m^^ L 1 E> R.AR.Y OF THE UNIVERSITY or ILLINOIS x623 v^^ u^wi^xcte^ Digitized by the Internet Archive in 2010 with funding from University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign http://www.archive.org/details/firstviolinnovel01foth THE FIRST VIOLIN. % ^obd. -'(Sntbei)ren foUjt bu : foUjt entbet)rcnr IN THREE VOLUMES. VOL. I. LONDON : RICHARD BENTLEY AND SON, [^// Rights Reserved.'] ^0 A. C. H., IN SLIGHT TOKEN OF MY GEATITUDE AND AFFECTION, ..^SQ:^ CONTENTS OF VOL. I. BOOK I. EES ANGUSTA DOMI. HAPTER I. ... ... ... 1 II. ... ... ... ... 11 III. . ... 27 IV. ... ... ... ... 35 V. ... ... ... 42 I. II. III. IV. BOOK 11. LIFE. 46 87 109 127 CONTENTS. CHAPTER V. VI. VII. VIII. IX. 136 155 168 186 202 I. II. BOOK III. EUGEN COURVOISIER. 223 252 THE FIRST YIOLIK BOOK I. RES AN GUST A DOMI. CHAPTER I. MISS HALLAM. ONDEHFUL weather for April !" Yes, it certainly was wonderful. I fully agreed with the senti- ment expressed at different periods of the day by different members of my family ; but I did not follow their example and seek enjoyment out of doors — pleasure in that balmy spring air. Trouble — ^the first trouble of my life — had laid her hand heavily upon me. The world felt disjointed and all VOL. I. 1 THE FIRST VIOLIN. upside-down ; I very helpless and lonely in it. I had two sisters, I had a father and a mother ; but none the less was I unable to share my grief with any one of them ; nay, it had been an absolute relief to me when first one and then another of them had left the house, on business or pleasure intent, and I, after watching my father go down the garden-walk, and seeing the gate close after him, knew that, save for Jane, our domestic, who was carolling lustily to herself in the kitchen regions, I was alone in the house. I was in the drawing-room. Once secure of solitude, I put down the sewing with which I had been pretending to employ my- self, and went to the window — a pleasant, sunny bay. In that window stood a small work-table, with a flower-pot upon it, con- taining a lilac primula. I remember it dis- tinctly to this day, and I am likely to carry the recollection with me so long as I live. I leaned my elbows upon this table, and gazed across the fields, green with spring grass, tenderly lighted by an April sun, to where the river — the Skern — shone with a pleasant, homely, silvery glitter, twining through the THE FIRST VIOLIN. smiling meadows till lie bent round the solemn overhanging cliff crowned with mourn- ful firs, which went by the name of the Kifted or Riven Scaur. In some such delightful mead might the white-armed Nausicaa have tossed her cow- slip balls amongst the other maids ; perhaps by some such river might Persephone have paused to gather the daffodil — " the fateful flower beside the rill." Light clouds flitted across the sky, a waft of wind danced in at the open window, ruffling my hair mockingly, and bearing with it the deep sound of a church-clock striking four. As if the striking of the hour had been a signal for the breaking of a spell, the silence that had prevailed came to an end. Wheels came rolling along the road up to the door, which, however, was at the other side of the house. ^^ A visitor for my father, no doubt," I thought indifferently ; '' and he has gone out to read the funeral service for a dead parishioner. How strange ! I wonder how clergymen and doctors can ever get accus- tomed to the grim contrasts amidst which they live !" 1—2 THE FIRST VIOLIN, I suffered my thoughts to wander off in some such track as this, but they were all through dominated by a heavy sense of op- pression — the threatening hand of a calamity which I feared was about to overtake me, and I had again forgotten the outside world. The door was 023ened. Jane held it open and said nothing (a trifling habit of hers, which used to cause me much annoyance), and a tall woman walked slowly into the room. I rose and looked earnestly at her, surprised and somewhat nervous when I saw who she was — Miss Hallam, of Hallam Grange, our near neighbour, but a great stranger to us nevertheless, so far, that is, as personal intercourse went. "Your servant told me that every one was out except Miss May," she remarked in a harsh, decided voice, as she looked not so much at me as towards me, and I perceived that there was something strange about her eves. " Yes ; I am sorry," I began doubtfully. She had sallow, strongly-marked, but proud and aristocratic features, and a manner THE FIRST VIOLIN. with more than a tinge of imperiousness. Her face, her figure, her voice were famihar, yet strange to me — famihar because I had heard of her, and been in the habit of occa- sionally seeing her from my very earliest child- hood ; strange, because she was reserved and not given to seeking her neighbours' houses for purposes either of gossip or hospitality. I was aware that about once in two years she made a call at our house, the Vicarage, whether as a mark of politeness to us, or to show that, though she never entered a church, she still chose to lend her countenance and approval to the Establishment, or whether merely out of old use and habit, I knew not. I only knew that she came, and that until now it had never fallen to my lot to be present upon any of those momentous occasions. Feeling it a httle hard that my coveted solitude should thus be interrupted, and not quite knowing what to say to her, I sat down, and there was a moment's pause. " Is your mother well ?" she inquired. '' Yes, thank you, very well. She has gone with my sister to Darton." '' Your father T THE FIRST VIOLIN. " He is well too, thank you. He has a funeral this afternoon." " I think you have two sisters, have you not r ^^ Yes; Adelaide and Stella." ^^ And which are you '?" *^ May. I am the second one." All her questions were put in an almost severe tone, and not as if she took very much interest in me or mine. I felt my timidity increase, and yet — I liked her. Yes, I felt most distinctly that I liked her. ''May," she remarked meditatively; ''May Wedderburn. Are you aware that you have a very pretty north-country sounding name?" " I have not thought about it." " How old are you ?" '^ I am a little over seventeen." '' Ah ! And what do you do all day ?" " Oh !" I began doubtfully, " not much, I am afraid, that is useful or valuable." " You are young enough yet. Don't begin to do things with a purpose for some time to come. Be happy whilst you can." " I am not at all happy," I replied, not thinking of what I was saying, and then THE FIRST VIOLIN. feeling that I could have bitten my tongue out with vexation. What could it possibly matter to Miss Hallam whether I were happy or not ? She was asking me all these questions to pass the time, and in order to talk about something while she sat in our house. ^' What makes you unhappy ? Are your sisters disagreeable ?" " Oh no r '^ Are your parents unkind '?" '^ Unkind /" I echoed, thinking what a very extraordinary woman she was, and wondering what kind of experience hers could have been in the past. ^' Then I can not imagine what cause for unhappiness you can have," she said com- posedly. I made no answer. I repented me of having uttered the words, and Miss Hallam went on : *' I should advise you to forget that there is such a thing as unhappiness. You will soon succeed." " Yes — I will try," said I in a low voice, as the cause of my unhappiness rose up, gaunt, 7 HE FIRST VIOLIN. grim and forbidding, with thin lips curved in a mocking smile, and glittering, snake-like eyes fixed upon my face. I shivered faintly ; and she, though looking quickly at me, seemed to think she had said enough about my unhappi- ness. Her next question surprised me much. ^' Are you fair in complexion T she in- quired. ^^ Yes," said I. '^ I am very fair — fairer than either of my sisters. But are you near- sighted T "' Near sight^e^s," she replied, with a bitter little laugh. ^^ Cataract. I have so many joys in my life that Providence has thought fit to temper the sunshine of my lot. I am to content myself with the store of pleasant re- membrances with which my mind is crowded^ when I can see nothing outside. A delightful arrangement. It is what pious people call a ' cross ' or a ^ visitation ' or something of that kind. I am not pious, and I call it the destruction of what little happiness I had." " Oh, I am very, verij sorry for you," I answered, feeling what I spoke, for it had always been my idea of misery to be blind — ■ shut away from the sunlight upon the fields^ THE FIRST VIOLIN. from the hue of the river, from all that '' lust of the eye " which meets us on every side. ''But are you quite alone'?" I continued. '^ Have you no one to " I stopped : I was about to add, '' to be kind to you — to take care of you'?" but I suddenly remembered that it would not do for me to ask such questions. '' No, I live quite alone," said she abruptly. ''Did you think of offering to relieve my solitude T I felt myself burning with a hot blush all over my face, as I stammered out : " I am sure I never thought of anything so impertinent, but — but — if there was anything I could do — read, or " I stopped again. Never very confident in myself, I felt a miserable sense that I might have been o:oinof too far. I wished most ardently that my mother or Adelaide had been there to take the weight of such a con- versation from my shoulders. What was my surprise to hear Miss Hallam say, in a tone quite smooth, polished, and polite : " Come and drink tea with me to-morrow afternoon — afternoon tea I mean. You can 10 THE FIRST VIOLIN. go away again as soon as you like. Will you r '' Oh, thank you. Yes, I will." " Very well. I shall expect you between four and five. Good-afternoon." " Let me come with you to your carriage," said I hastily. *' Jane — our servant is so clumsy." I preceded her with care, saw her seated in her carriage and driven away towards the Grange, which was but a few hundred yards from our own gates, and then I returned to the house. And as I went in again, my companion-shadow glided once more to my side, with soft, insinuating, irresistible impor- tunity, and I knew that it would be my faithful attendant for — who could say how long ? CHAPTER II. " Traversons gravement ce mediant mascaracle qu'on appelle le monde." .HE houses in Skernford — the houses of the "gentry" that is to say — lay almost all on one side an old- fashioned, sleepy-looking "green," towards which their entrances lay ; but their real front, their pleasantest aspect, w^as on their other side, facing the river which ran below, and down to which their gardens sloped in terraces. Our house, the Vicarage, lay nearest the church ; Miss Hallam's hou^, the Grange, farthest from the church. Between these, larger and more imposing, in grounds beside which ours seemed to dwindle down to a few flower-beds, lay Deeplish Hall, whose owner, 12 THE FIRST VIOLIN. Sir Peter Le Marchant had lately come ta live there, at least for a time. It was many years since Sir Peter Le Marchant, whose image at this time was fated to enter so largely and so much against my Avill into all my calculations, had lived at, or even visited his estate at Skernford. He was a man of immense property, and report said that Deeplish Hall, which we innocent villagers looked upon as such an imposing mansion, was but one, and not the grandest of his several country houses. All that I knew of his history — or rather, all that I had heard of it, whether truly or not, I was in no position to say — was but a vague and misty account ; yet that little had given me a dislike to him before I ever met him. Miss Hallam, our neighbour, who lived in such solitude and retirement, was credited with having a history — if report had only been able to fix upon what it was. She was popularly supposed to be of a grim and decidedly eccentric disposition. Eccentric she was, as I afterwards found — as I thought when I first saw her. She seldom appeared either in church or upon any other public THE FIRST VIOLIN. 13 occasion, and was said to be the deadly enemy of Sir Peter Le Marchant and all pertaining to him. There was some old, far-back romance connected with it — a romance which I did not understand, for up to now I had never known either her or Sir Peter sufficiently to take any interest in the story, but the re- port ran that in days gone by — how far gone by, too, they must have been ! Miss Hallam — a young and handsome heiress, loved very devotedly her one sister, and that sister — so much was known as a fact — had become Lady Le Marchant : was not her monument in the church between the Deeplish Hall and the Hallam Grange pews ? Was not the tale of her virtues and her years — seven and twenty only did she count of the latter — there recorded ? That Barbara Hallam had been married to Sir Peter was matter of history : what was not matter of history, but of tradition which was believed in quite as firmly, was that the Baronet had ill-treated his wife — in what way was not distinctly specified, but I have since learnt that it was true ; she was a gentle creature, and he made her life miserable unto her. She was idolised by her 14 THE FIRST VIOLIN. elder sister, who, burning with indignation at the treatment to which her darhng had been subjected, had become, even in disposition, an altered woman. From a cheerful, open- hearted, generous, somewhat brusque young person, she had grown into a prematurely old, soured, revengeful woman. It was to her that the weak and injured sister had fled; it was in her arms that she had died. Since her sister's death, Miss Hallam had with- drawn entirely from society, cherishing a per- petual grudge against Sir Peter Le Marchant. Whether she had relations or none, friends or acquaintance outside the small village in which she lived, none knew. If so, they limited their intercourse with her to corres- pondence, for no visitor ever penetrated to her damp old Grange, nor had she ever been known to leave it with the purpose of making any journey abroad. If perfect silence and perfect retirement could hush the tongues of tradition and report, then Miss Hallam's story should have been forgotten. But it was not forgotten. Such things never do be- come forgotten. It was only since Sir Peter had appeared THE FIRST VIOLIN. 15 suddenly some six Aveeks ago at Deeplisli Hall, that these dry bones of tradition had for me quickened into something like life, and had acquired a kind of interest for me. Our father, as Vicar of the parish, had naturally called upon Sir Peter, and as naturally invited him to his house. His visits had begun by his coming to lunch one day, and we had speculated about him a little in advance, half-jestingly, raking up old stories, and attributing to him various evil qualities of a hard and loveless old age. But after he had gone, the verdict of Stella and myself was, ''Much worse than we expected."" He was different from what we had expected. Perhaps that annoyed us. Instead of being able to laugh at him, we found something oppressive, chilling, to me frightful, in the cold sneering smile which seemed perpetually hovering about his thin lips — in the fixed, snaky glitter of his still, intent grey eyes. His face was pale, his manners were polished, but to meet his eye was a thing I hated, and the touch of his hand made me shudder. "While speaking in the politest possible manner, he had eyed over Adelaide and me 16 THE FIRST VIOLIN. in a manner which I do not think either of us had ever experienced before. I hated him from the moment in which I saw him look- ing at me with expression of approval. To be approved by Sir Peter Le Marchant, could fate devise anything more horrible ? Yes, I knew now that it could : one might have to submit to the approval, to live in the ap- proval. I had expressed my opinion on the subject with freedom to Adelaide, who to my surprise had not agreed with me, and had told me coldly that I had no business to speak disrespectfully of my father's visitors. I was silenced, but unhappy. From the first mo- ment of seeing Sir Peter, I had felt an uncomfortable, uneasy feeling, which had I been sentimental I might have called a pre- sentiment, but I was not sentimental. I was a healthy young girl of seventeen, be- lieving in true love, and goodness^ and gentleness very earnestly ; " fancy free," having read few novels, and heard no gossip — a very baby in many respects. Our home might be a quiet one, a poor one, a dull one — our circle of acquaintance small, our dis- tractions of the most limited description THE FIRST VIOLIN. 17 imaginable, but at least we knew no evil, and — I speak for Stella and myself — thought none. Our father and mother were persons with nothing whatever remarkable about them. Both had been handsome. My mother was pretty, my father good-looking', 2^ yet. I loved them both dearly. It had never entered my head to do otherwise than love them^ but the love which made the star and the poetry of my quiet and unromantic life was that I bore to Adelaide, my eldest sister. I believed in her devotedly, and accepted her judgment, given in her own peculiar proud, decided way, upon every topic on which she chose to express it. She was one and twenty, and I used to think I could lay down my life for her. It was consequently a shock to me to hear her speak in praise — yes, in 'praise of Sir Peter Le Marchant. My first impulse was to distrust my own judgment, but no : I could not long do so. He li^as repulsive ; he was stealthy, hard, cruel, in appearance. I could not account for Adelaide's perversity in liking him, and passed puzzled days and racked my brain in conjecture as to why when Sir Peter VOL. I. 2 81 THE FIRST VIOLIN:-. came, Adelaide sliould be always at home, always neat and fresh — not like me. Why w^as Adelaide, who found it too much trouble to join Stella and me in our homely concerts, always ready to indulge Sir Peter's taste for music, to entertain him with conversation ? — and she could talk. She was unlike me in that respect. I never had a brilliant gift of conversation. She was witty about the things she did know, and never committed the fatal mistake of pretending to be up in the things she did not know. These gifts of mind, these social powers, were always ready for the edification of Sir Peter. By degrees the truth forced itself upon me. Some one said — I overheard it — that 'Hhat hand- some Miss Wedderburn was undoubtedly setting her cap at Sir Peter Le Marchant." Never shall I forget the fury which at first possessed me, the conviction which gradually stole over me that it was true. My sister Adelaide, beautiful, proud, clever — and I had always thought good — had distinctly in view the purpose of becoming Lady Le Marchant. I shed countless tears over the miserable discovery, and dared not THE FIRST VIOLIJSr, 19 speak to her of it. But that was not the worst. My horizon darkened. One horrible day I discovered that it was I, and not Adelaide, who had attracted Sir Peter's attentions. It was not a scene, not .a set declaration. It was a word in that smooth voice, a oflance from that hated and chillino;; eye, which suddenly aroused me to the truth. Shuddering, dismayed, I locked the matter up within my own breast, and wished with a longing that sometimes made me quite wretched, that I could quit Skernford, my home, my life, which had lost zest for me, and was become a burden to me. The know- ledge that Sir Peter admired me absolutely degraded me in my own eyes. I felt as if I could not hold up my head. I had spoken to no one of what had passed within me, and I trusted it had not been noticed ; but all my joy Vas gone. It was as if I stood helpless while a noisome reptile coiled its folds around me. To-day, after Miss Hallam's departure, I dropped into my now chronic state of listless- ness and sadness. They all came back : my father from the church ; my mother and Ade- 2—2 20 THE FIRST VIOLIN. laide from Darton, whither they had been on a shopping expedition ; Stella from a stroll by the river. We had tea, and they dispersed quite cheerfully to their various occupations. I, seeing the gloaming gently and dim falling over the earth, walked out of the house into the garden, and took my way towards the river. I passed an arbour in which Stella and I had loved to sit and watch the stream, and talk and read Miss Austen's novels. Stella was there now, with a well-thumbed copy of '^ Pride and Prejudice " in her hand. '^ Come and sit down, May," she apostro- phised me. '' Do listen to this about Bingley and Wickham." ''' No, thank you," said I abstractedly, and feeling that Stella was not the person to whom I could confide my woe. Indeed, on scanning mentally the list of my acquaintance, I found that there was not one in whom I €Ould confide. It gave me a strange sense of loneliness and aloofness, and hardened me more than the reading of a hundred satires on the meannesses of society. I went along the terrace by the river-side, and looked up to the left — traces of Sir THE FIRST VIOLIN. 21 Peter again. There was the terrace of Deephsh Hall, which stood on a height just above a bend in the river. It was a fine old place. The sheen of the glass-houses caught the rays of the sun and glanced in them. II looked rich, old, and peaceful. I had been many a time through its gardens^ and thought them beautiful, and wished they belonged to me. Now I felt that they lay in a manner at my feet, and my strongest feeling respecting them was an earnest wish that I might never see them again. Thus agreeably meditating, I insensibly left our own garden and wandered on in the now quickly falling twilight into a narrow path leading across a sort of No-Man's-Land into the demesne of Sir Peter Le Marchant. In my trouble I scarcely remarked where I was going, and with my eyes cast upon the ground was wishing that I could feel again as I once had felt, when "I nothing had, and yet enough 3" and was sadly wondering what I could do to escape from the net in which I felt myself caught, when a shadow darkened the twihght 22 THE FIRST VIOLIN. in which I stood, and looking up I saw Sir Peter, and heard these words : '' Good-evening, Miss Wedderburn. Are you enjoying a httle stroll T By, as it seemed to me^ some strange miracle all my inward fears and tremblings vanished. I did not feel afraid of Sir Peter in the least. I felt that here was a crisis. This meeting would show me whether my fears had been groundless, and my own vanity and self-consciousness of unparalleled propor- tions, or whether I had judged truly, and had good reason for my qualms and anticipa- tions. It came. The alarm had not been a false one. Sir Peter, after conversing with me for a short time, did, in clear and unmistakable terms, inform me that he loved me, and asked me to marry him. '^ I thank you," said I, mastering my im- pulse to cover my face with my hands, and run shuddering away from him. " I thank you for the honour you offer me, and beg to decline it." He looked surprised, and still continued to urge me in a manner which roused a deep THE FIRST VIOLIN, 23 inner feeling of indignation within me, for it seemed to say that he understood me to be overwhehiied with the honour he proposed to confer upon me, and humoured my timidity about accepting it. There was no doubt in his manner ; not the shadow of a suspicion that I could be in earnest. There was some- thing that turned my heart cold within me — a cool, sneering tone, which not all his pro- fessions of affection could disguise. Since that time I have heard Sir Peter explicitly state his conception of the sphere of woman in the world : it was not an exalted one. He could not even now quite conceal that while he told me he wished to make me his wife and the partner of his heart and possessions, yet he knew that such professions were but words — that he did not sue for my love (poor Sir Peter ! I doubt if ever in his long life he was blessed with even a momentary glimpse of the divine countenance of pure Love), but offered to buy my youth, and such poor beauty as I might have, with his money and his other worldly advantages. Sir Peter was a blank, utter sceptic with regard to the worth of women. He did not 24 THE FIRST VIOLIN, believe in their virtue nor their self-respect ; he believed them to be clever actresses, and, taken all in all, the best kind of amusement to be had for money. The kind of opinion was then new to me : the effect of it upon my mind such as might be expected. I was seventeen, and an ardent believer in all things pure and of good report. Nevertheless, I remained composed, sedate^ even courteous to the last — till I had fairly made Sir Peter understand that no earthly power should induce me to marry him ; till I had let him see that I fully compre- hended the advantages of the position he offered me, and declined them. '' Miss Wedderburn," said he at last — and his voice was as unruffled as my own ; had it been more angry I should have feared it less — " do you fear opposition \ I do not think your parents would refuse their consent to our union." I closed my eyes for a moment, and a hand seemed to tighten about my heart. Then I said : " I speak without reference to my parents. In such a matter I judge for myself" THE FIRST VIOLIN. 25. *^ Always the same answer T " Alw^ays the same, Sir Peter." *^ It would be mosb ungentlemanly to press the subject any further." His eyes were fixed upon me with the same cold, snake-like smile. ^' I will not be guilty of such a sole- cism. Your family affections, my dear young lady, are strong, I should suppose. Which — whom do you love best ?" Surprised at the blunt straightforwardness of the question, as coming from him, I replied thoughtlessly, " Oh, my sister Adelaide." " Indeed ! I should imagine she was in every way worthy the esteem of so disinte- rested a person as yourself A different disposition, though — quite. Will you allow me to touch your hand before I retire '?" Trembling with uneasy forebodings roused by his continual sneering smile, and the peculiar evil light in his eyes, I yet went through with my duty to the end. He took the hand I extended, and raised it to his lips, with a low bow. '^ Good-evening, Miss Wedderburn." Faintly returning his valediction, I saw him go away, and then in a dream, a maze, a, 26 THE FIRST VIOLIN. bewilderment^ I too turned slowly away, and walked to the house again. I felt, I knew I had behaved well and discreetly, but I had no confidence whatever that the matter was