*'** STILL WATERS VOL. I. Digitized by the Internet Archive in 2010 with funding from University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign http://www.archive.org/details/stillwaters01paul STILL WATERS BY THE AUTHOR OF DOROTHY Their strength is to sit still. Behold ! we know not anything; I can but trust that good shall fall At last— far off— at last, to all, And every winter change to spring. In Memoriam. IN TWO VOLUMES VOL. I. LONDON JOHN W. PARKER AND SON WEST STRAND i857 t The Author reserves the right of Translation] LONDON : 6AVILL AND EDWARDS, PBINTEKS, CHANDOS STREET. V'l STILL WATERS CHAPTER I. After them went Displeasure and Pleasaunce, He looking lompish and full sullein sad, And hanging down his heavy countenaunce : She cheerfull, fresh, and full of ioyaunce glad, 3 As if no sorrow she ne felt ne drad. The Faerie Queene. 10 . SUBSTANTIAL red brick house, with J\_ stone facings, stands on the sunny side of the High-street of Holmdale, a market town in one of the midland counties of England. This was, not many years ago, the abode of Mrs. Lennox, the widow of the colonel of the — th regiment, who died in active service in India. In Holmdale her unmarried life had 3 been passed, and thither she returned as a widow, " broken in health and spirits, with her three children, David, Ruth, and Isabel. She settled in the town, partly from motives of economy, partly from an unwillingness to be separated from her boy, who attended King Edward's VOL. I. b 2 STILL WATERS. Grammar School, then in excellent repute, as well for scholarship, as for its high moral tone. It was a cheerful house. The best rooms had the unfortunate propensity of looking upon the street, but behind there was a sunny walled garden, famous for its fruit trees, and with a luxuriance of old-fashioned flowers bordering the more useful vegetable produc- tions. There were broad gravel walks to pace in winter, and no lack of shady retreats for summer. Summer was past and gone, however, as Mrs. Lennox remarked with a sigh when the twilight fell before David's return from school. She added an admonition to Isabel not to put out her eyes by reading by firelight ; but Isabel, with her arms pillowed on a folio edi- tion of Shakspeare, and her curls falling over the page, still pored over As You Like It, and did not hear or heed. Even as she sat, she would have made a study for a painter, and she was in truth picturesque rather than beau- tiful, with wonderful hazel eyes, rippled brown hair, and a complexion of sun-burnt brilliancy. And in all her movements there was that grace- ful abandon which does not, or ought not to survive very early youth. STILL WATERS. 3 In colouring and features the sisters were not unlike, yet those who knew them well could only note the dissimilarity between them. Ruth was the elder by three years, a shy and demure maiden, who had attained that most shy and demure age of f sweet six- teen/ Her hair was not permitted to escape in wavy tendrils, but smoothly braided round her face, though nature had her way so far that it was rippled still. Her eyes were less remarkable for size and brilliancy, nor were her cheeks so tanned, perhaps because she was more mindful than the younger sister of pre- cautions against sun and weather. Her dress and air were scrupulously neat, or, as David was wont to declare, most formally precise : nominally the two sisters were dressed alike, but even in small matters character will peep out; and while Isabel's dark merino dress was set off by a dainty bow of cherry-coloured ribbon, which was not always perfectly straight, that of Ruth was only relieved by the linen collar and cuffs, sitting without a crease round her slender throat, and singularly small hands. c There is David/ said Mrs. Lennox, as a scuffle of feet upon the pavement was fol- lowed by such a vigorous opening and shutting b 2 4 STILL WATERS. of the house door as only a boy can per- petrate. ' And Jasper/ Ruth added : ' I heard his voice, bidding some one good-night/ As she spoke, David threw the drawing- room door back on its hinges, causing an Indian cabinet to totter, and Mrs. Lennox to exclaim that it would fall, as confidently as if she had not asserted the same ever since they settled at Holmdale and the cabinet was placed there. ' Well, mother/ he said, ' I have brought Clinton home to tea/ 1 1 am glad of it/ said Mrs. Lennox. c Come in, Jasper. How is your mother V The boy, who remained standing dubiously in the background until his friend's invitation was confirmed, came forward and shook hands with Mrs. Lennox. He appeared to be, as indeed he was, at least two years older than David ; but this was only one of many differ- ences which had not interfered with their close friendship. Jasper Clinton was tall and strongly made ; his expression grave, and almost sullen, and, though his massive brow gave promise of intellect, it was out of keeping with his still boyish features. David, unlike his sisters, was very fair, with light blue eyes, STILL WATERS. 5 shaded, however, by eyebrows and long lashes of a considerably darker hue than his yellow hair — a peculiarity which always imparts a singular expression of resolution to the coun- tenance ; and this imperious cast of beauty was confirmed by the spirited bearing of his slight, athletic figure. ( Isabel will not deign to notice us ; — only banished dukes are good enough company for her/ said David, seizing his sister's pendent head by the curls, while he looked over her shoulder. Isabel resented the indignity by a slight, impatient gesture, and went on reading. ' Is she reading As You Like It for the first time ? How I envy her V said young Clinton, with that blase air which boys are so apt to assume. Yet in this instance an undefined sense of weariness and satiety was probably somewhat genuine. ' For the first time V repeated David ; c for the fiftieth more likely. Isabel began to read Shakspeare before she could spell ; indeed, I am not sure that her spelling is even now irre- proachable, and, from the fact of its having a monosyllabic title, As You Like It was among the earliest of her studies/ Jasper laughed, and so did Ruth ; and Isabel 6 STILL WATERS. raised her head with a pretty assumption of girlish dignity. f How can you talk such nonsense, David V ' Because a little nonsense was required to rouse my sage sister from her studies. Shut up your folio, and make room for tea, for we are in a hurry. Clinton is to write my theme for me before he goes home/ e You idle boy V said Mrs. Lennox. ' Why not write it yourself ?' ' I really cannot, my dear mother. The old Doctor has given us a course of cardinal vir- tues, beginning with Prudence, and it is against my principles to say anything civil of such a respectable, contemptible virtue. But, as Clinton has no such scruples, he and Ruth may compose some platitudes for which I am to be responsible, and Isabel and I will reserve ourselves for Fortitude. Can you give them a motto, Isabel V 1 ' Done like a Frenchman — turn and turn again/ ' said Isabel, readily ; ' that is Prudence, and will serve for Ruth and Jasper's motto. And we can find hundreds for ourselves, and heroes too/ 1 1 cannot conceive/ said Jasper, in a tone of pique, ' why you call Prudence mine or STILL WATERS. 7 your sister's virtue, if such is your definition of it/ 1 1 have given no definition ; only a motto, and you are welcome to find a better if you can/ replied Isabel. ' But why/ persisted Jasper, ' should you call it our virtue? I never had any special predilection for the same/ ' Ask David/ said Isabel, shaking back her curls with some petulance. ' It was he who said so, not I — and, besides, I hate being asked my reasons/ c In which you show a proper sense of in- feriority/ replied David. ' The Doctor said the other day that a woman's instinct is generally right, her arguments invariably wrong/ c How extremely insulting!' exclaimed Isabel. c And it is quite untrue besides, as I shall tell the Doctor when I see him. I should like to bring him and Rosalind together, and see which would have the best of the argument.' ' I hope you do not intend to take Rosalind for your model, however. She was not a womanly woman/ said Jasper. 1 So says Ruth/ retorted Isabel. ( She was not prudent enough to suit either of you.' ' Poor despised Prudence/ said Mrs. Lennox, 8 STILL WATERS. •with a smile ; c she has hard measure among you, and even Jasper seems unwilling to plead her cause/ I He "will not have a chance of doing so un- less Ruth gives us tea/ said David, and, in com- pliance with the hint, Ruth folded up her work, with -which she had been too much engaged to take any share in the foregoing discussion, and sat down to the tea-table. e You did not tell me/ Mrs. Lennox said to Jasper, ' how Mrs. Clinton is/ ' As well as usual, thank you/ answered the boy, "with almost ungracious brevity. f I suppose that she is very anxious about this Christmas examination V I I don't know. I have told her that I have no chance of the scholarship/ c I wonder that you did not scruple to tell such a gratuitous falsehood/ remarked David; 1 however, it "will only make your success more triumphant. All the fellows say you will beat Lewis and Allen/ ' I know "who might beat us all three, if he were to try/ said Jasper. 1 Ah, so they say ! but it is quite nonsense. At all events, I am too young to try this time, and before next year I shall be at Sandhurst/ STILL WATERS. 9 The words were spoken with the confidence sometimes assumed to bear down opposition, but though Mrs. Lennox looked disturbed, she said nothing. f Before next year I shall be too old/ said Jasper; f if I fail, I am to leave school at once, and look for a clerkship, or something of that sort/ 1 Perhaps/ said Ruth, softly, ' you might get into the bank here/ ' Perhaps/ repeated Jasper ; but he did not appear to find anything cheering in such a contingency. He swallowed his tea in haste, and, pushing back his chair, he asked if he might set to work at once. But David was in no such hurry. ' I have not half done/ he said. f Give me another cup of tea, Ruth, and then you can light Clinton's candle, and settle him comfortably in the study. I will follow when I am ready/ ' I can light my own candle/ said Jasper ; ' upon my word, Lennox, you know how to fag your sisters/ 'Not to mention his friends/ added Ruth, gaily ; ' I admire the assurance with which he sends us to do his work, while he sits here at his ease/ 'It was Clinton's own suggestion, I would 10 STILL WATERS. have hira to remember/ said David j ' and mamma likes me to relax my mind, and give her the news before I run away, does she not?' He looked up to meet his mother's smile of proud affection, and drew his chair closer to her own, in preparation for a talk, while Ruth and Jasper Clinton left the room together. ( I never can get on with Jasper/ observed Mrs. Lennox. ( Xo one does/ replied David j ' but he is more human with us than with any one else, and I like him exceedingly : he is thoroughly gentlemanlike, which is more than can be said for all my schoolfellows/ ' I like him too/ said Mrs. Lennox j e and I am so sorry for him. He looks as if he never forgot his story/ 1 He certainly has it in his mind to-night/ said David, f for it was cast up against him* He was appealed to in some question of fair and unfair, and then taunted by another fellow, who asked what the son of a felon should know of truth and honour/ ' ^Yhat a shame V exclaimed Isabel, with kindling eyes. ' Did you knock him down, David V ' Nbj Isabel j with my theme in my head, I STILL WATERS. II remembered that discretion was the better part of valour, aud forbore to attack a fellow twice my size. Clinton has spirit enough in general, but any allusion to his father seems to knock it out of him. He turned white and red, without answering a word, and one can see how it rankles. I must say that the feeling of the school is with him, and there was a cry of ' Shame/ like Isabel's just now, which made Ba , the fellow I mean, look remarkably small/ 1 And Mr. Clinton was not exactly a felon, was he, mamma? 5 said Isabel. ' Something very like it, my dear. He com- mitted a forgery, which is only a genteel kind of felony ; and was sentenced to transportation for life. It must be more than twelve years ago, for I remember that I had you in nay arms when I read the trial in the paper. I fancy that it came like a thunderbolt on poor Barbara, for she was so proud and so fond of him, although his manner was by no means prepossessing, — inattentive to her, and elabo- rately civil to the rest of the world.-' ' So you have seen him/ said David. c I thought you had only kno^vn Mrs. Clinton before her marriage/ 12 STILL WATERS. f I saw little of her afterwards. She hap- pened to be at Portsmouth with her husband when we went abroad, and we did not meet again until I settled here. At first I hoped to renew our former intimacy ; but that is im- possible, since she can neither endure to speak of the past nor to banish it a moment from her mind. She has never spoken of her hus- band, and I do not know if he is still living/ 1 She is an appalling woman/ said David, ' and as stiff and repulsive to her own son as to any one else, though I believe she likes him after a fashion/ c Possibly/ said Mrs. Lennox. f It is an amiable weakness, which mothers cannot easily shake off. But it has been an injudicious train- ing for a boy like Jasper, whose morbidly sensitive temper leads him to exaggerate all the evils of his position/ e Jasper thinks so himself/ said. David. 1 That is the chief reason why he is so anxious to get the scholarship. Here, he says that dishonour tracks his footsteps, and he should breathe more freely elsewhere. And now I must go and look after my theme/ STILL WATERS. 13 CHAPTER II. I have been lonely, — I am lonely still ; I dug all tenderness from out my heart : There is no fibre of the smiling ill To grow again, to torture and depart. IX. Poems by V. rpo Ruth the particulars related by Mrs. -*- Lennox were known long since, and not through her mother alone. Even to-night, in the midst of a discussion of the examples applicable to her subject, prudent Ulysses, the Fabian policy, and the lines of Torres Vedras, Jasper said, reverting to what had passed in the other room, ' I don't know where I got this reputation for prudence, but I do know that I shall be sorely tempted to forfeit it if I fail in the examination. I would rather enlist, or go to sea before the mast, than go into the bank here/ ' Oh, Jasper V 1 1 am in earnest, Ruth ; shocking as you may think it. To live on here, to be taunted and pointed at, and mistrusted, at every turn — 14 STILL WATERS. to remember my dishonour, and to see that it is remembered by others — to have to be grateful for the obligation of placing me in a position I despise, and would willingly spurn; — it is altogether intolerable '/ e No one has a right to mistrust you/ said Ruth. ' The dishonour is not yours, and you will live down suspicion/ c It were easier to die under it, Ruth. There is such a thing as visiting the sins of the fathers on their children/ ' Not in the sense you mean/ said Ruth, quickly. ' You know how the Jews' proverb was set aside, when they said : ' The fathers have eaten sour grapes, and the children's teeth are set on edge/ And, after all, Jasper, I believe that you will get the scholarship, and be able to go to Oxford and take orders/ ' Believe it if you will, but I am convinced that I shall fail. I have lost ground in the last few weeks; and the more knowledge I cram into my head, the less rises to the surface when I come to use it. For that reason I came here to-night. I cannot help working when I am at home, and it only stupefies me, and does no good/ ' The Doctor knows you so well, Jasper, that STILL WATERS. 1 5 he will make allowance for what he knows to be only nervousness/ c The Doctor/ rejoined Jasper, f has neither the right nor the inclination to make allowances. Nor does the decision rest with him : the ex- aminers always come down from Oxford/ He resumed his pen, as if weary of the subject ; and Ruth was very willing to let it drop, since her womanly tact enabled her to perceive that any attempt to cheer him only made his antici- pations more gloomy. David soon came in to hinder, rather than to help, by his criticisms and emendations ; and though Jasper acquiesced in the alterations he suggested, Ruth was less submissive. f You will quite spoil that sentence/ she said ; ' let it stand, Jasper, or let David write his own theme/ ' No, indeed/ said David ; ' I must strike out Torres Yedras : he may make what he can of Fabius, who was always my aversion, especially since it will serve to heighten the antithesis when I come to Hannibal. But it is a palpable poaching on my preserve to make any allusion to the Great Captain, who is to be the hero of Fortitude/ 1 Well/ said Jasper, looking at his watch, 16 STILL WATERS. c write it after your fashion, for it is time to go home and prepare my own work/ ( Isabel and I mean to walk with you/ said David, ' for she must needs go star-gazing. Will you join the party, Ruth V ' If mamma does not mind being left alone/ said Ruth; and, when satisfied on that point, she was as well pleased as her sister to join the starlight walk. Two and two, they stepped briskly through the deserted streets, Isabel and her brother, always together, in front, followed by Ruth and Jasper, who were almost as inseparable. Their voices were hushed, the stillness and silence of the night subduing even David's joyous spirits, so that little was heard save the tramp of their feet along the pavement. It was clear and frosty ; the stars shone out with great brilliancy ; and Isabel only spoke to point out the constellations as she successively reco- gnised them. ' Isabel is so quick in taking up anything she fancies/ observed Ruth; ( she only began star-gazing three weeks ago/ Jasper assented, presently adding in an under- tone, i My pleasure in the pursuit is spoiled by the necessity of submitting to the arbitrary STILL WATERS. 1 7 arrangement of men. When the heavens are mapped out, one loses the sense of their infinity. ' 1 ■ He knoweth the number of the stars, and calleth them all by their names/ ■ said Ruth, softly. c And I think there is great harmony in method/ f Method is your cardinal virtue/ said Jasper. 1 1 find it only an irksome necessity/ ' It is an instinct/ said Ruth, ' -with which some people are born; — those people, David says, who are destined to be old maids/ c Then we may conclude that such is not Isabel's destiny/ said Jasper. ' Do look, now the lamp-light falls on her, at the way her shawl is wound round her, with one end thrown over her shoulder, and her hands ungloved V ' You precise and proper person V exclaimed Isabel, her attention arrested by the sound of her own name : ( Do you suppose that Cas- siopeia cares whether I wear gloves or no V 1 Possibly not/ returned Jasper, drily. ' If she did, you might pay more respect to her presence, than to that of your humble servant/ f Hear him V said Isabel, in unrestrained merriment ; ' he takes it as a personal insult that I don't wear gloves. I wonder what Ruth vol. i. c 1 8 STILL WATERS. has clone ? she keeps her hands rather suspi- ciously folded under her cloak/ But the aspersion was unfounded, as Jasper discovered, when he shook hands with his friends at his own door, and bade them good night. He did not ask them to linger, noting how David hurried the leave-taking, lest they should be invited to go in and see Mrs. Clinton, and his perception of the motive for this haste did not help to clear his clouded brow, nor impart any alacrity to the step with which he entered the room where his mother sat. David had scarcely used too strong an ex- pression when he called Mrs. Clinton a repul- sive woman, although, as the Barbara Maylin of Mrs. Lennox's youthful recollections, she had been remarkable for grace and beauty. Now the regularity of outline had settled into harshness, her manner was cast in the same unpliable mould; even her voice seemed to have but one tone, studiously adapted to con- vey no expression. She always wore black, which set off her colourless delicacy of com- plexion, her only remaining beauty; and the grey hair, the hollow eye, and the deep lines round her mouth, gave her the appearance of being much older than she really was. STILL WATERS. 1 9 The aspect of the room was cheerless, small and scantily furnished, and with little regard to the amenities of life. Mrs. Clinton sat at a centre table, on which there was nothing but her work-basket and embroidery frame, and a case containing a miniature, which she hastily closed and laid aside when Jasper's hand was on the door. The boy stooped to kiss his mother's forehead; more, as it seemed, from habit, than as a spontaneous expression of affection, and she observed that he had come home early. ' Yes, I have some work to do/ said Jasper, and this appeared to be a sufficient reason for lighting his candle, and sitting down to his books at the other end of the room, before another word had been spoken on either side. Mrs. Clinton applied herself to the embroi- dery, which she executed with singular skill and delicacy ; and for an hour or more the silence was unbroken, save when Jasper flut- tered the leaves of his lexicon, or a half- consumed coal slipped through the bars of the grate upon the hearth. At last he shut up his books with a stretch and a sigh, he looked at his watch, and supposed that it was bed-time. 1 1 suppose so/ said his mother, collecting c 3 20 STILL WATERS. her materials for work. Then she gathered the dying embers into a blaze, and added : ' Come and warm yourself; you must be cold sitting there/ f It is warm enough/ said Jasper; but he came nevertheless ; and, folding his arms upon the mantelpiece, he leaned his brow against them, looking as fixedly at the fitful blaze as if he could read his fate there. He seemed dis- posed to linger without making any effort to be sociable ; and when Mrs. Clinton attempted to rouse him from his abstraction, it was in a stiff, constrained manner, little likely to be successful. ' Did the Lennoxes walk with you to the door, Jasper ? I thought I heard Isabel's laugh/ I Yes, they were all three there/ ' Isabel seems to have great spirits/ ' Sometimes. She is variable; but then they all spoil her/ I I thought/ said Mrs. Clinton, ' that David was his mother's favourite, and reigned para- mount in the house/ 1 1 believe he does/ said Jasper, after a moment's pause ; ' and that it is only Ruth who is his slave, and Isabel's, and who does all disagreeable duties/ STILL WATERS. 2 J f You need not pity her/ said Mrs. Clinton ; ' she is happy in having work to do, and doing it well/ f I do not pity — I am more likely to envy her/ said Jasper, briefly. ' Good-night, mother/ And he took up his candle and departed. 23 STILL WATERS, CHAPTER III. In vain our pent wills fret, And would the world subdue, Limits we did not set Condition all we do — Born into life we are, and life must be our mould. M. Arnold. HPHREE weeks after this, Euth and her -*- sister met Jasper in the market-place. They had not seen him since the examination of the candidates for the scholarship began two days before, and now, walking according to custom with his eyes npon the ground, he would have passed them without recognition, if Isabel had not been less scrupulous than her sister in rousing him from his abstraction. 1 Well, Jasper, how do you get on V ( I do not get on at all/ said Jasper, with a laugh that rung hollow ; and, as he raised his head, Ruth saw the fixed crimson spot glowing on his usually pale cheek. i I do not get on at all, Isabel; I stand still. I broke down altogether in the viva voce, and my mathe- matical paper was almost a blank/ STILL WATERS. 23 1 But they set one thing against another/ said Ruth, ' and David heard that you did well in classics/ * No success in classics can retrieve my failure to-day/ said Jasper. ' But it does not signify. I never expected it to be otherwise, and so there is no disappointment/ And he strode on as resolutely as if he were trampling down all the bitter and agitated feelings which belied his words. ' I am very sorry for Jasper/ said Isabel, with a sigh j but Ruth neither sighed nor spoke, and their walk home was silent enough. Dr. Berkeley — c the Doctor/ as he was called by David and the other boys — was sitting with Mrs. Lennox. Isabel considered him far ad- vanced in years, though he was probably nearer thirty than forty. But the disparity in their ages was no doubt considerable. His dark hair was already silvered with grey, he wore near-sighted spectacles, and he was distin- guished by many of the peculiarities early acquired by men of literary and secluded habits ; he looked annoyed by the slamming of a door, and an undue proportion of cream and sugar to his tea disturbed his equanimity. And though fond of Isabel, and permitting her 24 STILL WATERS. to take greater liberties with him than he allowed from any other person, he evidently regarded her joyons spirits, and wild nntntored ways, as an exercise of his patience rather than as a subject of admiration. With a half-uttered exclamation of satisfac- tion, Isabel recognised the Malacca cane, and the hat with brim of rather dignified breadth, lying on the hall table, and she danced into the room, interrupting without ceremony some remark, addressed in a confidential tone to her mother. 1 Oh, Dr. Berkeley ! I am so glad to find you here, for it can only be to tell us that Jasper has got the scholarship, and I shall go and put him out of pain at once. We met him just now, looking so very wretched/ ' His misery is premature, since the result of the examination is not yet made public/ said Dr. Berkeley. 'No, but boys always think they know, though I am quite sure they are wrong this time, for Jasper certainly deserves it more than the others/ e I have a high opinion of Clinton/ said the Doctor, stiffly; 'but you must be aware, Miss STILL WATERS. 25 Isabel, that moral character cannot be made the only criterion/ 1 And so you "will have nothing to say to poor Jasper, though he is better than any of them, and cleverer too, David says ! That is too unfair V ' My dear Isabel V said Mrs. Lennox, in an admonitory tone, which called the tears to her little daughter's flashing eyes, and the Doctor instantly took her part. ' I am sure that I quite admire Miss Isabel's enthusiasm, and, though she spoke hastily, she cannot really believe that the examiners, who are able and honourable men, would make an unfair decision/ Isabel, however, was not very willing to hear her words explained away, and, hanging her head and pouting her pretty lips, she murmured — c I don't see why Oxford dons may not sometimes do wrong as well as other men. Though you have not answered my question, after all/ Dr. Berkeley repeated his former assertion, that the names were not given out; but Mrs. Lennox said with a smile — 26 STILL WATERS. ' You may trust to the little woman's dis- cretion, for she is not quite such a scatter- brain as she seems to be ; and she or Ruth are more likely to be able to answer your question than I am/ 1 1 know I may trust Miss Ruth/ said Dr. Berkeley, doubtfully. ' And not me V said Isabel, forgetting her ill-humour in eager curiosity ; c that is very hard. I can keep a secret from any one, even from David, and I believe that Ruth tells Jasper everything, because she is nattered by his speaking rather more to her than to the rest of the world. Not much, though, and she would never have had courage to ask him about his examination, if I had not been there/ ( If Miss Lennox is in Clinton's confidence, it is more than I am/ said the Doctor, glancing at Ruth's deepening colour. ' I find it impossible to penetrate his reserve, and for that reason I came here to-day. He has rightly guessed that he failed in the examina- tion, and another has been elected to the scholarship. He must, therefore, relinquish the hope of going to college, and I am anxious to provide for him in some other way. I STILL WATERS. 27 spoke to Mr. Dunn, who says there might be an opening for him in his office ; but I do not like to press him to make the offer, nntil I know whether it is likely to be accepted/ f A stupid clerkship V said Isabel ; ' and to Mr. Dunn, the stupidest of all the Holmdale attorneys ! David says that he is fit for better things/ 'If David can procure anything better, I shall be delighted/ said Dr. Berkeley, drily; ' but now I want to know if Miss Ruth can guess what Clinton's decision is likely to be/ Ruth's cheeks were still more deeply dyed, as she replied, after a moment's hesitation — ' I do not exactly know, but I will try to find out/ The Doctor thanked her, and presently took leave, promising to call again in the evening, to ascertain the result of her inquiries. ( And how are you to find out, Ruth, I wonder?' said Mrs. Lennox. 1 1 suppose by going to Bean-street to ask Jasper/ answered Ruth, in a matter-of-fact tone which made her mother smile. ' That is the straightforward way, certainly ; but the Doctor intended you to be diplomatic, and not to commit him or any one else. And 28 STILL WATERS. you will be less likely to learn Jasper's real wishes if yon go to Bean-street, and unfold the matter before Mrs. Clinton/ ' I know quite well already what he wishes, or, at least, what he does not wish/ said Ruth ; ' and his mother may, and ought to help him to decide. So, mamma, if it would do to cut out David's shirts to-morrow, I will go at once, before I take off my things/ Mrs. Lennox made no farther objection, and she set off accordingly. Mrs. Clinton was not at home, and, on open- ing the door of the little parlour, Ruth found that the room was darkened, and Jasper asked who was there, in a voice betraying severe bodily pain. 1 It is I, Jasper. Are you ill V e I have a headache/ said the boy, raising himself on the sofa. ' Why have you come, Ruth ? I suppose David sent you to tell me my fate — as if I did not know it already/ 1 Yes, you have failed : I am very sorry/ said Ruth, sitting down beside him, and timidly laying her hand on his. But Jasper turned away, saying, in a stifled voice, as he hid his face in the pillows — 'You need not be sorry, Ruth. I don't STILL WATERS. 29 wish any one to care what becomes of me, for I shall only be a grief and disappointment. There is my mother — she does not know it yet, and when she comes home she will not say even so much as you do j yet she will feel it more/ f She knows that you have done your best, Jasper/ ' Yes ; and great comfort there is in that, when the best I can do leaves me still dependent on her exertions. She has worked night and day to meet the school expenses, and this is the result/ This was a new disclosure to Ruth, who had often wondered what became of the em- broidery to which Mrs. Clinton applied with such assiduity. ' I could bear it better/ Jasper presently re- sumed, ' if — if my mother were like yours. But I know that, while she has devoted herself to me, because she considers it her first duty, she is always longing for the time when she may leave me to support myself. And this I should have been able to do after my first year at Oxford/ ' But why should she leave you, Jasper V ' You cannot guess ? She has not forgotten 30 STILL WATERS. the only passionate desire she has felt these many years — to find her way across the world. But for me, she would have been in Australia long ago, and when I first discovered this, I proposed that we should go together. But that, she said, might not be/ c No, I should think not/ said Ruth, as she pictured to herself the manifold evils which such a step must have entailed on one of Jasper's morbidly sensitive temper. ' And now, Jasper, there is an alternative which I do not so much mind telling you, though I am afraid you will not like it/ She proceeded to relate the object of the Doctor's visit, justified in anticipating that his distaste for such a vocation would be less de- cided than when the matter had been last dis- cussed between them. For, though he expressed no satisfaction, briefly saying, that if his mother had no objection, he should make none, his mind was evidently relieved by this definite pro- spect of independence. Mrs. Clinton came in as they were still talking, and Ruth could fully taste the bitter- ness of Jasper's voice, when he said — '"Well, mother, Ruth has come to tell me that I am — not a scholar, but a lawyer's clerk STILL WATERS. 3 1 elect/ As he spoke, a throb of pain sent the blood to his temples, fading again as quickly, and leaving even his lips colourless. ' Lie down, Jasper/ said his mother, turning to the window to darken the room still more ; ' you will be neither scholar nor clerk if you excite yourself while your headache is so severe/ There was no expression of sympathy, no caress or soothing word, to soften the bitterness of the admission Jasper had made. This was all she said ; it was all her son expected, and only Ruth resented the cold, impassive manner. In truth Jasper was in no mood to endure condolence, and there was silence for a few moments, broken by Ruth, who said, apologe- tically — ' I am sorry that I came, but I did not know that Jasper was ill, and ' ( And the Doctor wanted his answer/ said Jasper. ■ Go and tell my mother about it in the other room. My head is too bad to think, and I could rather abide by her decision, and hear no more until it is settled/ Mrs. Clinton took Ruth into the adjoining room, and said, after waiting for some moments, in expectation that she would volunteer the ex- planation unasked — 33 STILL WATERS. 1 Well, Ruth, Jasper has referred me to you to explain his allusion to the clerkship/ Ruth's answer was given with sufficient dis- tinctness, although in an unsteady voice, and when she finished speaking, she raised her eyes to Mrs. Clinton's face with a shy, inquiring glance, endeavouring to ascertain the effect of her words. But she might as well have tried to read the expression of an iron mask, and Mrs. Clinton only replied by another question — ' And what does Jasper wish ?' 'AYill you not ask himself?' Ruth could not forbear replying, though almost alarmed by her own daring. I No/ said Mrs. Clinton ; f you can tell me more than I shall learn from him, since with you he is comparatively open/ I I know/ said Ruth, ' that it was his great wish to go to Oxford ; but, since that cannot be, he thinks it best to take the clerkship, and when he has recovered from the first disappoint- ment, I think that he may be happier than he was at school.' c Very possibly — and without attaining great felicity either; but is the disappointment so great? I imagined that, though he worked doggedly, it was on principle, and with little STILL WATERS. 33 expectation or anxiety for success. However, you probably know more than I V Ruth knew not what to reply, embarrassed by the consciousness that Jasper had indeed be- stowed on her the confidence withheld from his mother, and Mrs. Clinton resumed, after a moment's pause, — f If the decision rests with me, you may thank Dr. Berkeley for his good offices, and assure him that they will not be rejected. But I will not force Jasper to take any step of which he may afterwards repent/ 1 He will be best pleased to have the matter settled for him/ said Ruth ; and Mrs. Clinton answered with a sort of smile at her assured tone. 1 Then you are willing to take the respon- sibility V ' No, I did not mean that/ said Ruth, quickly. 1 Nor did I imply anything so terrible that you need colour, and disclaim it. Jasper could not have a better guide, and to you such hap- piness is due as he, poor boy, has known/ Sad and thoughtful, Ruth returned home to inform her mother of the success of her mis- sion. Mrs. Clinton's emotions were of a more mingled character. A tremulous smile played VOL. I. D 34 STILL WATERS. round her mouth, and there was a quivering of the proud dilated nostril, as she drew forth her husband's miniature from its case, and gazed at it long and fixedly, until her glazed eyes were dimmed with unwonted tears. And then she softly murmured — ( At length the day of meeting is at hand, and we shall part no more/ STILL WATERS. 35 CHAPTER IV. Still round, and round, and round Let us compass the ground. "What man is he who feels Any weight at his heels ? Since our hearts are so light, that, all weigh'd together, Agree to a grain, and they weigh not a feather. DAyEXAXT. NOT only Jasper's vocation in life, but that of Dayid Lennox, was decided in the en- suing Christmas holidays, and neither of the two friends returned to the grammar school. Dayid's determination to follow his father's calling would not yield to his mother's long- cherished hope that he might embrace a more peaceful profession; her unwilling consent was at last obtained, and he was to go to Sandhurst in the first week of January. Isabel rejoiced with unselfish heroism, stifling her regrets at the approaching separation from her darling brother, in bright anticipations of the laurels he was to win, and of the less distant prospect of seeing him in his Sandhurst uniform. The folio edition of Shakspeare lay undis- D 2, $6 STILL WATERS. turbed on the shelf, while all her spare moments were employed in netting him a purse — as great a labour of love as the first efforts of a young lady in fancy work are apt to be ; and when the task was at last accomplished, her purse was more expensive, less serviceable, and by no means so pretty as those which lay under glass cases on Miss Pinfold's counter. Kuth's sisterly affection took a more prac- tical turn. She made David's shirts; she hemmed his handkerchiefs; and she strove to cheer her mother's spirits, which flagged more and more as Christmas drew near. The con- dolence of their Holmdale acquaintance did not tend to make the separation less grievous. Dr. Berkeley's disapprobation was most openly expressed. He lamented the withdrawal of his favourite scholar, predicting that he would repent, when it was too late, of his boyish fancy for a red coat, which outweighed for the moment the brilliant prospects of distinction afforded by a learned education. Mrs. Dunn, whose boys were notoriously the ringleaders of every breach of school discipline at Holmdale, wondered how Mrs. Lennox could submit to expose her dear boy to the temptations of a public school ; and Mr. Ball, the medical man, STILL WATERS. 37 doubted whether the inherent delicacy of his constitution would endure the hardships of active service or a tropical climate. Mrs. Lennox could make but one answer to all representations : — ' David's heart is set on the army, and I have consented/ But this could not prevent her brooding over the evils so good- naturedly offered for her consideration ; and Ruth was privileged to share all her anxieties and misgivings. It was an established custom, from the time they settled at Holmdale, that Jasper Clinton aud his mother, as well as Dr. Berkeley, should eat their Christmas dinner with the Lennoxes. It was the single exception to the rule of se- clusion so rigidly maintained by Mrs. Clinton, and the concession was made, as all knew, for Jasper's sake, who would not have consented on that day to leave his mother alone in her cheerless home. On this Christmas-day all went as before. The Doctor joined the young Lennoxes as they came out of church after the evening service, and hoped that their mother would excuse his going home to dress. Ruth satisfied his scruples with demure politeness, while Isabel and her brother exchanged bright rallying 38 STILL WATERS. glances, because the former had threatened to give a negative reply, for the sake of ascer- taining how the Doctor looked when he was dressed, or if he really possessed an evening coat. But the question remained unsolved, for her courage failed when it came to the point ; and, in happy ignorance of the proposed impertinence, Dr. Berkeley turned his steps down the High-street. ' The Clintons got out before us/ said David ; c but of course they will go home to dress. Jasper is so sensible of what is due to rank and station, that I expect him to come forth in a black satin stock, and a coral breast- pin. That is the correct uniform for a lawyer's clerk/ ' I see/ said Ruth, colouring, ' that, on the strength of the epaulettes, which, however, you have not yet won, you are prepared to look down on your old friends, and make merry with their misfortunes/ f Very fair/ said the Doctor ; and before David could answer for himself, his defence was undertaken by Isabel. ' Indeed, I think it is very unfair, Dr. Berkeley. It is not our fault that we have lately seen so little of Jasper, for when we are STILL WATERS. 39 out walking I have seen him cross over the street to avoid us. And as for making merry with his misfortunes ; you said yourself that it was very good fortune for Jasper to get into Mr. Dunn's office. I do really believe that you think it a finer thing to be an attorney's clerk than a soldier/ ' I should be more likely to distinguish myself in the peaceful profession/ replied the Doctor ; ' but I am afraid that young Clinton is not of my mind. He is very unhappy, is he not, Miss Lennox ? When they had their first interview the other day, Mr. Dunn was dis- appointed by his dry, dispirited manner, — as if he was not going to his work with good heart. 5 I I am sure that he will work steadily/ said Ruth ; f but he is still cast down by his failure the other day/ I I agree with Ruth/ said David. c I always envied Jasper the power of working doggedly, however little he liked the thing in hand. Small praise to him though, for I don't believe he likes anything, except, perhaps, our sage sister here. I did imagine that he had a sneaking kindness for me, but that is quite over. Only yesterday I wasted five minutes 40 STILL WATERS. of the beautiful morning in trying to persuade him to come and skate on the Broadmeadows pool ; but there he sat, looking blue over the fire, aud would not stir. And he skates splendidly, and would quite have cut out the Dyne Court party/ ' Oh, David, do you think so V exclaimed Isabel. f I never saw anything so neat as the figures cut by that boy — or young man, I suppose he was — in the heather-coloured cap/ 1 Ah V said David ; ( he is a Sandhurst fellow/ ' A nephew of Sir John's/ added Ruth ; 1 so Clara Gascoigne told me. She was very proud of her tall cousin/ 1 So the little heiress was there too/ said the Doctor. ' Yes, sitting in the barouche, all wrapped in velvet and fur, and looking so delicate and pretty/ ' Rather too delicate for beauty/ remarked David ; ' she looks like a wax doll, which might melt or come to pieces, if it were roughly handled/ Dyne Court was the great place of the neighbourhood, and the inhabitants of Holm- dale took an untiring interest in the sayings STILL WATEES. 4 1 and doings of its owners. Even the Doctor, who was not addicted to gossip, was very willing to hear all which might be told of the only daughter and heiress of Sir John Gas- coigne ; but the discussion was brought to a close by their arrival at the door of the Ked House. On Christmas night Dr. Berkeley was claimed by the younger members of the party as their exclusive property, and since Mrs. Lennox had been more than usually unwell, and was unable to bear the distraction of many voices, they repaired to the little back room, usually designated as the study, soon after dinner, leaving her only with Mrs. Clinton. Dr. Berkeley was installed in the leather arm- chair which served as a centre for the group gathered round the fire, and the restraint imposed by Mrs. Clinton's presence, even more than by the fear of fatiguing Mrs. Lennox, speedily vanished. Even Jasper looked con- tented and almost happy, though his brow was again clouded by the first question addressed to him by Dr. Berkeley. ' Well, Clinton, so you have had an inter- view with your new master V { Yes, sir/ Jasper, unlike David, did not 42 STILL WATERS. think fit to drop the school appellation in private life. ' He sent for me yesterday/ t And how did yon like him V ( I have often seen him before, sir/ said Jasper; and David laughed at the evasive reply. ' And familiarity breeds contempt — that is what Clinton means to imply/ ' No, David, not at all/ said Jasper, quickly. ' David and Miss Isabel/ observed Dr. Berkeley, f think fit to despise all those who do not appreciate their wit and liveliness, for there are no other grounds to look down on Dunn. He is an excellent man of business; and since it is evident that none of his scape- grace sons inherit his habits of application, it is a good opening for Clinton/ ' I had not discovered the boundless range of the Doctor's ambition/ said David. ' Do you take, Jasper? He intends you to succeed to the business, and become agent and legal adviser to the heiress of Dyne Court. There is promotion for you V ' I shall be a rich man before you have succeeded in buying your company/ said Jasper, forcing a laugh. As he spoke, a note was brought in, directed to Miss Lennox, in fair, though still childish characters. STILL WATERS. 43 ' From the little heiress herself/ said Ruth, as she broke the seal. ' It is the Gascoigne crest/ ' Well, Miss Lennox, what does she say V said Dr. Berkeley ; and David bade his sister read the note aloud, to satisfy the Doctor's curiosity. ' It is only an invitation/ said Ruth, ' and for your last day, David. We cannot possibly go/ ' Let us hear what she says/ repeated David j and his sister complied with the request. 1 My dear Miss Lennox, — Will you and your brother and sister come to our Christmas party on New Year's night ? We are to have a dance and fireworks, and, as the nights are so dark, papa thinks that you had better stay and sleep, and he will send the carriage for you. He wishes me to add, that it will give us great pleasure to see one or two of your brother's friends also. ' Give my love to Isabel, and believe me ever f Your affectionate friend, 1 Clara/ ' Gentlemen are evidently at a premium/ said David ; i but they must be able to dance. 44 STILL WATERS. though Miss Gascoigne is too polite to say so. Do you think that you can get through a quadrille without bringing me to disgrace, Clinton V f Not 1/ said Jasper. ' We could easily teach you the figure/ observed Ruth ; ' but you would not enjoy the evening at Dyne Court without us. We were at the Christmas party last year, and there was not another person from Holrudale, only the county people, and a large party in the house/ 1 1 am sure that we did not miss much in the Holmdale people/ said Isabel; 'it was a great comfort to have no one to speak to, and I liked to watch the fireworks, without being teased by people coming up to say how beau- tiful they were. And then Clara was so bright and pleasant/ ' Ah, Miss Isabel/ said David, ' when will you take a leaf out of her book, and learn to say pretty things? I don't believe that Ruth will write half as neat a note in answer, and she is a year older than the little heiress/ ' I shall go and ask mamma what I am to say/ Ruth answered, as she twisted the per- fumed envelope of the note in question round STILL WATERS. 45 her finger ; ' and I may tell her that we none of us want to go/ ' That you do not want to go/ said the Doctor. ' If the little lady on my right were allowed to speak the thoughts which look wistfully through her eyes, we might hear another story/ f I thought/ said Ruth, ' that of course Isabel would like to be at home on David's last night/ ' So I should, for myself/ said Isabel, the passionate tears starting to her eyes, in her eagerness to disclaim such a want of sisterly affection as a contrary inclination might im- ply. ( So I should for myself, you know, Ruth ; but I was thinking that it might be a good thing for David to see something of that Sandhurst cousin/ f That is not a bad idea/ said David. ' He is a nice-looking fellow, and it would be worth while to learn the ways of the place/ ( I will consult mamma/ said Ruth ; ' and I can stay with her, if you and Isabel go. And what would you like to do, Jasper V ' Oh, he will like to go, of course/ said Isabel, as Jasper paused dubiously for a reply ; 1 there will be no moon for our drive to Dyne 46 STILL WATERS. Court, and I must wear white kid gloves j and that is a conjunction too favourable for star- gazing in conformity with his ideas to be thrown away/ While Dr. Berkeley demanded an explana- tion of the gibe, Ruth left the room to lay the matter before her mother. The interruption was not unwelcome to the two ladies, for the memory of their youthful intimacy only re- mained to impart additional constraint to their intercourse. Mrs. Lennox agreed with Isabel and David in their sense of the expediency of making acquaintance with the ( Sandhurst cousin/ and she relinquished the enjoyment of her boy's last evening as readily as if it in- volved no sacrifice. f It will break the parting to Isabel/ she said. Ruth's disinclination to leave her alone was also overruled, so that a note, very differently worded from the original design, was presently on its way to Dyne Court, accepting the invitation for themselves and Jasper Clinton. David declined to avail himself of the permission to bring any other of his schoolfellows. The Lennoxes were the sole exception to the rule which excluded the Holmdale gen- tility from the more aristocratic circle of Dyne STILL WATERS. 47 Court. Sir John Gascoigne drew a marked distinction between them and the other towns- people, and he was not unwilling to foster the acquaintance with his daughter, who had few opportunities of associating with those of her own age. However, their intercourse had not been frequent, and the invitation was an event of sufficient importance to occupy a good deal of thought and rather absorbing speculation, which served to ward off the less pleasing prospect of David's departure. It was neces- sary to initiate Jasper into the mysteries of a quadrille ; and, though professing a surly in- difference to the whole affair, he came with great regularity for instruction, and passively submitted to Isabel's ridicule of his awkward gestures. 'Now do look at me, Jasper/ Ruth said, with unwearied patience, one evening when Isabel attempted to distract his attention by introducing an entirely irrelevant pirouette into the figure. ' You must not attend to Isabel.' ( It is of no use/ said Isabel, flitting past him ; ' you will never learn the Chaine des Dames j from the Trenise, if it does not come by nature. Admire David, who knows the graces 48 STILL WATERS. by intuition — he positively dances like a Frenchman V ' Yon foolish child V said David, bringing his glissade to an abrupt conclusion. f I will not dance at all, if you make such absurd remarks, and then you must go partnerless, for no one else will ask you/ ' I shall forage for myself/ said Isabel. ' I mean to make Clara Gascoigne introduce me to the Sandhurst cousin, and I shall ask him to look after you, and see that you write at least once a week/ e If you do' — said David, but before he had determined by what terrific threat to enforce discretion, Ruth reminded him that mamma only waited until they had done talking to play another quadrille for them. STILL WATERS. 49 CHAPTER V. Why with such earnest pains dost thou provoke The years to bring the inevitable yoke, Thus blindly with thy blessedness at strife ? Full soon thy soul shall have her earthly freight, And custom He upon thee with a weight Heavy as frost, and deep almost as life ! WoEDSWOBTH. ^PHE Gascoigne carriage was sent to Holm- -*- dale for the young Lennoxes and Jasper in such good tinie, that they arrived before any of the other guests, and neither Sir John nor such of the party as were staying in the house had made thfcir appearance. They were ushered into an empty drawing-room, but Clara soon appeared to welcome them from the long gal- lery opening out of it. ( Oh, Miss Lennox ! I am so glad you have come first. I made papa send the carriage early on purpose. I must introduce my cousin to you. Evelyn V A tall stripling, with quick dark eyes, and regular features, answered to the summons. ' Here, Evelyn, this is Miss Lennox, Miss Isabel Lennox and Mr. David VOL. I. E 50 STILL WATERS. Lennox, and Mr. Clinton, I suppose/ she added, in an aside to Ruth, who had not per- formed the duty of introducing Jasper with equal distinctness. ' ^Yill you not come near the fire ? You must have had a cold drive/ said young Gas- coigne, following his cousin's lead in endeavour- ing to make himself agreeable to Isabel, and she exerted herself to reply, though her voice was low and timid. In her simple muslin frock and sash, her chestnut curls falling on her neck in heavy clusters, Isabel looked like the child she was, but a very pretty child withal, while Clara Gascoigne, although scarcely attaining her height, and still more slightly made, already wore the dress and air of a woman. She was rather over-dressed, in a flounced pink silk, set off by a profusion of ornaments, and her fair glossy hair elaborately braided ; yet the ani- mation which brightened the delicate beauty of feature and complexion, and the grace of all her actions, made it appear as if all she wore became her. Ruth appeared to less advantage in her even- ing dress than in the dark merino in which she was much more at home. At an age when STILL WATERS. 5 1 the roundness of childhood is lost, and the more perfect symmetry of woman not fully gained, she was, if not positively ungraceful, at least wanting iu that perfect grace which was the single point of resemblance between Isabel and Clara. And even in this the contrast was marked, since Isabel's beauty was most appa- rent in the attitude of stillness and repose, when, as now, she stood leaning against her sister's chair, her clasped hands flung down, her dark eyelashes shading, for the most part, her glowing cheeks, yet now and then uplifted to disclose the light of those marvellous eyes. And in repose Clara was never seen • for, even when her small fairy-like figure was not darting from place to place, her hands were ever in motion, helping out her words with the ani- mated gestures of a Frenchwoman. Ruth had come unwillingly to Dyne Court ; she did not like leaving her mother; she was shy and discomposed at being thrown unpro- tected among strangers, and involuntary admi- ration of Clara was allied with disapprobation of a manner by no means in accordance with her rigid views of propriety. For if there is any disposition to be a severe censor, it is never more strongly developed than at sixteen. But e 2 LIBRARY UNIVERSITY OF ILLINGi 52 STILL WATERS. it was amusing to see how all foregone con- clusions melted before Clara's influence; she hung about Ruth with caressing fondness, first addressing her as Miss Lennox, and then asking whether she might call her Ruth, and when Ruth said, ' Why not ?' she looked up with a saucy smile, — ' You are so wise and good that I am almost afraid; for I know that you think me quite wicked/ 1 How can you say so V said Ruth, sincerely disclaiming the imputation, and thinking her only winning and attractive. f I am glad that you don't quite give me up, for perhaps you may make me wise too, if you try. Come now/ she added, springing up, 'I must show you the gallery. I have been work- ing hard all day to deck it with evergreens, and that naughty boy would go out shooting instead of staying to help me.' She pointed to Evelyn, who replied in his defence, that he had helped her all the morn- ing ; and he appealed to Isabel whether he had not earned the right to amuse himself after luncheon, but she was too demure to express an opinion. He then suggested that she should follow her sister to the gallery ; and the STILL WATERS. j^ whole party availed themselves of the proposal to adjourn there. The clusters of glistening holly, rich with scarlet berries, had a very good effect j but Clara accused Ruth of being guarded in her admiration, and instantly demanded the reason. 1 1 do admire it very much/ said Ruth ; f I am only sorry that it was not put up for Christ- mas, instead of for the ball. Now you have no right to call it Christmasing.' c That is so like one of Ruth's refinements/ said David, laughing, while Clara clasped her hands in mock despair. f Ah me ! I unwittingly imagined that my day had been usefully, at least harmlessly em- ployed, and now I find that all these branches of holly are wicked and hypocritical, and very demoralising.' ' And 1/ added Evelyn, ' must congratulate myself on the good instinct which did not allow me to misuse more than half the day, and led me to spend the other half in pheasant shooting.' Ruth was ever more ready to hear her words misconstrued than to take part in an argument ; and though Isabel was less passive, she did not feel inclined to cope with the tall young man, 54 STILL WATERS. who looked clever and satirical. Jasper, how- ever, who had not spoken since he entered the room, said with some spirit : — c It is not fair, first to extract an opinion from Ruth, and then to distort her words/ Clara looked up to the speaker, and ascer- taining that he was as old and at least as tall as her cousin Evelyn, she considered him not unworthy of attention. ( I am glad/ she said, with a bright smile, ' that you have the grace to stand up for Ruth, for it was very unchivalrous of the other two gentlemen to take part against her. And I like excessively to hear her wise sayings, so long as I am not expected to understand them/ ' You did not put up all those great branches yourself/ said Ruth. f Not with my own hands. I was only the master mind ; and after Evelyn's base deser- tion, I was forced to be content with hired services. Smith was so tiresome, always telling me that the branches would interfere with the lighting, and that the house would burn like tinder; and now you see that he has left two of the candles in that bracket unlighted ; but I shall go and ask papa whether there is any danger/ STILL WATERS. 5$ Sir John Gascoigne had just made his ap- pearance at the opposite end of the gallery, and his little daughter danced down to meet him, and presently returned to report the success of the appeal. ( Papa says I may light those candles if I don't mind the risk of burning the house down, and I don't mind at all \ for it would be rather amusing to build a new one. But I cannot do it myself, and I am afraid to ring for Smith, so will you help me ? Not you, Evelyn; you are not tall enough to be of any use— but Mr. Clinton/ Evelyn stepped back, looking as if he did not relish the imputation on his height, while Jasper Avas duly gratified by the distinction awarded to him, and executed Clara's behests with alacrity. It was, perhaps, as well that he was too busily engaged to hear what passed between Ruth and Sir John. ' So that is young Clinton/ he said. ' Dunn tells me that he has taken him into his office on Dr. Berkeley's recommendation. The poor young man's unhappy position entitles him to compassion; and I shall be glad to afford him every encouragement in my power.' Ruth was not, perhaps, sufficiently grateful $6 STILL WATERS. for Sir John's offered patronage, and it was Isabel's turn to be next affronted. He took her by the hand, asked if that was Ruth's little sister, and added — 'Ah, qu'elle estjolie!' ' I could have beaten him !' Isabel presently declared in an indignant aside to David. Sir John w T as a large man, still energetic in field sports, though indolent in most other things ; he was good tempered and rather pompous, proud of his place and family, and passionately fond of his little daughter. He now called Ruth's attention to Clara's graceful attitude, as she stood poised on the lowest rung of the steps which Jasper had mounted to effect the desired alterations; and Ruth, whose eye could take in the whole group, noted the eager solicitude with which he bent down to receive her commands. The party now began to assemble, for the sound of other arrivals summoned those guests who were staying in the house from their re- spective rooms. ( They are all aunts and cousins,' Clara in- formed Ruth j ' and there is not one of them I care about except Evelyn.' Evelyn was, STILL WATERS, 57 however, still in disgrace. Sir John had ruled that she was to open the ball with Lord Raebum, a shy, ungainly youth, who did not appear to be sensible of the honour. Evelyn had engaged Isabel for the first dance, and he wished his cousin to promise him the second, but she was not disposed to favour the request. 1 1 have not quite forgiven you yet/ she said ; 1 and I am not sure that I shall dance with you at all, — certainly not so early in the evening/ ' Will you dance with me, [Miss Gascoigne V said David, colouring, as Clara's eyes strayed towards him and Jasper, who stood together. ' I shall be very happy/ she answered, lightly, before she flitted away, leaving Jasper rather provoked that he had wanted courage to make the same request. f Though, perhaps, it was as well let alone/ he observed to Ruth, c as I dance so badly/ ' As well as your neighbours, I suspect/ said Ruth ; ' and I think she meant you to ask her/ 1 Do you V said Jasper, brightening j c then I shall try to find courage in the course of the evening, though it will be worse than Beauty 58 STILL WATERS. and the Beast. After which remark, I am afraid it is no great compliment to ask you to be my partner now/ c I shall like it very much/ said Ruth, simply ; and they went to join the set which was just forming. When the music, mingling with the hum of voices, assured Isabel that her remarks could only be heard by the person to whom they were addressed, she ceased to be so much afraid of her tall partner. Although it was alarming to be treated with as much deference as if she were a young lady, it was not at all disagreeable, especially as Sir John had just assumed that she was such a child as not to mind, or not to understand a compliment in French. Evelyn asked what was her favourite book, and the comprehensive answer of ' Shak- speare' led to a pleasant discussion of various plays. He was not so well read in them as herself, but he had seen many of them acted : and when he found that Isabel had never been to a theatre, he gave a vivid description of its delights. As she became more at ease, she ventured to speak of David ; and, though Eve- lyn did not at first know who f David' was, he seemed to be sensible of his good fortune in STILL WATERS. 59 the acquisition of such a schoolfellow, when Isabel pointed him out. ' He is so lithe and active, that he must be good at all games, — just the sort of fellow to get on at school/ c Yes, that he is, — and then he is so clever/ said Isabel; but she stopped short, remem- bering David's warning against any indiscreet confidence respecting him, and presently adding, with some trepidation : c Would you mind telling him about Sandhurst ? for then it will not be all strange to him/ ' I will have a talk with him as soon as the quadrille is over/ said Evelyn, readily ; ' and then he can claim acquaintance at our bar- racks. Although I cannot be of much use to him there, for I am near the top of the tree, and expect my commission in six months/ ' I hope/ said Isabel, ' that by the time David is an officer there may be some glorious war, and then he may be chosen to lead a for- lorn hope/ 1 That is a Spartan wish/ said Evelyn, laugh- ing, ' and it would be echoed by few of the men who go into the army in these days of peace. They choose the profession in order to lead an idle, pleasant life, living in good society, and 60 STILL WATERS. seeing a little of the world at the expense of the nation/ ' If that were all/ sa id Isabel, with kindling eyes, ' David would never be a soldier. He only seeks honour and glory/ ' Well/ said Evelyn, lightly, ' he must start as a reformer, and infuse a fresh spirit into the army/ Isabel was not quite satisfied, but the qua- drille came to an end, Ruth joined her, and young Gascoigne went to fulfil his promise of having a talk with David. David pronounced him ' a very nice fellow' when he returned to ask his sisters if they could give him any tidings of his partner, now that the waltz was begun. Clara was descried by Ruth, and she and David were soon whirling round. So were Evelyn and Isabel : Jasper could not waltz, and Ruth had not the option of refusing, for no one asked her. She sat rather disconsolately turn- ing over a book of prints in the background, while Jasper remained in the outer ring, impa- tiently waiting for the conclusion of the waltz, since he had summoned courage to claim Clara's hand for the next quadrille. To a request, not very gracefully made, Clara very graciously acceded, perhaps because STILL WATERS. 6 1 she was gratified by the homage which it evidently cost an effort to pay; perhaps, also, because she was in haste to anticipate Lord Raeburn's movements, who was being reluc- tantly brought up by his mother on the same errand. Jasper came with great satisfaction to inform Ruth of his success. ' I wish/ he said, ' that you would arrange to be in the same set as ours, for then you can set me right if I make a mistake/ f If I am in any set at all, I will try to be in yours/ answered Ptuth. But, as she had anticipated, she remained unsought in her re- treat, while Isabel was carried off in triumph by one of three school-boys, who were despe- rately smitten with her beauty. The two un- successful rivals sulkily declined to dance at all, and remained sparring in Ruth's neighbour- hood, until she thought it advisable to change her position. Securing a seat which com- manded a view of the dancers, she was suffi- ciently well amused. Clara danced beautifully ; Jasper acquitted himself with great credit, and both were talking gaily, the habitual melan- choly of Jasper's expression quite lost in the animation of the moment. Ruth was pleased with his pleasure, yet her pleasure was marred 6% STILL WATERS. by a scarcely acknowledged pang of jealousy, or wounded feeling, that the smiles which she had latterly found it so hard to win should be freely lavished on another. ' Oh, Ruth !' said Isabel, coming up to her sister at the conclusion of the dance, her cheeks still flushed with excitement, ' there is to be no more dancing before supper, as we are to get cool in time for the fireworks. And do you know I am almost sorry/ ' That saving clause of ' almost' is put in for consistency's sake/ said Ruth ; ' you were afraid that the stupid dancing would take up the whole evening/ c But I never thought that I should have such pleasant partners. I like Clara's cousin very much, and Gerald Courtown is rather a nice boy, though I can't think why he asked me to dance, for he does not know the figure in the least.' If Gerald did not know his way through a quadrille, he was quite competent to guide his partner to the supper-room, and he came to carry her off, leaving Ruth still sitting on the fast-emptying benches. Jasper brushed by her without observing that she looked forlorn; but a word from Clara, who also saw her in pass- STILL WATERS. 63 ing, sent Evelyn Gascoigne to her side, and they went in together. Ruth, who had not before exchanged words with him, was less sensible of his attractions than Isabel had been. His manner was slightly supercilious, and an undefined impression that he adapted his con- versation to what he conceived to be her tastes and opinions, awakened the instinct of opposition. Yet he was certainly agreeable, expressing himself with a terseness and preci- sion very unusual at his age; and when he declared that Isabel and his cousin Clara were the rival beauties of the evening, Ruth's sisterly affection was gratified, even while she felt in- clined to be offended. Isabel cast rather wistful glances towards Ruth, envying her position, since she was in the centre of a riotous group of school-boys, scuffling behind her chair for champagne and cold chicken, and her partner's energetic at- tempts to enforce order only increased the clamour. Jasper imagined that every one must envy him, for he was still by Clara's side, and she talked alternately to him and David Lennox, who sat opposite, wholly neglecting her other neighbour, Lord Raeburn. She was only confirmed in this caprice by an admoni- 64 STILL WATEES. tion from Evelyn's mother, Mrs. Gascoigne, that it was ill-bred to distinguish the Lennoxes and their friend with such exclusive preference, when there were so many of the county people present. STILL WATERS. 65 CHAPTER VI. Alas ! I have nor hope nor health, Xor peace within, nor calm around, Nor that content, surpassing wealth, The sage in meditation found, And walk'd with inward glory crown'd ; Xor fame, nor power, nor love, nor leisure. Others I see whom these surround — Smiling they live, and call life pleasure : To me that cup has been dealt in another measure. Shelley. A RUMOUR that the exhibition of fireworks -^*- was about to begin caused a general rush from the supper-room, and Isabel was at liberty to rejoin her sister, which she did with an eagerness which provoked Evelyn's observa- tion. '1 saw/ he said, 'that you were not quite happy in your mind, and at one moment I nearly came to the rescue/ ( The boys were rather rude/ said Isabel. 1 As boys are apt to he. 3 ' Not all boys/ said Isabel, confidently. David was, of course, the ruling exception, and vol. 1. F 66 STILL WATERS. now she thought that Evelyn might fairly be considered as another, though he was far from having intended to include himself in a class to which he assumed no longer to belong. He remained to cloak and shawl such of the ladies as were disposed to go into the colonnade, while the boys, and others also who had ex- changed their round jackets and falling collars for elaborate ties and evening coats, were already thronging round the knot of dusky figures which was the centre of attraction. Even Jasper had been carried away by the stream, but he returned before Clara had time to be very grievously offended by his defection, to say that he had found a sheltered angle in the colonnade, where Miss Gascoigne would have a much better view than from the draw- ing-room windows, if she were not afraid of the cold. Miss Gascoigne was not at all afraid, and Isabel had already given her voice in favour of the colonnade. ' It would be quite horrid/ she said, ' to go back to a candle-light room/ The other young ladies, or at least their prudent mammas, were of a different opinion, and Clara, Ruth, and Isabel were presently ensconced in the place STILL WATERS. 6 J selected by Jasper, only accompanied by him- self and Evelyn. Of David they saw no more, though Isabel occasionally caught the clear, joyous tones of his voice, rising above the rest, in persuasive, but fruitless eloquence. Old Jeremy, the gamekeeper, was inexorable in his determination to allow none of the young gen- tlemen to meddle with his stores, blackening their fingers with gunpowder, spoiling the effect of his Catherine-wheels, or possibly maiming themselves for life. Few things of men's invention are prettier than good fireworks, and Isabel held her breath in silent admiration, and was rather annoyed by Clara's incessant flow of words. After exhausting all the superlatives which the English language could supply, she had re- course to French, and the exclamations of { superbe ! magnifique P were varied by inter- jections of terror if a rocket chanced to shed its shower of sparks in her neighbourhood. ' We had better go in, if you are afraid/ said Ruth, gravely, for she was always intole- rant of anything approaching to affectation. ' My dear Ruth V exclaimed Clara, c you are too severe ! You do not understand that I like being frightened. It is a pleasant sensation, F 2, 68 STILL WATERS. like walking on the edge of a precipice,, or being in a storm at sea.' ' I cannot imagine that any one would be more unhappy in either situation/ said Evelyn. 'You are determined to say disagreeable things/ said Clara, turning away with a pretty air of displeasure ; ' you, and Ruth, and Isabel too, by her eloquent silence. I shall not speak to any of you. Mr. Clinton, do you think me silly V 1 Not at all/ said Jasper ; and the answer was so far sincere, that he thought such graceful folly more engaging than wisdom. ' There again V exclaimed Clara, as another rocket burst in what she conceived to be dan- gerous vicinity. ' I know we shall all be burnt/ 1 You need not be afraid/ said Jasper ; ' I will keep on the windy side, so as to shelter you from all sparks/ It did not escape Ruth's notice that the protection which Jasper afforded to Clara, without thinking it necessary to extend it to herself and Isabel, was rendered compara- tively superfluous, from the fact of her wearing a silk dress, and being, moreover, fully en- veloped in a cloth cloak. But she felt that the STILL WATERS. 69 throb of pain which attended this discovery was unworthy, and she was only annoyed that Evelyn Gascoigne should make the same remark. 1 My cousin/ he said, sarcastically, c must be infinitely indebted to your gallantry, and I can do no less than imitate it on behalf of the Miss Lennoxes, who run much greater risk in their muslin dresses/ ( I cannot imagine/ said Isabel, f why you should talk about such an absurd thing as danger when you ought all to be looking at the fireworks. I don't at all want you to come between me and the sparks, thank you, for I cannot see so well/ The exhibition ended all too soon for Isabel's wishes, though others thought that the warm light which streamed invitingly through the long range of gallery windows might be more agreeable than the chill air of a winter's night. It was necessary, however, to collect the boys before dancing could recommence, and Clara sent Jasper to summon them, promising to await his return. Ruth also lingered with Isabel, who enticed her to walk to the farther end of the colonnade, in hopes of thereby obtaining a view of Orion, which was now 70 STILL WATERS. hidden from their sight by a projecting block of chimneys. Jasper faithfully delivered his message, which did not obtain the least attention ; and he had almost rejoined Clara in the dark corner where he parted from her, when his progress was arrested by the words, spoken in no measured tone, by Evelyn Gascoigne : — f You must wait for Mr. Clinton ? I sup- pose you know who this young Clinton is, of whom you make such a hero — a clerk in Dunn's office, and son of the man who was transported for forgery/ f And what then V said Clara, with a slight, scornful laugh. What then, indeed ? Jasper's heart beat wildly ; but his first impulse, to spring forward and deny the charge, died away in the con- sciousness, that only in the truth of these words their bitterness consisted. He ground his teeth, and clenched his quivering hands, and turned away, to fly he knew not whither, for he could not fly from himself, nor from that withering sense of despair and hopeless dishonour — most terrible to the young, since then the pulses are full of life, and passion has not learnt to yield her sway to reason. STILL WATEKS. J I Dark as it was, and hasty and uncertain as was his tread, Ruth recognised his figure when he was passing the lower end of the colonnade ; and she stepped off the pavement to the gravel walk to meet him. 'Where are you going, Jasper? — the boys are all at the other end, under the gallery/ Jasper impatiently shook off her hand. ' I was not looking for the boys. I do not want them, or any one/ At this moment the clear tones of Clara's voice rang through the frosty air ; ' Ruth, Isabel, will you not come in ? It is too cold to wait any longer for Mr. Clinton/ Ruth bade Isabel go, promising to follow soon, and then she said, timidly, — ' I cannot bear to leave you so, Jasper. Will you not tell me what is the matter, and if I can do anything to help you V ( Have I asked for help V said Jasper, fiercely ; but as soon as the bitter words had passed his lips he was ashamed of his impatience with one who was uniformly gentle and forbearing, and he resumed, in broken accents, ' It is best not to trouble yourself about me, Ruth ; it can do me no good, and you only harm. I am a fool ; and that is all. To-night, for one happy hour, 72 STILL WATEES. I fancied that I might be as others, free and careless, and then the fact of my degradation, my blasted name, was forced upon me, and it drove me almost wild/ 1 But who/ said Ruth, ' would have spoken such cruel words V ( They were spoken of me, to Miss Gascoigne/ said Jasper, and Ruth knew how much this last circumstance must have aggravated their bitterness. She could give sympathy, even if more definite means of consolation were want- ing, saying, with tremulous earnestness, — ' It must seem hard, for there is no pain so dreadful as that of shame/ ' And how should you know, Ruth, who have never tasted its bitterness ?' e I must know, in a measure/ said Ruth, ' because the shame which follows is the great misery of all sin. But there is this difference, that when we do wrong we bring the punish- ment on ourselves, but this is sent/ ' And does that make it more easy to bear V ' It ought to do so/ said Ruth, steadfastly, ' since we have the promise that no trouble is greater than we are able to endure/ There was silence for a few moments, broken by the sound of music, and Jasper looked up, STILL WATEBS. J$ and could see the gay figures flit past the windows. ' You had Letter go in, and join them/ he said. ' Not without you, Jasper/ f I don't intend to go in at all : I almost think I shall walk home/ he answered ; but he was not proof against Faith's entreaties, and they presently entered the gallery together. They went down the country dance with a gravity and decorum which must have been quite edifying to the Gascoigne ancestry, who looked down from the walls in starched severity, since gravity and decorum were not the order of the day. Clara, who was dancing with her cousin, was full of wild gaiety; nor could shyness lay any restraint on Isabel's 'spirits while David was her partner, and very merry they were. It did not escape Clara's observation that something was amiss with Jasper, especially since he continued to shun her after the con- clusion of the dance, and as soon as she was at liberty she came up to Ruth. ' Can you tell me what is the matter with Mr. Clinton ? I have a horrible suspicion that an illiberal sentiment of Evelyn's reached his ears when we were standing in the colonnade. 74 STILL WATERS. There ! I see by your face that I have guessed right ; and now what is to be done ? Shall I go and tell him that I am not responsible for what Evelyn says? and that I don't care whether he is a double-dyed attorney or the son of twenty forgers ? or do you think it would hurt his feelings ?' ' I am afraid it would/ said Ruth, smiling, yet half-vexed; 'but he might be pleased to hear the same thing from me/ ' Then tell him by all means ; say, that I shall be miserable until I know that he has forgiven me ; I should like to dance with him again, only there is no use making any more engagements, since I am engaged three deep, and the people are beginning to go already. Yes, papa, I am coming/ * And she flitted away, in obedience to Sir John's summons to come and take leave of some of the people in question. Jasper lost no time in rejoining Ruth. 1 1 am sure/ he said, ' from Miss Gascoigne's manner, that she was speaking of me.' . . ' Yes ; she fancied that you might have heard what her cousin said, and she was anxious to explain that she did not agree with him, or think that that should make any difference in your position here/ STILL WATERS. 75 ' Did she really say so V exclaimed Jasper, brightening. 1 Yes, really, Jasper. And I believe that you will find the same thing said by others whose opinion is of more importance than Clara's.' ' There is no one whose good opinion I should care so much to win. Do you not admire her beauty, Ruth ? And there is a spring and joy- ousness about her, as if sorrow could not touch her/ e I do not know if that is any privilege/ said Ruth, thoughtfully, c and not rather a peril. Unlike Isabel, who, with all her spirits, has that strong, passionate nature which cannot go through life without suffering, and that is a great safeguard/ ' But she is not spoiled/ said Jasper ; ' and there is something very fascinating in that care- less, light-hearted gaiety, all the more so to me because I have never tasted it/ ' If people are not light-hearted out of levity/ said Ruth. ' And that/ replied Jasper, warmly, ' I am sure Miss Gascoigne is not. You must allow that it showed real consideration to be so anxious to heal the wound which she had not j6 STILL WATERS. made. But I think that you are inclined to judge her harshly/ ' I did not intend to do so/ said Ruth, her heart swelling, because she was conscious of not being wholly guiltless of the charge, since the more Jasper insisted on her praises, the less freely her response would come. ' Only think/ continued Jasper, ' of the gifts showered upon her, — her beauty, her talents, and her position in the world, and see how her father idolizes her. And yet she is absolutely without pride/ ' What I think of most/ Ruth answered, ' is the loss which outweighs all these blessings, in her never having known her mother. It is enough to account for the little faults which I cannot help seeing. Yet I hope you will not think me harsh, Jasper, for indeed I do like and admire her very much.' Jasper was satisfied with this admission, but Ruth was not. She continued thoughtful and preoccupied; and Evelyn Gascoigne, who from a little distance had noted the grave discussion with some amusement, presently approached to inquire what weighty question in philosophy Clinton had failed to solve. ' We were not talking philosophy/ said Ruth. STILL ^VATERS. 77 ' It was something abstruse, I am sure : people do not generally look so grave in a ball- room/ ' I bad forgotten that we were in anything but a crowd/ said Ruth, naively ; ' and that, every one says, is as good as a desert. There is hardly any one here whom I know by sight/ * What a courageous avowal, Miss Lennox. I felt ashamed of confessing myself to be in the same forlorn plight/ 1 1 don't know why you should be ashamed of anything so obvious/ said Ruth. ' I sup- pose that the neighbourhood is new to you ; and I do not know any one, because these are all county people, and we know scarcely any one out of Holmdale/ Evelyn thought this confession still more courageous than the former, but he had already discovered the element of truthfulness in Ruth's character which repelled a compliment, and he held his peace. The spirited efforts of a few could not pre- vent the ball from dying a natural death, and as Isabel's heavy eyes betrayed how unused she was to late hours, Clara took her and Ruth to their room at once. T >Yhen there, Isabel became suddenly wakeful, and she lingered long 78 STILL WATERS. over the fire, discussing every particular inci- dent, until she arrived at the conclusion, ' that it would have been quite a perfect evening but for remembering every now and again that David is to go to-morrow — and I never wished him good night/ For David, considering that it would compromise his dignity to kiss his sisters before such an august assembly, had taken care to keep out of the way when the young ladies retired. STILL WATERS. 79 CHAPTER VIL I know a maiden fair to see : Take care ! She can both false and friendly be : Beware ! beware ! Trust her not, She is fooling thee ! She gives thee a garland woven fair : Take care ! It is a fool's cap for thee to wear : Beware ! beware ! Trust her not, She is fooling thee ! H. W. LOXGFELLOW. r\AYID went to Sandhurst, and for three -*--' days it seemed that Isabel was in danger of sharing the fate of Henry L, which makes such a deep impression on the minds of all youthful readers of EDglish history, and would never smile again. But on the fourth day she began to amend, and by the end of a week her spirits had nearly attained their usual pitch, which was some degrees higher than that of other people; a happy reaction, to which the necessity of having to resume the school-room 80 STILL WATERS. routine, on the return of her daily governess from a Christmas holiday, probably conduced. Still she firmly believed that nothing but David's letters, and the prospect of the holidays, could have enabled her to support life with such exemplary resignation. Jasper took his allotted place at a desk in Mr. Dunn's office ; and he likewise thought that only strong resolution could have recon- ciled him to the endurance of such irksome drudgery. Yet habit and necessity are also elements of patience, and, although it was little consonant to his tastes to copy papers in com- pany with two other young men, whose greater technical knowledge entitled them to assume superiority to one of far higher intellectual powers, he soon learnt to adapt himself to his position. His work was done with the regu- larity of a machine, and in his intercourse with his fellow clerks there was something also of mechanical courtesy, so that he made himself respected without being much liked, either by them or by Mr. Dunn, while he himself con- cluded that in such a life there was less to suffer if there was also less to enjoy than in his school career. The two who had not professed so near an STILL WATERS. 8 1 interest in these several events were perhaps more powerfully affected by them. Mrs. Lennox missed her boy sorely, and she was not, like Isabel, sustained by a spring of buoyant spirits, so that she found it difficult to shake off the depression and languor of ill-health, from which his presence had never failed to rouse her. She relied on Ruth to spare her all troubles, to share all anxieties, and to cheer her with thoughtful words; and Isabel was a pleasant plaything, but she still lacked the sunshine of David's smile. Ruth, on her part, found that she had lost Jasper almost as completely as David, since they ceased to be school-fellows; such intercourse as they had was by no means so satisfactory, and she felt the change a good deal. It had been a- close and very pleasant friend- ship ; in which, though younger in years, she had taken the lead in giving comfort and counsel, since, as is generally the case, her woman's mind had arrived first at maturity. Ruth was not exacting, Jasper by no means demonstrative; but still she had been happy in the consciousness that she was his first object, how happy she knew not until the charm was broken. He did not frequent the house as for- VOL. I. G 8 3 STILL WATERS. meriy, nor join the sisters in their walk. It was not surprising that he did not care to talk of his work, since there is less to say of law papers and title-deeds than of Sophocles and Horace; but neither did he take any interest in those communings on graver matters in which they had formerly been equally occupied. He had but one theme for his private conferences with Ruth — the praises of Clara Gascoigne. The impression made by Clara's liveliness and beauty on the evening of the Christmas party had not been effaced by his slender opportunities of continuing the acquaintance thus begun; and he was soon absorbed by a boyish passion as intense in its character as any to which those of riper years may be sub- ject. Of course, if a man or boy is so ill advised as to fall in love at eighteen, his friends and relations must resign themselves to a fair proportion of concomitant folly, although Jas- per's habitual reserve saved him from any notorious extravagances. To such as took any interest in his proceeding, — and those com- posing the society of Holmdale were far from remiss in exercising a purely benevolent super- vision of their neighbours' affairs — it seemed very judicious that he should insist so much on STILL WATERS. 83 the practice of starting for a brisk walk as soon as ever he was released from his desk, and only Ruth knew how little variation there was in his route or in how short a time he con- trived to reach the park-gates of Dyne Court by the nearest footpath, to linger there for the chance of seeing the carriage whirl past, even though it might be too dusk to distinguish Clara from her French governess. Or some- times he turned into those parts of the grounds which were open to the public, since from one point he obtained a view of the house, in which range after range of small, old-fashioned win- dows began to show the light of fire or candle; and he pleased himself by fancying which of all these rooms was graced by Clara's presence. Returning from his solitary walk in the foggy twilight, his evenings were given to study, either at home or with the Doctor, who, unwil- ling to relinquish his hold on a favourite pupil, had offered help, of which Jasper gratefully availed himself; and thus his days were fully occupied without any of those spare corners of time which used to be filled up pleasantly enough in the society of David and his sisters. Ruth was only secure of seeing him on those afternoons when the Dyne Court carriage G 2 84 STILL WATERS. had been seen in Holmdale. It was seldom there without setting Clara down at the Red House; and if the carriage was at the door when Jasper left the office, he hovered near for the sake of obtaining a passing nod or smile from Clara as she left the house, and then he hurried in to hear the news from Ruth. From none did he desire his day dreams to be more carefully concealed than from the young lady herself; and it is possible that, if he had been aware that she divined the truth, and was more nattered than offended by such presumption, the knowledge might have gone some way towards dispelling the illusion. Ruth, at least, was only irritated by the air of demure unconsciousness with which Clara ever inquired after c Mr. Clinton/ and seemed sur- prised that she so rarely met him when he called. And Jasper's passion was of a chi- valrous and high-wrought character, nourished by solitude and an anxiety to escape from the humiliations of his daily life, which so fretted his impatient spirit, through bright but visionary dreams. Clara persisted in carrying on one of those odd, one-sided friendships which will some- times thrive and prosper under every dis- STILL WATERS. 85 couragement. To no one was Ruth more unbending, or her disapproval of all which fell short of her high standard of duty more openly expressed, yet still Clara caressed and confided hi her, and asked for advice which she did not follow, and admired principles which she could not grasp. In return for such lavish affection, Ruth sometimes seriously applied to the task of confirming these impulses for good; but she soon desisted from an attempt as hopeless as it might prove to weave a rope of sand. Clara's thoughtless levity seemed to render her simply incapable of earnestness of purpose, and love of admiration was her only abiding principle. Yet her sweetness of temper and playful grace were very attractive; and she seldom parted from Ruth without leaving her remorseful for her harsh judgments, especially when the visit was followed by one of Jas- per's rhapsodies, since these ever left a sore, impatient place at her heart, to warn her how unfitted she was to give an unbiassed opinion. ' Although/ she thought, ' I could have borne to lose Jasper, if Clara had been worthy of him/ And then she smiled to herself, as she wondered what the world would say to 86 STILL WATERS. that view of the disparity between Jasper Clin- ton and the heiress of Dyne Court. It was with a holiday-feeling, which she was ashamed to own, that Ruth heard Clara's lamentations over the annual move to London at the end of January. Clara was incon- solable ; she was certain that she could not live without her dear Ruth; she hated London, and wished that the Queen were despotic, and that there were no such things as parliaments. Ruth defended limited monarchies, and was inclined to regret that her Majesty could dis- pense with the attendance of her faithful Commons for nearly half the year. But, at all events, she was free till August ; and before Clara returned she might have adopted a new friend, and Jasper might have forgotten his first love. As for Jasper, he had some con- solation under his aggravated misfortunes. The six months' separation would not only put his constancy to a sublime test, but add something to their respective ages, which they could very well afford. In the autumn Clara would attain her sixteenth year, and he would not be far from nineteen; and, although he considered that he had made a decisive stride towards manhood in the last few weeks, there were STILL WATERS. 87 moments when he felt uncomfortably young, particularly when he was trying to shave, or to persuade his hair not to sit like a school- boy's. ' How you must miss Miss Gascoigne/ he said, sauntering into the study at the Red House the day after the grand move from Dyne Court had taken place. In no humour for a brisk walk to-day, he was not ill pleased to find Ruth sitting there alone, engaged in preparing work for the school ; and while vigorously tearing strips of calico, it was natural that she should not make a full reply. But Jasper thought that her assent was cold as well as brief. 1 What a horrible noise you are making V he said, discontentedly. ' Is it absolutely neces- sary to carry that on by way of accompani- ment V ( Does it set your teeth on edge V said Ruth, pausing for an instant. ' I know some people hate the sound ; but I really am in a hurry, for I promised to take the work to the school this afternoon, and mamma does not like me to be out after dark alone/ ' What has become of Isabel V 1 She is in the drawing-room with mamma, 88 STILL WATERS. nursing a cold, so that I have no one to keep me company/ ' Yon may have me, if yon like/ said Jasper ; ' I have nothing better to do/ Ruth coloured with pleasure and embarrass- ment, doubtful whether to accept the offer; for she was just old enough to be troubled by proprieties, and a great tribulation they were. ' 1 should like it very much, Jasper, but I am afraid that it would bore you. I may be kept at the school; and then mamma wants me to call on Mrs. Dunn and Miss Perrott, so that there will not be much time for a walk/ ' A round of morning visits ! — that certainly will not suit my ideas. And now you are going to torment my ears by bringing forth a fresh bale of calico. It is really too much/ He made his escape, but put his head in again at the door, to say, 'Will you call and see my mother in the course of your walk ? She said something about wishing it at breakfast this morning/ and he set off, after all, on the old track to Dyne Court. In the absence of the family he might roam through the place without restriction ; and he considered that it might be profitable to feed his melancholy by looking at the deserted house. STILL WATERS. 89 Faith continued her work as diligently, if not with so much spirit as before ; and when it was completed, and tidily packed into a basket, she put on her Sunday bonnet, and set forth with her mother's card-case to fulfil the social duties which Mrs. Lennox was always obliged to perform by deputy. Ruth had purposely chosen an afternoon when Isabel could not accompany her, finding that she only increased the difficulty of getting through her visits with credit. For Isabel was apt to sit in an attitude of despairing resignation, her eyes fixed upon the clock, until the ten minutes had expired, beyond which she stipulated that Ruth must not extend her stay; and then she suddenly recovered her animation in an attempt to convey the fact to her sister by sundry telegraphic signals. 1 1 really cannot help it/ she was apt to say, when rebuked for such transgressions of decorum; ' people are so tiresome — sending for sweet biscuits as if I were a baby, and asking how I get on with French. And every one in Holmdale is so dull and commonplace, not at all like the people we find in books ; nor even pretty and well dressed, like those we met at Dvne Court/ It was in vain to 90 STILL WATERS. bring forward a list of c really nice persons/ headed by the Doctor. Isabel only shook back her curls, after her fashion, when unwil- ling to confess that she had the worst of the argument, and retorted that Ruth must allow that the Doctor was not in the least like Hamlet — no, nor even Saladin in the Talisman. STILL WATERS. 9 1 CHAPTER VIII. You draw me, you hard-hearted adamant : But yet you draw not iron, for my heart Is true as steel. Midsummer Night's Dream. TITRS. DUNN was at home, and Ruth re- -*■«■ placed the card which she had half-drawn from the case, and followed the maid with the sinking of heart which always seized her when ascending any stair but her own. She was a great hypocrite, for she enjoyed the reputation of being a sweet girl, with such a pretty man- ner, — much more formed than was generally the case at her age, — and yet she was in truth sufficiently fastidious, and much afflicted with shyness. Mrs. Dunn was a little fair woman, with a soft voice, and a mind wholly absorbed by the baby for the time being ; generally an uninte- resting specimen, fat and placid, although sure to atone for its want of animation in early life by starting full fledged into mischief when re- leased from the nursery. The schoolboys, 02 STILL WATERS. senior and junior, were the bane of the Doc- tor's existence, and Ruth did not think that the two boys who lay kicking on the door-mat were likely to redeem the character of the family for sense or subordination when the time came for exchanging their gambroon frocks for jackets. Mrs. Dunn and the baby were in peaceable possession of the drawing- room, and it was necessary that this subject should in the first instance be exhausted. The cap was taken off to show the bald head, the frock thrown back to exhibit the small pink feet ; Ruth was desired to observe ( its dear little nails,' and she was permitted as a great favour to handle the little bale of muslin. She acquitted herself very well, until she rashly ventured from the safe generalities of the neuter pronoun into an attempt to define the gender, and asked if she was vaccinated. ' My dear Miss Lennox ! You did not know that it was a boy ! Surely you must remem- ber his christening on the Sunday after Christ- mas, with Dr. Berkeley for one of the god- fathers — poor little George Augustus Frederic' Ruth was relieved when George Augustus Frederic became so discomposed by all the at- tentions he received that it was necessary to STILL WATERS. 93 banish him to the nursery, and Mrs. Dunn was able to give her mind with less distraction to the topics of the day. In Holmdale the move- ments at Dyne Court ever took precedence of other matters, and accordingly the Gascoignes' departure was discussed at some length. Ruth could better endure commiseration for the loss of her friend from Mrs. Dunn than from Jasper, but she was annoyed at having to repel the curiosity which she was too discreet to satisfy. Mrs. Dunn was anxious to ascer- tain on such good authority whether Miss Gas- coigne was not spoiled, and if it was true that Sir John was ( rather high/ ( I think/ said Ruth, colouring, c that Mr. Dunn sees more of Sir John than I do/ 'Yes/ Mrs. Dunn responded; 'but that is only in the office, or on business, which is a different matter ; although I must say that no- thing can be more handsome than Sir John's manner/ She did not care to confess that Mr. Dunn was even more impenetrable than Ruth in his reserve as to all which concerned the affairs of Dyne Court. The mention of the office determined Ruth to hazard an inquiry respecting Jasper; but she did not gain much satisfaction on this point. 94 STILL WATERS. 'Yes,' Mrs. Dunn said, f I believe that Mr. Dunn is pleased with him, at least he has said nothing to the contrary. He brought him in to dinner one day, and he seemed to be a good sort of young man, only grave and silent, and not near so fond of children as Mr. Dunn's other young men, Bryce and Pearce. Poor Jack, all in fun, fastened the skirts of his coat round his chair, so as to make him look foolish when he got up, and he really seemed quite annoyed/ Ruth could easily understand that Jasper did not much enjoy becoming the subject of Dunn junior's practical jokes; and as she was unable to say anything complaisant, she made no reply. e Jack says/ resumed Mrs. Dunn, ' that he was just the same at school, morose and un- sociable ; but perhaps Jack is scarcely a fair judge, for he has such a noble spirit that he cannot forget poor Clinton's unfortunate story. And then he had the reputation of being one of the Doctor's favourites — he and your brother David, which gained him ill-will. And, by the way, do tell me how your brother is getting on.' And Ruth was very glad to do so, instead of angling any longer for the good opinion of Jasper, which she had intended to extract. STILL WATERS. 95 The other visit was to Miss Perrott, an elderly lady in straitened circumstances, who lived in apartments over the bookseller's shop. There the range of conversation was even more limited. Miss Perrott took little interest in her neighbours' affairs ; but she liked to pour her grievances into a sympathising ear — to enlarge on her landlord's delinquencies in re- fusing to cure the smoky chimney or renew the faded chintz, or to indulge in reminiscences of bygone days, when she was young and rich and happy. Ruth was so good a listener as to be ever a welcome visitor, and she made her escape with difficulty, walking down the street with an additional shade of gravity on her thoughtful brow, while she pondered how cheerless life becomes when it is occupied only by present cares or fleeting memories. Possibly the visit which still remained to be paid had as much to do with her gravity as that which was accomplished. It was growing dusk, but Bean- street lay only a few steps out of her way, so that she had no sufficient excuse for delaying to comply with Mrs. Clinton's desire to see her. And Mrs. Clinton evidently considered that the delay had been long enough, greeting her with the remark that she had come at last. <)6 STILL WATERS. ' It was only this afternoon/ Ruth answered, ' that Jasper told me yon wished to see me/ 1 Ah V said Mrs. Clinton, in that prolonged note which expresses dissatisfaction, and she presently explained the canse. ' I don't think yon see so much of Jasper as formerly/ 'Not quite so much. His time is more taken up than it was, and then he used to come about the house with David/ ( True, but more out of friendship for you than David, though he liked him very well in his way. Perhaps, however, you are as well pleased to let the friendship drop, now that he is only an attorney's clerk/ Ruth's heart swelled at the injustice of the imputation, and she answered quickly : — f Jasper, at least, knows us too well to be- lieve that that w T ould make any difference/ ' I am glad of it/ said Mrs. Clinton, smiling a little at her warmth ; c selfishly glad. For, if you were to cast him off, Jasper would be nearly friendless, and I should not be justified in leaving him, as I now propose to do. You have done much for him, Ruth, and may still do more ; he needs sympathy to give him a motive for exertion, and he will sink into in- dolence and hopeless depression if he thinks STILL WATERS. 97 that there is none to note his struggles against an untoward fate. And -will you refuse the charge V For it did not escape her observation that Ruth recoiled a little from the severe earnestness of these words. Ruth's tears never flowed freely, yet her lip quivered, and her voice was low and tremulous as she replied : — ( I have been friends with Jasper since first I knew him, and it is not likely that I should change/ ( You mean that the change is more likely to be on his side. It may be so ; but no passing fancy will interfere with your influence in the day of real trouble and perplexity, and even when he stands aloof, you will have much unconscious power, if only you will be patient and bear with him. He will have something to endure, poor fellow, when my departure is known in the town ; there will be a revival of old stories, and many wise conjectures about the present ; but they will die away and be forgotten, and then he will stand alone, with nothiDg to recall the associations of dishonour, of which he is so keenly sensible, — for I shall return no more/ Ruth wondered that the mother's voice should VOL. I. H 98 STILL WATERS. not falter while she spoke of this final separa- tion from her only child ; bnt she understood how a stronger passion had overruled, the in- stincts of maternal love, so that she even now resented the feelings of humiliation with which Jasper bore his dishonoured name, as an undue deference to the world's opinion, and in some sense an injustice to the memory she so fondly cherished. It was nearly dark when Ruth reached home ; and she sat down as usual on the low seat by her mother's sofa, to impart such amusement as might be gathered in pleasant firelight talk, from the precocity of Mrs. Dunn's baby, and from Miss Perrott's standing grievances, reserving her account of the visit to Bean-street until later in the evening, when Isabel was gone to bed. ' Poor Barbara V said Mrs. Lennox, much interested in the intelligence ; e so she is really going to join her husband, who is not likely to prize her heroic devotion as it deserves. When I saw them together, his admiration of her beauty, which was then very remarkable, seemed to be the only source of his attachment ; and of that these years of suffering have made such havoc that scarcely a trace remains. I doubt whether he has a heart to be touched bv her STILL WATERS. 99 unshaken constancy ; and since the superficial polish of his manner must have long since been worn away by a sense of degradation, and the character of his associates, he will probably reward the sacrifice with indifference/ ' And she does not know that it is a sacri- fice/ said Ruth. ' Jasper told me some time ago that his mother was only waiting to go until she felt justified in leaving him, and that she was eager for that day to come/ ' It is strange/ said Mrs. Lennox, ( but I never understand Barbara. She seems to be more open with you than with any one else, Ruth. Did she send for you for the sake of telling you of her plans V c And to have a talk about Jasper. She hopes that we shall look after him when she is gone/ said Ruth, colouring, so that Mrs. Len- nox could guess to whom the charge had been especially committed. She looked annoyed, and said, after a moment's pause, — ' Mrs. Clinton can hardly leave Jasper to us more completely than she has hitherto done ; but I hope that she does not exaggerate, either to you or herself, the influence which you pos- sess. Indeed, it is not desirable that the same relations which did very well so long as you H % IOO STILL WATERS. were boy and girl together, should continue now that you are growing up/ Ruth understood the implied caution, which she would have resented from any but her mother. As it was, she turned her glowing cheek aside, while she answered in a constrained voice, — 1 1 know ; and we see very little of Jasper now/ ( So I have observed, dear/ said Mrs. Len- nox, tenderly; ' and I dare say you miss the companionship; but it was wise and right of Jasper to draw back, if he found that there was any danger of your old relations acquiring a different meaning. Of course, with his almost exaggerated sense of his unfortunate position, he must be fully aware 3 ' I don't think you quite understand, mamma/ said Ruth, interposing, when Mrs. Lennox paused to collect all the reasons she might im- pute to Jasper for crushing an incipient passion ; ' you don't understand Jasper if you are think- ing that he is at all likely to care for me in that way. I should have thought that he was too young to fall in love at all, but he only talks to me of her, — I must not tell her name, as I think he would not like it/ STILL WATERS. 101 1 Certainly, it would be a betrayal of confi- dence/ said Mrs. Lennox, more relieved than she cared to own by this information, as well as by the frank simplicity with which it was imparted. f I did not think that he was so susceptible ; but he may fall in love, and be as constant as he pleases, though he can scarcely aspire to marry for ten years to come. And so my little Ruth has shared the fate of other sisters, real or adopted, and is forced to abdi- cate in favour of a first love. It is very mor- tifying/ ' Rather/ said Ruth j * except that now, mamma, you will see no harm in my promise that we would do what we could for Jasper/ I Xo ; you could say no less ; and when Barbara is gone, we must try and get him to come about the house as he used to do. You did not tell me when she is to go/ I I believe in about six weeks. They give up the house in Bean-street at Lady-day, and she is to settle Jasper in lodgings before she goes, and sell off the furniture/ ' To pay her passage out to Sydney, I sup- pose/ said Mrs. Lennox. ' I hardly know how they have lived all this time on the pittance awarded to them by Mr. Clinton's creditors/ 103 STILL WATERS. ' She seems to intend to leave all there is to Jasper/ said Ruth. ' She said that she had made some engagement which would give her a free passage, and that she had no doubt of finding means of maintaining herself abroad/ Mrs. Lennox listened, and admired the spirit of stern self-sacrifice with a heart softened to- wards the friend of her early days; but she was again chilled by the cold and passionless manner with which she repelled any allusion to her intentions, when they met a few days afterwards. Yet Ruth thought this reserve less alarming than the comparative openness which Mrs. Clinton had evinced towards her- self; and she shrank from any opportunity for its renewal, even while treasuring her words in her inmost heart with a timid hope that she might fulfil the trust committed to her. STILL WATERS. 103 CHAPTER IX. Cleo. Get thee hence. Farewell. Clown. I wish you all joy 0' the worm. Cleo. Farewell. Clown. You must think this, look you, that the worm will do his kind. Cleo. Ay, ay. Farewell. Clown. Look you, the worm is not to be trusted, but in the keeping of wise people ; for, indeed, there is no good in the worm. Antony and Cleopatra, AS Mrs. Clinton had foreseen, the rumour which spread early in March, that she had given np her house and was about to pro- ceed to Sydney, caused a sensation in Holm- dale. Martha, her sole servant, was, if pos- sible, still more austere than her mistress, so that the fact only transpired when Jasper ap- plied to Mr. Dunn for leave to absent himself from the office for a few days, in order to accompany his mother to Plymouth. Mr. Dunn went home and told his wife, and the news quickly circulated. Many of those who had of late relinquished the attempt to keep J04 STILL WATERS. up any intercourse with Mrs. Clinton, con- sidered it expedient to pay a farewell visit; but the attention was not appreciated, at least by Martha, who opened the door with a defiant air, and returned the invariable answer that her mistress was too much engaged to see visitors. When thus baffled, the more ener- getic in the pursuit of knowledge bent their steps to the Red House, where there was a chance of obtaining further intelligence. Mrs. Dunn was among the number, so unusually excited by curiosity, that she could scarcely reply to any inquiries after the baby. i I suppose, [Mrs. Lennox, that this news about Mrs. Clinton is no news to you?' Mrs. Lennox admitted that she had been informed of her intentions some time ago. 1 Well, I must say that I am glad it was known to any one ; for the mother and son are just alike — so very close. Only imagine young Clinton's having said nothing about it to the other young men 1 / f It is hardly surprising/ said Mrs. Lennox ; c even with us Jasper has been little disposed to speak of what must necessarily be a painful subject/ ' Well/ rejoined Mrs. Dunn, ' it certainly is STILL WATERS. IO^ shocking when one comes to think of it. As I told Mr. Dunn, I hoped that he did not think it my duty to leave the dear children, and go across the world, just for the sake of seeing him working in chains like a galley slave. Indeed, I really could not do it.' ' Happily/ said Mrs. Lennox, repressing with difficulty an inclination to join in Isabel's infectious laugh at this vision of Mr. Dunn working in chains ; ' happily, you are not likely to be placed in such a dilemma.' ' But, mamma,' said Isabel, recovering her gravity, ' do you suppose that Mr. Clinton does really work in chains ?' ' No, my dear ; I believe that precaution is only taken in the case of desperate criminals ; and, after so many years' exile, he is probably under merely nominal restraint.' 1 But do tell me, my dear Mrs. Lennox,' said Mrs. Dunn, becoming confidential, and therefore affectionate, ' do tell me if you think that Mr. Clinton has used any threat to com- pel his poor wife to join him. I am sure that she cannot have resolved to go and live among all those dreadful convicts of her own free will.' Before Mrs, Lennox could reply, Dr. Berke- 106 STILL WATERS. ley came in. He looked guilty when he found that Mrs. Dunn was before him, since he was unwilling to be suspected of an inclination to gossip, veiling the weakness even from himself beneath the convenient name of a benevolent interest in the welfare of mankind in general, and of Holmdale in particular. So he sup- pressed the real object of his visit until Mrs. Dunn took leave, asking after his godson, and discussing the antecedents of the new mathe- matical master until Mrs. Dunn took leave. Then he demanded whether there was . any truth in the report that Mrs. Clinton had given up her house in Bean-street, with an assumption of dignified indifference, which Isabel was so wickedly disposed to rally that she anticipated her mother's reply. 'Are you really going to ask about the Clintons, Dr. Berkeley ? How we have had all professions here to-day, all asking the same question — soldier, sailor, tinker, tailor, gen- tleman, ploughboy, apothecary, thief/ 1 My dear Isabel V said Mrs. Lennox ; but the rebuke might as well have been spoken to the winds. ' Yes, mamma, really ; I don't count Mrs. Dunn, since she came chiefly to ascertain her STILL WATEES. 107 duty if Mr. Dunn is ever so unfortunate as to be hung in chains ; but first came Captain Dennis, the United Service, as David calls him, because he went into the militia when he left off going to sea. Then I heard the man who came to meud the passage window in close confabulation with Sarah about it. Mr. Taylor stopped us as we came home from our walk ; and, for want of a better, he must serve for a gentleman as well as a tailor. TVhen I was helping old Job to prick out the lettuces, he made so bold as to ask if Jaspers mother was going to transport herself; and then Mr. Ball came, so full of the news that he never even asked mamma how she was. So you see that I was only in difficulty for a thief/ ' Well/ said the Doctor, with a grave sim- plicity, which was no less diverting, because it was difficult to determine whether it was as- sumed ; ' since you have made out so good a case, I suppose that I must be the thief/ 1 No ! — will you really ? That is too obliging. I must write and tell David ; and that reminds me to show you his last letter, — such a long one. But no one now cares for anything in the world except Jasper and Mrs. Clinton/ 108 STILL WATERS. 1 Well/ said Mrs. Lennox, c I wonder that you do not care a little for Jasper, considering how long we have known him/ ' So I do care, mamma/ returned Isabel, subdued for an instant; c every time I see Jasper I should like to tell him how sorry I am, only he looks so grave that I do not dare. And you see that, after all, David thinks he may do better without his mother/ ' And what David says is of course con- clusive/ said the Doctor. It was at least equally a thing of course that Isabel should accept the remark as a defiance. 1 Why, I don't know who should be a better judge. But I have changed my mind, and shall not show you David's letter ; you are not worthy of it, since you always carp at what he says.' c What has become of Miss Ruth ?' said the Doctor, without caring to refute the charge ; and Mrs. Lennox observed, with a smile, — 1 There, Isabel, he could say nothing more severe ; he wishes for peace and rational con- versation, and so he thinks of Ruth.' ' I am too mighty for him, that is all/ re- plied Isabel, fearlessly. ( However, I will call Ruth, who is in the study, and tell her that we STILL WATERS. 109 are secure from any more visitors now that we have got down to the thief. She took refuge there because every one appealed to her for in- formation about Mrs. Clinton/ 1 It was rather trying/ said Mrs. Lennox ; ' but now you can go and tell her that there is no one here but the Doctor/ ' I am going/ said Isabel ; ' for I see that you want to get rid of me, and I can keep Ruth out of the way by reminding her that procrastination is the thief of time. For she wants to finish her bag for Mrs. Clinton/ She pounced upon a volume of the Faerie Queene, which had almost supplanted Shak- speare in her affections ; and after lingering for a moment to give and claim a caress from her mother, she sprang away, only rewarding the Doctor for his politeness in rising to open the door for her by an arch defying glance. ' I am afraid that she is but a spoiled mon- key/ said Mrs. Lennox, pleadingly; ' yet she is sometimes sedate enough, and I have not the heart to check such a spring of youth and spirits/ f One can hardly believe that there is only three years between the sisters/ observed Dr. Berkeley. ' I do not recollect that Miss Ruth IIO STILL WATERS. was ever young enough to — to say those sort of things/ With a half smile, Mrs. Lennox suggested that there might be a difference in disposition as well as in age. ' And I cannot/ she added, ' wish that Isabel should grow old faster than she does, for it is pleasant to have something young about the house. Indeed, I would rather see Ruth's sixteen years sit more easily upon her. When I look back, it seems as if she had had no youth — the earnest tone of her mind still deepening, and thoughtful care for others leaving no space for natural gaiety.' ' She has chosen the better part/ the Doctor said, musingly, and then he changed the sub- ject. Now that he was safe from Isabel's raillery, he wished to ascertain the truth about the Clintons; and she would have triumphed if she had been there, for his opinion coincided with David's, that Jasper might get on better alone. Meanwhile Ruth sat in the study, working diligently at her travelling-bag, and Isabel had coiled herself into the window-seat, now read- ing a few snatches about ' faire Una/ and now entertaining her sister with an account of the Doctor's complaisance in submitting to his new STILL WATERS. Ill name. c Ah V she presently exclaimed, as the twilight deepened, ' this is the time when I so miss David. How he nsed to scamper along the pavement, and shout out good-night to some of the other boys, as he pushed up the latch. And there is some one at the door now/ ' It is Jasper/ said Ruth ; ' but he has quite left off opening the door with the orthodox grammar-school kick, and so I suppose will David when he comes back. Just run out, Isabel, and tell him we are here, for I think he would rather not see the Doctor to-night/ Jasper profited by the warning, and took re- fuge with the sisters. He looked ill and un- happy, with no superfluous words at command; so that it was difficult to say for what he had come, unless it was to sit with folded arms on the high old-fashioned fender. As he only said yes and no at random to the questions ad- dressed to him, the girls resumed their several occupations, and silence reigned for some time, until he roused himself to ask, ' Shall you finish the bag to-night, Ruth V c Yes ; I am putting in the last stitches now : you can take it back with you, if you like/ ( Very well. AYe are to be off to-morrow, as my mother finds she can be ready; and it is 112 STILL WATERS. better to wait a little while at Plymouth than to run any risk of missing the ship/ f To-morrow/ repeated Ruth. ( I had no idea that it was to be before Wednesday, and we hoped to see Mrs. Clinton again/ f It would have done no good; she is harassed and worried, and anxious to be gone; and the only thing which delayed her is satis- factorily arranged. I shall not have to look for lodgings, since Martha, who is a woman of capital, has settled to take on the house and me together. I am to keep the two rooms on the ground-floor, and she will look out for another eligible lodger/ ' That is a comfortable arrangement/ said Ruth. ' Martha will keep you in order, and see that you eat your meals at regular hours, and don't sit up too late at night ; and she will deprive me of my proposed occupation of sew- ing on your shirt buttons/ She looked up, and sought in vain to win an answering smile. Jasper's brows were drawn together, and she added, gently, c I am afraid your head aches/ 'A little/ he replied, turning impatiently aside. He took up the cover of a letter which lay on the mantelpiece, and asked with awakened interest bv whom it was directed. STILL WATERS. 113 Isabel anticipated her sister's reply. ' By Clara Gascoigne, of course. It is very well for Ruth that she has no other correspondent; she answers Clara's letters with the greatest exactness, but it is such a labour of love. She is always nibbing her pen, and coming to a full stop; and I believe that she takes longer to fill three sides of a sheet of paper than Clara does to run off her five pages/ ( Does Miss Gascoigne write such long let- ters V 1 Yes, and they are very amusing. She had heard from her cousin that he liked David very much. Have you got her letter, Ruth V 'Yes, I think so/ said Ruth, but she did not produce it. The maid appeared to say, that she had taken in the urn, and Ruth entrusted her sister with the keys, promising to follow as soon as she had finished her bag. Jasper waited until it was completed, and Ruth put it into his hand with a timid hope that it might be useful to his mother. But Jasper heard with inattentive ear, and it presently appeared with what his mind was preoccu- pied. ' Ruth, would you mind reading to me what Miss Gascoigne says of David ?' vol. 1. 1 114 STILL WATERS. f Not at all/ said Ruth, conscious that the answer was not perfectly sincere, but at least, she repeated to herself, she ought not to mind; and she took the letter from her desk, running her eye down three of the five pages before she reached the passage in question. ' Evelyn wrote to me the other day, very happy in the prospect of getting his commission. He says that your brother is at the head of the new fellows, and a general favourite/ i Thank you/ said Jasper, after pausing for a moment in hopes that Ruth would read fur- ther. He rightly guessed that she knew it would give him pleasure to hear what followed, but she paused for a moment's deliberation and struggle with herself before proceeding. 1 1 hope that Isabel is more resigned to her fate in being separated from David. Of course you must miss him too, but you have a resource in Mr. Clinton, who is next best to a brother, just as Evelyn is to me. It is the chance of seeing Evelyn which consoles me for our having to spend the Easter holidays with Aunt Maria instead of at Dyne Court, which I should like much better, if only for the sake of driving into Holm dale to see your dear grave old face/ 1 There/ said Ruth, breaking off; ( there is no STILL WATERS. Il£ use giving you her rhapsodies about my ' dear, grave old face/ ' { Thauk you/ Jasper said again, and with more sincerity than before ; ' Miss Gascoigne does not seem to have any taste for London gaieties/ c I do not imagine that she has tasted them yet. If Sir John ever gives a dinner at home it is to gentlemen, and so she is chiefly in the schoolroom with Madame la Rue, and leads a much quieter life than at Dyne Court/ ' She must have almost outgrown the school- room/ said Jasper. ' I suppose so ; but even when she comes out, she will need a duenna of some kind/ '1 do not much admire Madame la Rue/ said Jasper ; and Ruth answered, that ' she was very French/ in a tone which rendered it doubtful whether the remark was intended to account for or excuse her defects. 1 She has not spoiled her charge, however/ said Jasper. ' There never was anything less artificial than Miss Gascoigne. She is perfectly transparent, and so warm-hearted/ The discussion of Clara's character — at least when Jasper was the speaker — had an unac- countable tendency to remind Ruth of the lapse i 2, Il6 STILL WATERS. of time, and she now observed that she must go and pour out tea. With some self-reproach that he should have lingered so long on his mother's last evening, Jasper bade her good- night, and wrung her hand with unusual warmth, as she charged him with her parting words for Mrs. Clinton. He went his way, and the Doctor, who had consented to stay to tea, reproached Ruth for her long seclusion. ' He is afraid/ said Isabel, f that the Clinton morosity may be infectious, and that if ever there is a Mr. Ruth hung in chains, you will go after him without wishing any of us good- bye/ STILL WATERS. I17 CHAPTER X. Kate, like the hazel twig, Is straight and slender, and as brown in hue As hazel-nuts, and sweeter than their kernels. Taming of the Shrew. ~A /TORE than two years went by, with few JjLL events to mark the lapse of time, and it was only possible in looking back to note the changes which had gradually taken place. Mrs. Lennox's constant ill health had left its traces on her pale and wasted form ; her in- valid habits were confirmed, and she now seldom left her sofa. And Ruth too was altered ; no longer Standing with reluctant feet Where the brook and river meet. It was easy to see that the light heart of youth was occupied, perhaps too early, by the deeper feelings, whether of joy or grief, which belong to a riper age. She was thin and slight, and had in great measure lost the bloom which had redeemed her clear but rather olive com- plexion from the appearance of ill health. And, Il8 STILL WATERS. though some might think that quiet grace and the thoughtful expression by which she was distinguished compensated for the loss of more regular attractions, this w r as not the general opinion, so that it became a current saying in Holmdale, ( that Miss Lennox had gone off as as much as her sister had come on/ Although Isabel had already attained the height of her elder sister, she was a child still. There was the same sweet joj'ousness in look and tone, the same sunshine in her smile, un- touched as yet by the lightest shadow of care. The early promise of beauty was amply ful- filled, for her delicately-moulded features had acquired a more classical regularity, while their colouring was even more brilliant than before. David might well call her a gipsy queen, with those flashing dark eyes, full red lips, and cheeks glowing with rich and sunburnt colour ; and her free and careless bearing gave her an additional claim to the name. David's successful career had been the great interest of these years. He had now left Sandhurst, obtaining his commission without purchase, and, after a brief visit to Holmdale, where he rejoiced Isabel's heart by a private exhibition of his ensign's uniform, he was STILL WATERS. 119 gone to join his regiment in Ireland, the same to which Evelyn Gascoigne had been gazetted two years before. Jasper Clinton had also the consciousness of success to cheer him in his more inglorious path, and it had its effect in reconciling him to the lot which he had learned to consider inevitable. His regularity and exactness, and the real ability which lay beneath the crust of reserve, had their weight with Mr. Dunn, who gradually entrusted him with the more re- sponsible duties of his office, which made the drudgery appear less irksome. Yet there were still moments when he chafed against the necessity of being chained to the desk, while conscious that he was fit for better things, and Ruth could fully sympathise with his repinings, especially since the Doctor often expressed his admiration of Jasper's application to study in in his leisure hours, declaring that he would, with greater advantages, have been distinguished for scholarship. On this bright summer day, when it is necessary to take up the thread of my story again, Mrs. Lennox's couch had been placed in a sheltered angle of the garden-wall, where she lay, contentedly watching the group before 120 STILL WATERS. her, and listeoing to the gay tones which floated by, without being able to distinguish the words. Isabel, in broad-leafed hat and gardening-gloves, was engaged in tying up carnations, while Ruth sat on a bench beside her, weaving a garland of roses for her sister's chestnut hair, and Clara Gascoigne lay on the grass at her feet, still for the moment, except that her bright, restless eyes were ever roaming in search of amusement. She had ridden over from Dyne Court, and something in her atti- tude betrayed that she was not "unconscious of looking very pretty, in her small hat and feather and close-fitting habit. ' You are both so busy/ she said, ' that I am quite ashamed of taking mine ease ; but I cannot tie up carnations in this inconvenient skirt, and I have not genius for weaving garlands. Really, Ruth, that wreath surpasses anything at Madame Devy'V c I should think so/ said Isabel, darting an indignant glance from under the shade of her straw hat, to Clara's infinite amusement. ' I had an indistinct impression that I should rouse Isabel's ire by that innocent remark, although I do not at all know where the offence lies. Do enlighten me, Isabel/ STILL WATERS. 121 Isabel made no direct reply, but she stooped to eradicate an offending weed, with the half- uttered soliloquy, ' Little again ! nothing but low and little '/ The words did not escape Clara's quick ear, and she said, with a gay laugh, f That asper- sion is too personal, for you know that I should of all things like to be as tall as you/ Ruth joined in the laugh, and so did Isabel, although she was thoroughly in earnest. ' You know very well what I meant, Clara/ she said j ' but it is really too hot to argue and garden at the same time/ f I am sure that you have been at work quite long enough/ said Ruth ; ' come and sit in the shade/ 1 Well, I will/ said Isabel. She came to sit beside her sister, and, at her bidding, took off her hat, in order that Ruth might place the garland in her hair, and judge of the effect of her handiwork. ' It is charming/ exclaimed Clara. ' Next time we have a party at Dyne Court, you shall come and weave something for me, since I can- not go to Madame Devy's. But for whom is Isabel making herself so fine to-night V ' For mamma/ replied Isabel, with a con- 122 STILL WATEES. temptuous curl of her full lip, perhaps because she anticipated the incredulity with which the answer was received ' For mamma, of course. People always wear serge in company, and silk in private life/ Just in time to prevent a rather stormy re- ply, Mrs. Lennox called Isabel to draw her sofa into the retreating shade, and Ruth took ad- vantage of her absence to take Clara to task in the tone, good-humoured at once and authoritative, which she might have nsed to a spoiled child, — ' Now, Clara, why will yon tease Isabel ? you always choose to say the very thing which irritates her/ ' Yon should tell Isabel that it is very wrong to be irritated/ replied Clara, while she switched off the heads of the daisies with her riding-whip. ' Confess, now, that Isabel is a little — the least in the world — too ready to take offence, and then her anger is so very becoming that I can never forbear to raise it a little more. I wonder whether my eyes ever shine in the same fiery fashion?' ' Never/ said Ruth ; ' they are bright and clear enough, but there is no depth in their brilliancy, because the heart does not shine through/ STILL WATERS. 1 23 Clara looked amused, and not at all offended by the severity of the remark. ' I understand/ she said ; ' they are glassy, like a fish or a wax doll. Sad work yon and Isabel make of me be- tween yon ! I have hardly recovered from the reflection on my height when you fall upon my eyes, and, worse than all, you leave me in doubt whether I have a heart. But here comes Mr. Clinton, who must, in common courtesy, under- take my defence. You must know, Mr. Clin- ton, that Ruth and Isabel accuse me of being no better than an under-sized wax doll V ' Hear both sides before you decide, Jasper/ said Isabel, returning in time to plead a cause which Ruth would never have attempted to de- fend. ' I cannot tell what Ruth may have said just now, but I am sure that it can have been nothing so wicked as I did. Really I could not help being angry, when Clara, instead of enjoying the thrush's song, and the greenness and freshness of the garden, after the dust and turmoil of London, began to talk of the opera, and her balls, and partners. And then she thought she was paying Ruth a compliment when she compared her garland to artificial flowers V These words had the effect of checking the 124 STILL WATERS. ardour with which Jasper had prepared to re- spond to the appeal, and he spoke in a low and unsteady voice, without raising his eyes, — 1 1 had hoped that Miss Gascoigne's return was as pleasant to her as it is to us/ 1 1 cannot attempt to compare sensations/ said Clara, while her cheek was tinged with that pink glow which enhances beauty without conveying the idea of inconvenient embarrass- ment ; ' but certainly I am glad to be at home again, and here especially, where I am more at home than anywhere else. If I had been the slave to dissipation which Isabel supposes, I should not have left town three weeks before papa, to live here in strict seclusion with Madame la Rue/ 1 Except/ said Isabel, ' that you told us just now that even Dyne Court was more lively than Belgrave-square, now that London is deserted by all but the lawyers and a fraction of the House of Commons. And only think, Jasper, she says that the drives along the Serpentine are better than any along our river V 1 No/ Ruth interposed, with her usual accu- racy, c she did not say that exactly — only that there might be more to see which was worth seeing/ STILL WATERS. 1 25 ( Ah V said Clara, with a mock gesture of despair, ' I ought to be grateful for that amend- ment ; but it only reminds me that I have re- turned to the land where there is always some one to catch and cavil at my words. I see that even Mr. Clinton thinks me irreclaimably frivolous/ There was a charm in that little word f even' which chased every cloud from Jasper's brow, and he said, smiling, — ' I am glad that you think me a less severe censor than Isabel/ 1 Or Ruth/ said Clara, mischievously ; ' Isabel is nothing to Ruth, though she is more measured in her remarks before company. Shall I tell Mr. Clinton what you said just now, Ruth ?' c If you please/ said Ruth, with a constrained smile; and Clara sprang up, and caressingly laid her hand on her shoulder. ' No, I shall not ; for I know that it was meant for my private edification, — all for my good, as the story-books say. And now I must really go home, for if I leave Madame alone much longer, she will be more voluble than usual in deploring Vaffreuse tristesse de notre chateau? f You will not mind sroing to the court- 126 STILL WATERS. yard/ said Ruth; c there is a horse-block to mount by/ { Or, perhaps, Mr. Clinton can mount me/ said Clara ; ' if Zohrab has a prejudice, it is against going up to the block/ Jasper's countenance glowed with pleasure ; and it was one of those happy moments by which he counted the eras of his life, when Clara's tiny foot rested on his hand, although his assistance was scarcely needed to place her light and springing figure in the saddle. Her next caprice prompted her to show off ZohraVs taste for sugar; and, although the old groom demurred, and said that it was not safe, she insisted that the bit should be taken off. Then she bent over the saddle, balancing her- self with graceful daring, until she had induced Zohrab to take the sugar from her outstretched hand. Isabel was delighted with the animal's docility, Jasper wholly absorbed by admiration of its rider, but Ruth shared the groom's fears. ' It is not safe/ she said ; c if anything startled Zohrab now that you are leaning over, you must lose your seat/ ' 1 will take care/ said Jasper, throwing his arm over the beautiful creature's curved and STILL WATEES. 1 27 glossy neck ; and since Clara's supply of sugar was exhausted, she permitted the bit to be replaced, again accepting Jasper's assistance in adjusting the reins. ' When shall we three meet again ? In thunder, lightning, or in rain ?' said Isabel, retreating into the three inches of shade afforded by the projecting eaves of an outhouse. ' Not in sunshine, I hope. How the sun does beat upon the court V ' Is it so powerful ?' said Clara. ' I am a salamander, I suppose, for I had not found out that it was hot. But really, Mr. Clinton, it is shocking of me to have kept you standing so loug — and without your hat too.' ' It has not been long/ said Jasper, stooping in some confusion to recover his hat, which he had thrown aside in order to mount Clara. 1 Are you sure, Miss Gascoigne, that the stir- rup is right?' ' Quite right, thank you. Does not Zohrab stand well ? Evelyn bought him for me in Spain, and he is as gentle as he is spirited.' ' Like the Arab's horse in the song,' said Isabel; but Clara interrupted the impending quotation, declaring that life was not long enough for those long lines. 128 STILL WATERS. ( Besides/ she said, f I wanted to answer your former metrical question, respecting our next meeting. Cannot you all come over on Saturday afternoon to eat strawberries and see the garden, and 1 will show off ZohraVs other accomplishments? I know you can come, so I will send the carriage at three/ She rode off without waiting for a reply, since Zohrab, with all his boasted docility, was beginning to chafe at the delay. ' And now/ said Isabel, l the faster we get out of this furnace, and back into the shade, the better/ She led the way, her sister following more leisurely with Jasper. The subject of his me- ditations presently transpired. ' I suppose that Miss Gascoigne only meant you and Isabel/ 1 1 suppose so/ said Ruth, but not very confidently; and this encouraged Jasper to proceed. c I should not have thought otherwise for a moment if she had not looked towards me when she said 'you alF — at least so I fancied. And she named the very hour for Saturday when she knows that I am disengaged/ ' Yes, I remarked that too/ said Ruth ; STILL WATERS. 129 ■ if you like, I will ask mamma what she thinks/ ( Oh no, thank you/ said Jasper, drawing back, ' I would rather give it up at once than have the thing discussed. And by that time I suppose that Sir John will have returned/ ' Xo ; I believe that he is not expected till next week/ said Ruth, without caring to ex- press her conviction that only in Sir John's absence would Clara have ventured to include Jasper in her invitation. For Madame la Rue was a very manageable duenna, and her views of decorum and of the duty of exclusiveness by no means inconveniently rigid. 1 1 have not been inside the house at Dyne Court since that Christinas party/ said Jasper. It was evident that very slight pressure would have sufficed to vanquish his scruples, but Ruth did not think fit to afford it. She only remarked that the Gascoignes had not passed a Christmas at home since that time. f Xo ; but if they had been at home, or if they ever again have a Christmas party, I shall not be asked to it. Then I was a school-boy, and David's friend; and now the gulf is widened immeasurably by my position in Mr. Dunn's office/ vol. 1. K 130 STILL WATERS. i I suppose that the Australian mail brought you no letter, or you would have mentioned it/ said Ruth; and hopeless as Jasper had just admitted his day-dream to be, he turned from it unwillingly to give his attention to the sober realities of life. STILL WATERS. 131 CHAPTER XI. K. Ph. Patience, good lady ! Comfort, gentle Con- stance ! Const. No ; I defy all counsel, all redress, But that which ends all counsel, true redress — Death ! death ! amiable, lovely death ! * * * Misery's love, come to me ! King John. C\& the evening of the same day Ruth and ^ Isabel found their way through the garden into the meadow which sloped down to the river. An old willow flung a gigantic limb across the stream, forming a favourite lair of Isabel's, and there she now ensconced herself. Her hat lay upon the grass, where it was to be found more often than on her head; and the evening breeze played with her curls, and breathed softly on her temples. Ruth leaned against the tree, her eyes cast down to the running water, idly watching the course of the bubbles, as they floated by upon the stream. The meadow was a common haunt of the k % 1$2 STILL WATERS. sisters on summer evenings, so that Dr. Berke- ley mnst have been prepared to find them there, as he came along the footpath skirting the river's brink. But his appearance was un- expected, since he was usually engaged with Jasper at this hour, and Isabel promptly accused him of playing truant. 1 1 have seen Clinton, and he has gone home/ replied the Doctor, in a tone which startled Ruth. ' Jasper told me/ she said, ( that he had no letter/ 1 No ; but I have heard from my cousin Frank, to whom I wrote, as you may re- member, some months ago, to make inquiries about Mrs. Clinton. I cannot show you the letter, for Clinton took it home with him ; but it is a sad story — even more sad than the long suspense led us to expect. Frank applied to the government offices for an account of Richard Clinton, and he was informed that the only convict of that name had made his escape from the settlement more than a year ago. It was supposed that he had got off in some ship just leaving the port, but nothing certain was known. One of the clerks remembered that inquiries were made after the same Richard STILL WATERS. 133 Clinton very shortly after he absconded, by a person who can have been no other than his poor wife. He described her to be a tall, striking person, dressed in black ; and he added, that he was still haunted by the face of rigid despair with which she turned and left the office. With much difficulty Frank traced her subsequent fate. At last he ascertained from the keeper of a small lodging-house on the quay that a person who bore the initials of B. C. had died there, friendless and unknown. It was of no apparent disease, the woman said, nor yet of absolute want, although it had been necessary to sell her effects to defray the ex- pense of her burial. Frank gathered from what was said that her mind had given way. She refused to speak or eat, and she was found dead one morning, clasping a miniature which the lodging-keeper had put aside in case any attempts should be made to identify her, and now gave over to Frank. He promises to send it home by the first opportunity/ ' The miniature of her husband, which was always beside her/ said Ruth, as soon as she had found voice to speak. ' How terrible ! And how will Jasper bear it V ' There is but one alleviation/ said Dr. 134 STILL WATERS. Berkeley. ' She was spared the misery of see- ing what he had become ; and her last action proves that she died with her love and trust unshaken. Yet Frank writes that he was re- puted to be one of the worst characters in the settlement — reckless and unprincipled, while his ability and superior education gave him great and dangerous influence over his asso- ciates/ 1 And you told all this to Jasper V said Ruth. ' 1 gave him the letter. He would not have been satisfied otherwise; and, indeed, when so much was inevitably painful, it seemed useless to attempt a partial revelation. But I hardly think he took in anything at the time except his mother's fate/ ' I should think not/ said Isabel, shudder- ing ; l to know that she died alone, and in a strange land V 1 Je mourrai seul/ said the Doctor, thought- fully ; ' so I believe we must all find it when we come to die; and the faces gathered round the bed may not detain us when our eyes are opening to ' the land which is very far off/ 3 In general Ruth liked to follow such a train of thought, but now she could not turn her mind from the tragedy just disclosed. ' You STILL WATERS. 1 35 know/ she said, ( that in the only letter Jasper received from his mother, written from the ship before she landed, she said that she had been ill all through the voyage ; and I suppose that she was too weak to bear the disappoint- ment, and it broke her heart/ ' And unsettled her mind, so I gather from Frank's account. Something in her eye always made me fear that she was on the verge of insanity, and but for this she would not have died without leaving one parting word for Jas- per. He seemed to feel this most acutely.' ' I believe she did not care for Jasper in the least, or she would never have left him to go after her wicked husband/ said Isabel, deci- dedly; and though Ruth demurred to assent to such a sweeping clause, she allowed that the one absorbing passion of Mrs. Clinton's life had left little scope for other affections. The dew was falling, and the Doctor would not suffer the young ladies to linger in the meadow, Isabel cutting short his warning against the danger of evening exhalations by a laughing accusation that he was afraid of the rheumatism for himself. But she was forced to admit that the advice was disinterested, while she retraced her steps with her sister, and 136 STILL WATERS. watched his tall and somewhat ungainly form still sauntering beside the river. c We must not tell mamma to-night, it would only give her a sleepless night/ said Ruth, and Isabel readily complied with the injunction. Her feelings, however strongly excited, soon again subsided, and there was little effort in her gaiety. It was otherwise with Ruth. The evening was her mother's best time, and in general the time slipped too fast away, but now the hour for prayers seemed to tarry. In David's ab- sence it was her office to read, and her voice faltered when she came to the petition for the fatherless and the orphan, and thought of him who, now an orphan, and worse than father- less, was alone with his grief in his cheerless home. Mrs. Lennox did not observe her agitation, but she attributed her wan looks to the heat of the day, and she would not suffer her to linger as usual for more last words after Isabel had retired. At length, then, Ruth was alone, and free to dwell on the sad story, chiefly as it affected Jasper. She recalled the store of promises by which she had already had occasion to subdue her own unchastened spirit; but it had been more easy to take the lesson home than to apply STILL WATERS. Itf it to another. For herself, she knew that it was good to bear the yoke in her youth, and she had begun to taste the sweetness of the discipline; but it was hard to believe that the same discipline would avail for Jasper. His spirit was already crushed and embittered by the nature of his trial, and she feared lest this fresh blow should depress him into despair just as he was beginning to recover a more healthy tone of mind. Here she was checked by a pang of self-reproach, as she discovered how exclusively she viewed the matter in its rela- tions to Jasper, with scarcely a thought of Mrs. Clinton, or of his wretched father's more hapless fate. It is, she thought, only one form of self-seeking, and she knelt down and hid her face, feeling that in prayer alone there was safety. On the following morning Ruth imparted the Doctor's intelligence to her mother, who was, as she had anticipated, much affected by it. In the memory of her early friendship with Barbara Maylin, their subsequent estrange- ment was forgotten, and Mrs. Lennox dwelt upon her youthful attractions, and upon the heroic devotion which marked the closing scene of her most unhappy life. For Jasper 138 STILL WATERS. also her sympathy and interest were warmly excited, and she was the first to make the sug- gestion from which a certain degree of con- sciousness had restrained Ruth, that he should be invited to occupy David's room for a few days. ( It is grievous/ Mrs. Lennox said, c to think of him alone in that melancholy house/ So Ruth set off for Bean-street after breakfast; she believed that Jasper would go to the office as usual, and that she should only see Martha, and though Mrs. Lennox thought otherwise, it was not an occasion for standing too rigidly on proprieties. The house looked dreary, with every blind drawn down, and the aspect of Martha's coun- tenance, when she opened the door, was more sinister than ever. She had resented all other inquiries as a studied insult, but she did justice to Ruth's heartfelt interest, and with- drew her person, at first planted on the threshold in the attitude of defiance, so as to admit her into the entrance-passage, while a sigh, or rather a groan, accompanied the ejacu- lation of, ' Ah well, Miss Lennox V ' Has Mr. Clinton gone to the office V Ruth STILL WATERS. 1 39 c Not yet, Miss Lennox, though he is mad enough to say he will go. He has but just left his room, and I have taken him a cup of strong coffee, which is good for the nerves ; so I hope you can wait a few minutes. It's most like he won't touch it if you go in now and upset him/ ' I can wait as long as you please/ said Ruth, ' if you will let me sit down in your room/ And Martha led the way to her clean, tidy kitchen, glad of the opportunity to pour out her griefs. f Poor dear Master Jasper, he came in last night looking scared and stupified, and just put the letter into my hand, for he was not able to speak. Then he went and shut him- self up in his room, and never looked up when I came in with a light, but just asked for the letter again ; and I believe that he sat up till morning, for the light was shining under his door when I went to bed, which was late enough, and indeed there was the best part of a candle burnt down to the socket. And if he did get a little sleep towards morning, Mr. Ball, overhead, must have woke him, since he chose this of all days of the year to put on a new pair of creaking boots. And then he 140 STILL WATERS. seemed to expect me to make his buttered toast for breakfast, just as if nothing had happened/ 1 Perhaps he was not aware of Mr. Clinton's loss/ Ruth suggested, in extenuation of the first-floor lodger's unfeeling conduct. 1 AY ell, I can't say/ rejoined Martha, in the same exasperated tone ; ' if he is in ignorance, he is the only person in this blessed town who is. I have been so put about by inquiries, Mrs. Dunn sending to ask after Mr. Clinton, and the very baker-boy wanting to know the truth of the story. Dr. Berkeley means well, I dare say, but he is no better than a sieve.' ' Dr. Berkeley/ said Ruth, l told me last night that he should go round by Mr. Dunn's, to tell him that Mr. Clinton would most likely be unequal to going to the office to-day/ ' He is no more equal to it than a baby, Miss Lennox/ said Martha, taking up the corner of her apron to wipe away the tears which only the strongest emotion could have wrung from those glazed eyes. ' It would melt a heart of stone to see him with a face like ashes, and his hands trembling, and not able to speak or shed a tear. Won't you go in to him now, and see if you can do anything for him V STILL WATERS. 1 4 1 Although Ruth quailed from the thought of witnessing sufferings which she felt herself wholly unable to relieve, she suffered Martha to show her into the little parlour, which she had not entered since Mrs. Clinton's departure. Martha's account of Jasper's appearance was not overcharged, hut the face of stony wretch- edness relaxed when Ruth entered; he arose, and wrung her hand, still retaining it with a nervous pressure, as he said, f It is very kind of you to come/ Ruth was ashamed of the thrill of gladness with which she recalled Mrs. Clinton's pre- diction that when real trouble came, Jasper would turn to her for sympathy, as he had formerly done. Her low and tearful answer, ' Oh, Jasper, I am so sorry ; I have thought of you so much,' availed more to soothe his chafed spirit than the best chosen words of consolation. ' That there is some one still to care' — was all he said, as he turned his face away ; and she knew that the gasping sob and tears which followed, must bring relief. c I could bear anything,' he added, when he had recovered his voice, ' anything but the knowledge that she died alone, perhaps from neglect and want, when I should have been there. I suffered 143 STILL WATERS. my pitiful fear of shame to prevail, and would not go.' ' Your mother wished it to be so/ said Ruth ; but her words could not stem the torrent of self-accusation. After a time he became more composed, and although resolved to decline Mrs. Lennox's invitation to the Red House, he was submissive to Ruth's entreaty that he would relinquish his intention of attending the office as usual. Indeed, the severe headache which followed any agitation rendered him in- capable of exertion, and he lay down among the cushions, so temptingly arranged by Ruth's practised hands. There she left him, under Martha's charge, who, as she moved about with noiseless steps, hoped to goodness that Mr. Ball would find patients enough to keep him and his creaking boots out of the house for the rest of the day. STILL WATERS. 1 43 CHAPTER XII. She trembles her fan in a sweetness dumb,' As her thoughts were beyond recalling ; With a glance for one, and a glance for some, From her eyelids rising and falling, Speaks common words with a blushful air, Hears bold words unreproving 5 But her silence says — what she never will swear — And love seeks truer loving. E. B. Browning. SOME days passed, and Jasper still kept away from the Red House. Ruth's only know- ledge respecting him was obtained from Mrs. Dunn, who, in the course of a morning visit, mentioned that he had only been absent one day from the office, and was now at work again, looking much as usual, Mr. Dunn said, except, poor fellow, for the crape round his hat. When Mrs. Dunn was gone, Mrs. Lennox observed that it was a pity Jasper shut himself up so much, and Ruth assented very briefly, for she was more grieved and disappointed than she cared to own. She still hoped that he only deferred his visit until Saturday afternoon, for- 144 STILL AYATEES. getting their engagement to go to Dyne Court, and she felt an increasing distaste for this same engagement when the day came. The clouds were gathering, and she hoped that the carriage might not be sent for them, after all ; but the lowering morning cleared into a bright and sultry day, and the Dyne Court barouche, with its pair of prancing bays, drew up to the door even before the appointed hour. And while Ruth was unwillingly putting away her drawing materials, before she went to fetch her bonnet, Clara herself entered the room, looking bright and buoyant in her gossamer dress. c You see/ she said, ' I have come in person to carry you off, for I had a presentiment that you intended to send Isabel, and stay at home yourself. Confess, now, that you had some such treacherous intention/ 1 1 believe/ said Ruth, ' that I was thinking how hot it was to go junketing/ ' Oh very ! — to take an easy drive in an open carriage and then to sit in the shade of the noble chestnuts, instead of baking in this very worthy little oven, or walking along the glaring and dusty pavements. If / had said anything so inconsequent, how severe you would have been/ STILL "WATERS. 145 * Well, I will go ; but I shall want to be back early because of mamma. I will get my bonnet, and see if she has anything to say before we go. Isabel is ready, and in the garden/ Ruth was not away many minutes, and Clara amused herself by flitting about the room in her usual desultory fashion ; striking a few chords on the piano, singing snatches of the last fashionable song, and turning over the books upon the table, while she raised her eye- brows with a mixture of horror and amuse- ment at their instructive character. Spenser's Faerie Queene was the most modern specimen to be found there ; a well-thumbed school edi- tion of Horace, scrawled over with David's name, not the most ancient. While thus en- gaged, the door was thrown hastily open, but Jasper lingered with his hand upon the lock when he perceived that Clara was the only in- mate of the room. 'I beg your pardon/ he said, colouring deeply, ' I expected to find Ruth here/ ' She will be down immediately ; will you not come in V said Clara, but Jasper still hesi- tated, and she was piqued to discover that she was not as usual his first thought. VOL. I, L 146 STILL WATERS. At this moment Ruth appeared, and Clara again turned to Jasper. e Perhaps, Mr. Clinton, you will be so good as to call Isabel from the garden, for I don't like to keep the horses standing in the sun/ Jasper complied with the request, but re- turning almost immediately, he went up to Ruth and said, in a low, agitated voice — ' Cannot I see you alone for one moment before you go V ' Oh, yes ; you will not mind waiting, Clara V said Ruth ; but Clara's assent was not ready. ' I am afraid that we ought to go ; papa did not wish me to keep the horses out longer than I could help/ Sir John's wishes did not in general meet with such dutiful attention, and in sun and rain alike, the bright bays were well used to champ their bits before the door of the Red House. However, Ruth did not care to argue the point, and she told Jasper that she should be at home by six o'clock, if he could come to see her then. ' Very well/ said Jasper. f I wish, Mr. Clinton/ added Clara, gaily, ' that you would come with us, and then you STILL WATERS. 147 .might talk as much as you please. But T suppose that Mr. Dunn would accuse me of aiding and abetting you to play truant, if I were to carry you off.' Jasper's attempt to smile was miserably un- successful, and Ruth unwillingly followed Clara to the carriage, and left him standing in the doorway, little dreaming how long she was to be haunted by the recollection of that haggard and sorrow-stricken face. The working of the lines about the mouth betrayed nervous agita- tion, and his eyes looked hollow and sleepless, and burned with a feverish light. f How wretchedly Mr. Clinton looks V said Clara, nestling luxuriously into her corner of the barouche. { Mr. Dunn saw papa last night on business, ending, as usual, with the latest Holm- dale intelligence, so that I had heard of Mrs. Clinton's death, but I was scarcely prepared to see her so sincerely lamented. She was not an attractive old lady, was she ? And then it must be a relief to know that one's father is no longer a convict, but a gentleman at large/ Clara's levity of tone so wounded Ruth that she made no attempt to reply, and Clara was ready, as usual, in part to justify, in part to explain away her words. L % 148 STILL WATERS. ' Now, Ruth, don't look as if you thought me an inhuman monster; I only knew Mrs. Clinton by reputation, but I am ready to admire her son's dutiful respect for her memory, since you think it admirable. Only when people are so desperately wobegone they should retire into private life, for it is scarcely fair to inflict their miseries on the world at large/ ' On those at least who flutter through the world, butterfly fashion, without thought or care for others ; but Jasper did not expect to see you when he came.' 1 Enough/ said Clara, holding up her hands, as if to avert a coming blow ; ' Isabel, can you say nothing young and foolish to avert Ruth's indignation from my devoted head V ( It would be of no use/ said Isabel, laugh- ing ; ' Ruth never says such things to me/ ' Because I do not think them/ said Ruth, while tears gathered in her eyes ; ' 1 don't know how it is, Clara, that you will always force me to speak bitter truths, when it would be better to be silent, even though they are truths. And then I am sorry for it afterwards.' 'Why should you be sorry, or vex yourself for what never vexes me ? You are privileged to say anything, and Ruth is near allied to STILL WATERS. 1 49 truth. I will do anything to satisfy you — short of wearing mourning for Mrs. Clinton/ She could not win a smile from Ruth on this subject, although she was ready to talk of other matters, asking whether Sir John had brought any friends with him from London. ' Yes ; there is Mr. Lewis, who is an excel- lent type of papa's friends — substantial and agricultural, a magistrate and a county member. And then there is Lord Edward Lynmere, also an M.P., but of a different stamp. He is a rising young man, and one of my preux chevaliers, so that I. am rather glad that you should see him. Ah, it is Isabel's turn to look indignant now/ c One of your partners, I suppose/ said Isabel, subsiding, though she had certainly felt inclined to resent any unworthy use of the terms of chivalry. And Clara answered demurely — ' Precisely ; his name has been so often written on my tablets that it is quite engrained there. He began his career as an ardent politician j but towards the end of the season he favoured me with more of his eloquence than Mr. Speaker. I always look bored by any allusion to politics ; and he seems to be as 150 STILL WATERS. much charmed by my frivolity as if I talked Hansard? ' And so you do your utmost to weaken his chances of distinction/ said Ruth. ' He seems satisfied/ rejoined Clara, care- lessly. ' However, you are welcome to give him a taste of solid acquirements, in case they suit him better. It may be as well to try some tolerably modern subject — not earlier than the Wittenagemot, if you can accom- plish it/ After passing the afternoon in Lord Edward's society, Isabel was ready to admit that the term of preux chevalier was not misapplied. ' It was strange/ she observed to Ruth, in the course of their drive home, l to see any one so stately and strong, with his Vandyke face, and his grand, courteous manner, subdued by a look or smile from Clara. He was always on the watch to discover her wishes, and never so happy as when she sent him on her errands. I thought it rather humiliating, especially when she sent him the second time through the sun, because he had not brought the parasol she fancied; and I could not help feeling that she deserved to be treated like Kunigund — STILL WATERS. 151 Er wirft ihr den Handschuh ins Gesicht : Den Dank, Dame, begehr icli nicht, L T nd verlasst sie zur selben Stunde.' Ruth smiled a half assent, observing — • Sunny as it was, crossing that strip of gravel was not such a service of danger as rescuing the glove from the lion and the tiger/ f Well, but, Ruth, I am sure that you would not order people about in that way/ ' You are more likely than I, Isabel, to have such power to abuse. I do not mean just now, for such are not your relations with David/ ' Not exactly/ said Isabel, laughing at the recollection of her implicit subjection to his will j ' and I believe it is the contrast which makes me think that Clara and Lord Edward are reversing the natural order of things. Even Jasper, who is often ceremoniously polite, does less for you than you do for him. However, it is not quite the same thing, for I suppose that Lord Edward is in love with her/ The last words were spoken diffidently, since the elder sister did not encourage any discussion of that mysterious passion which was already the subject of many of Isabel's 1$2 STILL WATERS. secret musings. And, accordingly, Ruth only answered — ' So it seems/ ' And I think that Clara must be in love too, or she would not talk and laugh so much with him/ ' I imagine that if she really cared for him, she would talk and laugh less. But it is im- possible to tell what Clara thinks, or if she thinks at all.' ' I can tell you one thing, Ruth, that Clara is really fond of you. She took so much pains to bring you and Lord Edward together, and tried to talk of the things you care about ; and it was rather provoking that you did not make yourself half so pleasant as you do to Miss Perrott/ 'No/ said Ruth, with another of her half smiles; ' Miss Perrott is much more in my line/ 'But really, Ruth/ said Isabel, pleadingly, 1 there is no harm in being pleasant and well- bred, and no merit in talking scandal and small gossip/ ' Clara and Lord Edward were talking great gossip/ answered Ruth ; e only in a light sparkling way, and we did not know the people/ STILL WATERS. 153 f No; which made it seem like an amusing story. You will allow that it was more amus- ing than Miss Perrott' s conversation/ '1 don't know that it was more satisfying. But then I do not mind being bored/ said Ruth, in a matter-of-fact voice which con- trasted curiously with her sister's eager expos- tulation. 1 My dear Ruth ! You never shall persuade me on high moral grounds to like Miss Perrott better than Lord Edward/ ' Lord Edward is very well in his way ; but I don't like to hear you always running down Holm dale/ { Not always, Ruth j only when we are quite in private life. I shall never whisper to Miss Perrott my preference for Lord Edward, nor tell her that I like Zohrab better than either. Ah, Ruth ! if ever I coveted my neighbour's horse, it should be an Arab/ Ij4 still waters. CHAPTER XIII. He is dead to me, And I must soon Die to him, and many things ; and, mark me, Breathe not his name, lest this love-pamper'd heart Should sicken to vain yearnings — lost ! lost ! lost ! Saint's Tragedy. THE discussion was ended by their arrival at home ; only just in time, as Isabel re- marked, for the black curtain of clouds had again closed over their heads, and the oppres- sive stillness of the air and a lurid light in the west were presages of a coming storm. The clock had struck six ; but Jasper was not waiting for them, as his habitual punc- tuality led Ruth to expect. 1 He must soon be here/ she thought, as she ran up to her mother's room ; but she was presently obliged to admit that he would probably be too weather-wise to venture out of shelter that evening. The darkened room was illumined by a flash of lightning, followed almost instantaneously by the sharp crack of the thunder. A few large and sullen STILL WATERS. 155 drops were beginning to fall, and there was a low sighing of the wind, as if the elements were collecting force to break loose in all their fury. Mrs. Lennox, ever affected by any change of atmosphere, was nerrons and dis- composed; and Ruth attempted to divert her thoughts by recounting the day's adventures. Isabel threw in a word occasionally ; but she had placed her chair as near the window as her mother's fears would allow, and was soon absorbed in watching the progress of the storm. It was soon raging in all its violence, the rain streaming down in torrents, and the thunder pealing, as it seemed, over the house itself. In such a tumult Sally's modest knock was unheard, and she was constrained to open the door and ask for Miss Lennox. Since Ruth had undertaken the charge of household affairs, such appeals occurred too often to attract attention ; and as she went out into the passage she instinctively sought her bunch of keys, prepared to comply with a de- mand for brown sugar or kitchen candles. ' If you please, miss/ said Sally, ■ a person has come to ask whether you know where Mr. Clinton is.-' 156 STILL WATERS. ' Is it Martha V Ruth asked hurriedly, and with a sudden foreboding of evil. ' I will see her/ 'It is not Martha, miss. The gentleman, Mr. Dunn, told me not to give his name ; but then he asked so many questions, I thought it best to come to you/ ' I will go to him/ said Ruth, quickly de- scending the stairs. Mr. Dunn stood in the hall, the rain-drops streaming off his macintosh and umbrella, as if to confirm her misgiving that only urgent necessity could have brought him out in such weather. But his manner, always imper- turbable, was only distinguished by an additional shade of stiffness. ' Good evening, Miss Lennox. I am sorry that you should trouble yourself to come down- stairs, since I merely called to inquire if Clin- ton was here/ 1 He was here between twelve and one/ said Ruth, f and he promised to come back this evening. But I suppose the rain prevented him/ c Between twelve and one/ repeated Mr. Dunn, deliberately ; ' very good/ And with another apology for having disturbed her, he STILL WATERS. 157 left the house before Ruth had gained courage to ask the cause of these inquiries. 1 1 will tell you -what I have heard, Miss Lennox/ Sally said, drawing nearer to Ruth, in order to convey the intelligence in a mys- terious whisper ; c it may be all a lie, of course, but Mrs. Benson has come in with the wash, and she do say that there is a talk all over the town how Mr. Clinton has gone off with ever so much money, as his father did before him/ With white lips, which belied the haughty confidence of her tone, Ruth disclaimed any interest in such idle gossip. Yet Mrs. Lennox perceived that something was amiss, when she re-entered the dressing-room, and she asked what Sally had wanted. f Mr. Dunn called to ask for Jasper. I suppose he wanted him on business/ ' It must have been pressing business which brought Mr. Dunn out on such a night as this/ said Isabel. ( He has a cat-like horror of wet- ting his feet, and, if ever guilty of a quotation, he would say that it was ' a naughty night to swim in/ } Ruth made no reply, but took up her knit- ting again, to the great detriment of the delicate feathery pattern; the needles would 158 STILL WATERS. not obey her fingers, the stitches fell off, and all was soon in inextricable confusion. She laid it aside, and said, abruptly, ' Mamma, may I go to Bean-street, and see if Jasper is there P f Not in this rain, dear ; wait at least till the storm is over/ Mrs. Lennox answered in a tone which was imploring rather than autho- ritative, and Ruth acquiesced, feeling that the request was as unreasonable as she tried to hope her fears might be. After a few disjointed remarks, the party subsided into uneasy silence, and Ruth sat and listened to every sound with feverish eager- ness. The house-door was opened, and again shut, and before Isabel spoke, Ruth recognised the deliberate tread of Dr. Berkeley, ascending the stair. He was an habitual and admitted visitor to Mrs. Lennox's dressing-room, and entered without apology ; but it was easy to see that he had come this evening on no pleasant errand. Fearless as ever, Isabel asked the question, which Ruth's lips were powerless to utter : e Can you tell us what brought Mr. Dunn here after Jasper, on a Saturday night too, when all business ought to be wound up for the week V STILL WATERS. 159 f Then you have not heard the report V said the Doctor. 'What report V Isabel asked, and Dr. Berkeley looked wistfully at Ruth, and told his story with less than his usual distinctness. It was briefly this. Jasper returned to the office after his hurried visit to the Red House, and remained there until three o' clock, the hour at which it closed on Saturdays. He waited until the other clerks were gone, and then requested the advance of his half-year's salary, not yet due. His nervous and agitated manner led Mr. Dunn to believe that the request was in some way connected with his mother's death, and he complied without hesi- tation. He gave Jasper a cheque on the bank, and desired him to draw at the same time 200Z. on Sir John Gascoigne's account, as Sir John had directed him to bring that sum to Dyne Court on the following morning. ' I believed that I might trust Clinton with untold gold/ said Mr. Dunn, in detailing the circumstances to Dr. Berkeley ; ' his high sense of honour, his exactness and business-like habits, seemed to entitle him to the fullest confidence/ He became uneasy, however, when the hour for closing the bank elapsed. l6o STILL WATERS. and Jasper had not returned "with the sum in question. He sent to Bean-street, and learned that he had not been at home since the morning. He went himself in search of the bank-clerk, and ascertained that Jasper had drawn the full amount of his own cheque, as well as that on Sir John Gascoigne's account. And, for the last two hours, Mr. Dunn had been fruitlessly endeavouring to discover some trace of him. He applied to Dr. Berkeley among others, to whom he was more com- municative than he had been to Ruth. There was silence when the tale was told, the other three anxiously waiting for Ruth to speak first, in hopes of her throwing some light on the matter. But Ruth sat still, her lips compressed, her mother's hand firmly clasped in hers ; and at last Mrs. Lennox said — 1 Does Mr. Dunn really suspect him of having absconded with the money? I can hardly believe it possible/ c It is not possible/ said Ruth ; and as she pressed her lips against her mother's hand, her tears fell hot upon it. ' Then what are we to believe V said Dr. Berkeley. STILL WATERS. l6l ' You may believe what you please/ said Ruth, calmly enough ; but the Doctor evidently felt, and was wounded by the suppressed bit- terness of the reply. * I assure you/ he said, f that I am unwil- ling — as unwilling as yourself — to condemn young Clinton, and I fully acquit him of any premeditated fraud. But his mind was un- hinged by the news of his mother's death, he felt miserable and unsettled, and his old dis- like to his position here had probably revived in full force. The temptation to avail himself of the means of escape placed within his reach may have appeared irresistible ; and if he had once turned his back on Holmdale, he would feel that the step was irretrievable, however soon remorse might follow/ Mrs. Lennox acquiesced in this explanation, while Ruth only looked scornful and indignant ; and she scarcely waited until the Doctor had finished speaking to repeat her former request. ' Mamma, may I go to Bean -street V 'If you wish it, dear/ said Mrs. Lennox, instinctively feeling that Ruth must not be this time gainsaid. Former misgivings revived, and she felt that it was an interest in the fate of one dearer than a brother which had blanched VOL. I. M l62 STILL WATERS. Ruth's face and lips, and quite overthrown her habitual composure. 1 1 may go too, mamma ; the rain never hurts me/ said Isabel, scarcely waiting for her mother's permission before she left the room. The rain was over by the time the sisters were equipped ; and, as they passed along the narrow pavement, their progress was arrested more than once by the knots of idlers who gathered round the doors in busy colloquy. The snatches of conversation which reached their ears did not leave the subject of interest in doubt. ' Treading in his father's footsteps,' one said ; and another observed, 'that he had always a down look, which could come to no good.' Ruth had scarcely asked herself what she was to gain by this visit to Bean-street ; and Martha, by whom she was eagerly welcomed, had nothing to impart which was not already known to the whole town, except her own pri- vate conviction that Jasper was the injured party. ' Poor dear Master Jasper,' she said, queru- lously ; { if this was not the wickedest town in the kingdom, they would be content to take his life without taking his good name too. STILL WATERS. 163 Depend upon it, he has been robbed and mur- dered on the highway, and his body thrown into the river. And, would you believe it, Miss Lennox, the constable, who ought to be looking after the murderers, is set to watch this very house, and take him to prison as soon as ever he comes home. As I told the man, he ought to be ashamed to lay hands on a much honester man than himself, for Mr. Clinton never touched a sixpence which was not his own, and paid all his bills regular and weekly; and to my knowledge Jack Lettice has a long score at the baker's/ ' You have not seen Mr. Clinton since the morning?' said Ruth, recalling Martha from her indignant sense of the constable's delin- quencies. ' Not since breakfast, Miss Lennox ; if break- fast I should call it, for he put nothing in his mouth ; and when I spoke to him about it, he just smiled in his grave way, and promised to do better at dinner. He seemed more put about this morning than he has been at all ; and looked as if he had not been to bed at all. He went away to the office, and I got his chops ready as usual, but he never came home, — so that's where it is.' M 2 164 STILL WATERS. c And you do not know where he went V * Well/ said Martha, mysteriously, ' I would not tell Mr. Dunn, though he asked as many questions as if I had been on my oath ; but it's safe enough with you. The miller's boy was here with some flour, and he did say that he saw Mr. Clinton walking fast over the bridge above the mill at four o'clock. It's my belief that he was robbed and murdered as I said, or else killed by the thunder and light- ning and burnt to ashes, and so we shall never know ; and I only hope he is better off, poor boy, for they gave him no peace in this life.' Nothing was to be gained from this inco- herent invective. Ruth was sick at heart, faint, and weary, and she whispered to Isabel that they had better return home. She bade Martha tell her all she heard, and engaged to do the same, and then she wished her good- night, though she felt the words to be a mockery, when she looked again at the hard- featured face, so wretched, restless, and care- worn in its expression. It was growing dusk; Ruth was not so much absorbed by grief as to be unmindful of others, and she discovered something of STILL WATERS. 165 timidity in Isabel's closer approach to her side, while she slipped her hand within her sister's. c I hope/ Ruth said, tenderly, : that Martha has not infected you with her foolish fancies. There has not been a highway robbery within the memory of man in this neighbourhood ; and it is simply impossible that it should have been attempted in open day between the Bank and Mr. Dunn's house. Since he did not go there at once, something of which we know nothing must have taken him elsewhere.' ' I was thinking,' said Isabel, in a low, thrilling whisper, ' of the place where he was last seen. Do you remember how deep a pool the river makes beside the weir ? And I believe that Jasper is one of those who think death better than dishonour.' Ruth shivered, for Isabel had put into words her own secret dread; yet even in so doing, her confidence was restored. ' Not so,' she said ; ' he might crave for death, and look and long for it J but he would no more dare to take his own life than to take the money of another man.' 'Then what do you think has happened to him, Ruth?' 1 66 STILL WATERS. ' I do not know ; perhaps we never shall know in this life. His name will be blasted : you see that even the Doctor gives him up on the first breath of suspicion. But, until I hear the worst from his own lips, I shall disbelieve it all.' In her earnest tone there was something approaching to exultation; but this quickly gave place to depression and disappointment when she related to her mother the par- ticulars of their fruitless errand. Self-control, however, had returned, and she seemed only desirous to let the subject rest. She em- ployed herself in unravelling her tangled work, and to all appearance was fully absorbed by the occupation of taking up and letting down her stitches. But, as Mrs. Lennox lay and watched her profile, it was easy to read its wistful, waiting expression of intense anxiety; and she only wished to relax the strain by which such unnatural composure was main- tained. ' Ruth, come to me/ she said, when Isabel had gone to bed, and they were left together. And Ruth came to her own low seat beside the sofa, and hid her face in her hands. ' Was he then so dear V said Mrs. Lennox. STILL WATERS. 167 f I loved him/ said Ruth, and the words were broken by a sobbing sigh; 'but oh, mamma, that is not the worst. He wished to speak to me this morning, and I saw that there was something on his mind, but Clara hurried me away. If I had stayed, all might have been prevented, and I shall never forgive myself — never forget his face of misery and perplexity/ ' You were not to blame/ said Mrs. Lennox, soothingly ; ' but have you any suspicion of what he wished to speak V ' I have none/ answered Ruth, briefly. ' I wonder whether his disappearance can in any way be connected with that attach- ment of which you once told me. Was he still constant to his first love V 1 1 — I believe so/ faltered Ruth ; and Mrs. Lennox was remorseful for having drawn the admission from her. ' My poor child l J she said, lovingly, ten- derly ; and for a moment Ruth's eyes quivered with tears which were not all of bitterness. The story of her life for the last two years was known j she had loved Jasper, and her love was unrequited ; she had never loved him so en- tirely as now, when the only certainty re- 1 68 STILL WATERS. specting his fate consisted in the irretrievable dishonour with which his name was branded. For dishonesty is not one of the many crimes on which the children of this world can afford to pass a lenient judgment. All this her mother knew, and yet she did not blame nor despise such weakness, nor do aught but pity her. Silently Ruth kissed her mother, and re- ceived her whispered blessing. Wearily she laid herself down, after seeking in vain to col- lect her thoughts for more than a broken, still- recurring prayer : 1 Oh God, keep him safe ! Oh God, make me patient V She lay long awake, and when sleep at last closed her heavy eyelids, it brought no repose. The turn of the river of which Isabel had spoken, was brought vividly before her; and just as she approached its brink, she heard a sullen splash of waters, although no trace remained of the object which had passed through them, save the circles widening round. She tried to spring forward, but her feet seemed to be glued to the ground; and in the attempt to give utterance to stifled screams of terror, she awoke, trembling in every limb, and with a cold sweat upon her brow. STILL WATERS. 1 69 CHAPTER XIV. The bubble reputation. As You Like It. TJITTH and Isabel were at breakfast when ■*-* Mr. Dunn rode by the windows on his strong black horse. ' I suppose/ Ruth said, ' that he is on his way to Dyne Court, to tell Sir John, and ask him what is to be done/ 6 Because it is his money. I had not thought of that. Oh, Ruth, Clara can do anything with Sir John, and a word from you might set all right j at least make them give up try- ing to find him. Cannot you go to Dyne Court, or write and ask Clara to come here V 6 Oh no/ said Ruth, shrinking from the sug- gestion ; ' I could not see Clara/ ' Not if it would be of use to Jasper V f It would be of no use. I believe the best we can hope is, that he may be found and brought back. Then the truth must be known, and he will be cleared/ 17° STILL WATERS. ' Then why, Ruth, should he have gone off in this way V ' I don't know ; I am tired of wondering, and I can't talk of it. Let us go to the school, Isabel dear, and try to gather some Sunday thoughts/ 1 1 did not mean to vex you, Ruth/ whispered Isabel, as she twined her arm round her sister's waist, and pressed her soft cheek to her lips. Ruth returned the embrace, and answered, hurriedly : 1 You have not vexed me, dear ; I am vexed with myself, because I have no patience.' Patience was sorely needed this Sunday morning. On the way to the school the sisters were accosted by several of their acquaintance, anxious to know if there were any tidings of 'that unfortunate young man.' Ruth found her class dull of comprehension, fidgety, and unruly, and the silence which she was unable to enforce reigned while the teacher of a neigh- bouring class spoke of Mr. Clinton to the schoolmistress in a mysterious and perfectly audible whisper. Even in church she was not safe from the subject. Mr. Smith, the vicar, was, as the Doctor mildly remarked, e not satis- factory.' The living was small, and his family STILL WATERS. 171 large, so he took pupils and kept no curate, considering that his clerical duties were amply fulfilled by the impressive character of his ser- mons. There could be no question respecting the impression which he made that day ; when he gave out the text, ' Let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall/ there was an audible rustling of silks, as ladies settled themselves in an attitude v of awakened atten- tion, nor did he disappoint the expectations thus excited. His pointed allusions to Jasper's mysterious disappearance called the indignant colour to the cheeks of Ruth and Isabel, while the greater part of the congregation returned home to discuss the sermon and their roast beef, together with the additional zest of self- complacency. ' What a shame !' exclaimed Isabel, as soon as they had passed through the churchyard gate. And Ruth's lip quivered, as she replied : ( It shows Jasper's utter friendlessness, that Mr. Smith should say such things, knowing that there is not one who has the right to pro- test against his being condemned unheard.' They passed the Dyne Court carriage, stand- ing at Mr. Dunn's door ; but it was empty, to 172 STILL WATEES. Ruth's great relief. She was not, however, to escape the dreaded infliction, for Clara had already alighted at the Red House, and way- laid her in the passage. 'Are yon here?' Ruth said, with undis- sembled annoyance ; ' I must go up-stairs to see how mamma is.' 'No, I have you first/ said Clara, firmly clasping Ruth's hand ; c Isabel may perform that filial duty, and you shall come into the study with me, not for long/ she added, plead- ingly ; ' do be amiable for once. If you are so morose, I shall conclude that you are afraid of revealing some secret which it might be conve- nient to know/ Rather than to continue the discussion 071 the stairs for Sarah's benefit, Ruth suffered her tormentor to lead her into the study, and there prepared with what philosophy she might for the examination which was to follow. ' Now, Ruth, you shall tell me all about this shocking story of Mr. Clinton.' f If I knew more than you do/ said Ruth, resolutely, e 1 would not say one syllable to one who only intends to make light of it.' ' If I were not in earnest, Ruth, I should not have come straight from church without STILL WATERS. 1 73 going back for luncheon, though I am always particularly hungry on Sundays, and Lord Edward was unusually agreeable. Seriously, I was quite shocked when Mr. Dunn came in with the news ; but that was ages ago — before we had done breakfast — and the more I think of it, the more incredible it seems. Mr. Clin- ton was always held up as a model of goodness by you, who are many degrees better than the rest of the world. And then it occurs to me — but of course I may be wrong — that my money, or papa's, which is much the same thing, is the very last which one would naturally expect him to abscond with/ And Clara looked up, an arch smile dim- pling her cheeks, while a very becoming smile enhanced their bloom. Ruth turned her head away in the struggle to reply with calmness, f Nothing is astonishing, Clara, except that you should first assume his guilt, and then speak of it lightly/ 'Then you do not believe it? However, you must not be too severe on me for falling into the vulgar error, for papa and Mr. Dunn have so little doubt on the matter, that the only question between them was, what mea- sures must be taken to apprehend him — for 174 STILL WATERS. the poor young man's own sake, as papa says, and not because lie is anxious to recover the money. And by the way, Ruth, it occurs to me that Mr. Clinton must have come here yesterday for the sake of confiding his designs to you. He looked extremely disconcerted when I carried you off/ 1 So I believe/ said Ruth ; and the gravity of this reply provoked Clara's merriment. f So you believe ! It was more than I did when I said so. My dear Ruth ! I suppose you will say next, that if he had asked your advice, you would have sanctioned his pro- ceedings V ' Laugh if you will/ said Ruth ; ' laugh off, if you can, your share of responsibility, in not suffering me to wait and hear what he had to say. As long as I live I shall not forget my own/ f Or perhaps, Ruth, you may acquiesce as readily in another bright idea which has come into my head. You take his defection as much to heart as if there had been something closer than the philosophical friendship which I had imagined to be your only bond of union/ Here Clara paused, sobered by the effect of her light words, which cut so deep. Ruth hid her face in an agony of shame and humiliation, STILL WATERS. 1 75 her colour went and came, and she strove in vain to stem the torrent of an uncontrollable burst of tears. Clara, who had hitherto con- sidered her impassible, was terrified by her hysterical sobs, and clung about her, imploring f Ruth, her dear Ruth/ to look up and speak to her, not to cry, not to mind her foolish words. She drew down the hands with which Ruth had covered her face, and fondled and caressed them; but such endearments could not restore Ruth's self-control. Just then the carriage stopped at the door, and Clara rightly judged that Ruth desired nothing so much as to be left alone. 'Tell papa that I am coming/ she said, going to the door to intercept Sally's entrance, and then returning to hang about Ruth once more. ' Dear Ruth ! I could not guess that you cared so much. I will never mention Mr. Clinton's name again, for fear of vexing you, and I shall insist on papa's leaving him to go his own way. Will you forgive me then V Ruth replied with a kiss, since she could not find voice to speak, for she was touched by her words, without, however, attaching much weight to them. But for once in her life Clara Ij6 STILL WATERS. was in earnest, and though she found Sir John impressed with a moral sense of the duty of bringing Jasper to justice, she did not rest until he had acceded to her wishes. Late in the evening of that long, dreary day, Ruth received the following note : — ' My dearest Ruth, — The bearer of this note carries also a missive to Mr. Dunn, de- siring him to set no detectives on Mr. Clin- ton's track, and refusing to prosecute if he is found. I hope that you are satisfied. ' Your most affectionate ( Clara/ Ruth's reply was even more brief: — f Dear Clara, — Thanks for what you have done. ( Yours ever, ' R. L.' Her thanks were heartfelt; for, notwith- standing what she had said to Isabel, there was indeed relief in laying her aching head on the pillow without feeling that she might raise it to hear that Jasper had been appre- hended and brought back as a spectacle for the curiosity and pitying contempt of his STILL WATERS. 1 77 former associates in Holmdale. Unquestionably Sir John's lenity was the cause of a certain degree of disappointment, and the little world considered itself defrauded of its just share of excitement and virtuous indignation. But Sir John himself, when once he had yielded to Clara's wishes, coinciding as they did with his naturally easy temper, could not be induced to alter his decision, although Mr. Dunn urged stringent measures as a satisfaction to himself. Clara also fulfilled her other engagement, to make no further allusion to Jasper Clinton ; and such unusual forbearance gave her an additional claim to Ruth's gratitude, and enabled her to endure attentions which were in themselves rather oppressive. Clara wasted much importunity in trying to prevail on her to make a visit of some days at Dyne Court, in order to divert her mind. 'Lord Edward is surely staid and sensible enough to suit you, and I am quite ready to make him over to you. And there are several other people in the house, and so much music and pleasant talk going on, that I am sure you would be amused/ Ruth felt as if she should never be amused more. By the end of the third day the in- VOL. I. N 178 STILL WATERS. terest in Jasper's mysterious disappearance had in great measure subsided, the eager specula- tion concerning his fate was over, and his name was seldom spoken. But in Ruth's breast the gnawing sense of care was more keenly felt, the suspense and miserable uncertainty was more intolerable. It almost seemed as if Jas- per had been gone for years instead of days, when the tidings which she had ceased to ex- pect at last arrived. As usual, when the postman's knock was succeeded by Sally's entrance, Isabel sprang forward to claim the letter, with the conviction that it must come from David. ' It is for you, Ruth,' she said, in a tone of disappointment, quickly changed into joyful re- cognition. ' Oh, Ruth ! I think, I am certain that it is from Jasper.' The characters in which the address was traced seemed to dance before Ruth's eyes even when she had steadied her trembling hand; the lines themselves were straggling and uneven, but so few that they could not, under all these difficulties, take long to read. ' I know not why I write, since I may tell nothing which you do not already know — that STILL WATERS. 179 dishonour is now not merely my inheritance but my own allotted portion, and that I am faint-hearted enough to shrink from the infamy I have incurred. Some such end I ever fore- saw ; but it is not therefore the more tolerable, and you know that the bitterness is increased tenfold by the knowledge that she will be taught to associate my name with disgrace and the basest ingratitude. My only hope is, that she may soon forget that she ever knew me, as you, Ruth, must also forget. ' God bless you, dear Ruth. f J. C. J ( Look there/ said Ruth, pointing to the concluding words; ' could he have written those words if he were not guiltless V ' But is there no explanation V Isabel asked. f Does he not say why he went, nor where he is going V It had not before occurred to Ruth that such information was wanting, but she found, on referring to the envelope, that it bore the Liverpool postmark. f He must/ she said, faintly, ( be going out of England — to America or elsewhere ; indeed, he implies that we shall never see him more/ Then she added, with N % 180 STILL WATERS. something of wounded feeling, as she saw that Isabel still looked dissatisfied, ' Trust me, Isabel, if you will not trust him. I do not show you the letter, because I believe that it was meant only for myself. I shall not show it even to mamma, unless she desires it/ Mrs. Lennox forbore to desire anything which deepened the sadness on a face already too sad to be seen without pain, but she was in truth as little satisfied as Isabel with Ruth's reserve, believing that Jasper had made some admission which shook her former confidence in his innocence. But her trust was in reality as fully given as before, and her reluctance to show the letter arose from the allusion which it contained to his love for Clara Gascoigne ; that love w T hich would now appear more visionary and presumptuous thau ever. She might well suppose that these words were meant to meet no eyes but hers, and she was unconscious how far her secret inclinations coincided with his wishes. Sally's discretion was less remarkable than that of Jasper's former attendant Martha ; and it was not long before surmises of the truth, founded on Isabel's unguarded expression, found their way into Mrs. Dunn's nursery, and from STILL WATERS. l8l thence to the lady herself. In a flutter of ex- citement Mrs. Dunn informed her husband, on his return from the office, that 'the Lennoxes had had a letter from young Clinton, and they must intend to keep it very close, for the Doctor, who was here to-day, certainly knew nothing of it.' Mr. Dunn sifted the story with his habitual caution; and as its authority appeared to be tolerably good, he decided on going to the Red House himself. ' For my own satisfaction/ he said, ' I am resolved to go to the bottom of the matter/ Ruth instinctively knew on what errand he was come when he was ushered into her mother's dressing-room, and she continued to ply her needle without raising her eyes to re- turn his greeting. She was not long left in suspense, for Mr. Dunn's first words were ad- dressed to herself. ' I have taken the liberty of calling/ he said, ' on account of the report which reached me, that you have heard of, or from, Jasper Clinton. May I ask if it is true ?> ' It is true/ said Ruth. ' And I presume that he attempts some ex- planation of his inexplicable conduct/ With an expression of scorn, more often seen 1 82 STILL WATERS. on Isabel's lip than on her sister's, Ruth re- plied : f He says nothing which would, I be- lieve, be considered satisfactory by yon/ Mr. Dunn was not deficient in the assurance and pertinacity so essential to success in the legal profession, and he rejoined with perfect coolness, ' Perhaps, Miss Lennox, you will allow me to judge for myself. Tf you show me the letter, I will engage that it shall go no farther/ Ruth turned her imploring eyes on her mother, but Mrs. Lennox only looked distressed, and doubtful how to act. Isabel, however, said bluntly, { I don't know why you should see Ruth's letter, Mr. Dunn, since Sir John does not intend to prosecute Jasper.' i You will allow, however,' replied Mr. Dunn, ' that I have a personal interest in the matter, as I was in some sense responsible for the loss. And since Sir John's leniency has secured Clinton from any evil consequences, surely Miss Lennox will not refuse me the opportu- nity of clearing myself.' ' Among all the versions of the story which go abroad,' said Mrs. Lennox, ' there is none which casts the slightest reflection upon you.' 1 Not at present, perhaps ; but the story may be cast up against me at some future STILL WATERS. 1 83 time, unless I have the means of vindicating myself/ No one answered, and it did not seem that Ruth was disposed to make any sacrifice to avert this possible hazard of Mr. Dunn's reputation. He was resolved, however, to make another effort. f For your own sake, Miss Lennox, I think you must admit the impro- priety of withholding the knowledge you pos- sess of such a questionable affair/ This argument had its effect on Mrs. Lennox, who said, after a moment's hesitation, ' My dear Ruth, will it not be well to let Mr. Dunn see the letter, since he has engaged that it shall be safe with him V 1 It will be safer here/ said Ruth, vehe- mently, while she drew out the letter and threw it on the small bright fire which the chilliness of the evening had rendered neces- sary. It was soon consumed, but not before Ruth had repented of the hasty impulse to which she had yielded. She felt that she had done her utmost to frustrate the last hope of clearing Jasper's name. Her mother was grieved; Mr. Dunn seriously offended; and, above all, there was the bitter consciousness that those parting words, so unspeakably pre- 184 STILL WATERS. cious to her, were now crumbled to ashes. She burst into tears, and quickly left the room. Yery stiffly Mr. Dunn arose, and wished Mrs. Lennox good evening, and returned to detail all the circumstances to his wife. He summed np the whole with the- remark, that the affair was extremely discreditable to Miss Lennox. Of course it was evident that Clinton had not a single extenuating circumstance to mention, or she would have been ready enough to bring it forward. Mrs. Dunn fully assented, and she also ascertained that her intimate friend Mrs. Smith was of the same opinion. The two ladies ajrreed that there could be but one motive for Ruth's conduct. 1 Though how/ Mrs. Smith added, c a sen- sible girl, as Ruth Lennox always appeared to be, could fall in love with that grave, heavy young man, one can hardly conceive. He had a bad countenance and no manner ; and Ruth has had so many advantages in her intimacy with Miss Gascoigne, that she ought to have known better/ Such remarks could not circulate through Holmdale without coming to the knowledge STILL WATERS. 1 85 of the Lennoxes ; but Isabel and her mother were more affected by them than Ruth herself. Passive, patient, and indifferent, the shadow lay too heavily on her spirit to be either deepened or disturbed by such passing breezes. There was one, however, who did not sub- mit so patiently to such insinuations. Placid as his temper was on all other occasions, Dr. Berkeley resented any aspersion on Ruth or discussion of her sentiments with indignant quickness ; and when it was discovered that the Doctor was ' rather touchy' on the subject, it was avoided in his presence. His opinion, however, had a certain weight ; and some began to admit that Ruth's determination to stand by Jasper was natural at least, if not quite justifiable, and that it might possibly arise from no deeper feeling than their youthful friendship. 1 Or, if she has been in love/ Miss Perrott said, plaintively, l so other people have been before, and yet they get over it and become sensible women after all/ As most of these differing opinions found their way to the Red House, Isabel chafed and fretted, protesting that she would never speak to Mrs. Dunn again ; and she asked 1 86 STILL WATERS. Ruth whether she would not now admit that her dear friends in Holnidale Mere far from perfection. But Ruth answered with a grave smile that, if there was any change, it was in themselves rather than in others ; and Mrs. Dunn's visits were returned as regularly as they had ever been. STILL WATERS. 187 CHAPTER XV. A tranquil spirit, as of one Who now in happy languor rests, Sore-wearied with his work well done, But through well-doing richly blest ; A spirit, as of one who broods On sorrows past, but unforgot, Whose heart, like heaven, the rainiest moods Leave softer, and without a blot. Lyxch. < A ND now, Isabel, tell me all about every- ■£*- thing/ It was David Lennox who made this com- prehensive request, on the day of his return to Holmdale after four years' absence. They sat together in the garden, Isabel clinging to her brother's side, as if unable to convince herself of the reality of her happiness, her eyes glittering, her cheeks flushing with proud plea- sure. ' Oh, David ! how very glad I am to have you once more/ ' Cela va sans dire. I am glad too, yet it 1 88 STILL WATERS. is not all pleasure. You had not prepared me, Isabel, for the change in my mother/ { Perhaps I do not see it as you do. It has been gradual ; and then any little thing upsets her, and your coming is not a little thing, so no wonder she looks nervous and shaken/ ' And, Ruth '/ continued David. ' It gave me a shock to reflect that there is little more than a year between us — she looks positively old and faded/ ' Ah, Ruth is changed/ said Isabel, sadly, while she looked up to the window, which was carefully closed, and darkened with jalousies ; 'but can you wonder, when even a plant is blanched and sickly which does not taste fresh air nor see the glorious sunshine ? Ruth sits always in that close, dark room, and her nights too are broken/ 1 1 remember/ said David, ' you wrote that mamma did not care to have any one about her but Ruth/ 'No/ said Isabel, the tears rising in her eyes ; c it is not that Ruth keeps me away, for she knows how I long to be of use; but it tires mamma to have more than one person in the room, and I think she has forgotten how STILL WATERS. 189 old I am now — really quite grown up, and able to do many things for her, if she would let me try/ ' You may well say that you have grown old, and I am not sure if that is not the most lamentable transformation of all/ said David, regarding his sister, however, with anything but dissatisfaction. 'With your hat tied so decorously under your chin, and your brown- holland dress without a soil or tumble, no one would suppose that you had ever run wild. You have positively become a young lady/ ' Not before it was time, David, unless I preferred skipping the intermediate stage, and landing in middle age. You know I was twenty last June. But how long you must have lived in barracks, not to know batiste from brown holland — my very best summer guise, which I put on on purpose to do you honour/ ' And your gloves upon your hands/ said David, continuing his inspection; 'how that reform would have rejoiced Jasper V ' Yes ; what a tribulation my dress was to Jasper, and how often he admonished me not to throw on my things headlong ! And he was still living among us when you were last 190 STILL WATERS. here, David. I know how Ruth must be re- minded of him in seeing you again/ ' What were really her relations with Jasper ? Through Gascoigne I hear more of the Holm- dale gossip than you deign to impart; and from something which the little heiress said or wrote to him, he gathered that Ruth was still wearing the willow on Clinton's account/ ' That is one of Clara's inconsequent stories/ said Isabel, indignantly ; ' she knows very well that, if Jasper was in love with any one, it was with herself/ ' Clinton in love with Miss Gascoigne '/ re- peated David, with an incredulous whistle ; ' that is rather preposterous. And it was a singular proof of attachment to abscond with her father's money/ f Oh, David, you must not say that — at least not before Ruth; for she does not believe it yet/ 'Then what does she think has become of him?' ' I cannot tell. Since she received that letter from him she has scarcely mentioned his name ; but I know quite well that he is not forgotten, and she seems to have some vague hope of his return. You know the window of STILL WATERS. 191 her room is in the opposite angle to mine, and I have often seen her open the shntter to look up and down the street, and then draw back with such a face of wistful sadness, as if it were quite a fresh disappointment/ ( Which, you must allow me to remark, Isabel, bears out Clara's romance, rather than yours. I am sorry for Ruth, and for Clin- ton also, be he an honest man or a thief; for he was certainly a very good fellow. I drove through Bean-street on my way here, and I see the old house is to let/ ' Yes ; it has been uninhabited since Martha gave it up two years ago. She quarrelled with her lodgers, and railed at the Holmdale people generally, until at last she gave up the place altogether, declaring it was too wicked to live in/ I Shook off the dust of her feet and departed. Now, Isabel, don't look shocked at that small levity. I am afraid that Ruth has made you as puritanical as herself/ I I wish she had, but I shall never be as good as Ruth. Not that I allow that she is puritanical, for the more severe she is on her- self, the greater allowance she makes for others. She never seems to have a will of her own, or 1 9 3 STILL WATERS. a wish to look beyond the day's work before her/ ' And you are not so contented ? Certainly your life must be sufficiently lonely and mono- tonous, if Ruth is so much with my mother/ 1 It is wrong to say so ; I should not say it to any one but you/ answered Isabel, ' and really there is much that is pleasant. We have the run of the Dyne Court library, and then I am never tired of gardening, and you will have to confess, Mr. Lennox, that the borders of scarlet geranium at Dyne Court are not half so gorgeous as mine. But sometimes I have a foolish craving for something less trivial and limited than the tone of Holmdale society, and I should like to have a peep into the gay world of which Clara talks so much, if I were sure that it would not make me frivolous/ 1 Poor Isabel V said David, pulling back her curls that he might see her glowing cheek, the action pleasantly recalling bygone days ; ' what a humiliating confession ! We will go and see the gay world represented at Dyne Court, that is, if we are ever asked/ ' We have been asked often enough hitherto. Clara is still constant to her first fancy to Ruth, and is always pressing her to come; but she STILL WATERS. 1 93 cannot leave mamma, and they don't like me to go alone. I fancy that there are strange doings when the house is full, for the last semblance of restraint departed with Madame La Kue, and Clara has it all her own way/ f Gascoigne says/ replied David, c that his cousin is the greatest coquette of his acquain- tance, and as he is himself in great request in ladies' society, I imagine that he has some ex- perience of the species. I suppose that she might have married three or four times over, if she had chosen/ ' I suppose so. At the end of every season they come down here with a fresh train. Lord Edward Lynmere is the only remaining one of the original set — the Forlorn Hope, as she calls him — and she uses him rather better than any of the others, although without caring for him in the least/ 'I should think/ said David, 'that such proceedings must outrage Sir John's views of propriety. ' Very possibly. She sometimes complains that papa has been dreadfully savage; which means, I imagine, that he has administered a lecture, only with the effect of making her more wilful than before. Her power over him VOL. I. O 194 STILL WATERS. is as absolute as over every one else, and I don't wonder at it, for she is certainly very attractive, and so pretty. She looks as young and fresh as she did at that Christmas party, years ago/ 1 So Gascoigne told me ; adding, that there was no recipe for wearing well so effectual as that of having no heart. I rather think he acts on that principle himself/ f Why, David, I fancied Captain Gascoigne was your best friend, and I was so giad to hear of his coming to Dyne Court this week. I have a pleasant recollection of his good- nature to me at that same Christmas party/ 1 He is pleasant enough/ said David ; ' quite the pleasantest man in the regiment, and I like him very much. But I don't know that I wish you to like him. Tell me about the Doctor ; does he haunt the house as much as ever V e The Doctor is flourishing/ replied Isabel ; ' an argument against that heart-less theory, for I am sure that he is large-hearted enough, and he is really quite rajeuni, or else I have grown up to him. He is more spruce in his dress, and his hair is not so ragged, and no greyer than when we first knew him. But there is one ominous sign of advancing years, and that is his STILL WATERS. 1 95 touchiness when I assnme that he is in the last stage of decrepitude ; he takes infinite pains to prove that forty-two is no such unparalleled age; in which, I dare say, he is right/ ' A candid admission/ said David, laughing, c from which I infer that you and the Doctor fence as much ever/ ' No, indeed, David. I have grown too old to be saucy, and so we are amicable, and rather appallingly sensible. He has transferred all his attentions to me, for he and Ruth are not the friends they were. She resented, or he fancied she resented, his lukewarmness in Jasper's cause, when Holmdale uplifted its voice against him. 'But what could I say/ the Doctor asked, piteously, ' when I had no means of disproving the accusations, and scarcely knew how to disbelieve them ?' And, though his impression of Ruth's coolness is in great mea- sure imaginary, there is certainly a constraint between them/ 'You must tell me no more about Ruth/ said David, ' for every fresh disclosure is more alarming than the last. Where does she mean to end, if even the Doctor is too secular for her?' ' Oh David, you misunderstand me. In- O 2 ig6 STILL WATERS. deed, we had better not talk of Ruth until you have learnt to think of her as she deserves/ David was amused by her tone of tremulous earnestness, and not remorseful for the emotion he had aroused, since he had no desire to forego a brother's privilege of teasing. Yet he felt guilty when, before the smile had passed from his lips, Ruth herself came along the gravel walk to join them. As David had hinted, her air was not consistent with her real age, for, although she might only count twenty-three summers, all youthful roundness of outline had departed from form and feature, her cheek was wan and faded, and the lassitude of her move- ments contrasted sadly with Isabel's elastic step, as she bounded towards her. ' Oh Ruth ! I am so glad that you have come out. I began to be afraid that you meant to sit at home all the afternoon, and it is so pleasant here — really quite hot/ ' Quite hot !' repeated David. ' What would you say if we had you on the Rock ? I have had secret longings for a great-coat/ ' No, really ! are you chilly ? I will fetch you two or three great -coats in a minute ; or we can go in and light a fire. I quite forgot your tropical habits/ STILL WATERS. 1 97 f Considering that I have never been south of Malta, it is creditable to your geographical knowledge to remember them now/ said David ; and Ruth laughed a pleasant laugh, which showed that she could still afford to be light- hearted. ( It is not my fault, David, nor yet Miss Lawly's, that Isabel's education was so neg- lected. Indeed, I think that Miss Lawly had abdicated before you left Holmdale, because Isabel was so determined to be a self-taught genius, that she never would learn anything in a legitimate way/ ' You prosaic people V retorted Isabel ; ' if you had any imagination, you would know that I only wished you to infer that the sun beats upon the Rock with almost tropical fervour, and that the people are indolent and chilly. I believe that I know more of Gibraltar than either of you, for I have read up the subject ever since the regiment was quartered there. And now do tell me, David, which coat you would like/ f No, I shall not/ said David, composedly. I I may have the tropical failings of being indo- lent and chilly ; and in a day or two I suppose we shall fall into our old relations, but as yet 198 STILL WATERS. I ana not disposed to send you on my errands. Besides, I shall be able to endure the severity of the climate for another half-hour, if you will let me have the sunny end of the bench/ The change was effected, and the half-hour passed pleasantly in that desultory talk, glancing on every subject and exhausting none, which a family re-union involves. But when the shadow of the wall overspread the last strip of chequered sunshine, Buth insisted that they should go home, since any chill might bring on a return of the Bock fever which had obliged David to apply for sick- leave. ' And besides/ the invariable con- clusion of her brief holiday-making — ' and besides, mamma must be wondering what has become of me/ 'You are right, Isabel/ said David, as they sauntered more leisurely after her along the path. l Buth has lost nothing but her good looks. She is not alarmingly virtuous, and she laughs at my wit, and tolerates my levity more readily than in days of yore/ Buth returned to her mother's room. The atmosphere, close and sickly as Isabel had de- scribed it to be, seemed more oppressive after the freshness of the outer air, and eyes less STILL WATERS. 1 99 accustomed to the obscure half-light would have found it difficult to discern the objects in the room ; but she made her way with ease to her mother's sofa, and said presently, as she caressed her feverish and wasted hand, f You look so tired, madre mia.' 'Yes, I am tired/ said Mrs. Lennox; and in her voice there was the plaintive and almost querulous note which betrays sleeplessness and wearing pain. ' David's voice was too much for me, though I did not like to vex him, poor boy, by asking him to speak lower/ ' He has not quite learned to modulate his voice to suit a sick room/ said Ruth ; c but still it has a pleasant tone. And his laugh, mamma — he did not laugh here for fear of tiring you, but it is quite as joyous as ever/ 1 Yes ; it is his old laugh — I heard him be- low the windows. And so you don't think him changed, Ruth.' ' Not spoiled, mamma, in the very least. He is so full of home-feelings, very frank in telling of his doings, and he and Isabel are as devoted to each other as ever. I was afraid that Isabel's anticipations were too great to be realized, but she is overflowing with hap- piness/ 2CO STILL WATERS. ' I am glad to hear it/ said Mrs. Lennox, 1 and you ought to be with them, Ruth, in- stead of moping here/ 1 1 am not moping, mamma/ said Ruth, a little wounded by her words, and then detect- ing the arriere pensee ; c I thought you might like to hear David's news at second-hand, but perhaps even my voice tires you/ 1 Not your voice, Ruth ; but my hearing is so painfully alive to-day, that any little thing tires me, and the click of your knitting -pins is such an irritating noise, and I know you don't like to be idle/ At other times Mrs. Lennox had found plea- sure in watching the movement of Ruth's deft fingers, so this source of annoyance was invo- luntary; but Ruth was remorseful, and laid her occupation aside, declaring that she was glad of an excuse for idleness. Mrs. Lennox was soon so interested by her report of David's talk that she was not at liberty to obey the summons to tea until her brother and sister had finished their meal, and had sauntered out again to enjoy the sweet summer twilight. The tea was cold, and the aspect of the deserted table calculated to offend an uncertain appetite, so her cup was soon STILL WATERS. 201 pushed aside, and she crept into a corner of the sofa, where, with the consciousness of being unobserved, came the expression of wistful sad- ness, in which the lines of her face so readily settled. She might chide her rebellious heart for the flood of recollections awakened by David's return, for the pining desire to see once more the form and features which were almost as familiar as those of her brother, and ever associated in her memory of their boyish days ; she might reproach herself for such re- pinings at a time when she ought only to have been glad and grateful, but still her thoughts went and came, and she was weary, too weary to resist them. Where was Jasper now ? — homeless, friend- less, perhaps not only in want of all which makes life lovely, but of its common neces- saries ; his footsteps, wherever they might lead him, still tracked by a sense of dishonour and a morbid fear of detection. On one contin- gency Ruth refused to dwell. She would not suppose that the disgrace was merited, either by his past or present conduct, for her belief in his innocence was cherished as trustfully as ever. ' And wherever he may be/ she thought, 'he is, and will always be, in His hand — 202 STILL WATERS. whether still a wanderer and an outcast here, or, if his day of trial is ended, and he is gone where no harm can touch him, and the strife of tongues not come nigh to vex him. If he were still alive, we should surely in all these years have had some communication/ And in thus admitting the possibility of his death, there was less bitterness than in the thoughts which had gone before. By such musings Ruth's brief intervals of solitude and repose were generally occupied. When the strain of continual watchfulness in- volved in her attendance on her mother was relaxed, she had not energy to prevent their recurrence, though well aware that they were neither wise nor salutary. What wonder that her cheek was pallid, her eye heavy, her form drooping ? — so that when David and Isabel re- entered, their bright young faces, glowing with health and animation, might almost seem to deny any kindred between them. STILL WATERS. 203 CHAPTER XVI. Love wakes men, once a life-time each : They lift their heavy lids and look ; And, lo ! what one sweet page can teach They read with joy, then shut the book ; And some give thanks, and some blaspheme, And most forget. The Angel in the Souse. '"REMEMBER, Evelyn/ said Clara Gas- -" coigne, on the following morning, as she left her cousin still lingering over his late breakfast; ' remember that you must not be beguiled into farming "with papa, nor walking with Lord Edward, for I shall want you to ride with me to Holmdale/ ' Of course, — to captivate young Lennox/ said Captain Gascoigne, with a smile of slight sarcasm. Clara's colour was a little heightened, but she disdained to notice the imputation, only saying, as she reached the door, ' Do you in- tend to go with me or not? for I can ask Lord Edward to be my squire/ c l am quite at your service, Cousin Clara/ 204 STILL WATERS. said Evelyn ; and so it was settled. Lord Ed- ward would willingly have gone en tiers, but Clara did not accede to the proposal. She said that she did not like to ride in a cavalcade; and the two cousins set out only attended by the old groom, who acted chaperon on these occasions. Sally informed Miss Gascoigne that the young ladies, or at least Miss Isabel, were in the garden, and springing from her horse, Clara led the way there. ' Prepare to be charmed/ she said, lightly ; ' Isabel may rival any of your Spanish beauties, for she is, in her own style, one of the handsomest people I know/ As she spoke, the brother and sister unex- pectedly emerged from one of the grass alleys, and she was so much struck by David's appear- ance that she omitted to mark, as she had in- tended, the impression made by Isabel on her cousin. It was true that David possessed no common share of manly beauty, nor was it wholly due to his fine expression and perfect regularity of feature; he was scarcely above the middle height, but slim, graceful, and alert, and there was something singularly striking in his noble and spirited bearing. Under these circumstances it was difficult to escape the STILL WATERS. 2Cj imputation of coxcombry; and though nothing could appear more unstudied than his dark shooting suit, just relieved by the loosely- knotted blue neckerchief, and a riband of the same shade round his straw hat, it was certain that no dress became him better; and perhaps he knew it. 2s o one might say the same of Isabel. With an air of proud, shrinking bashfulness which betrayed how far she was from wishing to court observation, she drew closer to her brother's side; and when Captain Gascoigne addressed her, her cheeks were mantled with a richer glow, nor could he win more than a hurried, side-long glance of those eyes whose singular beauty he had not forgotten. Of Captain Gascoigne's appearance no ac- count has been given, and he was one of those persons most easily described by negatives. He was neither dark nor fair, neither tall nor short, not well-looking, nor the reverse; his features were so little distinctive that no two persons who had passed half an hour in his company would agree in their account of the colour of his eyes or hair, the shape of his nose, or the height of his person, though generally unanimous in acknowledging his social qualities. 206 STILL WATERS. Isabel did not feel inclined to dissent from this opinion; his manners were remarkable for ease and self-possession, tempered by the most polished courtesy, which only high breeding can give, and in which the society of Holmdale was necessarily deficient. But she was morti- fied that its effect should only be to make her manner more constrained ; her answers would not flow, and she did not like to be deprived of such protection as David's presence afforded. He was detached from her side by Clara, who inveighed against the Lennox fashion of pacing the gravel walks, and incited David to flit with her among the flower beds, accepting or rejecting his proffered flowers with careless coquetry. ' I hope/ said Captain Gascoigne, as his eyes followed the other two, f that you don't think we have spoiled Lennox/ ' Oh no/ said Isabel, with a glow of plea- sure, for the tone of the inquiry satisfied her that Evelyn did not think so himself. 1 He seems very glad to be at home/ re- sumed Captain Gascoigne ; and this time Isabel answered, ' Oh yes/ Perhaps Clara discovered that the acquain- tance was not advancing at a rapid pace, for she STILL WATERS. 207 good-naturedly came to the rescue with an inquiry after Ruth. l It is of no use asking where she is — behind that green jalousie, of course. Do you think that it would be of any use to send up a message that a person wishes to speak to her on business V I You have cried c wolf 3 too often/ said Isabel; 1 Ruth never receives such a message now, without cautiously inquiring whether it is Miss Gascoigne/ ' But I do really want to see her on busi- ness — to sanction my carrying you off, Isabel, for a three days' visit next week. Mr. Len- nox gives his consent, and engages to watch over your principles and manners, which I know Ruth expects me to corrupt. Do you think it will be permitted V e I will ask mamma, and let you know/ said Isabel. I I shall think Mr. Lennox a most faint- hearted brother if he does not carry the point j and I warn him that he will be very ill received if he comes alone/ ' I will take care/ said David, not looking much alarmed by the threat. ' I hope that the visit is fixed for the begin- ning of the week/ said Evelyn ; ' my family, 208 STILL WATERS. most unreasonably, require me to join them at Scarborough without delay/ 1 Are you going so soon, Gascoigne?' said David. ' I understood that you were to pass your leave here/ 'So he will/ rejoined Clara; f the Captain likes to magnify his importance by threat- ening to withdraw his august presence ; but we all know that he is not likely to take his departure at the beginning of the shooting season, in order to become a marine animal at Scarborough/ f I confess that it is not an attractive pic- ture/ said Evelyn. ' Miss Lennox looks as if she thought me wholly destitute of natural affection, so I must explain that I passed three days with my mother and sisters in town/ 1 Three nights, rather/ said Clara ; ' for all day you were in Belgrave-square, or riding with me in Rotten-row/ ' Because I was only in the way at home. The house was bouleverse, in consequence of the impending move to Scarborough, and there was not a chair to sit down upon, nor a meal fit to eat/ Isabel would have thought such sentiments heartless from the lips of another ; but, per- STILL WATERS. 2C0. haps, her perceptions were blunted by the easy indifference with which they were spoken. It was evident that Captain Gascoigne liked to make himself out worse than he really was ; and besides, his connexion with Dyne Court had always appeared more close than that with his own family, since he, as heir to the baronetcy, was Sir John's especial charge. ' You will come then/ said Clara, as David placed her on her horse ; ' and bring Isabel. Tell Ruth there is no very alarming dissipation.' ' We shall not fail/ replied David ; adding, as soon as the cousins had ridden off, ( you could not see the world under better auspices, Isabel/ ' I thought you would admire her/ said Isabel, ashamed of an indefinite dissatisfaction in finding her anticipations fulfilled. c Who could not help it ? I never saw more perfect grace ; and, without meaning any disrespect to you, I have lived too long among olive complexions not to appreciate her delicate fairness — ' Quel colore, Che non e pallidezza, ma candore.' ' 1 Oh, David ! do you still keep up your Italian V vol. 1. p 210 STILL WATERS. ' Not I. That quotation is a vestige of our old readings of the Gerusalemme. But don't go off into a literary discussion, for I have not half done with Miss Gascoigne/ There was a moment's hesitation in pronouncing her name. Formerly he had called her Clara, but now that he had seen her, he felt that it was too great a liberty. ' It was only a digression. Go on/ said Isabel. ( You have interrupted the chain of my ideas. I don't know that I was going to say anything more important than to remark on her sunny hair, and on the sunshine there is about her. altogether/ ' So there is/ said Isabel. ' She is one of those who { smiling live, and call life pleasure/ ' f And what do you call it, may I inquire V said David, amused, as well as surprised by her thoughtful tone. ' I don't know ; I have not made up my mind. Ruth has found life ' a business, not good cheer/ ' ' Ah, Ruth — but I hope that we need not all make such woful discoveries. And that reminds me, Isabel, that Ruth positively must not spend this fine afternoon in the house. I STILL WATERS. 21 1 shall go and offer to take her place for an hour/ Isabel shook her head doubtfully ; but she was not sorry that another should make the attempt in which she had been so often baffled, and she only warned David to go up stairs quietly, since this was her mother's most languid hour of the day. In compliance with the hint, he broke off the tune he was whistling when he reached the first floor, little dreaming that no sound had escaped his mother's ner- vously acute hearing from the time he slammed the house door, and began to ascend the creaking old stair, taking two steps at a time. Ruth was reading aloud, in the low, well- modulated tone which had soothed many an hour of pain and weariness ; and Mrs. Lennox looked up, discomposed, though not displeased, by the interruption. ( Well, David, have you come in from your walk V ' No, mother. We have not been farther than the garden, but there is time enough yet; and while it is so fine, I want to send Ruth out for a turn, and sit with you/ ' Mamma will be more fit for a- talk after tea j that is her best time/ said Ruth. p 2 2U STILL WATERS. ' This is the best time for a walk/ said David, mischievously. ( Now ; Ruth, let me play nurse for once. You shall see how well I can do it/ It was injudicious to carry on the discus- sion before Mrs. Lennox, who looked nervous and uncomfortable ; and David did not mend his cause by an unlucky stumble over a stool which stood in a dark corner by the fender, sending down the fire-irons with an outrageous clatter. ' It is very good of you to think of me/ said Mrs. Lennox ; ' and, as you say, Ruth ought not to lose the fine afternoon. I do not mind being alone/ 1 But, mamma/ said Ruth, ' I would rather finish our reading first/ ' And you will not let me finish it for you/ said David. 'Not to-day/ replied Mrs. Lennox. 'My head is so weak that I could not bear a strange voice. You are quite right to think of Ruth, who ought to spare herself much more than she does ; and it is my own fault, for my long illness has made me selfish and inconsi- derate/ ' Oh, mamma V said Ruth, pleadingly, c why STILL WATERS. 213 will you say such things, when you know that it is my great happiness to be with you V 1 So great, that you will allow no one else to share it/ said David, provoked with himself as soon as the words had passed his lips. He felt the injustice of the retort, and he had dis- composed both Ruth and his mother with no good result. Mrs. Lennox repeated that she should not at all mind being left alone, adding — ' If I take a good rest now, I shall be able to enjoy David's visit in the evening, and I am sure that I can bear no more reading now/ c Then you will let me sit by you and be quiet/ said Ruth. ' I really would rather go out later; and David ought to go and call on the Doctor, who must be longing to see him, and only refrained from calling lest he should be in the way/ David acquiesced, and he left Mrs. Lennox remorseful for her exacting habits, while Ruth tormented herself with trying to ascertain the truth of his accusation, quite ready to believe that her love for her mother was too encroach- ing and made her unmindful of others. And yet she could not love her less, nor desist from 214 STILL WATEKS. those gentle offices on which Mrs. Lennox was so dependent. After all, Ruth might have spared herself as much of her distress as was due to the con- sciousness of having vexed David, for the cloud had vanished from his open brow before he reached the foot of the stairs. 1 It will not act/ he said to Isabel ; ' I only- make matters worse by meddling. And since Ruth will not follow my advice, I must follow hers, and go and call on the Doctor/ ' I will go with you/ said Isabel ; c I would not miss the first interview on any account/ ' I suppose there is no harm/ said David ; and Isabel laughed merrily at his scruples. ' You very absurd person ! As if there could be any harm in visiting the Doctor, who has been grandfather to the family from the time we could run alone/ Not unwilling to be convinced, David offered his arm, and they walked down the High-street together, Isabel's smile of proud affection be- traying her conviction that all who saw must envy her the possession of such a brother. The cricket-ground attached to the school awakened some sage reflections on the lapse of time, for boys were playing as zealously, and sisters look- STILL WATERS. 215 ing on with as eager an interest, as in the days when David and Isabel there bore a part. The low irregular building which formed the master's house also reminded David of many a scurry along the gravel-walk, with the theme or copy of verses which ought to have been presented in the study ten minutes before. And when the old housekeeper opened the door — in the identical cap, as David whispered, which she had worn in days of yore — her features relaxed into a grim smile of recognition, although she seemed doubtful whether ' Master Lennox' had outgrown the age when he, in common with the rest of his species, must be regarded as the natural enemy of herself and her master, and she was disposed to resist any invasion of the study. David, however, knew his way along the dark passage too well to wait for an intro- duction, and he led the way for Isabel, scarcely waiting for an answer to his knock, before he opened the door. 1 Come in/ said Dr. Berkeley, without look- ing up from his desk, and expecting some application in the approved school-boy for- mula, — ' Oh, if you please, sir I 1 — so that he was unprepared for Isabel's joyous greet- ing. 2 1 6" STILL WATEKS. ' Now, Dr. Berkeley, do you see what I have brought V ' Miss Isabel V the Doctor said ; adding, after only a moment's perplexity, ' Is it David ? my dear boy, how you have grown V ' Yes ; does he not look w r ell V said Isabel, hovering round him, as if beginning her inspec- tion for the first time ; c we feel quite hurt that you never came to see him/ ' And Ruth thought you might be modest, so she sent us here/ added David. f It was very kind of her, and of you. And now, Miss Isabel, do take my chair/ for the Doctor awoke to the discovery that his accom- modation for visitors was limited, and it was more easy to relinquish his own seat than to disengage any other from the books with which they were piled. But Isabel refused the post of dignity, and drew out a small stool which had been the joint present of Ruth and herself, an early essay in tapestry work; David made himself quite at home on a corner of the table ; and the Doctor resumed his seat, and composed himself for a talk. One of his first inquiries was whether David found many changes in the place. e Fewer in this room than elsewhere/ he re- STILL WATERS. 21 7 plied ; c I could almost fancy myself a boy again, and that I had come to hear your friendly criticisms on some copy for which I gained kvSch; in school/ c Ah V said the Doctor, reproachfully ; ' I was thinking this morning that, if you had gone on as you began, you would have got a first- class by this time, and been within sight of a fellowship/ ' It is a sad falling off, indeed/ said Isabel ; ' but his mind has not wholly run to waste. He can stand an examination in the Army List, calculate his chances of promotion, and explain the intricacies of a brevet. He has explained them to me twice this morning already, and I am sorry to say that I don't understand the matter any better than before/ ' However, Miss Isabel/ said the Doctor, c it will not do to set him against his profession, for I suppose it is too late to change/ ' If I wished it/ said David ; c but I assure you I don't repent of my choice/ and Dr. Berkeley felt that, if he still cherished the un- happy delusion, there was no more to be said. He reverted to his former remark. ' From what you said just now, David, I conclude that vou do find changes elsewhere?' 2l8 STILL WATERS. 'At home, chiefly. You know that, when I was here last, my mother ased to like to see people in her dressing-room, even when she was too unwell to come down stairs : but now she is scarcely equal to seeing me. and the house seems strange and unhomclike. And then there is Ruth.' 1 Yes. indeed !' said the Doctor, sighing ; 1 all that is too sad to talk about/ 'Then there is the break-up of the Bean- street manage,' continued David : ' that has taken place since I went away, and one mi- Jasper : otherwise llolnidale seems to go on much as it used to do. We met Miss Perrott and her standing complaint of rheumatism, and she does not look a day older. And I hear that you keep up a succession of Dunns not a whit more manageable than their senior.' 'And without you and Clinton to keep them in order.' said the Doctor ; ' but. perhaps, they may not turn out so ill after all, for one never can tell. You see how I have been disappointed in my two most promising pupils/ David laughed : but Isabel was more indig- nant than amused. ' Really, Dr. Berkeley, it is hardly fair to class David and Jasper together now/ STILL WATERS. 210. 'Your sister would think it fair, Miss Isabel/ ' But / do not/ I Then I am sorry that I said anything to hurt you/ answered the Doctor; and Isabel was mollified, and rather ashamed of her petulance. I I am not hurt/ observed David ; c for Jasper's unhappy story can hardly appear more incomprehensible to Ruth than it does to me. I should have supposed that I was more likely to have run off with my neighbour's money myself, remembering his abhorrence of anything which bordered on shuffling j so that his code of honour was far higher than that of the school in general. He must have acted on some uncontrollable impulse, and it is enough to make one believe that vice is hereditary/ ' There is no use talking of it/ said the Doctor ; and Isabel laughingly declared that, if so many subjects were barred, there would be nothing left to say. Conversation did not flag, however, and the Doctor was at last obliged to turn them out without ceremony, as they lingered beyond the hour for going into school. They set forth on a pleasant, sauntering walk along the river, returning rather late for tea, 220 STILL WATERS. at which Ruth was waiting to preside; and while Isabel went to lay aside her bonnet, there was an opportunity for the desired ex- planation with David, of which Ruth availed herself. 'I know, David/ she said, in a quiet, mat- ter-of-fact voice, ' that I am very dictatorial and disagreeable/ I Indeed ! I am exceedingly sorry to hear it/ said David, laughing. But Ruth was quite in earnest. f And yet I hardly see how it is to be helped. It is partly because I began to manage things when I was too young, and now you see mamma has got used to my ways, and one does not like to do anything to vex her/ ' As I did just now/ said David. I I did not mean that. I was wondering how much was my fault, and if it is possible for you to be more with mamma, since you wish it/ ' I do wish it, Ruth ; but chiefly for your sake. I cannot wonder that mamma wishes to have you with her, but still you ought to spare yourself. Every one — even the Doctor, whose eyes are not of the brightest — remarks how ill and altered vou look/ STILL WATERS. 221 ' Ah, that is nothing. I am really quite strong/ David could only shake his head incredu- lously, for Isabel and the urn came in together, and there the explanation ended — rather un- satisfactorily, as explanations are apt to do. 223 STILL WATEKS. CHAPTER XVII. Alas for pleasure on the sea, And sorrow on the shore ! The smile that blest one lover's heart Has broken many more. Hood. rpHE change which David proposed to make -*- in his mother's habits and manner of life could not be put in practice at present, since his own time was fully occupied in re- ceiving the visits of his acquaintance in Holm- dale. He bore the infliction more good- humouredly than Isabel, who was intolerant of the reminiscences of various old ladies who had known him when he was no higher than the table, and now remarked in an audible aside that he was really a handsome youth. Captain Gascoigne's entrance drove away Miss Perrott, just as she was taking a fresh start on the subject of rheumatism, and David greeted him with animation, declaring that a cloth coat was a pleasant variety on the fifth barege shawl which he had had the honour of showing out that day. STILL WATERS. 223 'Yes, it is really too dreadful/ ejaculated Isabel j ' and I know that the United Service will next be upon us. I met him this morning, and he said that he should certainly call on Mr. David/ ' However, I presume that the United Ser- vice, whoever he may be, does not wear a barege shawl/ said Captain Gascoigne. ' No ; but he is a greater bore than fifty old women/ said David. ' I tell you what, Gascoigne, I shall go out and smoke, and you can make your visit just as well by the river side/ 1 1 was not going to inflict a visit upon you/ replied Evelyn ; c my cousin sent me to know if we might expect you on Monday/ ' Oh yes ; I believe Ruth has already writ- ten to say so. Now do, Gascoigne, come out before we are caught/ Captain Gascoigne still demurred, glancing at the broad-leafed hat upon the table, while Isabel wore her brown-holland jacket and rose- coloured neckerchief. ' I must not/ he said, ' interfere with your sister's walk/ 1 Isabel may come too/ said David, ' without prejudice to the enjoyment of our cigar. She is too much of a gitana to mind it/ 224 STILL WATERS. ' Then you must wait for Ruth/ said Isabel ; 1 she promised to walk with us this afternoon/ ' We can wait for uo one/ replied David, starting up at the sound of the door-bell. ' If you will follow with Ruth, you will find us by the willow/ And he made a hasty exit by the window, followed by Captain Gascoigne, while Isabel ran out into the passage to instruct Sally that Mr. David had just gone out. She next went in search of Ruth, and they came down the path across the meadow before the gentlemen had made much progress in their cigars. ' So that is Captain Gascoigne/ said Ruth, when near enough to distinguish his features. ' I remember at that Christmas party thinking him rather well-looking/ With an unaccountable inclination to stand on the defensive, Isabel answered hurriedly, that she did not think him otherwise now. ' He is not remarkable either way/ said Ruth ; f and he certainly looks like a gentle- man, which is all that signifies/ 'Already!' Evelyn said to Isabel, after exchanging a more formal greeting with her sister. ' What have you done with the United Service V STILL WATERS. 225 ' Oh/ said Isabel, laughing and colouring, ' he only asked for Mr. Lennox/ ( And now/ said David, ' where are we to go ? Will it be too far for Ruth if we take the footpath to Bruton's mill ? I have a great desire to go nutting once more in the hazel copse/ ' It will not be too far, will it, Ruth, if you take David's arm? — that is a great help/ said Isabel ; and with the proffered aid Ruth thought that she could accomplish the walk. Isabel led the way with Captain Gascoigne ; and Ruth was surprised, and not very well pleased to find one of whom they knew so little already admitted to habits of intimacy. And when, as was soon the case, her languid movements were outstripped by Isabel's brisk step, she ventured to impart some of her mis- givings to David. 1 1 hope that you will take care of Isabel when you get to Dyne Court, David.' I Oh yes, of course. I see what you mean ; but you need not be afraid of any intentions in that quarter. Gascoigue is not at all a marrying man.' I I should think/ said Ruth, l that would be an additional reason for caution.' VOL. I. Q 226 STILL WATERS. • ' Not at all/ said David, for the instinct of opposition was awakened. ' Surely two people may talk and laugh together, and no harm follow. Though, after all, if Gascoigne were to settle down as Benedict the married man, Isabel is just the one to attract him, for she has so much freshness and originality, to say nothing of her beauty. And she might do worse, for Gascoigne is a pleasant fellow, and his prospects are good enough, and his luck infallible, or he could never have got his com- pany at six-and-twenty/ ' Pleasantness, luck, and prosperity ! so that is all you can say for your friend/ said Ruth. ' My dear Ruth/ answered David, impa- tiently, ' when I conceive that there is any likelihood of his becoming my brother-in-law, it will be time enough to discuss his moral character. Considering that you assume to be a sensible and practical woman, I wonder that you allow your imagination to run away with you so far as to compress a three-volume novel into a visit of as many days. Isabel is thinking as much of love as I am/ Could Isabel have guessed the subject of discussion between her brother and sister, it would have called an indignant colour to the STILL WATERS. 227 cheek which now glowed with a blush of simple pleasure. It was difficult to withstand the influence of Captain Gascoigne's powers of conversation ; and amid downcast looks, and shy retiring smiles, she betrayed some of the playful daring of her natural manner, ven- turing to rally his ignorance, when he con- fessed his inability to distinguish between Swedes and turnips. 'It is very disgraceful/ he said, laughing; 1 and Sir John is mortified by the discovery that I have no agricultural tastes. But, per- haps, I may do better, if you will undertake my instruction/ ' I know nothing of farming/ said Isabel • { but one cannot walk through the fields with- out seeing things/ ' I don't care about things. Human nature is a more amusing study/ ' Oh, do you think so V ( That question implies dissent, Miss Lennox/ 1 Certainly ; I don't agree with you at all. In history and books people are all very well, but they are apt to be a disappointment in real life — tiresome and commonplace/ 1 Which turnips are not/ said Evelyn ; and Isabel was amused by the retort. Q % 228 STILL WATERS. c I suppose that I am unlucky, and only fall in -with the human turnips, — people who are more useful than ornamental/ 1 You must have been unlucky indeed/ said Captain Gascoigne. ' In my limited acquain- tance with the society of Holmdale, I do not miss the element of beauty/ Isabel understood his meaning without tak- ing offence, as for consistency's sake she ought to have done, since she had been wont to resent a compliment as a studied insult. But then she had never before been addressed with such graceful ease and readiness. c Clara says, as you do, that there is more to admire and enjoy in a room full of people than in the most beautiful view/ ' I do not say so, Miss Lennox. I prefer the view when I am allowed a companion to admire and enjoy it with me. Indeed, I can desire nothing pleasanter than the quiet, home- like beauty of such a walk as this/ ' I am so glad you are worthy of it. Some people are quite ill-natured to our country; call it tame and uninteresting, and never learn to love it as I do. Now, can anything be prettier than that reach of the river shut in by the clump of trees V In turning to point STILL WATERS. 229 out the reach in question, Isabel first discovered how far they had outstripped their companions ; and she said, with a heightened colour, and an accession of embarrassment — e We have walked too fast for Ruth/ c We can wait till they come up ; there is a good seat on the stile/ said Captain Gascoigne ; but Isabel preferred walking back to meet them j an elaborate piece of discretion for which David rewarded her by rallying such superfluous activity. ' But, as you have come back/ he said, ' Gas- coigne may tell us who we are to meet at Dyne Court, and if there is any one we know/ c There is Raeburn — I remember he was at the famous Christmas party at which we first met ; but you will not know him again, for he is transformed from a cub into a dashing young Guardsman, though I think I can detect the element of cubbism still. There are the two Courtowns, — the eldest is at Cambridge, a mathematical genius and rather a prig, but Gerry is as great a schoolboy as ever, though old euough to know better. And Lord Edward Lynmere, — I suppose you know him/ 1 Only by reputation. My sisters have met him/ 2JO STILL WATERS. ' He is a good deal at Dyne Court, I fancy/ ' Yes/ Ruth answered ; c he has paid a long visit every autumn for the last four years/ 'Poor Lyntnere/ said Captain Gascoigne ; 1 he does not consort much with the young set, but goes farming with Sir John, and looks mightily bored by such agricultural proceedings. These are the present inmates ; but there is a fresh arrival to-morrow, — Mr. and Lady Maria AYentworth, and a mother and daughter whose names I have forgotten/ ' You had better stop there/ said David, laughing ; l Isabel looks as if her heart failed her at the prospect of encountering such a multitude/ e It is alarming/ said Isabel. ' Clara said that there would be hardly any one/ ' At all events/ said Evelyn, lightly, ' the party will not consist entirely of strangers. My cousin/ he added, turning to Ruth, ' wished me to ask if it is quite impossible for you to be of the number V ( Quite impossible, thank you/ said Ruth, briefly, for she felt that Clara was too well acquainted with the nature of her home ties to render any explanation necessary. STILL WATERS. 23 1 For the rest of the walk the party kept together, and the talk lay chiefly between the two gentlemen. Isabel was happy and amused, and only disturbed by a misgiving that her satisfaction was not shared by Ruth. Even her smiles did not chase the expression of languid weariness from her face; and when, they parted from Captain Gascoigne at the door of the Red House, and David asked if he was not a pleasant fellow, Ruth only said ' Yes, very/ and ran up stairs to see how her mother had fared during her unusually long absence. It was a good clay with Mrs. Lennox, and Dr. Berkeley had been admitted to the dress- ing-room, awaiting the return of the young people, since he had consented to stay to tea, in order to have a good talk with David. So Mrs. Lennox had not wanted society, and as soon as Ruth had told her news she sent her down stairs to entertain the Doctor. Ruth instantly set to work to sew a trim- ming on a muslin skirt of Isabel's, with an apology for its dimensions, as not exactly suited to the drawing-room. c But if I don't work at it here/ she said, c I shall never get it done, for the muslin makes such a crack- 232 STILL WATERS. ling and rustling that I cannot take it into mamma's room/ ( Ruth hears with mamma's ears/ remarked David ; ' I don't hear a sound.' ' Because you are a giant of strength, and your nerves are made of whipcord/ said Isabel. * Next time I see Mr. Ball, I mean to remind him of his sinister predictions, founded on the fact of your having no stamina. I remember how the hard word puzzled me, and I went surreptitiously to look for it in Johnson, and was not much enlightened by finding that it was a botanical term.' 'It is a very pretty trimming/ said the Doctor, who had taken a seat near Ruth, and was watching her proceedings. l You will make quite a sensation, Miss Isabel.' ' Entirely owing to Ruth's trimming/ added David. c Observe how careful the Doctor is not to minister to your vanity.' 1 Isabel is more likely to make a sensation if she is not well dressed/ said Ruth; ' there are to be all sorts of fine people there.' ' Now, Ruth/ said Isabel, imploringly; ' don't talk as if you wished to withdraw your sanction from such dangerous dissipation. I do really mean to be discreet.' STILL WATERS. 233 ' I know you do/ said Ruth, smiling ; ' and I am very glad there is to be a party, because you have always longed to see something of the great world/ 1 A curiosity which you don't share V said the Doctor. And Ruth answered briefly, ' Not at all/ Isabel was never satisfied until she had dived into the meaning of her sister's half-sentences, although the process was often sufficiently labo- rious. 'Do you mean, Ruth, that you don't care, or you don't think it right ?' 1 If I thought it wrong, Isabel, I should not be glad that you are going.' f But do you think it wrong for yourself?' 1 I don't wish to go, that is all/ said Ruth. f A settler for you, Isabel/ remarked her brother ; and because Isabel looked vexed, Ruth attempted to explain her meaning. ' I mean that, from the little I have seen of fine people, I doubt if I should ever feel at home with them. I don't find that I have much in common even with Clara, though we have known her so long, and I do really like her very much.' ' For my part/ said David, ( I shall not complain if Miss Gascoigne's manners are a 234 STILL WATERS. sample of what we are to find at Dyne Court/ ' I was not thinking altogether of manner/ said Ruth • ' for in manner one hardly sees two people in the same set alike. But they don't see things from the same point of view as we do/ 1 Ruth is as bad as Uriah Heep/ said Isabel, ' always crackling her knuckles, and saying ' how 'umble we are/ Now I believe that the Lennoxes are as good as the Gascoignes or the TVentworths, or any one you choose to name/ ' Very possibly; but perhaps the Went worths don't think so/ 1 Then we must enlighten them/ said David. 'And, besides/ said Isabel, f it seems to me that it is only another form of pride to avoid consorting with people lest they should look down upon you; don't you think so, Dr. Berkeley V ' It depends/ he replied ; and David laughed at the Doctor's diplomatic answer. 'Very likely it may be pride/ said Ruth; e I told you that I did not know whether it was right or wrong. But I do know that I feel like a foreigner in an exclusive set, which STILL WATERS. 235 has its own interests, and even its own expres- sions/ ' The truth is/ said the Doctor, speaking as he was apt to do of Ruth rather than to her; ' the truth is, that Miss Lennox has always sought her happiness where her dnties lie.' ' That remark is aimed at me/ remarked Isabel, c because you suspect me of disloyalty to Holmdale/ c It is not a suspicion, Miss Isabel, but a certainty." ' Though, after all/ said Isabel, c you do not greatly affect the Holmdale tea-parties/ ' I am too old for such frivolities/ 1 And 1/ retorted Isabel, c am too young for such solemnities. When I attain to middle age, and to mediocrity in general, I may find them as charming as Ruth does — in theory/ ' I never said that they were charming/ said Ruth ; ' only that it was not worth while to make a grievance of what was, after all, but a two hours' penance/ ' Such an attractive picture of society / said David. f TThen Isabel and I accepted the invita- tion to Dyne Court, it was in hopes of finding it a pleasure, not a penance/ c Lord Edward Lynmere is there/ remarked 2$6 STILL WATERS. the Doctor; Mie called on me the other day, and he is very sensible and agreeable, although his infatuation for the little heiress is no great proof of his wisdom. And what do you think of this Captain Gascoigne ? Mrs. Lennox said that he was walking with you to-day/ 1 Oh, he is a very good fellow/ said David ; 'but not at all in Lord Edward's way, from what I have heard of that worthy/ Ruth and Isabel forbore to express an opinion. STILL WATERS. 2^ J CHAPTER XVIII. Wie hiess die Fee ? Lili. Fragt nicht nach ihr ! Kennt Ihr sie nicht, so danket Gott dafiir. Welch ein Geraiisch, welch ein Gegacker, Wenn sie sich in die Thiire stellt, Und in der Hand das Futter-korbchen halt, Welch ein Gequick, welch ein Gequacker, So stiirzen sich ganze Heerden zu ihren Fiissen. Goethe. ll/TONDAY was rainy, and the sound of ■*** carriage-wheels grinding the wet gravel was hailed as a welcome diversion by the party gathered in the drawing-room at Dyne Court, rather tired of each other's society, and begin- ning to wonder how soon it would be lawful to retire to their respective rooms, to enjoy a cup of servants' tea, and skim through a three- volume novel, until dressing-time. Captain Gascoigne did not wait for his cousin's bidding to go out into the hall to welcome the Len- noxes ; and his presence made the introduction to so many strangers appear less formidable to Isabel. David had not danced at all the garrison 238 STILL WATERS. balls, and paid morning visits to the officers' -wives, without acquiring the easy fluency which was, not long since, considered the distinguishing characteristic of his profession ; and before Isabel was sufficiently reassured to raise her eyes, he had entered into conver- sation with Lady Maria Wentworth, and had made the interesting discovery of her near re- lationship to his best friend, Harry Newry. Lady Maria, as Isabel determined, after one or two fleeting glances, ' must be easy to get on with/ Though no longer young, she had some remains of beauty ; she was fair and stately, and her manner was open and pleasant. The tall, middle-aged gentleman, with a bald head and a benevolent aspect, who leaned against the mantelpiece and listened to all she said with such devoted attention, must be her husband, Mr. TTentworth. And further, Isabel could not pursue her researches at present, since her attention was claimed by Sir John. ' A sad rainy day, is it not, Miss Lennox ? only fit for the ducks, and particularly annoying with a houseful of company. And if the fine weather had lasted for two days more, all my fields would have been cleared/ ' You are more forward than vour neigh- STILL WATERS. 239 hours/ said Isabel ; c it was quite distressing to see so much standing corn as we came along/ In return for her sympathy, Isabel was favoured with a calculation of the probable amount of damage which must ensue from this change of weather. She did not find the sub- ject much more entertaining than those current at the Holm dale tea-parties, and she was grate- ful to Captain Gascoigne for effecting a diver- sion. ( You can tell us, Sir John/ he said, ' how low the glass fell last night. Lynmere was asking just now/ Sir John turned to satisfy Lord Edward's curiosity, and his place was promptly supplied by his nephew. ' I hope, Miss Lennox, that our long walk on Saturday was not too much for you/ ' Oh, no, thank you. I did not find it long, and I should have liked to go round by the Ashes, only that would have been too far for Ruth/ ' I saw by your face just now/ said Captain Gascoigne, ' that you are rather intolerant of weather topics, or I should hope that the rain may not continue, to interfere with an exploring walk to-morrow. You need not be alarmed/ 240 STILL WATERS. he added, observing with a smile that Isabel coloured at this instance of his penetration; ' you did not betray yourself to Sir John, and I certainly shall not betray you. Now, do tell me what we shall do with another rainy day/ c I shall not much mind/ said Isabel ; ( for I know all the walks round here, and they are not half so pretty as our own. I shall go and dig in the library, and make a list of the books I want to read, and dip into those which are too heavy to carry away. There is a Hol- linshed ' Captain Gascoigne had acquired abroad the habit of shrugging his shoulders with true foreign action, and the gesture was accompa- nied by a comic look of horror, at which Isabel could not forbear to laugh. ' A Hollinshed ! Do you really propose to study a black letter chronicle by way of a pleasant recreation V ' It is not black letter/ replied Isabel ; ' but a folio edition of 1635, beautifully printed, as most books of that date are/ 1 Then you are a connoisseur in type, Miss Lennox V ' It is a hobby of the Doctor's/ said Isabel, STILL WATERS. 241 colouring ; ' and I have acquired a little of the taste from him/ ' I hope that Dr. Berkeley is well/ said Lord Edward Lynmere, turning round at the sound of his name. An acquaintance begun by a casual meeting at the Red House was now ripening into friendship, in spite of the contrast between what Isabel called Lord Edward's grand courteous manner, and the Doctor's rather quaint simplicity. ' The Doctor ! J said Clara, also catching at the name. ' I have not told you, Isabel, how, on your account and that of Lord Edward, I have despatched an invitation to him for to-morrow night. But do you think that you could, in compassion to my ignorance, give him a friendly hint not to talk either Hebrew or Sanscrit V ' The Doctor/ said Isabel, ' like all really learned men, makes no parade of his knowledge/ 'You alarm me more and more/ said Cap- tain Gascoigne. ' With how many learned men do you claim acquaintance V 1 Only with the Doctor/ said Isabel, again laughing and blushing ; ' but he is a host in himself/ ' Do you think that he will come, Miss Len- VOL. I. R 242 STILL WATERS. nox? J saidLordEdward, who had looked eager and interested from the moment that Clara professed to have made the imitation partly on his account. 1 1 hope he will/ said Evelyn, before she could reply ; l for he has a prior claim to Hol- linshed, and so I may escape/ 'Even if the Doctor does not come/ said Clara, ' Isabel may find some one to share her literary tastes. Shall I introduce you to Mr. James Courtown, that studious youth in spectacles, who has been reading ever since breakfast/ ' Nothing very deep, however/ said Isabel, glancing across the room ; ' it is Nicholas Nickleby, by the cover/ ' No, is it, really V said Clara, much amused. 1 You know our books, outside and in, so much better than I do. I thought it was something dreadfully learned/ 1 1 had an indistinct idea that the young man was an imposition/ observed Captain Gascoigne, ' and yet I was almost taken in by the air of dignified decision with which he waived off his brother, when he proposed a walk. Did you see the scene, Clara V ' Between Gerry and Jem ?' said Clara. ' Yes, I was much edified. But Jem was so STILL WATERS. 243 far justified in standing on his dignity, that Gerry was only reduced to his brother when he failed in getting any other companion. He applied to me among the rest ; but I hinted that I was not amphibious, and instanced you, Isabel, as the only young lady of my acquain- tance who was gifted with that convenient property, and went out in all weathers in boots of fabulous thickness. Thereupon he brightened up, and said he was glad you were coming, for he remembered dancing with you at a Christmas party, and thinking you rather jolly. I hope you appreciate the compliment/ ' Yes/ said Isabel ; ( I have seen enough of schoolboys to understand the force of the epithet/ ' I remember/ said Evelyn, e that Gerry and his companions became rather jolly at supper that night, so that you were glad to escape from their attentions/ ' They were rather rough/ said Isabel, re- calling the scene and the favourable contrast presented by Evelyn's more polished manners ; ' but he was very merry and good-humoured/ In such general talk she was happy and at ease, and the interruption was unwelcome when David crossed the room to say that Lady R 2 244 STILL WATERS. Maria Wentwortli wished to be introduced to her. She complied with an accession of shy- ness, yet Lady Maria contrived to be as much charmed with her glowing beauty as she had already been with her brother's powers of conversation ; and disregarding a piteous glance from Isabel's speaking eyes, David conceived that they might prosecute the acquaintance without him, and that politeness, as well as inclination, required him to address himself to Miss Gascoigne. Perhaps the same thought had occurred to Clara some time before, and she chose to show her sense of his neglect, for her manner was much less encouraging than it had been on a former occasion; she turned from him with careless inattention to continue her discussion with Lord Edward and her cousin. With an air of pique, which an older man would have been at greater pains to conceal, David stood aloof in moody silence, provoked, and yet irre- sistibly attracted by the arch, sidelong glances which Clara occasionally directed towards him. Young Courtown's entrance caused the next diversion, in such muddy guise as only he could have thought admissible into a drawing-room. His abstracted brother was roused to admo- STILL WATERS. 245 nish liim in an undertone. ' Oh, Gerry, your boots V while the rest of the party regarded him with something between amusement and dismay. ' My boots are well enough ; I have scraped them/ replied Gerald, with a defensive air; and after waiting in vain for some one to confirm the assertion, he added, ' of course you don't expect them to be as well polished as your own, after walking over the fields/ The elder brother had satisfied his conscience with the protest, and subsided once more into Nicholas Xickltby, while Gerald glanced doubt- fully at Isabel, and applied to Clara before he ventured to address her. ' Is that herself or her sister V ' Herself, if you mean Miss Isabel Lennox/ Clara answered, with laudable gravity. ' Shall I tell her that you wish to renew acquain- tance V c Xo, thank you/ said Gerald, after a second inspection. It was evident that Isabel, whom he had last seen as a laughing girl, with a manner almost as untutored as his own, was transformed into a young lady with whom he had nothing in common, though she was, as he informed his brother, worth looking at. So, 246 STILL WATERS. after answering Sir John's inquiries respecting his walk, he discovered that it was time to dress, and he sauntered out of the room again. It was the signal for a general move, and Clara took Isabel up to her room — just such a room as she delighted in, with mullioned win- dows, deep embrasures, and irregular angles. And it was possible that her satisfaction was heightened by Clara's remark that she had been guided in her choice by Evelyn Gascoigne, { who declared that you, of all the guests, were most likely to appreciate the wainscoted chamber/ ' I could guess/ said Isabel, e that Lady Maria is modern in her tastes, and in favour of a high, square room, with a flowery paper/ ' Lady Maria/ replied Clara, ' is sufficiently complaisant to rave about old oak and the dark ages, when she finds that you have a turn that way. But, if you think her too modern, what will you say to the Thomasons ?' ' Are there more people in the house ?' Isabel asked, in dismay. ' I thought we had seen them all/ 1 There are these Thomasons still in reserve, besides Lord Raeburn, who was, I imagine, in the smoking-room with Thomason fils. The STILL WATERS. 247 ladies had retired to write letters before your arrival. They are regular London people, whom it was necessary to ask in return for all the balls at which I have danced at their house, but they are rather a gene, as lady guests are apt to be — the present company always excepted. jSTot that Laura gives me much trouble, as long as she can get the Cap- tain to flirt with/ The shade of bitterness in Clara's tone sur- prised Isabel, and she observed a harassed ex- pression in the lines of her small and pretty mouth. But it vanished before her scrutiny, and Clara said lightly — ' The services of the subaltern will be nearly as invaluable as those of the captain. How well he did his manners to Lady Maria V ' I don't know what you mean by doing his manners/ said Isabel, displeased by the expression. ' David is the same to every one/ ' I meant nothing disrespectful of your paragon/ said Clara, laughing. ' Indeed, you might be affronted to hear how immensely I admire him. Now I must run away, or I shall be late for dinner. I will send Annette to you as soon as I have done with her ; and vou 248 STILL WATERS. must not thwart her genius, but let her make you as fine as she pleases/ Instead of attending to this advice, Isabel hastened to complete her toilette before the foreign maid knocked at the door, to ask what she could do for mademoiselle, and Isabel wished that her assistance had not been required to fasten the muslin dress, which those quick black eyes could not fail to discover had been washed more than once. She detected a latent sarcasm in the words ' Voila tout?' with which Annette handed to her her only ornament, a spray of pink coral which David had brought with him from the Mediterranean ; and, at once mortified and ashamed of her mortifica- tion, she almost wished herself at home. David was lodged in the opposite wing of the house. Clara had already gone down, and Isabel prepared with some trepidation to make her entrance alone into the drawing-room. But she escaped the dreaded ordeal ; for Evelyn Gascoigne came out of his room at the end of the corridor at the same moment, and he waited for her at the foot of the stair, that they might go in together. With still greater consideration, he found a vacant chair at the end of the room, into which she might slide STILL WATERS. 249 almost unperceived, and he remained beside her talking. He pointed out to her those of the party whom she had not before seen; Lord Raeburn, whom Isabel failed to reco- gnise in the moustached and elaborately dressed young man who was making himself agreeable to Clara, and the family of the Thomason s, — the mother, who was only remarkable for the brilliancy of her diamonds, her tall light-haired son, and her daughter, Laura, handsome, dash- ing, and over-dressed. When dinner was an- nounced it appeared that Clara had destined her cousin to Miss Thomason ; but he had already given his arm to Isabel, and they went in together. It was the first time that Isabel had seen Clara in general society, and she was amused to watch her powers of fascination, although she would have been better pleased not to see them exercised on her brother. David came in with Miss Thomason; but he secured a place beside Clara, and neglected his own lady most unwarrantably, in order to make his peace with her. In this he perfectly succeeded. Lord Raeburn looked sullen and displeased, Lord Edward abstracted and unhappy, while Clara lavished all her smiles on David, and suffered 250 STILL WATERS. her duties as hostess to devolve on him, after repeatedly declining Lord Raeburn's offered help. If all the party had shared the same delu- sion, there would have been little general con- versation. But, happily, Mr. Wentworth was too much in love with his own wife to see any- thing to admire in a little pink and white thing with no intellect in her face ; so he atoned for David's neglect by devoting himself to Miss Thorn ason, while at the same time he ate his dinner very composedly, and pleased Sir John by his approbation of its materiel. Lady Maria's talk was fluent as ever, and adapted to the tastes of her hearers ; even Mr. James Cour- town was roused to animation by her intelli- gent questions about Cambridge, while Sir John was equally interested in the discussion of some measure affecting the agricultural interest. And Mr. Thorn ason talked merci- lessly across his mother of horses and dogs. Captain Gascoigne also, as Isabel perceived with a thrill of pleasure of which she would have been ashamed, had she been conscious of it, was wholly uninfluenced by his cousin's variable humour. His cool, penetrating glance betrayed no deeper interest than curiosity to STILL WATERS. 25 1 discover to what lengths the spirit of coquetry might cany her, and his tone in speaking of her scarcely expressed the degree of cousinly regard which he might be supposed to feel. Clara, on her side, did not attempt to exact the homage which was withheld, and her manner in addressing him was only distinguished by an additional shade of flightiness. Isabel had not yet forgotten the depreciating remark, almost approaching to a warning, with which David had first mentioned Evelyn Gas- coigne, hinting that he did not wish her to like him. But the words were only recalled with an indignant sense of their injustice, for the more she saw of Evelyn the more unfounded the mistrust appeared. His manner was open, pleasant, and unreserved, and did not, like that of his cousin, vary with the caprice of the moment ; so that she was inclined to retort the caution which seemed so unnecessary for her- self, when she saw how absolutely David had yielded to the fascination of Clara's charms. The compassion with which Isabel regarded the hopes which Clara had in several instances inspired, was not unmixed with contempt, and it was mortifying to be obliged to count David in the train of her admirers. So it was, how- 252 STILL WATERS. ever; the passing fancy was already deepening into the passion of a first love, and Clara's smile of conscious power betrayed her determi- nation to rivet his chains. But Isabel had only leisure to bestow a momentary feeling of vexation on the matter, for Captain Gascoigne claimed the attention which she was not unwilling to bestow, and the time passed quickly in lively colloquy. Constraint and shyness were so far forgotten that she was able to reply to his raillery with something of the saucy readiness which had hitherto been reserved for her arguments with the Doctor. Captain Gascoigne, however, was an opponent less easily discomfited, defending his opinions, and impugning hers with equal facility and better logic than her own, as she laughingly admitted, when he undertook to refute a somewhat extravagant expression of admiration for the days of chivalry. When the ladies adjourned to the drawing- room, Clara's animation subsided. As soon as she had had coffee, she coiled herself into a deep arm-chair, observing that a rainy day always made her sleepy, and she closed her eyes without farther apology, although Isabel doubted whether her slumbers were very pro- STILL WATERS. 253 found. Miss Thomason also became quiescent over a novel, but Lady Maria talked as assi- duously as ever; and since her remarks received little encouragement from the others, she de- voted herself to Isabel, and good-naturedly- taught her a new stitch for the purse which was to replace the tattered and discoloured remains of her original gift to David. And this naturally led to some talk of David him- self, a subject of which the sister was not soon weary. On the whole, the evening passed pleasantly enough, except that Isabel was annoyed by Lord Raeburn's evident inclination to transfer to her the attentions of which Clara was so little worthy. He sat down beside her, twirl- ing his moustache ; but his vapid observations received tardy answers, and his advances were repelled by a certain quiet dignity rather than by shyness, since Isabel did not care enough about him to feel embarrassed. Another cir- cumstance marred her pleasure, namely, Clara's behaviour to Lord Edward. After some dis- cussion of a quotation from Pope, which she wished to verify, Clara appealed to Isabel to know in what part of the library his works were to be found. 254 STILL WATERS. ' I am not certain of the shelf/ answered Isabel; 'but all the poets live behind the door into Sir John's study. I could easily find it by daylight/ c Lord Edward can find it now/ said Clara, as he instantly rose and fetched a candle. ' Let me go/ Isabel said, in a low voice to Clara ; ' he is so near-sighted, and I don't be- lieve that he knows his way about the library much better than you do/ ' Then it is time that he should learn/ said Clara, lightly ; ' there is no need for you to go and dig in those dusty shelves in the dark/ Isabel was obliged to acquiesce, but her coun- tenance expressed dissatisfaction, which Clara did not forbear to ridicule. f You scrupulous child ! You see that he is delighted to be my errand-monger/ i Yes/ rejoined Isabel ; ' and for that Yery reason I would not send him/ Clara laughed and went on talking to David; and when, after twenty minutes' search, Lord Edward returned with the book open at the passage in question, her interest in the matter seemed to have subsided, and she carelessly signed to him to put it down. Lord Edward turned away, after waiting in vain for a word or STILL WATEES. 2^5 look of acknowledgment, and Isabel's brow red- dened with indignation at this studied slight. Captain Gascoigne saw and remarked on her sense of his wrongs. ' You look/ he said, ' as if you were responsible for Clara's caprice.' ' So I am, in a sense/ said Isabel, colouring still more deeply; c I am a woman.' Evelyn laughed, as he replied, ' At that rate, i" ought to be humiliated by the folly and weak- ness displayed by those who submit to the dic- tates of her humour.' ' Are you aware/ said Clara, turning quickly round, ' that it is very bad manners to talk too low to be heard by the rest of the company ?' ( Do you wish to hear what we were saying ?' said Evelyn, fixing his eyes on his cousin ; and Clara seemed to quail before the cool and steady gaze, though she answered promptly, 1 Unquestionably I do/ 1 Than I will tell you/ said Evelyn ; and his report abated nothing of the severity of the censure. ' I wish to reassure Miss Lennox, whose too sensitive conscience is burdened by the thraldom you impose on your admirers. Now I maintain that it would be equally rea- sonable to assume that I share the responsi- bility of their infatuated submission.' 256 STILL WATERS. Isabel wondered, not that Clara's laugh was forced, but at the levity which permitted her to laugh at all in reply to such a reproof. Nor did she show any signs of compunction, for she continued to treat Lord Edward with the same careless disdain throughout the evening. STILL WATERS. 257 CHAPTER XIX. This weak impress of love is as a figure Trenched in ice ; which with an hour's heat Dissolves to water, and doth lose his form. Two Gentlemen of Verona. T) REAKFAST in a country house is apt to ■*-' be a silent meal, especially when, as was the case on the following morning, the unset- tled state of the weather interfered with any arrangement of the plans for the day. The post came in; and since neither letters nor paper fell to Isabel's share, she subsided into a dream, from which she was roused by a demand from Clara to know her thoughts. ' I believe I was thinking of mamma and Ruth/ she answered ; f it is tantalizing to be so near, and yet not to know how they are/ f If you like/ said Evelyn, ' I will go over to Holmdale to inquire/ Isabel thanked him, without supposing him to be in earnest, and Clara was still less pre- pared for his reply, when the two cousins were left together in the breakfast-room, and she vol. 1. s 258 STILL WATEES. proposed that Evelyn should look over some plans for a new garden below the terrace. ' Not this morning, Clara ; I must execute Miss Lennox's behests/ ' Do you really mean to walk to Holmdale ?' said Clara, incredulously. 1 No, I shall ride/ ' But, Evelyn, I wish that you would look at the plans first, for I want to set the work on foot while you are here/ ' Surely/ said Evelyn, f you have squires enough at command without pressing me into the service. Lennox's taste is excellent/ ' And then/ said Clara, hastily, ' you accuse me of flirting/ ' I accuse you of nothing, Cousin Clare. I recognise the fact, without feeling either the right or the inclination to interfere with such a harmless pursuit/ He left the room, whist- ling as he went, and the plans for the new gar- den were thrust back into the drawer from which Clara had taken them. Isabel wondered what had become of Captain Gascoigne, when the other gentlemen came in at intervals to report upon the weather, for he only returned towards the end of luncheon; and if the ride had been taken to give her STILL WATERS. 259 pleasure, he must have been fully rewarded by the bright face she turned towards him. c Have you really been to Holrndale?' ( Yes, really; but I am afraid that your sister did not thank me. She caught sight of me riding up the street, aud came down to the door with a very white face, expecting, I be- lieve, to hear that some casualty had befallen you or Lennox/ 1 Ruth is so quick to take alarm/ said Isabel, gravely. 1 And no wonder,' added David, ( when she sits all day in that half light, letting her mind dwell on all possible and impossible evils/ 1 How can you tell, David ? I believe that she is only working out lessons of patience/ ' Go on/ said Clara, hearing as usual all that passed while apparently intent on something altogether different ; f Ruth's character is a problem which I shall be glad to solve/ ' You never will, Clara, for you have not the key/ ( And what is that, Isabel ? I know that something severe is implied, but I don't under- stand/ Isabel was embarrassed by the consciousness that Captain Gascoigne, as well as her brother, s 2 2<5o STILL WATERS. ■waited for her reply, and she lowered her voice and answered briefly, ' Ruth is always in earnest/ 'Your sisters think me frivolous and shal- low/ said Clara, turning to David; and the playful appeal roused him in her defence. 'Never mind Isabel's high-flown theories. It is my private opinion that Isabel has as good a capacity for enjoying life as any of us/ ' Very likely/ said Isabel, laughing. ' I know that I mean to do what I can in that way this afternoon. Do you know, Captain Gascoigne, that I really did find Hollinshed rather dry, and I must have a walk to chase away the cobwebs/ 1 Are you going out ?' said Gerald Courtown, catching at the words ; ' some people seemed to think it too wet/ ( Some people, meaning myself, prefer dri- ving/ said Clara. ' I am to drive Lady Maria and Mrs. Thomason in the pony carriage, and there is room for you, Isabel, if you like to come/ ' I would rather walk with David/ said Isabel; but David had another suggestion to make. He declared that the wind and driving showers would make it disagreeable for Miss STILL WATERS. 261 Gascoigne to drive herself, and she accepted his proffered sendees. This left no place for Isabel, but she repeated, with perfect sincerity, that she would rather walk, and she was only doubtful whether it would be correct as well as pleasant to consent to Captain Gascoigne's pro- posal, that she should go with him and Gerry to Leonard's Oak. Her scruples were set at rest, however, when Miss Thomason resolved to join the party; and in the end they mustered strong, for Lord Raeburn emerged from the stables, and Lord Edward joined them on the terrace, looking guilty when Evelyn accused him of making his escape from a ride over the farms with Sir John. Miss Thomason rivalled Clara's genius for a flirtation ; but she did not exercise her talent with the same grace, and Isabel's rather fas- tidious taste was offended by the loudness of her laugh, and the freedom with which she expressed her opinions. Almost insensibly they divided company. Miss Thomason had a great deal to say to Captain Gascoigne, who did not seem to be otherwise than amused, and Lord Raeburn talked as assiduously to Isabel, although she was not so well disposed to listen. Lord Edward walked on her other side ; but 262 STILL WATERS. when David drove past them, bowing from his seat beside Clara with a smile of proud pleasure, he became so silent and abstracted, that his presence did not afford her much protection. Several times in the course of their walk Isabel wished herself at home, without being aware of the real cause of her dissatisfaction. She believed that she was only annoyed by Lord Raeburn, and knew not with how much of wounded feeling she resented Captain Gas- coigne's acquiescence in Miss Thomason's desire to monopolize his attention. Perhaps he could not help himself, and yet she had seen enough of Evelyn to be aware that his will was not so easily controlled. ' This is the oak/ said Gerald Courtown, who hovered between the two parties without attaching himself to either ; ' a ragged old stump, and not to be compared to many in your Chase, Raeburn/ ' Indeed V said the young lord, languidly. ' You know so much more of my place than I do myself/ Isabel's large liquid eyes lighted up with indignant scorn, on which Gerald was not slow to comment. ' You need not believe him, Miss Lennox; it is only swagger/ STILL WATERS. 263 f It is nothing of the sort/ said Lord Kae- burn ; and although he could not understand Isabel's displeasure, he conceived some expla- nation to be necessary. ' I am not much at home, you know — on duty with my regiment, and I find so much to do when I come down here, that I am as little as possible at the Chase. The bailiff comes with an arm full of papers before I have done breakfast, and the farmers want to see my lord himself about a reduction of rent. That sort of thing is rather a bore, so I keep out of the way, and I dare say they do as well without me/ 'Very likely/ said Isabel, turning from him to Gerald. ' You should say nothing disre- spectful of Leonard's Oak, Mr. Courtown. Everything looks gray to-day ; but it is a very picturesque object on a sunny afternoon, par- ticularly in early spring/ ' I dare say it is, only I don't care about the picturesque. But as to its girth/ ' Oh, don't tell me the number of inches. I am sure I care still less about its girth. Next you will tell me how many people might dine in the hollow trunk, and nothing incenses me so much. I wish you could take the his- torical line, and say how manv generations l6\ STILL WATEKS. have lived and died since Leonard planted his oak, and who Leonard was, for I cannot find out/ ' Probably/ said Evelyn, who now came up with them, l a Saxon serf, who herded swine in the forest in the days of William Rufus.' ' Oh no/ said Isabel, decidedly, ( Leonard is not a Saxon name / and Lord Edward was amused by the ready objection, and declared that she was qualified to sift evidence on a committee. ' There is distinction for you V said Miss Thorn ason, laughing. f I am not too learned to accept Captain Gascoigne's conjecture. It shall be a Saxon serf, and we may devise some plausible excuse for his foreign name. Perhaps he was adopted by a Norman noble, and planted the oak in memory of his former servitude/ ' I don't care to weave a romance/ said Isabel, turning to Lord Edward, as the only one of the party likely to follow her meaning; so much had her opinion of Captain Gascoigne changed in the course of their half-hour's walk. Lord Edward did not understand, or did not exert himself to assent, and Miss Thomason STILL WATERS. 265 said, with brusquerie, ' That sliows a want of imagination / c Say, rather/ rejoined Evelyn, ' that it is the proof of a vivid imagination. Miss Lennox so fully realizes the past, that she feels it to be an insult to the real Leonard, who lived and died, to give him a fictitious history. Is it not so, Miss Lennox V I Something like it/ said Isabel, colouring with pleasure. ' I suppose it will affront you/ said young Courtown, rejoining the group, f but I have paced the tree, and it is really a sizeable spe- cimen. And next I shall have an opportunity of telling you how many might dine in the trunk, for you ought to take refuge there, un- less you wish to get wet through. A shower is coming up/ ' Let us get into the trunk by all means/ said Miss Thomason, ' that will be charming/ I I suppose it is from want of imagination again/ said Isabel ; i but I think a hollow trunk is apt to be mouldy, damp, and disagreeable, and I would rather get wet in a legitimate way in the open air/ Captain Gascoigne, however, dissented from this opinion, and in suffering him to take care 266 STILL WATERS. of her there was a satisfaction which she could not readily forego. He secured for her the place next the opening, and stood beside her to ward off the rain, disregarding her assurances that nothing gave her cold. And in this way the time passed so pleasantly, that Miss Tliomason was the first to he im- patient of delay, and to discover that the shower had blown over. They retraced their steps in a different order, Captain Gascoigne walking first with the two ladies, while Lord Raeburn rather sulkily fell behind with Gerald Courtown, and contemplated the expediency of renouncing ladies' society until they learned to estimate the loss they must sustain in consequence of such a step. ' This schoolmaster is the only accession to our party to-night/ remarked Miss Thorn ason ; ' and I gather, from Clara Gascoigne's descrip- tion, that he is what my brother calls a circumstance. Is it not so, Miss Lennox V ' I don't quite know what you mean by a circumstance/ said Isabel ; ( but he is a scholar and a gentleman, and a great friend of ours.' ' That is a circumstance/ rejoined Miss Thomason, undaunted by Isabel's defensive STILL WATERS. 26 tone. ' Your great scholars are apt to be un- polished specimens/ ' Dr. Berkeley came in while I "was with Miss Lennox/ said Evelyn ; ' and I saw enough of him to be glad that we are to meet again this evening/ Isabel rightly judged that' a word from Captain Gascoigne would make Miss Thomason more sensible of her want of good breeding than anything which she could say. Laura seemed to feel that she had had enough of the subject, and she turned back to talk to Lord Raeburn. 1 You did not tell me that you had seen the Doctor/ said Isabel ; ' he must be glad to have one stranger less to encounter, for he is very shy. I cannot think how he made up his mind to the effort of coming here/ 1 His mind was made up for him/ said Evelyn ; l at least, so I concluded from some- thing he said ruefully to your sister. And it is very evident that she can ask nothing of him in vain/ ' Ruth and he are very good friends/ said Isabel, quickly; and, as Captain Gascoigne replied by a meaning smile, she added, ' He is nothing more, indeed; we have known him 268 STILL WATERS. ever since we were children/ And when, in pondering over the incidents of the walk, Cap- tain Gaseoigne's insinuation recurred to her mind, it was dismissed as simply an amusing instance of the misapprehensions which ensue frorn a brief acquaintance. STILL WATERS. ^69 CHAPTER XX. Sie sassen urid tranken am Tkeetiseh, Und sprachen vou Liebe viel. Pie Herren. die waren asthetisck. Pie Damen von zartein Gefiilil. H. Heine. rPHE Doctor looked far from happy at the -*- end of the Ions: dinner table. He was near Sir John, who, instead of leaving him in peace, attempted to restore his equanimity by well-chosen topics, — questions about the new school buildings, and statistics gleaned from the last Board of Guardians. But his trouble was thrown away. The Doctor could hear nothing but the creaking of shoes and the clattering of dishes, and he looked scared, dis- tracted, and miserable. Lady Maria took him in hand ; but even her powers of conversation were baffled, and she was obliged to relinquish the attempt ' to draw him out/ Availing him- self of the earliest opportunity of rejoining the ladies in the drawing-room, he was so fortunate as to find Isabel sitting a little apart from the rest, and he instantly repaired to her side. 2/0 STILL WATERS. ( Ah, Miss Isabel/ lie said, reproachfully, 1 you have not allowed me to speak a word to you/ ( I could not stay down-stairs until you came/ Isabel replied, c for I was in walking guise. Besides, it is quite de rigueur that the ladies should retire for an hour before dinner/ ' But at dinner you might have contrived to be nearer me/ A certain consciousness that she had made no effort to do so did not check Isabel's incli- nation to stand on the defensive. 1 It was not for me to marshal the guests ; and as a matter of course people fall into their old places, so I went where I sat the night before/ ( You will become quite learned in the ways of the world, Miss Isabel/ ' Well/ retorted Isabel, ' if I learn nothing worse than these two usages, there is no harm done/ 1 That was Captain Gascoigne to whom you were talking all through dinner V Isabel briefly assented, as she applied herself to the task of rearranging her bouquet. 1 And David seemed to be as much taken with Miss Gascoigne/ STILL WATERS. 27 1 ' You don't seem to understand/ answered Isabel, annoyed by this unconscious revelation of the Doctor's train of thought, 'you don't seem to understand the great social duty of talking to your next neighbour at dinner time. Lady Maria's attentions to you were a laudable instance of perseverance under difficulties.' 'They were very ill bestowed/ said Dr. Berkeley. ' I was wishing myself in my study all the while, or at your comfortable tea-table. I wonder why I consented to come out.' 1 You cannot wonder more than I do. Cap- tain Gascoigne says that, Ruth sent you.' ' How should he know ?' the Doctor asked, in a quick, nervous voice. ( He guessed as much from something which passed at his visit this morning. But I want to get at the root of the matter, for I don't understand why Ruth, who discouraged our escapade, should cause you to plunge into the vortex of dissipation.' ' Perhaps, because she does not care what becomes of me. And, at all events, it does not affect me in the same way; for my only consolation is that it is but one night's penance, and I shall not even stay for breakfast to- morrow.' 2J2 STILL WATERS. ' So that you will not have to -undergo another meal/ said Isabel, laughing. 'Now donH go and tell Ruth that we are getting into mischief. Only say that we shall go home to tell our own story on Thursday. To- morrow there is to be a grand expedition to Witham Abbey/ 1 So Lord Edward told me/ 1 Ah ! that reminds me to observe that you don't make the most of your opportunities. Surely Lord Edward is sober and sensible enough to suit you, and he was within speaking distance at dinner/ ' One might as well speak to the winds when Miss Gascoigne is in the room. When she came in before dinner, I was telling him of the new discoveries in the art of deciphering unknown tongues, and he began at once to answer at random, listening all the while to what she was saying to your brother. It is a singular infatuation/ ' Not singular, I am sure, nor yet sur- prising. I did not know, until I saw her in her own set, how very attractive she is/ ' She fidgets so, that it is quite fatiguing/ said the Doctor, absently, as he looked across the room to Clara, who was talking, laughing, STILL WATERS. 273 and moving her small taper fingers with the foreign action she had acquired from Madame la Rue. Perhaps he contrasted her restless- ness with the habits of stillness and repose in which Ruth had been trained by her long attendance in a sick room. Isabel's next remark showed that her thoughts were travelling in the same direction. ( Ruth told Captain Gascoigne that mamma was much as usual/ ' Not so well as usual ; at least, it was one of her bad days. Miss Lennox was quite sur- prised to see Captain Gascoigne, and she won- dered whether he had ridden into Holmdale on purpose to inquire/ ' I suppose that it was as good an object for a ride as another/ said Isabel, carelessly. She was rather tired of answering or evading the Doctor's home questions, and she rejoiced in the diversion effected by Clara's approach. ' Don't you think,' said that young lady, ' that there is a want of originality in talking to Isabel, which you can do any day at Holm- dale V ' "Well/ said the Doctor, assuming an air of resignation. It was the only reply which occurred to him; and Lady Maria, who was vol. 1. T 274 STILL WATERS. near enough to hear what was passing, wondered how he had gained the reputation of being a clever man. ' You don't know what other course to pur- sue/ continued Clara, darting a glance of espieglerie and mischief towards Isabel, who seemed disposed to fire up in the Doctor's defence. ' Cannot you talk to me ?' 1 1 am afraid that I should not amuse you/ the Doctor replied, with a reluctant smile. 1 You are afraid that I should not under- stand you ! That is very severe. But here is Mr. James Courtown — a rising scholar. Ah, he has fled/ for, as she turned towards the shy and silent youth, he hastily retreated from the impending introduction. ' Or Lord Edward. I asked you quite on his account/ Clara did not this time appeal in vain. A word from her lips commanded Lord Edward's eager attention, and brought him to her side; and, though mortified to find that she had only summoned him to transfer him to Dr. Berke- ley, they entered into conversation. Clara flitted away, and Isabel was at liberty to look about her, and wonder what had become of Captain Gascoigne. She presently descried him through the folding-doors opening into STILL WATERS. 275 the music-room, where he was engaged in choosing a piece for Miss Thomason. Clara went in there ; and since David could not talk to her, it occurred to him that he might as well join his sister for the sake of talking of her. Isabel welcomed him with a brightening look. ' I have hardly seen you all day, David/ ' That must be from a defect in your sight, for I have seen you, though we have not had much intercourse. And do you know what was the result of my inspection V 1 Something complimentary, I hope/ ( I have discovered that you are not so well dressed as Miss Gascoigne/ ' Which is not surprising, as I have not the same sum to spend upon my dress/ 1 Without being extravagant, it is possible to look nice. There is an unstudied grace about Miss Gascoigne ' f Which you wish me to study, in order to imitate/ said Isabel, playfully. ' I thought you were thinking of the wearer, and not of the things worn/ David was too much in earnest to like her raillery, and he changed the subject. T 2, 2j6 STILL WATERS. ' How well Miss Thomason plays/ ' Very well/ said Isabel. Captain Gascoigne lingered so long in the music-room, that it was evident he thought so too, and she began for the first time to regret the want of perseverance which had interfered with the attainment of any proficiency in that accomplishment. Read- ing had been more agreeable than practising; but now it appeared that clever people, and those too whose good opinion she valued, were afraid of learned ladies, and liked to listen to good music. 1 Miss Thomason is over-dressed, if you like/ said David ; i such loud colours/ 1 She is outree in everything/ replied Isabel. ' Then you did not get on with her this afternoon V ' We did not exactly fall out, but we have not much in common/ ' We had a very pleasant drive/ said David, ' and it was lucky I went, for it would have been disagreeable for Miss Gascoigne to drive home in the rain ; as it was, she must have got wet if I had not taken my macintosh/ Isabel perceived that the privilege of having shielded Clara from the rain had much to do with David's overflowing happiness this evening, STILL WATERS. ZJJ and an involuntary smile was checked by mis- givings where all this was to end. ' Now, Lennox/ said Captain Gascoigne, ap- proaching the brother and sister, c it is your turn to do duty in the music-room j I am quite tired of turniug over the leaves of Miss Thoma- son's book/ ' It is not my vocation/ said David ; ' I never know what to admire/ ( Then it is time to learn, in order to qualify yourself for a staff appointment. It is an im- portant branch of an A.D.C/s duty/ ' I see no prospect of a staff appointment at present/ said David ; ' and, besides, Miss Tho- mason is not on speaking terms with me, though I can't imagine how I have offended her/ ' On that point I can enlighten you ; she confided to me that Mr. Lennox was so very dull at dinner last night, that she was quite re- solved not to go in with him again. Go and make your peace now, and it will not be a long penance, for my cousin intends to sing as soon as this symphony is ended/ David required no second bidding, and he was duly grateful for information which enabled him to be in the field before Lord Edward. 278 STILL WATERS. When Clara was the performer, there could be no difficulty what to admire, for all was fault- less. Captain Gascoigne drew in a chair, and sat down to talk to Isabel. ' So there is to be a grand expedition to Witham Abbey to-morrow. The pony carriage, the barouche, and the riding-horses must be put in requisition to convey the party. How do you mean to go V c I suppose Clara will settle/ said Isabel. ' Unquestionably she will, unless we exert ourselves ; and as I have a voice in the matter, I should like to know beforehand which you prefer. Are you fond of riding V c Only in theory, for I have had no oppor- tunity of learning. And I am afraid that it will not do to make my debut in a large caval- cade/ 'No, there will be a risk, though I can easily imagine that any one so active and fear- less might ride from intuition. Then we must drive/ 1 You need not/ said Isabel, colouring and looking down, and unable to express more clearly that she did not wish him to make any sacrifice on her account. STILL WATERS. 279 1 My choice is not disinterested/ said Evelyn, pointedly, and Isabel was silenced. It was not his first speech of the kind, and though pleasant on reflection, she was too much em- barrassed to find it pleasant at the time. Captain Gascoigne went on talking, as if to give her time to recover herself. c To-morrow need not be lost time, for if we secure the front seat of the pony carriage, I can teach you the use of the reins. And next day you can try a quiet ride/ ' Next day/ said Isabel, ' we go home/ ' Do you indeed ? but four miles is no in- superable distance. Do you suppose that we shall not meet occasionally V ' Gascoigne/ said Mr. Thomason, sauntering up to him, f it is such a fine evening that Raeburn and I propose to have our cigar in the colonnade. Are you disposed to join us?' ' Presently/ replied Evelyn ; and to Lady Maria, who took a benevolent interest in the progress of a love affair, the interruption ap- peared even more inopportune than to Isabel. She professed an inclination to take a turn in the colonnade herself, and she asked whether Miss Lennox was afraid of the evening air ? No — Isabel never caught cold, and eagerly 28o STILL WATERS. assented to the suggestion, so that Mr. Tho- mason was forced to postpone the enjoyment of his cigar, and give his arm to Lady Maria with as good a grace as he could assume. Isabel was not so soon ready, for, warm as the night was, Captain Gascoigne did not consider the shawl she had thrown about her a sufficient protection, and he wrapped her in a cloak of his own ; and, as before, Isabel found a new and strange delight in the solicitude which obliged her to relinquish her habitual defiance of such precautions. The soft radiance of the moonlight, and the stillness and fragrance of the evening air after the rain, were calculated to deepen the impressions to which Isabel was already suffi- ciently susceptible, and it was now, perhaps, for the first time, that she became fully conscious how absolutely the affections of her warm and loving heart were surrendered into the keeping of him who walked by her side, and drew her passive hand within his arm. ( Do you remember standing here to see the fireworks V said Evelyn. ' So well ! And how strange it seems to find ourselves here again/ said Isabel. And yet not so strange as pleasant, as she thought after the words had passed her lips. STILL WATERS. 28 1 1 Cousin Clare was in great force that night, I remember, beginning her career by setting up a flirtation with a school friend of Lennox's — was not his name Clinton?' f Yes ; poor Jasper Clinton/ said Isabel, gravely at first, and then smiling at certain reminiscences which occurred to her. c How he did admire her ! I so often think of that party/ 1 So do 1/ said Evelyn, although, if the truth were known, it might have appeared that the thought had hardly occurred to him from that day to this. ' It was like a start in life, and the actors have kept up their characters consistently enough. Clara, for example; and Lennox was as genial and pleasant as he has been ever since ; and your sister, I can see her now, sitting on the back bench, when others were dancing, looking sedate and dignified. And you ' ' Oh/ said Isabel, drawing back, c please don't say what I was like.' ' You need not be afraid/ said Evelyn, but he desisted at her word. 282 STILL WATERS. CHAPTER XXT. L'onda che mormora Tra sponda e sponda, L'aura clie tremola Tra fronda e fronda, E meno instabile Del vostro cor ! Metastatic rpHE Doctor went home on the following -*- morning, and he fonnd his way to the Red Honse as soon as his avocations permitted. Mrs. Lennox was not well enough to see him, but Ruth came down at once. ' Well/ he said, ' I have come to tell my news/ ' I hoped you would come/ said Ruth. ' I am curious to hear how they are getting on/ ' They seem very happy. Miss Isabel came down before I left, quite pleased that it was a fine day, for they are all going over to Witham/ f But you know what I want to hear/ said Ruth, with a touch of playfulness ; f that Isabel made a great impression/ STILL WATERS. 283 c She looked very well. I think hers a much higher style of beauty than Miss Gas- coigne's/ ' And did no one else show the same dis- crimination V ' I have so little observation/ said the Doctor, rather piteously j ' but I will tell you who talked to her all the evening — Captain Gascoigne/ ' Oh V said Ruth ; and her tone was dis- satisfied. ' What did you think of him V ' I had no opportunity of judging ; but he looks gentlemanlike, and his easy, pleasant manner must just suit Miss Isabel/ ' And Lord Edward, had you any talk with hira?' ' Not much ; he was always hanging about Miss Gascoigne. And, do you know, that David is just as bad. He hardly seemed to know that another person was in the room. But I don't wonder that she likes to talk to him, for he is the greatest gentleman among them. His air is so striking, and his gay, courteous manner, at once spirited and gentle. It will be strange if anything comes of it, and yet strange things have happened/ ' You are not going to turn match-maker/ 284 STILL WATERS. said Ruth, with a smile. ' It is quite out of keeping with your years and decorum*' The Doctor looked confused, but he did not attempt to justify himself; and his next remark showed that his thoughts were still occupied with the same subject/ ' After all, I suppose that Miss Gascoigne will be no such great heiress, for something must go with the title/ 1 1 believe that it is all in Sir John's power/ said Ruth j ' but it is most likely that he will provide handsomely for his nephew, whose education he undertook ; and , he bought his company for him the other day. However, you may be certain that no division of the property can make David's suit appear anything but unpardonable presumption/ 1 You know Miss Gascoigne better than I do/ replied Dr. Berkeley ; i but I have heard enough of her to doubt whether she would be much influenced by Sir John's wishes/ ( I don't undertake to calculate probabilities/ said Ruth, amused by his pertinacity, c so settle it as you please, and I will give you credit for penetration, if your romance comes true. And, meanwhile, I am glad that they are enjoying life/ But these last words were spoken with STILL WATERS. 285 less than Ruth's usual sincerity, for there was more of anxiety than of satisfaction in her thoughts both of Isabel and her brother, and she was almost unreasonably impatient for their return. Earlier on the following day than she had ventured to expect, Isabel's light step was heard upon the stair, and she sprang joyously into her mother's room. ■ Well, mamma, here I am ! very glad to be at home again; so Ruth must not think me quite spoiled. David is walking, and Clara drove me over, and is waiting to see Ruth, and I shall stay and tell you my news.' Ruth went down at once, anxious to hear Clara's report of the visit. It was more graphic than the Doctor's, but substantially the same. c I have come,' she said, c on purpose to tell of Isabel's success. Her dress was not quite knowing, and her manner rather too pose, yet she was very much admired, especially by Lord Raeburn and my cousin the Captain. Her beauty is really magnificent, and she quite eclipses me when we are thrown together.' ' You wish to be contradicted/ said Ruth j ' but you do not need me to tell you that you are too unlike to provoke comparison.' 286 STILL WATERS. ( And therefore that no one who admires the one can be attracted by the other ; but Lord Raeburn's inconstancy is a proof to the contrary. Do you know, Ruth, it occurs to me that I am growing dreadfully old, and that it is quite time to begin to fall in love. So I mean to cast about for a proper object, and I am quite ready to receive any suggestions which you have to make/ Ruth smiled and shook her head. ' I am not going to play Nerissa's part/ 1 Because you think that no Bassanio is forthcoming V ' No ; but because you would not prize as it deserves a Bassanio's love/ ' How do you know till I am tried ? I de- clare I know hardly any one who would choose the leaden casket/ ' You have no right to say so, Clara. You have encouraged those who sought you from motives not wholly disinterested, while trifling with such true and deep love as few women have known/ ' Meaning the Forlorn Hope. But that is an old story now, and, excepting him, there is no one, or hardly any one, who really cares/ STILL WATERS. 287 1 Hardly any one/ repeated Ruth ; c surely one is enough/ c Certainly not/ replied Clara, with one of her wayward smiles. ' I must have a little variety of choice/ 1 It is of no use, Clara ; you shall not tease me into saying anything fierce. As you say, we are growing old, and I quite despair of correcting any one so incorrigible, and am content that we should each go our own way/ f I am not content/ said Clara ; ' for some- times I fancy that I should like to walk in the shade with you, and sometimes that I will draw you into the sunshine. Really, Ruth, you look more thin and pale and wearied every time we meet, and I must know the reason why. Do you sleep for two hours together ?' ' Not often. I have lost the habit, but I do just as well without it/ ' Do you eat enough to satisfy a healthy sparrow V ' I should hope not j it is the most voracious and insatiable animal in existence. Now, Clara, I am not going to answer any more irrelevant questions ; but I will, if you like, tell you what is on my mind just now. I know that I am foolishly anxious, but I cannot help 288 STILL WATERS. fretting about Isabel. She is so unused to society, that she may take idle attentions and admiration for more than they are worth, and she is not like you. If, for pastime, her love is sought and won, and then slighted, the shadow will be cast on her whole life. Surely you will not suffer this/ ' I am to turn Cerberus V said Clara, looking amused by the idea. ' It will be a new voca- tion; yet I might undertake it for your sake. Am I to intimate to any one who presumes to admire Isabel, that he may flirt with me as much as he pleases, but that she is to be con- sidered as inaccessible as an enchanted princess in a fairy tale V 1 1 might have known/ said Ruth, ( that it was folly to expect you to be serious for one instant/ 'I will be serious, dear Ruth, rather than vex you. I think I can guess to whom your dark allusions point, but I am not able to give you any satisfaction; for I know less of my cousin the Captain than of any person whatever with whom I am on speaking terms. I cannot tell what he may mean by his assiduous atten- tions, and it is impossible for me either to make or mar in the matter/ STILL WATERS. 289 Clara had scarcely made this declaration, with a heightened colour and unusual excite- ment of manner, when Captain Gascoigne en- tered the room with David. It seemed that he was already established in habits of intimacy which rendered any apology for his early visit unnecessary ; and when Isabel came down stairs, he had as much to say to her as if they had not parted only an hour before. It was equally a matter of course that David should attach himself to Ruth and Clara. ' I suppose/ he said, ' that Miss Gascoigne has told you all our news/ 1 No/ answered Ruth ; ' I have heard nothing of your day at Witham/ f It was very successful/ said David, glancing mischievously towards Isabel and the Captain; ' some people missed seeing the ruins which were supposed to be the object of the expedi- tion, but they did not appear to be inconsolable.'' ' No/ replied Evelyn, with habitual coolness ; ' there is great sameness in ruins, and the woods were remarkably pleasant/ ' Oh, then, perhaps the omission was inten- tional/ ' You know it was not, David/ said Isabel, looking distressed ; ' Lady Maria advised our vol. 1. u 290 STILL WATERS. going through the green gate, which we fan- cied led to the ruins, while she waited with Mrs. Thomason for the rest of the party ; and then we were bewildered among the paths, and could not find our way out/ f And were found/ David added, f sitting on a fallen tree, very cool and composed, while we were tiring ourselves in search of them/ ' I insisted that Miss Lennox should sit down, as she was becoming fatigued/ said Evelyn. Ruth did not wish that a discussion should be prolonged which disconcerted her sister as much as it entertained the other three ; and she interposed with an inquiry how they con- trived to divide company. ' Gascoigne or Isabel — I don't know which — drove at such a pace as to distance the barouche/ said David, ' and we who rode, knew better than to follow in their dust, and struck across country by a way new to Miss Gascoigne/ ' Yes, we had such a pretty ride/ said Clara. ' Laura Thomason was enchanted, and leaped ditches and scrambled through fences in grand style. She is what people call an excellent horsewoman/ ' A very ungraceful and unfeminine thing to be/ remarked David ; ' she deserved to break STILL WATERS. 29 1 her neck two or three times over ; and yet, if she had come to grief in any way, I should have been blamed/ 'You are severe on Miss Thomason/ said Evetyn ; c but I presume that your other com- panion did not offend you in the same way. How many times did Clara dismount and give you her horse to manage as well as her own, and then fall into an interesting tremor lest you should injure yourself or Zohrab V The description was sufficiently accurate to provoke a smile, although David was eager to de- fend Clara from the lightest shadow of censure. ' Miss Gascoigne is perfectly right/ he said; ' I dislike nothing so much as foolhardiness/ ' And nothing/ retorted Evelyn, ' is so fool- hardy as irrational timidity/ ' Do not answer him, Mr. Lennox/ said Clara, as she shook back her long silken curls. ' The truth is, that the Captain is such a dis- agreeable and unaccommodating squire, that I ride with him as little as I can help, which is reason sufficient for these insulting remarks/ c He certainly does not deserve the honour/ said David ; ( and I hope that you will never have recourse to him while you can command my services/ 29 3 STILL WATERS. I It is lucky you are so well provided for, cousin Clare/ said Evelyn ; c but I mean to ride in your suite, if not as your squire. You must know/ he added, turning to Ruth, ' that your sister intends to take riding lessons/ I I have no doubt that Isabel would enjoy them/ answered Ruth, rather stiffly ; ' but there is the slight difficulty that we possess neither horses nor riding gear/ ' The first difficulty, at all events, may be easily overcome, when so many horses are standing idle in the Dyne Court stables; and your sister seemed to think that the last was not insurmountable. Indeed/ continued Evelyn, in the softened tone in which he generally ad- dressed Isabel, ' I intend you to prove that it is possible to be fearless without becoming unfeminine ; and I consider that you quite promised to be ready for your first ride on Monday/ ' Oh no, I did not promise/ said Isabel, colouring. 1 You did, indeed/ repeated Evelyn, with playful earnestness ; ' you said you would if you could, and I know you can if you will, so I accepted the promise as unconditional; and I wrote to my mother that I was unavoidably STILL WATERS. 293 prevented from joining the family party at Scarborough.' Clara bethought herself that it was time to return to her guests at home, and she only tarried to remind Isabel that she had not told of Lady Maria's pressing invitation. ' What was that V Bfoth asked, as David followed the Gascoignes to the carriage. ' An invitation to Went worth Lodge/ re- plied Isabel ; ' I don't know whether she was in earnest, but Lady Maria said in her rapturous way that she wished so much to gather the same pleasant party again at her own house, and her words were taken up and echoed as usual by Mr. Wentworth. She said she should try and fix a day early in next month/ ' And so you have your wish, Isabel/ said Ruth, ' in tasting some of the gaieties of which you have heard so much. And how do you like it?' ' We had a very pleasant visit/ said Isabel ; but she was not communicative, reverting, after a few desultory remarks, to the matter which chiefly interested her. f You don't seem to wish me to learn to ride, Ruth. I have always wished it so much, and David has pro- mised to give me a habit.' 294 STILL WATERS. { I dare say it would be pleasant/ said Ruth. ' And not prudent? I felt you would say so, but David saw uo harm ; and it seemed un- gracious to refuse when Captain Gascoigne took pains to find which horse would suit me best. He fixed on that pretty brown creature which Clara sometimes ridefl ; but she and Sir John both pressed me to use it as much as I please. And it has been one of my day-dreams to take long rides with David/ Ruth could not withstand Isabel's pleading tone, and relinquished the attempt to be pru- dent and hard-hearted, persuading herself that child-like enjoyment of the exercise might counteract more dangerous sentiments. So she remained passive when the matter was laid before their mother, who said languidly that it would be a nice amusement for Isabel ; and thus the question was decided. STILL WATERS. 295 CHAPTER XXII. Quell' alma, ehe piena e di speme, Nulla terae, cousiglio non sente, E si forma una gioia presente Del pensiero che lieta sara. Metastasio. TT was about three weeks after this that -*- Miss Perrott put on her silk mautle and her best bonnet, pulling out the bows with more than ordinary care, in preparation for a visit to the Red House, ' since one never knows/ she thought, ' whom one may meet there/ The drawing-room was empty, however, and Ruth was summoned down stairs to receive her visitor. Miss Perrott greeted her with the usual inquiries after Mrs. Lennox, adding, that she supposed it was useless to ask to see her. ' Quite, thank you/ said Ruth. ' Mamma has been so ill and weak lately — hardly able to see David for more than a few minutes at a time/ ' Ah V said Miss Perrott, with a conse- 20 STILL YTATERS. quential jerk of the best bonnet aforesaid. ' Perhaps that is the reason your brother is so little at home/ ' It is quite natural/ said Ruth, ( that the life of a quiet country town should have few attractions for a young man of David's age/ f Or for Isabel either, it appears/ f You know of old that Isabel was always resolved to follow where David led, and now they are more inseparable than ever/ ' That may be very true, Ruth ; but I think that such an old friend as I am has a right to expect a little more openness; and I am not the only one to wonder whether your mother knows all that goes on, or if she can approve of it/ ( "We keep nothing from my mother which she can care to hear/ said Ruth, steadily. ' I am an old friend, you know/ repeated Miss Perrott, l or it might seem impertinent to interfere ; but, of course, if Mrs. Lennox is satisfied, there is no more to be said/ Miss Perrott was apt to take offence, and it cost Ruth an effort to make the concession which was necessary to appease her in the pre- sent instance. She said, however, with as good a grace as she could assume, that she was STILL WATERS. 297 very willing to hear Miss Perrott's advice, though she could not engage to follow it. ' Especially since it does not depend upon yourself, my dear. No one is blaming you ; for, indeed, we all admire the steady, sensible way you go about your duties; and your de- voted attendance to your poor mother is really quite admirable.'