OF THE U N I VERS ITY Of ILLINOIS 823 C8892f V- FIDELIS NOVELS BY ADA CAMBRIDGE. The Three Miss Kings. “ The story is told with great brilliancy, the character and society sketching is very charming, while delightful incidents and happy surprises abound. It is a triple love-story, pure in tone, and of very high literary merit .” — Chicago Herald. My Guardian. “A story which will, from first to last, enlist the sympa- thies of the reader by its simplicity of style and fresh, genu- ine feeling. . . . The author is au fait at the delineation of character .” — Boston Transcript. “The dencument is all that the most ardent romance- reader could desire.”— Chicago Evening Journal. Not All in Vain. “ A worthy companion to the best of the author’s former efforts, and in some respects superior to any of them.” — Detroit Free Press. “A better story has not been published in many moons.” — Philadelphia Inquirer. A Little Minx. “A delightfully told tale; breezy to the last degree, admirable in construction, satisfactory in characterization, while the interest is sustained in a manner easy and nat- ural.”— London Academy. r A Marriage Ceremony. “ It is a pleasure to read this novel .”— London Athenaeum. “ This story by Ada Cambridge is one of her best, and to say that is to at once award it high praise .” — Boston Adver- tiser. Each, 12mo, paper cover, 50 cents ; cloth, $1.00. New York ; D. APPLETON & CO., 72 Fifth Avenue. F I D E L I S A NOVEL BY ADA CAMBRIDGE AUTHOR OF THE THREE MISS KINGS, NOT ALL IN VAIN, MY GUARDIAN A LITTLE MINX, A MARRIAGE CEREMONY, ETC. NEW YORK D. APPLETON AND COMPANY 1895 Copyright, 1895, By D. APPLETON AND COMPANY. / ) rj c J ' \ » Q. «p FIDELIS CHAPTER I. A good many years ago, when the present mistress of Dunstanborough was the baby of the house, the then mis- tress, Lady Susan, engaged her children’s first governess. She was a novice of eighteen, head pupil of Miss Pyke’s well-known school at Lyntham, in which Lady Susan’s mother took an interest. It was, in fact, the countess who recommended the young person. “ A highly respectable young person, my dear — daugh- ter of Armour, the bookseller — thoroughly well educated. She won our prize at Christmas ; and now, being finished, is looking for a place. Miss Pyke spoke to me about her ; and I at once thought of you. Baby, of course, needs no teaching at present ; but it is quite time that Barbara was taken in hand. And a young, bright girl, you see, my dear, is better than an older woman. She is more cheer- ful for the children, and — which is of the first importance — you can use her more freely.” “ Yes,” said Lady Susan ; “ but a young, bright girl — ji £ V V\ when there is a tutor in the house.” “ I thought of that — naturally. But Dicky ought to go to Eton now. He is nearly two years older than his „ brothers were. Send him at once, and dismiss the tutor. - You can dismiss one of the nurses, too. I am sure, my 1 2 FIDELIS. dear Susan, you will find this an excellent arrangement. The girl will come for fifteen pounds a year, and Miss Pyke says she is a beautiful needlewoman. I shall speak to Roger.” While she lived, the countess liked to manage the af- fairs of all her family ; and even Roger, her very haughty son-in-law, who thought her a vulgar person, permitted himself in certain matters to be swayed by her strong mind. Whereas he was a poor man for his position, she was one of those wealthy people who love the saving of a penny better than the spending of thousands of pounds ; and occasionally she effected convenient economies on his behalf which he could not and would not have stooped to suggest. She talked to him about Miss Armour; and he said, in his high and mighty way, “ Just as Susan pleases,” — all that was necessary, seeing that Susan was as wax in her mother’s hands. And he consented to send Richard to Eton because he was ten, which in those days was quite an advanced age for the first form, and because he was not under satisfactory control in the hands of the tutor, who had been one of the countess’s cheap bargains. With pleasure Mr. Delavel dismissed the tutor. Then Miss Armour came. She was a pretty girl, — always a disadvantage in a governess, even when there is no young man in the house, — and she had a great deal of manner. It was an elegant manner, for the bookseller had brought her up genteelly, never allowing her to wait in the shop or do anything that was considered unlady- like ; but it went beyond the requirements of the nursery schoolroom, to which she was desired, but did by no means desire, to confine herself. Her little head was full of her own concerns, when it should have been wholly occupied with the responsibilities of her post. It was a FIDELIS. 3 young head upon young shoulders ; and her transforma- tion from schoolgirl to governess, even governess in so great a family, did not convert it into an old one. Though she had been Miss Pyke’s head pupil and the winner of the earl’s prize, though she had been specially trained for the profession on which she had so prosperously embarked, her interest in teaching was the least of the interests of Miss Armour’s life. She had regarded it all along as a mere pathway to sentimental adventures, which in their turn should lead to a comfortable marriage, involving release from teaching and all unpleasant things. She regarded it now as a base from which to commence the campaign forthwith. The schoolroom had bound her, with her wings to her side, like an unfledged butterfly ; but now she was an independent woman, out in the world, and free. As soon as she had recovered from her first awe of the house and family, and grown used to her own exalted station, she began to look about her. The tutor was no more — a person who would nat- urally have been her chief support. The eldest of the three sons — now dead and gone — was then not quite six- teen, and all three were at Eton. Even a boy in the house would have been some comfort. She used to meet Mr. Delavel on the stairs sometimes, or in the drawing- room on Sundays, and make pleasant observations to him, with dimpling cheeks and coquettish gestures ; and he simply stared at her, bowed, and passed on without re- mark or smile. There was no nice young curate to be asked to informal meals. Maxwell Delavel Pole — Max- well Delavel then, the Pole falling to him later, with property attached to it — was at school with his cousins, and his humble dummy at Dunstanborough was an old man. The family pew was a room with oaken walls, sur- 4 FIDELIS. mounted with close-drawn curtains of blue silk, higher than one’s head, and was cut off by the rood screen from the pews of other folks. The only man to be seen from it was a man in marble who had been dead for 350 years, and he had a marble wife and ten marble children. They knelt together under a canopy fixed to the chancel wall — five sons behind him, and five daughters behind her, with a sort of altar in the middle inscribed with their names and honours, and their combined arms above them — six- teen quarterings of his, “ differenced ” with a crescent impaling sixteen of hers. Sir Roger, in his plate armour, was a great knight, in whom our young lady was more interested than she was in Mr. Woodford’s sermons; but a village doctor or some such person — not in marble — would easily have eclipsed both. Even church decora- tions offered no opportunities in those days. Large bows were tied to the pew-ends by the parish clerk for Christ- mas only, and members of the congregation never thought of meddling. Delavel dinner parties did not include the governess, nor did rent audit banquets. But a young woman in quest of a young man is like a black tracker in the bush. Where no one else can see the trail she sniffs it out, and no difficulties baffle her. Miss Armour was not to be circumvented. There was a rent dinner in the great hall of the great house — a place which stood empty save on such occasions, and when sons came of age, and so on — and her ears caught the sound of tenants’ boots on the ringing flags, and the sound of tenants’ voices echoing from the wain- scoted walls. Those walls were two stories high, and bi- sected at one end by a gallery — the “ minstrels’ gallery ” of old time — leading from disused dining to disused draw- ing-rooms on the first floor. From this gallery many gen- erations of proud ladies had looked down upon their lords’ FIDELIS. 5 feasts, in those splendid days bygone ; and in like manner Miss Armour felt that she would enjoy a sight of the present vassals at their milder entertainment. Farmers are of various sorts : there is the boor in fustian suit and “ highlows,” who is as though he were not to a genteel young lady ; but there is also the gentleman in broadcloth and long whiskers, who rides to hounds and sometimes drives his carriage. She took her pupil with her to show her her papa, but did not lift the child to the rail over which she was too small to peer. Plumped down upon the floor, and bidden to keep still on pain of a whipping, Barbara was left to imagine the spectacle below, while the governess enjoyed it to her heart’s content. Her fair head and shoulders, set upon that background of age-blackened oak, lighted by light that fell softly yellow through high stained win- dows, were as attractive to the farmers — such of them as could see her — as their features to her. First one and then another looked up, until she had half a dozen ad- mirers, amongst whom she selected a local bachelor for her special favour, leaning like another Juliet over her bal- cony to ogle him. The great squire had his back turned, fortunately. From this delightful pastime she was rudely disturbed by Lady Susan, who had found Barbara crying in a lonely corridor, whither she had strayed and lost herself. Lady Susan wanted to know, with something of asperity in her comfortable voice, what the governess was doing there ; and Miss Armour said she was studying the glass in the windows, being very fond of heraldry. She had come to the gallery for a moment to please Barbara, who had teased to see her papa, and she had become fascinated by her discoveries in the genealogy of the family. “ I never realised before,” she burst out rapturously, 6 FIDELIS. “ what a magnificent place it must have been in the olden times ! ” “ Oh, pretty well,” said Lady Susan, her frown melting into a smile ; “ I don’t suppose there were many to equal it. But now, my dear, go back to the schoolroom if you please. I would not for anything have Mr. Delavel see us here. He would be much annoyed.” “ Come, darling,” said Miss Armour, with her cheerful promptness, “ you have had your wish.” “ I haven’t,” wailed Barbara. “ I haven’t seen him once ! ” “ Don’t tell stories,” adjured the governess. “ Mamma won’t love her little girl if she tells stories, will you, mamma ? ” “ Certainly not,” said Lady Susan, sternly. “ I am afraid you indulge her too much, my dear. If she thinks she can have her own way in everything, she will never be satisfied. You must try to be firm as well as kind.” Miss Armour said she would, and retired from the banquetting hall with the child in her arms. Beaching the schoolroom, she stood her in a corner with her face to the wall, for being naughty, and sat down to trim a bon- net for Sunday — a bonnet that should further subjugate the farmer of her choice, with whom she hoped to ex- change a glance at any rate between church porch and chancel. It was her business not only to teach Barbara, but to take her for walks. - Barbara’s legs were small and her powers limited, and the park and grounds were large. Outside the park and grounds neither of the little girls was allowed to go ; for fear that, in air contaminated by common people, they should “ catch something.” It was Lady Susan’s rule. So that the mother was concerned one day to hear her eldest daughter talking about Mr. FIDELIS. 7 Drewe and his horse, and a ride she had had up and down some lane, apparently on that horse’s back. “ What lane, my dear ? ” was the natural inquiry, “ and what were you doing with Mr. Drewe and his horse ? I hope, Miss Armour, you don’t take her outside the park. You know my wishes, I am sure ; I was so careful to ex- plain them to you.” “ Of course I never do,” Miss Armour vehemently asseverated ; and looked at Barbara with meaning in her eye, — a meaning which the child rightly interpreted into a threat of slaps if she should say any more. “ One never knows what rough characters one may meet,” said Lady Susan ; “ and there is always the danger of infection from the poorer cottages.” “ Oh, I should not thinh of taking her outside,” Miss Armour repeated. a We happened to be as far as the west lodge to-day, and I was speaking to Mrs. Toogood, when Mr. Drewe rode up. He wanted to speak to Too- good, and while his horse stood there he set Barbara on it, to please her. Just for a moment. He held her all the time most carefully.” “ Well, my dear, Mrs. Toogood’s baby is not at all in a healthy state, and I would rather you did not go to the lodges at present. Keep to the grounds about the house.” “ I do, Lady Susan — I always do. It was only to-day that we went a little * further. Barbara begged so hard.” Lady Susan had lost a child between Richard and Barbara, and another between Barbara and the baby, both of scarlet fever. It was probably the grounds about the house, a chief feature of which was a duckweedy moat just under the nursery windows, which had proved fatal to them ; but sanitation, as we know it, being an unborn science at that date, such a theory had not occurred to her or to the family medical adviser. They attributed 8 FIDELIS. those deaths to contact with the village people through the medium of unprincipled nurses. This explained the mother’s anxiety to limit the range of the present infants, and her relief when Miss Armour assured her that she had never taken Barbara to the confines of the park before, and never w^ould again. On the following day the Lord and Lady of Dunstan- borough left home together to dine and spend the night with a neighbouring squire, who lived about ten miles off. When she was ready to start, Lady Susan summoned her little girls to say good-bye to them. Baby came in the arms of her nurse, and Barbara led by Miss Armour. The fond mother took leave of them with many anxious exhortations. “ Don’t be out after schoolroom tea,” she said to the governess; “and remember what I said about keeping strictly to the grounds, my dear.” “ Oh, yes, Lady Susan ! I will be very careful. Little darling ! You may trust me to watch over her.” Miss Armour lifted her charge to her breast and cuddled her vehemently, showering over her a mass of fair ringlets, like two bunches of laburnum blossom. The child began to struggle ; but, warned by a quick pinch, desisted, and watched her mother’s departure with a drooping lip. Perfectly easy in her mind, Lady Susan walked down the great stairs to her carriage in the courtyard, maid and dressing-case behind her ; and Miss Armour waited at a convenient window to see her disappear under the arched gateway which had commanded the drawbridge in olden times. Then she hustled Barbara to her tea, and, ere she had swallowed two mouthfuls, to the bedroom they shared together, where she clothed the child and herself in “ spencers ” and cylindrical bonnets ; then rushed her downstairs and out of the house at breakneck speed. The FIDELIS. 9 head nurse saw them go ; but, with a tea-party of her own on hand, had no time to interfere. Meanwhile, the squire’s carriage rolled through the park, and through the village, and along the quiet coun- try road, until, at about two-thirds of the distance to its destination, it met a mounted messenger, who informed Mr. Delavel that his intended host had been stricken with apoplexy, and that there would be no dinner party in consequence. The carriage then turned round, and rolled leisurely home again. The countess’s paragon was enjoying the twilight hour of a very chilly evening in pleasant converse with Mr. Drewe — a full half mile on the wrong side of the park gates — when, to her consternation, the carriage bore down upon her, and she saw the stern eyes of her employers fixed on her crimson face. Barbara was trailing behind her, whimpering with fatigue ; her beaver bonnet hung upon her back, and the cold wind whistled about her throat and ears. In those days children — even common people’s children — were not allowed to expose their ears to out-door weather ; it was thought to be as terrible a risk to health as the opening of bedroom windows. Next morning, Miss Armour was packed off without a character. It was Lyntham market day, and farmer Morrison drove her home in his gig. Weeping she flung lierself into her mother’s arms, in the parlour behind the shop, and declared she had done nothing — nothing — noth- ing to deserve such disgrace ; that there was no pleasing Lady Susan, try as one might ; and that she was sure the real cause of her being sent away was her good looks, of which Lady Susan had from the first been jealous. Mr. Armour, being told this tale, with variations, made a journey to Dunstanborough, to see Lady Susan, who ex- plained matters to the bookseller, in a manner which con- 10 FIDELIS. yinced him that she was not the tyrant his daughter had described. And, while he was in Dunstanborough, and in consequence of what he had heard at the Hall, he de- termined to interview Mr. Drewe also. This gentleman showed no reluctance to be inter- viewed ; on the contrary, he was very glad to see any one who could tell him what had become of his sweetheart, torn from him so suddenly. He welcomed Mr. Armour, gave him a good dinner, disarmed him of his reproaches, and sent him home with an exulting heart. 44 Now, look here,” was what Mr. Drewe had said, thumping a great fist on a Tiandsome mahogany table, 44 If she’s been sent away because o’ me I’ll stand by her, as ’tis only right I should. Say the word, boss, and I’ll marry her any day you like, with all the pleasure in life.” He was a solid, hearty, red-faced sporting farmer, whom the squires of the neighbourhood did not disdain to asso- ciate with on public occasions ; he had a good house, and he was generally well-to-do. The bookseller, though a superior bookseller, of high repute in his town, was still no more than a retail tradesman at any time in the eyes of the squires ; and he had several children to provide for. He did not feel justified in rejecting, or even trifling with, the opportunity so generously presented to him. 44 Well,” he said, as he vainly strove to knit his brows, 44 I’ve no wish to stand in the way of my daughter’s hap- piness. I will speak to her mother, and see what she says to it ; and if she’s agreeable, I will let you know.” Then he went home, turning the matter over in his mind as he drove along, more and more convinced that this was a fine thing for Arabella, who, with all her edu- cation, did not seem cut out for a governess. When he arrived, he did not give her the severe talk- ing to he had promised Lady Susan to administer ; he FIDELIS. 11 made allowances for a girl in love, and for the fact that she had come out of her scrape with a profit, instead of with a loss. He put Mr. Drewe’s offer before her, with her mother’s consent, and bade her do what she pleased about it. She decided at once that she would have him. To be married — to him, or to another — was her one aim in life, and to be able to say that she had left Dunstanborough Hall, because her engagement was a relief from many em- barassments. The only thing she objected to was Mr. Drewe’s name, — it was Abraham. “ I could never call him anything so vulgar,” she said. “ I shall alter it to Algernon.” The gentleman was written to, and next market day he dined with the bookseller’s family. He was a straight- forward sort of person, hating to shilly-shally over any- thing to which he had set his hand ; and, having “ passed his word ” to Mr. Armour, he desired at the earliest mo- ment to redeem it. Arabella would have liked a series of Lyntham tea-parties, at which to parade him before envi- ous girl friends ; but he did not accept the role of captive gracefully, and it was thought advisable not to cross him. Moreover, the glory of being a bride at nineteen, in a sil- ver-gray satin, was greater than the glory of being en- gaged. Thus Miss Armour became Mrs. Drewe at an early date, and could defy the countess and Lady Susan. She returned to Dunstanborough in a carriage with white horses and a postilion, and was cheered in the vil- lage as she passed through it to her new home. On the following Sunday, she appeared in church in all her bridal garments, a white lace veil hanging from the brim of her flowered bonnet over her pretty face and pendant flaxen curls; and never had a bride caused so 12 FIDELIS. much sensation there since Lady Susan herself had been one. Lady Susan looked with the rest, and thought in her kind heart, “ Poor little thing ! After all, you can’t ex- pect a girl of that age to have the sense of an old woman, and no doubt she was desperately in love. Now that she is married, one must forgive and forget, especially as her husband is one of our most valued tenants. I shall go and see her to-morrow, and I will take her a little present.” Which she did. CHAPTER II. Abraham Drewe, like many others of his kind, had succeeded his father and several grandfathers in the whitewashed gabled house and the good farm that he occupied ; and the former was old-fashioned in its ap- pointments, even for its day. He said it was good enough for him, and objected to radical changes. But Arabella soon contrived to throw an air of elegance over her rooms such as they had never worn, and such as conferred dis- tinction upon herself as well as them. Her wax flowers and leather flowers, her antimacassars in crochet and tas- selled sofa cushions in Berlin wool-work, her water-colour paintings and morocco-bound books, her beaded mats and fire-screens, her piano, her finger-rings, her ermine tippet, her Paisley shawl, her two silk gowns — in days when one was Sunday best for half a lifetime — all these things, to- gether with her beauty, her manners and her education, served to fix her rank in a society where all ranks, at that date, were inflexibly defined. Until she married him, Abraham had been rather a hanger-on of the gentleman farmer class, than an established member of it ; but after his marriage his footing there was assured. Nevertheless, he flatly refused to be called Algernon ; and his ambitious wife had trouble in her endeavours to polish him up to the requisite standard of gentility. Lady Susan, to whom, even more than to her own 2 13 14 FIDELIS. merits, her social successes were due, made a protegee of her. The bride had gladly humbled herself to beg for- giveness at the earliest opportunity, and thereafter had no greater enjoyment in life than to brag discreetly of her intimacy with the family. Lady Susan took wine and cake in Mrs. Drewe’s parlour, and inspected each new piece of fancy-work, and gave advice upon housekeeping matters. And by and by, when it was known that Mrs. Drewe “ expected,” the Delavel carriage was seen con- stantly at her gate. The mother of seven, though she was her great ladyship, she took uncter her guardian wing all the incipient mothers on the estate, as far as circumstances permitted ; and that Mrs. Drewe had once been of her household gave her an excuse that was gladly availed of for doubling the ordinary attentions. She gave the cradle and the basket, and a little hair brush, and a powder-box, and a best cap with four yards of fluted lace border and a rosette on it, such as cruelly scraped the soft heads of the new-born in that benighted age. She advised on the selection of a nurse, and con- ferred with the village doctor, and instructed Mr. Drewe as to his duties in connection with the impending event. She fraternised with Mrs. Armour when that anxious matron arrived upon the scene ; and when Mrs. Drewe was really and truly taken ill, after many false alarms, she was as excited about it as if the young person had been one of her own people. Like love and death, motherhood is a touch of nature that makes all kin — at least, so far as women are concerned. It was summer time, and, after the early dinner of the period, Lady Susan had a long, light evening before her. She had left Mrs. Drewe’s house at a critical moment in the afternoon, and she felt impelled to return thither to satisfy herself before she slept that all was well. She FIDELIS. 15 called the governess — who, this time, was a middle-aged widow — to take a walk with her, and by a short cut through park and churchyard, they descended upon the farmhouse, to the pleased surprise of its agitated inmates. “ A boy, my lady ! ” said Mrs. Armour at the door ; “ and she is doing as well as can be expected. Thank you very kindly for coming to inquire.” “ We happened to be passing,” corrected Lady Susan, “ and I thought I would just call for news. I am so glad she is all right. Ah-h-h ! Dear little creature ! ” — as a thin, small cry, very quick and hoarse, just reached her ear — “ let me have a look at it ! ” She signed to the governess to stay below ; and, gath- ering up her skirts, tip-toed after Mrs. Armour up the creaking stairs to the smart “ spare bedroom ” — an apart- ment sacred to these state occasions. “ It’s a funny-looking little thing,” said the grand- mother apologetically, “ but quite sound and healthy. His legs and arms are beautiful.” “ Oh,” said Lady Susan, “ they’re all funny-looking at first. They soon get over that.” The young mother lay sunk in the great down bed, as in the trough of a billowy sea, and the flowered damask curtains of the four-poster were carefully drawn all round her. Of course, the windows were shut, and the fire to dress the baby by burned smokily in the grate, which had lain cold and empty behind a paper apron for years. The nurse sat by the fireside, with her implements spread round her and the newly born infant on her knee. Lady Susan discovered, to her great satisfaction, that she was in time to see it dressed. But first she went to the bedside to murmur congratu- lations to Mrs. Drewe, and impress a kiss on the girl’s flushed face — an unprecedented condescension. 16 FIDELIS. “ Have you seen him ? ” cried Arabella, anxiously. “ Oh, dear Lady Susan, do tell me if all young babies are as ugly as that ! Oh, how dreadful it would be to have an ugly child ! And why should we ? We are not ugly. He’ll be different in a few days, won’t he ? He won’t be like this always ? ” 44 Of course not,” said Lady Susan, smiling at the innocence of this inexperienced young thing ; 44 they are always ugly at first — that’s nothing. I am sure he is a beautiful child. I am now going to look at him. Lie still, my dear, and don’t excite yourself. Be very thankful you haye got over it so well.” She drew the curtains together again, leaving Ara- bella in the dark ; and she tip-toed across the room, and took a long look at the newcomer, whom the nurse dis- played in silence. 44 Is he all right? ” called Mrs. Drewe, sharply. 44 Do you think he is all right? Lady Susan, you have had so many — you ought to know ! ” “ Oh, quite — quite,” answered Lady Susan, 44 as right as possible.” 44 A dear little fellow ! ” said Mrs. Armour. 44 As fine a child as you’d wish to see ! ” said the nurse. But they glanced at each other in a confidential way. And certainly Lady Susan was perturbed. She had seen a great number of babies, but never one like that. Apart from its crinkled skin and undeveloped complexion, it was phenomenally ugly. All its features were down at the bottom of its face, instead of being fairly distributed over it. The eyes, under the great bulging forehead, ^ were large, and the ears enormous; the rudimentary broad nose and mouth were puckered together as if a weight had squeezed them. He was exactly like a little goblin in a fairy picture book. FIDELIS. 11 “ I’m sure you think him hideous,” wailed Arabella from her bed. “ And so he is ! and I don’t believe he will ever be different ! ” “ Oh, yes, he will,” said Lady Susan, cheerfully : “ you will see an immense difference in him when he begins to fill out.” * “ And Abe insists, if it’s a boy, on calling him Adam,” the young mother continued to lament. “ As if it wasn’t enough to be ugly himself, but he must have an ugly name, too ! I wanted him to be Guy Vavasour.” “Adam was Mr. Drewe’s father’s name,” said Lady Susan. “ Yes ; and that’s why he insists on giving it to the child. He says it shall be Adam, whether I like it or not.” “ Well, my dear, leave off talking and go to sleep, and be grateful for all that God has done for you,” Lady Susan exhorted. Then she sat down to see the baby dressed. Poor little Adam Drewe ! He was no worse off than ■ others of his age when that monster — to him — the monthly nurse began to soap and sponge him ; but it was none the less a pathetic circumstance that his first taste of life should have been so bitter. He squirmed and shrieked in her calm, hard hands, beside himself with the fright and shock of his new experiences, so suddenly and so vio- lently rushing upon him ; and the more he shrieked the better pleased she was, because it showed how sound his lungs were. The two tender mothers, sitting by, regarded his agonies unpityingly. It was the custom to treat in- fants thus. It is the custom still. They are in the tem- porary position of dumb brutes, which cannot state their case ; and therefore they have no case, and therefore no- body ever does pity them. When the ordeal of the first bath was over, and the 18 FIDELIS. victim simply ached to be rolled in warm flannel and laid down to rest and recover from it, the first toilet was made — in that desperate haste, and with that deadly determina- tion to spare nothing, which marks the correct procedure — the brutal operator all smiles and jokes, the helpless babe lamenting bitterly. She strapped him tightly in a straight piece of flannel, which reduced his lung-and-rib-filled chest and his soft stomach to a uniform shape and size, in order to supply the “support” which Nature had not thought of giv- ing him. Those of us who understand our business take great care in the selection and adjustment of that bit of flannel — it is the least that we can do — fixing it delicately in its place with needle and thread ; but only the other day the present writer found a professedly qualified monthly nurse putting it on a new-born body with safety pins. Even poor cart horses and working bullocks, that would never lead the life they do if they had the gift attributed to Balaam’s ass, are not used much worse than that. We might feel fairly easy if rolled in a strip of baize that was stitched up with piping cord, but not if the baize was held together with the sugar tongs. This nurse did not use safety pins because they had not been invented ; but Adam’s mother had supplied the deficiency by trimming his binder with silk button-holing at the edges to make it smart, whereby he had, from this sad hour forth, continual red creases under his arms and across his breast, that did not begin to straighten out till he was short-coated. Being as tight as a German sausage in this woollen skin, he was laid on his face, which crumpled helplessly against the inexorable knee, and his shirt was put on. Custom had happily decreed that this little thing should be made of finest lawn ; otherwise the broad fold down FIDELIS. 19 the back, where it came above the cylindrical flannel, would have been another mortification to the tender flesh. Still, the usual provision for making a dumb creature uncomfortable was not wanting. His short sleeve was trimmed with lace, and a little flap made to button down over the shoulder strap of his next garment. The lace was fine Valenciennes, as it always was, and is, in well- regulated families ; but if the corresponding article of attire in Arabella’s trousseau had been frilled round the armhole with one of her crochet- work antimacassars, she would have felt just as he did — not so badly, indeed, be- cause he had never been accustomed to textile fabrics, whereas she was hardened to them. As for the button, it was, of course, a very small one — to her — but to him it must have felt like lying on a cobble-stone when the nurse put him down upon his side. Over the shirt more flannel was swathed around him, cut to his figure, so to speak, and strapped across his breast in lappets which fastened behind with strings, so as to make sure ,that when he was not lying on a shoulder button there should be a hard knot to take its place. Then came the flowing skirts — about five times the length of the little legs that had to bear the weight of them — which were the pride and joy of his tormentors, to whom it never occurred to imagine themselves carried along with a blanket and a sheet and a pair of Nottingham window curtains tied round their waists, with perhaps an eider-down quilt over all. The full-dress robe, with sleeves tied up with ribbon, was withheld for the present ; and little Adam was put into a “ monthly gown,” the neck of which had a frill of cotton embroidery, with scal- loped edges, calculated to act on the adjacent skin like a toothed saw, especially when wet, as it mostly would be with such a mother as Arabella to look after him. Like- 20 FIDELIS. wise the day-cap, with the ribbon-looped lace border and protuberant rosette — not quite completed, because the cockade was a distinction confined to boys, and therefore it was necessary to ascertain the sex of the wearer before- hand — was held in reserve for the moment, and a night- cap was put on. It had an embroidered crown the size of a five-shilling piece, and was full of little runnings of fine bobbin, which were drawn up the size of his head and tied in bows at the top, the tyiugs being inside, — next the skin, of course. Round the face there was a triple row of cambric frills, crimped with a penknife, and hemmed cambric strings were tied tightly under the chin. Then a much-worked head flannel was wrapped about him ; and his first toilet was complete. His first meal followed im- mediately — a large spoonful of castor oil — than which nothing could be better calculated to make a human creature sick of life at the very outset. In his bewildered misery he sucked it down, with the aid of the nurse’s finger thrust into his mouth ; and then it did seem that his troubles were at an end for a little while. Lady Susan took him up, and hushed him against her tender breast. “ Now, let him go to his mother to get warm,” she said; and she carried him to the bedside. The very feel of the little body in her arms sent maternal thrills all through her. “ Take him, my dear,” she crooned softly, “ and cuddle him to sleep.” Arabella looked with gratified eyes at the nice white bundle, sweetly scented with violet powder and old brown Windsor soap, as it was lowered into its nest in the feather bed. But when the little goblin face appeared, peeping from its shawl, her expression changed to one of disgust, and she flung herself away from it. “ TTgh ! nasty little ugly thing ! ” she cried, with a pet- tish burst of tears. “ I can’t help it, Lady Susan ! Who FIDELIS. 21 could be pleased with such a baby as that? You couldn’t yourself. It’s simply hideous ! I wish it had never been born ! I shan’t care if it dies — I hope it will ! ” “ You are a wicked woman — you don’t deserve to be a mother,” said Lady Susan, outraged in her most sacred sensibilities ; and she marched downstairs without another word. Mr. Drewe was in the parlour, talking to the governess. “ I congratulate you, Mr. Drewe, on the birth of your son,” said the squire’s wife, her bosom heaving with in- dignation, while her kind face smiled. “ I do hope and trust you will look after him, and be good to him, poor dear little man ! ” “Why, surely,” replied the farmer, staring, half in- clined to be offended. “ It would be a queer father who wouldn’t be good to his own child — his first-born into the bargain.” “ There are such fathers,” she rejoined, severely, — “ and mothers, too.” This father, when his visitors were gone, obtained per- mission to see the new member of his family ; and then he understood what Lady Susan had meant. “ Whew ! ” he whistled in dismay. “ Is that him ? ” “Did you ever see such a little fright?” wailed Ara- bella. “ Where can he have got that monkey face? Not from my side of the house, certainly.” “Hm — m — m! Well, old girl, we must make the best of him,” said Abraham Drewe, after a troubled and thoughtful scrutiny. “ There ought to be some brains in that big forehead, at any rate.” “ Brains ! ” retorted his wife. “ What good are brains if you are ugly ? Oh, it’s too bad ! It’s too, too bad ! ” CHAPTER III. Adam Drewe did not grow handsomer when he filled out ; his forehead and his eyes seemed to bulge, and his flat nostrils to expand, rather more than less, as his face settled into shape. Nor did he die, though many oppor- tunities were given him. Not that Arabella deliberately put him in the way of catching colds and fevers ; but, as he was not precious like the other children, she made no effort to take care of him. He could go out without wraps in an east wind, and without strong shoes when it rained, and sit in wet clothes, and eat green fruit, and do other things that would have killed a boy whose mother’s heart was set on him ; and she did not bother. And he took no harm. On the contrary, he grew tough and sturdy, as a young oak, ruddy and strong like his father, but without his father’s gallant height and bearing, as without his comely countenance. Adam’s figure in those early years was almost as ill-favoured as his face, — stumpy, clumsy, and ungraceful ; and his appearance generally de- luded his rustic neighbours with the idea that he was not “all there,” like .normal children. But, in fact, nature had put into that unsuitable body a soul of per- fect symmetry, and was as indifferent to the sufferings she thereby laid in store for him as the mother who had irreverently presumed to call him out of the Un- known. 22 FIDELIS. 23 It is not too much to say that his first really happy day — happy enough to be remembered with pleasure for the rest of his life — did not come to him until he was six years old. It began in misery, as happy times must do, the misery arising from the circumstance that his father was not at home. His father was not fond of him, as he well knew ; but he was a just father, and treated all his children alike, as he believed — as far as a real partiality for the second and third over the first would let him. Before going away, he had given each of his sons a shilling to spend at Lyntham Mart ; and it had been understood that Mrs. Drewe was to take them both, with the baby daughter, to that great festival — one of the annual fairs surviving from old times — which for a few weeks in early spring was the centre of attraction to half the county. This was the day appointed for the expedition. All night had Adam dreamt of the booths and the shows and the wild beasts and the dinner at “ Gra’ma’s,” of which the family had talked so long ; he had an imagination which pictured these things to his little mind in the hues of fairy-land. At the break of day he was sitting up in his crib, trembling with eagerness to be dressed and off ; as his brother Tommy told him, his protuberant eyes looked ready to jump out of his head. Tommy was five years old, and, like his curly-headed sister of three, good looking enough to do his mother credit. They were all up early, and put down to their bread and milk in makeshift garments, while Arabella flew hither and thither, getting out their smart ones and her own. She was to meet other guests at her father’s house, at noon ; and the Mart itself was the rendezvous of all neighbouring gentlefolks in those days : so she was anxious to make the very best appearance, particularly as 24 FIDELIS. the cold February morning showed no prospect of rain to injure her carefully preserved finery. Well might little Adam watch her anxiously, and feel that the joys he was anticipating were too good to come true ! Before he had finished his breakfast she called him to her bedroom — to dress him, he hoped ; but the wheedling amiability of her tone made his heart sink. “ Now, Adam, look here,” she said, as she laid her best bonnet on the bed with a handkerchief over it ; “ you don’t want to go to the Mart, do you ? You’d be far happier at home with Sar’ Ann ; she would give you lots of treat — don’t cry, now ! If you do, I’ll slap you. You know you never do like to go where there are lots of people, because they make game of you — and I’m sure I don’t wonder ! I wouldn’t go where I was stared at and laughed at, if I were you. Stay at home like a good boy, and I’ll tell gra’ma you’ll come and see her another day, when she hasn’t such a houseful of company. And I’ll buy you something nice with your shilling, and we’ll tell you about everything we see when we come back. And Sar’ Ann will give you some cake — stop that, you nasty, horrid little thing ! ” He screwed up his eyes and opened his mouth, and howled, in his sudden woe ; and he looked so much more ugly than necessary while doing so that she could not bear it. Up flew her slender hand, and his great ear rang to the blow she gave him. “ Now, I certainly shan’t take you, Sir — just for being naughty.” Instead of making him cry more, this treatment quiet- ed him. He sobbed and snuffled stealthily, wiped his face on his little sleeve, and resigned himself to fate. “ That’s right,” said Arabella, when she and Tommy, baby and nursemaid, were dressed, and the square-hooded family vehicle that they called the sociable standing ready at the door, “ You know you like stopping at home much FIDELIS. 25 the best. Be a good boy, and Sar’ Ann will give yon sonue treats. Won’t you, Sar’ Ann ? ” They drove off in their gay clothes and high spirits, waving their hands to him as he stood forlornly at the road gate. “ What’ll pa say, rna ? ” inquired Tommy. It may here be stated that Abraham Drewe did not en- joy being called “ pa,” contrary to the custom of his house, but considered that so small a matter was not worth fight- ing about. “ I shall tell pa that he preferred to stay at home,” said Arabella. “ So he did. He always does.” “ Oh, ma, he didn’t ! He wanted to see the wild beasts dreadful.” “ Hold your tongue, Sir, and don’t contradict me, or I shall box your ears. He wanted nothing of the sort.” When the sociable was out of sight, Sar’ Ann retired to the stackyard for a talk with Andy Toogood, who was at work there ; and little Adam sat down under a hedge beside the empty road and cried his heart out, there being nobody to slap hinr for it — cried for the wild beasts and the marionettes, and the peep show of the Battle of Wa- terloo, and the Punch and Judy, and the roundabouts, and those infinite vistas of toys and gilded gingerbread, the booths, down the planked alleys of which little boys could trot all day without coming to the end of them. He had seen them last year when his father had led him by the hand, and he had dreamed for twelve months of seeing them again. And now he was not to see them ! He wept and sobbed until his little ugly face was all pulpy and blotchy, and Sar’ Ann never thought of comforting him. If she had taken him into the house and given him a piece of cake, he might have borne his trouble better ; but she 26 FIDELIS. did not want him listening with his big ears to her talk with Andy Toogood. Presently the empty road was filled with the rumble of wheels and the measured throb of trotting hoofs. There was not time for the little boy to run away, and he was too scared to stir when he saw the big carriage from the Hall come thundering towards him. “ Why, what is that ? ” cried Lady Susan, noting the spot of brown holland under the hedge. “ Why, I do de- clare it is that unfortunate child ! And all alone on the public road ! And not a bit of hat or coat on in this biting wind ! Stop the carriage, Dicky, and get down and open the gate for him. He has evidently shut himself out and can’t get in again.” The tall Eton lad, who was escorting his mother and sisters to the Mart, promptly leaped to the ground. “ Hullo, young shaver, what are you doing here?” he cried, as he bore down on the shrinking child. “ Can’t you open the gate ? Why, bless my soul, I wouldn’t cry about it. That’s not like a man. Why didn’t you climb over, hey?” “ It’s not shut,” sobbed Adam, with his arm across his eyes. “ Then what’s the matter ? What are you here for ? Poor little devil ! They’ve been scolding you, I suppose ? ” Adam pointed down the road. “ They’ve all go — one to the Ma-art, and they w — w — wouldn’t take me ! ” he burst out, and howled aloud, responsive through all his being to that sympathetic voice. “ What a burning shame ! ” cried Dicky indignantly. “ And why wouldn’t they take you ? ” “ M — m — ma didn’t want me.” “Nor your father either?” “ Pa’s away ; but he said I might go. He gave me a FIDELIS. 27 shilling to spend. He didn’t mean me to stop at home. But he’s gone away. He did — he did say I might go ! ” Dick Delavel surveyed the child thoughtfully for a moment ; then picked him up and carried him to Lady Susan. 44 Isn’t it a dashed shame ? ” said the boy to his mother, 44 when Drewe told him he might go and gave him a shil- ling to spend. Look here, mother — you won’t mind — let us take him with us.” 44 Oh, my dear, nonsense ! ” cried Lady Susan. 44 Why nonsense ? I will look after him ; he needn’t bother you.” 44 My de — ear boy ! ” 44 But why not — if I keep him away from all of you ? ” 44 Why — why — we can’t interfere with Mrs. Drewe’s arrangements.” 44 Oh, yes, we can. His father meant him to go. Do let me bring him.” He urged and urged, and she wavered and gave way. It was what she always did in the end. 44 Well, my dear, you must take the responsibility.” 44 All right. Come on, young ’un, and let us find somebody to wash your face.” And Dicky took the child pick-a-back, and scampered with him to the house, where he gave Sar’ Ann a shock that she did not get over all day. 44 Oh, sir,” said she as she shook little Adam into his Sunday clothes, 44 I’m sure Missus will be in a dreadful way at you and my lady putting yourselves to so much trouble, just for him. And you’ll catch it, Adam, for complaining to the gentleman — my word, won’t you ! ” 44 Never mind, Adam, I’ll take care of you,” said Dicky. 44 1 won’t let anybody scold you ; don’t you be afraid.” 28 FIDELIS. Adam was not afraid. No one ever was afraid to \ trust to Dicky Delavel. In a dream of joy the child, when he was dressed, put his hand into the strong hand of his protector, and trotted with him to the carriage ; for somehow he had no shyness with these great folks, who had stood by him more than once against an inhos- pitable world. He was to them but one of many depend- ents whose infirmities made them a sacred charge on the benevolence of the landlord’s family; but all he knew was that they were not ashamed of him, and that was all he cared for. When Mr. Richard hoisted him over Lady Susan’s knee, that kind lady, and the young ladies with her, smiled at him as his mother smiled at Tommy ; and the little guest, thus made to feel at home, beamed back at them with his goggle eyes, as happy as a prince. “ Now, then, he shall have a spree for once,” declared Dicky, delighted with himself for what he had done ; “ I will take him to everything.” “You must mind you don’t lose him,” said little Katherine. “ Oh, I won’t lose him. I’ll tie a string to his ear ” — pretending to do it. Adam laughed at this sally. Then his laugh died suddenly. “Perhaps ma will see me,” he whispered, “and be angry, and take me away from you.” “ She won’t,” Dicky confidently assured him. “ I shall not let her. We will keep you out of sight until we bring you home. Then we’ll give her a surprise.” He chuc- kled at the prospect. They had great fun presently, when the carriage over- took the one-horse vehicle in which Arabella was jogging to the fair. She craned her neck to see the occupants of the barouche, ready with her sweetest smiles and bows ; F1DEL1S. 29 and Lady Susan had a momentary idea that it would be proper to stop and explain to her the liberty that had been taken with her domestic arrrangements. Dicky, however, flew at his mother, and nipped that impulse in the bud. He said he would like to stop and make kind inquiries after Adam, and why he had been left behind, just to hear what Mrs. Drewe would say ; but this Lady Susan objected to. So they compromised — passed the sociable without stopping, while Dicky held Adam down on the floor of the carriage under his own long legs, and lifted his hat with exaggerated courtesy to Mrs. Drewe. Lady Susan said it was teaching the child to be deceitful ; but they all laughed so much when he was dragged up again, grinning from ear to ear with joy at his escape, that it was usdtess to moralise. “ He is going to have a holiday,” said Dicky, “ and I am not going to let it be spoilt for anybody. Hey, little shaver! come and sit on my knee and let us have a talk.” Adam climbed into his friend’s lap, and was comfort- ably covered in the fur-lined carriage rug, for the wind was cold and his clothes not as warm as they might have been ; and there he lay in a rapture of contentment such as he had never known. To be spoken to in this tone of voice, to be treated in this human fashion, was bliss un- speakable ; and “ a little shaver ” became a term of endear- ment sweeter to the memory than any other. He was cathechised as to what he did with himself all day, and whether he could spell “ cat,” and tell what two and two came to. He answered that he had not been to school yet, and that nobody had begun to teach him. “ No school ! ” cried Dicky. “ No lessons ! No swish- ings ! Blessed mortal ! ” “ But it is quite time he began,” Lady Susan inter- 30 FIDELIS. posed. “ I shall speak to Drewe. They must not neglect his education, whatever else they do.” “ Please, sir, what’s swishings ? ” inquired Adam — a curious child, who could rarely satisfy his curiosity. “ Swishings, my little man, are the painful conse- quences of being complained of by a master,” said the Eton boy, who went to school in days when the birch was a flourishing institution. “ If you do something you shouldn’t — or even if you don’t do it — you are condemned to the block, so to speak, without benefit of clergy, — like King Charles, you know. But I forgot ; you haven’t been to school, so you don’t know King Charles. Well, two fellows hold you down, and — er — after due preparation, the executioner, with a horrible instrument made of twigs tied together — worse than any axe that was eve^forged ” But here Dicky’s sisters interrupted the blood-curdling narrative. They told him he should be ashamed to speak of such things, and that he would make the child fright- ened of going to school. “ But not you ? ” gasped little Adam, looking up into Dicky’s laughing, handsome face. “ Yes, I — even I,” confessed Dicky, a “ swell ” of the Upper Fifth, and “ in the boats ” by this time. “ I am tingling now from the last one. Twelve cuts.” “ What was it for ? ” “ Ah — h — h ! You wouldn’t understand,” said Dicky, 'whose countenance was lit up with delightful remem- brances. “ A terrible spree it was. And you can’t have terrible sprees, you know, my little man, without paying rather dearly for them.” “ Then,” said Adam, after a moment’s serious thought, “ I shall have — oh, I shall have to pay for this.” He added with violent energy, which provoked much amuse- ment, “ I don’t care. I don’t care what I pay for it ! ” CHAPTER IV. They drove into Lyntham half an hour in advance of Mrs. Drewe, so Adam could stand up boldly in the high carriage and see all the glories of the fair crowding the great market place. Flags were fluttering, brass bands braying, drums banging, whistles and rattles and bells and penny trumpets squealing and tinkling in all directions ; and he heard the thrilling yawns of the lions in Womb well’s menagerie ; under that babel of merry sounds, and over all, like angels up in the air, the chimes of the church clock striking eleven. 0, Paradise ! 0, Paradise ! He was as a disembodied spirit in this enchanting world. The carriage clanged under a dark arch into the court- yard of an hotel, and Lady Susan and her party were es- corted to rooms that had been prepared for them. She took off her bonnet and pelisse, and sat down in her large- bodied satin gown, with its large lace collar, to wait for the countess and Lady Elizabeth, who had arranged to join her. The girls sat down also, for girl cousins were expected ; but Dicky could not endure inaction, and Adam’s little hand in his quivered as if full of electric wires. “ Mother, we had better go,” said the lad, “ before granny and aunt Elizabeth appear ” — glancing signifi- cantly at his small charge. “ Tell us when you want to start home, and we will be here to the minute.” 31 32 F1DELIS. Lady Susan remonstrated a little against his leaving them, but yielded to his wish. She gave him money, ap- pointed four o’clock as starting time, and let him go. Then did Adam drink his fill of pleasure, for the first time in his life. Dicky knew that he was an ill-used child, and delighted to be the purveyor of happiness to one so well prepared to appreciate it. He found all his own amusement that day in amusing his little charge ; and he said afterwards that he had never enjoyed a Lyn- tham Mart so much. Adam’s inexpressible rapture was reward enough for that kind heart, which was to suffer so much itself in after years. The first thing they did was to have their lunch, early as it was. There was a pastry-cook’s shop in Lyntham High Street, that had a little nook like a tiny arbour in it. There they settled themselves and feasted, after the manner of growing boys. Adam was allowed a free hand in his choice of fare, and began virtuously with a sausage roll, because Dicky thought it imprudent to make a meal wholly on sweets. After the roll he had a three-cornered tart, then a cheesecake, then another three-cornered tart, then a jelly, then a cream. Dicky, who had a pint of stout, gave him sips out of his glass between the courses, and a bottle of ginger beer for himself. What a feast ! Better than gra’ma’s best dinners, at which his pleasure was spoilt by perpetual admonishments to behave himself and not make ugly faces. - He could not quite finish his cream, though he tried his best. And that was the end of this delicious and ever-to-be-remembered meal. Dicky temporarily sustained his growing frame with three sausage rolls and five tarts, and further entertained himself and his guest with a warm flirtation. A young lady who waited on the lunching customers, having served his table, could not tear herself away from him. She hung FIDELIS. 33 about the doorway of the alcove, twiddling the corner of her silk apron, and blushing like the pink bow that fastened her embroidered collar, evincing a desire to forestall his little wants that could not fail to touch so susceptible a heart. He begged her not to put herself to trouble, and she answered sweetly that trouble was a pleasure. When she set fresh tarts before him, he took the dish politely from her, catching — quite by accident — her finger as well ; and when he apologised, she again assured him that it was no matter, but confessed to a budding whitlow which pained her when it was squeezed. She coyly displayed it to him, and he examined it tenderly, and prescribed a certain poultice that was his mother’s remedy for such things ; and he told her that her hand was too pretty for its work, and asked her if the cornelian ring she wore on it was an engagement ring. When she vehemently denied having a young man, he said he was glad to hear it ; and when she further explained that she had never met one good enough for her, he expressed his entire belief in the statement. This pastime seemed to exhilarate him great- ly ; and Adam looked on with the deepest interest, feel- ing that he had never been so honoured in his company before. He shared his host’s admiration of the young lady’s charms and their mutual homage, grinning happily as he stared at them. But presently an ugly fat woman, with a scolding voice, called the girl away. Then Dicky paid the bill — propitiating the fat woman with pleasant speeches while he did it — and the pair of adventurers plunged into the revels of the market place. First they strolled through the long booths, banked up on either side with toys of every description, ranging from gigantic dolls and satin-lined work-boxes, tea serv- ices, guns, musical boxes, etc., etc., costing pounds and pounds, to little things that could be bought for a far- 34 FIDELIS. thing ; — a dazzling display, indeed, calculated to turn the head of any little boy. Guided by his companion’s face, which if ugly was very expressive, Dicky began to make reckless purchases. He presented Adam with an article in painted wood, which, drawn down one’s back, made a noise as of clothes violently ripped asunder; and he bought a cake rabbit with two currants for eyes. Sud- denly, they had a glimpse of Mrs. Drewe in the distance, and Tommy blowing a tin trumpet ; at which they fled precipitately to the wild beasts. There they spent an entrancing hour — an hour which covered gra’ma’s family dinner, during which it was not necessary to watch doorways. In the straw-strewn oblong space surrounded by the barred cages, crowds of people gathered ; but there were no enemies amongst them, and they were too much occupied with the animals to stare at the little oddity whom Dicky carried on his shoulder that he might see above their heads, and who had long for- gotten to be conscious of himself. This pair walked round and round, the happy child and the stalwart youth embracing each other, following the showman as he passed from beast to beast, stirring one occasionally with his long pole, and explaining where each had come from. Dicky made running comments on the official narrative, and told hunters’ stories — stories that discovered a realm of romance hitherto undreamed of, — another world for little Adam to live in apart from that sad and narrow one over which Arabella reigned. There were the lions and tigers on the right-hand side, the leopard and hyena, the sloth bear and the wolves. There were the two elephants, the big and the little one, at the end opposite the door ; the big one came out and walked about, and Adam fed it with buns and apples. He was a little timid until his hero called on FIDELIS. 35 him to be courageous, showing him there was nothing to be afraid of ; then he dared all, with unspeakable pride. After that, they watched the funny tricks of the monkeys, and gave them nuts. One of them tried to snatch their hats off, and Adam laughed till the tears ran out of his goggle eyes. They looked at the giraffe, with his head up in the roof, and at the gorgeous birds, and at the snakes in their blankets, and the slim-legged antelopes, and all the other wonderful creatures that lived in such wonder- ful countries, and had such wonderful lives when they were free. Adam had a thought that does not often ofccur to a child of six in a wild beast show. “ How they must want to get out ! ” he said, as he watched the tiger lithely plunging to and fro. “ Do you think they lie awake and cry in the night when it is dark and the people are gone?” “ I expect they do, poor brutes ! ” said Dicky, feel- ingty- At last they dragged themselves from this fascinating- place, and went to other shows — the Battle of Waterloo, the giantess and dwarf, the performing dogs and the In- dian jugglers, and they turned the wheel of fortune, and let off pistols at a shooting gallery, and rode on a round- about, and watched Punch and Judy, and a monkey on a barrel organ ; watched also a sweet angel in tights and spangled skirts — lovelier even than the young lady at the pastry-cook’s — who danced on a platform in the cold air, and less interesting, but more miraculous, acrobats, who tumbled on a square of carpet on the ground. It was here that Arabella nearly caught them for the second time ; and to escape her they plunged again into a laby- rinth of toy- filled booths ; and Dicky spent the last of his pocket money on a whip, a top, a ball, a drawing slate, a Noah’s ark, and a packet of bull’s-eyes; wherewith he 36 FIDELIS. overwhelmed the happy little fellow, who had scarcely ever received a present until to-day. Then the church hells chimed, and they returned to the hotel. The cobbled courtyard was ringing with the noise of departing vehicles when they entered it, but the Dunstanborough carriage was not waiting for them, they were glad to see. Dicky’s grandfather and uncle were in the bar, with half-a-dozen other squires, telling sporting stories over their hot brandy and water, and in no hurry to separate ; and upstairs the ladies of the family still sat without their bonnets, fortifying themselves for a cold drive with sherry and cakes. Adam was introduced to his mother’s patroness, and graciously received. The countess had never forgiven Arabella, and now took no interest in her interests. But she had been told that this little boy was despised and neglected by that unnatural wretch, which recommended him to her favour. She asked him his name and his age, and whether he had enjoyed himself at the Mart; and when, in his great happiness, he answered prettily and earnestly, she patted his back and gave him a piece of cake. “ A very well behaved and intelligent little fellow l ” she said to Lady Susan, nodding her old head, with its grey sausage curls. “ If he had inherited the good looks, he might have inherited the rest with it.” Adam did not know what this meant, but he under- stood and remembered the remark which followed. “ Very likely he will turn out a clever man ; these odd children often do. The size of his brain is enormous, Susan ; and brains are better than beauty, my dear.” Lady Elizabeth, who had a sweet face, smiled at him encouragingly. “ Mind you learn all you can, and grow up a clever man, and beat them all,” she said. FIDELIS. 37 “ He will, he will,” Dicky broke in. “ There’s a lot of sense in that comical pate of his. Come here, young shaver, those legs must want a rest.” Adam was standing at the countess’s knee, in class- room attitude, with his hands behind him, ordering him- self lowly and reverently before his betters, as the Cate- chism bade him ; and the kindly lad took the tired child in his arms. Now that even his looks had won approba- tion, nothing more was wanting to complete the little fel- low’s bliss. While the gentlefolk continued to talk around him, he lay smiling on Dicky’s breast until his eyes closed. His protector carried him downstairs when at last a start was made — hours after Arabella with her infants had been despatched home by the careful gra’ma — and he slept the sleep of peace under the carriage rug nearly all the way to Dunstanborough. Just before they reached the village, smelling of the sea in the wintry night, he woke up, realising where he was and what had happened. “ She will be so angry,” he whimpered ; “ she’ll whip me for going away with you.” “ She won't” replied Dicky, “ or I’ll know the reason why. It’s all right, little man ; I’ll take care of you.” The next moment the carriage had drawn up at the gate — not the gate at which he had crouched and cried in the morning, but a green-painted wicket dividing the garden from the road. The latticed casement of the keeping-room glowed with firelight, which dimly showed a figure shuffling round the circular grass-plot on that side. It was Abraham Drewe, in what he called his slip- shoes — “ slip-shews ” in the local dialect — looking out for his truant son. “ Pa ! ” ejaculated Adam, now wide awake. “ Oh, I’m so glad ! Pa is back.” Dicky descended from the carriage, laden with the 38 FIDELIS. child and his numerous fairings, all of which he deposited in the father’s arms. He explained how he had passed his word that Adam should not be scolded, and Lady Susan backed him up. “ We did think it hard that the poor boy should be left behind, when his brother and sister were taken,” she said; “ I cannot bear to see a child treated unfairly, Mr. Drewe, and I am afraid his mother does make a difference between them.” “ She sha’n’t do it again, my lady,” said the farmer gruffly. “ When I came home and found what had hap- pened, I gave her a piece of my mind, my lady. The child is our child the same as the others, and he shall be treated as such. As for your kindness, my lady, I don’t know how to thank you for it.” “ You must thank my son,” said Lady Susan ; “ it was he who insisted on taking him to the Mart with us.” Drewe held out his hand to the tall lad, with the other he supported Adam and the toys. “ You’ve done a kind act, sir,” he said, with much feeling, “ and I sha’n’t forget it. It is a lesson to me, sir. I am afraid I haven’t considered him enough, poor chap. But I’ll look after him better in future. Good night, sir, and thank ye ; thank ye kindly.” Dicky laughed off these grateful protestations, flung a joke to Adam, who reached out his burdened arms to embrace his ever-to-be-beloved friend; and the carriage vanished in the night. Drewe carried his child to the house in a very fatherly fashion. His heart reproached him for parental shortcomings, and unconsciously he held his son of more account since the greatest of great folks had done him honour. “ If he is good enough for them he should be good enough for us,” was the thought in his mind. Adam was at once aware of his father’s affection- FIDELIS. 39 ate attitude, but took it as part and parcel of the hap- piness life had brought him that day. They went into the keeping room, where his mother sat by the fire with a sullen air. She did not scold him ; she hardly spoke to him, or to anybody, and her eyes showed that she had been crying. The fact was that Abraham Drewe, when he chose to assert himself, was not a husband to be trifled with. “Now you’d better go to bed,” he said to his son, kindly. “Tom and Prissy are asleep long ago. You can tell us about the Mart to-morrow. Bella” — with a de- cided change of tone — “ come and put him to bed.” Mrs. Drewe silently followed the pair to the nursery, and perfunctorily undressed her son, Abraham standing grimly by to superintend the operation. If Adam had been fond of his mother her demeanour would have been the one shadow upon his perfect bliss ; but he was almost as indifferent to her — when she did not actively illtreat him — as she deserved that he should be. He waited until she had gone — and she went as soon as she could — and until he had said his prayers at his father’s knee ; then he poured out his tale of the day’s delightful doings, of which his little heart was full. Never had his tongue wagged so freely, and to such a tune, since he was born. His father sat beside him for half an hour, lending an attentive and sympathetic ear. These events were as wonderful to him as to the child, his landlord’s family being greater than royal personages in their tenants’ eyes ; but his chief interest lay in the surprise of finding how much the little chap had in him now that he was moved to be communicative. “ Pa,” said Adam suddenly, “ may I go to school ? ” “ To be sure you may,” his parent promptly responded, and began to make arrangements in his mind immediate- 40 FIDELIS. ly. “ But what’s put that into your head ? What do you want to go to school for ? ” “ I want to learn,” said Adam. “ I am going to be a clever man when I grow up.” “ And I shouldn’t be at all surprised,” thought Abra- ham to himself, as he stole downstairs in his carpet slip- pers to finish his pipe and his lecturing of his wife, “ as like as not he’ll beat the handsome ones yet. I’d no idea he was so sharp and noticing. Now, Arabella, listen to me — you treat that child as a mother ought, or you and me’ll have a falling out. Don’t you let me find him chucked on the roadside, like a bit o’ dirt, for strangers to take pity on, again.” So little Adam’s happy day was happy to the last. He fell asleep with all his toys around him, and had wild and lovely dreams — not being accustomed to so many tarts at once. He hunted lions and tigers all night, and had tre- mendous and terrible adventures, but never came to any harm, because his father and Mr. Bichard were with him. CHAPTEE V. Dicky disappeared from Adam’s view that night with the vanishing carriage, to be seen no more for a long time ; and in the morning Adam’s father went out a- hunting on a vicious horse. He kissed his little son be- fore starting, and exhorted his wife to bear in mind what he had told her, and take care that she treated that child as a mother ought. Otherwise, he said, she would hear of it. Then he rode away, curvetting and plunging, lashing with his heavy crop ; and Arabella slapped her eldest born as soon as the coast was clear. “ Who was he,” she de- manded, “ that . the great Delavels should notice him, while poor Tommy and Prissy were left out in the cold ? She’d teach him to tell wicked stories — monkey face ! — and if he blabbed to his father again she’d — she’d — she’d flay the skin off his nasty little back — that she would ! ” And she set her pretty teeth together, and cuffed him till his big ears were as red as a cock’s comb. But Adam bore up well. The thought of his father’s new love supported him. It was like wine and a w'arm coat, to keep his spirit from getting chilled. All day he looked forward to his father’s return ; and when the time seemed drawing near, he strayed to the road gate to look for him. It was foggy and cold ; but weather was never considered in his case, and he did not fear a scolding to-day. Eather, he anticipated a ride on his 42 FIDELIS. father’s horse from the road to the house — a much-de- sired privilege, which Tommy and Baby monopolised as a rule. When he heard the thud of approaching hoofs, the little boy’s heart leaped. It sank when he discovered that the horseman wore a red coat, and therefore was not a farmer, but a fine gentleman of the hunt — the rector of a neighbouring parish, who used to go to church with spurs on, and even show colour through a ragged surplice at times, without greatly shocking the congregation. Instead of riding by to his home, Mr. Edwards pulled up, and shouted, “ Hi, boy ! open that gate ! ” And when Adam had climbed on a bar and laboriously opened it, the stout parson galloped up to the house without further words. Adam did not wonder what he had come for, but set the gate wide for his father, and fastened it ; for evidently the hunt was over. He hoped it would not be wrong to let his father stop and take him up, before he divulged the important news that Mr. Edwards had come to see them. The next time he heard hoofs he attributed them to horses from the common, meditating trespass, from a knowledge that the gate was open ; and he placed himself on guard to circumvent them. Instead of one clear trot or gallop, several sets of legs advanced at a loose and shuffling walk ; and it was not in that style that Abraham Drewe rode home. Peering through the deepening dusk, the child saw red coats, again — several red coats — drifting through the fog like the beaten remnant of an army, the horses hanging their heads and yawing about the road, — not pounding home out of the damp and cold to their warm stables and mangers, their comfortable dinners and teas, as usual. Why did they travel thus ? He had but a moment to wonder ; and then he knew. They had made themselves a guard of honour to a Thing lying on a gate, FIDELIS. 43 upborne upon the shoulders of some labouring men, who staggered as they walked ; — a long heap under a horse- cloth, with two upright boot heels at one end and a red- dened handkerchief at the other. As it loomed through the twilight, nearer and nearer, the little boy understood that it was his father — dead ! He was a little boy of six years only ; but he was old for his age, and had learned many things from the servants, amongst whom his life was chiefly spent. They liked nothing better than to talk of coffins in the fire and winding sheets in the candle, ticking death-watches and night-braying dogs, and the fatal disasters that these phenomena had portended in their respective family circles. He remembered at once that Sar’ Ann’s sister’s brother-in-law, a keeper at the Hall, who had been shot by poachers, was brought home on a hurdle in the dark night. That, she told him, was the way people always were brought home when they had been killed suddenly. The procession turned in at the gate, passing him closely, without deigning to notice him. He could hear the panting breaths of the bearers, marching unsteadily under their load ; he saw Ajax, the big hunter, riderless, being led on a long rein behind the other horsemen ; some of them halted in the road to talk to Andy Toogood and others who ran from house and farmyard to meet them. Andy’s broad Norfolk tongue sounded clear through the subdued but distracting confusion, when the Thing re- vealed itself. He protested that it was impossible his master could be dead. And the answer came from a dozen throats at once, solemnly — “ Dead as mutton ! Dead as a door nail ! ” Adam heard, and quite understood. It meant that his protector and comforter had been for ever taken from him. He shuffled home at the heels of Ajax, who shuffled, 44 FIDELIS. too, apparently overwhelmed with remorse for what he had done ; and he stood in the crowd of big men while they laid the gate on the gravel, and uncovered his father’s battered face on the kitchen floor ; and no one noticed his presence or thought of his childish woe, the horror that was searing his imagination like an ineffaceable burn. Presently, when the face was covered again, and his mother’s shrieks were calmed, a gentleman pointed him out to Sar’ Ann. Then Sar’ Ann snatched him up, ran with him to the nursery in breathless haste, bundled him into bed, and abandoned him in the lonely darkness to his visions of blood, to terrors and sorrows that nearly turned his brain. When he cried to her to stay with him because he was so frightened, she told him she had something better to do, and that if he didn’t go to sleep at once, like a good boy, she’d smack him. And she relentlessly de- parted, shutting him in and turning the key upon him, that he might not intrude where he was not wanted again. Yet no one in the house was so kind to him as she, with the exception of that kind father whose kindness would shelter him no more. His wails sounded all night — “ Pa ! Pa — a — ar ! ” — but no one listened to them. Tommy and Prissy, his familiar companions, were put to sleep in their mother’s room, because she was too frightened to sleep alone. - When Arabella had recovered from hysterics and swoons and dressed herself in her widow’s weeds — crape to the waist gathers, and a large white cap that covered the whole of her flaxen head, curls and all — she began to sit about in attitudes, grouped with Tommy and Prissy, for her many sympathising friends to look at. She made a touching picture, — so young a mother with those two pretty children, the addition of Adam’s ugly face would have spoilt it ! Therefore Adam did not pose, even in the f FIDELIS. 45 background. Where he went, or what he did, that mother neither knew nor cared. For the most part, he clung to Sar’ Ann, who sometimes smacked him and sometimes gave him cakes, and who initiated him into whatever mys- teries were still to learn concerning the processes of death and burial. “ Poor Dadda is gone to heaven,” she would tell him, pointing to the sky ; but, having heard her talk with her cronies, and seen the coffin and the hollow grave, he drew his own conclusions. The day came when the spare room, in which he had been born, and where the dead man had lain in state, was restored to its usual order; and the blinds were pulled up, and as many mourners as the parlour would hold sat round, amongst the wax flowers and antimacassars, to hear the will read — the widow in the armchair of honour, with Prissy on her lap, and Tommy at her knee. Mr. Pritchard, from Lyntham, officiated ; and informed the company that the deceased had made the usual and proper provisions for his family, appointing as his executors his father-in-law, James Armour, and his friend, Alfred Hol- ditch. Mr. Holditch was a neighbouring farmer and fox- hunter, red-faced and black-whiskered, still on the right side of forty, and still unmarried. He supported the widow on this occasion, and seemed quite willing to con- tinue to do so under the terms of the will. Later, when some conferences had been held, it was decided that Arabella should continue to live at the farm, which had been tenanted by Drewes for so many years, and that Mr. Holditch should manage it for her. “ All places are the same to me now,” said Arabella, with her black-bordered handkerchief to her eyes. But she knew that her present home would be more to her taste than her father’s house, — her home, with its sympathising neighbours, summer visitors, sisters and friends to stay 4 V 46 FIDELIS. with her, and the liberties of a matron in full command ; so she wept very much at the thought of being torn from the sacred associations of her happy married life and from her beloved husband’s grave. Mr. Holditch could not bear to see her tears, and said she should not be turned out if he could prevent it. Lady Susan, who could so well understand these sentiments, folded Mrs. Drewe in her arms and assured her it would be all right — that no one would deprive her of her melancholy consolations — not for the present, at any rate. And the lord of the manor, being interviewed by his agent and the executors, gra- ciously consented to allow Mr. Holditch to administer the farm for Mrs. Drewe, reserving to himself the right to revoke his consent should the experiment prove unsuc- cessful. It did not prove unsuccessful — from a landlord’s point of view. Mr. Holditch was everything that an executor and friend could be to a lone and lorn young widow. There was hardly a day that he did not come to consult her about something ; and her business was managed as thoroughly and as profitably as his own. Before Lady Susan could suggest it, Arabella took steps to provide for her children’s education. She en- gaged a nursery governess to take the whole of them off her hands, that she might the more conveniently attend to farming affairs and other engagements. Lady Susan had a staid old person in her eye, a chaperon for Mrs. Drewe ; but the latter’s choice fell upon a showy, coarse, uneducated girl, who could be made to keep her place in the background, and to keep the children out of the way when they were not wanted. From her little Adam learned a new experience — to hate. She was allowed a free hand in her treatment of him, and used it heavily ; and Adam would not receive her corrections as he did his FIDELIS. 47 mother’s. He called her all the. bad names he had picked up from his field friends, and kicked her till she was black and blue. Then she complained of him to Ara- bella, with many malicious lies ; and Arabella begged Mr. Holditch to take him in hand, as she was incapable of coping with so incorrigible a boy. And from time to time Mr. Holditch thrashed him with a buckled strap or with his riding-whip, roaring at him to know how he dared behave so to such an angelic mother, and to warn him of far worse penalties in store for him should he be caught vexing her again. After which the child, his lit- tle shirt sticking to his bleeding back, would return to the smirking and triumphant governess, and the unequal duel would immediately begin afresh. However, she put him in the way of learning to read and write, which, in spite of the painfulness of the process, repaid him for what she made him suffer. No stupidity on her part could make him stupid, or dull his desire to learn as much as he could. He and his brother began on the same day, but Tommy had not mastered his alphabet when Adam astonished Mrs. Armour by reading a dozen words from the family bible. “ I declare,” said gra’ma, then on a visit to Dunstan- borough, “ this child is going to be clever, Arabella. He takes after his mother’s family in something , at any rate.” “ What’s the use of being clever,” retorted Arabella, “ with a face like that ? ” “ Oh, my dear, a great deal of use,” her mother as- sured her, in the encouraging tone that she felt it her duty to use whenever this subject was discussed. “His face will matter very little if he has a great mind and can make his way in the world. Clever people mostly are plain— in fact, almost always.” 48 FIDE LIS. “Plain!” echoed Mrs. Drewe, with a disgusted look at him, “if it were only plainness I wouldn’t care.” Adam, frankly admitted to these discussions, got him- self out of the room in shame, and presently went to seek comfort from Sar’ Ann, who was now his only friend ; for Lady Susan had again withdrawn her countenance from the Drew^e household, and consequently from him. Not only did she disapprove of Mr. Holditch’s exaggerated ideas of the duties of an executor, but she had made the dis- covery that her own hwo sons, Roger and Keppel, who had left Eton for Oxford, had fallen into the habit of calling upon the widow when they were at home for their vacations ; dropping in with their guns and dogs at con- venient and unconventional hours, not both together, but one at a time, and having long interviews — yes, even after their mother had forbidden them to do so. Naturally, she was very bitter against Arabella, whom she now styled “ that woman,” and was very sorry that she ever persuaded Mr. Delavel to allow her to keep the farm after her husband’s death. Young Dicky was, of course* not allowed to accompany his brothers when they went to cheer up Mrs. Drewe ; so that Adam never saw him either, except sometimes at church. Sar’ Ann was his only friend. But Sar’ Ann was a better friend than she used to be, because, like Adam, she hated the nursery governess. He asked her if she thought he would be a very ugly man when he grew up, or only a plain one ; and she did her best to reassure him. “ I’ll tell you what you must do,” she said, regarding his weak points with a reflective air, “you must grow plenty of whiskers round your face — great big ones, that spread all over, you know; and you must wear blue spec- tacles — large, thick, dark blue spectacles. Then you’ll look quite nice — not ugly at all, — to speak of.” Seeing FIDELIS. 49 that this did not wholly comfort him, she patted his big head, and bade him not mind what rude people said. “ Don’t you take no notice, bor. Kemember that hand- some is as handsome does. Beauty is but skin deep, and passeth away like the flower o’ the field. God don’t care about looks. He made you ; so He thinks you are all right, depend on it.” “ It is not God that I mind,” said Adam. “ I can’t see Him looking at me, and I’m sure He can’t see plainly all that long way off. It is people. I wish people were all blind, Sar’ Ann.” “ Oh, you wicked boy ! God ’ll strike you blind your- self if you say such things. Then what ’d you do? Be thankful you’ve got good sight and good hearing, and good sense to get along with. Why, you might have been deaf and dumb, or a drivelling idiot! How would you have liked that ? ” “ So might you,” returned Adam. “ Don’t you be rude, sir. There never was any danger of my being an idiot, thank you.” “ But you are not clever. You can’t read like I can.” “ I daresav not. I don’t want to. There’s better «/ things than being able to read books, I can tell you.” She smirked at an imaginary looking-glass. “ Is there ? ” cried Adam. “ Is there really ? Isn’t it any use to be clever if you are not pretty, Sar’ Ann ? ” She hastened to correct herself when she saw how he hung upon her words. “ Yes, it’s all the use in the world,” she assured him, — “for boys” Not for her sex, but for boys and men. “ You grow up clever, Adam, and you’ll turn the tables on ’em, — that you will. You’ll get rich and grand, and drive your carriage, as like as not; and beasts like that Miss Whittaker will feel proud if they can black your boots.” 50 FIDELIS. Adam looked at her thoughtfully. “ Will people like me better if I grow up very clever? ” he asked. “ Sure to,” the girl responded, heartily. “ They’ll dote on you. Oh, there’s nothing like cleverness. It beats everything.” Then Adam took heart and went back to his books, determined to learn all he could from Miss Whittaker, though she was a beast. CHAPTER VI. / lx the late autumn of the year that Abraham Drewe died, when Adam was seven years old, with the mental stature of an ordinary child of ten, winding sheets began to form upon the candles, and coffins to spring out of the fire — with the usual result. His brother Tommy fell ill and died. Tommy, who was always wrapped up so warmly and taken such special care of, caught a bad cold which attacked his lungs, and was carried off after a few days’ illness. This was a fresh and terrible aggravation of the hardships of our little hero’s lot, for two reasons. Tommy had been his nursery mate and playfellow, despotic but adored, and his loss was irreparable, and the mother of them both, when one was gone, turned against the other more violently than she had yet done. She hated her eldest son, and did not disguise that she hated him, for having presumed to keep alive and well — for having usurped, as it were, his brother’s right to the favour of Divine Providence. “ Get out of my sight !” she raved passionately, as she sat weeping by Tommy’s coffin. “ Don’t dare to come near me with your ugly monkey face ! Oh, that you should be left, and my pretty darling taken ! — my little beauty, with his blue eyes and his golden curls ! ” All the mothers of the village, with tender-hearted Lady Susan at their head, came to condole with Arabella 51 52 FIDELIS. in her bereavement, forgetting her faults in their pity for her supreme misfortune ; but no mother seemed to re- member the unmothered living child, who was equally in need of sympathy. He kept out of the way, and no one troubled to inquire about him. He was too constantly unhappy to have the habit of tears; but he did shed some bitter ones at this time, under cold hedges and in dark attics, where no one could see him, crying for the just father who would never have punished him because Tommy was dead. However, there was a silver lining to this cloud, as usual. The governess took her ease when Tommy had left the schoolroom, and immediately after the funeral she was sent away. Mrs. Drewe did not feel able to afford twelve poilnds a year merely for Adam’s advan- tage ; she said he could very well go to school, being so robust. There was a little day-school in the village, about a mile from the farm, where a genteel education was given for a shilling a week. Thither Andy Toogood took him and his dinner bag one morning, and fetched him home in the afternoon ; and after that he trudged to and fro alone, in all weathers, and began to enjoy himself a little. His teacher was a severe old woman, and his fellow-pupils teased and mocked him, and sometimes he got bewildered in a snowstorm, and sometimes met bul- locks on the road ; but a new world of interest came into being when he began to watch the opening of hedge-row buds, and the ways of birds and beetles, and the aspects of the sea — the sea, whose breath had been in his nostrils alwavs, but whose beau tv and mvsterv had never been brought home to him until now. He was still a very little boy — far too little to go that distance alone, and often in the dark as Lady Susan indignantly asserted (but not to Arabella, whom she dropped again when that bereaved FIDELIS. 53 mother went to a party with Mr. Holditch only five weeks after Tommy’s death) ; but the circumstances of his life had developed him so far that he was no longer blind and deaf to the romance of Nature, like most little boys. The happy hour of his day was the dinner hour, when the days were fine. He could steal away from his com- panions into the road that ran to the sea between the “ Delavel Arms ” and the Coastguard Station, and, taking a field-path from the inn, and a flight of steps to the beach, find himself amongst the boulders under the chalk cliffs in about five minutes. And here was Paradise ! While eating his dinner, or after bolting it in haste, he wandered from rock to rock, and from pool to pool, or, when the tide was out, over broad acres of corrugated sand, finding wonders and treasures that filled his soul with joy. He used to stuff his pockets with sea- weeds, shells and starfish, bits of jet and cornelian, and things of that sort, until his mother smelt them and saw the stains on his clothes, after which he made a museum in a hole in the cliffs, which he visited almost daily. On two occasions his schoolmates tracked him, discovered the hiding-place, and threw the contents into the roll- ing surf ; and he found another and another, which he stocked by degrees, and guarded with the far-sighted cunning of a smuggler defending the secrets of his cave. In this interesting pursuit he learned a great deal of natural history, and absorbed the spirit of the sea to such an extent that he was never afterwards wholly happy when away from it. On a certain delicious April noon, when Dunstan- borough woods and lanes, and the fields above the cliffs and the beach below them, all reeked with life and beauty, and more wonderful things were presented to Adam’s view than his voracious intelligence could grasp at once — at xv\> 54 FI DELIS. the moment when, morning school being over, he was making for his lair under the lighthouse, to eat his bread and cheese and watch the tide come in — his enjoyment of the world he had found for himself was crowned in an - unexpected way. He suddenly met his old friend and hero, Eichard Delavel. The lad had shot up into young manhood since the Lyntham Mart adventure, and Adam had grown out of his nursery childhood ; hut they recog- nised each other at a glance, and renewed friendship on the spot. “ What, Adam ! Well met ! ” cried the young squire, in tones that thrilled the listener’s heart. “ And how goes it, little shaver ? Here, I haven’t seen you for ages. You come along with me, and have a talk. I’m going to buy a present for a young lady — you need not tell any- body — a young lady friend of mine at Lyntham. Then I am going for a sail with Sam. Wouldn’t you like to come and have a sail ? It’s such a jolly day to be on the water.” To have a sail had been Adam’s dream of bliss ever since he could remember. He had never been on the water yet, though born so near it. But, alas ! there was school to be considered, and his mother, and Mr. Hol- ditch’s buckle strap. He told Dicky that he would give anything — anything — to go with him ; but that if he was not back in school at half-past one he would “ catch it.” “ From whom ? ” demanded Dicky ; “ old Mother D unford ? Oh, never mind her. I will tell her it was my doing ; she won’t scold you then.” “ And if I was late home, sir ” “ If you are late I will go home with you and explain. What’s that bag for ? ” “ My dinner, sir.” “ What have you got ? ” FIDELIS. 55 Adam showed some bread and cheese, which looked dry. Dicky wrinkled his nose. “ We’ll go to the ‘Arms’ and have a bite of lunch together,” said he ; “ only first I must buy my present. You can help me to choose something pretty, Adam — as pretty as she is.” “ The lady we saw when we went to the Mart ? ” queried Adam. “ Oh, no,” said Dicky ; “ another one.” They turned in at a white gate, leading to the neat white houses of the Coastguard Station. One of the men who lived there was an ingenious worker in pebbles and jet, and used to keep a little stock of ladies’ ornaments, which he sold to the summer visitors. As yet the sum- mer visitors had not arrived, and Dicky expected to have a good choice. He was received by the coastguard sman and taken into his parlour, where the tfays of pretty things were spread out upon the table. Jet bracelets and brooches, strings of amber beads, crosses, hearts, and anchors for hanging on neck-ribbon or watch-chain, cornelian finger- rings were submitted to the young man ; and all were so charming that he did not know which to choose. Adam was so keen to know how they were made, in view of the fact that he had quantities of jet and amber in his private museum, that he could hardly give his mind to help his friend. Finally they decided upon a large amber heart and a “ Faith, Hope, and Charity ” — i. e ., a cross, an anchor, and a heart cut out of red cornelian and strung together on a ring, as a charm for a watch-chain — which Dicky decided were the very things. Adam asked if both were for the young lady at Lyntham ; and the purchaser ad- mitted, in strict confidence, that they w T ere not. The 56 FIDELIS. heart was for her ; the “ Faith, Hope, and Charity ” for another young lady, in another place. The trinkets being packed in wadding and pocketed, they repaired to the “ Delavel Arms,” where Adam com- plied with his host’s command to have “ a good tuck-out.” Fish, roast chicken, jam tart, were placed before him, and he ate as much as he could stow away, and more than was good for him. But Dicky liked to see him enjoy himself in so natural, if gross, a fashion, and would have been disappointed if his hospitality had been less appreciated. It turned out that the “ Faith, Hope, and Charity ” was for the daughter of the landlord of the “ Delavel Arms,” a charming young lady who came to talk to them, through the window, at intervals, while they had their lunch. The gift was offered and received over the window sill while Adam was finishing his second helping of tart, and the parties to the transaction retired for a few minutes thereafter, the donor returning in great spirits to his guest. “ That’s all right,” he remarked, in a tone of extreme satisfaction. “ Now, if you are ready, Adam, we will go for our sail.” The little boy heaved himself up, also with a sense of satisfaction ; and when Dicky had sent a message to “ Mother D unford,” they took the field path to the black stairway descending to the beach, and found Sam and his boat awaiting them. Sam was the only resident water- man in those days, and a great friend of Dicky’s ; and Sam was good to little Drewe that afternoon, because of the young gentleman’s example. Oh, what an afternoon it was ! As a festival it ranked next to the day at Lyntham Mart, to be remembered for ever and ever. Adam was not ill, as under the circum- stance, might have been expected, and the buoyant flight FIDE LIS. 57 of the boat over the water made him feel as if he had wings himself. The sea ran briskly under a fresh spring wind, and the little vessel skimmed along as if she were alive, dipping and dancing, leaning over, sometimes, till the foam she made was nearly flush with the gunwale. But there was no being afraid, with Mr. Bichard at the helm and Sam holding the sheet, and Adam was never a coward at any time, in spite of all that had been done to make him so. They visited a fishing smack, and ap- proached the shores of Lincolnshire, which was like see- ing France; and, while Sam conducted some business of his own, the little boy explained his life as best he could to his questioning and sympathising friend. He told Dicky, amongst other things, that he had the “ scratch- back ” still, hidden under a loose board of the nursery floor for safety ; and that his other keepsakes had been taken from him for Tommy and Prissy, who had destroyed them. Then Dicky presented him with his own pocket- knife, to cut string and sharpen pencils with ; and Adam felt as if a patent of nobility had been conferred upon him. Dicky was a great man now, and smoked a cigar, but he was not above considering the interests and aspira- tions of a neglected little boy. Adam simply worshipped him. Of course, they were late in getting back — so late, that Dicky stood in as much risk of a reprimand as Adam him- self. The sun was flushing the red and white cliffs and blazing on the lighthouse lantern as they ran the boat on Dunstanborough sands, and Sam took Adam on his back through the shallow surf to shore. It was a beautiful hour for the walk home, in that low and mellow light — almost the first perfect evening of spring that year, with the first nightingale singing in the Hall woods. But it was after Adam’s bed time, and Dicky had lost his dinner. 58 FIDELIS. “ Well, it can’t be helped,” the latter remarked, cheer- fully. “ In for a penny, in for a pound. I shall have to take you to your mother now, and see that you don’t get licked. How have you enjoyed yourself, eh, young shaver ? ” “ More,” said Adam, “ than I ever did in my life — ex- cept when you took me to the Mart. And I don’t mind being licked, sir — for this.” “ Poor little devil ! ” Dicky ejaculated, patting the boy’s head benevolently. “ We will have another lark to- gether, some of these days.” But it was many years before they had another lark. Twilight was coming on as they neared the farmhouse, but it was still light enough to see what was to be seen. And Dicky saw something more than the green gate in the green hedge that he was making for, while still a good way off. He saw a female form leaning over it from the inside and a male form leaning over it from the outside, so that the two heads were in contact. He saw, moreover, that these forms belonged to Mr. Holditch and' Mrs. Drewe. At this time of night, and on that very quiet country road, they naturally assumed themselves to be unobserved. Dicky paused in his stride, and checked Adam’s hasty steps. “ Hullo ! ” he muttered under his breath, and then laughed to himself. “ I think we had better go round by the other gate, Adam. Mr. Holditch is bidding your mother good-night, and you don’t want to meet him, do you ? ” In the many confidences of the day, Adam had frankly admitted to his friend that he hated Mr. Holditch. They slipped into a by-road and approached the house by the route used for the farm carts and cattle, the same FIDELIS. 59 by which Abraham Drewe had returned home for the last time. Dicky designed thus to come upon Arabella by degrees, giving her time to prepare for him. But as he entered the garden from the dairy side of the house, which was a tree-sheltered walk, she turned a corner into that path and met him face to face ; and Mr. Holditch was not gone. He walked beside her, with an arm around her waist. All four were dismayed by the encounter, and even more displeased. Dicky blushed furiously, but was other- wise cold in his demeanour, and very Delavel-like indeed ; and Adam glared strangely with his goggle eyes. The lovers jumped apart, as lovers stupidly do when thus sur- prised, too late to save appearances — the man angrily shamefaced; the woman' all foolish simpers and giggles. Arabella knew what to do at this awkward moment. She promptly introduced Mr. Holditch as her affianced hus- band. “ We did not intend to announce it quite so soon,” she said sweetly ; “ but, after all, it is not so very soon — I have been a widow much more than a year. And with the heavy burden of this farm, you see, Mr. Bichard, and for the sake of my family Adam, don’t stand staring- in that idiotic way ! Speak to your new papa, sir. It is well for him, if for nobody else, that there’s to be a man at the head of things again. What has he been doing now, Mr. Bichard?” Dicky explained ; and she thanked him profusely, but eyed her son in no friendly way. “ I suppose he has been getting over you with all sorts of tales of how lie’s treated at home — wanting you to pity him — when he has everything that heart can wish — un- grateful boy ! ” “Not at all,” said Dicky, stiffly; “ I took him because 60 FIDELIS. I like to have him, and I thought it would be a little treat.” “ He is always having treats. It is because he is in- dulged so much that he’s such a naughty boy.” “ But I don’t think he is a naughty boy, Mrs. Drewe.” “ You don’t know him, Mr. Bichard. He doesn’t show his true self to you — of course not. But you just ask Mr. Holditch; he can tell you. If it hadn’t been for Mr. Holditch, I don’t know what I should have done with him sometimes. Believe me, it is more for his sake than my own ” Dicky lifted his hat abruptly. “ Excuse my interrupt- ing you, Mrs. Drewe ; I really must be getting home. My mother will be wondering what has become of me.” “ Ah, what a good son ! ” she enthusiastically exclaimed, “to think of your mother’s feelings! Would there were more like you ! But won’t you come in and have some- thing? Dinner at the Hall will be over, and my supper is ready on the table. Do now, c?o.” But Dicky would not, hungry as he was, and despite the persuasive clutch of Adam’s fingers. He bade her a cold good-night, and strode home in a rage on his little friend’s behalf, seething with all sprts of benevolent plans, which, however, came to nothing, — like nine-tenths of benevolent plans. CHAPTER VII. Arabella had begun to tell Dicky that it was less for her own pleasure that she was making a second mar- riage, than for the profit of her son, who was going to ruin for want of a father over him, and she subsequently completed this statement to a great many people; and yet the first thing she did upon becoming Mrs. Holditch was to beg “gran’pa” and “gran’ma” to take Adam off her hands. “ Dear Alfy,” she said, “ can’t endure him at all — and can you wonder at it? He doesn’t mind Prissy, — in fact, he likes her; anybody would like such a pretty little thing : but he says that to see that boy’s face before him, morning, noon, and night — and not his own child, that he must put up with — is too much altogether. He is making me quite miserable with his fuss about it, and the house is never at peace, with the rows and floggings that are continually going on. Of course, Adam treats him as ’ badly as he possibly can — never will call him papa, though I have whipped him till I’m tired to make him do it. He is just as obstinate as a mule. I declare it is ruining all the happiness of my married life ” — putting her handker- chief to her eyes. “ Will you, mammy dear, take him to live with you ? It would be such a kindness if you would. He is getting a big, strong boy, and he has plenty of 5 61 62 FIDELIS. sense, if he likes to use it. Papa might find him very useful for running errands and doing odd jobs.” Of course the grandparents demurred. They had some of their own children still on hand ; and it was hardly to be expected that they should provide for hers, especially as Abraham Drewe had left property. Bat Arabella pointed out that gran’pa was the executor to that property, and could do as he liked with it — that he could pay himself out of the money set apart for Adam when he should come of age. She was sure the other executor would have no objection. When Mr. Armour told her that this could not be done for legal reasons, and formally consulted the stepfather, an arrangement was come to whereby the former engaged to take the child for a time, and the Holditches to pay for his board and schooling. But gran’pa wished it to be distinctly under- stood that he consented under protest. The boy was too young to be of much use to him at present, and he hardly thought it was dealing fair by the dead father. Moreover, the aunts at Lyntham looked coldly upon the prospect of having a nephew so unattractive to take about amongst their friends. Had he been a pretty child, they said, or even tolerably decent-looking, it would have been quite another matter. But the deed was signed, and Adam was handed over. When his grandmother, who had some bowels of compas- sion, even for an ugly boy, undressed him in an attic which contained great stores of books and papers, as well as his little bed, she found his body covered with wheals and bruises, old and new, which showed her what his ex- periences had been of the tender mercies of a stepfather. No doubt he had been a troublesome child ; but there was reason in all things, she said to her husband, when telling him about it, and no little creature of seven should FIDELIS. 63 be beaten like that. Alfred Holditch was a fine man, certainly, and Arabella thought the world of him ; but, for her part, she should never care for him again — never. She hid Adam’s wounds as well as she could from her children and friends, but she never forgot them ; and she was a much kinder gran’ma than he had expected her to be. In fact, they became great friends in course of time. From the night that she first put him to bed, and pitied him for the way he had been ill-used, he loved her — being keen for the smallest excuse to love anybody, and as she grew an older and older woman, and consequently an object of less and less account to an active husband and daughters in the prime of life, it was pleasant to have a grandson ready with cushions for her back and stools for her feet, and glad to hunt for her spectacles when she mislaid them ; one member of the family still treating her with honour and respect, instead of good-humouredly de- spising her as a person who had had her day. There even came a time when she declared, in all sincerity, that that dear boy was the comfort of her life, and that she did not know what she would have done without him. This was fortunate for Adam. Because, when she had once got rid of him, Arabella was quite resolved never to be saddled with him again. And she never w T as. Once or twice he went on a visit to his father’s house, which was now Mr. Holditch’s ; but then he was taken by his grandparents as a matter of duty, and not at all for his pleasure or his mother’s. When the grand- parents and Holditch fell out over money, and one of those slow animosities which people had time for in those days was set up between them, aircommunication ceased except through lawyers. Mrs. Armour became Adam’s mother, and Arabella thought no more of her eldest son than if he had never belonged to her. Even Prissy’s 64 FI DELIS. nose was put out of joint long before she died — at ten years old — by Holditch’s children, Guy Vavousour, and Gladys Geraldine, and Eodolf Mortimer Montagu, and Euby Eosamond Evelina Eugenie, who came crowding into the farmhouse, close upon each other’s heels, to feed upon the substance of Abraham Drewe. By the dead man’s will, executed soon after marriage, his wife had the use of his money until his children were of age, and of a third of it for life, on condition of maintaining those chil- dren in a suitable manner in the meantime ; but out of the very comfortable income thus secured to her she gave but a pound a week towards Adam’s support, and that only when she could not help herself. More often than not, he paid for his keep with his own services ; and this was how the coolness arose between the house at Lyntham and the farm. Adam’s services almost from the first were worth the food he ate and the bed he slept on — a bed around which rats disported themselves in great numbers, attracted by leather bindings and other nourishing matter amongst the bookseller’s stores. As a very small boy, sleeping in the attic alone, he suffered much from these creatures ; they represented the first of the great trials of his Lyn- tham life. They used to loom through the shadows like malicious hobgoblins, even on the sheet close to his nose — awful apparitions on a moonlight night. They used to knock down the wire cage that held his rushlight, and roll it about the floor, making sounds like the clanking chains of escaped maniacs. Once, when gran’ma had poulticed a sore finger, he woke to find them trying to eat the poultice through the rag ; which suggested that they would eat him bodily some night, if he slept too soundly. But time and custom hardened him to these things, and then he set himself to catch the rats that damaged gran’- FIDELIS. 65 pa’s property ; whereat gran’pa praised him, to his inex- pressible delight. He learned his way about the town in no time, and became the most reliable of errand, boys. He swept, dusted, sorted, in the shop, and kept watch over it while gran’pa ate his dinner and his tea ; he cleaned windows, and the knives and boots ; carted coals, washed bottles, stirred jam, chopped suet ; in short, did all he could to please and be useful, and thereby prove that beauty is not everything in this world. He was dreadfully put upon, of course, especially by his aunts ; but that he did not mind. As long as they allowed him his human privi- leges, as long as he could feel himself of any value and importance, he was satisfied. And they acknowledged what a good boy he was, when properly managed ; and they never beat him, and never even jeered him about his looks. But what he did for himself in these years of boyhood was the great achievement of all. His conscientious guardian sent him to a good school, and at home he had access to books of all descriptions. Where there’s a will there’s a way ; and his will — with a stout body to support it — was indomitable. In addition to the labours enumer- ated above, he worked, at every opportunity, in every spare minute, to store his mind with wisdom and knowl- edge ; — for the love of it in the first place, and, in the second, to get the better of his physical disqualifications for success in life. Either Nature compensates her un- gainly children by giving them better brains than com- mon ; or the pretty ones, distracted by their frivolous interests, fail to turn good brains to account : but it is as Mrs. Armour said, and as the portraits of famous men and women indicate — the clever people are almost always plain. Adam’s cleverness was in proportion to his ugli- 66 FIDELIS. ness ; it was very marked indeed. The rate at which he assimilated his intellectual food — devoured in his attic at night, and in all sort of strange places by day — was quite bewildering to gran’pa, whose extensive acquaintance with the literature of his country was mainly confined to its external forms. When it dawned upon him, all at once, that his grandson was a genius, who might possibly set the Thames on fire some day, an actual credit to the fam- ily, with a right to all the advantages that family could give him — a new and brighter day had come for Adam Drewe. It was the realisation of Sar’ Ann’s prophecy in part. Only in part. Even when he had reached that dizzy height which had seemed so inaccessible, where people were proud of him, there was something wanting. It was a something without which everything was unsatisfactory. This he felt for a long time, but did not fully understand. It grew clearer and clearer the older he grew ; and he dis- covered what it was at last — when between sixteen and seventeen. His school gave a break-up party. lie had just fin- ished his studies there, and the earl and the countess, as they were respectfully designated, had bestowed a silver medal upon him, the highest honour that a Lyntham schoolboy could obtain. The evergreen countess had added some compliments — paid in public, before all the parents and friends, on the festive speech-day — and the decrepit earl had given him a sovereign, and said some- thing kind about his dead father, and about his early patroness, Lady Susan, who was also dead. His proud master had shaken him by the hand, and all the boys had cheered him. Therefore he was in great feather, to use gran’pa’ s words, gran’pa having become a braggart in re- .spect to his clever boy. The bookseller wanted Adam to FIDELIS. 67 wear his medal on his coat, as a permanent article of attire ; failing that, he desired to exhibit it in the shop window. The old gentleman was like his daughter Ara- bella in some things. Adam hid his precious bauble in a locked drawer, but he displayed his “ feather ” openly enough in his bright- ened aspect. Probably, he was at his very ugliest age at this moment — half boy and half man, with a downy stub- ble, that was not enough to hide it, creeping out upon his face. “ Why is Piggy’s moustache like a cricket match ? ” was a favourite conundrum of his schoolfellows, “ Piggy ” being one of the least offensive of his many nicknames. The answer was — “ Because there are eleven on each side ” ; and this is a trying state of things, even for handsome youths. Adam would have shaved, again and again, but for his steadfast reliance on the wisdom of Sar’ Ann. She had advised a beard and spectacles as sovereign remedies for his misfortune ; and he wanted to get them as soon as he could. Let me say here that her advice was sound. A few years later, when the queer lower half of his face was thickly covered with crisp hair, and his protuberant eyes with learned-looking glasses, he was enormously improved. As an intellectual young man, people then ceased to see anything so very out-of-the-way in his appearance. However, even though there were as yet but eleven on each side, on account of which he suffered like a branded Cain, he was pleased to go to the break-up party. The scene of the party was the scene of his late triumphs ; he had a standing there, amongst approving masters and pupils who had not won medals. The thought of his im- portance gave him confidence in himself ; and when he went to his room to dress, he felt quite as other young folks feel on such occasions. But he did not know how utterly and perfectly happy he was going to be. 68 FIDELIS. Gran’ma went to his room with him — it was a real room now, and not an attic shared with rats — to make him as smart as possible. For the first time he had a new pair of trousers, instead of gran’pa’s old ones cut down, and a new tail coat to go with them ; they had been pur- chased chiefly for the earl and countess to look at during the medal function. As the boy had now a very decent figure, broad and strong, if not as tall as it should have been, he did unexpected justice to these garments, and was quite proud of himself as he turned round and round before the glass to look at them from all points. They enhanced his confidence in himself greatly. Gran’ma oiled his hair, and brushed it into a big feather at the top and a curl at either ear. He had nice, bright, brown hair, in which she could take legitimate pride ; it had the quality of health and wholesomeness which char- acterised his clear and ruddy skin, and which was, phys- ically, his saving grace. She helped him to squeeze his sturdy hands into white kid gloves, and she put a camellia into his button-hole, and his dancing pumps into his tail pocket. Then, when she had displayed him to an admir- ing household and rolled him in great coat and comforter, she kissed him, and sent him forth into the wintry night. “ Dear boy ! ” she said, returning from the street door, satisfied, to her armchair by the hearth. “ I declare he looks quite handsome when he is well dressed.” She was an old woman now, and her eyes were growing dim. Adam found himself amongst the first arrivals, and received a warm welcome from his master’s wife and daughters, who congratulated him afresh on his school distinctions. This so emboldened him that he asked the eldest daughter if she would give him the first dance. She said at once that she could not, as she would have to be F1DEL1S. 69 looking after the guests, but that perhaps her sister Ellen would. He went to Miss Ellen, who declared she was al- ready engaged, and told him to ask Agnes. Agnes, almost a child, but highly desirable nevertheless, giggled as she looked him up and down, $nd said she “ really couldn’t,” evidently regarding the proposal as a joke. “ Why can’t you ? ” inquired Adam, with rising colour. “ Oh, I couldn’t,” laughed Agnes, feebly. “Do you think I can’t dance?” he demanded. “I can, then. I have been learning of my aunts for a long time.” He had an uncertain bass voice, with casual treble squeaks in it, and its tone betokened that she was giving him deep offence. “ Don’t be angry, Drewe. I’m sure you can dance as well as anybody — of course — why not? But — but I have promised so many of the boys, I really haven’t a dance left” “Where’s your programme?” he bellowed. Itwas hanging to her sash, and he caught it as he spoke. She snatched it back violently, and made an ugly gri- mace at him. “ As if they could write their names before they’ve come, stupid ! Now I certainly won’t dance with you, just for being rude.” “ Agnes ! ” called her mother, sharply. The girl flounced away, evidently to be scolded, and did not re- turn. The hostess came up to Adam, and said, blandly, “Fll dance with you, Drewe, with pleasure. Not the first dance or two, as the people will be still coming, but as soon as I can get free. You may put my name down for as many as you like.” She was an immensely fat woman, and her hair was nearly white. 70 FIDELIS. “ Oh, never mind,” said Adam, “ I don’t really care about dancing, thank you. I would just as soon look on.” “Well, find yourself a nice seat, my dear. There will be chess and backgammon in the card-room presently.” As guests were now arriving in shoals, she had to leave him hurriedly. The big schoolroom was turned into a ball-room, beau- tified out of all likeliness to its every-day self. Instead of maps, festoons of evergreens and paper roses adorned the walls, with candles, set in coloured ham frills, dotted round amongst them. The desks were gone, but the forms were ranged in a continuous line against the wall. A glorious Christmas fire burned in the oft lukewarm grate, with a nursery guard in front of it. The small inner class-room was arranged for whist and table games ; and thither the fathers betook themselves, while the mothers remained to look at their frisking children. But Adam did not desire the fathers’ company ; he stayed with the mothers. They congregated in groups on the forms, and, while they watched the revels, talked in a domestic way. It was • _ not seemly that boys should hear that talk, and therefore they avoided Adam’s immediate neighbourhood. And after the music had begun, all such things as medals were clean forgotten. Had he worn his prize upon his breast, it would have been as useless to him as his aunts’ dancing lessons. He sat lonely against the wall, his big hands in their wrinkled gloves outspread upon his knees, and felt much as he had done that morning, years ago, when his mother went to the Mart without him. Though he wore a stolid mien and was too old for tears, his spirit wept within him as it had done then. This, he told himself, was to be his place in life — to sit apart, and look on at the hap- piness of others, himself for ever out of it ! FIDELIS. 71 He would go home as soon as he had had his supper. He was still young enough to think supper a most impor- tant feature of an evening party, and was already conscious of an appetite for it ne determined not to allow him- self to be taken pity on by that old woman, and that he would never, never again ask a young lady to dance with him. And he wished — he wished from the bottom of his heart, the sensitive heart of a budding man — that he had had the proper pride to stay at home. But he felt better presently. CHAPTER VIII. Amongst the latest comers to the party there was a little girl, who had to sit on a form the whole evening, as well as Adam Drewe. She had a folded silk handker- chief bound over her eyes, and could not see to romp about ; so she was a companion in misfortune, for the time. Apart from that charm, she was a sweet-looking little girl ; the fair brow and tender mouth and chin answered for what was hidden of her face; and nothing in the way of costume could have been more engag- ing than the book-muslin frock and pale blue sash, the smooth silk stockings and bronze kid slippers, that she wore. % From the moment that she appeared, clinging to an elder sister’s hand, Adam watched her, fascinated. Here, he felt, was the ball-room mate for him. The bandage, which was like a shutter put up between her and the other boys, was as an unobstructed window between her soul and his, through which he might communicate with her on equal terms — through which she would look at him , if he could get near enough to attract her attention, and not at his face. He began at once to approach her by sidling move- ments, as she was led from form to form. First, her sister handed her to the hostess, and went off to dance and amuse herself. Then the little girl was passed on to the 72 FIDELIS. 73 daughters of the house, and by them to some matrons who appeared to be family friends. These ladies talked to her a little, asking her how her mother was, and what the doctor said and did about her eyes, but quickly returned to their own gossip ; and the interest of the young folks being concentrated upon a sprig of mistletoe over a door- way, they could not be bothered to attend to her. She sat quietly, her little toes hardly touching the floor, her hands- folded in her lap, listening to the scuffles and bursts of laughter in that doorway, with an air of eager longing to know what was going on. Adam edged up to her, and seated himself noiselessly, shaking with nervous- ness. The hostess and others, noting the manoeuvre, were sensibly relieved. “ If only those two children will sit together and amuse each other,” the former ejaculated, “ they will be off my mind. Drewe is just a skeleton at the feast, glaring at us with those uncomfortable eyes of his ; and what possessed the Plunkets to bring Fidelia, when she cannot see to do anything, I cannot conceive.” Adam, having recovered from his embarrassment, was informed by the little girl what her name was, and went the surprising length of declaring his opinion, audibly, that it was the most beautiful one he had ever heard. She was astonished, thinking him in fun, and told him she was called Delia by her family, except when the boys said, “ Here, Fido, Fido,” to tease her, as if she were a little dog. In fact, she had suffered from what was con- sidered an eccentric name, and had often wished it was Guinevere. a Don’t ! ” cried Adam, who had read his Idylls of the King . “ It won’t suit you at all. Fidelia — think of what it means ! — it is the very one for you. I should always think of you as Fidelity. Delia sounds weak and com- 74 FIDELTS. mon, a Dresden shepherdess sort of name. Anybody might be Delia.” The little girl fluttered in this strong air, so suddenly arising. “ And what is yours ? ” she inquired timidly. “Adam Drewe.” u Oh ! The boy that won the medal ? ” “Yes.” She glowed visibly. Small boys had been her portion hitherto. This was the biggest boy, in every sense of the word, who had ever deigned to notice her. “ How clever you must be ! ” she sighed. “ I wish I was clever.” She wanted to live up to him. He said he was sure she was — a thousand times clev- erer than he — a thousand times better, at any rate ; and she protested earnestly. But since one eye had been hurt, she explained, the doctors had forbidden her to use either of them ; and of course you can't be clever if you don’t read. “ Even you couldn’t,” she ventured to say, respectfully. “ How was it hurt ? ” asked Adam ; and the tenderness of his new man’s heart for this incipient woman thrilled in his voice, the deep notes of which were singularly rich and sweet. “ I don’t like to tell you,” she faltered, hanging her head. Adam hastened to apologise for his indelicate curios- ity, and bade her never mind. Upon which she declared that she didn’t mind telling him in the least, and stated that a boy had thrown a stone at her. “ A boy ! ” cried Adam. “ A boy hit you ! You don’t mean for the purpose ? ” “Well, it wasn’t quite an accident. I had been teas- ing him.” FIDELIS. 75 “ And he threw a stone at you — well ! ” Adam drew his breath through locked teeth. u I wish I had been there — that’s all. I would have given that boy something to remember.” Fidelia beamed with pleasure. Her very hands ex- pressed it, fluttering along the edges of her muslin tucks. “ What would you have done ? ” she asked him, turning the bandaged face towards his, as if to look and smile at him ! He shrank from the seeming scrutiny, but instantly returned to bask in her blind loveliness, which warmed him like a sun ; and he said, with passion, “ I would have hilled him.” “ Then I am glad you were not there,” she gasped, still pleased, but sobered. She added, after a pause, “ No, I am not glad. For if you had been there he would not have done it. You would have stopped him.” “ I should ,” said Adam. They drew a little closer, and were silent for a while, full of the sense of their proximity ; she, like a little purr- ing kitten at his side, and he thrilling and throbbing with the joy of the promotion that he owed to her — or, rather (but he forgot to think of that), to the doctor’s bandage. She broke the silence to ask what the boys and girls were doing, who laughed and scuffled so continuously in the doorway near. Not for the world would Adam have told her they were kissing each other. They were “ fooling,” he said, with a blush, under a branch of mistletoe, at which she blushed also, and questioned no more. Adam remem- bered they would have to pass through that doorway on their route to the supper-room, and fought against suffo- cating thoughts that he felt to be profane under the cir- cumstances. But one thought he seized and held ; — no 76 FIDELIS. other fellow should be permitted the chance to take unfair advantage of her helplessness. Thinking of fellows, his mind turned again to the miscreant who had hurt her, and he wanted to know who it was. Fidelia replied, bashfully, that she would rather not tell. “Why?” queried Adam. “ Is he anybody I know? ” “ He is one of your schoolfellows.” “ What ? ” He glared about the room, from boy to boy, murderously. “ And he has been punished enough,” said Fidelia. “ He never meant to hurt me seriously, of course. When he heard me shrieking — I could not help it — the pain was ' so awful — it was like fire — and saw the blood running down my face ” “ Don’t ! ” cried Adam, writhing. And she stopped short to beam on him, and tell him how good he was to care so much about it. “ No one could have been more cut up,” she con- tinued, pleadingly. “ Of course we forgave him at once, for we knew he never meant it ; and you must forgive him, too. He cried — he cried himself. You must not speak to him about it ; he says he can’t bear it. Promise me you will not.” “ I think it will be better,” said Adam, inflexibly, “ if you don’t tell me any more. I don’t want to know his name ; I might be tempted some day. He lifted his hand to you — to a girl — to you ! It would be the same if the stone had not touched you. I could never forgive him.” She became frightened at this vehemence, feeling that she had already said too much. “ Please — please ,” she begged, with her hand on his sleeve, “ for my sake.” FIDELIS. 77 “Well — for your sake,” Adam murmured, touching the little glove with trembling reverence ; “ if you put it that way ” “ They are getting ready for supper,” she broke in, nervously, “ and he will be coming to look for me. He is my cousin ; he lives here. I don’t ; I am only staying with my aunt, to be near the doctor who attends to my eyes. He said, before we came, that he would take me in to supper. He always tries to be kind to me, because of what he did.” “ Kind ! ” echoed Adam, fiercely. “ You shall not go with him. How dare he ? Kind, indeed ! He must have a cheek of brass.” She named the villain, and it was Harry Bowen, his rival for first place in the school, and one of the hand- somest lads in Lyntham. Not handsome only — a “ swell ” also — the son of a solicitor, the grandson of a Church dignitary, and not of a retail tradesman. Hearing that name — already sufficiently repugnant to him — Adam’s heart swelled with rage, and then sank with despair, all his new-born dash and valour evaporating in a moment. “ Of course,” said he, when he could speak, “ you would rather go to supper with him than with me. He is far above me, I know, though he is a coward. A big fellow like him to throw a stone at a girl — even to pre- tend to throw one. Well, I’d rather be as I am, and know that I’d die sooner than do such a thing.” “ I am sure you would,” his little companion ventured to say, troubled by his bitter tone. “ You are very dif- ferent; and — and I wouldn’t rather go to supper with him at all ’’—blushing at the bold avowal, like a coquet- tish woman. “ Do you mean,” cried Adam, plucked back to strength and courage, “ that / may take you in ? ” 6 78 FIDELIS. “ If yon don’t mind — if you haven’t any one else. But I am afraid you will be quite tired of me,” she murmured ; “ I am so stupid — compared with you.” “ Stupid ! ” echoed Adam, in rapture. “ Tired of you ! oh, my stars ! of you ! ” He sprang from his seat, with an eye upon Harry Bowen, who was prancing about the room with a young lady of whom he was evidently not yet tired ; and Fidelia rose at the same moment, fluttering with joy. Somehow her hand became locked in Adam’s, and neither knew which had been outstretched first. “ Let us go before Bowen comes to look for you,” he whispered, under his breath. “ Let us,” she whispered back. He led her through the door that had the mistletoe over it, and imagined the blissful impossible under stern self-control, and he escorted her along a passage into the supper-room, and tenderly lowered her into one of the few chairs, in the most retired corner he could find. There, presently, he fed her with small dry sandwiches and jam tarts, and sips of tepid negus, disregarding the claims of his own healthy appetite ; and crowds of boys and girls and fat fathers and mothers stood in front of them, with backs turned. “ Tell me,” said Adam, softly, “ do you like books ? ” Misunderstanding the question, she said she liked some books, and instanced them. The Heir of Redcliffe was her favourite. “ I mean books f said Adam. “ Lots of books — all sorts of books. Do you like reading better than anything in the world ? ” She hesitated, anxious to believe that she did, but also to be truthful ; then told him that she liked reading when she could see to read herself. It was a different thing FIDELIS. 79 haying to get somebody to read to you. Either people had not time, or they would choose books you did not care for. “ I wish I could read to you ! ” sighed Adam. “ Oh, if you could ! ” she sighed in response. Then he honoured her with the most precious secret of his life. “ If I tell you something,” he whispered, “ will you promise never to breathe it to a single living soul ? It is something that I have never told anybody.” She leaned towards him, palpitating with pride and eagerness. “ I don’t intend,” he continued, “ to let anybody know about it — except you — until I am famous.” Her grateful smile sobered to a sweet solemnity as she assured him that she would keep the secret safe to her life’s end. “ Well, then ” — Adam’s voice trembled, and his face was red — “ I am an author myself” The effect of this announcement was all that he could have hoped. “ What ? Oh — h — h ! ” she gasped, under her breath ; and was lost in awe. “ Yes. I am writing a book. I have not done much of it yet, but I shall work at it all holiday time. It’s a historical novel, — time of Elizabeth.” “ Oh ! ” she sighed again, “ I wish I could read it.” V You shall, when it is finished.” “ Will it be published ? But of course it will.”* “ Oh, yes. I wrote a ballad to put into it, and they published that in a magazine I sent it to.” “ Did they ? Oh, how splendid ! Oh, how clever you must be ! What was the ballad about ? If I could only see it ! ” 80 FIDELIS. A young author does not mislay these treasures, as a rule. Adam’s verses were in his pocket book, which he wore by day and put under his pillow at night. He stealthily withdrew them from the pocket of his new coat, unfolding with shaking hands the sheet of blue foolscap to which he had pasted his printed page when it began to fall to pieces. “ Perhaps,” whispered he, “ I can read it to you, if you care to hear it. But, no, I woij’t ; it is nothing but rubbish, — utter rubbish.” He made a feint of resolutely refolding the paper ; but, yielding to her ex- postulations, kept it open in the shadow of a bended arm, and began to stumble through a few lines about a belted earl waiting for his beautiful lady at a postern gate. He stopped in the middle of the second verse and glared at the people round him. “ It’s — it’s magnificent ! ” sighed Fidelia. “But I can’t read it here,” he muttered, angrily. “We are too public. They are all listening and staring.” “ Horrid people ! Whisper more. I can hear you.” “ I can’t.” But he could not bear to deprive himself and her of their expected treat, and volunteered to lend her the paper to read when she was able to use her eyes again. She had already told him that the bandages were soon to come off, and also that she was to leave Lyntham on the morrow. “Oh, would you? Would you, really ?” she ex- claimed, as if overcome by his generosity and condescen- sion. “ If you like,” he replied. “ If you will take care of it until you have a chance to give it to me again. But be sure you put it in a safe place, where nobody will find it. I don’t want anyone to know me as an author until I am a great author.” She had but one safe place at present — her little four- FIDELIS. 81 teen-year-old bosom — into which she tucked the precious document, holding it down outside her frock with a rev- erent outspread hand. “ And you are going to be a great author ! ” she ejacu- lated with ineffable pride. “ Hush — sh — sh ! Yes, some day,” said Adam, firmly. He was not arrogant, as a rule; but felt it necessary to recommend himself, as strongly as possible, against the day when she might see him, as well as his verses, with unbandaged eyes. Here they were parted suddenly by Harry Bowen, sent to fetch her to her friends. Harry, having routed his rival, informed her that she had been spending the even- ing with a fellow as ugly as a laughing hyena. Fidelia, with only his kind strong voice to imagine Adam by, smiled serenely. “ The head boy of the school, at any rate,” she re- torted. “ A boy,” pursued Harry angrily, “ that no girl would take up with if she didn’t wish to make herself a laughing- stock to everybody.” Fidelia judged this to be mere schoolboy jealousy, and just smiled on. While, as for Adam, he went home intoxicated. He was so wildly happy that he could not settle back into the groove for days, nor sleep of nights, for thinking of it. CHAPTER IX. Mrs. Holditch sent word to gran’pa that Adam was to be confirmed. She was not in the habit of remember- ing his existence, except when some squabbling was going on concerning the money for his keep ; but Mr. Delavel- Pole had been making inquiries, and pointing out her maternal duty to her. The rector of Dunstanborough was the great squire’s nephew, as well as a faithful son of the Church. Gran’pa at once made answer to Arabella that he knew what was right and proper without requiring her to tell him. And then he called upon the incumbent of his parish, who was preparing classes for candidates, and entered Adam’s name. Adam instinctively objected to be confirmed ; but as he did not exactly know why, and was accustomed to defer to others, he yielded to the general wish, that he should make himself as other good boys of respectable family, and not grow up like a low dissenter. But he went to his prepara- tion, as he went to everything, with an open and an honest mind, determined to see just where he was going, as far as his lights would serve him. The results were curious, and, to his relatives, as un- foreseen as they were scandalous. For he slowly groped to the conclusion that it would not be right to commit himself. Having attended all the classes, and given the 82 FIDELIS. 83 most anxious attention to every point raised by the poor young curate, his teacher — whom, by his unconventional counter-questions, he drove to a perfect frenzy — he re- spectfully but firmly announced his determination to with- draw from the final ceremony, on the ground that he thought it wrong to stand up before God and man and make pledges about things that he couldn’t properly un- derstand, and therefore pledges liable to become perjuries, through no fault of his. Vows, he gravely opined, were always a mistake ; especially vows when you were young and didn’t know what you were going to grow to. He had internal premonitions that he was not going “ to be- lieve and to do ” what his pastors and masters expected of him, and the course of his examination only made this more clear ; so that he really felt it would be putting him- self in a false position to submit his big ugly head to the bishop’s hands. It would do him no harm, he knew, to have a good man’s blessing ; but there was more than that in it. He begged everybody’s pardon, and was very sorry, and not at all defiant or opinionated ; but he was quite firm. In a small wav it was the ordeal of Richard Del- «/ avel over again ; but Adam was not of his friend’s im- portance, and the consequences to him were comparatively trifling. His mother wrote in a rage to say that he was no longer to consider himself a son of hers, while declar- ing that his present contumacy was all of a piece with his wicked conduct in the past : but there was no fresh sting in that. And gran ’pa and the aunts, having expostulated, scolded, and sulked while the matter was undetermined, soon recovered themselves when the bishop was gone, seeing that Adam was of too little account for his vagaries to attract much notice, and having many more important affairs of their own to attend to. Gran’ma all along stood out of the dispute. She 84 : FIDELIS. tacitly conceded to her domestic superiors when they talked to her about it, that her boy was a bad boy ; but when they left her alone she forgot all about it, and loved him and “cosseted” him as foolishly as ever. Indeed, they became closer friends than before. Xow that he was a man — and this episode marked the point of change — and had begun to deal on his own responsibility with the grave matters of life, Adam found himself more solitary and more misunderstood than he had been as a child ; and daily poor gran’ma became more of a toddling old lady, lagging superfluous upon the stage when her work was done. Her children ignored her unimpressive little person, and pooh-poohed her innocent suggestions ; they smiled patronisingly upon her old-fashioned opinions, and soothed her with perfunctory platitudes when she com- plained of feeling “ sadly,” and that her sight or her hear- ing was not what it used to be. But Adam never did. He talked to her as if she were still a feeling woman, and a person of the first importance ; and when she was ailing he sponged her wrinkled face, and brushed her scant grey hairs, and held and patted her gnarled, soft, shiny, old hands, as if she were still young and pretty. And gran’ma’s heart and mind were in excellent preservation, though the case was so dilapidated. Adam knew it, and she knew that he knew it. So they comforted each other. She had the habit, common to superfluous old ladies, of sitting at home in the chimney corner, while the vigor- ous members of the household pursued their various di- versions out of doors. In fact, she was left there. And Adam, being almost as much out of touch with general society, was frequently left there also. Then he used to read to her, — not the bible, nor sermons, nor even the county newspaper ; and of course not the solid works on FIDELIS. 85 which he mainly fed himself. G-ran’ma’s taste ran to novels — most old people’s do, only they are foolishly ashamed to own it — novels full of love and tragedy, like Jane Eyre , which was rather a new book then. She would thrill, and weep, and thoroughly enjoy herself, for- getting that she was old and out of date, as she listened to her boy’s beautiful voice, breathing life into every scene and character. To give her enough of this enter- tainment, and protect her tender feelings from ridicule — to which she was absurdly sensitive — Adam contrived a garden arbour, and other places of retirement, to which they might surreptitiously repair ; and in the warm weather he took her for little walks, upon his arm, when they would talk over whatever story they happened to be engaged on. And at last he confided to her his great secret — even though he was not yet famous — seeing that she was al- ways hovering around it with him, and that he had not another sympathetic soul to speak to. Gran’pa and the aunts — women as sternly practical as gran’ma was senti- mental — had no patience with anything that seemed to them like waste of time on the part of a youth who had to make his way in the world ; and the particular way that he was to make had been by them appointed for him. He was to be a partner in the old-established family business when he became of age and inherited his father’s money, and he was to become its responsible head at gran’pa’s death. Daily they impressed upon him the im- portance of his high mission, and his duty in preparing for it. They would inevitably have disapproved of any- thing that interfered with this preparation; and, more- over, while knowing a great deal about books, they knew nothing of literature, and cared less. So that Adam guarded his secret from them, as he had guarded his cave 86 FIDELIS. in the cliffs from his schoolfellows at Dunstanborough. But dear old gran’ma — a fellow outcast from domestic sympathy, conscious of an inner romantic youthfulness that he only had divined — was another person. She could feel for him. And she did. In fact, he became her favourite author. Then, when the bright day of success began to dawn, this beloved companion began to fail. Their last walk together coincided with the last chapter of The Revolt of the Stepson , Adam’s first published work, which he had been writing during the summer, and reading to gran’ma as he wrote it, page by page. Chilly Autumn had now arrived ; and the thoughtful grandson was, perhaps, less thoughtful than usual, being so full of his book. Gran’- ma caught a cold that day from being out too late, and never managed to shake it off. She, like him, was too full of the book to be conscious of setting suns and .rising mists, of damp creeping up her legs and shivers running down her spine, until suddenly it was gas-lit night, — and the mischief was done. The stepson absorbed them. He was the hero of a full novel, and a most striking personage. Gran’ma had all along protested that he was too singular to be natural, and too advanced in his opinions to be popular, especially with editors; and now, surveying the dramatic denoue- ment, she was deeply excited and concerned. She told Adam that he really must alter it ; and Adam said he really couldn’t . She declared in effect that it was a mis- take in art and in morals alike ; and he replied that it was true to life and the probabilties, and, therefore, true to art ; and that as to morals, he had nothing to do with them. Gran’ma urged the indispensability of a moral tone; and they had an affectionate wrangle over that point. She was too weak and fond a gran’ma to be severe FIDELIS. 87 upon his incipient heresies, which would have made her hair stand on end in earlier days ; and so he flaunted them freely, and took pleasure in making them appear to her much worse than they really were. “ Gerald, you see, dear, is Gerald, and not a curate,” he explained, by way of justifying his hero and himself. “ Therefore he had to kill his stepfather. He had to do it. When he found that Moggs had stolen Lilian’s letters, and read them, and then gone to bully and insult her — to frighten her into the illness that caused her death — I don’t see how he could help it.” Adam glared fiercely along the misty road, which should have been taking them towards Lyntham instead of away from it. “ And she such a sweet angel ! ” sighed Gran’ma. “ Well, she never would have been happy with that blood- thirsty man.” The author felt hurt. “ You don’t understand,” he said, gently. “You can’t enter into Gerald’s feelings when he learns the truth.” “ Perhaps not,” she cheerfully rejoined ; “ but, my dear boy, I know what the editors’ feelings will be when they learn the truth. They will treat the book as Gerald treated Mr. Moggs — mark my words. They will never endure that ending. It is not fit for family reading. The more I think of it, the more I feel that it spoils the whole story.” “ No,” persisted Adam, with the artist’s, especially the young artist’s, thorough confidence in his own methods. “ Given a man like Gerald, it is exactly what he would have done. It is the inevitable climax. Any other end- ing would have spoiled the whole story.” “No — no — no! Not his father , Granny! That would have been quite another matter. His own father would have been privileged, — however great a fiend. 88 F1DELIS. But Moggs was no more to him than the man in the street — much, much less.” “ In the place of a father, my dear — just as one’s sister-in-law is the same as a sister.” “ Never ! ” retorted Adam, firmly ; “ never ! ” And gran’ma divined that he was thinking of Alfred Holditch, and she turned the subject. She remarked that the light was going very fast, and that the dew was heavy. They turned then, and Adam trotted her home as fast as she could go ; but a fairy rime overspread her Paisley shawl and her flowing lace veil, and her feet were clammy, and her skin all creeky-crawly, as she expressed it, before she got indoors ; and, sinking into her armchair, she said she had never felt so dog-tired in the whole course of her life. She was ill next day ; and she was ill, off and on, dur- ing the winter, failing a little more and more after each attack. She was nearing seventy ; therefore, as her fam- ily cheerfully recognised, such failure was in the order of Nature, and only what was to be expected. Poor gran’ma was generally spoken of as “ breaking-up fast.” Adam alone refused to see it, and prophesied that she would rally and be her old self again in Spring ; and his devo- tion to her was as that of a mother to an ailing babe. “ I never had a son of my own,” said gran’ma one evening, when he brought her a little posset of his own manufacture, as a “ nightcap,” and fed her with it. Her lips, open for the spoon, shook loosely, and her faded eyes overflowed. “ I never had a son of my own — and many’s the time I’ve fretted about it — but my Heavenly Father’s made it up to me. No mother’s son was ever such a son to her as you’ve been to me, my precious, ever since I took you; and to think that I grudged taking you, F1DEL1S. 89 and gave you the attic to sleep in ! Oh, my boy ! my boy ! ” She leaned to him as he sat on the pillow beside her, under the flowered damask bed-curtain, and he pat his disengaged arm round her, and she sobbed upon his breast. He was so stout and strong, and she so small and helpless. But there was a time, as he reminded her, when the case was otherwise. “ What should I have done without you in those days, granny ? And haven’t you been all the mother I’ve ever had ? ” Then Aunt Harriet, hearing sounds, came in to scold the old lady out of her dismal mood, and to scold Adam for pandering to it. Her medicine for her mother’s com- plaint was a hard and exaggerated cheerfulness; — this was, in her view, the treatment proper for all ailing peo- ple, whose state naturally disposed them to imagine any- thing. “ It is the greatest mistake in the world to be sym- pathising,” she would say. “ It only makes them worse. The truest kindness is to help them to forget their trou- bles.” Then she would remark, with a mournful shake of the head, that “ ma ” was evidently feebler, and agree with her sisters and the still active “ pa ” that it would be a happy release for her, poor dear ! when the Lord took her. They agreed thus on the present occasion, while Adam was surreptitiously wiping her eyes, and tucking her up, and making her comfortable for the night, as no one else could do ; but their prediction appeared to be falsified next day when he brought her the wonderful and joyful news that The Revolt of the Stepson had been accepted. “ Now, then ! ” he exclaimed, entering her room like a tornado, waking her from an afternoon doze. “ Now 90 FIDELIS. what do you say, granny? You were so sure that Gerald was going to be kicked out every time, weren’t you? Aha ! ” He flourished the editor’s letter over his head. “ He is welcomed — as he ought to be — at the very first place he goes to ! I knew it — I knew it ! Oh, you blind old mole ! You couldn’t see what a splendid piece of work it was ! ” But gran’ma saw it now ; and, in order to see still bet- ter, she asked for her specs, through which she laboriously perused the document submitted to her, flushing and palpitating like a girl over her first love-letter. It ac- knowledged receipt of the MS., posted two months ago, and in unmistakable terms notified that the same had found favour, and would appear in due course. “ Oh, Ad — am ! ” she quivered, as she reached to kiss him. “ Oh, my boy ! My dear, darling, precious boy ! ” “ Now, don’t