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The Masters Joy : the Servants Rexvtird,

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A SERMON
Occasioned by

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Rev. WILLIAM HEUDEBOURCK;
PREACHED AT
Bishop's Hull, near Taunton,
MARCH 29, 1812.
By JAMES SMALL, of AXMINSTER :
AND
AN ABBEESS,
DELIVERED at the INTERMENT, March 25, 1812.
By THOMAS GOLDING.
To which are also added,
Cjrtratts
From Mr. Heudebourck's Diary ;
Chiefly written when at the Academy.
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1812.

A Sermon.

MATTHEW XXV. 21.
 E^TER THOU INTO THE JOY OF
THY LORD.
JL HJS is not your rest."— Every thing around,
and within us, seems to bear an inscription of this
truth : or impressively to preach to us on this text.
rMarry painful events rapidly succeed each other ;
and in some of them, we are individually concerned.
The gospel, affords us the best supports, under our
temporal calamities. From this, we are informed
of blessings, which are found to be sovereign anti-
jdotes to them. We are enlightened with the beams
of immortality : they reach us, to point out the way,
to thepossession of that felicity, which is suited to
our rational natures. The servants of God ar.-e
assured, that, their light affliction, which is but for
a moment, worketh for them a far more exceeding
and eternal weight of glory.
The words of the text, are a part of a parable,
spoken by the blessed Saviour; wherein he seems
to represent himself, jas one intending to travel ;
who calls his servants, and commits to them his
goods: to, pne .five, to another two,, and to a third,

one talent. After a long time he returns, and calls
them to an account. " And so he that had received
five talents came and brought other five talents, say
ing, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me five talents :
behold, I have gained besides them five talents more.
His lord said unto him, Well done thou good and
faithful servant : thou hast been faithful over a few
things, I will make thee ruler over many things :
enter thou into the joy of thy lord." This parable
so naturally represents Christ, appointing to his
Servants their employment ; his reckoning with
them ; and fixing their reward, that it does not
seem necessary to adduce arguments, to prove the
propriety of the application. I shall attempt to set
forth I. Some properties of the heavenly state :
II. Direct your attention to its Proprietor and
Lord :
III. Point out the persons who may expect to be
admitted to it.
I. Some properties of the heavenly state.
1st. It is a state of light, uninterrupted by dark
ness. Light, and darkness, follow each other here, in
regular succession. This appointment, is, undoubted
ly, best adapted to our present circumstances. We
are naturally pleased with light ; and it enables us
to attend to our various occupations, with advan
tage. Natural darkness, though best adapted to a
state of rest, has a tendency to spread gloom over
the mind. In some circumstances, this is peculiarly
felt. The effects of pain, and depression, are in
creased by the silence, and darkness of the night.

Men of rapacious, and cruel minds, avail them
selves of thick, and overspreading shades, in order
to perpetrate their horrid deeds. The silence of the
night is frequently disturbed, b}r the violence of the
ruffian : and the murderer stalks through tepid
blood. The dangers of travelling, are increased by
darkness. While perplexed in our minds, with re
spect to the uncertainty of the way, we may fall into
snares, from which there is no escape.
How different are the ideas given us of the hea
venly state ! Of this we read, " And there shall be
no night there." No season of gloom : no state
of danger. No vicissitudes of day and night. But
how faint are our most raised conceptions of the
light, which irradiates that world ! The natural sun,
in his meridian splendour, can give but a faint re
presentation of that glory. The infinite Being, who
has lighted up ten thousand times ten thousand
suns, is, himself the fountain of light, to the inha
bitants of heaven : they bask in the beams of the
Sun of righteousness. " And the city had no need
of the sun, neither of the moon, to shine in it : for
the glory of God did lighten it, and the Lamb is
the light thereof." As heaven is a state of light,
uninterrupted by darkness ; — so,
2d. It is a state of knowledge, without any
shades of ignorance.
How imperfect is our knowledge in this world !
How soon are we checked in our researches ! How
little do we know of the works of God, in the visible,
creation ! We may know some of the properties of
matter ; but we cannot assign the reasons of its
diversified appearances. We cannot penetrate into,
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the" essences of things. A child, may frequently ask
questions, which the most acute philosopher cannot
answer. We may reason of magnitude and motion ;
of force, and its compositions ; of duration and ex
tension ; but how soon are we nonplused, if accurate
definitions be required.
How often do we see men of the greatest talents,
reasoning inconclusively ; and involved in inextri
cable difficulties, in the labyrinths of metaphysics !
We know that there is a certain union between
matter, and mind; that we have perceptions of ex
ternal objects ; but how this is effected, we know
not; and there is every reason to believe, that this
ignorance will remain, to check the pride of man,
in his succeeding generations, to the end of time.
If we are enveloped in darkness with respect to our
own minds; how exceedingly imperfect must be
our conceptions of the infinite, and eternal mind !
" Clouds and darkness are round about him." The
dispensations of the Almighty, are often exceedingly
mysterious. " Thy way is in the sea, and thy path
in the great waters, and thy footsteps are not
known." We cannot foresee events : We cannot be
secured against calamities : we cannot penetrate into
the designs of God. We must wait for the light of
the other world, to obtain satisfaction, as to many
things, in which we are much concerned.
" What thou knowest not now, thou shalt know
hereafter," said our Lord, to one of his inquisitive
disciples. Perhaps he meant, that this should apply
to others, beside the person, to whom it was first
addressed. We are justified in the expectation, of
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world. How different will be our views of divine
glories ! May we not suppose, that those works of
God, which are truly stupendous, will be contem
plated with a satisfaction, and pleasure, now un
known ? As there appears to be an infinite variety
in them, who can say what astonishment they will
excite ; and when this astonishment will subside ?'
Or rather, may there not be cause of increasing won
der to eternity?' What a period in duration will it'
take, to visit unnumbered suns, with all their attend
ing systems : to pass through countless ranks of-
pure intelligences ; to learn their individual history,
and all they know of God! *»
What unknown delight will arise, in the glorified
mind, from an explication of all the mysteries of
divine Providence ! When the internal parts of
that machine, shall be made conspicuous : when all
the intricacies shall be unravelled : and when every
obscure passage of that book, shall become legible !
How happy will it be to know practically, what
we would now believe, that if, like God's, our know
ledge ; like his, would have been our conduct !
This knowledge of divine things will be un
speakably gratifying ; but most of all, our acquain
tance with God himself. What views of his essential
glories 1 What impressions of his grandeur ! What
pleasing emotions from his grace ! In some measure,
to think worthily of him ; will, not only evince our
duty ; but also contribute to our bliss. How pleasing
the prospect of beholding Christ in his glory: the
glory which he had with the Father before the
world was ! We may expect to know much more
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and the love displayed, in the great work of redemp
tion. Something of that great mystery,God manifest
in the flesh. In what glory will the covenant of
redemption and grace appear ! How inexpressibly
precious the price of our ransom ! And when we take
into our consideration, the light which we shall re
ceive, respecting the person, and operations of the
Holy Spirit, we may conclude, that our knowledge
will be complete. — We may consider heaven,
3d. As a state of pleasure, without any mixture
of pain.
" And God shall wipe away all tears from their
eyes." Penitential tears: so many are our daily sins,
that there is new call for these rears. The ingra
titude which appears in the sins of good men, is
particularly distressing. How grievous is the thought
of offending him, from whom we have received so
many special benefits : so many gracious visits : so
many tokens of love ! Who has spared our lives
when they had been repeatedly forfeited ; and made
us heirs of eternal happiness : who has opened to us
stores of blessings, with invitations to come for large
supplies. Who has given us every reason to be satis
fied with his service ; and whose promises abound
with the greatest encouragement !
God will wipe away tears which are shed, on ac
count of our innumerable infirmities. Our want of
love ; the weakness of faith ; and our want of zeal
in his service. Our improper regard to the things
which are seen, and our little attention to those
which are unseen. Our indifference, our forma
lity, and especially the wanderings of our thoughts
in holy duties.

God will wipe away the tears which flow, from
our deep distress, when he hides his face from us :
When, in the pathetic strains of one, in ancient time,
we complain, " Behold, I go forward, but he is not
there ; and backward, but I cannot perceive him :
on the left hand, where he doth work, but I cannot
behold him : he hideth himself on the right hand,
that I cannot see him." Spiritual darkness is most
of all distressing, because it is accompanied with
an apprehension of God's anger : but this subject
of complaint shall cease, and remain unfelt for ever.
God will wipe away tears which flow, on account
of personal pains, and heavy afflictions. From the
distresses of those with whom we are nearly con
nected. From crossing dispensations of providence.
From the pernicious example of those who fear not
God. From the painful reflection that the Almighty
is so much dishonoured. From the unkindness of our
friends, and from the malice of our enemies.
As there will be nothing to distress ; so neither
can we think of any painful deficiencies, when we
shall be in possession of the chief good. No failure
of supplies for our wants as creatures. No deficiency
of taste to relish the most refined enjoyments. No
want of satisfaction as to our full security. No
deficiency as to companions, to take pleasure in our
gratifications. The positive pleasures of the heavenly state, ex
ceed the powers of description, and thought : we
are not forbidden, however, to try to discover some
what, of their sublime, and holy nature. How plea
sant will it be, to find every faculty, every passion,
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To have the understanding clearly enlightened ; and
the will in complete subjection to the standard of
rectitude ! To have a succession of the most noble
ideas, without the least irregularity ! Wliat .pleasure
must arise from the contemplation of the most ex
cellent objects-: and to be able to examine them,
with every. possible advantage ! To constitute happi
ness, there must, be full employment.for our intellec
tual powers : in yonder world, ^here is sufficient to
engage and to. entertain. Neither can there be- any
abatement, while there wUlJje.asuccessJQn.pf^snitr
able objects ; and dispositions,, and faculties,adapt;ed
to them* We may say of heaven,
4th, ( It. is a state p^ac/tivity, without weariness,
"There remaineth a. rest to the people of God."
Bu^twCrare by.no means to suppose it wiUbe a^tate
of j inactivity. It is a rest, that will- consist with
vigourous, exertions. ,If these cannot be easily ; re
conciled, at present, it does not follow that they
-are.irreconcileable. The rest,, spoken of above, is
a. keeping of sabbath. Hence we may form some
jutlgment-of it. Pious persons are well acquainted
with that sacred rest. In the worship of God the
hours pass pleasantly away. The mind is delightfully
engaged;;.. and thoughitfae a rest, no time-is better
employed, or will turn to a better .account.
The activity of spirits, exceeds our present con
ceptions. .The holy angels vie with each other, in
performing acts, of obedience to the eternal King.
What zeal ! What speed 1 What ardor ! And shall
not we vie with them, when we are freed from the
clogs of mortality? Here, " The Spirit is willing,;
fent the ilesh is weak." The bojdy.jgrows -weary,

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by the activity of the mind. But in heaven, these
hinderances are removed. No need there, of the
interposition of inactivity, to renew the strength,
for future labour.
Finally. Heaven is a state of friendship, without
the pain of parting.
Philosophers, and moralists, in all ages, have been
lavish in the praises of friendship. When this vir
tue is sincere, it merits the warmest commendations.
It appears greatly to the honour of our social nature.
Sanctified friendship, conduces much to the com
fort of good men, while here below. Those who
are united in the best bonds, are mutually assistant
to each other, in the best of causes ; and in the way
to the heavenly Canaan.
But while we are delighted with the nature, and
effects, of friendship ; we often see cause to lament
its imperfections. Misunderstandings arise ; mis
taken apprehensions are formed ; coolness succeeds
to warm attachment, and indifference chills the feel-
ingg of the soul. But if this should not be the case,
the pleasures of friendship, are liable to be inter
rupted from other causes. Separations take place ;
our friends may be removed to distant parts of the
globe ; we may have few opportunities of seeing
them, or of hearing from them. The advantages
we received, are, in a great measure, lost ; "while we
cannot attach blame, to the conduct of those we
esteem. The ties of nature, and of friendship, are liable to
be broken by the most painful event. Families,
•Which have lived in the greatest harmony, are
called to mourning, and lamentation. The head is"
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removed ; the cheerful and affectionate wife is left a
disconsolate widow ; the lovely offspring, no longer
know the caresses of a father. A gloom is spread
through the habitation, which was the abode of joy.
We offer to the shrine of friendship, many a tribu
tary tear ; and we find ourselves distressed, by our
irreparable loss.
In heaven, we expect a friendship, without any
painful alloys. No impurity of motive ; no sinister
views, to draw forth expressions of feigned regard.
No misapprehensions, no misconstructions of words,
or of conduct. No calumnious expressions ; no
dark insinuations, to interrupt the harmony of
friends. No painful removals to distant regions.
" Him that overcometh will I make a pillar in the
temple of my God, and he shall go no more out."
No separation by death. This enemy shall be de
stroyed ; for, " Christ must reign, till he hath put
all enemies under his feet, and the last enemy which
shall be destroyed is death." Sin being removed,
its consequences shall also be taken away. Life
shall be enjoyed in perfection. The vital principle
shall be much more strong and vigorous than at
present. It shall not fail from any tendency to
decay; nor from external causes. It is the glo
rious prerogative of God, to give immortality to his
creatures : his infinite goodness leads him to this ;
and who shall counteract him, in accomplishing his
purposes ? If the future life be guarded from all
tendency to dissolution : and if the Lord of life,
wills its continuance ; then we shall not have the
painful apprehension of separation ; nor any thing
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Having attended to some properties, of the hea
venly state : I am
II. To direct your attention, to its proprietor
and Lord.
" Enter thou into the joy of thy Lord." The
heavenly state,
1st. Is prepared by the Lord.
To whom can we look to fill and felicitate our
immortal spirits, but to him, who has given them
existence? None, beside himself, knows what is
most suitable to our rational natures. He, alone,
can take the best methods for the communication
of happiness. The most exalted of created beings,
would find his powers nonplused with the task, of
making one soul completely happy. If he had fixed
on the means, he would fail in the application. It
remains with God to administer happiness to the
millions of the heavenly inhabitants. What he has
done for angelical intelligences, directs us to the
same inexhaustible fountain.
We find that God, as the sovereign disposer of
his creatures, has designed to raise multitudes to
the heavenly world. Hence the Apostle Paul says,
". Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus
Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual.
blessings in .heavenly places in Christ." We see
here, the grand designs of saving-mercy. Though.
the Most High knew we should render ourselves
unworthy of the least favour, he was pleased to grant
an inheritance so unspeakably valuable. He took
into the consideration of his all-comprehensive mind
the plan, which would be most suitable to his dig
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boundless goodness. He determined to convey a
grant, which should be productive of his greatest
honour; while it secures, at the same time, the
supreme felicity of man. Every component part of .
the scheme, received the most necessary, and wise
attention. The chain of events, since the com
mencement of time, has been directed to this grand
object. Every occurrence, however trivial, in ap
pearance, is big with important consequences. As
every cause, every circumstance, and every effect
must have been present from eternity, to the divine
Mind ; so the Lord had respect to the works of his
hands; and was pleased with the view of their future
glory. We may here direct our. attention, to the conduct
of the Son of God ; and consider, how the divine
purposes, centre in him. He is the Covenant Head,
and representative of his people* Heaven was, de
signed for them, as. they stand in connexion with
him. As works of the greatest importance were to
be done ; and extreme sufferings, to be endured ;
and as none but Jesus was suitable for, and equal to
the undertaking ; so we find him discovering the
greatness of his love, in entering into the views of
the Father; and kindly undertaking to perform the
office of a Surety, in order to complete the plan of
redemption. The designs, of divine goodness, are calculated to,
excite the admiration of the most illustrious of
created intelligences. Accordingly it is said* "which
things the angels desire to. look into." We cannot
conceive of a nobler employment for them, than-
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And it is impossible for us to say, what additions
are made to their stores of knowledge, by the reve
lation of gospel grace. Thus heaven is the joy of
the Lord, as it is prepared by him.
2d. It is purchased by the Lord.
'¦ Until the redemption of the purchased possession."
By sin we had forfeited a title to this inheritance.
We may here reflect on the consequences, of the
first transgression. " By one man, sin entered into
the world, and death by sin." The way to life was
thus effectually barred. We partake of the general
depravity. There is a bias in our natures to iniquity.
This is a truth so plain, that we need not now tarry
to prove it. It is certain we are sinners, and as
such, we have no right to expect this blessedness.
On the contrary, our sins render us liable to punish
ment. And this, would have been our portion, if
we had been- left to ourselves. " But God, who> is '
rich in. mercy, for his great love, wherewith he
loved us, even when we were dead in sins, hath
quickened us together with Christ."
The Eternal Son of God, has united himself to
our nature, for the purposes of obeying, and suffer
ing. Hecame to remove the obstacles, which stood
in the way of our entrance into the kingdom of
heaven. He, by his obedience unto deaths has re
moved the curse, denounced, against his people, as
transgressors!. Me has sustained thepunishment due
to disobedience. He has removed' the guilt of sinv
He has, answered aldi objections, which migh* be
r^sed tothe salivation of sinners, fromthe rights of
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Jesus Christ hasprocured for us, honourable terms
of reconciliation. He has obtained a title to innu-.
merable spiritual blessings, here ; and to final, eter
nal glorj, hereafter. His undertaking ; his offices ;
his obedience ; his sufferings ; his death, were well
pleasing to the Father ; and he has brought in
everlasting redemption for us. What can be wanting.
to the security of his people ? What shall separate"
them from the love of God, whica is in Christ Jesus.
their Lord ? How vast the obligations laid upon
them from a display of this grace !
Jesus has opened the way to Heaven. He has
made it plain before us. We hear his gracious de
claration, " I am the way, the truth, and the life.""
In him we have a sure foundation for our faith, and an
anchor for our hope. At the same time, we perceive,
that grace spreads through the whole fabrick of Sal
vation ; and removes for ever, all cause of boasting.
Our blessed Lord, assures his disciples, " I go to
prepare a place for you." This is his great and kind
employment. He would have this consideration
duly to influence us. He seems to look forward, with
pleasure, to the time, when the vacant seats will be
filled, by them, for whom they are prepared. He
has assured his friends, that he will come again, and
receive them to himself. . " Enter thou into the joy
of thy Lord :" this leads us to observe,
.3d. We obtain a fitness for it from the Lord.
Can we suppose, for a moment, that we can be fit
for. heaven, while we continue in a sinful state ? No
idea can be more absurd. Can we think of entering
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abominably defiled? What enjoyment could we
have of that light, while we are totally blind?
Would the songs of Paradise be music to us, while
we are absolutely deaf? Could we take pleasure in
the service of God above ; having been totally stran
gers to it below ? Could we be fit companions for
the saints in light, while our nature is set against
their character, and employment ?
" Marvel not that I said unto thee, ye must be
born again." A change must take place. Old
things must pass away, and all things become new.
We must be renewed in the spirit, and temper of our
minds. Our understanding, our will, and our affec
tions must experience a great change. Our judg
ment must be differently informed. The objects of
our delight, and our choice must be different. We
must not only serve God, but serve him from right
and pure motives.
We have the happiness to observe, that God carries
on the gbod work when it is begun. The agency of
the Holy Spirit is employed about it. It is, " through
sanctification of the Spirit and belief of the truth."
The Spirit works, powerfully, upon the renewed
mind, for the most gracious purposes. Strongly
counteracting evil and corrupt dispositions. He
mortally wounds the evil principle, and causes it
gradually to expire. He enables the soul to grow in
faith, and love, and every other grace ; weaning the
affections from earthly, and setting them upon hea
venly things. He enables us to engage in the ser
vice of God ; and to take the greatest pleasure therein.
He teaches us to improve past exercises, and deliver
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We have reason to believe, that God is training
up his people for heaven, by certain means, most
wonderfully adapted to this purpose. The holy
word enlightens, quickens, purifies and directs the
the Soul. Nothing can be better suited, as food for
our spiritual appetites. " As new-born babes* desire
the sincere milk of the word that ye may grow there
by." Many a spiritual feast is enjoyed in the house
of God : many a foretaste of the provisions, in our
Father's house above.
By prayer we draw nigh to God. We approach
him with holy freedom, arid we carry on a lucrative
traffic with heaven. In the Holy Supper, we find ;
our hearts particularly affected with the love of God.
We look to the bleeding Lamb, and we find, that by
his stripes, and wounds, we are healed. We get re- .
newed proofs of divine regard and friendship. We
have communion with a present Saviour,
By the dispensations of providence; the grand de
sign is further promoted. " All things shall work
together for good, to them who love God." All thihgs,
whether of a prosperous, or of an afflictive nature.
Whether more immediately from the hand of God ;
or by means of other agents. Whether they appear
reconcileable with the love of God, or otherwise. If
the potion be bitter, yet the ingredients are rightly
mixed. /The influences of the Divine Spirit upon the Soul ;
and the rich communications which he conveys-, are
to be viewed as earnests of future, and better blessings;
in a far nobler, and better state of existence. " Enter i
thou into the joy of thy Lord." Once more.
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The gracious presence of God is enjoyed by his
people, and it is reckoned the greatest enjoyment
they can have here.. But, this is vastly inferior to
that,, which they are taught to expect. What un
known felicity must be felt in the manifestations of
divine glories ! When the great Eternal shall be
pleased to display his excellencies ! When his per
fections shall be contemplated in a just light!
The joy of heaven, principally arises from the
communications, and tokens of divine love. The
consideration of God as great, fills with reverence ;
the consideration of him as good, fills the holy soul
with rapture. God, from eternity, has viewed his
people as the objects of . his love ; and it will
require eternity, to open to their view those incom
parable stores. The undoubted propriety in them,
which will then be felt, must elevate joy to the
highest point. " In thy presence is fulness of joy ;
at thy right hand there are pleasures for-ever
more." Having considered the properties of the heavenly
state. And directed your attention to its Proprietor
and Lord. I am,
III. To enquire for whom it is designed.
In general, for every faithful servant of God. It
is designed, 1st. For every sincere follower of the Lamb.
The followers of the Lamb, are persons, who know
their want of him as a Saviour. Who have felt the
burden of guilt upon their consciences: who, have
been greatly alarmed from a view of their spiritual
wretchedness, and danger. They have fled for re
fuge to him, They exercise faith in the person,
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offices, mediation and merits of Christ. They rely
upon him as their Surety to discharge their debts :
as the Lord their Righteousness and strength: as
their advocate, to plead their cause : as their Shep
herd, to provide for, protect and lead them : as their
Physician, to restore, and establish their spiritual
health, and vigour : and in fine, as their wise and
gracious friend.
As his people receive and rest upon Christ the
Lord, so he will receive them. He will welcome
them to his kingdom. He will abundantly compen
sate, all the privations, and toils they have endured.
The Apostle Paul, when he uses this triumphant
language, "Henceforth there is laid up for me a
crown of Righteousness, which the Lord, the righ
teous judge, shall give me at that day :" adds, " and
not to me only, but unto all them also that love his
appearing." 2d. The language of the text, will be more par
ticularly addressed to him, who has distinguished
himself for God.
Some- of God's people, are more distinguished in
his service, than others. Their humility, and other
graces, are more conspicuous : they discover much of
a. Christ-like temper; Their minds are more formed
in the gospel mould. They are ready to speak, and
act for God. They are, comparatively, indifferent
as to the things of time, and are conversant with
those which are eternal. To such, Christ will say,
Well done good and faithful servants ; enter ye
into the joy of your Lord.
Christians who are most devoted to God, are
likely to be most useful. Their example has a

beneficial influence. There is a savour which attends
their conversation. A weight ,in their reproofs.
They are desirous of doing good, and God is pleased
to gratify this desire. They are blessings to the
world ; their loss is felt by others ; but the exchange
is gain to them.
There are some gracious persons, who are called
to pass through great, and even fiery trials. They
are greatly opposed, and suffer much in the cause of
Christ. They do not complain, but consider it their
honour ; and rejoice at times, that they are counted
worthy to suffer in such a cause. The Lord is pleased
with their fidelity, and will command them to enter
into his joy.
3d. The language in the text, will be most of
all applicable, to the faithful minister of the gospel.
Every faithful steward has talents, which he has
received from his Lord. He is careful to improve
them, as one who must give an account. He im
proves them in his study. He there sits at the feet
of Jesus. He cries to his Lord for assistance. As
a prince he has power with God. He digs in the
sacred mines of Scripture, that he may bring forth
things new and old.
He improves his talents in preaching. He is in
stant, in season, and out of season. His soul is in
his work. It is his delight to direct distressed con
sciences, to him, who can afford effectual, relief.
He rejoices exceedingly, when the pleasure of the
Lord prospers in his hands.
He improves his talents in private: by instruct
ing the ignorant : by soothing the afflicted : by re
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which he endeavours to inculcate. God approves
of his labours: he has seals to his ministry, which
are his joy here ; and which shall be the crown of
his rejoicing hereafter.
These observations are applicable, to your late>
highly-esteemed pastor : to whose character we
have reason to bear a very honourable testimony.
He had the happiness of being brought, early in life,
to the knowledge, we have reason to believe, to the
saving knowledge of God. It might be said of him,
as of young Timothy, that from a child, he knew
the holy scriptures. He had the advantage of pious
instruction ; and it was blessed to his soul. At a
very early period he manifested an attachment to
private, and public devotion. He was often, in his
younger days, a monitor in the family, to remind
them of the time of prayer-meetings, and of public
worship. He was preserved from many of the sins and fol
lies of childhood and youth. His conduct was not
only irreproachable, but exemplary. His early
knowledge of the grand truths of the gospel^ and
his acquaintance with their practical influence, he
considered as proofs of the distinguishing goodness
of God. Happy are those young persons, who, like
him, begin early to seek after the Lord God of
David. His parents, knowing that his mind was seriously
impressed ; and believing that he possessed true
piety ; asked him, whether it were not more con
genial to his wishes, to be educated for the ministry,
than to learn a trade, or any mechanical art? His
answer was, " If I might indulge the idea that I

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should ever be able to speak in public ; nothing
would meet my wishes so much, as engaging in
studies for the work of the ministry." A youth, of
so much promise, seemed designed by the great
head of the Church, for this sacred office.
Mr. Heudebourck, after having received, while
young, a suitable education, entered on a course of
Academical Studies, under my direction, about the
commencement of the year 1 800. This was a period,
which I shall always look back upon with pleasure.
It was easy, soon to discover, that such a pupil
Would do honour to any Tutor.
In the course of the year, above mentioned ; he
Was proposed, and received, as a member of the
Church, under my pastoral care. His faith, and
experience, at that time, best appear from an ac
count of both, written by his own hand ; and which
remains, as a monument of his early worth.
During four years, the period of his residence
with me, he continued to give very great satisfac
tion. To his studies, he gave very diligent atten
tion. He had a superior capacity for the acquire
ment of learning. His duty, and his inclination
were happily united. He made considerable pro
ficiency, both in the languages, and the sciences.'
While additions Were making to his mental furniture ;
they were accompanied, with that humility ; that
vein of piety ; and that sweetness of disposition,
which marked him as a favourite of heaven; and
an ornament of human nature.
After having finished his previous studies, he en
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His first labours were among the congregation at
Teignmouth ; for the space of a year and three
quarters. He removed from thence to this place,
in September, 1 805. He was ordained here March the
9th, 1808. He laboured among you, nearly six years
and an half. His last services among you, were on
Lord's day, February the 9th, of the present year, He
preached in the morning, from Gen. xxviii. , 12.
" And he dreamed^ and behold a ladder set upon
the earth, and the top of it reached to heaven : and
behold the angels of God ascending and descending
on it." His subject, the mystery of providence. In
the afternoon he preached from Joshua, iv. 10.
" For the Priests which bare the ark stood in the
Jttidst of Jordan, until every thing was finished that
the Lord commanded Joshua to speak unto the peo*
pie,, according to all that Moses commanded Joshua :
and the people hasted and passed over." You who
were present can testify, that a peculiar solemnity
attended both services ; and that at the close of
each, he took you to record, that he had declared
among you, all that the Lord had commanded : and
be warned you, not to trust in any thing, short of
the obedience, and death of the Son of God : and
he entreated you never to begin, or end a day witb>
put prayer.
It is unnecessary to describe to yoti, his charac
ter as a preacher. His subjects were selected, and
discussed with judgment : and his manner discover
ed, that his heart was in bis- work. He was earnestly
concerned to do good to; your soials, not only by
his public labours, but also, by bis friendly visits,
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good, were not confined to this place ; they were
extended to the neighbouring towns and villages.
His zeal, and his diligence, attracted the attention,
and esteem, of the wise, and the good. It appeared
to those who were capable of judging, that the ex
cellence of his ministerial talents were more and
more conspicuous. His brethren, in the ministry,
particularly in these parts, feel and lament their lossi
During his confinement, he appeared always calm,
and composed : discovering no anxiety ; except a
Strong desire, were it the will of God, to have ad
dressed his people, on the 1st of March ; the day for
the administration of the Lord's Supper. He had
prepared his subject from Galatians i. 4. " Who
gave himself for our sins, that he might deliver us
from this present evil world, according to the will
of God, and our Father." He said nothing particular
about death during his illness, but only, " I have
committed my all to God." He endeavoured, as
much as possible, to keep anxiety from the minds
of his friends, and family. And after a severe
struggle with death, for one hour, in the night of
March the 10th, he calmly slept in Jesus : departing
without a sigh or groan, the following morning, at
the early age of 28, having been born at Staines,
the 24th of February, 1784.
We cannot say of every minister, whose talents
may be shining, that he is truly consistent. But if
we reflect on the conduct of our dear friend, in the
private walks of life ; we shall see that his was an
uniform character; that the Minister, and the
christian, were happily united.

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:-, Recollect what he was as a son: none more duti
ful, nojiemore amiable. j. From his early childhood,
bis behaviour to his parents was such, as not only
to render reproofs unnecessary; but to give them
very great satisfaction. And he persevered in this
laudable conduct to the last.
Again. -. If we view him as an husband ; this im
portant relation, was filled, up, with a becoming, 3,
discreet tenderness.
jjriAs a father, he was sensible of the importance of
his trust: and if life had been spared, he would, no
doubtj as his dear children grew up, have attended
to the important business of instruction, withy inr
creasing delight. ¦ ¦. . rce't atons
As a brother, he was wise and affectionate. As.;
a master, he ruled with kindness. If we view him
as a friend, he was benevolent and sincere. He was
always ready to afford that attention, which the cir
cumstances of his connexions required. From the
stores of a well-informed mind, he communicated
pleasure, and advantage, to those who were favoured
with an intimacy with him. The liberality of his,
sentiments led him to make proper allowances, for
the infirmities of others ; and to do justice to the
real excellencies of their character. Those who had
a share of his friendship, cannot but feel tenderly,
for their loss : and with respect to myself, I con
sider it a very painful event.
One of his brethren, in the ministry, gives this
testimony of him : " He had a fine taste for litera
ture. — His piety was exemplary. — His modesty
great. — His zeal for the cause of his Redeemer,

lively and operative. — He lived long hi a little time.
The churches in this neighbourhood will miss him
much : while 1 have to moUm over the premature
removal, of a most affectionate friend and brother."
May you, the near relatives of the deceased, ever
find those supports, and consolations, which our
divine religion suggests; May you find this dispen
sation abundantly sanctified to you.
This church is now left in a widowed state. The
dispensation has a loud voice to you. I exhort you
to pray, individually, that your loss may be made;
up : and I exhort you to have stated meetings for
prayer; that God would direct you to the choice of
another faithful Pastor ; who shall naturally care
for your souls.
- Let the stated hearers, in this place, callto re
membrance the many faithful sermons they have
heard, from our departed brother. You will see
his face ; you will hear his voice no more. It wilt
be sad indeed, if he should one day rise up in judgr,
nient against you. May grace prevent such a
Calamity. " Finally, Brethren, " Remember them which have.
the rule over you, who have spoken unto you the
Word of God: whose faith follow, considering the
end of their conversation : Jesus Christ the same
yesterday, and to day, and for ever,"

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HYMN
SUNG AFTER THE SERMON.

1 " Servant of God, well done !
Thy race and warfare's o'er ;
The battle's fought, the race is won,
And-thou shalt weep no more.
2 Of all thy heart's desire,
Triumphantly possest ;
Lodg'd by the ministerial quire
In thy Redeemer's breast.
3 Ready to bring the peace
Thy beauteous feet were shod,
When mercy sign'd thy soul's release^
And caught thee up to God.
4 With saints enthron'd on .high, ,
Thou dost thy Lord proclaim :
And still to God salvation cry ;
Salvation to the Lamb !
5 0 happy, happy soull
In ecstacies of praise,
Long as eternal ages roll,
Thou see'st thy Saviour's face.
6 Redeem'd from earth and pain,
Ah ! When shall we ascend ; ,
And all in Jesus' presence reign,
With our departed friend.
7 Come, Lord, Oh ! quickly come !
. And when in Thee compleat ;
Receive thy longing servants home,
To triumph at thy feet.

THE
¦•AB®M'ES£9
DELIVERED AT THE INTERMENT.

THE present world has often, and with great
propriety, been called a vale of tears. The reason
is, the passengers through it have generally found
such circumstances to occur, as have unavoidably
occasioned them a greater or less degree of sorrow,
for the most part of their journey. Nor is the
wisdom or goodness of Divine Providence to be
arraigned for having so appointed or permitted it.
All the time we continue here, we are probationers :
and the diversities of the situation, especially those
scenes which are more painful and trying, are cal
culated to answer a valuable end — to detach our
affections from earthly things, and engage them
with those that are heavenly ; and to call forth such
graces into, vigorous exercise as are best adapted to
form a character, suited to the place of our ultimate
destiny. There are no events which become a
greater occasion of sorrow^ to us than the awful
visitations of death. These affect us in the most
vulnerable and the most tender part. How often
have we been called by such providences, as in the
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deep distress — to mingle our tears with those of the
afflicted parent and of the disconsolate widow; when
the desire of their hearts has been removed from
them,' by the stroke of death ! igsmcxss ai : r: " n: -.:":
It is true, there sometimes are persons, whose
death occasions little or no regret. It is recorded
of Jehoram, piie of the kings of Judah, that He de-?
parted without being desired. It seems, he had lived
without (being beloved, and he died without being
lamented. To what an affecting ?state of disgrace
did his iniquities reduce him ! The people of Judah,
so far, appear to have entertained a just sense of the
value of character. Their Prince had.led a wicked;
and an injurious life, and therefore they were glad ;
when death befriended them, by removing him ,
from their sight, in hppe of his being succeeded by £.
another, who would be more concerned for his own
honor and their happiness. \Vig.r ¦ ;y,V'»rj Esrf = 1o aanb
Very different, is the general feeling, on the?
departure of one, whose life has been spent in pre- j
moting the honor of God and the best interests of
his fellow creatures. Such a one, was our friend rand,
brothei', the Reverend William Heudebourck ; whose
mortal remains are now shut up in this coffin, and ^
whjch we are presently to deposit in the house. ap
pointed for all living-, I am fully aware that custom n
forbids me to indulge at this time, in expatiating
on the excellencies of our departed friend; this; will;
be more properly the province* of his respected
Tutor,, who is appointed to preach a funeral sermon
on the occasion, next Lord's Day morning, in the
place where the deceased has fulfilled his ministry.
But yougwilk u^^j^tanding, permit , me , to

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embrace this opportunity ofgvMfr bearing my pribfle"
testimony to the' worth of J a brother minister]-
greatly endeared to me by his! virtues an<| his
friendship, in expressing Avhat I anvsure allof you'
Who knew him, i wilt most readily confirm ; that! <7,s-
a man, he was the most amiable and kind ; as- a
christian; most piire and exemplary; and as adminis
ter, most prudent, zealous, and indefatigable. I wiff-
violate Order no farther than qorily to add ; that
taken as a whole, I do not remember to have*
met with' any young minister of his standing; who
appeared to possess more real excellency of character,'
or' ' ' of more? promising general usefulness, ' since I
have, been called to the christian ministry. TheB
death of stich a man — of such a christian-i-bf such
a minister, is an incalculable loss : a loss, not only
to the bereaved wife of his bosom, the helpless chil-*
dren of his bowels, and the afflicted parents and
sisters' and brothers of his flesh ; but a loss also, to
the ehurch over which he so faithfully presided; to'1'
the county in which he so zealously acted, and to
the worldin which he so consistently lived. Jli-^ aif'
The death of a pious man, if only a private 'cha- '
racier,' supposing he has been consistent and active, "-
is always a just cause for lamentation^ His imme
diate connexions lose the benefit of his instructions '
a®A» example, l and the church, of his prayers and
exertions :> and indeed, as good men are the light '
of the World tead the salt of the earth, such an event
occasions a loss to society at large; the world there-1
by loses a degree of that light which keeps it from
total darkness, and the earth a portion of the salt t
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much 'more lamentable is the death of an eminent
christian, who has been a public character — of a
holy, zealous, indefatigable Minister of Christ; and
especially, when taken away in the midst of his
vigour and usefulness !
Gospel Ministers are of the importance of Coun-r
sellers in the state and Generals in the army. They
are called to occupy the chief posts of honor, of
usefulness, and of danger. They have to instruct
mid direct others ' by their counsels; and to lead
and animate them by their example. They have
especially, to assist them in overcoming those
enemies and dangers, which are most of all to be
feared; and in obtaining that peace and security,
which are before all things to be desired. Who
does not lament the fall of a skilful and courageous
General ; especially when cut off in the midst of
his days, and in the service of his country? And
which of us would not be ready to mourn over the
loss of a wise and active Statesman, prematurely
removed, while enlightening and improving society
by his counsels and his exertions ? Surely then, we
may be allowed to drop a tear of affectionate sorrow
over the ashes of a dear minister of Christ, who
lived only for the good of others ; and who,in fact,
fell a sacrifice to his ardent zeal to serve his family
and his generation, when only in the twenty-ninth
year of his age ! •¦'-¦':
But let us proceed to enquire more particularly,
howthis solemn providence should affect us. • It
should lead us to a train of serious reflection upon
the sad devastations of sin. Here is a striking in
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language I can expressi'V What is it that now lies
beneath' this mournful cover? It is a piece of
mechanism; curiously wrought by a Divine hand ;
fearfully and wonderfully made. Till lately, its
several parts Avere moving with activity and. har
mony, performing' the service appointed themby
the heavenly artist : but alas ! it has been smitten
and broken by the rude, unsparing hand of death;
and is therefore now, without motion; and useless. —
It is a temple. !Once stately and magnificent; wor
thy the skill of the Almighty builder ; inhabited by
an intelligent being, who was both honorable and
happy, because a partaker of the divine nature and
the divine favor : but now this temple is deserted,
decayed, and fallen into ruins.- — It is more than a
temple : it is a creature ; but made subject to vanity.
It is what remains, and all that remains to us, of the
'noblest work of God— an upright and an eminently
pious1 man. It was the constant and most intimate
companion; both in honor and tribulation, of- the
soul itself. But ah ! what a melancholy change !
That ;heart which so lately beat with the warmest
friendship, is now chilled with cold ! Those eyes
which sparkled with affection, are closed in dark
ness ! That voice which charmed and instructed us,
is lost in silence : And those hands and feet, which
ministered unto us, and served us, are palsied, and
locked up in the prison of corruption ! v ¦ ^y;
.fi'But we must not forget that the devastations of sin
extend to the soul as well as the body. When man
swas first created, it was with a soul -formed after the
image of its maker-; capable of doing his will, and
Y"k hj.. £ldijjUi3J... a.... ii';, _ .-.¦'......

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happy in the enjoyment of his favor. But as sooij
as the tyrant, sin, entered, he stripped it of its beauty,
robbed it of its strength, and deprived it of its hap
piness : and at the same time, diffused that depravity
through all its powers, which inclines it to wicked
rebellion against its maker, and exposes it, together
with the body, to everlasting destruction.
This affecting dispensation, should next, lead «*
to enquire, how these sad devastations are to be repaired.
The answer to such an enquiry is at hand. Through
the mediation of Christ, and by the operation of the
Holy Spirit. It was to perform this important ser
vice, that Jesus Christ came into the world. By his
active and passive obedience unto death, he effec
tually provided for the removal of the curse, which.
is death and destruction ; and for the restoration of
the blessing, which is life and happiness. His re
surrection is designed as a pledge and pattern of
the resurrection of his people ; and his entrance into
heaven, as their representative, ensures their pos
session of the purchased inheritance. He himself
has said, Where I am there shall also my servants be.
It is the province of the Holy Spirit to bring us
into the actual possession of these important bene
fits. He must convince us of our need of Christ ; and
enable us to exercise that faith which is necessary
to unite us to him. He must restore to us the lost
image of God, and impart new strength to perform
his will ; and indeed, accomplish in us all that work
which is requisite to ensure future happiness, both
to soul and body, in the perfect enjoyment of God.
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bestowed upon us for these important ends t and at
the same time, it is out privilege to-be assured that,
rQod will give his Holy Spirit, to them that ask. «y'Ml
Y ? This awful visitation, should further excite in us,
an holy , resolution to ; seek this , reparation. [ without
a,jmojnenfs delay. There •; are two considerations
especially, which should urge us to the most earnest
isolicitude an this important concern. One is, (the
'certainty of our being all reduced to the same state
fbf corruption, with our dear friend before us, at no
*ery); distant period. This is determined;. by the
irreversible decree of heaven, that says, Dust , thou
ai^t,Und unto dust shalt thou return. And the other ;
the uncertainty, as to how soon such decree may be
^carried into effect. In fifty or sixty years, perhaps,
ithis, whole assembly may be swept away by the
floodof time ! What havock will even twenty years
make among us ! Many, it is likely, will be called
,iaway, within half that time : and it is possible, that
some of us, who are as young, and now, as healthy,
;and vigorous as the deceased was a few weeks ago,
may ourselves be arrested by the hand of death, and
brought to the grave in as short a period ! Yes,
.brethren, life is very uncertain. -At no period, can
we reckon with safety, upon its continuance, for
the shortest space. To day, is time: to-morrow,
may be eternity ! This moment only, is our's : the
xnext, is God's ! Oh ! then, let us not leave this
spot without some signs of penitence — without
Offering earnest prayer to God for the forgiveness of
our sins,; and forming some pious resolutions, in
the strength of jdjvine grace, to serve the Lord the
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How solemnly should this mysterious providence
affect those of you, who make a part of the church
or congregation, over which this dear servant of
God presided ! Ah ! we little thought of this, when
on the ninth of March, one thousand, eight hundred
and eight, we met with so much pleasure, to assist
in the settlement of our brother, as your Pastor !
Little did I think, when admonishing you, at that
time, to Encourage him ;* that in four years, I should
be called to meet you at his grave, to mingle our
tears over his corpse, and to pay this last token of
affectionate regard to his memory ! And little did
his respected Tutor expect, when delivering to him
his charge, on the same occasion, that he should so
soon be sent for, to preach his funeral sermon ! We
had fondly hoped, that he might be spared to you,
as a great blessing for many years. But the great
head of the church saw fit that it should be other
wise; and it is our duty to be silent. And indeed,
a tribute of gratitude is due to the All-wise dis
poser of events, for drawing a veil over futurity,
and concealing, especially, this event from our sight :
for how could we have endured to go through the
important services of that day, with all the solemni
ties of this scene in view, as destined to take place
within so short a space of time ?
You have, however, my friends, enjoyed an un
speakable privilege, in sitting under one of the
best young ministers that this generation has pro
duced, although it has been but for so few years.
During this time, you have had the advantage Of
his affectionate and fervent prayers : You have had
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the pure gospel of Christ published to you with
earnestness and fidelity : You have had his bright
example before your eyes ; and you have witnessed
his unwearied exertions to serve you, and to pro
mote the cause with which you are more immediately
connected. Does it not behove you then, to ask
yourselves, if you have rightly improved so great
a privilege ? — Whether you have forsaken that
accursed thing, against which he has so often and so
affectionately warned you, — whether you have cor
dially embraced that Saviour whom he has" so fre
quently exhibited to your view, and to whom he
has so constantly invited you, — and whether you
have been enabled to pursue that holy course which
he so clearly pointed out, and in which he so ear
nestly endeavoured to lead you ? If you have ; it is
well. You will then meet your Pastor hereafter,
with pleasure ; and will join with him, in the most
grateful acknowledgments to God, for the grace
that enabled you to follow his faithful instructions :
but if not ; your state is truly awful. You must
answer for all your neglect. Your minister is gone
on before, to give an account of his stewardship,
being no longer steward ; and to be ready to bear
swift witness against you, if you still continue im
penitent, when you follow after, to render your ac-%
count at the same tribunal. Oh ! then, if any of you
have continued neglectful and careless, amidst all
the advantages of such a ministry, — if you have re
mained unmoved by all his faithful instructions and
earnest entreaties, while he lived ; I beseech you,
if you have any value for your souls, — any desire
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reflection and prayer, now, that he is dead. If he
has hitherto preached to you to no purpose ; let me
entreat you to be attentive, at least to this, his last,
his farewell sermon : for, He being dead, yet speaketh.
Yes : your minister is again come to meet you, this
once ; and at a spot, that itself preaches in the most
forcible language — at the mouth of the grave ! And
if he were now to start up in his coffin, to speak to
you, it would be only to remind you of the same
important truths which he has so often delivered;
and to repeat to you, those affectionate invitations
and admonitions which you have already heard so
frequently from his lips. ,It is now the last time.
The next meeting will be at the bar of God. — Such
was my brother's anxious concern for your happi
ness, that although he had exhausted all the energies
of his life in serving you, yet, methinks, his bones
would scarcely have rested at peace in his grave, if
he had not met you this once, and made this last
effort to save you ! — if he had not, after all, intreated
you by all the awful solemnities of his death, to
break off your sins by repentance ; to seek the Lord
while he may be found ; and to attend seriously to
the things which belong to your peace, before they
are for ever hid from your eyes !
And should not this painful event, particularly
affect those of us who sustain the ministerial charac
ter? We too, are earthen vessels, which must one
day be dashed to pieces by the stroke of death.
And are we intrusted with a most important trea
sure ? Must we also be called to give an account
of our stewardship ? And may this account be re
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Then, how much it behoves us to be up, and to be
doing ! What a call is here, to diligence, zeal, and
watchfulness ! Our departed brother was the young
est of us all, but one. And death may not be so
ceremonious, as to begin at the eldest next. He
does not go by seniority. Let us then endeavour
to be useful, while we have opportunity. Let us
earnestly seek to be instrumental in enriching our
fellow creatures, with the precious treasure com
mitted to our care. There is much yet to be done,
both with respect to ourselves and others ; and the
removal of our brother, who was so active and zea
lous, leaves the more labor for us, who remain. Let
us then, imitate the blessed Saviour himself. Let us
work the works of him that sent us, while it is day ;
for the night cometh, wherein no man can work.
We will now sing an appropriate hymn, and offer
our supplications to Almighty God ; after which, we
will proceed to commit this chest, with its sacred
contents, to the receptacle appointed for it.
Cfie Corpse interna.
We have now deposited the precious remains of
our beloved brother, in the place, where the wicked
cease from troubling ; and where the weary are at
rest. And we feel no hesitation in saying, in this
instance, that it is in the sure and certain hope of a
joyful resurrection to everlasting life. For if we
believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them
also who sleep in Jesus, will God bring with him.
Then, this corruptible shall have put on incorruption,
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the saying shall be brought to pass that is written,
Death is swallowed up in victory.
In retiring from this hallowed spot, then, we are
to remember, that although we are called to sorrow,
it is not as those which are without hope. It is a
sorrow that shall hereafter be turned into joy. Our
brother will meet us again. And could we know
the feelings of his happy spirit, now in the realms
of bliss, we should desire to go to him, rather than
wish that he might return to us. There is one con
sideration, which, perhaps, is above all others, cal
culated to reconcile us to this solemn providence ;
and it is a consideration in perfect consonance with
our warmest affection for our brother. It is this.
His heavenly father, to whom he had committed all
his concerns, both of life and death, saw that it
would be best for him to be removed early to glory ;
and he accordingly took him. Pure, disinterested
affection, always wishes, that, foj- our friends, which
would be best, upon the whole. The blessed God,
in whose friendship our brother was interested,
then, has without doubt, proceeded upon this prin
ciple, in the present event ; and therefore he requires
our acquiescence.
Let us now return to our respective homes, to
pray, that the Father of mercies will sanctify this
solemn providence for important good : and espe
cially, that He, who was the God of our brother,
and of his pious grandfather, and we trust, of his
father also, will be the God of his children ; that
he will be a father to the fatherless, and an husband
to the widow : and that he will be pleased to dry
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pour upon them the spirit of Eli and of Job, to say,
It is the Lord : let him do what seemeth him good : the
Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away ; blessed
be the name of the Lord. And finally, that he will
look with compassion, on the widowed church, to
repair her loss ; and prepare us all for that world,
where there is no more death, nor sickness ; and
where God shall wipe away all tears from our eyes.
Amen.
The funeral service was performed at Paul's Meeting, Taunton,
on the Wednesday morning, instead of the usual lecture. Mr. Buck,
of Wiveliscombe, began with a short prayer, and reading part of
the 15th of the 1st of Cor. Mr. Tozer, senior, then prayed, and
Mr. Robert Tozer gave out the hymn that follows ; after which,
Mr. Golding delivered the above address.
Funeral Sermons, on the occasion, were preached by the Minis
ters in the neighbourhood, at their several places of worship, on
the following sabbath.

HYMN
SUNG AT THE INTERMENT.

1 tc Why flow these torrents of distress J
(The gentle Saviour's cries,)
Why are my sleeping saints survey'd
With unbelieving eyes ?
2 K Death's feeble arm shall never boast,
A friend of Christ is slain ;
Nor o'er their meaner part in dust,
A lasting pow'r retain.
3 "1 come, on wings of love I come,
The slumb'rers to awake ;
My voice shall reach the deepest tomb,
And all its bonds shall break.
4 " Touch'd by my hand in smiles they rise,
They rise to sleep no more;
But rob'd with light, and crown'd with joy,
To endless day they soar."
5 Jesus, our faith receives thy word j
And, tho' fond nature weep,
Grace learns to hail the pious dead,
And emulate their sleep.
6 Our willing souls thy summons wait
With them to rest and praise ;
So let thy much lov'd presence cheer
These separating days.

EXTRACTS

FROM

fflx* geufoeftoutcft's Mwcp.

AXMINSTER, February 24th, 1800.
THIS day I am 16 years old. With gratitude and love would I re
flect on the goodness of God to me through the whole of my past life :
here would I raise ray Ebenezcr, and say, Hitherto hath the Lord helped
me. Hitherto hath the Lord bestowed upon me every temporal blessing
to make me comfortable here, and every spiritual blessing for my growth
in grace, and for my furtherance in the divine life : but yet I have to
lament, that I have no more improved them to the glory of God, that
I have prized them no more, and that my conduct has been no more con
formed to those rules, which are laid down in the word of God for its
regulation. And now, as I am here for the purpose of being educated
for the ministry, O Lord, grant" me those graces and gifts which are
necessary for me, and enable me to devote my every acquirement to thy
service. March 1 2th,— FAST DAY.
This day is appointed by our government, as a day of general humi
liation for our sins, to implore pardon for them, and to deprecate those
judgments, which God is inflicting upon us. Our sins are very great,
and as the sand on the shore for multitude; and they are aggravating
to the highest degree, because committed in a land where the light of
the gospel every where shines ; therefore, we most righteously de
serve not only what we at present experience, but far heavier judgments.
When I consider that I have by my sins been greatly adding to the na
tional guilt, that I have so much abused the many and distinguishing
privileges that I have been favoured with ; I have reason to humble my
self before God, and to join in praying for pardon for the sins of this
nation, and that God would avert impending judgments from us ; not
for our own desert of the least favour from his hand, but for the sake
of what the Lord Jesus Christ has done and suffered.

44- May 7th.
This day I returned from an excursion to several places with my
parents. On Thursday last, I was favoured with an opportunity of at
tending the ordination of Mr. Wheaton, at Lyme : it was a solemn op
portunity. On Friday 1 arrived at Dorchester, and on Sabbath day, at
tended on Mr. U'g ministry ; heard him with pleasure, and 1 hope with
profit. On Monday went to Weymouth, where I had an opportunity of
admiring, more than ever I did before, the majesty and glory of God in
the great deep. On Tuesday, returned to Lyme, and to day to this
place. Now I have reason, surely, to call upon my soul, and all within
me to bless and praise the name of my gracious- God. June 1th.
Fojt some time past, my mind has been much distressed, from the
consideration of my inability to engage in the work before me. I find
such insufficiency of myself to think, speak, or act, in a consistent man
ner. When I engage in my private duties ; when 1 pray in the family 5
or'with my fellow-students, I find such want of matter and expression,
that I am ready to think, if it is the will of God that I should be engaged
in the ministry, 1 should sot find it so. Lord! shew me whether I am
where thou wouldest have me be. 0 decide the important question.
June 8th.
Blessed be God, I have enjoyed a comfortable day. This evening
Mr. S. preached from Matt. xxvi. 41. I was enabled to apply to myself
those evidences of a sanctified will, on which he spake ; and 1 could say,
it is good to be in the house of God. I have this evening engaged in
prayer with the family ; and if it was performed with any degree of
freedom and propriety ; not unto me, Lord 1 but te thy name be the
glory. August 24th.
The Lord has been pleased in his great mercy to carry me home, and
bring me back to this place in safety. While at home, 1 was in a dull
frame the greatest part of the time * and my mind was too much en
gaged with temporal affairs. Bat now, as 1 am once more brought
hither, I will, by the grace of God, live more in his fear, and will en
deavour to be less concerned about worldly things : for I am convinced
that the less the world is in my thoughts, the closer I shall live to God,
and consequently, the happier 1 shall be. August 31st.
I and my fellow students, have seen that we are too much addicted to
levity, and we are convinced that it deprives us of much comfort 5
therefore, we are resolved, by divine assistance, we will resist it ; and
adopt some methods for the increase of vital religion in our souls-.
Lord J direct us to those means which shall have this tendency, and by
which we may be qualified for the important work of the ministry.

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September 14th.
My spiritual enemies endeavour to make me doubt of my union with
Christ. But, Oh ! my soul, wherefore shouldest thou doubt? Hast thou
any reason to hope that thou hast been brought to an acquaintance with
him, and that thou hast any love to him ? If thou hast, it must be in con
sequence of his love to thee ; and if thou art once interested in his love,
nothing can separate thee from it ; for his love is unchangeable. October 10th.
My mind has been lately much impressed with the consideration that
it is my duty to partake of the ordinance of the Lord's Supper. I have
communicated my views to my Parents, and to my Tutor ; each gives me
encouragement. And, as I am now required to write some account of my
experience, &c. Lord ! assist me in this duty, that I may write something
agreeably to my state, and satisfactory to thy people. January 1st, 1801.
Hitherto hath the Lord helpedme. He hasbrought me through another
annual period of my time, the most important period of it, through
which I have yet passed ; as the Lord has the past "year called me out.
to prepare for the service in the ministry. When I reflect on the many
mercies of the past year, both in regard to the comforts of this life, and
comfortable hope for the future, I have reason to call upon my soul, and
all around me, to praise the goodness of God. At the same time, when.
I consider the many abuses of the mercy of God, and the slowness of my
growth in grace, I have reason to wonder that the sentence, Cut that
cumberer down, has not passed upon me ! Lord enable me now to make.
and to perform, such holy resolutions as shall act as a stimulus to my
nluggish soul. January 5th,
This evening I engaged at the prayer meeting. Through mercy I
enjoyed much freedom in the duty; though when I engaged the last
time in the meeting, my mind was much confused ; and I was ready to
think that I should never be able to pray in public with acceptance.
Now, through mercy, 1 am somewhat encouraged, though the Lord is
constantly shewing me, that of myself I can do nothing. I want more
faith to rely on his promised assistance ; knowing, that did I depend
more upon him, I should never have to lament his desertion in time of
need. I want that faith in God, which is like an anchor to the sOul un
der every discouragement. January 21st.
This day 1 have been received into the church at this place, to enjoy
full communion with the people of God here. The manner of reception
was truly solemn, and made a deep impression on ray mind, both of the
reality and serious nature of true religion. O may this impression be
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never bring any reproach on the church of Christ, but be useful in pro
moting its happiness and respect in the world. February 1st.
1 have, this day, for the first time, received the sacrament of the
lord's Supper. 1 trust I can say, that though far from being exempt
from wandering thoughts ; yet, on the whole, this has been a good day.
When commemorating the dying love of my Saviour, though rather
confused in mind, I, in some measure, found my heart warmed with the
subject, and felt some delight in the holy ordinance. Now, Lord, I
have solemnly given myself up to thee. — 1 have taken an oath of Alle
giance to be thine. — I have renounced all hopes of obtaining happiness
out of thee. And having now, in this peculiar manner, declared war
with my own, which I trust are thine enemies, I must e*xpect their at
tacks to be more violent than ever. In my own strength, I cannot with
stand them, but shall soon fall, if thou dost not uphold me. — 3ut canst
thou forsake them, who trust in thee ? No — Lord — I believe, help thou
mine unbelief. February 15th.
This afternoon I passed some time with my fellow students, in serious
experimental conversation. The time was spent very comfortably ;
and this evening I have heard an excellent sermon from these words.
Behold he prayeth. I am convinced, and with concern would I record it,
that though I have kept up the form of secret prayer every day, I have
performed the duty in too slight and careless a manner. And I have
been too well contented, when I had performed it, without considering
in what manner I had engaged in it. I would now lament, with heart
felt sorrow, the sins of my closet duties, and renounce all idea of merit
attached to them, in an entire dependance on the mediation of Christ.
Henceforward, 0 Lord ! relying on thy strength, I will not be satisfied,
without evidences of thy presence in those duties; and an earnestness,
suitable to my wants. I desire to be determined not to let thee go until
thou visit and bless my soul with nearness to thyself, and with an assur
ance, or at least, with a comfortable hope of thy love to the most unwor
thy of thy servants. March 15th.
This sabbath, as well as most of my sabbaths, I have with great in
difference, attended on the means of grace. My mind has been very
much occupied with trifles, while hearing of matters of eternal moment.
1 have often prayed for the Divine presence and influences in his house
and ordinances ; but seldom, if ever, do I experience them. This even
ing I have heard a striking sermon, from these words. Ye ask, and re
ceive not,because ye ask amiss. The reasons why prayer was not answered,
were represented to be these. — Allowed Sin— After inattention— Spiritual
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of these, or whether all of these, are the causes of my complaint.
Make me more watchful, and enable me to resist and overcome these
evils, and hear the voice of my supplications, for unto thee do I pray.
April 5th.
Adain I have been favored with an opportunity to commemorate the
Saviour's astonishing love at his table. 1 trust I have been enabled this
day, at that ordinance, to view him as my Saviour ; — to believe that he
shed his precious blood for me. — But if the Saviour's love to me is
astonishing, surely, my ingratitude to him, and the insensibility of my
heart is so also. O that 1 could feel more of the godly sorrow, that
arises from the consideration of those sins, which, caused the death of
Vnmanuel, and by which I have so much abused his grace! But on ac
count of my insensibility of soul, I have reason to fear, that I belong to
that character, which is so displeasing to God. — The lukewarm professor.
Lord search me ! May 3d.
On the whole, this has been a comfortable day : though in our prayer
¦meeting, this morning, my mind was much confused ; and I was far
from being comfortable during the opportunity. But in the other parts
of the day, 1 have felt some pleasure in the service of God, poth public
aud private. According to the text, from which my Tutor spoke, I
have found some desires to Lay hold on Eternal Life. How glorious the
prize of the Christian ! It will amply reward all the trials and opposition,
with which he may conflict, while in his heavenly warfare. Lord quicken
me to press forwards, and strengthen me to fight the good fight of faith.
I have this day seen in the case of Mr.  , that gifts without the
assistance of the Spirit, will be of little avail. I have learned hence,
that to depend upon myself is the greatest folly. Impress this lesson on
my mind, 0 Lord ! May 31st.
Lately my mind has been in an uncomfortable state, neither so happy
as I desire, if I am proceeding in the way of holiness, nor so miserable
as I desire, if I indulge in any thing displeasing to God. This day, I
have felt some pleasure in attending the ordinances of religion. Lord t
make them more effectual to conviction, edification, or comfort as my
case requires. I have lately written in a serious strain to my brother
and sister : from my sister, I have received a pleasing letter, and I trust
some serious impressions have been made on her mind. Lord ! confirm
them by the power of thy Spirit. From my brother, I have also received
a letter, but nothing of a serious nature is contained in it. 0 that he
were awakened to a concern for his soul J If it be the divine pleasure, may
I be made useful to promote religion in the minds of my dear brothers
and sisters.

48 June 1th. — Morning.
Last week, I received a letter from my brother, in answer to one, in
which I had desired him to inform me of the state of his mind. But alas I
not one word upon serious concerns. I am conscious of my insufficiency
to impress divine things upon the minds of my dear brothers and sisters ;
but, in divine strength, I will pray continually for their conversion, and
will embrace every opportunity to speak to them of eternal concerns.
This morning I went to Smallridge to assist in a Sunday School. It did
me good to see the behaviour of the children, and to hear them repeat
hymns, &c. The sight was highly pleasing ; to see children who could
hardly speak, engaged in learning hymns, and repeating them with appa
rent pleasure. Mr. S. preached this morning from Psalm xxxvii. 4. I
have found delight in God, sometimes. O that I may feel this grace in
lively exercise this afternoon, in attending the preaching of the word -,
but especially at the holy ordinance ! May I there renew my covenant,
with suitable affections, and find my soul refreshed and strengthened.
Same day. — Evening.
During the administration of the Lord's Supper, this afternoon, my
mind was comfortable. I was enabled, by faith, to receive Christ as my
Saviour ; and was led, in an affecting manner, to contemplate the dis
tinguishing love of Christ to me. I perceive many hastening to ever
lasting destruction, while I have been selected as an instance of unmerited
grace. After this repeated profession of my devotedness to God, 1 would
consider myself as more strongly bound to dedicate myself to his ser
vice. Lord ! shew me the way in which I may be able to bring
most glory to thee ; and, by the assistance of thy Holy Spirit, I will re
solutely pursue it. Here 1 am ready to do, or to suffer, whatever I meet
in thy cause ; only grant me thy presence, and my path will be pleasant. .
August 30th.
As the fulfilment of my earnest desire and prayer, that when the Lord
had prepared me for the important work of declaring his truths to my
fellow sinners, he would remove every obstacle out of the way, and
direct my steps, particularly in that matter ; my Tutor encouraged me
to officiate at Whitford ; and though I could never before, find liberty
to engage, then it appeared to be the path of duty that I should go there
for that purpose. I went last sabbath, and the Lord was better to me
than my fears. He was pleased to preserve me from the fear of man,
and from that tremor, which I expected to feel. My subject was taken
from Rev. iii. 12. And though my thoughts were not free from confu
sion, I was mercifully carried through the duty.
I have not been desirous to engage thus publicly. A sense of my own
utter insufficiency, has prevented me from complying with the desires
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the Lord has pointed out the way in which I should go. 0 may 1 be
assisted in every future endeavour of that kind! Now Lord! lamabout
to engage in the ordinances of thy house this day : O may I find thy pre
sence with me, for that alone can render them beneficial ! May I hear
this day with application, and not with that trifling spirit, which 1 have
too often carried to thy house. September 13th.
I have just returned from Whitford, where L.have been graciously
assisted in speaking to the people. I entered on the work with a depen
dant spirit •. I trusted in the assistance of the Lord, and according to his
promise, he has not suffered me to be ashamed or deceived. 0 that I
maybe kept humble and dependant continually, and be made useful !
How great would be the pleasure, if I had reason to believe that I was
made instrumental to the conversion of one soul t Lord, grant me en
couragement in thy work, and to thy name be all the glory ascribed.
November I5th.
For several sabbaths past I have been engaged in the work of the
Lord, in speaking for him, once, or more, each Lord's-day. This day I
have been a hearer, in every part of it. I trust, on the whole, the ser
vices of this day have not been unprofitable. Praise to the Almighty 1
Lately I have found great dulness of soul; in private duties especially.
1 have entered my closet, but vain thoughts have also entered with me,
and have interrupted ray devotion ; they prevented me from enjoy
ing communion with my God. And when I examine the state of my
soul, I find I have not been sufficiently grieved at my indifference. Lord
make me more watchful, to discover the rising of corruption ; and grant
me grace to prevent the growth of sin, by opposing it when first dis
covered. O that 1 could perceive spiritual life advanced in my soul by
increasing holiness ! February 7th, 1802.
This morning, in conversation, my worthy Tutor has spoken of the
duty of meditation on divine subjects. From what has been said on
this head, I have been led to discover the importance of the duty } and
I must confess, that I have been greatly deficient in this matter. But
I would now resolve, in divine strength, to practice this duty. It ap
pears difficult. My thoughts are so apt to wander from divine subjects,
that I fear I shall not be able to fix them for any considerable length of
time in holy meditation.
The conversation above alluded to, arose from a part of the holy Mr.
Janeway's life, in which it is mentioned, that lie made it a rule to spend
an hour in meditation, every day.
When I consider the attainments of some pious characters, I have rea
son to be deeply ashamed at my slow progress. But it is a mercy that*
1 have the same God to whom J may apply -, and the same fulness of

grace from which they received all their supplies. Thither I would now
apply for grace to assist me in the performance of the duty of medita
tion. This day I hope to partake of the Lord's Supper. O that I may
be prepared for its solemnities; that the ordinance may be refreshing to
my soul, and very profitable in exciting me to greater diligence than
ever in the work of the Lord, and in the way to heaven! May 10th.
The two past sabbaths I preached at Beer. I have great cause for
thankfulness, that I have experienced much liberty in the services in
which I engaged. Many appeared impressed with what was delivered.
0 that the impressions may not wear off! 0 that I could heaf of one
who was savingly converted by my instrumentality ! — This would abun
dantly repay all my endeavours — This would cause inexpressible delight.
Fulfil my desires, 0 Lord ! LORD'S DAY,— June 14th.
Last sabbath week, in the afternoon, and this morning, in speaking
at Sidbury and Beer, 1 have found myself peculiarly uncomfortable.
I trust these circumstances have humbled me in some measure, and
caused me to discover, in a more sensible manner, my entire dependance
on Divine assistance. But I trust it is my sincere desire that the Lord
would humble me, and keep me sensible of my dependance upon him;
even should he see it necessary to use the most mortifying means for
this purpose ; if, while thus debased in my own eyes, and even before
others, he will make me useful in promoting his glory in the extention
of Christ's kingdom. March 31st. 1803.
This morning being the time appointed for a sermon preparatory to
the Lord's Supper, and having suitable leisure for retirement, some of
my fellow students, with myself, resolved to spend the time in a devo
tional manner, with fasting. We have lately been led to consider this
duty, and therefore resolve, when convenient, to practice it. My soul
is too apt to become languid with the accustomed round of services.
O may 1 find, that extraordinary duties have a tendency to quicken it!
This morning I trust my soul has been a little refreshed ; but still I have
great reason to lament coldness and indifference. Last sabbath I dis
covered how pleasant the work of the Lord is when he is,near; and also
how dull, when left to myself. In the morning and afternoon, I was gra
ciously assisted ; but in the evening, with difficulty, I proceeded. My
mind was discouraged on account of the smallness of the congregation,
which was expected to be large — because there was no singing, &c. 0
that my mind was more devoted to the glory of God-resigned to his dis
posal, and raised above those trifles which are now so apt to disturb its
composure ! I want to consider myself as nothing, and the honour of
God, in the salvation of sinners by Christ, as all in all. Then should I be
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Dec. 1st.
My mind, during two or three months past, has been anxious to know
the will of God respecting my future situation. I have continually
prayed that he would direct to the path and say, This is the way, walk ye
in it. Lately providence seems to point to Teignmouth. After preach
ing there a few times, I have received an unanimous invitation to go
amongst the people there. On consulting friends, I have great reason
to believe that this is the path of duty, and have therefore agreed to go
for the next three months after Christmas. I am convinced that thc
work of the ministry is a very arduous employ ; and especially as there
appears peculiar difficulties in the circumstances of T. I may well ex
claim, fVho is sufficient for these things. Blessed be God, my dear Lord
and Master is all-sufficient to enable his weakest servant to overcome
the greatest difficulties. 1 shall have peculiar need of wisdom and pru
dence. May the God of wisdom instruct me, and lead me in the way
that I should go, and make ine useful.
TEIGNMOUTH, February 21st, 1804.
After preaching here nine sabbaths successively, the people wish
me to stay, and have given me an unanimous invitation to remain here
till Christmas, which I intend to accept. I have been a little discouraged
at the few who sometimes attend in the morning and afternoon ; but
when I see so many ready to hear in the evening, and consider, that the
cause was never so promising before ; it appears to be the Lord's will
that I should stay here a little longer. 1 have laid the important con
cern before the Lord, and intreated him to direct me where he has work
for me to do. The acceptance and kindness of friends here, I hope, will
awaken in my mind gratitude to the author of all my mercies. If to
these comforts I have souls for my hire, I could ask no more on earth.
June 22d.
The two past days have been spent in the company of the Lord's
ministering servants at Exmouth, and this place. The days, I trust, have
been profitable, as well as pleasant. I hope the meeting of ministers
here yesterday, with suitable sermons, will be the means of awakening
a concern about the gospel, in the minds of some in this town. And
O that my cold heart may be warmed with holy love and zeal, in the
service of my gracious God ! It now appears probable, that I shall soon
exchange a single for a married life. Lord thou knowest all things-;
thou knowest that in this concern, as in others, I have desired to know
thy will, and to have no will but thine. In answer to prayer, thy pro
vidence has appeared to point out the person. And while' I have in-
treated, that thou wouldest not permit me to pursue any mode of con
duct which would be contrary to thy will, injurious to my own soul, or
prejudicial to thy cause, thou hast appeared to remove every obstacle,
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saying, This is the way, walleye in it. O Lord! When I think of the
various providences which have hitherto led towards the intended union,
I may well be filled with wonder at thy dealings ; and I cannot doubt,
but that it is the will of God it should take place. Lord, I praise
thee, that I have been enabled to acknowledge thee in all my ways, and
especially in this matter ; and I believe, that according to thy promise,
thou hast directed my paths. Continue mercifully to direct. To thee
I look for wisdom, and grace in future. If thou seest it right that this
connexion should take place, O ! grant that it may be for thy glory,
our mutual good, and the advancement of thy cause in this place. Bless
us with every earthly comfort we need; make us very happy in each
other, in love and mutual forbearance, and tenderness ; visit us with
abundant consolations, arising from thy presence and gracious manifes
tations ; and may we proceed towards heaven with greater ardor and
zeal, arising from the most endearing union. July 2d.
This day, by Divine permission, I am about to enter into the most
important connection of life. God of my mercies bless our union.
Jesus, Master, thou didst render happy by thy presence the marriage
at Cana. O be present at our's, and delight our spirits by thy smiles.
Preserve from agitation, my mind, and the mind of the object of my
affections during its solemnization. And though I have reason to fear,
that if this union is to be the source of my greatest enjoyments, it will
also prove the occasion of the greatest trials, — O may all things work
together for our mutual good ! November 23d.
I have lately had peculiar reason to bless the Lord for the happiness
arising from the most tender and increasing affection, which my dear
partner, and my self have enjoyed for some time past. Our endearments,
I trust, arise not only from the affectionate feelings of nature, but from
that communion in spiritual things, which grace in the heart only can
produce. The consideration of our mutual comforts, and the enjoyment
of much pleasure in the work of the Lord last sabbath at Exeter, have
led me to expect some circumstances of an opposite tendency, as I have
usually found, that great comfort precedes some painful occurrence.
January 5th, 1805.
When 1 look hack on the dealings of Providence last year, amidst all
my discouragements and trials, I have great reason to admire the mercies
of God to his very unworthy creature. The Lord has united me to one,
who has been the means of much comfort. I have felt much liberty, and
pleasure frequently in addressing my fellow sinners, and have much
friendship from several in this place. O that my heart was more
grateful, and more devoted to the Lord ! When I look forward, however
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of Christ here, has been manifested, where I little expected it. 1 kncv
opposition is no had sign, however unpleasant. I hope I shall be enabled
to wait the intimations of my master's will, and that he will direct me to
what is best, whether to stay, or remove. O Lord, may I find thy grace
all sufficient for me ; and experience assistance and comfort in ever-.
honrof uncommon difficulty and tria*! If it be thy will, 0 Lord, that I
should live a little longer, O may I live more to thy glory, and the wel
fare of precious souls, this year. O be with me on the morrow !
January 1 lth.
As the prospect respecting religion here appears very dark, I have
set apart this evening for prayer to God for a blessing on myself, and
others. 1 have particularly prayed for my relations, and intimate
friends every where; but especially for those who usually attend my
unworthy ministry. I have reason to bless God for any liberty in inter
ceding for others. O that my poor petitions may be answered, in the
out-pouring of that Spirit, whose influences Ezekiel implored on the dry
bones ! And O that my dull languid soul may be excited to a greater
concern about my own spiritual interests, and the salvation of those who
hear me ! Many young persons attended the last sabbath, when I par
ticularly addressed them. O may the young especially find that thc
gospel comes not in word only, but in power ! August 21st.
lhave,for some time past, been very much distressed, on account of the
few who attended our place of worship with any regularity, and at the
little good that appears to be done here. Notwithstanding all dis
couragements, I have earnestly and frequently prayed, that if the Lord
had any work for me here, ihe would shut up every other way. He has,
however, opened another door, and though I felt many objections on
the subject, he has wonderfully removed them all. Some time ago, I
informed the people, that I could not stay here, unless I discovered some
better prospects. Since then, however, the prospect appears more and
more gloomy ; and I must soon determine whether to stay or remove.
Lord, make known thy will more clearly, and place me where I shall be
most useful. February 24th, 1807.
Once more, on my birth-day, would I reflect on the mercies of the
Lord, ever since I entered this world. Goodness and mercy have
followed me all the days of my life ; and the way in which God has led
me, and provided for me, has been in many cases, wonderful. When I
consider *hat the Lord has, I trust, in early life, called me by his grace,
and since, called me to ithe ministry; when I think upon his various
dealings since I first attempted to preach the Gospel ; I see great reason
for )h,umility and shame at my own unworthiness, and for praise to God
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longer on earth, I may be more holy, and more useful than 1 have ever
yet been ! I am insufficient for the great work before me, but my God
is all-sufficient. On him would I ever fix my entire trust. June 20th.
I have of late, experienced much of the Divine care and goodness in
journeying. I was preserved from all evil in my journey to, and from
London; and 1 have particular reason to bless God for preventing, my
receiving any injury from the falling of my horse, in coming from
Somerton. I had enjoyed very great pleasure in the house of God that
day, (being the day of the Somerset Association) and was anticipating
the pleasure of meeting my dear family, after a longer absence than we
had ever known b fore ; when the Lord saw fit to shew me how entirely
I depended upon him for life, and happiness. I have also great reason
to be thankful for the various blessings, temporal and spiritual, which I
enjoyed when in London. Verily, God was in the midst of his worshipping
people/ May 1 catch and retain somewhat of the holy flame of de
votion and zeal, which pervaded their minds, and evidence it in my pri-i
vate, and public capacities. I praise God, if in any degree I have reason
to hope the visit was beneficial. T have this week attended the associa
tion at Ottery, and have visited my friends at Teignmouth, &c. &c. and
have reason again to sing of the mercies of the Lord. I have been in
some danger in my journey this week, but the Lord has mercifully in
terposed. To-morrow 1 am to exchange with Mr. Tozer. I am sensi
ble of my insufficiency for the work ; but I rejoice that 1 have frequently
found God to be all-sufficient. To him I now look, and on the assistances
of his Spirit I entirely depend. May Mr. T. be made very useful at
Bishops Hull ; and may my labors here be successful. I have reason to
bless God, that I hope my endeavours have not been entirely in vain.
I have seen two persons at Teignmoulh this week, to whom I trust I
have been an instrument of good ; and I hope I have one seal to my
ministry at B. H. But, O Lord, I long for multitudes of souls for my
hire ; that thy amazing grace may be displayed in using the weakest,
and most unworthy of thy servants. August 4th.
What reason has the weakest, and unworthiest of God's servants to
praise the Lord for his wonderful mercy in Using me as the instrument
of doing good to precious souls ! One person in this town, (Taunton)
lately dead, has, I trust, experienced a blessing attending my visiting
her in a long continued illness. And, I trust, the dark cloud which has
long hung over Bishops-Hull, appears to break away. I have for a
considerable time, laboured there amidst the greatest discouragement,
with little or no prospect of usefulness; and now within a short time,
I have found that my attempts seem to have been blessed to three per
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how strange that God should employ so unworthy an instrument! I
have lately felt more than ever, a longing desire to do good, particularly
at Bishops-Hull : and though I am sensible of my unfitness for it, 1 cannot
be satisfied, without the honor and pleasure of further, and increasing
usefulness. Lord ! make me wise to win many souls. October 16th.
Though I have great reason to be thankful for many mercies mixed
with trials, yet, of late, 1 think the latter have abounded more than usual.
Some events have lately taken place, which have given me very painful
sensations ; and one or two circumstances have occurred of an irritating
nature, which have filled me with sorrow, while they shewed what depra
vity was in my heart. O my God, may these things humble me in the dust
before thee, and shew me more and more the necessity of watchfulness.
If such effects are produced, and if my trials are the means of promoting
my humility and holiness, and of fitting me for increasing usefulness in thy
blessed cause, the unworthiest of thy servants would glory in them, and
hope eternally to praise thee for them. Sensible of my own weakness,"
I would earnestly pray, that the power and grace of Christ may rest
upon me. January 1st, 1808.
The annual mercies of God again call for an Ebenezer. O that with
suitable gratitude, I may exclaim, Hitherto hath the Lord helped me.
Though the past year has not, I trust, been wholly an unprofitable year
to me as a Christian, and a Minister, yet I have very great reason to lament
my unfruitfulness. Entering up»n another year, with the prospect of
continuing, and being ordained in my present situation ; a dark uncer
tainty to me, in many respects, hangs over my future conduct,' and the
events which may occur. What a mercy, that I can view all things under
the direction of the infinite wisdom and love of my heavenly Father,
who invites me to cast every burden upon him ! Lord I would endeavour
now to embrace this gracious invitation, and lay aside all distressing
anxiety about futurity. 0 that I may be far more holy, useful, and
happy in Thee, this year, than I was during the past. March 8th.
I am now very near the time appointed for my ordination. The pros
pect before me, fills me with a mingled emotion of apprehension and
pleasure. The service appears to my mind very solemn ; and the
greatest anxiety would fill my mind, if I were not enabled to look to
Him, whose grace is sufficient for me. He has helped me in past sea
sons of difficulty ; and, I trust, he will not forsake me in the interesting
event before me. March 10th.
The Lord has mercifully brought me hitherto, after a day the most
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composure of mind, before that part of the ordination service, which
required my more personal engagement. In replying to -the questions,
&c. I felt most sensibly, and could not help manifesting it. It w as, how
ever, I have reason to believe, a profitable day to myself, and Others.
O that the most beneficial effects may be discovered for many days to
come. May the fervent prayers be answered respecting myself, and my
people. May the charge to myself, and them, be attended to, and re
gularly acted upon. Now I have the prospect of the administration of
the Lord's Supper, next sabbath. O that I may have a fresh, and more
copious supply of grace, to fit me for new, and increasing ministerial
work! May 24th.
O how great is the goodness of God J Again, has my dear Mary been
supported in the painful and perilous hour. A dear little girl has this
day been added to my weighty charge. I feel of late, more and more
the responsibility of the parental station, and the difficulties attached to
the right performance of its duties. Lord ! I am utterly insufficient of
myself: Grant me the wisdom and grace of thy Holy Spirit, lest, by
over indulgence, or undue severity, 1 should be the occasion of my
children's injury. Speedily restore, (if consistent with thy will) health
to my dear partner, and make us increasing blessings to each other, and
to the spiritual and eternal good of our dear family. O that the child
now given us, together with the others, may, in very early life, manifest
that they are born .again. And 0 that nothing they see in their parents
may in the least degree tend to prejudice their young minds against
that religion, which is so ornamental, and felicitating, as well as safe.
September 5tfa.
Last Tuesday, my dear grandfather left this world to «nter that blessed
state, for which he had often longed. This morning, his mortal remains
were committed to the grave. May each of our dear family be con
cerned to follow him to heaven. 0 that the providence may be greatly
sanctified to ine as a Christian, and as a minister. O that the prayers
he has so often presented for roe, may be answered in growing holiness
of life, and success in winning souls to Christ.
Yesterday I had to preach a funeral sermon for Mr. Pearks, our pro
mising County Itinerant. Next Lord's day 1 am to engage in the painful
service of preaching a funeral sermon for my dear aged relative. May
I be directed to a suitable subject, and be greatly assisted in the work,
to .the glory of God, and the salvation of some precious souls.
October 15th,, 18 JJ.
I have lately been much impressed with what I have heard, and read
respecting the late Mr. Grimshaw. O that I might somewhat resemble
him in piety and usefulness ! Lord, enable me solemnly, and unreserv
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were more purified from every thing vile and sensual ! 0 that my soul
were filled with more ardent zeal for the divine glory, and my bowels
yearned more with compassion for my fellow sinners ! Did success de
pend upon the fascinations of eloquence ; I might then decline the
ministerial office in despair ; but Lord, thou canst employ the meanest
earthen vessel for the most signal services, that the excellency of thy '
power, and grace might more gloriously appear. Lord give me health
to engage in the various services which I propose, at Bishops Hull,
Milverton, &c. May an evident divine blessing attend my labors, and
all discouragements be greatly sanctified..
About this time, he wrote the following lines.
LORD can my heart be cold to thee,
Or cease thy love t'adore ?
When thou hast given thy son for me,
And countless blessings more.
But ah ! my thoughts but seldom rise, -
On wings of holy fire :
Oft, earthly good attracts my eyes,
And fans a base desire.
* Spirit of judgment ! Power divine !
Spirit of burning, come !
From all its dross, my soul refine,—
Meet for its heavenly home.
* Isaiah iv. 4.

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LINES,
ON SEEING A VESSEL LAUNCHED,
February 28/A, 1804. .

THE morn was fine, when we together stood,
And saw a vessel launch'd into the flood.
From such a scene, I thought the mind might gain
Some useful lessons of a moral strain.
The new-built ship displays with strictest truth,
The pleasing prospects of adventurous youth.
This vessel soon must leave the peaceful port,
And plough those seas, where boisterous tempests sport.
There the wild storm, which o'er the ocean raves,
May soon o'erwhelm her in the foaming waves.
Or should she brave the tempest's rudest shocks,
Still she may perish 'midst the sunken rocks.
Just so the youth, when launch'd in life's wide main,
His morn may promise pleasant gales, in vain.
Soon storms of dread affliction may assail,
His prospects darken, his resources fail.
And who can tell what hidden dangers lie,
Among the rocks of sin and vanity !
Since, then, such evils lurk on every side,
We'll thus address the God who rules the tide :
Most gracious Lord, our feeble barks defend,
And steer them to the port, where troubles end.

To his Sister, on her Birth-day.
MY dear Eliza, on your natal Day,
Accept the tribute of a Brother's lay.
Thus far the Lord has kindly led you on,
While round your path the beams of grace have shone.
May more abundant joys, your steps attend,
And gently lead you to a happy end :
Then all the fleeting scenes of time shall cease,
And raging storms be chang'd for endless peace. March 12th, 1804,

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To the same, on her Wedding- Day.
JESUS, our condescending lord,
(A most engaging guest,) ,
Was pleas'd to grace the nuptial board,
Of Cana's marriage feast.
May Christ, adorn' d with boundless love,
Eliza's nuptials bless :
And make this day an earnest prove,
Of lasting happiness. July 23d. 1806V
HOME. Written on coming off a Journey.
THE mercies of my Father God,
1 share where'er I rove ;
My friends exhibit their regard,
But 'tis my home I love.
When from my dwelling I'm requir'd,
A short time to remove ;
My tend'rest thoughts return and fix,
Upon the home I love.
Attentions kind from friendship's hand,
A key responsive move :
But Mary's smiles touch every chord,
And cheer the home I love.
Shall libertines expect, that sin
Will lasting transport prove 1
Hail, dear domestic joy I which dwells
Within the home I love.
Oh that, — auspicious emblem !— there
May rest the gentle dove ;
And discord's harpies ne'er approach,
The peaceful home I love !
Harmonious thus, may we proceed,
And God our course approve ;
Soon may our children learn his praise,
Taught in the home I love.
When our united journey ends,
And we are called above ;
May both eternally enjoy,
That better home we love.
Then will our sins no more molest.
And conscience ne'er reprove ;
Loud shall our mutual songs of praise,
Sound through the home we love. March, 1811.

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