i, ,; Ift ,; ^iiiinniiiiiiiiiii'.iiiii'iiiiiiiiiiiHiiii YALE UNIVERSITY LIBRARY 1935 MEMOIR ELIZABETH T. KING. WITH EXTRACTS F K (J M II E K LETTERS AND JOURNAL. SECOND EDITION. BALTIMORE: ARMSTRONG & BERRY. 1860. Entered, according to Act of Congress, in the year 1859, by FRANCIS T. KING, In the Clerk's Office of the District Court for the State of Maryland. 'fo?. ?\ , ~7 %'. ELECTROTYPED BT PKINTET> BY T. B. Smith & Sow, Baker & Godwih 82 & 84 Beekman Street. 1 Spruce Street INTRODUCTORY. The adaptation of the Gospel to all classes and conditions of men, is one of the most convincing proofs of its divine origin. It is addressed to all men every where ; and while to all it teaches the same great truths with undeniable authority, while it changes the whole purpose and bent of the mind, it yet leaves many traits of individual character, modified and controlled, but still distinctive, to work out, in conformity with the Divine Will, the ends which they were designed to accomplish. If it was one of its characteristics that it was preached to the poor, it no less effectively charged the rich that their trust should be in "the living God." If its deepest mysteries were opened to unlearned and ignorant men, one of its chosen vessels was a man profoundly versed in the philosophy of his age and country. It is instructive IV INTKODTJCTOK Y. to find' the man of low degree, whether in social position or in intellectual culture, elevated by the influence of the Gospel to a high rank among the benefactors of mankind; nor is it less so to see the brightest minds humbled under the same controlling power, and using their gifts with the same results. But if it be so in the extremes of human condition, how much more may we expect to find the middle walks of life filled with the same conclusive evidence of the universality of Divine Grace ! If we were asked what is the especial teaching in the following memoir, we should say, the fruitfulness of a life controlled by the Gospel. That our friend had very considerable natural en dowments, that her tastes were refined and her intellect strengthened by culture, that she had a lively imagina tion and that early associations had called it into active exercise, no one will doubt who peruses these pages. That with these qualities were combined, a shrinking sensitiveness which attached her closely to her friends but seemed likely to lead her in more private walks, is equally obvious. To what, then, is it owing that this INTRODUCTOEY. V brief record of one thus fitted for " the cool sequestered vale of life," has been found attractive to so many under very different circumstances ? There is but one answer : on every page stands the impress of a life controlled by the power of the Gospel. How many of equal talent, of wider and higher culture, and with her gentleness and personal attractions, have passed through a lengthened course of social intercourse, beloved and respected, yet have left behind them nothing which could strengthen the weak, encourage the fearful, or meliorate the con dition of survivors ! It may not be useless to dwell for a few moments on the gradual unfolding of religious character, as presented to lis in the following memoir. Attractive as was her childhood, it will be remarked that a great change camo over her. " What has changed you so ?" said an inti mate friend ; and her reply presents with touching sim plicity, the brief record of her early religious experience. She now longs " for the quiet habitation which He pro vides," and " is thankful beyond measure for the still waters" she once despised. The sense of her own weaknesses becomes intensely painful, — what she deems VI INTRODUCTORY. her " impatient temper and tendency to self-indulgence." She desires " to walk in the fear of the Lord all the day long," and does not even dare "to ask for temporal blessings," but only " for food convenient for her." To her who tremblingly rejoices in the opening visions of a higher existence, devotion to worldly wisdom seems de grading. She brings everything to the test of its bear ing upon the soul's eternal interests. In the m^dst of society, and with true enjoyment of it, she begins to feel keenly her responsibility for such influence as she may exert. But not a thought of ascet icism mixes with her sense of surrounding temptations. Her trust is in " The Father who cares for his rebellions children ;" and so trusting, she watches over herself, guards her conversation, is frequent in retirement ; and the result is the heartfelt exclamation : '¦'¦Our Saviour ! how blessed is the sound ! may I be guided every mo ment by his Spirit, and be kept from sin of every kind or degree !" She who to others seemed so gentle and so humble, records that she has continually to struggle against pride and selfishness, and adds, " Oh, for the rest of true humility !" and as though she had found it, INTRODUCTORY. Yll quotes the beautiful words of John Crooke : " None are so weary but he takes care of them — so tender is this Good Shepherd over his flock." That great change in woman's life, when she passes from the home of her childhood to rule over her own household, does not alier the purposes for which she lives. Her earnest prayer is, " Satisfy, if it please Thee, the desire which we believe Thou hast created in our souls for more holiness and greater usefulness ;" and that she may walk in the path of humility and self-denial. She is the light of her husband's house. Every fresh experience of the love and mercy of her Heavenly Father, lends greater earnestness to her efforts for the well-being of those who are dearer to her than herself; and the love which has its center at home, expands in widening circles to all the children of that common Fa 'her: Such are the springs of action. If humiliations abound, and the way does not seem open for active efforts, she remembers, " it may be that pride and self- love mingle with our desires for usefulness even in the Church," and rejoices in the willingness which has been Vlll INTRODUCTORY. granted to her " to be nothing." She feels the necessity of heing faithful to the law and the testimony, but fer vently desires " that she may in nowise depart from a loving and charitable spirit," equally removed from excess of liberality and from bigotry. It is not an easy thing to keep a record of daily spiritual progress. To comparatively few, indeed, is it safe. The few entries made by the subject of this memoir are marked by great simplicity. The struggle which it cost her to address a few poor women at the Penitentiary, and the peace which fol lowed, preceded that call to the more public ministry which the Society of Friends believes is not designed to be limited to one sex. Painfully sensitive as she was, with the keenest appreciation of the gracefulness of the life of woman passed in the bosom of her-own family, her friends could not but know that the exposure of speaking in meetings for Divine Worship must be one of her severest trials. She has herself briefly alluded to this struggle ; none who knew her can doubt that her words fall far short of a full record of the intensity of her feeling. Happily, she had already learned submis,. INTRODUCTORY. ]X sion to the guidance of the Spirit, and now " her will was subdued, her reasoning quieted, and she was made wiliing to give up all in the obedience of Faith." In reference to an early experience of this kind, she tells us, " It was a little thing to do for Him ; neither could I have done it without His power ; it was all his work yet he rewards so sweetly. In my great debility I have been folded like a weary child in the arms of infinite Love and Compassion.'' But while she is thus called to serve her Lord more publicly, in no respect does this lessen the sense of social duties. She had read much and variously, and though now restrained from some reading not in itself objection able, because it recalled feelings which had too much en grossed her, she was still familiar with the best of our current literature. Her acquirements of every kind are laid upon the altar of her Lord. In society she finds frequent occasions to make herself attractive and useful to her young friends by the judicious use of the know ledge she has stored or the tastes she has cultivated. How delightful would our social circles become, and how elevating their influence, were all our gifts used there X INTRODUCTORY. under the sense of responsibility, and in that true hu mility which our friend brought into them ! One other result of deepening religious experience may be alluded to. She was a consistent member of the religious Society of Friends. Its distinguishing doctrines and practices were familiar to her from her infancy ; but they were openly acknowledged and carried into her daily life from a settled conviction of their consistency with the teaching of Holy Scripture, and because all her own religious experience confirmed that conviction. While thus consistently adhering to the principles of this body of Christian professors, the gift which had been the ob ject of her early aspirations was granted to her — a lov ing and charitable spirit. Like John Woolman, she found no narrowness in regard to sects. In truth, much of her appreciation of the good in others who differed from her, was the result of her steadfast adherence lo her own religious convictions. She had learned from experi ence, that there was no peace but in the performance of duty as it was made known to her ; and therefore did she the more readily draw near, in spirit, to those who, under different religious professions, were similarly en- INTRODUCTORY. XI gaged. Thii feeling increases as she nears the goal. " I am not at all sectarian," she writes to a young friend ; " but I do like to see a man capable of real, honest, ear nest appreciation of goodness and of elevation of feeling and character wherever he meets it." We may well close these somewhat desultory notices with the eloquent words of one whose own life and death afforded striking illustrations of the beautiful sentiments which they convey : " There is one branch of study which deserves espe cially to be recommended, as not only forming a most valuable part of Church history, but as amounting almost to a devotional exercise at the same time ; I mean the biography of good Christians of all ages ; and above all, whenever it is to be obtained, their own expression of their spiritual wants and affections and the record of their deaths. It is not desirable to think that error is truth or foolishness wisdom because a good man has uttered' it. But it is even less desirable that our sense of his errors or fooli-hness should destroy our sympathy with his goodness. The pursuit of ecclesiastical history will necessarily show us too much of the quarrels and Xll INTRODUCTORY. infirmities of Christians ; it is most wholesome to turn to a picture which will display their union and their strength. And in those portions of good men's lives which exhibit them in their direct relations towards God, opening their hearts before Him, convinced of their own sin and of His mercy in Christ, showing the true marks of Christ's servants, a quick and tender conscience and an entire trust in God ; we see in all ages and in all countries, the true unity of Christ's Spirit — the true agreement of Christ's people. Or again, if in the lives and writings of Christians we have found too many marks of human weakness, marks which show that they are still surrounded with this world's infirmities; yet how delightful is it to watch them in their deaths, when, being delivered from their several temptations, their lamps are seen to burn with the same heavenly brilliance, inasmuch as all are fed by the same oil ! There the weak mind has parted with its weakness, the angry with its over-vehemence ; there the narrow- minded learns the largeness of God's love, and the under standing which perhaps had felt too keen a conscious ness of its power, is softened by the overwhelming sense INTRODUCTORY. xiii of God's perfections, now more clearly discerned. So in all Christ is glorified, and we can perceive even here the beginnings of that perfect communion in which, all shades of difference being melted away, Christ's servants will be one for forever in Him and in the Father." MEMOIR In attempting a brief memoir of one so dearly loved, much hesitation has been felt while lifting the veil, and exposing to view, the inner life of our sensitive, shrink ing friend. Yet it has seemed that a de scription of her life of faith, and whole hearted dedication to the service of her Master, was called for as a testimony to the efficacy of that grace, by which she was enabled to become what she was ; and as an encouragement to others to follow as implicitly as she did, the Captain of their soul's salvation, and thus be made more than conquerors through Him. i MEMOIR OF Elizabeth T. King was the daughter of William C. and Hannah T. Taber, and was born in New Bedford, Massachusetts, on the 18th of 7th month, 1820. From childhood she was remarkable for a loving, sympathetic disposition, which rendered her thoughtful of the comfort of others, and attentive to their wishes. Very diffident and retiring, she seemed entirely unconscious of her own power of winning affection, and was disposed to shrink from observation. But, while gen tle and yielding where principle was not involved, she was firm in her impressions of duty, and earnest in their fulfillment. Richly endowed with intellectual gifts, it was her delight to cultivate them, and for some time the pursuit of knowledge was very absorbing. The facility with which her tasks were acquired, together with her gentle disposition, and strict integrity, ELIZABETH T. KING. 5 rendered her a favorite with her teachers, and her school-days were passed with pleasure and success. Her love of the beautiful was early de veloped, and she was ever ready to appre ciate it wherever it existed. This faculty opened another -and lasting source of hap piness, which elevated her spirit, and in sensibly gave a tone to her feelings. To her every thing in nature had a language, from the delicate flowers and grasses in the meadows, to the splendor of the sun set sky, or the grandeur of the ocean. In later years her enjoyment of these beauties was chastened and enhanced by her supreme love for their Divine Author, and while admiring their beauty and sub limity, she turned with loving confidence to Him who spread them forth, being able to say, "My Father made them all." To a person of her imaginative tempera- 6 MEM0IR0F ment and refined taste, poetry could not fail to be attractive, and her own pen was often employed in thus expressing her feelings. Her timidity and self-distrust were, however, so great, that most of her youthful efforts were destroyed. The traits noticeable in childhood in creased with her riper years, and her mem ory well stored with incident, her agree able manner of expression, and the re fined taste which instinctively selected whatever was valuable, rendered her so ciety very attractive. Those who knew her, will well remember the charm of her gentle voice and manner, her speaking eye lighted up by the mind within, and the irresistible influence she exerted on all around. This was remarka ble through life, and as her mind matured, and other thoughts and feelings gave place to the desire of consecrating her all to God JEt 18.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 7 these powers, chastened and refined by grace, rendered her indeed a polished in strument in her Master's service. The winter of 1838 was passed in Phil adelphia at school, where her health was so much injured by severe application as to occasion her return home. For some time serious apprehensions were felt by her friends lest the injury should be per manent ; but at- length she was restored to comparative health, and with return ing strength, her desire for usefulness in creased. Her own description of her feelings at this time was thus given to a dearly loved friend: — New Bedford, 5 mo., 8th, 1839. Shall I confess that the prospect of returning health has a tinge of melancholy with its joy. To the humblest among us life has fearful re sponsibilities, and now I almost shrink, as I stand 8 MEMOIR OF [Mt. 19. upon the threshold, and view its cares and vex ations again ready to assail me. I have suffered much since I left you, but the winter has passed almost happily ; for, in all that I have experienced, I have been confirmed in my favorite "Wordsworth's beautiful belief, ' Naught shall prevail against us, nor disturb Our cheerful faith, that all which we behold Is full of blessings ;' which is only another version of the promise we have from higher authority, ' All things shall work together for good.' I will try to feel this accomplished in health as well as in sickness, and fulfill the only wish I have ever felt about my future life, that I might not live in vain. 4 mo., 13th, 1841. I am free to confess that my attachment to the principles of our Society has increased of late. In trying to be quiet, and to put every thing aside that would tend to cloud our vision (and manifold are these hinderances), I think the way gradually but surely grows light before us, and we are led almost insensibly along. I believe too, that as we sincerely desire to yield perfect Mt 20.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 9 obedience, those things which we had not cour age enough to resolve to do for ourselves are done for us, and we bless God for the chastening which mercy dictated. ' I am tired of strug gling,' said a friend to me the other day. As if our life could Le any thing but a perpetual war fare, the good and the evil so strive together. But it matters not whether our lot be one of joy or sorrow, if we only reach home at last. It may not be sinful to look with earnest yet pa tient desires to the haven where the weary are at rest. I think of thee very often, with strong in terest and sympathy, knowing that thy trials are great and peculiar. When flesh and heart fail, there is but one Eefuge, and the conviction that He liveth who pities as a father pitieth his chil dren ; that He sees and knows all — every bitter and weary struggle, every desire, however faint, for conformity to His will, and that in His own time He will arise and deliver from the domin ion of the torturing thoughts and anxieties which so oppress us. Ah, dear , if we always felt this faith, the sting of the deepest earthly sorrow would be removed. 10 MEMOIR OF [Mt. 20. To a schoolmate with whom she had long corresponded : — 6 mo., 27, 1841. With respect to what thou says about myself, dear, I acknowledge that I am now desirous to resign all, but do not in the least deserve what thou says of me. There are few of us but must put up the petition, 1 Forgive me that all else was tried Before I came to Thee.' And it is scarcely till we have proved the utter weariness and weakness of every earthly depend ence, that we come where alone we are sure of aid and rest. Thanks, then, and praise be alone to Him who dims the glory of this world be fore our vision, and if in joy we forget Him, sends us heavy sorrows, which, nevertheless, He will heal and comfort as we endeavor not only to submit, but to acquiesce in His will. There is only one real comfort in life, and that is trying to do right. May we, my dear , go on to gether in the path in which we are called to walk, though it be one of sorrow and humilia- Mt. 20.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 11 tion. Those who are clothed in white robes and sing praises around the throne of the Lamb, are those who have come out of great tribulation. That such a time should come, that there should be a mansion which sickness and sorrow, and above all that sin and temptation shall never en ter — that we should ever enjoy the fullness of His love and presence, whom in weakness we have endeavored to follow, is surely enough to lighten every burden. To a former schoolmate and intimate friend : — 12 mo., 27th, 1841. I heard a lecture from E. K. Peabody the other eve on Ecclesiastical History. It was very interesting, embracing a comprehensive view of church government, from the time and primitive simplicity of the apostles, to that when the papal power reached its height, under Gregory VII. and Innocent III., in the eleventh and twelfth centuries. If thou had been here I should have taken thee with me. The building in which the 12 MEMOIR OF [.Et. 20. lecture was delivered is certainly magnificent, but, as I told , it is not in the power of any combinations of wood and stone to produce emo tions of grandeur and sublimity in my mind. Human sympathies must cluster around any ob ject to render it interesting to me, and only spir itual and intellectual elevation gives me the feel ing of the sublime. Nature, it is true, by the God which speaks through her, raises me to the contemplation of the Infinite ; but Art is lim ited, like its creator. Then a species of utilita rianism will come in. What is the use of all this ? Are the prayers which rise through these magnificent arches more acceptable because borne upon the deep, solemn pealing of the or gan, or the richer swell of human voices ? I do not doubt they may be sincere ; that they are ac cepted ; but mine would rise more freely, when, surrounded by the severe and naked simplicity of our humblest places of worship, they are of fered in the silence of all flesh, to a God who must be worshipped in spirit to be worshipped in truth. Mt 21.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 13 From the enjoyment of merely liter ary pursuits and the pleasures of the so cial circle, it will be seen that her atten tion had now been turned to other and more important subjects. The solemn con sideration of the duties of life pressed heavily upon her, and for a time, like the weary dove, her soul could find no rest. Deeply convinced of the unsatisfying na ture of any thing earth can give, she yet could not lay hold on the promises of the gospel. The mental struggle was intense, and her health was affected by it. The illness and death of a beloved aunt, to whom she was closely united by a sim ilarity of tastes and feeling, as well as the most ardent affection, increased her desire to find some support which would not fail. The glory of the unseen world which was opening upon the invalid, was the frequent subject of their communings, and 2 14 MEMOIROF [Mt.21. the triumphant faith with which, as the shades of evening came slowly on, she could say, " My soul doth magnify the Lord, and my spirit hath rejoiced in God my Saviour," made an impression on the mind of the young disciple never to be effaced. She was convinced of the reality of the faith which thus supported her beloved aunt, and by the operation of the Spirit, which not only convinces of sin but en ables to seek availingly for pardon, she was brought to the feet of her Saviour, and found from this time her greatest happi ness in the performance of His will. A change was now wrought in her feel ings, which her own letters to the same valued friend will best describe. New Bedford, 2 mo., 15th, 1842. I think I am growing more inclined to try every thing by the test, ' Cai bono V — not in a devotion to mere utilitarianism, but to examine tho bearing of all our business and pleasures on Ml. 21.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 15 our eternal interests ; and I try to withdraw my self from vain speculations, and be quiet. The truth is, we can not buoy ourselves up long ; we must have something to cling to which is firm , and fast. We are willing to do every thing but yield simple obedience, try any rem edy but the waters of Jordan to make us clean ; but all this is but a vain endeavor to escape from the simple truth as it is in Jesus. I feel inclined to say with the poet, ' Me tliis unchartered freedom tires ; I feel the weight of chance desires, And Tliee I now would serve more strictly if I may.' New Bedford, 11 mo, Gth, 1842. If there is any thing which degrades the soul, I think it is a devotion to worldly wisdom and expediency. I have watched its deadly blight creeping over the soul, and withering every noble and generous feeling, till my heart has ached, and does so still. After all, there is nothing which can truly ennoble man but pure, genuine, thorough Christianity. Without it he 16 MEMOIROF [Mt. 22. must not only be wicked and wretched, but de graded and miserable. To a former schoolmate : 12 mo., 6th, 1842. I have been to Bancroft's lecture this eve ning, and was much pleased. He spoke very well of the mighty significance lying hid under the seemingly slightest incidents— that this only was the interest of History. All thinking minds take this comprehensive and philosophical view, but there are many who store the mere facts, without looking beneath the surface. Nothing seems to me important except as it relates to the inner life, and in that connection it is of mighty power and interest. I cannot see an old house torn down, without thinking how every beam and rafter has a connection in some mind with, it may be, a fearful history ; how many have lived, suffered, enjoyed, loved and died within its walls. While working for the Boston [Charitable] Fair, I have amused myself with speculating upon the stories each article of fancy work might tell. There are Mt 22.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 17 many of exquisite beauty from Europe, I hear. How many hopes and fancies may be woven in the delicate fabrics. They tell no tales, but every thing has a tongue to me. Pure benevolence, influencing a light and happy heart, may impel the skillful fingers, or they may move more heavily, as 'the continual sorrow of the soul' seeks respite in ministering to the woes of others. Yet there is no mark by which the difference may be detected. I have been reading with much interest Ste phen's Miscellanies. The articles on the Early Jesuits, the Poet Royalists, Luther, Baxter, etc., call forth the energies of an earnest and vigor ous mind, for they treat of earnest men — those who believed that Life and Death, Time and Eternity, were not merely words, but realities ; on whose ears the sound, ' Verily there is a God who judgeth in the earth,' fell with fearful mean ing. Bigoted, harsh, stern, and uncharitable they were, but there was nevertheless a depth and sincerity of purpose, which the liberality which is often indifference, does not often mani- fest. The sickly refinement and fastidiousness 2* 18 MEMOIR OP [/Et. 23. which has so many disciples now, is the charac teristic of an age without faith' and without en ergy. Life, with its manifold duties and fearful im port to ourselves and others — death, opening the portals to eternity — eternity, oh how can we look on these things and be otherwise than serious and earnest? What time is there for trifling when such important concerns are pressing upon our hearts ? Every thing, our dearest pleasures, the idols to which we cling most devotedly, our most heart-wearing sorrows — all sink into insig nificance as we look to the world where none of earth's allurements can find an entrance. But often our faith fails and our hearts sink, and the clouds on the sunshine of Time veil us from the prospect of Eternity New Bedford, 8 mo., 1843. * * * I have nothing to record but strug gling, for the most part I fear in vain, sometimes almost sinking, andstill, I know not how, kept up, so that I do not utterly lose hope and comfort. Then, too, I lose my faith, but I try not to, Mt 23.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 19 and deliverance will perhaps be wrought, though I see no way. So many temptations, and so great a tendency to yield to them, I think some times the enemy is indeed let loose, and power given him over every thing that seemed to prom ise hope of overcoming. It is not always so, however, and sometimes I have glimpses of a rest which has been promised, and have a realiz ing sense that ' He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.' Many snares beset me, in society most of all I think, for there are few who view things as I do. Not that I often speak of these subjects; but, if we are desirous that one great principle of action should be established in our hearts, it alters our estimate of every thing else. Things do not seem as they once did ; we can not be what we once were; we remember how mys terious and almost repulsive these views were to us, and know how they seem to others now. New Bedford, 3 mo., 13th, 1844. Indeed, I am bound to acknowledge that I have not been left alone, though, my unfaithful- 20 MEMOIKOF [Mt 23. ness has deserved it. Sometimes, when bowed under a sense of my transgressions, the blessed conviction of the sufficiency of the Eedeemer's blood to cleanse from sin — to save us, as some one expresses it, not only from the penalty but the power — has arisen on my mind with a heal ing certainty. But I am often sorely tempted, and my faith fails, and my love grows cold, and I have scarce ly grace to bemoan my weakness. I do not often speak of my inward feelings, but all this is very true. I have been tried in many ways, and have suffered much from sorrow for sin, from the agony of sacrificing some cherished idol, from the contempt of others ; but the hardest of all is to feel that the world will gain the ascend ency — that it is far, oh very far, from being my meat and drink to do the will of God. Elizabeth T. King had always the care of pious parents, exemplary members of the religious Society of Friends, yet she herself had never until now made that open and decided acknowledgment of her ^Et 24.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 21 Saviour, which, with love and charity to all His true followers, ever afterwards marked her devotion and consistency as a member of that portion of His Church to which she belonged. The following letter, written to one of the friends of her youth, who had not seen her for some time, will give an account of the change which had taken place in her views and feelings : — New Bedford, 11 mo., 7th, 1844. Thy question rings in my ears with a half- painful sound, 'What has changed you so?' The change has been so gradual, that I am not aware until I meet those who have not seen me for years, that it is so great, but then I almost invariably hear some remark of the kind. Well, dear, time and care have no little ef fect ; although it may be a slow wearing, it is a sure one, and though an enthusiastic, ardent, restless temperament, may be difficult of subjec tion, it is one which shows the process better. 22 MEMOIR OF [Mi. 24. When thou knew me I felt more keenly, but was less happy than now — now that joy has not so much power to elate, or sorrow to depress me — now that my aspirations are very nearly quenched, and- my mind ' subdued to what it works in.' It is a less interesting condition, but it is one much more comfortable. I smile with a little sadness when I hear myself spoken of as so calm ; for, after all, if we are in any degree purified, it is ' so as by fire.' I consider myself, however, as having great reason to be thankful that circumstances have been such as to com pel me to this course ; that cares, anxieties, sor rows which I could not elude, have continually checked me, and forced me to form a more so ber estimate of life. Now I only wish to form a habit of seeking for pleasure in duty alone, resolutely rejecting any enjoyment which conflicts with it in the slightest degree. I have such an abiding sense of the transitory nature of both earthly joys and sorrows, that I feel it to be wrong to be much moved by them. Why trouble ourselves about the inconveniences of our journey, or be excited Mt 24.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 23 by a pleasant occurrence that is soon passed by? Does thou remember the Eastern fable, that Solomon, on being asked by a prince to give him a maxim which should prevent him from being elated by prosperity, or depressed by ad versity, gave him, 'This also passeth away?" Something of this feeling is continually in my mind. But I do not mean to speak as if I even wished to attain to a mere philosophical calm ness. If in any degree the restless, irritable, am bitious feelings of my early youth are quieted, if I am enabled to be more useful, and to find pleasure in that, rather than in the gratification of my own tastes (and I long that this may be more and more the case), it is, thou wilt know and feel, only owing to that grace which is mer cifully extended to us, poor, miserable, blind and naked as we are, to which nothing is impossible, or there would be no hope of our ever becoming meet for the kingdom of heaven. Our Father mercifully stains the beauty of this world in our view, dims all our pleasant 24 MEMOIROF [^Et. 24 pictures, shows us the vanity of our desires, lets us feel the deep disappointment of having our wishes refused, or one deeper still in having them granted, that we may long for ' the quiet habitation' which He provides, and learn to be thankful beyond measure for the ' still waters' which we once despised. The way is long and sometimes dreary, but we are journeying to a better habitation, that is an heavenly. Is not this enough ? Let us en courage one another to press forward to receive suffering as well as enjoyment thankfully, and let patience have its perfect work. To an intimate friend — New Bedford, 11 mo., 14th, 1844, I have been passing my time very pleasantly in Philadelphia, but rather too much in the bus tle after all, and I now long to get quietly settled down to home duties, feeling that such a con stant round of enjoyment is not the most favor able, even to happiness ; but it has been very pleasant. People are so much more kind to me than I deserve, or can possibly understand why, Mt. 24,] ELIZABETH T . KING. 2f> that it must and does give me great satisfaction. I have been away from home five or six weeks, and visited New York, Baltimore, Washington and Philadelphia ; and if I can only go back, and feel that I have not done any one any harm, it will be a great favor, — if I can only hope that I have not been led so far out of the way as to prove an occasion for stumbling in any. We can not avoid influencing others, and being in fluenced by them, and it is a fearful thought that a brother's blood may one day cry against us. Oh, my dear, I do at times feel that it is such a serious thing to live, that I am almost overwhelmed with the many considerations it involves. And while we feel our weakness, we are not always willing to go to the right Source for strength ; shrink from the patient waiting, the quiet endurance of shame and suffering ne cessary for our purification. I am grieved to the heart at my own ingratitude and willfulness. But still our Father cares for His rebellious children, and embitters their cup of enjoyment, refuses them the blessings they most earnestly desire, till in the day of His power they are made willing 26 MEMOIR OF [Mt.2i. to submit. Indeed, we have cause to bless Him ' most for the severe.' We have all felt much sympathy with you in the recent affliction you have experienced. We were well qualified to sympathize in such a sorrow. But there is such abundant consola tion withal, that our natural grief is silenced when we think that our beloved ones aTe taken away from so much evil. Sorrows wear upon our hearts, and storms of temptation assail, till in bitterness of spirit we may say, 'Mine eye shall no more see good ;' but they are at rest — they dwell forever by the still waters, and lie down in the quiet habitation. We will praise Him for this, and may we be enabled to live so that when He is pleased to summon us also from a world whose beauty He hath dimmed, we too may die the death of the righteous, and be ad mitted to a place, though it be the lowest, in the mansions prepared for them. To the same friend on the death of her father — New Bedford, 3 mo., 4th, 1845. I have often thought of thee during the last .Et. 24.] ELIZABETH. T. KING. 27 few weeks with the tenderest sympathy and af fection, and have frequently attempted to ex press it ; but what could I say ? No human consolation can avail at such a time, and I feared, unbidden, to touch so deep and so recent a wound, lest I might only add to thy suffering. Yet I trust thou hast not lacked consolation, but that thy heavenly Father has been to thee as He hath promised, strength in weakness, and a present help in the needful time ; that the arm of Divine Love hath been around thee and beneath thee, preventing thee from sinking in the waves of affliction. We have all cause to mourn the loss which we have sustained, and, above every sel fish consideration, we mourn that the Church, now in her need, should have lost one of her most valiant soldiers : but it is the Lord — let Him do what seemeth to Him meet. Oh, my dear friend, what a blessedness it would be to know our own wills wholly swallowed up in the Divine will, so that we might be careful for nothing in any way. Sometimes the heavy chastenings ap pear to accomplish this in some measure, and is it not often the mission on which they are sent?" 28 MEMOIR OF [Mt 25. The following extracts are from her journal, which, from this time seems to have been kept with much regularity : 7 mo., 1st, 1845. I am very much tried with my imperious and impatient temper. May I be able to overcome this. Then I have a tendency to self-indulgence. May I be favored to feel that the one thing needful is the only thing desirable. 15th. 0 Father, feeble and unworthy as I am, Thou knowest the desire of my heart is to serve Thee. It is Thou who hast given this de sire ; Thou wilt not refuse it. Make, I beseech Thee, the way plain before me, and enable me to tread it in the obedience of faith. 8 mo., 16th. 'I will take heed to my ways, that I sin not with my tongue.' I have been too careless of late in repeating tales to the disad vantage of others. 0 that I may walk in the fear of the Lord all the day long. I have felt that we were not to ask for temporal blessings, or spiritual comforts, but only that we might be fed with food convenient for us, even though that may be the bread of adversity and the water Mt25. ELIZABETH T. KING. 29 of affliction. ' Shall we receive good at the hand of the Lord, and shall we not receive evil ?' 9 mo., 1st. May I be led and guided in all my steps by Him who is the only Leader, that I may give up every thing which He requires, in little things as well as great. Oh enable me to bear patiently the daily cross, looking for no comfort or pleasure out of the fulfillment of Thy will. Give me to travail availingly for the wel fare of Thy Church militant, for those that are dear to me, and for my own advancement in the pathway of holiness. I have only sins and weak nesses to bring to Thee ; be pleased to have compassion, and afford a little help to struggle against them, manifold though they be. 31st. I have been much favored to-day, in my retirement, with quietness, with desires for more entire devotion, and with a view of the marvelous love manifested in the Saviour's life and sacrifice, and its efficacy. Our /Saviour ! How blessed is the sound! May I be guided every moment by His Spirit, and be kept from sin of any kind or degree. 10 mo., 15th. Yesterday I had a call from 30 MEMOIR OF [Mi. 25. ¦ . I talked much, and perhaps not un- profitably ; but it had an exciting and unfavor able effect, as it tended a little to the exaltation of self. I can not bear to have my quiet dis turbed ; and those periods when, as it were, I rest under the shadow of His wings, are so precious, that I desire to watch jealously lest any earthly feeling should draw me from this refuge. There is no comfort, no satisfaction, in any thing else. The heart can rest in no earthly home ; not too entirely even in that which is provided to cheer it as a brook by the way. 11 mo., 21st. I have continually to struggle against my pride and selfishness. Oh for the rest of true humility ! Could I attain to it, how much should I enjoy. Well, in the beautiful language of one of our early Friends, ' None are so weary but He takes care of them, and none so nigh fainting, but He puts His arm under their heads ; nor can any be so beset with enemies on every side, but He will arise and scatter them • and none are so heavy laden, but He takes no tice of, and gently leads them — so tender is this Good Shepherd over His flock.' Mt. 25.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 31 Oh what marvelous loving-kindness ! To be lieve in this constantly would be an abiding- comfort; but our own weakness and faithless ness interpose many clouds between us and the Sun of Eighteousness. It is but justice to her character to say, that these complaints of irritability and selfishness arose from her desire to be tho roughly conformed to the perfect Pattern. Her conduct was ever marked by a scru pulous attention to the wishes of others, and a striking forgetfulness of self. The time was now approaching in which she was to leave the home of her child hood, and assume new duties and respon sibilities. But in the midst of her anticipations of happiness, the glories of the enduring hab itation seemed to assume a more definite form, and in a farewell note to a dearly- loved aunt, she thus writes : — 32 MEMOIROF [Ml. 25. New Bedford, 12 mo., 28th, 1845. Ah, my dear, what is our happiness — the greatest on earth, where the most confiding love, the deepest and truest affection, are based on the sure foundation of perfect esteem, and sanctified by our Father in Heaven, to the bliss of the re deemed spirits of those who have gone before us. I can not tell thee how heaven opens before me— -no more sorrow, no more partings, no more of this clinging earthly love, no more drooping under the weight of feeling, which our hearts can not bear, and, above all, no more sin; but clearly and confidingly we look upon the Fa ther — no cloud of the body's Aveakness or the spirit's sinfulness, and we are satisfied, for we awake in His likeness. How those whom we have mourned for with exceeding sorrow will welcome us to those shores, if through mercy we are favored to reach them. Look upon Him whom we have pierced; His countenance is radiant with ineffable love as He says, ' Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you, from the found a- Ml. 25.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 33 tion of the world' — the city ' whose Avails are sal vation, and whose gates are praise.' God Him self shall wipe away all tears from our eyes. Words fail me, as I would express the com munion of spirit throughout all eternity, in the blessed employment of praising our God for ever. I could almost say the veil Avas lifted, that the glory, which eye hath not seen, was made manifest to my spiritual vision. It seems scarcely alloAvable to utter these unspeakable things, but these views have very unexpectedly impressed my mind. Would that they might bo oftener present with me — earth would not then look so enticing. May we give ourselves up into our Father's hands, for life or death, for joy or sorrow, secure that all will be well. On the last night of the year 1845 the following entry occurs : — • " 12 mo., 31st. So it will soon be over — a year which has decided my future life. I began it Avith anticipations of happiness ; they have been 34 MEMOIR OF [Mt. 25. realized, for I never before was so happy, though now the future assumes no definite form. But I am almost sorrowful, even heavy-hearted now, as I feel the weight of the step I am about to take. May my love become more and more spiritual, and divested of selfishness ; may my faith be strengthened, that I may go on quietly and calmly in the Avay in Avhich I believe I am called upon to walk, not repining or feeling dis appointment if I should find some thorns among the flowers. I must look to Him who i3 ' strength in weakness,' to be with me now, and desire to resign myself and all I have, unreservedly, into His holy keeping. On the 8th of 1st month, 1846, she was married to Francis T. King, of Baltimore, and removed to reside in that city. A change of residence brought with it no change in her desires for holiness ; but, in the enjoyment of her many blessings, her heart continually turned to her Heavenly Father, and sought to follow Him unre- Mt. 25.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 35 servedly. In reference to her marriage, she says — As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord, and serve Him too in the way of His requirings, as far as strength is given us to do so. Oh, Father, satisfy, if it please Thee, the de sires which we believe Thou hast created in our souls for more holiness and greater usefulness, and grant, if consistent with Thy holy will, that we may go on together in the path of humility and self-denial. 1 mo., 22d, 1846. All must be in subjection to the Father of spirits, and now I renewedly de sire to take such portions from His hand as He may see meet to bestow, in thankfulness for what is given and for Avhat is withheld. Oh to be made meet to be a partaker with the heavenly host — to be fitted for usefulness while detained on earth. I long to be dedicated, body, soul and spirit, to the service of the Eedeemer, while I feel that the flesh shrinks from sacrifice and self- denial. 36 MEMOIROF [Mt. 25. The following are extracts from letters written at this time to a young friend in whom she was warmly interested, who was struggling with the doubts and fears incident to the early stages of a Christian's course : — Baltimore, 1 mo., 1846. * * * Now, my dear, I must speak of some parts of thy letter, which touch me very much, though I scarcely know what to sa,y, for human counsel, and the tenderest human sym pathy, will not avail in the Avork which lies be tween us and our Maker. But He is a God nigh at hand, and His love and care are greater than any other. He Avill direct thy steps if thou look to Him for guidance. Do not be discouraged ; look up to Him with trust and love, for He commands this ; but remember, that of old the sacrifices Avere made by fire unto the Lord, and many pleasant things must be given up now. " Whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, can not be my disciple." Never let an}7 thing, however -St. 25.] ELIZABETH T.KING. 37 insignificant, stand in the Avay of thy peace, and then thou wilt experience that in His presence alone is fullness of joy. The way may at times seem dark, but light will arise, if thou trust in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him. That light may sometimes shoAv hard things to be required, but do not be distressed if thy heart should rebel ; bring thy unwillingness and disobedience to Him, in the faith that He will give thee power to over come, for He can not fail. " Greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the Avorld," so keep close to Him, and the victory will be Avon. But do not, I beseech thee, neglect any thing that is required, for disobedience brings darkness ; and do not reason or delay, but simply follow the leadings of the Holy Spirit, and He will guide thee into all peace. Baltimore, 1 mo., 29th, 1846. I long for thee, my dear, and feel painfully desirous that strength may be given to resist the temptations surrounding thee, that thou may not let go thy hold at all. We are seeking " a better country, that is an heavenly," and there is more 38 MEMOIROF [Mt 25. true satisfaction in suffering for Christ than in any earthly enjoyment. Baltimore, 2 mo., 1st, 1846. Hold fast the profession of your faith, with out wavering, for He is faithful that promised. Never be discouraged ; though Ave fall, Ave shall rise again, if Ave look to Him who will not fail to hear and help. I long that every thing may work together for thy good' — pleasure and pain, care and disap pointment, if such come — but do not think it must be all gloom. While I would not have one burden lightened, which an All- wise Dis poser of events lays upon us, or one cross re moved, which He imposes, we must remember Ave do not serve a hard Master, but a merciful Father. Baltimore, 4 mo., 3d, 1846. Try to keep humble and quiet. Eemember it is not in the whirlwind, or the fire, that the Lord speaks to His children, but in the still small voice. It is the enemy that disturbs the soul ; but as in reverent stillness we endeavor to bow before the Lord, He will teach us of His Mt 25.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 39 ways, and give us strength to walk in His paths. As we continually strive to look to Him, He will not forsake us, and the Avork, of which He is the Author, He will also finish. In the early part of our religious experience many fears arise lest sacrifices may be called for, Avhich we think Ave can not make, but Ave must not look too much at these ; just give ourselves up, trusting that strength Avill be given for Avhatever is required, and the Avay will be made clear Avhen the time arrives; "Why are ye fearful, oh ye of little faith ?" We know we love those who are dear to us ; we know we avouH not let them suffer unneces sarily, and that Ave Avould never let them stray, nor allow any harm to come nigh them. When we feel how strong this is in our finite natures, let us remember that "God is love," and that Avithal, He is All-wise and Almighty. " Enter not into the hurryings of the enemy, though they fill the soul," but look up with a trust, that though all is dark now, light will yet be given. This faith is more acceptable than any thing else ; without it it is impossible to please Him. 40 MEMOIROF [Ml. 20. Baltimore, 6th mo., 1847. A mad dog was killed yesterday just before our door, which rather alarmed me, as Ave were, unconsciously, near such great danger. All hu man prudence and foresight are unavailing to preserve us ; Ave must take all proper precau tions, and leave the result "to Him Avho doeth all things Avell." What a comfort to believe we are under His fatherly care ; none can pluck us out of His hand, and Avhatever the dispensation allotted us, He sees and knows it all, and can preserve and comfort, through all He permits to befall us. I have been thinking much lately of the text, " Let patience have its perfect Avork." Life is not intended merely for enjoyment ; it is a state of trial and discipline, and I have desired very much to resign every Avish, hope, and ex pectation, every thing, into the hands of our hea venly Father, Avilling to receive daily the portion Avhich He allows, though it may be, and often is, the cup of suffering. But He never lays more upon His children than He gives ability to bear, so let us look up to Him with filial confidence, and in His own time He will give " beauty for Mt. 27.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 41 ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, and the gar ment of praise for the spirit of heaviness." If we folloAV the apostle's injunction, "In every thing give thanks," we shall not be desponding ; and if it be the will of our heavenly Father that Ave should glorify Him in the fires, may He give us strength to say " Thy will be done." When the furnace was heated seven times hotter than it was wont to be, there was a form like the Son of God with the three children there. She writes thus in her journal : — 10 mo., 8th, 1847. I had a precious feeling of comfort this morning in the thought, that it is no matter how despised we may be, if we are permitted to find acceptance in the Beloved. It may be that pride and self love mingle with our desires for usefulness, even in the Church. If He see meet to refuse the qualification, He may give it to others. "The meek will He guide in judgment, and the meek will He teach his Avay. The Avilliugness to be nothing, if that be His will, is sweet, and I desire to be very thankful 4* 42 MEMOIROF f^Et. 27, for this little ray of comfort, vouchsafed after a time of deep humiliation. I have the deepest cause for thankfulness in my abundant bless ings ; my cup runneth over. May I see clearly what my duty is, and be favored with strength to do it, not consulting my OAvn ease or plea sure. In a letter to a dear friend she thus con tinues this subject : — Baltimore, 11 mo, 7th, 1847. This stripped, Aveak state is very trying to that part which would fain seek the honor Avhich cometh from man. I have been Avell-nigh dis mayed, sometimes entirely so, but the heights have a greater tendency to separate us from the love of God than the depths. When the cross of Christ is the only refuge, Avith what strength of despair the soul clings to it. Ah, my dear, this is a pilgrimage — a war fare — no stopping for permanent rest until the journey is over — no putting off the armor, or laying down the weapons, until the victory is won. I have excused myself in various ways Mt 27.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 43 from labor. I said I was weak, that I had other cares, that I was afraid of a forward spirit ; but I now see that it is in a great measure the with holding more than was meet that has tended to my deep poverty, and that if simple obedience had been yielded to gentle intimations, I should have had more peace. Time is passing away very rapidly with us both ; we ought before very long to stand as soldiers in the fight. Are Ave making the prog ress which will qualify us for this? Are we casting aside creaturely activity, the love of the world, and the fear of it, and deepening in the root ? Indeed, this is a very serious matter for us to think of, now that Ave are mothers, and must seek for strength to guide and restrain those who are dearer to us than life. If we could but dwell under a constant concern for the right advancement of our dear children, I believe it would be very effectual. May the Lord take our little ones into His flock ! 3 mo., 4th, 1848. I have had not a little quiet comfort this morning ; but I have been exceed- 44 MEMOIROF [Mt. 27. ingly tried and exercised in the desire, that while I am faithful to the law and the testimony, I may in no Avise depart from a loving and chari table spirit. I see much that I think is Avrong; may I be favored to preserve the right medium between too much liberality and bigotry. Could I but be preserved in a loving, humble spirit, how happy I might always be. There is the command, "Judge not:" let mo ever bear this in mind. As a member of Friends' Prison Associa tion, she frequently spent the afternoon of First day at the Maryland Penitentiary, for the purpose of teaching the women confined there. In reference to these vis its, she says in her journal : — I wish I could relieve my mind of the bur dens that oppress it. I long to speak to the Avomen, but have not courage. I have almost come to the conclusion that utterance never Avill be given. It will be seen by the next extract that Mt. 28.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 45 she was favored with strength to perform what seemed required at her hands. 3 mo., 28th. Last First day I Avent out to the Penitentiary in much heaviness ; but though something seemed to present itself before me, I felt there was so much handed forth, I might be excused. However, after had finished, she turned to me and asked if I had any thing to say, Avhen in great weakness, and in a stam mering; manner, I said a few words on the neces- sity of prayer. Afterwards I had great openness and a degree of success Avith my class, and in re turning, and for the rest of the evening, my peace flowed as a river; yet there Avas nothing Avhat ever for the flesh to glory in. 12 mo., 13th, 1848. I felt this morning after the reading as though I would like to express a desire that we might live nearer our heavenly Father ; but I shrunk, because I feared I might do Avrong during the day, and thus bring re proach upon His cause. This Avas faithless, I know, but I am so weak. Oh, my Father, look down with pity ; and if Thou hast any service 46 MEMOIR OF [Mt 28. for me to perform, keep me near Thee in hu mility, and let none of my actions bring reproach upon Thy cause, or blood upon my own head. In a letter to an aunt she Writes :— Baltimore, 12 mo, 20th, 1848. My journeying has been mostly in the Avil- derness since Ave met ; but this matters little if Ave can feel any evidence that the journey has been onward. The fear that it has not, has been cause of the greatest sorrow and discouragement, yet there has been some arising of the well-spring of life. May we be favored to journey forward, keeping very near to our Master, and willing to follow Him whithersoever He leadeth. I thought I felt a freedom to speak in this way to thee, my dear, to whom I feel bound, not only by the ties of natural affection, but by a deeper and stronger tie of spiritual sympathy, in which I have felt to crave for thee, as for my own soul, greater advancement and more heart felt devotion, and such a close keeping to the light, even here amid trials and temptations, that so we may be " always with the Lord." Since we Mt. 28.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 47 may truly say our cup runneth over, may we strive to prove our thankfulness by our obedi ence. Oh, how earnestly do I crave this, having proved so fully that the smile of our heavenly Father lights even the darkest path, and without it even the brightest is gloomy. That one so sensitive as the subject of this Memoir, who habitually tested herself by the highest standard, should often feel deeply her own shortcomings, and that the entries in her journal, or her confidential letters, should at such times give evidence of it, will not surprise those who knew her. But it would be doing injustice to her char acter, and especially to her Christian course, did we suppose that these struggles after the "life hid with Christ in God" unfitted her for the cheerful performance of social duties, or lessened her enjoyment of the blessings by which she was surrounded. She was in truth the light of her house hold, and found a constant source of pure 48 MEMOIROF |>Et. 28. pleasure to herself in the duties of a wife and mother. She entered with the fullest sympathy into the innocent enjoyments of her family, drawing on her own resources for their encouragement and instruction ; or aiding them in the appreciation of the beauties of Nature. It was beautiful to re mark how all her experience of the love and mercy of her heavenly Father did but deepen her love, first for the little family group, and then in ever expanding circles for all the objects of His tender regard.- Nor was it less instructive to learn from her example, that while true piety hum bles us under a keener sense of our defi ciencies, it teaches us to use all the facul ties Avith which He has endowed us in the service of our Lord; and that such per formance of duty is rewarded by an in crease of ability, as well as by the evidence of His gracious approval. Mt 29.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 49 During the visit of our friend, Hannah C. Backhouse, to this country in 1833, she was much interested in promoting Scriptu ral instruction, and First day schools were established through her influence, in New Bedford as well as in many other places. With the former, E. T. King was connected, first as a scholar and afterwards as a teacher, until the time of her removal to Baltimore. Her interest in this subject was very great, as well as her power of awakening a corresponding feeling in others. She de lighted to point out the love of God as dis played in the plan of redemption, the agreement of the different parts of Scrip ture, and the exact fulfillment of prophecy. The knowledge she had culled from va rious sources was all brought into use, and the simple manner in which the information wasconveyed, waswell calculated to impress the minds of those she sought to instruct. One of her scholars recently remarked. 5 50 MEMOIROF [Mt29. that though the Bible had been familiar to her from infancy, her first pleasant impres sions and real interest in it, were received at that time. The following letter will further show her diligence in every good word and work : Baltimore, 5 mo., 13th. Another subject much on my mind is the es tablishment of a House of Industry here, and a colored school in connection with it, which I hope Avill be accomplished. I have not any quali fication for starting or managing such a thing, but I Avant to get those to work Avho can. I do not think, my dear, that the prospect of success is the moving principle Avith those who carry on benevolent works even most success fully. They do it because they can not help it — because it is their duty to act, leaving the re sults ; for they are often apparent failures. They do good, hoping for nothing again ; but I do not deny that there is a seed of good in every human heart, though it is often so choked and over grown that it is entirely unfruitful. Ml. 29.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 51 The following letter was addressed to and on the occasion of the death of their two only children : — Baltimore. 9 mo., 17th, 1849. Although you may be at first surprised at receiving a letter from me, I do not think you Avill consider it an intrusion, since it is prompted by very deep and heartfelt sympathy with you in the recent affliction Avhich you have exper ienced. I feel it more sensibly as my own chil dren were very nearly of the same age with your little darlings, and I naturally felt a stronger interest in them. But I have very earnestly desired, that although this stroke may at first appear overwhelming, you may be enabled to trace in it the hand of a gracious Father who has taken your little ones from the evil to come, to be for ever at rest in His bosom. In looking on my own children, and think ing of the trials, the sorrows, and, above all, the temptations of this world, I have often felt that I could not ask life for them — only that when He saw meet, whether it was sooner or later, He would take them to Himself. 52 MEMOIR OF [Mt 29. Indeed, my dear friends, there is abiding con solation in the thought that whatever storms may now come, they can not reach these precious ones, Avho are now mingling with the angelic throng in that city where none can say " I am sick.'' Do you think that I am in any degree in sensible to the suffering you must experience ? I know how your hearts Avill yearn for the sweet voices of your children, and how lonely your home Avill seem ; but I earnestly desire that the Father of mercies and God of all consolation may be near you, pouring the oil and the Avine into your stricken hearts. Eemember, " affliction cometh not forth from the dust, neither doth trouble spring from the ground ;" all our chasten- in gs are from the hand of a Father Avho loves His children better than Ave love ours, and doth not willingly afflict them. May you feel this a renewed call to be more dedicated to His ser vice ; and now, that your treasures are in heaven, may your hearts be there more exclusively, and the time may yet come that you will say with thankful hearts " It is good for me that I have been afflicted." Mt £9.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 53 While I Avrite I feel that words are inade quate either to express my own feelings or to convey any comfort to your hearts ; and I again commend you, and particularly thee, my dear , as I know how keen the anguish of a mother must be, to Him Avho is the Comforter, the Helper, and the Stay of all who look to Him for consolation. May He give you resignation to His will, that you may be enabled to say, " It is the Lord, let Him do what seemeth to Him good." To one of her sisters : — Baltimore, 12 mo., 1849. We were speaking of the different views in regard to dress. I think we must learn not to put entire confidence in any one's judgment in regard to it. If we keep low and humble, Avith a single eye, we shall be directed, in little as well as great things ; but if any Friend were troubled with any thing I wore, I should, if I felt at lib erty, alter it. We may draw humiliating lessons from the condescending love and goodness of our heavenly Father, Avho certainly does give 5* 54 MEMOIROF [Mt. 29. precious spiritual gifts to His unworthy crea tures, who must appear beyond measure frail in His sight. Some among us may indulge too much in dress; that may be their infirmity. Others in dulge too much in making remarks upon it — that may be their weakness; but both may, re deemed and purified from all these besetments, join together in the most perfect love and har mony, in singing the song of Moses and of the Lamb. It seems to me that the only Avay to go. through the world is just loving, and in the deepest humility, conscious of our OAvn weakness, making allowances for everybody. Her married life had hitherto been un clouded ; but in the summer of this year, 1850, she was called to resign a lovely in fant to the arms of her Saviour. While keenly feeling the blow, she clung with loving submission to the Hand that dealt it, and, trusting in her God for strength, was enabled to say, " It is well with the child." Ml. 30.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 55 In a letter to a relative she thus alludes to her loss : — Baltimore, 9 mo., 1850. Since I have had a child in heaven, it has seemed to me I was nearer to the glorified spirits. I can not tell Avhat an effect this bereavement has had upon me. There are times when my heart yearns so for my dear little babe, that it seems as if I could scarcely endure it ; but for the most part I feel the deepest and purest thank fulness that she is at rest ; that whatever I may have to struggle Avith. nothing can reach her. Sometimes I sink beneath it, but not often now, and I hope, that both through the joy and the sorrow, she may be the means of bringing me nearer to a state in which I may be fitted to re join her. It seems as if I almost forgot earth, Avith all its beauty and all its blessings, in think ing of those who have entered within the pearl gates, into that city where none shall say, " I am sick," where God Himself shall wipe away all tears from their eyes. With this prospect be fore us, surely we shall always be found " rejoic ing in hope, patient in tribulation ;" and if at 56 MEMOIROF [Mt 30. times a feeling of unworthiness so possesses our hearts, that we can not think an entrance into that kingdom can be permitted us; let us remember in faith, that it is not by works, but " according to His mercy He saveth us." Surely, if the Lord were pleased to destroy us, He would not have showed us the things we have heretofore been taught." A family resided in an alley in the rear of her residence, which had become the terror of the neighborhood from the vio lent and imperious temper of the mother, and the abandoned lives of her sons, two of whom were about being tried for arson and murder. The mind of Elizabeth T. King was drawn towards them, and, as might be expected, from the natural delicacy and timidity of her feelings, she shrank from the prospect of making them a visit. While hesitating under the concern, she stepped into a croAvded omnibus in the Mt. 30.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 57 lower part of the city, and as one after another of the passengers left it, she un expectedly found herself riding alone with this woman. She felt no openness to re lieve her mind then, but had a confirma tion of her first impressions of duty, to visit her in her own house. On parting from her, however, she af fectionately commended her to a Saviour's love, to which the woman made no reply, but looked at her with wild surprise as though it were a new message. The visit was paid next day, and the woman's respectful and interested manner' showed that the gentle loving spirit of our friend had won upon her heart. The oppor tunity was an open and relieving one, and we trust that He who had sent the message had prepared the heart to receive it. The woman was taken ill sometime af terwards, and lingered for six months ; 58 MEMOIROF [ML 30. but in this time she was mercifully fav ored to experience the forgiveness of her sins. A new heart, was given her, and she died in the Christian's hope and trust. 12 mo. 8th, 1850. — The recurrence of the birth-day of her oldest daughter : — ¦ I have been feeling very seriously on this occasion our great responsibility and the con stant need of watching, not only over the chil dren, but also over ourselves, that no unfaith fulness in any way should so dim our spiritual sight, or Aveaken our strength, as that in the time of future need we should be unable to see or to follow the course Avhich would be most for their good. There is a great deal in this, faith fully to do the present duty, little or great, that Ave may have light and strength for the rest; and oh, how important does this seem, when we have to guide and influence others who are dearer than ourselves ! To a young friend on the eve of mar riage: — ¦ Mt 30.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 59 Baltimore, 12mo., 1850. I know from experience that thy thoughts must often be very serious in looking forward to such an important event as marriage. Even un der the happiest circumstances, and where the most perfect confidence exists, Avith reason, on both sides, still there are many moments when the heart, feeling its own weakness, boAvs in deep humility before the Source of Strength, asking for light to see, and ability to perform, all the duties which belong to the new and im portant station. I look to thee, knowing the in fluence thou wilt possess over thy husband, in the earnest hope that thou Avilt use that influence for his good ; that so you may go on together, earning and receiving the blessing which mak eth truly rich, and unto Avhich no sorroAV is added. Far be it from me to prescribe any particu lar course of conduct. I am only desirous that you may obey all the intimations of duty which are made manifest in the secrets of your own hearts, however little or however great they may be ; and my only reason for desiring this 60 MEMOIROF f^Et. 30. is, that the peace of God which passeth all un derstanding may be added to the other blessings Avhich in the richness of His mercy He is shower ing upon you, for, without this crown, the others lose their sweetest enjoyments. I speak that I do know, Avhen I assure you, that the truest, the deepest, the most devoted affection given and received, will fail to satisfy the whole thirst of the soul, unless this is also added. I believe you are both attached to the prin ciples of our religious Society, although you may not be fully prepared to unite Avith, or at least to practice upon some of its peculiar vieAVS. May I say, that while I believe I feel the most un limited charity towards all religious denomi nations, and heartily rejoice in the full convic tion that many from them all will join the " in numerable company," in which I trust we also may some day be found ; I have a decided be lief that our own views, in all their strictness and purity, are the most conducive to the high est spiritual attainments, to the truest spiritual comfort and peace. At. 30.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 61 To one of her sisters : — Baltimore, 4 mo., 1851. I have been out riding to-day, and the beauty of the opening spring really exhilarated my spirits. The buds are unfolding, the wil lows are quite green, the grass is bright, and there are even some simple flowers among it. I thought Iioav marvelous must be the loving- kindness of Him who could lavish such beauty around us. If only our necessary wants had been pro vided for, it would have been enough to excite our gratitude ; but think of the means provided for our enjoyment also. In the summer of 1851 she was again called upon to part with an infant daugh ter. This bereavement was keenly felt; but with quiet submission she could say, " It is the Lord ; let Him do as it seemeth Him good." She thus speaks of this trial to a very dear friend: — 62 MEMOIROF [At. 30. Baltimore, 6 mo., 20th, 1851. * * * I must very briefly give thee an account of our situation, knowing that thy ready feeling and sympathy will fill up the outline. Words can scarcely describe my deep happiness, when lovely, perfect and apparently healthy, my darling babe was brought to me; but our Fa ther saw meet very soon to destroy these hopes, Avhich had almost become certainty, and, after a day and night of agonizing suspense, He took our darling to Himself. I, too, have been brought very low, even to the brink of the grave ; but He has raised me up, and very earnestly do I desire that this renewed chastisement may be the means of Aveaning us more from the world, and causing us to be wholly devoted to His service. Now, my beloved friend, I can not dwell longer upon this, neither is it needful. Thou wilt know what the suffering, the sorrow, the awfulness of the near prospect of eternity must have been. Thou wilt know Avhat we must have felt in our human weakness, and fhou Avilt know, too, what we desire, and I humbly trust, are, at At. 31.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 63 times, favored to feel, not only resignation, but acquiescence and thankfulness, in the undoubted belief that He doeth all things well. Mayst thou be permitted to intercede for me, that all His purposes concerning me may be fulfilled, that In no Avise may I fall short of His requirings. To a friend who had spoken rather com- plainingly of the ingratitude to be found in the world, she writes :— Baltimore, 12 mo, 1851. Over sensitiveness is only a pretty name for self-love and unsubdued pride, and Ave must learn to give, hoping for nothing again; to. be just as kind, just as thoughtful of the comfort of others as if we had a debt of gratitude to pay them. I believe that death must pass over all our natural feelings, even those which seem most pure and lovely, and, as we progress in the new life, that charity which "beareth," "hopeth," and " endureth all things," which " never faileth," will take the place of our easily Avounded and 64 MEMOIR OF [At. 31. discouraged earthly affections, and we shall more and more " dwell in love." Ah how beautiful such a state looks; shall I ever reach it ? But as I ask the question, the Avords of the Apostle spring up in my mind, " I thank God Avho give thus the victory, through Jesus Christ our Lord." So we are bound to be lieve, that by Avatching and striving, through faith and obedience, our sincere, earnest prayers will be answered, and the Lord will, according to His promise, perfect that which concerneth us. I dwell mostly in the valley of humiliation ; and, though it is often bitter and painful, yet at times I am permitted to feel that the dews fall gently there, and that it is a sweet abiding place. My great fear is of bringing reproach upon the cause, of being a stumbling-block in the Avay of others, and my petition is almost con stant, "Let not them that love Thy name be confounded because of me." Baltimore, 3 mo, 24th, 1852. Let us try to get ourselves into the right spirit, one of quiet seeking to do the will of our At 31.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 65 heavenly Father, neither of restless activity, nor selfish shrinking from exertion, and I have no doubt Ave shall be daily and hourly directed Avhere to go and what to do. Very often our infirmities will cause us to make humiliating mistakes, which will also work together for our good, in rooting out pride and selfishness. I do not mean that we should re quire special direction about little matters. But Avhen "the eye is single," the whole body will be full of light, and we shall realize the truth of the promise, "I will guide thee by mine eye." From her journal : — 5 mo., 17th. I am and have been much ex ercised to know how I can do good to others, there is so much that requires doing. Indolence and a love of pleasing interfere sadly with our usefulness. May I be always ready to hear the call, and obey it. I am also deeply exercised about my call to declare to others the unsearchable riches of Christ. Permit me, oh merciful Lord, to commit 6* fJ6 MEMOIROF [At 32. this to Thee ! Thou knowest I desire to be and to do all that Thou requirest ; Thou knowest my weakness and ignorance. I give it all up to Thy care, beseeching that Thou wilt work in me to will and to do of Thine own good pleasure, since I humbly believe there is no Avillful Avi:h- holding. It Avill be no cause of surprise to those Avho have thus far followed her course to learn, that though for a season she had been in heaviness, through manifold temp tations, He, who was preparing her for further usefulness in His Church, was now pleased to break her bonds. Not only did He give ability to perform His will, but also an abundant reward for faithfulness. This change is best described by her OAvn letters to a sister : — Baltimore, 8 mo, 20th, 1852. For many years I have had an impression on my mind that I should sometime be called to even more public service in the Church than At. 32.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 67 I have known hitherto ; and about a year and a half ago it seemed to me that the time had come. Every reason that could be urged against it, every caution, every fear and doubt, have been pre sented to my mind with great force. I Avas ready to say, and I did long say, Send by whom thou wilt send, but not by me. Still, thanks to the long-suffering kindness of our merciful Fa ther, seeing as I believe He did, that it Avas more through weakness than willfulness that I fell short of His requirings, He did not cease to strive until my will was subdued, my reason ings quieted, and I Avas made willing to give up all in the obedience of faith. Last Fourth day morning I had such a vision of the love and mer cy of the Father, and of' the preciousness of the Saviour, that I felt as if my will, even myself, Avas- entirely swalloAved up; and I covenanted that, let the bidding be Avhat it might, I would gladly do it. I did not expect the trial of obed ience Avould be so soon; for, when I Avent into meeting the next morning, I had no idea that any thing would be required of me. I had not, however, sat long, before a few words presented, 68 MEMOIROF [At. 32. with the conviction it would be right to express them. I only asked clearness, for the fear of man seemed taken away, and, with greater calm ness than I had supposed possible, I did speak. Since that time I have been very much pros trated ; but my mind has been kept in so much peace, that nothing has been difficult to bear. Yet it was a little thing to do for Him who had done so much for me ; neither could I have done it Avithout His power : it was all His work, yet He rewards it so sweetly ! In my great debility I have been folded like a Aveary child in the arms of Infinite Love and Compassion. I have realized the promise, " As one whom his mother comforteth, so will I comfort you." I can not, indeed I scarcely dare speak, of the blessed com munion Avith the Father, with which I have been favored, of the trust that I Avas indeed a child ; only that I would say to thee, Oh magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name toge ther. I know very Avell that I can not remain long on the mount. I knoAV that I must again take up my wilderness journey, and struggle with my infirmities of flesh and spirit, with out- At. 32.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 69 ward trial and inward temptation ; but the prom ise is, " My grace is sufficient for thee ;" " my God shall supply all your need, according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus."* To an intimate friend : — Baltimore, 9 mo, 12th, 1852 I knoAV, my dear , thou hast often travailed with and for me in the desire that all the Lord's requirings might be submitted to in faith ; therefore, I may ask thee to join Avith me in reverent thanksgiviog^to Him Avho has burst my bonds, and enabled me to make the sacrifice called for at my hands. To Him be the praise of His own Avork. But, my beloved friend, wilt thou join Avith me in humble and fervent peti tions, that He Avill be pleased to keep me, poor, weak child as I am, from errors on every hand — the snares and temptations that beset us — from going before or lagging behind the Divine Leader ? I have much to feel of the marvelous loving kindness and tender mercy of our compassionate * It may be well to remark that the religious Society of Friends believe that a call and qualification for the ministry is not confined to one sex. 70 MEMOIROF [At. 32. Lord ; but I am more engaged to consider the importance, and crave strength for the perform ance of present duties, than to feed on yester day's manna, sweet and precious and nqurishing as it was. Baltimore, 9 mo., 23d, 1852. We serve One who is the best of Masters, and He calls for no service which He does not give strength to perform ; therefore, all we have to do, is to lie prostrate before Him, in the confid ing trust that " He knoweth our frame," and rc- gardeth our low estate. Since we have only the duty of the present moment to think of and perform, without look ing back with unavailing regret, or forward with unavailing anxiety ; since we are commanded to bo careful for nothing, how quiet our minds should always be. If we can but feel, that how ever Aveak and unworthy Ave are, Ave can with humble sincerity adopt the language, " Whom have I in heaven but Thee, and there is none upon earth I desire besides Thee.' I am very jealous over myself, my dear , lest in seeking the precious sympathy of my friends, At. 32.] ELIZABETH T.KING. 71 self our potent tormentor and deceiver, should be fed. There is also danger of saying too much on these subjects, without sufficiently feeling the life to arise and accompany the words. I think we have seen a superficial tendency so prevalent as to render great care necessary not to " darken counsel by words without knowl edge." It is so necessary to keep little, low and simple, and this is difficult for the spirit of man, which would far rather spread out in the branch es than deepen in the root. May He Avhom we truly desire to serve Avatch over and guard us in every way, and perfect that which concerneth us, according to His gracious promise. a£ V # £- # i> But oh, my dear, what are we, what am I, trembling, helpless, frail, sinking to the earth, unless constantly upheld ? This humiliating sense of Aveakness is not un- frequently a snare to me ; but I trust I am be ginning to feel that it is not in our own strength we are called- upon to act. We must go forth when bidden, relying that He who sends us to 72 MEMOIROF [At. 32. the battle will furnish weapons, armor and abil ity out of His abundance. Truly we may adopt the language, ".How great is His mercy towards them that fear Him," blotting out our transgressions, sustaining our Aveakness, and proving Himself to be " the Fa ther of mercies, and God of all consolation." My heart seems to flow forth in this manner, though under a deep sense of my unworthiness of the least evidenca of this abiding love ; and I feel drawn towards thee, dear , in a sweet quietness of spirit. In this I trust we may mingle together be fore the Throne of Grace, Avhile at the same time the incense of adoration and praise may rise not unacceptably from our hearts, as a fitting tribute from one at least who has had much forgiven. Again recurring to the journal, the fol lowing entry occurs: — 9 mo., 30th, 1852. I want very much to be able to please our young people, that they may not be repelled by any dullness even — that I may At. 32] ELIZABETH T. KING. 73 so adorn the doctrine as to win them to better things. In this I trust it is not merely their affection I seek. I believe there is a better motive, but it requires great care, lest self-seeking should not only come in, but gain the ascendancy. Surely it is very desirable, placed in such a difficult position as we are, to maintain cheerful ness without levity, and to lead the conversation in mixed society to profitable things. It may not always be suitable to introduce serious or religious subjects, as, unless the latter is done in the right way and time, and under a little of the right authority, it disgusts instead of benefiting. The following tribute to her memory from one of her young friends, will shoAV that this desire was not without fruit. "Together with a knowledge of books, and an appreciation of the charms of literature, she pos sessed an intense love for the beautiful works of our heavenly Father, as displayed in nature. " A mind so constituted could not fail to attract 74 MEMOIROF [At. 32. the intelligent young people of her acquaintance, to whom she was easily accessible, and in whose welfare she took a lively interest. " But what was most remarkable, as well as most valuable, in her intercourse with her younger friends, was the deep religious feeling, the ever present sense of religious obligation, which har monized her own thoughts and feelings, and was impressed deeply upon all those who had the pleasure of her intimate acquaintance, both by the silent influence of example, and the gentle voice of affectionate precept." The sentiment which pervades the pre ceding extract was one which greatly in fluenced her in society. To remarkable quickness of parts, she united a simplicity of manner, which was the natural expres sion of her artless and ingenuous character. A stranger would be impressed by the ease with which she placed herself by the side of the younger members of the social circle, and the gentle vivacity with which At. 32.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 75 she entered into the conversation, wholly unconscious of superiority, and of the sweet influence she was shedding around her. 10 mo., 1st, 1852. Yesterday I felt called upon to speak a few Avords in meeting. The struggle was great, from the fear that it was in my own will and imagination. But I earnestly desired to be kept from reasoning, and appealing to the Searcher of Hearts to show me if I was mistaken, I repeated a few words. After meet ing I was assailed by a temptation, of which I. Penington speaks, that I ought to know whether I had been right, in order to be able to distin guish again. This is a subtle insinuation, but it was shown me that I was not to trouble myself about it, but say, " Get thee behind me, Satan, my good Master will teach me in His own time." After a little rest, my mind settled into quiet peace, and has so continued ; nevertheless I can truly say, I abhor myseif, and feel the enemy without, and self within, are so continually tor- 76 MEMOIROF [At. 32. menting, that though there is a state into which they can not enter, they still annoy and distress. To a young friend : — Baltimore, 12 mo, 21st, 1852. I have had quite a siege Avith infirmities of various kinds, since Yearly Meeting. My hands were disabled for about a month, being poisoned from gathering autumn leaves, but I find, as I have frequently before done, that it is not the circumstances in which we are placed, but the spirit in which we meet them, that constitutes our comfort; and that this may be undisturbed, if we seek for and cherish a feeling of quiet submis sion, Avhatever may be the privations alloted us. It has very sorrowfully impressed my mind since I have been sick, how much strength and peace and comfort are lost from Avant of an un reserved dedication. Many feel a strong desire to do right, and make some, it may be many, sacrifices, but something is still kept back. The will is not yet entirely subdued, and they miss of the sweet and abundant peace with which He, who is a rich reward er of all who diligently seek At 32.] ELIZABETH T. .KING. 77 Him, fills the heart of His humble and obedient children. I have longed to plead with those that were near, and with those that were far off, to delay no longer — to fill themselves no longer with the miserable husks of earthly gratifications, but to turn with all their heart to the tender Father, the merciful Saviour, whose love has so long pursued them, and who is still waiting to be gracious. Words fail to express the marvel ous loving-kindness and tender mercy of our God even to the poorest and most unworthy of His creatures ; how can any loDger stand aloof? To a sister: — Baltimore, 1 mo, 5th, 1853. I can fully sympathize with thee in feeling, that mine enemies " are lively and they are strong," but I have lately had great comfort in another expression of the Psalmist, "Mine ad versaries are all before Thee." Not a temptation, not a besetment, not a weakness, but He sees, and He that is in us, is greater than he that is in the world. We appeal to Him in sincerity, that we do above all things desire to love and serve Him ; 7* 78 MEMOIROF [At. 32. let us have faith in His unutterable love and compassion, that He will in His own time, per fect that which concerneth us. Let us commit ourselves to Him in perfect trust, that the sins which we unwillingly commit are regarded by Him with a pitying eye ; that the fountain set open, is always ready for our cleansing, and that, being delivered from the bondage of corruption, we may rise to the glo rious liberty of the children of God. We are not to wait until, by painful effort, we have tried to make ourselves fit, but we are to come now, just as we are, just as the lepers, the sick, the blind, and helpless, came of old, and believe that His mercy is now extended, that His arm is now underneath for our support. I have sometimes such views of the matchless love and condescension of our heavenly Father, as are inexpressible. I so long that those who hold themselves aloof from His calls, and seek pleasure only in the Avorld, might come and see how good the Lord is, that my tears are often ready to fall in lament ing that they will persist in depriving themselves, At. 32.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 79 not only of happiness in the world to come, but in this also. To a sister : — Baltimore, 2 mo., 13th, 1853. I went to see the other day ; she is suffer ing keenly from her loss, but in submission. In the course of conversation, she said she had been made to feel very forcibly that to be any thing, Ave must be nothing. We can not be too strongly convinced of this, yet the lesson of nothingness is very difficult to learn. Even with good motives, with a strong desire to promote the Avelfare of others, we may sadly err by working in our own strength. The authority must always be, " Have not I com manded thee ?" As we are willing and obedient, the field of labor will open before us more widely, though it may not be just that in which we would pre fer to work. To one of her sisters : — 30 MEMOIR OF [At. 32. Baltimore, 3 mo., 1853. I had a letter from < • a day or two since. It seemed to fall like dew on the mown grass, I felt so Avithered and dry, the remembrance of his meek and quiet spirit, which truly seems careful for nothing, was quite refreshing. It was after an act of required obedience that I have felt thus stripped and poor, an evidence that the dealings of our wise and gracious Master are mysterious ; while the clay is not to say to him that fashioneth it: " What makest Thou?" No doubt if we are thoroughly purged, it must be by the spirit of j udgment, and the spirit of burning, and so the Avork is accomplished, let Him use the means He seeth meet. But we must remember, that the sun is always shining, however dark the clouds may be, and the power of our God, and the mercy of our Saviour are the same, even though in our weak ness we can not see them clearly. His blessed will be done in and by us ! Oh I that He may in His mercy qualifv us all in some degree to labor for the advancement of His cause, that through whatever self-denial or At. 32.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 81 suffering on our part, some poor wandering sheep may be brought into the fold of everlast ing peace. To a sister : — Baltimore, 5 mo, 11th, 185a It is the entire giving up that is Avanted, to bring us to the peace which would make up for every thing else, and which, from holding back, we may, indeed Ave do, fail in acquiring. I had to express something of this in meeting to-day, desiring that Ave may know the " God of peace to sanctify us wholly." My way is so wonderfully made in my great weakness, that it is marvelous to myself. " Did- any ever trust in the Lord and were confounded?" Oh, my dear, I desire to speak in the deepest reverence and humility, but also with the deepest gratitude for the help I have experienced, for the extension of so much mercy to me so unworthy. I have been reading one of the children's books, " Father Brighthopes." It is a very pretty one. One paragraph at the close, seemed to me to express a very enviable condition. "I am 82 MEMOIR OF [At. 32. going home. Our Father has given me my work to do, and it is almost done. Oh, would I could tell you how joyfully I shall put off corruption for incorruption, and exchange mortality for im mortality." I sometimes feel, when weary of the conflict and almost ready to faint by the way, what an unspeakable comfort it is to look for ward to the time when, through the merits of the Eedeemer, we may be permitted to join the company of those who have come out of great tribulation. To enter that city whose inhabi tants shall no more say, "I am sick;" where "there shall be no more death, neither sorrow nor crying, neither shall there be any more •pain;" but "the Lamb that is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and lead them unto living fountains of waters, and God Himself shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." To return to her journal : 5th mo., 16th, 1853. This morning it seems forcibly impressed upon my mind, that we must keep ourselves in a state of readiness to hear and obey every call to service, Avhich our Mas- At. 32.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 83 ter may vouchsafe. So much time, so many op portunities for usefulness, are lost, because we are busy here and there, and neglecting the one charge which is of the most importance. 24th. A feAV Avords presented in meeting this morning, and remembering former experience, I thought it was safest to utter them. I found peace, great peace, afterwards ; mainly I thought because I was willing and strengthened to speak so as to be heard. But ah, how subtle and hoAV powerful is the enemy ! As John Barclay says, " The approbation, the regard, the sympathy of such as love what is good, have required from me all thfe watchfulness, all the earnest desires for preservation, that I have been blessed with." The unity and kindness of friends, Avith the sense of peace and relief, were used by him, in conjunction Avith the Aveakness of nature, and the strength of self-love, to endeavor to exalt me, and I have been so buffeted with these in sinuations, that I have suffered greatly. The summer of this year was passed in New Bedford for the benefit of her health. 84 MEMOIROF [At. 33. The rest and refreshment of the country did not, however, render her forgetful of the great object of her life. The desire of her favorite Herbert was ever in her mind — " Oh that I were the orange tree, That busy plant, Then should I ever laden be, And never want Some fruit for Him that dresseth me." A pleasant evening walk terminated in a visit to one under some depression, and to whom E. T. K. felt drawn to offer a few words of encouragement, which even now live in the memory of her to whom they were addressed. To two of her friends at a distance, who were similarly circumstanced, the following letter was addressed : New Bedford, 8 mo, 15th, 1853 Mt Dear Friends, My mind has been turned to you to-dny with so much tender sympathy and interest, that I thought I should feel best satisfied to express it At. 33.] ELIZ A BET HT. KING. 85 to you, although I know myself to be so poor and weak that I can hardly believe that any thing I can say can be of any interest or value. I have desired, my dear friends, that both you and I may be favored to keep very near to our dear Saviour — daily, even hourly, waiting upon Him to know what He would have us to do, and then He will comfort us under every trial, strengthen us in all our weakness, and give a truer enjoyment of every blessing with Avhich we are favored through the unmerited mercy of our kind Father. I have thought a great deal of the blessedness of being thus daily taught — ¦ of being kept in His spirit who was ' meek and loAvly of heart ;' and I have believed that His love was peculiarly towards you, and that haAr- ing had experience in degree both of His guid ing and protecting care, He is waiting to be more and more gracious to you, as simple obedience to the dictates of His Holy Spirit is yielded, both in little things and great. I trust that the many sweet and precious promises in the Holy Scrip tures will be applied to you and realized in your experience, and that He who 'sticketh closer 86 MEMOIROF [At. 33. than a brother' will be a companion in hours of loneliness and a comforter in times of trial, as He Avill assuredly be to His obedient and de pendent children. May Ave then be favored to ' go on from strength to strength,' not satisfied with any thing but a total resignation of our wills and our affec tions — until every thought even ' is brought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,' for this is the only way that true peace and rest can be attained. With much tender affection and earnest de sires that Ave may ' grow in grace and in the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, ' I am very sincerely your friend. From her journal : — 8mo., 17th. Some self-abasement and con trition under a sense of my great unworthiness, Avhich I desire to record as a favor. I hope, Avhen speaking of my own great sinfulness, to separate it entirely from the sense of the pardon ing mercy of God in Christ Jesus which I be lieve is extended to me ; and I believe, too, that Xi. 33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 87 He is able to sanctify me wholly. ' Behold, I am the Lord, the God of the whole earth, is any thing too hard for me V Oh, my blessed Master, keep me very close to Thee. Let me not, through want of faith or submission, in any degree fall short of Thy re- quirings. I desire to commit my way wholly unto Thee, to be directed as Thou sees meet. The humble desire of my soul is that Thou wouldst enable me to labor for the promotion of Thy blessed cause. Enable me, if Thou seest meet, to win souls to Thee, to adorn the doctrine in all things. Oh send forth Thy light and Thy truth into the world, constrain the sons of men to leave lying vanities and come to Thee, in whom alone they can find peace. Oh, Father, Thou knowest the earnestness with which I crave entire purification, that the fruits of Thy Spirit maybe more manifest in ma, that I may be kept in implicit obedience to Thy will. Thou knoAvest that I am beset with infir mities, but Thy power is above all. Thou hast been pleased to open to me the riches of Thy mercy in Christ Jesus, and in that do I trust. 88 MEMOIR OF [At. 33. From this place she thus writes to her husband : New Bedford, 8 mo, 1853. With regard to my spiritual condition, I think I may humbly and thankfully say, that there seems to have been a little growth, in this, that I see my faults more clearly, which conduces to humility, and charity also. Not but that I sometimes slide from this, but I trust that in general I have more love, though my soul has been so often pained Avith a liberty Avhich seems not of the truth, that I am afraid I let in a judging spirit. I had such an impression made on my mind the other evening, during the children's reading, by this text, that I think I Avill tell thee. '' And he did not many mighty works there because of their unbelief." No doubt there would be much more done for us, if we would but follow the in junction " Be not afraid, only believe." r May Ave be favored to go on " from faith to faith," from " strength to strength," until Ave ob tain the stature of a perfect man in Christ Jesus. At. 33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 89 But oh, how deeply and painfully I feel, that there are so many, Avho for want of a single eye and a simple faith, are falling short of the requi sitions, which would conduce to their own peace as well as usefulness. To the same : — New Bedford, 8 mo., 20th, 1853. This afternoon we went down to the funeral of Uncle A.'s child. It Avas altogether a comfort ing time. After had spoken beautifully, in allusion to the little one thus early taken from the storms of life, I added a few words to this effect, that I had felt such a firm conviction that it was out of the very abundance of the loving kindness and tender mercy of our heav enly Father, that He chasteneth His children, that I desired that all of us, who had been privi leged to partake of His chastisement — and Avho has not drunk of the cup of sorrow ? — might be thereby drawn in closer bonds of love to Him, that none of His gracious purposes therein might be frustrated, for He doth not afflict Avillingly, nor grieve the children of men. The fear came 8* 90 MEMOIROF [At. 33. in like a flood after I had spoken, that perhaps I had only spoiled the effect of the previous communication, but as soon as we rose, this passed away, and a quiet feeling, as of resting my weary head on the Saviour's bosom, was granted. To the same : — New Bedford, 8 mo. 27th, 1853. I think I missed my way in meeting this morning. Very soon after we sat down, I was shown very clearly that a mistake was made by many, in understanding that the office of the Eedeemer, in saving us from sin, Avas that He saved us from the consequences and punishment of sin, instead of sin itself. It did not, at first, occur to me that this was for any one but myself, but it kept coming up before me, and just before meeting broke, it seemed that I ought to express it. This disturbed me a little, and I thought I would examine more closely Avhat was on my mind, for there is so much danger in venturing upon doctrinal points, especially the offices of the ' Saviour, and before my mind was fairly settled, At. 33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 91 meeting broke. I think I should have had a more comfortable day, if I had risked the expression, in a little more faith that the Master Avould, ac cording to His promise, be with my mouth, and teach me Avhat I should say ; but I hope to be forgiven, as the disobedience was not Avillful. I went to meeting feeling rather poorly, and so oppressed with a sense of my manifold in firmities, that I could not believe it possible I should have any thing for others, but only hoped I might be able to gather a little good for my self However, as we learn by what we suffer, I hope I shall be more prompt in future. As we came out of meeting, John E. Davis stopped me to say, that he had been thinking a great deal about the first sermon his grandfather preached, "Disobedience makes a long wilderness journey, but faithfulness cuts it short." To the same : — New Bedford, 9 mo. 3d, 1853. This morning, in meeting, the concern I had last First Day seemed unexpectedly to revive, 92 MEMOIR OF [At. 33. though I thought I should distrust it, if it did, and think it was merely my own work. How ever, it seemed safest to express it — as nearly as I remember in this way : " It appeared to me there was an error committed by many in dwell ing too exclusively on the office of the Saviour in saving them from the consequences and pun ishment of sin, rather than from sin itself — whereas He is not only our atoning sacrifice, our Mediator and Intercessor Avith the Father, but by the operation of the Holy Spirit in our hearts, He purifies them and makes them fit temples for Himself to dwell in. But He can not have fellowship Avith unrighteousness, there fore He can not dwell in our hearts, although He may visit them by His love, unless they are made pure, 'even as He is pure.' I have desired, dear friends, that Ave may none of us stop short of entire conformity to the Divine will, that we may realize this blessed experience, that He may come in and make His abode with us." It vvas truly in weakness and in fear and in much trembling, that I uttered these few words, and it shook my bodily frame so that after meet- At. 33.] ELIZABETH T. "KING. 93 ing, which soon closed, I could scarcely stand, but my mind was covered with a degree of that sweet peace which is worth any sacrifice to ob tain. Is it not marvelous how kindly I an; dealt with ? New York, 9 mo. 14th, 1853. It is quite late, my dear husband, and I have no very satisfactory materials for writing, but I Avanted so much to make thee a sharer in the SAveet feelings of gratitude I have had to-day for our preservation every way, that I could not re frain from a few words of communion with thee. I feel so satisfied Avith our situation, that it was best to go, and best now to return, and on look ing back I can truly say that the assurance given the morning I left home, " Behold the Lord thy God i3 with thee whithersoever thou goest" has been fully realized; I have had so much experience of His love, not only in His sensible presence, but also in the withdrawal of it — so that not only the fatness of the earth but the dew of heaven has been my portion — I say this in reverent thankfulness, and now I do 94 MEMOIROF [At. 33. earnestly crave that we may follow on to know the Lord yet more and more, and I believe the injunction to us is, in the midst of our Aveakness and infirmities, " Trust ye in the Lord forever, for in the Lord Jehovah is everlasting strength." So I trust we may be favored to go on in the strength of the Lord God — for He can not fail us if we keep close to Him. Truly this evening my cup runneth over — and I ask, " What shall we render unto the Lord for all His benefits?" Oh, my dearest, what an unspeakable favor to have this feeling of peace after this visit, instead of condemnation, for although I have nothing to speak of but infirmities, it is such a mercy to have been kept — to feel that even the sins I may have committed have gone beforehand to judg ment, that they have not been Avillful, that they have not been persisted in, and humbly to trust that they are forgiven, washed away in the blood of the Lamb. The accident on the Sound steamer last week, made us a little thoughtful, but on lying doAvn greatly fatigued, and having gone through so much excitement that I feared I could not arrive At 33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 95 at any quiet of body or mind, these words seemed given as my portion, "I will both lay me down in peace and sleep, for Thou, Lord, only, makest me dwell in safety." I can not ex press to thee, my dearest husband, my feelings of gratitude for this most unexpected boon of sweet peace. I have gone on my way in such weakness and trembling, feeling my own noth ingness so much, that now to be blessed in this manner, seems an unutterable favor. I hope I have not seemed to Avish to display my treasures — they are not mine, but His who can, and who no doubt will, resume them, for we are not to be trusted long with such — but I want thee to unite with me in thanksgiving, and in earnest seeking to know and to do more entirely the will of Him, who has blessed us more abundantly than we can ask or think. A letter to one of her sisters : — Baltimore, 11 mo., 2'7th, 1853. I had a view to-day of the nature of the prayer of faith, which was very instructive to me. It was shown me that we do injustice to the charac- 95 MEMOIR OF [At. 33. ter of the Father of mercies, by the doubting manner in which we prefer our petition — that He is far more ready to give us good gifts than we are to ask for them. He loved us before we loved Him, while we were yet in sin; how much more will He love us when we are earnestly de siring to forsake it, and turn unto Him with full purpose of heart. Since we can truly say that we desire neither outward comforts nor inward consolations, but only that we may perfect holi ness in His fear, we are bound to believe we have the petitions we desire of Him, and to come to Him in faith, nothing doubting. On the opening of the new year she thus writes to a friend who was laboring under discouragements : Baltimore, 1 mo., 1st, 1854. I did not have an opportunity, my dear friend, of fully telling thee all I would like this evening, and think I will use this means,, hoping that I shall not darken counsel by words without knowledge. In reverent humility, and with a deep con- At. 33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 97 sciousness of entire unworthiness of the least of the Lord's mercies, I may acknowledge that this has been a day to me of peculiar enjoyment, a feast of fat things, an experience of joy in believing, with which I am not often privileged, not being worthy to be trusted with such treasures. Yet with all this, there is a deep feeling of self-abased- ness and a sense of the necessity of pressing for ward, and of the baptisms which are needed for purification and refinement. But under this abounding feeling of the mercy and goodness of our heavenly Father, how dare I doubt that He who has, I humbly trust, begun a good work in us, is able to carry it on to His own praise ? Dear friend, we must not limit the Holy One of Israel. He is able to keep that which Ave have committed unto Him — let us not therefore do injustice to His love or His power by our distrust. I have a very strong tendency to discouragement natu rally, and for the most part can scarcely keep my head above the billows — but I have lately had such a view of the efficacy and the necessity of faith, that I have not dared to let go my hold — may I not hope that this was given in some 9 98 MEMOIR OF [At. 33. measure for thy eucouragement also? I can not express to thee the power with which it was sealed upon my own mind. I know the state of things is very sorrowful among us — the suffering I endure at times is little short of agony on that account — but let us have " long patience ;" surely, I often think, if i" am borne with, there is no cause for discourage ment on account of any. But, my dear friend, let us, in this also, cast our care upon the Lord, patiently bearing whatever portion of sufferings He sees meet to call us to fill up for His body's sake, which is the Church, but not giving way to unprofitable discouragements. Our own faith fulness is all Avith which we have to do, and it may be that He may condescend to bless that to the advantage of others, though I feel it an at tainment almost beyond my reach, if I may be kept from doing them harm. I hope in what I have said I have not been presumptuous in arro gating any thing to myself, for truly I abhor myself, and have nothing to glory in but my many and abounding infirmities. But I have had such a view to-day of the preciousness and At.33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 99 all-sufficiency of the Saviour, that I have been glad to be nothing, and feel that both for myself and others I can "praise Him for all that is past, and trust Him for all that is to come." After a visit from Josiah Forster, John Candler, and Wm. Holmes, on their return from Tennessee, where the remains of their beloved partner in the work and service of the Lord, Wm. Forster, had been laid, she thus writes to a dear friend : — Baltimore, 3 mo, 1st, 1854. Thou may imagine it was a treat to us to have the English Friends with us. Sorrowfully as all were bowed down under the feeling of the great loss they and the Church have sustained, still the abounding consolation was also present, first, that it was His will who doeth all things well, and then, that the beloved companion and venerated father in Israel, is at rest, where he will " ever be with the Lord." To me there is such triumphant joy, when such are called home, that the sound of weeping seems lost in the burst of angelic welcome. 100 MEMOIR OF [At. 33. Now may He who called and qualified this faithful laborer, grant that more such may be sent forth into His harvest, that even a double portion of the spirit of Elijah may rest upon Elisha, for truly our hearts almost sink within us at a view of the evils which appear to rage almost unchecked in the world. The prospect of a European war, and the movement towards the extension of slavery in this country, weigh down my spirit with such sorrow, that I sometimes feel as if I could scarcely endure it. I am afraid I suffer more than is consistent with perfect acquiescence in the will of Him who sees the end from the beginning, and who can so control it as to make the wrath of man praise Him. But when I think of the misery, the de vastation, the sin, the souls that will be hurried unprepared into eternity, the evil passions that will be fostered and strengthened, how can I feel any thing but the deepest sorrow ? In the spring of this year, in company with H. B., C. F., M. C. and her husband, At.33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 101 husband, she visited some distant meetings in the mountainous district of Pennsyl vania, in fulfilment of an appointment by the Yearly Meeting, and was absent about two weeks. This service was performed to the satisfaction of her friends and to her own peace. She thus alludes to it : * * * I had some service with the young in meeting, and also in private afterwards, and do not feel condemnation either for giving or with holding, though I am humblingly conscious that imperfection clings to us, or rather to me, always. On reaching home, found all well, according to the promise which, I reverently believe, was given me the morn I left, and which supported me through the great fatigue and apparent dan ger of our rough journey : " There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling." Oh, how tenderly condescending is our gracious Master to us in our infirmities, for not only was the promise given, but faith given to trust in it. q-» 102 MEMOIR OF [At.-33. One small meeting, situated in the Alle ghany Mountains, was considered too dis tant and too inaccessible for the committee to reach at that season of the year. All- the others had been visited, and after her return home, feeling a deep interest in that little company, she felt constrained to send them the following letter. It was read in their meeting and afterwards in their sepa rate families, and was very acceptable to them. TO FRIENDS AT CLEARFIELD. Dear Friends, Although a stranger to you personally, I have been brought, I trust, under a measure of that Christian feeling which leads into deep and affec tionate interest for the welfare of all, and more particularly those Avho are seeking to serve the Lord, tenderly to sympathize with you in being deprived of the privileges which those enjoy who are members of larger meetings. Still, beloved friends, I have felt comfort for you and for us in At. 33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 103 remembering the words of the apostle: "Ye need not that any man teach you, for the same anointing teacheth you all things, and is truth and no lie ; and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in Him." The declaration of the prophet, also, " All thy children shall be taught of the Lord," is a'great consolation to those who are often deprived of outward ministration ; for what can be more, beloved friends, than His teachings ? The most favored instruments can only communicate what He gives them, and there is no reason to believe that He, whose tender mercies are over all His works, will withhold His immediate teachings from those who, in humility and sincerity, are desiring to serve Him. I have, therefore, beloved friends, in the tenderest Christian love, craved for you, as Avell as for ourselves, that we may be very careful to mind these teachings, to keep very close to Him who will guide us into all truth, who will show us what we must do and what we must leave undone, with unmistakable clearness, if we are only obedient to the light which He 104 MEMOIR OF [At. 33. gives us ; for disobedience always brings dark ness and bewilderment. Our Yearly meeting just closed has been a favored season, and we are encouraged to believe that our heavenly Father is watching over us for good. Concern has been expressed that we should be very careful in training our beloved children to feel that the " one thing needful" is of the first importance ; that we should be diligent ourselves in reading the Holy Scriptures, and encourag ing them in the practice of it; and retiring daily to wait upon the Lord for strength to perform our various duties ; and that we should be par ticularly careful, as far as possible, to educate them in a guarded manner, so that they will not be exposed to the temptations of mixed schools. The importance of being diligent in the attend ance of our religious meetings was also dwelt upon, believing that we should find strength and comfort herein, even when the duty was per formed under difficulty and discouragement. I can not express, dear friends, how very near you have been brought to my best feelings, and hoAV earnestly I have craved that He who, in At.33.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 105 His marvellous and unbounded love, " spared not His own Son, but freely delivered Him up for us all," may, in His mercy, " Avith Him also freely give you all things," grant you strength to walk acceptably before Him, that your light may so shine before men, "that others, seeing your good works, may be led to glorify Him ;" and, finally, having faithfully served Him in your generation, grant that " an entrance may be min istered unto you abundantly into the everlasting kingdom of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ." In tender Christian love and sympathy, I am truly your friend. From her journal : — 5 mo., 8th. I have been shown how, in my very efforts to do right, self tried to gain the ascendancy, and did in some measure succeed, and that when ability was given me, instead of ascribing it all to the Giver, I did, in degree, adorn myself with the Lord's jewels. This was in social intercourse. I have been brought under condemnation for it, and desire to be kept little and low. 106 MEMOIR OF [At.33. While on a visit from home, she thus writes to her husband : , 6 mo. 1854. I had scarcely taken my seat in meeting this morning, before an exercise seemed to come upon me, mainly on behalf of the wanderers who were seeking rest and finding none, and as soon as the meeting was quiet, I ventured to suppli cate for them, as well as for those who were striving to serve the Lord, that their feet might be kept from falling. I never felt the fear of man so taken away, as if love to their souls cast it out entirely ; and it was not so much in the cross to appear, as in the constraining power of the Spirit : " I was weary with forbearing, and I could not stay." After ward, ¦ spoke at some length from the text, " Come unto me all ye that labor," etc., and ¦ followed, turning the attention of these to the Light within, so that there seemed to be a re markable unanimity of exercise. * * * I have had great cause for thank fulness since being here; every thing seems to have been ordered right. More than all, I feel At. 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 107 quiet, conscious of abounding weakness, yet feel ing as if He, who " took our infirmities and bare our sicknesses," condescended to look down in pity on His feeble child. I Avant to be kept in humility but faithfulness, yet I am sometimes discouraged by thinking I am too much of a child in spiritual things, even to know what I ought to do. However, I trust that patient waiting, and quiet hoping, will bring me out right at last. Take good care of thyself, and remember we concluded to have for the motto in our neAv establishment, and in all our actions and plans, henceforth, " But one thing is needful." In the summer of this year, 1854, she removed to a pleasant home, a few miles distant from the city, where, in the enjoy ment of the varying charms of nature, she passed the remaining years of her life. It was her delight to ramble with her children, in the woods near the house, call ing their attention to the beautiful spring flowers, the little brook with its sparkling 108 MEMOIR OF [At 34. waters, the many-colored leaves of autumn, and the mosses of winter. All these she delighted to point out as tokens of the love and mercy of our heavenly Father, who has not only provided so many things for our need, but gives so many more for our enjoyment. The children were often summoned to accompany her to some small houses not far distant, occupied by poor colored families, to carry soup to a sick woman, or clothes to a little child, thus teaching them the pleasure of reliev ing the necessities of others. On the afternoon of First day, the children of these families* were invited to her house, and a company might be seen assembled round the table, listening with eager inter est to the wonderful stories of the Bible, and learning lessons, which seemed strange perhaps to them, of the love and mercy of their Saviour. Her daughters always had apart to per- At 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 109 form in the school, and it proved a pleasant hour to both teacher and pupils. She had the faculty of improving time to a remarkable degree, yet it Avas done so qui etly and systematically that nothing seemed to be an effort to her. She often quoted an expression of a dear aged father in the church, upon whose sympathy and expe rience she loved to lean, "I never was in a hurry." Truly a meek and quiet spirit,. and a loving, cheerful heart, were given to her, and all within her influence felt its charm. Having some leisure this year, she devoted a part of it to the study of German from a sense of religious duty, be lieving that it would be of service to her in mingling with that class of the popula tion. She accustomed herself to read the German Bible daily for several years, and often expressed her belief that, if her life were spared, she would be led to labor among that people. On one occasion, in 10 110 MEMOIR OF [At. 34. visiting the Almshouse with a minister — who had religious service with the inmates — a poor German met them at the close, and with much feeling, gave her to under stand that she did not comprehend what had been said. E. T. K. felt her heart warmed toward the woman; and, after a little silent waiting, text after text in German was given her, and she was able to relieve her own mind and comfort the poor woman. She said afterwards that this alone richly repaid her for the trouble of acquiring the language. Remembering the injunction, " Occupy till I come," she was careful to embrace openings for usefulness, however small they might seem. Watchful over her own spirit, and constantly depending on the Strong for strength, few were more fully qualified to comfort others with the comfort where with she herself had been comforted of God. Yet these acts were so quietly and At. 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. Ill unostentatiously performed, as often to be known only to the recipient. A note sent to one under an impression of duty, or a few words of counsel to another under temptation, not unfrequently made an im pression which will long remain. While thus careful, as she says to a friend, " to remember the injunction dear ¦ gave us, not to live too much to ourselves," she was very attentive to her domestic duties, and it was in the privacy of home that the beauty of her character was espe cially manifested. The education and training of her chil dren was, to her, a subject of great im portance, which she was unwilling to delegate to others. Their lessons were daily attended to, and while cultivating their minds, she was careful to embrace every opportunity for inculcating religious truths. Any manifestation of wrong feel ing was gently and tenderly rebuked, as 112 MEMOIR OF [At. 31. a source of unhappiness to them as well as to herself, but more than all as a sin against their heavenly Father, to whom they were taught to look as their Protector, cognizant of every action. With a view of instructing, as well as interesting them, she wrote some little tracts, drawn from incidents in their daily lives, which were intended to enforce the lessons she desired to teach. They were originally prepared only for her own chil dren, but were afterward published. She had also commenced a Child's His tory, in which she intended to present the history of various nations in a more moral point of view than is generally taken in such books. Her aspirations after faithful and entire dedication will be shown by the following lines, written by her about this time : I ask the rest that spirit knows, Whose will is wholly bowed to Thine ; At 34] ELIZABETH T.KING. 113 That quiet and serene repose That can its every wish resign. I want to labor faithfully Within Thy vineyard all my day, But guided only by Thine eye, Nor dare to choose my work or way. And yet whenever, in Thy love, Thou givest the command, " Be still," May I as joyfully prepare To suffer, as to do Thy will. I ask not comfort, joy, or peace, For self in these, oft makes her throne ; I only ask, Thou wilt not cease Until Thy work be wholly done. I can not rest until my heart Is purged from every taint of sin, And, through the blood of sprinkling, made Fit for Thyself to enter in. And well I know Thy changeless love Will all Thy loving children cheer, Whenever, on their thorny way, Their spirits droop from doubt or fear. AH this I trust to Thee alone, But leave me not, until there be On every action, word, and tone, The impress, Holiness to Thee. Extracts from a letter to an aunt : — 10* 114 MEMOIR OF (At 34. Baltimore, 8 mo., 1854. * * * I have felt that the first inquiry every morning should be, " Lord, what' wilt Thou have me to do ?" and to that, the first at tention, and prime of my strength, should be given, letting other things have their subordinate place, trusting that ability will be given for what is needful. Sometimes there seems to be an accumulation of necessary duties, but I believe it is the enemy who piles them up, and that the single eye Avould not see so many. A few days since, the questions seemed to come to me with much force and solemnity — What are we doing with our time, our talents, and our money ? Is every thing done to the glory of God, or to minister to our own pride and love of ease ? If not to His glory; what excuse have we ? Not of ignorance, surely, the written law without, and the Witness within, have taught us plainly. Not of want of ability, for that is promised, and will be given to all who seek it. We say we will throw ourselves upon the At 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 115 Mercy of God, but are we not abusing that mercy by continuing in those things against svhich His Spirit has a controversy ? I can not tell thee how these questions have Impressed me. To one of her sisters : — Baltimore, 9 mo., 1854. If we are only favored to keep in the right way and the right spirit, nothing will befall us which will not conduce to our advancement ; and this comfort always remains, that the foundation standeth sure. It has seemed to me, that many difficulties arise, in the first place, from leaving the indi vidual Avork, and if rightly improved they will drive us back to it ; while nothing will be per mitted to harm us if we are " followers of that which is good." There is a rest which remaineth for the people of God, which nothing shall disturb — the way may be long and weary, but sooner or later the end will be attained. We may disquiet ourselves too much about 116 MEMOIR OF [At 34. events we can not control, and the faults of others which we can not mend. Having done our duty, in humility and sincerity, there are many things which we must leave to Him who holdeth in His hand the hearts of the children of men, and can turn them as He will. 10 mo., 1854. My mind has been very much impressed with the duties we owe our servants, in watching for their souls, as they that must give an account. They are placed, by the providence of God, un der our care, that we may do them good, though this is not always so much by direct instruction, as by the influence of our daily lives and conver sation, and our prayers on their behalf. 11 mo., 28th, 1854. I have been very much impressed with the injunction to show piety at home. It is poor religion — is it not? — which can not bear little trials, and keep in a meek and quiet spirit under petty provocations and discouragements ! And yet how many fail ! How I do ! 12 mo., 1854. I quite agree with thee in thinking that some At 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 117 of these outside things must be cut off. Let those take them whose place it is, let every stone have its right place in the temple, but let us wait patiently and humbly for the great Master-builder to put us in the one we are to occupy. No mat ter if He seems to leave us comparatively useless for a long time, perhaps we want long chipping, and squaring, and polishing, before we are fit to be placed at all. Baltimore, 1 mo., 1855. I have suffered much from letting myself out into reading [naming some writings with which, in early life, she was much engrossed] which tends to rouse up the old inhabitants of the land, who promised to be servants and now want to take the mastery again. My dear, thou dost not know how hard it is for me to lay down this crown ; it is truly like parting with a right eye. Is it not sorrowful that it should be so hard to give up after long struggles, and when I really thought they Avere dead which sought the young child's life? Do let us try to be faithful and watchful, and beg earnestly for the precious fruits and gifts of the Spirit. We do have such 118 . MEMOIR OF [At. 34. answers to prayer when we are truly concerned, that we ought to be encouraged. I do riot think that I have ever asked that it has not been given, both spiritual and temporal blessing, but it is needful to get very low, to dwell in the spirit of true prayer." It must not be understood that she was opposed to mental cultivation, or consid ered the talents bestowed by our heavenly Father were not all to be improved. This was by no means the case, but it was her desire that every thing should be kept in its place, entirely subservient to the one thing needful. In a letter written in the early part of her religious experience, she thus makes the distinction : I like thy distinction between mental improve ment and mental excitement. It is the latter which is so fascinating, that I am growing afraid to trust myself in any degree to my former habits and pursuits. M. J. Graham says in her memoirs, At 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 119 "Study has been, to me, like the stuff of Achan, beneath which was concealed the accursed thing." It seems to me rather more of a snare than an assistance, to any who would be likely to pursue it " for its own sake," as some say it ought to be, just as if we had any right to pursue any earthly enjoyment " for its own sake." 1 mo., 1855. It seems to me that we are called to great watchfulness in our conduct toward all, avoid ing even the appearance of evil, and careful not to crush the least scruple in the little ones of the flock. We ought also to take heed that our speech be always " with grace, seasoned with salt," that it may minister grace to the hearers. To redeem the time, not only from our pleasures, but also from our lawful and necessary cares, which too often absorb so much of our time and attention as not to leave us ability for the service which our blessed Master would call us into. Thus, though the days are evil, if we dwell so near our dear Saviour, we shall be favored to make our 120 MEMOIR OF [At 34. refuge under the shadow of the Almighty, till these calamities are overpast. 2 mo., 19th, 1855. But we need not be discouraged : " He who hath helped us hitherto Will help us all our journey through ;" and this lesson of suffering, of nothingness, of poverty, and desertion, is no doubt our most profitable discipline. Is it not a comfort to take every cup directly from the hands of our tender Father, appealing to Him — "Thou knowest all things, Thou know est that I love Thee ?" I was shown yesterday that the word to those who were perhaps too anxiously inquiring — "Lord, what wilt Thou have me to do?" — was " Best in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him," and that in quietness and confidence should be their strength. That, however desirous they may be to journey forward, they must wait until the cloud is lifted from the tabernacle, and the word is given, and " Though it tarry, wait for it, be cause it will surely come, it will not tarry." At. 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 121 To a, dear friend : — Baltimore, 3 mo., 3d, 1855. I have been thinking much of thee of late, and I have a mind to beguile the tediousness of a heavy cold by writing a few lines. It is an advantage to be sick a little now and then ; it is a good time for ' taking an observation,' as the sailors say, and finding out where we are ; for sometimes those who are naturally inclined to crowd all sail and make as much headway as pos sible, find, when they are brought up in this way, that they are considerably out of their true course. I don't mean to write bitter things against myself, but I have been sorrowfully convinced that in what I thought necessary attention to home duties, my time and strength have been engrossed to a degree that I fear has interfered with my duty to others. It is a serious consideration how much good we miss of doing by our want of watchfulness for opportunities, and our engrossment even in our lawful and necessary cares ; and there is an other way, too, in the influence we might con tinually exert over all who come in contact with 11 122 MEMOIR OF [At. 34. us, and through them over others, to an extent of which we are probably not aware, if we con tinually kept in a meek and quiet spirit — if Ave continually showed that our conversation was in heaven. Ah, it may be with some of us that it is more for what we leave undone than for what we do, that we shall be called to an account. There is such a tendency to cling to the present, that it is very hard to remember constantly and practically that Ave are but strangers and pilgrims — that ' but one thing is needful,'' unless sometimes eternity is brought, as it were, face to face with us, as it has been within a few days past by the death of my beloved friend, P. C. T. I wish thou could see us in our pleasant home in the country. My health has been very good this Avinter. I do not think it has ever been bet ter. I have gained flesh and strength surpris ingly. The children have also been very well, and our darling little baby has been a perfect sunbeam to the household. She is now about five months old, so lovely, healthy, and happy, that I have had the most thorough and unalloyed enjoyment Avith her. At 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 123 I often sorrowfully feel the need of improve ment in every way, and while desiring it for myself, may I say, dear, that I have also been led to crave for thee that there may be a grovjth in grace, that we may be not almost, but alto gether what our good Master would have us to be — thoroughly redeemed from the spirit of the world, constant, watchful, humble seekers to know His will, and unflinching in our determi nation to do it in spite of the pleadings which our love of self, our love of ease, and our love of the world may urge against this thorough dedication of heart and soul to His service. From her journal : — 2 mo., 24th. Ah ! how carefully we have to keep our gar ments about us — our loins girded to keep them unspotted. To-day I endeavored to relieve my mind of a burden which has for some time been upon it — petitioning for some who were with holding, and for all, that we might be kept daily and hourly in such reverent fear, that neither walking in our own ways, nor seeking our own pleasures, nor speaking our own words, Ave might 124 MEMOIR OF [At 34. walk in a perfect Avay acceptably before the Lord, and be presented unblamable in holiness in His sight. After I took my seat I had a most over- Avhelming view of this state — the words coming to my mind, ' Every man that hath this hope in him purifieth himself even as He is pure ;" re membering that all things must become new, and all things of God ; connecting this with the om nipotence of our Divine Helper, the promises to supply all our need, the declaration, ' Behold, I am the Lord, the God of the whole earth, is any thing too hard for me ?' the efficacy of the prayer of faith, so that there is no escape from the con clusion that, so far as we fail, the fault is our own. 26th. One of our servants is going to leave us to-day — a poor, ignorant fellow, who has tried my patience greatly ; but I am much cast down under the conviction that I have not done my duty altogether to him. I have not taught, en couraged, kindly and faithfully reproved him. Be please'd to forgive me, 0 merciful Father ! and let not my brother's blood cry against me. Now another man is coming. Oh, Father^ I do humbly and earnestly beseech thee to help me perform my duty to him. Al. 34.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 125 To a sister : Baltimore, 3 mo., 20th, 1855. We must find out our own work. The only safe way for me, I find, is to Avait day by day, to have my work given me, and not be looking out too much, or even too anxiously, for something to do. It is surprising how, in this waiting state, the way opens sometimes, and how it is closed up at others ; but if I try to move in the dark I mostly stumble, so then I have to keep quiet. It is difficult to understand why, with the inclin ation and the apparent ability to do, Ave should ever be commanded to keep quiet, when there is so much to be done ; but our ignorance is the first lesson to be learned, and, alas! has to be often repeated. Prayer, however, is our great weapon ; we truly never ask aright for any thing which is not granted. Do not the repeated tidings of sickness and death among our friends, which have reached us lately, make thee feel very solemnly the un certainty of every thing, the unreality of this life ? As we grow older, one after another must drop aAvay, until we go too. How strange it is 11* 126 MEMOIR OF [At. 34. that we will persist in being so solicitous about the accommodations and enjoyments on this short journey ! From her journal : — 5 mo., 15th, 1855. I want to crave a blessing on my study of the Bible, that my eyes may be opened that I may behold Avondrous things out of the law of God, for I am deeply sensible that unless I am shown the true meaning by the Spirit which gave it forth, I can not perceive it. 8 mo., 30th. Our longing for holiness is some times a selfish, indolent Aveariaess of the conflict. If our wills Avere entirely subdued, we should be satisfied to remain in the furnace as long as our good Master sees fit, and endure the fight of temptations, which sometimes seems so terrible. Ah, we want faith, faith that our tender and omnipotent Father is able and willing at all times to help us. To her husband : — New York, 9 mo., 1855. I had a very delightful visit at Burlington. On First day we attended meeting, and afterward At 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 127 went to see Stephen Grellet, Avho was j ust able to come down stairs. He is extremely feeble, can not speak above a whisper, but in a most heavenly state of mind. I asked him how he felt. " Very feeble," he said, " but my good Master takes care of me ; I can trust Him ; He doeth all things well." After a Avhile, we fell into silence, and, although his. voice was so very weak, he addressed us at some length, encourag ing us to trust in the good Shepherd, who not only took care of the sheep, but the lambs — who taketh them in His arms, and carrieth in His bosom, and gently leads those who are under burdens and exercises, and when they have been wounded in their wanderings over the barren mountains and desolate places, He makes them to lie down by the still waters, and in the green pastures, and restores their souls. This testimony to the goodness and mercy of our compassionate Lord, from the aged saint who had had so long experience of them, was very impressive. Al together it was a visit which I think I shall never forget, and which I shall probably never repeat, he seemed so very feeble. I was received 128 MEMOIR OF [At. 35. everywhere with the greatest kindness, Avhich al ways surprises me, but it shows how Christian love and charity cover a multitude of sins. To one of her sisters : — Baltimore, 9 mo., 1855. I don't know what is to become of us as a Society ; it seems as if every thing which can be shaken is to be removed ; but it is an abiding comfort that all this — though it may, and indeed must, cause suffering — need not hinder the indi vidual work ; that the little* ones, and the weak ones are just as much cared for as ever by the great Shepherd, who still gathers the lambs in His arms, and carries them in His bosom. The power of the Almighty Father is still over all, and under the shadow of His wings we may make our refuge until these calamities be over past ; and the great comfort is, that it is because of our weakness and poverty, our utter helpless ness, that we may come ; not for our righteous ness, but for His great mercies, that we have the claim. At. 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 129 Baltimore, 11 mo, 20th, 1855. I feel quite well now, only it seems to me I am experiencing something of what a friend says, " That the vessels, after having been used, require purifying," which is not an operation pleasing to the love of ease and comfort natural to us. I am feeling very seriously this morning that while we have seen the disadvantage of formality and narrowness of spirit, which refuses to be introduced into that liberty which is the privilege of the reconciled children of our tender Father ; it is very needful to keep watch that the enemy does not lead us quite as far from the right path, though in a contrary direction, into self-indulg ence, and a liberty Avhich is not of the Truth. " No man that Avaxreth, entangleth himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please Him Avho hath chosen him to be a soldier," and yet a proper attention to our outward concerns is ne cessary, that Ave may not give occasion to the adversary to speak reproachfully. To a sister : — 130 MEMOIR OF [At. 35. Baltimore, 12 mo., 22d, 1855. My duties are very much contracted ; there is not much perplexity about them, but we well know that our work is what our Father gives us to do, not what we in our own wisdom may think needs attention. I have been led to consider the beauty of love and the necessity of it, and the folly and wickedness — though it may be unconsciously so — of going about finding fault with people, though we may cloak it under the appearance of a zeal for the truth and an abhorrence of sin. As if the government were upon our shoulders! I don't mean that we are not to feel grieved when things go wrong — sin must trouble us, if we view it rightly — but our grief should be without bitterness against the sinner. The time was now approaching in which He who had called and fitted her for His service, was pleased to say, "It is enough," and take her to Himself. During this winter her health gradually failed, and although those to whom she was so dear At. 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 131 fondly hoped that one so well qualified for usefulness in the militant church, would not be removed, her own impression was, that her days would be few. This feeling, far from causing sorroAV, seemed only to increase her desire to be in readiness to resign her stewardship, whenever the summons should come. She had, for more than a year past, been a member of the Ladies' Committee of the House of Refuge, and was much interested in this object, and earnest in her endeavors to benefit the inmates. She was exceedingly desirous of paying another — and, as it proved, a final — visit to this institution, but her health seemed unequal to the effort. A little increase of strength was however given, and this* act of duty was performed.* * The following extract from the Report of the Managers of that Institution, will show how her labors were appreciated: — " Our committee can not close this report without adverting to the sad bereavement we have met with in the death of Mrs. io.2 MEMOIR OF [At 35. She had occupied the position of Clerk to Baltimore Monthly Meeting of Women Friends many years, and for two years pre vious to this time, had acceptably served that Yearly Meeting in the same capacity. At the close of that held this year, she made the following minute : — * We are bound to acknowledge, in grateful humility, that our heavenly Father has been pleased to be very near us, since we have been gathered together, and our drooping spirits have been afresh encouraged to trust in Him at all times. Whilst we have cause humbly to acknowledge Elizabeth Taber King. She was one of the first selected by your Board, and in losing her, the House of Refuge met with no common loss. But God, in His wisdom, saw best to call her to a better sphere. She was taken from us, but we trust that the remembrance of her holy life, her usefulness, and the lovely graces of her Christian character, will remain with us as a guiding light, still shedding its sweet influences around us on earth, while it lifts our thoughts heavenward, to that happy refuge .f home, provided by God for those who love Him, where there is no sin, nor sorrow, no more pain, nor sickness, nor death." * Among "Friends" the men and women have separate meetings for the administration of the Discipline. At 35.J ELIZABETH T. KING. 133 that His Spirit has been at work amongst us, both immediately and instrumentally, we crave that the good desires which have been raised in our hearts, may not be suffered to pass aAvay without yielding fruit ; but that we may be in cited to greater and continued diligence in every good word or work, being solemnly impressed with the necessity of doing with our might, whatsoever our hands find to do, for the night comelh.* During this winter she experienced se vere bodily suffering at times, and deep mental conflicts were also permitted, but He whom she had chosen in youth, and to whom her health and strength had been devoted, did not forsake her. Remember- * Before the time of the next Yearly Meeting the hand which penned these lines, wa3 resting in the grave, and the gentle spirit was for ever at rest. In reference to this, the following minute was made by her successor. " The minutes of the past year were read, and we were there by reminded of the great loss we have sustained, in the removal of our dear friend. ' Being dead she yet speaketh ;' and may we heed the solemn injunction, ' Work while it is called to-day, for the night cometh wherein no man can work.' " 12 134 MEMOIR OF [At. 35. ing that we are but dust, He condescended to her weakness, and in seasons of depres sion, His arms bore her above the waves, that they might not overwhelm. Baltimore, 2 mo., 6th, 1856. I hope, my dear , thou wilt not feel sorry, if thou art surprised, at receiving a little mes senger from me, for I have been thinking of thee more particularly of late, with much tender and affectionate interest, and very earnest desires that thou mayest be strengthened to do the whole will of our heavenly Father, experiencing as the result of it, a portion of that peace which flows from this perfect acquiescence, and which is truly "not as the world giveth." I so often think of the remark of a Friend, that " Our Mas ter gives large wages for very poor service." Where all is offered up, it is so graciously ac cepted, even if, in our poverty, we can only bring " a pair of turtle-doves or two young pigeons." Do not think, my dear friend, that I speak, feel ing as if I am any thing, or know any thing of myself I am the veriest child — poor, weak and At 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 135 ignorant, inexpressibly so — but I can not refrain from bearing testimony to the power of that grace which, as it is submitted to, will cleanse, and teach, and strengthen, until " old things are clone aAvay, and all things become new and all things of God." I have been very feeble since thou wast here, and, until last First day, have not been able to attend meeting since Ave were there together. But I have had a good deal of quiet enjoyment, in spite of the physical suffering ; and have mostly been enabled to fix my eyes so entirely upon my numberless blessings as to lose sight of eYery thing else. " Oh, that men Avould praise the Lord for His goodness, and for His wonderful works to the children of men." I have had more time for reading than usual — in fact, rather more time than ability — and, among many other things, have re-read the life of Joseph John Gurney, which has seemed to me, more than ever before, a bright example of the Christian graces. His indefatigable industry, his entire dedication of himself, and all that he ¦had, to the service of his dear Master — his un- 136 MEMOIR OF [At. 35. failing charity and deep humility, mark him out as a most conspicuous ornament to his profession. I Avas much pleased Avith a remark of his to a friend in affliction : "I do not like any of the dispensations of our heavenly Father to be called severe," implying that they are all so tempered with mercy, that, being sent in love, severity is a harsh and unjust, term to apply to them. The touching humility, too, with which he always sought to derive spiritual benefit from the hum blest Christians, particularly from their ministry, is peculiarly worthy of imitation, especially now that there is such a critical tendency prevalent. I do not feel, my dear friend, that I can ex press as I wish all that I feel with regard to thee — but I do earnestly crave for us both, an entire and unreserved dedication of our all to the will and service of our blessed Master, that we may be favored to keep very close to Him, and folio w Him whithersoever He leadeth. I believe I have been brought into sympathy with what may have been at times the struggles and sorrows of thy spirit, and much desire that we may be At. 35.] ELIZABETH T. KIXG. 137 favored to yield that unreserved obedience Avhich will alone bring us peace. In much tender affection I am thy friend. * To one of her young friends : — Baltimore, 2 mo., 6th, 1856. I suppose I shall be an unexpected corres pondent, dear , but I hope not an unwel come one, as I have been thinking of thee lately with so much affectionate interest that I would like to give some expression to it. I have been very feeble this winter; and until last First day, have been able even to attend meeting but once in about tAvo months ; never theless I have had a very nice time at home; sometimes, but not often, feeling a little worn by the pressure of long-continued suffering and de bility, but mostly enabled to look on the bright side so entirely as to lose sight of any other. I have had rather more time for reading than ability, but have been looking over Macaulay's History a little, rather more for the fascination of his narratives than dependence upon either his faets or conclusions. Setting aside natural 12* 138 MEMOIR OF [At 35. preferences, I don't like his attacks on Friends. I think that — even if he disapproved of their doctrines, and in some instances of their actions, Avhich would be very natural — he might do justice to the purity of their lives, to their self- denying and heroic adherence to what they be lieved to be right, and to the high standard Avhich they raised in that dark time — a standard to which the Christian world, as it advances in purity and spirituality, is constantly coming nearer. I am not at all sectarian, but I do like to see a man capable of real, honest, earnest ap preciation of goodness, and of elevation of feeling and character, Avherever he meets it, and not going about with a Mephistopheles-sneer on his countenance, at every thing Avhich is at variance with policy and conventionalism. I have been quite interested in a little I have read of Mitchell's Lectures on Astronomy. The vastness of the field opened is quite startling. I like Mitchell's enthusiasm, too — I like any one to go heart and soul into whatever they under take. There is something, so ennobling in the study of all the works of the Creator, and then At 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 139 when we turn from the overwhelming views of the might, majesty, and power displayed in them, of which the utmost stretch of our intel- lect can not conceive — to the feeling that He is our Father — that He cares even for the sparrows — that He numbers the very hairs of our heads — how the soul is bowed in the deepest humilia tion, while it may be animated by the most per fect trust. I had such a sweet dream the other night. I thought I was at meeting, of which privilege I have been much deprived, and that an exhorta tion was given to trust in the Saviour at all times, to lean upon Him in all our hours of trial, concluding with the words, " and then shall we be enabled, in all truth and sincerity, to ac knowledge, that ' He doeth all things Avell.' " I can not express to thee the force and sweetness with which this dwelt upon my mind for a long time, and is constantly recurring. 1856. My Dear Friend, I do not know that a letter from me will be of any value, still, as a token of affectionate re- 140 MEMOIR OF [At 35. membrance, it may not be entirely unacceptable, though I may acknowledge that I feel too weak and too poor to be worthy of being remembered. It Avas a real trial to me that I was not able to see thee before thou left, but I Avas unexpectedly taken sick and have never been quite well since, though I have no disease now, and am only suf fering from great debility. I have, therefore, been much shut out from intercourse with my friends, Avhich I feel a good deal. However, I must not say any thing which seems in the least to breathe the language of complaint, for truly I have often been led to feel that my cup runneth over with blessings, and of late the feeling of my unworthiness of them has been particularly strong. In my quiet seclusion not only have my mercies been brought into view, but also my mistakes and missteppings, Avhich, though I believe they were not Avillful, might in a great measure, no doubt, have been avoided had I kept more close to my Guide and more low before Him, and therefore minister deep humiliation. While feeling a good deal discouraged this morning, depressed with a consciousness of the At 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 141 little progress I had made and the clinging of infirmity to every thing, I read in the accounts of the miracles of our Saviour the tender and ready mercy with which He helped all who came to Him — how He encouraged the fearful disciples in the storm with the words. ' Be of good cheer. It is I — be not' afraid,' and only required that they who would be healed should believe in Him. I thought, in reading the words ' accord ing to your faith be it unto you,' that it was not pleasing in His sight that we should sink down in discouragement, but, rather, casting ourselves on His mercy and trusting in it, press onward in our course, believing that He is still able and willing to succor them that are tempted. I hope all is Avell with thee, my dear friend, that thy health is good, and that thou art favored to dwell in the quiet habitation. It would be a great sat isfaction to us if we could hear from thee directly and knoAV hoAV it is with thee. Still, all the dis pensations of Divine Providence Ave know are in unerring wisdom and unfailing love, and we may safely trust ourselves and our friends to that. Wilt thou remember me Avhen it is well with 142 MEMOIR OF [At. 35. thee, with desires that I may be thoroughly cleansed and purified, that self may be of no reputation, and that instead of going on my way in so feeble and halting a manner, I may be made strong to labor — to do or to suffer accord ing to the will of our blessed Master? Very affectionately thy friend. To a friend on the death of her father : 3 mo., 12th, 1856. I am unable to come to you, having been in very feeble health for some time past, and now being completely disqualified for exertion ; but I have felt so much at hearing of the sorrows which have been permitted to come upon you, that I cannot refrain from expressing my ear nest and tender sympathy, and my sincere de sire that He Avho doth not willingly afflict His children, may prove Himself to be in truth the Father of mercies and the God of all consola tion. It is an abiding comfort which the Chris tian possesses, to be able in the deepest affliction to lean on the breast of the Beloved — to hear His voice in the storm saying, ' It is I — be not afraid.' It seems to me that I can in some meas- At. 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 143 ure feel how nature shrinks from the breaking of these tenderest of ties, and how keenly it will suffer ; but it is a continual comfort to know that He whose tender mercies are over all His works sees every pang that His children are called upon to endure, that not one escapes His notice and His pity. May your reliance be on Him alone. May He be with you in the furnace, strengthening, comforting, and encouraging you, and finally en abling you to make the acknowledgment that ' He hath done all things well.' I have never met with thy uncle's family, but if it would not be deemed intrusive I would like to convey to them a message of sincere sym pathy in the loss they have sustained. They have an abiding consolation in the knowledge, that ' the memory of the just is blessed.' I am, with the truest and most affectionate sympathy, thy friend. In a letter to a dear relative, written a short time before her death, she says ; I am in a continual state of wonder at the en- 144 MEMOIR OF [At 35. joyment and blessings which are heaped upon me. My eyes often fill with tears, at this feeling of the marvelous loving-kindness of our merciful Father. Sometimes, I fear, I do not sufficiently feel my own poverty, and lowness, and prone- ness to evil, but this vision of the loving and compassionate Saviour, ready to save to the utter most, all those who come to God by Him, seems to shut out every other view. Her watchful care over her own spirit still continued, as the following extract from her diary will show : 2 mo., 26th, 1856. I believe it is not safe for me to be trusted Avith health and strength, under some plea or other I am so apt to use them for my own purposes. Lately I have lost my hold on the pearl ; in my attempts to promote the comfort of my family, the quiet of my spirit has been disturbed. Some of this is doubtless OAving to physical weakness, but with every temptation, there is a Avay of escape ; there is never any need to sin. Another thing I have suffered loss from — enter- At 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 145 ing into the business of the day, without seeking to have my spirit quieted and directed. So many things press upon me, this is sometimes neglected ; shame to me that it should be so. Some things I must bear in mind : 1st, Always to seek this daily retirement, and earnestly search into my faults. 2d, To talk less, and carefully to weigh my words, so that they may minister grace to the hearer. Let me be careful, Avithout display or pretension, when I do speak, to do some good, if it is only to manifest kind feeling toward others. 3d, and this is of great impor tance, to watch carefully — now I am so weak — not to over fatigue myself, because then I can not contribute to the pleasure of others ; and a placid face and a gentle tone will make my family more happy than any thing else I can do for them. Our own will gets sadly into the perform ance of our duties sometimes. 4th, Almost above every thing else, to agonize for a loving spirit toward all. To a sister: — Baltimore, 2 mo., 1856. Last First day I went to meeting, a privilege 146 MEMOIR OF [At 35. I had not before enjoyed in two months. Much to my astonishment, I felt called upon to suppli cate for those who felt themselves only to be penitent sinners, to beseech that we might all be bound together, so as to know what it is to dwell in love, being so deeply penetrated with a sense of our own infirmities, that we might not dare to look on those of others with any other feeling than that of compassionate love. This was the last time she was able to attend meeting, and thus was her testi mony borne to the necessity of that " char ity which thinketh no evil," which she had so long endeavored to exemplify in her daily life. To one of her young friends she sent the following note : — Baltimore, 3 mo., 1st, 1856. Do not think me intrusive, dear , if I ven ture to tell thee that I have been thinking of thee for some days past with very tender and earnest solicitude for thy well-being in every At 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 147 Avay, and, particularly, that by implicit obedience to the dictates of the Holy Spirit in thy own heart, thou mayst become altogether Avhat thy tender Father, thy compassionate and loving Saviour would have thee to be, even thoroughly conformed to His precepts — thoroughly submis sive to His will in all things — thoroughly regen erated, so that neither the love of the world, nor of any thing in it, may draw thy mind away from His love — but that thy affections may truly be set on things above. I do fully acknowledge, dear ¦ , that I feel myself to be weaker than the weakest, and less than the least. I am humbled in the very dust, under a consciousness of falling very far short of the standard to which I desire and strive to attain ; but I have craved for thee, as for my own soul, that we may be found very diligent in waiting daily upon the Lord for light and strength, and be strictly obedient to what He shows us to be our duty in the smallest partic ular, and that, feeling, as we must, our utter in ability to do any good thing, we may seek most 148 MEMOIR OF [At 35. earnestly, most diligently, for the help which He Avill assuredly give. I can not express the tender love with which my mind is drawn out in these earnest desires for that which will secure not only thy eternal welfare, but promote thy happiness here ; for truly there can be no enjoyment on earth com parable to that which is vouchsafed to the obe dient children of our heavenly Father, who truly realize, amid all the trials which are insep arable from this life, that "in His presence is fullness of joy, and at His right hand there are pleasures for evermore." May we seek to experience this, dear ; may we be found constantly watching and wait ing to know His will, and constantly striving to fulfill i.t, that we may glorify Him here, and finally be received into His everlasting peace. And again to another, for whose best in terests she felt solicitous : — ¦ Baltimore, 3 mo., 16th, 1856. Thou hast been brought before my mind, I humbly trust, by the good Remembrancer, with At 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 149 very earnest desires that thou, and I, and all of us, may know what it is to experience a growth in the Truth — that we may in no degree slacken our diligence, but press forward until we attain that perfect stature in Christ Jesus, that thorough purification from the spirit of the world and the love of self which the holy Head of the Church requires of us, so that Ave may be heartily willing to become fools for His sake. In thinking of thee this morning, the injunc tion of the Apostle was brought to my mind, and perhaps I may revive it for thy encourage ment: '¦'Watch ye ; stand fast in the faith: quit you like men ; be strong." Very shortly before her decease she rode into the city, with some effort, to see her husband's only sister, to whom she was much attached, and spent the morning with her ; giving the most detailed direc tions as to the education of her three daughters in case she should be taken from them. Little did she then suppose 150 MEMOIR OF [At 35. that she to whom she was in some measure intrusting the care of her beloved offspring would, within a few weeks, also be called away in the bloom of life. The following is the last record in her sister's diary, and will show the feeling which subsisted be tween them. My heart bleeds at the sad record I here make of my beloved sister's death, which took place on First day last, the 23d inst., after giving birth to a son, who survived her but a Icav days. What else can we say but that " the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away ; blessed be the name of the Lord?" She sought the Lord who bought her with His own blood, and obeyed Him through life, doing even that from which her timid nature shrank. Her sweet, angelic countenance, even amidst in tense suffering, can never be forgotton ; and, oh ! may her example and all her excellent precepts be an incentive to me to walk in the same p"ath, and to mind the same things ; and in view of the uncertainty of my own life, may my thoughts At. 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 151 be so directed, and a preparation so made, that, come life or death, I may be fitted for the mes sage, and have no fears, but my mind be kept in perfect peace because it is stayed on Thee. The following is the last entry in her journal : — - 3 mo., 23d, 1856. I have an humble hope that the day is dawning, that the Sun of Righteous ness will arise, Avith healing ia His wings. Oh, to be kept little, and low, and loving, self kept out of sight, " made of no reputation ;" and to feel that love, Avhich has at times made hard things easy, and bitter things sweet, Avhen I have felt the everlasting Arms underneath. Is not the injunction now given, "Fear not, thou Avorm Jacob?" Enable me, I beseech Thee, dearest Father, to look solely at the blessings where with Thou hast blessed me so abundantly ; enable me to trust, that, as Thou carest for the sparrows, and feedest the ravens, Thou wilt also care for me ; and, oh ! enable me to bear, in pa tient and trusting submission, all Thou seest meet to lay upon me. 152 MEMOIR OF [At. 35. She was taken more unwell on the same day, but the suffering was soon re lieved, and all danger seemed to be over. On her husband going to her bedside, and expressing his thankfulness that she was doing so well, she shook her head, and told him that within the past hour she had seen heaven, "and what," she added, with a sweet smile, "if I tell thee, that I feel as if nothing can draw me back but thee and the children ?" She was very soon taken alarmingly ill, and continued to grow weaker until she gently breathed her last, while a solemn but sweet stillness pervaded the room, as if those who watched over her were per mitted to accompany the ransomed spirit to the entrance of the Haven of Rest. And now, having followed her through life, having seen her living desire to be conformed to ,her Master's will — her fer- yenpy of spirit, and diligence in perform- At 35.] ELIZABETH T. KING. 153 ing whatever was required — may we be en couraged to place our trust in the Lord, who supported her, and who will supply all the need of those who trust in Him. In conclusion, we will adopt her own words, in speaking of the death of Stephen Grellet :— I do sympathize with thee, and with all, in the great loss which has been sustained, but my mind has been so full of the unspeakably blessed and glorious change to our departed friend, that I have been scarcely able to bear the heavenly vision. No more change, no more sorrow for him ! — for ever with the Lord — satisfied on awak ing in His likeness — no longer beholding Him through the veil of fleshly infirmity, but " face to face" — free to mingle with the spirits of the just made perfect — no longer compelled to bear with the imperfections even of the good — no longer wounded with the sins or the sufferings of others — but at rest on the bosom of the Sa viour, where God himself shall wipe away all tears from his eyes. I was thinking of Chris- 154 MEMOIR, ETC. [At. 35. tian's passage over the river ; but what a con voy must have awaited the release of this puri fied spirit; — with what triumphant notes the golden harps must have welcomed his entrance into the Eternal City! Now let us seek to mourn him as he would wish to be lamented, by looking not at our loss, but at his gain — by seeking after that earnest dedication of which he Avas so bright an example, that we may be en abled, in our measure, to glorify Him who did such great things for our beloved friend, and is ready to grant us, also, the good gifts of His Holy Spirit, as Ave are concerned to seek them as earnestly, and employ them as faithfully, as was the case with him. THE END. YALE UNIVERSITY LIBRARY 3 9002 08866 2946 1 \ :,'!?' Siilli; iii;- . ' ¦¦ : i:lji| r|;: ¦; . . t.jvi':^:"' ' !i;|j: i .I,,':"'!; IjSljIiiJj./ijiljiiiilj ,, . ¦ 'iiii*:.,:1! lil'''i ' ' 1 1 ' i 1 1 1' ' t llHI)"' ' ''¦.•' . ",:'¦" "!' , ;|Hl||!l,;i.l'll|iln:'i:!!:l|i' ¦!¦ -'¦•' u:r iiii^,;1?l,!fi!liii:''t'i!lf'i iiiiiii^^iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiihiiiiiiiiii^