: V .^'V v hrZ£f. L I E> R.AR.Y OF THE UNIVERSITY or ILLINOIS 823 Svyx6l2o v.l lh¥''' The person charging this material is re- sponsible for its return to the library from which it was withdrawn on or before the Latest Date stamped below. Theft, mutilation, and underlining of books are reasons for disciplinary action and may result in dismissal from the University. To renew call Telephone Center, 333-8400 UNIVERSITY OF ILLINOIS LIBRARY AT URBANA-CHAMPAIGN m\^^^ L161— O-1096 Digitized by the Internet Archive in 2010 with funding from University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign http://www.archive.org/details/oldschool01smit ^HE OLD SCHOOL IN TWO VOLUMES. « Our virtues would be proud if our faults whipped them notj ond our crimes would despair, if they verc not cherished by our virtues." all's well that ends well* act XV. VOL I. LONDON: PRINTED FOR J. BOOTH, DUKE STREET, PORTLAND PLACE. 1813. Printed bjr J. Barfield, 91, Wardour-Street, So^ 8^3 V. 1 CONTENTS aP THE FIRST VOLUME. CHAPTER I. Marlff History of Sir William Jerning- ham^ and Marriage />. 1. CHAPTER H. } Continuation of the Early History of Sir William Jemingham, — World Without Souls, — Family of Sir ^ William Jerniyigham, — Mrs, Mon- tague's Letters, — Family Arrange- "'H ments . />. 25. ^ VI CONTENTS. CHAPTER III. Sir John Jehu, — Filial Obedience, — Mrs. Carter, — Mr.Jerningham.p*51. CHAPTER IV. Mrs. Cooper and Son.^^On the Appro* priation of Time j». 70. CHAPTER V. Lord Karnes. — Criticism.'^ Arrival of Miss Jerningham. — Young People. — Lady Castleton. — Town Life, p.\0^. CHAPTER VI. Mrs. Cony ers.-— Character of Women. — Henry Jerningham. — Sunday. Sabbatical Year. . . . . jt?. 125. CONTENTS. Vll CHAPTER VII, Sir Henry and Lady Charlotte West, — Lord Edward Clarendon, Sir Charles Grandison, — Fashions, p, 157, CHAPTER VIII. Frederick Campbell, — Sir Thomas More. p, 187. CHAPTER IX. Dancing' Masters' Balls, — Superstition, — Henry IV, — Madame de St, Evre- mont, — The Lover's Change, jt?. 21 1. CHAPTER X. Metcalf Family, — Religious Sects,— Poor, . p. 240. triii. CONTENTS* CHAPTER XI. Alarming Accident^ and Cotisequenees, — Attending Divine Service, . p. 268. CHAPTER XII. Family Embarrassments. Frank De- claration. ..••.. J». 293. THE OLD SCHOOL. CHAPTER I. EARLY HISTORY OF SIR WILLIAM ^ERNINGHAM, AND MARRIAGE. Jerningham Hall, Mat/ 8, 1811. XjlFTER passing the winter so pleasant- ly with m}^ dear aunt in town, as usual, and being separated from her by the ex- pediency of her visiting a watering-place, and a disinclination on my part to accom- pany her, the motive of which it is no way necessary to explain, farther than by ob- serving it was a subject we were mutually agreed upon, and that our regard and VOL, !• B friendship 4 EARLY -HISTOny OF manners, the peculiar complacency of his intercourse with those most dear to him, his benevolence and piety, render him entirely deserving of the character I first gave him. A very singular circumstance cast an early cloud upon the youth of Sir William, bhghted his cheerful prospects, and left a canker in his breast, which no time has been able to eradicate — the death of a friend by his own hand, in a duel. Not that he was either the aggressor, or the defier; but he w anted firmness and resolu- tion to resist the impetuous outrage of his challenger, and to await a period, which must shortly have arrived, when cool re- collection, and the interposition of friends, might have explained and adjusted every thing amicably. The whole history is curious and affecting, and must be traced from the beginning, in order to give you a clear idea of it. Mr. Jerningham, then the second son of Sir Thos. Jerningham, when about the age of two or three and twenty, SIR WM. JERNINGHAM. 5 twenty, became deeply enamoured of a Miss Courtenay, whom he occasionally met at the house of a near relation. The polished gentleness of his manners, his refined taste, his elegant person and ad- dress, appeared to gain him a considerable interest in the heart of this young lady. When Mr. Jerningham learned that she was the only child of a man of large for- tune, his diffidence of the reception his proposals might meet with, restrained him from the direct declaration of his passion, lest it might deprive him of the opportunity he so frequently enjoyed of freely con- versing with her : and he was a young man of too delicate a sense of honour to attempt to gain an avowal of regard from a young creature, without the knowledge of her first and best friends ; yet it was the general observation that the sentiment of regard appeared to be mutual. It was at this period that a friend of Jerningham's, the companion of a part of his travels, felt his curiosity stimulated B 3 by EARLY HISTORY OF by the conversation of his friend, to be introduced to this paragon of elegance and perfection. Fitzosborne was of a character and figure striking and imposing ; his appear- ance and address brought to the imagina- tion those heroes of romance, who irresist- ibly carry all before them. Acquaintance with various countries, languages, and persons, had given him a flow of ideas, a volubility of expression, and that easy confidence, which seldom fails to make its way in society : he was animated, en- tertaining, warm in his attachments, and generous in his sentiments : his fortune was large, but not unincumbered. Fitzosborne danced with Louisa Cour- tenay, and dwelt with peculiar eloquence to his friend upon the interesting sweet- ness and attraction of his chosen. It is not certain whether a fearful apprehen- sion, or what other cause, stimulated Jer- ningham at this time to risk an explicit avowal of his attachment, to the father of Louisa. sift M^M. ^ERNiNGHAM. 7 Louisa, He was so unfortunate as to receive a direct refusal, on the score of his own moderate expectations, so inadequate to the fortune of the lady. When Jerning- ham lamented this mortifying result to his friend, an expression in the eye of the latter struck him with a painful suspicion that a sentiment had gained admission to his breast, incompatible with their former friendship. ** Do you then," said Fitzos- borne, " resign all hopes of this lovely girl?" "How can I do otherwise ?" answer- ed Jerningham : ** you know my circum- stances, and my expectations from my worthy uncle are too vague to be men- tioned." His friend was silent, and musing, but not apparently dejected. It had been remarked by Jerningham, when he first spoke openly to Louisa of his affection, in lamenting the direct refusal of her father, that she received the intelli- gence in a very different manner from what he, at one time, had flattered him- self she would. B 4 When 8 EART.y HISTORY OF When a woman really loves, she does not instantly resign all hope of future changes. With him — " It was to hope wherei hope is lost, " Tho' heav'n and earth his passion crost/' But Louisa appeared cool, decided, and unconcerned.—** The commands of a father are, you know, Sir, insuperable/* But she talked not of patient acqui* escence, or of silent hope. > The suspicions awakened by these united circumstances were sufficiently painful to a tender and disappointed heart : but suspicion was soon converted into certainty. Filzosborne was a frequent visitor at Courtenay Castle, and no doubt remained of his being the favoured lover of its young heiress. An entire coldness between the two friends took its date from this period ; and after some weeks had passed in pain^ ful dejection, produced by disappointed hopes, SIR TVM. JERNINGHAM. Q hopes, Mr. Jerningham determined to visit his uncle, at Norton Grove, Persuading himself that the road by Courtenay Castle was the best, if not the nearest way thither, he took that road, and towards the even- ing of a sultry day in July he approached the confines of that place. A long threat- ening thunder-storm became, at this time, tremendously awful ; the lightning was ter- rific, and the rain descended in torrents. At this moment he perceived a young lady in great distress and alarm, attempt- ing to open the park gate, and at length, taking refuge under a large tree. He flew to succour, and draw her from her dangerous situation ; but what were his surprise and emotion when he beheld Louisa! — ** Allow me, Madam — can I serve you ?" ** O yes. Sir, what shall I do?'' ** Instantly quit this dangerous spot, enter my chaise; I will conduct you to your father's door, and retire." Almost fainting with terror, he put her into the chaise, and followed her. Just as the door B 5 was 10 EARLY HISTORY OF was shut, Fitzosborne galloped by the carriage, and looking earnestly in, clearly saw Miss Courtenay, supported by Jer- ningham. He soon returned, and looking fiercely into the carriage, galloped back again. Louisa saw him not, and Jerningham having deposited his affrighted charge at the castle, was proceeding on his journey, •when he was met at the park gate by the servant of Fitzosborne, who delivered from his master, a request to see him at the keeper's house. He followed the ser- vant, and entered the house where Fitz- osborne, with a friend, awaited, and in- stantly accosted him with warmth and irritation : *'Did I rightly understand, Sir, that your expectations of Miss Courtenay's favour were entirely at an end ?" " Cer- tainly, Sir, you did; from myself.'* "How then am I to account for what I have just witnessed ?" " In no way inconsistent with honour and integrity." " How, Sir ! am I to see myself supplanted, and to be told SIR WM. JERNINGHAM. 11 told of honour and integrity ?'* '* Is it for Fitzosborne to speak of supplayiting T^ with a piercing look, said Jerningham. "And is this, Sir, the language of a friend ?** retaliated the enraged lover. "Ah, where is the conduct of a friend ?" returned the other. " If I can obtain no other satisfac- tion, I must demand that of a gentleman." "As you please, Sir." "But you are alone." " Let not that embarrass you : I will con- sider your friend as equally the friend of both.*' " I wish not to take any advan- tage," said Fitzosborne. " Doubtless not; I am at your service." Unhappy, ill- fated youths ! could not this failure in the savage etiquette of false honour save you by the delay of a few hours, and, giving time for explanation, from the horrid catastrophe that hung over you ? It is more than probable that indignity of his injuries, rankling in the heart of Mr. Jerningham, prevented his acting with that coolness for which he was remark- able. Resentment and intemperance, too B 6 surelv 12 EARLY HISTORY OF surely actuated both : they hurried to a neighbouring wood, a servant following^ with a pair of travelling pistols. By agreennent, they fired together; Fitz- osborne fell, a ball having entered his breast. All resentment dropped with hinn — it was too late. Jerningham flew to his friend, and supported him in his arms with agonizing terror. They were now surrounded by some persons from the house they had quitted, and the wound- ed man was instantly conveyed thither. He was for some time speechless, and evidently mortally wounded. At length he beckoned his friend to him, and with much difficulty articulated : *'As a dying man, answer me one question : How came Louisa with you?'' " Terrified as she was by the storm, I flew to her succour, and was conveying her to her father's house ; I thought not of supplanting you, Fitzosborne, if you love her." '' O Jerning- ham ! Jerningham! but three words, */ succoured Louisa $' and we had both been SIR WM. JERNIXGHAM. IS been happy ; I had thanked you ; but now — O mercy ! mercy ! God forgive me ! Let me once more embrace my friend : dear, dear Jerningham, had you spared yourself — me, this crime. — You bleed too ! wretched beings ! O God for- give us I'' He sunk down to rise no more. The wretched survivor fell insensible by his side, and was dragged from the corpse of his friend^ when a piercing shriek roused him from the momentary ease of insensibility. It was Louisa, in a state of frantic despair. She fell on the body and uttered the most agonizing la- mentations ; till all power of utterance, all sense of perception fled. The wretched Jerningham recovered his senses to experience a state of mind not to be described. He refused to have his Vv^ound dressed, and called on death to release him from his misery : until, quite exhausted, he was conveyed in a fainting state to the nearest inn ; where, though under 14 EARLY HISTORY OF under the best advice that could be procured, his life was long despaired of. A high fever, with frequent delirium, and the alarming state of his wound offered but few hopes of his ultimate recovery. Sir Wm. once told Lady Jerningham, " That no words could ever describe the horrors of his state of mind for a very considerable time ; no heavenly consola- tion, no assisting grace : — how should a murderer raise his hands to his God l" Cutting, but unavaihng remorse, pursued him night and day. ** When I felt," said he, ** the cold arms of my once-loved friend grasping my neck in convulsive agonies, with joy would I have given a right arm to save him from death ; to save myself from the bitter sorrow, w hich must in a degree, pursue me to the last hour of my life. I was at first conscious of acting uprightly; why did I not openly avow it? Detested, latent resentment I abhorred pride ! where are ye now ? *' Noble SIR WM. JERNINGHAM. 15 '* Noble, generous, but impetuous Fitz- osborne : had we but in the first period of coldness calmly sought an explanation ; had we acted with openness and candour, we might now have been happy." Alas ! in vain are we by early sacred rites, called Christians ; in vain do our tender and watchful mothers endeavour early to stifle anger and resentment in our little breasts, and to inculcate forbearance, and endur- ance of petty affronts, if the false pride of a corrupted world is to sanction and term gentlemanly, acts of violence and murder. After a period of distressing sus- pense to the family of Mr. Jerningham, an abatement of the extremely irritable symptoms allowed them some flattering hopes of recovery : but reduced to the greatest debility of mind and body, and apparently insensible to their kindness and hopes, it was thought necessary to try continual change of scene ; and his anxious friends long wandered with him from 15 EARLY HISTORY OF from place to place, in an almost hope- less pursuit of that peace of mind, and health of body, which seemed for ever fled. Louisa Courtenay, deeply attached to Fitzosborne; stung, perhaps, with a pain- ful consciousness of the versatile levity with which she had resigned so valuable a heart as Jerningham's, sunk into a state of melancholy stupor, which falling upon a tender constitution, terminated in a de- cline, and carried her off in less than a twelvemonth; leaving her parents over- whelmed with grief and remorse, that they had precipitately rejected an estimable man, because he was not then possessed of an independent fortune, O craving love of wealth ! eagerness for worldly distinctions and parade ! how do you reward your devoted followers ? frequently with the entire disappointment of all their worldly views, and not seldom by rendering the completion of them their greatest punishment. Then have they SIR WM. JERNINGHAM. 17 they acknowledged, with unavailing re* gret, that moderation and simplicity in their wishes would have secured to them and their offspring, the most heartfelt comfort and happiness. It was about this period, that the eldest son of Sir Thomas Jerningham, an extrava- gant and dissipated young man, died abroad, where he had been long a ram*- bier. Their grief for his death was con- siderably diminished by the sorrow he had caused them in his life, by his pur- suit of fashionable vices, crowned by fashionable disregard to religion, and to his parents. Their now^ eldest and most amiable son, languishing for two years under a most alarming state of weakness, chanced to pass a few weeks at the house of his uncle, in company with a ^liss Gower, and her aunt, Mrs. Cooper. Ap- prized as this young lady had been of Mr. Jerningham's peculiar circumstances, her tenderest compassion was already his; and the intelligent, and touching melan- choly 18 EARLY HISTORY OF choly diffused over his character, did not, upon acquaintance, lessen her feelings of soft sympathy. Maria was not a stranger to sorrow : she was not one of those un- fortunate mortals, whom a long course of prosperity had rendered either unfeeling or trifling. The sudden death of a young gentleman, to whom, with the approving consent of her friends, she was soon to have been united, had, at nineteen, taught her a sensible lesson of the precarious- ness of all human expectations. She was now twenty-two, and though she had long since apparently recovered her cheerful- ness ; yet she possessed and enjoyed her remaining blessings with ^ that chastened and subdued sense of their fleeting nature, which, to sensible minds, lent an inex- pressible charm to her whole exterior. That a degree of friendly sympathy should arise betv»'een the two minds last spoken of, will not appear extraordinary to many persons; frequentopportunities of familiar conversation naturally occurred, and in one, SIR WM« JEHNINGHAM. 19 one, in which Mr. Jerningham seemed dis- tantly to touch upon his state of mind, he chanced to observe Miss Gower's eye filled with tears. She soon discovered that he laboured under the painful op- pression of a burthened mind. From tenderness to his distressed friends, he had smothered within his breast that corroding sense of his own misfortune, and its dreadful consequences, which con- stantly pursued him. Every tender attention he received from his parents; but they were not aware that freely opening the heart, at its own time, and in its own way, was ab- solutely necessary to its ultimate peace, in order to " Cleanse the foul bosom of that perilous stuff Which hangs about the heart." Miss Gower's was a character of that simple dignified excellence, and strength of mind, that ventured to act by its own pure, so EARLY HISTORY OF pure and good impulses, unconscious of design, and heedless of trifling ob- servation. In some rides which they took together, she encouraged him to speak freely of the painful feelings which oppressed him ; she heard him patiently, and occasionally poured into his mind the healing balm of religious consola- tion. She took some pains to convince him that there was even no series of errors for which, under a sincere repentance, an humble Christian might not hope for pardon : still more, this one offence, which had been followed by contrition so deep. That continued and wasting sorrow was, in such cases, of itself, an offence ; particularly where the peace of beloved relatives hung upon his returning health and comfort. Actuated by the purest compassion, she was the more earnest and eloquent in her expressions ; and the amendment in the looks and manners of the invalid were visible to every one ; perhaps SIR WM JERyiXGHAar. 21 perhaps it was not unsuspected by some, that a sentiment softer than friendship, more powerful than reason, was afford- ing its healing balm to his wounded heart This was observed with smiling complacency by his hi^therto anxious parents; but unthought of by .his fair friend, since his once languid and wasted appearance afforded no sanguine hopes that he would long be an inhabitant of this world. During a walk on the lawn before the house, previous to the departure of the Jerninghams from Norton Grove, Maria said with her genuine frankness, ** I hope, Sir, the good effect of our friendly con- versation will not be lost by your de- parture; but that you will carry with you resolutions to continue your efforts for regaining a tranquil and cheerful state of mind : then, and then only may your anxious parents hope to see you again restored to health." "Could 2!2 EARLY HISTORY, StC. *' Could I but carry with me the con- tinued prescriptions of my most kind physician," said Jerningham, taking her hand, as bidding her farewel, " I might, indeed, hope much. Dearest Miss Gower, what are my obligations to you ! may I be allowed to add to them ? Will you per- mit me, if my heart is still oppressed, to write to you once or twice ?'* After a little pause — " To refuse," said she, "such a request, after what has passed, might seem inconsistent and un- feeling. '* My best wishes. Sir, go with you, for a complete recovery. I feel for, ad- mire, and honour your mother." She entered the house, and the Jerningham family drove off. It is rather an old observation, that pity is nearly allied to love ; but not the less true for that Our young invalid very soon found his heart so oppressed^ that it was absolutely necessary to unburthen it MAl^RIAGE. 23 it to his fair physician ; and a long letter, full of expressions of gratitude and ac- knowledgments of obligation, concluded with a pretty clear avowal of love. It was now that Maria first began to suspect that a feeling, still more eloquent than friendship, had insinuated itself with her pity, and given energy and persuasion to her words. It was not long before a frank acknow- ledgment w^as obtained from her, of an anxious interest in the recovery of her patient. In the course of a month, she was induced, together with her respectabk aunt, to pass some time at the Hall; where the happy parents of her lover obtained from her a promise, that upon the hoped-for reinstatement of his health, she would rejoice the whole family by making herself one of it. In less than a a twelvemonth, this happy event took place, amidst tranquil smiles, and heart- felt 24 MARRIAGE. fjlt gratitude to Providence for the inter* vention of so sweet and salutary a phy- sician. . I must close niy enormous packet, an opportunity offering to forward it. 7odii^-" Adieu, dearest Madam, A. S. S5 EARLY HISTORY, &:C. CHAPTER IL CONTINUATION OF THE EARLY HIS- TORY OF SIR WM. JERNINGHAM. WORLD WITHOUT SOULS. — FAMILY OF SIR WILLIAM JERNINGHAM. MRS. Montague's letters. — fa- mily ARRANGEMENTS. May 11. After what I have communicated to my dear aunt, she is, I hope, anxious for further particulars of this amiable family in former days^ I have collected another budget A touching and very pleasing little anecdote* was connected at no distant * A circumstance, almost exactly similar to this, occurred in the family of a most respectable Baronet, now in the India direction, upan the marriage of a worthy son with an amiable woman, both then very young. It was given to the Editor by a friend, who was so happy as to pass some days with the young couple at the house of a mutual friend. VOL. I, c period 26 EARLY HISTORY OF period with the marriage of the young couple. When their future place of residence became the question, Sir Tho- mas said, with affecting paternal tender- ness, *^ This is the only unpleasant cir- cumstance, my William, attending this joyful event. I cannot bear to think of another home : you have been so long our inmate and friend, that we know not how to give you up, even into the hands of so excellent a nurse. Besides, I fear, the proportion of fortune I can at present conveniently allot you, will not command all those liberal comforts which you still require: carriages, horses, &c. Could you be happy to live with me for a twelvemonth, and then make your choice for the future?" '* Could I be happy to live with you, Sir? Could I be happy to leave you, after the multiplied kindnesses I have receiv- ed, and the anxiety you have so long suffered ? Should I not present you with the first fruits of my brightening days ?" Maria SIR WM* JERXIXGHAM. 2/ Maria warmly seconded him, and Lady Jerningham, her eyes glistening with tears, and pressing her husband's hand, said, *' We shall all now be happy : no cruel farewells to damp our joy. Most cheerfully passed a twelvemonth with this united family ; at the end of which time, Sir Thomas, one day, when they were all together, said, *'You have now, my dear children, gone through the prescribed time to gratify my wishes ; you are now free to make your farther election, and gratify yourselves." "I hope, dear Sir," said Maria, her eyes filling with tears, *' that no thought- less inadvertency of our's has brought so very exactly to your remembrance this period; can we ever be more happy? Will you banish us?" *' No, my sweet and skilful physician," said the good baronet, kissing bis daughter's hand : **have you not, with the blessing of God, diffused serene cheerfulness through- out our mansion: would I banish you c S from 28 EARLY HISTORT OF from it ?" Tears of affection were almost general, and no more was said of parting. Nearly a year after this, Mr. Jerning- ham became, by the death of an uncle, possessed of a good estate, and a neat house, in a neighbouring county. He had too much delicacy to make this the signal for quitting the paternal roof, where he had experienced so much affectionate goodness ; and it was not till after the birth of his second child that they deter- mined upon residing on this estate, under a promise to spend half the year at the Hall. Upon the lamented death of Sir Tho- mas Jerningham, some years after this, very little alteration appeared to take place in the family arrangements, only that the young baronet and his wife passed more of the year at Jerningham Hall, where the dowager and her daughters still resided, than they formerly had done. *' Never,'* said Sir William, *' shall a mother of mine SIR WM. JERNINGHAM, 29 mine, have a home to seek upon so afflicting a stroke ; never shall she, with my permission, quit a mansion which she has so long graced and dignified by her virtues and excellence. The dowager had her separate apartments, on a compact scale, and mixed with their company only when perfectly agreeable to herself. She lived respected and happy ; and died be- loved and lamented, in the bosom of her family. How is it that the old and the young so seldom live pleasantly together ? Is it that the former assume too frequently the privi- lege of dictating and preaching to those not half their age ; and that the latter are unwilling to conform, or even to listen pa- tiently to the advice of those, who certain- ly must have experience on their side? Is it owing to the young being too eager in the pursuit of trifling pleasures ; and the old too ready to condemn all pleasure, as a reprehensible mode of occupying any of their time? I am inclined to think 3 that 50 EARLY HISTORY OF that an intimate association of the two classes >yould tend to promote, in the one, more domestic habits ; and in the other, a greater degree of cheerfulness. A society consisting of many elderly and infirm persons, might be apt to dwell too much upon the increasing de- pravity of the present times ; and to con- tend with each other for the superemi- nence in infirmities, sorrow, and various discomforts : whilst a multitude of young persons collected together, produce often, it must be confessed, a superabundance of frivolity and impertinence, to say no worse. It is from some such cause, I imagine, that the most good-humoured old persons are those who delight in the company of the young : whilst the most amiable young people are generally such as have passed their chief time with re- spectable elders Some writer has said, (I forget who,) ^'Nothing has a better influence upon the disposition and cha- racter of a young person, than living much in SIR WM. JERNINGHAM. 31 in the company of those they respect. Ex- clusive of the improvement he is likely to receive from such society, he is accus- tomed to self-control, and self-restraint; and habitually relinquishes the indul- gence of many bad habits and trifling ways, which the constant society of his equals in age and knowledge would only foster and encourage." Lady Jerningham said to me one day, that she thought she never was more happy than during the two years, or more, in which she lived with the parents of her husband. His improving health and cheer- fulness ; the grateful and lively tenderness of his once afflicted parents; freedom from family cares ; the birth of her two first treasures ; all was harmony and joy. •—She also, in a conversation, which I had with her yesterday, said, '' It w^ould be incomprehensible to any common mind, how much the early trials and sorrows of Sir William, my sense of them, and our mutual feelings on the c 4 subject, 32 EARLY HISTORY OF subject, have tended to raise, and, as it were, sublime our mutual tenderness, and to lead to many exquisite feelings of gratitude and complacency, unknown to the prosperous attainers of their wishes : though, I must freely confess, that at times, my painful sense of his occasional sorrows, has nearly thrown me into the same dejected state. Still this has always tended to increase our affection. Let two persons, who apparently love in a common degree, experience a mutual affliction, and they will be more closely drawn together in mutual tenderness, ex- cluding bad conduct and recrimination from my calculation. When I see my dear Sir William's manly brow occasion- ally overcast by the inward trouble of his mind ; is there a sacrifice which I would not make, to brighten and cheer it ? Is there a blessing, except conscious in- tegrity, which I would not resign, to restore to his feeling mind that uncloud- ed sunshine, which can alone result from the SIR "\VM. J EllX INGHAM. 33 the consciousness of never having injtired a fellow-being?" There is in the character of Lady Jerningham the most charming mixture of sensibiUty and fortitude, I think, I ever met with. Full of the tenderest and kindest feelings, it is not necessary that those feelings should be spread on the exterior, in order to gain the love and at- tention of those with whom she is con- nected ; on the contrary, the finest emo- tions are often concealed under a calm and smiling demeanour, and nothing short of intimate knowledge and observation can discern the many tendernesses that frequently occupy her mind ; it is by her countenance and actions, not by her words, that they are discoverable; and surely, she has the most speaking coun- tenance, the most expressive, though soft eye, I ever observed. She is not a woman of very many words; she is not an haranguer, not an arguer, not a decider : but her conversg.- c 5 tion *="- 34 EARLY HISTORY OF tion in a small party, and, most particu- larly, with one chosen friend, is de- lightfully interesting. It is the rich flow of an enlightened and feeling mind, un- adulterated by the false varnish of the world ; thinking for itself; unenslaved by false prejudices. Lady Jerninghara is altogether elegant and attractive in person and manners : she has more than the remains of beauty; though not of juvenile beauty, yet that of dignity and expression : her talents are of a superior class, but meekly worn. A neat and genteel negligence of out- ward decoration marks a mind occupied with something superior to ornament. Her manners to her husband are plea- santly obliging, and cheerfully compla- cent. A little instance of their tender, yet regulated affection, occurred the other day, I am inclined to think, unobserved by any one but myself Sir William, as I before mentioned, has never recovered that SIR WM. JERNINGHAM. 35 that State of firm health, and unclouded cheerfulness, which he once enjoyed : but is subject to nervous tremors, aud uneasy sensations in miscellaneous conversation, if it happen to bear towards one subject, which occasions him sometimes to leave the room : but it is the established rule that these exits are never to be noticed. One evening, in a small party, the late dreadful duel, in which one friend fell by the pistol of another, became, unfortu- nately, the subject of discussion. Lady J. was visibly uneasy; and Sir William changed colour, and, after a little time, left the room. Poor Lady J. became entirely absent ; her eyes anxiously fixed upon the door. In order to give a turn to the conversation, I spoke of the last elopement of a wife from a fond husband, and sweet young family. All mouths were opened to furnish various aggravat- ing particulars, very unnecessarily ; and the murderer of his friend was for- gotten in the seducer of his friend's wife. c6 At 56 WORLD WITHOUT SOULS. At length Sir William returned, with a little book in his hand ; he passed be- hind Lady J.'s chair, and in answer to her anxious inquiring looks, said in a low voice, ** Better, my love;" her coun- tenance again brightened. " What have you got there, Sir William ?" " Some- thing which I meant to have put into your hands this morning, Maria; a book with which I have been much pleased and interested : * The World Without Souls-' '' O," said Captain R , " I have heard it is a stupid methodistical work, written by one of the saints, as they believe themselves to be, who do nothing but find fault with people of spirit and fashion, because they amuse themselves; and infer from thence that they have no souls." Sir William. — " If we can prove that he finds fault without reason, he is certainly much to blame; but if the restless pursuit of pleasure can be used as an argument for his hypothesis, I fear we should find it very difficult to prove WORLD WITHOUT SOULS. 37 prove the right which that class possess to the immortal spark." " A mere cant- ing methodist," said the Captain, " who, not being able to enjoy any pleasure him- self, is determined that no one else shall." ** I must confess," rejoined Sir William, *' that I have not found any methodistical doctrine in this book, but, on the con- trary, very rational and temperate sen- timents on religion; and much solid ob- servation upon the present prevailing manners. It appears to me to be the production of a mind, rich in right prin- ciple, and fine feeling. The story of M 's sister, the piteous victim of fa- shionable depravity, is beautifully told: her penitent sense of her own crime, the awful and consolatory moments they passed together previous to her decease,, come from, and go to the heart/' His voice altered. ** Give us," said Lady J. (taking the book from him, and pressing his hand in the action) *'a cheer^ ful part of your book," " I will — the happy 38 WOULD WITHOUT SOULS. happy union of a truly estimable young man, to a young woman with a soul; a soul intent on virtue ; on the wonders and beauties of creation. They are repre- sented as situated amongst the grand and sublime scenery of Switzerland, where, the author adds, ' I do not, however, say that the visitations of sorrow were not felt by them : it met them indeed in tears, but without a frown; and was meant, therefore, not to chastise, but to improve them.' Again, * I know no man, who, like M , could thus sanctify misfortunes. * There are,' he would say, * trees, which we wound to obtain a balsam; the wound is here inflicted, it is our's to extract the medicine.' *' That simile pleases me," said Lady J. " I do not recollect to have met with it before.'* " Pshaw !" said the Captain, ^' I have no patience with those starch fellows, who will not let any body be happy, because they are not so themselves." *' Rather a serious charge," said the baronet; *^ but, indeed, if WORLD WITHOUT SOULS. 39 if we could prove that the earnest and incessant pursuit of pleasure afforded real enjoyment, it would be something gained on the side of its votaries: but from their frequent complaints, exhausted spirits, and cheerless countenances, we must conclude, that what we are habi- tuated to call happiness, the active spring of an intelligent mind, the full posses- sion of all its various faculties and powers, is far from being their's. Even supposing us for a moment transported to the world depicted in our little book ; and the transporting thought of a glorious futurity for an instant out of the question; still, I believe, wearisome slavery is of- tener the portion of the devotees of plea- sure, than happiness ; and that what they daily perform, if enjoined them as an imperious duty, would seem the most tyrannical of oppressions." The Captain began whisding a tune. Sir William was proceeding to delineate the happy mixture of retirement, enlightened so- ciety, 40 FABIILY OF ciety, and amusement, which give enjoy- ment to life, when supper was brought in ; much to the satisfaction of the Cap- tain, who was as far inferior to his antagonist in sentiment and argument, as the latter might be to him in military tactics. The company divided, and miscella- neous conversation occupied the remainder of the evening. But I am just sensible of my inaccuracy in falling into conversa- tions and details, before I have brought you acquainted with the w^hole of this fa- mily. You must take the stream as it flows. I must detail as I feel and re- member. The family'of Sir William con- sists of a dai^hter, a.t present in town with an aunt, a son at the university, two sweet girls at home, nearly grown up, and two much younger. Selina is a lovely, modest, promising young creature, for so must I speak of a girl of eighteen, whose character I do not consider as go completely fixed, but th^^t an excep- tionable SIR VrU. JERNINGHAM. 41 tionable connection, either in friendship or marriage, may entirely undo former good impressions. Madame de Genlis says, ** A young woman's education is only begun by her mother ; it must be finished by her hus- band, if she chance to marry young." How few men are qualified, or inclined, to add those finishing touches to goodness, those confirmations of blossoming virtue, which would tend to perfect the rising character ! Does not this idea afford a striking conviction to mothers, of the extreme importance of the character of the man to whom they are willing to commit the beloved child, they have carefully edu- cated in the paths of virtue ? Selina is the counterpart of her mother ; her whole wish and endeavour seems to be to tread in her steps : she inherits her peculiar sweetness of countenance, and graceful- ness of manner. Of the talents of a very diffident girl, it would be difficult so soon to 42 FAMILY OF to judge; the best presumption of her possessing them, is a modest and ob- serving silence. She is the coadjutor of her mother in all her household arrange- ments and charitable exertions, and many intelligent looks and whispers pass be- tween them : many a domestic arrange- ment, or assistance to a deserving cot- tager, passes through the medium of the active but retiring Selina, I am unwill- ing to allow Maria to be inferior, though she is certainly of a very different cast of character from her sister. Sprightly, arch, intelligent ; of a more original turn of mind ; her manners are pretty much her own, and she must be good, and do good in her own way. She is the delight of her father, to whom she is warmly at- tached: he calls her his agreeable rattle: she rides with him, follows him about the grounds; and brightens many an hour which might otherwise be heavy. Lady Jerningham sees with delight her own wishes answered by the attractive spright- liness SIR WM. JERNINGHAM. 43 liness of youth, and allows Maria consi- derable freedom in her amusing sallies, always preserving the check in her own hand ; but not attempting to make her like her sister, or any other person. ** So as they are good and affection-^ ate," she says, *' let them preserve the charm of nature and originality." Maria is not more than fifteen, but would pass for more, certainly. Eliza and Sophia, twelve and nine, are two sweet little girls, promising all that is good and attrac- tive. May \4t. After the interruption of a day or two, I again resume my pen. Every fresh discovery in this family affords fresh gra- tification and delight to the observing mind. Each of these young females has adopted two or three old infirm women, in or about the village, of whom she con- siders 44 FAMILY ARRANGEMENTS, siders herself the guardian and com- forter. She makes their caps, frequently visits and reads to them, and if they are sick, carries them wine or broth, and takes care that they want not in their de- clining years those comforts which a pa- rish allowance cannot afford them. I was walking yesterday on the skirts of the park, when I heard a little voice, which- 1 thought I knew, in a cottage, the door of which was open. I stood still, and through some very light foliage plainly discerned Sophia reading to a very old woman, and then talking, as if endeavouring to explain some verse as it had been explained to her, in the New Testament. After a little while she arose. *^ Well, ^ood bye, Betty, I must go; Eliza is waiting for me." *' Good bye, my sweet little lady," said the good woman ; '* may God in heaven bless you, and make you as happy as you are good." Our hours here are regular, and not late ; FAMILY ARRANGEMENTS. 45 late ; a great source of comfort to people who do not find time an insupportable burthen. That devourer of useful and valuable hours, an uncertain breakfast as to commencement and duration, is unknown here. Nine is the hour, and you may depend upon finding some of the elder females at that time. Until ten is allowed for this meal, and if any of her guests should not chance to be ready, and accomodated by that time, Lady Jerningham retires, leaving a daugh- ter to preside. She cannot, she says, for months together, give up the best part of the day to lounging attendance on others. An hour or two after breakfast she passes with her two youngest daughters, though she has a young person, who is called a governess. I peeped into their school- room up stairs one day. They were reading round a table, with a large globe in the middle. History and geography united were the business of the day. We have a pleasant morning room up stairs, 46 MRS. Montague's letters. stairs, called the ladies' library, where we assemble about the middle of the day, if not otherwise engaged, and generally peruse some interesting work together, the two elder girls being of our party. We began reading yesterday the early letters of the celebrated Mrs. Montague, which I had heard highly praised. Hav- ing some years since read her Essay on the Genius and Writings of Shakspeare, and some excellent letters of her's in Lord Kaimes's Life, latterly, I cannot express my surprise and disappointment in pe- rusing these letters. Why will insatiate editors, who call themselves the friends of the deceased, lower their formerly ac- quired good fame, by producing to the world all their early frivolities and crudi- ties? Is this friendship? Is it not rather censurable, and the motive sus- picious? Are the letters of a girl of thirteen likely to increase the reputation of a woman best known in her mature and rational period ? These letters are lively; MRS. MONTAGUES LETTERS. 47 lively ; but, if I may freely speak my opinion, it is the liveliness of a pert school-girl, who had been an assiduous reader of novels and trash; and had unfortunately got the reputation of a wit: one of the most mischievous circum- stances that can happen to a young lady. There are in these letters, some iedeco- rous allusions to holy rvrit; and some jokes and expressions, which /should not have expected from a young lady's pen. We are promised many more volumes of these letters — but greatly is it to be la- mented that half of these two had not been withheld. When a woman is so eminently exalted as Mrs. Montague certainly was for many years, it is a most unfriendly act to lower her, by producing the ebullitions of an early childish wit, a failing, which time would of itself correct. Lady Jerningham and I, after reading a few of the letters, looked at one another, and agreeing that it was not an interesting book, 48 FAMILY ARRANGEMENTS. book, put it aside. Maria pleaded for a little farther trial, being amused with the sprightly style of the book; but her mother having a reason for her decision, was immoveable. May 18. I HAVE discovered another pretty ar- rangement in this family. Last Saturday morning, I observed the two youngest girls came in after breakfast, and call away their two sisters with smiling ear- nest impatience. Lady Jerningham did not follow them, but talked of retiring to write. ** There is some delightful scheme of pleasure," said I, in agitation; "where are these young folks going?" " Why, if I must disclose family secrets," said Lady J. " Saturday is a complete holiday, which they are allowed to employ in working FAMILY ARHANGEMENTS. 49 working for their poor neighbours.* We shall hardly see them until dinner-time. A stock of coarse and cheap materials is laid in wholesale, and old things are oc- casionally put into their stock; and they cut out and make various articles of appa- rel, chiefly for little children, which they have the pleasure of giving them when wanted. This is not the least happy day of the week, and may be considered as a pleasant step to Sunday. It ge- nerally ends in a few visits together to the village. ** Their little snug room, up-stairs, is vei'y comfortably adapted to their employ- ment; a wardrobe and drawers containing working implements, &c When they * The adoption of exactly such a plan was wit- nessed by the Editor, nearly twenty years ago, in a fa- mily; and the delight in the contemplation of their winter stock of clothing, expressed by two sweet young creatures, now in eternal blessedness, can never be erased from the Editor's mmd. VOL. t. D are 50 FAMILY ARRANGEMENTS. are gone out on their rambles, we will pay it a visit: to break in upon them now would quite discompose and em- barrass them." *' Happy mortals!" said I to myself, ** here is the true enjoyment of life. Religion, progressive knowledge, active benevolence, regularity, family affection, all yield their charming and enlivening comforts. Who that has ever tasted these blessings, can take up with inferior and vague pleasures?" Adieu, dearest Madam, A, S. CHAR SIR JOHN JEHU. 51 CHAP. III. SIR JOHN JEHU.— ^FILIAL OBEDIENCE. MRS. CARTER. — MR. JERNINGHAM, May 24. One morning last week, we were com- fortably settled in our up-stairs library, reading, drawing, working, &c. wlien the little Sophia came running in, apparently terrified, and clinging to her mother, ex- claimed, ** O dear mamma, I am so fright- ened ! there is a nasty coachman — a great noisy vulgar fellow — he must be drunk — crossing the hall; I saw him! and he is coming up stairs, I believe. Pray, ring the bell, or bolt the door. I heard him from our window swearing, and talking in such a manner, it made me tremble, about his horses ; abusing the other ser- vant, because they were hot, and swore he'd cut his head off, if he answered him D 2 a word* yNfVERSITV Of iLLINOIS LIBHARiC 52 SIR JOHN JEHU, a word. Then he stalked into the house. T)o, pray, mamma, bolt the door." Lady J. arose to ring the bell, when the door suddenly opened, and the butler an- nounced Sir John and Miss Jehu. Two figures entered, of which I would defy any one, at first glance, to say which was the lady, and which the gentleman. They were both clothed in long box- coats, half-boots, and stout beaver hats ; only one of the figures had its hat ofi', the other on its head : but after a short salu- tation, not easily described, the latter saying ** *Tis deuced hot !" took its hat off, and laid it on the table. " O c d hot," said the former, ** now the sun's out! But the d 1 take that jade, Fidget, she's all of a muck,'' The young ladies looked at the female figure, wondering if he meant her. ^^ She frets herself to death, while Slouch comes in cool as a cucu7nber ; and the two leaders as fresh as a rose. But 'tis all my d d coach- man's fault, for curbing her too tight; and if SIR JOHN JEHU. 53 if he ever does so again, I'll cut him to pieces, by — !'' *' Nay, Jack, 'tis all your own fault: for you know, you went tickle, tickle, all the way with your whip, and kept the poor beast on the fret." '* You lie, Bess, confoundedly ! You know about as much how to manage a horse, as that child there." Poor Sophia shrunk behind her mother's chair, and seemed to meditate an escape. The young lady rejoined, ** If I did not know better how to manage a horse than you do, hang me if ever I'd mount one again !'' *' Well, I'll be c d if you shall not drive home; — and I'll take care they shall all fret enough !" in a low voice. " But what do you all do pent up here, such a fine day for driving ? My beasts are not taken off; come, one of these young ladies shall mount the box with me, and I'll put Bess into the tub." '' O yes, with your nasty greyhounds! — it smells like a dog kennel." " These young ladies do not mount D 3 boxes : *4 SIR JOHN JEHU, boxes; and they are now otherwise en- gaged ;" said Lady J. ** O stuff!" said the baronet. '* I'll halloo to my scoun- drels to drive round," and was proceed- ing to take the arm of Selina. Lady J. arose, with some dignity; '* I beg you will be seated, Sir John. If the young tadies wish to go out, there is the interior of a carriage for them." *' O, hang it, that's de-uced dull. — But how is the old boy ?" After a minute's pause : " I don't exactly comprehend you, Sir John." — The old baronet, where is he ?" — " If you mean Sir William Jerningham, he has rode out." Maria began tittering, when her mother looked at her rather with severity, and she instantly suppressed her inclination to risibility. Happily for us all, Sir John wanted to see how Fidget and Slouch went on, and ringing the bell : *^ Tell my fellows to drive round." In a short time they marched out of the room. We remained for a little time fixed in mute atonish- ment : SIR JOHX JEHU. 55 ment: the young ladies looked at their mother, as if expecting a long and amus- ing comment upon the curious pair ; but she seemed too much shocked and dis- composed, readily to find words. At length, resuming her unaffected natural gravity: ** It is really distressing to see one who has some claim to be called a gen- tleman, assume the manners and lan- guage of the meanest coachman, or groom : language, which were our coach- man ever heard to use, he would cer- tainly be dismissed with a reprimand. But the lady ! — is to be considered as the groom of her brother." We were completely deranged and un- settled in our occupations, and could not easily resume them. ** Pi'ay, mamma," said Selina, ** are there, among men of fashion, many such characters as Sir John?" " Not a few of that stamp, though in different degrees of perfection. Some turn into the gateway of an inn with four in hand, better than others; and B 4. some 66 SIR JOHN JEHU. some groom their own horses, I am told, as capitally as if they had been bred in a stable. Unfortunately, our young men of fashion, tired, I imagine, of the insipid character of a gentleman ; a distinction, once so highly valued, as to be expressive of every thing noble and right; have taken a fancy to ape the lowest of their servants, in dress, manners, and occupa- tion. " As it would be rather aukward for master and man to be occasionally mis- taken for each other, I do not see that servants can do better than assume the former manners and dress of gentlemen, just to keep up the marked difference be- tween them ; still receiving wages, and behavincf rather better than their masters: the complete change would soon be per- fectly felt and understood, as the partial one had been so long established." " Cross over, change sides, figure in," said Maria, taking three or four steps across the room, and turning round, in her SIR JOHN JEHU. 57 her lively manner, extending her arms and shoulders, to shake off the rust of her late company, as she said. " I thought, Maria," said Lady Jerningham, ** you seemed amused with the baronet's conversation." ** Amused ! mamma, I was so vexed, mortified, and disgusted, that if I had not begun to laugh, I be- lieve I should have cried ; particularly when he spoke in so rude a manner of my dear papa." '^ No particular disrespect, I appre- hend, was meant to him : the common manner of many young persons of spirit, speaking of respectable and affectionate parents, is, the old boy — the old girl* Would * There is a very amusing dialogue among Lord Clarendon's Tracts, upon the respect due to age, which sets this subject much farther back than we in general refer. The opening of the regular argu- ment, by B , the old lawyer, contains many state- ments worthy the notice of the young, concerning their inattention in society ; and the whole dialogue D 5 i» 58 FILIAL OBEDIENCE. Would we wish to contemplate a striking contrast to this style of expression, we must turn to the memoirs and letters of one or two hundred years back, when every letter to a parent was begun and ended with the most unequivocal expres- sions of the most profound respect ; and not only so, but the conduct of the child, a married son perhaps, w-as regulated by the same deep-rooted sentiments : they considered themselves as amenable to their parents ; and did not imagine they could prosper in the world without de- serving and obtaining their blessing."* "Do is rich in that strong and elevated strain of thinking, 'which characterized this great man. Editor, * I cannot resist the desire to add this letter so illustrative of what has been advanced. In the time of Elizabeth, Mr. Talbot, M.P. thus writes to his father :^— " I have found out a sober maiden to wait upon my wife, if it shall please your liordship. As it behoves me, I have been very in- quisitive FILIAL OBEDIENCE. 69 '^ Do you not think, Lady Jerning- ham/' said I, "that some degree of stiff- ness and awe adhered to those mannets; and that we gain now in affectionate in- timacy, what we lose in unvarying re- spect?" Lady J. " I cannot flatter myself that we do : I do not think that affection is ever gained by the sacrifice of re- spect, but quite the contrary. We can quisitive of the woman, and truly I do repose in her to be very modest, and such a one as I trust your Lordship will not mislike. Her name is Margaret Butler ; she is about twenty-seven years old ; not very beautiful, but very cleanly in doing any thing. I liumbly pray your Lordship to send me word whe- ther I shall make shift to send her down presently, for she is very desirous not to spend her time idly. Thus, most humbly desiring your Lordship's blessing, with my wonted and continual prayers for your Lord- ship's preservation in all honour and health long to continue, I end. Your Lordship's most humble and obedient Son, 1573, GILBERT TALBOT. Editor. p 6 never 60 MRS. CARTER AND never long continue to love without re- specting also; and too much freedom and familiarity, would, in time, under- mine tlie tenderest friendship. By too much familiarity, I mean, the want of habitual politeness ; the inconsiderate practice of bluntly speaking our minds upon all occasions, and turning to ridi- cule our best friends before common ac- quaintances." Sir William now entered from his ride, and their mutual address and conversa- tioa afforded a striking pattern of that respectful, tender, and polite freedom of manners, which must ever, between two such estimable persons, preserve, undi- minished, that rationally affectionate in- tercourse, which is so delightful to every observer. Monday, May 26. We have substituted the letters of Mrs. Carter and Miss Talbot, for those of MISS Talbot's letters. 61 of Mrs. Montague; and find them ex- tremely interesting and instructive ; those of Miss Talbot, in my opinion, the most so. But in these, as in all collections, about one half might be left out with ad- vantage to the book. We had been read- ing some of them on Saturday afternoon, and I could not help observing to Sir William, that in publishing the letters of women of geniuS; it would be ad- visable to select only such as would support the reputation they had already gained. " I agree with you," said he; ^* but Mrs. Carter was not a woman of genius." I appeared surprised. ** She had the early and uncommon advantage of receiving a classical education, which she however attained with difficulty, and at the expense of a complaint, owing to her forcible exertions in keeping herself awake, which tormented her during life. She laboured through the translation of a Greek author, very difficult to render into English, with great credit, indeed, to her 62 MRS. CARTER AND her knowledge of the original ; but she was never a woman of quick parts, as her biographer acknowledges." Lady J . *^ The most meritorious part of her character, in my opinion, was, that with the taste for literature, which she had early imbibed, she could patiently encounter the dull employment of making linen for her father and brothers; and still more, that to relieve an aged father from fatigue and interruption, she should willingly undertake to conduct her bro- ther through the wearisome paths of school learning, which she herself had long since passed; and qualify him to undergo with credit, the usual examina- tions of an university: foregoing her pleasant visits to town, in order to ac- complish this object. She was certainly altogether a most respectable and esti- mable woman, and prosperous and happy throughout life. Early initiated into the temple of learning, courted and sur- rounded by persons of high literary repu- tation, MISS Talbot's letters. 6S tation, nay, patronized and enriched by them ; enjoying peaceably to a very pro- tracted period, a good fame, strength of constitution, freedom from domestic trials and troubles, she sunk into the grave, happy and beloved/' In turning over these letters, a passage struck me as particularly useful for ap- plication. Mrs. Carter says, ^' I called upon an acquaintance, who seems to be in a dying state : she has harassed out a tolerably good constitution by the fashionable ex- travagance of late hours, and racketing parties; and to which she had no tempt- ation but custom ; nor any enjoyment, but in performing the indispensable duties of a fine lady. It would surely be useful to endeavour to persuade people, that there is but a determinate quantity of spirits and strength assigned to their share, 64 MRS. CARTER AND share, and if they will lavish these away to unprofitable purposes, it is not to be wondered that their assistance should fail for their necessary duties, and rational enjoyments." This appears to me a valuable reflec- tion to treasure up in the mind. How many persons waste their purest spirits; their early freshness ; the beginning of every day, in trifling lounging ; miscel- laneous chit-chat; idle visiting ; till the mind, languid and exhausted, has no energy left for any valuable exercise of the faculties ; and thus passes life. How highly expedient is it to dedicate the prime of each day to some serious and useful thoughts and employment. Some enlargement of knowledge, some exercise of the faculties ; then, and then only, relaxation is a real enjoyment : even a walk in the fields becomes a positive pleasure. Miss Talbot afterwards observes, that wishing for leisure and retirement is no sign MISS Talbot's letters. 65 sign of an unhappy mind ; for that mind must have a source of joy within itself, whose cares can be dispersed, and its cheerfulness restored by solitude. Ask the gay world, whether it is to be found in their broken cisterns of perpetual dis- sipation." Mrs. Montague says in a letter to Lord Kaimes: ** Perhaps there is not any thing more delightful than passing from the bustle of society, to the quiet of so- litude ; unless it be the returning to so- ciety, after having been long confined to solitude. I m\[ own to your lordship, that my transitions from one to the other are very delightful to me. In a sweet retirement I imagine the mind keeps time to the music of the spheres: its move- ments are not affected by prejudices or bad examples ; but keep even and true measure with its appointed duties. In the bustle of the world, we are often im- pelled to what is wrong, diverted from what is right, and carried about in the whirl 66 MR. JERNINGHAM. whirl of fashion, and predominant opi- nion." Mai/ 29. Ouf family party is enlivened by the company of a cousin of Sir William's, Mr. Edward Jerningham, many years younger than himself; not much beyond thirty, I imagine. It is early to form any judgmeijit of him ; but there is much life, variety, and originality, in his character, with a vein of sly humour, and amusing volubility. Of his principles, and habits of life, I cannot possibly form any judgment. I do not believe they are particularly starch. (One of his own phrases.) He seems half in awe of his elder cousin, and greatly respects and admires Lady J. I am told that he has greatly injured a good estate ; and not much improved a good constitution, by fashionable habits of MR. JERNINGHAM. 67 of life. To me, he has the air of having exhausted all the novelty and early charm of life, without having substituted any other interesting pursuits in their stead : of not looking forward to any thing which shall keep the mind pleasantly agitated, and form an object and occupation to its faculties. For instance, if a man looks forward to building a house, or settling with a fa- mily; to select a library, or arrange a collection of shells and fossils ; to write a book, or to enlarge a piece of water, &c. any one of these will keep his mind from torpor : sometimes we see the pleasing occupation of active benevolence form an interesting variety, as many living cha- racters I might name would testify : and, perhaps, a more praise-worthy occupation can scarcely be presented to the mind. One or other of these objects is a re- quisite to make a man happy: but a woman — it is a very different thing with her. A sort of appropriate business na- turally 6s MR. JER'NINGHAM. turally fills up her tiaie. A young lady, for instance, has various important en- gagements, almost every morning, with some other young lady; to prepare for the evening's ball; continually to be al- tering, snipping, and chipping her clothes, according to the fashion of the last Belle Assemblee : writinoj to about a dozen particular friends ; and reading the two or three last novels. To the elder ladies, if not particularly engaged with a family, newspapers, magazines, visiting, and cards, are very pretty stop-gaps. " Got in one of her pert moods," I think I hear my good aunt say. Do you play cards sometimes? Yes, to be sure; but then your mornings are usually passed in rational and solid pursuits. One observation of Miss Talbot's upon that subject, and I have done. " You ask me, if I like cards ; I say no : for myself, I do not; but in mixed com- panies I reverence them, for people who want something to do ; and for a mighty harmless MR. JERN INGHAM. GQ harmless good sort of people, who are very cheerful and merry, without being conversable." I quote from memory, the idea pleased me, I cannot answ^er for the words. Ever, my dear aunt, Your affectionate niece, A. S. CHAP, 70 MRS, COOPER AND SON. CHAP. IV. MRS. COOPER AND SON. — ON THE APPROPRIATION OF TIME. June 2. One inhabitant of Jerningham Hall, and not the least respectable of them, is an aunt of Lady Jerningham, who, in a very infirm and precarious state of health, has resided with them many years. The trials that Mrs. Cooper has suffered, have been singularly severe; and have been borne in such a manner, as to furnish use- ful and edifying lessons to all who are ac- quainted with her history. Her sorrows have softened and subdued her mind, but not irritated it. They have rendered her indifferent to the froth of life, but not to its salutary beverage, nor to the delights of friendship and benevolence. Long since dead to its follies, she has a heart still susceptible MRS. COOPER AND SON. 71 susceptible of tenderness and attachment. Alas ! how has that susceptibility been tried ! how has that heart been probed ! An early attachment occupied it for the man she afterwards married : difficul- ties and objections at first occured to her friends, but were afterwards given up to her steady regard for a man, very attrac- tive in his person, manners, and conver- sation ; and warmly devoted to her. Mr. Cooper had much the advantage of her in years, but not in stabihty of character. He had quick parts ; a warm heart ; but that regulation of mind, that firm principle was wanting, which alone can produce a character respectable in itself, and conducive to happiness in its near connections. Early habits of thought- less extravagance, contracted by asso- ciating with men much above him in rank and fortune, had considerably embar- rassed him. Cheerful and social, he was occasionally influenced by every fool or coxcomb with whom he made an acquain- tance. 72 MRS. COOPER AND SON* tance. It was hoped, by his friends, that tlie prudence of such a wife as he was about to marry, might influence and change his conduct, as well as amend his fortune; but, long-continued bad habits are powerful streams to struggle against. Expensive equipages, elegant furniture, sumptuous entertainments, were thought but necessary honours to his beautiful bride. These became permanent evils ; and a lamentable inattention to his private affairs, rendered him insensible how deeply he was involving himself. Debts were contracted ; and the accumulating interest became a heavy burthen upon his annual income. He was also full of projects, adopting the schemes of every visionary for the ultimate improvement, but present depreciation of his property. His estate was entailed; and when he was blessed with a son, instead of such an event proving a stimulus to him to regu- late and retrieve his affairs, if possible, he conceived the baneful project of cut- ting, MRS. COOPER AND SON^ 73 ting off the entail when he should come of age, in order to sell a small estate, and to restore to his wife the property which she had insisted u])on giving up to his neces- sities. The company into which his social dis- position had led him, had induced drink- ing, among other destructive and bad habits; his constitution became injured ; his temper soured ; and the peaceful delights of domestic life, the calm sweet- ness of his wife, and the endearing live- liness of his children, had no longer any charms for him. This amiable woman, in a few years, too sensibly experienced that a man of a feeling heart, and fascinating manners, may, through the want of proper prin- ciple, become gloomy, reserved, morose, and joyless. There were, I believe, some other se- vere trials, which were hinted at by Lady J. but not dwelt upon, out of delicacy to this relation by marriage. He was very VOL. I. E much 74 MRS. COOPER AND SON. much from home ; solid principles were wanting ; early habits of dissipation are powerful. The once highly-raised fabric of domestic happiness, and confidence, had sunk to the ground, and scarcely could the unhappy wife discern the ruin. Still her heart could not renounce its former tenderness ; she could not forget the sentiments with which she gave him her hand ; nor could she ever hear him enter his own house, after a long absence, without feeling her heart beat strongly, with sensations of delight Unable to render him happy in himself, she pa- tiently endured her own disappointed feel- ings, and turned all her thoughts to the care and education of her two childreji, a girl and a boy ; and passed a few yeans in some degree of happiness ; and most amply did she hope to be rewarded by their growing excellence. I would spare myself the recital of the sorrows that must follow. A lovely girl of seventeen, formed to be all that is good and attractive, was. MRS. COOPER AND SON. 75 was, after an illness of ten days, snatched from her by a fever. The afflicted mo- ther had caught the disorder : grief and sickness united, entirely deprived her of her reason. For a long time, her life was despaired of, and upon her gradual recovery a distressing circumstance oc- curred. All recollection of the death of her daughter was fled ; but some con- fused ideas occasioned her incessantly to ask for her. Long did they evade her inquiries; but were forced at length to bring before her mind this afflicting fact. The struggle was long and doubtful. These deep afflictions probed, and re- vived the long dormant feelings of Mr. Cooper : could it be otherwise, if a spark of affection remained ? As the common joys of ease and security recede from us, those of the finer feelings, of tenderness and humanity, resume their power over our hearts. It is in adversity that our most exquisite and valuable sensations are called forth and exercised. The dis- £ 2 tressed 76 MRS. COOPER AND SON. tressed husband wept over his angelic wife; and, with trembling tenderness, watched her long doubtful, but at length complete recovery. A considerable change took place in his manners and habits; their mutual loss, her long and meekly-endured suffer- ings, excited a fresh flow of tenderness in his heart. *^ Alas ! " said Mrs. Cooper to Lady J. " that the loss of my darling offspring should have been the source of a return of tenderness from my William; but God is merciful in his own wa}^, and often substitutes one comfort for another. I was thankful for the blessing, and highly prized it; I also indulged myself with strong hopes that my increased in- fluence might prevail upon him to make such curtailments and arrangements in our mode of living, as might tend in time to retrieve our affairs: but I was so fearful and so apprehensive of interrupting the peace and comfort we seemed to en- joy, MRS. COOPER AND SON. 77 joy, that the expected advantage was still procrastinated. I feared to be too ur- gent, yet still hoped, by degrees, to effect something." Amiable sufferer ! thy measure was not yet full; thou wast to be perfected through sufferings. It is painful to re- late the overthrow of these tender hopes and fears. At the period of about three years from this afflicting trial spoken of, the object of her anxiety and attention was suddenly taken from her, by a fall from his horse. — He had only time to implore her forgiveness for the troubles he had caused her, and to express his high sense of her excellence in agonizing terms, when all sense fled. When my thoughts dwell upon the trials of this pious woman, for they are not yet over, I am constrained to ease myself, by recollecting, that what I relate in continued succession, came upon her at different periods ; intermixed, perhaps, E 3 with 78 MRS. COOPER AND SON, with many tranquil moments and cheering scenes. When I see her benignant and sweet smiles upon the present objects of her tenderness, I wonder that I feel so much in recounting her former sorrows. I cannot now finish my narrative; another time I will resume my pen. I must go and take a lesson of cheerful fortitude in the chamber of this dear wo- man, to lighten my heart again. I found the young Eliza in the room with her aunt, reading to her. I sat down quietly till she had finished ; soon after which the little girl went away, ** Who shall presume to say that all their earthly comforts are torn from them,'* said the good lady, **when these sweet pro- mising plants of my beloved niece cheer my retired hours with their society ? My former comforts and hopes seem in a de- gree to be restored to me ; and the feel- ings MRS. COOPER AND SON. 79 ings of early days seem to return." — Her voice was a little affected. — ** What cause have I to be thankful to Provi- dence," she continued, " that these so- laces are mine; that in the bosom of this truly amiable family, I enjoy all that this world can now give me ; the delights of tender friendship ; the contemplation of rising virtue ; the patient, but sure hope of more perfect bliss T We con- tinued a most delightful conversation, in which I felt my heart lightened and cheered by the bright and rational piety of this most respectable woman. I shall now proceed in my narra- tive : — Mrs. Cooper, by the death of her hus- band, was left quite unprovided for; an allowance was made to the son from the estate by the guardians, of which he par- took with his mottier. She removed into £ 4 a 80 MRS. COOPER AND SON. a small cottage in the neighbourhood, and, in resignation and hope, experienced much tranquillity and composure of mind. She was a woman of great resources, had read much, and wrote elegantly. Her darling son was very often her in- mate; a peculiar degree of sympathy existed in their minds. They talked with tranquil j oyof the period of Edward's coming of age, when he might make some arrange- ments in his estates, and settle a com- fortable provision upon his mother. Lady Jerningham was intimately acquainted with her cousin; he was, she says, a sweet youth, affording every promise of mature excellence : but a tender plant, not apparently rooted in the soil it was to flourish in. Douglas-like, he was the child of another soil. An indifference to common worldly matters; a contemplative mind ; an elevated soul ; unobtrusive piety, marked him for a probable early inhabitant of a more perfect state. Of this his mother, with tears, often expressed her apprehension MRS. COOPER AXD SON", 81 apprehension lo her niece. In conse- quence, as was supposed of extreme ex- ertion, in riding home from Oxford, to reach his mother and agreeably surprise her, one wet evening, he fell sick; an apparent cold, low fever, then wasting debility, cough, and the distressing symp- toms so frequently experienced, subdued his strength, day by day ; and the fond mother, with inexpressible anguish, saw this amiable youth, her last hope, sink into the tomb, five months previous to his coming of age. To speak of her situation were vain. — Silent and unrepining resignation were her's; but she had nearly sunk under this stroke. She welcomed the looked- for approach of death with brightening smiles. But it was the will of a merciful Provi- dence again to raise her up; to prove the power of faith and piet}^ and the exemplary tenderness and attachment e5 of 82 MRS. COOPEH. of these now most dear and near rela- tives. So long was Mrs. Cooper confined to her bed by the fatal effects of this dis- aster, that a total debility seized her frame, succeeded by a nervous weakness, from which she has never yet recovered ; and accompanied by frequent instances of paralytic affection. Her niece, who flew^ to her upon this last shock, did not at- tempt to check the torrent of her grief, but in patient and sympathizing tender- ness, awaited the gradual diminution of it, pouring in occasionally such aids and consolations, as her own tenderness and piety suggested. As soon as she was able to move, Lady J. persuaded her to return home with her ; she has ever since continued their guest ; and has, dt all times, experienced a degree of complacent cheerfulness. I am particularly pleased in observing the judicious manner, in which Mrs. C. enjoys, MRS, COOPER. 83 enjoys, without exhausting, the affec- tionate attentions of these her dearest con- nections. Sensible that infirmities and helplessness, will, eventually, weary the best disposed hearts; she perseveres in her resolution not to be too often one of their party. Lady J. "has often pressed her con- stantly to dine, and pass the remainder of the day with them. " No, my dear," she says, " a weak and helpless being can be no addition to the cheerfulness of an active party ; I will not be a con- stant, only an occasional clog. I enjoy my little room up-stairs, and the visits of my dear friends. I have some time to myself, which an old woman should have, calmly to look back on the past, and to contemplate the future." Three days in the week Mrs. Cooper makes us a visit below, being seated in the drawing-room before we return after dinner. With what sweet alacrity is she welcomed and received by the young folks, who slip out E 6 from 84 MRS. COOPER. from table much sooner than usual, one running to open the doors, another to bring her cushions, set her footstool, and bustle round her with pretty officiousness. Thus are the mutual interchanges of all these affectionate feelings, a source of mutual improvement and enjoyment to this happy family : the young being prac- tised in that foundation of all youthful excellence, respect and deference for ho* nourable old age. An evening or two since, Mrs. Cooper being our visitor, the family walked out at the close of the day, Sophia re- maining with her aunt, and I, wishing to finish a letter for the next morning, was seated in a corner of the room. After some childish remarks, which I did not attend to, the little girl said, " Dear aunt, do not you feel very dull, that you can't walk out, and move about, and work, as other people do?" Mrs. C, ** I feel a litde at times, my dearest, the sorrow of that helplessness, which renders MRS. COOPER. 85 renders me in a manner a burthen to my friends ; and long often to be able to db some good to some one ; but I check my impatience ; for as the exertion of acti- vity is one of the pleasantest duties of the young, so patient endurance of weakness and incapacity is one, not the least, of the duties of the aged and infirm. I was formerly very fond of my pen, and busy enough with my needle ; but / have so many alleviations and blessings accompa- nying my infirmities and deprivations, that it can hardly be called patience, cheerfully to endure them." Sophia. " O, dear aunt, if I were just as you are, I think I should have no enjoyment of life." Mrs. C. " Ah, my child, when I reflect how many, far from having any enjoyment of life, find it a heavy burthen ; I am thankful and joyful : indeed, 1 have many reasons to be so." Sopiiia. " Are there any people, aunt, to whom life is a burthen, who do not enjoy it at all?" Mrs. C. " There are, my dear, thousands in this S6 MRS, COOPER. this country, not to mention those many distressed nations, now deprived of all repose and comfort : there are numbers here who from age, infirmity, pain, dis- tress of mind, &c, only endure life as a heavy burthen : many dejected hopeless prisoners, separated from all they hold dear ; many aged and helpless souls, lying for hours alone, in pain and want, unknown, unsolaced, but by their God." Sophia, " I cannot bear to think of it !" — and tears began to flow. Mrs. C. *' Nor could I, my dear love, did I not look beyond a few years, when I always trust and hope that those who have suffered the heaviest privations here, will, under patience and virtue, be most amply re- warded hereafter. When I have seen a poor, aged, decrepit female, tottering under weakness and disease, creeping from her solitary hut, to gather up a few sticks to boil her kettle, pinched by the want of comfortable nourishment and cloathing, and have then turned my thoughts MRS. COOPER. . 87 thoughts to a young gay female, in a splendid assembly, attired in the most expensive garments, panting with heat, and feasting upon expensive dainties — it has crossed my mind, Are these fellow- beings, endued by their Maker with the same sense of pain and pleasure, of want and comfort; with a similar immortal soul ; with the same expectations of futurity? And again I have thought, If my lot must be either of these, that of the poor and destitute being was certainly the safest." Sophia. '* But, dear aunt, why do not the rich always help the poor and dis- tressed, as papa and mamma do ?" Mrs. C. "There is, my dear, a great deal of general charity in the kingdom, which is daily in- creasing ; and there is much private cha- rity, and a ready disposition to relieve distress when known ; but still much re- mains unknown, particularly in large and populous cities, and in remote country places." I had now joined the tete-a- tete. 88 MRS. COOPER. lete. " I wish," said Mrs. Cooper, in continuation, **some plan could be esta- blished to place the poor more under the knowledge and care of the rich; some- thing according to the Roman plan, of patron and client, by which a limited number of poor should be, as it were, placed under the influence of certain persons of large property, to whom they should feel themselves emboldened to apply for advice and tetfiporary assistance in any embarrassments under which they might suffer. ** I believe that ignorance of the ex- treme distresses, under which many of the lowest class labour, is oftener the cause of their wanting common necessaries, than actual want of benevolence : but then, I wish there were some certain mode by which those who abound might become acquainted with the extreme want that frequently exists at their very gates. I have sometimes accidentally discovered that poor persons have suffered a whole day MRS. COOPER. 89 day without food; and once found a large family, consisting of many little ones, in the bitterest weather, without a spark of fire; yet without complaint or impatience : they should have some in the evening, when their father came home, they said. In sickness and old age, many suffer for want of a few com- forts, which we should encourige them to apply for. I am convinced that many a lady, if she h^pened oftener to look into a poor cottage, would deny herself a lace gown, or a few trinkets, for the sake of covering from cold and misery, the limbs of a fellow creature, who sickens and languishes for w^ant of warmth and nourishment. '*The great evil is, I think, the desertion of charming country residences ; enor- mous sums spent on the road, or in lodg- ing houses : a delightful and extensive domain deserted, in order to have the comfort of being cooped up in a little dirty lodging, to sniff the sea mud, or walk 90 MRS. COOPER. \valk up and down a town. Did the ge- nerality of owners enjoy their country seats during a greater part of the year, and, like your excellent parents, my little girl, dispense instruction and comfort around them, we should see a different state of things : and did the young ladies of these families delight in now and then working for their poor neighbours, instead of eternally netting, spotting, and dotting, much comfort would cdl"tainly ensue." The family returned from their walk, and music and cheerful conversation concluded the evening. Miss Jerningham is expected soon from London ; I am not at all acquainted with her character. Her sisters say she is very handsome and elegant. Lady Jerningham told me this morning that her cousin Edward formed at college an intimacy with a very valuable young man, though some years older than him- self, who has since favoured the world with some excellent productions on se- rious THE APPROPRIATION OF TIME. 9i rious subjects. During his long illness they kept up a constant correspondence, and through Lady J. I am enabled to send you a letter, which struck me as containing many important reflections on subjects of interest. I shall enclose it in a packet by itself, and you may read it at your leisure. Ever, my dear madam, Your affectionate A.S. " My dear young Friend, ** Since you desire my thoughts in writing, and at large, on the subject of our late conversation, viz, by what particular methods in our daily conduct, a life of devotion and usefulness may be most happily maintained and secured: I sit 92 THE APPROPRIATIOI^r 1 sit down with cheerfulness to recollect and digest the hints which I then gave you, hoping it may be of some service and comfort to you, in your most im- portant interests; and may also fix in my own mind a deeper sense of my obliga- tion to govern my own life by the rules I offer to others. *' I esteem attempts of this kind among the pleasantest proofs, and the sweetest cements of friendship; a friendship which I hope, in one instance, w^ill last for ever, and will receive increased endearment by the cherishing of these sentiments. '* I will open my heart freely to you in regard to the internal sense I feel, on the manner in which we should endeavour to employ our thoughts and time ; not exact- ing from you, or from any one, a compli- ance with my own habits ; but leaving to your own feelings, and consequent in- clinations, the adoption of what I have found so conducive to my own internal happiness. **And OT TIME. 93 ** And first, my esteemed friend, in re- gard to the regulation and disposal of each day. *' Can any Christian doubt as to the expediency of dedicating our earliest mo- ments and faculties to the great and gracious Being who has blest us with them? of lifting up our hearts to him, as soon as our senses are restored to us, from that painless prototype, as it were, of death which we have unconsciously enjoyed ? When we are sensible of that ease and cheerfulness in which we awake; that security we have been blessed with in this defenceless state : when we reflect what numbers have passed the night, des- titute of all comfort, tossed on the bed of pain and misery : when we behold the cheering light of another day dawning upon us : what, short of our warmest thanks and joyful adoration, can we offer up to the great Cause of this our joy and safety? Should we suffer the mind in- stantly to turn to subjects of worldly irritation, 94t THE APPROPRIATION irritation, anxiety, or profit? Should we not naturally wish, under this strong sense of our blessings, that the first hour at least of our renewed existence should be dedi- cated to something superior to the dust and soil of this earth, and the devotions of the heart be followed by those of the lips, when we pour forth our souls in the closet to the great Giver of them, and of all things. "On the subject of these our devotions it is unnecessary to lay down any fixed rule; there are many beautiful prayers, but from the fulness of the heart the mouth speaketh. To these religious ex- ercises it would certainly be desirable to add, at some time, the perusal, either of a portion of the Book of books, or some- thing founded upon its pure and holy precepts. *' When once engaged in it, we are apt to be so very much occupied by the world, so engrossed by our family cares and concerns, that it is highly expedient to OF TIME. 95 to provide for the nourishment of our immortal soul as our first object. This dedication of an early portion of our day, will, as it were, sanctify, and lend a blessing to our future labours and neces- sary business, which will be the next subject claiming our attention, and must not be neglected ; but all undertaken and pursued with a reference to a something ever superior to our own abilities, and strength,* the assistance and blessing of God, as we shall deserve it, by the sin- cerity and purity of our intentions. And here let me earnestly recommend the avoidance of a drawling and sluggish spirit ; that which nods over its work, * ] must beg leave to recommend to my juvenile reader, the beautiful prayer, as preparatory to his studies, in the Memoirs of that most amiable youth, KiRKE White ; a book which can never be perused without advantage, and without exciting in the youth- ful breast feelings of sympathy, admiration, and piety. Editor. and 96 THE APPROPRIATION and does only the business of one hour, in two or three. Let us dispatch business and literary labours, that the remaining hours may be cheerfully given to health- ful exercise and recreation ; to endearing family parties, amusing books, and inno- cent diversions. ** Let us, my dear friend, endeavour, each morning, to recollect, if we have it not in our power to do some good ; to comfort and solace some sick or distress- ed person ; to instruct some ignorant one ; to lessen some burthen; and, if such thoughts occur, let not the bright spark die away, for want of immediate fanning ; follow it up by execution; let us do good while it is in the power of our hands to do it. " There is one thing which I would wish not to be unnoticed in the course of the day, or even of the night : that which I will call the Providences of God. I think I recollect, my young friend say- ing one day, ' that it appeared wonderful by OF TIME. 97 by what apparently trifling circumstances we were sometimes deterred from some hurtful pursuit ; and led, at other times, to something conducive to our welfare and happiness.' *' This I have observed and experien- ced in various instances, and in different ways. Often has an inclination, which I could not account for, led me where I was enabled to relieve and to comfort some distressed object; to avert some calamity ; to be the means of good to some fel- low-creature. These instances I have acknowledged with gratitude: and when I have not listened to the inward bent of my mind, have had cause to repent it. Search for these leading providences, my friend; fear not the sneers of the thoughtless ; dread not the terrible word * superstition.' A secret and wonderful actuating cause does assist and lead the faithful followers of their Maker, the 'VOL. I. F lovers \ 9S THE APPROPRIATION lovers of virtue and purity^. It aids their good endeavours ; and sometimes arrests their erring judgment. Let the reprobate and insensible scoff; we will follow the divine influence of the Spirit, and thankfully acknowledge its salutary warnings. This thought is beautifully set forth in the 25th Psalm. XII. Whoe'er with humble fear, To God his duty pays ; Shall find the Lord a faithful guide, In all his righteous ways. XIV. For God to all his saints, His secret will imparts; And does his gracious cov'nant write In their obedient hearts. XV. To him I lift my eyes, And wait his timely aid ; Who breaks the string, and treachVous snare, Which for my feet was laid. OF TIME. 99 ** In all that I have here spoken, my worthy friend, I would not be thought to impose a heavy burthen upon any one : a few of these rules, as a beginning, might be adopted. When we recommend that which has proved salutary to our own hearts, we speak from experience. It can- not be considered as superfluously strict to enjoin, before we retire to rest, some scrutiny into the innocency and useful- ness of the day past : when we recollect how many have lain down to rise no more. If any one should be apprehensive that what I recommend is too strict, I would only wish him for a moment to an- ticipate that period, which may not be far distant from any of us, when retrospect will force itself upon us. Does he fear he may then be induced to lament that he has taken too much care for his immor- tal soul ? Will he then say, 'The Author of my being did not deserve all this from me ; less diligence, less fidelity, less zeal would have sufficed for Him, who hath given me T ^ all 100 APPROPRIATION OF TIME. all my powers of thought, of action, of enjoyment; who gave His Son for my salvation, and hath covered me with benefits from the day of my birth ? A small part of my time would have sufficed for Him, who has given me the glorious hopes of an eternity of bliss/ '* That this may finally be your lot, my ever dear friend, is my earnest prayer and hope. ** The body is weak ; but the soul daily strengthens, and soars on eagle pinions, to that heavenly home, where pain, and grief, and sadness shall not enter. *' Eternally and sincerely your friend, "P. D E.'' LORD KAMES. 101 CHAPTER V. LORD KAMES. CRITICISM. ARRI- VAL OF MISS JERNINGHAM. = YOUNG PEOPLE. — LADY CASTLE- TON. — TOWN LIFE. June 15. ''A LONG hiatus^' says my good friend. Granted; matter has not pressed, nor the scribbling fit been upon me. I have been reading with some interest, the Life of Lord Kames, by Lord Wood- houselie : a work affording much subject for reflection ; but not greatly touching the tender feelings ; not interesting every best emotion of the heart, as does the life of the amiable Beat tie, that patient Christian sufferer, under an almost un- paralleled train of misfortunes. F 3 Kames 102 LORD KA^MXS. Karnes was a critic, a metaphysician: and both those professions tend, I think, to dry and chill the heart ; though they may strengthen the judgment. His biographer, in speaking of his Elements of Criticism, a work which he composed and published at the age of sixty-six, observes : " Criticism is a severe, and if I may use the expression, an ascetic employment of the faculties, which de- mands a cool and dispassionate frame of mind, and a sobriety of thought, remote from all enthusiasm; and when the habit of criticism prevails, the ardour of feeling is proportionably abated and subdued." How very just does this remark appear to be ; the mind that adopts the habit of criticis- ing works of taste, loses all that delight- ful glow which a feeling mind naturally enjoys upon the first perusal of a beau- tiful composition. This is farther illus- trated by a quotation from Allison, upon taste. ** When we sit down to ap- preciate the value of a poem, and attend minutely CRITICISM. 103 minutely to the language and composi- tion, we feel no longer the delight which it at ^rst produced ; our imagination is, by this employment, restrained. It is this which makes it difficult for young persons, possessed of warm imaginations, to judge of the merits of any poem or fable. All that glow of sentiment and feeling, in which young people of sensibility are so apt to indulge, and which often brings them pleasure at the expense of their taste, the labour of criticism destroys." Who, then, would wish to be a critic, if he is to lose by it that delight and tender sympathy, which some little effusion of the heart, perhaps a line or two, will bring forth. Two short lines in a frag- ment of KiRKE White's, have more than once drawn tears from their source in the perusal, and filled my mind with tender and mournful feelings : perhaps, no one else might notice them; but I figure to myself this sweet youth at his solitary window, apostrophising the moon ; F 4 endeavouring, 104 CRITICISM. endeavouring, in the spirit of patient sufferance, to calm the anxieties and perturbations of his too sensible he^rt* *' Mild visitant, I feel thee here. It is not pain that brings this tear, For thou hast bid it cease/* If criticism is then so noxious an em- ployment, what, will you say, is to become of the tribe of critics by profession? Why, those who are to live by it, must pursue it; but surely this may be done with more mildness and moderation than is usually practised, and without quite losing sight of taste and feeling. It is not necessary that they should hunt for defects, in order to please the vitiated taste of the multitude; and by wounding the heart of the sensible, modest and too feeling writer, present savoury meat to the palates of the fastidious. What short of this butcher-like spirit is it, that dictates the cold stinging criticisms we CRITICISM. 105 we often notice, whose only object is to be cruel, and not just? which is at the same time manifested to the candid mind, from the points of view to which they direct their acumen, and often, not without some recourse to mean subterfuge. If I feel an innocent pleasure in perus- ing a work, shall I be told that I ought not to feel it ? Is there any thing more attractive and beautiful than an embar- rassed blush on the face of ingenuous youth? and shall any one destroy that charm by observing, that it is only guilt that should blush ; that innocence has no occasion? The author of Lord Kames's life concludes his observations on the subject by a tacit acknowledgment, '* That he was not embued with a hicrh degree of sensibility, an acute and warm percep- tion of the beauties of composition, or the productions of the fine arts. Defend me from the cool, watchful critic, who, when you are repeating, or F 5 reading 106 CRITICISM. reading some most touching effusion of genius, stops you to remark, that such a word was not appropriate or strictly gram- matical; and some other not properly pronounced by yourself. Sooner would I remain for ever ignorant as a child, in every principle of criticism, than lose the delight which the first perception of any thing beautiful, excellent, or affect- ing, affords to the mind. On bursting suddenly upon a most romantic and fascinating display of the wild beauties of nature, I should feel almost angry at a fellow-traveller who should immediately observe : " But it •wants water. ** I should take the liberty to think that he wanted that quick per- ception of the sublime, which is possessed before it perceives any deficiency — which enjoys antecedently to criticizing. MISS JERNINGHAM. 107 20M Instant, Miss Jerningham, the eldest child of Sir William, is just arrived from London, for the summer ; having passed the winter with her aunt, Lady Wilson, in the me- tropolis. She appears to me quite a dif- ferent being — a detached person — from the rest of the family. Peculiar circum- stances, with perhaps, a liltle predisposi- tion on her part, have produced this, in my opinion, unfavourable distinction. Harriet was early pronounced to be a lively, smart, but, what some might term, a forward child. Lady Wilson, a rich widow, and elder sister of Sir William, felt a fondness for her, and having no child of her own, earnestly requested that she might be allowed entirely to adopt her. To this, Sir William could not willingly assent, he could not hold himself justified in resigning one of the blessings with which providence had en- F 6 riched 108 MISS JERNINGHAM. riched him. A compromise was made ; the young lady, in compliance with her aunt's wishes, was placed at a first-rate London boarding-school, and was to pass her vacations, alternately, in town and country. Upon her quitting school, a similar plan was adopted, in regard to the sum- mer and winter : dividing them according to fashionable calculation. Sorry I am, but not surprized, to observe, that the effect of the town residence is, by no means, that of rendering Miss Jerningham a plea- sing and domestic inmate in her father's house. With a frame injured and weak- ened by continual dissipation ; a mind satiated with high-seasoned amusements, with admiration and flattery ; what relish can remain for the quiet heart-felt joys of family intercourse; the simple, but never-fading delights of a country life ? This was evident to me at the first glance ; and though the two girls had talked with much animation of their sister's MISS JERNINGHAM. 109 sister's expected return, I am much mis- taken if their feelings were not consider- ably disappointed. A little time before our dinner-hour, yesterday, LadyWilson s travelling carriage stopped at the door. All were in motion : but instead of a young creature hastily escaping from the carriage, to throw herself into the arms of her mother, as I had naturally figured to myself; I saw a young lady slowly ad- vance, giving some orders to her maid about her band-boxes; and again, stop* ping on the steps to speak to the footman, leisurely enter the Hall, where her mo- ther waited to receive her with anxious impatience. '* How d'ye do, mamma, how d'ye do ? heavens! — how fatigued I am! Rose at eight o'clock. — Gracious, Maria ! how you're grown, child — Why, Selina looks as pale as if she had been spending a winter in London ! (the dear girl's paleness was hurry of spirits.) — How is SirWilliam ? — - Where are the children ? — I hear Jerning- ham's no MISS JERNINGHAM. ham's here— am glad of it— he's very amusing. What time do you dine ? I must go and dress. — Any company to day ?" Hardly, when we expected our Harriet," said Lady Jerningham. ** O ri import e pour cela /" After this, and more such senseless observations, I leave my aunt to judge of the depth of this young lady's understand- ing and feeling. Lady Jerningham looked disappointed ; the two girls, grave and surprized ; and the traveller went up to dress. ''What a difference," said I, to Mr. Jerningham, as we walked before the house, ** between this one, and the rest of the family !" ** Did you never see Miss Jerningham before ? A town lady becomes in time quite a different species of being from what nature intended her to be: unfit to herd with her country fellow-beings ; and totally useless to them, when she condescends so to do." JIfISS JERNINGHAM. HI 26th June. I have taken time quietly to contem- plate this added member of the family, and think I pretty well developed her the first day. There is not any thing farther to discover. Miss Jerningham appears to me to have adopted a character the least amiable that any young female can possibly as- sume ; that of an independent young lady, sufficient, in her own opinion seemingly, for her own conduct and decisions. In- stead of a sweet, modest girl, (Selina for instance,) hanging upon her mother's looks, and leaning to her mature sense and judgment for encouragement and ap- probation ; a young creature, scarcely twenty-one, seems to consider herself as competent to every thing. She declaims in a pretty distinct, and not always a soft voice, upon various matters, concerning which her elders might chance to hesi- tate ; 112 MISS jerningham:. tate ; decides, and gives her opinion often unasked : takes the liberty to contradict her mother, and to argue with her father on manners and morals ; gives orders to their servants ; banters and jests with Mr. Jerningham ; is, in short, any thing but the delicate retiring female, endeavouring to form her manners and opinions upon the wisdom and experience of her elders. I have only just discovered an esta- blished custom in this family : every morn- ing, about eight o'clock, they assemble in the library, and Sir William reads prayers to them. Going out to take an early walk, one beautiful -morning, I observed the young folks hastening into the library, and questioning them afterwards, I attack- ed Lady Jerningham upon her not making me one of the morning assemblage. **We should not suppose," said she, '^that our friends and guests required this mode of offering MISS JERNINGHAM. H^ offering up their morning devotions ; but for our servants, we think it highly im- portant that they shx)ulci daily join with their guardians and conductors in mutual M'orship of their mutual Protector; and we wish that our children also should attend ; we think it forms a delightful union of different classes and ages ; the effect must be good to all." **And pray," said I, *'why am I to be excluded from this good effect ?" ** Cer- tainly not excluded," said Lady Jerning- ham, " but I consider it as optional, and not requisite." **Superadditions of prayer and praise can never, I said, be inexpedient to any one ; joint worship is always grateful and expanding to the heart ; therefore, I beg I may be allowed always to join you."' 114 TOUKG PEOPLE. Jiint 26. Chance furnished me, yesterday morn- ing, with a long and interesting conversa- tion with Lady Jerningham, on the subject of young people. Her own were gone to their Saturday's employments, happy and joyful; when 1 could not help saying, ** How is it, my dear Madam, that your young folks seem always busy, dispatching their necessary tasks; yet always happy and cheerful ?" " Why, perhaps, it is that tasks and dry lectures are kept as much as possible, out of sight After a little schooling, consisting chiefly of reading, and talking upon it, they are at liberty to choose their own relaxations : and it seems that often acts of charity and of kindness form their most pleasant ones ; but this is all voluntary, and not always the same." ^^ But they never appear to me to be idle.'* ** O yes," said Lady Jer- ningham, ^^ they are ; at least they are al- lowed TOUNG PEOPLE. 115 lowed to be so, if they wish it" *' Do you recollect," I said, ** what Mrs. H. MoR£ lays down upon that subject: that young people should never be allowed to be quite unemployed, but should be habituated to pass directly from study and business, to active and animate exer- tions." Lady Jerningham, ^'I do, and with all due deference to so high an autho- rity, take the liberty to differ from her a little in that point Children do not always require, nor could they all bear this con- tinued exertion : many may voluntarily adopt it, but all may not feel inclined; and when a child has finished its business, it must be allowed to rest in its own way; to be quiet, and even dull, if inclined. I have had a little experience, and have made some observations ; I have had to do with minds and frames of that fine and sensible cast that would have been injured and overwhelmed by too much stimulus of any kind ; minds which possessing native energy and strength of thought, could not have 116 YOUNG PEOPLE. have borne continued stretch; but requir- ed periods of ease and relaxation. " There is, in the present time, a rage for premature acquirement ; and many a young creature has, I am convinced, been over educated. *' Not content with the gradual deve- lopement and growth of faculties; we want them to be wonders of erudition, in order to shew them about. It is as if we should tear open a blooming rose, early, to admire its beauties, and by that means destroy them. For young persons, with hands unemployed, to be quietly listen- ing to the conversation of their superiors, or even thinking upon what they have heard or read, cannot, I think, be pro- perly termed idleness. Never can I for- get the mortification and vexation I ex- perienced, when a girl of twelve years old, upon some accidental visits, in being, by the polite officiousness of the lady of the house, dragged out, by some little Miss YOUNG PEOPLE. 117 Miss, to be amused in a dull garden or orchard, when I was attending to the conversation that was going on ; and had not courage to beg I might remain. And once was actually condemned to be some time engaged with a parcel of dolls and trifles, that I could with pleasure have put upon the fire. "From the fear of idleness," continued Lady Jerningham, many young persons are certainly over exercised. ** The amiable Kirke White was absolutely destroyed by being injudicious- ly stimulated to make exertions, which he w^as sensible at the time that he was not equal to, in order to obtain honours and distinctions, which must, had he patiently pursued his studies, have awaited him. " Could any judicious friend have per- suaded him to allay his eagerness for lite- rary distinction, he might, perhaps, have been now enjoying health, and well-earn- ed fame," « He 118 LADY CASTLETON. ** He is," said I, " enjoying, we may presume, the fruits of that earnest de- votion of his heart to his Maker ; that glowing piety, superseding every other wish and feeling, which marked the latter period of his existence. We can hardly wish to recal him from endless peace and joy, to partake of fickle fame, and unsa- tisfactory enjoyments/' ** All very true," said Lady Jerning- ham, *' but we cannot help regretting the loss of genius and excellence ; when we reflect upon the good example that would have been presented ; as well as the innocent and classical entertainment, which such talents would have afforded us, we cannot be quite disinterested ; a little selfishness will obtrude itself." July 1. We were all much surprized yesterday, when assembled ready for dinner in the drawing LADY CASTLETON* M^ drawing-room, by a visit from Lady Castleton and her daughter. I am inclined to believe this visit was chiefly intended for Miss Jerningham; as they are very intimate in town. She ran to meet them with rather more alertness than she exhibited in meeting her mother; . and a superabundance of pretty senseless frivolity and joy passed on this happy occasion ; for it was full a fortninght since the young ladies had met. Miss Castleton exhibited a tall, pale, scanty figure, with a charming fashionable slouch, and a pretty droop of the head. The mother, though I suppose scarcely fifty, appeared the battered, shattered woman of fashion, of course a little assisted by art ; but still looking so very ill, that Lady Jerningham said, with inquir- ing eyes: "Your ladyship is, I hope, returned pretty well !" *' Well !" exclaim- ed Lady C. with a sort of scream, " I'm dead !" " And buried to every useful purpose," muttered Jerningham, " Hea- vens 1" 120 LADY CASTLETON. vens 1" continued Lady C. *^it will be im- possible to exist in town, if they go on so — hours later and later — rooms more and more crowded — engagements more and more numerous. Why, if it was not for the country to recruit me a little, positive- ly, I should not live a twelvemonth. I am quite knocked up ! then this reviving air sets me up again a little." " As your ladyship," said ]\Ir. Jerniug- ham, ** acknowledges yourself so much in- debted to the country, of course it is but fair that the country should acknowledge its obligations to your ladyship for visit- ing it." Lady C. *^ Of course ; 'tis the only use the country is of." Jerningham. *' Certainly, Madam," wdth a most amus- ing solemnity. Lady C. *' But we shall not stay long here ; the beginning of August we go to Weymouth ; there, you know, we shall not be killed by late hours- only go on the water — sit at the libraries — walk on the Esplanade — go to Hcrvey's rooms, and so forth." Jerningham. **Quite moderate AND TOWN LIFE. l2l moderate and retired." Lady C. " And the sea air is, you know, so very reviving and recruiting to the constitution." Jer- ningham. *' True, and to exhaust the constitution, and to recruit it again, is business enough for any human being. '^ All this was said with a gravity that put me more at a loss to keep my counte- nance, than I ever remember. Lady C. ** Now to give you an instance of town miseries ; At the ^larchioness of L.'s grand route, I protest I did not leave home til near twelve o'clock, and I was very ill at the time; we were kept jammed up in the streets till near two ; we contrived to squeeze through the rooms with sonie difficulty by about three, and got home, with equal difficulty, by four. '^ Exqui- site !" said Jerningham, '' what an ex- alted pleasure; how desirable the entree to such a house !" Lady C. *^ Why, one must, you know, keep good company ; though, to be sure, I have sometimes wished one could now and then do as one VOL. I. G likes/' 122 LADY CASTLETON, likes." Jerningham, " Could not your ladyship — it would be a truly patriotic motion — procure an act of parliament to pass both houses, authorising people of fashion to do as they like for one winter, just by way of a trial?" Lady C. *' O it would be charming I but I'm afraid it would not do." Miss C. '' Don't talk of it, mamma, it is too tantalizing. If I were to do as I liked, I should lie in bed all day, to rise fresh just for the evening parties f" but then, one should never go into the Park, nor have any time to transact business with one's dress-maker, nor to buy flowers and beads.' • The Editor once knew a beautiful young creature, who, labouring under an alarming state of weakness and disease, kept her bed till evening, and then arose, her maid dressing her on the side of the bed, to go with her mother into public, Happy had it been, if these exertions had been directed to the attainment of divine wisdom. She afterwards married a young Baronet, and died of a lingering disorder, after giving birth to a son, an early victim of fashionable infatuation. Lady AND TOWN LIFE. 123 Lady C. " Quite impracticable, child. This winter, to be sure, I have been par- ticularly badly off; for, in addition to my own indispensable engagagements, as Ce- lestina came out^ I was obliged to go every 'it'here with her, and that is a horrible /e provision for them bears very hard upon tho parishes, thei^efoi^e it must be competent for their relief and comfort." *' Capital reasoning 1" muttered Campbell in a low voice. Sir William. " I am not desirous to find defects in our laws; but pray, Har- riet, allow me to ask what you should consider as a comfortable provision, if you were ill, to buy you every thing ?'' VOL. I. N IVIi^? £66 POOR. Miss Jerningham. '' Oh ! why, mdeed, I don't know ; but the poor people are not used to so many indulgencies; and they are not so often ill as we are." Sir William. " But when they are ill, or aged, or infirm, they w^ant some indul- gencies, I suppose. Could you, as an old and sickly woman, makevyourself com- fortable with half-a-crown a week, a common allowance ?" Miss Jerningham. *' Oh mercy! I should die the second day : but I don't know much about their wants, they are different from our's ; I -was always afraid of catching disorders and complaints : my aunt says they are always dirty and diseased." Campbell turned short round from her, with such an expression of countenance The young lady continued. ** I have heard a great many people say, that they are a discontented complaining tribe, and that if they were industrious, and would work, they need never want. But if people zvill be idle" — Campbell bounced up, POOR. ^67 up, and marched out of the room. Mrs. Conyers. *' But if they happen to be ill ?" Jerningham. '* Oh ! they have no busi- ness to be ill : indeed, as they cannot over- eat themselves, or drink too much, the cause of most disorders, I don't see how they can pretend to be ill." " True," said Miss Jerningham, '^ Temperance is the only source of health." *' And activity and industry, Madam, '^ added her cou- sin, with such a ludicrous and impo- sing gravity, that, I believe, Harriet was completely taken in, and really supposed he was advocating her weak cause. Lady Jerningham looked mor- tified and hurt; the girls spoke not; we saw Campbell pacing the grounds a tongue pas^ and we arose and broke up the party. Sir William repeating, as he left the room, those touching lines of Crabbe : O, trifle nqt with wants you cannot feel. Nor mock the misery of a stinted meal : Homely, yet wholesome ; plain, not plenteous ; such As you who praise, would never deign to touch. N 2 \6S alarmi>:g accident, CHAPTER XL ALARMING ACCIDENT, AND CONSE- QUENCES. ATTENDING DIVINE SERVICE. Septembers. We have been thrown into consider- able trouble and confusien, my dear madam: — but I must proceed regularly in my narrative. Mr. Jerningham and Campbell made a party to join Sir Henry West's hounds ; a sort of airing, preparatory to the hunt- ing season. Sir William had furnished the latter with a fine animal, which had been very little exercised for a consider- able time. Frederick is an excellent horseman, but rather too daring a one. Yesterday, at breakfast, the horse was rode round by the groom, prancing and curvetting in a most alarming manner. ** Surely AND CONSEQUENCES. 9,69 ** Surely, you are not going to mount that ungovernable animal, Mr. Campbell," said Selina. *' And pray, why not?'* said Miss Jerningham : "would you have a young man of spirit, afraid to mount a spirited steed ?" '* Why, I should think there was such a thing as common prudence," said Selina. " Not for hun- ters — come along, Campbell," said Jer- ningham ; and we walked out to see them mount: Selina remaining alone at the breakfast-room window. *' He only wants to stretch his legs, said Frederick ; we will indulge him ;" and mounting with great agility, the graceful youth, with a bow, evidently not directed to Harriet, gallop ped down the park. We went up stairs; Selina appeared unhappy ; took up a book — laid it down; took out a drawing she was about to finish — spoiled it; looked for her work — lost her needle. After a time, Lady Jerningham joined us, and we got into a somewhat more N 5 settled 1270 ALARMING ACCIDENT, settled employment We had been read- ing some time, when Lady Jerningham seeing a man gallop up the park, went out. Sir William was out, riding. In a few minutes, Sophia came running in — '* O, sister, what do you think ! a sad accident has happened to Frederick ! The groom is come home, and says he has been thrown from his horse, and has broken his leg; !" *'0, la ! what a sad thing!" said Harriet; "how shocking! '* Bless me, what can be done?" I won- dered that Selina spoke not — I turned round — she Kad fainted, and had sunk on the floor apparently senseless. Maria had fled at the first word, and Harriet was now gone to display her feeling, with- out observing her sister. I rose and assisted the poor girl ; she began gra- dually to revive.— " Alas! where am 1? something sad has happened !" " Nothing fatal, my dear — compose yourself." A chaise came slowly up ; I pulled down the window-blind. On AND CONSEQUENCES. 2? 1 On Frederick's being brought into the hall, they all crowded round him with affectionate solicitude. '* Where is Selina ?" said he. *' I know not," said Lady Jerningham, " suffer yourself, dear Frederick, to be quietly conveyed to your chamber." The surgeon soon arrived. Lady Jerningham returned to Selina's apartment, on being informed of her indis- position — *' How is this, my child ? You are not subject to faint !" '*0, no, mamma, I never did before — I don't know how it was ; I had not been well all day : So- phia running in — the galloping horse : I can't think how it was — I did not hear all she said: but was not somebody dangerously hurt?" ^'Somebody is hurt, but we hope not dangerously. The sur- geon is with him ; we must await his re- port." The poor girl looked alarmingly pale again. Lady Jerningham led her to her room, and remained some time with her. Sir William came in, and spoke with N 4 the 272 ALARMING ACCIDENT, the most tender emotion, of the fortitude which the young man had shewn under the painful operation of setting his leg; and added : *' I am thankful to announce that the surgeon finds it a simple frac- ture, and hopes, under proper caution and quiet, that it will be attended with no dangerous consequences.'' I went to Lady Jerningham, and as quietly as pos- sible, spoke of these good hopes. Seiina, tranquil before, burst into a flood of tears, which she in vain attempted to check ; and again saying, " I can't think what's the matter with me to day !" (** Pretty plain," whispered Lady Jer- ningham to me.) ** But that ugly horse, in the morning, put me in such a flutter!" " What with the ugly horse," said I, " and the handsome young man, the whole house seems to be in a sort of a flutter." *' O, pray go, mamma," said the tender girl, *' I shall soon be quite well." We could now venture to leave her, and returned to the sitting-room, where AXD COKSEQUEXCES. 273 where Miss Jerningham was displaying her own concern and indisposition, as strongly as words could do it. Lady J. went to the patient, and continued some time with him. It seems that his ser\^nt had told him, very imprudently, that 'Miss Selina had fainted away, and was very ill ; and so prepossessed was he of something serious and alarming, that Lady Jer- ningham could not pacify him without his seeing her; and m order to keep him composed, had given half a promise to that effect. After dinner, she said : " Our patient is so restless, that I am afraid he will not be very manageable ; he cannot be satisfied without seeing more of the family: it must be two at a time only:* ** O, not me,"' said Harriet, '•' the very thought of a broken bone makes me ilL** Turning to me — '* I think,'' said her lady- ship, '•' you and Selina shall follow me, in about ten minutes" — and left the room. The poor girl changed countenance two or three times before we proceeded. N 5 The «$i74 ALAHMING ACCIDENT, The young man was laid upon the bed, a li^ht covering thrown over him. How did his countenance brighten as we ap- proached ! How did he appear to ad- mire the tender paleness that hung upon the countenance of Selina, apprized, as he had been, of the cause of it. '* I am truly grieved," said he ** to have created so much confusion and distress to my good friends ;" fixing his eye upon Selina, — " but there is a consolation even in this : it is delightful to know how much kindness one can experience: no com- mon matter could have proved it :" (his eyes still expressively fixed on the same object.) '' I fear I am not sufficiently punished for my vanity and fool-hardi- ness, in undertaking the management of an animal, with whose power and impe- tuosity I was so little acquainted, con- trary to the advice of so kind a friend : — and in the field — you see I am going to confess all my sins — though the groom warned me not to let my horse lead, I foolishly AND CONSEQUENCES. 275 foolishly suffered him : we came to an aukwardleap: the horsemen were close behind me — without deliberating, I gave him his head— we fell together i** "Oh !" said Selina, involuntarily. ** I shall learn," continued he *' to check my foolish im« petuosity, at the expense of two or three broken limbs, I suppose." ** It is high time," said Lady Jerningham, " that you should learn to check the impetuosity of your tongue;" and looking at me, M^e re- tired : Frederick promised he would not speak for an hour if we would sit down ; but in vain— we were gone. September 4. We are very anxious for poor Fre- derick : his man, who sat up with him, reported that he had a very restless night, appeared feverish and unable to lie so quiet as the state of his limb re- quired ; dozed, and talked in his sleep, n6 The 276 ALARMING ACCIDENT, The surgeon, who has just been here, does not find him, by any means, so well as he had reason to hope ; and says that the most perfect quiet is absolutely necessary : he must see no one but Dr. Burton and the old nurse, who is now with him. Mr. Lambert adds, that he talked in a strange incoherent manner, about this not being an unfortunate cir- cumstance. " That will be according as you make it, Sir ; you are not so com- posed as I wish to see you : the orders I leave, will, I hope, be implicitly obeyed." It is plain to Lady Jerning- ham and myself, that the discovery, a hope of Selina's interest for him, has thrown him into this agitated state ; for, we both, it seems, had observed his at- tention to her ; but, as a delicate sub- ject, had not spoken of it, nor do we now, openly. AND CONSEQUENCES. 277 Campbell is no better this evening; and so restless, that they fear the limb cannot properly unite. Dr. Burton is just come down — he looks distressed and anxious — Selina is the image of grief; — Harriet full of words and exclamations ; but going on very assiduously in finish- ing a pair of handsome sleeves, in the last new fashion. I have been taking a turn in the shrub- bery, with Lady Jerningham; *' Alas I my friend," said she, ** instead of joy and hope, I fear sorrow and distress are visit- ing our mansion — and perhaps a compli- cated distress — two young creatures in- volved at once, perhaps — this discovery distresses me — and its consequences, with this unfortunate accident, I tremble for.'* " Take care of Frederick," said I ; '* tranquillize him, if possible, and do not fear for your eldest daughter — one hour's observation would convince any one, that her heart is perfectly untouched — her loquacity — her steady employment." — ** I agree 278 ALARMING ACCIDENT, agree with you, in that supposition," said her ladyship — but I feel as if distress was coming upon us — we must not long~ dwell with joy upon any earthly hope. I love Campbell as if he were my son ; he is a noble fellow — perhaps, even if he live, he never 7nay be — " Tears overpowered her, and we re- turned in silence to seek Sir William, who had retired to his own room. I left them together. Evening, August 6, Alas! my dear Madam, we are all in the greatest distress. — Our dear Fre- derick became, yesterday m.orning, quite delirious : a most alarming fever threatens his life. The physician and surgeon have continued here ever since ; his uncontrol- able restlessness will, they fear, endanger the limb, independent of the high fever. They have found it necessary to admini- ster AND CONSEQUENCES. Q7g ster large doses of opiates combined with antimonials — they are now beginning to have effect, he is falling into a more com- posed and quiet state ; but even this is to be dreaded, I fear, procured by such means. How poor is human skill ! — how short- lived human joys ! This amiable youth, a few hours since, so full of health and confidence — so full of intoxicating joy at the discovery of Selina's regard for him, is, perhaps, now on his death-bed. August 8. We are still in a state of the most de- pressing anxiety — Campbell sunk into a stupor, the night before last, which has continued ever since ; as long now as was his delirium. God only knows and can determine the event. Dr. Burton never leaves him. The physician is in the next room. — Sir William ventured to question him once, yesterday, — ** I can- not 280 ALARMING ACCIDENT, not speak," said he, ** to any purpose ; I dislike confidence : his skin is moist — his pulse regular, but weak. JVe can do nothing more, but must patiently await the will of heaven." You may imagine, dear madam, the effect of this distressing crisis upon the whole house. — Sir William is seldom to be seen — we meet not at meals — Selina, after wandering about, like a restless spirit, has taken to her rooms and Maria with her. — Lady Jerningham moves from room to room, in speechless anxiety. Harriet is occupied with the Sorrows of JVerter, because he could not have his friend's wife ; and is writing letters eter- nally. Jerninghani has manifested so much feeling and sympathy, and is so totally unlike his former voluble self, that Mrs. Conyers says, she could half forgive him for his flippant sneers at our sex, if he should not return to them again. AND CONSEQUENCES. £81 * - August g. This morning, Dr. Thomson inform- ed us that the complexion of his patient wore a more healthful appearance, and his breathing was more free — at noon, a profuse perspiration came on, and still continues ; the Doctor is under great anxiety. — Lady Jerningham is very poor- ly — I am going to her room. Evening, Thank God I we are flattered with cheering hopes — our dead silent sorrow is broken in upon. — Dear Frederick has moved, and spoken — an hour since, he turned a little, and opened his eyes gra- dually upon Dr. Burton, but, as if weak and heavy, shut them again ; the Doctor trembling with joy, glided into the next room to communicate this dawn of hope ; Dr. Thomson took his seat ; the worthy Dr. 282 ALARMING ACCIDENT, Dr. B. feared to trust his own feelings, should he look up or speak to him ; again he looked up, but seemed to miss his valued friend : at length, he uttered : ** Have I not been long asleep, Sir?" The words were caught by his anxious Mentor : his feelings were too rapturous to make it quite prudent for him to re- turn; and after venting them in pious gra- titude to his God, he flew to communicate the joyful intelligence. *' Frederick has spoken,'" ran like lightning through the house — never was joy more general. The young man, at last, asked for his friend, and he again entered, having gained perfect composure and command of himself; but no conversation was allowed; he took some nourishment, and again sunk into a slumber. Our family devotion?, •which had suffered the interruption of three days, from the absolute inability of any one composedly to join them, were gratefully renewed. At ten o'clock, when all was quiet up-stairs, Dr. Burton joined us AND CONSEQUENCES. 28S US in the library, and went through the whole service with a solemn and com- posed dignity, that touched us all : his voice was often affected, but never failed entirely, and with mutual congratula- tions and gratitude, we are retired to our' rooms. May God perfect our hopes ! September 12« Again, my dear aunt, have tranquil joy and cheerful thankfulness resumed their places in this truly respectable family. Our young Caledonian has continued very regularly to amend, and gather strength ; and every gradual progression is, you know, most safe and sure. Lady Jerningham and I made him a visit to- (iay — it was an affecting one — he -is 'indeed greatly reduced, subdued, and softened ; composure had taken place of that 284 ALARMING ACCIDENT, that elation, that agitated state of spiritSj the giving way to which had nearly proved fatal to him ;— after looking at Lady Jerningham for a minute — '' Alas ! how plainly do I read in the counte- nances of my dear friends, the anxiety and pain that I have caused them : NoWy indeed, am I punished for my childish impetuosity, in more than one instance : how thankful am I, that they are spared a greater shock — I trust in God, I may live to correct my faults, and amend my conduct." Dr. Burton pressed his hand on the bed, but did not speak. *' We are all thankful, dear Frede- rick," said Lady Jerningham, " for this happy change !" *' What return, dear madam, can I make you — I fear — only fresh anxieties — but — may I not see the rest of your family ? I want to be con- vinced they are not materially injured in health." '^ In a few days, you shall see all — no one is materially injured, I hope«" AND COXSEQUENCES. Q85 hope." He began to look a little fe- verish : we retired. During these periods of anxiety, and for many days, particularly, in which Lady Jerningham was much indisposed, Henry has appeared in tlie most amiable light. His unobtrusive feeling for Camp- bell ; his tenderness, and anxiety for his mother; his cheerful attention to his father, drawing him out to ride and walk occasionally : all prove him to be rich in that innate goodness, which requires not words to prove its ex- istence. We are, once more, a social family at our stated times ; all except Campbell, who, however, continues on the recovery. Selina looks very pale and thin ; but patient, 286 ATTENDING patient, silent, and thankful. The most delicate reserve has, throughout, marked her conduct, in regard to Campbell, whose eyes too plainly spoke the pre- ference of his heart. To an observing mind, however, extreme reserve speaks as plain a language as words can. Maria, whose heart is free, has been all gaiety and ease, and her playful raillery began at times to annoy Frederick, and make him a little peevish; but Selina gave her a few looks, occasionally bor- dering upon anger. September \6. In returning from church, yesterday, Sir WiUiam spoke of a gentleman, of this parish, who never attends divine wor- ship. ** I have often been surprised," said he, " that Mr. B. who was blessed with so pious and good a father, should himself appear to be so defective in religious DIVINE WORSHIP. 287 religious practice." Jerningham. *' And do yon, Sir William, take upon you to judge of any man's inward piety, by his attendance on, or neglect of public wor- ship ?" Sir William. " Observe, Jer- ningham, 1 say appear to be defective." Mrs. C. " As Mr. Jerningham has de- cidedly given his opinion, upon a former occasion, that solely attending public worship, is sufficient to constitute a Sun- day being well-spent ; we have a right to conclude, that he attaches consi- derable consequence to that act ; and moreover to argue, that not attending public worship, leaves it rather ill" spent." Jerningham, rather peevishly, " I do not judge my neighbours quite so harshly," Mrs. C. " Nay, I am only combating you with your own weapons ; the first position established, it follows, of course, that the entire neglect of that attendance, cannot be denominated piety in any shape." Jerningham. " Certainly, a man 288 ATTENDING a man ^iiay spend his Sunday very de- voutly, without going to church." Dr. Burton. " It would be rather presuming, as a general principle, and, knowing of no particular hindrance, to conclude that he does ; since no one, I imagine, has any reason to be ashamed or afraid of openly professing himself a Christian in this country." Jerning- ham, ** And moreover, a man may go to Church, and not feel a spark of genuine piety." Dr. Burton. ** That is possible, I will allow : but I cannot as readily admit, that a genuinely bene- volent Christian should live in the habitual neglect of congregated worship. There is an expansive satisfaction and benefit attached to community of reli- gious profession, which the solitary wor- shipper cannot possibly enjoy. Stated places and times, are valuable helps to the religious spirit ; and, I think, I might defy any one, not deficient in sense or feeling, to follow the officiating clergyman DIVINE WORSHIP. 289 Clergyman through our beautiful liturgy, without experiencing many pious and expanding impressions. Can we suppli- cate for the ' fatherless children and widows, and all that are desolate and oppressed,' without thinking of them, and compassionating them? Can we pray to God to forgive our enemies, without ourselves forgiving them ?" Mrs. C. ** Perhaps, Mr. Jerningham thinks with the pious and liberal author of Nubilia, that it is better to go by our- selves, and worship God in woods and dells, than to be pent up in a close church, listening to a dull monotonous preacher. (I don t answer for exact words.) These liberal sentiments, and the still more liberal one, that married people, of different families and sexes, should more freely cultivate particular friendships one with another, will, it is hoped, equally enlighten and improve the rising generation ; though, according to my simple judgment, neither the one nor the other hint was wanting.'* VOL, I. o Jerningham 290 ATTEXDiyG Jerningham. *' That's right ! Select every tritling defect, and let it go through the riery ordeal." Mr<. C. "I do not call any thing trifling, or a defect, which in the ieait militates against practical reli- gion, and possibly against morality*. We are justified in noticing such, as a warning to voung or thoughtless minds, who sometimes unwarily imbibe the errors of a book, while perusing an interesting siorv. or admiring sentiments dressed in elegant language. *• As I have, myself, heard that work praised for possessing a morality more simple, and less bearing upon religious precepts, than Calebs, I feel less scru- pulous in speaking of its errors." *•' So it is," said Lady Jerningham to me in a low voice. " Upon subjects that people are quite indifferent about, they have a wonderful share of chanty and cando'jr al^.ays ready; and be it right, or be it wrongj mere is some good-natured excuse at hand, for fear the standard of practice DIVINE WORSHIP. QQl practice should rise too high. — But let the same people be attacked personally in some tender point — in worldly wisdom or honour — and you will not find them quite so tame or candid. ''M^hen we truly and warmly feel in- terested in any important object, we can- not 'spread plaster of Paris' over good and evil, rendering all surfaces equal. We are allowed, cordially to hate vice and gross error, without wishing to in- jure the persons who disseminate them." This appeared to me to be just reason- ing ; and there is, I think, much canting candour spread over the notorious and unblushing enormities of these times. With what indignation have I often heard the following, or similar expressions : '* Poor thing, she is much to be pitied ! she married very young — her husband was a good deal from home — her children too young to be interesting company for her, — and B — so attractive and accom- plished a man !" "This would be excel- o Q lent 2i)2 ATTENDING, &C lent reasoning, if we lived for no other purpose than to follow our own fancies, and amuse ourselves. I blush, to ac- knowledge, that I have heard a young lady say, in speaking of two young men in one family; the one, exemplary for his regularity and good conduct; the other, for every thing contrary to that — *'0 ! I like, — he is a good-natured, open* hearted fellow — you know the worst of him ; while his brother is only more sly and demure.'* I entreat ladies, who sport such senti- ments, to reflect in what manner they must expect to be acted by — thought of — and spoken to. My allowance of paper warns me to draw to a conclusion. My next will, I hope, my dear aunt, be more comfort- able and satisfactory. Ever, with sincere respect, A.S. FAMILY EMBARRASSMENTS. 293 CHAPTER XII. FAMILY EMBARRASSMENTS. — FRANK DECLARATION. September 24, Though joy and gratitude fill our hearts for the recovery of our young favourite; yet the discovery which the late distressing scenes have made, in re- gard to the sentiments of two young per- sons, has thrown the family into an aukward embarrassment: for though it has been long evident that Miss Jerning- ham felt no interest for Campbell, she is determined this shall not be conclusively- depended upon. Though thoroughly aware that his heart is attached to another, she is not willing to resign even the imaginary claim, which she pretends o 3 to 294 FAMILY EMBARRASSMENTS. to have upon it ; and is now playing off some delicate love-sick airs, pretend- ing to be unhappy at the coldness and inattention of the swain, whom she al- ways appeared to despise. She has just adopted a pretty trick of sighing, and looking down with a melancholy de- jection. I fear that the disappointment of her silly vanity in having a fine young man considered as her humble servant, is the only feeling, that at present occupies her heart. The sentiments of the other young people are more unequivocal, though shaded by the most exemplary prudence and reserve ; in short, what with the pretty affected languor of Harriet — the natural, though aukward restraint of the other two — the melancholy face of Camp- bell, and the silence of Selina — we might defy the most dolorous romance to pre- sent scenes superior to what are now exhibited at Jerningham Hall. FRANK DECLARATION. 295 Sir William determined, in a walk with his eldest daughter ye&terday, to discover, if possible, her real sentiments. This is a sketch of the conversation : Sir William. " I believe my Harriet is not a stranger to the views with which our young friend, Campbell, entered this house." Harriet. "I had heard some rumour of the earnest wishes of his father." Sir William. " The wishes of fathers are one thing, the in- clinations of their children another." Harriet. *'The question does not seem to rest upon my inclinations." Sir Wil- liam. " It must rest upon the inclinations of two persons." Harriet — with a tender sigh, and a downcast look : '* Had there been only two^ perhaps — but when a pretty younger sister — I don't wish to be too particular — ^Pray, Sir William, do you think Campbell will go to town this winter !" S96 FRANK DECLARATION. winter?" Sir William. *' Why does Harriet ask that question ; can it be any thing to the purpose ?'* Harriet. *' A tall unfashioned Caledonian might make a curious variety in the train of beaux I He is a line fellow, I must confess, and had he been a little more in the fashion- able world, might pass very well." Sir William. '* After such observations, you must allow me. Miss Jerningham, to consider the affair of the heart to be entirely settled." Harriet — with a little affected laugh. **Why, really, I see no reason why I should break my heart for one who does not appear to care for me." Sir William. '* Nor I neither; but allow me to observe, that every woman's manners should be the index of her mind ; and that no affectation of sentimental feelings should appear in the countenance, when the heart is free and at ease; though the contrary, may some- times be unavoidably the case." Sir Wil- liam walked into the house. fEANK DECLARATION. S&7 What a difference in these two sisters ! And will you say, my dear aunt, that nature has made this difference ? I cannot think so, altogether. A town school — town manners and habits — a town aunt (a woman devoted to fashionable gaieties) have contributed to form this contrast. Under the eye of her excellent mother, Harriet might probably not have been exactly Selina; but she might have been, perhaps, something equally estimable, though varying in shade and character. September 30. Yesterday, just before dinner, the drawing-room door was opened by Sophia; and Frederick, leaning upon Henry, walk- ed 298 FRANK DECLARATION. ed slowly in ; Selina arose suddenly- sat down again — rose once more — "I am very glad — very sorry — hope '' when Campbell interrupted this eloquent speech by taking her and Maria's hand at the same time, and with manly warmth and energy, expressing his gratitude that he was once more their happy inmate. Lady Jerningham entered at this moment, and embraced her young friend, with her own modest frankness. I never saw Campbell look more delicfhted. Dr. Burton joined me in the bow- window — ** You might wonder I was. not at church; but my good boy made his request, that I would to-day, before he left his room, read the church service; Henry, his own man, the old nurse, and Sophia, by her particular desire, attend- ing. You may suppose that I was not unwilling nor displeased. Noble fellow ! how composed and heart-felt was his piety. If there w^as any thing wanting before, these trials have deeply impressed in FRANK DECLARATION. 299 in his heart, a conviction of our own in- sufficiency and weakness, and our entire dependence on one, powerful to help us; — the cause we have for gratitude under our most painful trials, that we are not crushed by our own temerity, and lost through self-confidence. I trust this has effected more towards the perfecting of his character, than all the dry lessons of philosophy.*' As the dinner-bell rang, Miss Jerning- ham tripped in — " O la ! Campbell here, I declare ! Well, I'm glad you have got down at last. Your confinement must have been horridly dull ! But upon my life, Campbell, if you mean to pre- serve your good looks, you must not break any more limbs !'* " I don t particularly wish it," drily. Miss Jerningham. ** O heavens, IVe for- got my bracelets," jumping up. "We can dispense with ihem to-day, Harriet,'* said Lady Jerningham : ** you are suf- ficiently dressed, I think, already," But the 500 FRAITK nECLARATIONi the young lady was gone, and dinner was announced. Excuse my abrupt conclusion, and believe me, dear aunt, Your's most affectionately, A, S. END OF VOL. I, UNIVERSITY OF ILLINOIS-URBANA 3 0112 042046992