-f-(P' fPLdiS^M: >>^^^-^»^\ LONDON POEMS ALEXANDER STRAHAN, PUBLISHER LONDON s ... 148 Strand New York j^g Grand Street LONDON POEMS By ROBERT BUCHANAN AUTfyJlJ OF "idyls and legends of inverburn," "undertones," etc. ALEXANDER STRAHAN, PUBLISHER LONDON AND NEW YORK 1867 TO WILLIAM HEPWORTH DIXON. " Nostrorum sermonum candide judex. . . . Curantem quidquid dignum sapientc bonoque est. Non Tu corpus eras sine pectore." Horace, Epp. i. 4. My dear Dixon, — This book is inscribed to you ; and lest you should ask wherefore, I will refresh your nicmoi-y. Seven years ago, when I was an ambitious lad in Scotland, and when the north-easter was blowing coldly on me, you sent me such good words as cheered and warmed me. You were one of two (the gentle, true, and far-seeing George Henry Lewes was the other) who first believed that I was fitted for noble efforts. Since then you have known me better, and abode by your first hope. Nor have you failed to exhibit the virtue, not possessed by one writer in a hundred, of daring to express publicly your confidence in an unacknowledged author. One word concerning the present volume. " London Poems" are the last of what I may term my "poems of probation," — wherein I have fairly hinted what I am trying to assimilate in life and thought. However much my method may be confounded with the methods of other writers, I am sure to get quartered (to my cost, perhaps) on my own merits by and by. "Accept these poems, — given under a genuine impulse, and not merely in compliment. Of your fine qualities I will say nothing. Your candour may offend knaves and your reticence mislead fools ; but be happy in your goodness, and in the loving homage of those dearest to you. — And believe me, Always your Friend, ROBERT BUCHANAN. Bexhill, Sussex, June 1866. CONTENTS. LONDON POEMS— page Bexhill, 1866, 3 The Little Milliner, n Liz, 27 The Starling, 45 Jane Lev^^son, 55 Langley Lane, 9' Edward Crowhurst; OR, "A New Poet," . 97 Artist AND Model, i37 Nell, i49 Attorney Sneak 161 Barbara Gray, 1 75 The Linnet, iSi London, 1S64, 1S7 MISCELLANEOUS— The Death of Roland, i97 The Scaith o' Bartle, 216 The Glamour, 247 The Gift of Eos, 256 Glossary of a Few Scotticisms Used in "The Scaith o' Bartle," 271 LONDON POEMS. ©veift iiuv r)iuciit iu'fJ »cf(e SKcnfrficnMicn! ©in icbev lctt'i% iitd}t incteu ijl'^ befannt, Uub Wo \i)x'S \sadt, fca iiV6 iutcrcdaut. Fatisi — Vorspiel au/dctn Theater. BEXHILL, 1866. IVT OW, Avhen the catkins of the hazel swing Withefd above the leafy nook wherein The chaffinch breasts her five blue speckled eggs, All round the thorn grows fragrant, white with may. And underneath the fresh wild hyacinth-bed Shimmers like water in the whispering wind ; Now, on this sweet still gloaming of the spring, Within my cottage by the sea, I sit. Thinking of yonder city where I dwelt. Wherein I sicken' d, and whereof I learn'd So much that dwells like music on my brain. A melancholy happiness is mine ! My thoughts, like blossoms of the muschatel. Smell sweetest in the gloaming ; and I feel Visions and vanishings of other years, — LONDON POEMS. Faint as the scent of distant clover meadows — Sweet, sweet, though they awaken serious cares — Beautiful, beautiful, though they make me weep. The good days dead, the well-beloved gone Before me, lonely I abode amid The buying, and the selling, and the strife Of little natures ; yet there still remain'd Something to thank the Lord for. — I could live ! On winter nights, when wind and snow were out, Afford a pleasant fire to keep me warm ; And while I sat, with homeward-looking eyes, And while I heard the humming of the town, I fancied 'twas the sound I used to hear In Scotland, when I dwelt beside the sea. I knew not how it was, or why it was, I only heard a sea-sound, and was sad. It haunted me and pain'd me, and it made That little life of penmanship a dream ! And yet it served my soul for company, When the dark city gather'd on my brain, And from the solitude came never a voice To bring the good days back, and show my heart It was not quite a solitary thing. BEXHILL, 1866. The purifying trouble grew and grew, Till silentness was more than I could bear. Brought by the ocean murmur from afar, Came silent phantoms of the misty hills Which I had known and loved in other days; And, ah ! from time to time, the hum of life Around me, the strange faces of the streets, Mingling with those thin phantoms of the hills. And with that ocean-murmur, made a cloud That changed around my life with shades and sounds. And, melting often in the light of day. Left on my brow dews of aspiring dream. And then I sang of Scottish dales and dells. And human shapes that lived and moved therein, Made solemn in the shadow of the hills. Thereto, not seldom, did I seek to make The busy life of London musical, And phrase in modern song the troubled lives Of dwellers in the sunless lanes and streets. Yet ever I was haunted from afar, While singing ; and the presence of the mountains Was on me ; and the murmur of the sea Deepen'd my mood ; while everywhere I saw, LONDON POEMS, Flowing beneath the blackness of the streets, The current of subliraer, sweeter life, Which is the source of human smiles and tears, And, melodised, becomes the strength of song. Darkling, I long'd for utterance, whereby Poor people might be holpen, gladden'd, cheer'd ; Brightning at times, I sang for singing's sake. The wild wind of ambition grew subdued, And left the changeful current of my soul Crystal and pure and clear, to glass like water The sad and beautiful of human life ; And, even in the unsung city's streets, Seem'd quiet wonders meet for serious song. Truth hard to phrase and render musical. For ah ! the weariness and weight of tears. The crying out to God, the wish for slumber. They lay so deep, so deep ! God heard them all ; He set them unto music of His own ; But easier far the task to sing of kings. Or weave weird ballads where the moon-dew glistens, Than body forth this life in beauteous sound. The crowd had voices., but each living man Within the crowd seem'd silence-smit and hard : BEXHILL, 1866. They only heard the murmur of the town, They only felt the dimness in their eyes, And now and then turn'd startled, when they saw Some weary one fling up his arms and drop, Clay-cold, among them, — and they scarcely grieved, But hush'd their hearts a time, and hurried on. 'Twas comfort deep as tears to sit alone, Haunted by shadows from afar away, And try to utter forth, in tuneful speech, What lay so musically on my heart. But, though it sweeten'd life, it seem'd in vain. For while I sang, much that was clear before — The souls of men and women in the streets. The sounding sea, the presence of the hills, And all the weariness, and all the fret, And all the dim, strange pain for what had fled — Turn'd into mist, mingled before mine eyes, RoU'd up like wreaths of smoke to heaven, and died: The pen dropt from my hand, mine eyes grew dim, And the great roar was in mine ears again, And I was all alone in London streets. LONDON POEMS. Hither to pastoral solitude I caine, Happy to breathe again serener air And feel a purer sunshine ; and the woods And meadows were to me an ecstasy, The singing birds a glory, and the trees A green perpetual feast to fill the eye And shimmer in upon the soul ; but chief, There came the murmur of the waters, sounds Of sunny tides that wash on silver sands. Or cries of waves that anguish'd and went white Under the eyes of lightnings. 'Twas a bliss Beyond the bliss of dreaming, yet in time It grew familiar as my mother's face ; And when the wonder and the ecstasy Had mingled with the beatings of my heart, The terrible City loom'd from far away And gather'd on me cloudily, dropping dews, Even as those phantoms of departed days Had haunted me in London streets and lanes. Wherefore in brighter mood I sought again To make the life of London musical. And sought the mirror of my soul for shapes That linger'd, faces bright or agonised, Yet ever taking something beautiful EEXHILI., 1866. From glamour of green branches, and of clouds That gUded piloted by golden airs. And if I list to sing of sad things oft, It is that sad things in this life of breath Are truest, sweetest, deepest. Tears bring forth The richness of our natures, as the rain Sweetens the smelling brier; and I, thank God, Have anguish'd here in no ignoble tears — Tears for the pale friend with the singing lips, Tears for the father with the gentle eyes (My dearest up in heaven next to God) Who loved me like a woman. I have wrought No girlond of the rose and passion-flower, Grown in a careful garden in the sun ; Eut I have gather'd samphire dizzily, Close to the hollow roaring of a Sea, Far away in the dark Breaketh that living Sea, Wave upon wave ; and hark ! These voices are blown to me ; For a great wind rises and blows. Wafting the sea-sound near, But it fitfully comes and goes. And I cannot always hear ; Green boughs are flashing around, And the flowers at my feet are fair. And the wind that bringeth the ocean-sound Grows sweet with the country air. I. THE LITTLE MILLINER: n 2o\Jc potm. With fairy foot and fearlei^s gaze She passes pure through evil ways; She wanders in the sinful town, And loves to hear the deep sea-mtisic Of people passing up and down. Fear nor shame nor sin hath she. But, like a sea-bird on the Sea, Floats hither, thither, day and night: The great black waters cannot harm her, Because she is so weak and light. THE LITTLE MILLINER. Y girl hath violet eyes and yellow hair, A soft hand, like a lady's, small and fair, A sweet face pouting in a white straw bonnet, A tiny foot, and little boot upon it ; And all her finery to charm beholders Is the gray shawl drawn tight around her shoulders, The plain stuff-gown and collar white as snow, And sweet red petticoat that peeps below. But gladly in the busy town goes she, Summer and winter, fearing nobodie ; She pats the pavement with her fairy feet, With fearless eyes she charms the crowded street ; And in her pocket lie, in lieu of gold, A lucky sixpence and a thimble old. 14 LONDON POEMS. We lodged in the same house a year ago : She on the topmost floor, I just below, — She, a poor milliner, content and wise, I, a poor city clerk, with hopes to rise ; And, long ere we were friends, I learnt to love The little angel on the floor above. For, every morn, ere from my bed I stirr'd, Her chamber door would open, and I heard,— And listen'd, blushing, to her coming down, And palpitated with her rustling gown, And tingled while her foot went downward slow, Creak'd like a cricket, pass'd, and died below ; Then peeping from the window, pleased and sly, I saw the pretty shining face go by, Healthy and rosy, fresh from slumber sweet, — A sunbeam in the quiet morning street. All winter long, witless who peep'd the while, She sweeteri'd the chill mornings with her smile : When the soft snow was falling dimly white, Shining among it with a child's delight. Bright as a rose, though nipping winds might blow, And leaving fairy footprints in the snow ! And every night, when in from work she tript, THE LITTLE MILLINER. 1$ Red to the ears I from my chamber sHpt, That I might hear upon the narrow stair Her low " Good evening," as she pass'd me there. And when her door was closed, below sat I, And hearken'd stilly as she stirr'd on high, — Watch'd the red firelight shadows in the room, Fashion'd her face before me in the gloom, And heard her close the vvindow, lock the door, Moving about more lightly than before, And thought, "She is undressing now !" and oh ! My cheeks were hot, my heart was in a glow ! And I made pictures of her, — standing bright Before the looking-glass in bed-gown white, Upbinding in a knot her yellow hair, Then kneeling timidly to say a prayer ; Till, last, the floor creak'd softly overhead, 'Neath bare feet tripping to the little bed, — And all was hush'd. Yet still I hearken'd on, Till the faint sounds about the streets were gone ; And saw her slumbering with lips apart, One little hand upon her little heart, The other pillowing a face tliat smiled In slumber like the slumber of a child, The bright hair shining round the small white ear, l6 LONDON POEMS. The soft breath stealing visible and clear, And mixing with the moon's, whose frosty gleam Made round her rest a vaporous light of dream. How free she wander'd in the wicked place, Protected only by her gentle face ! She saw bad things — how could she choose but see? — She heard of v/antonness and misery ; The city closed around her night and day, But lightly, happily, she went her way. Nothing of evil that she saw or heard Could touch a heart so innocently stirr'd, — By simple hopes that cheer'd it through the storm, And little flutterings that kept it warm. No power had she to reason out her needs, To give the whence and wherefore of her deeds j But she was good and pure amid the strife. By virtue of the joy that was her life. Here, where a thousand spirits daily fall, Where heart and soul and senses turn to gal]. She floated, pure as innocent could be. Like a small sea-bird on a stormy sea. THE LITTLE MILLINER. 17 Which breasts the billows, wafted to and fro, Fearless, uninjured, while the strong winds blow, While the clouds gather, and the waters roar, And mighty ships are broken on the shore. And London streets, with all their noise and stir. Had many a pleasant sight to pleasure her. There were the shops, where wonders ever new, As in a garden, changed the whole year through. Oft would she stand and watch with laughter sweet The Punch and Judy in the quiet street ; Or look and listen while soft minuets Play'd the street organ with the marionettes ; Or join the motley group of merry folks Round the street huckster with his wares and jokes. Fearless and glad, she join'd the crowd that flows Along the streets at festivals and shows. In summer time, she loved the parks and squares. Where fine folk drive their carriages and pairs ; In winter time her blood was in a glow, At the white coming of the pleasant snow ; And in the stormy nights, when dark rain pours, She found it pleasant, too, to sit indoors, B l8 LONDON rOEMS. And sing and sew, and listen to the gales, Or read the penny journal with the tales. Once in the year, at merry Christmas time. She saw the glories of a pantomime. Feasted and wonder'd, laugh'd and clapp'd aloud, Up in the gallery among the crowd. Gathering dreams of fairyland and fun To cheer her till another year was done; More happy, and more near to heaven, so, Than many a lady in the tiers below. And just because her heart was pure and glad, She lack'd the pride that finer ladies had : She had no scorn for those who lived amiss, — The weary women with their painted bliss; It never struck her little brain, be sure, She was so veiy much more fine and pure. Softly she pass'd them in the public places, Marvelling at their fearful childish faces ; She shelter'd near them, when a shower would fall, And felt a little frighten'd, that was all. And watch'd them, noting as they stood close by Their dress and fine things with a woman's eye, THE LITTLE MILLINER. I9 And spake a gentle word if spoken to, — And wonder'd if their mothers Uved and knew. Her look, her voice, her step, had witchery And sweetness that were all in all to me ! We both were friendless, yet, in fear and doubt, I sought in vain for courage to speak out. Wilder my heart could ne'er have throbb'd before her, My thoughts have stoop'd more humbly to adore her. My love more timid and more still have grown, Had Polly been a queen upon a throne. All I could do was wish and dream and sigh, Blush to the ears whene'er she pass'd me by, Still comforted, although she did not love me, Because her little room was just above me. 'Twas when the spring was coming, when the snow Had melted, and fresh winds began to blow, And girls were selling violets in the town. That suddenly a fever struck me down. The world was changed, the sense of life was pain'd, And nothing but a shadow-land remain'd ; Death came in a dark mist and look'd at me, I felt his breathing, though I could not see. 20 LONDON POEMS. But heavily I lay and did not stir, And had strange images and dreams of her. Then came a vacancy : with feeble breath, I shiver'd under the cold touch of Death, And swoon'd among strange visions of the dead, When a voice call'd from Heaven, and he fled ; And suddenly I waken'd, as it seem'd. From a deep sleep wherein I had not dream' d. And it was night, and I could see and hear. And I was in the room I held so dear, And unaware, stretch'd out upon my bed, I hearken'd for a footstep overhead. But all was hush'd. I look'd around the room. And slowly made out shapes amid the gloom. The wall was redden'd by a rosy light, A faint fire flicker'd, and I knew 'twas night. Because below there was a sound of feet Dying away along the quiet street, — When, turning my pale face and sighing low, I saw a vision in the quiet glow : A little figure, in a cotton gown, Looking upon the fire and stooping down. THE LITTLE MILLINER. 21 Her side to me, her face illumed, she eyed Two chestnuts burning slowly, side by side, — Her lips apart, her clear eyes strain'd to see, Her little hands clasp'd tight around her knee, The firelight gleaming on her golden head, And tinting her white neck to rosy red, Her features bright, and beautiful, and pure, With childish fear and yearning half demure. Oh, sweet, sweet dream ! I thought, and strain'd mine eyes, Fearing to break the spell with words and sighs. Softly she stoop'd, her dear face sweetly fair, And sweeter since a light like love was there. Brightening, watching, more and more elate. As the nuts glow'd together in the grate, Craclding with little jets of fiery light. Till side by side they turn'd to ashes white, — Then up she leapt, her face cast off its fear For rapture that itself was radiance clear, And would have clapp'd her little hands in glee, But, pausing, bit her lips and peep'd at me, And met the face that yearn'd on her so whitely, 22 LONDON POEMS. And gave a cry and trembled, blushing brightly, While, raised on elbow, as she turn'd to flee, '■'■ Folly /" I cried, — and grew as red as she ! It was no dream ! — for soon my thoughts were clear, And she could tell me all, and I could hear : How in my sickness friendless I had lain. How the hard people pitied not my pain ; How, in despite of what bad people said, She left her labours, stopp'd beside my bed, And nursed me, thinking sadly I would die ; How, in the end, the danger pass'd me by ; How she had sought to steal away before The sickness pass'd, and I was strong once more. By fits she told the story in mine ear. And troubled all the telling with a fear Lest by my cold man's heart she should be chid, I^est I shouM think her bold in what she did ; But, lying on my bed, I dared to say. How I had watch'd and loved her many a day, How dear she was to me, and dearer still For that strange kindness done while I was ill, And how I could but think that Heaven above Had done it all to bind our lives in love. THE LITTLE MILLINER. 23 And Polly cried, turning her face away, And seem'd afraid, and answer'd "yea" nor "nay;" Then stealing close, with little pants and sighs, Look'd on my pale thin face and earnest eyes, And seem'd in act to fling her arms about My neck, then, blushing, paused, in fluttering doubt. Last, sprang upon my heart, sighing and sobbing, — That I might feel how gladly hers was throbbing ! Ah ! ne'er shall I forget until I die How happily the dreamy days went by. While I grew well, and lay with soft heart-beats, Heark'ning the pleasant murmur from the streets, And Polly by me like a sunny beam. And life all changed, and love a drowsy dream ! 'Twas happiness enough to lie and see The little golden head bent droopingly Over its sewing, while the still time flew, And my fond eyes were dim with happy dew ! And then, when I was nearly well and strong. And she went back to labour all day long. How sweet to lie alone with half-shut eyes, And hear the distant murmurs and the cries, 24 LONDON POEMS. And think how pure she was from pain and sin, — And how the summer days were coming in ! Then, as the sunset faded from the room, To listen for her footstep in the gloom. To pant as it came stealing up the stair, To feel my whole life brighten unaware When the soft tap came to the door, and when The door was open'd for her smile again ! Best, the long evenings ! — when, till late at night, She sat beside me in the quiet light, And happy things were said and kisses won. And serious gladness found its vent in fun. Sometimes I would draw close her shining" head. And pour her bright hair out upon the bed. And she would laugh, and blush, and tiy to scold. While " Here," I cried, " I count my wealth in gold ! " Sometimes we play'd at cards, and thrill'd with bliss. On trumping one another with a kiss. And oft our thoughts grew sober and found themes Of wondrous depth in marriage plans and schemes ; And she with pretty calculating lips Sat by me, cautious to the finger-tips, Till, all our calculations grown a bore. We summ'd them up in kisses as before ! THE LITTLE MILLINER. 2$ Once, like a little sinner for transgression, She blush'd upon my breast, and made confession : How, when that night I woke and look'd around, I found her busy with a charm profound, — One chestnut was herself, my girl confess'd, The other was the person she loved best, And if they burn'd together side by side, He loved her, and she would become his bride ; And burn indeed they did, to her dehght, — And had the pretty charm not proven right? Thus much, and more, with timorous joy, she said. While her confessor, too, grew rosy red, — And close together press'd two blissful faces, As I absolved the sinner, with embraces. And here is winter come again, winds blow. The houses and the streets are white with snow; And in the long and pleasant eventide, Why, what is Polly making at my side 1 Wliat but a silk-gown, beautiful and grand. We bought together lately in the Strand ! What but a dress to go to church in soon, And wear right queenly 'neath a honey-moon ! And who shall match her with her new straw bonnet, 26 L O N D O N P O E M S. Her tiny foot and little boot upon it, Embroider'd petticoat and silk-gown new, And shawl she Avears as few fine ladies do ? And she will keep, to charm away all ill, The lucky sixpence in her pocket still ; And we will turn, come fair or cloudy weather, To ashes, like the chestnuts, close together ! 11. LIZ. The crimson light of sunset falls • Through the gray glamour of the murmuring rain, And creeping o'er the housetops crawls Through the black smoke upon the broken pane, Steals to the straw on which she lies, And tints her thin black hair and hollow cheeks, Her sun-tann'd neck, her glistening eyes, — While faintly, sadly, fitfully she speaks. But when it is no longer light. The pale girl smiles, with only One to mark, And dies upon the breast of Night, Like trodden snowdrift melting ra the dark. LIZ. I. T T EY, rain, rain,' rain ! It patters down the glass, and on the sill, And splashes in the pools along the lane — Then gives a kind of shiver, and is still : One likes to hear it, though, when one is ill. Rain, rain, rain, rain ! Hey, how it pours and pours ! Rain, rain, rain, rain ! A dismal day for poor girls out-o'-doors ! II. Ah, don't ! That sort of comfort makes me cry. And, Parson, since I 'm bad, I want to die. 30 LONDON POEMS. The roaring of the street, The tramp of feet, The sobbing of the rain, Bring nought but pain ; They 're gone into the aching of my brain ; And whether it be light. Or dark dead night, Wherever I may be, I hear them plain ! I 'm lost and weak, and can no longer bear To wander, like a shadow, here and there — As useless as a stone — tired out— and sick ! So that they put me down to slumber quick, It does not matter where. No one will mass me; all will hurry by, And never cast a thought on one so low ; Fine gentlemen miss ladies when they go, But folk care nought for such a thing as I. III. 'Tis bad, I know, to talk Hke that — too bad ! Joe, though he 's often hard, is strong and true — [Ah, Joe meant well] — and there's the baby, too!- But I 'm so tired and sad. I 'm glad it was a boy, sir, very glad. LIZ. 31 A man can fight along, can say his say, Is not look'd down upon, holds up his head, And, at a push, can always earn his bread : Men have the best of it, in many a way. But ah ! 'tis hard indeed for girls to keep Decent and honest, tramping in the town, — Their best but bad — made light of — beaten down — Wearying ever, wearying for sleep. If they grow hard, go wrong, from bad to badder, Why, Parson, dear, they 're happier being blind : They get no thanks for being good and kind — The better that they arc, they feel the sadder ! IV. Nineteen ! nineteen ! Only nineteen, and yet so old, so old ; — I feel like fifty, Parson — I have been So wicked, I suppose, and life 's so cold ! Ah, cruel are the wind, and rain, and snow, And I 've been out for years among them all I scarce remember being weak and small Like baby there — it was so long ago. It does not seem that I was born. I woke, 32 LONDON POEMS, One day, long, long ago, in a dark room, And saw the housetops round me in the smoke, And, leaning out, look'd down into the gloom. Saw deep black pits,, blank walls, and broken panes, And eyes, behind the panes, that flash'd at me, And heard an awful roaring, from the lanes, Of folk I could not see ; Then, while I look'd and listen'd in a dream, I turn'd my eyes upon the housetops gray. And saw, between the smoky roofs, a gleam Of silver water, winding far away. That was the River. Cool and smooth and deep, It glided to the sound o' folk below, Dazzling my eyes, till they began to grow Dusty and dim with sleep. Oh, sleepily I stood, and gazed, and hearken'd t And saw a strange, bright light, that slowly fled, Shine through the smoky mist, and stain it red, And suddenly the water flash'd, — then darken'd ; And for a little time, though I gazed on, The river and the sleepy hght were gone ; But suddenly, over the roofs there lighten'd A pale, strange brightness out of heaven shed. And, with a sweep that made me sick and frighten' d, LIZ. 33 The yellow Moon roU'd up above my head ; — And down below me roar'd the noise o' trade, And ah ! I felt alive, and was afraid, And cold, and hungry, crying out for bread, V. All that is like a dream. It don't seem true! Father was gone, and mother left, you see. To work for little brother Ned and me ; And up among the gloomy roofs we grew, — Lock'd in full oft, lest we should wander out, With nothing but a crust o' bread to cat. While mother char d for poor folk round about, Or sold cheap odds and ends from street to street Yet, Parson, there were pleasures fresh and fair, To make the time pass happily up there : A steamboat going past upon the tide, A pigeon lighting on the roof close by. The sparrows teaching little ones to fly, The small white moving clouds, that we espied, And thought were living, in the bit of sky — With sights like these right glad were Ned and I ; And then, we loved to hear the soft rain calling, Pattering, pattering, upon the tiles. 34 LONDON POEMS. And it was fine to see the still snow falling, Making the housetops white for miles on miles, And catch it in our little hands in play, And laugh to feel it melt and slip away ! But I was six, and Ned was only three, And thinner, weaker, wearier than me ; And one cold day, in winter time, when mother Had gone away into the snow, and we Sat close for warmth and cuddled one another. He put his little head upon my knee. And went to sleep, and would not stir a limb. But look'd quite strange and old ; And when I shook him, kiss'd him, spoke to him. He smiled, and grew so cold. Then I was frighten'd, and cried out, and none Could hear me ; while I sat and nursed his head, Watching the whiten'd window, while the Sun Peep'd in upon his face, and made it red. And 1 began to sob ; — till mother came. Knelt down, and scream'd, aud named the good God's name. And told me he was dead. And when she put his night-gown on, and, weeping, Placed him among the rags upon his bed, LIZ. 35 I thought that brother Ned was only sleeping, And took his little hand, and felt no fear. But when the place grew gray and cold and drear, And the round Moon over the roofs came creeping, And put a silver shade All round the chilly bed where he was laid, I cried, and was afraid. VI. Ah, yes, it 's like a dream ; for time pass'd by, And I went out into the smoky air. Fruit-selling, Parson — trudging, wet or dry — Winter and summer — weary, cold, and bare. And when old mother laid her down to die, And parish buried her, I did not cry. And hardly seem'd to care ; I was too hungry, and too dull ; beside, The roar o' streets had made me dry as dust — It took me all my time, howe'er I tried, To keep my limbs alive and earn a crust ; I had no time for weeping. And when I was not out amid the roar. Or standing frozen at the playhouse door. Why, I was coil'd upon my straw, and sleeping. 36 LONDON POEMS. Ah, pence were hard to gain ! Some girls were pretty, too, but I was plain : Fine ladies never stopp'd and look'd and smiled, And gave me money for my face's sake. That made me hard and angry when a child j But now it thrills my heart, and makes it ache ! The pretty ones, poor things, what could they do, Fighting and starving in the wicked town. But go from bad to badder — down, down, down- Being so poor, and yet so pretty, too ? Never could bear the like of that — ah, no ! Better have starved outright than gone so low ! VII. But I 've no call to boast. I might have been As wicked, Parson dear, in my distress, But for your friend — you know the one I mean % — The tall, pale lady, in the mourning dress. Though we were cold at first, that wore away — She was so mild and young, And had so soft a tongue, And eyes to sweeten what she loved to say. She never seem'd to scorn me — no, not she ; And (what was best) she seem'd as sad as me ! LIZ, 37 Not one of those that make a girl feel base, And call her names, and talk of her disgrace. And frighten one with thoughts of flaming hell, And fierce Lord God, with black and angry brow ; But soft and mild, and sensible as well ; And oh, I loved her, and I love her now. She did me good for many and many a day — More good than pence could ever do, I swear, For she was poor, with little pence to spare — Learn'd me to read, and quit low words, and pray. And, Parson, though I never understood How such a life as mine was meant for good, And could not guess what one so poor and low Would do in that sweet place of which she spoke, And could not feel that God would let me go Into so bright a land with gentlefolk, I liked to hear her talk of such a place, And thought of all the angels she was best, Because her soft voice soothed me, and her face Made my words gentle, put my heart at rest VIII. Ah, sir ! 'twas very lonesome. Night and day, Save when the sweet miss came, I was alone, — 38 LONDON POEMS. Moved on and hunted through the streets of stone, And even in dreams afraid to rest or stay. Then, other girls had lads to work and strive for : I envied them, and did not know 'twas wrong. And often, very often, used to long For some one I could like and keep alive for. Marry 1 Not they ! They can't afford to be so good, you know; , But many of them, though they step astray, Indeed don't mean to sin so much, or go Against what 's decent. Only— 'tis their way. And many might do worse than that, may be, If they had ne'er a one to fill a thought — It sounds half wicked, but poor girls like me Must sin a little, to be good in aught. IX. So I was glad when I began to see That Joe the costermonger fancied me ; And when, one night, he took rae to the play, Over on Surrey side, and offer'd fair That we should take a little room and share Our earnings, why, I could not answer "Nay!" LIZ. 39 And that 's a year ago ; and though I 'm bad, I 've been as true to Joe as girl could be. I don't complain a bit of Joe, dear lad, Joe never, never meant but well to me ; And we have had as fair a time, I think, As one could hope, since we are both so low. Joe likes me — never gave me push or blow, When sober : only, he was wild in drink. But then we don't mind beating when a man Is angry, if he likes us and keeps straight. Works for his bread, and does the best he can ; — 'Tis being left and slighted that we hate. X. And so the baby 's come, and I shall die ! And though 'tis hard to leave poor baby here. Where folk will think him bad, and all 's so drear. The great Lord God knows better far than I. Ah, don't ! — 'tis kindly, but it pains me so ! You say I 'm wicked, and I want to go ! " God's kingdom," Parson dear 1 Ah nay, ah nay ! That must be like the country — which I fear : I saw the country once, one summer day. And I would rather die in London here ! 40 LONDON POEMS. XI. For I was sick of hunger, cold, and strife, And took a sudden fancy in my head To try the country, and to earn my bread Out among fields, where I had heard one's life Was easier and brighter. So, that day, I took my basket up and stole away, Just after sunrise. As I went along, Trembling and loath to leave the busy place, I felt that I was doing something wrong, And fear'd to look policemen in the face. And all was dim : the streets were gray and wet After a rainy night : and all was still ; I held my shawl around me with a chill, And dropt my eyes from every face I met ; Until the streets began to fade, the road Grew fresh and clean and wide, Fine houses where the gentlefolk abode, And gardens full of flowers, on every side. That made me walk the quicker — on, on, on — As if I were asleep with half-shut eyes. And all at once I saw, to my surprise, The houses of the gentlefolk were gone, LIZ. 41 And I was standing still, Shading my face, upon a high green hill, And the bright sun was blazing, And all the blue above me seem'd to melt To burning, flashing gold, while I was gazing On the great smoky cloud where I had dwelt. XII. I '11 ne'er forget that day. All was so bright And strange. Upon the grass around my feet The rain had hung a million drops of light ; The air, too, was so clear and warm and sweet, It seem'd a sin to breathe it. All around Were hills and fields and trees that trembled through A burning, blazing fire of gold and blue ; And there was not a sound, Save a bird singing, singing, in the skies, And the soft wind, that ran along the ground, And blew full sweetly on my lips and eyes. Then, with my heavy hand upon my chest. Because the bright air pain'd me, trembling, sighing, I stole into a dewy field to rest. 42 LONDON POEMS. And oh, the green, green grass where I was lying Was fresh and hving — and the bird sang loud, Out of a golden cloud — And I was looking up at him and crying ! XIII. How swift the hours slipt on ! — and by and by The sun grew red, big shadows fill'd the sky, The air grew damp with dew. And the dark night was coming down, I knew. Well, I was more afraid than ever, then, And felt that I should die in such a place, — So back to London town I turn'd my face. And crept into the great black streets again ; And when I breathed the smoke and heard the roar, Why, I was better, for in London here My heart was busy, and I felt no fear. I never saw the country any more. And I have stay'd in London, well or ill — I would not stay out yonder if I could, For one feels dead, and all looks pure and good — I could not bear a life so bright and still. All that I want is sleep. Under the flags and stones, so deep, so deep ! LIZ. 43 God won't be hard on one so mean, but He, Perhaps, will let a tired girl slumber sound There in the deep cold darkness under gi-ound ; And I shall waken up in time, may be, Better and stronger, not afraid to see The great, still Light that folds Him round and round ! XIV. See ! there 's the sunset creeping through the pane — How cool and moist it looks amid the rain ! I like to hear the slashing of the drops On the house tops, And the loud humming of the folk that go Along the streets below ! I like the smoke and roar — I am so bad — They make a low one hard, and still her cares. . . . There 's Joe ! I hear his foot upon the stairs ! — He must be wet, poor lad ! He will be angry, like enough, to find Another little life to clothe and keep. But show him baby. Parson — speak him kind — And tell him Doctor thinks I 'm going to sleep. A hard, hard life is his ! He need be strong 44 LONDON POEMS. And rough, to earn his bread and get along. I tliink he will be sorry when I go, And leave the little one and him behind. I hope he '11 see another to his mind. To keep him straight and tidy. Poor old Joe ! iir THE STARLING. i THE STARLING. T HE little lame tailor Sat stitching and snarling — Who in the world Was the tailor's darling? To none of his kind Was he well-inclined, But he doted on Jack the starling. n. For the bird had a tongue, And of words good store. 48 LONDON POEMS. And his cage was hung Just over the door, And he saw the people, And heard the roar, — Folk coming and going Evermore, — And he look'd at the tailor,- And swore. III. From a country lad The tailor bought him, — His training was bad, For tramps had taught him ; On alehouse benches His cage had been, While louts and wenches Made jests obscene, — But he learn'd, no doubt. His oaths from fellows Who travel about With kettle and bellows, THE STARLING. 49 And three or four, The roundest by far That ever he swore, Were taught by a tar. And the tailor heard — " We '11 be friends ! " said he, " You 're a clever bird. And our tastes agree — We both are old, And esteem life base, The whole world cold, Things out of place. And we 're lonely too, And full of care — So what can we do But swear? IV. " The devil take you, How you mutter ! — Yet there 's much to make you Swear and flutter. D 50 LONDON POEMS. You want the fresh air And the sunhght, lad, And your prison there Feels drear}-- and sad, And here I frown In a prison as dreary. Hating the town, And feeling weary: We 're too confined, Jack, And we want to fly. And you blame mankind, Jack, And so do I ! And then, agam, By chance as it were, We learn'd from men How to grumble and swear ; You let your throat By the scamps be guided, ^ And swore by rote — All just as I did ! And without beseeching. Relief is brought us — ■ For we turn the teaching On those who taught us ! " THE STARLING. 5I V. A haggard and ruffled Old fellow was Jack, With a grim face muffled In ragged black, And his coat was rusty And never neat, And his wings were dusty From the dismal street, And he sidelong peer'd, With eyes of soot too, And scowl'd and sneer'd, — And was lame of a foot too ! And he long'd to go From whence he came; — And the tailor, you know, Was just the same. VL All kinds of weather They felt confined, 52 LONDON POEMS. And swore together At all mankind ; For their mirth was done, And they felt like brothers, And the swearing of one Meant no more than the other's ; 'Twas just a way They had learn'd, you see, — Each wanted to say Only this — " Woe 's me ! I 'm a poor old fellow, And I 'm prison'd so, While the sun shines mellow, And the corn waves yellow, And the fresh winds blow, — And the folk don't care If I live or die, But' I long for air, And I wish to fly ! '*' Yet unable to utter it, And too wild to bear, They could Only mutter it. And swear. THE STARLING. VII. Many a year They dwelt in the city, In their prisons drear, And none felt pity, And few were sparing Of censure and coldness, To hear them swearing With such plain boldness : But at last, by the Lord, Their noise was stopt, — For down on his board The tailor dropt, And they found him dead, And done with snarling. And over his head Still grumbled the Starling ; But when an old Jew Claim'd the goods of the tailor, And with eye askew Eyed the feathery railer. And, with a frown At the dirt and rust, 54 LONDON POEMS. Took the old cage down, In a shower of dust, — Jack, with heart aching. Felt life past bearing, And shivering, quaking, All hope forsaking, Died swearing. IV. JANE LEWSON. Clasping his knee with one soft lady-hand, The other fingering his glass of wine, Black-raimented, white-hair'd, polite, and bland, With mellow voice discourses Doctor Vine: He warm5, witli deep eyes stirr'd to thoughtful light. And round about his serious talk the while, Kindly, yet pensive— worldly wise, yet bright. Like bloom upon the blackthorn blows his smile. JANE LEWSON. A H, strong and mighty are we mortal men ! Braving the whirlwind on a ship at sea, Facing the grim fort's hundred tongues of fire, Ay, and in England, 'neath the olive branch, Pushing a stubborn elbow through the crowd. To get among the heights that keep the gold ; But there is might and might, — and in the one Our dames and daughters shame us. Come, my friend, My man of sinew, — conscious of your strength, Proud of your well-won wrestles with the world, — Hear what a feeble nature can endure ! A little yellow woman, dress'd in black, With weary crow's-feet crawling round the eyes, 58 LONDON POEMS. And soleiTin voice, that seem'd a call to prayer; Another yellow woman, dress'd in black, Sid, too, and solemn, yet with bitterness Burn'd in upon the edges of her lips, And sharper, thinner, less monotonous voice j And last, a little woman auburn-hair'd, Pensive a little, but not solemnised. And pretty, with the open azure eyes, The white soft cheek, the little mindless mouth, The drooping childish languor. There they dwelt, In a great dwelling of a smoky square In Islington, named by their pious friends, And the lean Calvinistic minister — The Misses Lewson, and their sister Jane. Miss Sarah, in her twenty-seventh year, Knew not the warmer passions of her sex, But groan'd both day and night to save her soul; Miss Susan, two years younger, had regrets Her sister knew not, and a secret pain Because her heart was withering — whence her tongue Could peal full sharp at times, and show a sting ; But Jane was comely — might have cherish'd hopes, JANE LEWSON. 59 Since she was only twenty, had her mind Been hopefuller. The elders ruled the house. Obedience and meekness to their will Was a familiar habit Jane had learn'd Full early, and had fitted to her life So closely, 'twas a portion of her needs. She gazed on them, as Eastern worshippers Gaze on a rayless picture of the sun. Her acts seem'd other than her own ; her heart Kept melancholy time to theirs ; her eyes Look'd ever unto them for help and light ; Her eyelids droop'd before them if they chid. A woman weak and dull, yet fair of face ! Her mother, too, had been a comely thing — A bright-hair'd child wed to an aged man, A heart that broke because the man was hard, — Not like the grim first wife, who brought the gold, And yielded to his melancholy kiss The melancholy virgins. Well, the three, Alone in all the world, dwelt in the house Their father left them, living by the rents Of certain smaller houses of the poor. And they were stern to wring their worldly dues — Not charitable, since the world was base. 6o LONDON POEMS. But cold to all men, save the minister, Who weekly cast the darkness of his blessing Over their chilly table. All around The life of London shifted like a cloud, Men sinned, and women fell, and children cried, And Want went ragged up and down the lanes ; While the two hueless sisters dragg'd their chain Self-woven, pinch'd their lives complexionless, Keeping their feelings quiet, hard, and pure. But Jane felt lonesome in the world ; and oft, Pausing amid her work, gazed sadly forth upon the dismal square of wither'd trees, The dusty grass that grew within the rails, The garden-plots where here and there a flower Grew up, and sicken'd in the smoke, and died ; And when the sun was on the square, and sounds Came from the children in the neighbouring streets. She thought of happy homes among the fields. And brighter faces. When she walk'd abroad, The busy hum of life oppress'd her heart And frighten'd her : she did not raise her eyes, But stole along, — a sweet shape clad in black. JANE LEWSON, 6l A pale and pretty face, at which the men Stared vacant admiration. Far too dull To blame her gloomy sisters for the shape Her young days took, she merely knew the world Was drear ; and if at times she dared to dream Of things that made her colour come and go, And dared to hope for cheerier, sunnier days, She grew the wanner afterwards, and felt Sad and ashamed. The dull life that she wore, Like to a gloomy garment, day by day, Was a familiar life, the only life She clearly understood. Coldly she heard The daily tale of human sin and wrong, And the small thunders of the Sunday nights In chapel. All around her were the streets, And frightful sounds, and gloomy sunless faces. And thus with tacit dolour she resign'd Her nature to the hue upon the cheeks Of her cold sisters. Yet she could not pray As they pray'd, could not Avholly feel and know The blackness of mankind, her own heart's sin ; But when she tried to get to God, and yearn'd For help not human, she could only cry. Feeling a loveless and a useless thing. 62 LONDON POEMS. Thinking of those sweet places in, the fields, Those homes whereon the sun shone pleasantly, And happy mothers sat at cottage doors Among their children. Save for household work, She would have wasted soon. From week to week The burthen lay on her, — the gloomy twain Being too busy searching for their souls, And begging God above to spare the same. Yet she was quiet thus, content and glad To silent drudgery, such as saved her heart From wilder flutterings. The Sabbath day Was drearest : drest in burial black, she sat Those solemn hours in chapel, listening, And scarcely heeding what she heard, but watching The folk around, their faces and their dress, Or gazing at the sunshine on the floor ; And service over, idly pined at home. And, looking from the window at the square, Long'd for the labour of the coming day. Her sisters watch'd her warily, be sure ; And though their hearts were pure as pure could be, They loved her none the better for her face. JANE LEWSON. 63 Love is as cunning as disease or death, No doctor's skill will ward him off or cure, And soon he found this pale and weary girl, Despite the cloud of melancholy hfe That rain'd around her. In no beauteous shape, In guise of passionate stripling iris-eyed, Such as our poets picture in their songs, Love came ; — but in the gloomy garb of one Whom men call'd pious, and whose holy talk Disarm'd the dragons. 'Twere but idle, friend, To count the wiles by which he won his way Into her heart ; how she vouchsafed him all The passion of a nature not too strong ; How, when the first wild sunshine dazzled her. The woman loved so blindly, that her thoughts Became a secret trouble in the house ; And how at last, with white and frighten'd face, She glided out into the dark one night, And vanish'd with no utterance of farewell. The sisters gave a quick and scandall'd cry. And sought a little for the poor flown bird; Then, thinking awful things, composed their hearts In silence, pinch'd their narrow natures more. 64 L O N D O N P O E M S. And waited. "This is something strange/' they thought, "Which God will clear; we will not think the worst, Although she was a thing as light as straw." Nor did they cry their fear among their friends. Hawking a secret shame, but calmly waited. Trusting no stain would fall upon their chill And frosty reputations. Weeks pass'd by; They pray"d, they fasted, yellowing more and more, They waited sternly for the end, and heard The timid knock come to the door at last. It was a dark and rainy night; the streets W^ere gleaming watery underneath the lamps, The dismal wind scream'd fitfully without. And made within a melancholy sound ; And the faint knock came to the door at last. The sisters look'd in one another's faces, And knewthe wanderer had return'd again, But spoke not ; and the younger sister rose, Open'd the door, peer'd out into the rain, And saw the weary figure shivering there. Holding a burthen underneath her shawl. And silently, with wan and timid look. The wanderer slipt in. No word of greeting JANE LEWSON. 65 Spake either of the sisters, but their eyes Gleam'd sharply, and they waited. White and cold, Her sweet face feebly begging for a word, Her long hair dripping loose and wet, stood Jane Before them, shivering, clasping tight her load, In the dull parlour with the cheerless fire. Till Susan, pointing, cried in a shrill voice, " What are you carrying underneath your shawl, Jane Lewsoni" and the faint despairing voice. While the rain murmur'd and the night-wind blew, Moan'd, *' It 's my BabyT and could say no more. For the wild sisters scream'd and raised their hands, And Jane fell quivering down upon her knees. The old shawl opening show'd a child asleep, And, trebling terror with a piteous cry. The child awaken' d. Pointing to the door, With twitching lips of venom, Susan said — " Go !" and the elder sister echo'd her More sadly and more solemnly. But Jane, Clinging to Sarah's skirts, implored and moan'd, " Don't turn me out ! my little girl will die ! I have no home in all the world but here ; E 66 LONDON POEMS. Kill me, but do not drive nie from the house !" " Jane Lewson," Susan cried, as white as death, "Where is the father of this child?" and Jane Moan'd, " Gone, gone, gone f and when she named his name. And how, while she who spake in sickness lay, He secretly had fled across the seas. They shiver'd to the hair. Holding her hand Upon her heart, the elder sister spake In dull monotonous voice — " Look up ! look up ! Perhaps 'tis not so ill as we believed. Are you a wedded woman?" The reply Was silentness and heavy drooping eyes. Yet with no blush around the quivering lids ; And Sarah, freezing into ice, spake on In dull monotonous voice — " Your sin has brought Shame on us all, but they who make their beds Must sleep upon them ; go away, bad woman ! The third of what our father left is yours, But you are not our sister any more." Still moaning, shuddering, the girl begg'd on, Nor ceased to rock the babe and still its cries, " Kill me, but do not drive me from the house ! Put any pain upon me that you please, JANE LEWSON. 6^ But do not, do not, drive me forth again Into the dreadful world ! I have no friends On all the earth save you !" The sisters look'd At one another, and without a word Walk'd from the room. Jane sat upon the floor, Soothing the child, and did not rise, but waited; The agony and terror dried her tears, And she could only listen, praying God That He would soften them ; and the little one Look'd in her face and laugh'd. A weary hour Pass'd by, and then, still white, and stem, and cold. The sisters enter'd, and the elder one Spake without prelude : "We have talk'd it o'er, Jane Lewson, and have settled how to act ; You have a claim upon us : will you take The third of what our father left, and find Another home V But Jane cried, "Do not, do not, Drive me away ; I have no friends save you ; And I am sorry," Trembling, for her heart Was not all cold, the elder icicle 68 LONDON POEMS. Resumed : " Take what is left you, and be gone, And never see our faces any more ; Or if you will, stay with us here, but only On these conditions : For the infant's sake, And for the sake of our good name, our friends Must never know the miserable child Is yours ; but we will have it given out That, being lonely and unwedded here, We have adopted a poor tenant's child. With view to bring it up in godliness." Jane answer'd, with a feeble thrill of hope, " Anything, anything, — only leave me not Alone in the dark world." " Peace !" Susan said, " You do not understand : the child herself Must never know Jane Lewson is her mother : Neither by word nor look nor tender folly, Must you reveal unto the child her shame. And yours, and ours !" Then, with a bitter cry, And a wild look, Jane cried, " And must my babe Not know me?" " Never," Sarah Lewson said : " For the babe's sake, for yours, for ours, the shame Must not be utter'd. See, you have your choice : Take what our father gave you, and depart. Or stay on these conditions. We are firm. JANE LEWSON. 69 We have decided kindly, not forgetting You were our sister, nor that this poor child Is blameless, save that all the flesh is sin, But not forgetting, either, what we owe To God above us." Weeping o'er the child, Not rising yet, Jane ansvver'd, "I will stay; Yes, gladly, for the little baby's sake. That folk may never call it cruel names." And the stern sisters took from off the shelf The great old Bible, placed it in her hands And made her kiss it, swearing before God Never to any one in all the world, Not even to the child itself, to tell She was its sinful mother. Wild and dazed, She sware upon the Word. " That is enough," Said Sarah ; " but, Jane Lewson, never again Speak to us of the evil that has pass'd ; Live with us as you used to do, and ask The grace of God, who has been kinder far Than you deserved." Thus, friend, these icicles Dealt their hard measure, deeming that they did A virtuous and a righteous deed ; and Jane, 70 LONDON POEMS. The worn and mindless woman, sank again Into submission and house-drudgery, Comforted that she daily saw her child, And that her shame was hidden from the world, And that the child would never suffer scorn Because a sinner bore it. But her heart Was a bruised reed, the little sunny hue Had gone from all things ; and whene'er she pray'd. She thought the great cold God above her head Dwelt on a frosty throne and did not hear. JANE XIEWSON. Jj. n. Yet He, the Almighty Lord of this our breath, Did see and hear, and surely pitied too, If God can pity, — but He works as God, Not man, and so we cannot understand. No whisper of reproach, no spoken word, Troubled with memories of her sinfulness The suffering woman ; yet her daily life Became a quiet sorrow. In the house She labour'd with her hands from morn to night. Seeing few faces save the pensive ones Whose yellow holiness she bow'd before ; And tacitly they suifer'd her to sink Into the household drudge, — with privilege Upon the Sabbath day to dress in black. Git in the sunless house or go to prayer, — 72 LONDON POEMS. So idle, that her thoughts could travel back To shame and bitterness. Her only joy Was when she gave her little girl the breast, (They dared not rob her weary heart of that,) When, seated all alone, she felt it suck. And, as the little lips drew forth the milk, Felt drowsily resign'd, and closed her eyes, And trembled, and could feel the happy tears. There came a quiet gathering in the house, And by the gloomy minister the child Was christen'd ; and the name he gave to her Was " Margaret Lewson." For the sisters said, " Her mother being buried, as it were, The girl shall take our name." And Jane sat by, And heard the pious lie with aching heart. And ever after that her trouble grew. Soon, when the sound of little feet were heard In the dull dwelling, and a baby-voice Call'd at the mother's heart, Jane thrill'd and heard, But even as she listen'd the sweet sounds Would seem to die into the cloud that hid The great cold God above her. Margaret JANE LEW SON. 73 Grew to a little wildling, quick and bright, Black-eyed, black-hair' d, and passionate and quick, Not like its mother; fierce and wild when chid, So that the gloomy sisters often thought, "There is a curse upon it;" yet they grew To love the little wildling unaware. Indulged it in their stern and solemn way, More cheer'd than they believed by its shrill laugh Within the dismal dwelling. But the child Clung most to Jane, and though, when first it learn'd To call her by her Christian name, the sound Bruised the poor suffering heart, that wore away; And all the little troubles of the child. The pretty joys, the peevish fits, the bursts Of passion, work'd upon her nature so, That all her comfort was to snatch it up, And cover it with kisses secretly. Wilful and passionate, yet loving too, Grew Margaret, — an echo in a cave Of human life without ; clinging to Jane, Who never had the heart to fondle it Before her sisters ; not afraid at times To pinch the thin, worn arms, or pull the hairs Upon the aching head, but afterwards 74 LONDON POEMS. Curing the pain with kisses and with tears. So that as time wore on the mother's heart Grew tenderer to its trouble than before. Then later, when the little girl went forth To school hard by, the motion and the light Hied from the house ; and all the morning hours The thin face came and went against the panes, Looking out townward, — till the little shape Appear'd out of the cloud, and pale eyes grew Dim to its coming. As the years went on, The mother, with the agony in her heart She could not utter, quietly subdued Her nature to a listening watchfulness : Her face grew settled to expectant calm, Her vision penetrated things around And gazed at something lying far beyond. Her very foot linger'd about the house, As if she loiter'd hearkening for a sound Out of the world. For Margaret, as she grew. Was wilder and more wilful, openly Master'd the gloomy virgins, and escaped The pious atmosphere they daily breathed To gambol in a freer, fresher air ; JANE LEWSON. 75 And Jane would think, " 'Twill kill me, if my child Should turn out wicked." Mindless though she was, And feeble, yet the trouble made her sense Quick, sharp, and subtle to perceive and watch. A little word upon the girlish tongue Could sting her, — nay, a light upon the face, A kindling of the eye, a look the child Wore when asleep, would trouble her for days, Carrying strangest import. So she waited. Watching and listening, — while the young new life Drew in the air, and throve, absorbing hues Out of a thousand trivial lights and shades That hover'd lightly round it. Still to Jane The habit of submission clung : she watch'd The wiser sterner faces oftentimes, Trembling for confirmation of her fears ; And nightly pray'd that God, who was so just, So hard to those who went astray at all, Would aid her sisters, helping them to make The little Margaret better as she grew, — Waking her secret trouble evermore With countless, nameless acts of help and love, And humble admonition, — comforted By secret fondlings of the little arms. 76 LONDON POEMS. Or kisses on the tiny, wilful mouth Apart in childish slumber. Thus the years Pass'd over her like pensive clouds, and melted Into that dewy glamour on the brain, Which men call Memory. Wherefore recount The little joys and sorrows of the time : The hours when sickness came, and thought itself Tick'd like a death-watch, — all the daily hopes And impulses and fears ? Enough to tell, That all went onward like a troubled stream, Until the sisters, worn and growing old. Felt the still angel coming nearer, nearer. Scattering sleep-dust on uplooking eyes ; And Jane, though in her prime, was turning gray; And Margaret was a maiden flower full-blown. A passion-flower ! — a maiden whose rich heart Burn'd with intensest fire that turn'd the light Of the sweet eyes into a warm dark dew ; One of those shapes so marvellously made, Strung so intensely, that a finger-press. The dropping of a stray curl unaware JANE LEWSON. 77 Upon the naked breast, a look, a tone, Can vibrate to the very roots of life, And draw from out the spirit light that seems To scorch the tender cheeks it shines upon; A nature running o'er with ecstasy Of very being, an appalling splendour Of animal sensation, loveliness Like to the dazzling panther's; yet, withal, The gentle, wilful, clinging sense of love, Which makes a virgin's soul. It seem'd, indeed, The gloomy dwelling and the dismal days, Gloaming upon her heart, had lent this show Of shining life a melancholy shade That trebled it in beauty. Such a heart Needed no busy world to make it beat : It could throb burningly in solitude ; Since kindly Heaven gave it strength enough To rock the languid blood into the brains Of twenty smaller natures, Then the pain, The wonder, deepen'd on the mother's heart, — Her mother, her worn mother, whom she knew no5 To be her mother. As she might have watch'd 78 LONDON POEMS. A wondrous spirit from another world, Jane Lewson watch'd her child. Could this fair girl,— This wild and dazzling life, be born of her 1 — A lightning flash struck from a pensive cloud The wan still moon is drinking? Like a woman Who has been sick in darkness many days, And steps into the sunshine, Jane beheld Her daughter, and felt blind, A terror grcAV Upon her, that the smother'd sense of pride Lack'd power to kill She pray'd, she wept, she dream' d, And thought, if Margaret's had been a face More like the common faces of the streets, 'Twould have been better. With this feeling, grew The sense of her own secret. Oftentimes A look from Margaret brought the feeble blush Into the bloodless cheek ; — creeping away Into her chamber, Jane would wring her hands, Moaning in pain, " God help me ! If she knew ! Ah, if she knew !" And then for many days Would haunt the dwelling fearfully, afraid To look on what she loved, — till once again. Some little kindness, some sweet look or tone, JANE LEWSON. 79 A happy kiss, would bring her courage back And cheer her. Nor had Margaret fail'd to win The hard-won sisters ; oft tlieir frosty eyes Enlarged themselves upon her and grew thaw'd — In secret she was mistress over both — And in their loveless way, they also felt A frighten'd pleasure in the beauteous thing That brighten'd the dull dwelling. Oftentimes, The fiery maiden-nature flashing forth In wilful act or speech or evil looks, Deepen'd Jane's terror. Margaret heeded not The sisters' pious teachings, did not show A godly inclination, — nay, at times Mock'd openly. Ah, had she guess'd the pain, The fear, the agony, such mockings gave Her mother, her worn mother, whom she knew not To be her mother ! In her secret heart Jane deem'd her own deep sorrows all had come Because she had not, in her dreary youth, Been godly ; and as such flashes as she saw 8o LONDON POEMS. Gleam from her girl, seem'd wicked things indeed ; And at such times the weary woman's eyes Would seek the sunless faces, searching them For cheer or warning. In its season came That light which takes from others what it gives To him or her who, standing glorified, Awaits it. 'Tis the old, sad mystery : No gift of love that comes upon a life But means another's loss. The new sweet joy. That play'd in tender colours and mild fire On Margaret's cheek, upon the mother's heart Fell like a firebrand. For to Jane, her friend, Her dearest in the household from the first. Her mother, her worn mother, whom she knew not To be her mother, Margaret first told The terror — how she loved and was beloved ; And seated at Jane's feet, with eyes uptum'd. Playing with the worn fingers, she exclaim'd, " I love him, Jane ! and you will love him too i I will not marry any other man '" JANE LEWSON, 8l And suddenly Jane felt as if the Lord Had come behind her in the dark and breathed A burning fire upon her. For she thought, " My child will go away, and I shall die I" But only murmur'd, " Marry, Margaret? You are too young to marry !" and her face Was like a raurder'd woman's. And the pain, The agony, deepen'd, when the lover's face Came smiling to the dwelling, young and bright With pitiless gladness. Jane was still, and moan'd, *' My child will go away, and I shall die ! " And look'd upon her sisters, and could see They pitied her ; but their stern faces said, *' This is God's will ! the just God governs all ! How should we cross such love 1" adding, "Beware,— For our sakes, for your own, but chief of all For her sake whom you love, remember now ! Pray, and be silent !" And the wounded heart Cried up to God again, and from the sky No answer came ; when, crush'd beneath her pain. The woman sicken'd, lay upon her bed, And thought her time was come. F 82 LONDON POEMS. Most tenderly Her daughter nursed her ; little fathoming The meaning of the wild and yearning look That made the white face sweet and beautiful ; For Jane was saying, " Lord ! I want to die ! My child would leave me, or my useless life Would turn a sorrow to her, if I stay'd : Lord, let me die ! " Yea, the dull nature clung Still unto silence, with the still resolve Of mightier natures. Thinking she would die, Jane lay as in a painless dream, and watch'd The bright face stir around her, following The shape about the room, and praying still For strength — so happy in her drowsy dream, That she went chill at times, and felt that thoughts So tranquil were a sin. A darker hour Gloam'd soon upon her brain. She could not see The face she loved ; murmur'd delirious words ; And in the weary watches of the night. Moaning and wringing hands, with closed eyes. Cried "Margaret! Margaret!" Then the sisters sought To lead the girl away, lest she should hear The secret ; but she conquer'd, and remain'd ; JANE LEVVSON. 83 And one still evening, when the quiet fire Was making ghosts that qiiiver'd on the floor To the faint time-piece ticking, Jane awoke, Gazed long and strangely at the shining face, Waved her thin arms, cried, " Margaret ! Margaret ! Where are you, Margaret 1 Have you gone away? Come to your mother ! " The wild cry of pain Startled the maiden, but she only thought The fever'd woman raved. Twining her arms Around Jane's neck, she murmur'd, "I am here !" Weeping and kissing ; but the woman sigh'd And shiver'd, crying feebly, " Let me die ! My little girl has gone into the town, And she has learn'd to call me wicked names, And will not come again ! " When, wearied out, Jane sank to troubled sleep, her child sat still. Thinking of those strange words ; and though at last She shut them from her thought as idle dream, Their pain return'd upon her. The next day She spake unto the sisters of the same. Adding, in a low voice, " She talk'd of me, And moan'd out loudly for a little child — 84 LONDON POEMS. Has she a child ? " The first quick flash of fear Died from the yellow visages unseen, And they were calm. " Delirium ! " Sarah said ; "But you, my child, must watch her sick-bed less — You are too young, too weak, to bear such things." And this time Margaret did not say a word, But yielded, thinking, " It is very strange ! — There is a mystery, and I will watch : Can Jane have had a child 1 " That very day The dark mists roll'd from the sick woman's brain, And she awoke, remembering nought, and saw The sisters watching her. Two days they watch'd ; And spake but very little, though they saw The wan eyes wander with a hungry look, Seeking the face they loved. Then Sarah took Jane's hand, and spake more gently, sisterly, (Such natures, friend, grow kinder as they age,) Than she had done for many years, and told Of those wild words utter'd while she was ill ; Jane moan'd and hid her face ; but Sarah said, " We do not blame you, and perchance the Lord JANE LEWSON. 8$ Spake through you ! We have thought it o'er, and pray'd : Now listen, Jane. Since that unhappy night, We have not spoken of your shame, yet know You have repented." With her face still hid, Jane falter'd, " Let me die ! " but Sarah said, "We do not think, Jane Lewson, you will live; So mark me well. If, ere you go away. You feel that you could go more cheerfully. If you are certain that it is not sin. Poor Margaret shall know she is your child ; We will not, now you die, deny you this ; And Margaret will be silent of the shame, — And, lest you break your oath upon the Word, Our lips shall tell her." Still Jane Lewson hid Her face ; and all was quiet in the room, Save for a shivering sound and feeble crying. But suddenly Jane lifted up her face. Beauteous beyond all beauty given to joy, And quickly whispering, press'd the chilly hand — ■ " I will not speak ! I will not hurt my child So cruelly ! — the child shall never know ! And I will go in silence to my grave, Leaving her happy, — and perhaps the Lord 1 86 LONDON POEMS. Will pardon me ! " Then, for the first last time, The sisters look'd on Jane with different eyes, Admiring sternly, with no words of praise, Her they had scom'd for feebleness so long. Even then the watchers in the chamber heard A sound that thrill' d them through,— a rustling dress, A deep hard breathing as of one in pain ; And pointing with her hand Jane scream'd aloud; And turning suddenly the sisters saw A face as white as marble, yet illumed By great eyes flashing with a terrible flame That made them quail. And in a dangerous voice. As low as a snake's hissing, Margaret said, "I have heard all!" Then the great eyes were turn'd On Jane, and for a moment they were cold ; But all at once the breathless agony Of recognition struck upon her heart, The bosom heaved and moan'd, the bright tears burst, And Margaret flung herself upon the bed, Clasping her shivering mother ; and at first Jane shrank away, — but soon the wondrous love Master'd her, — she could smile and kiss and cry — JANE LEWSON. 87 And hear the dear wild voice cry, " Mother ! niother !" And see the bright face through her tears, and feel That Love was there. After the first strange bliss Of meeting, both were stiller. Jane could weep, And bear to feel so happy. Margaret Clang to her mother, breathed her bliss upon her, Fondling the silver'd tresses, covering The thin hard hand with kisses and with tears, Trying to say a thousand merry things That died in sobs and tears, and only saying, For all the utterance of her speechful heart, " Mother ! my mother !" Suddenly her shame Came back upon the woman, and she turn'd To seek her sisters' faces piteously, But they had stolen from the happy room ; Whereon again she murmur'd, " Let me die ! I am a wicked woman, Margaret ! Why did you listen 1 " But a second burst Of love and blissful pain, and bitter things Hurl'd at the cruel sisters, answer'd her ; And more tears flow'd, and more fond kisses brush'd The tears away, — until at last Jane cried. 88 LONDON POEMS. " Dear, I could go away not weeping now — God is so gentle with me !" But He, who drew Thus from His cloud at last and look'd so kind, Will'd that Jane Lewson should not die so soon. The agony did not kill her, and the joy Sent a fresh life into her languid blood And saved her. So that soon she rose from bed, To see the sunshine on her daughter's face, To see the sunless sisters, who again Look'd cold as ever. But a burning fire From Margaret scorch'd them to the heart, because They loved the girl ; she heap'd upon their heads Rage and reproaches, mockery and scorn, Until they cried, " You are a wicked girl ! Jane Lewson's shame is on you. After this We cannot dwell together any more." And Margaret would have answer'd fiercelier still. But that her feeble mother, piteously Gazing at them to whom in spite of all Her heart was humble, begg'd her on her knees JANE LEWS ON. 89 For silence ; and, thus conquer'd, Margaret Answer'd her aunts with kisses and with tears Shower'd on her mother's face. That evening, Margaret held her mother round the neck, And led her to her lover in the house, And with her lips set firm together, saying, " This is my dear, dear mother," told him all, Concealing nothing. For a time, the man Look'd startled and appall'd ; but being made Of clay not base, he smiling spake at last. And stooping softly, kiss'd the thin worn hand — " She is my mother, too, — and we will dwell Together ! " And they dwelt together, — leaving The dismal dwelling in the smoky square, To dwell Avithin a cottage close to town ; But Jane lived with them only for a year, And then, because the heart that had been used To suffering so long could not endure To be so happy, died ; worn out and tired. Kissing her child ; and as her dying thoughts 1 90 LONDON POEMS. Went back along the years, the suftering secm'd Not such a thankless suffering after all, But like a faded garment one has learn'd To love through habit ; — and the woman cried On her stern sisters ;vith her dying breath. V. LANGLEY LANE: 3t %Q\}z Poem. I LANGLEY I>ANE. T N all the land, range up, range down, Is there ever a place so pleasant and sweet, As Langley Lane, in London town. Just out of the bustle of square and street ? Little white cottages, all in a row. Gardens, where bachelors'-buttons grow, Swallows' nests in roof and wall. And up above the still blue sky, Where the woolly-white clouds go sailing by, — I seem to be able to see it all ! For now, in summer, I take my chair, And sit outside in the sun, and hear The distant murmur of street and square. And the swallows and sparrows chirping near; 94 LONDON rOEMS. And Fanny, who lives just over the way, Comes runnmg many a time each day. With her Uttle hand's-touch so warm and kind ; And I smile and talk, with the sun on my cheek, And the little live hand seems to stir and speak,— For Fanny is dumb and I am blind. Fanny is sweet thirteen, and she Has fine black ringlets, and dark eyes clear, And I am older by summers three, — Wliy should we hold one another so dear? Because she cannot utter a word, Nor hear the music of bee or bird. The water-cart's splash, or the milkman's call. Because I have never seen the sky, Nor the little singers that hum and fly, — Yet know she is gazing upon them all. For the sun is shining, the swallows fly, The bees and the blue-flies murmur low, And I hear the water-cart go by. With its cool splash-splash down the dusty row ; And the little one, close at my side, perceives Mine eyes upraised to the cottage eaves, LANG LEY LANE. 95 Where birds are chirping in summer shine, And I hear, though I cannot look, and she, Though she cannot hear, can the singers see, — And the little soft fingers flutter in mine. iiath not the dear little hand a tongue. When it stirs on my palm for the love of me ? Do I not know she is pretty and young? Hath not my soul an eye to see 1 'Tis pleasure to make one's bosom stir, To wonder how things appear to her, That I only hear as they pass around ; And as long as we sit in the music and light, S/ie is happy to keep God's sight, And /am happy to keep God's sound. Why, I know her face, though I am blind — I made it of music long ago : Strange large eyes, and dark hair twined Round the pensive light of a brow of snow ; And when I sit by my little one. And hold her hand, and talk in the sun. And hear the music that haunts the place, I know she is raising her eyes to me. 96 LONDON POEMS. And guessing how gentle my voice must be, And seeing the music upon my face. Though, if ever Lord God should grant me a prayer, (I know the fancy is only vain,) I should pray : Just once, when the weather is fair, To see little Fanny and Langley Lane ; Though Fanny, perhaps, would pray to hear The voice of the friend that she holds so dear, The song of the birds, the hum of the street, — It is better to be as we have been, — Eacli keeping up something, unheard, unseen. To make God's heaven more stranee and sweet. Ah ! life is pleasant in Langley Lane ! There is always something sweet to hear; Chirping of birds, or patter of rain ; And Fanny, my little one, always near; And though I am weak, and cannot live long, And Fanny, my darling, is far from strong, And though we can never married be, — What then ? — since we hold one another so dear. For the sake of the pleasure one cannot hear. And the pleasure that only one can see ] VL EDWARD CRO W HURST; OR. "A NEW POET." I EDWARD CROWHURST. I Potts, ill his dusty chamber, writes, A dilettante lord to please : A ray of country sunshine lights The foggy region ruled by these ; Flock, kind advisers, critics sage, To damn the simple country clown, — The mud of English patronage Grows round his feet, and keeps him down. " ""PHIS little mean-faced duodecimo, ' Poems by Edward Crowhurst, Lahourer/ This coarsely-printed little book of rhymes, Contains within the goodliest gift of song The gods have graced v:s with for many a day : A crystal clearness, as of running brooks, 100 LONDON POEMS. A music, as of green boughs murmuring, A peeping of fresh thoughts in shady places Like violets new-blown, a gleam of dewdrops, A sober, settled, greenness of repose, — And lying over all, in level beams. Transparent, sweet, and unmistakable, The light that never was on sea or land. * " Let all the greater and the lesser lights Regard these lines upon a Wood in Spring, Or those which follow, call'd ' the Barley-Bird,' And then regard their laurels. Melody More sweet was never blown through pastoral pipe In Britain,- since the Scottish Ramsay died. Nor let the squeamish dreamers of our time, Our rainbow bards, despise such song as this, Wealthy in images the poor man knows, And household chords that make the women weep. Smiply yet subtly, Edward Crowhurst works : Singing of lowly truths and homely things — Death snatching up a cotter's child at play, Light flashing from far worlds on dying eyes That never saw beyond their native fields, The pathos and the power of common life ; EDWARD CROWHURST. lOI And while, perchance, his deeper vein runs on Less heeded, by a random touch is waken'd A scent, a flower-tint, a wave of wings, A sense of rustUng boughs and running brooks, Touch'd by whose spell the soul is stirr'd, and eyes Gaze on the dark world round them, and are dim. * '■' This Mister Crowhurst is a poor young man, Uneducated, doom'd to earn his bread By working daily at the plough ; and yet. Sometimes in midst of toil, sometimes at night, Whenever he could snatch a little time, Hath written down (he taught himself to write !) His simple verses. Is it meet, we ask, A nature so superb should languish thus 1 Nay, he deserves, if ever man deserved, The succour of the rich and high in place, The opportunity to labour less, And use those truly wondrous gifts of his In modest competence ; and therewithal, Kindness, encouragement, and good advice, Such as the cultured give. Even now, we hear, A certain sum of money is subscribed. Enough to furnish well his present needs. 102 LONDON POEMS. Among the donors, named for honour here, We note the noble Earl of Chremiton, Lord Phidippus, Lord Gnathos, Lady Dee, Sir Charles Toroon. But more must yet be done. We dare to put the case on public grounds. Since he who writes so nobly is, indeed, A public benefactor, — with a claim On all who love to listen and to look, When the fresh Saxon Muse, in homespun gear, The free breeze blowing back her loosen'd hair. Wanders barefooted through the dewy lanes And sings aloud, Avhile all the valleys ring For pleasure, and the echoes of the hills Make sweet accord ! " — Consen'aiive Review. EDWARD CROWHURST. II. AFTER TEN YEARS. A homely matron, who has once been fair, In quiet suffering old, yet young in years ; Soft threads of silver in her auburn hair. And lines around the eyes that tell of tears; But on her face there trembles peaceful light. That seems a smile, and yet is far less bright, — To tell of watchings in the shade and sun, And melancholy duty sweetly done. "^ 1 THAT, take away my Teddy] shut him up Between stone walls, as if he were a thief? You freeze my blood to talk of such a thing ! Why, these green fields where my old man was born, I04 LONDON' POEMS. The river, and the woodland, and the lanes, Are all that keep him living : he was ever O'er fond of things like those ; and now, you see, Is fonder of them than he was before, Because he thinks so little else is left. Mad? He's a baby! Would not hurt a fly! Can manage him as easy as our girl ! And though he was a poet and went A\Tong, He could not help his failings. Ah, True Heart, I love him all the deeper and the dearer ! I would not lose him for the whole wide world ! It came through working lonely in the fields, And grovying shy of cheerful company, And worrying his wits with idle things He saw and heard when quiet out o' doors. For, long ere we were wedded, all the place Knew Teddy's ways : how mad he was for flowers And singing birds ; how often at the plough He used to idle, holding up his head And looking at the clouds ; what curious stuff He used to say about the ways of things ; How week-days he was never company, Nor tidy on a Sunday. Even then EDVv^ARD CROWIIURST, I05 Folk call'd him stupid : so did I myself, At first, before his sheepishness wore off; And then, why I was frighten'd for a time To find how wondrous bi-ightly he could look And talk, when with a girl, and no one by. Right soon he stole this heart of mine away, So cunningly I scarcely guess'd 'twas gone, But found my tongue at work before I knew, Sounding his i)raises. Mother shook her head ; But soon it was the common country talk That he and I were courting. After that Some of his sayings and his doings still Seem'd foolish, but I used to laugh and say, " Wait till we marry ! I shall make him change !" And it was pleasant walking after dark, In summer, wandering up and down the lanes, And heark'ning to his talk ; and pleasant, too, In winter, -to sit cuddling by the fire, And whispering to the quiet firelight sound And the slow ticking of the clock. Ere long, I grew to care for many things he loved. He knew the names of trees, and birds, and flowers, 106 LONDON POEMS. Their races and their seasons ; named the stars, Their comings and their goings ; and could tell Strange truths about the manners of the clouds. Set him before a hedgerow in a lane, And he was happy all alone for hours. The woods and fields were full of joy to him, And wonders, and fine meanings ever new. How, at the bottom of the wayside well, The foul toad lies and purifies the drink ; How twice a year red robin sings a song. Once when the orchis blows its bells in spring, Once when the gold is on the slanted sheaves ; How late at night the common nightingale Comes in the season of the barley-sowing, Silently builds her nest among the boughs, And then sings out just as the roses blow. And it is sweet and pleasant in the moon. Why, half his courtship lay in talk like that. And, oh ! the way he talk'd fill'd iiigh my heart With pleasure ; but, o' quiet winter nights, With wild bright eyes and voice that broke for joy, He often read aloud from books of songs ; One I remember, that I liked the best, A book of pictures and of love-tales, call'd EDWARD CROWHURST. I07 " The Seasons." I was young, and did not think : I only felt 'twas fine. Yet now and then I noticed more, and took a sober fit, And tried to make him tidy in his clothes, And could not, though I tried ; and used to sigh When mother mutter'd hints, as mothers will, That he should work more hard and look ahead, And save to furnish out a house for me. . . . For Teddy smiled, poor lad, and work'd more hard, But save . . . not he ! Instead of laying by, Making a nest to rear the young ones in. He spent his hard-won cash in buying books, — - Much dusty lumber, torn and black and old. Long sheets of ballads, bundles of old rhyme, — And read them, one by one, at home o' nights. Or out aloud to me, or at the plough. I chid at first, but quickly held my tongue, Because he look'd so grieved ; and once he said, With broken voice and dew-light in his eyes, " Lass, I 'm a puzzle to myself and you. But take away the books, and I should die ! " His back Avent bare for books, his stomach starved To buy them, — nay, he pawn'd his jacket once. To get a dreary string of solemn stuff loS LONDON POEMS. All about Eve and Adam. More and more He slacken'd at his toil ; and soon the lad, Who turn'd the cleanest furrow, when he pleased, Of all the ploughmen, let his work go spoil, And fairly led an idle thriftless life In the green woods and on the river side. And then I found that he himself made verse In secret, — verse about the birds and flowers, Songs about lovers, rhymes about the stars, Tales of queer doings in the village here, — All v^•rit on scraps of paper out-o'-doors, And hidden in an old tin coftee-pot Where he had kept his cash. The first I heard Was just a song all about him and me, And cuddling in the kitchen while 'twas snowing; He read it to me, blushing like a girl. And I was pleased, and laugh'd, and thought it fine. And wonder'd where he learn'd to make the words Jingle so sweetly. Then he read me more, Some that I liked, some that I fancied poor; And, last of all, one morn in harvest-time, When all the men were working in the fields, And he was nearly ragged, out it came — I EDWARD CROWHURST. IO9 "They're reaping corn, and corn brings gold, my lass But I will reap gold, too, and fame beside, — I 'm going to print a Book ! " I thought him mad ! •The words seem'd dreadful — such a fool was I ; And I was puzzled more when he explain'd : That he had sent some verses by the post To a rich man who lived by selling songs Yonder in London city; that for months No answer came, and Teddy strain'd his eyes Into the clouds for comfort ; that at last There came a letter full of wondrous praise From the great man in London, offering Poor Teddy, if he sent him verse enough To make a pretty little printed book. To value it in money. Till I die, I '11 ne'er forget the light on Teddy's face — The light, the glory, and the wonder there : He laugh'd, and read the letter out aloud. He leapt and laugh'd and kiss'd me o'er and o'er, And then he read the letter o'er again. And then turn'd pale, and sank into a chair, And hid his bright face in his hands, and cried. I no LONDON POEMS. Bewilder'd though I was, my heart Avas glad To see his happy looks, and pleased beside That fine folk call'd him clever. I said nought To mother — for I knew her ways too well — But waited. Soon came other wondrous news : The scraps of verse had all been copied out On fine white sheets, written in Teddy's hand, Big, round, and clear, like print; and word had come That they were read and praised by other folk, Friends of the man in London. Last of all, One night, when I was ironing the clothes. And mother knitting sat beside the fire. In Teddy came — as bright and fresh and gay As a cock starling hopping from the nest On May-day ; and with laughing eyes he cried, "Well, mother, when are Bess and I to wed?" " Wed 1 " mother snapt, as sour as buttermilk, "Wed? when the birds swim, and the fishes fly. And the green trees grow bread and cheese and butter For lazy loons that lie beneath and yawn ! " Then Teddy laugh'd aloud, and when I frown'd And shook my head to warn him, laugh'd the more; And, drawing out his leathern ploughman's pouch, EDWARD CROWIIURST. Ill " See, mother, see ! " he cried, — and in her lap Pour'd thirty golden guineas ! At the first, I scream'd, and mother look'd afraid to touch The glittering gold, — and plain enough she said The gold, she guess'd, was scarcely honest gain ; Then Teddy told her all about his book, And how those golden guineas were the price The great rich man in London put upon 't. She shook her head the more ; and when he read The great man's letter, with its words of praise, Look'd puzzled most of all ; and in a dream, Feeling the gold with her thin hand, she sat, While Teddy, proud dew sparkling in his eyes, Show'd me in print the little song he made Of cuddling in the kitchen while 'twas snowing, — " And, Bess," he cried, " the gold will stock a house, But little 'tis I care about the gold : This bit of printed verse is sweeter far Than all the shining wealth of all the world ! " And lifted up the paper to his mouth And kiss'd the print, then held it out at length To look upon 't with sparkling, happy eyes, 112 LONDON POEMS. And folded it and put it in his pouch, As tenderly and carefully, I swear, As if it were a note upon a bank For wealth untold. Why linger o'er the tale ? — Though now my poor old man is weak and ill, Sweet is the telling of his happy time. The money stock'd a house, and in a month We two were man and wife. Teddy was proud And happy, — busy finishing the book That was his heart's delight ; and as for me, My thoughts were merry as a running brook, For Teddy seem'd a wise man after all ; And it was spring-time, and our little home Was hung with white clematis, porch and wall, And wall-flower, candituft, and London pride, All shining round a lilac bush in bloom, Sweeten'd the little square of garden ground ; And cozy as a finch's mossy nest Was all within : the little sleeping-room And red-tiled kitchen ; and, made snug and fine By chairs and tables cut of bran-new deal, The little parlour, — on the mantel-i)iece EDWARD CROWHURST. ir Field-flowers and ferns and bird's-egg necklaces, Two pretty pictures pasted on the walls, (The portraits of one Milton and one Burns,) And, in the corner Teddy loved the best, Three shelves to keep the old, black, thumb-naark'd books. And if my heart had fever, lest the life Begun so well was over-bright to last, Teddy could cheer me ; for he placed his arm Around me, looking serious in his joy. When we were wed three days ; and " Bess," he said, " The Lord above is very kind to me ; For He has given me this sweet place and you, Adding the bliss of seeing soon in print The verse I love so much." Then, kissing me, " I have been thinking of it all," he said, " Holpen a bit by lives of other folk, Which I have read. Now, many men like me Grow light o' head and let their labour go ; But men can't live by writing verses, Bess." " Nay, nay," cried I, " 'tAvere pity if they could, For every man would try the easier task. And who v/ould reap the fields or grind ihe corni" H 114 LONDON POEMS. And Teddy smiling, said, " 'Tis so ! 'tis so ! Pride shall not puff my wits, but all the day I will toil happily in the fields I love ; And in the pleasant evenings 'twill be fine To wander forth and see the world with you, Or read out poems in the parlour here, Or take a pen and v/rite, for ease o' heart, Not praise, not money." I was glad tenfold, — Put all my fears aside, and trusted him, — And well he kept his word. Yet ill at ease, Restless and eager, Teddy waited on. Until the night a monster parcel came From London : twelve brown volumes, all the same, Wide-printed, thin, and on the foremost page, " Poems by Edward Crowhurst, Labourer." The happiest hour my Teddy ever knew ! He turn'd the volumes o'er, examined each. Counted the sheets, counted the printed leaves, Stared at his name in print, held out the page At arm's length, feasting with his mouth and eyes. I wonder'd at his joy, yet, spite o' me, I shared it. 'Twas so catching. The old tale ! EDWARD CROWHURST. II5 A little thing could make my Teddy's heart Gay as a bunch of roses, while a great Went by unheeded like a cannon-ball. The glowworm is a little common grub, Yet what a pretty gleam it often sheds ; And that same poor, small, common-looking book, Set on our table, kept around its leaves A light like sunshine. When his joy grew cool, Teddy took up a book to read it through ; And first he show'd me, next the foremost page, A bit of writing called the "Author's Life," Made up of simple things my man had told — How he was but a lowly labourer. And how the green fields work'd upon his heart To write about the pretty things he saw — All put together by a clever man In London. For a time he sat and read In silence, looking happy with his eyes ; But suddenly he started up and groan'd, Looking as black as bog-mud, while he flung The book upon the table ; and I gript His arm, and ask'd Avhat ail'd him. " Bess," he said. Il6 LONDON POEMS, "The joy o' this has all gone sudden sour, All through the cruel meddling of a fool : The story of my life is true enough. Despite the fine-flown things the teller sticks Around it — peacock's feathers stuck around The nest of some plain song-bird ; but the end Is like the garlic-flower, — looks fine at first, But stinks on peeping nearer. Bess, my lass, I never begg'd a penny in my life, I sought the help of no man, but could work. What then 1 what then ? O Bess, 'tis hard, 'tis hard ! They make me go a-begging, book in hand, As if I were a gipsy of the lanes Whistling for coppers at an alehouse door !" I, too, was hurt, but tried to comfort him ; 'Twas kindly meant, at least, I thought and said ; But Teddy clench'd his teeth, and sat him down, And wrote, not rudely, but as if in grief, To him in London. Till the answer came. The printed poems cheer'd him, though the book Had lost a scent that ne'er would come again ; And when the answer came, 'twas like the words A mother murmurs to a silly child — EDWARD CROWHURST. II7 A smiling, pit3nng, quiet kind of tone, That made liim angrier than violent speech ; And at the end a melancholy hint About ingratitude. Teddy must trust In those who had his fortune most at heart, Nor rashly turn his friends to enemies, Nor meddle with the kindly schemes of those Who knew the great world better far than he. Oh, Teddy's eyes were dim with bitter dew 1 " Begging is begging, and I never begg'd ! Shame on me if I ever take their gold ! " I coax'd him to be silent ; and though soon The bitter mood wore off, his gladness lost The look of happy pride it wore of old. 'Twas happy, happy, in the little home. And summer round about on wood and field. And summer on the bit of garden ground. But soon came news, like whiffs of colour'd smoke, Blown to us thickly on the idle wind, And smelling of the city. For the land Was crying Teddy's praises ! Every morn Came papers full of things about the Book, And letters full of cheer from distant folk ; IlS LONDON POEMS. And Teddy toil'd away, and tried his best To keep his glad heart humble. Then, one day, A smirking gentleman, with inky thumbs, Call'd, chatted, pried with little fox's eyes This way and that, and when he went away He wrote a heap of lying scribble, styled " A Summer IMorning with the Labourer Bard ! " Then others came : some, mild young gentlemen, Who chirp'd, and blush'd, and simper'd, and were gone; Some, sallow ladies wearing spectacles, And pale young misses, rolling languid eyes, And pecking at the words my Teddy spake Like sparrows picking seed ; and, once or twice, Fine merry gentlemen who talk'd no stuff. But chatted sensibly of common things. And made us feel at home. Ay, not a day But Teddy must be sent for, from the fields, To meet with fine-clad strangers from afar. The village folk began to open eyes And wonder, but were only more afraid Of Teddy, gave him hard suspicious looks. And shunn'd him out-o'-doors. Yet how they throng'd, Buzzing like humble bees at swarming time. EDWARD CROWIIURST. II9 That morn the oil'd and scented gentleman (For such we thought him) brought a Httle note From Lord Fitztalbot of Fitztalbot Tower, Yonder across the moorland. 'Twas a line Bidding my Teddy to the ToAver, and he Who brought it was the footman of my lord. Well, Teddy went, was many hours away, And then return'd with cat's-claws round his lips. " See ! " Teddy cried, and flung a little purse Of money in my lap ; and I, amazed. Counted ten golden guineas in my palm, Then gazed at Teddy, saw how pale he was. And ask'd what aifd him. " 'Tis the money, lass," He answer'd, groaning deep. " He talk'd, and seem'd Right kindly ; ask'd about my home, and you ; Spoke of the poems, smiled, and bow'd farewell ; And, dropping that same money in my hat, Bade me go dine below. I burn'd like fire, Felt choking, yet was fearful to offend. And took the money, as I might have took A blazing cinder, bow'd, and came away. O Lord ! O Lord ! this comes of yonder loon, Who sent the book a-begging !" Then he talk'd — I20 LONDON POEMS. How fiercely and how wildly, clenching hands : " Was not a poet better than a lord 1 Why should the cruel people use him so 1 Why would the world not leave his home in peace?" And last, he vow'd to send the money back. But I, though shamed and troubled, thought him wrong, And vow'd my lord Avas kind, and meant us wqW, And won him o'er at last to keep the purse. And ah ! we found it useful very soon, When I lay in, and had a dreadful time, And brought our girl. Then Teddy put aside All grief and anger ; thought of us alone ; Forgot, or nearly, all the praise and blame Of loveless strangers; and was proud and glad, Making fond rhymes about the babe and me. Ah ! had the folk but let my man alone, All would be happy now. He loved his work, Because it kept him in the fields ; he loved The babe and me ; and all he needed more, To keep his heart content, was pen and ink, And now and then a book. And as for praise, He needed it no more tlian singing birds ; EDWARD CROWIIURST. 121 And as for money, why, he wanted none ; And as for prying strangers in the house. They brought a clumsy painful sense of pride That made him restless. He was ever shy Of company — he loved to dream alone — And the poor life that he had known so long Was just the kind of life he suited best. He look'd a fine straight man in homespun gear, But ne'er seem'd easy in his Sunday coat. What should his fine friends do at last, but write, Bidding my man to London, — there to meet A flock o' gentlefolk, who spent their days In making books ! — Though here we dwell so near, That northward, far away, you see the sky Black with the smoky breathing of the city, We ne'er had wander'd far away from home, Save once or twice, five miles to westward yonder, To Kersey Fair. Well, Teddy fix'd to go ; And seeing him full bent, I held my tongue. And off he set, one day, in Sunday black, A hazel staff over his shoulder flung. His bundle swinging, — and was sped by train To London town. Two weeks he stay'd aw^ay ; 122 LONDON POEMS, And, when he came from London, he was changed. His eyes look'd wild, his cheek was pale, his step Unsteady; when he enter'd, I could smell Drink in his breath. Full pain'd, and sick at heart, I question'd him ; but he was petulant. And snapt me short ; and when I brought the child, He push'd her from him. Next day, when he rose, His face was pallid ; but his kindly smile Came back upon it. Ere the day was out, He told me of his doings, of the men And places he had seen, and when, and how. He had been dull in dwellings of the rich. Had felt ashamed in great grand drawing-rooms, And angry that the kindly people smiled As if in pity; and the time, he said, Would have gone drearily, had he lack'd the cheer He chanced to find among some jovial folk Who lived by making books. Full plain I saw That something had gone wrong. His ways were strange, He did not seem contented in his home, He scarcely glinted at the poor old books He loved so dearly. In a little time, Teddy grew more himself, at home, a-ficld. EDWARD CROWHURST. I23 And though, from that day forward, he began To take a glass and smoke a pipe at night, I scarcely noticed. Thus the )-ear wore on ; And still the papers praised him far away, And still the letters came from distant folk. And Teddy had made friends : folk who could talk About the things he loved, and flatter him. Ay, laugh aloud to see him drink his glass, And clap his back, and shake him by the hand, How wild soe'er he talk'd. For by degrees His tongue grew freer, he was more at ease With strangers. Oft he spent the evening hours With merry-makers in the public-house. And totter'd home with staring, dazzled eyes. The country people liked him better now. And loved to coax him out to drink at night. And, gaping, heark'd to the strange things he said. Ah, then my fear grew heavy, though his heart Was kindly still, his head still clear and wise. And he went wastering only now and then. But soon his ways grew better, for his time Was spent in finishing another book. 124 LONDON POEMS. Vet then I found him changed in other things ; For once or tv/ice when money as before Was sent or given him, he only laugh'd, And took it, not in anger. And, be sure, Money grew needful in the little home — Another babe was coming. Babe and book Were born together, but the first was born Quiet and breathless. 'Twould be idle talk To speak about the book. What came of that, Was much tlie same as Avhat had come before : The papers praised it over all the land. But just a shade more coolly; strange folk wrote, But not so oft. Yet Teddy was in glee, For iJiis time fifty golden guineas came From the rich man in London. Once again, They coax'd him up to London ; once again, Home came he changed, — with wilder words of wit, And sharper sayings, on his tongue. He toil'd Even less than ever : nay, his idle friends. Who loved to drain the bottle at his side, Took up his time full sorely. We began To want and pinch : more money was subscribed, EDWARD CROWIIURST. 125 And takcH : — till at last my man grew sick Of working in the open fields at all. And just as work grew hardest to his mind, The Lord Fitztalbot pass'd him on the road, And turn'd his head away. A change had come, As dreadful as the change within himself. The papers wrote the praise of newer men, The strange folk sent him letters scarce at all ; And when he spake about another book. The man in London wrote a hasty "No !" And said the work had little chance to sell. Those words were like a sunstroke. Wild and scared. My Teddy stared at London — all his dreams Came back upon him — and with bitter tongue He mock'd and threaten'd. 'Twas of no avail ! His fine-day friends like swallows wing'd away, The summer being o'er ; the country folk Began to knit their foreheads as of old, Save one or two renown'd as ne'er-do-wells ; And, mad with pride, bitten with shame and fear, Teddy drank deeper at the public-house. Teddy to blame ? Teddy to blame ? Ah, nay ! 125 LONDON POEMS. The blame be theirs who broke his simple pride With money, beggar'd him against his will. The blame be theirs who flatter'd him from home, And led him out to make his humble ways An idle show. The blame be theirs who smiled Whene'er he play'd a wrong and foolish part, Because he had skill to write a bit of verse. The blame be theirs who spoil'd him like a child, And, when the newness of his face was gone, Turn'd from him scornfully and smiled elsewhere. Teddy to blame ! — a silly, ignorant man, Not learn'd, not wise, not cunning in the world ! But hearken _how I changed him yet once more, One day when he was sick and ill with pain. I spake of all our early courting days. Full low and tender, of the happy time When I brought forth our girl, and of the words He spake when we were happy ; last of all, "Teddy," I said, "let people be unkind, The whole world hard, you cannot heal your pain Wastering, idling; think of merrier days. Of nie, and of our girl, and drink no more." He gazed at me full long, his bosom rose EDWARD CROWnURST, 127 And flutter'd, and he held my hand in his, And shivering, moaning, sank into a chair; And, looking at the bookshelf at his side. And at the common-looking thumb-mark'd books, He promised, promised, with his poor cheeks wet, And his voice broken, and his lips set firm. True Heart, he kept his word. The public-house Knew him no longer ; in the fields lie toil'd Lonely once more ; and in the evenings Read books and wrote, — and all he wrote, I know, Was sad, sad, sad. Bravely he workM all day, But not so cheerfully. And no man cared To brighten him with goodly words. His face Was stale with gentlefolk, his heart too proud To mix with coarse, low men. Oft in the fields They saw him turn his poor eyes Londonwards, And sigh ; but he was silent of the pain That grew upon him. Slowly he became The sadden'd picture of his former self : He stood at ploughtail looking at the clouds, He watch'd the ways of birds and trees and flowers ; But all the little things he learn'd and loved Had ta'en a sadder meaning. Oftentimes, 128 LONDON POEMS. In spite of all lie did to hide his heart, I saw he would have been a happy man If any one had praised him as of old ; But he was never sent for from the fields, No strangers wrote to cheer him, and he seem'd All, all, forgotten. Still, as true as steel, He held his promise to our girl and me, Though oft, I know, the dreadful longing came To fly to drink for comfort. Then, one night, I heard a stirring in the dark : our girl Crept close to me, and whisper'd in mine ear — " Hark ! father 's crying !" O 'tis terrible To hear a strong man weep ! I could not bear To find him grieving so, but crept unto him, And put my arms about him, on his neck Weeping, " O Teddy, Teddy, do not so ! Cheer up, for you will kill me if you cry. What do you long for ^ Why are you so sad 1" And I could feel him crush his hot tears down, And shake through every limb. " O lass !" he cried, *' I cannot give a name to what I want j I cannot tell you why I grow so sad i EDWARD CROWHURST. 129 But I have lost the pleasure and the peace The verses brought me. I am sick and changed, — I think too much of other men, — I seem Despised and useless. If I did not feel You loved me so, and were so kind and true, When all the world is cruel, I should fall And wither. All my strength is gone away, And I am broken !" 'Twas but little cheer That I could give him : that was grief too deep For foolish me to understand or cure. I made the little parlour bright o' nights, Coax'd him to read aloud the books he loved, And often he was like himself again, Singing for ease o' heart ; and now and then, A poem printed in a newspaper. Or something kind from people in the world, Help'd me a little. So the time wore on ; — Till suddenly, one night in winter time, I saw him change. Home came he white and pale. Shivering, trembling, looking wild and strange, Yet speaking quietly. " My head feels queer — It aches a bit 1 " he said j and the next day 130 LONDON POEMS. He could not rise from bed. Quiet he lay, But now and then I saw him raise his hand And hold his forehead. In the afternoon, He fell to troubled sleep, and, when he woke, He did not seem to know me. Full of fear, I sent for Doctor Earth. When Doctor came, He found poor Teddy tossing on bis bed, Moaning and muttering and clenching teeth, And Doctor said, '• The ill is on the brain — Has he been troubled lately?" and I cried, " Ay, much, much troubled ! He has fretted sore For many months ! " 'Twas sad, 'twas sad, to see My strong man suffer on his dull sick-bed. Not knowing me, but crying out of things That haunted him. I will not weary you, By telling how the Doctor brought him round, And how at last he rose from bed, the ghost Of his old self, and something gone away That never would return. Then it was plain That he could work no more : the Light had fled. Which keeps a man a man despite the world And all its cruel change. To fright the wolf, EDWARD CROWHURST. I3I I took in washing at the cottage liere ; And people sent us money now and then, And pitying letters reach'd us from the world, Too late ! too late ! Thank the good God above, Who made me strong and willing, I could keep The little house alcove us, though 'twas dear, And ah ! I work'd more hard because I knew Poor Teddy's heart would break outright elsewhere. Yet Teddy hardly seem'd to comprehend All that had happen'd. Though he knew me well. And spake full sensibly of many things, He lack'd the power to speak of one thing long. Sometimes he was as merry as a bird, Singing wild songs he learn'd by heart when young; Sometimes he wish'd to wander out a-field, But easy 'twas to lead his wits away To other things. And he was changeful ever, Now laughing and now crjang ; and at times He wrote strange notes to poets that were dead, And named himself by all their names in turn, Still making verse, which I had sense to see Was wild, and strange, and wrong — not like the verse I -12 LONDON POEMS. He made of old. One day for hours he sat, Looking upon the bit of garden ground, And smiUng. When I spoke, he look'd and laugh'd. " Surely you know me, Teddy?" I exclaimed ; And up he raised his head, with shrill thin voice Saying, " Yes, you are Queen Elizabeth, And I am Shakespeare ;" and again he smiled Craftily to himself; but when I hung Around his neck, and wept, and ask'd again, He turn'd upon me with so pale a look, So wan, so sharp, so full of agony, 'Twas clear the cloud was lifted for a moment, 'Twas clear he knew that he was Teddy Crowhurst, And that the light of life had gone away. And oft, in sunny weather, he and I Had walks in quiet places, — in the lanes, And in the woods, and by the river side ; And he was happy, pr}dng as of old In little mossy nests, or plucking flowers, Or dropping pebbles at the water-brim, To make the speckled minnows start and fly In little gleams of light. Ne'er had he been More cunning in the ways and looks of things, EDWARD CROWIIURST. I33 Though memory fail'd him when he tried for names. The sable streaks upon the arum-flower Were strange to him as ever ; a lark singing Made his eyes misty as it used to do ; The shining sun, the waving of green boughs, The rippling of the river down the dell, Were still true pleasure. All the seasons brought Something to charm him. Staring on the snow, Or making great snow-houses like a boy. He was as busy when the boughs were bare. As carrying home a bough of scented May Or bunch of yellow lilies from the pond. What had been pleasure in his younger days Came back to keep him quiet in the world. He gave much love to trees and birds and flowers, And, when the mighty world was all unkind, The Httle, gentle, speechless things were true. True Heart, I never thought that he could bear To last so long ; but ten slow years have fled Since the first book that brought the trouble and pain Was printed, — and within the parlour there Teddy is sitting, busy as a bee. Doing ] He dreams the world that knows him not 134 LONDON POEMS. Rings with his praises, and for many an hour Sits busy with the verse of later years, Marks, copies, and arranges it with care, To go to some great printer that he thinks Is waiting ; and from time to time he eyes The books they printed, numbering the lines, Counting the pages. Sometimes he is Burns, Sometimes John Milton, sometimes other men, And sometimes — always looking saddest then — Knows he is Teddy Crowhurst. Thin he is. And worn, and feeble, — wearing slowly down Like snowdrift ; and at times, when Memory Comes for a moment like a mirror flash'd Into his eyes, he does not groan and weep, Lut droops the more, and seems resign'd and still. True Heart, I fear the end is near at last ! He sits and hearkens vacantly and dreams, He thrills at every knocking at the door, Stilly he waits for light that never comes, That never will return until the end. And oft at evening, when my work is done. And the dark gathers, and he holds my hand, The waiting grows intenser, and becomes The sense o' life itself Take Teddy hence ! EDWARD CROWIIURST. I35 Show me the man will draw my hand away ! I am a quiet comfort to his pain ; For though his thoughts be far away from here, I know he feels my hand ; and ah ! the touch Just keeps his heart from breaking. 'Tis my joy To work where I can watch him through the day, And quiet him, and see he wants for nought. He loves to sit among his books and flowers, And wears away with little pain, and feels The quiet parlour is a pleasant place ; And there — God bless him ! — in a happy time Teddy will feel the darkness pass away, And smile farewell upon his wife and girl, And Light that he has lost will come again To shine upon him as he goes to sleep. VII. ARTIST AND MODEL: ?C 'Kobe poem. The scorn of the nations is bitter But the touch of a hand is warm. ARTIST AND MODEL. T S it not pleasant to wander . In town on Saturday night, While people go hither and thither, And shops shed cheerful light 1 And, arm in arm, while our shadows Chase us along the panes, Are we not quite as cozy As down among country lanes ? Nobody knows us, heeds us, Nobody hears or sees, And the shop-lights gleam more gladly Than the moon on hedges and trees ; I40 LONDON POEMS. And people coming and going, All upon ends of their own, Though they work a spell on the spirit, Make it more finely alone. The sound seems harmless and pleasant As the murmur of brook and wind ; The shops with the fruit and the pictures *• -I Have sweetness to suit my mmd ; And nobody knows us, heeds us, And our loving none reproves, — 7, the poor figure-painter ! You, the lady he loves ! And what if the world should scorn you, For now and again, as you do, Assuming a country kirtle, And bonnet of straw thereto, Or the robe of a vestal virgin, Or a nun's gray gabardine, And keeping a brother and sister By standing and looking divine? '^, ARTIST AND MODEL. I4I And what if the world, moreover, Should silently pass me by, Because, at the dawn of the struggle, I labour some stories high ! Why, there 's comfort in waiting, working, And feeling one's heart beat right, — And rambling alone, love-making. In London on Saturday night. For when, with a blush Titianic, You peep'd in that lodging of mine, Did I not praise the good angels For sending a model so fine 1 When I was fill'd with the pureness You brought to the lonely abode. Did I not learn to love you ? And — did Love not lighten the load ? And haply, indeed, little darling. While I yearn'd and plotted and plann'd, And you watch'd me in love and in yearning, Your heart did not quite understand 142 LONDON POEMS. All the wonder and aspiration You meant by your loveliness, All the faith in the frantic endeavour Your beautiful face could express ! •For your love and your beauty have thriven On things of a low degree, And you do not comprehend clearly The drift of a dreamer like me ; And perchance, when you look'd so divinely, You meant, and meant only, to say : " How sad that he dwells in a garret ! And lives on so little a day!" What of that? If your sweetness and beauty, And the love that is part of thee. Were mirror'd in wilder visions, And cxprcss'd much more to me, Did the beautiful face, my darling. Need subtler, loftier lore?— Nay, beauty is all our wisdom, — We painters demand no more. ARTIST AND MODEL. 143 Indeed, I had been no painter, And never could hope to rise. Had I lack'd the power of creating The meanings for your sweet eyes ; And what you were really thinking Scarcely imported, in sooth, — Since the truth we artists fail for. Is the truth that looks the truth. Your beautiful face was before me, Set in its golden hair; And the wonder and love and yearning Were shining sublimely there ! And your eyes said — "Work for glory! Up, up, where the angels call !" And I understood, and I labour' d, And I love the face for it all ! I am talking, you think, so strangely! And you watch with Avondering eyes !- Could I utter one half of the yearning Your face, even now, implies ! 144 LONDON POEMS. But the yearning will not be utter'd, And never, ah ! never can be, Till the work of the world is over, And we see as immortals see. Yet bless thee for ever and ever, For keeping me humble and true. And w^ould that mine Art could utter The wisdom I find in you. Enough to labour and labour, And to feel one's heart beart right, And to wander unknown, love-making. In London on Saturday night ! You think : " How dearly I love him ! How dearly he loves me ! How sweet to live on, and love him. With children at my knee ! With the useless labour over. And comfort and leisure won, And clever people praising The work that he has done !" ARTIST AND MODEL. 145 I think : " How dearly I love her ! How dearly she loves me ! Yet tlie beauty the heart would utter Endeth in agony; And life is a climbing, a seeking Of something we never can see ! And death is a slumber, a dreaming Of something that may not be 1 '* And your face is sweetly troubled, Your little hand stirs on mine own For you guess at a hidden meaning, Since I speak in so tender a tone ; And you rain the yearning upon me You brought to my help before. And I ask no mightier wisdom, — We painters demand no more. And we shall live, my darling, Together till we grow old, And people will buy my pictures, And you will gather the gold, K 146 LONDON POEMS. And yov.r loveliness will reward rae, And sanctify all I do, And toiling for Love's sake, darling, I may toil for Fame's sake, too. Ah, dearest, how much you teach me, How much of hope and of light, Up yonder, planning and painting, And here on Saturday night ; And I turn sad eyes no longer From the pageant that passes around, And the vision no more seems weary, And the head may yet be crown'd ! And I ask no more from mortals Than your beautiful face implics,- The beauty the artist beholding Interprets and sanctifies. Who says that men have fallen. That life is wretched and rough 1 I say, the world is lovely. And that loveliness is enough. ARTIST AND MODEL. I47 So my doubting days are ended, And the labour of life seems clear; And life hums deeply around me, Just like the murmur here, And quickens the sense of living. And shapes me for peace and storm, — And dims my eyes with gladness When it glides into colour and form ! His form and His colour, darling, , Are all we apprehend, Though the meaning that underlies them May be utter'd in the end ; And I seek to go no deeper Than the beauty and wonder there, Since the world can look so wondrous, And your face can look so fair. For ah ! life's stream is bitter. When too greedily we drink, And I might not be so happy If I knew quite all you think ; I4S LONDON POEMS. And when God takes much, my darUng, He leaves us the colour and form, — The scorn of the nations is bitter, But the touch of a hand is warm VIII. NELL. She gazes not at her who hears, But, while the gathering darkness cries. Stares at the vacancy through tears. That burn upon her glistening eyes, Yet do not fall. Her hair falls free Around a face grown deathly thin ; Her elbow rests upon her knee. And in her palms she props her chin ; Her voice sounds hollow on the air And often, ere her tale is told, A groan disturbs her blank despair. And leaves a sense of bitter cold. NELL. "X/OU'RE a kind woman, Nan ! ay, kind and true! God will be good to faithful folk like you ! The neighbours all look black, and snap me short — Well, I shall soon be gone from Camden Court. You knew my Ned? A better, kinder lad never drew breath — We loved each other true, though never wed In church, like some who took him to his death : A lad as gentle as a lamb, but lost His senses when he took a drop too much — Drink did it all — drink made him mad when cross' d — He was a poor man, and they 're hard on such. So kind ! so true ! that life should come to this ! 152 LONDON POEMS. Gentle and good ! — the very week before The fit came on him, and he went amiss, He brought me home, and gave me, with a kiss, That musHn gown as hangs behind the door. II. O Nan ! that night ! that night ! When I was sitting in this very chair, Watching and waiting in the candle-light, And heard his foot come creaking up the stair, And turn'd, and saw him standing yonder, white And wild, with staring eyes and rumpled hair ! And when I caught his arm and call'd, in fright. He push'd me, swore, and pass'd Back to the door, and lock'd and barr'd it fast ! Then dropp'd down heavy as a lump of lead, Holding his brow, shaking, and growing whiter, And — Nan ! — just then the candle-light grew brighter. And I could see the hands that held his head. All red ! all red ! What could I do but scream? He groan'd to hear, Jump'd to his feet, and gripp'd me by the wrist ; " Be still, or I shall kill thee, Nell ! " he hiss'd. NELL. 153 And I was still for fear. " They 're after me — I 've knifed a man ! " he said. "Be still ! — the drink — drink did it — he is dcadT And as he said the word, the wind went by With a whistle and cry — The room swam round — the babe unborn seem'd to scream out, and die ! III. Then we grew still, so still. I couldn't weep— All I could do was cling to him and hark — And Ned was cold, cold, cold, as if asleep, But breathing hard and deep ; The candle flicker'd out — the room grew dark — And — Nan ! — although my heart was true and tried, — When all grew cold and dim, I shudder' d — not for fear of them outside, But just afraid to be alone with him : And he was hard, he was — the wind it cried — A foot went hollow down the court and died — What could I do but clasp his knees and cling % And call his name beneath my breath in pain % Until he raised his head a-listening. And gave a groan, and hid his face again \ 154 LONDON POEMS. " Ned ! Ned ! " I whisper'd — and he moan'd and shook — But did not heed or look ! " Ned ! Ned ! speak, lad ! tell me it is not true ! " At that he raised his head and look'd so wild ; Then, with a stare that froze my blood, he threw His arms around me, sobbing like a child, And held me close — and not a word was spoken — While I clung tighter to his heart and press'J him — And did not fear him, though my heart was broken — But kiss'd his poor stain'd hands, and cried, and bless'd him ! IV. Then, Nan, the dreadful daylight, coming cold With sound o' falling rain, — When I could see his face, and it look'd old, Like the pinch'd face of one as dies in pain ; Well, though we heard folk stirring in the sun, We never thought to hide away or run, Until we heard those voices in the street, That hurrying of feet. And Ned leap"d up, and knew that they had come. " Run, Ned ! " I cried, but he was deaf and dumb ! NELL. 155 *' Hide, Ned ! " I scream'd, and held him—" hide thee, man ! " He stared with bloodshot eyes, and hearken'd, Nan ! And all the rest is like a dream— the sound Of knocking at the door — A rush of men — a struggle on the ground— A mist — a tramp — a roar ; For when I got my senses back again, The room was empty, — and my head went round ! The neighbours talk'd and stirr'd about the lane, And Seven Dials made a moaning sound ; And as I listen'd, lass, it seem'd to me Just like the murmur of a great dark sea, And Ned a-lying somewhere, stiff and drown'd ! V. God help him ? God 701// help him ! Ay, no fear ! It was the drink, not Ned — he meant no wrong; So kind ! so good ! — and I am useless here. Now he is lost as loved me true and long. Why, just before the last of it, we parted, And Ned was calm, though I was broken-hearted ; And ah, my heart was broke ! and ah, I cried And kiss'd him, — till they took me from his side ; 156 LONDON POEMS. And though he died that way, (God bless him !) Ned Went through it bravely, calm as any there : They 've wrought their fill of spite upon his head, And — there 's the hat and clothes he used to wear ! VI. . . . That night before he died, I didn't cry — my heart was hard and dried ; But when the clocks went " one," I took my shawl To cover up my face, and stole away. And walk'd along the moonlight streets, where all Look'd cold and still and gray, — Only the lamps o' London here and there Scatter'd a dismal gleaming; And on I went, and stood in Leicester Square, Just like a woman dreaming : But just as " three " was sounded close at hand, I started and turn'd east, before I knew, — Then down Saint Martin's Lane, along the Strand, And through the toll-gate, on to Waterloo. How I remember all I saw, although 'Twas only like a dream ! — The long still lines o' lights, the chilly gleam Of moonshine on the deep black stream below; NELL. 157 While far, far, far awa}-, along the sky- Streaks soft as silver ran, And the pale moon look'd paler up on high, And little sounds in far-off streets began ! Well, while I stood, and waited, and look'd down, And thought how sweet 'twould be to drop and drown, Some men and lads went by, And I turn'd round, and gazed, and watch'd 'em go, Then felt that they were going to see him die, And drew my shawl more tight, and follow'd slow. How clear I feel it still ! The streets grew light, but rain began to fall ; I stopp'd and had some coffee at a stall, Because I felt .so chill ; A cock crew somewhere, and it seem'd a call To wake the folk who kill ! The man who sold the coffee stared at me ! I must have been a sorry sight to see ! More people pass'd — a country cart with hay Stopp'd close beside the stall, — and two or three Talk'd about //.^ I nioan'd, and crept away! 158 LONDON POEMS. VII. Ay, nearer, nearer to the dreadful place, All in the falling rain, I went, and kept my shawl upon my face, And felt no grief or pain — Only the wet that soak'd me through and through Seem'd cold and sweet and pleasant to the touch — It made the streets more drear and silent, too, And kept away the light I fear'd so much. Slow, slow the wet streets fill'd, and all were going, Laughing and chatting, the same way. And grayer, sadder, lighter, it was growing. Though still the rain fell fast and darken'd day! Nan ! — every pulse was burning — I could feel My heart was made o' steel — As, crossing Ludgate Hill, where many stirr'd, I saw Saint Paul's great clock and heard it chime, And hadn't power to count the strokes I heard, But strain'd my eyes and saw it was not time ; Ah ! then I felt I dared not creep more near, But went into a lane off Ludgate Hill, And sitting on a doorstep, I could hear The people gathering still ! NELL, 159 And still the rain was falling, falling, And deadening the hum I heard from there; And wet and stiff, I heard the people calling. And watch'd the rain-drops glistening down my hair. My elbows on my knees, my fingers dead, — My shav/1 thrown off, now none could see, — my head Dripping and wild and bare. I heard the murmur of a crowd of men, And next, a hammering sound I knew full well, For something gripp'd me round the heart ! — and then There carne the solemn tolling of a bell ! O Lord ! O Lord ! how could I sit close by And neither scream nor cry? As if I had been stone, all hard and cold, But listening, listening, listening, still and dumb, While the folk murmur'd, and the death-bell toll'd. And the day brighten'd, and his time had come. . . . . . Till — Nan ! — all else was silent, but the knell Of the slow bell! And I could only wait, and wait, and Avait, And what I waited for I couldn't tell, — At last there came a groaning deep and great — Saint Paul's struck " eight " — I scream'd, and seem'd to turn to fire, and fell ! l6o LONDON POEMS. VIII. God bless him, live or dead ! He never meant no wrong, was kind and true — They 've -vvrought their fill of spite upon his head — Why didn't they be kind, and take me too 1 And there 's the dear old things he used to wear, And here 's a lock o' hair ! And they 're more precious far than gold galore, Than all the wealth and gold in London town ! He'll never wear the hat and clothes no more, And I shall never wear the muslin gown ! And Ned ! my Ned ! Is fast asleep, and cannot hear me call ; — God bless you. Nan, for all you 've done and said, But don't mind me/ My heart is broke — that 's all ! IX. ATTORNEY SNEAK Sharp like a tyrant, timid like a slave, A little man, with yellow, bloodless cheek ; A snappish mingling of the fool and knave, Resulting in the hybrid compound — Sneak. ATTORNEY SNEAK. ■pUT execution in on Mrs Hart — If people will be careless, let them smart : Oh, hang her children ! just the common cry ! Am I to feed her family 1 Not I. I 'm tender-hearted, but I dare be just, — I never go beyond the law, I trust ; I 've work'd my way, plotted and starved and plann'd, Commenced without a penny in my hand. And never howl'd for help, or dealt in sham — No ! I 'm a man of principle, I am. Wliat 's that you say 1 Oh, fa f/ier has been here ? Of course, you sent him packing'? Dear, oh, dear ! 164 LONDON POEMS. When one has work'd his weary way, like me, To comfort and respectability, Can pay his bills, and save a pound or two, And say his prayers on Sunday in a pew. Can look the laws of England in the face, 'Tis hard, 'tis hard, 'tis shame, and 'tis disgrace, That one's own father — old and worn and gray — Should be the only hindrance in his way. Swore, did he 1 Very pretty! Threaten'd? Oh! Demanded money? You, of course, said "No?" 'Tis hard — my life will never be secure — • He '11 be my ruin some day, I am sure. I don't deny my origin was low — All the more credit to myself, you know : Mother (I never saw her) was a tramp, Father half tramp, half pedlar, and whole scamp, Who travell'd over England with a pack, And carried me about upon his back, Trudging from door to door, to feasts and fairs, Cheating the silly women with his wares. Stealing the farmers' ducks and hens for food, Pilfering odds and ends where'er he could, ATTORNEY SNEAK. 165 And resting in a city now and then, Till it became too hot, — and off again. Beat me ? No, he knew better. I confess He used me with a sort of tenderness ; But would have warp'd my nature into sin, Had I been weak, for lack of discipline. Why, even now, I shudder to the soul. To think how oft I ate the food he stole, And how I wore upon my back the things He won by cheats and lawless bargainings. Oh, he had feelings, that I freely say ; But, without principle, what good are they ? He swindled and he stole on every hand, And I was far too young to reprimand ; And, for the rest, why, he was circumspect, And might have been committed for neglect. Ah ! how I managed, under stars so ill, To thrive at all, to me is mystery still. In spite of father, though, I got along. And early learn'd to judge the right from wrong 5 At roadsides, when we stopp'd to rest and feed, He gave me lessons how to write and read, l66 LONDON POEMS. I got a snack of schooling here and there, And learn'd to sum by instinct, as it were. Then, latterly, when I was seventeen, All sorts of evil I had heard and seen ; Knew father's evil ways, bemoan'd my fate, Long'd to be wealthy, virtuous, and great ; Swore, with the fond ambition of a lad. To make good use of what poor gifts I had. At last, tired, sick, of wandering up and down, Hither I turn'd my thoughts, — to London town ; And finally, with little doubt or fear, Made up my mind to try my fortune here. Well, father stared at first, and shook his head ; But when he found I held to what I said. He clasp'd me tight, and hugg'd me to his heart, And begg'd and pray'd that I would not depart ; Said I was all for whom he had to care. His only joy in trudging here and there ; Vow'd, if I ever left him, he would die, — Then, last of all, of course, began to ciy. You know how men of his position feel ? Selfish, at best, even when it is real ! ATTORNEY SNEAK. 167 I tried to smooth him over, and, next day, I pack'd what things I had, and ran away. I need not tell you all my weary fight, To get along in life, and do aright — How often people, when I sought a place, Still push'd my blessed father in my face ; Until, at last, when I was almost stark, Old Lawyer Hawk made me his under-clerk ; How from that moment, by avoiding wrong, Possessing principle, I got along ; Read for the law, plotted, and dream'd, and plann'd, Until — I reach'd the height on which I stand. 'Twas hard, 'twas hard ! Just as my business grows, In father pops his miserable nose, Steps in, not sober, in a ragged dress, And worn tenfold with want and wickedness; Calls me hard names because I wish'd to rise ; Here, in the office, like a baby cries ; Smothers my pride with shame and with disgrace, Till, red as fire, I coax'd him from the place. l68 LONDON POEMS. What could I do under so great a blow ? I gave him money, tried to make him go; But ah ! he meant to rest, I plain could see, His ragged legs 'neath my mahogany ! No principle ! When I began complaining, HoAV he would be my ruin by remaining, He turn'd upon me, white and wild, and swore, And would have hit me, had I utter'd more. " Tommy," he dared to say, " you 've done amiss ; I never thought to see you come to this. I would have stopp'd you early on the journey, If I had ever thought you 'd grow attorney, Sucking the blood of people here in London ; But you have done it, and it can't be undone. And, Tommy, I will do my best to see You don't at all disgrace yourself and me." I rack'd my brains, I moan'd and tore my hair, Saw nothing left but ruin and despair ; Father at hand, why, all would deem me low : "Sneak's father? humph !" — the business would go. ATTORNEY SNEAK. 169 The labour of long years would come to nought ! At last I hit upon a happy thought : Why should not father, if he pleased to be, Be decent and respectable like me ; He would be glad and grateful, if a grain Of principle were settled in his brain. I made the offer, — proud he seem'd and glad, — There rose a hope he 'd change to good from bad, Though, " Tommy, 'tis a way of getting bread I never thought to come upon," he said; And so I put him in the office here, A clerk at five and thirty pounds a year. I put it to you, could a man do more ? I felt no malice, did not close my door. But gave the chance to show if he was wise : He had the world before him, and could rise. Well, for a month or more, he play'd no tricks, Writ-drawing, copying, from nine to six, Not smart, of course, nor clever, like the rest, But trying, it appear'd, to do his best ; I70 LONDON POEMS, But by and by he changed — old fire broke out — He snapp'd when seniors order'd him about — Came late to office, tried to loaf and shirk — Would sit for precious hours before his work, And scarcely lift a pen, but sleepily stare Out through the window at the empty air, And watch the sunshine lying in the lane, Or the bluebottles buzzing on the pane, And look as sad and worn and grieved and strange As if he ne'er had had a chance to change; Came one day staggering in a drunken fit ; Flatly refused one day to serve a writ. I talk'd, appeal'd, talk'd of my honest name, He stared, turn'd pale, swore loud, and out it came He hated living with that monkey crew. Had tried his best and found it would not do ; He could not bear, forsooth, to watch the tears Of people with the Law about their ears, Would rather steal his meals from place to place. Than bring the sorrow to a poor man's face — In fact, you see, he hated all who pay. Or seek their moneys in the honest way ; Moreover, he preferr'd a roadside crust, To cleanly living with the good and just : ATTORNEY SNEAK. 171 Old, wild, and used to roaming up and down, He could not bear to stagnate in a town ; To stick in a dark office in a street, Was downright misery to a man with feet ; Serving the law was more than he could bear, Give him his pack, his freedom, and fresh air. Mark that ! how base, ungrateful, gross, and bad ! His want of principle had made him mad. I gave him money, sent him off by train, And trusted ne'er to see his face again. But he came back. Of course. Look'd wan and ill, More ragged and disreputable still. Despairing, groaning, wretchedest of men, I granted him another trial then. Still the old story — the same vacant stare Out through the window at the empty air, More watching of the sunshine in the lane, And the bluebottles buzzing on the pane. Then more of tipsiness and drunken dizziness, And rage at things done in the way of business. 172 LONDON POEMS. I saw the very office servants sneer, And I determined to be more severe. At last, one winter morn, I went to him, And found him sitting, melancholy, grim. Sprawling like any schoolboy on his seat. And scratching drawings on a foolscap sheet : Here, an old hag, with half-a-dozen chits, Lash'd with a cat-o'-nine tails, labell'd " Writs ; " There, a young rascal, ragged as a daw. Drinking a cup of poison, labell'd " Law;" Elsewhere, the Devil, looking o'er a pile Of old indictments with a crafty smile. And sticking Lawyers on an office file ; And in a corner, wretchedly devised, A shape in black, that kick'd and agonised, Strung by a pauper to a gallows great, And underneath it written, " Tommie's fate !" I touch'd his arm, conducted him aside, Produced a bunch of documents, and cried : " Now, father, no more nonsense ! You must be No more a plague and a disgrace to me — If you won't work like others, you must quit; See, here are two subpoenas, there a writ, ATTORNEY SNEAK. I73 Serve these on Such-a-one and So-and-So. Be sharp, — and mind your conduct, or you go." He never said a word, but with a glare All round him, drew his thin hand through his hair, Turn'd white, and took the papers silently, Put on his hat, and peep'd again at me. Then quietly, not like a man in ire, Placed all the precious papers on the fire ! And turning quickly, ciying with a shout, " You, and all documents, be danui'd/" went out. He came again ! Ay, after wandering o'er The country as of old, he came once more. I gave him money, off he went ; and then, After a little yeai-, he came again ; Ay, came, and came, still ragged, bad, and poor, And he will be my ruin, I am sure. He tells the same old tale from year to year, How to his heart I ever will be dear ; ^ Or oft into a fit of passion flies, Calls me ungrateful and unkind, — then cries, Raves of his tenderness and suffering, And mother's too and all that sort of thing ! 174 LONDON POEMS. He haunts me like a goblin pale and grim, And — to be candid —I 'm afraid of hira ; For, ah ! all now is hopeless, to my cost, — Through want of principle the man is lost. — That 's Badger, is it 1 He must go to Vere, The Bank of England clerk. The writ is here. Say, for his children's sake, Ave will relent, If he '11 renew at thirty-five per cent. BARBARA GRAY. A mourning woman, robed in black, Stands in the twilight, looking back ; Her hand is on her heart, her head Eends musingly above the Dead, Her face is plain, and pinch'd,and thin, But splendour strikes it from within BARBARA GRAY. I. " "p ARBARA GRAY ! Pause, and remember what the world will say," I cried, and turning on the threshold fled, When he was breathing on his dying bed ; But when, with heart grown bold, I cross'd the threshold cold. Here lay John Hamerton, and he was dead. And all the house of death was chill and dim, The dull old housekeeper was looking grim, The hall-clock ticking slow, the dismal rain Splashing by fits against the window-pane, The garden shivering in the twilight dark, "beyond, the bare trees of the empty park, M 178 LONDON rOEMS. And faint gray light upon the great cold bed, And I alone ; and he I turn'd from, — dead. III. Ay, " dwarf" they called this man who sleeping lies j No lady shone upon him with her eyes, No tender maiden heard his true-love vow, And pressed her kisses on the great bold brow. "What cared John Hamerton? With light, light laugh, He halted through the streets upon his staff; Halt, lame, not beauteous, yet with winning grace And sweetness in his pale and quiet face ; Fire, hell's or heaven's, in his eyes of blue ; Warm words of love upon his tongue thereto ; Could win a woman's Soul with what he said. And I am here ; and here he lieth dead. IV. I would not blush if the bad world saw now How by his bed I stoop and kiss his brow ! Ay, kiss it, kiss it, o'er and o'er again. With all the love that fills my heart and brain. V, For where was man had stoop'd to me before, Though I was maiden still, and girl no morel Where was the spirit that had deign'd to prize BARBARA GRAV. 179 The poor plain features and the envious eyes ? What lips had whisper'd warmly in mine ears 1 When had I known the passion and the tears 1 Till he I look on sleeping came unto me, Found me among the shadows, stoop'd to woo me, Seized on the heart that flutter'd withering here, Strung it, and wrung it, with new joy and fear, Yea, brought the rapturous light, and brought the day, Waken'd the dead heart, withering away, Put thorns and roses on tlie unhonour'd head, That felt but roses till the roses fled ! Who, who, but he crept unto sunless ground, Content to prize the faded face he found 1 John Hamerton, I pardon all — sleep sound, my love, sleep sound ! VI. What fool that crawls shall prate of shame and sin ] Did he not think me fair enough to win 1 Yea, stoop and smile upon my face as none, Living or dead, save he alone, had done 1 Bring the bright blush unto my cheek, when ne'er The full of life and love had mantled there ? And I am all alone ; and here lies he, — The only man that ever smiled on me. l8o LONDON POEMS. VII. Here, in his lonely dwelling-house he lies, '"he light all faded from his winsome eyes : -one, alone, alone, he slumbers here, With wife nor little child to shed a tear ! Little, indeed, to him did nature give ; Nor was he good and pure as some that live, But pinch'd in body, warp'd in limb. He hated the bad world that loved not him ! VIII. Barbara Gray ! Pause, and remember how he turn'd away ; Think of your wrongs, and of your sorrows. Nay ! Woman, think rather of the shame and wrong Of pining lonely in the dark so long; Think of the comfort in the grief he brought, The revelation in the love he taught. Then, Barbara Gray ! Blush not, nor heed what the cold world will say ; But kiss him, kiss him, o'er and o'er again. In passion and in pain, With all the love that fills your heart and brain ! Yea, kiss him, bless him, pray beside his bed. For you have lived, and here your love lies dead. XL THE BLIND LINNET. tI yap iSei jx bpav, 6t(j1 y bpCiVTi p.7}Mv '7jv I5eiv y\vKij; Soph. CEd. Tyr. I THE BLIND LINNET. nPHE sempstress's linnet sings At the window opposite me ; — It feels the sun on its wings, Though it cannot see. Can a bird have thoughts 1 May be. II. The sempstress is sitting, High o'er the humming street. The little blind linnet is flitting Between the sun and her seat. 184 LONDON POEMS. All day long She stitches wearily there, And I know she is not young, And I know she is not fair ; For I watch her head bent down Throughout the dreary day, And the thin meek hair o' brown Is threaded with silver gray ; And now and then, with a start At the fluttering of her heart, She lifts her eyes to the bird, And I see in the dreary place The gleam of a thin white face, And my heart is stirr'd. HI. Loud and long The linnet pipes his song ! For he cannot see The smoky street all round. But loud in the sun sings he, Though he hears the murmurous sound ; For his poor, blind eyeballs blink, While the yellow sunlights fall, THE BLIND LINNET. 185 And he thinks (if a bird can think) He hears a waterfall, Or the broad and beautiful river Washing fields of corn, Flowing for ever Through the woods where he was bom ; And his voice grows stronger, While he thinks that he is there, And louder and longer Falls his song on the dusky air. And oft, in the gloaming still, Perhaps (for who can tell 1) The musk and the muskatel, That grow on the window sill, Cheat him with their smelL IV. But the sempstress can see How dark things be ; How black through the town The stream is flowing ; And tears fall down Upon her sewing. 1 86 L O N D O N P O E M S. So at times she tries, When her trouble is stirr'd, To close her eyes, And be blind like the bird. And then, for a minute, As sweet things seem, As to the linnet Piping in his dream ! For she feels on her brow The sunlight glowing, And hears nought now But a river flowing — A broad and beautiful river, Washing fields of corn. Flowing for ever Through the woods where she was born- And a wild bird winging Over her head, and singing ! And she can smell The musk and the muskatel That beside her grow, And, unaware. She murmurs an old air That she used to know ! XII. LONDON, 1864 1 i LONDON, 1864. I. ■\ 1 THY should the heart seem colder, As the song grows stronger and surer 1 Why should the brain grow darker, And the utterance clearer and purer 1 To lose what the people are gaining Seems often bitter as gall, Though to sink in the proud endeavour Were the bitterest of all. I would to God I were lying Yonder 'mong mountains blue, Smiling in sweet conceptions That were dried from my brow like dew. 190 LONDON POEMS. Burning, and aching, and yearning To conquer, to sing, and to teach, With the brain at white-heat, clutcliing At visions beyond ray reach, — But with never a feeUng or fancy I could utter in tuneful speech ! II. Yea ! that were richer and sweeter Than all that my soul hath found, — Than to see and to know, and be able To utter the knowledge in sound ; For the heart feels colder and harder, And a glory hath gone from me, And T hate, for I view so clearly, So much that I loved to see, And the far blue misty mountains Are grand as they used to be ! in. And Art, the avenging angel, Comes, with her still, gray eyes, Kisses my forehead coldly, Whispers to make me wise ; LONDON, 1S64. 191 And, too late, comes the revelation, After the feast and the play, That she works her end, not by giving, But cruelly taking away : By burning the heart till it shrivels, Scorching it dry and deep And changing the flower of living To a poor dried flower that may keep ! What wonder if often and often The passion, the wonder dies ; And I hate the terrible angel. And shrink from her passionless eyes, — Who, instead of the rapture and vision, I held as the poet's dower — Instead of the glory of living, The impulse, the splendour, the power- Instead of the singing raiment. The trumpet proclaiming the day, Gives, and so coldly, only A pipe whereon to play ! While the spirit of boyhood hath perish'd, And never again can be, And the singing seems so worthless, Since the glory hath gone from me,— 192 LONDON POEMS. Though the far blue misty mountains, And the earth and the air and the sea, And the manifold music and beauty, Are grand as they used to be ! IV. Is there a consolation For the joy that comes never again? Is there a balm remaining ? Is there a refuge from pain 1 Is there a balm to quiet The shame and the grief and the stinging 1 Only the sweet, strange sadness. That is the source of the singing. V. For the sound of the city is awful, As the people pass to and fro. And the friendless faces are dreadful. As they come, and thrill through us, and go; And the ties that bind us to others Of our error and weakness are born ; And our dear ones ever love dearest Those parts of ourselves that we scorn ; LONDON, 1864. 193 And the •weariness will not be uttefd, And the bitterness dare not be said, And we hood the proud nature with meanness To shut out the sight of our Dead ! And what, then, remaineth as solace ] Dear ones, or fortune, or fame 1 Only the sweet singing sadness Cometh between us and shame. VI. And there dawneth a time to the Poet, When the bitterness passes away, When his heart is humbled in silence, And he kneels in the dark to pray ; And the prayer is turn'd into music, And the music findeth a tongue. And Art, the cold angel, seems kinder, And comforts the soul she has stung. Then the Poet, worn with the struggle, Findeth his loss is his gain : The sweet singing sadness is stranger, Though nought of the glory remain ; And the awful sound of the city. And the temble faces around, N 194 LONDON POEMS. Take a truer, tenderer meaning, And pass into sweetness and sound ; The mystery deepens and deepens, Strange vanishings gleam from the cloud, And the Poet, though often and often Stricken, and eyeless, and bow'd, Starteth at times from his wonder, And sendeth his Soul up aloud ! VII Lo ! I stand at the gateway of Honour, And see the lights flashing within, And I murmur these songs of the city, Its sorrow, its joy, and its sin ; And the sweetness is heavy upon me, Though grown of the past and its wrong; My losses are sure if that sweetness Be felt in the soul of the song. I murmur these songs of the city, And cast them as bread on the sea; And mine eyes are dim with the singing That is all in the world to me ! MISCELLANEOUS. I THE DEATH OF ROLAND. De Karlemane et de Rolant, Et d'Olivicr, et des vassaus, Qui moururent i. Rainscevaux I T^EAD was Gerard the fair, the woman-mouth'd, the gay, Who jested with the foe he slung his sword to slay ; Dead was the giant Guy, big-hearted, small of brain ; Dead was the hunchback Sanche, his red haunch slit in twain ; Dead was the old hawk Luz, and sleeping by his side His twin-sons, Charles the Fleet, and Pierre the serpent-eyed ; igS MISCELLANEOUS. Dead was Antoine, the same who swore to speak no word Till twice a hundred heads fell by his single sword ; Dead was the wise Gerin, who gripp'd both spear and pen; Sansun was dead, Gereir was dead ! — dead were the mighty men ! II. Then Roland felt his life return, and stirr'd, and cried. Felt down if Adalmar lay safe against his side, And smiled quietlie, for joy the sword was there, With heavy mailed hand push'd back his bloody hair, And lying prone upon his back, beheld on high The stars like leopard-spots strewn in the deep gray sky, And turn'd his head, and saw the great hills looming dim, And in the west the Moon with red and wasting rim; Then sighing deep, swung round his head as in a swoon, And met the hunchback's eyne, glazed beneath the Moon. THE DEATH OF ROLAND. I99 Chill was the air, and frosty vapours to and fro, Like sheeted shapes, in dim moonshine, crawl'd to and fro ; And Pvoland thought, because his wound had made him weak. The cold shapes breathed alive their breath upon his cheek, And crawling to his knees, shivering in the cold, Loosen'd his helm, and dimly gleaming down it roll'd ; And slowly his faint eyes distinguish'd things around, — The dark and moveless shapes asleep upon the ground, A helmet glittering dim, a sword-hilt twinkling red, A white horse quivering beside a warrior dead, And in one moonlit place a ring on a white hand, When Roland thought, " Gerard ! the merriest of the band !" And no one stirr'd ; behind, the hills loom'd cold and dim ; And in the west the waning Moon with red and wasting rim. Ill Then Roland cried aloud, " If living man there be Among these heaps of slain, let that man answer me !" 200 MISCELLANEOUS. And no man spake. The wind crept chilly over all, But no man felt it breathe, or heard the leader call. " Ho, Olivier ! Gerin ! speak, an' ye be not dead 1" Small voices of the hills afar off echoed, — Only a heathen churl rose cursing on his side, And spat at him who spake, and curl'd his limbs, and died. Then Roland's mighty heart was heavy with its woes, — When suddenly, across the fields, faint radiance rose, First a faint spark, and then a gleam, and then a glare, Then smoke and crimson streaks that mingled in the air. And as the thick flame cleard, and the black smoke swam higher. There loom'd beyond a shape like one girt round with fire. And Roland cried aloud, because his joy was great, And brandish'd Adalmar, and fell beneath the weight, And lying prone strain'd eyes, and, gazing through the night. Still saw the glittering shape girt round with smoky light. And seemed in a dream, and could not think at all, Until his heart rose up, and he had strength to crawl, THE DEATH OF ROLAND, 201 Then like a bruised worm weary he crept and slow, Straining his fever'd eyes lest the sweet light should go, And often paused to breathe, feeling his pulses fail, 'Mong heathens foul to smell and warriors clad in mail. But coming near the light beheld the godly man, Turpin the archbishop, unhelm'd and gaunt and wan, — Gripping with skinny hand the ivory Cross sat he, Clad head to heel in bright white mail and propp'd against a tree. IV. And when on hands and knees the stricken chief came near, The Bishop raised the Cross, and knew his comrade dear; And Roland did not speak, though tears were in his ee, But touch'd the blessed Cross, and smiled painfullie ; While, "Glory be to God !" the Bishop faintly said, "Thou livest, kinsman dear, though all the rest be dead ! For while I linger'd here and listen'd for a sound, And in the dim red moon beheld the dead around. Thinking I heard a cry, I sought to cry again. But all my force had fled, and I was spent with pain ; 202 MISCELLANEOUS. When, peering round, I saw this heathen at my heel. And search'd his leathern scrip and found me flint and steel, Then crawl'd, though swooning-sick, and found his charger gray, And searching in the bags found wither'd grass and hay, And made a fire, a sign for thee, whoe'er thou wert. And fainted when it blazed, for I am sorely hurt ; And waken'd to behold thee near, wounded and weak, The red fire flaming on thy face, thy breath upon my cheek." V. Then those brave chiefs wrung hands, and as the smoky flare Died out, and all was dark, the Bishop said a prayer. And shadows loom'd out black against the frosty shine, While Turpin search'd his pouch and murmur'd, " Here is wine !" And Roland on his elbows raised himself and quafi"'d, Drank, till his head swam round, a deep and goodly draught, THE DEATH OF ROLAND. 203 And quickly he felt strong, his heart was wild and light, And placed his dear sword softly down, and rose his height, Loosening his mail, drew forth the shirt that lay beneath. And took the blood-stain'd silk and tore it Avith his teeth, And dress'd the Bishop's wounds with chilly hand and slow, Then, while the Bishop pray'd, bound up his own wide wound alsoe. VI. Then Roland search'd around, dipping his hands in blood. Till in a henchman's pack he found a torch of wood. And taking flint and steel, blew with his mouth, and lo! The torch blazed bright, and all grew crimson in the glow; And gave the torch unto the man of holy fame, Who glittering like fire, sat sickening in the flame. And crept across the mead, into the dark again. And felt the faces of the slain, seeking the mighty men. 204 MISCELLANEOUS. VII. Bless'd be thy name^ white Mary, for thy breath and hght, Like vapour cold, did fill the nostrils of thy knight ! Yea, all his force came back, his red wound ceased to bleed, And he had hands of strength to do a blessed deed ! For one by one he found each well-beloved head, Sought out the mighty chiefs, among the heaps of dead. Softly unloosed their helms, let the long tresses flow, Trail'd them to Turpin's feet and set them in a row ; And underneath the tree the pine-torch blazed bright On dreadful shapes in mail and faces ghastly white : Sansun, who held his sword with grip that ne'er un- loosed ; Gerin, with chin on breast, as if he breathed and mused; Great Guy, with twisted limbs, and bosom gash'd and bare. And blood-clots on his arms the cold had frozen there; Old Luz, his skinny hands fill'd with a foeman's beard ; Charles with his feet lopp'd off, Pierre with his green eye spear'd; THE DEATH OF ROLAND. 20$ Sanche, the fierce woman's foe, and round his neck, behold ! A lock of lady's hair set in a ring of gold ; Antoine, with crafty smile, as if new fights he plann'd ; Gerard, still smiling on the ring upon his hand ; And, brightest of the band, our Roland's comrade dear. The iron woman-shape, the long-lock'd Olivier, Who gript the bladeless hilt of Durandal his pride, And held it to his kissing lips, as when he swoon'd and died. VIII. And Turpin raised the torch, counted them one by one : " Ah, woe is me, sweet knights, for now your work is done ! " Then, reaching with the Cross, he touch'd their brows and cried : *' White Mary take your souls, and place them at her side ! White Mary take your souls, and guard them ten- derlie, — For ye were goodly men as any men that be ! " And Roland stooping touch'd the brow of Olivier, Smoothing the silken hair behind the small white ear, 206 MISCELLANEOUS, And cried, "Ah, woe is me, that we should ever part!" And kiss d him on the foamy lips, and swoon'd for ache of heart. IX. And Turpin dropp'd the torch, that flamed upon the ground. But meeting new-shed blood, went out with hissing sound; He groped for Roland's heart, and felt it faintly beat, And, groping on the earth, he found the wine-flask sweet. And fainting with the toil, slaked not his own great drouth, - But, shivering, held the flask to Roland's foamy mouth : E'en then, his Soul shot up, and in its shirt of steel The corse sank back with crash like ice that cracks beneath the heel. X. The frosty night-Avind waken'd Roland from his swound. And, spitting salt foam from his tongue, he look'd around, THE DEATH OF ROLAND. 207 And saw the Bishop dear lying at length close by, — Touch'd him, and found him cold, and utter'd up a cry: " Now, dead and cold, alas ! lieth the noblest wight For preaching sermons sweet and wielding sword in fight; His voice was as a trump that on a mountain blows, He scatter'd oils of grace and wasted heathen-foes, — White Mary take his soul, to join our comrades dear. And let him wear his bishop's crown in heaven above as here ! " XI. Then it grew chiller far, the grass grew moist with dew. The landskip glimmer'd pale, the hoary breezes blew, The many stars above melted like snow-flakes white, And far behind the hills the east was laced with light, The dismal vale loom'd clear against a crimson glow, Clouds spread above like wool, pale steam arose below, And on the faces dead the frosty morning came, On mighty men, and foes, and squires unknown to fame, 208 MISCELLANEOUS. And armed mail gleam'd bright, and broken steel gleam'd gray, And cold dew fill'd the wounds of those who sleeping lay; And Roland, rising, drank the dawn with lips apart, But scents were in the air tliat sicken'd his proud heart! Yea, all was deathly still; and now, though it was day, The moon grew small and pale, but did not pass away, The white mist wreath'd and curl'd over the ditterinor dead, A cock crew, far among the hills, and echoes answered. XII. Then peering to the east, across the deivy steam, He spied a naked wood, and there a running stream ; Thirsting full sore, he rose, and thither did he hie. Faintly, and panting hard, because his end was nigh ; But first he stooping loosed from Turpin's fingers cold The Cross inlaid with gems and wrought about with gold, And bare the holy Cross aloft in one weak hand. And with the other trail'd great Adalmar his brand. THE DEATH OF ROLAND. 209 Thus wearily he came into the woody place, And stooping to the stream dipped therein his face, And in the pleasant cold let swim his great black curls, Then swung his forehead up, glittering as with pearls; And while the black blood spouted in a burning jet, He loosed the bandage of his wound and made it wet. Wringing the silken bands, making them free from gore, Then placed them cool upon the wound, and tighten'd them once more. XIII. Eastward rose cloudy mist, drifting like smoke in wind. Ghastly and round the sun loom'd dismally behind. High overhead the moon faded with sickle chill. The frosty wind dropp'd down, and all was deathlier still, And Roland, drawing deep the breath of vapours cold, Beheld three marble steps, as of a niin old. And at the great tree-bolls lay many a carven stone, Thereto a, dial quaint, where slimy grass had grown; o 210 MISCELLANEOUS. And frosted were the boughs that gathered around, And cold the runlet crept, with soft and soothing sound, And Roland smiled sweet, and thought, " Since death is nigh, In sooth, I know no gentler place where gentle man could die 1" XIV. Whereon the warrior heard a sound of breaking boughs, And, from the thicket wild, leapt one with tanned brows ; Half-naked, glistening dark with oily limbs, he came, His long-nail'd fingers curl'd, his little eyes aflame, Shrieking in his own tongue, as on the chief he flew, " Yield thee thy sword of fame, and thine own flesh thereto !" Then Roland gazed and frown'd, though nigh unto his death, Sat still, and drew up all his strength in a great breath, Pray'd quickly to the saints he served in former days With right hand clutch'd the sword he was too weak to raise. THE DEATH OF ROLAND. 211 And in the left swung up the Cross, and, shrieking hoarse, Between the eyebrows smote the foe with all his force. Yea, smote him to the brain, crashing through skin and bone. And prone the heathen fell, as heavy as a stone, And gold and gems of price were loosen'd by the blow, And, as he fell, rain'd round the wild hair of the foe ; But Roland kiss'd the cross, and, laughing, backward fell. And on the hollow air the laugh rang heavy, like a knell. XV. And Roland thought : " I surely die ; but, ere I end, Let me be sure that thou art ended too, my friend ! For should a heathen hand grasp thee when I am clay. My ghost Vv'ould grieve full sore until the judgment day !" Then to the marble steps, under the tall bare trees, Trailing the mighty sword, he crawl'd on hands and knees, 212 MISCELLANEOUS, And on the slimy stone he struck the blade with might — The bright hilt, sounding, shook, the blade flash'd sparks of light ; Wildly again he struck, and his sick head went round, Again there sparkled fire, again rang hollow sound ; Ten times he struck, and threw strange echoes down the glade, Yet still unbroken, sparkling fire, glitter'd the peerless blade. XVI. Then Roland wept, and set his face against the stone — " Ah, woe, I shall not rest, though cold be flesh and bone !" And pain was on his soul to die so cheerless death ; When on his naked neck he felt a touch like breath, And did not stir, but thought, " O God, that madest me. And shall my sword of fame brandish'd by heathens be? And shall I die accursed, beneath a heathen's heel, Too weak to slay the slave whose hated breath I feel?" THE DEATH OF ROLAND. 213 Then, clenching teeth, he turn'd to look upon the foe, His bright eyes growing dim with coming death ; and lo ! His life shot up in fire, his heart arose again, For no unhallow'd face loom'd dark upon his ken. No heathen-breath he felt, — though he beheld, indeed, The white arch'd head and round brown eyes of Veillintif, his steed ! XVII. And pressing his moist cheek on his who gazed be- neath, Curling the upper lip to show the large white teeth, The white horse, quivering, look'd with melancholy eye, Then waved his streaming mane, and uttered up a cry; And Roland's bitterness was spent — he laugh'd, he smiled, He clasp'd his darling's neck, wept like a Httle child ; He kiss'd the foamy lips, and hugged his friend, and cried : " Ah, nevermore, and nevermore, shall we to battle ride ! 214 MISCELLANEOUS. Ah, nevermore, and nevermore, shall we sweet com- rades be ! And Veillintif, had I the heart to die forgetting thee ? To leave thy mighty heart to break, in slavery to the foel I had not rested in the grave, if it had ended so. Ah, never shall we conquering ride, with banners bright unfurl'd, A shining light 'mong lesser lights, a wonder to the world !" XVIII. And Veillintif neigh'd low, breathing on him who died. Wild rock'd his great strong heart beneath his silken hide. Tears roll'd from his brov/n eyes upon his master's cheek, And Roland, gathering strength, though wholly worn and weak, Held up tlie point of Adalmar the peerless brand, And at his comrade's heart push'd with his dying hand ; THE DEATH OF ROLAND. 215 And the black blood sprang forth, while heavily as lead, With quivering, silken side, the mighty steed fell dead ; And Roland, for his eyes with frosty film were dim, Groped for the steed, crept close, and sniiled, em- bracing him, And, pillow'd on his neck, kissing the pure white hair, Clasp'd Adalmar the brand, and tried to say a prayer, And that he conquering died, wishing all men to know, Set firm his lips, and turn'd his face towards the foe, And closed eyes, and slept, and never woke again. Roland is dead, the gentle knight ! dead is the crowTi of men ! THE SCAITH O' BARTLE; A TALE OF THE NORTH-EAST COAST, Fathoms deep the ship doth lie, Wreath'd with ocean weed and shell. The cod slips past with roun