THE UNIVERSITY OF ILLINOIS LIBRARY From the collection of Julius Doerner, Chicago Purchased, 1918. B B5GG>bl Digitized by the Internet Archive in 2016 with funding from University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign Alternates https://archive.org/details/extractsfrommemo00bett_0 / a / ' C /o 5 y / fz/f-eY oJhi/f' EXTRACTS FROM THE MEMORANDUMS OF JANE BETTLE, />> 3. -■ g£« # .V WITH A SHORT MEMOIR RESPECTING HER. LleprtnieS from tf)e American Litton. LONDON: C. GILPIN, 5, BISHOPSGATE STREET WITHOUT. 1845. LONDON 5 RICHARD BARRETT, PRINTER, MARK LANE, d 3$Z>6? £>/ J* £ ?s- A i MEMOIR. The writer of the subjoined memorandums was well known to many persons in the religious Society of Friends, as a useful and consistent member, and an elder whose example was instructive and edifying. It is not intended by the present publication to eulogise her character, but to magnify the power of Divine grace, which made her what she was, and to hold up to view the blessed effects of humble, unre- served submission to its heavenly visitations, as an encouragement to others, to pursue the same path, which led her safely through all the dangers and temptations of this chequered life, to a peaceful and happy close. Her parents, Thomas and Jane Temple, lived in Pennsbury, Chester County, Pennsylvania, which was the place of her nativity, and where she resided until her removal to Philadelphia. She possessed by nature a gentle and amiable dis- position ; and under the regulating and sanctifying power of Truth, she became in after life, remarkable for great equanimity and steady perseverance in the path of manifested duty. In her youthful days, a 2 700331 4 MEMOIR OF she was subject to the temptations incident to that interesting period, but through the watchful care of her parents, and the restraints and checks of the Divine Witness, was in great measure preserved from yielding to them, and enabled to set an example of sobriety and simplicity to her associates. The importance of the duty of obedience to parents, was early and deeply impressed on her mind ; and though at times it subjected her to some crosses, yet the comfort and satisfaction she derived from yielding her own views to theirs, greatly out- balanced them, and afforded her a subject of pleas- ing retrospection to the latest period of life. She thought it right to defer to the judgment of her parents, both in the choice of her associates and in the style of her dress, and felt herself restrained from adopting, in relation to either, a course which they did not fully approve. Distrustful of her own attainments, she chose to hear the sentiments of those of greater religious experience than herself, before forming her opinion on any important subject, and was thus preserved from falling into errors, to which the hasty and im- mature minds of the young are prone. She recurred, with gratitude and reverent thank- fulness, to the early visitations of the love of God to her soul ; some of which were, in great mercy, extended during the morning of childhood, contrit- ing and subduing her spirit, even before she was JANE BETTLE. capable of appreciating the source whence they ori- ginated. Her heart being thus softened and ten- dered, and the love of retirement and quiet medita- tion on serious things induced, her ear was opened to the discipline of the cross of Christ, and the way prepared for further manifestations of heavenly regard. As she was obedient to little requisitions of duty which were opened to her view, the sweet reward of peace graciously dispensed, animated and strengthened her to make greater sacrifices, when called for, and trained her to that subjection of the will, and mortification of self, which are essential to usefulness in the Lord’s house. On one occasion, when an article of dress which she had ordered, was sent home, with some needless ornament attached to it, she felt uneasy at the thought of wearing it, and after some reflection decided not to do it. Although the proposed de- parture from the usual simplicity of her attire was small, yet the faithful monitor within, failed not to warn her of the danger of the first deviation ; and the little act of obedience which she was thus strengthened to perform, was followed by a feeling of peaceful enjoyment which transcends any earthly gratification. She was thus settled in the convic- tion, that however the wise of this world may lightly esteem the Christian testimony to plainness and simplicity, it had its origin in the blessed Truth ; and that the due observance of it, tends to preserve 6 MEMOIR OF from many snares of the deceiver, and to prepare the mind for the discharge of other religious obli- gations. Another duty, of which she deeply felt both the importance and the advantages, was that of diligently assembling for the performance of Divine worship, and making a public acknowledgment of dependence upon Almighty God for all that we enjoy. It was her concern on such occasions, to seek for a qualifi- cation to perform that worship which is “ in spirit and in truth endeavouring to have all obtruding thoughts hushed into silence, and her heart fixed, trusting in the Lord. The advantage of early establishing this practice of frequent waiting on, and seeking after Him, was conspicuous, when she was afterwards deprived by sickness of the oppor- tunity of attending meetings with her friends ; her chamber being then made to her a place of Divine communion, where ability was vouchsafed to worship before God in the beauty of holiness, and to praise and magnify his ever-adorable name. Believing herself called to manifest fully on whose side she was, she became very guarded and cir- cumspect in her deportment and conversation, and was soon brought into little services in religious society. This awakened fresh concern, that while acting in the affairs of Truth, she might do nothing which would be inconsistent with the profession she was making, or give occasion to any to speak JANE BETTLE. 7 against that cause, which had become more precious to her than any earthly consideration. Her tender and sympathising feelings led her to visit the sick and the destitute, where her kind and assiduous atten- tions were often very serviceable, and much endeared her to those who were the objects of them. In the year 1802 , she was married, and removed to Philadelphia. She entered into the various duties of her family with cheerfulness and diligence ; mani- festing an interest in the welfare of all around her, and endeavouring, so far as was proper, to consult their wishes and promote their comfort. She was religiously watchful over her children, careful to embue their minds with sentiments of love and fear for their great Creator, and to train them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord, it being her chief desire, that they should serve and honour him. Attached from sincere and heartfelt conviction to the testimonies of Truth, as borne by the Society of Friends, she endeavoured to maintain and recom- mend them by a consistent example ; and was con- cerned that not only her own apparel and that of her children, but also the furniture of the house and manner of living, should be such as became the simplicity and self-denial which the gospel enjoins. In the treatment of those employed in her ser- vice, she evinced a kind consideration, which won their affection ; while the decision and firmness with which she met any departure from correct deport- 8 MEMOIR OF ment, gave her a ready control over them, and secured their respect and esteem. In her social relations, she was kind, affectionate and affable ; evincing an innocent cheerfulness in conversation, which she would generally try to turn to some instructive topic. She was careful to avoid talking of the errors or failings of others, being sensible of the deleterious and withering influence of a disposition which delights to dwell upon such things ; and when it became necessary to speak of them, she scrupulously avoided exaggeration or colouring, and the use of strong language, choosing rather to speak with moderation, and to do full justice to the good qualities of the absent. But when a sense of duty, or the requirements of her station in society, rendered it necessary for her to visit those who had erred, she was plain and honest in telling them of their faults, and tender and per- suasive in her efforts to convince and reclaim them ; and there is ground to believe, that her Christian labour in this line, was often productive of bene- ficial results, and gained for her the regard of the party. In the year 1810, she was appointed an overseer of the Monthly Meeting of Friends of Philadelphia ; and in 1814, was chosen to fill the weighty and re- sponsible office of an elder. The duties thus de- volved upon her by the church, brought her under much concern and exercise, that she might, through JANE BETTLE. 9 Divine assistance, be enabled to discharge them in a suitable manner, and her example be such as becomes those who are actively engaged in manag- ing the affairs of Truth. Her love to the cause of Christ, led her cheerfully to devote her time and strength to its promotion ; the prosperity of the Society of which she w r as a member, and its ad- vancement in true religion, being objects of the highest interest in her view. Apprehending it required of her to accompany our friend Elizabeth Robson, in her religious visit to some parts of the United States ; in the Tenth Month, 1824, she obtained a minute, expressive of the unity of her Friends with the engagement, and was absent from home in the service about a year. Although many privations and difficulties w r ere in- curred in the prosecution of this concern, she cheer- fully submitted to them, and the retrospect of the engagement afforded her solid peace and satisfac- tion. She had generally enjoyed good health, until the early part of the year 1832, when, during a visit to the meetings of Friends in New Jersey, under appointment of the Yearly Meeting, she perceived symptoms of disease, which often subjected her to much suffering. She, however, persevered in get- ting through the journey, and soon after its com- pletion, was wholly confined to the house, which she never left during the remnant of her days, a 3 10 MEMOIR OF The same peaceful, quiet submission with which she had met former afflictive dispensations, marked her daily course, under the wasting and painful effects of this distressing malady. It was instruc- tive and animating to behold with what easy cheerful- ness she would receive and converse with her friends, when the obvious inroads which the disorder had made upon her frame, and her apparent suffering, would awaken the commiseration and call forth the sympathies of her visitors. But though she might truly say with the afflicted patriarch, that, as re- garded corporeal feelings, “ tedious days and weari- some nights were appointed her,” yet the sense of her own sufferings seemed lost in the contemplation of Divine mercy and goodness, and her heart over- flowed with gratitude for the many favours she enjoyed. The dropsical swelling of her body rendered it difficult for her to lie down, and indeed to be com- fortable in any position ; yet the habit of making the best of her situation, and dwelling rather on the mercies and benefits enjoyed, than on the sufferings she underwent, so reconciled her mind to her allot- ment, that she was generally prepared to enter into cheerful converse with her friends, and to consult the comfort of others rather than be anxious re- specting her own. The following memorandums were penned during this protracted illness, chiefly upon detached scraps JANE BETTLE. 11 of paper, often with no other support than her knee, and traced with a faintness which showed the weak and tremulous state of her system. They were not seen by any of her family until after her decease, and appear to have been designed to record the feelings and exercises of her mind, and to com- memorate the mercy and goodness of Him who was pleased so remarkably to support her, amid the pain and languor of disease, in a calm and resigned state of mind, and to furnish from time to time, that bread which cometh down out of heaven, and that living water, which was indeed in her “ a well of water springing up into everlasting life.” In perusing these brief records, since the writer of them has passed from her earthly trials to the enjoyment of the heavenly crown, many who knew and loved her, have derived instruction and com- fort ; and believing that their tendency would be salutary, have expressed the desire that a wider circulation should be given them. This desire is now complied with, in the hope that they may tend to animate and encourage others in treading the narrow pathway which leads to everlasting blessed- ness and glory. The reader will not fail to perceive that they breathe throughout, a deep and abiding sense of her own weakness and unworthiness, of the continual need of Divine support and assistance, and the necessity of constant watchfulness and prayer, in 12 MEMOIR OF JANE BETTLE. order to experience it ; a grateful feeling of the mercy and goodness of the Lord to her as an indi- vidual, and to the whole family of mankind, in that wondrous display of love Divine, which provided for the salvation of a lost world, through the coming, sufferings and death of the dear Son of God. To those whom it may please an all- wise and merciful Creator to try with the loss of health, and who may in consequence have to languish long upon the bed of sickness and suffering, these short memorandums may prove a source of consolation ; showing in the clearest manner, that the everlasting arms are underneath to sustain the sincere and humble soul, during those wearisome and proving seasons ; enabling it to rise superior to the frailties and sufferings of the earthly tenement, and to re- joice with holy joy, when every gratification which this world can give is removed far from us, in the undoubted evidence that these light afflictions, which are but for a moment, will work out for those who are rightly exercised thereby, a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, in that celestial city, whose walls are salvation and her gates praise ; not one of whose inhabitants can say, “ I am sick ; for the people that dwell therein are forgiven their iniquities/” MEMORANDUMS OF JANE BETTLE. 13 MEMORANDUMS. 1832. Eighth Month 28 th . — I have fervently de- sired this day to commemorate the loving kindness and tender mercies of the Lord my God to me, from the days of my early youth to this time. Even then did he allure me into the wilderness, and gave me a vineyard from thence, and the valley of Achor for a door of hope ; often speaking comfortably to my soul, and sustaining me with heavenly bread. Faithful and true are all the promises of our dear Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. He hath declared, “ Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled.” This hunger and thirst belong not to the natural man, but are produced by the operation of the Holy Spirit in the heart, who as He is submitted to, will clearly dis- cover to man that he is a poor dependent creature, blind and naked, and in need of all things. 0 ! who can sufficiently appreciate the condescend- ing mercy and goodness of the Lord our Creator, who made man in his own image and likeness, and designed he should be for ever happy. Even after man, through transgression of his righteous com- mand, had fallen from the blessed state in which he 14 MEMORANDUMS OF was originally placed. He graciously provided the means of his restoration, in and through that eternal W ord who was with God in the beginning, before the worlds were made, and who, in due time, took upon Him a body of flesh, and dwelt among men, and at length offered himself a propitiatory sacrifice for the sins of the whole world. “ Blessing, and honour, and glory, and power, be unto Him who sitteth upon the throne, and unto the Lamb, for ever and for ever.” Twelfth Month 13 th . — Consolation sprang up in my mind this evening in the remembrance of the promise, “ To this man will I look, even to him that is poor and of a contrite spirit, and who trembleth at my word.” When on the mount, our dear Redeemer taught His disciples, saying, “ Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven.” “ Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted.” Yea, rich in blessing is the Lord’s storehouse, can my soul say. The present is a season of much bodily infirmity and pain ; yet, blessed be the name of our merciful High Priest, He is, as He ever was, touched with a feeling of our infirmities. Whilst clothed with His humanity, He was a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief ; and His compassionate regard is still continued to the poor and afflicted, who put their trust and confidence in Him. Surely, we are bound JANE BETTLE. 15 to bless, to praise, and magnify the name of the Lord, in every dispensation of His unerring Provi- dence : as well in the day of adversity as in pros- perity, and to return thanks for the support granted, which enables us to endure affliction and pain, with quiet resignation. He is perfect in wisdom, and orderetli all things well, according to His own counsel. He leadeth us in paths that we have not known, and instructeth us in the things that belong to our present and everlasting peace. It is declared in Holy Writ, Thou shalt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is staid on thee, because he trusteth in thee but how impossible is it for poor man thus to stay his mind on the Lord, except he is divinely strengthened to watch and pray. 1833. Third Month Zlth . — I desire to thank thee, 0 ! thou unslumbering Shepherd of Israel, for the refreshment granted me in sleep, by which the weary tabernacle feels a little revived and strength- ened. Thy mercies, O Lord ! are new every morn- ing. What shall I render unto Thee for all thy benefits ! Fourth Month 1st . — Under a feeling of much poverty and want, I beg for a crumb of that soul- sustaining bread, which can only be obtained from the one true and living Source, Christ Jesus, our Lord. John vi. 47 — 57. “ Verily, verily, I 16 MEMORANDUMS OF say unto you, he that believeth on me hath ever- lasting life. I am that bread of life. Your fathers did eat manna in the wilderness and are dead. This is the bread which cometh down from heaven, that a man may eat thereof and not die. I am the living bread which came down from heaven. If any man eat of this bread, he shall live for ever ; and the bread that I will give, is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world.” How confirming is the testimony of the sacred volume, that the blessed Saviour must needs have taken upon Him a body of flesh, and dwelt among men, thus fulfilling the prophecies concerning His coming ; showing forth many mighty works ; be worshipped by men and angels, and His Divine attributes acknowledged, — and that all must bow to the humble appearance of the babe of Bethlehem. And when the glorious mission assigned Him by the Father, whilst on earth, was accomplished, He offered up that prepared body, suffering it to be nailed to the cross, and thereby made atonement for the sins of the whole world ; being the one great propitiatory sacrifice for the redemption of poor fallen man, who has it not in his power to give a ransom for his soul. Weak in body, yet a little strength is afforded to approach Him who is the invisible and omnipresent One ; who graciously condescends to hear the cry of the needy soul ; and in His own JANE BETTLE. 17 time will answer even our feeble petitions, if we ask not amiss, and wait in patience. 23rd . — A day of proving mentally, as well as in body. Feeble aspirations frequently arise for more energy of mind, more fervency of spirit, in seeking to have in possession the weapons of defence against the assaults of my soul’s enemy. If his power was not limited, he would come in like a flood, in low seasons, and prevail against us. But thanks be unto the Captain of salvation, who was never foiled in battle, He furnishes all who ask of Him in faith, with spiritual weapons, whereby we are able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. 2 5th . — When blessed with Thy presence, 0 Lord ! all that we have is sweet and desirable, but in thy absence it becomes loathsome. Thou calmest the troubled spirit, and givest true peace and holy joy. Thou makest us think well of all Thv dispensations, and enablest us to praise Thee in them all. Without Thee, the highest advantages cannot please long, for to make them truly grateful, thy grace must be present, and they must be seasoned with the sea- sonings of thy own wisdom. On reading, this day, the above paragraph in the works of a Christian author, I thought I could adopt the language. 28th . — I have desired this evening that my be- 18 MEMORANDUMS OF loved relatives may be enabled to resign me, and be prepared for our final parting here. I believe the day is fast approaching when the tenderest ties must be dissolved ; when “ the dust shall return to the earth as it was, and the spirit return unto God who gave it.” I desire not to think or speak presumptuously, but I believe in the assurance I have often felt, that poor and unprofitable a servant as I have been, an admittance will be granted me into the mansions of everlasting rest. Fifth Month 13^. — For the last few weeks, unex- pected relief from pain and oppression has been afforded me. I feel bound to ascribe this favour to the great Physician of value, as being imparted im- mediately from Him, not through the medium of medical aid ; although I have much to be thankful for in having a kind, sympathizing and skilful phy- sician. May gratitude and praise be offered up to the great Preserver of men, on the altar of the heart, for all his merciful dealings with me, through my protracted illness. 25th. — (First-day.) 0, Lord God of infinite purity ! permit, I pray thee, dust and ashes to ap- proach thy sacred footstool. Thou art gracious and kind, even unto the rebellious, and condescendest to visit and re-visit them by Thy all-powerful, inspeak- ing Word; bringing under condemnation fortrans- JANE BETTLE. 19 gression and sin, and bowing the creature low before Thee, thou Dread of nations. What shall we render unto Thee for all thy mercies ? At one compre- hensive glance Thou beholdest the different condi- tions of all men, and knowest that we all stand con- tinually in need of the aid of Him who ever liveth to make intercession for fallen man. Enable me, O Father ! and Fountain of all good, to lie low be- fore thee in self-abasement, seeking my daily sup- plies from thee. Feed me, I pray thee, with food convenient for me, from day to day, as thou, in thy wisdom, seest meet. Sixth Month 10 th . — Be pleased, O Lord ! to bow down thine ear, and hear my cry. My soul longeth to appear acceptably before Thee, thou all-seeing Judge, who knowest the sincerity of all hearts. Grant, 0 Father ! true abasement of spirit ; create in me a clean heart, and renew a right spirit within me. Wash me, O Lord ! in the laver of regenera- tion, and by the influences of Thy saving grace, keep my heart a fit receptacle for Thy Holy Spirit to dwell in. 1 5th . — Continued cause for grateful acknowledg- ment to the Author of my being, for daily favours, not merited, but from the loving kindness of Him who careth for the sparrows. He provideth a safe 20 MEMORANDUMS OF hiding place, where those who put their trust in Him, may rest in the day of trouble which cometh upon all flesh, and draw water from the well of Divine consolation, to the refreshment of the thirsty soul. 22ncL— For the greater part of the past year, my health has been gradually improving. This is all together unlooked for ; but now, as of old, the ways of an all-wise Providence are unsearchable, and to our finite comprehension past finding out. My ex- pectation for a long season has been, that the clogs of mortality were about to be put off, and the day of my probation to come to an end. Herein did my soul magnify the Lord, and my spirit rejoiced in the hope, may I not say in the blessed assurance, of an entrance within the heavenly city, whose walls are salvation and her gates praise. 0 ! may I be enabled steadily to keep a single eye to the Captain of my salvation, who teacheth the hands to war, and the fingers to fight the good fight of faith. And through the few succeeding steps of my life, may the enemy of my soul’s peace never gain the ascendency, or by any of his stratagems, draw my mind from the narrow and self-denying path, which leads to the mansions of everlasting rest. “ Enter ye in at the strait gate ; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leadeth to destruction, and many there be that go in thereat. Because strait JANE BETTLE. 21 is the gate and narrow is the way that leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.” May none of us deceive ourselves while walking in the broad way, but seriously consider that unless we earnestly seek, in the Lord’s time, to enter in at the strait gate, we shall not be able, when once the master of the house riseth up and shutteth the door. Seventh Month 4 th . — I have had many visits from my dear friends this day ; it is pleasant to believe that the good Remembrancer stirreth up in the hearts of his children, a tender, sympathetic feeling for those in affliction, whether of body or mind. What a precious cement and true union of soul is felt, when friends sit together under the canopy of His love. Love remains to be the badge of discipleship, and by it the followers of the dear Saviour are known ; they have fellowship one with another, and their fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son, Jesus Christ. 19 th . — Increased bodily infirmity; and I have great necessity for fresh supplies of patience, to bear with Christian fortitude the trials attendant on the decay of this earthly tabernacle, the tenure of which we hold on very uncertain grounds. But how un- important it is, at what period the immortal spirit may be dispossessed, if we are earnestly and rightly engaged in seeking the house not made with hands. 22 MEMORANDUMS OF eternal in the heavens. May the great Master strengthen every drooping soul to pursue the work diligently, “ while it is called to-day, for the night cometh wherein no man can work.” 24 th . — My indisposition continues, with oppres- sion, particularly in lying down. I feel bound to acknowledge that, through mercy, during my pro- tracted illness, I have experienced peace and con- tentment amidst all my afflictions ; and I am enabled to say, “ Not my will, but thine, O Lord ! be done,” whether my time be prolonged a little, or in mercy cut short. I desire with gratitude to acknowledge, that through many tedious days and wearisome nights, my mind has been sustained in peaceful quiet, while the poor body suffered ; and the language of my heart is, “ Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” 29th . — Be pleased, 0 Lord ! so to redeem, reduce and purify me, that I may become a true babe in Christ. Carry on this humiliating work from day to day, until it be fully accomplished, that so the account which we must all give, in the last day, to Thee, the just and righteous Judge, may be rendered with joy and not with grief. Blessed were those virgins, who, when the mid- night cry was heard, had oil in their vessels : but alas ! for the foolish, who, had they used the same JANE BETTLK. 23 care and diligence as the wise, might doubtless have received the same happy welcome, before the door was shut. In the parable of the talents, how awful is the denunciation to the unfaithful servant, who said in his heart, “ Thou art an hard master, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strewn.” Eighth Month 5th . — Bowed under a sense of my manifold infirmities of body and mind, and the want of daily support under them. My desire is to cleave closer to the great Physician, the ever- lasting High Priest of our profession. He knoweth all our devious wanderings, in thought, as well as in word and action, and until brought under His holy guidance, we are as sheep straying from the fold of rest. There is no true rest short of that which is promised to the people of God, and this can only be obtained by taking up the daily cross, denying self, and holding it of no reputation. This is hard work to the creature ; to renounce self, and feel that we owe all to Him who hath suffered for us, and that it is of His mere mercy we are not con- sumed. 19 th . — One year has now elapsed since my con- finement to my own habitation, and principally to my chamber. During this period, it has pleased the Lord, in His inscrutable wisdom, to dispense to 24 MEMORANDUMS OF us a very close and proving affliction, in the re- moval by death of a most dutiful and affectionate son. But under the consoling belief that, at the close of his short but useful life, he was permitted to enter into everlasting rest, I was strengthened to take the cup and drink it, with this feeling renewed upon my mind ; “ Not my will, but thine, 0 Lord ! be done.” 26^. — Some tender, and I hope humble feelings produced, in reflecting that my day on earth is lengthened out beyond my expectation ; and I may say in great sincerity, that on my pillow this morning, my heart’s desire above every other was, that I might so live during each succeeding day afforded me, as not to grieve the Holy Spirit, either in thought, word or action. The Lord graciously condescended to call me at so early a period in life, that like Samuel of old, I scarcely knew who it was that called me. But in His adorable mercy, He con- tinued His calls until He made me to understand his voice ; bade me beware of the voice of strangers, and strengthened me, from season to season, to fol- low him, by which I was prevented from falling into many youthful temptations. I was also pre- served in a good degree of obedience to my dear parents, whose care it was to instil into my mind the precepts of the gospel of our blessed Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. I esteem it a great favour JANE BETTLE. 25 that I had parents who were sound in the Christian faith and doctrines, lovers of the Holy Scriptures, and careful to read them to their family collected. In like manner they read the writings of our early Friends, and endeavoured to make profitable im- pressions on the minds of those who heard them. This pious care I believe was a blessing to me in early life, and imbued my mind with a love for the Holy Scriptures, which remains to the present day. Ninth Month — Gratitude flows in my heart this evening for past and present favours. Relief from bodily suffering has been afforded through the kindness of the Physician of value, whose tender compassion faileth not. His all-pervading eye be- holds the afflictions of the whole human family. He apportions to each one his proper share, and when His blessed design is accomplished, the balm of Gilead is graciously administered. In adorable mercy, His good will to the children of men con- tinues the same as it was when He walked among them in person, doing good to their bodies and souls ; healing the sick ; cleansing the leper, and raising the dead. 0 ! what will not faith in His name, which is His power, do for us, by a co-opera- tion, on our part, with the regenerating power of the Holy Spirit ; for “ except a man be born again, he cannot enter into the kingdom of heaven B 26 MEMORANDUMS OF Ninth Month 7th . — There is hidden treasure in secret places for those who love and serve the blessed Master. They have bread to eat that the world knows not of, and joy and peace which the world cannot give or take away. And although, at seasons, it may be best for our spiritual health, to be furnished sparingly with this bread, or perhaps it may be withheld for a little while, (as it is some- times found necessary for the health of the body, that food be given in very small portions, and this not always of the kind we most desire,) yet it be- cometh us to receive gratefully and cheerfully our allotted portion ; and even though our weakness may be great, we shall not be permitted to faint; but be enabled in our measure to adopt the lan- guage of the Apostle, “ I have learned in what- soever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound ; every where, and in all things, I am instructed ; both to be full and to be hungry ; both to abound and to suffer want.'” 22 nd. — (First-day.) Great difficulty this morn- ing in bringing my mind to its true centre : weak- ness of body and mind prevails ; yet I may, with a degree of thankfulness, acknowledge, that while the family are gone to the place appointed for public worship, I have in my private chamber, witnessed sweet communion of spirit with Him who is omni- JANE BETTLE. 27 present ; who condescends to our weakness, and strengthens us to look toward his holy hill. Through this merciful Helper of his poor frail creatures, we are permitted to behold with the spiritual eye, J eru- salem, a quiet habitation, and a place of safety, amid much disquietude which prevails in the world. The more the mind is turned to look upon Zion, the city of the saints’ solemnities, the more the humble, seeking soul becomes enamoured with its beauty, and the world with all its pomp and splendour sinks into insignificance. ‘lord . — I desire to render unto thee, thou omni- potent Lord God, the tribute of thanksgiving and praise for all thy countless mercies : they are new every morning, and thy compassions fail not ! In wisdom and in kindness thou withdrawest the sen- sible evidence of thy holy presence for a short sea- son, and closely proves us. But again, O, blessed Jesus ! thy sweet voice is heard ; our strength is renewed, and we live and rejoice in thy presence. Tenth Month 9 th . — My feelings this morning are pensive, from a sense of my own poverty. The soil seems barren, I fear from a want of proper cultiva- tion. Occasionally something springs up which is not profitable but troublesome ; yea, burdensome, preventing the growth of the seed immortal, and hindering it from taking deep root, and spreading b 2 28 MEMORANDUMS OF its fruitful branches. 0 ! what unceasing labour doth it require to keep the garden of the heart clear of noxious weeds, that nothing hurtful may be permitted to grow there. The place where prayer is wont to be made, is the only place of safety for us. We must come daily to the feet of our blessed Saviour, who, when He was asked by one of his disciples, “ Lord, teach us how to pray, as John also taught his disciples,' " answered them, when ye pray say, “ Our Father which art in heaven," &c., and so I believe, He ever w ill teach His humble, depending children how to ask, and what to ask for. Let us then not faint, but pray always with all prayer and supplication, in the Spirit, watching thereunto with all perseverance, that our warfare may be accomplished, and that the Lord's hand may not spare, nor his eye pity, until judgment is brought forth unto victory, — victory over the transgressing nature. 10 th . — A day of solemn reflection. On the morning of this day, a year ago, our dear son, Edward Bettle, closed his earthly course, when I trust the prepared spirit, received the welcome invi- tation of, u Come ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world." This, I firmly believe, was the happy experience of the dear deceased, from the im- pressive revival of the text at the moment of his JANE BETTLE. 29 dissolution ; “ Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord attended with a solemn and holy quiet which surpassed expression. In this season of close proving, my spirit was bowed before the Majesty on high, and in the language of Job, I could say, “ The Lord gave and the Lord hath taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord.” At that time my own health was very feeble, with no expectation of surviving many weeks. The prospect was not grievous but joyous ; having a humble hope, that through the unspeakable mercy and merits of Him who laid down His precious life for poor man, my sins, both of omission and com- mission, would be forgiven me, and my name not be blotted out of the Lamb’s book of life. But with- out faith in Jesus Christ our Lord, and in his atoning sacrifice, we have no ground to hope for a resurrection from dead works, nor for a blessed immortality when done with time. O, unspeakable gift of redeeming love ! Who can fathom it ! Thus strengthened of the Lord, I was supported through a season of much bodily suffering and exer- cise of mind ; and my days have been prolonged far beyond my expectation, though attended with great weakness, and sometimes considerable pain and oppression from the nature of my disorder. But through every afflictive dispensation, I feel botind to commemorate the kindness of Him, who dealeth with us as a compassionate father dealeth with his so MEMORANDUMS OF children. 44 Whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth and this acknowledgment is often raised in the hearts of his humble, dependent children, 44 Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” Their experience accords with the declaration, 44 that although no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous, nevertheless afterwards, it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness to them who are exercised thereby.’* 25th . — My strength is decreasing, and the pros- pect of the world to come, is more and more desir- able. O ! for a permanent resting place, in the Lord’s time, which is the best time. Nevertheless, I desire to adopt the language of one of His servants formerly ; 44 All the days of my appointed time will I wait until my change come.” How much to be desired is this waiting state. Eleventh Month 8th . — Something of the fresh feeling of the love of God, shed abroad in the heart, has been experienced this afternoon, in the remem- brance of the olive leaf plucked off by the dove, and the bow given as the sign of an everlasting covenant, that a general deluge should not again overspread the earth. Well would it be for man, if he was more watchful in the day of temptation and trial ; and kept his covenants, and performed his JANE BETTLE. 31 vows : then he would find that it is only the way of the transgressor that is hard, and that the Lord's ways are pleasantness, and all his paths are peace ; and the gracious promise would be verified, “ Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is staid on thee.” 13 th, — My soul rejoices in being strengthened again to approach thee, thou King of saints, in thanksgiving and praises, for mercies past, and for the renewed favours of the present day. O Lord ! be thou pleased to preserve through every succeed- ing day of my life, in watchfulness unto prayer, that so I may be enabled to draw nigh unto thee. — A day of poverty, but not unaccompanied with desires after spiritual food. May the hunger and thirst after righteousness be increased. In order to obtain spiritual food, we must labour for it day by day ; and I believe it will be found that what we gather to-day, will not do for the morrow, any more than the manna which fell plentifully about the Israelitish camp. 1 5tJi. — Received a visit from two precious spirited friends to-day, during which a holy quiet was felt to prevail, until the silence was broken by one of them, to the refreshment of “ the inner man.” I have long believed, that if we were preserved from placing 32 MEMORANDUMS OF an improper dependence upon instrumental means, it would not be withheld from us ; but that the benefi- cent design of our heavenly Father is, that man should be the helper of his fellow-man. I think the Scriptures of Truth, furnish ample evidence of this in a variety of instances. But let us beware of a reliance upon the arm of flesh for support, and attend to the scriptural injunction, “ Cease from man, whose breath is in his nostrils, for wherein is he to be accounted of then shall we experience that arm which is strong, mighty to save and able to deliver, to be round about us ; a present help in every needful time. 1 §th . — Notwithstanding I have long been deprived of assembling with my friends, for social worship, I may say of a truth, I am often brought into feeling with them ; particularly with the Lord’s anointed ministers, who are made as mouth to the people, and baptized into a feeling of the states to which they minister. When the ministers of the gospel of Christ w T ait in their gifts for the immediate influences of His Spirit, the w r ord will not return void, whether it be in few expressions, or greater enlargement, so that all is kept in the pure gift. Under this influence, the holy unction will be felt by the living members, and be made instrumental in awakening those who are dead in trespasses and sins ; and without it, JANE BETTLE. 33 whatever is spoken, whether less or more, will be superficial, burdensome to the living members, and a hurt to the assembly. How precious are words fitly spoken ; truly they are as apples of gold in pictures of silver. I have fellowship also, with the Lord’s anointed elders, who, as they keep in their gifts, are made to feel deeply together, and to drink together as of the same cup , That the precious cement which accom- panies right exercise, may increase in all our reli- gious assemblies, is the fervent breathing of my spirit. Twelfth Month 2nd . — Quietude of mind has pre- vailed through the day, under pain of body. I have said in my heart, may such seasons never prove a false rest : may I never suppose myself so near the haven, that there is no more need of watching unto prayer. 0 ! may we seek, diligently seek, this happy port, whilst we are on our passage over the boister- ous sea of the present life ; remembering that high winds and tossing waves, are directed and controlled by that Almighty Being who bade the waves be still, and there was a great calm. “ Then are they glad because they be quiet ; so he bringeth them into their desired haven.” 8th . — A desire has prevailed this day, to renew my covenant with the Grod of my life, and to per- b 3 34 MEMORANDUMS OF form my vows. He hath dealt mercifully with me, all my life long, and I feel whilst I write, that I love Him, and love to think on His holy name. He has brought me through heights and depths, and covered my head in the day of battle, in some heavy conflicts with my soul’s potent enemy. When by any of his stratagems, the enemy prevails over us, our strength diminishes, and his pursuit is closer ; but thanks to the unconquered Captain of salvation, we shall not be left defenceless, if in humble reliance we come unto Him. He equips with the whole armour of light ; with the shield of faith, the breastplate of righteousness ; and for an helmet, the hope of salvation. What advantage has the follower of the Lord J esus, although he be led in the way of the cross ! 18th . — I have many favours to recount day by day ; and it is not the least, to be made sensible that temptation assails us in every condition of life. If this conviction is permitted to have due place in the mind, a blessing may be found in it, even by those whose hearts are humbled under the influence of Divine power, and so reduced as to say in since- rity, “ Not my will, but thine, 0 Lord ! be done.” For notwithstanding we may have advanced thus far in the Christian path, we are not therefore re- leased from renewed assaults of the cunning, subtle serpent, who is never weary in his attempts to dis- JANE BETTLE. 35 cover an avenue, whereby he may enter and disturb our peace of mind. But the power of Satan is limited ; he can only tempt, he cannot force man to yield to his devices ; therefore let us give thanks and take courage, putting our whole confidence in that omnipotent Arm which is ever extended for the support of all those who trust therein. 24i th. — 0 ! thou inexhaustible Source and Foun- tain of all good ; keep me, I pray thee, in a state of daily watchfulness, so that I may be enabled to follow thee in the regeneration ; for without this, dearest Lord, I am made sensible that all pretensions to diseipleship, will do nothing for me in the day of awful decision, when the sentence will be heard, depart, ye cursed into everlasting fire ; or the invi- tation, come ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you. Blessed be thy name, thou King of glory, who descended from thy Father’s throne, and unto whom all judgment is committed, as well as the remission of sins ; thou eternal Word; one with the Father, who art from the beginning, and by whom the worlds were made. Be pleased to fulfil thy own gracious promises, when about to return to heaven, “ I will not leave you comfortless ; I will come again unto you. Lo, I am with you alway, even unto the end of the world. v 1834 First Month 1st — Strengthen me to draw 36 MEMORANDUMS OF near to thee, thou Rock of Ages, from whom the pure waters of life issue, refreshing the weary tra- veller in his wilderness journey. Thou alone art the well-spring of eternal life : thou who conde- scended to instruct the woman of Samaria, teach me also to obtain from thee the living water that spring- eth up into everlasting life. Though sensible of poverty, and the want of more gratitude for manifold blessings, spiritual and tem- poral, I desire to offer, on the altar of the heart, thanksgiving and praises for unmerited favours, unto Him who giveth liberally and upbraideth not. My mind is often led to consider how bountifully we are cared for, and sustained through every con- flict of body and mind. Invaluable indeed is the instruction given us to dig deep, and to lay the foundation of our spiritual building on the .Rock, so that when wind, rain and storms beat against the house, it may not fall, because it is founded on a Rock, even Christ Jesus, the Rock of Ages. No date . — Weak in body and mind ; yet I de- sire with gratitude to acknowledge the unspeakable loving-kindness of our Grod, in that, whilst we were yet sinners, Christ died for us, that through him we might have life, and have it more abundantly. Eleventh Month 1 §th . — I have felt a renewed de- sire that the remnant of my days may be spent in JANE BETTLE. 37 obedience to the inspeaking voice of the Shepherd of Israel. He alone must be relied upon for guid- ance through this vale of tears ; thanks be unto Him for his merciful preservation thus far. 1835. First Month 1st . — Sickness still confines me to my chamber, in which, through weakness of body and poverty of spirit, I have passed some tedious days and wearisome nights ; yet with gra- titude of heart, I desire to acknowledge Divine favour, having found the holy Arm underneath for support. Fifth Month 3 rd — The past week has afforded time for quiet reflection. I esteem it a favour to have had so good an account of our late Yearly Meeting ; it is said to have been a large and solemn assembly. -Good indeed is the Lord to his church and people. May we in truth be of the number of his travailing, exercised children, notwithstanding the grievous revolt of many who were once con- sidered to be of Israel. May the militant church continue to travel onward, until she cometh out of the wilderness, 64 fair as the moon, clear as the sun, and terrible as an army with banners. n olst . — Blessed be the Shepherd of Israel, who watches over his flock by day and by night, and keepeth in safety those who put their trust in him. 38 MEMORANDUMS OP Temptation may assail us, and fears arise, lest one day or other we shall fall as by the hand of Saul, yet as we strive to have on the shield of faith, the breastplate of righteousness, and the helmet of sal- vation, we shall be kept in safety. 0 ! may I cleave close to the heavenly Shepherd, the source of preservation, seeing there is no other name under heaven, given among men, whereby we must be saved, but by the name of Jesus. Ninth Month Istf. — I have said in my heart, the Lord is good, for his mercy endureth for ever ; He still condescends to visit those who can say, I am not worthy that thou shouldest come under my roof. O ! what shall we render unto thee for all thy benefits. Ninth Month §th. — (First-day.) — 0 ! thou mer- ciful and compassionate High Priest, be pleased to look down upon me from heaven, thy dwelling- place, and, if consistent with thy holy will, cause me daily to feel thy life-giving presence. Tenth Month 5th . — Sensible in some degree of the continuance of the Lord's love and mercy to me ; His heavenly regard is still felt, and His omni- potent Arm is round about me, which ever proves a support to those who confide in it. The arm of flesh availeth little, proving but a broken reed to JANE BETTLE. 39 those that lean upon it. Many look to the world for what they call pleasure or comfort, when in truth there is no substantial comfort in mutable things. It is in thee alone, 0 Lord ! and in the strength that thou affordest, that we are enabled to stand in moments of weakness, and in the hour of temptation. Tenth Month 20 th . — I have been led to admire the great favour conferred on one so undeserving as I am, in the remembrance that during more than three years which have elapsed since my confine- ment to the chamber by ill health, faith and hope have been afforded so as to keep down the spirit of murmuring. Of ourselves, we can do nothing. O ! for strength to continue wrestling for the blessing of preservation. I have often derived instruction and encouragement from reading the account of good old Jacob wrestling with the angel through a whole night season ; and it is said in that best of books, “ I said not unto the seed of Jacob, seek ye me in vain.” Eleventh Month 21 st . — Humbled under a sense of my entire inability even to think a good thought, unaided by thee, thou Fountain of all good ! Be pleased in thy matchless lqjve and mercy to keep me watchful, that I enter not into temptation. 40 MEMORANDUMS OF 1836. First Month ls£. — In the course of the past year, many of my fellow-travellers from time to eternity, have been summoned to appear be- fore the judgment seat of Christ, there to give an account of the deeds done in the body, whilst I am permitted to remain a little longer. May I labour with all diligence to make my calling and election sure, before I go hence and am seen of men no more. Time is very uncertain to every age ; the young as well as the old, are liable to the stroke of death. Life hangs on a very slender thread, and even those who are counting on many days of pros- perity, may, as in the twinkling of an eye, be called away. Third Month 20 th. — Thou, O Lord ! art the same yesterday, to-day, and for ever ; thy faithfulness faileth not. I have great cause to speak of the Lord’s goodness in sustaining me, through a pro- tracted indisposition. I have seen his wonders in the deeps, and have said, What am I, that I should be thus cared for, who am so unworthy of his notice. Yet I am at seasons, in His mercy, per- mitted to partake of His sustaining bread. May I continue to receive this heavenly favour, whilst here, and at last be found worthy of the lowest place in His glorious habitation, when time shall be no longer. JANE BETTLE. 41 Eighth Month 10 th . — The Lord is good to the workmanship of His hand, my soul can say. He continues to manifest Ilis life-giving presence to me, a poor, unworthy creature. O Lord ! feed me with food convenient for me. If thou givest me the bread of adversity to eat, and the water of affliction to drink, may I be content therewith ; and when thou hidest thy face for a season, suffer not the deceiver, I pray thee, to destroy the hope of thy return. 11 th . — Favoured this evening with solemn quiet, in which the spirit of supplication was, I think, livingly felt, with thanksgiving for past and present favours ; earnestly craving that every succeeding day of my life may be spent in watchfulness, and fear of offending my blessed Saviour and Inter- cessor, in thought, word or deed. Ninth Month 1st . — A song in the night, through Divine mercy, is felt to arise to Him, who of old had power' to make the dumb sing, the deaf to hear, the blind to see, and the lame to walk. Miraculous power ! which extends to both body and mind ; revives the spirit of the weak and faint, enabling them to press forward, through every crowd of opposition. 2 9th . — No material change in my health for a 42 MEMORANDUMS OF year past ; and although not free from pain, I have each day so many favours to recount, that I feel myself undeserving of the one-half of them, and am ready to say, Alas ! for me, a poor backsliding creature. 0 ! may I become more frequent in prayer, and more fruitful in the field of offering. O ! for more ardency of spirit in steadily pursuing the journey heavenward ; seeing time here is very uncertain, and there is no work or device in the grave whereunto we are hastening. Eleventh Month 7th . — In my wakeful hours in the night season, prayer for preservation was offered up to the Lord on high, who condescends to hear the cry of the poor and needy ; with thanksgiving and praises for past and present favours. May my heart be purged from all the dross, the tin, and the reprobate silver, and be made a fit receptacle for the Lord of glory to dwell in. It is by the powerful operation of his Word, which is as a fire and a hammer, that the heart of man is made pure ; and well may we exclaim, “ Who shall abide the day of his coming.” 21 st . — I have now entered my 64th year; an age I little expected to attain, when first confined to my chamber : but the Lord alone knows what is best for us, poor finite beings, and how to dispose of us. I desire daily to keep in view my entire JANE BETTLE. 43 inability, of myself, to think a good thought, to do a good act, or to obtain one crumb of heavenly bread : yet how good, how merciful is our great High Priest, the Lord Jesus Christ. He ad- ministers to all our wants, when we ask as poor dependent suppliants ; and thus it becomes us to ask, remembering that every good we receive is from his bountiful hand. 1837. First Month 22nd , — How beneficent and kind is the heavenly Shepherd. He supplies the wants of all those who come unto Him asking for bread ; yes, even of those who are undeserving of the least of all His favours. May 1 ever be a grate- ful receiver of the Lord’s unmerited favours. His matchless mercy has been extended to me, preserv- ing me from utterly falling, and arming me against the assaults of Satan, the accuser of the brethren, who is ever ready to cast down or to exalt. But blessed for ever be the name of the Lord, in Him there is everlasting saving help. He makes a path through the sea, enabling those who put their trust in Him, to sing praises on the banks of deliverance. Let us remember this world is not the place of our rest ; we must press forward with undiminished ardour, if we would reach the promised land, the heavenly Canaan. Second Month 28th . — The watch must be strictly 44 MEMORANDUMS OP kept, to exclude obtruding thoughts, which are cal- culated to prevent our waiting upon God in the silence of all flesh, wherein the soul is enabled, in humble prostration, to offer up adoration and praises to Him who liveth for ever and ever. Something of this precious feeling has been vouchsafed this evening, for which I desire to be thankful. May the Lord be pleased to humble me from day to day, that a sense of His goodness my be felt, and the work of the soul's salvation go forward. Third Month 1 \th . — -The fervent breathing of my spirit is, that I may be preserved day by day, in patience and quietude of mind, trusting in the Lord alone, who has helped me hitherto, giving songs of praise to his ever excellent name. Be it mine to keep up the watch unto prayer. 25 th . — -Although weakness and poverty are my clothing, a desire after more purity of heart is felt. Watch and pray lest ye enter into temptation, said our blessed Saviour ; and with the command, He gives the strength to fulfil it. What a weight of obligation rests upon me, a poor unworthy worm of the dust, for all thy benefits, O Lord ! Be thou pleased to continue thy unmerited mercies to me as in days past, yea, even from the days of my youth. Fourth Month \Qth ~ Many of our beloved JANE BETTLE. 45 Friends are now with us, from the different quar- ters of our Yearly Meeting. Not a few of those who were members of the militant church, have, since the occurrence of the last annual solemnity become members, I humbly hope, of the church triumphant. Ah, blessed state ! to have their names written in the Lamb’s book of life, and to be for ever singing praises to Him. Fifth Month 11 th . — My heart’s desire and prayer is, that all the workmanship of the Divine Hand may become obedient to his will ; and that our wills may be brought, not in part only, but entirely , into subjection to the Lord’s blessed will, whose design is, that man should be happy in time and in eternity. 28 th . — Thy goodness, 0 Lord ! has passed before me, this day, in the fresh remembrance of un- merited favours conferred upon me, from childhood to the present time. In low seasons, when faith and hope seemed almost ready to fail, the secret language has been, “ Fear not, for I am with thee ; be not dismayed, for I am thy God : I will strengthen thee, yea, 1 will help thee ; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteous- ness.” Sixth Month 18 th . — “ When I consider the 46 MEMORANDUMS OF heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars which thou hast ordained ; what is man that Thou art mindful of him, and the son of man that thou visitest him ? Thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and crowned him with glory and honour.” This quotation sweetly revived in my mind, and I said, What am I, 0 Lord ! that thou art mindful of me; that thou continuest to supply me with a crumb from thy all-bountiful hand? May I return unto thee thanksgiving and praise, which are thy due, now, henceforth, and for ever. Seventh Month 1 Qth . — On First-day evening, with the assistance of my dear husband, I walked down into the parlour, and from thence into the garden ; this I have not been able to accomplish before for five years. How unlooked for, that my time should be thus prolonged, whilst many, in the prime of life and usefulness, have been taken from the field of labour, to their perpetually abiding habitation. The ways of the Almighty are a great deep, past finding out by human wisdom. “ The world by wisdom knows not G^od. ,,, How needful is it for poor frail man, day by day, to pray fervently for heavenly bread to sustain him in the journey through the wilderness of this world to the New Jerusalem, that holy city, not one of whose inhabitants can say, “ I am sick.” Notwithstanding my strength is a JANE BETTLE. 47 little increased, I do not count upon a long con- tinuance here ; and can truly say, the desire of my heart is to be resigned to the Divine will, and to be found daily begging for heavenly food ; for this, and this only, can nourish the soul, and bear it up in the day of trial. Ninth Month Qth . — Weak and depressed : the desire of my heart is poured forth unto thee, O Lord ! that thou wouldest be pleased to bow down thy gracious ear, and hear my feeble petition. Enable me, I pray thee, to bow at thy footstool, and in remembrance of thy long continued and tender mercies, to render unto thee the tribute of thanks- giving and praise, now and for evermore. Tenth Month \ *lth . — We may very possibly per- suade ourselves that we are secure, supposing the haven is nearly attained ; but alas ! for that indivi- dual who relaxes in labour until safely landed on the shores of everlasting rest. O ! may I never cease to labour, short of an entrance therein ; praying daily to the Lord, who alone can furnish ability to per- form His blessed will. Yes; He strengthens the weak, who feel that they have no might of their own. 25 i th . — How desirable is quietude ! I speak not of that which results from sitting alone, but of that 48 MEMORANDUMS OF which is produced by His power, who condescends to speak peace to the tried mind ; then, all is still- ness, all is quiet ; and that hope is sometimes experienced, which is an anchor to the soul, both sure and stedfast. Eleventh Month 29 th . — Great is the work of the day : no work so great, so important, as that of working out the soul’s salvation. This must be per- formed with fear and trembling, lest we fall short in the day of final retribution. No man can redeem his brother, or by any means give a ransom for him ; but we know the blessed Redeemer laid down his precious life, a ransom for all ; he suffered for us, the just for the unjust, and unspeakable is the obli- gation we are under for so great salvation. Twelfth Month 18 th . — May I be favoured this morning to partake of a crumb of heavenly bread, which alone can sustain the spiritual life, and give strength to press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus our Lord, who is the author and finisher of our faith, and who only can make us victorious over all our soul’s enemies. O blessed Lord! if consistent with thy holy will, enable me to move forward, leaving the things which are behind. 24 th . — In reflecting on the life of the righteous JANE BETTLE. 49 and the blessedness of their latter end, my heart’s desire for myself and for all my fellow-creatures is that we may learn in the school of Christ ; take up our daily cross and follow him, wherever He may be pleased to lead. His true followers must be willing to suffer as well as to abound : our every day's request ought to be, Lord, feed me with food con- venient for me. 1838. First Month 1st . — Just entering a new year: how many days, or how few may be allotted, is not for me to know ; even the moments are uncer- tain. How wise, how necessary, to pursue diligently the path of self-denial, avoiding every thing that would retard my progress heavenward. 4 th . — Thou art a covenant-keeping God, righteous and good ; forgiving our trespasses and sins, when we come as humble, penitent suppliants, to thy sacred footstool. This language arose in my heart this morning, in remembrance of my short-comings and broken covenants, in not keeping nearer to the foot- steps of the flock of Christ's companions. The Lord has been good and kind, sustaining me through various trials of mind and body, speaking in the inmost soul on this wise, u Trust in me, I will strengthen thee to hold out to the end of thy journey, and rest and peace shalt thou find hereafter.” c 50 MEMORANDUMS OF 19 th . — We are like pilgrims whose faith and patience are often at a low ebb, and were it not for the gracious condescension of Him who regardeth even the sparrows, and whose everlasting arm is underneath in seasons of drooping and dismay, we should be ready to faint : but He is strength in weakness to those who put their trust in Him, and a present sufficiency when we are not able to provide for ourselves. I can subscribe to the above, knowing from a degree of experience, that great is the mercy of the Lord to his dependent children, who can say in sin- cerity, “ As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, 0 God !” First Month 27th . — I have often felt thankful for the instruction received from my dear parents in early life. I had much to endear them to me, and believe I may say without boasting, that by the help of my heavenly Father, their counsel was in a good degree kept to. I did not feel myself at liberty to put on apparel or to make choice of associates, without their entire approbation ; and I had some- times to say to my young friends, that in so doing, they also would find safety and peace. As I advanced in years, the obligation to consult them in all my pursuits seemed as imperative as ever, being careful not to make up my own mind, until I had heard theirs ; which, I believe, was a JANE BETTLE. 51 means of preserving me from many follies, and affords me consolation to the present day. I have been induced to make this short note, hoping it may serve as a watch-word to others, seeing our grand enemy is continually spreading his snares to bring into captivity, and would, if possible, de- ceive the very elect. But thanks to him who opened the blind eyes and unstopped the deaf ears, He fur- nishes with sight, whereby we are enabled to dis- cover and escape them. Second Month 15 th . — Be pleased, 0 Lord! to extend thy Almighty arm, which can support, when all within is ready to faint through weakness of mind and body. This has been the breathing of my spirit this morning. It is on the Invisible arm only that we can safely lean in times of trial. He hath promised to be with those who put their trust in Him, even unto the end of the world. 23 rd . — Our heavenly Father has compassion on all the workmanship of his holy hand, helping us out of our distresses, when in faith and patience his time is waited for, which is always the best time. We must expect to have tribulation and sorrow in this world, but we ought not to neglect number- ing our blessings ; for what are these light afflictions which are to be endured for a short season, com- c 2 52 MEMORANDUMS OF pared with the joy of an endless life, where the wicked cease from troubling, and the weary, wayworn traveller, is for ever at rest. Blessed rest ; never to be broken. Third Month 8th. — “ The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.” David, through confidence in the grace of God, could use this language. May I live continually in the fear of the Lord, and not grieve the Holy Spirit ; then will the same gracious God, who is no respecter of persons, enable me also to say, “ Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil ; for thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” Fourth Month 1 4