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"L I E) RAFLY OF THE UN IVER.SITY Of ILLINOIS THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. / /;■■ \/i r^ THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. H IRoreL BV RITA," AUTHOR OF DAME DUDEEN." " GRETCHEX," "DARr,Y AXD JOAN,' "SHEBA," KTC, ETC. 7-V TJTBEE VOLUMES. VOL. I. LONDON : F. V. WHITE & CO., 31, SOUTHAMPTON STREET, STRAND, W.C. 1891. PKIKTED BY KELIiT AND CO., GATE STREET, LINCOLN'S INN PIEIiOS, AND KINGSTON-ON-'IHAMES. 4^ CONTENTS BOOK I. 5 CHAP. PAGE J2 I. — " Looking Back " .... 1 "'' II. — Taken into Confidence . . . 11 $^ III.~"The Laird " . . . . •>S ^ IT.— " Douglas '' 37 Y — a ^jjj, Kirk " 51 VI, — Oefended Prejudices ... G3 YIL — A Random Speech .... 78 "<- YIII. — Jealousy 93 : IX.-— Kelief 100 <^ X.— First Love 120 XL — Keeping up Appearance> . . . 133 ^ XII.— Day Dream-^ 143 - XIIL— The Old Story L5ft XIV.— The Witch's Cavern . . . 171 >^ XV. — "My Heart is 8air for Somebody" . 185 ^ XVL— "A Braw Wooer" . . .194 XV IL— Distrust 213 XVIII. — "Sounding the Depths". . . 226 XIX. — "Come Under myPlaidie". . . 244 Digitized by the Internet Archive in 2009 with funding from University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign http://www.archive.org/details/lairdocockpennov01rita THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. NEW^ NOVELS AT ALL LIBRARIES. 2 vols. vols. vols. THE OTHER MAN'S WIFE. By John Straxgk Wjntek. THE PLUNGER. By Hawlky Smart. •-> vols. JACK'S SECRET. By Mrs. Lovett Camkron. i A HOMBURG BEAUTY. By Mrs. Edward Kennahd. CRISS CROSS LOVERS. By The Honble. Mrs. H. W. Cuetwvnu. 3 vols. THAT AFFAIR. By Anme Thomas. 3 vol^. THE \^ AY SHE WON HIM. By Mrs. HOUSTOHN. 2 vols. APRIL'S LADY. By Mrs. Hungerpord, Author of "Molly Bawn. F. V. WHITE & CO., 31, Southampton Street, Strand, W.C. THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. BOOK I. CHAPTER I. " L K I X Cf B A C K . '* I " Comfort — comfort scorned of devils, This is truth, the poet sings, That a sorrow's crown of sorrow Is remembering happier things I " /^ " AVherever I wander, wherever I rove, The hills of the Highlands for ever I love." " Jean, have ye taken the bit lassie up her cup o' milk ? " "Deed no, mem, it liae just sleepit my memory, but I'll e'en go wi' it at once. I doubt if the bairn's wakin' though, she was ower tired the nicht." The voices roused ms and I sprang up from bed and went over to the window. It looked out on a small yard, and there stood VOL. I. 1 2 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. Jean the old Scotch servant whose voice I had heard. She was talking to Grannie, who was in the kitchen. I threw open the window and let the sweet June air into the quaint little room which I had only seen as yet by candlelight. The noise of the opening window attracted ^^aji^n's attention. She looked up and saw me. A look of alarm crossed her face — wrinkled and brown as a crab-apple. " Are ye daft, lassie, to be standing there wi' no covering save yon bit linen stuff? Back to bed wi' ye this minnit. We've no wish to ]iae ye sick on our hands, and a nice character ye brought too. Aye, but the mistress is gangin' to ye the noo, and siccan a scolding as she can give! But I'm just thinking ye'U be the better o' it." I retreated hastily — taking a flying leap back into the little white draped bed, which I had scarcely reached when the door opened to admit Grannie. Our acquaintance had been short — but short as it was I think I laughed in my "LOOKIN'G BACK." 3 sleeves at the bare idea of receiving a scolding or anything approaching it from the lips of that STveet-faced, gentle, old creature. My father was her eldest son, and I was his onlv child. He had sent me on a visit to her for two reasons, one, that I was in very dehcate health and the doctors had recom- mended Scotland, the other, that he had recently married again — a proceeding to which I had strongly objected, having even more than that proverbial dislike to a step- mother which the only daughters of widowed fathers are supposed to possess. "And how is my bairn this morning?" said Grannie, as she came towards me with a glass of warm milk in her hand that she had declared to be necessary for my health while I remained under her roof. " I am quite well, and not a bit tired," I said, kissing the dear old kindly face bent down in anxious tenderness to mine. " That is good to hear, dearie. -N'ow drink this, and then you may get up and dress. We'll soon put some colour in those white 1* 4 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. cheeks, je poor wee mite. Why your cousin Nannie — who's a bit bairn of ten 3^ears old — would make two o' ye. And how old is it you are, seventeen — eighteen ? " " Seventeen, Grannie, and three months." " And nae much to show for it, dearie," she said, smiling. '• What will ye look like beside our bouncing Scotch lassies, and your ain cousins, the Camerons, among them? Some of them are sure to be here the morn — they were so anxious to see you. Indeed they wished to be here last night to welcome you, but I said no. I knew you would be tired after the long journey from the South." She smoothed my hair and kissed me again. I thought I had never heard anything so sweet as this slow, soft speech of hers, with its measured accents and occasional use of Scotch expressions and phrases which were as yet unfamiliar to my English ears. Ah! how dear and how well-remembered that accent and those expressions were destined to become to me ! I should like to have detained her there "Lookin'Ct back.' 5 for long. It was new to me to be caressed and petted and made much of, and I possessed a nature which had an absolute craving for love. Not a very safe nature I fear — and one apt to be jealous as well as exacting. A nature that could not but lead to suffering and sorrow in the future, being far less capable of enjoyment than of suspicion, of analysis than of acceptance. But at the present moment my whole heart went out in a flood of tenderness and delight to this grave-eyed, sweet-faced, old Scotch lady, with her gentle- dignity, her kindl}' grace of manner, her fond protecting air of possession and regard, the like of which I had never met before. My heart had gone out to her from the moment I saw her face and heard her sweet voice, and warm and kindly welcome. I was " her bairn " from that hour. Something- for her to love, and cherish, and protect, and care for. A new interest in her life, so she told me, even as she was a wonder and delight to me. Oh, Grannie, Grannie, I look back on all that happy time of my youth — I, a saddened, 6 THE LAIRD 0' CCCKPLN. sorrowing woman now — I look back and wonder what you w^ould say if you knew what your " bairn " had suffered. I look back and I think of all your gentle words and kindly councils, and sometimes, in the long dark hours of sleepless nights, 1 hear your voice again. How it warned me, how it counselled me, and I, in youth's headstrong fashion, would only laugh and jest. I do not laugh now. Grannie, but you can- not know that, for between " your bairn '^ and you is the gulf of a great mysterious silence — set it seems to me for ever — the silence of the grave. Grannie — that we cannot bridge, thouo^h our hearts shcaild break for sign or word of each other. ***** Poor old tear-stained book — the journal of those days in my Highland home, and among the dearest, kindliest folk it has ever been my lot to meet ! How strange it seems to me to read these pages, and the historj^ they record. How strange to remember what I was, and think of what I have become ! "LOOKIXa BACK.' 7 I opened that journal Tvith a heart as pure, a life as stainless, as its own pages. I think now, as I look on them with a woman's eyes, that the marred irregular lines, and the tears that have stained them, are no unfitting representative of that life's after history. Grannie soon left me on this special mornino'— the morning after mv arrival at Craig Bank, as her little house was called. It was but a small place on the outskirts of Inverness, but to me it seemed a paradise of loveliness, with its quaint old-fashioned garden, full of fruit trees, and roses, and strawberry beds, and useful kitchen stuff, all mingled together in a fashion that would have horrified an orthodox gardener. I made my toilet rapidly, and ran down- stairs to the parlour, where breakfast was laid and waiting. The supply of hot scones, and fish, and fancy bread, and marmalade, the thick cream and delicious butter, astonished my English tastes, used only to the inevitable fried bacon and watery milk of a London lodoring-house. I made a meal that aston- 8 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. ished myself, thougli Grannie lamented my poor appetite, and was perpetually comparing it with that of " Nannie," the ten-year-old lassie of whom she had spoken before. I began to feel some curiosity about these cousins. There were a great many of them — ten altogether, I had heard — the eldest being a son some twenty years old, then five daughters, then two more sons, and finally the redoubtable " Xannie " and a small sister of eight, who completed the family. Grannie assured me they would be round soon after breakfast — some of them at least — and I awaited their advent in the garden while she went about household duties. I had not been there very long when the sound of voices reached me, and old Jean appeared to summon me into the house. I followed her into the little parlour as they called it, and my first impression was that it was filled to overflowing with a feminine crowd of all ages and sizes. There was my Aunt Margaret to begin with, who gave me a most affectionate '^LOOKING BACK.-' 9 welcome, then tlie eldest daughter, Flora, aged nineteen, a fak-haired, handsome girl, who seemed inclined to be patronizing. Then a dark haired, rosy-cheeked damsel, who seemed brimming over with fun and laughter, as if life had never ceased to be one huge joke to her ; this was Bella, to whom my heart went out as spontaneously as her own greeting. The others, Maggie, Jessie, Eosa and Nannie, were grour^ed together in mv memory as parts of a whole with no very distinguishing characteristics. I felt a little shy and awkward at first, more especially as I had to undergo a fire of questions and personal remarks as to which side of the family I " favoured." However, as they unanimously agreed it was the Scotch side and not the English, I was received with general approbation. My Aunt Margaret was very kind. She resembled my father, and was his favourite sister she informed me. She was rather inclined to pity me as a poor, weak, sickly offshoot of a very healthy and well-favoured line, but I 10 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. took the compassion very indifferently. I knew very little of the family, or the " lang pedigree " on which the}^ prided themselves, and which ran back to the days of the Bruce. But I thought them all very frank and kind, and I liked that slow, soft drawl in their speech, and the faint Scotch accent, which was so apparent, 3:et which none of them imagined they possessed. After a while Grannie suggested that some of them should take me off and show me what the town was like, which Flora and Bella eagerly agreed to do. My aunt then insisted that I should come back with them for some lunch or " piece " as she called it, and be introduced to my Uncle Jamie and the eldest son Kenneth ; so all this being duly arranged, I ran upstairs for my hat, and in a few moments was walking along to Union Street between my two cousins, feeling smaller and more insignificant than ever beside two such tall and well-developed specimens of young womanhood. CHAPTEE II. TAKEX IXTO CONFIDENCE. " The Laird o' Cockpeu he's proud and he's great ; His mind is ta'en up wi' the things o' the state ; He wanted a wife his braw house to keep, But favour wi' wooin' was fashions to seek." —Old Song. I AM afraid I was not so miicli impressed by the be'auty of the town as my cousins expected. To a girl who had seen London and Paris, and most of the great continental cities, the httle capital of the Highlands as it appeared twenty years ago was not very imposing. I liked the ancient part of the town best, and the view from the castle delighted me, as did also the graceful Gothic beauty of the cathedral. Bella pointed out Craig-Phadric, and the singulary shaped hill of Tom-na-hurich, 12 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. wliicli was laid out as a cemetery, and wliere slie suggested tliey sliould take me next day if I was strono' enough for the walk. " You are very delicate, are you not ? " she asked. " Grannie said so ; you certainly are the wee-est creature I ever saw. Are you really seventeen ? " " Indeed I am," I said. "Don't I look it?" She laughed. "You look about ten," she said. " Who ever saw such hands and feet ? You're not much taller than our Nannie." " Oh, that's what Grannie is always saying," I answered pettishly. "I don't know why I should be compared with a child like Nannie. "Why I'm quite grown up." " What a pettish wee creature it is," laughed Bella. "You've been spoilt. Miss, I make no doubt. Being Uncle Jock's only child " "Indeed," I interrupted, "I have not been spoilt, far from it. My life has been very lonely, and I have always had the feeling that I never was wanted bv anvone." TAKEN INTO CONTIDEN'CE. 13 The two oirls looked at me somewhat curiously. " Oh, that's not possible," they said in a joint chorus of disbelief. " Surely Uncle Jock was fond of you," added Bella. "Why do you call him that .^ " I asked. " It's not his name." " Grannie and mother always called him so," said Flora, " and everyone who knew him as a boy does the same." "Here comes Alick IMacpherson," said Bella suddenly. She looked at me with a mischievous gleam I— in her dark eyes. " Look how Flora is blushing," she whispered. "He's her beau." I surveyed the approaching youth with some curiosity. He was tall, fair, ruddy, like most Scotch youths, and had a somewhat awkward manner. He came up to my cousins and shook hands with them, remark- ing that the day was " verra warm." His accent was very pronounced ; he had not long left the University of Glasgow, where he 14 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. had been studying for the medical profession. They addressed him as "Alick," though he called them Miss Cameron and Miss Bella most scrupulously. When I was introduced to him he favoured me with a somewhat curious stare, and then shook hands. I men- tally pronounced him " uncouth," but he was a good-hearted, kindly young fellow, and I grew to like him very much as I knew him better. The two girls chatted away very frankly with him. I remained silent, drinking in draughts of the pure, sweet air, and watching the effects of sun and shadow on the Ness. My attention was at last drawn to the conversation by hearing myself addressed. I turned and met the blue eyes of young Macpherson fixed on me. "I was just saying. Miss Lindsay, that I know my mother and sister would be so pleased to know you. Could you not join your cousins to-morrow night? They are coming to drink tea with us." " I should be very pleased," I said. " But I am staying with my grandmother at Craig TAKEN INTO CONFIDENCE. 15 Bank, and I'm not sure if she would be willing to spare me, or have made any other plans." " Oh, I'll walk round to Craig Bank and ask her," he said cheerfully. " She'll no mind. She and I are auld friends, you know." I did not know, but I was content to take his word for it, and to be drawn into the conversation by degrees, though it concerned people and places about whom I was very is^norant. Alick Macpherson seemed to know evervone in or about Inverness, and he planned a number of walks and excursions for us if the fine weather should last. As my curiosity had been aroused by Bella's whisper, I watched him and Flora with great interest. Lovers and sweethearts were to me an unknown species. My only acquaintance with them I owed to books. I cannot say that either Flora or Alick behaved according to my pre-conceived notions. They seemed singularly cool and commonplace. 16 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. Presently Bella suggested I should walk round tlie Castle with her, and she would show me her father's office. "They'll be having something to say to one another," she remarked, as she slipped my arm in hers. "Are they really in love ? " I asked, deeply interested. " He looks very — young — does he not?" " He is two-and-twenty," said Bella. " As for being in love — well — that I can't well say. He has always dangled after Flora, and he dances with her more than with any other girl and takes her for walks to the Islands. We always look upon that as a sign of ' intentions ' here. You must see the Islands ; they're just a grand place for sweethearts." " And is he Flora's onl}^ sweetheart ? " I asked. " Well, I wouldn't be too sure of that," answered Bella. " She's rather a bit of a flirt, in a quiet wa}^ and she's very much admired in Inverness. She went to the TAKEN IXTO CONFIDENCE. 17 Northern Meetings Ball last year and she was quite the belle of the evening." " Did YOU go also ? " " Oh, no ; I don't care for dancing. I'm just a 'house-wife' as father says. I have quite enough to do looking after the children and their clothes and one thing and another. I can't spare time for balls and parties ; when Flora's married it will be time enough to think of myself." She went on to tell me then of family anxieties, of her mother's delicate health, and the children's various requirements, of the difficulty of balancing a small income with the ever increasing expenses of a large family, and she left me with a very sincere admiration for the genuine unselfishness and good temper with which she had chosen to take this burden on her own shoulders. That honest, frank sympathy induced as frank a response on my part, and I told her all about myself. How strange and wandering a life I had led — how unhappy VOL. I. 2 18 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. I had been in my lonely, unheeded childhood — how my father's second marriage had seemed to estrange us more than ever, and iinall}^ how my health had broken down and the doctors had advised him to send me to Scotland for six months to try the effect of my native air as a last resource, when tonics and cod-liver oil had failed to benefit me. " Oh, we will soon alter all that," said Bella cheerfully. " You want plenty of fresh air and good milk and porridge, that's the stuff for you, I'm sure. Why, you're so slight, I should be afraid to trust you in a gale of wind. You'd be blown into the Canal. And do you ever have any colour ? You look like a white rose beside us all." " That is very poetical," I said laughing. " But I am too dark for the simile. I am more like a yellow rose if it comes to that " " You are a very pretty rose," she said frankly, " and I expect you'll be turning TAKEN INTO CONFIDENXE. 19 tlie heads of half the young men m the town, before you've been here a month." I surveyed her in genuine astonishment. " My dear Bella," I exclaimed. " Pretty ! — I — what are you talking of? Why, if there's one thing that has been dinned into my ears from the time I can remember, it is that I am hopelessly ugly, small, sallow, thin — why, I haven't a good point about me." " We'll soon see about that," lauijhed Bella. '• Of course, Tm not meaning that you're very extraordinarily good-looking at present, but anyone can see what you would be once vou ^jot colour and «• >_ plumpness." " Well, please don't discuss my appear- ance," I said, " it makes me feel uncom- fortable. Tell me some more about Flora and yourself." "About myself there's not much to tell. You know, in a big family like ours, there's generally one to pipe while the others dance. Flora is different. She is very 2* 20 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. clever and, as everyone says, very pretty. I've no talents, and nothing but a knack of liousewifery and managing to make me of any special use. But I like it. I couldn't play the piano, or dance, or do anything like Mora does, but I'm a very good cook," she added, laughing, " and I can keep the whole house going with only one servant, and that's no easy matter." "What a good wife you will make," I exclaimed with involuntary admiration. " I, oh, no ! " and she laughed merrily. " I am going to be an old maid, my dear ; I'm just cut out for it ; they will always tell you that at home." " Perhaps," I said, " they only say so in order to keep you with them. If I were a man " " Well ? " and the merry eyes looked down at mine and the bright smile flashed its light and warmth over the kindly face. " I'm very sure," I said emphaticallj^ " that you would not be left an ' old maid ' ; I'd give you no peace till you married me." TAKEN INTO CONFIDENCE. 21 " You funny wee thing ! I do believe you mean it. Well, I'll e'en take you for a sweetheart, little coz ; I'm sure there's a big heart in that small body. Why now, what about pale cheeks and white roses ; there's a fine colour ! I wish you could see yourseK — and, as I live, here comes Kenneth and my father. Look, just leaving the Castle there. We'U go and meet them." I glanced in the direction indicated and saw two figures approaching. One was that of a tall, grey-haired man, with a florid complexion and the same laughing, merry eyes as Bella possessed. The other, younger of the two, was a grave, stern-looking young man, of whom I felt somewhat in awe. "With Uncle Jamie I was friends at once ; with the grave and solemn Kenneth, I felt instinctively that friendship or famiharity would be a work of time. They loitered on the Castle hill talking to me until Bella announced it was time for lunch, then we parted company and, escorted by the 22 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. devoted Alick Macplierson, took our way through the httle town to the Macgregors' house. My aunt had returned, and we sat down to a substantial luncheon, and more cousms came on the scene, and I found myself taken quite warmly and naturally into the circle and getting as noisy and merry as themselves. Alick Macplierson had gone on his errand to Craig Bank, and returned soon after luncheon was over to proclaim that he had won consent for my appearance at his mother's that evening. Later on, Bella walked back with me to Grannie's to help me in the important task of selecting a dress for the occasion, and to assure the old lady that I w^ould be taken care of and escorted home in good time. " The bairn looks better already ! She w^ants young life about her," said Grannie, regarding me affectionately. "But you must take care and not over-tire her, Bella ; TAKEN INTO COXflDEXCE. 23 she's but a fragile thing in comparison Avith you lassies, and I've made my mind up that 111 send her back south looking as bright and bonny as any o' ye — so please the Lord." Then we went upstairs, and I had to display my not yery sumptuous wardrobe to Bella, who decided that the most suitable dress for me was a plain cream-coloured serge with collar and cuffs of dark blue yelyet. " We don't do much line dressincr here," she said, " and, indeed, I'm not sure but that's too grand ; howeyer, you'll look yery bonnie, and I'm proud to show you to the Macphersons as our cousin from London." I looked at myself in the glass oyer the toilet-table and shook my head dubiously. " Xot much to be proud of, BeUa," I said, and, indeed, beside that glowing, healthful face and taU full figure I looked yery pale, very small, yery insignificant. " We'U see, my dear, we'll see," she answered, kissing me in a sudden impulsive fashion that moved me to throw my arms 24 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. round lier and cling to her in as sudden an impulse of love and longing. " Oh, Bella," I half sobbed, " love me a little ; be good to me. I have been so lonely always — always " " Poor wee creature," she murmured again and again, stroking the wild dark hair back from my forehead. " Don't fret for that, you'll win love enough here, I can tell you. Too much, perhaps ; wait till you see the laddies to-night. I'm going just out of pure curiosity to see how they'll take to you ; you're just like a wee fairy among all of us great lassies. What a pity we grow so big ; it's the porridge, I'm thinking." "Bella," I said, suddenly withdrawing from her arms, " I want you to do something for me." " Well, dearie ? " " Will you teach me some Scotch songs ? I can sing. They say my voice is very good, but I should like to learn some Scotch songs and how to pronounce them." " Oh, you must ask Flora that, my dear," TAKEN IXTO CONFIDLXCE. 25 she said, " I told you I had no accomplish- ments, and no talents — except for cooking. But, Flora, she's a fair musician, and I'm sure she'd teach you with pleasure. For the matter o' that, Grannie would do it — she's fine at the Scotch music and used to have the sweetest voice possible. Even now we lassies trv to 2'et her to sino^ to us when- ever we're here of an evening. You ask her to sing you ' The Laird o' Cockpen ' or ' The Land o' the Leal.' You'll never hear the like o' it again. "By the way," she added suddenly, "I wonder will he be at the Macphersons' to-night ? " " He I — who ? " I asked wonderingly. " ' The Laird o' Cockpen ' as we call him," she said, laughing gaily. "He's just the laird o' the song to the life. ' He's gude and he's great,' and his mind is certainly taken up with things ' o' the State ' for he's a great politician, and very good and very charitable, and a great pillar of the Free Kirk. More than all, he wants a ' braw wifie,' and man}''s £6 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. the lass that's set her cap at him, but he's not just easy to please, and he's not so young as to be secured easily by just a pretty face and no more. Now, wee coz, suppose he took a fancy to you — my! but that would be a fine thing. He's rich, he has a beautiful place called Corriemoor, and he'd make an excellent husband I'm sure " "Oh, Bella! Bella!" I cried, laughing, " how you do run on. I don't want to get married. I hate the idea. I've never even had a sweetheart, like you and Flora. I don't think I like men — at least, no man I've ever seen yet." " Listen to the bit creature," cried Bella, laughing heartil}^ " and she but seventeen ! What could you know about men, dearie ? I should be sorry if you did too. There's nothing takes the youth and innocence from a girl so quickly as what they call flirtation. But there, I must be going now. I'm sure I shall find nothing right at home, for I've been gadding about the whole day. We'll TAKEN INTO CONFIDENCE. 27 come to fetch you at five o'clock to go to the Macphersons'. I hope you won't be th'ed. But it's not so much of a walk. It's a bonnie place, theh's, just out of the town. And as for likmii' them — well, Mrs. Macpherson is just the kindest, sweetest body in the world. Everyone loves her. Alick is her onlv son. He's aoins; to be a doctor, but he'll have all her money one day. She had five children and they're all dead. She just worships Alick, and he's not a bad sort of lad, taking him altogether." " And does he 'just worship' Flora?" I asked, laughing. '• How Scotch you are sometimes, Bella P " " I'll make you Scotch too, my saucy coz, before I've had vou long with me," she answered. "You'll soon give up mincing your words in that affected Southern fashion." "It's not a bit affected," I said in- dignantly. " Ah ! now you look fine," she said with a wicked gleam in her mischievous eyes. " I wish the Laird could see you ! " CHAPTEE III. ^' On his head a bonnet blue, Bonnie laddie — Highland laddie. Tartan plaid and Highland trew, Bonnie laddie — Highland laddie." The Macpher sons' house was a very pretty one. The drawing-room had a large bay window looking out on the garden, with its tangled masses of roses and bright flower- beds shaded by ash, and larch, and elder trees. We were the first arrivals, but the room soon filled, and Mrs. Macpherson, a gay and lively old lady with a smile and a joke for ever on her lips, introduced me to a variety of Scotch youth and maidenhood, whose one striking characteristic appeared to be that of exuberant health and spirits. Tea was soon announced. Such a tea ! '•THE LAIRD." 29 Xo mere thin wafers of bread and butter liere, but piles of scones and toast, and rich cakes, and cream, and fruit, and every variety of preserves, and cold spiced meats for those who liked substantial dishes. And how they ate, those Scotch youths and maidens, and how thoroughly they seemed to enjoy themselves. When the meal was over we all roamed about the garden and Bella joined me and piloted me about, and explained who was who, and a great deal about pedigrees and " forbears," which I must confess did not interest me in the very least. We were standing in a part of the garden that commanded a view of the river over the low briar-hedo'e, when I heard the click of the gate and looked round to see who was coming. A tall figure appeared, turning the corner of the gravelled walk, and seeing us, lifted the " bonnet " from a head of chestnut curls, and came forward to greet Bella. I stood quite still, watching him as he 30 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. approached. I thought I had never seen so handsome a face and figure. " It's Douglas Hay," whispered Bella. " I wonder at Mrs. Macpherson asking him here" I wondered greatly what objection there could be to his presence, but as he was close at hand I had to control my curiosity. He shook hands with Bella, and I thought her strangely stiff and cold in her greeting. Then his blue eyes turned to me so frankly and questioningly that Bella could not but give the introduction they asked for. As for myself, the " fine colour " she had lauded before made itself felt in my hot cheeks and a strange shyness and embarrassment came over me. But the frank, gay, cordial manner had an irresistible charm, and even Bella soon forgot her coldness and stiffness as the new comer rattled on, giving a host of excuses for his late appearance. " I went for a bathe in the Canal with the Erasers," he said, " and had no idea it was so late." "THE LAIRD." 31 " Well, you've missed your tea," said Bella, " unless Mrs. Macplierson is inclined to give you some all to yourself."' " I suppose I must go and make my apologies," lie said, looking somewhat rue- fully at my cousin's face. ''I wish you ■would come too," he added. His eyes met mine. I smiled involuntarih'. His manner was so boyish, but he looked a great deal older than Alick Macpherson. " Do you think we shall get you into favour ? "asked Bella. '• You know very well you can always get the right side of Mrs. Macplierson if you wish." " Xot always, she is partial to punctuality. However, I won't be in bad company, for I met the Laird as I was coming along, and I'm sure he's on his way also. Only that he was too dignified to run, we'd have arrived together." " The Laird. Then he is coming ! " ex- claimed Bella eagerly. " ' Gae tell Mistress Jean to come speedily ben,' " quoted Douglas Hay with a gay laugh. 32 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. " Yes, Miss Bella, I'm almost sure lie's coming here. He was in great feather. More solemn and imposing even than usual. I hope you young ladies will duly appreciate the honour." " You seldom have a good word to say of the Laird, Douglas," said Bella quietly. I wondered at her using his Christian name, it savoured of acquaintance and familiarity which neither manner nor words had led me to expect. The young fellow shrugged his shoulders. " Oh, as for that," he said indifferently, " he's no whit kinder to me than I to him." Then he laughed softly. " I'm thinking. Miss Bella," he said, " that he'll need a clothes brush when he comes in. He met with a bit accident on the high road — just a stick or something that tripped him up. As I passed he was shaking off the dust to an accompani- ment that did not sound — quite — like the Psalms of David." " That's some of your mischief, I suppose," said Bella, glancing at his demure face. "THE LAIRD." 33 " What a boy you are still, Douglas — always at pranks. I never saw the like." " It's — well it's something in the air, I'm thinking," he said, with a sudden gravity. " You're all such good folk here and so solemn and so righteous. It's just terrible. Everything that's fun and sport seems to be looked on as a sin. But you're not to be giving a bad character of me to your cousin," he added suddenly ; " that would not be fair ; Miss Lindsay, you must promise not to believe everything you hear of me, and you're bound to hear a good deal. Inverness is just a fine place for gossip." " People should not give cause for gossip," said Bella severely. He laughed. " Then they'd make it," he said. "I've no patience with narrow - minded, canting hypocrites, who put the worst construction on everything and imagine you're marching straight to perdition if you don't walk in the everyday beaten track laid down by custom." " Well you never did that," said Bella. VOL. I. 3 34 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN His eyes ilaslied. " Nor ever intend to," lie said. " Life is something more to me than a road to a churchyard — at least I'll pipe and dance as I go along ; if others choose to groan, let them." " You'll have to go to the churchyard all the same," said Bella. " Oh, no doubt ; but this is very melan- choly conversation with which to entertain your cousin. Miss Lindsa}^, is this your first visit to Scotland ? " " Yes," I said, " and I only arrived last night, so I cannot say much about it." " I should like to hear your opinion of a Scotch Sabbath," he said, with a mischievous glance at Bella. " They have no Sunday here, you know. Why one word is better than another to express the same thing I never could understand. You'll go to the Presbyterian, I suppose ? If you do I declare I'll be there to watch the effect." I glanced at Bella. She was looking really annoyed. " If you're a heathen yourself you needn't '•THE LAIRD." 35 try and set other people against tlieir duties," she said crossly, " and I'm not sure that we won't go to the Cathedral next Sunday, so you needn't be troubling to follow us ; I dare- say my cousin would like that service best." " Xo. I want to go to the Presbyterian," I said. • " Do," urged Douglas Hay, looking at me with the very demon of mischief laughing out of his blue eyes ; " and if old Gillespie is only half as eloquent in his discourse as he was on the last occasion I had the pleasure of hearing him — well, you'll be hard to please, that's all. Miss Bella, it's no use your frowning. Shall I eyer forget that peroration with which he wound up a discourse of one hour and a quarter on the text, ' And the Sun stood still ' ? Here it is for you. Miss Lindsay — ' And oh, brethren, is not the world full of motion, and is not eyery liying thing a proof of motion, and in the human frame haye we not the motion of the arm and the motion of the foot, the motion of the eye and the motion of the lip ? and are not the 3 * 36 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. rolling spheres in motion, and tlie waves of the sea and the leaves that the wind stirs in its flight? But brethren, take all these motions, and every other that the brain of man can conceive, and tell me is there one grander and more magnificent than the miracle of motion in my text, " And the Sun stood still!'"" Bella could not help laughing at the tragic face and voice, and I followed her example most heartily. We were now at the entrance, and as we walked into the hall together, still laughing over Douglas Hay's piece of mimicry, we suddenly faced a gentleman coming out of the dining-room. He recognised Bella and favoured her with a stiff bow, then, ignoring Douglas Hay's presence and overlooking mine altogether, he walked in stately fashion into the dining- room, whence j)roceeded the sound of tea- cups and Mrs. Macpherson's cheery voice. Bella pressed my arm. "There," she said, "that's the Laird. Come in and be introduced to him." CHAPTER lY. " DOUGLAS." •' He's comiii' frae the Xorth, That's to fancy me ; He's comin' frae the Xorth, That's to fanc}' me ; A feather in his bonnet and a ribbon at his knee, He's a bonnie Highland laddie, and you be na he." " Oh, Douglas, Douglas ! " cried Mrs. Mac- plierson reproachfully, as we entered the dining-room, " when will ye learn to keep time, YOU graceless callant ! Did I no tell you six o'clock ? " " Indeed, Mrs. Macpherson, I am very sorry. I went for a swim, and the time passed quicker than I thought possible. Please forgive me. It's mine is the loss, you know." "Well, sit ye down — sit ye down. You shall have a cup o' tea, though you don't 38 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. deserve it. Ah, Bella, my dear, just come arid help me ; and Miss Lindsay, will you sit here ? I'm not sure are ye acquainted wi' Mr. Campbell. Mr. Campbell this is Miss Athole Lindsay, grand-daughter of Mrs. Lind- say of Craig Bank. She's just frae London, and this is her first visit to her Scotch kins- folk and friends. We must try and make it a pleasant one." The Laird rose and bowed solemnly to me, but he said nothing. I glanced with some curiosity at his grave face and ruddy hair, and speculated as to what his age might be. Anj^thing from thirty to fifty I should have said. He seemed a particularly reticent individual — drinking his tea and eating buttered scones in a solemn and sedate manner, as if weighing in his own mind their relative merits and pos- sible consequences. Meanwhile Douglas Hay rattled on in a jesting, nonsensical fashion peculiarly his own. I think the presence of the solemn Laird prompted him to be more audacious tlian he '•' DOUGLAS." 39 would liave been with us alone. He seemed to take a malicious pleasure in saying the most dreadful things, treating neither persons, places, nor things with any sort of respect. And yet what an irresistible manner he had. Who could be angry or offended while those blue eyes flashed defiance and the handsome mouth laughed so gailv under the shade of the brown moustache? He drew Mrs. Macpherson and myself fairly into the net of his fascination. That mixture of audacity, coolness and fun was to me simply irresistible. I had never met anyone like him, and as the evening wore on and he danced and sang, and played reels for us, and performed conjuring tricks, and in every way proved himself the life and soul of the party besides being out and away the very hand- somest of the men present, I could not but acknowledge that I had never met with any- one so dehghtful — and that the Laird might well frown and look wrathfuUy at a rival before whom all his own more solid advan- tages saj^k into the background. 40 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. He taught me the reel, and heartily I en- joyed that merry and inspiriting dance. Then he waltzed as no one there could waltz, and, finding our steps were exactljr suited, claimed me again and again on that ground. Bella looked gravely disapproving, but I was too thoroughly enjoying myself to care about that. I seemed to catch the infection of Douglas Hay's wild spirits. The blood danced in my veins — laugh and jest responded readily to his own. I was but seventeen, and had only known a childhood and youth of repression and loneliness. Something alto- gether new and strange to myself awoke in me on this night — a sense of power — a capa- city for enjoyment — a delight in the new sense of life and youth. I never before and perhaps never — quite — again felt as I felt then. I did not know or question wh}^ I did not even want to analyse the cause of feelings so altogether new and strange, or pause to question the reason of so sudden and subtle a sympathy between two natures that were apparently so dissimilar. " DOUGLAS.-' 41 I conjugated the verb "To enjoy" in its even^mood and tense that night, and perhaps the stronnfest and sweetest of the many emo- tions I underwent was in the moment before parting, when we all stood in the hall, cloaked and hooded, and awaiting attendant cavaliers. The door of the drawing-room was open and Douglas Hay was seated at the piano. Suddenly he struck a few chords, and then his rich full voice broke out into the pathetic strain of " Auld Eobin Gray." A hush of silence fell on the chattering group. As for me I listened as one en- tranced to the sweet sad air and the sad and simple words. I felt the tears well up into my eyes. A great longing, and a strange pain and weariness, seemed to fill my heart. It was the story of so many lives. It sounded so mournful to-night from those gay and jesting lips. I wondered how he could sing like that — if the feeling he put into the words was forced and artificial. It seemed impos- sible that it could be so, there was such a 42 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. real ring of tenderness and regret in the beautiful voice. Then the song ceased — the singer rose abruptly and closed the piano. " Are you all ready ? I hope I've not been keeping you," he said. His eyes fell on me. I forgot the tears that were in my own. In some inexplicable way he seemed to be near me, his hand on mine, his voice at my ear. Only two words that swept by me like the breath of a sigh as he passed on to the open door. "Thank you." Then there came the noise and bustle of parting, kisses and handshakes to Mrs. Macpherson, and I found myself with the solemn-faced Laird, who, to my unfeigned amazement, proclaimed his intention of taking me home to Craig Bank after we had parted with my cousins at their own door. I had grown very quiet, and was feeling somewhat tired before we reached Grannie's house. My companion spoke but little, and I made no effort to encourage any communi- " DOUGLAS." 43 cativeness on liis part, ^yly mind was full of Douglas Hay — of that look in his eyes which had so suddenly revealed to me a depth of feeling, a possibility of earnestness, a fund of sentiment, with which I had not been inclined to credit him. Ah! it is only after a long fight on the world's battle-field, after many deep and bitter draughts from the cup of expe- rience, that we learn to read below the surface of human nature, and not to accept men and women as they seem. How keen a capacit}' for suffering those bright natures sometimes veil beneath that sunny brightness. How near the tears lie sometimes to smiling eyes that fain would have us believe tears are unknown. What mask of suffering equals that bitter one of " face-joy," which sooner or later we all learn to wear, formed, as has been rightly said by the sweetest woman poet that Fame has given us, " of pain long nourished and rounded to despair." 44 THE LAIKD 0' COCKPEN. I found Grannie sitting up for me and eager to hear all about tlie experiences of the evening. She came up to my bed-room and helped me to undress, and insisted on brushing out my hair while I talked. I noticed she looked grave when I spoke of Douglas Hay. "I just wonder at Mrs. Macpherson," she said. " He's no a safe sort of lad to have at the house. He's a bit too fond o' the lassies and mony's Lhe tale in the place about him and his wild pranks and fickle heart. Not but that the poor lad has had a hard fight wi' life. His father's just a sour, cross-grained, miserly body that never did a kind deed nor spoke a gude word o' anybody. The mother died when Douglas was but a wee bairn toddling about. He's had any sort o' education, but he's a clever lad and wi' a wonderful aptitude for all sorts of accomplishments, music and drawing and the like. But he won't steady down and he won't work. He's main anxious to be a soldier, but his father hates the military and won't hear o' it. So he's just "DOUGLAS." 45 been doing a Lit office work liere and there. He was at the Court House a while, but his mischievous pranks got him into disgrace. Xow I think he's in the wine merchants', McDougall & Co., in the High Street." " Perhaps," I said hesitatingly, " he's got a worse name than he deserves. He is only young and full of life and spirits. He doesn't look bad." Grannie shook her dear old head. " Oh, my bairn," she said wistfully, "you're just like all your sex, ready to excuse any man's wickedness so that his looks please you. There's the Laird now. He's just as good and straight and God fearin' a man as ever walked this earth, but he's not popular with maid or matron, though he's a good match and would make just an excellent husband." " Xo doubt," T said vaguely. I did not want to discuss the Laird and his virtues. My mind would run ou Douglas Hay, and I only saw the picture of him which had imprinted itself so strongly on my memory. The picture of the tall Hght figure 46 THE LATIiD 0' COCKPEN. coming towards me under the ash trees, with the Highland bonnet on the sunny brown hair, and the clear evening light shining in the blue ejes. " How old is Douglas Hay ? " I asked, rising from the chair and twisting up the long thick tresses of hair Grannie had at last released. " How your mind runs on the lad," she said, looking at me somewhat anxiously. " About twentj^-two or three, I'm think- insf ; not more. He'll be leavins^ Inverness soon," she went on more cheerfully. " He's away to Edinburgh the beginning o' the month." " I suppose that won't make any difference to me," I said. " I'm not likely to see much of him if he has such a bad character." " Don't speak so vexed like, dearie," said the old lady gently. " It's my duty to look after you, and I only warn you against Douglas because there's no denying he's very handsome and very fascinating, and he might just take it into his head to flirt with you out "DOUGLAS." 47 of pure mischief, and because you're a stranger and so different from all the lassies here. It's every new face wi' him for a time, and then a laugh and a good-bye — and all's over. He's a masterful Tvay wi' him too, has Douglas, and no one can be just more agreeable and pleasant when he likes. I'm not for taking the lad's character away, dearie, but he's not just the safest person in the word fur a bit lassie to be thinking of I " " As far as I can learn," I said, somewhat pettishly, " he has not done anything so very bad, and his faults and sins seem only those of youth and light-heartedness. Because he laughs and talks and dances, and is so gay and amusing, I suppose he is called a flirt. I know aU the ^rls to-niofht seemed onlv too delighted when he noticed them or danced with them." " I'm sorry he's made you his champion so quickly," said Grannie, with that strange un- wisdom of age which will warn youth against a scarcely foreseen danger as an inducement to rush into it. " You are a mere child — you 48 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. cannot possibly know what men are or what the world is." " I don't want to know," I said, with a half-smothered yawn, for I was getting tired and sleepy at last. " I only want to be loved and to be happy just for a little while. Grannie ; just while I am young and free as I am now. You know," I went on with sudden gravity, born of a memory I had tried to banish, " you know the doctors say I shall not live very long, and so it would not do for me to trouble about things that concern most girls — dresses and sweethearts and amuse- ments. But you are all so kind to me here that I cannot help loving you. Grannie, and I feel as if I could be very, very happy." " God knows, my bairn, I should like to make you so," she said earnestly, the tears gathering in the kind blue eyes that met my own, " but I'm no going to have you despond- ing. You're young, and youth is aye a grand thing to build on, and I've no such faith in doctors as to believe they can always know what is to happen. I am sure we'll do you " DOUGLAS." 49 good here — it's just the air and the place and the life for you. But now, dearie, to bed, to bed. I'm no willing to see pale cheeks and heavy eyes the morn. You'll just say your bit prayer at your auld Grannie's knee as if }ou were a bairn once more, for ye missed family worship to-night, and then ye '11 shut those bonnie brown eyes and sleep well and soundly till I bring your cup o' warm milk at eight o'clock." And like a child I knelt at her knee and heard her own petition join with mine and a great peace and content stole over me — a new sense of love and protection, and rest and hope. That night I slept soundly, but towards morning I dreamt that I was being married to the Laird with great state and ceremony, when suddenly, instead of the wedding march the organ began to play " Old Eobin Gray " and ringing loud and clear above its rolling chords I heard the voice of Douglas Hay, and I fell down on the floor of the church in a passion of bitter weeping. VOL. I. 4 50 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPKN. I woke to see the sunlight streaming into my room and hear the kindly greeting of Grannie^woke with beating heart and tear- wet eyes, but strangely, indescribably haj)py to be able to say to myself, " It was only a dream — only a dream." But some dreams are prophetic. CHAPTER V. "THE KIRK." *' Let us wander by the mill, bounie lassie, 0, To the cove beside the rill, bonnie lassie, 0, ^Vhen the glens rebound the call Of the roaring waters' fall Through the mountains' rocky hall Bonnie lassie, I " My journal clironicles the events of each day of that visit to Scotland -with the exactness almost of Clarissa Harlovre, but I do not intend to give those extracts here with the minuteness of detail I then delighted in. I never in my life had been so purely, innocently happy, for never in my life before had I ex- perienced what it was to be loved, and thought of, and cared for, as they all loved and cared for me. Xo wonder that my health improved, that roses bloomed on ray white cheeks, and strength returned to my languid frame, and in 4* LIBRARY UNIVERSITY OF IlUNOf? 52 THE lAIKD 0' COCKPEN. a month's time I looked a different being to the pale, thin, sickly girl who had come to Craig Bank. I had been there three weeks with Grannie before I went to church. The first Sunday I was not well, and she would not let me go. The second it rained heavily and persistently from morning till night. On the third, how- ever, the sun was shining warmly and brilliantly, and at breakfast she announced that it would be as well if I did go to " the Kirk " with her. " No braws, lassie," she said as I ran upstairs to dress. " It's no fitting that one should be in any way remarkable in the house o' the Lord, distracting the mind o' puir weak bodies that are aye moved wi' carnal vanities. You being the young leddie from London, they will be aye looking and wondering about ye, so just put on a quiet gown and bonnet and pay no heed to any- body ye may see." " Very well, Grannie," I said meekly, and forthwith proceeded to examine my wardrobe and wonder what I had best select. "THE KIRK." 53 It was a warm June day — surely no one could call a white dress remarkable or un- suitable. I decided on white, a plain, white muslin, and toned it down with a black lace hat in which were twisted some poppies and cornflowers. Grannie looked at me doubtfully. I think she objected in her heart to the poppies, but as the bells were ringing there was no time to change the hat. So we sallied forth together, through the quiet streets on our way to the Presbyterian church. And how quiet the streets of a Scotch town are on a Sunday. It seemed to me as if the hush of Death or sleep lay on the silent houses, with their half-drawn blinds and look of desertion. Then the whole aspect and demeanour of the people seemed altered. They exchanged grave bows and greetings, but the usual smiling welcome or jest were absent. We met the whole family of Camerons marching in a solemn and imposing procession. I thought Grannie would have spoken to 54 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. or joined them, but she did not, and even Bella's laughing face wore a new expression of gravity that was almost awe inspiring. I followed Grannie to her pew, and took my place beside her — then, quite unabashed by the preternatural gravity of my surroundings, I proceeded to look about at the congregation, A little to the right of our seats I caught sight of the wavy brown hair and handsome profile of Douglas Hay. He half turned and our eyes met. I could not help smiling in recognition of the quick flash of interroga- tion in his eyes, but I was angered too at the sudden flush that rose to my face, and wondered a little why the fact of his presence should have so suddenly altered, for me, all the gloom and dulness of the surroundings. The service commenced, and its novelty astonished and puzzled me not a little. It seemed so strange to stand up to pray, and then to hear an extempore prayer de- livered to the Almighty with a personal and familiar method of speech and expression that seemed more fitted for ordinary conversation. "THE KIRK." 55 It grated terribly on my ideas of reverence, it seemed to me rather presumptuous than otherwise to favour the Lord with a series of personal and parish incidents and difficulties that had occurred during the week. To hear people spoken of by their Christian names as " his servant so and so " or harangued for faults and short comings in a manner that was, to say the least of it, embarrassing. Then the length of the petition ! Heavens ! How tired I was and how terribly monotonous w^as its mode of delivery. It was w^ith a sense of intense relief that at last I heard it come to a close, and received the information that the congregation would now sing, to the praise and glory of God, the one hundred and twenty- fifth Psalm. With aU the will in the world to be grave and reverent I could not keep my gravity when a being, whom I learnt was called " the Precentor," rose to his feet and gave forth in a cracked, harsh voice the air of this psalm. To anyone with musical ears it was simply torture, and alas ! when the congregation took 56 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. it up just as each felt inclined, in any key, and without the slightest notion of harmony, or part singing, I positively shuddered. The dissonance was indescribable, and the fervour and force thrown into the so-called singing only made it more horrible. Then came some reading of the Scriptures, and another long extempore prayer, after which another ear-torturing psalm, sung to the melancholy " Ooleshill," led the way to the sermon. Oh, that sermon ! For long it lived in my memory. Its involved phrases, its bigoted and perverted rendering of incidents that were .surely never meant to be accepted in any literal sense, its perversion of texts to suit some special " point " — its occasional lapse into personality — its apparent familiarity with the person, attributes, and intentions of the Supreme Being, all this jarred upon me to a degree that left my brain irritated, my heart indignant, and any spiritual feelings I might have experienced, in a state of offence and disgust. "THE KIRK." 67 I inwardly resolved I would not go to tlie *' Kirk " again, and I was thankful when the service was over and I once more found my- self in the open air. Grannie was speaking to some friends, when Douglas Hay approached me in his " Sunday get-up." I thought how much handsomer he had looked in his Highland " bonnet " and knickerbockers. " Have you survived it ? " he asked, in a mischievous whisper. '* I wish you could have seen the expression of your face ! It was a study. Do you intend coming to the afternoon service ? You've only done half, you know. There's the ' interval ' and then we go through it all again." " Oh, I couldn't I " I exclaimed in despair. " Surely Grannie won't make me ? " I looked round for her, but she was engaged discussing some point of the dis- course with another old lady, and had apparently forgotten my presence. " Listen," said Douglas Hay, coming close to me and speaking low and hurriedly. " I 68 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. will call round at Craig Bank when Mrs. Lindsay has gone to the service and take you for a walk. That will be much better. It is a shame to waste a lovely afternoon like this. I'll show you the Islands. Will you come ? " "Yes — certainly," I said readily. I had no thought of wrong-doing. I did not know even that to go for a walk on a Sunday was counted quite a heinous offence among the good Scotch folk of the town. I only felt the natural reaction of spirits after the penance of the morning. I only thought of the delight of liberty and action and congenial companionship. Then the Camerons came up, and Douglas Hay merely lifted his hat and left us. " Don't be speerin' after that young man," said Bella, sharply. " He's a ne'er do-weel, and not fit company for you." I laughed uneasily. "How 3^ou all do abuse that poor young Hay," I said. "It's quite a case of ' give a dog a bad name.' " " And the best thinor to do when the do(? "THE KIRK." 69 deserves it," said Bella. " But how did you like the service ? You'd better come home with us, and then we'll iro tof?ether to the ' CO afternoon." " Oh, no, thank you ! " I cried in unfeigned terror. "I really couldn't, Bella. I never sat through such a wearisome and depressing service in my life. I've had quite enough for one day, thank you ! " " Grannie will be shocked at you. It's no proper observance of the Sabbath if 3-ou don't go to the two services. The interval is only for rest and lunch, then it's concluded." " I can't help that," I said obstinately. " I simply can't and won't go through all that again." " Will you come to the Free Church wi' us to-night instead?" asked Bella. "We often go. You'll like it better than this, and the minister, Mr. Grant, he is a powerful preacher, very different to poor old Gillespie." I shook my head. " I don't wan't any more church or preaching to-day," I said. " You're a heathenish, wicked, wee 60 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. tiling," said Bella, giving my arm a pinch. " And I've a mind not to tell you what Kenneth's been planning for you — a rare fine jaunt I can tell ye, my lady." " Kenneth ! " I echoed in surprise. " Why, what did he trouble himself about me for ? " " Oh, listen to the innocence of the creature," laughed Bella. " When she knows she's just turned the lad's head with her big eyes and her soft smiles, and her dainty Southern ways. Kenneth's aye quiet and serious for his age, but he's got eyes in his head I can tell ye, and for what does he go to Grannie's every evening and teach ye reel steps, and how to pronounce the Scotch songs, and get up at five in the morning to fetch ye rowans from Craig-Phadric, eh, my little lady — just tell me that ? " " I'm sure I don't know, Bella," I said gravely, " I never noticed that he did all these things." " Poor Kenneth," said Bella, with mocking compassion. "I'm thinking he'd just be "THE KIKK." 61 heart-broken if I told liim o' that cruel speech. You never noticed, didn't ye ? Oh I fie — fie — coz. Well, just open your eyes a bit and try to notice. I'm thinking the poor lad's brain is softening, myself, and his appetite is just pitiable." I laughed outright. Xot for a moment did I believe her, or credit my solemn-faced cousin, Kenneth, with anv such feelincf as she implied. True he had been at Grannie's very often and taught me Scotch songs, or rather how to pronounce the words of them, but I looked upon him as an elder brother more than anything else. To think of Kenneth Cameron regarding me with any- thing like sentiment was infinitely amusing. Kenneth, who never met my eyes, whose greeting was always cold and abrupt, who had never even made an attempt at a compliment even in the rough and ready fashion of Alick Macpherson and some of his friends. No wonder I laughed. All the same, I glanced somewhat curiously at the Cameron group, among 62 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. wliicli lie stood, almost a head taller than any of them. He was watching Bella and myself, bi^t he did not approach us. At the same moment Grannie having concluded her discussion turned to see if I was ready to go home. I said good-bye to Bella and joined the old lady. I fear I fell rather out of favour with her by refusing to attend the afternoon service. But I was resolute on that point, and she gave way at last. She went off, and so did old Jean ; and I, with a sense of freedom, mischief, and longing all combined, was left alone in the house to await my expected visitor. CHAPTER YI. OFFENDED PREJUDICES. " Oh, waly, waly, love is bounie A little time when it is new ; But when it's auld, it waxes caiild, And fades awa' like morning dew." I HAD not long to wait. I was standing at tlie window when I saw Douglas Hay approaching. I ran to the front door and opened it. " I am afraid I cannot go out," I said. " Grannie and Jean have (^one to church, and I am taking care of the house." " Oh, botheration ! " was the curt and comprehensive reply. " Can't they get in ? " he added presently, " you might leave the door open. Xo one would think of entering." " I am afraid Grannie would be angry," I 64 THE LAIED 0' COCKPEN. said doubtfully ; " she did not say I was to stay in the house, but she seemed to expect it. " Well, may I stay and take care of it with you ? " he asked, " she can't object to that." " I shall be delighted," I answered, with perfect truth. All the same I was sorry to miss my walk. I looked wistfully out at the blue sky and bright sunshine. " I know you are longing to go," he said, smiling. " Shall we risk it ? If we are quick we can be back before they are home." " But we can't possibly go to the Islands," I said ; " they are a long way off I know, for my cousins told me." " We need not go there to-day, some other afternoon I will take you if you will let me." " Yery well," I agreed, and ran off for my hat, returning in a minute to find Douglas Hay at the piano, softly playing over some of the now familiar Scotch melodies. " How beautifully you sang ' Auld Kobin Gray ' that night at the Macphersons'," I said. OFFEXDED PREJUDICES. 65 '• I have often wished to tell you. I wish you would sinsf it for me now."' He regarded me with mock horror. " What ! sing a profane song on the Sabbath ! Oh ! you little heathen ; why the good folks of the town would be for excommunicating us. Don't you know you mustn't even play the piano on Sunday ? " " What nonsense I " I exclaimed impa- tiently. " I don't believe that. How can music be wrong ? If it is wrong to play one instrument, it is wrong to play all. If it is wrong to sing one sort of melody, it must be wronf]^ to sino- another. Thev have oro-ans in the churches and they sing " " Xo, I beg your pardon," he interrupted, " they drone. Surely 3'ou learnt that this morning ! The more doleful and out of tune the performance, the more pleasing they consider it." " But that is surely foolish," I exclaimed. '' Why should we not offer God our best, if we offer anything ? " " Indeed, Miss Lindsay," he said with VOL. 1. 5 66 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. sudden gravity, " it would puzzle a wiser head than 3^ours to make out the why and wherefore of Scotch ideas on religion. I gave it up in despair long ago. You may sing in the kirk, but it would be a sin to do so in the house. You may walk to the service, but it is a sin to walk in field or lane for sake of exercise." " Then," I said abruptly, " why did you ask me to 2^0 for a walk with vou ? Would not Grannie be angry ? " " You are not a Presbyterian," he said coolly, " and you are only a visitor here, and may surely be allowed some little liberty. Y^ou walk on Sundays in England." " Of course," I said, laughing. " In what does the sin consist ? " " Perhaps," he said, " because it is a pleasanter thing to do than to sit in a stuffy church, listening to illogical and bigoted discourses, or have one's ears tortured by bad singing, or read dry books on sound doctrine and other edifying but dreary subjects." OFFENDED PEEJUDICES. 67 " But why should all pleasant thmgs be wrong ? " I asked. " You had better inquh'e of the mmister," he said. '• You will be deluged with texts, overwhelmed with prophecies — told you are inclined to worship Bel and The Dragon, and generally scolded, upbraided and declaimed against. I hope it may convince you. I have gone through it all. I am a signal failure, and supposed to have fallen hope- lessly away from grace. I assure you that the more dreary and melancholy and de- pressing they can make the Sabbath in Scotland the more praiseworthy and accept- able do they consider themselves." " But why should they think only their method is right ? " I persisted. *' I s&e no harm in the service I have been accustomed to. For the matter of that, I would go to any church and witness any form of worship. Surely it is the spirit that makes it of any value. Xo religion can be absolutely wrong if its meaning is to worship with reverence or faith the one great Being in whom we believe. 5* 68 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. We believe in one God — so we sa}^ — liow can it matter to Him in wliat way we express that belief ? As far as I can make out in the New Testament, Christ did not establish any set form or any special church. As for Himself, he certainly walked on the Sabbath day and worked too ! " " Bravo ! " laughed Douglas Hay. " You've got some sense in that small head of yours, I can see. I must get old Gillespie to tackle you. It would be rare fun. But come," he added, closing the piano, " if we are going for this walk we had better be off, or else we shall find the gude folks all coming back from kirk." " I wonder if Grannie will be angry with me," I said, still doubtfully. " I really did not know they thought it a sin to go for a walk." " She has not forbidden it," he said. " No, but probably she never thought I would do so." " Oh, come along, and chance conse- quences," he said lightly, and nothing loth, I OFFENDED PREJUDICES. 6J obeyed him. Douglas Hay had a certain masterful way with him that rather swept one off one's feet. I thought it a very pleasant way as we strolled on together in the warm June afternoon, and all the peace and fragrance of the country air seemed strangely still and sweet. We grew very confidential. He told me all about his life at college and his friends there, his escapades and tricks, and the many scrapes he had contrived to get into again and again. I, on my part, favoured him with a good deal of my personal history, in which he seemed more interested than I could have imagined possible. We drifted into discussion on all sorts of subjects. Xow and then I was surprised to find how deep a vein of senti- ment and sadness underlay that apparent recklessness and mirth. " I often think," he said, " that I am destined to play the part of buffoon in life. Everyone has always seemed to expect it of me. I must have a smile and jest for ever on my lips, and be ready to dance, laugh, joke, 70 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. and amuse others, however ' down ' I feel m3^self. It is my groove, I suppose ; we all have one." " I wonder what mine is ? " I said mu- singly." " I think I could tell you. It is to be sympathetic, and natural, and graceful, to give the eye a sense of pleasure and the mind a sense of trust. That is how you impressed me, at least. Whatever you do seems just the riorht thincf done at the rio-ht moment. I could never imagine you being self-conscious, or losing that graceful little air of self- possession. There are people, you know^, who always irritate one, and others who always rest one. I should think you could make life very pleasant for anyone you cared for." I laughed. " You are flattering me and giving me a much better character than I deserve. I am not, as a rule, a favourite with people." *' Because you require to be known," he said quickly. " That I can quite imagine ; but don't you know that certain natures OFFENDED PPvEJUDICES. 71 arrive at an immediate understanding? with, each other, while others take years and years to get even tolerably intimate. I think now, you and I would be very orood friends " My face grew warmer as I met the frank blue eyes. I thought of all I had heard against him, of his reputation as a flirt, of the many warnings from Grannie and my cousins. " What makes you think so ? " I asked, looking 'away from him to where the warm light lay over the dark hills and the fair green country with its lines of hedges and copse. " What ? Oh, I can't exactly explain. I feel it. I felt it the moment I saw you. You are quite different to any girl I have ever met. As a rule, I don't like girls ; I am much more popular with women — you, I suppose, would .consider them quite old women. One can talk to them and not be expected to flirt or make love. I hate this place for that reason. If you are seen walking once or twice down the High Street with a girl, you are immediately chaffed and twitted about it. 72 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. My plan is to do that witli a different one every day ; it gives them some trouble then to decide which of the many is to be the object of my wavering affections." " No wonder," I said, " that you are called a flirt." He laughed. " But I am not one — really I am not. It is very hard to live down a reputation or alter people's opinions. You will hear a great deal that is bad of me ; perhaps I deserve it, I daresay I do, but I hope I have some redeeming points — at least, I should like you to think so. I can be very loyal to anyone I care for, and I never forget a , kindness ; as for other things, well God knows I'm a graceless, ill-tempered, sus- picious devil ! My education and teaching are to blame for that. I've had a hard bringing-up. Miss Lindsay ; it's bound to tell on one soon or late." His face otcw cold and hard. A sudden silence fell between us. We stood beside a little stream that ran through green meadows ; above our heads were the feathery green OFFENDED PREJUDICES. 73 boughs of the rowan trees. In the blue sky above Craig-Phadric, a few white clouds were gathering. His eye rested on them for a moment. " There," he said suddenly, "is an illustra- tion of the difference between a man and a woman. Her moods and intentions, even her promises, are like those clouds yonder ; now here, now there, now resting, now floating off to new points and new scenes. A man's heart is like the sky beneath those clouds. You cannot see it always, but it is there, stead- fast, sure, patient, enduring for all time." " I think a woman is quite as firm, and steadfast, and patient, too, when she loves," I said quickly. " Aye, v:hen,'' he said, with the old mocking smile on his lips. " But that's not often. She thinks she loves ; she ssijs so, and a man believes her. But the drifting clouds are not more fickle than her fancies, the winds of heaven more uncertain than her moods." " What can you know about women ? " I exclaimed indignantly, " you are much too 74 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. young to have had an experience of any value." " Am I ? " he said, somewhat bitterly, " £hen you are no student of character. Miss Lindsay. I am far older than my years, and as for experience — well, the less said of that the better. Now I su2:)pose we had best be turning homewards. I don't want to get you into a scrape, so it might be as well for you to be in the house before your grandmother returns." We began to retrace our steps, but I felt less at ease with him than I had done an hour before, and I began to wonder if my walk this afternoon was not a piece of imprudence, to say the least of it. " You must not forget your promise to go to the Islands with me," said Douglas Hay presently. " I should like to think I had been the first to take you there." u Yerj well," I said, " but would you mind if my cousin Bella came with us ? I am afraid Grannie won't let me go alone with you." "You need not tell her," he said quickly. '• I know I'm not a favourite either with her OFFENDED PREJUDICES. 75 or your cousins. And/' he added, lauorliing-, " though it seems a rude thing to say, I should very much object to the presence of a third person. Two are company, you know.' "Well," I said, laushinir also, "I will see what I can do ; but I must ask per- mission." " You'll never get it then," he said gloomily. " I know that very well." " One can but try," I said cheerfully. " Good gracious — " I broke off suddenly, " why there is Grannie — and my cousin Kenneth I " We were so close to them that we involun- tarily came to a standstill. Never in all my life shall I forget the amazement, wrath and indignation that spoke out in Grannie's face, nor the cold, haughty greeting with which Kenneth favoured my companion. Not that Douglas Hay was one whit abashed. I think he rather enjoyed the scene. " I found your grand-daughter moping in the house alone, Mrs. Lindsay," he said, 76 THE LAIED 0' COCKPEN. " and I persuaded her that a little walk was the best thing for her. You really must not scold her." " I'm thinking, Mr. Hay, that as you're better acquainted with the manners and customs o' the place than my grand- daughter, ye might hae been more cir- cumspect," said the old lady freezingiy. " It's no usual, Athole, my dear, for people to take walks about the town on the Sabbath. I thought ye would have known that." " I didn't think there was any harm in it. Grannie," I said, feeling rather abashed by her stern face and Kenneth's shocked one. " Perhaps it was my ain fault ; I should have warned you," she answered more kindly. "Well, Mr. Hay, you'll excuse me saying good- bye, and I hope another time you find a young leddy alone and ignorant of just what's considered right and proper, in a place to which she is a stranger, you'll no be takin' advantage o' her ignorance. I'm no pleased wi' ye, and that's the truth." OFFENDED PEEJUDICES. ' 77 " I'm very sorry, Mrs. Lindsay," said the young fellow humbly ; " but you know I never did hold with the prejudices and cus- toms of the place, and your grand-daughter is equally liberal-minded ; for the life of me I never could see why it was wrong to take a walk on Sunday." " I'm no wishin' to argue the matter," said the old lady with dignity. " You knew my opinions even if Athole did not. I am more than sorry to think ye should hae been sae forgetful." She did not offer to shake hands but turned away, and Kenneth, with a stiff bow, followed. Douodas Hay and I looked at each other. " Please forgive me," he said timidly ; " I hope she won't scold you. I'm afraid there's a poor chance for the Islands now." A quick glance from the blue eyes — a lingering hand-pressure — then he was gone, and feehng as- if all the light and sunshine of the summer day had gone with him, I followed Grannie into the house. CHAPTEK YII. A EANDOM SPEECH. " All you that are in love, and cannot it remove, I pity the pains yon endnre ; For experience makes me know That your hearts are full of woe — A woe that no mortal can cure." I WAS in disgrace. Yes, there was no doubt about it. I certainly was in disgrace with Grannie. I could " not have believed the kind old lady could have worn so freezing and dignified an aspect as she adopted, and kept up too, for the remainder of that eventful Sunday. As for Kenneth, he sulked — that is the only word that expresses it. But that did not trouble me in the least ; I thought they were both very foolish to make such a fuss about a trifle. A EANDOM SPEECH. 79 After all, what could a short walk on a Sunday afternoon matter to anyone ? I could not see that it was wrong, and a natural indignation rose in my mind against the follies and shackles of a superstition that could turn an innocent recreation into the semblance of a sin. The dreary monotony of a Scotch Sabbath had not, as yet, been very strongly impressed upon my mind. When I grew better ac- quainted with its rigorous exactions and wearisome formalities, I confess I wondered greatly that an enlightened people could so burden their lives and consciences, or find any fitting argument by which to justify them- selves for so doing. I shall never forget old Jean's horror and consternation when I asked her if she really supposed the whole world had been created in seven days, and that the seventh, on which the Creator rested from His work, was the identical Sabbath now observed by Christian Churches. Of course she believed this firmlv, and it 80 THE LAIED 0' COCKPEN. was in vain I tried to convince her that the age of tlie world was far greater than the Book of Genesis allowed, and that Science could prove, by geological investigations and dis- coveries, the absurdity of a literal acceptance of that much-abused word " Day." But my task was hopeless. Every word of Scripture, according to Jean, was a direct inspiration from the Almighty. It was always " His message," " His ordinance," '• His prophets," " His judgments." Anyone at once so narrow-minded, and so absolutely unconvinceable, I never met with. I was considered a most audacious and godless sinner for my boldness in questioning anything they believed, or pointing out any inaccuracies or discrepancies between various chapters and texts in their perpetually quoted " Scriptures." I candidly confess that a pro- longed residence in Caledonia, dearly as I love it and its people, would have ended in making a rank infidel of me. It was a trial of patience and common sense, and a wilful blinding of mind and vision to the light of later days and A EAXDOM SPEECH. 81 the larger and more cultured views of men of science and learning. But I now learnt that discussion only led to anger and disapprobation without any better result. I had thought so much on those subjects myself, and had led a life so much beyond my years, that I could not understand why anyone should deem it wrong to take a new or unprejudiced view of religious matters, instead of fettering their minds with the customs and faiths of their ancestors. If material progress was a natural result of life, why should not spiritual advance march with it. Why should one always accept what was told one, and never seek to look beyond the line that had been long, long before worked out, when superstition was rampant and education limited ? But when I spoke like this I was looked upon with horror and amazement. I am not at all sure that a good deal of it was not put down to the one fact of that Sunday walk with Douglas Hay. Even Kenneth took me to task for that in his solemn fashion, but I cared VOL. I. 6 82 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. very little for Lis opinion, and told liim so with a frankness tliat I fear was less polite than candid. I think Grannie's wrath lasted for two da3^s. Then she began to soften, and I was received back into favonr. I found out, however, that some great festivitj^ was on the iajjis. There were long discussions with Jean and with Bella, and great studying of cookery books, and I heard anxious questions as to how many could possibly be seated at the dining-table. The result of all this was conveyed to me at last by Grannie. " I've been thinking," she said, "that I must just ask a few folk to dinner. The house is but small, and I cannot well accom- modate more than eight at the table. Myself and yourself lassie, make two — then the Laird and your Aunt and Uncle Cameron, five — and Mistress Macpherson, six — and Mr. and Mrs. Gillespie will complete the number. Til just ask your two cousins and young Macpherson to drop in later in the evening to make it more lively for you." A RANDOM SPEECH. 83 " Oh, don't trouble about that, Grannie," I said laughing, " I shall enjoy studying the people, especially the Laird. He amuses me immensely. Was he ever seen to smile ? " " Xow — now, lassie," said the old lady rebukingly, " I canna' have ye making fun o' your elders in that licht fashion. It's no just respectful." I onlv laui^hed, and smothered the dear old thing with kisses. " But he's so dreadfully grave and — ponder- ous," I said. " And what can a bit bairn o' seventeen like you know of the cares and responsibilities of a man ? " said she, gravely. '• He has a large estate and is a very good and wise landlord, I can tell ye. Xo tenants in all the High- lands are better looked after than those at Corriemoor, and Donald Campbell of Gorrie- moor is just as good a man, and comes of as good a family, as any in Scotland." " Oh, no doubt," I said indifferently, " but I'm not a bit clannish. Grannie, and I couldn't be bothered thinking out people's pedigrees. 6* 4 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. What better are they for their ancestors ? One hkes a man for his own sake — not because he was a Bruce or a Stuart or a Macgregor, or the descendant of some great Clan, who, after all, were nothing better than freebooters originally — whose great deeds of heroism seem to have been chiefly the result of whisky." " Oh, fie — fie on you, lassie," said Grannie, deeply shocked at my want of patriotic feeling. " And you wi' Scotch blood in your veins — aye, and good blood too, though misfortune has befallen our folk for more than half a century. I'm just shocked at 3^e, Athole. You ought to be proud o' your descent, and not making a jest and a mock o' it in this feckless fashion." " Oh, I'm very bad, I know," I said, laugh- ing at the grave old face. " Don't waste time in trying to improve me. Grannie. Let me hear about this grand dinner-party. I feel quite excited. Will you let me do the table for you — with flowers I mean? " '• Well, I'll consider about that," said A RANDOM SPEECH. 85 Grannie, tliouglitfully. "I'm not just sure about ye, Atliole. You've many foreign ways ; and you're a wee bit flighty at times, for all ye seem so grave and so demure. Ye might just take it into your head to play tricks on me, if I gave ye permission. We're no used to flummeries and innovations here — no Eussian and French setting out o' food wi' flowers and fruits spread about honest roast meats and vegetables — just as if they grew together, or were aye intended to be side by side." " But, Grannie, a table looks so much prettier," I argued. '• And half the pleasure in eating comes from pleasant surroundings." " I'm no sure — I'm no sure," repeated the old lady, doubtfully. " These new-fangled ways don't suit old-fashioned folks like myself, dearie. However, I'm not saying I won't let ye try your hand. It will give ye occupation and keep ye out o' mischief perhaps." " What mischief do I ever get into, Grannie ? " I asked, pouting. " You're giving me a very bad character ! " 86 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. " Oil ! ye may make pretence of being so good and so solemn, my bit lassie, but your eyes tell another story ; and you're just turn- ing the heads o' all the lads in the place." " Now — now, Grannie, you know that's not true. They're kind and polite because I'm a stranger — that's all. She drew me into her kindly arms. " I'm no wishing to make ye an auld wife yet, my bairn. But I should be right glad to have ye make your home in Scotland, and settle down wi' a good steady loving husband. I know you're not happy at home, little as ye've told me ; and I like to see your eyes bright and the colour come into your wee bit face, and to hear ye laugh and sing about the house as ye do now." ^* I am so happy here," I said, with a sigh of deep content, as I leant my head against her. " But I don't want to settle dowm. Grannie," I added hurriedly. "I should hate to be married — so please don't begin match-making for me. Besides — now, don't look shocked — but really and truly, I don't think I could A RANUOM SPEECH. 87 many a Scotchman. They're so uninterest- ing." " I'm sorry to hear you say that," remarked a grave voice behind me. I started from Grannie's arms, blushing and confused. Ken- neth stood in the door-way — a great bunch of roses in his hand. "How did you come in? — I never heard ye," said Grannie, rising to welcome him. He was her favourite grandson, and I think he was also warmly attached to her. " I found the hall-door open," he said, " and so I walked in without knocking-. I hope I'm forgiven for overhearing Athole's unflattermg speech." " It is a punishment for eaves-dropping," I said. "What lovely roses, Kenneth, where did you get them ? " "I brought them for you," he said, some- what brusquely. "And a message from Bella. She wants you to come round at three o'clock and go for a walk. Will you be willing ? " "Oh, ves," I said. "If Grannie doesn't 88 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. want me. We are discussing a party," I went on, to liide my confusion. " It is quite exciting. A dinner party, too ! " "Oh, I heard of that, from Bella," he answered, offering me the roses somewhat awkwardly. I took them with delight. They were lovely. A great fresh fragrant bunch, of every colour, from creamj^ white to gold and crimson. " Thank you so much. It was ver}^ good of you," I said, wishing he had not over- heard that unfortunate speech of mine, or that the rigid formality of his own face and speech would relax in some small degree. But I fear my random words had shot home. He looked very stern and very uncom- fortable ; and not all Grannie's attempts to set him at ease seemed to have the least effect. She told him about her dinner-party, and that I wished to decorate the table foreign- fashion. "I'm thinking the Laird will wonder at A RANDOM SPEECH. 89 such an innovation," she said. "But I'm half inclined to let the lassie have her way, for all that." " Oh ! Is this party in the Laird's honour P " I asked. " What has he done to deserve it ? " Then Kenneth looked straight at me — his handsome grave face wearing an expression of sarcasm and ill-temper. " He escorted you home from the Mac- phersons ," he said. I laughed aloud — peal after peal of merri- ment. I could neither stop nor subdue my mirth, though I saw that neither he nor Grannie could understand its cause. In the midst of it Jean came to the door to consult her mistress about some domestic matters, and the old lady left the room. I tried to resume my usual demeanour, but I found it very difficult. Kenneth looked so terribly solemn, and he evidently considered that speech of his such a " facer," that every time I thought of it I trembled on the brink of another fit of lausfhter. 90 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. " I am glad you are so easily amused," lie said at last. /' I thought Scotchmen were too uninteresting even to afford you a laugh at their expense." "I did not think you took offence so easily," I said — " or could be so sarcastic." " I wonder you ever gave ^^ourself the trouble to think of me at all," he answered huffity. " And, as a rule, I do not easily take offence. I am not aware I have done so now." " Well, it is a very good imitation," I said. " And your speech about the Laird was really too funny. Has he never seen any other young lady home from a party, that you all seem to think his doing so sucli a very re- markable occurrence ? " " No doubt," answered Kenneth, stiffly, "he has done so before. But not to my knowledge, and certainly not in Inverness." " Oh ! Would it have been shouted from the house-tops if he had ? " I said carelessly. " What funny people you are — and what a fuss you do make about trifles." A EANDOM SPEECH. 91 " We are unfortunate in not pleasing you," he said, still very stiffly. " I never said you did not please me. I am getting very fond of Scotland and Scotch people, but that does not prevent my wondering at your little — peculiarities." He was silent. His eyes remained fixed on the carpet, and the moody expression of his face slightly cleaned. '' I should like," he said suddenly, and with an effort at geniality which was palpably an effort — " I should like to know what sort of man you do consider — interesting ? " " How that speech rankles in your mind,'' I said, laufi^hino^, and lifting the bunch of roses to my face to inhale their fragrance. *'Well — suppose I said a man who makes one think about him — puzzle over what he says and does, whom one never quite understands, and in whose life there seems always one more page to be read. It is when one comes to that last page — when there seems nothincr more to know — nothino- 92 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. more to learn, that a person ceases to interest one. At least that is my idea." " Thank you," he said, coldly. " You are very candid. I see that I have been making a great mistake about you." " In what way ? " I asked, lifting my eyes to his and wondering a little why they seemed so sad and — pained. " I have been looking upon you as a child," he said, more gently than he had yet spoken. *' A child knowing little of life, and less of men and women. I see I have been mis- taken." " I may not know much of life or people," I said. " But I have thought a great deal about them. I do not expect to find either what I have imagined, or what I would like." '• You are quite right," he said. " Believe me you will not." Then he took up his hat, and quite abruptly said good-bye and left the house. CHAPTER YIIl. JEALOUSY. " Lofty firs and ashes cool The lovely banks o'erspread, And view — deep-bending in the pool Their shadows' wacery bed I " " Bella," I said, as we were on our way to the Islands by the banks of the Xess. " Is your brother Kenneth very easily offended — touchy, I mean ? " " Why do you ask ? " " Because I want to know." " Well, I think he's a bit quick-tempered," said Bella cautiously. " Perhaps we've spoilt him at home. There were such a lot of girls, and mother did make an awful fuss about him. Then he's so good and steady and has never given any trouble or uneasiness to us." " Oh, I'm sure he's very good," I said 94 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. carelessly. "But I wonder wliy ' good ' young men are so heavy and so hard to get on with. Now Kenneth always seems to me to be seeing all sorts of harm and sin in the most innocent actions — to be a perpetual rebuke as it were to everything that is light and gay and amusing. Does he think life such a solemn thing ? " " Not that I'm aware of," said Bella. " But you're a frivolous wee body, Athole, and can't expect him to be just companion- able to you. That's more in Douglas Hay's line." " Ah ! " I said with wicked enjoyment of an approaching battle. " Now, he is nice, if you like. Nice to look at, nice to talk to, and capital company. I wish," I added discontentedly, " that Grannie would ask him to her party. She might just as well. But she's never forgiven him for that Sunday walk." " I should think not," said Bella. "It was the most darins^ thingf I ever heard of. He knew better if you did not." JEALOUSY. 95 *'I think you are the most ridiculous people," I said. " And instead of making Sundays pleasant, you just seem to delight in makincr it the gloomiest and most depressing day in the week. One would think everyone was dead who walked throucfh the streets at any hour after church-time. If God wanted us all to 20 into mourning on a Sunday, I should think He would have ordered the birds not to sing, the sun not to shine, the breeze not to blow, and all the flowers to close." " Xow, Athole, we won't begin to argufy," said Bella. " I know you're a wicked, self- opinionated little creature, and because you've travelled in foreign countries and seen all sorts of religious ceremonies, and all kinds of heathenish and izodless ways of keeping the Sabbath day, you think you're privileged to be dictating to your elders and - betters on the matter." " I'm not dictating, Bella," I said earnestly. *' Perhaps if you knew how perplexed and troubled 1 have felt ever since I began to 96 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. think about such matters you'd be more sorry than vexed with me. It is no use pretending. I cannot beheve and accept a faith just because I'm told it is right. Some- thing within me wants to know more about it — is always caUing for proof — proof — proof. In the Cathohc churches the service was beautiful, but amidst all the singing and the incense and the organ-playing and the beautiful vestments, one could not help thinking there was so much more of ' man ' in the service than of God, and I used to find myself picturing Him looking down on it all and wondering what He thought of it, and if it could really be a matter of importance that on a certain day a certain vestment must be worn, or a certain number of candles lighted, and whether Christ had ever thought it possible that his last, simple, homely meal with his disciples could have been perverted and twisted into a ceremony so widely different as the Mass. And do you know, Bella," I added, growing bolder as I noted the earnestness of her face, " there JEALOUSY. 97 is another thing which has puzzled me often and often, and that is about the birth of Christ. I cannot but think Joseph and Mary were really His father and mother — that He was one of those mystical, spiritual- minded beings who from time to time have been born into the world to keep alive some relicfious fervour and feelincr in it. I have read His history and heard it discussed by very wise and clever people — people who have made it the study of their lives — not merely accepted it as it has been told to them. Have you ever noticed that he always spoke of himself as the ' Son of Man ' ? It is his disciples who would call him Son of God, and who really fitted him into the Messianic character as events forced it upon them." " Where did you learn all this ? " asked Bella, looking rather shocked and startled. " I have read it," I said curtly. " My father has books that you have not even thoucrht of, and thev s,o far, far back into the history of the world It is curious and VOL. I. 7 98 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. interesting to trace out how a leading idea or belief will find acceptance and imitation, until it gets rooted in certain minds as truth." " I think," said Bella. " We had best not discuss such matters. They only lead us astray. What can a lassie like you know of the Scriptures and the history of the Church, when even a minister who has made it the study of his life is often at fault ? " " It seems to me," I said sadly, " that that is just where we all make the mistake. We are afraid to speak— afraid to discuss our doubts — afraid to question the why and wherefore of our faith, and yet on that faith we are pinning our eternal loss or gain. Oh ! how I have lain awake in the dark nights and cried and prayed for something — someone — to tell me the truth ! How I have thought that I must be naturally very wicked because it seemed so hard to believe, so easy to question — because I could not help seeing discrepancies and inaccuracies where wiser and better people saw none, and the world seemed so lonely and life so cold and hard, JE.lLOUSr. 99 and I could only wonder wliy I was put there and wliy I had been made to live without my own will or consciousness, and my head would ache and my eyes burn with crying and self-torture, and I would ask for a sign that religion was true, and for peace or end to my doubts if the}^ were wrong, but there never came anv sio-n, and the doubts — are doubts still." " Perhaps," said Bella, " God is only trj'ing you. I never imagined you felt or thought so deeply. I must say I cannot follow you, my dear — I have never looked at these matters in the liaiit that vou do." I sighed heavilv. AVe crossed a little bridge now, and stood under drooping shady trees, and the sun shone on the sparkling water, and the quiet blue sky was without a cloud. I looked at it all in silence. How beauti- ful, how peaceful the fair earth seemed, and yet how sad and burdened were human hearts. "It has lasted so long, so long," I said 7* 100 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. suddenly, " and it must know so much, and could teacli so mucli, and yet it will tell us nothing." " What ? " asked Bella, looking at me in wonder. " The earth," I said. " The earth that God made, and yet that cannot tell us what He is." " Oh hush, my dear — hush," she cried in a sort of fear, I think at my strange way and words. " Why perplex your head with such matters ? It is best not to question. I think we are not meant to know." I shook my head. "Perhaps," I said, "it is best for us to think so. But why are we given minds, brains, intelligence ? are they not meant for use ? " " No doubt," she said, " but human wisdom is limited. It cannot possibly understand its own origin, or the why and wherefore of its surroundings. I think you had best talk to Mr. Gillespie. He has just a wonderful knowledge of the Scriptures." JEALOUSY. 101 I laughed a little, for the first time since our discussion. I thought of Douglas Hay's description of the sermon on Motion, and my own vivid recollection of his discourse the previous Sunday. " I do not think he would convince me,'"' I said. " Perhaps my nature is sceptical. I know I have always found it hard to believe a thing just because I am told I must beHeve it." " I am sorry for you, Athole," said Bella, her bright face looking strangely grave, " it's not a nature that I would envy, and it's bound to bring you trouble and unhappi- ness." " Perhaps you are right,"' I said, '" but such as it is I must put up with it, my dear. I accept it as my inheritance from the Unknown Source, and I suppose I shall not make it much better than it will allow me." " I never thouofht von were so stranore or so thoughtful," said Bella, surveying me with a very grave and puzzled expression. " I don't often speak of these feelings," I 102 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. said, " and never to people unless I know them, or care for them. But the}^ make up a great deal of my life, and since I was so ill and had to think so much of what might soon be my future — the great strange mystery that lay bej^ond this world and what we call life here — I have given myself up a great deal more to such thoughts than anyone would believe." " But you are not going to die, my dearie," said Bella cheerfully. "You're just going to get strong and well and bonnie, and lose all these fancies and feelings. You want young life about you, you've been moped too much with elderly folk, and uncanny books and the like. But even in this short time we've done 3^ou good and we will continue to do it, I'm sure of that." " Indeed I think you have done me good, a great deal of good," I said gaily, " but you've made me almost in love with life instead of lessening m}^ hold on it." " You're not admiring the Islands at all," said Bella. " Isn't it just beautiful here among the ferns and with the glint of the JEALOUSY. 103 sunshine on the waters. It's a rare fine spot for lovers, here, and — that looks like a pair of them yonder," she added suddenly. I glanced in the direction she indicated and saw two figures silting on a fallen tree some distance off. The cool, grey liiien dress of the woman made a pretty spot of colour acjainst the briijht green backiiround of the many trees. I could only see the back of the man's head, yet there seemed something familiar to me in its pose and in the soft brown curls under the Hio-hland bonnet. <_- We drew nearer ; thev were sittino- close to the pathway and talking in low confidential voices. I felt mv face grow suddenlv hot. I knew who the man was now, even before he had turned his head at the sound of our approach- ing footsteps. Bella's hand squeezed my arm. " It is Douglas Hay," she exclaimed. " I know," I said quietly, " but we had better go on. It will look odd if we turn back now. He must have seen us." 104 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. We walked calmly by the two figures. Douglas lifted his cap ; I did not look at him, but my eyes took in every detail of his com- panion's appearance and dress. She was not young — not — I thought j ealously — even pretty ; but yet there was something — some- thing about her that seemed to stamp her with a charm, a grace, and an individuality far exceeding mere youth and mere pretti- ness. What was it ? The perfect figure in its grey linen gown, the smooth hair of pale dead gold, the large eyes with their white drooping lids. No, not one of these, but a curious subtle charm that pervaded them all, and which even in my brief glance I detected and felt. " W^ho is she ? " I asked Bella eagerly when we were out of earshot. "I'm not quite sure," answered my cousin, " but I fancy she is Mrs. Dunleith, a widow, wilo has lately come to live at a little jDlace called ' The Eowans,' not far from here. I can show it you on our way home. She's not JEALOUSY. 105 much known yet. I think she's not been here above two months, and hves very quietly. Of course," she added, rather spite- fully, "Douo'las Hav is there at once. I never saw the like o' him. Maid, wife, widow, 'tis all one. He's bound to be dangling after some petticoat." I was silent. My heart seemed to have grown strangely heavy, and all the golden sunshine of the day looked dull and ob- scured. I could not have oiven any reason for the change, but I was keenly conscious of it, I am afraid — so was Bella. But she was too discreet to say anything, and we walked on, under the green trees and through all the pretty winding ways, in sympathetic silence. I began to think it would have been better for me if I had not met Douglas Hay — or, having met him, if I had been content to accept other people's opinion of him, instead of forming my own. CHAPTER IX. BELIEF. "Round the sylvan fairy nooks, Feathery braikens fringe the rocks ; 'iS'eath the brae the burnie jouks, And ilka thing is cheerie ; Trees may bud and birds may sing, Flowers may bloom and verdure spring, Joy to me they canna' bring, Unless wi' thee, my dearie ! " We crossed another bridge and walked slowly on by the bright blue water on our way home. My visit to the Islands had been spoilt for me, and I was still too young and took ever}^- thing too seriously to be able to disguise my feelings. Bella had also grown very quiet and subdued, and for some time we were too busied with our own thoughts to exchange a word. EELTEF. 107 " I am tired,'* I said, suddenly, " let us sit down." The banks were quite deserted. The afternoon was growinof late. There was no need to be home till seven o'clock for tea, so Bella made no objection. " So you don't know Mrs. Dunleith ? " I asked abruptly. " She is very pretty, isn't she ? " " Oh, the folk here think her quite a beauty," said Bella, " and I believe she is rich too. ' The Eowans ' is but a small place, but the grounds are lovely ; she keeps a car- riage, too. You've seen her driving several times. I wonder whether she's come to stay here, or only just for the Meetings." " What are the Meetings ? " I asked, ab- sently. " The Xorthern Meetings ! Why, surely you've heard of them. They take place in September. Highland games — bag-pipe play- ing — all the pipers of the different clans compete. They wind up with a ball. That is the great event of the year here. But you're sure to f~^ -l-lgg 'Cl- H^^^^ ^^- CHAPTER XIII. THE OLD STORY. '' Oh, haste, haste — the night is sweet, But sweeter far what I would hear. And I have a secret to tell to you A whisper in your ear." But Grannie did not come in for a long time. She was busy over culinary matters, and, as I learnt afterwards, took Douglas Hay's visit very coolly. " I suppose lie's brought some message for the bairn," she said to Jean, and, satisfied with that conjecture, left us to entertain each other. Needless to say we did that very success- fully. Douglas was no laggard wooer, and assur- edly possessed none of those national virtues of caution and cool-headedness I had always heard lauded. I was supremely happy that morning. Outside, the rain beat remorselessly THE OLD STOEY. 159 ou the window-panes, and filmy mists and broken gusts of wind showed that the storm was in no mood to clear. But the little drawing-room was, for the time being, a region of enchantment and seclusion. We did not speak of the future, the present was enough for us, as yet. And how wonderful that present seemed. How, again and again, we asked each other the still in- explicable riddle — " Why do you care ? What could have made you think of me — love me ? Anyone else would have been natural, as choice for that divine heart-gift, but not I— not you." And so on, with all the foolish happy talk and doubt and wonderment that love has ever known and ever taught. Presently I told him of my dream, to be softly chided that even in a dream I should have learned that sin of Doubt. He was so true, he would always be so true — promises signed and sealed with that " for ever " of love, which means just as much, or as little, as each life may choose. " Never doubt me, sweetheart. I could not 160 THE LAIED 0' COCKPEN. cease to love you. I could not care for any other woman. I know it — I am sure of it. You fancy, because you have heard so much against me, that I am fickle. Indeed, indeed, I am not. All men are fickle till they find the right woman. Instinct shows her to us. We recognize in a moment what we have been seeking. We are content. We ask no more of any other." It was sweet to listen to him — sweet to believe the truth of those words — sweet to revel in the wonderment and wherefore of those first steps in love's rosy pathway. Why should we have met, why should we have cared? We agreed it was Fate — or some- thing even kinder and holier. Some angel's blessed power that from our birth had watched over us and guided us to this supreme moment. Our voices grew lower and softer — eyes said more than speech. Heart and soul were filled with a joy almost too deep, too great to bear. From love's divine world I drew him back to earth again. THE OLD STORY. 161 " You promised to take me to this witcli, Douglas. Did you mean it ? " " Of course, my darling, if you care to come. We will go to morrow if you like. This rain is too violent to last. . . . You won't be afraid, Athole ? " " Afraid — with you ! " He crossed over to my side and wound his arms about me. I lifted my face to his. " Oh, Douglas ! you are sure you love me ? '*' " As sure as that I live, sweetheart." " But — before ? I am not the only one. You have loved other women — kissed them, perhaps, but I — oh, Douglas ! there has been no one — no one in my life till you came to hU it." He bent his head on 1113^ shoulder. " Believe me, you are the first woman who has taught me love. As for the past . . every man has to live through some experi- ence. His nature and the world force him to do it. But the fancied pleasure is never half so keen, sweetheart, as the regret that follows VOL. r. 11 162 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. after, when he knows what the love of a good woman reall}^ means, and wishes that for her sake he had been stronger and better." I drew myself away from his arms. My heart felt jjained and saddened. Already love was teaching me that vague jealousy, that longing to know" who and what has " been before " in the life one loves, that all women feel whenever they love. He saw the cloud and tried to learn its meaning, but I could not have put my thoughts into words. " If you should change. If I should lose you . . ." I clung to him in sudden terror. Already in this short time to have let my life go out to another, and that other, one of whom I knew so little. It was strange, it was incom- prehensible, but all the same I knew it was only too true. " Dearest, do not persist in saying that," he entreated. " Surely I know my own heart, my own feelings. When I saw you first, that night at the Ma cplier sons', I knew, A thole, I THE OLD STORY. 163 should love you. AVlien I met your eyes in the hall, all full of tears, as I came out after sincfiDCf 'Auld Eobm Gray' it seemed as if all my heart went out to you. Oh, darlinof ! if I could onlv make you believe — if you were only as sure of me as I am of myself. " The handsome face, the eager eyes, the loving lips, who could resist them ? I let myself be convinced, I gave every assurance for which he asked. AVe were once more happy. Our interview must have lasted quite half- an-hour before Grannie come in to disturb us. She was quite cordial and gracious to the young man — accepted his excuse of a message from Bella to me with praiseworthy credulity, sat there by the hre with us, as pleasant and cheery as only a sweet and kindly old Scotch lady could be. Then she insisted Douglas must stay for some lunch, and bustled off to see about Jean's preparations in that line. '' It is a shame to deceive her," I said, when we were again alone. 11* 164 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. " Shall I tell her ever3'thing then, and get a decree of banishment ? " laughed Douglas. I shivered. " Oh no ! but perhaps things might not be so bad as you imagine." ^ " My dear child," he said gloomily, " they would be as bad as bad could be. I have no money — no profession — no matrimonial advantages whatever, and I am looked upon with extreme disfavour among the ' unco guid ' folk of the town. What could I expect for my audacity in loving you? Not that I care for myself. But 'tis a shame that your visit should be spoilt, and it certainly would be if this were known." I was easily persuaded. It was much pleasanter to be taken in hand and have things decided for one than to have to act for oneself. Besides, who at seventeen regards love as the prosaic portal of matrimony ? It is an idyll — a dream — a beautiful vague mystery — one does not wish to analyze it, or discuss it. Only to know that it is ours is THE OLD STOKY. 165 enough, the present is far too sweet for the future to affect it. "^ "^ ^^ ^^ ^ ^p Douglas must have made himself very fasci- nating indeed, for Grannie actually asked him to drop in with the other young folk on the evening of the dinner-party, thereby winning my eternal gratitude, and presenting that festive occasion in a new and much more delightful aspect to my eyes. Douglas's presence would make all the difference to me. I could have hugged the dear old lady in the access of gratitude and wonder which that unexpected invitation occasioned. I think even Douglas was surprised, but needless to say he accepted it with an alacrity and delight which must have been highly gratifying. After luncheon he took leave of us, despite the weather. We had arranged between our- selves that we would pay that visit to the Witch of Cawdor on the next afternoon. I knew Grannie was going to Nairn to visit an old friend who was very ill. I should be free 166 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. to do wliat I pleased, and could only hope tliat tlie weather might favour our plans and behave with more consideration than it had done to-day. My last thoughts when I fell asleep that night were of that projected visit. I slept soundly, dreamlessly, waking with that soft, vague ecstacy that speaks of peace and happy memories. Alas ! Alas ! That time does not tarry long with us ! The weather had changed. The sky was clear and bright once more. Bella came round after breakfast to see me, and we walked round the garden, lamenting the havoc done to the strawberries and currants. I told her that I was going to the Witch's Cave that afternoon with Douglas, a piece of information she received with great disfavour. But I coaxed her round to her usual s^ood humour at last, and when Grannie departed to the station at mid-day, I believe she was THE OLD STORY. 167 under the impression that Bella was to take care of me during her absence. " It is better she should think so," said my cousin. " Xot that I would be denying any- thing if she asked me. But she's gone off happy in her mind, the dear old lady, and if I know anything of her and of Mrs. Mactavish, there'll be such ' havers ' and clacketing as never was. She's one of Grannie's pet cronies. I wonder she didn't take you with her. Oh I but she's ill, poor body." '• Grannie wants me to go to Xairn for the sea bathing," I said, pulling a half-blown rose from the stem and fastening it in my dark serene 2'own. "She thinks it willdo me a world of good." "I daresay she's right. But you look won- derfully better already." " Oh, I feel quite strong and well," I said gaily. " It's just a grand place, this," said Bella, with complacent pride in her right to sing its praises. " Where would you find the like of the air, and the scenerv, and P " 168 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPJiN. " The weather ? " I interrupted. " Think of yesterday, Bella." "It just makes you appreciate to-day all the more, 3^ou saucy bit thing. But look, here comes your gallant. Certainly he is a well-favoured lad is Douglas Hay. I'm not the one to deny it ; but mind, Athole, I've not spared my warnings. Take care of your heart." I laughed, but the colour sprang rosily warm to my face as the welcome figure approached. He looked a little put out when he saw my companion. Perhaps Bella noticed it. At all events she hastened to assure him that she was not going to accom- pany us on our expedition. " It's a great deal too far for Athole to walk," she added. " But she's just as wilful as yourself, so I know there's no use in speaking." " It's not so far as it looks," said Douglas cheerily. " And I know a very short cut to the Cave. I found it out accidentally, and I'll take her that way. We've got THE OLD STORY. 169 plenty of time. It's only two o'clock now. ' " AVell, take care of the child," Bella said warningly, " or Grannie will be fine and angry with you both. And what's to become of her dinner party if anything happens ? " she added laughingly. " Do you know I've been invited on that evening ? " asked Douglas, with an assump- tion of dignity and importance that almost rivalled Kenneth's manner. Bella looked astonished. " Xo — reallv? I believe vou're ioking ! Has he been asked, Athole ? " " Indeed, yes," I said. " Grannie invited him herself." " Oh, then you've been forgiven for your misbehavour P " she said, res^ardinor him with evident curiosity. " Will that Sunday walk ever be for- gotten ? " he answered laughing. " One would think it was a criminal offence. I suppose, Miss Bella, you agree with the minister, who, when a parishioner told him 170 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. she had the Lord's own example for walking among the cornfields on the Sabbath Bay, said rebukingly, ' I do not deny that, Mary, but let me tell you that I dinna think the more o' Him for doing it ! ' " " Now, now," said Bella warningly. " When 3^ou begin with your anecdotes, you're nigh as ungodly as papa. He's just stocked with such stories, and that's one of them. I'm not going to listen, so you and Athole had better be off to your Witch, and much good may she do you ! " " Is that a benediction ? " asked Douglas. " You don't happen to have a charm of any sort, do you, to give your cousin, so as to prevent her being spirited away on a broom- stick, or some such catastrophe ? " " You're a foolish callant," said Bella, " and only that you've grown so tall and manly I'd like to box your ears as I used to do." Tlien she nodded gaily, and went off down the road to the town leavins^ us tog:etlier. CHAPTER XIV. THE witch's CAVEEX. " Loud sobs and laughter imder-ran, And voices unlike the voice of man, As if the fiends kept holiday Becanse these spells were wrought to-day." M^ ^ ^ ^ ^ " Mv sand is run — my thread is spun — This sign regardeth me." The way might liave been long or short. To me it was filled with all the light and perfume of summer, and all the joy and dreams and delight of first love. Douglas was in wild spirits ; he told me legends and tales without end, humorous, mysterious, witty, as the case might be. " Our old servant at home, Janet Scott, is just full of these stories," he said at last. " My childhood and boyhood were well dosed with them, and I didn't dare tell her I didn't believe them." 172 THE LAIED 0' COCKPEN. " Does she know the Witch ? " I asked. '• Janet ? oh, yes. She's great in favour with her, and many's the bottle of whisky, and bowl of oatmeal, that finds its way to old wife Garvie's retreat, I'm thinking." "But is she really a witch, or is it just a superstition of the folk about here ? " He laughed. " You had better judge for yourself. If looks mean anything, hers are uncanny enough. She is terribly ugly. However, sweetheart, I'm not going to let her frighten you." Impulsively I clung to his arm. How bold and strong and handsome he was. More than ever I wondered what he could have seen in me to care for. A little, dusky- haired, insignificant slip of a girl, neither pretty, nor witty, nor brilliant. However, I was too happy to do just more than wonder. It was so plain he did care, so evident in every look and tone that I met or heard. So we went on arm in arm, or hand in hand, over rough roads and pathways, climb- THE WITCH'S CAVEEN. 173 inor stiles, skirtino' baiiev fields, drmkino- in sweet air and golden sunshine, liappy as youth and love and freedom could make us. The way was certainly long, but I was conscious of no fatigue. I had but a vague remembrance of how we went, or by what means we seemed to come suddenly upon the Cave where the redoubtable witch had made her dwelling-place. The entrance was concealed by bushes. When Douglas Hay pulled them aside, I saw only a dark recess, which seemed to stretch far away into vague depths of darkness. The dripping of water sounded in a monotonous patter in the distance. The coldness and dampness and gloom struck with chilling awe on my nerves and senses. I turned to Douglas in a sudden access of terror and foreboding. " It is a terrible place. 1 am sorry I came," I whispered. " Shall we go away, then ? " he asked. But a sudden shame for my momentary cowardice made me insist on pursuing the 174 THE LAIRD 0' COCKPEN. adventure. Indeed just as I stood hesitating there, a rough, harsh voice from the interior of the Cave, demanded our business, and requested us to come in if we wished. Still chnging to Douglas's hand, I went forward through the darkness, stumbling over- the rough, uneven floor, hearing always that monotonous drip-drip of falling water. At last a dull hght came into view — the gleam of a peat fire, by which a solitary figure crouched, stretching lean and withered hands to the blaze as if for warmth. " Come in, ye whaup, come in," crooned a harsh voice. " Ye will na think that I dinna ken ye, and the leddy too. Sit ye doon, baith o' ye. It wass a prood day for auld wife Garvie when the Southron leddy cam' to her, and it's muckle she could say aboot the twain o' ye." There was a rough, wooden bench near the fire, and to this Douglas led me, while his cheery voice answered back the old woman's greeting. As ni}^ eyes grew accustomed to the dim THE WITCH'S CAVERN. 175 light, I looked at her with increased curiosity. A wrinkled, weather-beaten face, gnarled and brown as a tree-stem. Wisps of grey hair straying from a not over clean " mutch " or cap. A garb which seemed composed of any scraps and ends of tattered clothing, man or woman's, that she had been able to collect — fierce-looking, dark eyes, that gleamed redly in the iire-li