled with poor Madame Duval to the last moment ; and, taking me aside, just before we got into the chaise, he said, ' Hark'ee, Miss Anville, I've a favour for to ask of you, which is this : that you will write us word how the old gentlewoman finds herself when she sees it was all a trick : and what the French lubber says to it, and all about it.' I answered that I would obey him, though I was very little pleased with the commission, which, to me, was highly improper ; but he will either treat me as an itiforvier, or make me a party in his frolic. As soon as we drove away, Madame Duval, with much satisfaction, exclaimed ' Dieti mcrci, we've got off at last ! I'm sure I never desire to see that place again. It's a wonder I've got away alive ; for I believe I've had the worst luck ever was known, from the time I set my foot upon the threshold. I know I wish I'd never a-go.ne. Besides, into the bargain, it's the most dullest place in all Christendom : there's never no diversions, nor nothing at all.' 189 The Captain took me aside. EVELINA Then she bewailed M. Du Bois, concerning whose adven- tures she continued to make various conjectures during the rest of our journey. When I asked her what part of London she should reside in, she told me that Mr. Branghton was to meet us at an inn, and would conduct us to a lodging. Accordingly, we pro- ceeded to a house in Bishopsgate Street, and were led by a waiter into a room where we found Mr. Branghton. He received us very civilly, but seemed rather surprised at seeing me, saying, ' Why, I didn't think of your bringing Miss ; however, she's very welcome.' 1 I'll tell you how it was,' said Madame Duval : 'you must know I've a mind to take the girl to Paris, that she may see something of the world, and improve herself a little ; besides, I've another reason, that you and I will talk more about ; but do you know, that meddling old parson, as I told you of, would not let her go : however, I'm resolved I'll be even with him, for I shall take her on with me, without saying never a word more to nobody.' I started at this intimation, which very much surprised me. But I am very glad she has discovered her intention, as I shall be carefully upon my guard not to venture from town with her. Mr. Branghton then hoped we had passed our time agree- ably in the country. 'O Lord, Cousin,' cried she, 'I've been the miserablest creature in the world ! I'm sure all the horses in London sha'n't drag me into the country again of one while : why, how do you think I've been served ? — only guess.' ' Indeed, Cousin, I can't pretend to do that.' 'Why, then I'll tell you. Do you know, I've been robbed ? — that is, the villain would have robbed me if he could, only I'd secured all my money.' 'Why then, Cousin, I think your loss can't have been very great.' ' O Lord, you don't know what you're a-saying ; you're talking in the unthinkingest manner in the world : why, it w;is all along of not having no money, that I met with that misfortune.' ' How's that. Cousin ? I don't see what great misfortune you can have met with, if you'd secured all your money.' 'That's because you don't know nothing of the matter: for 191 EVELINA there the villain came to the chaise, and because we hadn't got nothing to give him, though he'd no more right to our money than the man in the moon, yet, do you know, he fell into the greatest passion ever you see, and abused me in such a m?nner, and put me in a ditch, and got a rope o' purpose to hang me, — and I'm sure, if that wasn't misfortune enough, why I don't know what is.' ' This is a hard case indeed, Cousin. But why don't you go to Justice Fielding?' ' O, as to that, I'm a-going to him directly ; but only I want first to see poor M. Du Bois ; for the oddest thing of all is, that he has wrote to me, and never said nothing of where he is, nor what's become of him, nor nothing else.' ' M. Du Bois ! why, he's at my house at this very time.' ' M. Du Bois at your house ! well, I declare this is the surprisingest part of all ! however, I assure you, I think he might have corned for me, as well as you, considering what I have gone through on his account ; for, to tell you the truth, it was all along of him that I met with that accident ; so I don't take it very kind of him, I promise you.' ' Well but, Cousin, tell me some of the particulars of this affair.' 'As to the particulars, I'm sure they'd make your hair stand on end to hear them ; however, the beginning of it all was through the fault of M. Du Bois : but I'll assure you, he may take care of himself in future, since he don't so much as come to see if I'm dead or alive ; — but there, I went for him to a justice of peace, and rode all out of the way, and did everything in the world, and was used worser than a dog, and all for the sake of serving of him, and now, you see, he don't so much — well, I was a fool for my pains, — however, he may get somebody else to be treated so another time, for if he's taken up every day in the week, I'll never go after him no more.' This occasioned an explanation, in the course of which Madame Duval, to her utter amazement, heard that M. Du Bois had never left London during her absence ! nor did Mr. Branghton believe that he had ever been to the Tower, or met with any kind of accident. Almost instantly, the whole truth of the transaction seemed to rush upon her mind, and her wrath was inconceivably violent. She asked me a thousand questions in a breath, but, fortunately, 192 EVELINA was too vehement to attend to my embarrassment, which must, otherwise, have betrayed my knowledge of the deceit. Re- venge was her first wish, and she vowed she would go the next morning to Justice Fielding, and inquire what punishment she might lawfully inflict upon the Captain for his assault. I believe we were an hour in Bishopsgate Street, before poor Madame Duval could allow anything to be mentioned but her own story ; at length, however, Mr. Branghton told her that M. Du Bois, and all his own family, were waiting for her at his house. A hackney-coach was then called, and we proceeded to Snow Hill. Mr. Branghton's house is small and inconvenient, though his shop, which takes in all the ground floor, is large and commodious. I believe I told you before that he is a silver- smith. We were conducted up two pair of stairs ; for the dining- room, Mr. Branghton told us, was let. His two daughters, their brother, M. Du Bois, and a young man, were at tea. They had waited some time for Madame Duval, but I found they had not any expectation that I should accompany her ; and the young ladies, I believe, were rather more surprised than pleased when I made my appearance ; for they seemed hurt that I should see their apartment. Indeed, I would willingly have saved them that pain, had it been in my power. The first person who saw me was M. Du Bois : i A/i, Mon DieuP exclaimed he, ' voila Mademoiselle P 'Goodness,' cried young Branghton, ' if there isn't Miss!' 'Lord, so there is,' said Miss Polly; 'well, I'm sure I should never have dreamed of Miss's coming.' 'Nor I neither, I'm sure,' cried Miss Branghton, 'or else I would not have been in this room to see her ; I'm quite ashamed about it, — only not thinking of seeing anybody but my aunt — however, Tom, it's all your fault, for you know very well I wanted to borrow Mr. Smith's room, only you were so grumpy you would not let me.' ' Lord, what signifies ? ' said the brother, ' I dare be sworn Miss has been up two pair of stairs before now ; — Ha'n't you, Miss ?' I begged that I might not give them the least disturbance, and assured them that I had not any choice in regard to what room we sat in. 193 O EVELINA ' Well,' said Miss Polly, ' when you come next, Miss, we'll have Mr. Smith's room ; and it's a very pretty one, and only up one pair of stairs, and nicely furnished, and everything.' 'To say the truth,' said Miss Branghton, 'I thought that my cousin would not, upon any account, have come to town in the summertime; for it's not at all the fashion,- — so, to be sure, thinks I, she'll stay till September, when the play-houses open.' This was my reception, which I believe you will not call a very cordial one. Madame Duval, who, after having severely reprimanded M. Du Bois for his negligence, was just entering upon the story of her misfortunes, now wholly engaged the company. M. Du Bois listened to her with a look of the utmost horror, repeatedly lifting up his eyes and hands, and exclaiming, ' O ciel ! quel bat-bare!' The young ladies gave her the most earnest attention ; but their brother and the young man kept a broad grin upon their faces during the whole recital. She was, however, too much engaged to observe them : but, when she mentioned having been tied in a ditch, young Branghton, no longer able to constrain himself, burst into a loud laugh, declaring that he had never heard anything so funny in his life ! His laugh was heartily re-echoed by his friend ; the Miss Branghtons could not resist the example ; and poor Madame Duval, to her extreme amazement, was absolutely overpowered and stopped by the violence of their mirth. For some minutes the room seemed quite in an uproar : the rage of Madame Duval, the astonishment of M. Du Bois, and the angry interrogatories of Mr. Branghton, on one side ; the convulsive tittering of the sisters, and the loud laughs of the young men, on the other, occasioned such noise, passion, and confusion, that had any one stopped an instant on the stairs, he must have concluded himself in Bedlam. At length, how- ever, the father brought them to order, and, half- laughing, half-frightened, they made Madame Duval some very awkward apologies. But she would not be prevailed upon to continue her narrative, till they had protested they were laughing at the Captain, and not at her. Appeased by this, she resumed her story, which, by the help of stuffing handkerchiefs into their mouths, the young people heard with tolerable decency. Everybody agreed that the ill-usage the Captain had given 194 The violence 0/ their mirth. EVELINA her was actionable, and Mr. Branghton said he was sure she might recover what damages she pleased, since she had been put in fear of her life. She then, with great delight, declared that she would lose no time in satisfying her revenge, and vowed she would not be contented with less than half his fortune : ' For though,' said she, ' I don't put no value upon the money, because, Dieti merci, I ha'n't no want of it, yet I don't wish for nothing so much as to punish that fellow ; for, I'm sure, whatever's the cause of it, he owes me a great grudge, and I know no more what it's for than you do, but he's always been doing me one spite or other, ever since I knew him.' Soon after tea, Miss Branghton took an opportunity to tell me, in a whisper, that the young man I saw was a lover of her sister's, that his name was Brown, and that he was a haber- dasher, with many other particulars of his circumstances and family ; and then she declared her utter aversion to the thoughts of such a match, but added that her sister had no manner of spirit or ambition, though, for her part, she would ten times rather die an old maid than marry any person but a gentleman. ' And, for that matter,' added she, ' I believe Polly herself don't care much for him, only she's in such a hurry, because, I suppose, she's a mind to be married before me ; however, she's very welcome, for, I'm sure, I don't care a pin's-point whether I ever marry at all ; — it's all one to me.' Some time after this, Miss Polly contrived to tell her story. She assured me, with much tittering, that her sister was in a great fright lest she should be married first. ' So I make her believe that I will,' continued she, 'for I love dearly to plague her a little ; though, I declare, I don't intend to have Mr. Brown in reality ; I'm sure I don't like him half well enough, — do you, Miss ? ' ' It is not possible for me to judge of his merits,' said I, ' as I am entirely a stranger to him.' ' But what do you think of him, Miss ?' ' Why, really, I — I don't know — ' ' But do you think him handsome ? Some people reckon him to have a good pretty person, — but, I'm sure, for my part I think he's monstrous ugly : — don't you, Miss ?' ' I am no judge,— but I think his person is very — very well' 196 EVELINA ' Very well .' — Why, pray, Miss,' in a tone of vexation, ' what fault can you find with it ? ' ' O, none at all ! ' ' I'm sure you must be very ill-natured if you could. Now there's Biddy says she thinks nothing of him, — but I know it's- all out of spite. You must know, Miss, it makes her as mad as can be that I should have a lover before her ; but she's so proud that nobody will court her, and I often tell her she'll die an old maid. But, the thing is, she has taken it into her head to have a liking for Mr. Smith, as lodges on the first floor ; but, Lord, he'll never have her, for he's quite a fine gentleman ; and besides, Mr. Brown heard him say, one day, that he'd never marry as long as he lived, for he'd no opinion of matrimony.' ' And did you tell your sister this ?' ' O, to be sure, I told her directly ; but she did not mind me ; however, if she will be a fool, she must.' This extreme want of affection and good-nature increased the distaste I already felt for these unamiable sisters ; and a confidence so entirely unsolicited and unnecessary, manifested equally their folly and their want of decency. I was very glad when the time for our departing arrived. Mr. Branghton said our lodgings were in Holborn, that we might be near his house, and neighbourly. He accompanied us to them himself. Our rooms are large, and not inconvenient ; our landlord is an hosier. I am sure I have a thousand reasons to rejoice that I am so little known, for my present situation is, in every respect, very unenviable ; and I would not, for the world, be seen by any acquaintance of Mrs. Mirvan. Thismorning Madame Duval, attended byall the Branghtons, actually went to a Justice in the neighbourhood, to report the Captain's ill-usage of her. I had great difficulty in excusing myself from being of the party, which would have given me very serious concern. Indeed, I was extremely anxious, though at home, till I heard the result of the application : for I dread to think of the uneasiness which such an affair would occasion the amiable Mrs. Mirvan. But, fortunately, Madame Duval has received very little encouragement to proceed in her design, for she has been informed that, as she neither heard the voice nor saw the face of the person suspected, she will find it 197 EVELINA difficult to cast him upon conjecture, and will have but little probability of gaining her cause, unless she can procure witnesses of the transaction. Mr. Branghton, therefore, who has considered all the circumstances of the affair, is of opinion that the law-suit will not only be expensive, but tedious and hazardous, and has advised against it. Madame Duval, though very unwillingly, has acquiesced in his decision ; but vows that if ever she is so affronted again, she will be revenged, even if she ruins herself. I am extremely glad that this ridiculous adventure seems now likely to end without more serious consequences. Adieu, my dearest Sir. My direction is at Mr. Dawkins's, a hosier in High Holborn. LETTER XLI EVELINA TO MISS MIRVAN June 7. I have no words, my sweet friend, to express the thankfulness I feel for the unbounded kindness which you, your dear mother, and the much -honoured Lady Howard have shown me ; and still less can I find language to tell you with what reluctance I parted from such dear and generous friends, whose goodness reflects, at once, so much honour on their own hearts, and on her to whom it has been so liberally bestowed. But I will not repeat what I have already written to the kind Mrs. Mirvan ; I will remember your admonitions, and confine to my own breast that gratitude with which you have filled it, and teach my pen to dwell upon subjects less painful to my generous correspondent. O Maria, London now seems no longer the same place where I lately enjoyed so much happiness ; everything is new and strange to me ; even the town itself has not the same aspect : — my situation so altered ! my home so different ! — my companions so changed ! — But you well know my aversehess to this journey. Indeed, to me, London now seems a desert ; that gay and busy appearance it so lately wore, is now succeeded by a look 198 EVELINA of gloom, fatigue, and lassitude ; the air seems stagnant, the heat is intense, the dust intolerable, and the inhabitants illiterate and under-bred. At least, such is the face of things in the part of the town where I at present reside. Tell me, my dear Maria, do you never retrace in your' memory the time we passed here when together ? to mine, it recurs for ever ! And yet, I think I rather recollect a dream, or some visionary fancy, than a reality. — That I should ever have been known to Lord Orville, — that I should have spoken to — have danced with him, — seems now a romantic illusion : and that elegant politeness, that flattering attention, that high- bred delicacy, which so much distinguished him above all other men, and which struck us with such admiration, I now retrace the remembrance of, rather as belonging to an object of ideal perfection, formed by my own imagination, than to a being of the same race and nature as those with whom I at present converse. — I have no news for you, my dear Miss Mirvan ; for all that I could venture to say of Madame Duval, I have already written to your sweet mother ; and as to adventures, I have none to record. Situated as I now am, I heartily hope I shall not meet with any ; my wish is to remain quiet and unnoticed. Adieu ! excuse the gravity of this letter, and believe me, — Your most sincerely affectionate and obliged Evelina Anville. LETTER XLII EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS IIOLBORN,y//;/<' 9. Yesterday morning, we received an invitation to dine and spend the day at Mr. Branghton's ; and M. Du Bois, who was also invited, called to conduct us to Snow Hill. Young Branghton received us at the door, and the first words he spoke were, ' Do you know, Sisters a'n't dressed yet ? ' Then hurrying us into the house, he said to me, ' Come, Miss, you shall go upstairs and catch 'em, — I daresay they're at the glass.' 199 EVELINA He would have taken my hand, but I declined this civility, and begged to follow Madame Duval. Mr. Branghton then appeared, and led the way himself. We went, as before, up two pair of stairs ; but the moment the father opened the door, the daughters both gave a loud scream. We all stopped, and then Miss Branghton called out, ' Lord, Papa, what do you bring the company up here for ? why, Polly and I a'n't half dressed.' 'More shame for you,' answered he, 'here's your aunt, and cousin, and M. Du Bois, all waiting, and ne'er a room to take them to.' ' Who'd have thought of their coming so soon ? ' cried she : ' Pm sure for my part I thought Miss was used to nothing but quality hours.' 'Why, I sha'n't be ready this half-hour yet,' said Miss Polly ; ' can't they stay in the shop till we're dressed ? ' Mr. Branghton was very angry, and scolded them violently ; however, we were obliged to descend, and stools were procured for us in the shop, where we found the brother, who was highly delighted, he said, that his sisters had been catchedj and he thought proper to entertain me with a long account of their tediousness, and the many quarrels they all had together. When, at length, these ladies were equipped to their satisfaction, they made their appearance ; but before any con- versation was suffered to pass between them and us, they had a long and most disagreeable dialogue with their father, to whose reprimands, though so justly incurred, they replied with the utmost pertness and rudeness, while their brother, all the time, laughed aloud. The moment they perceived this, they were so much pro- voked, that, instead of making any apologies to Madame Duval, they next began a quarrel with him. 'Tom, what do you laugh for ? I wonder what business you have to be always a-laughing when Papa scolds us.' 'Then what business have you to be such a while getting on your clothes ? You're never ready, you know well enough.' ' Lord, Sir, I wonder what's that to you ! I wish you'd mind your own affairs, and not trouble yourself about ours. How should a boy like you know anything ? ' 'A boy, indeed ! not such a boy, neither ; I'll warrant you'll be glad to be as young, when you come to be old maids.' 200 EVELINA This sort of dialogue we were amused with till dinner was ready, when we again mounted up two pair of stairs. In our way, Miss Polly told me that her sister had asked Mr. Smith for his room to dine in, but he had refused to lend it ; ' because,' she said, ' one day it happened to be a little greased : however, we shall have it to drink tea in, and then, perhaps, you may see him, and I assure you he's quite like one of the quality, and dresses as fine, and goes to balls and dances, and everything quite in taste ; — and besides, Miss, he keeps a foot-boy of his own, too.' The dinner was ill-served, ill-cooked, and ill-managed. The maid who waited had so often to go downstairs for something that was forgotten, that the Branghtons were perpetually obliged to rise from table themselves to get plates, knives and forks, bread or beer. Had they been without pretensions, all this would have seemed of no consequence ; but they aimed at appearing to advantage, and even fancied they succeeded. However, the most disagreeable part of our fare was, that the whole family continually disputed whose turn it was to rise, and whose to be allowed to sit still. When this meal was over, Madame Duval, ever eager to discourse upon her travels, entered into an argument with Mr. Branghton, and, in broken English, M. Du Bois, concerning the French nation : and Miss Polly, then addressing herself to me, said, ' Don't you think, Miss, it's very dull sitting upstairs here ? we'd better go down to shop, and then we shall see the people go by.' ' Lord, Poll,' said the brother, ' you're always wanting to be staring and gaping ; and I'm sure you needn't be so fond of showing yourself, for you're ugly enough to frighten a horse.' ' Ugly, indeed ! I wonder which is best, you or me. But, I tell you what, Tom, you've no need to give yourself such airs, for if you do, I'll tell Miss of you know what .' ' Who cares if you do ? you may tell what you will ; I don't mind .' ' Indeed,' cried I, ' I do not desire to hear any secrets.' ' O, but I'm resolved I'll tell you, because Tom's so very spiteful. You must know, Miss, t'other night — 'Poll,' cried the brother, 'if you tell of that, Miss shall know all about your meeting young Brown, — you know when ! — So I'll be quits with you, one way or another.' 20I EVELINA Miss Polly coloured, and again proposed our going down- stairs till Mr. Smith's room was ready for our reception. 'Aye, so we will,' said Miss Branghton ; 'I'll assure you, Cousin, we have some very genteel people pass by our shop sometimes. Polly and I always go and sit there when we've cleaned ourselves.' ' Yes, Miss,' cried the brother, ' they do nothing else all day long, when father don't scold them. But the best fun is, when they've got all their dirty things on, and all their hair about their ears, sometimes I send young Brown upstairs to them ; and then, there's such a fuss ! — there they hide themselves, and run away, and squeal and squall like anything mad : and -so then I puts the two cats into the room, and I gives 'em a good whipping, and so that sets them a-squalling too ; so there's such a noise, and such an uproar ! — Lord, you can't think, Miss, what fun it is ! ' This occasioned a fresh quarrel with the sisters ; at the end of which, it was, at length, decided that we should go to the shop. In our way downstairs. Miss Branghton said aloud, ' I wonder when Mr. Smith's room will be ready.' 'So do I,' answered Polly; 'I'm sure we should not do any harm to it now.' This hint had not the desired effect ; for we were suffered to proceed very quietly. As we entered the shop, I observed a young man, in deep mourning, leaning against the wall, with his arms folded, and his eyes fixed on the ground, apparently in profound and melancholy meditation : but the moment he perceived us he started, and, making a passing bow, very abruptly retired. As I found he was permitted to go quite unnoticed, I could not forbear inquiring who he was. 'Lord!' answered Miss Branghton, 'he's nothing but a poor Scotch poet.' ' For my part,' said Miss Polly, ' I believe he's just starved, for I don't find he has anything to live upon.' ' Live upon ! ' cried the brother, ' why he's a poet, you know, so he may live upon learning.' 'Aye, and good enough for him too,' said Miss Branghton, ' for he's as proud as he's poor.' ' Like enough,' replied the brother, ' but, for all that, you 202 ^T; In profound and melancholy meditation. EVELINA won't find he will live without meat and drink : no, no, catch a Scotchman at that if you can ! why, they only come here for what they can get.' ' I'm sure,' said Miss Branghton, ' I wonder Papa'll be such a fool as to let him stay in the house, for I daresay he 11 never pay for his lodging.' ' Why, no more he would if he could get another lodger : you know the bill's been put up this fortnight. Miss, if you should hear of a person that wants a room, I assure you it is a very good one, for all it's up three pair of stairs.' I answered, that as I had no acquaintance in London, I had not any chance of assisting them : but both my compassion and my curiosity were excited for this poor young man, and I asked them some further particulars concerning him. They then acquainted me that they had only known him three months. When he first lodged with them, he agreed to board also, but had lately told them he would eat by himself; though they all believed he had hardly ever tasted a morsel of meat since he left their table. They said that he had always appeared very low-spirited, but, for the last month, he had been duller than ever, and, all of a sudden, had put himself into mourning, though they knew not for whom, nor for what, but they supposed it was only for convenience, as no person had ever been to see or inquire for him since his residence amongst them : and they were sure he was very poor, as he had not paid for his lodgings the last three weeks : and finally, they concluded he was a poet, or else half-crazy, because they had, at different times, found scraps of poetry in his room. They then produced some unfinished verses, written on small pieces of paper, unconnected, and of a most melancholy cast. Among them was the fragment of an ode, which, at my request, they lent me to copy ; and, as you may perhaps like to see it, I will write it now. O LIFE ! thou lingering dream of grief, of pain. And every ill that Nature can sustain, Strange, mutable, and wild ! Now flattering with Hope most fair, Depressing now with fell Despair, The nurse of Guilt, the slave of Pride, That, like a wayward child, Who, to himself a foe, 204 EVELINA Sees joy alone in what's denied, In what is granted, woe ! O thou poor, feeble, fleeting pow'r, By Vice seduc'd, by Folly woo'd, By Mis'ry, Shame, Remorse, pursu'd ; And as thy toilsome steps proceed, Seeming to Youth the fairest flow'r, Proving to Age the rankest weed, A gilded, but a bitter pill, Of varied, great, and complicated ill ! These lines are harsh, but they indicate an internal wretchedness which, I own, affects me. Surely this young man must be involved in misfortunes of no common nature : but I cannot imagine what can induce him to remain with this unfeeling family, where he is most unworthily despised for being poor, and most illiberally detested for being a Scotchman. He may, indeed, have motives, which he cannot surmount, for submitting to such a situation. Whatever they are, I most heartily pity him, and cannot but wish it were in my power to afford him some relief. During this conversation, Mr. Smith's foot-boy came to Miss Branghton and informed her that his master said she might have the room now when she liked it, for that he was presently going out. This very genteel message, though it perfectly satisfied the Miss Branghtons, by no means added to my desire of being introduced to this gentleman : and upon their rising, with intention to accept his offer, I begged they would excuse my attending them, and said I would sit with Madame Duval till the tea was ready. I therefore once more went up two pair of stairs with young Branghton, who insisted upon accompanying me : and there we remained till Mr. Smith's foot-boy summoned us to tea, when I followed Madame Duval into the dining-room. The Miss Branghtons were seated at one window, and Mr. Smith was lolling indolently out of the other. The}- all approached us at our entrance, and Mr. Smith, probably to show he was master of the apartment, most officiously handed me to a great chair at the upper end of the room, without taking any notice of Madame Duval, till I rose and offered her my own seat. 205 Most officiously handed me to a great chair. EVELINA Leaving the rest of the company to entertain themselves, he, very abruptly, began to address himself to me, in a style of gallantry equally new and disagreeable to me. It is true, no man can possibly pay me greater compliments, or make more fine speeches, than Sir Clement Willoughby, yet his language, though too flowery, is always that of a gentleman, and his address and manners are so very superior to those of the inhabitants of this house, that to make any comparison between him and Mr. Smith would be extremely unjust. This latter seems very desirous of appearing a man of gaiety and spirit ; but his vivacity is so low-bred, and his whole behaviour so forward and disagreeable, that I should prefer the company of dul hie ss itself, even as that goddess is described by Pope, to that of this sprightly young man. He made many apologies that he had not lent his room for our dinner, which, he said, he should certainly have done had he seen me first ; and he assured me, that when I came again, he should be very glad to oblige me. I told him, and with sincerity, that every part of the house was equally indifferent to me. 'Why, Ma'am, the truth is, Miss Biddy and Polly take no care of anything, else, I'm sure, they should be always welcome to my room ; for I'm never so happy as in obliging the ladies, — that's my character, Ma'am : — but, really, the last time they had it, everything was made so greasy and so nasty, that, upon my word, to a man who wishes to have things a little genteel, it was quite cruel. Now, as to you, Ma'am, it's quite another thing ; for I should not mind if everything I had was spoilt, for the sake of having the pleasure to oblige you ; and, I assure you, Ma'am, it makes me quite happy that I have a room good enough to receive you.' This elegant speech was followed by many others, so much in the same style, that to write them would be superfluous ; and, as he did not allow me a moment to speak to any other person, the rest of the evening was consumed in a painful attention to this irksome young man, who seemed to intend appearing before me to the utmost advantage. Adieu, my dear Sir. I fear you will be sick of reading about this family : yet I must write of them, or not of any. since I mix with no other. Happy shall I be when I quit them all, and again return to Berry Hill ! 207 EVELINA LETTER XLIII EVELINA IX CONTINUATION" June io. This morning, Mr. Smith called, on purpose, he said, to offer me a ticket for the next Hampstead assembly. I thanked him, but desired to be excused accepting it ; he would not, however, be denied, nor answered ; and, in a manner both vehement and free, pressed and urged his offer till I was wearied to death : but, when he found me resolute, he seemed thunderstruck with amazement, and thought proper to desire I would tell him my reasons. Obvious as they must surely have been to any other person, they were such as I knew not how to repeat to him ; and when he found I hesitated, he said, ' Indeed, Ma'am, you are too modest ; I assure you the ticket is quite at your service, and I shall be very happy to dance with you ; so pray dont be so coy.' 'Indeed, Sir,' returned I, 'you are mistaken; I never supposed you would offer a ticket without wishing it should be accepted ; but it would answer no purpose to mention the reasons which make me decline it, since they cannot possibly be removed.' This speech seemed very much to mortify him, which I could not be concerned at, as I did not choose to be treated by him with so much freedom. When he was at last con- vinced that his application to me was ineffectual, he addressed himself to Madame Duval, and begged she would interfere in his favour, offering, at the same time, to procure another ticket for herself. ' Ma foi. Sir.' answered she, angrily, ' you might as well have had the complaisance to ask me before, for, I assure you, I don't approve of no such rudeness : however, you may keep your tickets to yourself, for we don't want none of 'em.' This rebuke almost overset him ; he made many apologies, and said that he should certainly have first applied to her, but that he had no notion the young lady would have refused him, and, on the contrary, had concluded that she would have assisted "him to persuade Madame Duval herself. 208 ' Pray don't 6e so coy.' EVELINA This excuse appeased her ; and he pleaded his cause so successfully, that, to my great chagrin, he gained it : and Madame Duval promised that she would go herself, and take me to the Hampstead assembly, whenever he pleased. Mr. Smith then, approaching me with an air of triumph, said, ' Well, Ma'am, now, I think, you can't possibly keep to your denial.' I made no answer, and he soon took leave, though not till he had so wonderfully gained the favour of Madame Duval, that she declared, when he was gone, he was the prettiest young man she had seen since she came to England. As soon as I could find an opportunity. I ventured, in the most humble manner, to entreat Madame Duval would not insist upon my attending her to this ball ; and represented to her, as well as I was able, the impropriety of my accepting any present from a young man so entirely unknown to me : but she laughed at my scruples, called me a foolish, ignorant country girl, and said she should make it her business to teach me something of the world. This ball is to be next week. I am sure it is not more improper for, than unpleasant to me. and I will use even- possible endeavour to avoid it. Perhaps I may apply to Miss Branghton for advice, as I believe she will be willing to assist me, from disliking, equally with myself, that I should dance with Mr. Smith. July ii. O, my dear Sir! I have been shocked to death ; — ami yet, at the same time, delighted beyond expression, in the hope that 1 have happily been the instrument of saving a human creature from destruction ! This morning, Madame Duval said she would invite the Branghton family to return our visit to-morrow ; and, not choosing to rise herself, — for she generally spends the morning in bed, — -she desired me to wait upon them with her message. M. Du Bois, who just then called, insisted upon attending me. Mr. Branghton was in the shop, and told us that his son and daughters were out : but desired me to step upstairs, as he very soon expected them home. This I did, leaving M. Du Bois below. I went into the room where we had dined the day before, and, by a wonderful chance, I happened so to seat • • 210 EVELINA myself, that I had a view of the stairs, and yet could not be seen from them. In about ten minutes time, I saw, passing by the door, with a look perturbed and affrighted, the same young man I mentioned in my last letter. Not heeding, as I suppose, how he went, in turning the corner of the stairs, which are narrow and winding, his foot slipped, and he fell, but almost instantly rising, I plainly perceived the end of a pistol, which started from his pocket, by hitting against the stairs. I was inexpressibly shocked. All that I had heard of his misery occurring to my memory, made me conclude that he was at that very moment meditating suicide ! Struck with the dreadful idea, all my strength seemed to fail me. He moved on slowly, yet I soon lost sight of him ; I sat motionless with terror ; all power of action forsook me, and I grew almost stiff with horror : till, recollecting that it was yet possible to prevent the fatal deed, all my faculties seemed to return with the hope of saving him. My first thought was to fly to Mr. Branghton, but I feared that an instant of time lost might for ever be rued ; and therefore, guided by the impulse of my apprehensions, as well as I was able, I followed him upstairs, stepping very softly, and obliged to support myself by the banisters. When I came within a few stairs of the landing-place, I stopped, for I could then see into his room, as he had not yet shut the door. He had put the pistol upon a table, and had his hand in his pocket, whence, in a few moments, he took out another. He then emptied something on the table from a small leather bag ; after which, taking up both the pistols, one in each hand, he dropped hastily upon his knees, and called out, ' O God ! — forgive me ! ' In a moment, strength and courage seemed lent me as by inspiration : I started, and rushing precipitately into the room, just caught his arm, and then, overcome by my own fears, . I fell down at his side, breathless and senseless. My recovery, however, was, I believe, almost instantaneous ; and then the sight of this unhappy man, regarding me with a look of. un- utterable astonishment, mixed with concern, presently restored to me my recollection. I arose, though with difficulty ; he did the same ; the pistols, as I soon saw. were both on the floor. 211 EVELINA Unwilling to leave them, and, indeed, too weak to move. I leant one hand on the table, and then stood perfectly still : while he, his eyes cast wildly towards me, seemed too infinitely amazed to be capable of either speech or action. I believe we were some minutes in this extraordinary situation ; but as my strength returned, I felt myself both ashamed and awkward, and moved towards the door. Pale, and motionless, he suffered me to pass, without changing his posture, or uttering a syllable ; and, indeed, He look'd a bloodless image of despair ! x When I reached the door, I turned round ; I looked fearfully at the pistols, and, impelled by an emotion I could not repress, I hastily stepped back, with an intention of carrying them away : but their wretched owner, perceiving my design, and recovering from his astonishment, darting suddenly down, seized them both himself. Wild with fright, and scarce knowing what I did, I caught, almost involuntarily, hold of both his arms, and exclaimed, ' O Sir ! have mercy on yourself!' The guilty pistols fell from his hands, which, disengaging from me, he fervently clasped, and cried, ' Sweet Heaven, is this thy angel ? ' Encouraged by such gentleness, I again attempted to take the pistols, but, with a look half frantic, he again prevented me, saying, ' What would you do ? ' 'Awaken you,' I cried, with a courage I now wonder at, ' to worthier thoughts, and rescue you from perdition.' I then seized the pistols ; he said not a word — he made no effort to stop me ; — I glided quick by him, and tottered down- stairs ere he had recovered from the cxtremest amazement. The moment I reached again the room I had so fearfully left, I threw away the pistols, and flinging myself on the first chair, gave free vent to the feelings I had most painfully stifled, in a violent burst of tears, which, indeed, proved a happy relief to me. In this situation I remained some time ; but when, at length, I lifted up my head, the first object I saw was the poor man who had occasioned my terror, standing, as if petrified, at the door, and gazing at me with eyes of wild wonder. 1 Pope's Iliad. 212 EVELINA I started from the chair, but trembled so excessively, that I almost instantly sank again into it. He then, though without advancing, and in a faltering voice, said, ' Whoever or what- ever you are, relieve me, I pray you, from the suspense under which my soul labours — and tell me if indeed I do not dream ! ' To this address, so singular and so solemn, I had not then the presence of mind to frame my answer : but, as I presently perceived that his eyes turned from me to the pistols, and that he seemed to intend regaining them, I exerted all my strength, and saying, ' O for Heaven's sake forbear ! ' I rose and took them myself. ' Do my senses deceive me ! ' cried he, ' do / live — ? and do you f ' As he spoke, he advanced towards me ! and I, still guarding the pistols, retreated, saying, ' No, no — you must not — must not have them ! ' ' Why — for what purpose, tell me ! — do you withhold them ? ' • To give you time to think, — to save you from eternal misery, — and, I hope, to reserve you for mercy and forgiveness.' ' Wonderful ! ' cried he, with uplifted hands and eyes, ' most wonderful ! ' For some time he seemed wrapped in deep thought, till a sudden noise of tongues below announcing the approach of the Branghtons, made him start from his reverie: he sprang hastily forvvard, — dropped on one knee, — caught hold of my gown, which he pressed to his lips, and then, quick as lightning, he rose, and flew upstairs to his own room. There was something in the whole of this extraordinary and shocking adventure, really too affecting to be borne ; and so entirely had I spent my spirits and exhausted my courage, that, before the Branghtons reached me, I had sunk on the ground, without sense or motion. I believe I must have been a very horrid sight to them, on their entrance into the room ; for, to all appearance, I seemed to have suffered a violent death, either by my own rashness, or the cruelty of some murderer, as the pistols had fallen close by my side. How soon I recovered I know not, but probably I was more indebted to the loudness of their cries than to their assistance ; for they all concluded that I was dead, and, for some time, did not make any effort to revive me. 213 EVELINA Scarcely could I recollect where, or, indeed what, I was, ere they poured upon me such a torrent of questions and inquiries, that I was almost stunned with their vociferation. However, as soon and as well as I was able, I endeavoured to satisfy their curiosity, by recounting what had happened as clearly as was in my power. They all looked aghast at the recital, but. not being well enough to enter into any discussions, I begged to have a chair called, and to return instantly home. Before I left them, I recommended, with great earnestness, a vigilant observance of their unhappy lodger, and that they would take care to keep from him, if possible, all means of self-destruction. M. Du Bois, who seemed extremely concerned at my indisposition, walked by the side of the chair, and saw me safe to my own apartment. The rashness and the misery of this ill-fated young man engross all my thoughts. If, indeed, he is bent upon destroying himself, all efforts to save him will be fruitless. How much do I wish it were in my power to discover the nature of the malady which thus maddens him, and to offer or to procure alleviation to his sufferings ! I am sure, my dearest Sir, you will be much concerned for this poor man, and were you here, I doubt not but you would find some method of awakening him from the error which blinds him, and of pouring the balm of peace and comfort into his afflicted soul ! LETTER XLIV EVELINA IX CONTINUATION HOLBORN, ./»«« 13. Yesterday all the Branghtons dined here. Our conversation was almost wholly concerning the adventure of the day before. Mr. Branghton said that his first thought was instantly to turn his lodger out of doors, ' lest,' continued he, ' his killing himself in my house should bring me into any trouble ; but then, I was afraid I should never get the money he owes me, whereas, if he dies in my house, I have a right to all he leaves behind him, if he goes off in my debt. Indeed, - '4 M. Du Boh walked by the side of the chair. EVELINA I would put him in prison, — but what should I get by that ? he could not earn anything there to pay me. So I considered about it some time, and then I determined to ask him, point- blank, for my money out of hand. And so I did, but he told me he'd pay me next week : however, I gave him to under- stand that, though I was no Scotchman, yet I did not like to be over-reached any more than he ; so then he gave me a ring, which, to my certain knowledge, must be worth ten guineas, and told me he would not part with it for his life, and a good deal more such sort of stuff, but that I might keep it till he could pay me.' ' It is ten to one, father,' said young Branghton, ' if he came fairly by it.' 4 Very likely not,' answered he, ' but that will make no great difference; for I shall be able to prove my right to it all one.' What principles ! I could hardly stay in the room. ' I'm determined,' said the son, ' I'll take some opportunity to affront him soon, now I know how poor he is, because of the airs he gave himself to me when he first came.' ' And pray how was that, child ? ' said Madame Duval. ' Why, you never knew such a fuss in your life as he made, because, one day at dinner, I only happened to say, that I supposed he had never got such a good meal in his life, before he came to England : there he fell in such a passion as you can't think ; but, for my part, I took no notice of it, for to be sure, thinks I, he must needs be a gentleman, or he'd never go to be so angry about it. However, he won't put his tricks upon me again in a hurry.' 4 Well,' said Miss Polly, 4 he's grown quite another creature to what he was, and he doesn't run away from us, nor hide himself, nor anything ; and he's as civil as can be, and he's always in the shop, and he saunters about the stairs, and he looks at everybody as comes in.' 'Why, you may see what he's after plain enough,' said Mr. Branghton ; 4 he wants to see Miss again.' 4 Ha, ha, ha! Lord, how I should laugh,' said the son, 'if he should have fell in love with Miss !' 4 I'm sure,' said Miss Branghton, 4 Miss is welcome ; but, for my part, I should be quite ashamed of such a beggarly conquest.' 216 EVELINA Such was the conversation till tea-time, when the appear- ance of Mr. Smith gave a new turn to the discourse. Miss Branghton desired me to remark with what a smart air he entered the room, and asked me if he had not very much a quality look ? ' Come,' cried he, advancing to us, ' you ladies must not sit together ; wherever I go, I always make it a rule to part the ladies.' And then, handing Miss Branghton to the next chair, he seated himself between us. ' Well, now ladies, I think we sit very well. What say you ? for my part, I think it was a very good motion.' ' If my cousin likes it,' said Miss Branghton, ' I'm sure I've no objection.' ' O,' cried he, ' I always study what the ladies like, — that's my first thought. And, indeed, it is but natural that you should like best to sit by the gentlemen, for what can you find to say to one another ? ' ' Say ? ' cried young Branghton, ' O, never you think of that, they'll find enough to say, I'll be sworn. You know the women are never tired of talking.' ' Come, come, Tom,' said Mr. Smith, ' don't be severe upon the ladies ; when I'm by, you know, I always take their part.' Soon after, when Miss Branghton offered me some cake, this man of gallantry said, ' Well, if I was that lady, I'd never take anything from a woman.' 'Why not, Sir?' ' Because I should be afraid of being poisoned for being so handsome.' •Who is severe upon the ladies now?' said I. ' Why, really, Ma'am, it was a slip of the tongue ; I did not intend to say such a thing ; but one can't always be on one's guard.' Soon after, the conversation turning upon public places, young Branghton asked if I had ever been to George's at Hampstead ? ' ' Indeed I never heard the place mentioned.' 'Didn't you, Miss ?' cried he, eagerly, 'why then you've a deal of fun to come, I'll promise you ; and, I tell you what, I'll treat you there some Sunday soon. So now, Bid and Poll, be sure you don't tell Miss about the chairs, and all that, for 217 ... ' Well, new, ladies, I think -wc sit very well' EVELINA I've a mind to surprise her ; and if I pay, I think I've a right to have it my own way.' 'George's at Hampstead ! ' repeated Mr. Smith, con- temptuously, ' how came you to think the young lady would like to go to such a low place as that ! But, pray, Ma'am, have you ever been to Don Saltero's at Chelsea ? ' 'No, Sir.' ' No ! — nay, then, I must insist on having the pleasure of conducting you there before long. I assure you, Ma'am, many genteel people go, or else, I give you my word, / should not recommend it.' 'Pray, Cousin,' said Mr. Branghton, 'have you been at Sadler's Wells yet ?' ' No, Sir.' ' No ! why then you've seen nothing ! ' ' Pray, Miss,' said the son, ' how do you like the Tower of London ! ' ' I have never been to it, Sir.' ' Goodness ! ' exclaimed he, ' not seen the Tower ! — why may be you ha'n't been o' top of the Monument, neither ? ' ' No, indeed, I have not.' ' Why then you might as well not have come to London, for aught I see, for you've been nowhere.' ' Pray, Miss,' said Polly, ' have you been all over Paul's Church, yet ? ' ' No, Ma'am.' 'Well, but, Ma'am,' said Mr. Smith, 'how do you like Vauxhall and Marybone ? ' ' I never saw either, Sir.' 'No — God bless me! — you really surprise me, — why Vauxhall is the first pleasure in life ! — I know nothing like it. — Well, Ma'am, you must have been with strange people, indeed, not to have taken you to Vauxhall. Why, you have seen nothing of London yet. — However, we must try if ive can't make you amends.' In the course of this catechism^ many other places were mentioned, of which I have forgotten the names ; but the looks of surprise and contempt that my repeated negatives incurred, were very diverting. 'Come,' said Mr. Smith, after tea, 'as this lady has been with such a queer set of people, let's show her the difference ; 219 EVELINA suppose we go somewhere to-night ! — I love to do things with spirit ! — Come, ladies, where shall we go ? F or my part, I should like Foote's, — but the ladies must choose ; I never speak myself.' 'Well, Mr. Smith is always in such spirits!' said Miss Branghton. ' Why, yes, Ma'am, yes, thank God, pretty good spirits ; — ■ I have not yet the cares of the world upon me, — I am not married, — ha, ha, ha, — you'll excuse me, ladies, — but I can't help laughing ! ' NO objection being made, to my great relief we all pro- ceeded to the little theatre in the Haymarket, where I was extremely entertained by the performance of the Minor and the Commissary. They all returned hither to supper. LETTER XLV EVELINA IX CONTINUATION June 15. Yesterday morning Madame Duval again sent me to Mr. Branghton's, attended by M. Du Bois, to make some party for the evening ; because she had had the vapours the preceding day, from staying at home. As I entered the shop, I perceived the unfortunate North Briton seated in a corner, with a book in his hand. He cast his melancholy eyes up as we came in, and, I believe, immediately recollected my face, for he started and changed colour. I delivered Madame Duval's message to Mr. Branghton, who told me I should find Polly upstairs, but that the others were gone out. Upstairs, therefore. I went ; and, seated on a window, with Mr. Brown at her side, sat Miss Polly. I felt a little awkward at disturbing them, and much more so at their behaviour afterwards ; for, as soon as the common inquiries were over, Mr. Brown grew so fond, and so foolish, that I was extremely disgusted. Polly all the time only rebuked him with ' La, now, Mr. Brown, do be quiet, can't you? — you should not 220 Sealed on a window with Mr. Brown. EVELINA behave so before company. — Why, now, what will Miss think of me ? ' — while her looks plainly showed not merely the pleasure, but the pride, which she took in his caresses. I did not, by any means, think it necessary to punish myself by witnessing their tenderness, and, therefore, telling them I would see if Miss Branghton were returned home, I soon left them, and again descended into the shop. 'So, Miss, you've come again/ said Mr. Branghton, 'what, I suppose, you've a mind to sit a little in the shop, and see how the world goes, hey, Miss ?' I made no answer, and M. Du Bois instantly brought me a chair. The unhappy stranger, who had risen at my entrance, again seated himself; and, though his head leant towards his book, I could not help observing that his eyes were most intently and earnestly turned towards me. M. Du Bois, as well as his broken English would allow him, endeavoured to entertain us till the return of Miss Branghton and her brother. ' Lord, how tired I am ! ' cried the former, ' I have not a foot to stand upon.' And then, without any ceremony, she flung herself into the chair from which I had risen to receive her. ' You tired ! ' said the brother, ' why, then, what must I be, that have walked twice as far ? ' And, with equal politeness, he paid the same compliment to M. Du Bois which his sister had done to me. Two chairs and three stools completed the furniture of the shop, and Mr. Branghton, who chose to keep his own seat himself, desired M. Du Bois to take another ; and then, seeing that I was without any, called out to the stranger, 'Come, Mr. Macartney, lend us your stool.' Shockedat their rudeness, I declined theoffer, andapproaching Miss Branghton, said, w If you will be so good as to make room for me on your chair, there will be no occasion to disturb that gentleman.' 'Lord, what signifies that ?' cried the brother, 'he has had his share of sitting, I'll be sworn.' ' And if he has not,' said the sister, ' he has a chair upstairs ; and the shop is our own, I hope.' This grossness so much disgusted me. that I took the stool, ?22 EVELINA and carrying it back to Mr. Macartney myself, I returned him thanks, as civilly as I could, for his politeness, but said that I had rather stand. He looked at me as if unaccustomed to such attention, bowed very respectfully, but neither spoke nor yet made use of it. I soon found that I was an object of derision to all present, except M. Du Bois, and, therefore, I begged Mr. Branghton would give me an answer for Madame Duval, as I was in haste to return. ' Well, then, Tom, — Biddy, — where have you a mind to go to-night ? your Aunt and Miss want to be abroad and amongst them.' 'Why then, Papa,' said Miss Branghton, 'we'll go to Don Saltero's. Mr. Smith likes that place, so may be he'll go along with us.' ' Xo, no,' said the son, ' I'm for White-Conduit House ; so let's go there.' 'White-Conduit House, indeed ! ' cried his sister, 'no, Tom, that I won't.' ' Why then let it alone ; nobody wants your company ; — we shall do as well without you, I'll be sworn, and better too.' ' I'll tell you what, Tom, if you don't hold your tongue, I'll make you repent it, — that I assure you.' Just then, Mr. Smith came into the shop, which he seemed to intend passing through ; but when he saw me, he stopped and began a most courteous inquiry after my health, protesting that, had he known I was there, he" should have come down sooner. 'But, bless me, Ma'am,' added he, 'what is the reason you stand ?' and then he flew to bring me the seat from which I had just parted. ' Mr. Smith, you are come in very good time,' said Mr. Branghton, ' to end a dispute between my son and daughter, about where they shall all go to-night.' 'O fie, Tom, — dispute with a lady!' cried Mr. Smith; 'now, as for me, I'm for where you will, provided this young lady is of the party, — one place is the same as another to me, so that it be but agreeable to the ladies, — I would go anywhere with you. Ma'am,' (to me) 'unless, indeed, it were to church; — ha, ha, ha, — you'll excuse me, Ma'am, but, really, I never could conquer my fear of a parson ; — ha, ha, ha, — really, ladies, 223 EVELINA I beg your pardon for being so rude, but I can't help laughing for my life ! ' ' I was just saying, Mr. Smith,' said Miss Branghton, 'that I should like to go to Don Saltero's ; — now pray where should you like to go ? ' 'Why really, Miss Biddy, you know I always let the ladies decide; I never fix anything myself; but I should suppose it would be rather hot at the coffee-house, — however, pray ladies, settle it among yourselves, — I'm agreeable to whatever you choose.' It was easy for me to discover, that this man, with all his parade of conformity, objects to everything that is not proposed by himself: but he is so much admired, by this family, for his gentility, that he thinks himself a complete fine gentleman ! ' Come,' said Mr. Branghton, ' the best way will be to put it to the vote, and then everybody will speak their minds. Biddy, call Poll downstairs. We'll start fair.' 'Lord, Papa,' said Miss Branghton, 'why can't you as well send Tom ? — you're always sending me of the errands.' A dispute then ensued, but Miss Branghton was obliged to yield. When Mr. Brown and Miss Polly made their appearance, the latter uttered many complaints of having been called, saying she did not want to come, and was very well where she was. 'Now, ladies, your votes,' cried Mr. Smith; 'and so, Ma'am,' (to me) 'we'll begin with you. What place shall you like best ? ' and then, in a whisper, he added, ' I assure you, I shall say the same as you do, whether I like it or not.' I said, that as I was ignorant what choice was in my power, I must beg to hear their decisions first. This was reluctantly assented to ; and then Miss Branghton voted for Saltero's Coffee-house ; her sister, for a party to Mother Red Caps J the brother, for White Conduit-House; Mr. Brown, for Bagnigge Wells ; Mr. Branghton for Sadler's Wells ; and Mr. Smith for Vauxhall. 'Well now, Ma'am,' said Mr. Smith, 'we have all spoken, and so you must give the casting vote. Come, what will you fix upon ? ' ' Sir,' answered I, ' I was to speak iastJ 'Well, so you will,' said Miss Branghton, 'for we've all spoke first.' 224 EVELINA ' Pardon me,' returned I, ' the voting has not yet been quite general.' And I looked towards Mr. Macartney, to whom I wished extremely to show that I was not of the same brutal nature with those by whom he was treated so grossly. • Why, pray,' said Mr. Branghton, ' who have we left out ? would you have the cats and dogs vote ? ' ' No, Sir,' cried I, with some spirit, ' I would have that gentleman vote, — if, indeed, he is not superior to joining our party.' They all looked at me, as if they doubted whether or not they had heard me right : but, in a few moments, their surprise gave way to a rude burst of laughter. Very much displeased, I told M. Du Bois that if he was not ready to go, I would have a coach called for myself. yes, he said, he was always ready to attend me. Mr. Smith then advancing, attempted to take my hand, and begged me not to leave them till I had settled the evening's plan. 'I have nothing, Sir,' said I, 'to do with it, as it is my intention to stay at home; and therefore Mr. Branghton will be so good as to send Madame Duval word what place is fixed upon, when it is convenient to him.' And then, making a slight curtsy, I left them. How much does my disgust for these people increase my pity for poor Mr. Macartney ! I will not see them when I can avoid so doing ; but I am determined to take every opportunity in my power to show civility to this unhappy man, whose misfortunes, with this family, only render him an object of scorn. I was, however, very well pleased with M. Du Bois, who, far from joining in their mirth, expressed himself extremely shocked at their ill-breeding. We had not walked ten yards before we were followed by Mr. Smith, who came to make excuses, and to assure me they were only joking, and hoped I took nothing ill, for, if I did, he would make a quarrel of it himself with the Branghtons, rather than I should receive any offence. 1 begged him not to take any trouble about so immaterial an affair, and assured him I should not myself. He was so officious, that he would not be prevailed upon to return home till he had walked with us to Mr. Dawkins's. 225 Q We wereforiowed by Mr. Smith, who came to make « EVELINA Madame Duval was very much displeased that I brought her so little satisfaction. White-Conduit House was, at last, fixed upon ; and, notwithstanding my great dislike of such parties and such places, I was obliged to accompany them. Very disagreeable, and much according to my expectations, the evening proved. There were many people, all smart and gaudy, and so pert and low-bred, that I could hardly endure being amongst them ; but the party to which, unfortunately, I belonged, seemed all at home. LETTER XLVI EVELINA IN CONTINUATION HoLBORX,y>c;/t' 17. Yesterday Mr. Smith carried his point of making a party for Vauxhall, consisting of Madame Duval, M. Du Bois, all the Branghtons, Mr. Brown, himself, — and me ! — for I rind all endeavours vain to escape anything which these people desire I should not. There were twenty disputes previous to our setting out ; first, as to the time of our going : Mr. Branghton, his son, and young Brown, were for six o'clock ; and all the ladies and Mr. Smith were for eight ; — the latter, however, conquered. Then, as to the way we should go ; some were for a boat, others for a coach, and Mr. Branghton himself was for walking : but the boat, at length, was decided upon. Indeed, this was the only part of the expedition that was agreeable to me, for the Thames was delightfully pleasant. The Garden is very pretty, but too formal ; I should have been better pleased, had it consisted less of straight walks, where Grove nods at grove, each alley has its brother. The trees, the numerous lights, and the company in the circle round the orchestra make a most brilliant and gay appearance ; and, had I been with a party less disagreeable to me, I should have thought it a place formed for animation and pleasure. There was a concert, in the course of which, a hautbois EVELINA concerto was so charmingly played, that I could have thought myself upon enchanted ground, had I had spirits more gentle to associate with. The hautbois in the open air is heavenly. Mr. Smith endeavoured to attach himself to me, with such officious assiduity, and impertinent freedom, that he quite sickened me. Indeed, M. Du Bois was the only man of the party to whom, voluntarily, I ever addressed myself. He is civil and respectful, and I have found nobody else so since I left Howard Grove. His English is very bad, but I prefer it to speaking French myself, which I dare not venture to do. I converse with him frequently, both to disengage myself from others and to oblige Madame Duval, who is always pleased when he is attended to. As we were walking about the orchestra, I heard a bell ring, and, in a moment, Mr. Smith, flying up to me, caught my hand, and, with a motion too quick to be resisted, ran away with me many yards before I had breath to ask his meaning, though I struggled as well as I could to get from him. At last, however, I insisted upon stopping : ' Stopping, Ma'am ! ' cried he, ' why, we must run on, or we shall lose the cascade.' And then again, he hurried me away, mixing with a crowd of people, all running with so much velocity, that I could not imagine what had raised such an alarm. We were soon followed by the rest of the party ; and my surprise and ignor- ance proved a source of diversion to them all, which was not exhausted the whole evening. Young Branghton, in particular, laughed till he could hardly stand. The scene of the cascade I thought extremely pretty, and the general effect striking and lively. But this was not the only surprise which was to divert them at my expense ; for they led me about the garden, purposely to enjoy my first sight of various other deceptions. About ten o'clock, Mr. Smith having chosen a box in a very conspicuous place, we all went to supper. Much fault was found with everything that was ordered, though not a morsel of anything was left ; and the dearness of the pro- visions, with conjectures upon what profit was made by them, supplied discourse during the whole meal. When wine and cyder were brought, Mr. Smith said, ' Now 228 Mr. Smith ran away with inc. EVELINA let"s enjoy ourselves ; now is the time, or never. Well, Ma'am, and how do you like Yauxhall ? ' ' Like it ! ' cried young Branghton, ' why, how can she help liking it ? she has never seen such a place before, that I'll answer for.' ' For my part,' said Miss Branghton, ' I like it because it is not vulgar.' 'This must have been a fine treat for you, Miss,' said Mr. Branghton ; ' why, I suppose you was never so happy in all your life before ? ' I endeavoured to express my satisfaction with some pleasure, yet I believe they were much amazed at my coldness. ' Miss ought to stay in town till the last night,' said young Branghton, 'and then, it's my belief, she'd say something to it ! Why, Lord, it's the best night of any ; there's always a riot, — and there the folks run about, — and then there's such squealing and squalling ! — and there all the lamps are broke, — and the women run skimper scamper ; — I declare I would not take five guineas to miss the last night '. ' I was very glad when they all grew tired of sitting, and called for the waiter to pay the bill. The Miss Branghtons said they would walk on while the gentlemen settled the account, and asked me to accompany them, which, however, I declined. ' You girls may do as you please,' said Madame Duval, ' but as to me, I promise you I sha'n't go nowhere without the gentlemen.' ' No more, I suppose, will my Cousin,'' said Miss Branghton, looking reproachfully towards Mr. Smith. This reflection, which I feared would flatter his vanity, made me, most unfortunately, request Madame Duval's per- mission to attend them. She granted it, and away we went, having promised to meet in the room. To the room, therefore, I would immediately have gone : but the sisters agreed that they would first have a little pleasure, and they tittered, and talked so loud, that they attracted uni- versal notice. ' Lord, Polly,' said the eldest, ' suppose we were to take a turn in the dark walks ! ' ' Aye, do,' answered she, ' and then we'll hide ourselves, and then Mr. Brown will think we are lost.' I remonstrated very warmly against this plan, telling them 2^0 EVELINA that it would endanger our missing the rest of the party all the evening. ' O dear,' cried Miss Branghton, ' I thought how uneasy Miss would be without a beau ! ' This impertinence I did not think worth answering ; and, quite by compulsion, I followed them down a long alley, in which there was hardly any light. By the time we came near the end, a large party of gentle- men, apparently very riotous, and who were hallooing, leaning on one another, and laughing immoderately, seemed to rush suddenly from behind some trees, and, meeting us face to face, put their arms at their sides, and formed a kind of circle, which first stopped our proceeding, and then our retreating, for we were presently entirely enclosed. The Miss Branghtons screamed aloud, and I was frightened exceedingly : our screams were answered with bursts of laughter, and, for some minutes, we were kept prisoners, till, at last, one of them, rudely seizing hold of me, said I was a pretty little creature. Terrified to death, I struggled with such vehemence to disengage myself from him, that I succeeded, in spite of his efforts to detain me ; and immediately, and with a swiftness which fear only could have given me, I flew rather than ran up the walk, hoping to secure my safety by returning to the lights and company we had so foolishly left : but before I could possibly accomplish my purpose, I was met by another party of men, one of whom placed himself so directly in my way, calling out, 'Whither so fast, my love?' — that I could only have proceeded, by running into his arms. In a moment, both my hands, by different persons, were caught hold of; and one of them, in a most familiar manner, desired, when I ran next, to accompany me in a race ; while the rest of the party stood still and laughed. I was almost distracted with terror, and so breathless with running, that I could not speak, till another advancing, said, I was as handsome as an angel, and desired to be of the party. I then just articulated, 'For Heaven's sake, Gentlemen, let me pass ! ' Another, then, rushing suddenly forward, exclaimed, 'Heaven and earth ! what voice is that ?' 'The voice of the prettiest little actress I have seen this age,' answered one of my persecutors. 2% T ... . c3^fk///£ l8. Madame Duval rose very late this morning, and, at one o'clock, we had but just breakfasted, when Miss Branghton, her brother, Mr. Smith, and Monsieur Du Bois, called to inquire after our healths. This civility in young Branghton, I much suspect, was 246 EVELINA merely the result of his father's commands ; but his sister and Mr. Smith, I soon found, had motives of their own. Scarce had they spoken to Madame Duval, when, advancing eagerly to me, 'Pray, Ma'am,' said Mr. Smith, 'who was that gentle- man ? ' 'Pray, Cousin," cried Miss Branghton, 'was not he the same gentleman you ran away with that night at the opera?' ' Goodness ! that he was,' said young Branghton ; ' and, I declare, as soon as ever I saw him, I thought I knew his face.' ' I'm sure I'll defy you to forget him,' answered his sister, ' if once you had seen him : he is the finest gentleman I ever saw in my life ; don't you think so, Mr. Smith ?' ' Why, you won't give the lady time to speak,' said Mr. Smith. ' Pray, Ma'am, what is the gentleman's name ? ' ' Willoughby, Sir.' ' Willoughby ! I think I have heard the name. Pray, Ma'am, is he married ? ' ' Lord, no, that he is not,' cried Miss Branghton ; 'he looks too smart, by a great deal, for a married man. Pray, Cousin, how did you get acquainted with him ? ' ' Pray, Miss,' said young Branghton, in the same breath, ' what's his business ? ' 'Indeed I don't know,' answered I. ' Something very genteel, I daresay,' added Miss Branghton, ' because he dresses so fine.' ' It ought to be something that brings in a good income,' said Mr. Smith, 'for I'm sure he did not get that suit of clothes he had on under thirty or forty pounds ; for I know the price of clothes pretty well ; — pray, Ma'am, can you tell me what he has a year ? ' ' Don't talk no more about him,' cried Madame Duval, ' for I don't like to hear his name ; I believe he's one of the worst persons in the world ; for though I never did him no manner of harm, nor so much as hurt a hair of his head, I know he was an accomplice with that fellow, Captain Mirvan, to take away my life.' Everybody but myself now crowding around her for an explanation, a violent rapping at the street-door was unheard ; and, without any previous notice, in the midst of her narration, Sir Clement Willoughby entered the room. They all started, and, with looks of guilty confusion, as if they feared his re- 247 EVELINA sentment for having listened to Madame Duval, they scrambled for chairs, and in a moment were all formally seated. Sir Clement, after a general bow, singling out Madame Duval, said, with his usual easiness, ' I have done myself the honour of waiting on you, Madam, to inquire if you have any commands to Howard Grove, whither I am going to-morrow morning.' Then, seeing the storm that gathered in her eyes, before he allowed her time to answer, he addressed himself to me : — ' And if you, Madam, have any with which you will honour me, I shall be happy to execute them.' ' None at all, Sir.' ' None ! — not to Miss Mirvan ! — no message ! no letter ! ' ' I wrote to Miss Mirvan yesterday by the post.' ' My application should have been earlier, had I sooner known your address.' ' Ma/oi,' cried Madame Duval, recovering from her surprise, ' I believe never nobody saw the like of this ! ' ' Of what ! Madam ? ' cried the undaunted Sir Clement, turning quick towards her, ' I hope no one has offended you ? ' ' You don't hope no such a thing ! ' cried she, half choked with passion, and rising from her chair. This motion was followed by the rest, and, in a moment, everybody stood up. Still Sir Clement was not abashed ; affecting to make a bow of acknowledgment to the company in general, he said, 'Pray — I beg — ladies, — gentlemen, — pray don't let me disturb you, pray keep your seats.' ' Pray, Sir,' said Miss Branghton, moving a chair towards him, 'won't you sit down yourself?' ' You are extremely good, Ma'am — rather than make any disturbance.' And so saying, this strange man seated himself, as did, in an instant, everybody else, even Madame Duval herself, who, overpowered by his boldness, seemed too full for utterance. He then, and with as much composure as if he had been an expected guest, began to discourse on the weather ; — its uncertainty, — the heat of the public places in summer, — the emptiness of the town, — and other such common topics. Nobody, however, answered him ; Mr. Smith seemed afraid, young Branghton ashamed, M. Du Bois amazed, Madame 248 i - I Sir, won't you sit down yourself 1 • EVELINA Duval enraged, and myself determined not to interfere. All that he could obtain was the notice of Miss Branghton, whose nods, smiles, and attention had some appearance of entering into conversation with him. At length, growing tired, I suppose, of engaging everybody's eyes and nobody's tongue, addressing himself to Madame Duval and to me, he said, ' I regard myself as peculiarly unfortunate, ladies, in having fixed upon a time for my visit to Howard Grove when you are absent from it.' ' So I suppose, Sir, so I suppose,' cried Madame Duval, hastily rising, and the next moment as hastily seating herself, — ' you'll be a-wanting of somebody to make your game of, and so you may think to get me there again ; — but I promise you, Sir, you won't find it so easy a matter to make me a fool : and besides that,' raising her voice, ' I've found you out, I assure you ; so if ever you go to play your tricks upon me again, I'll make no more ado, but go directly to a justice of peace ; so, Sir, if you can't think of nothing but making people ride about the country, at all hours of the night, just for your diversion, why you'll find I know some justices, as well ;tb Justice Tyrrel. 1 Sir Clement was evidently embarrassed at this attack ; yet he affected a look of surprise, and protested he did not under- stand her meaning. ' Well,' cried she, ' if I don't wonder where people can get such impudence ! if you'll say that, you'll say anything ; how- ever, if you swear till you're black in the face, I sha'n't believe you ; for nobody sha'n't persuade me out of my senses, that I'm resolved.' ' Doubtless not, Madam,' answered he with some hesitation, ' and I hope you do not suspect I ever had such an intention ; my respect for you ' ' O Sir, you're vastly polite, all of a sudden ! but I know what it's all for ; — it's only for what you can get ! — you could treat me like nobody at Howard Grove — but now you see I've a house of my own, you've a mind to wheedle yourself into it ; but I sees your design, so you needn't trouble yourself to take no more trouble about that, for you shall never get nothing at my house, — not so much as a dish of tea — so now, Sir, you see I can play you trick for trick.' There was something so extremely gross in this speech, 250 EVELINA that it even disconcerted Sir Clement, who was too much confounded to make any answer. It was curious to observe the effect which his embarrass- ment, added to the freedom with which Madame Duval addressed him, had upon the rest of the company : every one, who before seemed at a loss how, or if at all, to occupy a chair, now filled it with the most easy composure : and Mr. Smith, whose countenance had exhibited the most striking- picture of mortified envy, now began to recover his usual expression of satisfied conceit. Young Branghton, too, who had been apparently awed by the presence of so fine a gentle- man, was again himself, rude and familiar ; while his mouth was wide distended into a broad grin, at hearing his aunt give the beau such a trimming. Madame Duval, encouraged by this success, looked around her with an air of triumph, and continued her harangue : ' And so. Sir, I suppose you thought to have had it all your own way, and to have corned here as often as you pleased, and to have got me to Howard Grove again, on purpose to have served me as you did before.; but you shall see I'm as cunning as you, so you may go and find somebody else to use in that manner, and to put your mask on, and to make a fool of; for as to me, if you go to tell me your stories about the Tower again, for a month together, I'll never believe 'em no more ; and I'll promise you, Sir, if you think I like such jokes, you'll find I'm no such person.' ' I assure you, Ma'am, — upon my honour — I really don't comprehend — I fancy there is some misunderstanding.' ' What, I suppose you'll tell me next you don't know nothing of the matter ? ' 1 Not a word, upon my honour.' O Sir Clement ! thought I, is it thus you prize your honour ! • 1'iirdi,' cried Madame Duval, ' this is the most provokingest part of all ! why, you might as well tell me I don't know my own name.' ' Here is certainly some mistake ; for I assure you. Ma'am ' 'Don't assure me nothing,' cried Madame Duval, raising her voice, ' I know what I'm saying, and so do you too ; for did not you tell me all that about the Tower, and about M. -5 1 EVELINA Uu Bois ? — why M. Du Bois wasn't never there, nor nigh it, and so it was all your own invention.' ' May there not be two persons of the same name ? the mistake was but natural.' ' Don't tell me of no mistake, for it was all on purpose ; besides, did not you come, all in a mask, to the chariot-door, and help to get me put in that ditch ? — I'll promise you, I've had the greatest mind in the world to take the law of you ever since, and if ever you do as much again, so I will, I assure you 1 ' Here Miss Branghton tittered ; Mr. Smith smiled con- temptuously, and young Branghton thrust his handkerchief into his mouth to stop his laughter. The situation of Sir Clement, who saw all that passed, became now very awkward, even to himself, and he stammered very much in saying, ' Surely, Madam — surely you — you can- not do me the — the injustice to think — that I had any share in the — the — the misfortune which ' 1 Ma/oi, Sir,' cried Madame Duval, with increasing passion, ' you'd best not stand talking to me at that rate : I know it was you, — and if you stay there, a-provoking me in such a manner, I'll send for a constable this minute.' Young Branghton, at these words, in spite of all his efforts, burst into a loud laugh ; nor could either his sister, or Mr. Smith, though with more moderation, forbear joining in his mirth. Sir Clement darted his eyes towards them with looks of the most angry contempt, and then told Madame Duval that he would not now detain her to make his vindication, but would wait on her some time when she was alone. ' O fiardi, Sir,' cried she, ' I don't desire none of your company ; and if you wasn't the most boldest person in the world, you would not dare look me in the face.' The ha, ha, ha's, and he, he, he's, grew more and more uncontrolable, as if the restraint from which they had burst had added to their violence. Sir Clement could no longer endure being the object who excited them, and, having no answer ready for Madame Duval, he hastily stalked towards Mr. Smith and young Branghton, and sternly demanded what they laughed at ? Struck by the air of importance which he assumed, and 252 Young Branghton bunt into a loud taugh. EVELINA alarmed at the angry tone of his voice, their merriment ceased as instantaneously as if it had been directed by clock-work, and they stared foolishly, now at him, now at each other, with- out making any answer but a simple ' Nothing, Sir ! ' ' O pour le coup,' cried Madame Duval, 'this is too much ! pray, Sir, what business have you to come here a-ordering people that comes to see me ? I suppose next, nobody must laugh but yourself ! ' ' With me, Madam,' said Sir Clement, bowing, ' a lady may do anything, and, consequently, there is no liberty in which I shall not be happy to indulge you : — but it has never been my custom to give the same licence to gentlemen.'' Then, advancing to me, who had sat very quietly on a window during this scene, he said, ' Miss Anville, I may at least acquaint our friends at Howard Grove that I had the honour of leaving you in good health.' And then, lowering his voice, he added, ' For Heaven's sake, my dearest creature, who are these people ? and how came you so strangely situated ? ' ' I beg my respects to all the family, Sir,' answered I, aloud, 'and I hope you will find them well.' He looked at me reproachfully, but kissed my hand ; and then, bowing to Madame Duval and Miss Branghton, passed hastily by the men, and made his exit. I fancy he will not be very eager to repeat his visits, for I should imagine he has rarely, if ever, been before in a situation so awkward and disagreeable. Madame Duval has been all spirits and exultation ever since he went, and only wishes Captain Mirvan would call, that she might do the same by him. Mr. Smith, upon hearing that he was a Baronet, and seeing him drive off in a very beautiful chariot, declared that he would not have laughed upon any account had he known his rank, and regretted extremely having missed such an opportunity of making so ge7iteel an acquaintance. Young Branghton vowed, that if he had known as much, he would have asked for his custom : and his sister has sung his praises ever since, protesting she thought, all along, he was a man of quality by his look. 254 EVELINA LETTER XLYIII EVELINA IN CONTINUATION June 21. The last three evenings have passed tolerably quiet, for the Vauxhall adventures had given Madame Duval a surfeit of public places ; home, however, soon growing tiresome, she determined to-night, she said, to relieve her ennui by some amusement ; and it was therefore settled that we should call upon the Branghtons, at their house, and thence proceed to Marybone Gardens. But before we reached Snow Hill, we were caught in a shower of rain ; we hurried into the shop, where the first object I saw was Mr. Macartney, with a book in his hand, seated in the same corner where I saw him last ; but his looks were still more wretched than before, his face yet thinner, and his eyes sunk almost hollow into his head. He lifted them up as we entered, and I even thought that they emitted a gleam of joy : involuntarily, I made to him my first curtsy ; he rose and bowed, with a precipitation that manifested surprise and confusion. In a few minutes we were joined by all the family, except Mr. Smith, who fortunately was engaged. Had all the future prosperity of our lives depended upon the good or bad weather of this evening, it could not have been treated as a subject of greater importance. ' Sure never anything was so unlucky ! ' ' Lord, how provoking ! ' 'It might rain for ever, if it would hold up now ! ' These, and such expressions, with many anxious observations upon the kennels, filled up all the conversation till the shower was over. And then a very warm debate arose whether we should pursue our plan, or defer it to some finer evening ; the Miss Branghtons were for the former ; their father was sure it would rain again ; Madame Duval, though she detested returning home, yet dreaded the dampness of the gardens. M. Du Bois then proposed going to the top of the house, to examine whether the clouds looked threatening or peaceable ; Miss Branghton, starting at this proposal, said they might go to Mr. Macartney's room, if they would, but not to hers. 2 55 EVELINA This was enough for the brother ; who, with a loud laugh, declared he would have some Jwi, and immediately led the way, calling to us all to follow. His sisters both ran after, but no one else moved. In a few minutes young Branghton, coming half-way down- stairs, called out, ' Lord, why don't you all come ? why here's Poll's things all about the room ! ' Mr. Branghton then went ; and Madame Duval, who cannot bear to be excluded from whatever is going forward, was handed upstairs by M. Du Bois. I hesitated a few moments whether or not to join them ; but, soon perceiving that Mr. Macartney had dropped his book, and that I engrossed his whole attention, I prepared, from mere embarrassment, to follow them. As I went, I heard him move from his chair and walk slowly after me. Believing that he wished to speak to me, and earnestly desiring myself to know if, by your means, I could possibly be of any service to him, I first slackened my pace, and then turned back. But, though I thus met him half-way, he seemed to want courage or resolution to address me ; for when he saw me returning, with a look extremely disordered, he retreated hastily from me. Not knowing what I ought to do, I went to the street-door, where I stood some time, hoping he would be able to recover himself: but, on the contrary, his agitation increased every moment ; he walked up and down the room in a quick but unsteady pace, seeming equally distressed and irresolute : and, at length, with a deep sigh, he flung himself into a chair. I was so much affected by the appearance of such extreme anguish, that I could remain no longer in the room ; I therefore glided by him, and went upstairs ; but, ere I had gone five steps he precipitately followed me, and, in a broken voice, called out, ' Madam ! — for Heaven's sake ' He stopped, but I instantly descended, restraining, as well as I was able, the fulness of my own concern. I waited some time, in painful expectation, for his speaking : all that I had heard of his poverty occurring to me, I was upon the point of presenting him my purse, but the fear of mistaking or offending him deterred me. Finding, however, that he continued silent, I ventured to say, ' Did you — Sir, wish to speak to me ? ' ' I did ! ' cried he, with quickness, 'but now — I cannot ! ' 256 I EVELINA 'Perhaps, Sir, another time, — perhaps if you recollect yourself.' ' Another time ! ' repeated he mournfully, ' alas ! I look not forward but to misery and despair ! ' ' O Sir,' cried I, extremely shocked, ' you must not talk thus ! — if you forsake yourself, how can you expect ' I stopped. ' Tell me, tell me,' cried he, with eagerness, ' who you are ? — whence you come ? — and by what strange means you seem to be arbitress and ruler of the destiny of such a wretch as I am ? ' ' Would to Heaven,' cried I, ' I could serve you ! ' ' You can ! ' ' And how ? pray tell me how ? ' ' To tell you — is death to me ! yet I will tell you, — I have a right to your assistance, — you have deprived me of the only resource to which I could apply, — and therefore ' ' Pray, pray, speak ' ; cried I, putting my hand into my pocket, 'they will be downstairs in a moment !' • I will, Madam. — Can you — will you — I think you will ! — may I then ' he stopped and paused, 'say, will you- — ■ — ' then suddenly turning from me, ' Great Heaven ! I cannot speak ! ' and he went back to the shop. I now put my purse in my hand, and following him, said, ' If indeed, Sir, I can assist you, why should you deny me so great a satisfaction ? Will you permit me to ' I dared not go on ; but with a countenance very much softened, he approached me, and said, ' Your voice, Madam, is the voice of compassion '. — such a voice as these ears have long been strangers to ! ' Just then young Branghton called out vehemently to me, to come upstairs ; I seized the opportunity of hastening away : and therefore saying, ' Heaven, Sir, protect and comfort you ! ' I let fall my purse upon the ground, not daring to present it to him, and ran upstairs with the utmost swiftness. Too well do I know you, my ever honoured Sir, to fear your displeasure for this action : I must, however, assure you, I shall need no fresh supply during my stay in town, as I am at little expense, and hope soon to return to Howard Grove. Soon, did I say ! when not a fortnight is yet expired of the long and tedious month I must linger out here ! I had many witticisms to endure from the Branghtons, upon 253 EVELINA account of my staying so long with the Scotch mope, as they call him ; but I attended to them very little, for my whole heart was filled with pity and concern. I was very glad to find the Marybone scheme was deferred, another shower of rain having- put a stop to the dissension upon this subject ; the rest of the evening was employed in most violent quarrelling be- tween Miss Polly and her brother, on account of the discovery made by the latter of the state of her apartment. We came home early ; and I have stolen from Madame Duval and M. Du Bois, who is here for ever, to write to my best friend. I am most sincerely rejoiced that this opportunity has offered for my contributing what little relief was in my power to this unhappy man ; and I hope it will be sufficient to enable him to pay his debts to this pitiless family. LETTER XLIX MR. VILLARS TO EVELINA Berry Hill. Displeasure ? my Evelina ! — you have but done your duty ; you have but shown that humanity without which I should blush to own my child. It is mine, however, to see that your generosity be not repressed by your suffering from indulging it ; I remit to you, therefore, not merely a token of my approbation, but an acknowledgment of my desire to participate in your charity. O my child, were my fortune equal to my confidence in thy benevolence, with what transport should I, through thy means, devote it to the relief of indigent virtue ! yet let us not repine at the limitation of our power, for, while our bounty is propor- tioned to our ability, the difference of the greater or less donation can weigh but little in the scale of justice. In reading your account of the misguided man, whose misery has so largely excited your compassion, I am led to apprehend that his unhappy situation is less the effect of misfortune than of misconduct. If he is reduced to that state of poverty represented by the Branghtons, he should endeavour 2 59 EVELINA by activity and industry to retrieve his affairs ; and not pass his time in idle reading in the very shop of his creditor. The pistol scene made me shudder : the courage with which you pursued this desperate man, at once delighted and terrified me. Be ever thus, my dearest Evelina, dauntless in the cause of distress ! let no weak fears, no timid doubts, deter you from the exertion of your duty, according to the fullest sense of it that Nature has implanted in your mind. Though gentleness and modesty are the peculiar attributes of your sex, yet fortitude and firmness, when occasion demands them, are virtues as noble and as becoming in women as in men : the right line of conduct is the same for both sexes, though the manner in which it is pursued may somewhat vary, and be accommodated to the strength or weakness of the different travellers. There is, however, something so mysterious in all you have yet seen or heard of this wretched man, that I am unwilling to stamp a bad impression of his character, upon so slight and partial a knowledge of it. Where anything is doubtful, the ties of society, and the laws of humanity, claim a favourable interpretation ; but remember, my dear child, that those of discretion have an equal claim to your regard. As to Sir Clement Willoughby, I know not how to express my indignation at his conduct. Insolence so insufferable, and the implication of suspicions so shocking, irritate me to a degree of wrath, which I hardly thought my almost worn-out passions were capable of again experiencing. You must con- verse with him no more ; he imagines, from the pliability of your temper, that he may offend you with impunity ; but his behaviour justifies, nay, calls for, your avowed resentment : do not, therefore, hesitate in forbidding him your sight. The Branghtons, Mr. Smith, and young Brown, however ill-bred and disagreeable, are objects too contemptible for serious displeasure : yet I grieve much that my Evelina should be exposed to their rudeness and impertinence. The very day that this tedious month expires, I shall send Mrs. Clinton to town, who will accompany you to Howard Grove. Your stay there will, I hope, be short, for I feel daily an increasing impatience to fold my beloved child to my bosom ! Arthur Villars. 260 EVELINA LETTER L EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS HOLBORN , June 27. I have just received, my dearest Sir, your kind present, and still kinder letter. Surely never had orphan so little to regret as your grateful Evelina ! Though motherless, though worse than fatherless, bereft from infancy of the two first and greatest blessings of life, never has she had cause to deplore their loss ; never has she felt the omission of a parent's tender- ness, care, or indulgence ; never, but from sorrow for tkem, had reason to grieve at the separation ! Most thankfully do I receive the token of your approbation, and most studiously will 1 endeavour so to dispose of it, as may merit your generous confidence in my conduct. Your doubts concerning Mr. Macartney give me some uneasiness. Indeed, Sir, he has not the appearance of a man whose sorrows are the effect of guilt. But I hope, before I leave town, to be better acquainted with his situation, and enabled, with more certainty of his worth, to recommend him to your favour. I am very willing to relinquish all acquaintance with Sir Clement YVilloughby, as far as it may depend upon myself so to do ; but indeed, I know not how I should be able to absolutely forbid Mm my sight. Miss Mirvan, in her last letter, informs me that he is now at Howard Grove, where he continues in high favour with the Captain, and is the life and spirit of the house. My time, since I wrote last, has passed very quietly, Madame Duval having been kept at home by a bad cold, and the Branghtons by bad weather. The young man, indeed, has called two or three times, and his behaviour, though equally absurd, is more unaccountable than ever : he speaks very little, takes hardly any notice of Madame Duval, and never looks at me without a broad grin. Sometimes he approaches me, as if with intention to communicate intelligence of importance, and then, suddenly stopping short, laughs rudely in my face. O how happy shall I be when the worthy Mrs. Clinton arrives ! 261 His behavioui is more unaccountable than ever. EVELINA June 29. Yesterday morning Mr. Smith called, to acquaint us that the Hampstead assembly was to be held that evening ; and then he presented Madame Duval with one ticket, and brought another to me. I thanked him for his intended civility, but told him I was surprised he had so soon forgotten my having already declined going to the ball. 'Lord, Ma'am,' cried he, 'how should I suppose you was in earnest ? come, come, don't be cross ; here's your Grand- mama ready to take care of you, so you can have no fair objection, for she'll see that I don't run away with you. Besides, Ma'am, I got the tickets on purpose.' 'If you were determined, Sir,' said I, 'in making me this offer, to allow me no choice of refusal or acceptance, I must think myself less obliged to your intention than I was willing to do.' ' Dear Ma'am,' cried he, ' you're so smart, there is no speaking to you ; indeed, you are monstrous smart, Ma'am ! but come, your Grandmama shall ask you, and then I know you'll not be so cruel.' Madame Duval was very ready to interfere ; she desired me to make no further opposition, said she should go herself, and insisted upon my accompanying her. It was in vain that I remonstrated ; I only incurred her anger : and Mr. Smith, having given both the tickets to Madame Duval, with an air of triumph said he should call early in the evening, and took leave. I was much chagrined at being thus compelled to owe even the shadow of an obligation to so forward a young man ; but I determined that nothing should prevail upon me to dance with him, however my refusal might give offence. In the afternoon, when he returned, it was evident that he purposed to both charm and astonish me by his appearance ; he was dressed in a very showy manner, but without any taste ; and the inelegant smartness of his air and deportment, his visible struggle against education to put on the fine gentleman, added to his frequent conscious glances at a dress to which he was but little accustomed, very effectually destroyed his aim of figuring, and rendered all his efforts useless. During tea, entered Miss Branghton and her brother. I 26^ EVELINA was sorry to observe the consternation of the former when she perceived Mr. Smith. I had intended applying to her for advice upon this occasion, but been always deterred by her disagreeable abruptness. Having cast her eyes several times from Mr. Smith to me, with manifest displeasure, she seated herself sullenly in the window, scarce answering Madame Duval's inquiries, and when I spoke to her turning absolutely away from me. Mr. Smith, delighted at this mark of his importance, sat indolently quiet on his chair, endeavouring by his looks rather to display than to conceal his inward satisfaction. ' Good gracious ! ' cried young Branghton, ' why, you're all as fine as fivepence ! Why. where are you going ?' 'To the Hampstead ball,' answered Mr. Smith. ' To a ball ! ' cried he, ' why. what, is Aunt going to a ball ? Ha, ha, ha ! ' ' Yes, to be sure,' cried Madame Duval : ' I don't know nothing need hinder me.' ' And pray, Aunt, will you dance too ? ' ' Perhaps I may ; but I suppose, Sir, that's none of your business, whether I do or not.' ' Lord ! well, I should like to go ! I should like to see Aunt dance, of all things ! But the joke is, I don't believe she'll get ever a partner.' ' You're the most rudest boy ever I see,' cried Madame Duval angrily: 'but, I promise you, I'll tell your father what you say, for I've no notion of such vulgarness.' ' Why, Lord, Aunt, what are you so angry for ? there's no speaking a word but you fly into a passion : you're as bad as Biddy or Poll for that, for you're always a-scolding.' 'I desire, Tom,' cried Miss Branghton, 'you'd speak for yourself, and not make so free with my name.' 'There, now, she's up ! there's nothing but quarrelling with the women ; it's my belief they like it better than victuals and drink.' 'Fie, Tom,' cried Mr. Smith, 'you never remember your manners before the ladies : I'm sure you never heard me speak so rude to them.' ' Why, Lord, you are a beau ; but that's nothing to me. So, if you've a mind, you may be so polite as to dance with Aunt yourself.' Then, with a loud laugh, he declared it would be good fun to see them. 264 ^Wurvt^iAt J/n Smith sat indolently quiet on his chair. EVELINA ' Let it be never so good, or never so bad,' cried Madame Duval, ' you won't see nothing of it, I promise you ; so pray don't let me hear no more of such vulgar pieces of fun ; for, I assure you, I don't like it. And as to my dancing with Mr. Smith, you may see wonderfuller things than that any day in the week.' 'Why, as to that, Ma'am,' said Mr. Smith, looking much surprised, ' I always thought you intended to play at cards, and so I thought to dance with the young lady.' I gladly seized this opportunity to make my declaration, that I should not dance at all. ' Not dance at all ! ' repeated Miss Branghton ; ' yes, that's a likely matter truly when people go to balls.' 'I wish she mayn't,' said the brother; "cause then Mr. Smith will have nobody but Aunt for a partner. Lord, how mad he'll be ! ' ' O, as to that,' said Mr. Smith, ' I don't at all fear prevailing with the young lady if once I get her to the room.' ' Indeed. Sir,' cried I, much offended by his conceit, ' you are mistaken ; and therefore I beg leave to undeceive you, as you may be assured my resolution will not alter.' 'Then pray, Miss, if it is not impertinent,' cried Mis^ Branghton, sneeringly, ' what do you go for ? ' ' Merely and solely,' answered I, ' to comply with the request of Madame Duval.' 'Miss,' cried Young Branghton, 'Bid only wishes it was she, for she has cast a sheep's eye at Mr. Smith this long while.' 'Tom,' cried the sister, rising, 'I've the greatest mind in the world to box your ears ! How dare you say such a thing of me ? ' ' No, hang it, Tom, no, that's wrong,' said Mr. Smith, simpering, ' it is indeed, to tell the lady's secrets. But never mind him, Miss Biddy, for I won't believe him.' ' Why, I know Bid would give her ears to go,' returned the brother ; 'but only Mr. Smith likes Miss best, — so does every- body else.' While the sister gave him a very angry answer, Mr. Smith said to me in a low voice, ' Why now, Ma'am, how can you be so cruel as to be so much handsomer than your cousins ? Nobody can look at them when you are by.' 266 ' I've the gi'eattst mind in the world to box yourectn I EVELINA ' Miss,' cried young Branghton, ' whatever he says to you, don't mind him, for he means no good ; I'll give you my word for it, he'll never marry you, for he has told me again and again he'll never marry as long as he lives ; besides, if he'd any mind to be married, there's Bid would have had him long ago, and thanked him too.' ' Come, come, Tom, don't tell secrets ; you'll make the ladies afraid of me ; but, I assure you,' lowering his voice, ' if I did marry, it should be your cousin.' Should be ! — did you ever, my dear Sir, hear such un- authorised freedom ? I looked at him with a contempt I did not wish to repress, and walked to the other end of the room. Very soon after, Mr. Smith sent for a hackney-coach. When I would have taken leave of Miss Branghton, she turned angrily from me, without making any answer. She supposes, perhaps, that I have rather sought, than endeavoured to avoid, the notice and civilities of this conceited young man. The ball was at the long room at Hampstead. This room seems very well named, for I believe it would be difficult to find any other epithet which might, with propriety, distinguish it, as it is without ornament, elegance, or any sort of singularity, and merely to be marked by its length. I was saved from the importunities of Mr. Smith the beginning of the evening, by Madame Duval declaring her intention to dance the two first dances with him herself. .Mr. Smith's chagrin was very evident, but as she paid no regard to it, he was necessitated to lead her out. I was, however, by no means pleased when she said she was determined to dance a minuet. Indeed, I was quite astonished, not having had the least idea she would have consented to, much less proposed, such an exhibition of her person. She had some trouble to make her intentions known, as Mr. Smith was rather averse to speaking to the master of the ceremonies. During this minuet, how much did I rejoice in being sur- rounded only with strangers ! She danced in a style so uncommon ; her age, her showy dress, and an unusual quantity of rouge, drew upon her the eyes, and, I fear, the derision, of the whole company. Who she danced with, I know not ; but Mr. Smith was so ill-bred as to laugh at her very openly, and to speak of her with as much ridicule as was 268 EVELINA in his power. But I would neither look at, nor listen to him ; nor would I suffer him to proceed with a speech which he began, expressive of his vexation at being forced to dance with her. I told him, very gravely, that complaints upon such a subject might, with less impropriety, be made to every person in the room, than to me. When she returned to us, she distressed me very much by asking what I thought of her minuet. I spoke as civilly as I could, but the coldness of my compliment evidently disappointed her. She then called upon Mr. Smith to secure a good place among the country-dancers ; and away they went, though not before he had taken the liberty to say to me, in a low voice, * I protest to you, Ma'am, I shall be quite out of countenance, if any of my acquaintance should see me dancing with the old lady ! ' For a few moments I very much rejoiced at being relieved from this troublesome man ; but scarce had I time to con- gratulate myself, before I was accosted by another, who begged the favour of hopping a dance with me. I told him that I should not dance at all ; but he thought proper to importune me, very freely, not to be so cruel ; and I was obliged to assume no little haughtiness before I could satisfy him I was serious. After this, I was addressed, much in the same manner, by several other young men, of whom the appearance and language were equally inelegant and low-bred : so that I soon found my situation was both disagreeable and improper ; since, as I was quite alone, I fear I must seem rather to invite, than to forbid, the offers and notice I received. And yet, so great was my apprehension of this interpretation, that I am sure, my dear Sir, you would have laughed had you seen how proudly grave I appeared. I knew not whether to be glad or sorry when Madame Duval and Mr. Smith returned. The latter instantly renewed his tiresome entreaties, and Madame Duval said she would go to the card-table : and as soon as she was accommodated, she desired us to join the dancers. I will not trouble you with the arguments which followed. Mr. Smith teased me till I was weary of resistance ; and I should at last have been obliged to submit, had I not fortu- nately recollected the affair of Mr. Lovel, and told my persecutor 269 EVELINA that it was impossible I should dance with him, even if I wished it, as I had refused several persons in his absence. He was not contented with being extremely chagrined, but took the liberty, openly and warmly, to expostulate with me upon not having said I was engaged. The total disregard with which, involuntarily, I heard him, made him soon change the subject. In truth, I had no power to attend to him, for all my thoughts were occupied in retracing the transactions of the two former balls at which I had been present. The party — the conversation — the company — O how great the contrast ! In a short time, however, he contrived to draw my attention to himself, by his extreme impertinence ; for he chose to ex- press what he called his admiration of me, in terms so open and familiar, that he forced me to express my displeasure with equal plainness. But how was I surprised, when I found he had the temerity — what else can I call it ? — to impute my resentment to doubts of his honour ; for he said, ' My dear Ma'am, you must be a little patient ; I assure you I have no bad designs, I have not, upon my word ; but really there is no resolving upon such a thing as matrimony all at once ; what with the loss of one's liberty, and what with the ridicule of all one's acquaintance, — I assure you, Ma'am, you are the first lady who ever made me even demur upon this subject ; for, after all, my dear Ma'am, marriage is the devil ! : 'Your opinion, Sir,' answered I, 'of either the married or the single life, can be of no manner of consequence to me, and therefore I would by no means trouble you to discuss their different merits.' ' Why, really. Ma'am, as to your being a little out of sorts, I must own I can't wonder at it, for, to be sure, marriage is all in all with the ladies ; but with us gentlemen it's quite another thing ! Now only put yourself in my place, — suppose you had such a large acquaintance of gentlemen as I have, — and that you had always been used to appear a little — a little smart among them, — why now, how should you like to let yourself down all at once into a married man ?' I could not tell what to answer ; so much conceit, and so much ignorance, both astonished and silenced me. 'I assure you, Ma'am,' added he, 'there is not only Miss 270 EVELINA Biddy, — though I should have scorned to mention her, if her brother had not blab'd, for I'm quite particular in keeping ladies' secrets, — but there are a great many other ladies that have been proposed to me, — but I never thought twice of any of them, that is, not in a serious way, — so you may very well be proud,' offering to take my hand, 'for I assure you, there is nobody so likely to catch me at last as yourself.' 'Sir,' cried I, drawing myself back as haughtily as I could, ' you are totally mistaken, if you imagine you have given me any pride I felt not before, by this conversation ; on the contrary, you must allow me to tell you, I find it too humili- ating to bear with it any longer.' I then placed myself behind the chair of Madame Duval ; who, when she heard of the partners I had refused, pitied my ignorance of the world, but no longer insisted upon my dancing. Indeed, the extreme vanity of this man makes me exert a spirit which I did not till now know that I possessed : but I cannot endure that he should think me at his disposal. The rest of the evening passed very quietly, as Mr. Smith did not again attempt speaking to me ; except, indeed, after we had left the room, and while Madame Duval was seating herself in the coach, he said, in a voice of piqite, ' Next time I take the trouble to get any tickets for a young lady, I'll make a bargain beforehand that she sha'n't turn me over to her grandmother.' We came home very safe ; and thus ended this so long projected and most disagreeable affair. LETTER LI EVELINA IX CONTINUATION I have just received a most affecting letter from Mr. Macartney. I will enclose it, my dear Sir, fur your perusal. More than ever have I cause to rejoice that I was able to assist him. MR. MACARTNEY TO MISS ANVILLE Madam, Impressed with the deepest, the most heart-felt sense of the exalted humanity with which you have rescued 271 EVELINA from destruction an unhappy stranger, allow me, with the humblest gratitude, to offer you my fervent acknowledgments, and to implore your pardon for the terror I have caused you. You bid me, Madam, live : I have now, indeed, a motive for life, since I should not willingly quit the world, while I withhold from the needy and distressed any share of that charity which a disposition so noble would, otherwise, bestow upon them. The benevolence with which you have interested yourself in my affairs, induces me to suppose you would wish to be acquainted with the cause of that desperation from which you snatched me, and the particulars of that misery of which you have, so wonderfully, been a witness. Yet, as this explanation will require that I should divulge secrets of a nature the most delicate, I must entreat you to regard them as sacred, even though I forbear to mention the names of the parties con- cerned. I was brought up in Scotland, though my mother, who had the sole care of me, was an Englishwoman, and had not one relation in that country. She devoted to me her whole time. The retirement in which we lived, and the distance from our natural friends, she often told me, were the effect of an uncon- querable melancholy with which she was seized, upon the sudden loss of my father, some time before I was born. At Aberdeen, where I finished my education, I formed a friendship with a young man of fortune, which I considered as the chief happiness of my life ; but when he quitted his studies, I considered it as my chief misfortune, for he immediately prepared, by direction of his friends, to make the tour of Europe. As I was designed for the church, and had no prospect even of maintenance but from my own industry, I scarce dared permit even a wish of accompanying him. It is true, he would joyfully have borne my expenses ; but my affection was as free from meanness as his own, and I made a determination the most solemn, never to lessen its dignity by submitting to pecuniary obligations. We corresponded with great regularity, and the most un- bounded confidence, for the space of two years, when he arrived at Lyons in his way home. He wrote me, thence, the most pressing invitation to meet him at Paris, where he intended to remain some time. My desire to comply with his 2 72 EVELINA request, and shorten our absence, was so earnest, that my mother, too indulgent to control me, lent me what assistance was in her power, and, in an ill-fated moment, I set out for that capital. My meeting with this dear friend was the happiest event of my life : he introduced me to all his acquaintance ; and so quickly did time seem to pass at that delightful period, that the six weeks I had allotted for my stay were gone ere I was sensible I had missed so many days. But I must now own that the company of my friend was not the sole subject of my felicity : I became acquainted with a young lady, daughter of an Englishman of distinction, with whom I formed an attach- ment which I have a thousand times vowed, a thousand times sincerely thought, would be lasting as my life. She had but just quitted a convent, in which she had been placed when a child, and though English by birth she could scarcely speak her native language. Her person and disposition were equally engaging ; but chiefly I adored her for the greatness of the expectations which, for my sake, she was willing to resign. When the time for my residence at Paris expired, I was almost distracted at the idea of emitting her ; yet I had not the courage to make our attachment known to her father, who might reasonably form for her such views as would make him reject, with a contempt which I could not bear to think of, such an offer as mine. Vet I had free access to the house, where she seemed to be left almost wholly to the guidance of an old servant, who was my fast friend. But, to be brief, the sudden and unexpected return of her father, one fatal afternoon, proved the beginning of the misery which has ever since devoured me. I doubt not but he had listened to our conversation, for he darted into the room with the rage of a madman. Heavens ! what a scene followed ! — what abusive language did the shame of a clandestine affair, and the consciousness of acting ill, induce me to brook ! At length, however, his fury exceeded my patience, — he called me a beggarly, cowardly Scotchman. Fired at the words, I drew my sword : he, with equal alertness, drew his : for he was not an old man, but, on the contrary, strong and able as myself. In wain hi i pli aded ; — in vain did I, repentant of my anger, retreat : — his reproaches continued ; 273 T EVELINA myself, my country, were loaded with infamy, till, no longer .constraining my rage, — we fought, and he fell ! At that moment I could almost have destroyed myself! The young lady fainted with terror ; the old servant, drawn to us by the noise of the scuffle, entreated me to escape, and promised to bring intelligence of what should pass to my apartment. The disturbance which I heard raised in the In vain his daughter pleaded. house obliged me to comply, and in a state of mind incon- ceivably wretched, I tore myself away. My friend, whom I found at home, soon discovered the whole affair. It was near midnight before the woman came. She told me that her master was living, and her young mistress restored to her senses. The absolute necessity for my leaving Paris, while any danger remained, was forcibly urged by my friend: the servant promised to acquaint him of whatever 274 EVELINA passed, and he to transmit to me her information. Thus circumstanced, with the assistance of this dear friend, I effected my departure from Paris, and, not long after, I returned to Scotland. I would fain have stopped by the way, that I might have been nearer the scene of all my concerns, but the low state of my finances denied me that satisfaction. The miserable situation of my mind was soon discovered by my mother : nor would she rest till I communicated the cause. She heard my whole story with an agitation which astonished me ; the name of the parties concerned, seemed to strike her with horror; but when I said, We fought, and ke fell, — 'My son,' cried she, ' you have then murdered your father ! ' and she sank breathless at my feet. Comments, Madam, upon such a scene as this, would to you be superfluous, and to me agonizing : I cannot, for both our sakes, be too concise. When she re- covered, she confessed all the particulars of a tale which she had hoped never to have revealed. Alas ! the loss she had sustained of my father was not by death ! — bound to her by no ties but those of honour, he had voluntarily deserted her ! — Her settling in Scotland was not the effect of choice, — she was banished thither by a family but too justly incensed ; — pardon Madam, that I cannot be more explicit ! My senses, in the greatness of my misery, actually forsook me, and for more than a week I was wholly delirious. My unfortunate mother was yet more to be pitied, for she pined with unmitigated sorrow, eternally reproaching herself for the danger to which her too strict silence had exposed me. When I recovered my reason, my impatience to hear from Paris almost deprived me of it again : and though the length of time I waited for letters might justly be attributed to contrary winds, I could not bear the delay, and was twenty times upon the point of returning thither at all hazards. At length, however, several letters arrived at once, and from the most insupportable of my afflictions I was then relieved, for they acquainted me that the horrors of parricide were not in reserve for me. They informed me also, that as soon as the wound was healed, a journey would be made to England, where my unhappy sister was to be received by an aunt with whom she was to live. This intelligence somewhat quieted the violence of my sorrows. I instantly formed a plan of meeting them in London, and, by revealing the whole dreadful story, convincing this 275 EVELINA irritated parent that he had nothing more to apprehend from his daughter's unfortunate choice. My mother consented, and gave me a letter to prove the truth of my assertions. As I could but ill afford to make this journey, I travelled in the cheapest way that was possible. I took an obscure lodging, — I need not, Madam, tell you where, — and boarded with the people of the house. Here I languished, week after week, vainly hoping for the arrival of my family j but my impetuosity had blinded me to the imprudence of which I was guilty in quitting Scotland so hastily. My wounded father, after his recovery, relapsed ; and when I had waited in the most comfortless situation for six weeks, my friend wrote me word that the journey was yet deferred for some time longer. My finances were then nearly exhausted, and I was obliged, though most unwillingly, to beg further assistance from my mother, that I might return to Scotland. Oh ! Madam ! — my answer was not from herself, — it was written by a lady who had long been her companion, and acquainted me that she had been taken suddenly ill of a fever, — and was no more ! The compassionate nature of which you have given such noble proofs, assures me I need not, if I could, paint to you the anguish of a mind overwhelmed with such accumulated sorrows. Inclosed was a letter to a near relation, which she had, during her illness, with much difficulty, written, and in which, with the strongest maternal tenderness, she described my deplorable situation, and entreated his interest to procure me some preferment. Yet, so sunk was I by misfortune, that a fortnight elapsed before I had the courage or spirit to attempt delivering this letter. I was then compelled to it by want. To make my appearance with some decency, I was necessitated, myself, to the melancholy task of changing my coloured clothes for a suit of mourning ; — and then I proceeded to seek my relation. I was informed that he was not in town. In this desperate situation, the pride of my heart, which hitherto had not bowed to adversity, gave way, and I de- termined to entreat the assistance of my friend, whose offered services I had a thousand times rejected. Yet, Madam, so hard is it to root from the mind its favourite principles, or 276 EVELINA prejudices, call them which you please, that I lingered another week ere I had the resolution to send away a letter which I regaded as the death of my independence. At length, reduced to my last shilling, dunned insolently by the people of the house, and almost famished, I sealed this fatal letter, and, with a heavy heart, determined to take it to the post-office. But Mr. Branghton and his son suffered me not to pass through their shop with impunity ; they insulted uie grossly, and threatened me with imprisonment, if I did not immediately satisfy their demands. Stung to the soul, I bid them have but a day's patience, and flung from them, in a state of mind too terrible for description. My letter, which I now found would be received too late to save me from disgrace, I tore into a thousand pieces, and scarce could I refrain from putting an instantaneous, an un- licensed period to my existence. In this disorder of my senses, I formed the horrible plan of turning footpad ; for which purpose I returned to my lodging, and collected whatever of my apparel I could part with, which I immediately sold, and with the profits purchased a brace of pistols, powder, and shot. I hope, however, you will believe me, when I most solemnly assure you, my sole intention was to frighten the passengers I should assault with these dangerous weapons, which I had not loaded, but from a resolution, — a dreadful one, I own, — to save myself from an ignominious death if seized. And indeed, I thought that if I could but procure money sufficient to pay Mr. Branghton, and make a journey to Scotland, I should soon be able, by the public papers, to discover whom I had injured, and to make private retribution. But, Madam, new to every species of villany, my perturba- tion was so great that I could with difficulty support myself: yet the Branghtons observed it not as I passed through the shop. Here I stop : what followed is better known to yourself. But no time can ever efface from my memory that moment, when in the very action of preparing for my own destruction, or the lawless seizure of the property of others, you rushed into the room, and arrested my arm ! It was, indeed, an awful moment !— the hand of Providence seemed to intervene between me and eternity; I beheld you as an angel! — I -77 EVELINA thought you dropped from the clouds ; — the earth, indeed, had never before presented to my view a form so celestial ! — What wonder, then, that a spectacle so astonishing should, to a man disordered as I was, appear too beautiful to be human ? And now, Madam, that I have performed this painful task, the more grateful one remains of rewarding, as far as is in my power, your generous goodness, by assuring you it shall not be thrown away. You have awakened me to a sense of the false pride by which I have been actuated, — a pride which, while it scorned assistance from a friend, scrupled not to compel it from a stranger, though at the hazard of reducing that stranger to a situation as destitute as my own. Yet, oh ! how violent was the struggle which tore my conflicting soul, ere I could persuade myself to profit by the benevolence which you were so evidently disposed to exert in my favour ! By means of a ring, the gift of my much-regretted mother, I have for the present satisfied Mr. Branghton ; and by means of your compassion, I hope to support myself, either till I hear from my friend, to whom, at length, I have written, or till the relation of my mother returns to town. To talk to you, Madam, of paying my debt, would be v;iin ; I never can ! the service you have done me exceeds all power of return ; you have restored me to my senses, you have taught me to curb those passions which bereft me of them, and, since I cannot avoid calamity, to bear it as a man ! An interposition so wonderfully circumstanced can never be recollected without benefit. Yet allow me to say, the pecuniary part of my obligation must be settled by my first ability. I am, Madam, with the most profound respect, and heart- felt gratitude, — Your obedient, and devoted humble servant, J. Macartney. LETTER LII EVELINA IN CONTINUATION HOLBORN, July I, 5 o'clock in the morn. O Sir, what an adventure have I to write ! — all night it has occupied my thoughts, and I am now risen thus early to write it to you. 278 EVELINA Yesterday it was settled that we should spend the evening in Marybone Gardens, where Mr. Torre, a celebrated foreigner, was to exhibit some fireworks. The party consisted of Madame Duval, all the Branghtons, M. Du Bois, Mr. Smith, and Mr. Brown. We were almost the first persons who entered the Gardens, Mr. Branghton having declared he would have all he could get for /lis money, which, at best, was only fooled away, at such silly and idle places. We walked in parties, and very much detached from one another : Mr. Brown and Miss Polly led the way by them- selves ; Miss Branghton and Mr. Smith followed, and the latter seemed determined to be revenged for my behaviour at the ball, by transferring all his former attention for me to Miss Branghton, who received it with an air of exultation : and very frequently they each of them, though from different motives, looked back to discover whether I observed their good intelligence. Madame Duval walked with M. Du Bois ; and Mr. Branghton by himself; but his son would willingly have attached himself wholly to me, saying frequently, ' Come, Miss, let's you and I have a little fun together; you see they have all left us, so now let us leave them.' But I begged to be excused, and went to the other side of Madame Duval. This Garden, as it is called, is neither striking for magnifi- cence nor for beauty ; and we were all so dull and languid, that I was extremely glad when we were summoned to the orchestra, upon the opening of a concert, in the course of which I had the pleasure of hearing a concerto on the violin by Mr. Barthelemon, who, to me, seems a player of exquisite fancy, feeling, and variety. When notice was given us that the fireworks were preparing, we hurried along to secure good places for the sight : but, very soon, we were so encircled and incommoded by the crowd, that Mr. Smith proposed the ladies should make interest for a form to stand upon ; this was soon effected, and the men then left us, to accommodate themselves better, saying they would return the moment the exhibition was over. The firework was really beautiful, and told, with wonderful ingenuity, the story of Orpheus and Eurydice ; but, at the moment of the fatal look, which separated them for ever, there was such an explosion of fire, and so horrible a noise, 279 ' They frequently looked back. EVELINA that we all, as of one accord, jumped hastily from the form, and ran away some paces, fearing that we were in danger of mischief, from the innumerable sparks of fire which glittered in the air. For a moment or two, I neither knew nor considered whither I had run ; but my recollection was soon awakened by a stranger addressing me with, ' Come along with me, my dear, and I'll take care of you.' I started, and then, to my great terror, perceived that I had out-run all my companions, and saw not one human being I knew ! with all the speed in my power, and forgetful of my first fright, I hastened back to the place I had left — but found the form occupied by a new set of people. In vain, from side to side, I looked for some face I knew ; I found myself in the midst of a crowd, yet without party, friend, or acquaintance. I walked, in disordered haste, from place to place, without knowing which way to turn, or whither I went. Every other moment I was spoken to by some bold and unfeeling man, to whom my distress, which, I think, must be very apparent, only furnished a pretence for impertinent witticisms or free gallantry. At last, a young officer, marching fiercely up to me, said, ' You are a sweet pretty creature, and I enlist you in my service'; and then, with great violence, he seized my hand. I screamed aloud with fear, and, forcibly snatching it away, I ran hastily up to two ladies, and cried, ' For Heaven's sake, dear ladies, afford me some protection ! ' They heard me with a loud laugh, but very readily said, ' Ay, let her walk between us ' ; and each of them took hold of an arm. Then, in a drawling, ironical tone of voice, they asked what had frightened my little Ladyship? I told them my adventure very simply, and entreated they would have the goodness to assist me in finding my friends. O yes, to be sure, they said, I should not want for friends whilst I was with them. Mine, I said, would be very grateful for any civilities with which they might favour me. But imagine, my dear Sir, how I must be confounded, when I observed that every other word I spoke produced a loud laugh ! However, I will not dwell upon a conversation which soon, to my inexpressible horror, convinced me I had sought 281 EVELINA protection from insult of those who were themselves most likely to offer it ! You, my dearest Sir, I well know, will both feel for and pity my terror, which I have no words to describe. Had I been at liberty, I should have instantly run away from them, when I made the shocking discovery ; but, as they held me fast, that was utterly impossible : and such was my dread of their resentment or abuse, that I did not dare make any open attempt to escape. They asked me a thousand questions, accompanied by as many halloos, of who I was, what I was, and whence I came. My answers were very incoherent, — but what, good Heaven, were my emotions, when, a few moments afterwards, I perceived advancing our way — Lord Orville ! Never shall I forget what I felt at that instant : had I, indeed, been sunk to the guilty state which such companions might lead him to suspect, I could scarce have had feelings more cruelly depressing. However, to my infinite joy, he passed us without dis- tinguishing me : though I saw that, in a careless manner, his eyes surveyed the party. As soon as he was gone, one of these unhappy women said, ' Do you know that young fellow ? ' Not thinking it possible she should mean Lord Orville by such a term, I readily answered, ' No, Madam.' 'Why, then,' answered she, 'you have a monstrous good stare for a little country Miss.' I now found I had mistaken her, but was glad to avoid an explanation. A few minutes after, what was my delight to hear the voice of Mr. Brown, who called out, ' Lord, i'n't that Miss what's her name ? ' ' Thank God,'' cried I, suddenly springing from them both, ' thank God, I have found my party.' Mr. Brown was, however, alone, and, without knowing what I did, I took hold of his arm. ' Lord, Miss/ cried he, ' we've had such a hunt, you can't think ! some of them thought you was gone home ; but I says, says I, I don't think, says I, that she's like to go home all alone, says I.' ' So that gentleman belongs to you, Miss, does he ? ' said one of the women. EVELINA ' Yes, Madam,' answered I, • and I now thank you for your civility ; but, as I am safe, will not give you any further trouble.' I curtsied slightly, and would have walked away ; but, most unfortunately, Madame Duval and the two Miss Branghtons just then joined us. They all began to make a thousand inquiries, to which I briefly answered, that I had been obliged to these two ladies for walking with me, and would tell them more another time : for, though I felt great comparative courage, I was yet too much intimidated by their presence, to dare be explicit. Nevertheless, I ventured, once more, to wish them good- night, and proposed seeking Mr. Branghton. These unhappy women listened to all that was said with a kind of callous curiosity, and seemed determined not to take any hint. But my vexation was terribly augmented, when, after having whispered something to each other, they very cavalierly declared that they intended joining" our party ! and then one of them very boldly took hold of my arm, while the other, going round, seized that of Mr. Brown ; and thus, almost forcibly, we were moved on between them, and followed by Madame Duval and the Miss Branghtons. It would be very difficult to say which was greatest, my fright, or Mr. Browns consternation, who ventured not to make the least resistance, though his uneasiness made him tremble almost as much as myself. I would instantly have withdrawn my arm, but it was held so tight I could not move it ; and poor Mr. Brown was circumstanced in the same manner on the other side ; for I heard him say, ' Lord, Ma'am, there's no need to squeeze one's arm so ! ' And this was our situation, — for we had not taken three steps, when, — O Sir, — we again met Lord Orville ! — but not again did he pass quietly by us, — unhappily I caught his eye ; — both mine, immediately, were bent to the- ground, but he approached me, and we all stopped. I then looked up. He bowed. Good God, with what expressive eyes did he regard me ! Never were surprise and concern so strongly marked,- — yes, my clear Sir, he looked greatly concerned ; and that, the remembrance of that, is the only consolation I feel, for an evening the most painful of my life. 283 • .6./J*0i f 1/ - - -Mm a i $hs • V ' s: '•M%w ■-■■ r - < \ h Maria, how have I been deceived in this man ! Words have no power to tell the high opinion I had of him ; to that was owing the unfortunate solicitude which prompted my writing — a solicitude I must for ever repent ! N't, perhaps, I have rather reason to rejoice than to grieve, 3" EVELINA since this affair has shown me his real disposition, and removed that partiality which, covering his every imperfection, left only his virtues and good qualities exposed to view. Had the de- ception continued much longer, had my mind received any additional prejudice in his favour, who knows whither my mistaken ideas might have led me ? Indeed, I fear I was in greater danger than I apprehended, or can now think of without trembling, — for oh, if this weak heart of mine had been penetrated with too deep an impression of his merit,— my peace and happiness had been lost for ever ! I would fain encourage more cheerful thoughts, fain drive from my mind the melancholy that has taken possession of it — but I cannot succeed ; for, added to the humiliating feelings which so powerfully oppress me, I have yet another cause of concern ; alas, my dear Maria, I have broken the tranquillity of the best of men ! I have never had the courage to show him this cruel letter : I could not bear so greatly to depreciate, in his opinion, one whom I had, with infinite anxiety, raised in it myself. Indeed, my first determination was to confine my chagrin totally to my own bosom, but your friendly inquiries have drawn it from me ; and now I wish I had made no concealment from the beginning, since I know not how to account for a gravity which not all my endeavours can entirely hide or repress. My greatest apprehension is, lest he should imagine that my residence in London has given me a distaste to the country. Everybody I see takes notice of my being altered, and looking pale and ill. I should be very indifferent to all such observa- tions, did I not perceive that they draw upon me the eyes of Mr. Villars, which glisten with affectionate concern. This morning, in speaking of my London expedition, he mentioned Lord Orville. I felt so much disturbed, that I would instantly have changed the subject ; but he would not allow me, and, very unexpectedly, he began his panegyric, extolling, in strong terms, his manly and honourable behaviour in regard to the Marybone adventure. My cheeks glowed with indignation every word he spoke ; — so lately as I had myself fancied him the noblest of his sex, now that I was so well convinced of my mistake, I could not bear to hear his undeserved praises uttered by one so really good, so unsus- pecting, so pure of heart ! ^i 2 CXyMturtot^'u-, ,„,-,. Everybody I sec takes notice of my being altered. EVELINA What he thought of my silence and uneasiness I fear to know, but I hope he will mention the subject no more. I will not, however, with ungrateful indolence give way to a sadness which I find infectious to him who merits the most cheerful exertion of my spirits. I am thankful that he has forborne to probe my wound, and I will endeavour to heal it by the con- sciousness that I have not deserved the indignity I have received. Yet I cannot but lament to find myself in a world so deceitful, where we must suspect what we see, distrust what we hear, and doubt even what we feel ! LETTER LIX EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Berry Hill, July 29. I must own myself somewhat distressed how to answer your raillery : yet believe me, my dear Maria, your suggestions are those of fancy, not of truth. I am unconscious of the weakness you suspect ; yet, to dispel your doubts, I will animate myself more than ever to conquer my chagrin and to recover my spirits. You wonder, you say, since my heart takes no part in this affair, why it should make me so unhappy ? And can you, acquainted as you are with the high opinion I entertained of Lord Orville, can you wonder that so great a disappointment in his character should affect me ? indeed, had so strange a letter been sent to me from anybody, it could not have failed shocking me ; how much more sensibly, then, must I feel such an affront, when received from the man in the world I had imagined least capable of giving it ? You are glad I made no reply ; assure yourself, my dear friend, had this letter been the most respectful that could be written, the clandestine air given to it, by his proposal of sending his servant for my answer, instead of having it directed to his house, would effectually have prevented my writing. Indeed, I have an aversion the most sincere to all mysteries, all private actions, however foolishly and blameably, in regard to this letter, I have deviated from the open path which, from my earliest infancy, I was taught to tread. 3M EVELINA He talks of my having commenced a correspondence with him ; and could Lord Orville indeed believe I had such a design ? believe me so forward, so bold, so strangely ridiculous? I know not if his man called or not, but I rejoice that I quitted London before he came, and without leaving any message for him. What, indeed, could I have said ? it would have been a condescension very unmerited to have taken any, the least notice of such a letter. Never shall I cease to wonder how he could write it. Oh, Maria, what, what could induce him so causelessly to wound and affront one who would sooner have died than wilfully offended him ? How mortifying a freedom of style ! how cruel an implication conveyed by his thanks and expressions of gratitude ! Is it not astonishing that any man can appear so modest, who is so vain. Every hour I regret the secrecy I have observed with my beloved Mr. Villars. I know not what bewitched me, but I felt, at first, a repugnance to publishing this affair that I could not surmount, and now I am ashamed of confessing that I have anything to confess ! Yet I deserve to be punished for the false delicacy which occasioned my silence ; since, if Lord Orville himself was contented to forfeit his character, was it for me, almost at the expense of my own, to support it ? Yet I believe I should be very easy, now the first shock is over, and now that I see the whole affair with the resentment it merits, did not all my good friends in this neighbourhood, who think me extremely altered, tease me about my gravity, and torment Mr. Villars with observations upon my dejection and falling away. The subject is no sooner started than a deep gloom overspreads his venerable countenance, and he looks at me with a tenderness so melancholy, that I know not how to endure the consciousness of exciting it. Mrs. Selwyn, a lady of large fortune, who lives about three miles from Berry Hill, and who has always honoured me with very distinguishing marks of regard, is going, in a short time, to Bristol, and has proposed to Mr. Villars to take me with her, for the recovery of my health. He seemed very much distressed whether to consent or refuse, but I, without any hesitation, warmly opposed the scheme, protesting my health could nowhere be better than in this pure air. He had the goodness to thank me for this readiness to stay with him : but 3' 5 JO* i I t i^ a - ■ My good friends tease me about my gravity. EVELINA he is all goodness ! Oh that it were in my power to be, indeed, what in the kindness of his heart he has called me, the comfort of his age and solace of his infirmities ! Never do I wish to be again separated from him. If here I am grave, elsewhere I should be unhappy. In his presence, with a very little exertion, all the cheerfulness of my disposition seems ready to return ; the benevolence of his countenance reanimates, the harmony of his temper composes, the purity of his character edifies me ! I owe to him everything, and, far from finding my debt of gratitude a weight, the first pride, first pleasure of my life, is the recollection of the obligations conferred upon me by a goodness so unequalled. Once, indeed, I thought there existed another, who, when time had wintered o'er his locks, would have shone forth among his fellow-creatures with the same brightness of worth which dignifies my honoured Mr. Villars — a brightness, how superior in value to that which results from mere quickness of parts, wit, or imagination ! a brightness which, not contented with merely diffusing smiles, and gaining admiration from the sallies of the spirits, reflects a real and a glorious lustre upon all mankind ! Oh how great was my error ! how ill did I judge ! how cruelly have I been deceived '. I will not go to Bristol, though Mrs. Selwyn is very urgent with me, but I desire not to see any more of the world ; the few months I have already passed in it have sufficed to give me a disgust even to its name. * I hope, too, I shall see Lord Orville no more ; accustomed, from my first knowledge of him, to regard him as a being superior to his race, his presence, perhaps, might banish my resentment, and I might forget his ill conduct, — for oh, Maria! I should not know how to see Lord Orville, and to think of displeasure ! As a sister I loved him, — I could have intrusted him with every thought of my heart, had he deigned to wish my confidence, so steady did I think his honour, so feminine his delicacy, and so amiable his nature ! I have a thousand times imagined that the whole study of his life, and whole purport of his reflections, tended solely to the good and happiness of others : — but I will talk, write, think of him no more ! Adieu, my dear friend ! 317 EVELINA LETTER LX EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Berry Hill, August 10. You complain of my silence, my dear Miss Mirvan — but what have I to write ? Narrative does not offer, nor does a lively imagination supply the deficiency. I have, however, at present, sufficient matter for a letter, in relating a conversation I had yesterday with Mr. Villars. Our breakfast had been the most cheerful we have had since my return hither, and, when it was over, he did not, as usual, retire to his study, but continued to converse with me while I worked. We might probably have passed all the morning thus sociably, but for the entrance of a farmer who come to solicit advice concerning some domestic affairs. They withdrew together into the study. The moment I was alone my spirits failed me — the exertion with which I had supported them had fatigued my mind. I flung away my work, and, leaning my arms on the table, gave way to a train of disagreeable reflections, which, bursting from the restraint that had smothered them, filled me with unusual sadness. This was my situation when, looking towards the door, which was open, I perceived Mr. Villars, who was earnestly regarding me. ' Is Farmer Smith gone, Sir?' cried I, hastily rising and snatching up my work. ' Don't let me disturb you,' said he, gravely ; ' I will go again to my study.' 'Will you, Sir? I was in hopes you were coming to sit here.' ' In hopes ! — and why, Evelina, should you hope it ?' This question was so unexpected, that I knew not how to answer it ; but, as I saw he was moving away, I followed, and begged him to return. ' No, my dear, no,' said he, with a forced smile, ' I only interrupt your meditations.' Again I knew not what to say ; and while I hesitated, he retired. My heart was with him, but I had not the courage to follow. The idea of an explanation, brought on in so serious 318 EVELINA a manner, frightened me. I recollected the inference you had drawn from my uneasiness, and I feared that he might make a similar interpretation. Solitary and thoughtful, I passed the rest of the morning in my own room. At dinner I again attempted to be cheerful, but Mr. Yillars himself was grave, and I had not sufficient spirits to support a conversation merely by my own efforts. As soon as dinner was over he took a book, and I walked to the window. I believe I remained near an hour in this situation. All my thoughts were directed to considering how I might dispel the doubts which I apprehended Mr. Yillars had formed, without acknowledging a circumstance which I had suffered so much pain merely to conceal. But, while I was thus planning for the future, I forgot the present, and so intent was I upon the subject which occupied me, that the strange appearance of my unusual inactivity and extreme thoughtfulness never occurred to me. But when, at last, I recollected myself, and turned round, I saw that Mr. Yillars, who had parted with his book, was wholly engrossed in attending to me. I started from my reverie, and, hardly knowing what I said, asked if he had been reading ? He paused a moment, and then replied, 'Yes, my child — a book that both afflicts and perplexes me ! ' He means me, thought I, and therefore I made no answer. ' What if we read it together ? ' continued he, ' will you assist me to clear its obscurity ? ' I knew not what to say, but I sighed, involuntarily, from the bottom of my heart. He rose, and approaching me, said, with great emotion, ' My child, I can no longer be a silent witness of thy sorrow — is not thy sorrow my sorrow? and ought I to be a stranger to the cause, when I so deeply sympathise in the effect ?' 'Cause, Sir!' cried I, greatly alarmed, 'what cause? I don't know, — I can't tell — I ' 'Fear not,' said he, kindly, 'to unbosom thyself to me, my dearest Evelina ; open to me thy whole heart — it can have no feelings for which I will not make allowance. Tell me, there- fore, what it is that thus afflicts us both, and who knows but I may suggest some means of relief ! ' 'You are too, too good,' cried I, greatly embarrassed ; 'but indeed I know not what you mean.' 319 Planning for the future. EVELINA ' I see,' said he, ' it is painful to you to speak : suppose then, I endeavour to save you by guessing ? ' ' Impossible ! impossible ! ' cried I, eagerly, ' no one living could ever guess, ever suppose ' I stopped abruptly ; for I then recollected I was acknowledging something was to be guessed : however, he noticed not my mistake. ' At least let me try,' answered he, mildly ; ' perhaps I may be a better diviner than you imagine : if I guess everything that is probable, surely I must approach near the real reason. Be honest, then, my love, and speak without reserve, — does not the country, after so much gaiety, so much variety, does it not appear insipid and tiresome ? ' ' Xo, indeed ! I love it more than ever, and more than ever do I wish I had never, never quitted it ! ' 'Oh my child ! that I had not permitted the journey ! My judgment always opposed it, but my resolution was not proof against persuasion.' ' I blush, indeed,' cried I, ' to recollect my earnestness ; — but I have been my own punisher ! ' 'It is too late, now,' answered he, 'to reflect upon this subject ; let us endeavour to avoid repentance for the time to come, and we shall not have erred without reaping some instruction.' Then seating himself, and making me sit by him, he continued : ' I must now guess again ; perhaps you regret the loss of those friends you knew in town, — perhaps you miss their society, and fear you may see them no more ? — perhaps Lord Orville ' I could not keep my seat, but rising hastily, said, ' Dear Sir, ask me nothing more! — for I have nothing to own, — nothing to say ; — my gravity has been merely accidental, and I can give no reason for it at all. Shall I fetch you another book ? — or will you have this again ? ' For some minutes he was totally silent, and I pretended to employ myself in looking for a book : at last, with a deep sigh, ' I see,' said he, ' I see but too plainly, that though Evelina is returned, — I have lost my child !' 'No, Sir, no,' cried I, inexpressibly shocked, 'she is more yours than ever ! Without you, the world would be a desert to her, and life a burthen ; — forgive her, then, and, — if you can, — condescend to be, once more, the confidant of all her thoughts.' 321 Y EVELINA ' How highly I value, how greatly I wish for her confidence,' returned he, ' she cannot but know ; — yet to extort, to tear it from her, — my justice, my affection, both revolt at the idea. I am sorry that I was so earnest with you ; — leave me, my dear, leave me, and compose yourself; — we will meet again at tea.' ' Do you then refuse to hear me ? ' ' No, but I abhor to compel you. I have long seen that your mind has been ill at ease, and mine has largely partaken of your concern : I forbore to question you, for I hoped that time, and absence from whatever excited your uneasiness, might best operate in silence : but, alas ! your affliction seems only to augment, — your health declines, — your look alters, — Oh Evelina, my aged heart bleeds to see the change ! — bleeds to behold the darling it had cherished, the prop it had reared for its support, when bowed down by years and infirmities, sinking itself under the pressure of internal grief! — struggling to hide, what it should seek to participate ! — But go, my dear, go to your own room, — we both want composure, and we will talk of this matter some other time.' 'Oh Sir,' cried I, penetrated to the soul, 'bid me not leave you ! — think me not so lost to feeling, to gratitude ' ' Not a word of that,' interrupted he ; 'it pains me you should think upon that subject — pains me you should ever remember that you have not a natural, an hereditary right to everything within my power. I meant not to affect you thus, — I hoped to have soothed you ! — but my anxiety betrayed me to an urgency that has distressed you. Comfort yourself, my love, and doubt not but that time will stand your friend, and all will end well.' I burst into tears : with difficulty had I so long restrained them ; for my heart, while it glowed with tenderness and gratitude, was oppressed with a sense of its own unworthiness. ' You are all, all goodness ! ' cried I, in a voice scarce audible, ' little as I deserve, — unable as I am to repay, such kindness, — yet my whole soul feels, — thanks you for it !' ' .My dearest child,' cried he, ' I cannot bear to see thy tears ; — for my sake dry them, — such a sight is too much for me : think of that, Evelina, and take comfort, I charge thee ! ' ' Say, then,' cried I, kneeling at his feet, ' say then that you forgive me ! that you pardon my reserve, — that you will 322 EVELINA again suffer me to tell you my most secret thoughts, and rely upon my promise never more to forfeit your confidence ! — my father! my protector! — my ever-honoured — ever-loved — my best and only friend ! — say you forgive your Evelina, and she will study better to deserve your goodness ! ' He raised, he embraced me ; he called me his sole joy, his only earthly hope, and the child of his bosom ! He folded me to his heart, and, while I wept from the fulness of mine, with words of sweetest kindness and consolation he soothed and tranquillised me. Dear to my remembrance will ever be that moment, when, banishing the reserve I had so foolishly planned and so painfully supported, I was restored to the confidence of the best of men ! When, at length, we were again quietly and composedly seated by each other, and Mr. Villars waited for the explana- tion I had begged him to hear, I found myself extremely embarrassed how to introduce the subject which must lead to it. He saw my distress, and, with a kind of benevolent pleasantry, asked me if I would let him guess any more ? I assented in silence. 'Shall I, then, go back to where I left off?' ' If — if you please ; — I believe so,' said I, stammering. ' Well then, my love, I think I was speaking of the regret it was natural you should feel upon quitting those from whom you had received civility and kindness, with so little certainty of ever seeing them again, or being able to return their good offices ? These are circumstances that afford but melancholy reflections to young minds ; and the affectionate disposition of my Evelina, open to all social feelings, must be hurt more than usual by such considerations. You are silent, my dear ? — Shall I name those whom I think most worthy the regret I speak of? We shall then see if our opinions coincide.' Still I said nothing, and he continued. ' In your London journal, nobody appears in a more amiable, a more respectable light, than Lord Orville, and perhaps ' ' I knew what you would say,' cried I, hastily, ' and I have long feared where your suspicions would fall ; but indeed, Sir, you are mistaken : I hate Lord Orville, — he is the last man in the world in whose favour I should be prejudiced.' I stopped ; for Mr. Villars looked at me with such infinite 3 2 3 EVELINA surprise, that my own warmth made me blush. ' You hate Lord Orville ! ' repeated he. I could make no answer, but took from my pocket-book the letter, and giving it to him, 'See, Sir,' said I, 'how differently the same man can talk and write P He read it three times before he spoke ; and then said, ' I am so much astonished, that I know not what I read. When had you this letter ? ' I told him. Again he read it ; and, after considering its contents some time, said, ' I can form but one conjecture con- cerning this most extraordinary performance : he must certainly have been intoxicated when he wrote it.' ' Lord Orville intoxicated ! ' repeated I ; ' once I thought him a stranger to all intemperance, — but it is very possible, for I can believe anything now.' ' That a man who had behaved with so strict a regard to delicacy,' continued Mr. Villars, 'and who, as far as occasion had allowed, manifested sentiments the most honourable, should thus insolently, thus wantonly insult a modest young woman, in his perfect senses, I cannot think possible. But, my dear, you should have inclosed this letter in an empty cover, and have returned it to him again : such a resentment would at once have become your character, and have given him an opportunity, in some measure, of clearing his own. He could not well have read this letter the next morning, without being sensible of the impropriety of having written it.' Oh Maria ! why had not I this thought ? I might then have received some apology ; the mortification would then have been his, not mine. It is true, he could not have re- instated himself so highly in my opinion as I had once ignorantly placed him, since the conviction of such intemper- ance would have levelled him with the rest of his imperfect race ; yet, my humbled pride might have been consoled by his acknowledgments. But why should I allow myself to be humbled by a man who can suffer his reason to be thus abjectly debased, when I am exalted by one who knows no vice, and scarcely a failing, — but by hearsay ? To think of his kindness, and reflect upon his praises, might animate and comfort me even in the midst of affliction. ' Your indignation,' said he, ' is the result of virtue ; you fancied Lord Orville was without fault— he had 3 2 4 EVELINA the appearance of infinite worthiness, and you supposed his character accorded with his appearance : guileless yourself, how could you prepare against the duplicity of another ? Your disappointment has but been proportioned to your ex- pectations, and you have chiefly owed its severity to the innocence which hid its approach.' I will bid these words dwell ever in my memory, and they shall cheer, comfort, and enliven me ! This conversation, though extremely affecting to me at the time it passed, has relieved my mind from much anxiety. Concealment, my dear Maria, is the foe of tranquillity ; however I may err in future, I will never be disingenuous in acknowledging my errors. To you, and to Mr. Yillars, I vow an unremitting confidence. And yet, though I am more at ease, I am far from well : I have been some time writing this letter ; but I hope I shall send you, soon, a more cheerful one. Adieu, my sweet friend. I entreat you not to acquaint even your dear mother with this affair ; Lord Orville is a favourite with her, and why should I publish that he deserves not that honour ? LETTER LXI EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Bristol Hotwell, August 28. You will be again surprised, my dear Maria, at seeing whence I date my letter: but I have been very ill, and Mr. Yillars was so much alarmed, that he not only insisted upon my accompanying Mrs. Selwyn hither, but earnestly desired she would hasten her intended journey. We travelled very slowly, and I did not find myself so much fatigued as I expected. We are situated upon a most delightful spot ; the prospect is beautiful, the air pure, and the weather very favourable to invalids. I am already better, and I doubt not but I shall soon be well ; as well, in regard to mere health, as I wish to be. I cannot express the reluctance with which I parted from my revered Mr. Yillars : it was not like that parting, which last April preceded my journey to Howard Grove, when, all 3 2 5 EVELINA expectation and hope, though I wept, I rejoiced, and though I sincerely grieved to leave him, I yet wished to be gone : the sorrow I now felt was unmixed with any livelier sensation ; expectation was vanished, and hope I had none ! All that I held most dear upon earth I quitted, and that upon an errand to the success of which I was totally indifferent, the re-establish- ment of my health. Had it been to have seen my sweet Maria, or her dear mother, I should not have repined. Mrs. Selwyn is very kind and attentive to me. She is extremely clever ; her understanding, indeed, may be called masculine ; but, unfortunately, her manners deserve the same epithet ; for, in studying to acquire the knowledge of the other sex, she has lost all the softness of her own. In regard to myself, however, as I have neither courage nor inclination to argue with her, I have never been personally hurt at her want of gentleness ; a virtue which, nevertheless, seems so essential a part of the female character, that I find myself more awkward, and less at ease, with a woman who wants it, than I do with a man. She is not a favourite with Mr. Yillars, who has often been disgusted at her unmerciful propensity to satire : but his anxiety that I should try the effect of the Bristol waters, overcame his dislike of committing me to her care. Mrs. Clinton is also here ; so that I shall be as well attended as his utmost partiality could desire. I will continue to write to you, my dear Miss Mirvan, with as much constancy as if I had no other correspondent ; though, during my absence from Berry Hill, my letters may, perhaps, be shortened on account of the minuteness of the journal which I must write to my beloved Mr. Yillars : but you, who know his expectations, and how many ties bind me to fulfil them, will, I am sure, rather excuse any omission to yourself, than any negligence to him. 326 EVELINA LETTER LXII EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VI LIARS Bristol Hotwells, Sept. 12. The first fortnight that I passed here, was so quiet, so serene, that it gave me reason to expect a settled calm during my stay ; but if I may now judge of the time to come, by the present state of my mind, the calm will be succeeded by a storm, of which I dread the violence ! This morning, in my way to the pump-room, with Mrs. Selwyn, we were both very much incommoded by three gentle- men, who were sauntering by the side of the Avon, laughing, and talking very loud, and lounging so disagreeably, that we knew not how to pass them. They all three fixed their eyes very boldly upon me, alternately looking under my hat, and whispering one another. Mrs. Selwyn assumed an air of uncommon sternness, and said, ' You will please, Gentlemen, either to proceed yourselves, or to suffer us.' ' Oh ! Ma'am,' cried one of them, ' we will suffer yo it, with the greatest pleasure in life.' 'You will suffer us bot/i,' answered she, 'or I am much mistaken ; you had better, therefore, make way quietly, for I should be sorry to give my servant the trouble of teaching you better manners.' Her commanding air struck them, yet they all chose to laugh, and one of them wished the fellow would begin his lesson, that he might have the pleasure of rolling him into the Avon ; while another advancing to me with a freedom which made me start, said, ' By my soul I did not know you ! — but I am sure I cannot be mistaken ; — had not I the honour of seeing you, once, at the Pantheon ? ' I then recollected the nobleman who, at that place, had so much embarrassed me. I curtsied without speaking. They all bowed, and making, though in a very easy manner, an apology to Mrs. Selwyn, they suffered us to pass on, but chose to accompany us. ' And where,' continued this Lord, ' can you so long have hid yourself? do you know I have been in search of you this age ? I could neither find you out, nor hear of you : not a 327 - - ' | tfiC ««Ai^ v T« £*??£ Merlon caught my handy saying the day was h EVELINA ' Egad, my Lord,' cried Mr. Coverley, ' I don't see what right you have to the best old, and the best young woman too, in the same day.' ' Best young woman .' ' repeated Mr. Lovel ; ' 'pon honour, Jack, you have made a most unfortunate speech ; however, if Lady Louisa can pardon you — and her Ladyship is all goodness — I am sure nobody else can, for you have committed an outrageous solecism in good manners.' ' And pray, Sir,' said Mrs. Selwyn, ' under what denomina- tion may your own speech pass ? ' Mr. Lovel, turning another way, affected not to hear her : and Mr. Coverley, bowing to Lady Louisa, said, ' Her Lady- ship is well acquainted with my devotion, — but, egad, I don't know how it is, I had always an unlucky turn at an epigram, and never could resist a smart play upon words in my life.' 'Pray, my Lord,' cried I, 'let go my hand! pray, Mrs. Selwyn, speak for me.' ' My Lord,' said Mrs. Selwyn, 'in detaining Miss Anville any longer you only lose time, for we are already as well con- vinced of your valour and your strength as if you were to hold her an age.' ' My Lord,' said Mrs. Beaumont, ' I must beg leave to interfere ; I know not if Lady Louisa can pardon you, but, as this young Lady is at my house, I do not choose to have her made uneasy.' '/ pardon him!' cried Lady Louisa, 'I declare I am monstrous glad to get rid of him ? ' ' Egad, my Lord,' cried Mr. Coverley, ' while you are grasping at a shadow, you'll lose a substance ; you'd best make your peace while you can.' ' Pray, Mr. Coverley, be quiet,' said Lady Louisa, peevishly, 'for I declare I won't speak to him. Brother' (taking hold of Lord Orville's arm), 'will you walk in with me?' ' Would to Heaven,' cried I, frightened to see how much Lord Merton was in liquor, ' that I, too, had a brother ! — and then I should not be exposed to such treatment ! ' Lord Orville, instantly quitting Lady Louisa, said, ' Will Miss Anville allow me the honour of taking that title ? ' and then, without waiting for any answer, he disengaged me from Lord Merton, and, handing me to Lady Louisa, ' Let me,' added he, ' take equal care of both my sisters ' ; and then, 374 EVELINA desiring her to take hold of one arm, and begging me to make use of the other, we reached the house in a moment. Lord Merton, disordered as he was, attempted not to stop us. As soon as we entered the house, I withdrew my arm, and curtsied my thanks, for my heart was too full for speech. Lady Louisa, evidently hurt at her brother's condescension, and piqued extremely by Lord Merton 's behaviour, silently drew away Iter's, and biting her lips, with a look of infinite vexation, walked sullenly up the hall. Lord Orville asked her if she would not go into the parlour. ' No,' answered she, haughtily ; ' I leave you and your new- sister together' : and then she walked upstairs. I was quite confounded at the pride and rudeness of this speech. Lord Orville himself seemed thunderstruck ; I turned from him, and went into the parlour ; he followed me, saying, ' Must I, now, apologise to Miss Anville for the liberty of my interference ? — or ought I to apologise that I did not, as I wished, interfere sooner ? ' ' O my Lord,' cried I, with an emotion I could not repress, ' it is from you alone I meet with any respect — all others treat me with impertinence or contempt ! ' I am sorry I had not more command of myself, as he had reason, just then, to suppose I particularly meant his sister, which, I am sure, must very much hurt him. ' Good Heaven,' cried he, ' that so much sweetness and merit can fail to excite the love and admiration so justly their due ! I cannot, I dare not express to you half the indignation I feel at this moment ! ' ' I am sorry, my Lord,' said I, more calmly, 'to have raised it ; but yet, in a situation that calls for protection, to meet only with mortifications — indeed I am but ill formed to bear them ! ' ' My dear Miss Anville,' cried he warmly, 'allow me to be your friend ; think of me as if I were indeed your brother, and let me entreat you to accept my best services, if there is anything in which I can be so happy as to show my regard my respect for you ! ' Before I had time to speak, the rest of the party entered the parlour, and, as I did not wish to see anything more of Lord Merton, at least before he had slept, I determined to leave it. Lord Orville, seeing my design, said, as I passed 375 EVELINA him, 'Will you go?' 'Had not I best, my Lord?' said I. ' I am afraid,' said he, smiling, ' since I must now speak as your brother, I am afraid you had; you see you may trust me, since I can advise against my own interest.' I then left the room, and have been writing ever since. And methinks I can never lament the rudeness of Lord Merton, as it has more than ever confirmed to me the esteem of Lord Orville. LETTER LXIX EVELINA IX CONTINUATION Sept. 30. Oh Sir, what a strange incident have I to recite ! what a field of conjecture to open ! Yesterday evening, we all went to an assembly. Lord Orville presented tickets to the whole family, and did me the honour, to the no small surprise of all here, I believe, to dance with me. But every day abounds in fresh instances of his condescending politeness, and he now takes every opportunity of calling me his friend, and his sister. Lord Merton offered a ticket to Lady Louisa, but she was so much incensed against him that she refused it with the utmost disdain ; neither could he prevail upon her to dance with him ; she sat still the whole evening, and deigned not to look at, or speak to him. To me, her behaviour is almost the same, for she is cold, distant, and haughty, and her eyes express the greatest contempt. But for Lord Orville, how miserable would my residence here make me ! We were joined, in the ball-room, by Mr. Coverley, Mr. Lovel, and Lord Merton, who looked as if he was doing penance, and sat all the evening next to Lady Louisa, vainly endeavouring to appease her anger. Lord Orville began the minuets ; he danced with a young lady who seemed to engage the general attention, as she had not been seen here before. She is pretty, and looks mild and yood-humoured. 'Pray, Mr. Lovel,' said Lady Louisa, 'who is that?' 3/6 EVELINA ' Miss Belmont,' answered he, ' the young heiress ; she came to the Wells yesterday.' Struck with the name, I involuntarily repeated it, but nobody heard me. ' What is her family ?' said Mrs. Beaumont. ' Have you not heard of her, Ma'am ? ' cried he, ' she is only daughter and heiress of Sir John Belmont.' Good Heaven, how did I start ! the name struck my ear like a thunderbolt. Mrs. Selwyn, who immediately looked at me, said ' Be calm, my dear, and we will learn the truth of all this.' Till then, I had never imagined her to be acquainted with my story ; but she has since told me that she knew my unhappy mother, and was well informed of the whole affair. She asked Mr. Lovel a multitude of questions, and I gathered from his answers that this young lady was just come from abroad with Sir John Belmont, who was now in London ; that she was under the care of his sister, Mrs. Paterson ; and that she would inherit a considerable estate. I cannot express the strange feelings with which I was agitated during this recital. What, my dearest Sir, can it possibly mean ? Did you ever hear of any after-marriage ? — or must I suppose that, while the lawful child is rejected, another is adopted ? I know not what to think ! 1 am bewildered with a contrariety of ideas ! When we came home, Mrs. Selwyn passed more than an hour in my room, conversing upon this subject. She says that I ought instantly to go to town, find out my father, and have the affair cleared up. She assures me I have too strong a resemblance to my dear, though unknown mother, to allow of the least hesitation in my being owned, when once I am seen. For my part, I have no wish but to act by your direction. I cannot give any account of the evening ; so disturbed, so occupied am I by this subject, that I can think of no other. I have entreated Mrs. Selwyn to observe the strictest secrecy, and she has promised that she will. Indeed, she has too much sense to be idly communicative. Lord Orville took notice of my being absent and silent, but I ventured not to entrust him with the cause. Fortunately, he was not of the party at the time Mr. Lovel made the discovery. Mrs. Selwyn says, that if you approve my going to town, 377 EVELINA she will herself accompany me. I had a thousand times rather ask the protection of Mrs. Mirvan ; but, after this offer, that will not be possible. Adieu, my dearest Sir. I am sure you will write immediately, and I shall be all impatience till your letter arrives. LETTER LXX EVELINA IX CONTINUATION Oct. 1. Good God, my dear Sir, what a wonderful tale have I again to relate ! even yet, I am not recovered from my extreme surprise. Yesterday morning, as soon as I had finished my hasty letter, I was summoned to attend a walking party to the Hot- wells. It consisted only of Mrs. Selwyn and Lord Orville. The latter walked by my side all the way; and his conversation dissipated my uneasiness, and insensibly restored my serenity. At the pump-room, I saw Mr. Macartney ; I curtsied to him twice ere he would speak to me. When he did, I began to apologise for having disappointed him ; but I did not find it very easy to excuse myself, as Lord Orville's eyes, with an expression of anxiety that distressed me, turned from him to me, and me to him, every word I spoke. Convinced, however, that I had really trifled with Mr. Macartney, I scrupled not to beg his pardon. He was then not merely appeased, but even grateful. He requested me to see him to-morrow : but I had not the folly to be again guilty of an indiscretion which had, already, caused me so much uneasiness ; and therefore I told him, frankly, that it was not in my power, at present, to see him, but by accident ; and, to prevent his being offended, I hinted to him the reason I could not receive him as I wished to do. When I had satisfied both him and myself upon this subject, I turned to Lord Orville, and saw, with concern, the gravity of his countenance ; I would have spoken to him, but knew not how : I believe, however, he read my thoughts, for, 373 EVELINA in a little time, with a sort of serious smile, he said, ' Does not Mr. Macartney complain of his disappointment ? ' ■ Not much, my Lord.' 'And how have you appeased him?' Finding I hesitated what to answer, ' Am I not your brother,' continued he, ' and must I not inquire into your affairs ? ' 'Certainly, my Lord,' said I, laughing, ' I only wish it weie better worth your Lordship's while.' ' Let me, then, make immediate use of my privilege. When shall you see Mr. Macartney again?' ' Indeed, my Lord, I can't tell.' ' But, — do you know that I shall not suffer my sister to make a private appointment ? ' 'Pray, my Lord,' cried I, earnestly, 'use that word no more ! Indeed you shock me extremely.' ' That would I not do for the world,' cried he ; ' yet you know not how warmly, how deeply I am interested, not only in all your concerns, but in all your actions.' This speech, the most particular one Lord Orville had ever made to me, ended our conversation at that time, for I was too much struck by it to make any answer. Soon after, Mr. Macartney, in a low voice, entreated me not to deny him the gratification of returning the money. While he was speaking, the young lady I saw yesterday at the assembly, with the large party, entered the pump-room. Mr. Macartney turned as pale as death, his voice faltered, and he seemed not to know what he said. I was myself almost equally disturbed, by the crowd of confused ideas that occurred to me. Good Heaven, thought I, why should he be thus agitated ? — is it possible this can be the young lady he loved ? In a few minutes, we quitted the pump-room, and though I twice wished Mr. Macartney good morning, he was so absent he did not hear me. We did not immediately return to Clifton, as Mrs. Selwyn had business at a pamphlet-shop. While she was looking at some new poems, Lord Orville again asked me when I should see Mr. Macartney. ' Indeed, my Lord,' cried 1, ' I know not, but I would give the universe for a few moments conversation with him!' I spoke this with a simple sincerity, and was not aware of the force of my own words. 379 J^UUSUi^-lA^. If* The young lady entered the pump-room. EVELINA 'The universe!' repeated he, 'Good God, Miss Anville, do you say this to vie f ' 1 I would say it,' returned I, 'to anybody, my Lord.' ■ I beg your pardon,' said he, in a voice that showed him ill pleased ; ' I am answered ! ' 'My Lord,' cried I, 'you must not judge hardly of me. I spoke inadvertently ; but if you knew the painful suspense I suffer at this moment, you would not be surprised at what I have said.' 'And would a meeting with Air. Macartney relieve you from that suspense ? ' ' Yes, my Lord, two words might be sufficient.' ' Would to Heaven,' cried he, after a short pause, ' that I were worthy to know their import ! ' ' Worthy, my Lord 1 O, if that were all, your Lordship could ask nothing I should not be ready to answer ! If I were but at liberty to speak, I should be proud of your Lord- ship's inquiries ; but indeed I am not, I have not any right to communicate the affairs of Mr. Macartney- -your Lordship cannot suppose I have.' ' I will own to you,' answered he, ' I know not what to suppose ; yet there seems a frankness even in your mystery, and such an air of openness in your countenance, that I am willing to hope ' He stopped a moment, and then added, ' This meeting, you say, is essential to your repose ? ' ' I did not say that, my Lord, but yet I have the most important reasons for wishing to speak to him.' He paused a few minutes, and then said, with warmth, 'Yes, you shall speak to him! — I will myself assist you! Miss Anville, I am sure, cannot form a wish against propriety ; I will ask no questions, I will rely upon her own purity, and uninformed, blindfold as I am, I will serve her with all my power ! ' And then he went into the shop, leaving me so strangely affected by his generous behaviour, that I almost wished to follow him with my thanks. When Mrs. Selwyn had transacted her affairs, we returned home. The moment dinner was over, Lord Orville went out. and did not come back till just as we were summoned to supper. This is the longest time he has spent from the house since I have been at Clifton, and you cannot imagine, my dear Sir, ' *8l EVELINA how much I missed him. I scarce knew before how infinitely I am indebted to him alone for the happiness I have enjoyed since I have been at Mrs. Beaumont's. As I generally go downstairs last, he came to me the moment the ladies had passed by, and said, ' Shall you be at home to-morrow morning ? ' ' I believe so, my Lord.' ' And will you, then, receive a visitor for me ? ' ' For you, my Lord ? ' 'Yes; — I have made acquaintance with Mr. Macartney, and he has promised to call upon me to-morrow about three o'clock.' And then, taking my hand, he led me downstairs. O Sir ! — was there ever such another man as Lord Orville ! Yes, one other now resides at Berry Hill ! This morning there has been a great deal of company here, but at the time appointed by Lord Orville, doubtless with that consideration, the parlour is almost always empty, as every- body is dressing. Mrs. Beaumont, however, was not gone upstairs, when Mr. Macartney sent in his name. Lord Orville immediately said, ' Beg the favour of him to walk in. You see, Madam, that I consider myself as at home.' ' I hope so,' answered Mrs. Beaumont, ' or I should be very uneasy.' Mr. Macartney then entered. I believe we both felt very conscious to whom the visit was paid : but Lord Orville received him as his own guest, and not merely entertained him as such while Mrs. Beaumont remained in the room, but for some time after she had left it : a delicacy that saved me from the embarrassment I should have felt, had he immediately quitted us. In a few minutes, however, he gave Mr. Macartney a book, — for I, too, by way of pretence for continuing in the room, pretended to be reading, — and begged he would be so good as to look it over, while he answered a note, which he would dispatch in a few minutes, and return to him. When he was gone, we both parted with our books, and Mr. Macartney, again producing the paper with the money, besought me to accept it. *82 EVELINA 'Pray,' said I, still declining it, 'did you know the young lady who came into the pump-room yesterday morning ? ' ' Know her I ' repeated he, changing colour, ' oh, but too well ! ' ' Indeed ! ' ' Why, .Madam, do you ask ? ; ' I must beseech you to satisfy me further upon this subject ; pray tell me who she is.' ' Inviolably as I meant to keep my secret, I can refuse you, Madam, nothing ; — that lady — is the daughter of Sir John Belmont ! — of my father ! ' 'Gracious Heaven!' cried I, involuntarily laying my hand on his arm, ' you are then ' my brother, I would have said, but my voice failed me, and I burst into tears. 'Oh, Madam,' cried he. 'what does this mean? What can thus distress you ? ' I could not answer, but held out my hand to him. He seemed greatly surprised, and talked in high terms of my condescension. ' Spare yourself,' cried I, wiping my eyes, ' spare yourself this mistake, — you have a right to all I can do for you ; the similarity of our circumstances ' We were then interrupted by the entrance of Mrs. Selvvyn ; and Mr. Macartney, finding no probability of our being left alone, was obliged to take leave, though, I believe, very reluctantly, while in such suspense. Mrs. Selwyn then, by dint of interrogatories, drew from me the state of this affair. She is so penetrating, that there is no possibility of evading to give her satisfaction. Is not this a strange event ? Good Heaven, how little did I think that the visits I so unwillingly paid at Mr. Branghton's would have introduced me to so near a relation ! I will never again regret the time I spent in town this summer : a circum- stance so fortunate will always make me think of it with pleasure. I have just received your letter, — and it has almost broken my heart ! Oh, Sir ! the illusion is over indeed ! How vainly have I flattered, how miserably deceived myself! Long since, doubtful of the situation of my heart, I dreaded a scrutiny, — but now, now that I have so long escaped, I began, indeed, 383 EVELINA to think my safety insured, to hope that my fears were cause- less, and to believe that my good opinion and esteem of Lord Orville might be owned without suspicion, and felt without danger : miserably deceived, indeed ! His sigJit is baneful to my repose, — his society is death to my future tranquillity ! Oh, Lord Orville! could I have believed that a friendship so grateful to my heart, so soothing to my distress — a friendship which, in every respect, did me so much honour, would only serve to embitter all my future moments ! What a strange, what an unhappy circumstance, that my gratitude, though so justly excited, should be so fatal to my peace ! Yes, Sir, I will quit him ; — would to Heaven I could at at this moment ! without seeing him again — without trusting to my now conscious emotion ! Oh, Lord Orville, how little do you know the evils I owe to you ! how little suppose that, when most dignified by your attention, I was most to be pitied, — and when most exalted by your notice, you were most my enemy ! You, Sir, relied upon my ignorance — I, alas, upon your experience ; and, whenever I doubted the weakness of my heart, the idea that you did not suspect it, reassured me, — restored my courage, and confirmed my error ! Yet am I most sensible of the kindness of your silence. Oh, Sir ! why have I ever quitted you ? why been exposed to dangers to which I am so unequal ? But I will leave this place, — leave Lord Orville, — leave him, perhaps, for ever! — no matter; your counsel, your goodness, may teach me how to recover the peace and the serenity of which my unguarded folly has beguiled me. To you alone do I trust, — in you alone confide for every future hope I may form. The more I consider of parting with Lord Orville, the less fortitude do I feel to bear the separation ; — the friendship he has shown me, — his politeness, — his sweetness of manners, — his concern in my affairs, — his solicitude to oblige me, — all, all to be given up ! Xo, I cannot tell him I am going, — I dare not trust myself to take leave of him, — I will run away without seeing him : implicitly will I follow your advice, avoid his sight, and shim his society ! 384 EVELINA To-morrow morning I will set off for Berry Hill. Mrs. Selwyn and Mrs. Beaumont shall alone know my intention. And to-day, — I will spend in my own room. The readiness of my obedience is the only atonement I can offer for the weakness which calls for its exertion. Can you. will you, most honoured, most dear Sir ! sole prop by which the poor Evelina is supported, — can you, with- out reproach, without displeasure, receive the child you have so carefully reared, — from whose education better fruit might have been expected, and who, blushing for her unworthiness, fears to meet the eye by which she has been cherished ? Oh yes, I am sure you will ! Your Evelina's errors are those of the judgment, — and you, I well know, pardon all but those of the heart ! LETTER LXXI EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Clifton, October i. I have only time, my dearest Sir, for three words, to over- take my last letter, and prevent your expecting me immediately ; for when I communicated myintention to Mrs. Selwyn, she would not hear of it, and declared it would be highly ridiculous for me to go before I received an answer to my intelligence con- cerning the journey from Paris. She has, therefore, insisted upon my waiting till your next letter arrives. I hope you will not be displeased at my compliance, though it is rather against my own judgment ; but Mrs. Selwyn quite overpowered me with the force of her arguments. I will, however, see very little of Lord Orville ; I will never come downstairs before breakfa-t : give up all my walks in the garden, — seat myself next to Mrs. Selwyn, and not merely avoid his conversation, but shun his presence. I will exert all the prudence and all the resolution in my power, to prevent this short delay from giving you any further uneasiness. Adieu, my dearest Sir. I shall not now leave Clifton till I have your directions. 3 8 5 2 c EVELINA LETTER LXXII EVELINA IN CONTINUATION October 2. Yesterday, from the time I received your kind, though heart -piercing letter, I kept my room, — for I was equally unable and unwilling to see Lord Orville : but this morning, finding I seemed destined to pass a few days longer here, I endeavoured to calm my spirits, and to appear as usual ; though I determined to avoid him to the utmost of my power. Indeed, as I entered the parlour, when called to breakfast, my thoughts were so much occupied with your letter, that I felt as much confusion at his sight, as if he had himself been informed of its contents. .Mrs. Beaumont made me a slight compliment upon my recovery, for I had pleaded illness to excuse keeping my room : Lady Louisa spoke not a word : but Lord Orville, little imagining himself the cause of my indisposition, inquired concerning my health with the most distinguishing politeness. I hardly made any answer, and, for the first time since I have been here, contrived to sit at some distance from him. I could not help observing that my reserve surprised him ; yet he persisted in his civilities, and seemed to wish to remove it. But I paid him very little attention ; and the moment breakfast was over, instead of taking a book, or walking in the garden, I retired to my own room. Soon after, Mrs. Selwyn came to tell me that Lord Orville had been proposing I should take an airing, and persuading her to let him drive us both in his phaeton. She delivered the message with an archness that made me blush ; and added, that an airing, in my Lord OrviY/e's carriage, could not fail to revive my spirits. There is no possibility of escaping her discernment ; she has frequently rallied me upon his Lordship's attention, — and, alas ! — upon the pleasure with which I have received it ! However, I absolutely refused the offer. ' Well,' said she, laughing, ' I cannot just now indulge you with any solicitation : for, to tell you the truth, I have business to transact at the Wells, and am glad to be excused myself. ?86 EVELINA I would ask you to walk with me, — but, since Lord Orville is refused, / have not the presumption to hope for success.' ' Indeed,' cried I, ' you are mistaken ; I will attend you with pleasure.' ' O rare coquetry ! ' cried she, ' surely it must be inherent in our sex, or it could not have been imbibed at Berry Hill.' I had not spirits to answer her, and therefore put on my hat and cloak in silence. ' I presume,' continued she drily, ' his Lordship may walk with us ? ' ' If so, Madam,' said I, ' you will have a companion, and I will stay at home.' ' My clear child,' cried she, ' did you bring the certificate of your birth with you ? ' ' Dear Madam, no ! ' ' Why then, we shall never be known again at Berry Hill.' I felt too conscious to enjoy her pleasantry ; but I believe she was determined to torment me ; for she asked if she should inform Lord Orville that I desired him not to be of the party ? ' By no means, Madam ; — but, indeed, I had rather not walk myself ' My dear,' cried she, ' I really do not know you this morning, — you have certainly been taking a lesson of Lady Louisa.' She then went downstairs ; but presently returning, told me she had acquainted Lord Orville that I did not choose to go out in the phaeton, but preferred a walk, tete-a-tite with her, by way of variety. I said nothing, but was really vexed. She bid me go downstairs, and said she would follow immediately. Lord Orville met me in the hall. ' I fear,' said he, ' Miss Anville is not yet quite well?' and he would have taken my hand, but I turned from him, and curtsying slightly, went into the parlour. Mrs. Beaumont and Lady Louis, i were at work: Lord Merton was talking with the latter ; for he has now made his peace, and is again received into favour. I seated myself, as usual, by the window. Lord Orville, in a few minutes, came to me, and said, 'Why is Miss Anville so grave ? ' 387 EVELINA ' Not grave, my Lord,' said I, ' only stupid ' ; and I took up a book. ' You will go,' said he, after a short pause, ' to the assembly to-night ? ' ' No, my Lord, certainly not.' ' Neither then will I ; for I should be sorry to sully the remembrance I have of the happiness I enjoyed at the last.' Mrs. Selwyn then coming in, general inquiries were made, to all but me, of who would go to the assembly. Lord Orville instantly declared he had letters to write at home ; but every one else settled to go. I then hastened Mrs. Selwyn away, though not before she had said to Lord Orville, ' Pray, has your Lordship obtained Miss Anville's leave to favour us with your company?' ' I have not, Madam,' answered he, ' had the vanity to ask it.' During our walk, Mrs. Selwyn tormented me unmercifully. She told me, that since I declined any addition to our party, I must, doubtless, be conscious of my own powers of entertain- ment ; and begged me, therefore, to exert them freely. I repented a thousand times having consented to walk alone with her : for though I made the most painful efforts to appear in spirits, her raillery quite overpowered me. We went first to the pump-room. It was full of company ! and the moment we entered, I heard a murmuring of, ' Tliat's she / ' and, to my great confusion, I saw every eye turned towards me. I pulled my hat over my face, and, by the assistance of Mrs. Selwyn, endeavoured to screen myself from observation : nevertheless, I found I was so much the object of general attention, that I entreated her to hasten away. But unfortunately, she had entered into conversation, very earnestly, with a gentleman of her acquaintance, and would not listen to me, but said, that if I was tired of waiting, I might walk on to the milliner's with the Miss YVatkins, two young ladies I had seen at Mrs. Beaumont's, who were going thither. I accepted the offer very readily, and away we went. But we had not gone three yards, before we were followed by a party of young men, who took every possible opportunity of looking at us, and, as they walked behind, talked aloud, in a manner at once unintelligible and absurd. ' Yes,' cried one, ' 'tis certainly she ! — mark but her blushing cheek ! ' -v- Folio-- • of young men •J |q. EVELINA And then her eye — her downcast eye / ' cried another. ' True, oh most true," said a third, ' every beauty is her ' But then,' said the first, ' her mind, — now the difficulty is, to find out the truth of that, for she will not say a word.' ' She is timidj answered another ; ' mark but her timid air? During this conversation, we walked on silent and quick ; as we knew not to whom it was particularly addressed, we were all equally ashamed, and equally desirous to avoid such unaccountable observations. Soon after, we were caught in a shower of rain. We hurried on, and these gentlemen, following us, offered their services in the most pressing manner, begging us to make use of their arms ; and while I almost ran, in order to avoid their impertinence, I was suddenly met by Sir Clement Willoughby ! We both started. ' Good God,' he exclaimed, ' Miss Anville ! ' and then, regarding my tormentors with an air of displeasure, he earnestly inquired, if anything had alarmed me ? ' No, no,' cried I ; for I found no difficulty now to dis- engage myself from these youths, who, probably concluding from the commanding air of Sir Clement that he had a right to protect me, quietly gave way to him, and entirely quitted us. With his usual impetuosity, he then began a thousand inquiries, accompanied with as many compliments ; and he told me that he arrived at Bristol but this morning, which he had entirely devoted to endeavours to discover where I lodged. ' Did you know, then,' said I, 'that I was at Bristol ? ' ' Would to Heaven,' cried he, ' that I could remain in ignorance of your proceedings with the same contentment you do of mine ! then should I not for ever journey upon the wings of hope, to meet my own despair ! You cannot even judge of the cruelty of my fate, for the ease and serenity of your mind incapacitates you from feeling for the agitation of mine ! ' The ease and serenity of my mind ! alas, how little do I merit those words ! ' But,' added he, ' had accident brought me hither, had I not known of your journey, the voice of fame would have proclaimed it to me instantly upon my arrival.' ' The voice of fame ! ' repeated I. ' Yes, for yours was the first name I heard at the pump- 39° EVELINA room. But had I not heard your name, such a description could have painted no one else.' 'Indeed,' said I. 'I do not understand you.' Rut, just then arriving at the milliner's, our conversation ended ; for Miss Watkins called me to look at caps and ribbons. Sir Clement, however, has the art of being always at home ; he was very soon engaged, as busily as ourselves, in looking at lace ruffles. Yet he took an opportunity of saying to me in a low voice, ' How charmed I am to see you look so well ! I was told you were ill, — but I never saw you in better health, — never more infinitely lovely ! ' I turned away, to examine the ribbons, and soon after Mrs. Selwyn made her appearance. I found that she was acquainted with Sir Clement, and her manner of speaking to him con- vinced me that he was a favourite with her. When their mutual compliments were over, she turned to me, and said, ' Pray, Miss Anville, how long can you live without nourishment ?' ' Indeed, Ma'am,' said I, laughing, ' I have never tried.' ' Because so long, and no longer,' answered she, ' you may remain at Bristol.' ' Why, what is the matter, Ma'am ? ' ' The matter ! — why, all the ladies are at open war with you, — the whole pump-room is in confusion ; and you, inno- cent as you pretend to look, are the cause. However, if you take my advice, you will be very careful how you eat and drink during your stay.' I begged her to explain herself : and she then told me, that a copy of verses had been dropped in the pump-room, and read there aloud: 'The Beauties of the Wells,' said she, 'are all mentioned, but you are the Venus to whom the prize is given.' 'Is it then possible,' cried Sir Clement, 'that you have not seen these verses ? ' ' I hardly know,' answered I, 'whether anybody has.' •I assure you,' said Mrs. Selwyn, 'if you give me the invention of them, you do me an honour I by no means deserve.' ' I wrote down in my tablets,' said Sir Clement, 'the stanzas which concern Miss Anville, this morning at the pump-room : and I will do myself the honour of copying them for her this evening.' 39 1 A copy of verses had been dropped in the pump-room. EVELINA ' But why the part that concerns Miss Anville?* said Mrs. Selwyn ; ' did you ever see her before this morning ? ' ' O yes,' answered he, ' I have had that happiness frequently at Captain Mirvan's. Too, too frequently!' added he, in a low voice, as Mrs. Selwyn turned to the milliner : and, as soon as she was occupied in examining some trimmings, he came to me, and, almost whether I would or not, entered into conversation with me. ' I have a thousand things,' cried he, ' to say to you. Pray where are you ? ' 'With Mrs. Selwyn, Sir.' ' Indeed — then, for once, Chance is my friend. And how long have you been here ? ' 'About three weeks.' ' Good Heaven ! what an anxious search have I had, to discover your abode, since you so suddenly left town ! The termagant Madame Duval refused me all intelligence. Oh, Miss Anville, did you know what I have endured ! the sleep- less, restless state of suspense I have been tortured with, you could not, all cruel as you are, you could not have received me with such frigid indifference ! ' ' Received you, Sir ! ' ' Why, is not my visit to you ? Do you think I should have made this journey, but for the happiness of again seeing you ? ' ' Indeed it is possible I might, — since so many others do.' ' Cruel, cruel girl ! you know that I adore you ! you know you are the mistress of my soul, and arbitress of my fate ! ' Mrs. Selwyn then advancing to us, he assumed a more disengaged air, and asked if he should not have the pleasure of seeing her in the evening, at the assembly ? 'O yes,' cried she, 'we shall certainly be there; so you may bring the verses with you, if Miss Anville can wait for them so long.' ' I hope, then,' returned lie, ' that you will do me the honour to dance with me ? ' I thanked him, but said I should not be at the assembly. ' Not be at the assembly ! ' cried Mrs. Selwyn. ' Why, have you too letters to write ?' She looked at me with a significant archness that made me colour; and I hastily answered, 'No, indeed. Ma'am!' 393 EVELINA 'You have not !' cried she, yet more drily, 'then pray, my dear, do you stay at home to help, — or to /tinder others ? ' 'To do neither, Ma'am,' answered I, in much confusion; 'so, if you please, T will not stay at home.' 'You allow me, then,' said Sir Clement, 'to hope for the honour of your hand ? ' I only bowed, — for the dread of Mrs. Selwyn's raillery made me not dare refuse him. Soon after this we walked home ; Sir Clement accompanied us, and the conversation that passed between Mrs. Selwyn and him was supported in so lively a manner that I should have been much entertained, had my mind been more at ease : but alas ! I could think of nothing but the capricious, the unmeaning appearance which the alteration in my conduct must make in the eyes of Lord Orville. And, much as I wish to avoid him, greatly as I desire to save myself from having my weakness known to him, — yet I cannot endure to incur his ill opinion,- — and, unacqainted as he is with the reasons by which I am actuated, how can he fail contemning a change to him so unaccountable ? As we entered the garden, he was the first object we saw. He advanced to meet us, and I could not help observing that at sight of each other both he and Sir Clement changed colour. We went into the parlour, where we found the same party we had left. Mrs. Selwyn presented Sir Clement to Mrs. Beaumont ; Lady Louisa and Lord Merton he seemed well acquainted with already. The conversation was upon the general subjects of the weather, the company at the Wells, and the news of the day. But Sir Clement, drawing his chair next to mine, took every opportunity of addressing himself to me in particular. I could not but remark the striking difference of his attention, and that of Lord Orville : the latter has such gentle- ness of manners, such delicacy of conduct, and an air so respectful, that, when he flatters most, he never distresses, and when he most confers honour, appears to receive it ! The former obtrudes his attention, and forces mine ; it is so pointed, that it always confuses me, and so public, that it attracts general notice. Indeed I have sometimes thought that he would rather wish, than dislike to have his partiality for me 394 EVELINA known, as he takes great care to prevent my being spoken to by anybody but himself. When, at length, he went away, Lord Orville took his seat, and said with a half-smile, 'Shall /call Sir Clement, — or will you call me an usurper for taking this place ? You make me no answer? Must I then suppose that Sir Clement ' ' It is little worth your Lordship's while,' said I, 'to suppose anything upon so insignificant an occasion.' ' Pardon me,' cried he ; 'to me nothing is insignificant in which you are concerned.' To this I made no answer, neither did he say anything more, till the ladies retired to dress ; and then, when I would have followed them, he stopped me, saying, ' One moment, I entreat you ! ' I turned back, and he went on. ' I greatly fear that I have been so unfortunate as to offend you ; yet so repugnant to my very soul is the idea, that I know not how to suppose it possible I can unwittingly have done the thing in the world that, designedly, I would most wish to avoid.' 'No, indeed, my Lord, you have not,' said I. ' You sigh ! ' cried he, taking my hand, ' would to Heaven I were the sharer of your uneasiness, whencesoever it springs ! with what earnestness would I not struggle to alleviate it ! Tell me, my dear Miss Anville, — my new-adopted sister, my sweet and most amiable friend ! — tell me, I beseech you, if I can afford you any assistance ? ' 'None, none, my Lord!' cried I, withdrawing my hand and moving towards the door. '•Is it then impossible I can serve you ? — perhaps you wish to see Mr. Macartney again ? ' ' Xo, my Lord.' And I held the door open. ' I am not, I own, sorry for that. Yet, oh, Miss Anville, there is a question, — there is a conjecture, I know not how to mention, because I dread the result ! But I see you are in haste ; — perhaps in the evening I may have the honour of a longer conversation. Yet one thing will you have the goodness to allow me to ask ? Did you, this morning, when you went to the Wells, — did you know who you should meet there?' ' Who, my Lord ?' ' I beg your pardon a thousand times for a curiosity so unlicensed, — but I will say no more at present.' 395 EVELINA He bowed, expecting me to go, — and then, with quick steps, but a heavy heart, I came to my own room. His question, I am sure, meant Sir Clement Willoughby ; and, had I not imposed upon myself the severe task of avoiding, flying Lord Orville with all my power, I would instantly have satisfied him of my ignorance of Sir Clement's journey. And yet more did I long to say something of the assembly, since I found he depended upon my spending the evening at home. I did not go downstairs again till the family was assembled to dinner. My dress, I saw, struck Lord Orville with astonish- ment ; and I was myself so much ashamed of appearing whimsical and unsteady, that I could not look up. 'I understood,' said Mrs. Beaumont, 'that Miss Anville did not go out this evening ? ' 'Her intention in the morning,' said Mrs. Selwyn, 'was to stay at home ; but there is a fascinating power in an assembly, which, upon second thoughts, is not to be resisted.' ' The assembly ! ' cried Lord Orville, ' are you then going to the assembly ? ' I made no answer ; and we all took our places at table. It was not without difficulty that I contrived to give up un- usual seat ; but I was determined to adhere to the promise in my yesterday's letter, though I saw that Lord Orville seemed quite confounded at my visible endeavours to avoid him. After dinner, we all went into the drawing-room together, as there were no gentlemen to detain his Lordship ; and then, before I could place myself out his way, he said, ' You are then really going to the assembly ? May I ask if you shall dance ? ' ' I believe not, — my Lord.' ' If I did not fear,' continued he, 'that you would be tired of the same partner at two following assemblies, I would give up my letter-writing till to-morrow, and solicit the honour of your hand.' ' If I do dance,' said I, in great confusion, ' I believe I am engaged.' 'Engaged!' cried he, with earnestness, 'may I ask to whom ? ' 'To — Sir Clement Willoughby, my Lord.' He said nothing, but looked very little pleased, and did not address himself to me any more all the afternoon. Oh, 39 6 EVELINA Sir ! — thus situated, how comfortless were the feelings of your Evelina '. Early in the evening', with his usual assiduity, Sir Clement came to conduct us to the assembly. He soon contrived to seat himself next me, and, in a low voice, paid me so many compliments, that I knew not which way to look. Lord Orville hardly spoke a word, and his countenance was grave and thoughtful ; yet whenever I raised my eyes, his, I perceived, were directed towards me, though instantly, upon meeting mine, he looked another way. In a short time, Sir Clement, taking from his pocket a folded paper, said, almost in a whisper, ' Here, loveliest of women, you will see a faint, an unsuccessful attempt to paint the object of all my adoration ! yet, weak as are the lines for the purpose, I envy beyond expression the happy mortal who has dared make the effort.' 'I will look at them,' said I, 'some other time.' For, conscious that I was observed by Lord Orville, I could not bear he should see me take a written paper, so privately offered, from Sir Clement. But Sir Clement is an imprac- ticable man, and I never yet succeeded in any attempt to frustrate whatever he had planned. ' No,' said he, still in a whisper, ' you must take them now, while Lady Louisa is away'; for she and Mrs. Selwyn were gone upstairs to finish their dress, 'as she must by no means see them.' ' Indeed,' said I, ' I have no intention to show them.' ' But the only way,' answered he, ' to avoid suspicion, is to take them in her absence. I would have read them aloud myself, but that they are not proper to be seen by anybody in this house, yourself and .Mrs. Selwyn excepted.' Then again he presented me the paper, which I now was obliged to take, as 1 found declining it was vain. But I was sorry that this action should be seen, and the whispering remarked, though the purport of the conversation was left to conjecture. As I held it in my hand, Sir Clement teased me to look at it immediately ; and told me that the reason he could not produce the lines publicly was, that among the ladies who were mentioned and supposed to be rejected, was Lady Louisa Larpent. I am much concerned at this circumstance, as I 397 EVELINA cannot doubt but that it will render me more disagreeable to her than ever, if she should hear of it. I will now copy the verses, which Sir Clement would not let me rest till I had read. See last advance, with bashful grace, Downcast eye, and blushing cheek, Timid air, and beauteous face, Anville, — whom the Graces seek. Though ev'ry beauty is her own, And though her mind each virtue fills, Anville, — to her power unknown, Artless strikes, — unconscious kills ! I am sure, my dear Sir, you will not wonder that a panegyric such as this should, in reading, give me the greatest confusion ; and, unfortunately, before I had finished it, the ladies returned. 'What have you there, my dear?' said Mrs. Selwyn. ' Nothing, Ma'am,'' said I, hastily folding and putting it in my pocket. ' And has nothing,' cried she, ' the power of rouge ? ' I made no answer ; a deep sigh which escaped Lord Orville at that moment, reached my ears, and gave me sensations — which I dare not mention ! Lord Merton then handed Lady Louisa and Mrs. Beaumont to the latter's carriage. Mrs. Selwyn led the way to Sir Clement's, who handed me in after her. During the ride, I did not once speak ; but when I came to the assembly-room, Sir Clement took care that I should not preserve my silence. He asked me immediately to dance ; I begged him to excuse me and seek some other partner. But on the contrary, he told me he was very glad I would sit still, as he had a million of things to say to me. He then began to tell me how much he had suffered from absence ; how greatly he was alarmed when he heard I had left town, and how cruelly difficult he had found it to trace me; which, at last, he could only do by sacrificing another week to Captain Mirvan. 'And Howard Grove,' continued he, ' which, at my first visit. I thought the most delightful spot upon earth, now appeared to me the most dismal : the face of the country seemed altered : 39« EVELINA the walks which I had thought most pleasant, were now most stupid : Lady Howard, who had appeared a cheerful and respectable old lady, now seemed in the common John Trot style of other aged dames: Mrs. Mirvan, whom I had esteemed as an amiable piece of still-life, now became so insipid, that I could hardly keep awake in her company : the daughter too, whom I had regarded as a good-humoured, pretty sort of girl, now seemed too insignificant for notice : and as to the Captain, I had always thought him a booby, — but now he appeared a savage ! ' ' Indeed, Sir Clement,' cried I angrily, ' I will not hear you talk thus of my best friends.' ' I beg your pardon,' said he, ' but the contrast of my two visits was too striking not to be mentioned.' He then asked what I thought of the verses ? ' Either,' said I, ' that they are written ironically, or by some madman.' Such a profusion of compliments ensued, that I was obliged to propose dancing, in my own defence. When we stood up, I I intended,' said he, ' to have discovered the author by his looks ; but I find you so much the general loadstone of atten- tion, that my suspicions change their object every moment. Surely you must yourself have some knowledge who he is ? ' I told him, no. Yet, my dear Sir, I must own to you, I have no doubt but that Mr. Macartney must be the author ; no one else would speak of me so partially ; and, indeed, his poetical turn puts it, with me, beyond dispute. He asked me a thousand questions concerning Lord Orville ; how long he had been at Bristol ? — what time I had spent at Clifton? — whether he rode out every morning ?— whether I ever trusted myself in a phaeton ? — and a multitude of other inquiries, all tending to discover if I was honoured with much of his Lordship's attention, and all made with his usual freedom and impetuosity. Fortunately, as I much wished to retire early, Lady Louisa makes a point of being among the first who quit the rooms, and therefore we got home in very tolerable time. Lord Orville's reception of us was grave and cold : far from distinguishing me, as usual, by particular civilities, Lady Louisa herself could not have seen me enter the room with more frigid unconcern, nor have more scrupulously avoided 399 EVELINA honouring me with any notice. But chiefly I was struck to see that he suffered Sir Clement, who stayed supper, to sit between us, without any effort to prevent him, though till then he had seemed to be even tenacious of a seat next mine. This little circumstance affected me more than I can express : yet I endeavoured to rejoice at it. since neglect and indifference from him may be my best friends. But, alas ! — so suddenly, so abruptly to forfeit his attention ! — to lose his friendship ! Oh Sir, these thoughts pierced my soul ! — scarce could I keep my seat ; for not all my efforts could restrain the tears from trickling down my cheeks : however, as Lord Orville saw them not, for Sir Clement's head was constantly between us, I tried to collect my spirits, and succeeded so far as to keep my place with decency, till Sir Clement took leave : and then, not daring to trust my eyes to meet those of Lord Orville, I retired. I have been writing ever since ; for, certain that I could not sleep, I would not go to bed. Tell me, my dearest Sir, if you possibly can, tell me that you approve my change of conduct, — tell me that my altered behaviour to Lord Orville is right, — that my flying his society, and avoiding his civilities, are actions which you would have dictated. Tell me this, and the sacrifices^! I have made will comfort me in the midst of my regret, — for I never, never can I cease to regret that I have lost the friendship / of Lord Orville ! Oh Sir, I have slighted, — have rejected, — have thrown it away ! No matter, it was an honour I merited V not to preserve ; and I now see, — that my mind was unequal ^ to sustaining it without danger. Yet so strong is the desire you have implanted in me to act with uprightness and propriety, that, however the weakness of my heart may distress and afflict me, it will never, I humbly trust, render me wilfully culpable. The wish of doing well governs every other, as far as concerns my conduct, — for am I not your child ? — the creature of your own forming ? Yet, oh Sir, friend, parent of my heart ! — my feelings are all at war with my duties ; and, while I most struggle to acquire self- approbation, my peace, my happiness, my hopes, — are lost ! 'Tis you alone can compose a mind so cruelly agitated : you, I well know, can feel pity for the weakness to which you are a stranger ; and, though you blame the affliction, soothe and comfort the afflicted. 400 EVELINA LETTER LXXIII MR. VILLARS TO EVELINA Berry Hill, Oct. 3. Your last communication, my dearest child, is indeed astonishing ; that an acknowledged daughter and heiress of Sir John Belmont should be at Bristol, and still my Evelina bear the name of Anville, is to me inexplicable : yet the mystery of the letter to Lady Howard prepared me to expect something extraordinary upon Sir John Belmont's return to England. Whoever this young lady may be, it is certain she now takes a place to which you have a right indisputable. An after-marriage I never heard of; yet, supposing such a one to have happened, Miss Evelyn was certainly the first wife, and therefore her daughter must, at least, be entitled to the name of Belmont. Either there are circumstances in this affair at present utterly incomprehensible, or else some strange and most atrocious fraud has been practised ; which of these two is the case, it now behoves us to inquire. My reluctance to this step gives way to my conviction of its propriety, since the reputation of your dear and much-injured mother must now either be fully cleared from blemish, or receive its final and indelible wound. The public appearance of a daughter of Sir John Belmont will revive the remembrance of Miss Evelyn's story in all who have heard it,— who the mother was, will be universally de- manded, and if any other Lady Belmont should be named, the birth of my Evelina will receive a stigma, against which honour, truth, and innocence may appeal in vain ! a stigma which will eternally blast the fair fame of her virtuous mother, and cast upon her blameless self the odium of a title, which not all her purity can rescue from established shame and dishonour ! No, my dear child, no; [ will not quietly suffer the a of your mother to be treated with ignominy! Her spotl character shall be justified to the world her marriage shall be 401 2 i> EVELINA acknowledged, and her child shall bear the name to which she is lawfully entitled. It is true, that Mrs. Mirvan would conduct this affair with more delicacy than Mrs. Selwyn ; yet, perhaps, to save time is, of all considerations, the most important, since the longer this mystery is suffered to continue, the more difficult may be rendered its explanation. The sooner, therefore, you can set out for town, the less formidable will be your task. Let not your timidity, my dear love, depress your spirits : I shall, indeed, tremble for you at a meeting so singular and so affecting, yet there can be no doubt of the success of your application : I enclose a letter from your unhappy mother, written, and reserved purposely for this occasion: Mrs. Clinton, too, who attended her in her last illness, must accompany you to town. But, without any other certificate of your birth, that which you carry in your countenance, as it could not be effected by artifice, so it cannot admit of a doubt. And now, my Evelina, committed, at length, to the care of your real parent, receive the fervent prayers, wishes, and blessings of him who so fondly adopted you ! May'st thou, oh child of my bosom ! may'st thou, in this change of situation, experience no change of disposition ! but receive with humility, and support with meekness, the elevation to which thou art rising ! May thy manners, language, and deportment all evince that modest equanimity and cheerful gratitude which not merely deserve but dignify prosperity ! May'st thou, to the last moments of an unblemished life, retain thy genuine simplicity, thy singleness of heart, thy guileless sincerity ! And may'st thou, stranger to ostentation, and superior to insolence, with true greatness of soul, shine forth conspicuous only in beneficence ! Arthur Villars. LETTER LXXIV [Inclosed in tlic preceding Letter.~\ LADY BELMONT TO SIR JOHN BELMOXT In the firm hope that the moment of anguish which approaches will prove the period of my sufferings, once more 402 EVELINA I address myself to Sir John Belmont, in behalf of the child who, if it survives its mother, will hereafter be the bearer of this letter. Vet in what terms, — oh most cruel of men ! — can the lost Caroline address you, and not address you in vain ? Oh deaf to the voice of compassion — deaf to the sting of truth — deaf to every tie of honour — say, in what terms may the lost Caroline address you, and not address you in vain ? Shall I call you by the loved, the respected title of husband ? Xo, you disclaim it! — the father of my infant? No, you doom it to infamy ! — the lover who rescued me from a forced marriage ? No, you have yourself betrayed me ! — the friend from whom I hoped succour and protection ? No, you have consigned me to misery and destruction ! Oh hardened against every plea of justice, remorse, or pity ! how, and in what manner, may I hope to move thee? Is there one method I have left untried ? remains there one resource unessayed ? No ! I have exhausted all the bitterness of reproach, and drained every sluice of compassion ! Hopeless, and almost desperate, twenty times have I flung away my pen ; — but the feelings of a mother, a mother agonising for the fate of her child, again animating my courage, as often I have resumed it. Perhaps when I am no more, when the measure of my woes is completed, and the still, silent, unreproaching dust has received my sad remains, — then, perhaps, when accusation is no longer to be feared, nor detection to be dreaded, the voice of equity and the cry of nature may be heard. Listen, oh Belmont, to their dictates ! reprobate not your child, though you have reprobated its mother. The evils that are past, perhaps, when too late, you may wish to recall ; the young creature you have persecuted, perhaps, when too late, you may regret that you have destroyed ; — you may think with horror of the deceptions you have practised, and the pangs of remorse may follow me to the tomb : — oh Belmont, all my resentment softens into pity at the thought ! what will become of thee, good Heaven, when with the eye of penitence thou reviewest thy past conduct ! Hear, then, the solemn, the last address with which the unhappy Caroline will importune thee. If, when the time of thy contrition arrives,— for arrive it 4°.} EVELINA must ! — when the sense of thy treachery shall rob thee of almost every other, if then thy tortured heart shall sigh to expiate thy guilt, — mark the conditions upon which I leave thee my forgiveness. Thou know'st I am thy wife ! — clear, then, to the world the reputation thou hast sullied, and receive as thy lawful successor the child who will present thee this my dying request ! The worthiest, the most benevolent, the best of men, to whose consoling kindness I owe the little tranquillity I ha\c been able to preserve, has plighted me his faith that, upon no other conditions, he will part with his helpless charge. Should'st thou, in the features of this deserted innocent, trace the resemblance of the wretched Caroline, — should its face bear the marks of its birth, and revive in thy memory the image of its mother, wilt thou not, Belmont, wilt thou not therefore renounce it ? Oh babe of my fondest affection ! for whom already I experience all the tenderness of maternal pity ! — look not like thy unfortunate mother, — lest the parent whom the hand of death may spare, shall be snatched from thee by the more cruel means of unnatural antipathy ! I can write no more. The small share of serenity I have painfully acquired will not bear the shock of the dreadful ideas that crowd upon me. Adieu, — for ever ! Yet oh !— shall I not, in this last farewell, which thou wilt not read till every stormy passion is extinct, — and the kind grave has embosomed all my sorrows, — shall I not offer to the man once so dear to me, a ray of consolation to those afflictions he has in reserve ? Suffer me, then, to tell thee, that my pity far exceeds my indignation, — that I will pray for thee in my last moments,— and that the recollection of the love I once bore thee shall swallow up every other ! Once more, adieu ! Caroline Belmont. 404 EVELINA LETTER LXXV EVELINA TO THE REV. MR. VILLARS Clifton, Oct. 3. This morning I saw from my window that Lord Orville was walking in the garden ; but I would not go downstairs till breakfast was ready : and then, he paid me his compliments almost as coldly as Lady Louisa paid hers. I took my usual place, and Mrs. Beaumont, Lady Louisa, and Mrs. Selwyn entered into their usual conversation. Not so your Evelina : disregarded, silent, and melancholy, she sat like a cypher, whom to nobody belonging, by nobody was noticed. Ill brooking such a situation, and unable to support the neglect of Lord Orville, the moment breakfast was over, I left the room ; and was going upstairs, when, very unpleasantly, I was stopped by Sir Clement Willoughby, who, flying into the hall, prevented my proceeding. He inquired very particularly after my health, and entreated me to return into the parlour. Unwillingly I consented, but thought anything preferable to continuing alone with him ; and he would neither leave me, nor suffer me to pass on. Yet, in returning, I felt not a little ashamed of appearing thus to take the visit of Sir Clement to myself. And, indeed, he endeavoured, by his manner of addressing me, to give it that air. He stayed, I believe, an hour ; nor would he, perhaps, even then have gone, had not Mrs. Beaumont broken up the party, by proposing an airing in her coach. Lady Louisa consented to accompany her : but Mrs. Selwyn, when applied to, said, ' If my Lord, or Sir Clement, will join us, I shall be happy to make one ; — but really a trio of females will be nervous to the last degree.' Sir Clement readily agreed to attend them ; indeed, he makes it his evident study to court the favour of Mrs. Beaumont. Lord Orville excused himself from going out ; and I retired to my own room. What he did with himself I know not, for I would not go downstairs till dinner was ready : his coldness, 4°5 EVELINA though my own change of behaviour has occasioned it, so cruelly depresses my spirits, that I know not how to support myself in his presence. At dinner, I found Sir Clement again of the party. Indeed he manages everything his own way ; for Mrs. Beaumont, though by no means easy to please, seems quite at his disposal. The dinner, the afternoon, and the evening were to me the most irksome imaginable : I was tormented by the assiduity of Sir Clement, who not only took, but made opportunities of speaking to me, — and I was hurt, — oh how inexpressibly hurt ! — that Lord Orville not only forbore, as hitherto, seeking, he even neglected all occasions of talking with me ! I begin to think, my dear Sir, that the sudden alteration in my behaviour was ill-judged and improper ; for, as I had received no offence, as the cause of the change was upon my account, not his, I should not have assumed, so abruptly, a reserve for which I dared assign no reason, — nor have shunned his presence so obviously, without considering the strange appearance of such a conduct. Alas, my dearest Sir, that my reflections should always be too late to serve me ! dearly, indeed, do I purchase experience '. and much I fear I shall suffer yet more severely, from the heedless indiscretion of my temper, ere I attain that prudence and consideration which, by foreseeing distant consequences, may rule and direct in present exigencies. Oct. 4. Yesterday morning everybody rode out, except Mrs. Selwyn and myself: and we two sat for some time together in her room ; but, as soon as I could, I quitted her, to saunter in the garden ; for she diverts herself so unmercifully with rallying me, either upon my gravity, — or concerning Lord Orville, — that I dread having any conversation with her. Here I believe I spent an hour by myself; when, hearing the garden-gate open, I went into an arbour at the end of a long walk, where, ruminating, very unpleasantly, upon my future prospects, I remained quietly seated but a few minutes before I was interrupted by the appearance of Sir Clement Willoughby. I started ; and would have left the arbour, but he prevented me. Indeed I am almost certain he had heard in the house 406 EVELINA where I was, as it is not otherwise probable he would have strolled down the garden alone. . ' Stop, stop,' cried he, ' loveliest and most beloved of women, stop and hear me ! ; Then, making me keep my place, he sat down by me, and would have taken my hand ; but I drew it back, and said I could not stay. v Can you, then,' cried he, ' refuse me even the smallest gratification, though but yesterday I almost suffered martyrdom for the pleasure of seeing you ? ' • .Martyrdom ! Sir Clement.' ' Yes, beauteous insensible ! martyrdom : for did I not compel myself to be immured in a carriage, the tedious length of a whole morning, with the three most fatiguing women in England ?' • Upon my word, the ladies are extremely obliged to you.' ' O,' returned he, ' they have, every one of them, so copious a share of their own personal esteem, that they have no right to repine at the failure of it in the world ; and, indeed, they will themselves be the last to discover it.' 'How little,' cried I. 'are those ladies aware of such severity from you .' ' 'They are guarded,' answered he, 'so happily and so securely by their own conceit, that they are not aware of it from anybody. Oh Miss Anville, to be torn away from you, in order to be shut up with them, — is there a human being, except your cruel self, could forbear to pity me ? ' ' I believe, Sir Clement, however hardly you may choose to judge of them, your situation, by the world in general, would rather have been envied, than pitied.' 'The world in general,' answered he, 'has the same opinion of them that I have myself: Mrs. Beaumont is everywhere laughed at, Lady Louisa ridiculed, and Mrs. Selwyn hated.' 'Good Cod, Sir Clement, what cruel strength of words do you use ! ' ' It is you, my angel, are to blame, since your perfections have rendered their faults so glaring. I protest to you, during our whole ride, I thought the carriage drawn by snails. I he absurd pride of Mrs. Beaumont, and the respect she exacts, are at once insufferable and stupefying ; had I never before been in her company, I should have concluded that this had 407 EVELINA been her first airing from the herald's-office, — and wished her nothing worse than that it might also be the last. I assure you, that but for gaining the freedom of her house, I would fly her as I would plague, pestilence, and famine. Mrs. Selwyn, indeed, afforded some relief from this formality, but the unbounded license of her tongue ' ' O, Sir Clement, do you object to that ? ' 'Yes, my sweet reproacher, in a woman, I do ; in a woman I think it intolerable. She has wit, I acknowledge, and more understanding than half her sex put together ; but she keeps alive a perpetual expectation of satire, that spreads a general uneasiness among all who are in her presence ; and she talks so much, that even the best things she says weary the attention. As to the little Louisa, 'tis such a pretty piece of languor, that 'tis almost cruel to speak rationally about her, — else I should say, she is a mere compound of affectation, impertinence, and airs.' ' I am quite amazed,' said I, 'that, with such opinions, you can behave to them all with so much attention and civility.' 'Civility! my angel, — why I could worship, could adore them, only to procure myself a moment of your conversation ! Have you not seen me pay my court to the gross Captain Mirvan, and the virago Madame Duval ? Were it possible that a creature so horrid could be, formed, as to partake of the worst qualities of all these characters, — a creature who should have the haughtiness of Mrs. Beaumont, the brutality of Captain Mirvan, the self-conceit of Mrs. Selwyn, the affectation of Lady Louisa, and the vulgarity of Madame Duval, — even to such a monster as that, I would pay homage, and pour forth adulation, only to obtain one word, one look from my adored Miss Anville ! ' 'Sir Clement,' said I, 'you are greatly mistaken if you suppose such duplicity of character recommends you to my good opinion. But I must take this opportunity of begging you never more to talk to me in this strain.' ' Oh Miss Anville, your reproofs, your coldness, pierce me to the soul ! look upon me with less rigour, and make me what you please ; — you shall govern and direct all my actions, — you shall new-form, new-model me : — I will not have even a wish but of your suggestion ; only deign to look upon me with pity, — if not with favour ! ' 408 EVELINA ' Suffer me, Sir,' said I very gravely, ' to make use of this occasion to put a final conclusion to such expressions. I entreat you never again to address me in a language so flighty, and so unwelcome. You have already given me great uneasiness ; and I must frankly assure you, that if you do not desire to banish me from wherever you are, you will adopt a very different style and conduct in future.' I then rose, and was going, but he flung himself at my feet to prevent me, exclaiming, in a most passionate manner, 'Good God! Miss Anville, what do you say? — is it, can it be possible, that so unmoved, that with such petrifying in- difference, you can tear from me even the remotest hope !' ' I know not, Sir,' said I, endeavouring to disengage myself from him, ' what hope you mean, but I am sure that I never intended to give you any.' ' You distract me ! ' cried he, ' I cannot endure such scorn ; — I beseech you to have some moderation in your cruelty, lest you make me desperate : — say, then, that you pity me, — fairest inexorable ! loveliest tyrant ! — say, tell me, at least, that you pity me '. ' Just then, who should come in sight, as if intending to pass by the arbour, but Lord Orville ! Good Heaven, how did I start ! and he, the moment he saw me, turned pale, and ^jas hastily retiring ; — but I called out ' Lord Orville ! — Sir Clement, release me, — let go my hand ! ' Sir Clement, in some confusion, suddenly rose, but still grasped my hand. Lord Orville, who had turned back, was again walking away ; but, still struggling to disengage myself, 1 railed out, ' Pray, pray, my Lord, doirt go !— Sir Clement, I i>isist upon your releasing me ! ' Lord Orville then, hastily approaching us, said, with great spirit, 'Sir Clement, you cannot wish to detain Miss Anville by force ! ' 'Neither, my Lord,' cried Sir Clement proudly, 'do I request the honour of your Lordship's interference.' However, he let go my hand, and I immediately ran into the house. I was now frightened to death lest Sir Clement's mortified pride should provoke him to affront Lord Orville : I therefore r.in hastily to Mrs. Selwyn, and entreated her, in a manner hardly to be understood, to walk towards the arbour. She 409 EVELINA asked no questions, for she is quick as lightning in taking a hint, but instantly hastened into the garden. Imagine, my dear Sir, how wretched I must be till I saw her return ! scarce could I restrain myself from running back : however, I checked my impatience, and waited, though in agonies, till she came. And, now, my dear Sir, I have a conversation to write, the most interesting to me, that I ever heard. The comments and questions with which Mrs. Selwyn interrupted her account, I shall not mention ; for they are such as you may very easily suppose. Lord Orville and Sir Clement were both seated very quietly in the arbour: and Mrs. Selwyn, standing still, as soon as she was within a few yards of them, heard Sir Clement say, 'Your question, my Lord, alarms me, and I can by no means answer it, unless you will allow me to propose another?' ' Undoubtedly, Sir.' 'You ask me, my Lord, what are my intentions ? I should be very happy to be satisfied as to your Lordship's.' ' I have never, Sir, professed any.' Here they were both, for a few moments, silent ; and then Sir Clement said, ' To what, my Lord, must I, then, impute your desire of knowing mine ? ' ' To an unaffected interest in Miss Anville's welfare.' & 'Such an interest,' said Sir Clement drily, 'is, indeed, very generous : but, except in a father, — a brother. — or a lover ' ' Sir Clement,' interrupted his Lordship, ' I know your inference : and I acknowledge I have not the right of inquiry which any of those three titles bestow, and yet I confess the warmest wishes to serve her, and to see her happy. Will you. then, excuse me, if I take the liberty to repeat my question ? ' ' Yes, if your Lordship will excuse my repeating that I think it a rather extraordinary one.' 'It may be so,' said Lord Orville; 'but this young lady seems to be peculiarly situated ; she is very young, very in- experienced, yet appears to be left totally to her own direction. She does not, I believe, see the dangers to which she is exposed, and I will own to you, I feel a strong desire to point them out.' 'I don't rightly understand your Lordship,— but I think you cannot mean to prejudice her against me ? ' 410 EVELINA ' Her sentiments of you, Sir, are as much unknown to me, as your intentions towards her. Perhaps, were I acquainted with either, my officiousness might be at an end : but I presume not to ask upon what terms ' Here he stopped ; and Sir Clement said, ' You know, my Lord, I am not given to despair ; I am by no means such a puppy as to tell you I am upon sure ground, however, perseverance ' • You are, then, determined to persevere ? ' ' I am, my Lord.' 1 Pardon me, then, Sir Clement, if I speak to you with freedom. This young lady, though she seems alone, and in some measure unprotected, is not entirely without friends ; she has been extremely well educated, and accustomed to good company ; she has a natural love of virtue, and a mind that might adorn any station, however exalted : is such a young lady, Sir Clement, a proper object to trifle with ? — for your principles, excuse me, Sir are well known.' ' As to that, my Lord, let Miss Anville look to herself ; she has an excellent understanding, and needs no counsellor.' ' Her understanding is, indeed, excellent ; but she is too young for suspicion, and has an artlessness of disposition that I never saw equalled.' ' My Lord,' cried Sir Clement warmly, 'your praises make me doubt your disinterestedness, and there exists not the man who I would so unwillingly have for a rival as yourself. But you must give me leave to say, you have greatly deceived me in regard to this affair.' 'How so, Sir?' cried Lord Orville, with equal warmth. 1 You were pleased, my Lord,' answered Sir Clement, 'upon our first conversation concerning this young lady, to speak of her in terms by no means suited to your present encomiums ; you said she was a poor, weak, ignorant girl, and I had great reason to believe you had a most contemptuous opinion of her.' ' It is very true,' said Lord Orville, 'that I did not, at our first acquaintance, do justice to the merit of Miss Anville ; but I knew not then how new she was to the world : at present, however, I am convinced that whatever might appear strange in her behaviour was simply the effect of inexperience, timidity, and a retired education ; for I find her informed, sensible, and intelligent. She is not, i ndeed, like jnost modern jyoung ladies, 411 EVELINA to_b_e _known in half an __ho_ujL; her modest worth, and fearful excellence, require both time and encouragement to show themselves. She does not, beautiful as she is, seize the soul by surprise, but, with more dangerous fascination, she steals it almost imperceptibly.' ' Enough, my Lord, - ' cried Sir Clement ; ' your solicitude for her welfare is now sufficiently explained.' ' My friendship and esteem,' returned Lord Orville, ' I do not wish to disguise ; but assure yourself, Sir Clement, I should not have troubled you upon this subject had Miss Anville and I ever conversed but as friends. However, since you do not choose to avow your intentions, we must drop the subject.' 'My intentions,' cried he, 'I will frankly own, are hardly known to myself. I think Miss Anville the loveliest of her sex, and, were I a marrying man, she, of all the women I have seen, I would fix upon for a wife : but I believe that not even the philosophy of your Lordship would recommend to me a connection of that sort, with a girl of obscure birth, whose only dowry is her beauty, and who is evidently in a state of dependency.' ' Sir Clement,' cried Lord Orville, with some heat, ' we will discuss this point no further ; we are both free agents, and must act for ourselves.' Here Mrs. Selwyn, fearing a surprise, and finding my apprehensions of danger were groundless, retired hastily into another walk, and soon after came to give me this account. Good Heaven, what a man is this Sir Clement! so designing, though so easy ; so deliberately artful, though so flighty ! Greatly, however, is he mistaken, all confident as he seems ; for the girl, obscure, poor, dependent as she is, far from wishing the honour of his alliance, would not only jiow, but always have rejected it. As to Lord Orville, — but I will not trust my pen to mention him, — tell me, my dear Sir, what you think of him? — tell me if he is not the noblest of men ? — and if you can either wonder at, or blame my admiration ? The idea of being seen by either party, immediately after so singular a conversation, was both awkward and distressing to me ; but I was obliged to appear at dinner. Sir Clement, I saw, was absent and uneasy ; he watched me, he watched 412 EVELINA Lord Orville, and was evidently disturbed in his mind. When- ever he spoke to me, I turned from him with undisguised disdain, for I am too much irritated against him to bear with his ill-meant assiduities any longer. But, not once, — not a moment did I dare meet the eyes of Lord Orville I All consciousness myself, I dreaded his pene- tration, and directed mine every way — but towards his. The rest of the day I never quitted Mrs. Selwyn. Adieu, my dear "Sir : to-morrow I expect your directions whether I am to return to Berry Hill, or once more to visit London. LETTER LXXVI EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Oct. 6. And now, my dearest Sir, if the perturbation of my spirits will allow me, I will finish my last letter from Clifton Hill. This morning, though I did not go downstairs early, Lord Orville was the only person in the parlour when I entered it. I felt no small confusion at seeing him alone, after having so long and successfully avoided such a meeting. As soon as the usual compliments were over, I would have left the room, but he stopped me by saying, ' If I disturb you, Miss Anville, I am gone.' ' My Lord,' said I, rather embarrassed, ' I did not mean to stay.' ' I flattered myself,' cried he, ' I should have had a moment's conversation with you.' I then turned back ; and he seemed himself in some per- plexity ; but after a short pause, 'You arc very good,' said he, ' to indulge my request ; I have, indeed, for some time past, most ardently desired an opportunity of speaking to you.' Again he paused ; but I said nothing, so he went on. 'You allowed me, Madam, a few days since, you allowed me to lay claim to your friendship, — to interest myself in your affairs, — to call you by the affectionate title of sister ; — and the honour you did me, no man could have been more sensible of; I am ig norant , th erefor e, how I ha ve been s o_ unfortunate as to 4M EVELINA forfeit it : — but, at present, all is changed ! you fly me, — your averted eye shuns to meet mine, and you sedulously avoid my conversation.' I was extremely disconcerted at this grave, and but too just accusation, and I am sure I must look very simple ; — but I made no answer. ' You will not, I hope,' continued he, ' condemn me unheard ; if there is anything I have done, — or anything I have neglected, tell me, I beseech you, what, and it shall be the whole study of my thoughts how to deserve your pardon.' ' Oh my Lord,' cried I, penetrated at once with shame and gratitude, ' your too, too great politeness oppresses me ! — you have done nothing, — I have never dreamt of offence ; — if there is any pardon to be asked, it is rather for me, than for you to ask it.' ' You are all sweetness and condescension ! ' cried he, ' and I flatter myself you will again allow me to claim those titles which I find myself so unable to forego. Yet, occupied as 1 am with an idea which gives me the severest uneasiness, I hope you will not think me impertinent, if I still solicit, still entreat, nay implore you to tell me, to what cause your late sudden, and to me most painful, reserve was owing ? ' ' Indeed, my Lord,' said I, stammering, ' I don't. — I can't, — indeed, my Lord, ' ' I am sorry to distress you,' said he, ' and ashamed to be so urgent, — yet I know not how to be satisfied while in ignor- ance, — and the time when the change happened makes me apprehend — may I, Miss Anville, tell you what it makes me apprehend ? ' ' Certainly, my Lord.' ' Tell me, then, — and pardon a question most essentially important to me ; — Had, or had not, Sir Clement Willoughby any share in causing your inquietude ? ' ' No, my Lord,' answered I, with firmness, ' none in the world.' ' A thousand, thousand thanks ! ' cried he : ' you have relieved me from a weight of conjecture which I supported very painfully. But one thing more : is it, in any measure, to Sir Clement that I may attribute the alteration in your behaviour to myself, which, I could not but observe, began the very day of his arrival at the Hotwells ? ' 414 EVELINA ' To Sir Clement, my Lord ' said I, ' attribute nothing. He is the last man in the world who would have any influence over my conduct.' ' And will you, then, restore to me that share of confidence and favour with which you honoured me before he came ? ' Just then, to my great relief, — for I knew not what to say, — Mrs. Beaumont opened the door, and in a few minutes we went to breakfast. Lord Orville was all gaiety ; never did I see him more lively or more agreeable. Very soon after, Sir Clement Willoughby called, to pay his respects, he said, to Mrs. Beaumont. I then came to my own room, where, indulging my reflections, which now soothed, and now alarmed me, I remained very quietly, till I received your most kind letter. Oh Sir, how sweet are the prayers you offer for your Evelina ! how grateful to her are the blessings you pour upon her head ! You commit me to my real parent. Ah, Guardian, Friend, Protector of my youth, — by whom my helpless infancy was cherished, my mind formed, my very life preserved, — -you are the Parent my heart acknowledges, and to you do I vow eternal duty, gratitude, and affection ! I look forward to the approaching interview with more fear than hope ; but important as is this subject, I am just now wholly engrossed with another, which I must hasten to com- municate. I immediately acquainted Mrs. Selwyn with the purport of your letter. She was charmed to find your opinion agreed with her own, and settled that we should go to town to-morrow morning. And a chaise is actually ordered to be here by one o'clock. She then desired me to pack up my clothes ; and said she must go, herself, to make speeches, and tell lies to Mrs. Beaumont. When I went downstairs to dinner, Lord Orville, who was still in excellent spirits, reproached me for secluding myself so much from the company. He sat next me, — he would sit next me, — at table ; and he might, I am sure, repeat what he once said of me before, that he almost exh lusted himself i/i fruitless endeavours to entertain me; — for, indeed, I was not to be entertained : I was totally spiritless and dejected ; the idea of the approaching meeting, and oh. Sir, the idea of the 415 EVELINA approaching parting, — gave a heaviness to my heart, that I could neither conquer nor repress. I even regretted the half explanation that had passed, and wished Lord Orville had supported his own reserve, and suffered me to support mine. However, when, during dinner, Mrs. Beaumont spoke of our journey, my gravity was no longer singular ; a cloud instantly overspread the countenance of Lord Orville, and he became nearly as thoughtful and as silent as myself. We all went together to the drawing-room. After a short and unentertaining conversation, Mrs. Selwyn said she must prepare for her journey, and begged me to seek for some books she had left in the parlour. And here, while I was looking for them, I was followed by Lord Orville. He shut the door after he came in, and approaching me with a look of great anxiety, said, ' Is this true, Miss Anville, are you going?' ' I believe so, my Lord," said I, still looking for the books. ' So suddenly, so unexpectedly must I lose you ? : ' No great loss, my Lord,' cried I, endeavouring to speak cheerfully. ' Is it possible/ said he gravely, ' Miss Anville can doubt my sincerity ? ' 'I can't imagine,' cried I, 'what Mrs. Selwyn has done with these books.' 'Would to Heaven,' continued he, 'I might flatter myself you would allow me to prove it ! ' ' I must run upstairs,' cried I, greatly confused, ' and ask what she has done with them.' ' You are going, then,' cried he, taking my hand, ' and you give me not the smallest hope of your return ! — will you not, then, my too lovely friend ! — will you not, at least, teach me, with fortitude like your own, to support your absence?' ' My Lord,' cried I, endeavouring to disengage my hand, ' pray let me go ! ' ' I will,' cried he, to my inexpressible confusion, dropping on one knee, ' if you wish to leave me ! ' 'Oh, my Lord,' exclaimed I, 'rise, I beseech you, rise! such a posture to me ! — surely your Lordship is not so cruel as to mock me ! ' ' Mock you ! ' repeated he earnestly, ' no, I revere you ! I 4t6 EVELINA esteem and I admire you above all human beings ! you are the friend to whom my soul is attached as to its better half! you are the most amiable, the most perfect of women ! and you are dearer to me than language has the power of telling ! ' I attempt not to describe my sensations at that moment ; I scarce breathed ; I doubted if I existed, — the blood forsook my cheeks, and my feet refused to sustain me : Lord Orville, hastily rising, supported me to a chair, upon which I sank, almost lifeless. For a few minutes we neither of us spoke ; and then, seeing me recover, Lord Orville, though in terms hardly articulate, entreated my pardon for his abruptness. The moment my strength returned, I attempted to rise, but he would not permit me. I cannot write the scene that followed, though every word is engraven on my heart ; but his protestations, his expressions, were too flattering for repetition : nor would he, in spite of my repeated efforts to leave him, suffer me to escape ; — in short, my dear Sir, I was not proof against his solicitations — and he drew from me the most sacred secret of my heart ! I know not how long we were together, but Lord Orville was upon his knees, when the door was opened by Mrs. Selwyn ! To tell you, Sir, the shame with which I was over- whelmed, would be impossible ; — I snatched my hand from Lord Orville, he, too, started and rose, and Mrs. Selwyn, for some instants, stood facing us both in silence. At last, ' My Lord,' said she, sarcastically, ' have you been so good as to help Miss Anville to look for my books ? ' ' Yes, Madam,' answered he, attempting to rally, ' and I hope we shall soon be able to find them.' 'Your Lordship is extremely kind,' said she, dryly, 'but I can by no means consent to take up any more of your time.' Then, looking on the window -seat, she presently found the books, and added, ' Come, here are just three, and so, like the servants in the Drummer, this important affair may give employment to us all.' She then presented one of them to Lord Orville, another to me, and taking a third herself, with a most provoking look, she left the room. I would instantly have followed her ; but Lord Orville, who could not help laughing, begged me to stay a minute, as he had many important matters to discuss. 417 2 E 'J.Z*S^*~3a / r I . ?^ r-K^ <&*r>~ >>^i. Presented one of them to Lord Orville, another to me. EVELINA ' Xo, indeed, my Lord, I cannot — perhaps I have already stayed too long.' ' Does Miss Anville so soon repent her goodness ?' 'I scarce know what I do, my Lord, — I am quite be- wildered ! ' ' One hour's conversation,' cried he, ' will I hope compose your spirits, and confirm my happiness. When, then, may I hope to see you alone ? — shall you walk in the garden to- morrow before breakfast ? ' ' Xo, no, my Lord ; you must not, a second time, reproach me with making an appointment? ' Do you then,' said he, laughing, ' reserve that honour only for Mr. Macartney?' ' Mr. Macartney,' said I, ' is poor, and thinks himself obliged to me ; otherwise ' ' Poverty,' cried he, ' I will not plead ; but if being obliged to you has any weight, who shall dispute my title to an appointment ? ' ' My Lord, I can stay no longer, — Mrs. Selwyn will lose all patience.' 'Deprive her not of the pleasure of her conjtxtures ; — but, tell me, are you under Mrs. Selwyn's care ? ' Only for the present, my Lord.' ' Xot a few are the questions I have to ask Miss Anville : among them, the most important is, whether she depends wholly on herself, or whether there is any other person for whose interest I must solicit ? ' ' I hardly know, my Lord, I hardly know myself to whom I most belong.' ' Suffer, suffer me, then,' cried he, with warmth, ' to hasten the time when that shall no longer admit a doubt! — when your grateful Orville may call you all his own ! ' At length, but with difficulty, I broke from him. I went, however, to my own room, for I was too much agitated to follow Mrs. Selwyn. Good God, my dear Sir. what a scene ! surely the meeting for which I shall prepare to-morrow cannot so greatly affe< t me ! To_ he loved by Lord Orville, — to b e. ,tlip honoure d choice of his noble heart, — my hppp' nf * g<; gPf ' nip ' 1 too infinite to_ be borne, and I wept, even bitterly I wept, from the excess of joy which overpowered me. In this state of almost"" painful felicity I continued till I 4TQ EVELINA was summoned to tea. When I re-entered the drawing-room, I rejoiced much to find it full of company, as the confusion with which I met Lord Orville was rendered the less observable. Immediately after tea, most of the company played at cards, — and then, and till supper-time, Lord Orville devoted himself wholly to me. He saw that my eyes were red, and would not let me rest till he had made me confess the cause ; and when, though most reluctantly, I had acknowledged my weakness, I could with difficulty refrain from weeping again at the gratitude he expressed. He earnestly desired to know if my journey could not be postponed, and when I said no entreated permission to attend me to town. ' Oh, my Lord,' cried I, ' what a request ! ' ' The sooner,' answered he, ' I make my devotion to you public, the sooner I may expect, from your delicacy, you will convince the world you encourage no mere danglers.' ' You teach me, then, my Lord, the inference I might expect, if I complied.' ' And can you wonder I should seek to hasten the happy time, when no scruples, no discretion will demand our separa- tion ? and when the most punctilious delicacy will rather promote, than oppose, my happiness in attending you ? ' To this I was silent, and he re-urged his request. ' My Lord,' said I, 'you ask what I have no power to grant. This journey will deprive me of all power to act for myself.' ' What does Miss Anville mean ? ' ' I cannot now explain myself; indeed, if I could, the task would be both painful and tedious.' ' O Miss Anville,' cried he, ' when may I hope to date the period of this mystery ? when flatter myself that my promised friend will indeed honour me with her confidence ? ' ' My Lord,' said I, ' I mean not to affect any mystery, — but my affairs are so circumstanced, that a long and most un- happy story can alone explain them. However, if a short suspense will give your Lordship any uneasiness ' 'My beloved Miss Anville,' cried he, eagerly, 'pardon my impatience ! You shall tell me nothing you would wish to conceal, — I will wait your own time for information, and trust to your goodness for its speed.' 420 EVELINA 'There is nothing; my Lord, I wish to conceal — to postpone an explanation is all I desire.' He then requested, that, since I would not allow him to" accompany me to town, I would permit him to write to me, and promise to answer his letters. A sudden recollection of the two letters which had already passed between us occurring to me, I hastily answered, ' No, indeed, my Lord ! ' ' I am extremely sorry,' said he, gravely, ' that you think me too presumptuous. I must own I had flattered myself, that to soften the inquietude of an absence which seems attended by so many inexplicable circumstances, would not have been to incur your displeasure.' This seriousness hurt me ; and I could not forbear saying, ' Can you indeed desire, my Lord, that I should, a second time, expose myself, by an unguarded readiness to write to you ? ' ' A second time .' unguarded readiness .' '' repeated he ; ' you amaze me ! ' ' Has your Lordship then quite forgot the foolish letter I was so imprudent as to send you when in town ? ' ' I have not the least idea,' cried he, ' of what you mean.' 'Why then, my Lord,' said I, 'we had better let the subject drop.' ' Impossible ! ' cried he, ' I cannot rest without an explana- tion ! ' And then, he obliged me to speak very openly of both the letters ; but, my dear Sir, imagine my surprise, when he assured me, in the most solemn manner, that far from having ever written me a single line, he had never received, seen, or heard of my letter ! This subject, which caused mutual astonishment and perplexity to us both, entirely engrossed us for the rest of the evening ; and he made me promise to show him the letter 1 had received in his name to-morrow morning, that he might endeavour to discover the author. After supper, the conversation became general. And now, my dearest Sir, may I not call for your con- gratulations upon the events of this day ? a day never to be recollected by me but with the most grateful joy ! I know how much you are inclined to think well of Lord Orville, I 421 EVELINA cannot, therefore, apprehend that my frankness to him will displease you. Perhaps the time is not very distant when your Evelina's choice may receive the sanction of her best friend's judgment and approbation. — which seems now all she has to wish ! In regard to the change in my situation which must first take place, surely I cannot be blamed for what has passed ! the partiality of Lord Orville must not only reflect honour upon me, but upon all to whom I do, or may belong. Adieu, most dear Sir. I will write again when I arrive at London. LETTER LXXVII EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Cliftox, Oct. 7. You will see, my dear Sir, that I was mistaken in supposing I should write no more from this place, where my residence, now, seems more uncertain than ever. This morning, during breakfast, Lord Orville took an opportunity to beg me, in a low voice, to allow him a moment's conversation before I left Clifton ; ' May I hope,' added he, ' that you will stroll into the garden after breakfast ? ' I made no answer, but I believe my looks gave no denial ; for, indeed, I much wished to be satisfied concerning the letter. The moment, therefore, that I could quit the parlour, I ran upstairs for my calash ; but before I reached my room, Mrs. Selwyn called after me, ' If you are going to walk, Miss Anville, be so good as to bid Jenny bring down my hat, and I'll accompany you.' Very much disconcerted, I turned into the drawing-room without making any answer, and there I hoped to wait unseen till she had otherwise disposed of herself. But, in a few minutes, the door opened, and Sir Clement Willoughby entered. Starting at the sight of him, in rising hastily, I let drop the letter which I had brought for Lord Orville's inspection, and, before I could recover it, Sir Clement, springing forward, had it in his hand. He was just presenting it to me, and, at the 422 \: m v ^y) M's fir l -lSV^ ; 'ehementiy demanded him to return it. EVELINA same time, inquiring after my health, when the signature caught his eye, and he read aloud ' Orville.' I endeavoured, eagerly, to snatch it from him, but he would not permit me, and, holding it fast, in a passionate manner exclaimed, ' Good God ! Miss Anville, is it possible you can value such a letter as this ? ' The question surprised and confounded me, and I was too much ashamed to answer him ; but finding he made an attempt to secure it, I prevented him, and vehemently demanded him to return it: ' Tell me first,' said he, holding it above my reach, ' tell me if you have, since, received any more letters from the same person ? ' ' No, indeed,' cried I, ' never ! ' ' And will you also, sweetest of women, promise that you never will receive any more ? Say that, and you will make me the happiest of men.' ' Sir Clement,' cried I, greatly confused, ' pray give me the letter.' ' And will you not first satisfy my doubts ? — will you not relieve me from the torture of the most distracting suspense ? — tell me but that the detested Orville has written to you no more ! ' ' Sir Clement,' cried I, angrily, ' you have no right to make any conditions, — so pray give me the letter directly.' • Why such solicitude about this hateful letter ? can it possibly deserve your eagerness ? tell me, with truth, with sincerity tell me : does it really merit the least anxiety?' ' No matter, Sir,' cried I, in great perplexity, ' the letter is mine, and therefore ' ' I must conclude, then,' said he, 'that the letter deserves your utmost contempt, — but that the name of Orville is sufficient to make you prize it.' ' Sir Clement,' cried I, colouring, ' you are quite — you are very much — the letter is not ' ' O Miss Anville,' cried he, ' you blush ! — you stammer ! — Great Heaven ! it is then all as I feared ! ' ' I know not,' cried I, half frightened, ' what you mean ; but I beseech you to give me the letter, and to compose your- self.' ' The letter,' cried he, gnashing his teeth, ' you shall never 424 EVELINA see more ! You ought to have burnt it the moment you had read it ! ' And in an instant, he tore it into a thousand pieces. Alarmed at a fury so indecently outrageous, I would have run out of the room ; but he caught hold of my gown, and cried, ' Not yet, not yet must you go ! I am but half-mad yet. and you must stay to finish your work. Tell me, therefore, does Orville know your fatal partiality ? Say yes,' added he, trembling with passion, ' and I will fly you for ever ! ' ' For Heaven's sake, Sir Clement,' cried I, ' release me ! — if you do not, you will force me to call for help.' ' Call. then,' cried he, 'inexorable and most unfeeling girl; call, if you please, and bid all the world witness your triumph ; but could ten worlds obey your call, I would not part from you till you had answered me. Tell me, then, does Orville know you love him ?' At any other time, an inquiry so gross would have given me inexpressible confusion ; but now, the wildness of his manner terrified me, and I only said, 'Whatever you wish to know, Sir Clement, I will tell you another time ; but for the present, I entreat you to let me go ! ' ' Enough,' cried he, ' I understand you ! — the art of Orville has prevailed ; — cold, inanimate, phlegmatic as he is, you have rendered him the most envied of men ! — One thing more, and I have done : — -Will he marry you?' What a question ! my cheeks glowed with indignation, and I felt too proud to make any answer. ' I see, I see how it is,' cried he, after a short pause, ' and I find I am undone for ever ! ; Then, letting loose my gown, he put his hand to his forehead, and walked up and down the room in a hasty and agitated manner. Though now at liberty to go, I had not the courage to leave him : for his evident distress excited all my compassion. And this was our situation, when Lady Louisa, Mr. Coverley, and Mrs. Beaumont entered the room. ' Sir Clement Willoughby,' said the latter, ' I beg pardon for making you wait so long, but ' She had not time for another word ; Sir Clement, too much disordered to know or care what he did, snatched up his hat, and, brushing hastily past her, flew downstairs, and out of the house. And with him went my sincerest pity, though I earnestly 425 EVELINA hope I shall see him no more. But what, my dear Sir, am I to conclude from his strange speeches concerning the letter ? does it not seem as if he was himself the author of it ? How else should he be so well acquainted with the contempt it merits ? Neither do I know another human being who could serve any interest by such a deception. I remember, too, that just as I had given my own letter to the maid, Sir Clement came into the shop ; probably he prevailed upon her, by some bribery, to give it to him, and afterwards, by the same means, to deliver to me an answer of his own writing. Indeed I can in no other manner account for this affair. Oh, Sir Clement, were you not yourself unhappy, I know not how I could pardon an artifice that has caused me so much uneasiness ! His abrupt departure occasioned a kind of general consternation. ' Very extraordinary behaviour this ! ' cried Mrs. Beaumont. 'Egad,' said Mr. Coverley, 'the Baronet has a mind to tip us a touch of the heroics this morning ! ' ' I declare,' cried Lady Louisa, ' I never saw anything so monstrous in my life! it's quite abominable — I fancy the man's mad ; — I'm sure he has given me a shocking fright ! ' Soon after, Mrs. Selwyn came upstairs with Lord Merton. The former, advancing hastily to me, said, ' Miss Anville, have you an almanac ?' « Me ! — No, Madam.' ' Who has one, then ? ' ' Egad,' cried Mr. Coverley, ' I never bought one in my life ; it would make me quite melancholy to have such a time- keeper in my pocket. I would as soon walk all day before an hour-glass.' 'You are in the right,' said Mrs. Selwyn, 'not to -.catch fime, lest you should be betrayed, unawares, into reflecting how you employ it.' ' Egad, Ma'am,' cried he, ' if Time thought no more of me, than I do of Time, I believe I should bid defiance, for one while, to old age and wrinkles, — for deuce take me if ever I think about it at all.' ' Pray, Mr. Coverley,' said Mrs. Selwyn, ' why do you think it necessary to tell me this so often ? ' ' Often ! ' repeated he, ' Egad, Madam, I don't know why I 426 EVELINA said it now, but I'm sure I can't recollect that ever I owned as much before.' ' Owned it before ! ' cried she, ' why, my dear Sir, you own it all day long ; for every word, every look, every action proclaims it.' I know not if he understood the full severity of her satire, but he only turned off with a laugh : and she then applied to Mr. Lovel, and asked if he had an almanac ? Mr. Lovel, who always looks alarmed when she addresses him, with some hesitation answered, ' I assure you, Ma'am, I have no manner of antipathy to an almanac — none in the least — I assure you ; — I daresay I have four or five.' ' Four or five ! — pray may I ask what use you make of so many ? ' 'Use! — really, Ma'am, as to that, — I don't make any particular use of them, — but one must have them to tell one the day of the month, — I'm sure, else, I should never keep it in my head.' ' And does your time pass so smoothly unmarked, that, without an almanac, you could not distinguish one day from another ? ' Really, Ma'am,' cried he, colouring, ' I don't see anything so very particular in having a few almanacs ; other people have them, I believe, as well as me.' ' Don't be offended,' cried she, ' I have but made a little digression. All I want to know is the state of the moon, for if it is at the///'// I shall be saved a world of conjectures, and know at once to what cause to attribute the inconsistencies I have witnessed this morning. In the first place, I heard Lord Orville excuse himself from going out, because he had business of importance to transact at home — yet have I seen him sauntering alone in the garden this half-hour. Miss Anville, on the other hand, I invited to walk out with me ; and, after seeking her everywhere round the house, I find her quietly seated in the drawing-room. And but a view minutes since, Sir Clement Willoughby, with even more than his usual polite- ness, told me he was come to spend the morning here, — when, just now, I met him flying downstairs as if pursued by the Furies ; and, far from repeating his compliments, or making any excuse, he did not even answer a question I asked him, but rushed past me with the rapidity of a thief from a bailiff!' 427 EVELINA ' I protest,' said Mrs. Beaumont, ' I can't think what he meant : such rudeness from a man of any family is quite incomprehensible. ' 'My Lord,' cried Lady Louisa to Lord Merton, 'do you know he did the same by met — I was just going to ask him what was the matter, but he ran past me so quick that I declare he quite dazzled my eyes. You can't think, my Lord, how he frightened me ; I daresay I look as pale — don't I look very pale, my Lord ? ' 'Your Ladyship,' said Mr. Lovel, 'so well becomes the lillies, that the roses might blush to see themselves so excelled.' 'Pray, Mr. Lovel,' said Mrs. Selwyn, 'if the roses should blush, how would you find it out ? ' ' Egad,' cried Mr. Coverley, ' I suppose they must blush, as the saying is, like a blue dog, — for they are red already.' ' Prithee, Jack,' said Lord Merton, ' don't you pretend to talk about blushes, that never knew what they were in your life.' 'My Lord,' said Mrs. Selwyn, 'if experience alone can justify mentioning them, what an admirable treatise upon the subject may we not expect from your Lordship ! ' ' O, pray, Ma'am,' answered he, ' stick to Jack Coverley — he's your only man ; for my part, I confess I have a mortal aversion to arguments.' 'O fie, my Lord,' cried Mrs. Selwyn, 'a senator of the nation ! a member of the noblest parliament in the world ! - and yet neglect the art of oratory ? ' 'Why, faith, my Lord,' said Mr. Lovel, ' I think, in general, your House is not much addicted to study ; we of the Lower House have indubitably most application ; and, if I did not speak before a superior power,' bowing low to Lord Merton, ' I should presume to add, we have likewise the most able speakers.' 'Mr. Lovel,' said Mrs. Selwyn, 'you deserve immortality for that discovery ! But for this observation, and the con- fession of Lord Merton, I protest 1 should have supposed that a peer of the realm, and an able logician, were synonymous terms.' Lord Merton, turning upon his heel, asked Lady Louisa if she should take the air before dinner ? 428 EVELINA 'Really,' answered she, 'I don't know — I'm afraid it's monstrous hot ; besides ' (putting her hand to her forehead), ' I a'n't half well ; it's quite horrid to have such weak nerves ! — the least thing in the world discomposes me : I declare, that man's oddness has given me such a shock, I don't know when I shall recover from it. But I'm a sad weak creature — don't you think I am, my Lord ? ' ' O, by no means,' answered he, ' your Ladyship is merely delicate, — and devil take me if ever I had the least passion for an Amazon.' ' I have the honour to be quite of your Lordship's opinion,' said Mr. Lovel, looking maliciously at Mrs. Selwyn, 'for I have an insuperable aversion to strength, either of body or mind, in a female.' ' Faith, and so have I,' said Mr. Coverley ; 'for egad I'd as soon see a woman chop wood as hear her chop logic' ' So would every man in his senses,' said Lord Merton ; ' for a woman wants nothing to recommend her but beauty and good-nature ; in everything else she is either impertinent or unnatural. For my part, deuce take me if ever I wish to hear a word of sense from a woman as long as I live ! ' ' It has always been agreed,' said Mrs. Selwyn, looking round her with the utmost contempt, ' that no man ought to be connected with a woman whose understanding is superior to his own. Now, I very much fear, that to accommodate- all this good company, according to such a rule, would be utterly impracticable, unless we should choose subjects from Swift's hospital of idiots.' How many enemies, my dear Sir, does this unbounded severity excite ! Lord Merton, however, only whistled ; Mr. Coverley sang ; and Mr. Lovel, after biting his lips some time, said, "Pon honour, that lady — if she was 7iot a lady, — I should be half tempted to observe, — that there is something,— in such severity, — that is rather, I must say, — rather — oddish.'' Just then a servant brought Lady Louisa a note, upon a waiter, which is a ceremony always used to her Ladyship ; and I took the opportunity of this interruption to the conversa- tion to steal out of the room. 1 went immediately to the parlour, which I found quite empty ; for I did not dare walk in the garden after what Mrs. Selwyn had said. 429 EVELINA In a few minutes, a servant announced Mr. Macartney, saying, as he entered the room, that he would acquaint Lord Orville he was there. Mr. Macartney rejoiced much at finding me alone. He told me he had taken the liberty to inquire for Lord Orville, by way of pretext for coming to the house. I then very eagerly inquired if he had seen his father. 'I have, Madam,' said he; 'and the generous compassion you have shown made me hasten to acquaint you, that upon reading my unhappy mother's letter, he did not hesitate to acknowledge me.' 'Good God,' cried I, with no little emotion, 'how similar are our circumstances ! And did he receive you kindly ? ' ' I could not, Madam, expect that he would : the cruel transaction which obliged me to fly Paris was too recent in his memory.' ' And — have you seen the young lady ? ' ' No, Madam,' said he mournfully, ' I was forbid her sight.' ' Forbid her sight ! — and why ? ' ' Partly, perhaps, from prudence, and partly from the remains of a resentment which will not easily subside. I only requested leave to acquaint her with my relationship, and be allowed to call her sister ; — but it was denied me ! — You have ?io sister, said Sir John, you must forget her existence. Hard, and vain command ! ' ' You have, you have a sister ! ' cried I, from an impulse of pity, which I could not repress, ' a sister who is most warmly interested in your welfare, and who only wants opportunity to manifest her friendship and regard.' ' Gracious Heaven ! ' cried he, ' what does Miss Anville mean ? ' ' Anville,' said I, ' is not my real name ; Sir John Belmont is my father — he is your's — and I am your sister ! You see, therefore, the claim we mutually have to each other's regard ; we are not merely bound by the ties of friendship but by those of blood. I feel for you, already, all the affection of a sister, — I felt it, indeed, before I knew I was one. Why, my dear brother, do you not speak ? — do you hesitate to acknowledge mc ? ' ' I am so lost in astonishment,' cried he, ' that I know not if I hear right ! ' 43° EVELINA 1 I have then found a brother,' cried I, holding out my hand, ' and he will not own me ! ! ' Own you ! — Oh, Madam,' cried he, accepting my offered hand, 'is it, indeed, possible you can own me ? — a poor, wretched adventurer ! who so lately had no support but from your generosity ? — whom your benevolence snatched from utter destruction ? Can you — Oh Madam, can you indeed, and without a blush, condescend to own such an outcast for a brother ? ' ' Oh, forbear, forbear,' cried I, ' is this language proper for a sister? are we not reciprocally bound to each other? Will you not suffer me to expect from you all the good offices in your power ? But tell me, where is our father at present ? ' ' At the Hotwell, Madam ; he arrived there yesterday morning.' 1 would have proceeded with further questions, but the entrance of Lord Orville prevented me. The moment he saw us he started, and would have retreated ; but, drawing my hand from Mr. Macartney's, I begged him to come in. For a few moments we were all silent, and, I believe, all in equal confusion. Mr. Macartney, however, recollecting himself, said, 'I hope your Lordship will forgive the liberty I have taken in making use of your name ? ' Lord Orville, rather coldly, bowed, but said nothing. Again we were all silent, and then Mr. Macartney took leave. ' I fancy,' said Lord Orville, when he was gone, ' I have shortened Mr. Macartney's visit?' ' No, my Lord, not at all.' ' I had presumed,' said he, with some hesitation, ' I should have seen Miss Anville in the garden — but I knew not she was so much better engaged.' Before I could answer, a servant came to tell me the chaise was ready, and that Mrs. Selwyn was inquiring for me. ' I will wait on her immediately,' cried I, and away I was running; but Lord Orville, stopping me, said, with gnat emotion, ' Is it thus. Miss Anville, you leave me ? '' 'My Lord,' cried I, 'how can I help it ?— perhaps, soon, some better opportunity may offer ' 1 Good Heaven ! ' cried he, ' do you indeed take me for a Stoic ? What better opportunity may I hope for ? — is not the 43 T EVELINA chaise come ? — are you not going ? have you even deigned to tell me whither ? ' ' My journey, my Lord, will now be deferred. Mr. Macartney has brought me intelligence which renders it, at present, unnecessary.' ' Mr. Macartney,' said he, gravely, ' seems to have great influence — yet he is a very young counsellor.' ' Is it possible, my Lord, Mr. Macartney can give you the least uneasiness ? ' ' My dearest Miss Anville,' said he, taking my hand, ' I see, and I adore the purity of your mind, superior as it is to all little arts, and all apprehensions of suspicion ; and I should do myself, as well as you, injustice, if I were capable of harbouring the smallest doubts of that goodness which makes you mine for ever : nevertheless, pardon me, if I own myself surprised, nay, alarmed, at these frequent meetings with so young a man as Mr. Macartney.' ' My Lord,' cried I, eager to clear myself, ' Mr. Macartney is my brother ! ' ' Your brother ! you amaze me ! What strange mystery, then, makes his relationship a secret ? ' Just then, Mrs. Selwyn opened the door. ' O, you are here ! ' cried she ; ' Pray, is my Lord so kind as to assist you in preparing for your journey, or in retarding it ? ' ' I should be most happy,' said Lord Orville, smiling, ' if it were in my power to do the latter.'' I then acquainted her with Mr. Macartney's communication. She immediately ordered the chaise away, and then took me into her own room to consider what should be done. A few minutes sufficed to determine her, and she wrote the following note : — ■ 'To Sir John Belmont, Bart. ' Mrs. Selwyn presents her compliments to Sir John Belmont, and, if he is at leisure, will be glad to wait on him this morning, upon business of importance.' She then ordered her man to inquire at the pump-room for a direction ; and went herself to Mrs. Beaumont to apologise for deferring her journey. 432 EVELINA An answer was presently returned, that he would be glad to see her. She would have had me immediately accompany her to the Hotwells ; but I entreated her to spare me the distress of so abrupt an introduction, and to pave the way for my reception. She consented rather reluctantly, and, attended only by her servant, walked to the Wells. She was not absent two hours, yet so miserably did time seem to linger, that I thought a thousand accidents had happened, and feared she would never return. I passed the whole time in my own room, for I was too much agitated even to converse with Lord Orville. The instant that, from my window, I saw her returning, I flew downstairs, and met her in the garden. We both walked to the arbour. Her looks, in which disappointment and anger were ex- pressed, presently announced to me the failure of her embassy. Finding that she did not speak, I asked her, in a faltering voice, Whether or not I had a father ? ' You have not, my dear ! ' said she abruptly. ' Very well, Madam,' said I, with tolerable calmness, ' let the chaise, then, be ordered again, — I will go to Berry Hill, — and there, I trust, I shall still find one ! ' It was some time ere she could give, or I could hear, the account of her visit ; and then she related it in a hasty manner ; yet I believe I can recollect every word. ' I found Sir John alone. He received me with the utmost politeness. I did not keep him a moment in suspense as to the purport of my visit. But I had no sooner made it known, than, with a supercilious smile, he said, "And have you. Madam, been prevailed upon to revive that ridiculous old story?" Ridiculous, I told him, was a term which he would find no one else do him the favour to make use of, in speaking of the horrible actions belonging to the old sto ry he made so light of; "actions," continued I, " which would dye still deeper the black annals of Nero or Caligula." He attempted in vain to rally, for 1 pursued him with all the severity in my power, and ceased not painting the enormity of his crime, till I stung him to the quick, and in a voice of passion and impatience, he said, " No more, Madam, — this is not a subject upon which I need a monitor." " Make then," cried I, "the only reparation in your 433 2 f EVELINA power. Your daughter is now at Clifton ; send for her hither, and, in the face of the world, proclaim the legitimacy of her birth, and clear the reputation of your injured wife." " Madam," said he, " you are much mistaken, if you suppose I waited for the honour of this visit, before I did what little justice now depends upon me, to the memory of that unfortunate woman : her daughter has been my care from her infancy; I have taken her into my house ; she bears my name, and she will be my sole heiress." For some time this assertion appeared so absurd, that I only laughed at it ; but at last, he assured me, I had myself been imposed upon, for that the very woman who attended Lady Belmont in her last illness, conveyed the child to him while he was in London, before she was a year old. " Unwilling," he added, "at that time to confirm the rumour of my being married, I sent the woman with the child to France ; as soon as she was old enough, I put her into a convent, where she has been properly educated ; and now 1 have taken her home. I have acknowledged her for my lawful child, and paid, at length, to the memory of her unhappy mother, a tribute of fame, which has made me wish to hide myself here- after from all the world." This whole story sounded so im- probable, that I did not scruple to tell him I discredited every word. He then rung his bell, and inquiring if his hairdresser was come, said he was sorry to leave me, but that, if I would favour him with my company to-morrow, he would do him- self the honour of introducing Miss Belmont to vie, instead of troubling me to introduce her to him. I rose in great indignation, and assuring him I would make his conduct as public as it was infamous, I left the house.' Good Heaven, how strange the recital ! how incompre- hensible an affair ! The Miss Belmont, then, who is actually at Bristol, passes for the daughter of my unhappy mother ! — passes, in short, for your Evelina ! Who she can be, or what this tale can mean, I have not any idea. Mrs. Selwyn soon after left me to my own reflections. Indeed they were not very pleasant. Quietly as I had borne her relation, the moment I was alone I felt most bitterly both the disgrace and the sorrow of a rejection so cruelly inexplicable. I know not how long I might have continued in this situa- tion, had I not been awakened from my melancholy reverie by 434 EVELINA the voice of Lord Orville. 'May I come in,' cried he, 'or shall I interrupt you ? ' I was silent, and he seated himself next me. ' I fear,' he continued, ' Miss Anville will think I persecute her ; yet so much as I have to say, and so much as I wish to hear, with so few opportunities for either, she cannot wonder, — and I hope she will not be offended, — that I seize with such avidity every moment in my power to converse with her. You are grave,' added he, taking my hand ; ' I hope you do not regret the delay of your journey ? — I hope the pleasure it gives to me, will not be a subject of pain to you f You are silent ! — Something, I am sure, has afflicted you. Would to Heaven I were able to console you ! Would to Heaven I were worthy to participate in your sorrows ! ' My heart was too full to bear this kindness, and I could only answer by my tears. ' Good Heaven,' cried he, ' how you alarm me ! My love, my sweet Miss Anville, deny me no longer to be the sharer of your griefs ! — tell me, at least, that you have not withdrawn your esteem ! — that you do not repent the goodness you have shown me !— that you still think me the same grateful Orville whose heart you have deigned to accept ! ' ' Oh, my Lord,' cried I, ' your generosity overpowers me ! ' And I wept like an infant. For now that all my hopes of being acknowledged seemed finally crushed, I felt the noble- ness of his disinterested regard so forcibly, that I could scarce breathe under the weight of gratitude which oppressed me. He seemed greatly shocked, and in terms the most flattering, the most respectfully tender, he at once soothed my distress, and urged me to tell him its cause. 'My Lord,' said I, when I was able to speak, 'you little know what an outcast you have honoured with your choice ! — a child of bounty, — an orphan from infancy, — dependent, even for subsistence dependent, upon the kindness of compassion ! Rejected by my natural friends, — disowned for ever by my nearest relation. Oh, my Lord, so circumstanced, can I deserve the distinction with which you honour me ? No, no, I feel the inequality too painfully ; you must leave me, my Lord, you must suffer me to return to obscurity, — and there, in the bosom of my first, best, my only friend, I will pour forth all the grief of my heart ! — while you, my Lord, must seek elsewhere ' 435 EVELINA I could not proceed ; my whole soul recoiled against the charge I would have given, and my voice refused to utter it. ' Never ! ' cried he warmly ; ' my heart is yours, and I swear to you an attachment eternal ! You prepare me, indeed, for a tale of horror, and I am almost breathless with expecta- tion, — but so firm is my conviction, that, whatever are your misfortunes, to have merited them is not of the number, that I feel myself more strongly, more invincibly devoted to you than ever ! — Tell me but where I may find this noble friend, whose virtues you have already taught me to reverence, — and I will fly to obtain his consent and intercession, that henceforward our fates may be indissolubly united, — and then shall it be the sole study of my life to endeavour to soften your past, — and guard you from future misfortunes ! ' I had just raised my eyes, to answer this most generous of men, when the first object they met was Mrs. Selwyn ! ' So, my dear,' cried she, ' what, still courting the rural shades ! I thought ere now you would have been satiated with this retired seat, and I have been seeking you all over the house. But I find the only way to meet with you, — is to inquire for Lord Orville. However, don't let me disturb your meditations ; you are possibly planning some pastoral dialogue. And, with this provoking speech, she walked on. In the greatest confusion, I was quitting the arbour, when Lord Orville said, ' Permit me to follow Mrs. Selwyn, — it is time to put an end to all impertinent conjectures ; will you allow me to speak to her openly ? ' I assented in silence, and he left me. I then went to my own room, where I continued till I was summoned to dinner ; after which, Mrs. Selwyn invited me to hers. The moment she had shut the door, ' Your Ladyship,' said she, ' will, I hope, be seated.' ' Ma'am ! ' cried I, staring. ' O the sweet innocent ! So you don't know what I mean ? — but, my dear, my sole view is to accustom you a little to your dignity elect, lest, when you are addressed by your title, you should look another way, from an apprehension of listening to a discourse not meant for you to hear.' Having, in this manner, diverted herself with my confusion, till her raillery was almost exhausted, she congratulated me 43 6 EVELINA very seriously upon the partiality of Lord Orville, and painted to me, in the strongest terms, his disinterested desire of being married to me immediately. She had told him, she said, my whole story ; and yet he was willing, nay eager, that our union should take place of any further application to my family. ' Now, my dear,' continued she, ' I advise you by all means to marry him directly ; nothing can be more precarious than our success with Sir John ; and the young men of this age are not to be trusted with too much time for deliberation, where their interests are concerned.' ' Good God, Madam, cried I, ' do you think I would hurry Lord Orville ? ' ' Well, do as you will,' said she ; ' luckily you have an excellent subject for Quixotism ; — otherwise this delay might prove your ruin : but Lord Orville is almost as romantic as if he had been born and bred at Berry Hill.' She then proposed, as no better expedient seemed likely to be suggested, that I should accompany her at once in her visit to the Hotwells to-morrow morning. The very idea made me tremble ; yet she represented so strongly the necessity of pursuing this unhappy affair with spirit, or giving it totally up, that, wanting her force of argument, I was almost obliged to yield to her proposal. In the evening, we all walked in the garden : and Lord Orville, who never quitted my side, told me he had been listening to a tale which, though it had removed the per- plexities that had so long tormented him, had penetrated him with sorrow and compassion. I acquainted him with Mrs. Selwyn's plan for to-morrow, and confessed the extreme terror it gave me. He then, in a manner almost unanswerable, besought me to leave to him the conduct of the affair, by consenting to be his before an interview took place. I could not but acknowledge my sense of his generosity ; but I told him I was wholly dependent upon you, and that I was certain your opinion would be the same as mine, which was, that it would be highly improper I should dispose of myself for ever, so very near the time which must finally decide by whose authority I ought to be guided. The subject of this dreaded meeting, with the thousand conjectures and apprehensions to which it gives birth, employed all our con- versation then, as it has all my thoughts since. 437 EVELINA Heaven only knows how I shall support myself, when the long-expected, — the wished, — yet terrible moment arrives, that will prostrate me at the feet of the nearest, the most reverenced of all relations, whom my heart yearns to know, and longs to love ! LETTER LXXVIII EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Oct. 9. I could not write yesterday, so violent was the agitation of my mind, — but I will not now lose a moment till I have hastened to my best friend an account of the transactions of a day I can never recollect without emotion. Mrs. Selwyn determined upon sending no message, ' Lest,' said she, ' Sir John, fatigued with the very idea of my re- proaches, should endeavour to avoid a meeting : all we have to do is to take him by surprise. He cannot but see who you are, whether he will do you justice or not.' We went early, and in Mrs. Beaumont's chariot ; into which Lord Orville, uttering words of the kindest encourage- ment, handed us both. My uneasiness during the ride was excessive ; but when we stopped at the door, I was almost senseless with terror ! the meeting, at last, was not so dreadful as that moment ! I believe I was carried into the house ; but I scarce recollect what was done with me : however, I know we remained some time in the parlour, before Mrs. Selwyn could send any message upstairs. When I was somewhat recovered, I entreated her to let me return home, assuring her I felt myself quite unequal to supporting the interview. ' No,' said she, ' you must stay now ; your fears will but gain strength by delay, and we must not have such a shock as this repeated.' Then, turning to the servant, she sent up her name. An answer was brought, that he was going out in great haste, but would attend her immediately. I turned so sick, that Mrs. Selwyn was apprehensive I should have fainted ; and opening a door which led to an inner apartment, she 438 EVELINA begged me to wait there till I was somewhat composed, and till she had prepared for my reception. Glad of every moment's reprieve, I willingly agreed to the proposal, and Mrs. Selwyn had but just time to shut me in, before her presence was necessary. The voice of a father — O dear and revered name ! — which then, for the first time, struck my ears, affected me in a manner I cannot describe, though it was only employed in giving orders to a servant as he came downstairs. Then, entering the parlour, I heard him say, ' I am sorry, Madam, I made you wait, but I have an engagement which now calls me away : however, if you have any commands for me, I shall be glad of the honour of your company some other time.' 'I am come, Sir,' said Mrs. Selwyn, 'to introduce your daughter to you.' ' I am infinitely obliged to you,' answered he, ' but I have just had the satisfaction of breakfasting with her. Ma'am, your most obedient.' ' You refuse, then, to see her ? ' ' I am much indebted to you, Madam, for this desire of increasing my family, but you must excuse me if I decline taking advantage of it. I have already a daughter, to whom I owe everything ; and it is not three days since, that I had the pleasure of discovering a son ; how many more sons and daughters may be brought to me, I am yet to learn, but I am already perfectly satisfied with the size of my family.' ' Had you a thousand children, Sir John,' said Mrs. Selwyn warmly, ' this only one, of which Lady Belmont was the mother, ought to be most distinguished ; and, far from avoid- ing her sight, you should thank your stars, in humble gratitude, that there yet remains in your power the smallest opportunity of doing the injured wife you have destroyed, the poor justice of acknowledging her child ! ' ' I am very unwilling, Madam,' answered he, 'to enter into any discussion of this point ; but you are determined to compel me to speak. There lives not, at this time, the human being who should talk to me of the regret due to the memory of that ill-fated woman ; no one can feel it so severely as myself: but let me, nevertheless, assure you, I have already done all that remained in my power to prove tin r< pect she 439 EVELINA merited from me ; her child I have educated and owned for my lawful heiress ; if, Madam, you can suggest to me any other means by which I may more fully do her justice, and more clearly manifest her innocence, name them to me, and though they should wound my character still deeper, I will perform them readily.' 'All this sounds vastly well,' returned Mrs. Selwyn, 'but I must own it is rather too enigmatical for my faculties of com- prehension. You can, however, have no objection to seeing this young lady ? ' ' None in the world.' ' Come forth, then, my dear,' cried she, opening the door, ' come forth, and see your father ! ' Then, taking my trembling hand, she led me forward. I would have withdrawn it, and retreated, but as he advanced instantly towards me, I found myself already before him. What a moment for your Evelina ! — an involuntary scream escaped me, and, covering my face with my hands, I sunk on the floor. He had, however, seen me first ; for in a voice scarce articulate, he exclaimed, ' My God ! does Caroline Evelyn still live!' Mrs. Selwyn said something, but I could not listen to her; and, in a few minutes, he added, ' Lift up thy head, — if my sight has not blasted thee, — lift up thy head, thou image of my long-lost Caroline ! ' Affected beyond measure, I half arose, and embraced his knees, while yet on my own. ' Yes, yes,' cried he, looking earnestly in my face, ' I see, I see thou art her child ! she lives — she breathes — she is present to my view ! Oh God, that she indeed lived ! Go, child, go,' added he, wildly starting, and pushing me from him ; ' take her away, Madam, — I cannot bear to look at her ! ' And then, breaking hastily from me, he rushed out of the room. Speechless, motionless myself, I attempted not to stop him : but Mrs. Selwyn, hastening after him, caught hold of his arm. ' Leave me, Madam,' cried he, with quickness, 'and take care of the poor child ; — bid her not think me unkind, tell her I would at this moment plunge a dagger in my heart to serve her, — but she has set my brain on fire, and I can 440 ^tJ. I found myself already before him. EVELINA see her no more ! ' Then, with a violence almost frantic, he ran upstairs. Oh, Sir, had I not indeed cause to dread this interview ? — an interview so unspeakably painful and afflicting to us both ! Mrs. Selwyn would have immediately returned to Clifton ; but I entreated her to wait some time, in the hope that my un- happy father, when his first emotion was over, would again bear me in his sight. However, he soon after sent his servant to inquire how I did, and to tell Mrs. Selwyn he was much indisposed, but would hope for the honour of seeing her to- morrow, at any time she would please to appoint. She fixed upon ten o'clock in the morning ; and then, with a heavy heart, I got into the chariot. Those afflicting words, / can see her no more, were never a moment absent from my mind. Yet the sight of Lord Orville, who handed us from the carriage, gave some relief to the sadness of my thoughts. I could not, however, enter upon the painful subject, but begging Mrs. Selwyn to satisfy him, I went to my own room. As soon as I communicated to the good Mrs. Clinton the present situation of my affairs, an idea occurred to her, which seemed to clear up all the mystery of my having been so long disowned. The woman, she says, who attended my ever-to-be-regretted mother in her last illness, and who nursed me the first four months of my life, soon after being discharged from your house, left Berry Hill entirely, with her baby, who was but six weeks older than myself. Mrs. Clinton remembers, that her quitting the place appeared, at the time, very extraordinary to the neighbours, but, as she was never heard of afterwards, she was, by degrees, quite forgotten. The moment this was mentioned, it struck Mrs. Selwyn, as well as Mrs. Clinton herself, that my father had been imposed upon, and that the nurse who said she had brought his child to him, had, in fact, carried her own. The name by which I was known, the secrecy observed in regard to my family, and the retirement in which I lived, all conspired to render this scheme, however daring and fraudulent, by no means impracticable, and, in short, the idea was no sooner started, than conviction seemed to follow it. Mrs. Selwyn determined immediately to discover the truth 442 EVELINA or mistake of this conjecture ; therefore, the moment she had dined, she walked to the Hotwells, attended by Mrs. Clinton. I waited in my room till her return, and then heard the following account of her visit : — She found my poor father in great agitation. She im- mediately informed him of the occasion of her so speedy return, and of her suspicions of the woman who had pretended to convey to him his child. Interrupting her with quickness, he said he had just sent her from his presence : that the certainty I carried in my countenance, of my real birth, made him, the moment he had recovered from a surprise which had almost deprived him of reason, suspect, himself, the imposition she mentioned. He had, therefore, sent for the woman, and questioned her with the utmost austerity : she turned pale, and was extremely embarrassed, but still she persisted in affirming that she had really brought him the daughter of Lady Belmont. His perplexity, he said, almost distracted him ; he had always observed that his daughter bore no resemblance to either of her parents, but, as he had never doubted the veracity of the nurse, this circumstance did not give birth to any suspicion. At Mrs. Selwyn's desire, the woman was again called, and interrogated with equal art and severity ; her confusion was evident, and her answers often contradictory, yet she still declared she was no impostor. ' We will see that in a minute,' said Mrs. Selwyn, and then desired Mrs. Clinton might be called upstairs. The poor wretch, changing colour, would have escaped out of the room, but, being prevented, dropt on her knees, and implored forgiveness. A confession of the whole affair was then extorted from her. Doubtless, my dear Sir, you must remember Dame Greoi, who was my first nurse. The deceit she has practised was suggested, she says, by a conversation she overheard, in which my unhappy mother besought you that, if her child survived her, you would take the sole care of its education ; and, in particular, if it should be a female, you would by no means part with her in early life. You not only consented, she says, but assured her you would even retire abroad with me yourself, if my father should importunately demand me. Her own child, she said, was then in her arms, and she could not forbear wishing it were possible to give her the fortune which seemed so little valued for me. This wish once raisi d, 443 EVELINA was not easily suppressed ; on the contrary, what at first appeared a mere idle desire, in a short time seemed a feasible scheme. Her husband was dead, and she had little regard for anybody but her child ; and, in short, having saved money for the journey, she contrived to inquire a direction to my father, and telling her neighbours she was going to settle in Devonshire, she set out on her expedition. When Mrs. Selwyn asked her how she dared perpetrate such a fraud, she protested she had no ill designs ; but that, as Miss would be never the worse for it, she thought it pity nobody should be the better. Her success we are already acquainted with. Indeed everything seemed to contribute towards it : my father had no correspondent at Berry Hill ; the child was instantly sent to France, where, being brought up in as much retirement as myself, nothing but accident could discover the fraud. And here, let me indulge myself in observing, and rejoicing to observe, that the total neglect I thought I met with was not the effect of insensibility or unkindness, but of imposition and error ; and that at the very time we concluded I was un- naturally rejected, my deluded father meant to show me most favour and protection. He acknowledges that Lady Howard's letter flung him into some perplexity ; he immediately communicated it to Dame Green, who confessed it was the greatest shock she had ever received in her life ; yet she had the art and boldness to assert, that Lady Howard must herself have been deceived : and as she had, from the beginning of her enterprise, declared she had stolen away the child without your knowledge, he concluded that some deceit was then intended him : and this thought occasioned his abrupt answer. Dame Green owned, that from the moment the journey to England was settled, she gave herself up for lost. All her hope was to have had her daughter married before it took place, for which reason she had so much promoted Mr. Macartney's addresses : for though such a match was inadequate to the pretensions of Miss Belmont, she well knew it was far superior to those her daughter could form, after the discovery of her birth. My first inquiry was, if this innocent daughter was yet acquainted with the affair? No, Mrs. Selwyn said, nor was 444 EVELINA any plan settled how to divulge it to her. Poor unfortunate girl ! how hard is her fate ! She is entitled to my kindest offices, and I shall always consider her as my sister. I then asked whether my father would again allow me to see him ? 'Why no, my dear, not yet,' answered she; 'he declares the sight of you is too much for him : however, we are to settle everything concerning you to-morrow, for this woman took up all our time to-day.' This morning, therefore, she is again gone to the Hotwells. I am waiting in all impatience for her return ; but as I know you will be anxious for the account this letter contains, I will not delay sending it. LETTER LXXIX EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Oct. 9. How agitated, my dear Sir, is the present life of your Evelina ! every day seems important, and one event only a prelude to another. Mrs. Selwyn, upon her return this morning from the Hot- wells, entering my room very abruptly, said, ' Oh my dear, I have terrible news for you '. ' ' For me, Ma'am ! — Good God ! what now ? ' 'Arm yourself,' cried she, 'with all your Berry Hill philosophy ; — con over every lesson of fortitude or resignation you ever learnt in your life, — for know, — you are next week to be married to Lord Orville ! ' Doubt, astonishment, and a kind of perturbation I cannot describe, made this abrupt communication alarm me extremely, and, almost breathless, I could only exclaim, ' Good God, Madam, what do you tell me ? ' ' You may well be frightened, my dear,' said she ironically, ' for really there is something mighty terrific in becoming, at once, the wife of the man you adore, — and a Countess ! ' I entreated her to spare her raillery, and tell me her real meaning. She could not prevail with herself to grant the first request, though she readily complied with the second. 445 EVELINA My poor father, she said, was still in the utmost uneasiness. He entered upon his affairs with great openness, and told her he was equally disturbed how to dispose either of the daughter he had discovered, or the daughter he was now to give up ; the former he dreaded to trust himself with again beholding, and the latter he knew not how to shock with the intelligence of her disgrace. Mrs. Selwyn then acquainted him with my situation in regard to Lord Orville ; this delighted him ex- tremely, and, when he heard of his Lordship's eagerness, he said he was himself of opinion, the sooner the union took place the better : and, in return, he informed her of the affair of Mr. Macartney. ' And, after a very long conversation,' continued Mrs. Selwyn, 'we agreed that the most eligible scheme for all parties would be to have both the real and the fictitious daughter married without delay. Therefore, if either of you have any inclination to pull caps for the title of Miss Belmont, you must do it with all speed, as next week will take from both of you all pretensions to it.' ' Next week ! — dear Madam, what a strange plan ! — without my being consulted — without applying to Mr. Villars, — without even the concurrence of Lord Orville ! ' ' As to consulting yon, my dear, it was out of all question, because, you know, young ladies' hearts and hands are always to be given with reluctance ; as to Mr. Villars, it is sufficient we know him for your friend ; and as for Lord Orville, he is a party concerned.' ' A party concerned ! — you amaze me ! ' ' Why, yes ; for as I found our consultation likely to redound to his advantage, I persuaded Sir John to send for him.' ' Send for him ! — Good God ! ' ' Yes, and Sir John agreed. I told the servant, that if he could not hear of his Lordship in the house, he might be pretty certain of encountering him in the arbour. — Why do you colour, my dear ? — Well, he was with us in a moment ; I introduced him to Sir John, and we proceeded to business.' ' I am very, very sorry for it ! — Lord Orville must, himself, think this conduct strangely precipitate.' ' No, my dear, you are mistaken, Lord Orville has too much good sense. Everything was then discussed in a rational manner. You are to be married privately, though not secretly, and then go to one of his Lordship's country seats : and poor 446 EVELINA little Miss Green and your brother, who have no house of their own, must go to one of Sir John's.' ' But why, my dear Madam, why all this haste ? why may we not be allowed a little longer time ? ' ' I could give you a thousand reasons,' answered she, ' but that I am tolerably certain two or three will be more than you can controvert, even with all the logic of genuine coquetry. In the first place, you doubtless wish to quit the house of Mrs. Beaumont, — to whose, then, can you with such propriety re- move, as to Lord Orville's ? ' ' Surely, Madam,' cried I, ' I am not more destitute now, than when I thought myself an orphan?' ' Your father, my dear,' answered she, ' is willing to save the little impostor as much of the mortification of her disgrace as is in his power : now if you immediately take her place, according to your right, as Miss Belmont, why, not all that either of you can do for her will prevent her being eternally stigmatised as the Bantling of Dame Green, wash-woman and wet-nurse of Berry Hill, Dorsetshire. Now such a genealogy will not be very flattering, even to Mr. Macartney, who, all-dismal as he is, you will find by no means wanting in pride and self- consequence.' 'For the universe,' interrupted I, ' I would not be accessary to the degradation you mention ; but surely, Madam, I may return to Berry Hill?' ' By no means,' said she; ' for though compassion may make us wish to save the poor girl the confusion of an immediate and public fall, yet justice demands you should appear, henceforward, in no other light than that of Sir John Belmont's daughter. Besides, between friends, I, who know the world, can see that half this prodigious delicacy for the little usurper is the mere result of self-interest ; for while her affairs are hushed up, Sir John's, you know, are kept from being brought further to light. Now, the double marriage we have projected obviates all rational objections. Sir John will give you, immediately, ,£30,000 ; all settlements, and so forth, will be made for you in the name of Evelina Belmont ; — Mr. Macartney will, at the same time, take poor Polly Green, — and yet, at first, it will only be generally known that a daughter of Sir Joh?i Belmont's is married.' In this manner, though she did not convince me, yet the 447 EVELINA quickness of her arguments silenced and perplexed me. I inquired, however, if I might not be permitted to again see my father, or whether I must regard myself as banished his presence for ever ? ' My dear,' said she, 'he does not know you ; he concludes that you have been brought up to detest him, and therefore he is rather prepared to dread, than to love you.' This answer made me very unhappy ; I wished, most im- patiently, to remove his prejudice, and endeavour, by dutiful assiduity, to engage his kindness, yet knew not how to propose seeing him, while conscious he wished to avoid me. This evening, as soon as the company was engaged with cards, Lord Orville exerted his utmost eloquence to reconcile me to this hasty plan : but how was I startled, when he told me that next Tuesday was the day appointed by my father to be the most important of my life ! 1 Next Tuesday ! ' repeated I, quite out of breath. ' Oh, my Lord ! ' ' My sweet Evelina,' said he, ' the day which will make me the happiest of mortals, would probably appear awful to you, were it to be deferred a twelvemonth : Mrs. Selwyn has, doubtless, acquainted you with the many motives which, independent of my eagerness, require it to be speedy ; suffer, therefore, its acceleration, and generously complete my felicity, by endeavouring to suffer it without repugnance.' ' Indeed, my Lord, I would not wilfully raise objections, nor do I desire to appear insensible of the honour of your good opinion ; — but there is something in this plan, so very hasty, — so unreasonably precipitate, — besides, I shall have no time to hear from Berry Hill, — and believe me, my Lord, I should be for ever miserable, were I, in an affair so important, to act without the sanction of Mr. Yillars' advice.' He offered to wait on you himself; but I told him I had rather write to you. And then he proposed that, instead of my immediately accompanying him to Lincolnshire, we should first pass a month at my native Berry Hill. This was, indeed, a grateful proposal to me, and I listened to it with undisguised pleasure. And, — in short, I was obliged to consent to a compromise, in merely deferring the day till Thursday ! He readily undertook to engage my father's concurrence in this little delay, and I besought him, at the 448 EVELINA same time, to make use of his influence to obtain me a second interview, and to represent the deep concern I felt in being thus banished his sight. He would then have spoken of settlements, but I assured him I was almost ignorant even of the word. And now, my dearest Sir, what is your opinion of these hasty proceedings ? believe me, I half regret the simple facility with which I have suffered myself to be hurried into compliance, and, should you start but the smallest objection, I will yet insist upon being allowed more time. I must now write a concise account of the state of my affairs to Howard Grove, and to Madame Duval. Adieu, dearest and most honoured Sir ! everything, at present, depends upon your single decision, to which, though I yield in trembling, I yield implicitly. LETTER LXXX EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Oct. ii. Yesterday morning, as soon as breakfast was over, Lord Orville went to the Hotwells, to wait upon my father with my double petition. Mrs. Beaumont then, in general terms, proposed a walk in the garden. Mrs. Selwyn said she had letters to write, but Lady Louisa arose to accompany her. I had had some reason to imagine, from the notice with which her Ladyship had honoured me during breakfast, that her brother had acquainted her with my present situation : and her behaviour now confirmed my conjecture ; for, when I would have gone upstairs, instead of suffering me, as usual, to pass disregarded, she called after me with an affected surprise, • Miss Anville, don't you walk with us ? ' There seemed something- so little -minded in this sudden change of conduct, that, from an involuntary motion of con- tempt, I thanked her, with a coldness like her own, and declined her offer. Yet, observing that she blushed extremely at my refusal, and recollecting she was sister to Lord Orville, 440 2 G 1 Afiss Anville, don t you walk with us ? ' EVELINA my indignation subsided, and upon Mrs. Beaumont's repeating the invitation, I accepted it. Our walk proved extremely dull. Mrs. Beaumont, who never says much, was more silent than usual ; Lady Louisa strove in vain to lay aside the restraint and distance she has hitherto preserved ; and as to me, I was too conscious of the circumstances to which I owed their attention, to feel either pride or pleasure from receiving it. Lord Orville was not long absent ; he joined us in the garden with a look of gaiety and good-humour that revived us all. ' You are just the party,' said he, ' I wished to see together. Will you, Madam,' taking my hand, 'allow me the honour of introducing you, by your real name, to two of my nearest relations ? Mrs. Beaumont, give me leave to present to you the daughter of Sir John Belmont, a young lady who, I am sure, must long since have engaged your esteem and admiration, though you were a stranger to her birth.' ' My Lord,' said Mrs. Beaumont, graciously saluting me, 'the young lady's rank in life, your Lordship's recommenda- tion, or her own merit, would any one of them have been sufficient to have entitled her to my regard ; and I hope she has always met with that respect in my house which is so much her due ; though, had I been sooner made acquainted with her family, I should, doubtless, have better known how to have secured it.' ' Miss Belmont,' said Lord Orville, ' can receive no lustre from family, whatever she may give to it. Louisa, you will, I am sure, be happy to make yourself an interest in the friend- ship of Miss Belmont, whom 1 hope shortly,' kissing my hand, and joining it with her Ladyship's, ' to have the happiness of presenting to you by yet another name, and by the most endearing of all titles.' I believe it would be difficult to say whose cheeks were, at that moment, of the deepest dye, Lady Louisa's or my own ; for the conscious pride with which she has hitherto slighted me, gave to her an embarrassment which equalled the confusion that an introduction so unexpected gave to me. She saluted me, however, and, with a faint smile, said, ' I shall esteem myself very happy to profit by the honour of Miss Belmont's acquaintance.' I only curtsied, and we walked on ; but it was evident, 45 1 EVELINA from the little surprise they expressed, that they had •been already informed of the state of the affair. We were, soon after, joined by more company : and Lord Orville then, in a low voice, took an opportunity to tell me the success of his visit. In the first place, Thursday was agreed to ; and, in the second, my father, he said, was much concerned to hear of my uneasiness, sent me his blessing, and complied with my request of seeing him, with the same readiness he should agree to any other I could make. Lord Orville, there- fore, settled that I should wait upon him in the evening, and, at his particular request, unaccompanied by Mrs. Selwyn. This kind message, and the prospect of so soon seeing him, gave me sensations of mixed pleasure and pain, which wholly occupied my mind till the time of my going to the Hotwell. Mrs. Beaumont lent me her chariot, and Lord Orville absolutely insisted upon attending me. ' If you go alone,' said he, ' Mrs. Selwyn will certainly be offended ; but, if you allow me to conduct you, though she may give the freer scope to her raillery, she cannot possibly be affronted : and we had much better suffer her laughter than provoke her satire.' Indeed, I must own I had no reason to regret being so accompanied ; for his conversation supported my spirits from drooping, and made the ride seem so short that we actually stopped at my father's door before I knew we had proceeded ten yards. He handed me from the carriage, and conducted me to the parlour, at the door of which I was met by Mr. Macartney. ' Ah, my dear brother,' cried I, ' how happy am I to see you here ! ' He bowed and thanked me. Lord Orville, then, holding out his hand, said, ' Mr. Macartney, I hope we shall be better acquainted ; I promise myself much pleasure from cultivating your friendship.' 'Your Lordship does me but too much honour,' answered Mr. Macartney. ' But where,' cried I, ' is my sister ? for so I must already call, and always consider her : I am afraid she avoids me ; — you must endeavour, my dear brother, to prepossess her in my favour, and reconcile her to owning me.' ' Oh Madam,' cried he, ' you are all goodness and benevolence ! but at present I hope you will excuse her, for I 452 EVELINA fear she has hardly fortitude sufficient to see you : in a short time, perhaps ' ' In a very short time, then/ said Lord Orville, ' I hope you will yourself introduce her, and that we shall have the pleasure of wishing you both joy : allow me, my Evelina, to say lue, and permit me, in your name as well as my own, to entreat that the first guests we shall have the happiness of receiving may be Mr. and Mrs. Macartney.' A servant then came to beg I would walk upstairs. I besought Lord Orville to accompany me ; but he feared the displeasure of Sir John, who had desired to see me alone. He led me, however, to the foot of the stairs, and made the kindest efforts to give me courage ; but indeed he did not succeed, for the interview appeared to me in all its terrors, and left me no feeling but apprehension. The moment I reached the landing-place, the drawing-room door was opened, and my father, with a voice of kindness, called out, ' My child, is it you ?' 'Yes, Sir,' cried I, springing forward, and kneeling at his feet, ' it is your child, if you will own her ! ' He knelt by my side, and folding me in his arms, ' Own thee!' repeated he, 'yes, my poor girl, and Heaven knows with what bitter contrition ! ' Then raising both himself and me, he brought me into the drawing-room, shut the door, and took me to the window, where, looking at me with great earnestness, ' Poor unhappy Caroline ! ' cried he, and, to my inexpressible concern, he burst into tears. Need I tell you, my dear Sir, how mine flowed at the sight ? I would again have embraced his knees ; but, hurrying from me, he flung himself upon a sofa, and leaning his face on his arms, seemed for some time absorbed in bitterness of grief. I ventured not to interrupt a sorrow I so much respected, but waited in silence, and at a distance, till he recovered from its violence. But then it seemed, in a moment, to give way to a kind of frantic fury ; for, starting suddenly, with a sterness which at once surprised and frightened me. ' Child,' cried he, 'hast thou yet sufficiently humbled thy father? if thou hast, be contented with this proof of my weakness, and no longei force thyself into my presence!' Thunderstruck by a command so unexpected, I stood still 453 EVELINA and speechless, and doubted whether my own ears did not deceive me. 'Oh, go, go!' cried he, passionately, 'in pity — in com- passion, — if thou valuest my senses, leave me, — and for ever ! : ' I will, I will,' cried I, greatly terrified ; and I moved hastily towards the door : yet stopping when I reached it, and, almost involuntarily, dropping on my knees, 'Vouchsafe,' cried I, ' oh, .Sir, vouchsafe but once to bless your daughter, and her sight shall never more offend you ! ' ' Alas,' cried he, in a softened voice, ' I am not worthy to bless thee ! — I am not worthy to call thee daughter ! — I am not worthy that the fair light of heaven should visit my eyes ! —Oh God ! that I could but call back the time ere thou wast born, or else bury its remembrance in eternal oblivion ! ' ' Would to Heaven,' cried I, ' that the sight of me were less terrible to you ! that instead of irritating, I could soothe your sorrows ! — Oh, Sir, how thankfully would I then prove my duty, even at the hazard of my life ! ' ' Are you so kind ? ' cried he, gently ; ' come hither, child, — rise, Evelina ; alas, it is for me to kneel, not you — and I would kneel, — I would crawl upon the earth, — I would kiss the dust, — could I, by such submission, obtain the forgiveness of the representative of the most injured of women ! ' 'Oh, Sir,' exclaimed I, 'that you could but read my heart ! ■ — that you could but see the filial tenderness and concern with which it overflows ! — you would not then talk thus, — you would not then banish me your presence, and exclude me from your affection ! ' ' Good God ! ' cried he, ' is it then possible that you do not hate me ? — Can the child of the wronged Caroline look at, and not execrate me ? Wast thou not born to abhor, and bred to curse me ? did not thy mother bequeath thee her blessing on condition that thou should'st detest and avoid me ? ' 'Oh no, no, no!' cried I, 'think not so unkindly of her, nor so hardly of me.' I then took from my pocket-book her last letter, and, pressing it to my lips, with a trembling hand, and still upon my knees, I held it out to him. Hastily snatching it from me, ' Great Heaven ! ; cried he, ' 'tis her writing. Whence comes this ? — who gave it you ? — why had I it not sooner ? ' I made no answer ; his vehemence intimidated me, and I 454 EVELINA ventured not to move from the suppliant posture in which I had put myself. He went from me to the window, where his eyes were for some time rivetted upon the direction of the letter, though his hand shook so violently he could hardly hold it. Then, bringing it to me, ' Open it,' — cried he, — ' for I cannot ! ' I had, myself, hardly strength to obey him ; but when I had, he took it back, and walked hastily up and down the room, as if dreading to read it. At length, turning to me, ' Do you know,' cried he, ' its contents ? ' 'No, Sir,' answered I, 'it has never been unsealed.' He then again went to the window, and began reading. Having hastily run it over, he cast up his eyes with a look of desperation ; the letter fell from his hand, and he exclaimed, ' Yes ! thou art sainted ! — thou art blessed ! — and I am cursed for ever ! ' He continued some time fixed in this melancholy position ; after which, casting himself with violence upon the ground, ' Oh wretch,' cried he, ' unworthy life and light, in what dungeon can'st thou hide thy head ? ' I could restrain myself no longer ; I rose and went to him ; 1 did not dare speak, but with pity and concern unutterable, I wept and hung over him. Soon after, starting up, he again seized the letter, exclaim- ing, ' Acknowledge thee, Caroline ! — yes, with my heart's best blood would I acknowledge thee ! — Oh that thou could'st witness the agony of my soul ! — Ten thousand daggers could not have wounded me like this letter ! ' Then, after again reading it, ' Evelina,' he cried, ' she charges me to receive thee ; — wilt thou, in obedience to her will, own for thy father the destroyer of thy mother ? ' What a dreadful question ! I shuddered, but could not speak. 'To clear her fame and receive her child,' continued he, looking steadfastly at the letter, 'are the conditions upon which she leaves me her forgiveness : her fame I have already cleared ;— and oh how willingly would I take her child to my bosom, — fold her to my heart, — call upon, her to mitigate my anguish, and pour the balm of comfort on my wounds, were I not conscious I deserve not to receive it, and that all my affliction is the result of my own guilt ! ' It was in vain I attempted to speak ; horror and grief took from me all power of utterance. 455 EVELINA He then read aloud from the letter, ' Look not like thy unfortunate mother.' — Sweet soul, with what bitterness of spirit hast thou written! — Come hither, Evelina: Gracious Heaven ! ' looking earnestly at me, ' never was likeness more striking ! — the eye, — the face, — the form,— Oh my child, my child!' Imagine, Sir, — for I can never describe my feelings, when I saw him sink upon his knees before me ! ' Oh dear resemblance of thy murdered mother ! — Oh all that remains of the most injured of women ! behold thy father at thy feet !— ~ bending thus lowly to implore you would not hate him ; — Oh then, thou representative of my departed wife, speak to me in her name, and say that the remorse which tears my soul tortures me not in vain ! ' ' Oh rise, rise, my beloved father,' cried I, attempting to assist him, ' I cannot bear to see you thus : — reverse not the law of nature, rise yourself and bless your kneeling daughter ! ' ' May Heaven bless thee, my child ! ' cried he, ' for I dare not.' He then rose, and embracing me most affec- tionately, added, ' I see, I see that thou art all kindness, softness, and tenderness ; I need not have feared thee, thou art all the fondest father could wish, and I will try to frame my mind to less painful sensations at thy sight. Perhaps the time may come when I may know the comfort of such a daughter, — at present I am only fit to be alone : dreadful as are my reflections, they ought merely to torment myself. Adieu, my child ; be not angry, — I cannot stay with thee, — oh Evelina ! thy countenance is a dagger to my heart !— just so thy mother looked, — just so ' Tears and sighs seemed to choke him ! — and waving his hand, he would have left me, — but, clinging to him, 'Oh, Sir,' cried I, ' will you so soon abandon me ? — am I again an orphan ? — oh my dear, my long-lost father, leave me not, I beseech you ! take pity on your child, and rob her not of the parent she so fondly hoped would cherish her ! ' 'You know not what you ask,' cried he ; 'the emotions which now rend my soul are more than my reason can endure : suffer me then, to leave you, — impute it not to unkindness, but think of me as well as thou canst. Lord Orville has behaved nobly ; I believe he will make thee happy.' Then, again embracing me, ' God bless thee, my dear child,' cried he, ' God bless thee, my Evelina ! — endeavour to love, — at 45 6 EVELINA least not to hate me, — and to make me an interest in thy filial bosom by thinking of me as thy father.' I could not speak ; I kissed his hands on my knees ; and then, with yet more emotion, he again blessed me, and hurried out of the room, — leaving me almost drowned in tears. Oh, Sir, all goodness as you are, how much will you feel for your Evelina during a scene of such agitation ! I pray Heaven to accept the tribute of his remorse, and restore him to tranquillity ! When I was sufficiently composed to return to the parlour, I found Lord Orville waiting for me with the utmost anxiety : — and then a new scene of emotion, though of a far different nature, awaited me ; for I learnt, by Mr. Macartney, that this noblest of men had insisted the so-long-supposed Miss Belmont should be considered indeed as my sister, and as the co-heiress of my father! though not in law, in justice, he says, she ought ever to be treated as the daughter of Sir John Belmont. Oh Lord Orville ! — it shall be the sole study of my happy life, to express, better than by words, the sense I have of your exalted benevolence and greatness of mind ! LETTER LXXX1 EVELINA IN CONTINUATION Clifton, Oct. 12. This morning, early, I received the following letter from Sir Clement Willoughby : — To Miss Anville I have this moment received intelligence that preparations are actually making for your marriage with Lord Orville. Imagine not that I write with the imbecile idea of rendering those preparations abortive. No, I am not so mad. My sole view is to explain the motive of my conduct in a particular instance, and to obviate the accusation of treachery which may be laid to my ch My unguarded behaviour when I last saw you has, probably, 457 EVELINA already acquainted you that the letter I then saw you reading was written by myself. For your further satisfaction, let me have the honour of informing you that the letter you had designed for Lord Orville had fallen into my hands. However I may have been urged on by a passion the most violent that ever warmed the heart of man, I can by no means calmly submit to be stigmatised for an action seemingly so dishonourable ; and it is for this reason that I trouble you with my justification. Lord Orville — the happy Orville, whom you are so ready to bless — had made me believe he loved you not, nay, that he held you in contempt. Such were my thoughts of his sentiments of you, when I got possession of the letter you meant to send him ; I pretend not to vindicate either the means I used to obtain it, or the action of breaking the seal ; but I was impelled by an im- petuous curiosity to discover the terms upon which you wrote to him. The letter, however, was wholly unintelligible to me, and the perusal of it only added to my perplexity. A tame suspense I was not born to endure, and I determined to clear my doubts at all hazards and events. I answered it, therefore, in Orville's name. The views which I am now going to acknowledge must, infallibly, incur your displeasure, — yet I scorn all palliation. Briefly, then, I concealed your letter to prevent a dis- covery of your capacity, and I wrote you an answer which I hoped would prevent your wishing for any other. I am well aware of everything which can be said upon this subject. Lord Orville will, possibly, think himself ill used ; — but I am extremely indifferent as to his opinion, nor do I now write by way of offering any apology to him, but merely to make known to yourself the reasons by which I have been governed. I intend to set off next week for the Continent. Should his Lordship have any commands for me in the meantime, I shall be glad to receive them. I say not this by way of defiance, — I should blush to be suspected of so doing through an indirect channel, — but simply that, if you show him this letter, he may know I dare defend, as well as excuse my conduct. Clement Willoughby. 458 EVELINA What a strange letter ! how proud and how piqued does its writer appear ! To what alternate meanness and rashness do the passions lead, when reason and self-denial do not oppose them ! Sir Clement is conscious he has acted dishonourably, yet the same unbridled vehemence which urged him to gratify a blameable curiosity, will sooner prompt him to risk his life, than confess his misconduct. The rudeness of his manner of writing to me springs from the same cause : the proof he has received of my indifference to him has stung him to the soul, and he has neither the delicacy nor forbearance to disguise his displeasure. I determined not to show this letter to Lord Orville, and thought it most prudent to let Sir Clement know I should not. I therefore wrote the following note : — TO SIR CLEMENT WTLLOUGHBY Sir, — The letter you have been pleased to address to me is so little calculated to afford Lord Orville any satisfaction, that you may depend upon my carefully keeping it from his sight. I will bear you no resentment for what is past ; but I most earnestly entreat, nay implore, that you will not write again while in your present frame of mind, by any channel, direct or indirect. I hope you will have much pleasure in your proposed expedition, and I beg leave to assure you of my good wishes. Not knowing by what name to sign, I was obliged to send it without any. The preparations which Sir Clement mentions, go on just as if your consent were arrived : it is in vain that I expostulate ; Lord Orville says, should any objections be raised, all shall be given up, but that, as his hopes forbid him to expect any, he must proceed as if already assured of your concurrence. We have had, this afternoon, a most interesting conversa- tion, in which we have traced our sentiments of each other from our first acquaintance. I have made him confess how ill he thought of me, upon my foolish giddiness at Mrs. Stanley's ball ; but he flatters me with assurances, that every succeeding time he saw me, I appeared to something less and less disadvantage. 459 EVELINA When I expressed my amazement that he could honour with his choice a girl who seemed so infinitely, in every respect, beneath his alliance, he frankly owned, that he had fully intended making more minute inquiries into my family and connections, and particularly concerning those people he saw me with at Marybone, before he acknowledged his pre- possession in my favour : but the suddenness of my intended journey, and the uncertainty of seeing me again, put him quite off his guard, and, ' divesting him of prudence, left him nothing but love.' These were his words ; and yet, he has repeatedly assured me that his partiality has known no bounds from the time of my residing at Clifton. Mr. Macartney has just been with me on an embassy from my father. He has sent me his kindest love and assurances of favour, and desired to know if I am happy in the prospect of changing my situation, and if there is anything I can name which he can do for me. And, at the same time, Mr. Macartney delivered to me a draught on my father's banker for a thousand pounds, which he insisted that I should receive entirely for my own use, and expend in equipping myself properly for the new rank of life to which I seem destined. I am sure I need not say how much I was penetrated by this goodness ; I wrote my thanks, and acknowledged, frankly, that if I could see him restored to tranquillity, my heart would be without a wish. LETTER LXXXII EVELINA IK CONTINUATION Clifton, Oct. 13. The time approaches now, when I hope we shall meet, — yet I cannot sleep, — great joy is as restless as sorrow, — and therefore I will continue my journal. As I had never had an opportunity of seeing Bath, a party was formed last night for showing me that celebrated city ; and this morning, after breakfast, we set out in three phaetons. Lady Louisa and Mrs. Beaumont with Lord Merton : Mr. 460 EVELINA Coverley with Mr. Lovel ; and Mrs. Selwyn and myself with Lord Orville. We had hardly proceeded half a mile, when a gentleman from a post-chaise, which came galloping after us, called out to the servants, ' Holloa, my Lads, — pray is one Miss Anville in any of them thi/ig-em-bobs ? ' I immediately recollected the voice of Captain Mirvan, and Lord Orville stopped the phaeton. He was out of the chaise, and with us in a moment. 'So, Miss Anville,' cried he, 'how do you do ? so I hear you're Miss Belmont now ; — pray how does old Madame French do ? ' ' Madame Duval,' said I, 'is, I believe, very well.' ' I hope she is in good case,' said he, winking significantly, ' and won't flinch at seeing service : she has laid by long enough to refit and be made tight. And pray how does poor Monseer Doleful do ? is he as lank-jawed as ever ? ' 'They are neither of them,' said I, ' in Bristol.' 'No!' cried he, with a look of disappointment, 'but surely the old dowager intends coming to the wedding ! 'twill be a most excellent opportunity to show off her best Lyons silk. Besides, I purpose to dance a new-fashioned jig with her. Don't you know when she'll come ? ' ' I have no reason to expect her at all.' ' No ! — 'Fore George, this here's the worst news I'd wish to hear ! — why I've thought of nothing all the way but what trick I should serve her ! ' ' You have been very obliging ! ' said I, laughing. ' O, I promise you,' cried he, ' our Moll would never have wheedled me into this jaunt, if I'd known she was not here ; for, to let you into the secret, I fully intended to have treated the old buck with another frolic' ' Did Miss Mirvan, then, persuade you to this journey ?' ' Yes, and we've been travelling all night.' ' We P cried I : ' Is Miss Mirvan, then, with you?' ' What, Molly ? — yes, she's in that there chaise.' 'Good God, Sir, why did not you tell me sooner?' cried I ; and immediately, with Lord Orville's assistance, I jumped out of the phaeton, and ran to the dear girl. Lord Orville opened the chaise-door, and I am sure I need not tell you what un- feigned joy accompanied our meeting. We both begged we might not be parted during the ride, 461 EVELINA and Lord Orville was so good as to invite Captain Mirvan into his phaeton. I think I was hardly ever more rejoiced than at this so seasonable visit from my dear Maria, who had no sooner heard the situation of my affairs, than, with the assistance of Lady Howard and her kind mother, she besought her father with such earnestness to consent to the journey, that he had not been able to withstand their united entreaties ; though she owned that, had he not expected to have met with Madam Duval, she believes he would not so readily have yielded. They arrived at Mrs. Beaumont's but a few minutes after we were out of sight, and overtook us without much difficulty. I say nothing of our conversation, because you may so well suppose both the subjects we chose, and our manner of dis- cussing them. We all stopped at a great hotel, where we were obliged to inquire for a room, as Lady Louisa, fatigued to death, desired to take something before we began our rambles. As soon as the party was assembled, the Captain, abruptly saluting me, said, ' So, Miss Belmont, I wish you joy ; so I hear you've quarrelled with your new name already ? ' ' Me ! — no, indeed, Sir.' ' Then please for to tell me the reason you're in such a hurry to change it.' ' Miss Belmont ! ' cried Mr. Lovel, looking around him with the utmost astonishment, ' I beg pardon, but, if it is not impertinent, I must beg leave to say I always understood that Lady's name was Anville.' ' 'Fore George,' cried the Captain, ' it runs in my head I've seen you somewhere before ! and now I think on't, pray a'n't you the person I saw at the play one night, and who didn't know, all the time, whether it was a tragedy or a comedy, or a concert of fiddlers ? ' ' I believe, Sir,' said Mr. Lovel, stammering, ' I had once, — I think — the pleasure of seeing you last spring.' ' Ay, and if I live an hundred springs,' answered he, ' I shall never forget it ; by Jingo, it has served me for a most excellent good joke ever since. Well, howsomever, I'm glad to see you still in the land of the living,' shaking him roughly by the hand ; ' pray, if a body may be so bold, how much a 462 EVELINA night may you give at present to keep the undertakers aloof? ' 'Me, Sir!' said Mr. Lovel, very much discomposed; 'I protest I never thought myself in such imminent danger as to — really, Sir, I don't understand you.' ' O, you don't! — why then I'll make free for to explain myself. Gentlemen and Ladies, I'll tell you what ; do you know this here gentleman, simple as he sits there, pays five shillings a night to let his friends know he's alive ! ' ' And very cheap too,' said Mrs. Selwyn, ' if we consider the value of the intelligence.' Lady Louisa, being now refreshed, we proceeded upon our expedition. The charming city of Bath answered all my expectations. The Crescent, the prospect from it, and the elegant symmetry of the Circus, delighted me. The Parades, I own, rather dis- appointed me ; one of them is scarce preferable to some of the best paved streets in London ; and the other, though it affords a beautiful prospect, a charming view of Prior Park and of the Avon, yet wanted something in itself of more striking elegance than a mere broad pavement, to satisfy the ideas I had formed of it. At the pump-room, I was amazed at the public exhibition of the ladies in the bath : it is true, their heads are covered with bonnets ; but the very idea of being seen, in such a situation, by whoever pleases to look, is indelicate. ''Fore George,' said the Captain, looking into the bath, ' this would be a most excellent place for old Madame French to dance a fandango in ! By Jingo, I wouldn't wish for better sport than to swing her round this here pond ! ' ' She would be very much obliged to you,' said Lord Orville, 'for so extraordinary a mark of your favour.' ' Why, to let you know,' answered the Captain, ' she hit my fancy mightily ; I never took so much to an old tabby before.' ' Really, now,' cried Mr. Lovel, looking also into the bath, ' I must confess it is, to me, very incomprehensible why the ladies choose that frightful unbecoming dress to bathe in ! I have often pondered very seriously upon the subject, but could never hit upon the reason.' 'Well, I declare,' said Lady Louisa, 'I should like of all 463 EVELINA things to set something new a going ; I always hated bathing, because one can get no pretty dress for it ; now do, there's a good creature, try to help me to something.' 'Who? me! — O dear Ma'am,' said he, simpering, 'I can't pretend to assist a person of your Ladyship's taste ; besides, I have not the least head for fashions. — I really don't think I ever invented above three in my life ! — but I never had the least turn for dress, — never any notion of fancy or elegance.' ' O fie, Mr. Lovel ! how can you talk so ? — don't we all know that you lead the ton in the beau monde ? I declare, I think you dress better than anybody.' ' O dear Ma'am, you confuse me to the last degree ! / dress well ! — I protest I don't think I'm ever fit to be seen ! — I'm often shocked to death to think what a figure I go. If your Ladyship will believe me, I was full half an hour this morning thinking what I should put on ! ' 'Odds my life,' cried the Captain, 'I wish I'd been near you ! I warrant I'd have quickened your motions a little ! Half an hour thinking what you'd put on ! and who the deuce do you think cares the snuff of a candle whether you've any- thing on or not ? ' 'O pray, Captain,' cried Mrs. Selwyn, 'don't be angry with the gentleman for flunking, whatever be the cause, for I assure you he makes no common practice of offending in that way.' ' Really, Ma'am, you're prodigiously kind,' said Mr. Lovel, angrily. ' Pray, now,' said the Captain, ' did you ever get a ducking in that there place yourself?' 'A ducking, Sir!' repeated Mr. Lovel; 'I protest I think that's rather an odd term ! — but if you mean a bathing, it is an honour I have had many times.' ' And pray, if a body may be so bold, what do you do with that frizle-frize top of your own ? Why I'll lay you what you will, there is fat and grease enough on your crown to buoy you up, if you were to go in head downwards.' 'And I don't know,' cried Mrs. Selwyn, 'but that might be the easiest way, for I'm sure it would be the lightest.' ' For the matter of that there,' said the Captain, ' you must make him a soldier, before you can tell which is lightest, head or heels. Howsomever, I'd lay ten pounds to a shilling, I 464 EVELINA could whisk him so dexterously over into the pool, that he should light plump upon his foretop, and turn round like a tetotum.' ' Done ! ' cried Lord Merton ; ' I take your odds ! ' ' Will you ? ' returned he ; ' why then, 'fore George, I'd do it as soon as say Jack Robinson.' ' He, he ! ' faintly laughed Mr. Lovel, as he moved abruptly from the window, ' 'pon honour, this is pleasant enough ; hut I don't see what right anybody has to lay wagers about one, without one's consent.' 'There, Lovel, you are out,' cried Mr. Coverley ; 'any man may lay what wager about you he will ; your consent is nothing to the purpose : he may lay that your nose is a sky- blue, if he pleases.' ' Aye,' said Mrs. Selwyn, ' or that your mind is more adorned than your person — or any absurdity whatsoever.' ' I protest,' said Mr. Lovel, ' I think it's a very disagreeable privilege, and I must beg that nobody may take such a liberty with me.' ' Like enough you may,' cried the Captain ; ' but what's that to the purpose ? Suppose I've a mind to lay that you've never a tooth in your head — pray, how will you hinder me ? ' ' You'll allow me, at least, Sir, to take the liberty of asking how you'll /rove it ? ' ' How ? — why, by knocking them all down your throat.' 'Knocking them all down my throat, Sir!' repeated Mr. Lovel, with a look of horror, ' I protest I never heard any- thing so shocking in my life, and I must beg leave to observe, that no wager, in my opinion, could justify such a barbarous action.' Here Lord Orville interfered, and hurried us to our carriages. We returned in the same order we came. Mrs. Beaumont invited all the party to dinner, and has been so obliging as to beg Miss Mirvan may continue at her house during her stay. The Captain will lodge at the Wells. The first half-hour after our return was devoted to hearing Mr. hovel's apologies for dining in his riding-*; Mrs. Beaumont then, addressing herself to Miss Mirvan and me. inquired how we liked Bath ? 465 j 11 EVELINA ' I hope,' said Mr. Lovel, 'the ladies do not call this seeing Bath.' ' No ? — what should ail 'em ? ' cried the Captain ; ' do you suppose they put their eyes in their pockets ? ' ' No, Sir ; but I fancy you will find no person — that is, no person of any condition — call going about a few places in a morning seeing Bath.' 1 ' Mayhap, then,' said the literal Captain, ' you think we should see it better by going about at midnight ? ' ' No, Sir, no,' said Mr. Lovel, with a supercilious smile, ' I perceive you don't understand me, — we should never call it seeing Bath, without going at the right season.' ' Why, what a plague, then,' demanded he, ' can you only see at one season of the year ? ' Mr. Lovel again smiled, but seemed superior to making any answer. ' The Bath amusements,' said Lord Orville, ' have a sameness in them, which, after a short time, renders them rather insipid : but the greatest objection that can be made to the place is the encouragement it gives to gamesters.' ' Why, I hope, my Lord, you would not think of abolishing gaming,' cried Lord Merton ; ' 'tis the very zest of life ! Devil take me if I could live without it ! ' ' I am sorry for it,' said Lord Orville, gravely, and looking at Lady Louisa. ' Your Lordship is no judge of this subject,' continued the other ; ' but if once we could get you to a gaming-table, you'd never be happy away from it.' ' I hope, my Lord,' cried Lady Louisa, ' that nobody here ever occasions your quitting it.' 'Your Ladyship,' said Lord Merton, recollecting himself, ' has power to make me quit anything.' ' Except herself? said Mr. Coverley. ' Egad, my Lord, I think I've helped you out there.' ' You men of wit, Jack,' answered his Lordship, 'are always ready; for my part, I don't pretend to any talents that way.' 'Really, my Lord?' asked the sarcastic Mrs. Selwyn ; ' well, that is wonderful, considering success would be so much in your power.' 'Pray, Ma'am,' said Mr. Lovel to Lady Louisa, 'has your Ladyship heard the news ? ' 466 EVELINA ' News ! — what new? ? ' • Why the report circulating at the Wells, concerning a certain person ? ' ' O Lord, no ; pray tell me what it is ! ' 'O no, Ma'am, I beg your La'ship will excuse me; 'tis a profound secret, and I would not have mentioned it, if I had not thought you knew it.' ' Lord, now, how can you be so monstrous ? I declare, now, you're a provoking creature ! But come, I know you'll tell me — won't you, now ? ' ' Your La'ship knows I am but too happy to obey you ; but, J pon honour, I can't speak a word if you won't all promise me the most inviolable secrecy.' ' I wish you'd wait for that from me,' said the Captain, 'and I'll give you my word you'd be dumb for one while. Secrecy, quoth a ! — 'Fore George, I wonder you a'n't ashamed to mention such a word when you talk of telling it to a woman. Though for the matter of that, I'd as lieve blab it to the whole sex at once, as to go for to tell it to such a thing as you.' ' Such a thing as me, Sir ! ' said Mr. Lovel, letting fall his knife and fork, and looking very important : ' I really have not the honour to understand your expression ' ' It's all one for that,' said the Captain ; ' you may have it explained whenever you like it.' "Pon honour, Sir,' returned Mr. Lovel, 'I must take the liberty to tell you that I should be extremely offended, but that I suppose it to be some sea-phrase ; and therefore I'll let it pass without further notice.' Lord Orville, then, to change the discourse, asked Miss Mirvan if she should spend the ensuing winter in London ? ' No, to be sure,' said the Captain, ' what should she for ? she saw all that was to be seen before.' ' Is London, then,' said Mr. Lovel, smiling at Lady Louisa, ' only to be regarded as a sight ? ' 'Why pray. Mr. Wiseacre, how are you pleased for to regard it yourself? — Answer me to that.' ' O Sir, ////opinion, I fancy you would hardly find intelligible. I don't understand sea-phrases enough to define it to your comprehension. Doesn't your La'ship think the task would be rather difficult ? ' 467 EVELINA ' O Lard, yes,' cried Lady Louisa ; ' I declare I'd as soon teach my parrot to talk Welsh.' 'Ha! ha! ha! admirable! — 'Pon honour your La'ship's quite in luck to-day ; — but that, indeed, your La'ship is every day. Though, to be sure, it is but candid to acknowledge, that the gentlemen of the ocean have a set of ideas, as well as a dialect, so opposite to ours, that it is by no means surprising they should regard London as a mere show, that may be seen by being looked at. Ha ! ha ! ha ! ' ' Ha ! ha ! ' echoed Lady Louisa : ' Well, I declare you are the drollest creature ! ' ' He ! he ! 'pon honour I can't help laughing at the conceit of seeing London in a few weeks ! ' ' And what a plague should hinder you ? ' cried the Captain ; ' do you want to spend a day in every street ? ' Here again Lady Louisa and Mr. Lovel interchanged smiles. ' Why, I warrant you, if I had the showing it, I'd haul you from St. James's to Wapping the very first morning.' The smiles were now, with added contempt, repeated ; which the Captain observing, looked very fiercely at Mr. Lovel, and said, ' Hark'ee, my spark, none of your grinning ! 'tis a lingo I don't understand, and if you give me any more of it, I shall go near to lend you a box o' the ear.' ' I protest, Sir,' said Air. Lovel, turning extremely pale, ' I think it's taking a very particular liberty with a person, to talk to one in such a style as this ! ' ' It's like you may,' returned the Captain ; 'but give a good gulp, and I'll warrant you'll swallow it.' Then, calling for a glass of ale, with a very provoking and significant nod he drank to his easy digestion. Mr. Lovel made no answer, but looked extremely sullen : and soon after we left the gentlemen to themselves. I had then two letters delivered to me- — one from Lady Howard and Mrs. Mirvan, which contained the kindest con- gratulations ; and the other from Madame Duval — but not a word from you, to my no small surprise and concern. Madame Duval seems greatly rejoiced at my late intelligence : a violent cold, she says, prevents her coming to Bristol. The Branghtons, she tells me, are all well : Miss Polly is soon to be married to Mr. Brown, but Mr. Smith has changed his lodgings, 'which,' she adds, 'has made the house extremely 46S EVELINA dull. However, that's not the worst news ; pardi, I wish it was ! but I've been used like nobody, for Monsieur Du Bois has had the baseness to go back to France without me.' In conclusion, she assures me, as you prognosticated she would, that I shall be sole heiress of all she is worth, when Lady Orville. At tea-time we were joined by all the gentlemen but Captain Mirvan, who went to the hotel where he was to sleep, and made his daughter accompany him to separate her trumpery, as he called it, from his clothes. As soon as they were gone, Mr. Lovel, who still appeared extremely sulky, said ' I protest, I never saw such a vulgar, abusive fellow in my life, as that Captain : 'pon honour, I believe he came here for no purpose in the world but to pick a quarrel ; however, for my part, I vow I won't humour him.' ' I declare,' cried Lady Louisa, ' he put me in a monstrous fright — I never heard anybody talk so shocking in my life ! ' 'I think,' said Mrs. Selwyn, with great solemnity, 'he threatened to box your ears, Mr. Lovel — did not he ? ' ' Really, Ma'am,' said Mr. Lovel, colouring, ' if one was to mind everything those low kind of people say, one should never be at rest for one impertinence or other — so I think the best way is to be above taking any notice of them.' 'What,' said Mrs. Selwyn, with the same gravity, 'and so receive the blow in silence ! ' During this discourse, I heard the Captain's chaise stop at the door, and ran downstairs to meet Maria. She was alone, and told me that her father, who, she was sure, had some scheme in agitation against Mr. Lovel, had sent her on before him. We continued in the parlour till his return, and were joined by Lord Orville, who begged me not to insist on a patience so unnatural, as submitting to be excluded our society. And let me, my dear Sir, with a grateful heart let me own, I never before passed half an hour in such perfect felicity. I believe we were all sorry when the Captain returned : yet his inward satisfaction, from however different a cause, did not seem inferior to what ours had been. He chucked Maria under the chin, rubbed his hands, and was scarce able to contain the fulness of his glee. We all attended him to the drawing-room, where, having composed his countenance, with- out any previous attention to Mrs. Beaumont, he marched up 469 Miss Mirvan and I jumped upon out chairs. EVELINA to Mr. Lovel, and abruptly said, ' Pray, have you e'er a brother in these here parts ? ' ' Me, Sir ? — no thank Heaven, I'm free from all incumbrances of that sort.' ' Well,' cried the Captain, ' I met a person just now, so like you, I could have sworn he had been your twin-brother.' ' It would have been a most singular pleasure to me,' said Mr. Lovel, 'if I also could have seen him ; for, really, I have not the least notion what sort of a person I am, and I have a prodigious curiosity to know.' Just then, the Captain's servant opening the door, said, ' A little gentleman below desires to see one Mr. Lovel.' 'Beg him to walk upstairs,' said Mrs. Beaumont. 'But pray what is the reason William is out of the way ? ' The man shut the door without any answer. ' I can't imagine who it is,' said Mr. Lovel ; ' I recollect no little gentleman of my acquaintance now at Bristol, — except, indeed, the Marquis of Charlton, — but I don't much fancy it can be him. Let me see, who else is there so very little ? ' A confused noise among the servants now drew all eyes towards the door ; the impatient Captain hastened to open it, and then, clapping his hands, call'd out, "Fore George, 'tis the same person I took for your relation ! ' And then, to the utter astonishment of everybody but him- self, he hauled into the room a monkey ! full dressed, and extravagantly a-la-modc .' The dismay of the company was almost general. Poor Mr. Lovel seemed thunderstruck with indignation and sur- prise ; Lady Louisa began a scream, which for some time was incessant ; Miss Mirvan and I jumped involuntarily upon the seats of our chairs ; Mrs. Beaumont herself followed our example ; Lord Orville placed himself before me as a guard ; and Mrs. Selwyn, Lord Merton, and Mr. Coverley burst into a loud, immoderate, ungovernable fit of laughter, in which they were joined by the Captain, till, unable to support himself, he rolled on the floor. The first voice which made its way through this general noise was that of Lady Louisa, which her fright and scream- ing rendered extremely shrill. 'Take it away!' cried she, 'take the monster away, — I shall faint, I shall faint if you don't ! ' 47i EVELINA Mr. Lovel, irritated beyond endurance, angrily demanded of the Captain what he meant ? ' Mean ! ' cried the Captain, as soon as he was able to speak, ' why only to show you in your proper colours.' Then rising, and pointing to the monkey, ' Why now, Ladies and Gentlemen, I'll be judged by you all ! — Did you ever see any- thing more like ? Odds my life, if it wasn't for this here tail, you wouldn't know one from t'other.' ' Sir,' cried Mr. Lovel, stamping, ' I shall take a time to make you feel my wrath.' 'Come, now,' continued the regardless Captain, 'just for the fun's sake, doff your coat and waistcoat, and swop with Monsieur Grinagain here, and I'll warrant you'll not know yourself which is which.' ' Not know myself from a monkey ! — I assure you, Sir, I'm not to be used in this manner, and I won't bear it, — curse me if I will ! ' ' Why heyday,' cried the Captain, ' what, is Master in a passion ? — well, don't be angry, — come, he sha'n't hurt you ; — here, shake a paw with him, — why he'll do you no harm, man ! — come, kiss and be friends ! ' — ' Who, I ?' cried Mr. Lovel, almost mad with vexation, ' as I'm a living creature I would not touch him for a thousand worlds ! ' 'Send him a challenge,' cried Mr. Coverley, 'and I'll be your second.' 'Ay, do,' said the Captain, 'and I'll be second to my friend Monsieur Clapperclaw here. Come, to it at once ! — tooth and nail ! ' ' God forbid ! ' cried Mr. Lovel, retreating, ' I would sooner trust my person with a mad bull ! ' ' I don't like the looks of him myself,' said Lord Merton, 'for he grins most horribly.' ' Oh, I'm frightened out of my senses ! ' cried Lady Louisa ; ' take him away, or I shall die ! ' ' Captain,' said Lord Orville, ' the ladies are alarmed, and I must beg you would send the monkey away.' ' Why, where can be the mighty harm of one monkey more than another ? ' answered the Captain ; ' howsomever, if it's agreeable to the ladies, suppose we turn them out together ? ' 472 EVELINA 'What do you mean by that, Sir?' cried Mr. Lovel. lifting up his cane. ' What do you mean ? ' cried the Captain, fiercely : ' be so good as to down with your cane.' Poor Mr. Lovel, too much intimidated to stand his ground, yet too much enraged to submit, turned hastily round, and, forgetful of consequences, vented his passion by giving a furious blow to the monkey. The creature darting forwards, sprung instantly upon him, and, clinging round his neck, fastened his teeth to one of his ears. I was really sorry for the poor man, who, though an egregious fop, had committed no offence that merited such chastisement. It was impossible, now, to distinguish whose screams were loudest, those of Mr. Lovel, or of the terrified Lady Louisa, who, I believe, thought her own turn was approaching : but the unrelenting Captain roared with joy. Not so Lord Orville : ever humane, generous, and bene- volent, he quitted his charge, who he saw was wholly out of danger, and seizing the monkey by the collar, made him loosen the ear, and then, with a sudden swing, flung him out of the room, and shut the door. Poor Mr. Lovel, almost fainting with terror, sank upon the floor, crying out, ' Oh, I shall die, I shall die ! — Oh, I'm bit to death ! ' 'Captain Mirvan,' said Mrs. Beaumont, with no little in- dignation, ' I must own I don't perceive the wit of this action, and I am sorry to have such cruelty practised in my house.' 'Why, Lord, Ma'am,' said the Captain, when his rapture abated sufficiently for speech, ' how could I tell they'd fall out so ? — by Jingo, I brought him to be a messmate for t'other.' ' Egad,' said Mr. Coverley, ' I would not have been served so for a thousand pounds ! ' 'Why then there's the odds of it,' said the Captain, 'for you see he is served so for nothing. But come' (turning to Mr. Lovel), 'be of good heart, all may end well yet, and you and Monseer Longtail be as good friends as ever.' ' I'm surprised, Mrs. Beaumont,' cried Mr. Lovel, starting up, 'that you can suffer a person under your roof to be treated so inhumanly.' 473 EVELINA 1 What argufies so many words ?' said the unfeeling Captain ; ' it is but a slit of the ear — it only looks as if you had been in the pillory.' 'Very true,' added Mrs. Selvvyn, 'and who knows but it may acquire you the credit of being an anti-ministerial writer ? ; ' I protest,' cried Mr. Lovel, looking ruefully at his dress, ' my new riding-suit's all over blood ! ' ' Ha, ha, ha ! ' cried the Captain ; ' see what comes of studying for an hour what you shall put on.' Mr. Lovel then walked to the glass, and, looking at the place, exclaimed, ' Oh Heaven, what a monstrous wound ! my ear will never be fit to be seen again ! ' ' Why then,' said the Captain, ' you must hide it ; — 'tis but wearing a wig ! ' ' A wig ! ' repeated the affrighted Mr. Lovel, ' / wear a wig ? — no, not if you would me give a thousand pounds an hour ! ' ' I declare,' said Lady Louisa, ' I never heard such a shocking proposal in my life ! ' Lord Orville then, seeing no prospect that the altercation would cease, proposed to the Captain to walk. He assented ; and having given Mr. Lovel a nod of exultation, accompanied his Lordship downstairs. ' 'Pon honour,' said Mr. Lovel, the moment the door was shut, ' that fellow is the greatest brute in nature ! he ought not to be admitted into a civilised society.' ' Lovel,' said Mr. Coverley, affecting to whisper, ' you must certainly pink him : you must not put up with such an affront.' 'Sir,' said Mr. Lovel, 'with any common person, I should not deliberate an instant ; but, really, with a fellow who has done nothing but fight all his life, 'pon honour, Sir, I can't think of it ! ' ' Lovel,' said Lord Merton, in the same voice, ' you must call him to account.' ' Every man,' said he, pettishly, ' is the best judge of his own affairs, and I don't ask the honour of any person's advice.' ' Egad, Lovel,' said Mr. Coverley, ' you're in for it ! — you can't possibly be off! ' ' Sir,' cried he, very impatiently, ' upon any proper occasion, I should be as ready to show my courage as anybody : — but as to fighting for such a trifle as this, — I protest I should blush to think of it ! ' 474 EVELINA 'A trifle!' cried Mrs. Selwyn ; 'good Heaven! and have you made this astonishing riot about a trifle f ' Ma'am,' answered the poor wretch, in great confusion, ' I did not know at first but that my cheek might have been bit : — but as 'tis no worse, why it does not a great deal signify. Mrs. Beaumont, I have the honour to wish you good evening ; I'm sure my carriage must be waiting.' And then, very abruptly, he left the room. What a commotion has this mischief-loving Captain raised ! Were I to remain here long, even the society of my dear Maria could scarce compensate for the disturbances which he excites. When he returned, and heard of the quiet exit of Mr. Lovel, his triumph was intolerable. ' I think, I think,' cried he, ' I have peppered him well ! I'll warrant he won't give an hour to-morrow morning to settling what he shall put on ; why his coat,' turning to me, ' would be a most excellent match for old Madame Furbelow's best Lyons silk ! 'Fore George, I'd desire no better sport, than to have that there old cat here, to go her snacks ! ' All the company then — Lord Orville, Miss Mirvan, and myself excepted — played at cards, and we — oh how much better did we pass our time ! While we were engaged in a most delightful conversation, a servant brought me a letter, which she told me had, by some accident, been mislaid. Judge of my feelings when I saw, my dearest Sir, your revered handwriting ! My emotion soon betrayed to Lord Orville whom the letter was from ; the importance of the contents he well knew, and, assuring me I should not be seen by the card-players, he besought me to open it without delay. Open it, indeed I did, — but read it I could not ; the willing, yet awful consent you have granted, — the tenderness of your expressions, — the certainty that no obstacle remained to my eternal union with the loved owner of my heart, gave me sensations too various, and, though joyful, too little placid for observation. Finding myself unable to proceed, and blinded by the tears of gratitude and delight which started into my eyes, I gave over the attempt of reading till I retired to my own room : and, having no voice to answer the inquiries of Lord Orville, I put the letter into his hands, and left it to speak both for me and itself. 475 EVELINA Lord Orville was himself affected by your kindness ; he kissed the letter as he returned it, and, pressing- my hand affectionately to his heart, 'You are now' (said he, in a low voice), ' all my own ! Oh, my Evelina, how will my soul find room for its happiness ? — it seems already bursting ! ' I could make no reply ; indeed I hardly spoke another word the rest of the evening — so little talkative is the fulness of contentment. O my dearest Sir, the thankfulness of my heart I must pour forth at our meeting, when, at your feet, my happiness receives its confirmation from your blessing, and when my noble-minded, my beloved Lord Orville, presents to you the highly-honoured and thrice-happy Evelina. A few lines I will endeavour to write on Thursday, which shall be sent off express, to give you, should nothing intervene, yet more certain assurance of our meeting. Now then, therefore, for the first — and probably the last time I shall ever own the name, permit me to sign myself, most dear Sir, your gratefully affectionate, Evelina Belmont. Lady Louisa, at her own particular desire, will be present at the ceremony, as well as Miss Mirvan and Mrs. Selwyn : Mr. Macartney will, the same morning, be united to my foster- sister, and my father himself will give us both away. LETTER LNNXIII MR. VII. LARS TO EVELINA Every wish of my soul is now fulfilled — for the felicity of my Evelina is equal to her worthiness ! Yes, my child, thy happiness is engraved, in golden characters, upon the tablets of my heart ! and their impression is indelible ; for, should the rude and deep-searching hand of Misfortune attempt to pluck them from their repository, the fleeting fabric of life would give way, and in tearing from my vitals the nourishment by which they are supported, she would but grasp at a shadow insensible to her touch. 476 EVELINA Give thee my consent ? — Oh thou joy, comfort, and pride of my life, how cold is that word to express the fervency of my approbation ! yes, I do indeed give thee my consent, and so thankfully, that, with the humblest gratitude to Providence, I would seal it with the remnant of my days. Hasten, then, my love, to bless me with thy presence, and to receive the blessings with which my fond heart overflows ! — And, oh my Evelina, hear and assist in one only, humble, but ardent prayer which yet animates my devotions : that the height of bliss to which thou art rising may not render thee giddy, but that the purity of thy mind may form the brightest splendour of thy prosperity ! — and that the weak and aged frame of thy almost idolising parent, nearly worn out by time, past afflictions, and infirmities, may yet be able to sustain a meeting with all its better part holds dear ; and then, that all the wounds which the former severity of fortune inflicted, may be healed and purified by the ultimate consolation of pouring forth my dying words in blessings on my child ! — closing these joy-streaming eyes in her presence, and breathing my last faint sighs in her loved arms ! 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